#thats what i shouldve made my talking tag

[crypticscarecrow]

Genuinely makes me so happy so many people liked the 3d spamton trash model;; LIKE ITS SUCH A BASIC THING TO MODEL I KNOW- but seeing so many people I follow and other spamt followers still like it is just- idk its really nice,,

[foralteregos]

part one of me explaining acm!!! mostly copy and pasted from a convo abt them loll

@aerodynamic-acephalic tagging you since you wanted it

1 - What is ACM?

acm (Alternate Connection Multiverse) is a multiverse related oc universe that i made last year i think, idk. and surprinsgly ive barely drawn it so i have no art to show </3. ive been obsessed with alternate universes since like early 2019 i guess so . yeah.

my first ever creation with acm was just a little joke fanfic i wrote for fun, which inculded identity fraud and almost murder (thanks cobalt for that incredible act 2 drama👍) lol

but even before acm was made i still like, had ideas for au crossovers and such so, i guess acms main and original purpose was that rlly.

acm is technically a canon extended version/sequel of multiple other oc universes (more specifically future's canon timeline) i have (ITS A MULTİVERSE.. OK...) and i cant stop Thinking about it.

Ok, Main characters!

2 - The Important Characters

- Future, the young timetraveller.

Future is a late college student who dropped out to mostly focus on his new career as the ceo of his stupid (/aff) multiverse company. hes very young and clueless so hes easily pushed around and sometimes manipulated by others. he invented the multiverses "first" time machine and eventually rebuilt his enemy's (otherwise known as devante) Dimension Travelling Mechanism (devante never gave it a proper name because he thought he would murder Future instantly, and DTM was a back up plan just incase Future managed to break free.) after almost being killed by it.

- Equinox, the inventor and lone creator.

Equinox is the god of the multiverse, and works alone despite the couple of other gods that wouldve loved to help him with his 'situation'.

equinox is, not social. if i can say that. and very uyuhh easily angerable. tjats all i can say abt them without diving too deep into lore

- Timekeeper, the first and original.

timekeeper has been dead for centuries. being one of thr original versions of the universes before the 'loops' had started. he was stuck alongside equinox after his universe collapsed from a incident he refers to as 'Same Date Different Incident'. in which timekeeper and future BOTH invented the time machine at the same time, thus, causing one of them to collapse. and timekeeper was the unfortunate victim of a incident equinox couldnt control. Timekeeper met Future after Future almost died in his universe.!!

timekeeper doesnt mind being dead, infact, talking and being alive is something he'd rather NOT go back to. despite equinox forcing him into it somewhere around act 6, aka the second time future broke a universe but shush

3 - The Beginning Of Chaos, And The End Of Peace

Facade and Solace were two 'accidents' that were made by equinox. originally (aka back when i first made them) they were only meant to exist to destroy acm as a whole because equinox was tired of it

((^ im still rlly proud of this GOD why did i change it))

i guess that mechanism is still canon BUT now equinox mostly made them as a way for acm and such to continue acm and so it wont end up like the original universe but it just made it worse and facade and solace were kinda leading up to the universes destruction.

- Facade/Falen (He goes by Falen in acm i just prefer to refer to him as Facade)

quit his job as a (forensic, but still can make inventions) scientist, to focus COMPLETELY on ACM (OR IN UNIVERSE-WISE ACRONYM: ABUNDANT COSMOS (OF THE) MULTIVERSE)

he only has one arm, eventually got a prosethic because cobalt bribed (aka 'make this or ill Kill you') someone in the middle field

if not obvious, hes. not a good person rlly. yeah he gets to be a better person after realizing his purpose was nothing but to continue a story that shouldve ended ALOT earlier but yeah hes still a bad person.

- Solace, (yeah thats his name ok)

Solace was unemployed for most of his life, i mean his original universe was quite literally trying to kill people like him so-

unlike falen, his way of 'manipulation and control' inculded alot more violence than actual words and forcing. solace cant make inventions like facade can so he usually resorts to getting his own hands dirty for it.

I wont explain what they did as i want to write and draw it, but it should be obvious.

AND.. THATS PART 1!!IT MAY BE A LITTLE MESSY BUT ILL GO ON INCASE ANYONE HAS QUESTIONS!!:D

[arisdaughter]

hi so i gave in and have decided to make this post

this is my take on the... stuff. thats been happening. iykyk

i think that yes, what he did was wrong, and he shouldnt have switched the perpetrator and the victim's roles, especially since by doing so he also ended up affecting others. he shouldnt have reacted so brashly to the anons. he shouldnt have gotten someone else to help him with his apology(but its not necessarily that someone's fault either.)

but at the same time, at the end of the day, he made a mistake. everyone makes mistakes. not to mention, many of us in this community are minors. that most likely includes him. im not saying we should all forgive him instantly. but honestly, he screwed up. thats the gist of it. everyone screws up, though.

i think that everyone has valid points of this, but honestly this couldve been handled more calmly. i dont know whether fred/freddie is real and i dont know whats going on with him right now. but i know hes probably hurting. i know many of us might be after this incident. that's fair. but again, were all human. humans make mistakes. they screw up.

im not gonna talk about what shouldve and shouldnt have been done, but i am going to say this.

i dont hate him. i disapprove of his actions, but i dont hate him. i dont hate people who hate him either, though. i really hope everyone can move on from this eventually, and things start looking up for everyone.

aside from that, id like to just say, if youre planning on making a similar post like this, please stop tagging me on this account and on @demeters-daughter-is-done. id rather just stay out of this as much as possible, sorry.

sorry for the tags, im gonna tag his taglist-

@zariahthewitch @thegroovydaughterofhestia @if-chaos-was-a-boy @the-gods-strange-children

@silena-daughterofaphrodite @fabulousdaughterofhecate @weakest-son-of-sun

@chaos-pers0nified @neoptolemus-achilles-son @bast-the-best26

@goddess-of-bubblegum @gaygirldoodles @luck-is-crucial @reyna4ever

@vicious-daughter-of-zeus @feral-hermes-child @discriminating @unfortunate-daughter-of-hestia

@that-girl-cupid @ariathemortal @love-lightning-forethought @emdabitchass @kaiaalwayswins

@champion-of-revenge @i-was-never-sane @clown-energy-skyrocketing @zoe-aura-of-d3ath @itsyourboyezra

@lunar-eklipso-r @pink-koi-lovejoy @that-daughter-of-athena @sleepy-as-a-song @smileyalater

@gellyhelio @daughter-ofthe-moontitan @demeters-daughter-is-done @the-smart-and-the-dumb-one

@trinket-snatcher @southerndaughterofeos @creature-under-ur-bed @burnt-out-bitxhes

[sethdomain]

want my shipping takes that ill still probably get hanged for??? here we go. theyre basically all "everyone chill out" ...it seems like most people are just submitting ships theyd get cancelled for, not takes on shipping. ill do that after in case i completely misread what you were asking for

if ccbeeduo didnt want to get shipped they shouldnt have made their characters get married and have a son and fall in love. natural byproduct, really shouldve expected it. i still think ppl should have chilled fr but like, they both had plenty of examples of what fans were like, they shouldve taken that into account before making those character decisions.

cdapduo discourse was absolutely batshit insane and everyone who posted with a banner saying either "slime is quackity's son and if you ship them you're weird DNI" OR "they keep flirting, if you call slime quackity's son you're weird DNI" pissed me off. how about no one's weird because actually its a roleplay with lots of different perspectives and you can do whatever you want forever . obvs i understood people who were like "i believe this thing, dont fucking yell at me for it" but it sucks that people had to make banners for that fr.

in the same vein, the discourse with emeraldduo. though that one i dont/didnt see as much, i did still see those same banners. even as a family sbi fan, i never saw someone shipping emduo and thought "yeah let me go yell at them and tell them not to interact with me because i personally think theyre family-coded." the devotion is ambiguous but powerful.

Heat Waves was the funniest fic ive ever read because idgaf about either of those guys so it was just like 20 chapters of some guy crying and jacking off and then getting rejected.

i think rarepairs are based as fuck and mischaracterizing guys to fit your ship is fine do whatever you want forever!!!!!!!! people complained to hell and back about fanfics tagging characters and ships and them being ooc . WHO GIVE A FUCK THEY WROTE THAT SHIT FOR FREEEEEEEEE!!!!!! ALSO MANGOBALL'S MONSTER/CHEATER CHEATER WAS A MASTERPIECE

karlnapity was not perfect polyamory i see people glossing over the fact that when they first talked about polyamory quackity started attacking and biting when karl and sapnap kissed and thats fucking FUNNY i want to see more of THAT.

sorry for writing so much i have a lot of opinions

JESUS ANON, honestly idgaf bro i take any spicy opinion as long as its not going straight to 'i love pedophilia/incest' territory that my only rule man

For beeduo, idk if u mean the cc ship or the c ship cause honest to god i was a huge inniter back then and dont follow their stuff closelt that much, but im just gonna assume u mean the rpf cc shipping. Honestly, I don't really agree with ur take, its a bit victim blamey, both ranboo and tubbo were like young and in their naivety expect their fans to uphold their boundary to just not ship them in a rpf way and i think you should've respected their wishes man. You sometimes gotta be reminded that dsmp was just them guys having fun and if they want to rp as a husband then whatev man :p

I agree bruh, i think people were just sscared of a little doomed faggot in action

phil and techno doesn't even act like father/son in the dsmp canon anyway, they act like old bestie

imma be fr idgaf abt heatwaves but that sound awesome

sometime the back of my mind say that, but the evil demon that wants everything to be perfect take over anon.. its hard... I need to get mad at people...

no cucking is allowed in karlnapity... #lame

[actualbird]

hi zak! I saw the tags you left on a reblogged post about Luke and suffering in relation to catholicism and that made me think. one of my classmates used to mention "the catholic guilt" (particularly about having desire), and I just thought it fits Luke so well. He felt so guilty about loving Rosa (and leaving her alone...) for so long T-T. Also, I'd love to hear more of your thoughts about catholic and filipino luke if you'd like to write about it!

irt to these deranged tags i left on this post abt suffering as salvation and luke forever ago, screencapped below for reference

hello hello! sorry this response took Ages but now im finally down to answer this so....

//steeples hands.....is luke pearce catholic coded? to Me, yes, and ive been casually throwing around this concept ever since 2021 HAHA. the filipino bit is actually just me projecting, so i wont go too much into that, but the religious bit Is something i wanna talk about. and i apologize in advanced for how long this response is gonna end up being

quick disclaimer b4 i start tho: im Not a theologian or an expert in religious theory, im just some guy who went through over a decade of catholic school and lives in the philippines, a primarily catholic country. this whole response is not saying "catholicism bad." it's more the institutions from where we experience catholicism from can twist it into something harmful, and i got to experience that first hand and how it affects one's view of themselves

ANYHOO, LET'S START FROM THE BEGINNING

like....the Beginning beginning

part 1: in the beginning, adam and eve did an oopsie so now we're all saddled with original sin (i swear this is important to luke pearce, bear with me)

quick recap on those who are unfamiliar: in the book of Genesis, god told adam and eve not to eat from the tree of knowledge. and then they did. this was the first ever sin in the history of humankind, and it is inherited by all humans through birth. so like, yay, happy entrance into the world, newly born baby child! you are guilty of sin already. this original sin is most usually absolved though through baptism, so it's not too much of a problem. but what im interested here is less of the nitty gritty semantics and more of the concept this all puts forth:

that under catholicism and similar denominations, a child, somebody who has not done any wrong at all, is inherently tainted by sin

now, the Good reaction to sin or any wrongdoing one has done is to recognize it and to atone for forgiveness. and within the "recognition" part is where guilt lies. functionally, guilt has a purpose. it makes us realize that we had done something wrong, it makes us feel remorseful, and it adds motivation to atone, to turn a new leaf, and to be better. in healthy amounts, guilt is useful and a natural part of being conscious over the things you do. and in unhealthy amounts, guilt is agonizing.

but thats for stuff you actually Did.

if the thing you are guilty for isnt actually something you were responsible over, the guilt cant do anything to make any of it better. you cant be a better person from it, because you didnt even do it. it just sits there, making you feel horrible for something that was out of your control. but because guilt is a Good thing to do, it doesnt matter if it's functional or not. it needs to stay. because it's Good, and the sin youre saddled with (whether or not you were responsible) is Bad

now let's bring in luke

luke's parents died when he was very young. this led him to living with mc's family, and a huge insecurity and fear he had from the beginning was that he felt guilty for burdening them, for stealing the love and care from mc's parents when that shouldve been for mc alone. the story SSR Shape Of You goes into this particular childhood experience extensively (and i highly reccommend it to anyone who hasnt read it yet), and tells us that his guilt was so bad that he wanted to run away and even erase himself from existence.

but luke didnt even do anything wrong

at the time, he was a child. he had no bearing whatsoever in the accident that killed his parents, he had no sway over who wouldve ended up looking after him, he had no control over the situation. like a newborn baby born under catholic doctrine, luke finds himself inherently tainted by and guilty for the circumstances that landed him to where he was.

this kind of pattern is going to follow him for the rest of his life, and the concept of inherent sin and inherent guilt begins to evolve. if luke can find himself guilty for things out of his control, then he can also find himself guilty for things that arent even sins in the first place

key example: love

like you said, luke feels immense guilt over loving mc. but why? love is the opposite of a sin, afterall.

it's just a sin when luke does it. because luke sees himself as inherently bad, and sees mc as inherently good. he sees himself as unworthy of her or someone who will just bring pain into her life, and causing pain someone you love is bad. if love is the knife he uses to hurt someone he loves, then that love is bad. that love should not be realized, and luke should feel guilty for even yearning for her.

by this point i think it's obvious that original concept has become twisted and overly punishing, even cruel. and thats because:

a lot of institutions teach catholic doctrine in an unhealthy and harmful manner. this is why many catholics and lapsed catholics experience The Catholic Guilt(TM). what was originally a pretty reasonable thing gets blown out of proportion from the places we learn these things from, and then getting exposed to this for majority of our lives lets it worm its way into our brain where it'll tend to stay

and if one's brain also has a tendency for self hatred and/or mental illness........well. it all gets worse.

it's clear in canon that luke is uhhhh not the most mentally well individual. his guilt is so overwhelming that it's the driving force in so many of his choices, stories, and experiences. which is big reason #1 for why luke just seems so catholic to me, because of the sheer intensity of his guilt and how he sees himself as inherently bad and unworthy.

but in the roadmap of sin, thats only the beginning. because the process goes:

sin (bad) -> recognition of the bad aided by guilt (good) -> atonement to become better (good)

which leads to big reason #2

part 2: suffering, pain, and misery as atonement

it's important to note that catholicism does not posit that "suffering is good", but there is a clear pattern of veneration for people who endure suffering under noble causes. many, many people in catholic history have been martyred (and many also sainted), one of the biggest examples being jesus himself.

pain is not good, but someone who chooses to take it on for good reasons (self-sacrifice, martyrdom, putting others above one's self) or stays good in spite of all the pain they experienced (unwavering faith, a heart of gold), well, THAT person is good.

however, like a lot of stuff in catholicism, things get twisted into extreme variations because of how it gets taught or experienced. it doesnt take a genius to see how "people who endured pain for good reasons were brave and devoted people" can transform into "to experience pain is inherently noble" when you take into consideration that many sins (like, of the seven deadly sins variety, pride, sloth, lust, etc etc) are variations of indulgence.

specifically over-indulgence, yes, but there's a dichotomy now. here, in the list of Good Stuff are things that feel not-so-good, and over in the list of Bad Stuff are things that do feel good

bad stuff is a sin, and from part 1, sins are things you should be guilty for

and now, to feel good is also bad, so you should be guilty for that. which reinforces the concept that to feel bad is good.

congratulations, you've unintentionally glorified suffering and demonized pleasure! //sad trumpet noises

you can see this kind of thinking pretty clearly in luke pearce. there are the big examples like the previous one i brought up, where he feels so guilty for his feelings for mc. but it appears even in smaller casual situations, like in his 1st birthday event story. this moment was seared into my brain

"can i look forward to this?" is indicative of hesitating in the face of happiness. even something as mundane as anticipating a birthday surprise is something to be approached with caution, feels too good to be true, to be allowed, because feeling good is bad and luke doesnt see himself worthy of it

but okay, we're all guilty now of the horrible sin of enjoying life. what comes next? atonement, becoming better, growing from the bad to become good, right?

and what better way to cleanse one's self from the sin of feeling good but through the nobleness of enduring pain?

luke is guilty over the sin robbing burdening mc and her family -> thats okay he's leaving for college anyway! wont be able to burden them there -> oopsie the NSB happens but hey at least this lone wolf suffering is a great way to atone for his past sin -> oh god the guilt of abandoning mc though -> oh GOD the mission that killed everybody but him -> NEW ACHIEVEMENT: SURVIVOR'S GUILT ON TOP OF THE CATHOLIC GUILT! -> oh GOD he's even guiltier now of his feelings for mc because of his illness, he'll only bring pain to her, how selfish of him to have feelings like this, bad and wrong -> the best way to handle this is to stay away from her to let her live in peace (lacking the pain that luke will bring) and deprive himself of her who brings him joy (inflicting pain of separation onto sinner as punishment) -> the path to salvation (to being good, because only in being Good is someone worthy of love) is through constant suffering and endless self-deprivation

kinda insane how luke's self-perceived sins and self-inflicted sufferings gain compound interest of misery, but his spiral into self-loathing is littered with this kind of nonsensical "because i did [THING], i should deserve pain/NOT deserve happiness"

for luke, suffering became the mode of atonement, it became the solution for sin and guilt.

part 3: conclusion

to wrap this all up, i wanna make it clear that i dont necessarily think luke is like, catholic in the story. nor is even it a headcanon i have. it's more that the intensely self-punishing thought patterns luke has in relation to guilt and suffering are very, very familiar. it resonates in a way that is horridly relatable to people who have experienced these specific catholic experience woes, but it can also resonate in completely different ways to other people as well.

but given that....yeah. based on my own experiences, all this //gestures at too-long response, is why i keep using catholic language and imagery whenever i talk about luke. it's so familiar. he's so familiar. luke would not be out of place in a filipino catholic high school crying during a 3 day retreat

thanks for the ask!!!

[2bit-sunshine]

I saw your old fb posts today. The ones you tagged me in and they have pictures of us having fun. All three of us. I never thought i could see you look so happy and hate you so much.

Did i really know so little? Did i really ignore all the things wrong with you two? Did i really let him slip into such a depression and just... think it was just that? Depression? We all have it. You, him and I and all our friends

I hate that you hurt him for so long. A low heat burn that lasted a decade. That you two were miserable and you both kept going. For what? What was left you were hoping to salvage? Are you still hoping you can salvage something?

You never wrote me back. I dont know if i made you cry or angry or shit talk me to all your friends. I dont know if youre doing well or if youre drunk in a gutter.

He said he saw someone in dc this week, strung out on the sidewalk that looked like an old friend. Was it you? Or someone we know? Did they just look familiar? Are you okay? Ill never know.

Then again i thought id never be friends with any of my exes. And i have three of them with me as friends now. Can. Can you say the same? Are you okay? I keep asking because thats the question i want someone to ask me when im in the shit. Are you okay? Are you fucking okay?

I dont know

I regret letting go. I hope youre well. I hope youre chasing happiness and your best self. And you dont drink as much. You dont need it. You can be such a light. I meant that in my letter dude. Youre a burning light. Just remember that your light can blind you too. Sometimes folks are around you choking on the smoke and getting high on the fumes.

Youre intoxicating. I loved you. I still do in some ways. I also detest you for so, so much. I wonder if i shouldve been harsher. Had more boundaries. Should I had told you that it was fucked, all that you did? You chose death at that one moment didnt you? In front of him? Idk he hasnt told me much about how it played out. Thats what he said though. You chose death over him or life for that matter. But you strung him along after that. You didnt break up for a whole 2 years after that

You talked once that they should be grateful you got them jobs. But. Are you grateful that he brought you home that night? Idk. Im rambling. But im also hurting. And reminiscing.

We used to sing together. I hope if I ever get to ask you if you are okay, you can say with confidence and truth, that you are okay. Maybe we can sing again.

[vividaway]

mini analysis on the finale

yall im not even gonna lie..........i liked the season 5 finale. the concept that these are teenagers who have been beaten and worn down to a crisp to the point of multiple mental breakdowns from both marinette and adrien.........like of course marinette didn’t tell adrien. she’s a literal child, and she loves him, and honestly? its really not her PLACE to tell him. emilie knows about gabriels involvement with the miraculous. nathalie knows about EVERYTHING. there are multiple ADULTS who can step in and talk to him about this, and they chose not to. multiple people have said it: of COURSE adrien deserve to know, and i will be very upset if they never write in him finding out. but it also seems excessively cruel to do that to adrien. as far as adrien is aware, his dad was trying. he thinks his dad is a man chiseled away by depression and grief, who turned towards his works to cope with the loss. he believes there was a turning point where his father started to try. he allowed him to go to school, to make new friends and go to their house, allowed him to quit, started to show up to school events, and finally started to show him affection. adrien is none the wiser on WHY, and it feels extremely cruel to take away what little happy moments he had left with his father. what is the bare minimum to us, is literally EVERYTHING to adrien, and to me, that does mean something. to me, seeing gabriel sacrifice himself for adrien and his wife-- means EVERYTHING. it is what differentiates an evil, unrecoverable person, from a dynamic character who was never meant to be a good person. we were never meant to like gabriel. he’s the villain! but that doesn’t mean we aren’t supposed to be sympathetic to certain aspects of his journey.  i really do think his character was written well. gabriel is a bad, unredeemable man, who did one good action. i personally can’t look at gabriel from season one and say, “he shouldve sacrificed his life in place of his wives life sooner”, it feels wrong. gabriel from season 1 was EXTREMELY different from gabriel from season 5. we see him change (for the worse) over the course of five seasons. 

and the thing about how gabriel is written is like, its realistic. gabriel isnt just a cartoon villain from some kids show, he show’s patterns of real life villains as well. the manipulation, the lying, the guilt tripping, the abuse-- all of it. and thats why, i understand why some people are pissed he got redeemed. but for me, i see the build up. lila has the photographs from gabriels house, and she knews he was monarch. on top of this, it seems like she’s the successor to the butterfly miraculous. people know what he did, and its not just the people on the good side. i don’t see gabriel staying a sympathetic figure for much longer. but all this being said, i dont think it was the worst. the pacing was great, and the animation was top tier for me. theres so many episodes where i can predict whats going to happen next, but i couldn’t with this one. some thing about it just felt....special. like if you showed alyssa from 2016 the finale, i could literally die. no need to show a peasant child, just showing Season One Era fans what happened and how it looks and we’d just. die. everything about it 10x better than we couldve imagined. the writing, the animation, the pacing, the score, the dialogue, the way the world has expanded and been built up and how often we’re interacting with “background characters”.  for once, it felt like i was watching a real show, with a plot that made sense, and wasnt a dumpster fire. but...from reading the #MLBS5Spoilers tag....yall do NOT agree with my sentiments! and thats okay! 

[legofemme]

I like portal revolution a lot but i certainly think its the weakest out of the fangames. Ps:m has more consistent difficulty and a (in my opinion) better story, and aperture tag has an interesting gimmick thats super fun even if the story is. Nonexistent. I just feel like revolution shouldve more strongly committed to certain things and... The ending is really bad, im sorry. For one, stirling switches from calling what happened at the spire an accident to blaming the mc and wanting to kill her shockingly quick. Even before he finds out that conly wants to stop him. If they had elaborated on it and been like "oh its his abandonment issues that made him think that" then mayyybe it wouldve been better ? And the ending cutscene is nigh incomprehensible. I had to rewind multiple times to figure out what was going on. Either they shouldve committed to everyone dying in the explosion, or committed to conly and the mc surviving in the facility. The halfsies style ending they chose with conly (and stirling?) ending up on the moon whereas the mc is nearly killed makes very little sense for either characters and its a bit frustrating. I could go more in depth as to How it makes no sense but. I feel like if youve played/watched it then you know what im talking about

I still think revolution is a worthwhile play or watch, but if someone were to ask me for a fanmod to play, im still going to recommend ps:m first .

[deafeninggardenerpanda]

proper post on the Thing™. tws for grooming mention and nsfw mentions im sure everyone gets the drill. im kinda obligated here to make a full reply since i was involved with the issue but Hopefully there wont be another post on this matter. if anyone has issues about what i say/think i didnt address something, talk to me in private yea im more than willing to listen and exchange views. i consulted with several people to make this post in the first place

i havent been keeping up with every response under the sun but i did see opal and blue-jester and some other people in positions of responsibility apologize, so im not gonna rag on them or go on and on about "they should know better!!" because they already know that now. instead ill talk about why i did what i did and why i thought what i did

yep i called opal a groomer at one point. oops thats on me and i shouldnt have thrown around a serious term and accusation like that without getting a better grasp on the situation. lets get that out of the way

to start, how the situation played out was i got an anon saying that i was mentioned in a callout post mtthrw made.

i dont know who sent this ask and it doesnt particularly matter. i just went to go check out the post, which was public and tagged with the main tags. this was not something given to me in private which i decided to spread publicly. first of all it was still in its 242 page glory and had minors discord ids and a lot of peoples discord developer ids (the string of numbers connected to your account that you cant change) on it. i wanted to boost the post eventually, but i was aware that i shouldnt boost something with that kind of information on it, so i dm'd the person who created the doc and gave them my suggestions first (i was the reason why the doc was shortened down to 54 pages later, for example).

they said theyd keep the former doc on the post as well, but i thought they wouldve taken out the developer ids and discord ids of minors in that one too. to be honest i dont know the extent they censored on either document, i was busy talking to other people (like quakey and another adult involved in the callout doc) at this time and then the docs got taken down before i could see them again. also note that i definitely shouldve asked them to censor the names of minors In General and not just the ids, so again, sorry, thats on me. anyways continuing with the actual events that happened, i made a vaguepost warning people to block the "negative" tag if they didnt want to see drama. (unrelated but yeah, also my bad for calling it tea/drama instead of taking it more seriously. i apologized for it after getting an anon about it later.) when i made the vaguepost i got a ton of people asking what was up, so i dm'd them.

i dm'd five people in total for this, all of which except for one or two i considered friends. that said, i have no clue how many people got access to this doc directly because of the people i shared it with. i made a lot of careless and irresponsible mistakes in my handling this, and im sorry for that. but for reasons ill cover in more detail as this post goes on, i dont think the person who made the doc had malicious intent or meant to cause harm to the minors involved.

yall see all the apologizing i just did right, now its time for me to state my case on why i seriously thought opal was a groomer at the time i called her one. btw im not gonna work to cover mtthrws ass on this, thats something they can and should make a comment on on their own.

for some reason some people think that i called opal a groomer because i personally dont like them or have personal beef with them which. Dude?? no?? i dont go around calling people groomers because of petty bullshit. as i said before, i dont know how many people saw this doc itself. i dont know how many people are commenting on this based on context other people are posting only. the doc was not up for that long, so i want to make it clear the ways opal was shown acting in the screenshots provided. this is not to send harassment or to rag on her, shes since stated she will change how she deals with these matters in the future and i am aware of that.

excuse me for not having the screenshots to back my words up (or if i do the screenshots are mad compressed), or not having complete recollection of the exact parties involved. as said ofc the doc was taken down, im reciting this to the best of my recollection, but i think people who saw the doc themselves will be able to back me up on a good portion of this at least. during the magowhore saga, there were a lot of people who came up to opal with their concerns regarding her interaction with minors and the suggestive content she was posting, as shown by her posting the anon asks she got in the planet-popstar discord. both these screenshots and her (as well as some other adults in the server) reactions to them were recorded in the doc.

types of reactions she had were; saying they're just jokes; (joking about it in itself); it was magolors fault for being horny, not her*; thats just how magolors character is; there's a difference between a character and the person writing it so she doesn't need to take responsibility (second screenshot below); (when initially getting vagueposted about her irresponsibility regarding the magowhore saga) lamenting about how people who she liked or looked up to had liked the vaguepost/agreed that she was being irresponsible (first screenshot below); directing blame onto kirbypurrs; assuming people sending her asks with concerns were part of kirbypurrs' clique** and thus disregarded them; called asks with concerns hatemail; deflecting responsibility onto minors if they saw or were interacting with her content; said that people who had concerns about her interactions with minors should just block if they dont like it; being extremely aggressive about people coming up to her with concerns in general; saying that people getting on her ass for the whole magowhore saga was breaking her stride/lamenting about how all this had to happen right as she thought she was finally getting somewhere

and, while not opal saying these next things specifically, i thought these were notable enough to mention about that servers culture: there were people around her advising her to not say anything publicly and to just lie low and wait until this whole thing blew over because people would accuse her of deflecting responsibility if she just said it was magolors fault again, and people called anyone who came up to her with concerns "purity culture nuts" and that they needed to stop infantizing minors

and of course, we cant forget about the stuff in the document not concerning the magowhore saga, like talking about kinks in front of minors or knowing minors were reading/seeing suggestive stuff and letting it happen, as well occasionally talking to minors about suggestive things directly. and her knowing that there were minors in the server, some people who she was speaking to were minors, and people in the community were uncomfortable with her behavior around minors

*yeah i know magolor is her headspace buddy or something of the sort. still not remotely okay to effectively put your legs up about the whole affair because its not Really you doing it

**i got shittalked in this server too btw (by blue-jester and one other person) because ppl assumed i was part of purrs' clique. which, rude i havent spoken to or interacted with them in like 6 months. no clue why people are so rabid about purrs all the time.

with all that said, my point here is that i do not believe it was out of line in the slightest to believe that opal would not have listened to or taken peoples concerns seriously if asked directly, considering her stubbornness and aggressiveness about the situation for so long. i considered this behavior and her unwillingness to change or do whats appropriate as guilt and maliciousness by aggressive inaction, and her aggressiveness on the topic in general led me to believe she was going to continue this behavior for as long as she could get away with it. i understand why mtthrw thought this warranted a callout and needed more eyes on it for things to change. thats not to say i dont think they shouldnt have at least tried to settle this with the involved people in private beforehand, but i think people have downplayed what opal did (or at the very least, i havent seen anyone comment on the sheer extent of her stubbornness regarding this like above) in favor of getting up in arms against mtthrw for calling opal a groomer when they arent. which again, yeah yeah i know its totally fair to get upset at them for that + the leaking minors names thing, but the thing thats baffling me here is that i keep hearing people say mtthrw wanted minors to be hurt by making that doc. i think this was a callout post made with good intentions--mtthrws openness with hearing out and taking suggestions and concerns with the doc when i initially came up to them about it said a lot--but handled rather badly and needing a lot more peer review before being posted publicly.

thats really my view on this.

also for the record, since some people think this conflict is a "we need to protect the pure teenages who cant handle hearing the word 'penis' uwu" issue, its not. im not an idiot, i know people get into all that stuff before theyre properly of age all the time. its practically a teenager rite of passage, frankly id be more surprised if they didnt get into that somehow. my issue has always, always been concerns with minors and adults engaging in suggestive talk in the same space. i literally could not give less of a shit if it were two 15 or 16 year olds talking about sex together in a server of only minors. opal is a college graduate, 21+. the minors interacting with her were 15-17. the adults in that server didnt groom them, but acceptance of that behavior leaves those minors wide-open to being okay with similar scenarios with people who don't have good intentions in the future.

i myself used to consume nsfw content as young as 15. coincidently, i was also a hardcore proshipper and impressionable kid at this time, who thought they knew what they were doing and always had all the answers. i wasnt groomed or anything, but those experiences affected me. i interacted with adults in suggestive and inappropriate ways looking back at it, just like this situation. my former experiences (and the fact that some stuff the adults in that server said, such deflecting responsibility onto minors even if theyre in the same convo as adults, and calling anyone who disagreed with them purity culture nuts, closely reflects some proshipper arguments) led me to jump the gun on believing there was malicious intent from the adults in that server. so again, im sorry and take full responsibility for being so rash in my actions. i sincerely hope all involved parties learn from this and be better in the future, including myself. i've never wanted minors to be hurt from this. to people in my own discord server, i hope that my own rules regarding suggestive talk/content, even despite my server already being 17+ on its own, show that this is a topic ive always cared about and taken seriously. i do not want people to make the same mistakes i did

as ive said before, theres a line in which minors take responsibility for consuming this content. if a kid purposely lies about their age to get access to 18+ material, that's on them. if a kid is openly engaging in suggestive and innappropiate talks with adults, even as a joke, thats on the adults.

by the way, on the point of accidently hurting minors, would anyone mind filling me in on why i keep hearing people say minors will get harassed from this? i talked to like 5 people about it and literally no one had a clue. as far as i know, the two sides on this issue are "the minors were victims and the adults were at fault" and "the minors did nothing wrong because they chose to interact with the material", neither of which warrant any grievances against the minors involved. like /gen /srs if anyone knows fill me in because i am lost on why in the world people would attack the affected party

[flawedfemalecharacter]

thank u for tagging me remi!!! @kaleidoskuls

rules: bold the ones that are true and tag fifteen (15) other bloggers to do it too!

APPEARANCE:

i’m over 5’5” // i wear glasses/contacts // i have blonde hair // i prefer loose clothing to tight clothing // i have one or more piercings (used to have on on my ear put she closed tf up) // i have at least one tattoo // i have blue eyes // i have died or highlighted my hair (once when i was twelve w semi permanent dye lol) // i have gotten plastic surgery // i have or had braces (i had a retainer and it sucked) // i sunburn easily // i have freckles // i paint my nails (very rarely) // i typically wear makeup (i used to not wear it for a while and i honestly miss that) // i don’t often smile // i am pleased with how i look (if u ignore the eating disorder) // i prefer nike to adidas // i wear baseball hats backwards

HOBBIES & TALENTS:

i play a sport // i can play an instrument (sorta . the basics)  // i am artistic // i know more than one language // i have won a trophy in some sort of competition // i can cook or bake without a recipe // i know how to swim // i enjoy writing // i can do origami // i prefer movies to tv shows // i can execute a perfect somersault // i enjoy singing // i could survive in the wild on my own (im delulu abt this but) // i have read a new book series this year // i enjoy spending time with friends // i travel during school or work breaks // i can do a handstand (physically probably mentally fuck no)

RELATIONSHIPS:

i am in a relationship // i have been single for over a year // i have a crush // i have a best friend i have known for ten years (7 years and counting) // my parents are together // i have dated my best friend // i am adopted // my crush has confessed to me // i have a long distance relationship // i am an only child // i give advice to my friends // i have made an online friend  // i met up with someone i have met online (funny story i have this friend i went to hs w but we never talked in hs we started talking online)

AESTHETICS:

i have heard the ocean in a conch shell // i have watched the sun rise // i enjoy rainy days // i have slept under the stars // i meditate outside // the sound of chirping calms me // i enjoy the smell of the beach // i know what snow tastes like // i listen to music to fall asleep // i enjoy thunderstorms // i enjoy cloud watching // i have attended a bonfire // i pay close attention to colours // i find mystery in the ocean (ngl im rlly scared of her) // i enjoy hiking on nature paths // autumn is my favourite season

MISCELLANEOUS:

i can fall asleep in a moving vehicle // i am the mum friend (controversial take) // i live by a certain quote (honestly i dont remember it but i think i saw some post on tumblr ages ago that talked abt how being dead would be so boring and thats how im still alive today) // i like the smell of sharpies // i am involved in extracurricular activities (used to be in hs) // i enjoy mexican food (sad mi se jede meksicka hrana) // i can drive a stick-shift // i believe in true love (i believe all love is true love) // i make up scenarios to fall asleep // i sing in the shower (havent done that in a long time eww) // i wish i lived in a video game // i have a canopy above my bed (i wishhhhh) // i am multiracial // i am a redhead (shouldve been i stand by this) // i own at least three dogs

tagging: @fantastista @nocakesformissedith @nefhertari @cyypress @dyk3-on-a-byk3 @ariesbilly @decadentworld @imsodishy @pikslasrce @hummingbird-hooligan @blessyouhawkeye @theultimatewildcard @gay-archie @uwussy @theunvanquishedzims (this is the first time i actually tagged 15 ppl) + anyone who wants to join!!!

[emmamushi]

Tags that didn’t make the cut but still made me chuckle

#absolute salvador dali of a dog #bro got stretched #century old sack of beans #character popsicle from the ice cream truck in july #clumbo dog. i think #content aware scaling #dog named finger #dog that goes hrumph!! Hrumph!!! #dogs that look like Jedi robes #dude looks like he invented tartan #earthbound encounter #flesh muppet #fuck the apple newton shouldve just pointed at this beast to prove gravity #girl give that dog some clothspins #god i just know he sings the loudest songs #he doesn’t need all that skin #he has the side profile of the titanic #he is made of pasta dough #he looks like a deflated tardigrade #he looks like a smear frame #he looks like a taxidermy #he looks like a vertically stretched PowerPoint image #he looks like an old quake texture that got stretched #he looks like he folds and unfolds like an accordion #he needs to be reinflated i think #he's got that labia majora swag #Hes like If slime had thoughts #hey man can you put your dog back in the freezer or something its melting all over the place #his face was put in to one of those hydrolic presses from TikTok #hoooly shit That's Slop #i bet if you poke him he sounds like a whoopee cushion #i bet its fucked up when this thing sneezes #i have rhis picture on my phone but instead it says dogs when you wont let them eat pure uranium #I mean this in the nicest way possible but he looks like a chewed up tootsie roll #I would like to put him in zero gravity and see what happens #im sorry master bruce i cant let you do that #in version 2.0 we'll increase the skeleton and reduce the skin #it’s like if that giant stretchy Mario head was a dog #italian mob patriarch #its cause he hasn't forgiven you for putting him through the taffy puller #it's him the opposite of lemmedoitforyou #kinda pussycore ngl #knuttsach jones #looks like one of those old vacuum cleaner bags #mans is losing pressure. quick someone get an air pump #Mfs turned my dogs local gravity up smh #mitch mcconnell ass dog #my coat when i throw it haphazardly on a chair #my grampa smudge #my rubber man <3 #my son wrinkle who has every disease #nice walrus #oh fuck sorry i accidentally lengthened your dog image #oh my god they fucking stretched him like a png #oh wait is this that flesh creature in that national park pit everyones always talking about #omg iron him out.... #One of my dogs Leonard looks like this #oooohh… sloppy joe dog #paper bag come to life #put him back in the taffy puller. he’s not done yet #put him on the ironing board #roast boof #sentient ham slices #Shit SWANGING #spell of loosen him skin #srry abt your floor when he drinks watwr #stretch arfstrong #take him to the tailors please #that soggy doggy #that’s why old people get wrinkles they need to track scents and small creatures more as they age #that's a mediaeval monk #thats a stalactite #the splodge... #THEY PORTED VAGINEER TO DOG!!?!?!?$?!?! #this dog is experiencing 9Gs and you're laughing? #this should be illegal #this weiner dog got caught in the event horizon #unmovable npc #WALTER BITE? #what a frighteningly symmetrical creature #who deflated him #who put this poor dog on the y axis #why bro lookin like vagineer #why he look like maters fursona #yo your dog looks like labia

[edskasbpraks]

8 shows to get to know me!!

thank you @sunshinereddie <3

(in no particular order)

1. GLEE: okay as embarrassing as this sounds i have watched this show +25 times and it made me into the person i am today like it forever changed the trajectory of my life in the most serious way possible😭 little 12 years old me didnt know what they were getting themselves into when she first clicked Play on that first ep…. shouldve known i would basically base my entire personality on this show and the characters for way too many years ….. so yeah this show will always have the most special place in my heart bc it has been the biggest part of my life for SOO long:)

2. GHOST WHISPERER: OKAYYY i adore this show i ADOOORE IT:) what makes it so special to me is that i’ve been watching it on tv with my mom since i was a kid and it’s just soooo!!! so great a little corny sometimes but it’s one of my biggest comfort show ever ever:)) jimelinda forever

3. STRANGER THINGS: sorry i’m basic but this show is just so so great ANND POPULAR FOR A REASON!!!!!! i’ve watched it when it first came out and i have never been the same ever since. last season is kinda shit but the characters are just sooo special to me<333

4. JULIE AND THE PHANTOMS: :(( so much wasted potential on this show!!!!!!!!! i’m so so sad it got cancelled because even if there’s only 9 eps its truly one of my favourite show!!!! i always rewatch it when im sad it never fails to make me feel better . also im always streaming the songs because they are just SO FREAKING GOOOOOD!!!!!

5. OUR FLAG MEANS DEATH: my little baby my sweet angel i adore this show and the characters:) i don’t mention it a lot anymore sadly because the fandom went to shit SOOO fast and now i feel weird talking about it lol:( but yeah even tho this show came out last year it forever changed the trajectory of my life i can’t wait for season 2

6. FLIGHT OF THE CONCHORDS: ofmd brainrot lead to the fotc brainrot i fell in love with this show it’s sooo silly but sooo good and the songs are great😭😭 i love those silly little guys sm . once again a truly comforting show

7. BATES MOTEL: i haven’t watched this in so long but since the tag is « to get to know me » im adding it because you truly have to know this show to get to know me it made me insane it messed up my brain chemistry. once again a show i watched w my mom so it holds a special place in my heart:)

8. IT’S ALWAYS SUNNY IN PHILADELPHIA: last but not least this crazy show . what makes it soo special to me is that it’s the reason i met so many of my now best friends because of it so i’ll always be grateful my sibling put me in front of the tv on day and said We are gonna watch this show .

OKAYY THATS ITTT not tagging anyone but whoever wants to do it goooooo!!!!:)

[notedchampagne]

im tempted to take as many “what homestuck character are you” quizzes and tally up my answers to discover my Ultimate Homestuck Assigned Kin

[rionah]

cream latte, cuz i love you a latte.

IN WHICH you fall for the girl who’s often behind the scenes.

sae-byeok x fem! reader

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you fussed through your phone standing at the front gates of the middle school, the college you attended held a week long program of which students would assist the people who worked there for extra credits.

attendance was optional and at first, you didn’t intend to go. but your friend mi-nyeo made a big enough deal about it to convince you to tag along.

now, the two of you WERE going to attend together. but that was until she called you last minute to say she couldnt make it.

“Are you kidding me?!? Come on i only came because you said you’d go!”

jumbled up words of whining came through the other line, you rolled your eyes at her.

→ “I KNOWW! lOOK my stupid co-worker just got sick and they called me in to cover his shift last minute and-”

“i think we both know you aren’t THAT kind to cover for someone elses shift..”

→ “okay wow thank you so much for that”

“was it that hot co-worker guy you were talking about before?”

→ “you- *cough* yeah what about it”

rolling your eyes at her through the phone, you sighed in defeat and succumbed to the inevitable.

“whatever you simping ass, be sure to attend tomorrow tho or else i’ll stop letting you borrow my notes.”

words of retaliation were spewed before she muttered something through the phone.

→ “your bisexual ass is gonna thank me..”

“what?”

→ “nothing! BYE”

the phone call ended before you could speak, shaking your head at mi-nyeo’s actions you shrugged it off and made your way to the classroom where the program was to take place.

apart of you wanted to ditch and just go home, but you felt too bad because, well. children.

there were a only about 2 other people and students in the classroom you were appointed, the teacher then introduced you to the kids before leaving to have you get to know each other.

all you had to do was get along with the kids, look after them, get them comfortable with you, and maybe teach them afew basic lessons, it seemed easy enough right? its basically just babysitting.

wrong, you just remembered that you didn’t know shit about getting along with kids.

approaching a group of energetic boys who were messing around with each other on their seats, you bent down alittle and made an attempt to have a conversation with them.

“hey there, my name’s y/n you guys look like you’re having fun mind if i join you?”

a boy stopped to look at you and stood there silently judging you. the way he didn’t say anything for a good five minutes got really intolerable.

your smile strained and you were about to say something, but the kid started laughing at you.

“HAHAHHAHA you cant! you’re a girl! girls are gross!”

he then took off turning away to his friends.

you scrunched your nose in annoyance at the boy, how rude of him. were kids always this anoyying? and damn i guess even kids could be sexist.

looking around to maybe find another kid to try and get along with, you spotted a little boy sitting alone at a seat by the door.

the boy had a bandaid on his left cheek, his head was lowered as he occasionally peeked out the window as if he were waiting for someone.

having felt that he was lonely, you walked towards his direction.

“hey there, are you okay?”

he lifted his head at you and said nothing, only shaking you off and peering out of the window. assuming that he was just shy, you took the empty seat infront of him and tried again.

“are you waiting for someone?”

the boy only nodded his head at you. goddamn now you felt nervous. maybe you really shouldve gone back home.

“um.. name, whats you’re name?”

turning his head towards you, it seemed like he noticed how awkward you were. and to give you the benefit of the doubt, he answered.

“…cheol. kang cheol.”

the kid tilted his head at you in amusement when you visibly perked up when he answered.

“thats a really manly name!”

“yeah.. people say that alot..”

remembering that you had some candy in your pocket, you brightened and offered some to him. you doubted that you would get along with these kids through a conversation.

so you were determined to bribe him into liking you.

“here have some candy, but dont tell anyone i gave it to you.”

skeptically looking at your extended hand, he eyed the candy before refusing it.

“my sister told me to not take things from strangers..”

“im still a stranger??!”

actually yes you were lmao.

“oh sorry, im y/n. there you know my name, were not strangers anymore right?”

tilting his head at you, he mumbled.

“i dont think it works like that.. youre weird…”

“hey! Im trying!”

he couldn’t help but let out a meek laugh, he didn’t know if you were weird or funny. but seeing you try so hard was funny to him.

sighing in defeat a smile made its way onto your face, i mean atleast he laughed right? eyes diverting to the bandaid on his face, you asked subconsciously.

“what happened to your face? you aren’t getting into any trouble are you?”

cheol casted his gaze down for a bit and hesitated to answer, you mentally scolded yourself for asking the question because what if it was personal???? damn did you just trigger a bad memory-

“i just fell, what are you doing here?”

“i- uh”

you got ditched by your simp of a friend and now you feel obligated to be here laugh out loud.

“oh, you know.. to be a good influence haha”

“you dont look like you wanna be here tho..”

“do i??”

“yeah.”

why is this kid so curt?? you didn’t feel like you were talking to a grade schooler at all.

“you said that out loud y’know..”

“oh- oH im sorry”

falling back in your seat you groaned, you had no idea what to do and frankly enough you started regretting attending.

lazily reaching into your pocket and poping a candy into your mouth, you offered him a piece once again. this time, he accepted your offer.

“oh hey does this mean im not a stranger anymore?”

“i guess so..”

another silence fell over the two of you, at this point you’ve given up talking to the kid. the two of you kinda just sat there watching everyone else do whatever.

nothing especially worth mentioning occurred for the past few minutes, that was until cheol caught a glint of something in your backpack.

“what’s that?”

raising your head up at him, you realized that he was pointing at the keychain that hung on the zipper of your bag.

“oh this? it’s a souvenir from jeju island.”

“you’ve gone to jeju island?”

your heart softened at the noticeable glint in his eyes. the boy looked at you eagerly as you unclipped it from your bag to have you take a closer look.

“yeah i have, it’s really pretty. have you been there too?”

“no I haven’t, but my sister talked about it before.. we saw it on TV and i wanna take her there someday..”

fuck that was so cute you could die.

thinking for a bit, you snapped your fingers after remembering something.

tapping the side of his desk, you reached for something in your bag before sliding another spare key chain towards his direction. the boy lifted his head up at you in confusion and all you could do was smile at him.

“you can have that for yourself and give this one to your sister. i’ve got a bit of a stash at home anyways.”

he looked up at you in fascination with a look that said ‘really?’ he shyly nodded his head at you after you gave him a thumbs up in confirmation.

shortly after that, the classroom door creeked open. only for you to be met with a tall and might i add GORGEOUS woman.

cheol’s mood seemed to brighten up even more after the lady came in, a ghost of a smile came across her face as he got up to great her.

“nuna, look at this. the girl over there gave them to me.”

he said, extending his opened palm towards her as she slightly bent down to inspect the little trinket.

“whats this?”

“they’re from jeju island, the nice girl gave them to me.”

you were bestowed upon a brain error when she came in, but the way she turned her head towards your direction after cheol pointed towards you?? dear lord is she trying to kill you? and you’ve only just met too.

the pretty lady was taken aback before she walked towards your direction, extending her hand and mumbling from beneath her breath.

“thanks for looking after my brother.”

snapping yourself out of your momentary daze, you took her hand and nodded maybe a bit too eagerly.

“oh its not a problem, he’s a good kid. but anyways, are you here to discuss something with his teacher? im afraid that were having a program right now but I’m sure she’ll be back soon”

shaking her head to the side, the girl crossed her arms and responded.

“no i’m here for the program.. i’m pretty sure i’ve seen you around at campus too..? your name’s y/n right?”

oh fuck wait why didn’t you know that a girl as pretty as her was attending the same college as you?? and what she knows your name? she pays attention to you?

“huh? oh- i’m sorry I dont remember aha..”

“you don’t remember your name..?”

waving your hand around in realization of the misunderstanding, you sheepishly apologized to her. dagnabit her attractiveness is getting to your head and now you’re embarrassing your self.

ah, the pains of being weak for pretty people.

“oh nonono i mean- yes im y/n i just don’t recall seeing you… ahahahahahaha”

man you wanted someone to drop from the skies above and slap you.

“its fine, i’m kang sae-byeok.”

“sae-byeok..? oh thats right! i’ve heard mi-nyeo talk about you from time to time”

she scrunched her nose at the mention of the girl, her hand making its way to the back of her nape and rubbing it sheepishly.

“did she.. say anything weird?”

“oh no, she didn’t. i can reassure you on that… i think”

a small sigh was heard from beside the two of you, cheol crossed his arms and grabbed onto sae-byeok’s wrist.

“you’re suppose to be assistant teachers, i dont even know why you signed up for this you suck at talking to people”

“cheol. shut up.”

all you could do was watch in amusement as the stone faced girl’s demeanor faltered for a second as she was dragged away by her brother.

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this is part one i kinda wanna make a series

[deafeninggardenerpanda]

apparently ive somehow gotten roped into being a main actor in this whole thing so ill write something short right now. its not a full statement because im tired and need to sleep, just putting this half out here before someone yells at me for something before i wake up since i sleep like 12 hours. ill write a full statement tomorrow probably

this is a developing situation, the callout post was barely even made 6 hours ago at this point. as void said, i was sent an anon saying i was mentioned in this callout post, so i went to go check it out. first of all i vagued about it so people would block the "negative" tag i have, which i use for drama, beforehand, because i wanted to eventually boost the post. key-word being Eventually here. i knew the whole minors having their discord ids out wasnt a great thing to boost, so that's why i didn't do it immediately. i went to go message the person who made the doc first about it.

i do admit that calling opal a groomer (especially without boosting that post) and linking it to people in dms while minors names were still on it was irresponsible, so im sorry for that. but i think its a stretch to say that the person who made the doc is a malicious actor.

while i dont know the extent of what the general fandom thinks of opals behavior, opal has a history of being irresponsible with content. this doc coming to light right after the drama regarding the magowhore saga struck me as a big red flag towards opal as a whole, but i get that these screenshot were mostly taken before she apologized for that. though she avoided responsibility in ways i wont cover this second while getting called out initially during the magowhore saga, i dont know her true current feelings on that whole thing so im like, waving my hand on this point. mostly, i wanted to boost the post because i wanted her+others to be more conscious and responsible about everything (since again, somewhat of a reoccurring issue), as well as to once again, tell minors that this kind of behavior is unacceptable and they should be wary about interacting with it and with people who do this, if at all. i was under the impression that the person who wrote the doc meant the same. but yeah, i dont know their feelings either and i shouldve been more careful with spreading that if i didnt know

ive been talking with some people involved in this (someone in the callout doc) as well during this time, another reason why i didnt boost it immediately. and hmmm their arguments were wildly unpromising and red-flag raising and they didn't take responsibility for anything, so again, i dont think this doc was made with malicious intent, even with putting a bit of a blame blanket on people. maybe irresponsible, but not malicious. thats all i have to say for now i guess until more developments pop up in the morning

New post. Sorry I'm still going on about this. Heres the drama everyone's been vagueing about.

TLDR: Opal is still talked about NSFW stuff with minors present, but whoever the fuck Mtthrw is needs to come out. The original doc was taken down by Google.

Opal Owl Flight, in a server made by Blue Jester, started a "magolor cult" which devolved into talking about and posting NSFW stuff about Magolor. In this chat Minors could freely access it as well as interact with it. Opal also interacted with some of them, and encouraged a minor who was drawing (what is implied to be in the google doc) NSFW art of Magolor. Honestly while some of the worst stuff in this doc isn't set in stone, theres a lot of shit that just shouldn't have happened. Basically ERPing with someone else in a public chat and talking about kinks in front of children is beyond irresponsible. Opal also answered suggestive asks on their blog from minors without properly checking their ages. When they made their new blog it was easy to find and not password protected/hidden from searches in any way, which credit to Opal was fixed. Blue Jester did try to reign stuff in their server in at first, but eventually just decided to let it keep happening and engage with it mildly. From what I've seen, neither are denying that what happened in the discord server is true. I still do have access to screenshots, but I wont be sharing them unless someone needs them. And if I do names will be scrubbed.

Opal hasn't taken public responsibility yet for their actions. I don't think Opal was intentionally trying to groom people, but talking about and sharing NSFW content with minors present isn't ok. Blue Jester hasn't taken responsibility for not stopping this behavior in their server. As the owner of it they're somewhat responsible for what goes on, and protecting the users of it.

We know all of this because Mtthrw made a big 242 page long google doc calling all of this out. Posting screenshots without the name of any minor censored or anything. This document got sent to Deafeninggardner through, apparently, just an anon, and they started to spread this around. Currently, it is taken down, by Google. Likely through a request made by someone.

I know this is the case as I deleted a doc of mine, and this message didn't show up. Honestly good on whoever reported this and got it taken down so fast.

In this doc the author makes comments like "^ i have the feeling that in some of these screenshots there were people deleting their messages after saying reprehensible things". Every screenshot was also taken- at the earliest- one week in advance. The Mtthrw blog itself has only had activity since this Tuesday, so this was a long time coming. Some stuff in this document was taken out of context. No channel names are posted, it's not clarified if images are spoiled. Nothing. They also threw a wide net of guilt over people barely involved or unknowledgeable on the situation, which is complete bullshit.

If everyone I've spoken to is being honest, they're all incredibly irresponsible for spreading this doc around in Dms to people. Whoever is behind this is either a malicious actor or didn't think about their actions in the slightest and how it would affect people who are victims. I'm personally at fault for jumping the gun. I'm disappointed in everyone who stirred the pot but didn't spill. Especially since those who stirred the pot had loud voices in this community but stayed silent.

If anyone needs any info or has anything to share, message me on tumblr. I'll be up in the morning.

[fictionkinfessions]

I miss discussing books with Fischl.. debating the major themes and who shouldve been with who and which scenes were well written and which the author rushed just to finish the book. I miss digging out random books on the most obscure topics to prove that the author didnt research thier source material well enough, and Fischl groaning and telling me that it doesnt matter because the inaccuracies made the story fun.

I miss having to explain complicated plots of the books to Bennett. Then having to tell him that no, whatever mystical plot it had isnt actually real, and no Oz talking just like the animals in the book doesnt mean all animals can talk. Ect ect ect.

I miss when Fischl and I got to meet Xingqiu. And we tore into his book like little demons. And he appreciated all the criticism. He even took notes.

I miss him staying in Mond for a few weeks and joining us for a few book discussion sessions.

I miss mom gently shaking me awake in the early morning after falling asleep in the library studying.. I miss having to lecture her about not overworking herself with her permanent injuries. I even miss her laughter as she dismissed how serious it was. I noticed pretty easily when she leaned extra heavy on her cane. She thought I didnt. But Im her son, and what kind of son would I have been if I wasnt as smart as my mother. Adoptive or not.

I.. miss a lot right now. But. Unfortunately? My newly discovered life is an au. One that I've never seen anyone else dabble with. One I created myself from rightful anger over my original timeline.

I wish I could say I was new to this feeling. Of having sourcemates of your loved ones around you who dont even recognize you? Because youre not the version they remember? I suppose thats how kinning obscure/original au's goes though. Nobody ever remembers you properly. Been through it too many times. This one isnt new. But it hurts less at the moment I'll admit that.

Short explanation is I'm Razor. Sure don't sound like him with how Im talking but- Well the new au is a bit stronger than Razor's original timeline, so theres alot less third person talk and more full sentences. I never got lost this time. Parents left me in Varkas care after they died, he passed me off to jean and Kaeya because hes a fucking deadbeat who doesnt understand kids unless he's teaching them to hold weapons, and Lisa adopted me after she returned from Sumeru.

It's a fun timeline so far. definitely a step up from the original. It's nice not wanting to strangle a man over leaving me in the woods for a decade. (Yeah og tl is NOT happy abt that one, Varka. Its all I ever scream abt when Im shifted.) It's nice having a Razor shift that doesnt make me feel braindead or angry (really can hardly think in the normal ones, when I do its about how idiotic Varka was.)

I just wish other people seemed as interested in it as I seem to be. At least my friends don't seem to be responding much when I ramble about the new memories.. I dont think anyone has thought of this au. Almost wish other people would acknowledge what Varka did to canon me so this kinda au would exist a bit more.

Maybe after the festival next patch people will open their eyes a bit more.

Anyway- This went on much longer than I intended, ended up rambling when I just wanted to miss my loved ones hah- Sorry for the long post everyone.

~Razor Minci 🐺📚 (Please leave the last name out of the kin tags mpc, its a timeline specific thing, canon name for proper tagging is just "Razor")