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this feels like such a grandma question ... but do the kids nowadays just no longer do emails?
like... no, FB/Insta aint for me (fuck Zuck-bot) and birdapp hadda be deleted due to its not-at-all-gradual turn into a misinfo hate farm....
but like, email is still a valid form of communication with ya new online friends.
This isn't needing to do full pages of sentences in neat handwriting a la penpal snailmail or whatever. You can type short mesgs as if it was DMs, it still counts!
#old man yells at cloud#screaming into the void#i call myself oldtaku for a reason#social media#yeah i get it we ain't giving out phone numbers for texting no more#thats far too personal#but an email could always just spam-filter & block that unwanted contact later!#or have ya throwaway address just for XYZ fandom
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#my art#daycare attendant#dca fandom#moondrop#<- dca.. they're back in town ...#not tagging sun bc thats just their head :p#anywayyy hopefully this means something to someone. that's all i could ever wish for when it comes to my art#thats probably a bit too sentimental or something but sometimes it's hard to tell if the stuff you make is actually reaching people#or if you're just another person making content to satiate an insatiable crowd#is my art edible? is it a meal to you? is it a one time only thing? does it have any lasting effect on you?#is it just nutrients to sustain you? or is it something that will genuinely stick to you for at least longer than the first second?#i will stop talking now. you can eat my art as much as you'd like but can you at least savor it a little? compliment the chef a little bit?#for the ones who've read this far: this is actually for an AU i've been thinking about recently. i won't be sharing what it's about lol#but if you wanted some context for this... here you go. i'd like to think this has more meaning to it than just being an AU though#and maybe me not disclosing what the AU is will make you think about this post for a bit longer? it's a mystery now....#aaaand i just noticed i forgot the bells on the ribbon on their arm. great. excellent. perfect. whatever
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I literally saw someone say laios is too autistic for romance... you guys HAVE to start being respectful to autistic people. like I know he's just a character but its emblematic of real problems. Even if it's just a joke, it is NOT FUNNY to perpetuate ableism in the form of jokes. I see like a thousand posts a day about how he has autistic swag and in the SAME POST joke about how his friends actually hate him, nobody could REALLYYY like him they're all just pretending <3, he's too autistic for sex or romance or love.
He has canonical problems in the text with people pretending to be his friend, or people secretly hating him. We've gone over and over again about how divorcing autistic people and characters from sex and romance on the whole is infantilizing. (individual ace/aro headcanons are fine, but maybe also examine where they're coming from when its characters widely seen as autistic). I feel like a lot of fans don't even realize what they're doing. oftentimes what you think is funny fan content is actually you making fun of him and excluding him from things based on his autistic traits.
And this isn't even MENTIONING the racism in making kabru be aggressive to laios for no reason all the time when kabru has genuine reason and understanding even when he thinks he might need to kill laios. OR how weird it is that people will boil down falin's autistic traits for farcille and say like "yeah she's similar to laios, but she's less of a 'freak' (AKA has developed people pleasing social skills) so marcille likes her still :)"
#dungeon meshi#ableism#like i feel CRAZY having to defend the MAIN CHARACTER but some of you people CANNOT treat people with respect its actually wild#dunmeshi blogging#personal /#< thats a myposts tag this can be liked or reblogged if you so choose#laios touden#like yes people get irritated w laios in the manga and would prefer he not do certain things GSNFLDSHF#but some of you take it wayyyy too far#theyre friends. literally. they care about him and its not realllyyyy funny or cool to pretend that they dont#strike backlog
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DAY 71: shy
#codacheetah#isat#loop isat#isabeau isat#isat spoilers#i'll never get over loop being described as 'shy'. what a wonderful image#top one casual remarks from isabeau that cleaves loop's facade#like loop's personality is just a targeted missile to piss siffrin off. they're not at all confident and snarky#they're doing like the physical manifestation of winning an argument against yourself in the shower#second they see the party though Oopsies we're in scary territory. That's your family and they dont know it's you Oops#ok anyways ever since i saw that post i was like damn. this is just how i view loop in party postcanon#for as much as I think they SHOULD go explore around and be their own person for a while i think realistically they would not do that.#theyre going to go be a weird freak hovering around the party and refusing to socialize with anyone but siffrin and theyre gonna feel awful#(read: they're going to antagonize siffrin and it fails tremendously bc now The Rumor Come Out and siffrin knows what loop is doing.)#like loop as much as they can barely stand to even look at isabeau (for instance) i think their claws are sunk far too deep in.#onehats maybe the circumstances are different because there is a gap in understanding. there's no point forcing siffrin to confront the#obvious conclusion that loop is them (and thus siffrin's happy ending nails loop's coffin)#(THIS IS IGNORING TWOHATS PREREQS GOTTEN ONEHATS. BC THATS ITS OWN CAN OF WORMS)#but twohats. idk. for as much as it lets loop release some of their rage and process their feelings a bit. i think it might also be the pus#that makes loop consider their own existence as a person a bit more. theyre not a sponsor->corpse theyre just loop#theyre just somebody who wants desperately. they want to stay with them#theyre still siffrin. if also loop.#i think loop would force themself to reconnect with the party in the same vein as siffrin forcing himself to communicate more.#but of course having conviction and living an experience are not the same thing. so siffrin's going to flounder the emotional honesty thing#tremendously and loop's going to be. blair witching it in the corner.#hey i might have forgotten which post i was writing the tags under. oopsies#idk if these tags are comprehensible at all. i just really want to see loop fail upwards into friendship with everyone
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troy can do SO much shit btw, his dad kept him as occupied as possible growing up. like he took piano lessons as a kid he knows how to fence he's tried every sport under the sun, but all of those skills are counterbalanced by troy being clumsy and dumb and probably high all the time <3
#in my heart of hearts hes damn good at figure skating he just thinks its embarrassing#hes probably a crazy good snowboarder too but thats not far from steam sledding so whatever#hes done all the rich person sports. he thinks theyre boring as shit but hes DONE them#he prefers snow and the constant threat of bodily harm#jrwi wonderlust#troy lougferd#jrwi troy
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heeyylol
#fav part of any new manga >redrawing everypanel#the artstyle Will be incorporated in2 mine#chilchuck is my personal favorite as far as rk’s style goes#for how she draws characters#chilchuck and falin ofc . theres smt abt the way hes drawn thats so distinct . it looks like sm fun HAIAHHA#idk i just love his expressions.maybe . or the fact that she gives him the like.jet black eyes .#marcille too ofc i loveeee how she draws marcille in the manga#shuro also looks so good in her style ERUUMMMM. laios ofcourse but im biased .love that guy#<just naming the whole cast#chilchuck#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi#lg doodles#guys we need to drawpile
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i dont remember why i drew this
#this post is also for people with cptsd / bpd / any other kinds of parts too btw. i love you and we are all gonna heal#kostik draws#actually did#actually dissociative#actually cptsd#possibly the stupidest thing ive ever drawn but it made me weirdly happy#i am not this optimistic irl but i had to force it. theres only so far you can go being miserable yanno. lets have some positive energy#oh now i remember. i was thinking about how there are no did comics about recovery#its only about ohh symptom ohh infographic#and thats well and good but we need more recovery representation#anyway#i should ... eat dinner ...#the stupid i ❤️ being one person shirt doodle makes me laugh. i need it irl actually#also this may not look vulnerable but this is Very Vulnerable to me please be nice#im putting a piece of my soul onto the great big internet please show it kindness#ok ty#DID tag
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Pair 3/5 — Queen & King of Hearts ♥️
#this one's my favourite so far#the roses on rui turned out a bit too dark... it looks lighter irl tbh... but thats fine....#i totally didnt spend a good while drawing out those roses only for them to get mostly lost under the blue....#i forgot that even tho it looks good by itself the linesrt will make it look darker 😔#anyway would love to play with them and lay down this gorgeous rui only to cause emotional damage to thr next person (+5 cards)#kerizart#prsk#wxs#kamishiro rui#kusanagi nene#ruinene#polysho poker set
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#oc: irulanne#leg.ocs#leg.edits#*myedits#*ocedit#dragon age rook#da:tv#datv#my necromancer !!!!!!! my baby she’s here!!#teehee the first of the rooks !! so far i have 4 on standby for the fall the brainworms are brainwormingg jnhdkhnsk#spot the lucanne reference hehee twas a must to add something of luca in there he and lanna have had me in a CHOKEHOLD all a week hehe <3#colorings by cavalier remainn ICONIC andd SPEAKING OF WHICH THIS TEMPLATE GOLLY HOLLY#ty tyy orion this template was SOO good *screams* i had SO much fun working with it!!!!!#alsoo the official tarot for necromancers / mages / sidony from inky youll always be loved by MEE.#i am not sure if i want to go too much into her lore yet as its so early but the brainrot is brainrotting and i have SOO many thoughts!!#her history her lore how i see her interacting with the world and the world with her lanna's personality and her dynamic with luca AHHHH#*rattling the bars of my cage* FALL COME SOONER !!#lanna has had the braincell for the week STRAIGHT hdbjh <33#the high stakes tennis match between dragon show and dragon game brainrot hehe <33#ill hopefully have something for them too soooon I MISSED THEMM SO MUCHH#her lighthouse outfit + luca's outfit hehe couples that wear *almost* matching outfits thats soulmates or something (im normal) HEHEE#her name (hopefully the last time i change it djksncks) is inspired by i*rulan from d*une !!#an arcane prodigy entering her girlfailure era <33 girlbossed too close to the sun if u will JNDKJDSN#seemingly puts on an air of confidence but hides BIIIG time nervous wreck energy shes gonna take messing things up well i can feel it :')#i feel like a lot of clothes for her are sort of reminiscent of her time in the mourn watchers? all based on aspects of the dead??#like bones or etc?? but i also love that she could be a lightning learning mage with other magic so she takes to that more ethereal nature#to her style !! she’s also a BIG fan of the opera and was sort of praised as this golden child an arcane prodigy#the gifted kid to burnout adult pipeline she is really feeling it now 🥀🤧#hi hi moots if u read all that i am baking you cookies as we speak THERES SO MUCH MORE LOREE on her i have im screaming she’s everythingg#AHH IT WORKED IT POSTED <33 so so happy i can yell about her now HEHE 🥀💌
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i am once again thinking about killua and nanika
like I can't stop thinking about how much they are the same. Like nanika really kind of mirrors killua's emotional/personal arc throughout the series. thinking about the traits they share like...
pre-canon, both killua and nanika are tools. people (their family) are cruel to them, and they are made to enact cruelty onto others. the only difference is that killua can be controlled while nanika can't be. killua 'earns' his 'freedom' by virtue of him being much easier to manage/manipulate. nanika, on the other hand, cannot be managed so she and alluka are shut away permanently.
killua and nanika are largely beholden to the will of others -- for killua, its through illumi's needle as well as years of isolation, conditioning, and abuse by his family, and for nanika its in her nature.
but when they find someone who treats them like kids, or friends rather than monsters or a means to an end, when they're not being made to hurt others, killua and nanika both give freely and ask for very little in return.
killua, over and over, makes gon's 'wishes' come true, even if its at cost to himself. gon, kurapika, and leorio all pass the hunter exam because killua breaks a rule, ensuring the victory of everyone else there. he takes gon to heavens arena so he can train to beat hisoka, he agrees to help kurapika fight the phantom troupe because gon wants to help kurapika, he helps gon win greed island, and he gives everything to help gon beat the chimera ants. and all killua asks in return is that he be allowed to stay by gon's side. gon very rarely verbally asks or demands anything of killua (which some people portray as a sign of his selfishness, or that he takes for granted that killua will do whatever he wants, but i digress) but killua gives regardless because what gon has given to killua means so much to him --freedom, his friendship, his company, his trust, and his open and verbal affection.
nanika, in turn, fulfills all of killua's wishes and asks only for his love in return -- that he hug her, pat her head, and tell her she's good. She never makes cruel demands after killua's wishes because he never makes self-interested wishes, he never makes her hurt anyone for him. even as a child, he treated nanika like just another little sister, asking her to play with him and to fulfill the kinds of wishes she likes to do, such as healing people/animals.
killua (for most of the series) and nanika don't really have concrete goals or objectives of their own beyond securing love and affection by being useful to their favorite person (codependency twins !)
of course, killua and nanika are both eventually betrayed and incredibly hurt by their person, because that's just how codependent relationships play out, especially among people as young and emotionally immature and traumatized as gon, killua, and nanika are.
all of this culminates in maybe my favorite scene of the series, where killua realizes that he's hurt nanika in a similar way that gon have very recently hurt him, and also that by shutting nanika away, he's really just repeating their parents' abuse of her. so he doesn't just apologize, but he demonstrates that he knows why what he did is wrong, and why he did it, and promises never to do it again.
i only wish we cold have seen gon's apology :/
#post inspired by me thinking about alluka actually. and how assertive/protective she is about nanika and killua#specifically the scenes 1. where she stands up to killua on nanika's behalf and 2. where she puts herself between#killua and tsubone and defends him. basically i love her and this character trait i think it really speaks to her personal strength that#being locked up and shut away for so long she still has the ability to do this. but also last night i read a fic where alluka holds a grudg#against gon on killuas behalf bc she thinks that both he and nanika are far too giving/forgiving. and i've been thinking about that#also the fact that i see people refer to nanika as basically codependency personified. which no offense but killua kind of is too.#anyways. this post is way too long thats what happens when i post from my laptop rather than mobile#hxh#killua zoldyck#hxh nanika
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every single time i hear slimecicle sing i understand the feeling of being mad at someone's talent bc wdym this man is funny, talented, has good improv, witty, is handsome, a good person, good at acting/roleplay, creating stories, AND a good singer (without barely any training afaik)
#i will actually fight him#i mean this in the most positive way possible hes so cool#just too cool#so cool its frustrating lmao#slimecicle#woe's thoughts#btw i know the ''good person'' part is just as far as we know but it still adds to my frustration bc he seems nice added to all of this#and thats fucked up/j
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Kaufmo human ver?
I was originally just going to leave this as a concept in my mind plus the previous ask but FINE. You want the pathetic clown? You're getting the pathetic clown-
#tadc employee idea#like i said#i really didn't think much of him untill now#if he were part of the actual cast and not used as a way to incorporate the whole abstracted gimmick i would've probably liked him more#don't get me wrong i really liked the way they introduced the abstraction but kaufmo got the short end of the stick#plus the fact that thus far the only times weve seen him fully were in the promos#not the actual show#it's a shame really#f in char for the kaufmo fans#and regarding the employee au.....in my mind he's dead dxgctxfhfhcgc or at least he's no longer himself#not only in the circus but in real life too#but yeah before entering the curvus he was this pathetic man who wabted to befriend everyone but because of his irritating personality#things didn't go his way#he's the type if guy to go “Urm ACTUALLY-”#my spelling mistakes are through the roof goddamn. thats what i get for rushing
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you are the first person that comes to mind when i think of delgal and thistle so… the song passerine with them?? (thinking of delgal pov specifically)
Honored. Thank you. I LOOOOOVE THIS FOR THEM!
The chorus especially - it's about someone who defines and illuminates the narrator's life, but that importance doesn't stop the narrator from hurting them. If that isn't Thistle and Delgal, I don't know what is...
Cause you were the song that I'd always sing You were the light that the fire would bring But I can't shake this feeling that I was only Pushing the spear into your side again
I see Delgal during the dungeon years as someone who was crushed under a huge burden of self-imposed and unrealized guilt. According to Yaad, Delgal blamed himself for making Thistle use dark magic, and yes! He is guilty for that in a general sense, but Thistle had already been researching the dungeon before the pivotal moment when Delgal's begging made him decide to take the plunge. Guilt about that one moment doesn't address the root of the issue which is that Thistle's treatment by the Melini family, starting with Delgal's father acquiring him on a whim like a christmas puppy, turned Thistle into someone so wholly devoted & bereft of identity outside of them that he would do literally anything for his chosen family.
Did Delgal ever realize the scope of what they'd done to Thistle? Did he just take it for granted until suddenly Thistle wasn't doing exactly what Delgal wanted anymore and he had to start re-evaluating his relationship to Thistle? "I can't shake this feeling that I was only pushing the spear into your side again."
When he comes a knocking at my door What am I to do, What am I to do, oh lord When the cold wind rolls in form the north What am I to do, What am I to do, oh lord
#thistle#delgal#i think delgal did eventually realize that he was to blame for what thistle turned into beyond just the “dark magic” use#and thats why it took 1k years for any notable resistance to occur and it only took the shape of delgal escaping to 1) beg for help 2) die#the one person who thistle wouldn't have his guard up around would be delgal. so what stopped delgal from taking advantage of that?#i think delgal couldn't bring himself to kill thistle (they thought he was too far gone to talk to or handle otherwise)#and he also stopped other people from moving against thistle. we must all suffer in this unending guilt purgatory.#and keep in mind that when yaad asks the party for help he's basically saying Help Us Die. that is also what delgal begged for. Help Us Die#my words
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#p4#persona 4#p4g#hanamura yosuke#yosuke hanamura#anyone that says yosuke is nothing but mean and awful to Kanji should meet me in the parking lot#we're not going to throw hands im just going to show you my 100 slide powerpoint presentation on their complex dynamic#for me one of the most appealing things about yosuke is how human and realistic he's been written#he is simultaneously capable of immense empathy and care towards his friends while at the same time struggle with his own identity#combined with a difficultly in self expression that results in him making tactless and hurtful remarks at times#thats not to say it makes those remarks ok - far from it!#but i think reducing yosuke to just those remarks makes him a rather empty caricature#which is such a shame especially considering that his entire personal narrative arc has been about confronting himself so he can be better#but anyway yes he cares about his friends he cares about their well being so much#he didnt have any obligation or a responsibility to look out for his juniors but he did so anyway without anyone asking#and it's so!!! because kanji does not look like he needs babying at all. hes taller than both yosuke and yu and he looks way older too#kanji has taken care of biker gangs by himself and is known to be intimidating#not that any of that fazes yosuke? kanji is his friend now hes one of them and therefore yosuke immediately wants to look out for him#god hanamura yosuke you so!!!#AAAAAAAAH#he's good with his queue
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the only gay rep I truly care about is
1. countless lives are destroyed because two proud people can't fully admit their gay crushes on each other
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2. someone hides being a murderer as a metaphor for also hiding being gay
#miss me with that perfect wholesome gay rep stuff#in theory like yeah its good to have that too but does it resonate with me no#like is it probably homophobic to always make the obsessive weird villains creepy and gay yeah#but is that also by far the most fun yeah usually it is#theres this lesbian couple with basically opposite taste to me in my book club#and we read something with a shitty queer coded villain and im like yay#and they're like thats homophobic#and im like youre not wrong but id rather die than give 5 stars to the h/ouse in the c/erulean sea#i feel the 'bad rep' feels different when its a gay person writing it too... like clearly it is complicated#p
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he makes them out of polymer clay for everyone himself you asshole
#jarlaxle baenre#gromph baenre#every fandom has that person who is one of only a handful of people who ever draws a character#and to everyone's silent dismay they draw them so so wrong#thats me with these dudes#this is a campaign in joke that has gone too far#dnd#forgotten realms
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