#the colors of this flag are very hard to work with lol

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[mmani-e]

I've finally finished my Danganronpa AU personal project! I personally call it

DANGANRONPA: DEMIX

See Demix 1 here

And yeah, all the swaps as you can see above, and these guys in the middle are the replacements for Monokuma and Usami respectively:

Check out under the cut for some design insights on my take AND closer pictures of each pair:

Finally finished my personal AU project. I hope it's to everyone's liking!

I can go on forever about these designs but I'll limit myself to one-two sentences on some facts about the designs.

Mikan: Mikan's face tattoo was commissioned on her against her will so that she can never hide her nature as a Yakuza, but her leg tattoo was done on purpose, and she and Nagito have matching tattoos on their legs, his is just hidden most the time.

Nagito: He is usually seen with a spear and prefers the weapon over the sword, but he is more famous for his natural skill with the blade. That said, he resents the blade and wishes he could be recognized for the things he actually works hard to do, like throwing spears or protecting Mikan and her family.

Ibuki: I kept her design very similar to her base design because she pretty much just looks like a student, and I don't want to change anyone's personality so there's no reason for her to not get highlights. But I gave her some more symmetry in this design and gave her a cute little semi ahoge I guess with a hair tie, bc she doesn't naturally have one.

Imposter/Gamemaster: Yeah I made the big brain choice to keep him with his colors as "Byakuya" because it made for a more striking visual, and more recognizeable as the impostor. Also I made him too tall because I wanted to give him big legs lol.

Hiyoko: Her four cats are named Heart (scraggly cat), Mr. Pearls (sleepy cat), Big Red (Giant cat), and BB (black cat) bc canonically the four dark devas are named after shonen manga, I named her cats after pokemon games, which she canonically likes playing. Also chickens are her favorite animal, despite her love of cats.

Kazuichi: Kazuichi's not a natural born prince, through shenanigans it turns out he's extremely distantly related to some royal line in a microstate north of germany called "Nordsumpf." Their main exports are cars and Kazuichi is still new to being a prince.

"Kyoko": She'd try her best to act like Kyoko, but she's a little too meek and openy affectionate to pull it off properly. Also her knockers are way bigger than Kyoko's, so there's an immediate discrepancy to the trained eye.

Also in my au of DR1, Kyoko is the ultimate affluent progeny and Makoto is author/serial killer.

Hajime: His hair is actually extremely long back there, he just keeps it tied up. On shows he lets it all out and a wears red contacts, his stage name is "Izuru."

Sonia: Sonia became a team manager because she was escaping an assasination attempt, strolled into a junior laegue soccer game, took over for the coach and started just barking orders and the team won. They were the worst team in the whole league and after that she just sorta stuck around them and won them the championships.

Gundham: Gundham was orginally meant to wear the japanese flag… but there was too much white in his design so I cut it. He has names for all of his gymnast moves and he announces them very loudly when he does any of them.

Peko: I tried to give Peko a unique sort of "zombie survivor" kinda vibe so while she's clearly a mechanic first she can also just fucking kill you by braining you with that monkey wrench. Most of the time she's cool though, she's just like horribly dependent on other people to tell her what to do, so she attaches to Kazuichi because he's the most immediately available authority figure.

Fuyuhiko: He's got that sort of machismo that makes him not like to admit he loves dancing, but the moment he's complimented on it he'll really appreciate it. Also he's still part of a crime family, but it's just not as strong as Mikan's.

Akane: She really looks sporty still, but don't worry she's definitely "lucky," she's just much more focused on the future than her bad luck in the moment… which can be very bad, actually, and can make her come across as kind of aloof.

Nekomaru: Why is nurse Nekomaru not as common a thing. Just think about it, it's perfect. Nekomaru here got inspired by the bravery and hard work of the nurses that treated him and boom he became a nurse, nobody tougher than healthcare professionals after all.

Mahiru: Mahiru as a nurse is honestly a really really really fun concept but I feel like I wasn't very ambitious here, and I can't really show it through the drawing but one of my early drafts had her look more like a european chef a la gordon ramsey bc I headcanon her as a scot.

Teruteru: Decided to give him a raincoat which my sister pointed out to me could also be a trenchcoat, which is just PERFECT for a creep like him. It just writes itself man, though seriously he's mostly a landscape photographer who specializes in pics of the countryside. Still a huge perv tho.

Usowa: Name is a combo of Usagi and Chowa, the word for Harmony. She's less like a chaotic force of nature like Monokuma and more a manipulative and hardline teacher who coaxes the students into doing awful things by playing into their insecuritoies with motives, and which then causes them to kill, allowing her to punish them, "weeding out the weak and undisciplined among their ranks." She replaces Monokuma.

Kyojuma: Name is a combo of Kyoju (professor) and Kuma. He's a pretty silly guy with an easy temper to poke at, but he's good at heart and tries his best to be a more sort of "fun" teacher than the rules lawyer Usami kinda was. He just wants to help his students, too bad Usowa showed up and decidedly does NOT like his approach.

[taylor-titmouse]

Meatheads, by R/L Monroe

it's another month gone by, which means another cover for another @petitemortality R/L Monroe book! this one goes hard and sweaty and meaty, and the worldbuilding is both really funny and really fascinating in the little glimpse of it we get. and also there's three huge fuckin dudes going to town on each other. check it out, and follow along on the process for designing the cover below!

FYF 3: Meatheads $3

Trapped by a lethal boiling sun, in the neon ruins of a fallen supercity, three tank-grown ultrasoldiers have nothing to kill but time and no enemy but their own overheated flesh. Daily hormone shots gave them hard bodies, but without a seedsucker to offer them relief, they soon have something even harder to contend with. It's not gay if you come out on top...right? Almost 7k words(!), EPUB and PDF format. Content: -M/M/M -straight turned gay -testosterone dosing -cum harvesting/drinking -dominance struggle -sexual hazing -rough sex

THUMBNAILS

i lost track of the initial notes for these, but the first two were really just me spinning my wheels. my instinct was something with greek wrestling, stylized like pottery. we usually do the covers early in the month, so i hadn't read the finished book yet and didn't have a clear sense of the aesthetic yet. i did know there were three guys, which made composition tough. fighting is not, typically, a three-man's game. lee suggested looking at WWE and rugby

which led me to looking at turkish oil wrestling, because truly, what is greasier than that. originally there was a reference image of turkish oil wrestling here, but tumblr hated it so much that they flagged the post and denied appeal. those men were wearing pants. this post is free to read on patreon so you can see the greasy boys there.

moving on.

AH SHIT THAT'S TOO SCARY

so while we were talking about the color palette, lee brought up 80s splatterfest VHS cover design. we agreed on violent red and purple, but the topic of horror led me in a horror direction. gritty lines, harsh light and shadow, scary imagery with the single red eye, etc. and we agreed this look is Sick and Rules, but wasn't quite right for neon future climatepunk.

so i went back to the drawing board and totally got rid of the hatching. we're looking for neon, for black velvet, for graphic

definitely closer to the final product! though of course as soon as i saw it in discord i realized the purple on the middle guy's back and the third guy's leg were competing too much with the top guy's back and making it hard to know where to look. so: more variants

adding the paint strokes down was just something i wanted to try at the last minute, and it was definitely the right move! there were like five more variations of just That with the gradient map very very slightly adjusted, but honestly it's not worth posting all of those lol. the version we settled with was the best one!

and that's the process for this month's fuck yourself friday cover! this is both my favorite cover so far AND my favorite story. i love high concept worldbuilding that serves the fucking. if you're here and supporting my work, i bet you do too! so go read it! it's only $3 dude!!

[mxriviera]

Tier 4 of the Dummybots/ Dummy Cogs! We have Weekend Warrior and Associate Specialist: Socializer

based on equipment and co-workers who would rather gossip than actually work! they're also. girl bosses. more stuff about design choices and name choices under the cut!

Weekend Warrior: a person who does a particular activity (such as a sport) only on the weekends. Can be seen boasting or talking about said activities during work hours as means of idle chit chat.

Plain and simple, she's based off of sports or P.E equipment! She has a teal football helmet for a head, Hypno Glasses as "eye protection", festival flags practically falling out of her sleeves, which i've also colored to match red and yellow penalty flags. her little pocket squares are also penalty flags. I gave her the buff body type because i feel like it reflected her athletic theming as it invokes or is supposed to invoke the feeling of large protective gear and padding under her suit for sports. as well as having weird.. office shoe cleats. so! to get into why she has hypno glasses, i think she was made in mind for advanced lure and trap techniques in training. teaching folks about lure and dazed debuffs which is why she has the broken glasses to denote that but also why her gear is so cracked from falling face first into the floor because of an awry marbles or banana peel. its also why her gear is solely based off of sport protective gear as well! I think in true to her name, she would be very competitive so she would have a temper and wouldn't take being tricked too well. opting to beat the hell out of folks who used the trap or lure gag instead of the person who has done the most damage like a traditional cog fight. she has a big bow because i wanted it to be reminiscent of reward ribbons. she is the best sportball player in the junkyard after all!

Socializer: Somebody who likes to participate in conversations or after work activities as a means of socialization and in general enjoys mixing with others socially.

Socializer is the girlboss whos always trying to get the newest hottest goss and trying to get people to get drinks with her after work. Her face is based off of staple removers! I've always played with them like they're were big fanged mouths wanting to just go "blah blah blah" all day. her bright red makeup and eyes are based off of dolls, her eyes would probably close if she lies down lol. I sort of wanted a shiny effect to her makeup, being made out of bright red tape or reflective tape than actual makeup. Her neck piece is a cup, more specifically the big plastic and colorful cups in children's tea sets. her bow is big, shiny and glittery is reminiscent of a teddy bear's bow. as well as her body type, i wanted to make her more approachable and soft almost plushie like. as well as her lapels big and rounded to get this sort of effect. her pocket squares are based off of bright party napkins. Overall I wanted her to based off of office and tea party equipment as well as soft dolls and plushies to make her seem approachable.

If you read all of that, you get to have this cool picture of the weekend warrior without her lure glasses. (it gets thrown off when she gets hit too hard!) Shes going to beat you up!

also i know theyre not supposed to really have personalities, because dummy bots are just advanced training dummies. but i like to think they have some personality quirks to all of them.

[sorikufeels]

hi i made some soriku pride icons based on the headcanons i have for them! i also have alternate versions that i’ll post separately where i adjusted the colors of the characters themselves to reflect the colors the flags!! i had a lot of fun with these so if anyone wants them with a different flag id probably be down to make that!

please like/reblog if you use! :)

edit: alternative versions here!!

i’m gonna ramble a bit about my headcanons below the cut lol

for sora:

i see sora as pansexual and arospec!!

as an arospec person myself i relate a lot to what sora says in the character files about not really getting love so i hold him being arospec very near and dear to my heart!! i think differentiating different kinds of love is confusing for him and i don’t know where he falls on the spectrum (and i don’t think he does either!!) but he’s somewhere along there so that is why i used the arospec flag!!

that being said, i do think he experiences attraction to some degree and i don’t really see gender influencing his attraction at all so i hc him as pan. bi could also work but i personally identify more with pan and love to project lmao

for riku:

i see riku as gay, demisexual, and trans!!

riku has only really shown real interest in sora throughout the whole series (since him being like “i’ll share the paopu fruit with kairi” was a way to get under sora’s skin) so we’ve only seen him as attracted to a guy so that’s why i see him as gay! also his whole interaction with shiki in dream drop just fucking screamed that he’s gay and please get this girl away from him oh god

i don’t have a reason for hc’ing riku as demi i just feel like the vibes fit lol

i am a riku is a trans man truther!!!! i don’t really have a canon supported reason for this either i just love the headcanon that he’s trans. you know for a fact he wears his binder way too long bro someone tell him it’s bad for him please

also i have the trans flag for both of them above, but im really only hard set on riku being trans. however, t4t soriku is very sweet and i love it so much 🥺

anyway rambling over, thank you for reading lol

[clovenhoofedjester]

jellicle lineups; part 1/4

hi catsblur ! today i am presenting to you the fruits of my labor. my own little versions of the jellicle cats; obviously based on the replica designs With Fun Little Twists ! such as, they are not naked. ramble below the cut, both on designs and some personal thoughts on the characters

these designs are very much first-draft, subject to change, blah blah. you will very likely be seeing me drawing them differently if i post more of them. i just. urrbhhh. i had 2 draw them....

and the clothes ! even though they're very feline i draw them a bit too human-y for the nakedness to not look consistently weird. i will be drawing them closer to the stage designs in some instances but for rn. clothes. it was a fun exercise in character design too

the kittens are all young adults, think 18-20 ! as much as i love headcanons like demeter being sillabubs mother, it shrimply will not work out timeline-wise. so headcanons like that will be delegated to like... siblings and stuff

victoria | 🍧 💌 🩰

i started out with victoria's design not only because of her being the Main Kitten, but because she has such a concise and clear aesthetic to me. she actually started out with a simple pastel brown dance practice fit before i decided that i wanted to make the outfits ornate(ish) and ended up with a proper ballerina getup

i also quite like when victoria is not just solid white with some grey (love ones that are more yellow or brown) so i colored her fur with some blue and pink-ish tones not only to add more depth but to resemble the trans flag LOL

and i wanted to try something different with making her a bit more lavender than baby pink. i also based her overall look on obc victoria, portrayed by cynthia onrubia :^]

to move on to character interpretation, i think victoria is partially deaf and mute. she primarily communicates through dance. as one of the oldest kittens she'd be 19 in human years

plato | 💐 🕯 🍬

plato's design doesnt stray too far from his standard replica design but i tried to add my own flair . i tried to keep the creepy porcelain doll aesthetic going w their face added some more depth like some other designs with different colors and bold face stripes

i also really like the outfit i chose for them. the flower in their hair and on their shirt is a peony which is a popular wedding flower :") because im a sucker for platoria and very much subscribe to the idea that the ball we see is their funny cat wedding in a way

the outfit is based on standard ballerino costumes but i tried to stray from it with the silky half-skirt thing and pointe shoes. lets go queer cats lets go

i think plato is also very quiet and that's why he and victoria were so drawn to each other. i also quite like the idea that he was a bit of a troubled stray before he found the jellicles. they would be 20 in human years

electra |⚡🥭 🔔

boy i STRUGGLED with electra's clothes i struggled so hard. i think i'm happy with what i ended up with though—i originally gave her the babydoll dress that sillabub has (inspired by artsed electra) but figured that i wanted at least one of the girls to be more tomboyish/butchy. thank you to that one production which apparently had electra be one of the raffish crew and get in on some of the boys' choreography

im very happy with what i did with her fur colors as well. silly little tortoiseshell :] its based on a nonrep but i have no idea which one. enjoy her freckles too

i think electra deserves to be a little spunky. [whispers] i also think shes bombalurinas little sister. she'd be 18 in human years

etcetera | 🎠 🍯 🏅

i needed at least one cat with a circus aesthetic. say hello to my magnum opus: jacked tumbler acrobat etcetera. it was only a matter of time until someone said fuck it and let one of the girls perform lifts and stuff. this is mostly because ive always really liked how shes usually the cat to do the flying trapeze bit and wanted to push it further

i also struggled SO EXTREMELY HARD with making her colors look nice and makeup distinctive but i figured it out in the end—thank you obc cettie for the mismatched eyeshadow and such. i also wanted to give a cat a short bob type of head fur/hairstyle and she fit the bill

nothing much about specific character notes other than like... i want to make her related to some of the cats but cannot for the life of me figure out who 2 assign. also she'd be around 19 in human years, a couple months younger than vic

sillabub | 🌻 🧋 🎼

i think of all of these little fellas sillabub is my favorite. several elements are balanced in her design—the standard jemima with a darker/reddish palette, the more softer and lighter sillabub design, the red eye patch from il sistina jemima, and the overall aesthetic of obc jemima with the big hair and wide, deepset eyes

i've seen her typical design critiqued by some people and wanted to incorporate those critiques by making her look less similar to demeter/bombalurina, adding more red to her body fur, and making her makeup more distinct and less... wooo girl give us nothing. and i included the squiggly on her collarbone

i also really REALLY love her overall aesthetic of sweet kindhearted girl NAMED AFTER A DEMON WITH SHADOW THE HEDGEHOG COLORING AND GIGANTIC SPIKED COLLAR !!!! so i decided to push it by making the collar definitely too big for her, giving her a slightly "edgy" outfit and making her hair resemble devil horns

as for character stuff, i think she has magical powers though i haven't developed exactly What they are yet. beyond her sweet exterior they trouble her. [whispers] i also think shes demeters little sister. she would be 18 in human years, a few months younger than electra and tumblebrutus

pouncival | 🌱 🩹 🍵

i struggled with pouncival's clothing design like i did electra's because i didn't go into drawing him with a particular gimmick in mind. but i think i'm happy with the casual formal look. it makes him look like such a kind young man even if he's a little shit

i did have a lot of fun trying to make his makeup distinctive from tumblebrutus'—so many fellas with brown eyepatches ! so his colors are more dark and striking. i also tried to make him look less like Typical Cis Man by giving him a bit of black lipstick

enjoy his freckles too

but like. i think hes literally such a little cis guy. nothing else for me to add for my specific interpretation of him it's all laid out. this guy fucking loves rocket league, fishing and chess. he'd be 19 in human years

tumblebrutus | 🎡 🥊 🍦

SWEET TUMBLEBRUTUS. i think drawing him here gave me a soft spot for him. with his outfit mirroring cettie's i didn't much struggle with that. his colors are also based on obc tumblebrutus

when i was first conceptualizing my own versions of the cats i wanted at least one of them asides from grizabella to have wavy fur. and idk what it is, maybe it's the lack of content for him, but i was really drawn to the idea of curly tumblebrutus!

i wanted their design to be distinctive from pouncival's so i made their colors softer, kinda watercolor-y. OH AND THEIR FUR IS ALSO MEANT TO BE A LITTLE TRANS FLAG COLORED

as for character, i think he is also a bit troubled, as a son of grizabella's. you heard me, people. i'm probably the first person ever to headcanon that. he'd be 18 in human years

AND THAT'S ABOUT IT ! thank you for reading this far, have a great day and stay tuned for more designs in the days to come !

[mysteriouslyjovialcolor]

Russia 2018

-Kevin: p5

-Charles: p7

-Red Bull: huh?

-“Max Verstappen on his 21st birthday”

-Not me unintentionally watching both Maxiel 2018 birthday races (it was fate!)

-Where’s our normal commentator duo?

-So many teammates qualifying right next to each other

-“Valterri and Kimi both playing support roles today” yay love that

-“How much of a nuisance are Magnussen and Ocon going to be, starting from row three?” Haha love our troublemaker duo

-“No team orders so far” let’s go!

-“Excellent start from the Dutchman”

-Excellent start from the Monegasque too

-Max double overtakeee

-Don’t ask me the color of anything. Max is currently over taking half the grid!

-Lap 5 and he’s p8

-Both Toro Rosso’s already pitting- not surprised

-Double retirement?!

-Yeah still not surprised

-Unfortunate for Pierre tho

-Max so easily going past Charles (Probably won’t see that from next season onwards)

-“Was that a little bit naughty from Magnussen then?” lol what did you expect?

-Daniel p7!! Just one position away from Max (There was less overtaking there and more drivers in front pitting but still cool)

-Renault having a decent race (please let me not jinx it again)

-Love how Max is always just there interfering with the top team strategies

-“And for once, Ferrari’s strategy worked out this afternoon!”

-“Guys how did that happen?”

-Watching Ferrari and Mercedes fighting it out through pit stop strategies gives me such a strong dose of serotonin

-I love watching Lewis and Sebastian fight it out on track too, their wheel to wheel battles are so intense yet so smooth

-“Sergio Perez goes pass Carlos Sainz and then Carlos Sainz goes past Sergio Perez”

-Unfortunately, the next second he gets passed by both the Force Indias

-Max going from p19 to now leading the race

-“We need to push. I have better pace. Can I overtake?” If I ever make a bingo card for the 2017 and 2018 season, Checo saying this in relation to Ocon will definitely be on it

-“No blue flags here” This situation still confuses me

-“Valterri Bottas has just let Hamilton pass” so much for no team orders

-“This was because of Max Verstappen being in the lead” Oh Max

-Ocon having to let Perez go through as well

-A lap full of team orders

-I mean I do understand the importance of team orders in relation to the championship points, but that doesn’t mean I have to like them

-“Bottas isn’t happy” yeah I wouldn’t be either

-Force India team orders going crazy

-“Working in harmony this afternoon” well that’s new for them

-“I never thought in a million years that Max would be leading this race when we started off” Gotta count on the “Max factor” sometimes

-Daniel pitting before Max? I wasn’t expecting that

-Oh, they changed his front wing?

-Max going 40+ laps on the same tires and still setting a fast pace- insane behavior

-Am I crazy or is Daniel 53s behind p5?

-“The Red Bull is here? How the heck did that happen?” Same Nico, same

-He actually sounded so shocked. It was funny

-It must be hard to lead the race for so long then give up that track position to pit and go chase after a lower track position

-Still insane to me that Daniel is 53s behind the car in front of him. How did that gap happen??

-“Shoutout to Charles Leclerc” Yes, always

-I may have actually jinxed Renault, but at least they’re still in the race?

-Albeit in p12 and p16?

-Do we think Toto just always has a long continuous headache? Poor guy’s always holding his head in his hands

-So surprised that Max hasn’t done a fastest lap yet with the new tires

-Kevin: p8

-Charles: p7

-Mercedes 1-2!

-“Valterri, this is Toto. Difficult day for you and difficult day for us. Let’s talk about it later” yeaaaaaaaahhh

-“Very good birthday race!” Almost forgot about that!

-“From 19th on the grid, Max Verstappen lead the most laps” Who would’ve thought

-All in all, like Lewis said, “great day at the office”!

[fitgothgirl]

OoOoooOOo look at me with a random photo dump/life update!

I keep wanting to journal in my handwritten diary, but it's just working out/I can't get it stick. And I haven't been really journaling here either because I've been wanting to "save it" for the diary so I don't get tired of writing about the same things. So that means I'm just not writing at all now! So I'm just going to try to switch back to tumblr & and also try to journal more than I had been doing before (since it was still sparse).

And so~~~

Random Puck pic while he's being rambunctious & crazy eyed. 🖤 Caught him as he was bucking the metal bed leg lol...

Delicious dinner at one of our favorite places with my bf's parents for his birthday. 🍷🥩😋 We actually did this a week before his birthday since they were going out of town.

We went to a Giants game on his actual birthday, which just happened to be their Pride Day event so that was cool! They gave out sweaters with the SF logo filled with pride flag colors but the rest of the sweater was white so we just gave them to friends lmao... Also the gif of the closest flag pole is hard to see but it has 5 flags for each of the teams in the division, and they're in order of the current standings. Hate to see the Dodgers up there but it is what it is... (At least my dad has been happy...) Also, is this a bf face reveal?... 🤔 It's definitely been at least many a year. And you are correct he is very handsome. 😍😁

McCovey Cove where people hang out during Giants games to get the rare "splash hit" home runs. They're out there no matter the weather but this was a gorgeous day so it looked like a party. 🍻☀️

Couple recent selfies. Left was a few days ago when we went to see the Ghost concert movie Rite Here Rite Now which was fun! The only other time I've been to the theater for a non-movie was seeing UFC 189, which was the fight where Robbie Lawler got his lip hella split open and it was all flapping on the big screen. 😆🫣 It was still a super fun time though haha. And then the right is my a gym selfie from yesterday! I was back after about a 10 day break from the gym just due to some ups and downs emotionally/mentally. Haven't been able to be super consistent but just glad to be back when I can get there. However I accidentally shmurdered my abs since it had been a while and I was already neglecting them... 😅

Backyard hangs. Left: felt artistic during a friends' BBQ we hosted this past Friday so had my friend hold her weed for a portrait mode pic lol. Looked so nice in the summer sunset. 😍😄 Right: just chillin on my own a random other day.

[redheadbigshoes]

Sorry for the rant or vent. I’m lesbian.

I moved to a different job and my friend isn't speaking to me like we used to. I've known her for two years and we hung out last week and everything seemed fine and she would usually answer my texts and calls. And I even tried to text or call her to say if I did something wrong and she didn’t answer... now idk my other friend (which is my guy friend) and he said she answers his calls and everything but idk what I did and I wonder what changed and I know I'm not there anymore but it’s just my assumption and she texted me back yesterday and saying she was doing great and misses but maybe I just overthink again because my guy friend texted me after I got silent and a bit upset about this and I told him I needed space and didn’t want to talk to him after he messaged me after I didn’t answer his message and asked me I wasn’t talking to him then and he respected my wishes.

We were supposed to hangout this weekend but idk how I feel when I hangout with him and not going. At times I feel like he only talks to me when it’s sexual stuff and we watch lesbian porn and talk about women and we going to a Halloween crawl and he would make scenerios of what would he do with me or say things or ask like if I ever want to try dick and I would decline and say I like pussy (it makes me feel invalidated and question our friendship a bit and I think I might be too nice because he’s nice I guess? I know it’s stupid to explain..) and makes it feel like talking to him it makes others feel I’m less lesbian or bi. It’s a struggle having guy friends and I would never do anything with him or anything. And feel like ending it at times.

I feel like every person I meet won’t understand my feelings and I know not everybody has all the answers to things. I feel like the hurt follows me everywhere and going on bumble bff helps but it seems like it never lasts or work out well. It’s been a miserable year for me and I feel like I won’t find my tribe and it seems like bad people win or something lol and seeing others forming relationships and friendships and even queer people. I feel like online I feel more of myself as a femme lesbian if color (like tumblr). And I have my own place and still have a job and my family I cut off from because they were toxic and abusive.

I know I should grow up but idk if I should just keep to myself and I’m just an introvert..

Sorry for the vent :( But I love your blog 💖 any advice?

Wow. First I just wanna say that “friend” of yours (the guy) is a huge red flag, especially as a lesbian. Men shouldn’t even be watching lesbian porn since it has nothing to do with them. From what you said it seems like he definitely fetishizes lesbians/sapphics. And also from the things he told you I would worry for my safety if I were you.

My first advice would be to immediately end this friendship you two have, he’s not a nice person.

It’s very common things not lasting when it comes to people you meet in those apps. Have you tried Yubo? From what I know it’s supposed to be an app to meet friends, unlike Bumble or Tinder.

I’d also try finding lgbt spaces where you live (or close to where you live), it’s usually better to meet new people in person instead of online (ofc only if it’s safe and you’re comfortable with it). Try looking for any lgbt events like pride parades too.

I am sorry it seems to be hard for you with your friends. You don’t deserve a “friend” like that guy.

[geralts-yenn]

~ 💖 ASK GAME 💖 ~

I got tagged by the lovely @littlefreya - thank you dear! Loved your answers ❤

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen? A winter landscape in pastel colors

🍫 Cheese or chocolate? I can't eat either of them, but if I could, I think I'd choose cheese over chocolate

✨ Do you have any nicknames? No, in high school some friends tried to make "Nini" a thing but I was not a fan

🎵 Last song you listened to? Teardrop - Massive Attack

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction? Started writing 18 months ago - changed my life

😏 Are you on discord? 24/7

 💛 Do you have any piercings? Had ear piercings, would love to have more, but I'm allergic

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person? I always watch out how people treat animals. Also, if someone is rude to retail workers or staff, it's a red flag.

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be? lol, idk, an oreo? dark and hard on the outside with a soft core

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person? Both! I always had cats and thought I'd always be a cat person. But then we got the most precious little baby puppy and I absolutely adore her. She's not a puppy anymore but never stopped being the cutest little baby 😍

🎧 Headphones or earbuds? Both 😁 Headphones for sports and when the family is too loud, earbuds for at work when I still need to pay attention to others

🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud? "Damn, dog, it's just a vacuum cleaner, it won't eat you!"

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know? lol, that chickens DO have a navel. Had a heated argument with my Dad about that. Sweet memory ❤

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl? Is 3am morning or night?

🧸 Favorite place to nap? The hammock in my garden

🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community? I identify as pansexual heteroromantic

🦋 Describe yourself in three words. enthusiastic, awkward, introvert

👖 Jeans or sweatpants? Jeans

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order? Believe it or not, I've never been to a Starbucks. But I drink my coffee black

🧡 A color you can’t stand? Every color has its own beauty

💎 What’s your most prized possession? My house?

☕ Coffee or tea? Both - lol, I'm really good at making decisions 😁

🦖 Favorite extinct animal? Ichthyosaurs - First fossil I've ever seen and combines my love for the ocean and dinosaurs

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr? A year and a month - yes, I'm a tumblr baby

🌴 Desert island item? A lighter

🐸 Describe your aesthetic. Ugh, these are really difficult! Industrial pastel?

🔮 What’s your dream job? Photographer!

💙 Relationship status? So very much in love - for almost 20 years now 😍

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit. Wide black shorts, sage green top, gray cardigan, barefoot (I need summer!)

🎤 Is there a song you know all the lyrics to? lol, is there a song I DON'T know the lyrics to?

🤎 What color is your hair? blonde

💌 Do you talk to yourself? I do right now 😁

💄 Do you wear makeup? If I feel like it, I love wearing makeup, but I'm also comfortable going out without makeup

🌸 Best compliment you ever received? "I wish there were more people like you"

💞 @ your favorite blog. @raccoon-eyed-rebel

No pressure tags: @ellethespaceunicorn @peyton-warren @gummydummy19 @mayloma @cardierreh15 @liveoncoffeeandflowersss @martha-oi @lostforparadise

[earthbound4project]

Hey guys! finally got a update again! there was a delay about a week ago since I got stuck with figuring out how to make Leo playable in this demo. while I could use a global value or flags to resolve this, I wanted to use events that make it easy to remember instead of using values or flags I decided to copy the test level and make it up into 2 separate scenes so we can switch Meryl and Leo!

Now with that issue out of the way, all that needs to be done left is to make finishing touches with the other 2 modes. There won't be any changes to the controls with item or sound tests, only the background color and additional music and few items to be added for the test! there might be new features to be included but for now this is all I can say!

Im posting here to let my followers know this is not dead and still ongoing. hopefully will be done tonight or tomorrow morning depends how Im doing!

the delay was taken up by ripping things from n64 game Conker for another side project which you will find out on my Rare Unofficial blog! This blog is for Earthbound related works only so lets stay on topic about that here lmao.

By the way, I have good news but it might not sound much. Gavin Thomas's portfolio site is back on just recent but currently no Oddity yet. He mentioned a website for Oddity couple years ago which might happen soon since he is currently active with doing sprite art for a mentioned "demo". Gav even predicted that Oddity will come around 2025 and thats next year! but its currently hard to believe at the moment as its still too early for them to announce anything after many years of broken promises, lies, and so much show off plus the team done a bit of abuse with bullying and ghosting around their community and I just happen to be one of their "victims" since I was on their Discord! :(

Oddity staff should be considered notorious, full of secrecy, toxic individuals, and poorly mismanaged! If I were the team, they should give up their game since its no longer the "Mother 4" we wanted anymore and even someone else said that the whole "rebrand" was only excuse to further delay their game and anger their followers! It makes you wonder how a fan project from 2008 could still go on this far when it was once handled by a much more friendly, loving, caring, and more social group back in the day before stupid Pastel came to ruined Azure's project that could been faithful for a Mother 3 follow up but as it already turn out, they screwed up and not anyone else besides that other group https://mother4.org/ ever accomplish a single Mother 4 attempt!

and thats why this project happen, I'll be the very first to make Mother 4 happen for real because I have all the time and THE GUTS to make my own follow up for Mother 3, a game that will never likely continue unless another company buys the EB franchise one day.

While this version of Mother 4 won't be accurate to Oddity's changed storyline, the characters and setting will remain the same because this project was meant to kick off Mother 4 from when it was last seen as a EB fan sequel before the rebrand with everything I gathered from what was already been known so far as of 2019.

The leaks made a excellent resource I wish this could been done the same with Kirby Cosmic Chaos (another fan project we also lost) but since theres nothing leaked from that other fan game we're screwed with Cosmic Chaos anyway lol.

Theres also very few leaked things found from the other Mother 4 but its not much. This project is to serve as a makeup from the mistake that both Mother 4 teams failed to provide or done yet, they hardly stay in touch with their community and let alone not sharing a single demo! Thats why Im doing this, the very early demos is to serve the followers here to give them a idea how the game will be played like. they are only proof of concepts and does not show the exact look of the game once I get down to the bigger versions of this project!

I had a few confused people in the past few weeks who mistaken my game for what it is. I want to clear up that the demos was something I would do with all my other previous projects since 2006. I always start with experimental demos and this shows! the experimental demos is to test the controls, sound, and other important features we might see in the finished game but at the moment you will have to enjoy what I can provide for now. I don't have all the resources to make a complete Mother 4 yet but at least whatever we got from the leaks can help with my own version of Mother 4 lmao.

By the way, I plan on going back to Starmen.net since Earthbound Eternal is still very inactive with fewer people online there. I used to update my project there but now my main page would be both Game Jolt and Earthbound Eternal as I have no better place where to share my games! :(

Mediafire would be a risky choice as I heard some files went missing on Mediafire plus Dropbox has limited space and only useful for personally sharing files privately with a friend or community.

Internet Archive would be another great choice but Im currently unable to share stand alones there due to virus total scanning them there and calling them malware when they are not! Im only able to share project files there so if you got your own copy of clickteam, you can make the stand alone yourself to run the game that way! However I like to stick with Game Jolt and Earthbound Eternal to release my EB games and demos!

Look forward to updates from me later tonight or tomorrow morning!

[turbulentscrawl]

hiii!!! could i maybe get a matchup?

i go by all pronouns and im currently questioning :3 (so perferrbly match me with a male? its all up to you though!)

Im an INTP, 6w5, my love language (giving) would probably be something like acts of service and words of affirmation and receiving would probably be gift giving and quality time. I'm into singing, cooking (i make soul ascending grilled cheeses/melts), color/winter gaurd (flag dance/normal dance, usually performed at school football games or in competition), and unusal history (like history not normally talked about in a classroom)!!! A couple of dealbreakers would be instigating my anger issues or comparing me to others through appreances, tastes, personality…etc.

In life I've been trying to aim into getting into the law field, but if that doesn't work out I'm considering going into hospitality or culinary. I have been told I'm an extreme perfectionist and I shut down if I feel like I don't do good enough, I have a bad memory and I have issues talking about things I enjoy that may be 'out of the norm', I have something called 'older sister syndrome', which bleeds into the previous mentioned anger issues and perfectionism

regarding appearance, im very pale with dirty ginger hair (maybe a little darker…? im not very sure) and i have a lot of freckles!! My usual aesthetic is acubi but I love wearing friendship bracelets that might make no sense with the outfit im wearing lol! I'm also really big into artists like PinkPantheress and Mitski !!!

I ship you with Naib Subedar!

-Naib’s seen some shit, and handles tension well, so your anger issues are pretty much a non-issue. And frankly, he’s a little hot-headed too, so he understands the struggle. Even if you get riled up and point it in his direction, he can shrug the majority of it off without much issue. He will expect an apology later, though, depending on how far you take things.

-While you’re a perfectionist, Naib is a realist, and I think you could both benefit one another in this regard. Naib can help draw back your self-imposed expectations a bit so you aren’t as hard on yourself, and you can remind Naib that he’s allowed to reach for the stars sometimes.

-He’s an only child to a single mother, so he doesn’t get the “Eldest Sister Syndrome” thing, but he’s very protective and inclined to stick up for you even when you won’t do it yourself. Like, he gets the fear of disappointing people, but you’re a sister not a parent and you shouldn’t be saddled with unfair expectations just because of when you were born. It’s not healthy, and he considers it his job to look out for you now. In all regards.

-Once again, he’s a walking trashcan. You liking to cook is a godsend. Fuck yes he wants a bomb-ass grilled cheese, do you even have to ask?

-I think you’d both look good in that acubi aesthetic! Power couple, anyone? He cringes a bit at the bracelets but he’d wear one if you really insisted….

Runner Up: Joseph

[moonsinkfoxgirl]

prime numbers!!!!!

2. what is your preferred method of non-physical self destruction?

all self destruction is physical in some way, but as for ones that mostly just do things in your brain I like to not get the things I need to get done done and slowly rot away

3. what is your favorite way to self care?

cuddle the girlfriend, play good video games

5. if anything, what would you change about your childhood?

being a girl of course, uhh any other things besides that... hmmm, like at the very least just knowing I'm a girl would have been nice, not just in a 'could've transitioned earlier'-way, but in a 'could've earnestly pursued my interests instead of semi-copying my brother all the time'

7. what is your fatal flaw?

exceedingly comfortable to not do things even while time is slowly ticking away

11. tell me about your last failed friendship.

not sure if this counts as the last one, but like the last of the guys I was friends with in high school like regularly contacted me once a year, he would like always wish me a happy birthday and then ask to meet up, so we met at cafes and stuff, and he was cool with me transitioning, it was pretty neat, but the last time we met up we had various political discussions (he was like watching some questionable youtube channels apparently, at some point he dropped the line 'I don't agree with everything Jordan Peterson says, but...') so uh a bunch of red flags, and he was also complaining about how so many of his friends just do not want to talk to him anymore, it's not like he's arguing for terrible stuff and he just wants to debate and discuss things, etc. so well I awkwardly said goodbye to him, and then ~1 year later when he tried to make contact as usual I wasn't sure how to talk to him, so after like a few messages I wasn't sure what to reply, and ended up leaving him on read and he hasn't tried again since...

good riddance probably I don't have it in me to fix some guy who fell into a pipeline, but a bit sad

13. what can make you excessively angry?

I am extremely hard to make angry, if you want to get me excessively so that's hard work, I think my parents managed once or twice in my life, by being just an extra step bonus obnoxious on top of the usual 'they treat you like a kid even though you're an adult'-behaviour

17. what was your favorite color as a child and what is your favorite color now?

in like kindergarten my favorite color was red, at some point in elementary school all the 'you should be a boy'-pressure got to me enough for me to change it to blue, and now that I'm a girl it's usually purple^^ red is also really neat though, and it's not like blue is bad either^^

19. tell me something you don’t like telling the people you are close to.

can't really think of anything rn I don't like telling my girlfriend... and who else am I even close to... I guess for my family (close hah lol lmao) you can count literally any random post on this blog, I don't even like telling them anything about what I like about the manga that are on my shelves

[the-sun-princess]

Emi Plays Revue Starlight: El Dorado Part 3

the reason maya n junna were saying 'ow' is bc they got brainfreeze from shaved ice

everyone except futaba said it anyway lmao. futaba bought syrup and apparently the candy lady gave mahiru a shaved ice machine lol.

maya has never had blue hawaiian flavor bc her parents wouldnt let her. have the flavor. specifically. i guess they didn't want their lil starlet running around with a blue tongue????

anyway Apparently blue hawaiian, strawberry, and melon flavors are all more or less the same. and maya is Devastated.

anyway they checkin off summery things to-do list. kaoruko brings up a test of courage and maya goes off

lskdjfksdhf claudine tries to goad her into it by being 'oooh ur a third years who's STILL afraid of this' and maya compares her fear of ghost stories to shit like romeo and juliet

everyone went 'aww look at maya. she's no longer trying to Hide she's afraid of shit now. ok we won't do the scary stuff'

also mahiru has upgraded maya from tendo-san to maya-chan now. honestly i do think karen going from junjun to junna is a bit of a downgrade but ah well. sign of respect i spose

and then judy comes in and ruins the 'no scary stuff' thing. drags claudine into it too since it specifically japanese horror she wants

also boo i wanna hear kaoruko talk about the ghosties of seisho

anyway ok it play time that didnt take very long.

.....is it Just the play or-

ok there we go we get commentary aha from judy. i was gon be very bored if it was JUST the play

also judy you've Been in a revue. seisho's whole last group of revues esp with nana n junna were about killing each other for the sake of ambition lmao. so yes

snort they put position 0 on the flag. twice. ofc they did

ok i KNOW no one can see eye color from the audience but that line is just kinda funny. now. i'm aware the ocean can be many a diff color with green being a more common one. but that line really kinda only works for hikari and mahiru kjhsdfd.

oh i didnt think isabel was in love with salvatore. huh. rip alejandro even tho u looked more interested in her.

ah salvatore kills alejandros dad too. no wonder alejandro swears revenge. AND took out an eye. yeesh

15 min intermission unlike the real life stageplays

lotta chattin thats fun. nana's missing. lol she's crying in the hallway over junna bc ofc she is

LOL NANA'S JELLY MAHIRU GOT TO KISS JUNNA. mahiru's laughing that she made nana jealous skjdhfkjsdhf. lil vindictive mahiru i love u

they goin back on stage and nana asked mahiru to smack her on the back for a jolt and mahiru hit her HARD. lol. everyone was like 'Owch that sounded painful' ajkhfkjsdf. don't ask mahiru to hit u then she stronk. nana is fine

and i have a thing to do so will stop there for the moment at the start of act 2

<<part 2 part 4>>

[peachjagiya]

hm, if you think jm is straight why did tae make those remarks towards him in the early years? you're baby army so you may not know but in the early years tae implied jm's non straightness twice. once during a radio interview and once during a fan meet. the radio one was when jm talked about wanting to travel with jk and tae then said that jm likes men too much. to which jm then replied "i don't like you". the other one was a fan meet where jm was saying "jungkook, today you're next to me" to which tae replied "as you grow up, your mental state..." jm interrupted him and said "i'm not like that to you, don't worry" and then tae said "you like men" to which jm replied again "i'm not like that to you". this is no shade towards tae. he was young and was potentially struggling with his own identity. but twice tae implied jm is into men (too) and twice jm didn't deny it. he just denied liking tae like that. all of that happened in 2013/2014, so it was a long time ago, but imo those two situations are a huge indication that jm is not straight. and honestly it's not just that. jm is not as loud as tae when it comes to support queer artists, besides jm saying he loves troye sivan, but he does hint at a potential queerness at multiple occasions. for example his photofolio, something he had full (!) control over. he decided to use the colours of the bisexual flag for a concept called "Color: Freedom" where he's wearing a shirt from an LGBTQ+ collection and has "free love" as fake tattoos on his body. then we have him in his Like Crazy, when he once again has full control, wearing pants with Robert Mapplethorpe on it, an openly queer photographer whose most controversial works documented and examined the gay male BDSM subculture of New York City in the late 1960s and early 1970s. in the original like crazy choreo, not the one he used for korean music shows but the one he used for his performance in the us and the one we saw in the behind the scenes, have both female and male dancers hugging jm closely. as he changed it for korean music shows it clearly means something that both genders touched him. then we have jm crying in an interview while "talking" to his past self that his past self was trying hard but that he should hurry up and be him soon because he will learn and realise so many things about himself. jm also posted a picture of himself once on twitter with a rainbow on his cheek. or drew the bisexual flag when they were drawing stuff for their dicon shoot. or the way he was completely lost while staring in awe at a very muscular interviewer in the us when the interviewer slapped his own tighs and where the members had to get him out of his trance, lol. and those are just things at the top of the iceberg. jm also doesn't care about gender at all but that's a whole different topic. obviously it's fine if you disagree but for me, as a fellow bisexual, are strong hints that jm might not be straight. he's definitely not one of the members i would guess is straight. but we might have to agree to disagree. have a good day though. :)

Can we also agree to read my post?

With a distinct question mark over Jimin.

I clearly don't know. I did know about those early Tae comments, yes. Disregarding as teenage projecting and silliness, to be honest but yes, you're quite right about bisexual colours.

I probably should have just written what I really wanted to say and that is that everyone is queer as a default until proven otherwise 😂 it's only what the heterosexuals do to us. I won't answer at 3am next time.

Thanks anon. 💜

[3luejam]

do any of ur sonic ocs have any facts abt them?????

oh I have DOZENS AND DOZENS of them! there might be some that u probably already know but it's ok right?

Aurora the dragon )

-when she was a kid ( after her home got invaded) she was dead TERRIFIED of affection and trust till she turned 11 and met Espio

-she can fly on her sword in a hoverboard style kinda way

-can go super but only for a short period of time since the chaos emerlads are too strong for her since if she stays super for too long she just- 💥💥💥💥💥

-she does have her own form in which she can stay much much longer in but she has to fuse with Ender to do it ( don't ask how it's just magic )

-rlly likes to snatch Espio with her tail for some reason

-is a huge ass mitski fan ( listens to Francis forever, your best American girl and remember my name DAILY)

-too good in math it scares people

-she's inspired by Mizu, vivi and lotus dragon cookie!

-her voice claim is lapis lazuli

Ender the dragon)

-was cursed to be trapped in Aurora's sword for 200 years until she somehow ended up waking him up and releasing him

-he has no idea what affection means since he was never given any of it since his mom died giving birth to him and his father only wanted him to be a samurai so he thought affection was a distraction

-the only dragon in the Otomo clan who mastered mystic magic

-drunk goofy uninvited uncle personality but he can automatically get serious depending on the situation

-always got pushed away from team Chaotix and mostly Espio since they're the only ones who know Aurora's past and how he'd the reason she was degraded by her own people just like how he was when he was present

-his voice claim is ice king from adventure time!

Viper the snake)

-she cares about money WAAYYY much more than jewels

-her bounty is worth for 7 million! that's why Team Chaotix is so desperate to catch her and Team Toxictry

-her wounds are from a rlly intense fire so she's always numb and slightly in pain when someone pokes too hard on her body

-She's vectors ex! she only left him bc she thought he left her when their house burned down

-she was rescued / found by Dr eggman as she then became a soldier for the iron dominion

-because of the fact her family is poor and barely had money till they passed away, she quickly developed a belief that money was survival

-her voice claim is Beidou from genshin!

Widow the spider)

-shes the bride of endless reach's daughter! who is also missing-

-surprisingly can hold a tantrum unless she loses in a fight

-she has no memory of being in the gossamer clan nor her mother due to her memories being wiped

-#1 biggest BabyMetal fan EVER

-she can go spiderman to steal stuff from the air so no trace / fingerprints are left

-her bounty was raised from 1000 to 1 million because of this!

-her and luchino are the only ones that are trusted by viper

-can fly or glide but she has to sligshot herself with her webs

-even after years her mother is still looking for widow even though she doesn't remember her at all

-voice claim is strawberry crepe cookie!

Luchino the scorpion)

-his parents divorced bc when his mom found out his dad was cheating she tore him apart in front of luchino and forced luchino to eat small pieces of his own dad

-he used to be a friend of the Chaotic but left / betrayed(?) them so they would be safe since at that time he still secretly worked for eggman

-his bounty is worth 3 million!

-his poison isnt very strong so he just mostly uses his wolverine looking weapon ( idk what it's actually called lol)

-rlly likes to break sandcastles for fun

-he's gay even though his color palette is literally the aeoace flag

-rlly big 3arleyhuman fan ( holy shit same)

-is strangley talented with playing the bass and guitar but he likes to make the music sound bad to annoy ppl he hates

-he can't go to sleep without remembering what his mom did to him so he just has insomnia

-voice claim is hunter TOH