#thats literally what makes them interesting 🙄 What Ever.

[superbellsubways]

anyways. the LoS pmtok you will always be famous

[hijackalx]

LAEZEL SFW HEADCANONS:

okkk shes lowkey very sweet and caring. her tough exterior is just a facade to protect herself but once tav gets to know her theyll see her kinder side. i also feel like shes not as sadistic as she seems? like a lot of the stuff she does/approves of feels like its only because thats what is respectable in githyanki culture. idk. i think she just wants to fit in and feel like shes good enough.

extremely jealous and possessive of tav like if they even suggest interest in anybody else she'll get pissedddd bro expect a fight afterwards she does not share at all

will NOT baby tav at all but thats only because she sees them as capable and strong 💪🏻 i feel like shes rlly just putting herself in tav's shoes and realizing that she would feel so belittled if tav babied her. okay queen of empathy

love language:

giving = quality time. shes a lil stunted when it comes to showing affection but she always wants to be with tav. like she's always kinda lurking and paying attention to what tav is doing lol she wont invite herself over on her own but will secretly be cheesing inside if tav asks her to join them.

receiving = words of affirmation. like i said she seems like the type to me who is kind of insecure when it comes to her self worth, so when tav compliments her or admires her it makes her feel all mushy inside. low key she loves to do stuff she knows will impress tav so theyll be like "wowwww lae'zel ur the coolest!!!" 🤭 also this made me realize she also probably gives acts of service as a love language too.

i also think she is kind of teeny tiny. like the smallest of the companions but STRONG AF BOY 💪🏻 she just looks proportionally smol. maybe like 5'3 or smthn. likes to be big spoon tho cuz she feels more protective of tav that way.

LAE’ZEL NSFW HEADCANONS:

ok so if theres like some random one night stand she will want to be the dominant one. like i feel like she bottoms regardless but she'll want to be in charge. BUT !!!!! she prefers to be submissive HEAR ME OUT !!!!!!!! 🚨🚨🚨🚨‼️‼️ the intimidation rolls for her are sooooo low LIKE A 5 ????  CMON and she literally acts like she is so into it when tav takes charge. like trust me if she trusts tav enough she will want to be pushed around. especially bcz as a githyanki she looks up to ppl who demand respect like that so it only makes sense. i can imagine she'll put on a bratty lil show at first but then she'll just melt in tav's hands like putty bro. will still talk a lot of shit tho. its an ego thing.

she'll love if tav praises her too (words of affirmation remember) and they might even be able to get some praises out of her too if they do it justttt right 🤭🤭

will look up at tav with THE MOST gorgeous doe eyes youve ever seen and it just makes tav wanna go crazyyyy

she likes to be manhandled like SHOW OFF UR STRENGTH TAV !! PROVE YOURE WORTHY !! pick her up and restrain her and all that. feel like she'd be into bondage. also a masochist obv but she kind of likes to hear tav in pain too. but like just in a sexy way.

she likes it rough. like dont even suggest gentle loving sex she'll be bored af. u can do it like that like, once a millennium LMAO.

i also just feel like in general she tries not to let sex "distract" her so her and tav only do it every once in a while.

she finishes quick but she'll want to cum more than once. like shes got hella stamina

lowkey getting the vibe that she gets wet afffff LMAO like stop its not a competition miss slip n' slide 🙄✋ also an outie

aftercare is not rlly a thing with her she takes a piss and is out like a light lol like shes gone asl. in the sense she sleeps rlly good after like tav wont be able to wake her up. will wanna cuddle tho 🥰

[sectumsempraxz]

Hey so I saw your post about Dylan referring to himself as an entity and drawing spirals. Since youre a psycology student, i would love to hear your analysis of this. Also, if possible, could you do the same for Eric's writing? Thanks thats all

I was doing a lot of psychological analyzes of Jeffrey Dahmer and posting them here, but then I started attracting a lot of strange people, so I stopped...

But since a lot of people are asking for this, here we go 🙄

In Carl Jung's psychodynamic theory, spirals or mandalas are expressive artistic forms that can emerge during a psychotic episode when the patient's mind is trying to organize itself.

Here are many examples of art made by psychotic patients in a psychiatric hospital, they are from the book Images of the Unconscious by Nise da Silveira

(it doesn't mean that everybody who does drawings like this are psychotic, obviously it has artistic styles and things like that, but these paintings were made by patients in hospitals. Nise was a brazilian doctor, and Jung was from Switzerland, they notice that without any contact, their patients were drawing the same spirals figures. You can also see that these drawings are somewhat organized because the patients were receiving treatment. You can see from the geometric shapes that there is a meaning, it is the mind trying to organize itself).

Not only did Dylan draw a lot of spirals, but you can also see that his drawings are extremely disorganized and don't make any sense at all.

Furthermore, his writing is extremely confusing, it took me weeks to understand what he was talking about, (while I read Eric's diary in just one day and found it extremely boring)

Here is an example, you can see that love (heart), the road, this fifth dimension, the donward spiral is all mixed up, extremly disorganized.

It's very different from Eric's drawings, which despite the violent themes, you understand what's happening

Dylan's writing often does not follow a chronological order, nor does he talk about real events of his life, he constantly refers to himself as if he were an entity that lives in another dimension (the number 5 in the drawings represents this fifth dimension), in other words, he was unable to establish a connection with reality. Unlike Eric who proclaimed himself a god to irritate people, as a form of rebellion, Dylan really believed in this, in his mind, he literally lived in another dimension. And these spiritual themes regarding the ego itself ("I am an entity") are indicative of psychosis as well.

One interesting thing is that you can see that even the form of Dylan's writing is confusing. I'm not just talking about his bad handwriting, but he always wrote in the corner in a disorganized way, loose words without meaning. When he started his diary you can see that he was fine, but as time passed, his writing became more and more strange, he began to draw more and more these spiritual symbols, and his drawings became a great confusion.

I believe that his diary is a perfect example of a mind that deteriorated over time, but obviously this is just a supposition based on his diary. I also suppose that he wrote in moments of crisis, when he felt bad, sad, and needed to get these things out.

I know that a lot of people must interpret his diary in an artistic way, especially through his poems (and it still is!), but this is also an indication of a mind that was losing touch with reality

When he proclaimed himself the god of sadness, when he said that he had no friends, that he had no love, that no one would ever love him when he did have many friends who liked him, a functioning family that loved and accepted him, and still a promising future, since he was smart and was planning to go to college, all this god of sadness thing could be indicative of delusion too, he couldn't see how loved he actually was.

(there are cases of psychotic depression, it's very rare, but it does exist).

I know he was diagnosed with schizoaffective personality, which I agree with because often people with this diagnosis are also psychotic. But it really depends on how serious the case is, I have a friend who has this diagnosis and is also psychotic, but he has a good connection with reality and will graduate in psychology too.

Therefore, absolutely nothing about Dylan's supposed illness justifies what he did at Columbine. Eric himself was perfectly normal and also decided to do what he did.

[kiitruss]

hi my name is kit, ive been hyperfixated on detco for almost 3 years now and im here to make an insanely long intro post because i wanna post stuff and the other detco artists here are so cool and i dont see them on any other platform (for the most part)

Detective conan fans/the people ive adopted as my mutuals even tho theyre not ! (i follow them, they dont follow back, but i interact with the detco content they post so much that i might as well be that one guy in the corner watching the rest of the mutuals talk) HELLO- some of you have probs seen me in ur rbs/tags (depending on who sees this) , and i dont really ever post my Own things, but i do draw ! a lot ! ive done a lot of things and i want more fans to see bc everyone here is so cool 😭 this isnt an interest post more just a "hey whos out there thatll see what i post" kinda deal- ill attach some art under the cut but pretty much what im trying to say is,, (literally choose whatever speaks to ur heart)

these vary in recent-ness,, im in school and im left with very little time to draw, so some of these are from a month or two ago ;; but i only picked what i think still looks good ^^ some are quick doodles, others are unfinished, or even just drawings to test techniques (like the colored shinichi one)- and the second drawing isnt even detco LMAO

the 3rd and 7th doodles are from my project sekai au, thats an explanation for a different post,, and the last 2 are APTX!Heiji doodles !! the last ones part of a mini comic i made a bit back about him first waking up shrunk, which i can make a post with the whole thing later (maybe- it looks a little wonky)

but thats all for now ^^ sorry long first art post but i wanted to let this be sort of also me introducing my art and myself a bit,, and part of me is that i talk way to fuckin much LMFAO- detco is such a huge hyperfixation, and its so important to me and i just adore it so much- so i ramble and ramble and ramble on and on about it

im really excited to maybe meet some people and yeah ! happy scrolling ^^💚

[midnighteloquence]

den

…

im gonna kms

this hasnt been saved

for the THIRD FUCKING TIME

okay lets do it again i guess fucking bitch i had such good writing in here

heres my code names up to date i guess 🙄

(leaving A out til the end :3)

Friend B: i will never have anything negative to say about her. shes literally in the top three list of people i love. shes the reason im still here. shes my day oner frfr. im so glad she pointed out my bag that one day two years ago, because idk where i’d be if i wasnt her friend. being friends with her has brought me so many other people, so much of my personal development, and in general shes just amazing. not to mention shes so pretty. she makes school actually bearable. in the morning i’ll be pissed off about waking up and she’ll pick a crane fly off the wall or smth and my mood is immediately lifted. i love her with my whole heart

Friend C: oh boy where do i start

the main subject of this rant blog. every other rant on this blog is about him. i will admit that there was a time i liked him. but that was before we even knew each other. it all started going wrong when we became friends.

i admired them because in my eyes they seemed cool. we shared similar “alternative” interests, and they had so many stories to share. but now? i wish i could stop myself from being their friend. i hate their guts, i admit that, but maybe theres a different universe out there where i could like them. where they didnt hug me non consensually, or verbally attacked me as a “joke” (because of how much they love me 🥺), or made sexual jokes about me, or would ask repeatedly for things instead of accepting i said no, or lied pathologically, or did anything of the sort. but thats not this universe, and so in this one i can have and express that i dont like them and theyre a terrible human being. i hope you burn, but i also used to like you.

got melodramatic there whoopsies

Friend D: i admired them alongside C. ironic how admiring people from afar caused them to be terrible people. i hadnt noticed D’s red flags until a couple weeks ago, where i was properly educated, and now im pissed off. theyre scum to me. not in degrading way, theyre a genuine terrible human being. which is such a pity since they seemed like such a reasonable person. did not seem like the typa person to do these typa things (i have a rant here explaining). oh well, ill live. i barely talked to them anyways. theyll stick to thinking theyre not the problem, and ill stick to ranting about them in my tumblr posts.

Friend E: blast from the past wowoowowowowowiw

i was close to them like last year summer, but dropped them ages ago this year. i had my reasons, and obviously made sure that i told them my reasons instead of just leaving because i knew that was the right thing. tbh? idr what half of those reasons were. im sure most were reasonable, but also i was extremely petty back then. nowadays i dont rlly care for them. im neutral. like if they chatted to me i would be fine with it and chat back, but i dont wanna be their friend. and its fine because they understand that and dont wanna be mine either. its the first breakup (friend breakup) ive had that ends with communication instead of leaving on read.

Friend F: yippee some positive sprinkle in yo life! i dont talk to her often but shes so cool and admirable as a human being and generally really bubbly and fun. shes the reason i ever found out im autistic! which thank you for that. they dropped D for their mental health and that’s soooo admirable and respectable of them. i admire them from afar and wish we talked more. even if we arent in the same friend group anymore, i still think theyre neat!

And finally…

Friend A: a bitch /j

okay okay for serious they are the reason im alive. im not exaggerating when i say you saved me. youre an actual angel (if not a wholeass goddess) sorry im dumping a “if not for you id be dead!” thing whoops. NEWays she makes my life and school life so much better and is so entertaining to talk to. not to mention pretty like??? im going to actually confess here and now that there were a couple times i needed you to repeat what you said because all i was thinking about is “how can someone be this pretty?” /gen /ily /p

bulleting holes- points because you did so >:3

the most creative mf on the planet when it comes to plotlines, lore, character designs. AND THEN YOU STILL FIND A WAY TO MAKE MORE PLOTLINES AND CHARACTERS???? insane dude

your make actual schedules which is maddening considering i cant even think of what im having for dinner

pretty…

hilarious because why you got me giggling and kicking my feet at your texts

CAN SOMEHOW PUT UP WITH ME YAPPING

super duper duper passionate about interests >:3

distance

science is so boring without you come back…

your remarks are so funny man like genuinely how do you come up with stuff like that on the spot

i lovevevevvrvevevevvevevvevec your clothing style ahhhh im gonna steal your clothes

i love you

thats a bullet point

ily man never forget 🤙

I think thats it! (i excluded mario, friend 1 & 2 because cba)

bye bye if tumblr doesnt save this im loading a glock

[emeraldbabygirl]

Excuse me! Excuse me! I have something to say right fucking now. I know what I say and I know how I feel about certain people being accused of certain things and I know what I say about people I clearly don’t like but what the fuck happened to ‘innocent until proven guilty?’ When the fuck did this ‘guilty til proven innocent’ bullshit become a thing that’s the stupidest thing I’ve ever heard. That’s not how it works. I don’t give a shit that’s literally not the law?? It’s innocent until proven guilty that’s what it is and that’s what it should always be. I what the fuck is with this new mentality that people have where they think everyone is guilty even if there was never any concrete evidence?

Like I am fully aware of people who just believe whatever they want and sometimes I do the same thing but if there’s evidence that someone did something and it’s actually real evidence then I believe it even if I don’t want to but how can some people really just believe made up shit?

I’m not even going to say what the reason for this post is, it’s not one specific person it’s a lot of things. AND THATS ANOTHER THING! People I’ve noticed on here, the only place I’ve seen it, they go out of their way to list groups of people or specific interests that someone might have and they say they don’t want those people to interact with them. Like does that mean they can’t like a post of yours or reblog a post of yours if they like it? I think that’s so stupid honestly. Like if someone likes the same things you like why are you trying to tell them what they can and can’t do. You know how many people like my posts that I may not like? I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA. You know why?? CAUSE I DONT CARE. Why should I get mad and want to block someone just cause they are a certain way or cause they like a certain thing or they don’t like a certain thing. I’ve blocked people in the past but that’s only cause of arguments that got nasty and being harassed and bullied from them but I’ve since unblocked them cause there’s no need to keep them blocked. They don’t bother me and I don’t bother them.

I’ve said this countless times I literally don’t care who you are cause you are liking the same things I do. You’re following me cause of what I post my content my likes and interests, not who I am as a person. The only time I will block someone or not interact with someone is if they’re being a genuine asswipe to me. Maybe this sounds wrong to some people or insensitive and like I’ve said many times if I post stuff of say stuff that you don’t like you can feel free to unfollow me or even block me if you feel it’s necessary. It’s mine blog and I’ll post what I want and if you don’t like it fine. It’s not my job to make everyone happy and agree with everyone. I have friends who disagree on things with me and that’s completely fine. People aren’t supposed to agree on everything sometimes I feel like I can’t even speak my mind on things especially kpop which that in itself 🙄 without someone getting mad at me like I’m so afraid of mutuals or friends getting mad at me and wanting to argue or whatever just cause I think different from them or I disagree on something or support something they don’t and if that’s the way it is then so be it. If I lose followers or someone doesn’t want to speak to me anymore so be it. Not the end of the world, people constantly come and go in ours lives you can’t keep everyone.

Anyway ending the rant cause I’ve derailed and I’m just tired I guess of things being flipped and just dumb shit being thrown around. And like yes it’s your own blog you can run it however you want which includes wanting to have a laundry list of people you don’t want to speak with that’s fine you do you I just personally don’t get it and don’t see the point and I def judge everyone who does that

[gogolstoelicker]

Dorm Leaders with a Yosano like MC

warning(s): none

notes: bear with me if they're a little ooc

You carry yourself with grace and dignity. You pride yourself in being a strong individual and a capable doctor. A feminist who believes both men and women should have equal rights.

A calm and composed individual but when angered, you're quite the force to contend, often sadistic in retaliation.

Riddle:

his parents are doctors/healers so knowing that you are a doctor too, makes him have a bit of respect for you

he likes the way you carry yourself, SOMEONE can surely learn a thing or two from you a little

COUGH COUGH adeuce duo COUGH COUGH

probably angered you one time during the tart incident

sometimes he woke up in cold sweat in the middle of the night because he have a nightmare about it

your uh hobby? interest? in scary stuff is making him sweat a little😁

esp when he got hurt and the way you used your ability on him makes him wants to run for the hills

don't get me wrong, it's a cool ability

but he does not want to EVER go through that again

(for context, yosano's ability is "thou shalt not die" and it's a healing ability but she have to put her victims near death to heal them)

other than that, he enjoys being around you!!

you don't go around breaking rules like your two friends did and your aura is just chef kiss

Leona:

at first thought you're just some goody two shoes

until crowley blackmailed asked you to investigate that thing idk what to call it

yeah well uh he lowkey angered you so here we are

he went from 🙄😼 to 😃😦⁉️

well he kind of like how you're strong and know to stand your ground when something that displeases you happened

but damn did that 180 personality and aura switch scared him a little

one thing for sure, he never wanted you to heal him again

even the whole savanaclaw cowers in fear when they see you bc they got reminded of how you healed them

you remind him of those women in the afterglow savannah(?)

he earned a small bit of respect for u

only a little tho

doesn't really care about your hobby for scary things honestly

like you could see a building on fire and say its pretty and he would just shrug and go back to sleep

Azul:

he can relate to you!!

the way you're just full of grace and calm until you did a 180 to a scary and sadistic is just 🤰

(yes thats some random emoji bc idk how else to describe this)

he knows a lot what's that like 🤔

your healing ability is reaaalllly cool yknow😁

he's just saying! but it's reaaaallly reaaaally cool yknow😁😁😁

oh if only he can get his hands on it

along with the others, pls never heal him again.

he'll give u his contracts just pls never heal him EVER again.😁

yes, he's that desperate for you to never heal him again

it gave him more issues than heal honestly /hj

he doesn't really mind your hobby for scary stuff, its just uh

a hobby? u do u. he have his own hobbies too

plus, look at the school y'all are in

mhm. exactly.

Kalim:

oh wow you're a doctor and you have a healing ability? THAT'S SO COOL?

he has fun following you around

probably accidentally followed you on your shopping trip and became your bag holder

while he's more than happy to help, he have the attention span of a goldfish so

see he might've accidentally dropped ur stuff😬

and he may or may not seen you go 😦🤬

anyways, hes fine!! no kalim is harmed in the process!!

he doesn't really get your hobby but he's fine with it

u like these dark and scary things? oh sure!! there's probably smth interesting abt them one way or another

anyways, creativity left the chat again sorry JSNSJS

Vil:

went debby ryan on u

well not literally but yknow what i mean

like FINALLY someone who's even worthy of being looked at by vil

but pls do try to calm ur uh sadistic nature?

while he doesn't mind it that much, he does think it's a little haha uh😬😅😱

well he sure don't mind ur hobby much

i mean look at the people he's next to everyday

look at rook and epel

exactly

shopping buddies⁉️‼️

literally got chef kiss taste

probably bond over yalls scrumptious taste

Idia:

YOU AIN'T SPECIAL HE STILL AVOIDS U (2)🤬‼️

doctor or not, graceful or not, u are a human

meeting human = interaction

human interaction = ❌no❌

or u can talk yeah that's all

well i mean ur healing ability is cool but seeing how you heal ur victims um😅😱

well it's safe to say he found another reason to never go out

that personality switch of urs bro

thank the seven he haven't made u angry yet

well y e t

cause have y'all seen chapter 6

well i haven't but u get me

Malleus:

well he doesn't treat u any different

a friend is a friend yes:D‼️⁉️

tho, he does quite admire how u carry yourself

that 180 personality switch amuses him honestly

well he was probably not there to witness it personally(since he's not invited)

lilia probably told him and he went "ooo interesting😮🤔"

heard of ur healing ability from lilia too probably

or maybe sebek idk

angry scared rants about it and he went 😮⁉️AINT THEY MAGICLESS⁉️

well uh at least he's interested?

[icantspeakspanish]

Obey Me! Brothers react to you behaving like an older, caring but short tempered sibling

a/n: i have no idea how thisll do because for some reason i only post haikyuu content on here🧑‍🦯 || i had to rewrite this entire thing because tumblr just decided to crash outta nowhere😐

Characters: Lucifer, Mammon, Leviathan, Satan, Asmodeus, Beelzebub, Belphegor

masterlist.

Lucifer

he was pretty much the first one to notice how you treated him he brothers and also like, but he didn’t say anything

you weren’t harming or anything, so lucifer’s fine with it

UNTIL you notice how much he overworks himself sometimes

that’s when he’s getting bothered😭

you can’t really tell a demon to go to fucking sleep you tried, it didn’t work🙄

so you’ve come to the decision that it’d be best if you’d stick around in his room until he goes to sleep

why this would change anything you may ask?😟

because you’re annoying the living shit outta him as you should

putting this aside, y’all also often get bothered by the other ones behavior

cuz oldest sibling stuff, the usual shit

BUT as soon as you guys get over these „differences“, you become the most horrific duo in hell

GET IT SIS

that also goes for lucifer’s brothers

when someone messes something up, they’ll feel the DOUBLE pack of sibling wrath

that does not mean that y’all wouldn’t have the others back when they need you

Mammon

swears you’re the best thing that has ever happened to the devildom

all because one time, mammon really wanted something but didn’t have enough money anymore

so youre like:“how much is it?“

and him, not expecting you to actually get that for him, just answering casually

till you wipe out your money and give it to him💀

„wait, are you serious???“

„yeah“

you ain’t even looking at him🥲

as you may have expected, he’ll use that more often now😒

remember how he swore that you’re the best thing that has ever happened to the devildom??

takes everything back as soon as he sees ya angry

Never stopped breathing so fast after hearing „god fucking dang it, Mammon!!“ shout through the entire house

And he can’t lie to you 🥱

Sometimes, the teasing and blaming by his siblings gets the best of him

You SENSE it immediately when something shifts in mammon so you’re quick to make the others stop by either threatening to embarrass them or really just yell the SHIT out of them

It works 😍🤞🏻

And you comfort him too😠

Leviathan

Do i even need to start

Homeboy BARRICADES himself in his room sometimes

🥱🚪 <- you at his door on your nightly round, throwing water and food into his room

Reminding him to stay fucking hydrated, eat his fucking food you protected with your life to not let beelzebub get it

AND OPEN THE FUCKING WINDOW??

He thinks you’re a good listener

And you show interest in his hobbys even though you maybe don’t understand a word

He really appreciates you for violently taking care of him🥰

Still respects you☝🏻

Fucking joking, Levi is terrified of you when you loose your shit

Lovely☺️

Satan

Underestimates you SO HARD BRO

Like mammons like „and then, they yelled at me…“, and he’s like:“Y/n is a human. You can snap their neck, why are you terrified?“

Yeah bitch you tHOUGhT🖕🏻

Views you completely different after you made a demon feel bad by yelling💀

„yeah its basically— did you just grump at me? What are you, a fucking dog??“

„Y/n, that is a demon.“

„so??? no one gonna raise their voice at me.“

Mama ain’t raised no bitch

Thats how he respected you

Listen.

Satan starts loving you after you get him a cat😭

He goes 🥺

„Really????“

You’re also honest with him when you think he’s either in the wrong or right with Lucifer

Will rather listen to you JUST TO PISS LUCIFER OFF LMAOOOO

Asmodeus

HES AMAZING FR

He sees you having a stressed skin and assumes its because you’ve been kept awake day n night because of his brothers

And says you’re very welcome for a skincare night😩😭

I LITERALLY CAN NOT

talking bout love interests all the WAAAAAY

Like you guys are besties, exchanging tea, gossiping n all😭

Will hide behind you when Lucifer gets angry at him because he knows you snap back💀

When something happens, his eyes go immediately to you checking if you jus saw that too HAHAHAHAH

I LOVE ASMO HEY

Will threaten anyone, even in the human world, who’s in question to date you if they break your heart😚

Beelzebub

🥺…

HES SO ADORABLE JEPCJKNWEJNFPIWEJNCF

Beel tries his best to avoid making you angry

And when you’re on your fifth way to the kitchen at 2 AM to get lucifer his fifth glass of milk to fall asleep

You see him sitting there like ☹️

„Hey Beel, what’s wrong?“

„Im hungry.“

You look around a bit confused, then get an idea

„I can bake you a cake if you go back to sleep then?“

„REALLY😲“

So there you go

Screw Lucifer’s glass, he asleep now anyway😠

Some low demon was mean to him?

You’re bout to go feral

One of his brothers picked on him eating

The house is on fire

everything for this men🙄✌🏻

Belphegor

….😄🔪

THE FUCKING BRAT

ITS ALWAYS THE YOUNGEST SIBLING

Belphie LOVES making you angry

Belphie HATES you treating him like a fucking child and all of his words are cries😭

Like he’s trying to provocate you and you look deadass at him and go

„You’re done?😐“

You both try to not smack each other for beels sake <3

[wtfwhy]

Have to rant about Teen Wolf for a bit (anti-sterek, complaining about anti-scott mccall, pro-stiles)

Why are people upset that Sterek was never canon?? Like it's already confusing that so many people ship it like it's a normal ship. Like guys, STILES IS A CHILD, DEREK IS AN ADULT. Yeah, Stiles is an adult at the end of the show, but they met when he was like 15/16, Christ at that age I couldn't even image dating someone 17 or 18, much less 25!! (His age is a little unclear but it's around that) (and yes I know about his age recon, it's irrelevant because he was originally 19ish and that's still an adult/child relationship) That's a whole decade age gap. If they had met when stiles was already 18+, sure, still kinda weird but fine. But that's not what happened.

To put it in perspective, I bet a lot of you think the Kate and Young Derek kiss scene was gross and weird (at least hopefully you do) Google says she was about 29 when that happened and Derek was turned 15. That's a 14 year difference. Now you might be complaining, 'the sterek age gap is smaller than that!' well it's about 9ish years and that's STILL GROSS

And on young Derek, he was around Stiles' age (1-2 year difference) and it's such a drastic age difference from normal Derek, right? So if young Derek is considered a child who shouldn't be kissed by an adult, why is it ok when it's Stiles? And it also just shows how large of an age gap they have when Derek is around Stiles' age and he's literally a baby if that makes any sense.

They reconned Derek's age because if he was 19 and she was like 27-28 then he would've been 13 when they got together and she would've been 22ish. Huge pedo issue there obviously. And guess what, thats the same age gap as Sterek.

And some of you might say, 'well other shows have canon adult/child relationships!' that's true, but either it's criticized in the narrative or Pretty Little Liers (I really like that show but WTF was up with all the pedo ships???? Especially AriaxEzra) and just because a lot of things do it doesn't make the thing ok, for example, shipping Sterek.

They don't even really have any romantic chemistry, like their dynamic was funny but most of it was Derek literally hating on Stiles. Like if you're going to ship a morally dubious ship, 1) at least have it be an interesting ship? They're so boring together 🙄 and 2) own up to it!!! Most of y'all act like Derek wouldn't get thrown in jail if he was into stiles like that

Personally I like to think after some nice character development, Derek comes to see both Stiles and Scott as little brothers, but unfortunately I've become so tainted by the onslaught of inescapable sterek content that even then with a very cute, platonic relationship seems wrong, which is stupid but my brain has now blacklisted any fan content with either of them in it now...

AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON SCOTT HATE, genuinely what is WRONG with you people?? He's the purest, sweetest character in the entire show! And sure, Stiles is more interesting as a character, but Scott is a really good protagonist. Good comparison I thought of is how in ALAB everyone is obsessed with Zuko even tho Aang is the main character. The only difference is that for some reason a big percentage of the fandom decided to shit on Scott for no reason.

Main 'reasons' I've seen:

Scott is a bad friend

- When???? Where? The only time I could kinda see that is in season 1, but think about it like this, he's 16 (A CHILD) and not only is in love for the first time, but has to deal with all the werewolf/alpha stuff that went down in that season. He's busy, he's going through it. And yeah Stiles was very involved and was doing his best to help, but Scott can't be in a million places at once. Guys, normal kids are worse friends than Scott ever was and are still good people, cause it happens sometimes. Are you constantly think about your bestie when you have a million other things going on? Probably not! And it wasn't even that bad because Scott did keep stiles in the loop 90% of the time!!! Y'all actually like Scott was Gon in the chimera ant arc 🙄

His argument with Stiles in season 5

- Was Stiles having a rough time? Yeah, absolutely. Was he in the right? Yeah. But was Scott also really going through it?? Definitely, boy was struggling. Not only does this kid have the weight of the world on his shoulders all the goddamn time, but there was the whole mess they were dealing with, Hayden was dying, he and Liam were arguing, he was having such bad anxiety his asthma was coming back... Man was not in a good headspace.

Coupled that with the very specific way that Theo lied to him (let's be honest, it really does sound like something Stiles would do for his dad), and the miscommunication of Stiles not denying that something did happen, Scott believing that it was more murder than self defense makes a lot of sense to me. And when they do finally talk it out, it's really wholesome and Scott is not only really understanding, but apologetic.

Also, again, real relationships have misunderstandings and lack of good communication all the goddamn time. This doesn't make someone a bad person or a bad friend. FICTIONAL CHARACTERS CAN HAVE FLAWS AND MAKE MISTAKES WITHOUT BEING BAD PEOPLE!!!

Really sorry this is so long and probably has mistakes in it but I was mad and it's late lol

[yourflxnnelcure]

its me it's cam im asking not so anonymously that you do how last Legacy characters would react to an ace mc bc. i crave validation or something idk

the way i sprinted to do this for u (also ur so funny bye u could’ve texted me🙄‼️)

Felix:

he’s so respectful it makes me want to vomit honestly

so careful with your boundaries ,,, kissing? great! you don’t wanna do that? thats great too!

is such a big fan of cuddles honestly ,, will happily lay in bed and cuddle with you forever or read to you while you play with his hair

he’s def the most educated when it comes to this sort of thing (i like to hc that he’s on the ace spectrum but that is a discussion for another time)

has lengthy convos with you about what you’re comfortable with and makes sure to check before doing literally anything because we demand consent in every aspect in this house

finds every book he can about asexuality because research makes him comfortable and confident and he dosent want to say anything that could upset you

felix can embroider because i say so ,, when you explain pride flags to him mans goes wacky and embroiders little ace flags into your sweater cuffs

Sage:

he’s a little confused but he’s got the right spirit ‼️

is also very careful with your boundaries ,, he’s terrified he’s gonna misunderstand or mess something up

despite him being a sexual person he’s fine in a relationship with no sexual aspect,, he’s content to curl up by the fireplace with you and have you braid his hair while he purrs happily

he dosent really understand when you first tell him because he’s never met someone who’s ace before (he probably has but yknow ,, no one’s ever explicitly told him so)

but he asks Felix about it and tries to figure out from you and your own experience how to best approach things

the minute someone makes a sexual comment about you he gets all pissy and angry even if you’re like dude ,, calm down im fine he’s just 😡💪no

truly a dumb hunk man who has no thoughts behind his eyes but loves his partner no matter what

Anisa:

she is an educated icon ,, she probably already sorta knew before you told her but was still super supportive and accepting when you did

she’s very affectionate but in only ways you’re comfortable with,, is a big fan of holding hands and cheek kisses

she’s def the most nonchalant about it

takes to it really quickly tbh ,, like it barely phases her she’s just oh? That’s cool! ok sounds good!

also very protective like sage ,, anyone says anything ? she is buff and will punch them even though she’s normally composed

if you ever express that you feel bad or like you’re disappointing her she holds you and tells you she dosent need that sorta thing to be happy and she adores you and your guys’ relationship

honestly not a whole lot to say for her because she’s perfect tbh ,, never done anything wrong in her life my angel

Rime:

he’s the most like ,, ⁉️ about it

he’s never taken the time to educate himself about this sorta thing because it’s never really came up

he dosent really get what you’re telling him at first but still does his best to be supportive in the moment

he def runs off to Felix confused because wtf does this mean ?? and Felix helps him get it together and learn about it

he apologizes later for not being the best he could be when he reacted and explains he was just confused and he obvi dosent mind that you aren’t interested in sexual stuff

it takes him a bit to get used to it but he’s very supportive even when he puts his foot in his mouth

asks about literally every little thing ,, like he’s just is holding ur hand ok or ?? and ur just 🤨yes Rime that is fine thank you

truly just a bastard man trying his best

[antiloreolympus]

10 Anti LO Asks

1. do we even know how old minthe even is? or how long her and hades were together? because for all we know shes like, 28 or something and has been with him since she was 18/19 too. i just find it very unlikely persephone, hebe, and aphrodite's spawn just happen to be the only nine or so deities to be born in several hundreds of years.

2. Every time Athena is on screen I think it's Thanatos. They look identical

3. i have seen the stans excuse away the slavery with that literal excuse of "its only abled bodied shades 🙄" like??? ok?? thats still slavery??? and he brags about how much money hes made off of it?? like sorry yall cant make me go "uwu look how sweet he is" when he needs a 20 year old who was only a teen all of a week ago to tell him SLAVERY IS BAD. like??? even satan was against slavery and hes the embodiment of all things evil??? so lo hades is even worse than the actual devil??

4. apollo/hyacinthus was gaining a lot of popularity at the same time as hxp, sometimes even more so, and it even has myth canon versions where apollo is able to bring hyacinthus back to life and make them a god (which would have been a lovely way to show persephone's good nature and sway over hades) but nah, instead rachel saw what could have been a interesting thread and decided to make apollo a r//pist instead and make everything so heterosexual the leads are color coded by their genders. 😑

5. so, here’s the thing, how was demeter keeping persephone secret / isolated in the mortal realm when persephone, as a literal child, is at a party in olympus (episode 20, she’s with hera)

6. so, this comic is a retelling of the taking of persephone, but how could the other gods or whoever be calling persephone the goddess of spring already when the taking of persephone is the myth about how seasons happened like the idea is there was no concept of seasons until persephone’s taking lmao

7. Literally begging RS to make a new fan cast because Mads in is the new fantastic beasts movies looking exactly like how lo Hades is designed and I’m already seeing lo stans be like OMG ITS HIM and this already borderline transphobic series does not need to embrace an actually openly transphobic series into its fan base. Hannibal wasn’t even good 💀

8. You know I feel like the Hera and Hades Affair did not have to happen at all and replace Hera with Leuce where Hades had a tragic first love maybe where she’s just not immortal and she’s now a poplar. We can still have hades toxic trait trying to replace Leuce with Minthe but through Persephone he moves on.

OR Leuce is a poplar already hades is dating Minthe and they’re not a match. Persephone has feelings for hades but when Minthe and hades break up Persephone un treees Leuce. Leuce and Hades tried to date again but they’re no longer a match or something.

Idk I just feel like Hades and Hera, they look good but their story sucks. 

9. You know why PJO isnt as heavily critiqued as LO? It's because it never claims itself to be the most researched, scholarly piece of work ever, it's happy to admit it's just a kid series with RR always wanting to approve while the mythology shown still fairly accurate. In comparison RS fancies herself a mythology scholar (or a "folklorist" as she claims to be) yet still cant keep even basic mythology stories, characters, or even basic greek elements straight or intact. THAT'S the difference.

-----FP Spoilers/Mention-----

10. (fp spoilers) Persephone is literally the last person I want going to law school. Considering she basically intimidated a witness and put her in a vegetable state and got away with it bc no one is bringing it up again, and idc what Demeter says, her daughter DID want it covered up bc why else would she turn Minthe into a plant? This whole trial only made me hate Persephone more, especially because there's no way she'd ever be a good lawyer, considering rs is most likely going to let her get away with her aow and turning Minthe into a plant. 

[rosencrantzsguildenstern]

i have the full summary of a quantum leap episode that literally does not exist but does in my head. ok ok so the PLOT the big PREMISE is that this time sam’s in a leap for like 6 months. he shows up and he’s this normal guy with like a reasonably weird job like maybe he’s a reporter or a musician or something and/or he wears like those big bright colored 80s jackets around everywhere and sam’s like im going to act like this is the worst thing in the world that’s ever happened to me as i often do in leaps that are actually pretty chill. al when can i get tf out of this guy. and al’s like sorry sam.... looks like you’re going to be here for awhile. and there’s this woman we’ve seen for like 1 minute and he has to stop her son from dying.... FAR in the future! well 6 months in the future. 

so it turns out the woman (she has that curled blonde hair and everything she’s such a woman of the week) is a SINGLE MOM raising her kid alone and so sam ends up like being her boyfriend. now time passes and we watch him starting to act more and more like this guy because that’s how quantum leap would do it and it’s kind of bad. but we also see him getting like time to have his own interests again finally. we also see the woman’s son grow up not by MUCH but he like loses a tooth and stuff and he runs to tell sam about it and sams like thats great sport :D and they’re super close. we get a montage of sam getting really good at his weird job too and if he’s a musician there’s an obligatory song and dance bit. meanwhile al has this running bit where he’s like the guy in the waiting room is getting real antsy :/ and then later you’d never believe how difficult it is to deal with the guy in the waiting room like we let him out and he was just like oh my god everythings neon wtf. this is never properly addressed or explained because sam does not care and also it’s quantum leap baby 😎

eventually we see sam like in this little apartment he has with like his coat hung on the door chilling with al. they’re playing poker or something but in this weird roundabout way where sam has to hold al’s cards and every 2 seconds al is like YOU’RE LOOKING. and sams like no i’m not al.. 🙄 even though he keeps winning so like he ISN’T looking probably but he could be. anyway al’s like i guess you’re looking forward to leaping out of here huh! and sam’s like what if i don’t want to leap out of here... and it’s sad because you’re like oh sam,,, always leaping from life to life... what must it be like..... no peace... but also kind of bad because the romance between him and the woman of the week is unconvincing. al gets all catty about the romance too that’s why he’s bringing up leaping he’s been sooo jealous the entire episode. the show doesn’t tell the viewers this but like you can tell. 

so sam because he’s sam wants to tell the woman who he really is! so their love isn’t a deception! and al’s like that’s the worst idea in the world. so sam does he’s like my name is sam beckett. i’m a quantum physicist from the future. etc etc and the woman is like haha you’re so quirky wait what. you’re insane. and she BREAKS UP with him over this because he won’t let it go but he tells her this on the day her son is going to DIE! and suddenly this foundation he’s built to make sure she’ll listen to him and that her son won’t run off or whatever is SHATTERED and he can’t even go near her so it’s like oh no.... he’ll die.... and there’s DRAMA but sam solves it all because he’s sam and the kid is fine. but then that means he’s going to LEAP and he’s not like al when am i going to leap :/ like normal he like hugs this woman and kid and he’s sad and he tries to tell them something about the future but then in the middle of that al’s like ‘sam-’ and zip zap zop he’s out of there in the middle of something else and ngl it’s really fucked up because he was really attached to that life! but it’s never brought up again and he’s fine

[add3ra11]

What’s unicorn hunting?

Google and Urban Dictionary exist, I know you know how to use them if you’re in my anons 🙄

But since this can be a teaching experience for anyone who visits my blogs I’ll go ahead and explain.

Unicorn hunting is when a het couple specifically seek out a pan- or bisexual partner, usually female, with intentions of having a threesome and some even with intentions of becoming a “throuple” of sorts. Why is this gross and problematic you might ask? Well, turns out, unicorn hunters are generally deceptive fuckwads who lack transparency, dehumanize the “unicorn”, and maintain unrealistic expectations almost fucking always. How you may ask? Worry not, I come with examples. Bi and pansexual people can, and often do, find themselves in scary situations when one partner invites them under the guise both partners are wanting and expecting the situation. Often times people think bringing a bi or pansexual into the bedroom as a surprise will be the hail mary that’ll save their relationship/sex life. This can put the bi/pansexual in a very uncomfortable if not dangerous situation. And it happens A LOT. Trying to use a bi/pansexual to try and fix your failing relationship in itself is incredibly toxic and objectifying for the “unicorn”. But let’s ignore that for a second, lets say both parties are happily committed and transparent. There’s still dehumanization occurring. Bi/pansexual people are not mythical sex machines or creatures here to fulfill your deepest fantasies. We are real fucking people with real feelings and our own desires as well. Unicorn hunters treat bi/pansexual “thirds” as literal sex equipment rather than people. Even with pure intentions, the expectation that a bi/pansexual will automatically want to have a threesome is not realistic and is actually insulting to bi/pansexual people. Which brings me to unrealistic expectations. Unicorn hunters build this picture in their head of bi/pansexual partners and then get upset when their “unicorn” doesn’t exactly act like a unicorn. But from the beginning they designed this idea of a relationship that totally disregards the unicorn except when it comes to fulfilling their sexual fantasies. Un-fucking-realistic. Also, there are so many fucking unicorn hunters out there but why do you think they call it unicorn hunting?? Because unicorns are extremely rare at best. Some may even argue they don’t exist. How many bi/pansexual people are out there that actually don’t even like threesomes? How many don’t wanna be used as a sex toy? How many don’t want to be put in an awkward and potentially dangerous situation for probably mediocre sex? Geez, I can’t vouch for all of us but trust me when I say you’re out of you’re mind if you think its numerable. Even with complete honesty and transparency, why dehumanize ANYONE like EVER especially if there’s less than a one in a million chance of getting what you want?

I want to make it clear I’m not shaming polyamory/throuples or threesomes at all. But these are things that should develop organically, not be designed by asshole dehumanizing unicorn hunters looking for an obedient sex toy that checks all their boxes. Triads and polycules happen, but they should occur naturally, and threesomes should be a happy surprise, rather than be sought out per se. There’s nothing wrong with being bi/pan and seeking threesomes if thats what you really want, but just know you deserve to be treated like an equal, your desires deserve to be heard, and you deserve to be safe always.

To all my fellow “unicorns” out there, I hope you can recognize the red flags of unicorn hunting when it occurs. We are people, not sexual rarities. We deserve to be treated like real people. There’s tons more info on this stuff out there on google and such if y’all are interested. Let me know and I can link up some sources. Stay safe, everyone, especially my fellow unicorns. Here’s to surviving the hunt 🖤

[yuichi-ro]

i love how i woke up at 3 AM, wrote this down in my notes and immediately went back to sleep but-

tr/jjk crossover; if reader learns how to cook/bake so getou has something nice tasting to look forward to, what if getou learns how to play an instrument or reads something for reader so she can relax and only focus on him after a long day??? thanks 3 AM sleep deprived brain, i love it.

getou needs less daddy dom content and more softness istg i will scream otherwise that man is made for twisted love and hurt/comfort i have said it before and i will say it again

also i caved in. i now have an inui/vampire! reader nsfw story planned😩 stupid ass blondes istg. idk if you have seen it or clips of it (god the clips, i recommend em) but there is this newer anime called “The Case Study of Vanitas” and the protag is like… super into his vampire love interest manhandling him and biting him despite him “hating” vampires and that just screams inui i am sorry. he would so be a vampire hunter for the sole purpose of fulfilling his kinks and i am equally unamused and equally here for it tbh

and! new owlhouse/amphibia episodes yesterday! they were both sooo fucking good man. can’t believe amphibia parodied midsommar tho, one of my fav horror movies it legitimately made me wheeze

welp thats all my chaotic brain can offer rn. man i should sleep more

take this hanma art whose artist i didnt see instead

-🌌momo

the way i just vividly imagined you snapping awake like squidward having a crisis, jotting all this down, then passing back out in a sea of pillows like you were possessed by the spirit of a literal ghost writer 😂

ok but reader who learns to cook with really strong flavors or unconventional dishes purely in search of something to mask the taste of curses?? Only having what Getou (poorly) explains eating them taste like. So you studious look into every flavor group there is. Switching them up often, sour to sweet to savory to salty and so on, so Getou's tastebubs never get use to it. In an attempt give him something to think about instead of the lingering taste of nasty curses. Leading to making him cute little bento boxes for lunch, elaborate baked goods and dishes that are ever testing your cooking know how but in a good way. Getou almost ending up pavlov'ed to expect your treats after a mission. Just shaving away the little bit of wretchedness his technique comes with. I'm sorry cooking/baking is my love language and Getou deserves it all 🥺🥺🥺

stupid blond libras not like I've been staring at Rindou or anything I hate blond libras so much I hate em

I've never heard of the show but tbh you know what that seems like canon Inui at this point. He's like those god awful clips of ghost hunters antagonizing ghosts on tape but he's trying to find a vampire basically to fuck. Vampire lady? Vampire dude? Doesn't matter if they suck his blood Inui is ready to do it for anything. This. This is the crap Koko is talking about. We were all scornful towards him for being homophobic. Nope, Koko just got tired of being the camera man to Inui's bullshit as he went to a cemetery at 3 am like "It's me, ya boi Seishu, and my neck is looking mighty tasty if there's any vampires out here." This, this is the reason Koko keeps telling him to leave him alone I know it 😐

THAT'S WHY THOSE STUPID GOWNS AND SHIT LOOKED FAMILIAR I KNEW IT WAS A HORROR MOVIE BUT I COULDN'T FIGURE OUT WHICH ONE (bc i am a weenie and do not like scary movies) ok but real talk? The way I almost snapped my neck and spit my coffee out when young King Andreas started talking and I realized it was Zeno Robinson. And he was using his Hanma voice 🥺 So great now I have to root for Andreas to not really be a bad guy and hope that he does the right thing in the end. Thanks a lot Zeno Robinson 🙄

Owl House though? I was surprised to see Rain (probably) working with Darius. Like I got him in a different light sure when he was tolerating/being kinda nice to Hunter in last weeks episode. But I 100% didn't see him possibly being a good guy honestly. Terra on the other hand every time I see her I hate her more. And if Eda and Rain don't reunite and kiss at the end of this bullshit I'm gonna flip my very gay table 😶

that's actually one of my favorite Hanma artist ♡ I found all their art via pinterest and I just really adore how they draw his face and his stature and all of it ♡ asdfghjkl idc if I'm having a rindou brain rot air. Hanma is my ride or die and I will move several different countries for this man 😤

[chateautae]

girlll, it is crazyy to date a formula driver. It is both awesome and sometimes it suuuccks! I once drove his GT4 car with him on an empty track, gurrlllll the ADRENALINE levels are ASTRONOMICAL! (watch a race to see 🤯)He also fricking drives at full speed AS IF IT IS NOTHING!! He has a very strict workout schedule and diet. I dunno if you have ever seen a driver workout. They tie a workout gear around his head and pull on it so hard (his trainer is like 85-90kg dude and he pulls on it) He also trains his wrists and forearms to control the wheel better. I think it works better in my favour because AN HOUR LONG FINGERING SESSION without breaking a sweat 🤭🤭🤭 He is a muscle monster (sparing Jungkook aside) = strength kink

HOWEVER, I hate car noises, speeding, and am not really interested in racing at all. I can only tell difference if cars are in different colours. But he loves it all. He becomes a 5-year-old boy when we talk about cars. He was recently sponsored by BMW and drove one of their cars. He was happy like a little boy and seeing him like this makes me so warm and happy. He gets recognised in public and many men tell him that it was their dream as a kid. A few weeks ago, the owner of a coffee shop we went to recognised him and they chatted for half an hour. The man was around his 50s and adored my boyfriend. (He gave us free cheesecake too 😂)

But racing is difficult to make a career out of. He needs a lot of sponsors and it is not really easy to find especially during the pandemic. Also, it is dangerous. Even though his team takes millions of precautions, accidents happen. He didn't have one, thank god.

He also travels a lot too 🙄 Staying apart hasn't affected our relationship YET :( He can't take me with him. So I miss him a lot during race season.

As much as I love fucking him in his race suit, I get crazy anxious when it is his race day. Now that he is negotiating for Formula 1 races, my anxiety is through the roof. I really want him to get the deal, but I also don't :( HOWEVER, I can't be selfish. I love him too much to be selfish with him. I will support him forever.

So yeah, it is so much fun to see him be successful, have steamy sex in his car, but there are many difficulties that we face as a couple :(

OMG THIS IS SO COOL WTF!!! I acc have a street racer!tae fic in the works so THIS IS REALLY FUELLING ME NOW DWOQDJWEIO.

I WAS GONNA SAY THE FINGERING SESSIONS ARE PROBABLY BOMB AF IF HE'S DOING THEM WRIST AND FOREARM EXERCISES!! Going to hint at my man to start putting in the work too 👀 YESSSS THE ADRENALINE IS INSANE my bf recently went to a track with my cousin who owns this fast ass GTI to race against a BMW and HE SAID IT WAS SO COOL.

OH GOD YOU JUST DESCRIBED THE DREAM his stamina must be out of this world (so does my man, it's literally aLWAYS me tapping out) SO I GET YOU THAT WORKS IN OUR FAVOURS DNEONDO. And damn the sex must be steamy for sure idk what it is about guys driving fast and cool cars but I would give anything to fuck in a nice Merc or something DNQWODNOWEI. THINKING ABOUT MID!TAE'S MERCEDES AT THE MOMENT.

THATS ACC SO COOL YOUR MAN'S ALL FAMOUS AND STUFF and I totally get it, my bf is super into cars as well and while I do enjoy the common luxury car myself, I'm not a fan of speeding or racing because I get really scared something may happen :( AWHH MY LOVE i really do understand your anxieties, formula 1 is no joke and you're right, accidents do happen. It would make your man super happy but I see the worries that come with it too. I wish you guys the best of luck with your relationship and really hope your man stays safe out there on the track!! 💓💓💓

[femmesandhoney]

kinda tempted to just block an old friend on all my socials. she literally never cared about me enough to even message me first when she knew she hurt my feelings badly two years ago. the entire time we were friends (like 7+ years) she always preferred this other guy in our friend group even when she moved away and he never made time to even visit her. he ended up befriending some really shitty people throughout high school as well which she never saw or seemed to care.

like idk it felt like she was infatuated with him since we were kids and no matter how amazing of a friend you were to her, she would never consider you a best friend. always bugged me, but it wasn't until she started like abandoning our plans that were important to me for other things i realized i really wasn't a priority to her, but this other guy literally always is. and i like him when he's by himself, he's nice and we've known each other longer than we've both known this other girl, but im really annoyed by how she can't seem to realize he isn't actually that awesome of a friend. or at least, from my perspective of what a good friend should be, he doesn't like? do anything for her? make time for her? get her gifts? but nope he's still always this infallible person to her because i guess they just text a lot. thats literally the only way i think they communicate when she doesn't come to town for whatever reason, which is rare. so yeah. i hate it.

like for the record she told me to stop texting her because I was bothering her, when she could have just silenced my messages. so i waited until she would text me first. because the reason I texted her so much was cause i was geninuely interested in her life and wanted her to know i was still her friend even tho she lived three hours away, and it just seemed like a lot bc i was always the one trying to start convos and she would barely give me sentences. it was really odd behavior from her at the time, so i brushed it off, but i guess i messaged her one too many times. six ish months later she told me she wanted to message me after i had stopped, but she said she knew i was mad and was scared to. like girl wtf do you mean you were scared of me? we'd been amazing friends for fucking ever at that point and i couldn't believe she was nervous to message me first bc she knew i was probably mad bc of my silence. yeah great friends, where one is scared to even message hello 🙄 made me feel so great about our friendship.

like idk this is just a huge ramble but its always just been so frustrating to me bc we were actually amazing friends even though i did most of the work after she left town, but we were always close. same interests, same humor, same life shit. and she just let it all go bc she didn't know how to fucking message me after upsetting me. im petty and wasn't gonna be the first to message, but i did like six months later bc i was just so sad thinking about the situation and thats when she "explained" her side which wasnt an explanation at all really. she did say she would try to be more open and talkative and shit with me, but ope looks like she failed quickly.

and now both of them are hanging out in town together and posting about it and im like wow thanks for the invite i can see youre trying so hard to work on your side of our amazing. fucking. friendship.