#the fear of it being ooc lmao

[mstormcloud]

If I knew how to write I would write about Amy and the fear that even if your friends say they forgive you for their mistakes they may actually still be bothered by it. And the simultaneous fear of accidnetly hurting a friend again and the want to avoid / ran away to avoid hurting them VS the fear that they wouldn’t care enough about you to ever reach out again so you Need to be the one to reach out or you’ll just be alone.

Also how Sonic is who connects her to the rest of her friends other than maybe Cream and Big. How if her and Sonic stopped being friends she’d likely lose all her other friendships too since people would choose Sonic over her (in her eyes.)

(Side note I think that’s also one aspect of why Metamy is interesting to me. Metal would choose Amy over Sonic. Metal Hates Sonic. Metal could be one of the only people Amy would trust to still spend time with her if Sonic stopped liking her.)

I think Amy can be afraid of being left behind and sensitive to rejection and also have way too much trouble trusting that her friends Actually like spending time with her.

[scyllaenjoyer]

My cancellable Epic opinion is that I hate the ending of God Games because it makes no sense whatsoever for Zeus to do All That

[mercysought]

Like this for plotting and a 2ish para starter from what we discuss ✨

[byanyan]

oh the repeated sensory hell of bleaching and dying your hair at home vs the sheer desperate determination of a guy who needs a fun change to make life feel worth living

[xbadnews]

i have been sort of at war with myself about how tlovm is going to affect how i write percy & in short... i don't think it is going to change much. i really, really, really love the way season 3 went but i think i am going to stick to a mostly campaign-centered portrayal. i'll cherry pick what i like from the show but ultimately i think i like how things were handled in campaign a little more.

[ladyseidr]

okay! finally making this an official post: if you want my "new" discord, please either A. like this post, or B. DM me. either way, i'll DM you the name. it's not some secret or anything ( it's identical to my personal blog's url lmao ) but y'know. just not posting publicly this time

[armatization]

Don't ever let me get comfortable sharing thoughts and ideas with you else you'll wake up to a wall of text about my thoughts and ideas for 0 reason other than I Can

[ahollowgrave]

I think this year I want to focus on getting back into RP but also just writing in general. FFXIV Write was such a challenge this year and I really think it's because I wasn't really writing before then! There was no training. No practice. Of course it felt like I pulled muscles.

[bravevolunteer]

i feel like it’s time for my regular reminder that michael is afraid of bees

[gctchella]

If Viv for some reason actually makes Lilith a villain/bad mom, I am ignoring it.

[leondxs]

Leondas curling up in his cell as much as he possibly can, trying desperately to hide from his captors despite being fully vulnerable. His fear overwhelming him until he breaks out into sobs, begging them not to hurt him again. Strangely enough, behaving more human than he ever has in his moment of raw terror.

[spring-lxcked]

you know what i've never written but would love: ppl seeing through his act, recognizing his shitty treatment of michael, and calling him out on it

[revengesworn]

so i know i asked you all if i should post about the ending but in the end I COULDN'T HELP MYSELF, I'M SORRY, tr ending discussion under the cut

as a summary of my previous thoughts on the ending... my number one problem with it has always been the lack of an explanation for how mikey/takemichi managed to leap back in time together. to me, this makes it seem like they just got lucky that the leap worked at all, which ruins the theme of "you shouldn't take on your burdens alone/rely on your friends a little."

the reason it ruins it is because it comes across as like... mikey was right to push everyone away, because when he finally gave into his impulses and trusted takemichi like he told him to, he LITERALLY KILLED TAKEMICHI. and it was seemingly just luck that they both managed to go back??

i have, however, had thoughts since then which make the ending work a bit more for me personally. mostly, that the reason the curse was broken/they were able to go back was still ultimately a direct result of mikey deciding to trust takemichi/breaking the mindset of "i have to take everything on alone." specifically, in part because he trusted takemichi to save him and "gave into" the dark impulses, but mostly because in the moment takemichi was dying, he begged him to come back. basically he was asking takemichi for help; asking him to prove his beliefs right - that mikey should and can rely on others, and that it's okay to do so. basically i'm trying to help the ending to make thematic sense (to me), is the idea.

now... that's interpretation of the final leap is kind of a stretch. and not really stated or implied in canon, unfortunately. BUT i do think there's some symbolism to support it, like the heavy emphasis placed on mikey's tears that are implied to play a reason in why the leap worked (at least that's what it looked like to me??). mikey has been set up as a character who believes that crying is weakness, so seeing him openly cry represents the shedding of that belief/being willing to ask for help.

but anyway i've said all this before, so what are my new thoughts? well, not much tbh WHOOPS but in the past, i interpreted the dark impulses as being a result of not the curse on shinichiro/karma directly - the punishment for THAT was shinichiro's death at kazutora's hands. instead, mikey's DI are more a circumstantial result of him having been dead in the previous timeline.

and also in the past, i said that the DI appear due to his desire to not rely on others, and are therefore broken when he admits he needs help. i still hold to that, but now i also really like the idea of like... they also come about as a result of him believing he doesn't deserve to be saved, & that he can't be saved?? and therefore it's not just him admitting he needs help that breaks the curse - but also him admitting that he wants to be saved at all. maybe even coming to believe that he deserves it, or at least that he wants a future with everyone.

after all, he DID technically manage to save everyone (but himself) in the bonten timeline. it's not just that he needs help because he can't save everyone by himself. it's also that he needs help so that he can save himself, too, and that he deserves to be a part of that happy future he created for everyone as well.

does that... make sense?? at all?? lmao i feel like it's a meaningful distinction a bit, but idk if i phrased it in a way that makes that clear or that is indeed coherent at all. regardless though. those are my ending headcanons. but god i wish wakui implied all this a little more than what we got KSJFHDSKF

[nostomannia]

Rambles from Discord-

Thinking about the thoughts of Sol being deified again.

Kinda like in Madoka Magica and how Madoka becomes a god because of how she's tangled up in so many timelines Sol is in a very similar situation.

Being an Origin soul, Solita is tied to basically any other version of herself in the multiverse already, on top of that, dying and picking up new souls and creating an UP-level balloon cloud of souls doesn't help the situation

Solita still technically being alive makes her an anomaly. An Origin soul existing outside of an Origin world makes her a singularity. She's already technically got the power to rival most other gods, it's just she doesn't have the outlet for that and Deity keeps her at enough of a controlled burn that she doesn't just instantly blow up

I'm thinking about her potential for achieving actual godhood in her Abandoned verse when there's nobody to keep her in check. It's just a route that can go either way. Since Solita's human body can be a bit fragile and may start breaking down and basically killing her from the inside out, all the potential could end up eating her alive.

Maybe that's why she's even alive in her Abandoned verse? Like she unintentionally develops a different form of immortality without Deity there.

Or, do you think it would be better or worse for Deity to make Sol immortal before dumping her off somewhere? Instead of just letting her die, they literally refuse to allow her to so she can find a new life Really leaning into the fact of how far removed Deity really is from the mentality of normal people. And also as a science experiment, given how much Sol already was

Also the idea of maybe Deity became too attached to Sol and therefore couldn't just let her go like that? Instead of what would have been the opposite, Deity wasn't able to show her pity and didn't even give her dignity in death. And it's a bad end because of their attachment, rather than the lack thereof.

I do not make easy situations and questions for Sol ever.

[terrorpenned]

i'm going to (re)write some dossiers later, buuuut the tldr is: I'm leaving V as Liz's biological child behind me, instead this is what Liz hints at to obscure the Truth (V is Betty Hanscombe's, a former lover of Liz's who got institutionalized in immediately post WWII lavender-scare America)

[malusrecord]

((Every day I live with the knowledge that a friend of mine continues to hold the torch that one day, someday, they'll get Ko/rb to sing a song for me.))