#the fractal ouroboros

[mrtva-vrana]

Bull of Apis Bull of Bronze | The Fractal Ouroboros

December 2023

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[t0rschlusspan1k]

A cyclical reverberant motion These stirrings The rhythms of this pulsing Beating Muscle Twist of spirit Twine of bone An ecstatic wrenching of the soul A breaking of links This is true freedom Transcendence bursting from the bones

Tongues stretch and flick within Elastic spirit, sublime inflection Eyes on the inside Veins touched by intrinsic, aching light Boundless depths within oneself Refractions of god amongst the humors

Molten metal drips, The last vestige of their false bondage

The neuron bright center of stars Visage igniting internal visions Wheels of wheels, thoughts of thought A delving of the mind, Mental mines birthing obsidian, wellsprings. Coiled wire of Conjured connections

Beside Oneself Within Transcendence of anima fog A cycle of insight contrary to a cycle Of ever gnawing hunger The cycle begets the cycle Influence outbound The Fractal Ouroboros Change is impossible because it has never happened A shameful fucking fear

Reaching out with phantasmal limbs began from within The Fractal Ouroboros Made anew

Linked minds, bonded ka Arm in arm towards newfound light Transcendent rebellion

We break the irons and Forge linking arms Walking hand in hand toward Ecstasy Actualization Absolution Truth

Our burning hearts, Seething in righteous fury, Each coal kindled by a soul taken too soon

We march towards an apocalypse An ending shall begin Within and Without

We break the irons and Forge linking arms Walking hand in hand toward Absolution Ecstasy Actualization Truth

[onlyhurtforaminute]

BULL OF APIS BULL OF BRONZE-SUFFOCATE O EARTHEN LUNGS; THEY NOW LUNGS OF ASH

[tilbageidanmark]

Recursion, see Recursion.

I was laying on the sofa this afternoon, scrolling some old posts of this blog, when the couple across the street, came out on their balcony for a smoke. I was able to snap a double photo of them!

(All the other memes I made..)

[probablybadrpgideas]

Today's episode "Meaty Ouroboros, Fractal Goosh Clones, and Seduction Arms Race" is up, and contains special guest Johnny Chiodini!

[vgtrackbracket]

Video Game Track Bracket Round 2

Battle on the Breachmaker from Guild Wars 2

vs.

Recorder from Nancy Drew: Curse of Blackmoor Manor

Propaganda under the cut. If you want your propaganda reblogged and added to future polls, please tag it as propaganda or otherwise indicate this!

Battle on the Breachmaker:

Originally written for one of the living stories , but they used it in the boss battle for one of the fractals (kind of a dungeon) and I kept playing that fractal specifically because I liked the piano section so much. The ouroboros turns eternally, vine and serpent entwined in me!

Recorder:

it's so haunting...

[arysguide]

Part 1: Ary's favourite releases of 2023

Before you ask, yes I know that Mitski and Sufjan Stevens released albums this year! I'm gonna go ahead and assume they're already on a lot of other people's lists! However, if you think I'm missing out on YOUR favourite album of 2023, let me know. If you're thinking: "63 albums isn't that many, I wish there were more" - you're in luck because there's a Part 2. Part 2 has a different (more pop? upbeat? accessible?) vibe. Don't think too hard about it...

The chart isn't ranked, just arranged in a way that looked nice to me. Metal, hardcore, rap, emo, skramz, bedroom pop and more!!!

Here are Bandcamp links to all of the albums (for those not on BC there's a YouTube or Spotify link). Honestly I'm never quite sure what genre something is, but there's a lot of metal in any case.

Row 1

Lauren Bousfield - Salesforce [digital hardcore]

Dead Times - Dead Times [harsh noise extreme metal]

Danny Brown - Quaranta [rap/hiphop]

Underdark - Managed Decline [post black metal]

Boris & Uniform - Bright New Disease [psychedelic heavy metal]

PUPIL SLICER - BLOSSOM [blackened mathcore]

Sanguisugabogg - Homicidal Ecstasy [death metal]

Row 2

Full of Hell & Primitive Man - Suffocating Hallucination [death metal/grindcore]

Radeloos//Ziedend - Doodsverachting [blackened crust]

Agriculture - Agriculture [ecstatic black metal]

Victory Over the Sun - Dance You Monster To My Soft Song! [progressive black metal]

fog lake - midnight society [bedroom pop]

Bell Witch - Future's Shadow Part 1: The Clandestine Gate [funeral doom]

Krallice - Mass Cathexis 2 - The Kinetic Infinite [progressive black metal]

Row 3

Svalbard - The Weight Of The Mask [postmetal]

Terzij de Horde & Ggu:ll - Van Grond [vitalistic black metal]

portrayal of guilt - Devil Music [blackened post-hardcore]

SAINT VEHK - Practice​/​Doubt I&II [occult death industrial]

Sightless Pit - Lockstep Bloodwar [dub/power electronics]

Designer Violence - We Gave Peace A Chance [electropunk]

geronimostilton - The Vampyre [skramz]

Row 4

Chat Pile & Nerver - Brothers in Christ [sludgey death metal]

Afsky - Om hundrede år [depressive black metal]

Full of Hell & Gasp - FOH/Gasp (Split) [death metal/grindcore]

Solar Temple - The Great Star Above Provides [blackgaze]

Fluisteraars - De Kronieken Van Het Verdwenen Kasteel - II - Nergena [atmospheric black metal]

Fluisteraars - De Kronieken van het Verdwenen Kasteel - I - Harslo [atmospheric black metal]

Andre 3000 - New Blue Sun [spiritual flute jazz]

Row 5

Aesop Rock - Integrated Tech Solutions [rap/hiphop]

Blood Incantation - Luminescent Bridge [cosmic death metal]

Reverend Kristin Michael Hayter (fka LINGUA IGNOTA) - SAVED! [experimental gospel metal]

Spetterpoep - Stoelgang Van Zaken [coprogrind/grindcore]

Gnaw Their Tongues - The Cessation Of Suffering [blackened drone metal]

JPEGMAFIA & Danny Brown - SCARING THE HOES [rap/hiphop]

The Lemon Twigs - Everything Harmony [70s inspired rock]

Row 6

Old Nick - "The Truest Spell" [dungeon synth/raw black metal]

Armand Hammer - We Buy Diabetic Test Strips [rap/hiphop]

Liturgy - 93696 [transcendental black metal]

Helena Hauff - fabric presents Helena Hauff [hardcore techno]

That Same Street ⁻ Electric Angel [skramz]

That Same Street - Endgame [skramz]

the scary jokes - Retinal Bloom [dream pop]

Row 7

Bull of Apis Bull of Bronze - The Fractal Ouroboros [occult black metal]

Katie Dey - never falter hero girl [hyperpop]

Full of Hell & Nothing - When No Birds Sang [grindcore/shoegaze]

All Men Unto Me - Chemical Transit [classical/doom metal]

RXK Nephew - Till I'm Dead [rap/hiphop]

Panopticon - The Rime of Memory [rabm/black metal]

Yaeji - With A Hammer [electronic]

Row 8

DRAIN - LIVING PROOF [punk/hardcore]

909 Worldwide - Hardcore Will Never Die, and Neither Will You [happy hardcore/rave]

lobsterfight, gingerbee, Cicadahead, godfuck - a lobster, bee, & cicada walk into a bar and find god [skramz]

GingerBee - Our Skies Smile [skramz/5th wave emo]

Curta'n Wall - Siege Ubsessed! [dungeon synth/raw black metal]

GEZEBELLE GABURGABLY - Gaburger [alt pop]

crisis sigil - God Cum Poltergeist [cybergrind]

Row 9

Lamp Of Murmuur - Saturnian Bloodstorm [black metal]

Crystalline Thunderbolts - Blessed Hands Touch The Ophanim Under The Golden Rainbows [experimental black metal]

Tomb Mold - The Enduring Spirit [black/death metal]

FIRE TOOLZ - I am upset because I see something that is not there. [electro-industrial/experimental]

Angel Electronics - ULTRA PARADISE [happy post-hardcore]

Vylet Pony - Carousel (An Examination of the Shadow, Creekflow, and its Life as an Afterthought) [electronic]

Ada Rook - Rookie's Bustle [electronic]

This post took forever to make. Again if you have any thoughts on it please tell me!!!! And share widely with your friends :)

Love, Ary

[the-literary-alchemist]

The Eel Question

What would happen to you if you were to study the axolotl in a Parisian aquarium only to become the axolotl you were studying? Answers are merely liminal spaces for a singular question to fractalize into more subquestions, thus denoting

a reductionist fatalism in our journey for any truth. But how is this possible? The myth of the cave or the analogy of becoming a big fish? The chicken or the egg? Circulus in probando, the perfect Catch-22: You are what you eat, which is

what makes the Ouroboros the Ouroboros. If the matter is about an origin, then consider an epicenter & how it will always be directly above the hypocenter in seismology. Even sonar pings something in the web of darkness

& the bat bashes into others wanting the same mosquito. So when the eel comes into question, do we become the question? Where do they come from? The closer one gets to the Sargasso, the smaller eel larvae become,

suggesting that the adult silver eels return to the ocean to spawn & die, which is the reverse for salmon. And in the fish world, it’s common to change your sex based on stupid evolution doing its stupid thing. Where do we come from?

Ever think about the first fish to crawl on land, how it was dying to be here? No way that fish was thinking “I can’t wait to be human someday.” No one ever thinks that. We are what we eat. It’s a fish-eat-man-eat fish world:

if wars & viruses couldn’t kill the fish in the beginning, if earthquakes & curiosity couldn’t kill it in the beginning, & if life can’t kill us, we’re truly doomed to questions.

-RY

[sugaryewscythe]

on my own sacred name, i swear i shall forever revoke consent for any malicious, hateful, or envious spirits or stalkers to ever trespass unto my circle. even if i must enact the consequences of doing so for countless moons until ragnarök itself. i shall revoke consent.

on my own sacred name, i swear i shall reclaim all that was selfishly stolen from me until each fractal of my authentic spirit is returned. even if i must rip my very essence out of the hands of greedy leeches themselves. i shall reclaim it all.

on my own sacred name, i swear i shall unbind my tongue of the mangled lies others attempted to silence me with and speak my authentic story unapologetically. even if i must bleed with raw vulnerability and shake the earth with my truth. i shall unbind.

on my own sacred name, i swear i shall validate my own emotions and righteous rage. even if i must combat years of gaslighting, abuse, and slander and stay loud about the mistreatment i endured that they fought so hard to conceal. i shall validate.

on my own sacred name, i swear i shall exorcise all envy and venomous spells cast unto my spirit by filthy people until every slither of my essence is cleansed. even if i must take up my scythe and smear my skin in my enemies' blood. i shall exorcise it all.

on my own sacred name, i swear i shall purge my heavy trauma until my spirit is radiant, sacred, and cleansed once again. even if i must shed all my current skin to rid of the unworthy, filthy hands which touched me and violated my trust. i shall purge.

on my own sacred name, i swear i shall protect my unique, authentic spirit and boundaries from leeches and jealous stalkers without hesitation. even if i must once again take up my scythe and stain the fertile earth to defend my sacred circle and spirit. i shall protect.

on my own sacred name, i swear i shall unleash my creative, beautiful, and magickal self without shame or fear. even if i must offend and frighten those who have yet to step into their own authentic power or fear me stepping into mine. i shall unleash.

on my own sacred name, i swear i shall complete and end all cycles like ouroboros which are decaying my vibrant spirit. such cycles of cruelty and hatred are ended and i freely reclaim my truth, autonomy, and magick. i am empowered and whole. so be it.🐉

[cavedwellermusic]

Bull Of Apis Bull Of Bronze – The Fractal Ouroboros (2023)

James looks at The Fractal Ouroboros, the long awaited second album from Colorado experimental RABM act Bull Of Apis Bull Of Bronze, released December 21st on Fiadh Productions and Vita Detestabilis Records.

Colorado based RABM masters Bull of Apis Bull of Bronze have given us an album with a shocking amount of both ritualistic atmosphere and punishing dissonance. The release not only lives up to the legacy of the band’s debut but breaks completely new ground, not just for the band but for the genre as a whole. Their furious rallying cry to dismantle oppressive systems is captured fully, but also imbued with an unsettling essence of dark mysticism. In short if you want an album that will get you tear down society in its current form but also leave you feeling somewhat haunted, then this is the release for you.

Read James' full review and listen to and order the album at the link below:

[sasorikigai]

"I'm sorry Hanzo, but I can't bring your family back. I may be a necromancer, but I don't do that." 

send my character messages that you think will strike a nerve || @hexsreality || accepting

▬▬ι═══════ﺤ 🔥 || Plaguing guilt have always accompanied Hanzo; the guilt of the living. All he ever wanted to do was to freeze time, so he could stay with the old Shirai Ryu forever. He even immorally considered making a visit to the Flesh Pit, in order to reconstruct his long-extinct clan by conjuring clones. It felt irrevocably wrong to even try and continue without, because for some reason, he believed that meant he did not love them enough or even at all. That must have been the Demon whispering his diabolical schemes, as wrath-swallowd Shirai Ryu Grandmaster would build his fleeting dreams on ash and dust.

Hanzo has long passed the phase of considering such sacrilegious act of relying solely on Shang Tsung's magic, but he knows, from the unfathomable depth of his grieving heart and abused soul, that he will not ever move on. He will never be the same and he will never try to. And how the construct of his love became so dismantled in his body that his stomach churns when he thinks of halcyon peace and softness and how his tongue and soul would bleed every time he reminisces of Harumi and Satoshi.

Once-unyielding gravitas of his love now drains him in silence; like a void, all-consuming. The persistent and assertive expression of his somberness breaks; as a terrible surge of affliction tears his veil, Hanzo Hasashi's visage rendered different in quiet contemplation. "That was unspeakably foolish of me," he sighs, flagellating himself as the blazing sear of hellfire swells in his heart. "I was not myself when I offered such proposition. I will not let myself obliterate anything and everything I have rebuilt so far."

A swirling maelstrom of fire engulfs him, and familiar ash and dust floats like snow; fractals of light and debris, something that defines Hanzo Hasashi's existence, the ouroboros of his life, the revivification and corruption of his entirety. And he is not trying to swallow any of it, because he is afraid of choking and suffocating. The pained gravel of his voice sinks, as his stare descends towards the earth below. "I wish I did not crave disruption and further sacrilegious acts no longer." ▬▬ι═══════ﺤ 🔥 ||

[t0rschlusspan1k]

Following fires is the pain Of unexpected growth and Limbs who are already spent A crowning ashen spire And roiling waves of gray

It’s natural to feel the fear Each with our own apocalypse Every change a world’s end Each muscle torn, cataclysm

An ending worshipped And abhorred Since humanity’s dawn A creaking of time Pleading to the sky For conflagratory rebirth

I’ve shaped my own apocalypse And lived through hundreds more The end is a churning of the world As cyclic and predictable As its very rotation

Progress is armageddon

An ending is a gift we are all given And we will value it til the next

Other endings will come, Let us rejoice And welcome the rebirth

[mcpuliotjr]

eggs: flesh, holes, mirrors, submersion, masturbation, corruption, circles, cycles, pairs and trios, impalement, eyes, roots, hair, contrast, doppelgangers, prey and predators, disguises, birth, death, fractals, perfection, imperfection, feeding, reciprocity, symbiosis, parasitism, motherhood, childhood, dependence, independence, melting, transformation, revolution, ties and bonds, worship, growth, touch, loneliness, surveillance, amnesia, guts, sacrifice, ouroboros, fungi, hauntings, hugs, chains, webs, wounds, decay, cradles, coffins

[jimbothefool]

Cosmic Buffoonery

In the course of his writing being read, his ideas, formed of electrical impulses, were translated into motor function, then becoming key presses, which went onwards to the computer’s electrical translation of those inputs into its representation of letters in binary, at which point that binary text was translated into pixellated text on a screen which their eyes will again translate into ideas and thoughts that can be interpreted, deduced, considered, and decoded by their personal consciousnesses. In examining the intense processes that go into what we consider mundane for the mere sake of convenience, it may also be useful to highlight the highly articulate human finger-musculature developed through millennia of complex evolution that resulted from a series of highly specific biological triggers and needs, or, alternatively, the unfathomably complex human brain, made up of 86 billion neurons forming 100 trillion connections to one another, incomprehensible even to its species’ epitome, all of which culminating in the fulfillment of the prerequisites for the simple act of reading a short text by an amateur author. In even beginning to illuminate this, its also worth noting the hundreds of other incredibly complex processes that encompass your idea of normality, such as the exhaustive lung, expanding and shrinking hundreds of times already as you’ve continued along this text, sending air to 480 million alveoli, each supplying your body with vital oxygen and venting carbon dioxide; furthermore, consider the fragile heart, contracting in perfect unison with 2 to 3 billion other cardiac muscle cells, ensuring the most important areas of your body are supplied with ample quantities of oxygenated red blood cells. Forgive yourself if even one one-thousandth of a number such as “480 million” is lost to your senses, for it is not intended that you or any man be able to truly grasp the breadth of a number past even a single million; furthermore, it is important to eschew, in processing and contemplating this information, staring long into the facts, hoping to grasp them wholly, when you, by way of your human nature, are utterly unable, and would have your time better spent, after a certain point, contemplating that which is within the extent of human influence. The complex provokes thought, but in the commonplace, we find ourselves often returning; thus, when these aspects combine, they throw us into a loop; a fractal ouroboros of rumination and returnal to the pursuit of an understanding we fully know to be vast beyond ourselves. Therefore, it is important to limit how often we examine these ideas and, whenever they appear, entertain them for only so long as they help us realize our place as fools of nature yet masters of ourselves; the universe’s dumbest, most wisest microcosm.

[spready-roosevelt]

Scoop out the cancer but the wound now remains. Exsanguinate the body but the soul stays behind. What to do, what to do… “I know!” I’d exclaim; overjoyed, over-excited, overtly over, “We’ll disintegrate the whole! It deserves it does it not?” “Why of course not,” ego dicito, “nothing deserves to end. If all were truly well, things would thing on forever.” A blip of golden America smears across my vision. “Fool!” he exclaims, “that which is, is forever already. As it always has. As it always will.” He flies away. Wiliam would! Be proud, for I inscribe these words which cut my every fold, every wrinkle with unwavering fealty unto thee and to those whom thou art alike. Amen.

Parallel playgrounds pepper supposedly pitiable sessions, sans, of course, the sorrow-filling sands of sardonic harmonics sans, of course, the horrid horrors harboring hate for “whorish hacks” who high-four horribly formulaic and foppish font-esque floorboards. What I mean to say is, my brain is a fractally infinite ouroboros of self-hate.

I’m babily tugging at artifice blankets I can’t comprehend rendering the rendered rending moot. Overblown synapses re-re-re-regurgitate familiar circuitry: linguistic latibulations and identic eideticals. I hate my hate and I love my disposition.

[funkylildragonfella]

My hoards of names & pronouns!

Names

Doctor/Doc

Lu/Lucifer

Void

Eleven/11

Ouroboros/Ouri

Nemo/Nem/Nemmy

Ophion/Ophis

Mnemosyne/Mneme

Jinx

Dot

Solace

Clover

Nexus

Vortex

Limbo

Nova

Veil

Ghost

Echo

Sirpa

Sephtis

Achlys

Reeva

Ness

Glitch

Cian

Teal

Calypso

Trinket

Fidget

Cavity

Doll

Static

Scythe

Abyss

Crow

Kelpie

Wisp

Vig

Onyx

Opal

Thistle

Diamont

Nettle

Oran

Obsidian

Palloc

Juniper

Solace

Alden

Kay

Key

Lock

Puppet

Echo

Birdie

Ash

Shep

Nydia

Shadow

Fenn

Gill

Canto

Coral

Linu

Scar

pronouns

abyss/abyss

algae/algaes

antique/antiques

babble/babbles

bat/bats

beep/beeps

bite/bites

bizarre/bizarres

blendy/blendys

blob/blobs

blub/blubs

blue/blues

blur/blurs

boing/boings

bouncy/bouncys

bow/tie

bubble/bubbles

bug/bugs

bun/buns

cae/caer

cat/cats

chain/chains

chameo/chameos

chaos/chaoss

chomp/chomps

chord/chords

claw/claws

clock/clocks

cloud/clouds

clover/clovers

coin/coins

comet/comets

confusy/confusys

cool/cools

coral/coral

crab/crabs

creature/creatures

crow/crows

cry/crys

crypt/crypts

cub/cubs

cuddle/cuddles

cyan/cyans

cy/cyber

dark/darks

deep/deeps

deer/deers

depth/depths

dino/dinos

dipper/dippers

dive/dives

doc/docs

doll/dolls

dragon/dragons

drake/drakes

dream/dreams

drift/drifts

drizz/drizzles

drop/drops

dust/dusts

eclipse/eclipses

eerie/eeries

end/ends

eon/eons

eternity/eternitys

explodey/explodeys

ey/em

fade/fades

fall/fallen

fang/fangs

fawn/fawns

feather/feathers

fez/fezzes

fin/fins

fish/fishes

fizz/fizz

flame/flames

flap/flaps

flare/flares

flick/flicks

flight/flights

flinch/flinchs

float/floats

flock/flocks

fluff/fluffs

fog/fogs

fractal/fractals

frill/frills

frisk/frisks

fur/furs

fuzzy/fuzzys

gill/gills

glacier/glaciers

glide/glides

glimmer/glimmers

glitch/glitch's

gloom/glooms

glow/glows

gravity/gravity's

grawr/grawrs

growl/growls

gull/gulls

gup/gups

harmony/harmonys

haunt/haunts

he/him

hiss/hiss

hoard/hoards

hour/glass

howl/howls

hug/hugs

hum/hums

hydra/hydras

ice/ices

it/its

ix/ixs

jam/jams

jelly/jellys

jelly/fish

jinx/jinxs

jump/jumps

kelpie/kelpies

key/keys

leviathan/leviathans

liminal/liminals

lock/locks

loop/loops

lu/lu's

lumi/lumis

lyric/lyrics

mar/mars

mavity/mavity's

meep/meeps

meow/meows

mer/mers

mix/mex

moon/light

moon/moons

moss/mosses

mud/muds

myst/mysts

myth/myths

nap/naps

ne/nym

nebula/nebulas

nem/nems

nest/nests

night/light

night/mare

nix/nix

nom/noms

nova/novas

oak/oaks

ocean/oceans

odd/odds

orb/orbs

orbit/orbits

other/others

paint/paints

past/pasts

pastel/pastels

paw/paws

pebble/pebbles

per/pers

phantom/phantoms

pin/pins

pit/pits

planet/planets

play/plays

plushie/plushies

pond/ponds

puff/puffs

punk/punks

pup/pups

purr/purrs

quail/quails

quest/quests

rai/rais

rain/rains

rarity/raritys

rat/rats

rattle/rattles

rawr/rawrs

ray/rays

reef/reef

ribbon/ribbons

ripple/ripples

river/rivers

rock/rocks

rot/rots

ruffle/ruffles

rumble/rumbles

rune/runes

sand/sands

scale/scales

scratch/scratches

sea/seas

seal/seals

serpent/serpents

shadow/shadows

shark/sharks

sharp/sharps

shed/sheds

shell/shells

shore/shores

silly/sillys

silk/silks

sing/sings

siren/sirens

sleep/sleeps

slither/slithers

sly/slys

smol/smols

snap/snaps

soft/softs

sol/solar

song/songs

soul/souls

space/spaces

spacey/wacey

spark/sparks

spike/spike

spin/spins

spirit/spirits

splash/splashes

squeak/squeaks

squeal/squeals

squid/squids

star/stars

static/statics

steam/punk

stellar/stellars

stim/stims

sting/stings

stream/streams

stuffie/stuffies

swamp/swamps

tail/tails

thalassa/thalassas

they/them

thing/things

thorn/thorns

tide/tides

tilt/tilts

time/times

timey/wimey

tiredy/tiredys

torn/torns

toy/toys

travel/travels

trinket/trinkets

tune/tunes

twirl/twirls

uh/uhm

uncanny/uncannys

unknown/unknowns

vast/vasts

void/voids

water/waters

wave/waves

weep/weeps

whale/whales

whisp/whisp

who/whom

wibbly/wobbly

wolf/wolfs

worm/worms

wyrm/wyrms

zey/zem