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graedari · 2 years ago

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theloveinc · 2 months ago

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i don't really want to bc like. there's many reasons for me to stay but. i don't think this tumblr life is for me anymore

#obvs im gonna keep this blog like i'm not. gonna go away. i can't lol!#i need to have a space to post when i do have stuff to post ... with gachiakuta otw ofc !!!#but i think it's time .... i admit to myself i cant do this the way i did anymore #not even back in like. 2021 but even just. last year. im not someone who can sustain interaction no matter how much i want to #there's just too much on my mind and im too anxious and way too insecure and with the election i have students to take care of #my family to prioritize and i have to move house and get my credentials and my degree so i can get a job.#it's just too much really to be worrying about what i can do here .. ive been in denial for so lng #not that that changes anything for anyone here or anyone reading this. i'm not disappearing and im still gonna be reading.#but i need to officially relieve myself of duty... iN MY MIND. if that makes any sense.#im sure i'll write again one day. my writing has come so far and ive finally noticed. and im so grateful to have tried so hard #i never let myself down once. thats for certain. i did what i could when i could #but i can't anymore and that has to be okay bc its whats happening.#anyway nothing's changing dw there's just been a shift in my psyche thats all #and i might post less and reblob more .. but that's all!#still love u ofc <3 #caitie blabs

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collgeruledzebra · 6 days ago

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one thing that's really nice about cooking is that you don't have to be an expert, or even close to it, to make stuff that other people will judge as good. like with art, or a sport, it takes a lot of time and effort to get to a level that people will genuinely find impressive but with cooking as long as you find a good recipe and don't do anything totally whacked with it you can have everyone falling head over heels for your soup

#to be clear. this isnt about the praise aspect (mostly) its about being able to give people a legitimately nice experience with your craft #ive been cooking a lot living by myself and it fulfills so many of the needs art fulufills without being so risky in terms of mental/#emotional investment #but it hasnt replaced art at all in fact i think it's helped keep me out of art block by just giving me something else to do for the #brain chemical reward that is also productive/doesnt make me feel bad about just being on that damn phone all the time #so i can keep working on big art projects without needing them to be self sustaining in terms of motivation #at least thats what i Think -- we'll see whether it keeps panning out #just things ive been thinking about idk #personal tag

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ambersky0319 · 5 months ago

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guess who didnt realize/forgot others could see their profile on roommate websites and got messaged by someone asking if i was still looking for a room when i dont actually plan on moving until much later this year 🙃

#multiple reasons i cant move sooner: health insurance. phone. not enough money to sustain myself yet #i did check anyway tho and the apartment offered was. a LONG 2 bus rides away from campus & my work #so even if i was looking. itd have very likely been a no just for that unfortunately (im hoping to cut down on commute time not increase it)#i did feel a lil bad tho and IMMEDIATELY paused my account 😅#i only created them bc i was getting a feel for how those sites worked more than anything #and also seeing if i could find someplace cheaper than $850/month since thats all my sib found and #that is an entire month worth of paychecks #i do not plan on spending that much on rent alone. i need to eat AND id like to still have something for things i enjoy #anywho i wished her luck but uh yeah im gonna have to tinker a bit more. see whats there to hide my profiles for now #or maybe just openly tell people like 'i actually cant move until much later this year ive only just been familiarizing myself w these sites #so unless you can wait that long...' bc i dont wanna waste people's time nor my own yknow?#anywho #amber's shit you can ignore

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seventh-district · 6 months ago

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several days and 15 thousand words later, i am relieved to report that the suffocating urge to Write Something has been sated and no longer has me in a chokehold

#Seven.txt #writing stuff #thinking of that post that’s like ‘u Have To make art or all the ideas stay stuck in ur brain and make u sick’ bc yeah thats been the vibe #wish i wasn’t so all or nothing about it tho. but alas. i’m that way with everything in my life #i either expect 10k in a day from myself or i don’t write at all for weeks. or months :)#and my average pace is about 500 words per hour. so u can see. how that might be a problem. given how many hours are in a day.#and that’s obviously not sustainable. but idk if it’s adhd or what but it’s So hard to quickly start and stop tasks just Whenever #i struggle to be one of those ppl that can consistently write like. 500 words a day every day and then wow! soon you have a whole novel #nah. once i get myself in the Zone then i’m Goin’ and i can’t stop until i’m Done or i collapse from ignoring my body’s needs lmao #it’s something i should make an effort to do though bc i’d love to be consistently chipping away at things instead of working in bursts #anyways this is a lotta negative self-commentary for what is actually a Positive post! bc yay!! i wrote a thing!! Two things actually!!! 🎉#i got the follow-up to last year’s Matt oneshot done And i wrote the next chapter of Heaven in Hiding after uh. a year and some months #i wanted to blow the dust off the ol’ keyboard by starting with writing some less. uh. high-stakes(?) stuff #not that i didn’t put my all into writing them. i always do. just that ik they’ll have less of an audience so ill cringe less if they suck #so then i can hopefully do justice to the [N]MbD stuff that i’ll be putting out next! ehehe *rubbing my hands together* Finally #the next two [N]MbD fics r already written but the first little one needs a final edit #and then the Big one for. uh. someone (u kno who u r) needs a bit of rewriting i think. i wanna make it Better #so release schedule will be 1. Matt • 2. HiH Ch.3 • 3. [N]MbD small fic • 4. [N]MbD Big fic #then i’m gonna write a lil Boothill comfort oneshot. then i’ll edit/maybe rewrite and post that Dew (Ghost) OCD comfort oneshot #i also wanna keep writing the last couple chapters of HiH before i unintentionally abandon it again #and after/amidst all that maybe i’ll manage to get ES Ch.6 written and posted before the end of the year 😭#anyways ik i’ve made posts like this before. talking abt all these Plans of mine. and most of those things r Still stuck in the pipeline #so don’t put too much stock into this plan. i could have another Bad couple of months and get None of it done #but god i sure fucking hope not. i’d really like to cling to my creativity. if for no other reason than that it makes me happy

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mainfaggot · 1 year ago

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tw eating disorder talk, pt.2 to the last post in the tags (once again, no mention of numbers that could be triggering, just a heartfelt rant bc I've been so afraid of talking about these things on here, but i really just need to get everything out bc . I feel crazy)

#so basically it was bad. this past summer the relapse was so sugarcoated in the sense that #i was telling myself it was fine. it didn't look the same as it did at my very worst #it didn't even feel the same #but it wasn't fulfilling either. it was stressful. it was exhausting. i was using my anorexia as a way to distract from having depression #i needed to feel a sense of achievement and i got it! but at the cost of my physical health #and my mental health was all over the place like less depressed sure. but way more anxious #it was weird. because even now i have to tell myself it wasn't okay. it wasn't fine. it's not worth it it's not WORTH IT #part of me keeps romanticizing it bc i was so in control and i was still working a little and still functioning in a socially acceptable way #but i know how much anxiety it gave me on a daily basis. only i know how my body ached and how low i felt from my immunity going to shit #only I know what it's like to have horrible circulation and constant weakness #no one else will live my life for me #I'm sure there are people who can live the way i was. im sure there are people who thrive like that #but they only thrive for a short time before it all comes crashing fown #and it's not worth the comparison bc when im suffering theyre not going to help me out!!!!!#when im struggling with the weight of it all. the people that promote tiny little portions and academic excellence with no room for #self compassion #they're not going to nurse me back to health #i won't feel a sustained sense of satisfaction from restricting and studying until i pass out from exhaustion. I've done that before #perfectionism is a parasite and this is a disease. it's a fucking mental illness and it's not even about vanity for me like thats just a #fraction of it #anyway #z.post

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shinkai-kaiju · 2 years ago

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there should be no reason i make $100 in sales and only get to keep $20 of that to begin with. there is NOT A SINGLE REASON for me to have to give up $9 of that in fees on top of the $80 i already forfeit.

#its genuinely pissing me off so much you do not know the rage within me #i started a redbubble bc i dont know how to market myself bc thats kinda depressing to do as an artist #but i made stuff. that people like sometimes. And i wanted them to be able to have it. but this is not at all sustainable #i already dont get much out of what i sell and now i get fucking pennies. its relatively cheap labor for them so they dont feel the need #to pay bc they expect you to be selling like $300 a month ir smthn #youd only get $60 of that $300 anyways right? lmao? its no big deaaaal(through grit teeth)#the frustrating thing is that not all accounts need to pay the new fees! theyre extremely vague about how you get to be a premium or pro #account. im a standard. people who post more than me are standards. people who ar more aftive than me are standards #some people who post less than i have or are less active are premiums #some people who are new are standards and others are premiums #im assuming pro is paid.#it just fucking blows over all #sorry this is me yelling about redbubble #delete later

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krawdad · 27 days ago

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I hope whatever part of me that has my imagination gets what it needs so I can do that some more

#ive gone back from drawing pictures of things to doing ink swatches and like. assorted doodles of stroke shapes or textures #thats not nothing #cartoons used to come out of my brain #now im like. unclear what i want to do with the images #i aspired and i got to where i learned how to draw #i could just like assign myself an arbitrary cartoony comic strip just to give myself something to be doing #i have enough love for audiovisual what-have-you to keep doing stuff with that i guess #i have all these tools and skills but it could not be less clear to me right now what i am capable of sustaining #shit it might be fun to do like comically low budget effects for people #i feel like I'd fit real well in like a low budget effects department #here's your shot. heres what it needs to look like. you have like 4 hours. figure something out.#how do we make a car sized set of shoes for like $50 #im good at those kind of puzzles #do not have me broker funding or schedule oh my god #i know what I'm good at have me wear those hats

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callilouv · 10 months ago

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once ir reached 3am im gna plsay ml

#everybody is half asleep every time i play matches on ml at that time and its fuking hilaruosu #even me too cuz the enemy cld be right in front of me and ill miss all of my skills like What (rlyl happened and i was embarrassed cuz that #was quite litrly a free kill)#uehm ill try playing tank ig (very Ew unless its esme my queen<3)#i have tigreals special skin but ugghugurhg i wanna play pretty girls!!!!#only dude im allowing myself to play is nolan n cyclops and THATS IT #my nolan skills have degraded terribly tho i used to be so good at him when he first realessed #but he started getting banned every match and overtime i just forgot how to use him</3 #+ i prefer to play more sustain junglers now like esme cuz id rather last long in a clash than die w just 1 wrong move #thats why im esme's Biggest Fangirl Ever (real)<3333 #but i fucking hate playig as the jungler so thats that ig #I MISS MY MARKSMAN ROOTS but at the same time playing mid is saur fun #i need to sharpen up my luo yi skills cuz i wan buy oracle of sol skin w the promo dias #actually idk how promo dias work #like can u buy any skin or will there be like options to choose from idk #but either way i want to buy oracle of sol soooo bad just bc it looks so pretty #halloween lylia is alr but..... oracle of sol fx...... :(#oh help im looking thru my heores rn and i literally forgot that i have novaria #why did i even buy her bro im so shit at aiming my skills (see: first few tags)#same way i want to play selena but i know that aiming my skills i sjust . not it for me HWKJFGH #ermmemrm for marksman i doubt ill be going back to being a mm main any time soon #and if i hav to play mm in a match ill pick ixia anyway butttt i rlly rlly wanna learn how to play karrie #cuz the pro karrie players i get matched w are literally so scary liek i Cannot farm properly . they alwys zone me out!!!!#and its scary cuz once i get out of my tower she'll fucking punish me for that and i die !!!#one day one day #oooh also beatrix i wanna learn but just looking at her plethora of guns has my eyes confused #so sadge but uhhh i also rlly kinda wanna play melissa but it just seems that shes rlly rlly squishy #like she just has that kill them before they kill u kind of strat and most of the time it works but #i literally get like 20 heart attacks when i see my hp drop below 50% and i usually fumble my skills after that hhaaha #uhm anwyay i think i rambled elong enough her

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venomgender · 11 months ago

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i dont know what to do

#this sucks so bad nothing has changed recently about how my dad treats me and het somehow its all so much worse. straw that broke thr camels #back i guess #like at this point the onky solution i can think of is running away and libing on the streets. but i obviously cant do that because #ots not like thats going go he any better #i have. no wjere to go. the only places i could go to get away from them (libraries etc) are only ppen durinh the day. when yheure at work #i dont need to get away from mh parents when theure not here #i dont have a job i barely make enough on doordash a montj to pay my bills. so its not like i can move out #so what's the solution. stay like this? stay in this place? where i have panic attacks every other day at the thought of my dad yellingatme?#i cant even go downstairs once my parents are home until like midnight where i know theyre asleep #i spend more time hiding from my parente in the bathroom thanci do anuthing else #and i cant even begin to get myself out of here because no one is fucking hiring. and doordash is not sustainable #like

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luckykiwiii101 · 2 months ago

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FAV SUCCESS STORY QUOTES

ィ⠀Imagination, life is your creation⠀࿐

✰ “I've manifested so much physical changes when i stopped thinking about how the 3d needs to change. i focused on how i feel (state of already having your desires) and sustained that feeling.”

✰“I did absolutely nothing but focus on my desires/the 4D. I was delusional, I was detached from whatever bullshit was happening in my 3D and I was basically in love with my 4D.”

✰“the only reason why you fail, is because you haven’t accepted that imagination is the only reality, everything stems from imagination. the longer you focus on getting it in the physical world, the more stress you’ll have. you only want the feeling such desire brings you, so give it to your inner man.”

✰ “All i did was fulfill myself in my imagination, and stopped looking for confirmation in the outer world, whenever i felt the urge to “look for it in the 3D” i would close my eyes and see it in my imagination. That’s all i did, the first days i felt a little anxious but then everything was okay, and i was EXTREMELY calm.”

✰ “I started focusing on the feeling of having everything I wanted, without being specific because my subconscious/ god knows what it is, it’s when things started happening, and let me tell you it’s was so quick.”

✰“I didn’t work on my self concept, I didn’t do methods (however I tried SATs and it did work for me once but I stopped since I got lazy) I didn’t focus on time or logic, I didn’t do anything but focus on what was happening in my imagination.”

✰ “your only job in here is to think from the perspective that you already have it baby. don't stress yourself, everything will change because if it is in your imagination and you accept that it will reflect in the 3d, thats literally everything everything and everything . you don't need to change your thoughts, only your state, you want to get into the void this night? imagine however you want that you are waking up with everything you wanted, it is not a desire, it is the reality. you want proof? go to your imagination. everything is there.”

✰ All success stories are on @loasuccessarchive

✰ More coming soon!!! XOXO

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rocket-candy-heart · 2 years ago

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I struggle so much with summer clothes that finding anything seasonally appropriate that I can wear without feeling nauseous is really a gift

#got myself gardening overalls for my household tasks/gardening/dog walking/etc and theyre breathable and they fit!#also i try not to buy too many clothes from target bc theyre not the best re quality/sustainability/ethics #but...they had something i will feel comfortable wearing AND i got to try it on before i bought it which is really unexpected and nice #trying to remind myself that before i know it it WILL be in the 90°+ range every single day and i WILL make myself heat sick #i need a fashion guide thats like 'how to dress for summer when summer is viscerally depressing and all the clothes are ugly'#im not like...modest or anything. its just that sometimes i dont want to deal with the confrontations inherant in wearing revealing clothes #as a fat person i DO get harassed more and confronted more if im not fairly covered up

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snekdood · 2 years ago

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Commercial food brands:

People aren't buying your products bc you put milk in everything and no vegan options. People are learning that eating SO MUCH MILK AND MEAT is NOT actually great for you and your body and also makes ya constipated. I think maybe yall should invest in vegan options and alternatives to your popular products, then you wont lose so many people to being fed up and ultimately resorting to cooking for themselves since like most every popular food brand has 0 alternatives.

#my stomach does Not appreciate having to eat anything w milk and meat in it #aside from any morals i have for myself about eating animal products. my stomach does Not like sitting there tryna digest this shit #and i also dont like it and being constipated like all the time :|#obviously im an Anti Milk Propaganda blog (in spite of being hindu ??) but this isnt even about how milk powder is in everything which it #is and its really annoying. this is about how in general this shit isnt sustainable if you're trying to gain as many consumers as possible #like health is a huge thing for ppl now ppl dont wanna just sit there and mindlessly eat whatever crap no matter whats in it #also okay i dont think its impossible to ethically consume milk. i do believe thats probably what most hindus do #its more like a. we're not cows so why are we doing this kinda thing. like i think we only started consuming milk outta desperation #and lack of other food options but now we got a whole lot more options so idk.#im a snake-man so im just like. avoidant of milk in general djfhhgfdhg. i've always hated how dairy tastes .-.#im sorrey shiva pls forgive me u-u #nvm just looked up the dairy industry in india and its Not looking good out here boys :T #i trust that like ppl with their own cows are good to them but uh... industries gonna industry no matter who gets hurt huh #anyways i need to stop reading about this because im already crying and i dont need to anymore 😢👍#not gonna act like its better in the us but hearing about this stuff and seeing any imagery of it just makes me cry a lot

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holllandtrash · 2 years ago

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not good enough | charles leclerc social media au

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charles' girlfriend gets a lot of hate online and he usually stays out it because she knows how to handle it...but sometimes people just need a little reminder that they're in love asian faceclaim: christina nadin - british/filipino influencer

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yourusername 'come to paris' charles said, 'it'll be fun' mate it literally smells like ass and i dont speak french

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charles_leclerc i've been translating everything for you, you're fine

pierregasly should have visited milan instead

charles_leclerc are you hitting on my girlfriend pierregasly milan is simply better than paris yourusername we're going to milan next time

hamiltyres shes so real for this

lightsouthannah she complains about everything why does charles put up with her

55carlando4 are they there for paris fashion week??

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pierregasly how did charles convince you to leave the hotel?

yourusername he told me i wouldn't have to stay for the fashion show yourusername he lied charles_leclerc 🙄🙄🙄

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hammilstop is it just me or does y/n seen ungrateful?

jemmaf1 yeah i was thinking the same thing

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charles_leclerc Celine Homme 2023🖤 Merci celine

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luvfrom63 i dont understand why y/n goes to paris with charles but then refuses to attend the shows

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yourusername a sustainable fashion show that promotes empowering women living in recovering nations? sign me up

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noviaelegante so happy to have you attend🖤

charles_leclerc you should have modelled one of them

yourusername im not putting on a wedding dress until you give me a reason to

pierregasly when are you walking down the aisle?

yourusername when someone puts a rock on my finger pierregasly is this an open invitation? charles_leclerc mate dont even think about proposing to my girl

channyinthepaddock THATS what she wore to the show? girl💀

kaleyschumacher its a no from me

lewisfanclub im sorry are we not going to talk about pierre's comments????????

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charles_leclerc The man!! doni.nahmias

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doni.nahmias the drinks are on your tab tonight yourusername thats fair

caraf1fan charles slays at another fashion show and y/n can't even bother to attend and support her friend? what is wrong with her

mickysunshine y/n do better💀💀

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charles_leclerc beautiful in both 🖤

pierregasly so she does know how to dress up

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hannahsformula idk i still think charles can do better than her

vivvverstappen nah her and charles are a power couple and anyone who says otherwise is so so wrong

luvforlance but why hasn't charles said anything about what shes been dealing with online 💀 he defends her the same way justin bieber defends hailey

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charles_leclerc thank you dior for helping me end Paris Fashion Week in style

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mickandkmags forever wondering how y/n managed to pull charles when he looks like that and she wears jumpers and sweats 99% of the time

yourusername he loves my personality pierregasly yeah sure thats it

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felidaefatigue · 2 months ago

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craving human connection lately and i dont know how to go about solving it currently because ive isolated myself pretty fuckin hard and like... i am bad at building it from scratch. i know thats. kinda just like sucks to suck do it anyways but. winter is here so im even less likely to go anywhere to just kinda hope something happens. boy is my ride and we have opposing schedules so i cant do art markets anymore. no one talks to me at work and like. i dont want to start trying to hang around people who i miiiiight get along with just to have stilted ass conversation to try to get that going and the rest of them annoy the crap out of me because theyre arrogant jaded retirees. i have too many fucking hobbies i built up when i had to be self sufficient in isolation so i dont really want to introduce another to go out to even when i consider like a sport hobby. plus most of them are stupid expensive or require travel times that are just ridiculous.

sigh. i know i just gotta pick a poison and deal. but. im tired. im very greatful to the people online who reach out to me here and there and habe stuck around in any capacity through the years because like. i am a bad friend for most people im not good at keeping up my end of the bargain at all. and i dont blame people for not havin the energy to sustain something not adequately reciprocated. but i wish i was better at it and had any degree of a social circle cause it is exhausting trying to convince my stupid monkey brain its social needs are met when theyre not. i feel like the media trope of the insane person making garbage into dolls to talk to. not that im implying the people i do talk to are the dolls; that would be rude lmao. but like pasting over the gaps in my environment and just gaslighting my psychology into pretending its fine.

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lemonade-luvr · 21 days ago

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been thinking about transphobia a lot lately.

grisps. "transandrophobia" is (very probably)* not real. i have not faced discrimination for being a man. ever. evereverever. not by anyone with power over me.

when you transition from female to male (in terms of societal roles rather than an actual preferred gender < weird about their own gender(s))*, you lose one privilege: being cis.

when i as a trans man "pass" as male, i Gain male privilege until i am seen as a woman again. it is not possible for me to permanently sustain this privilege (and i am someone who doesn't pass easily in the slightest so it is rarely given to me), but it is a privilege i can have.

even medically, being treated as a man got me on hormones faster than my transfeminine friend got on her hormones. my doctors took me more seriously. i was on a waitlist for 3ish years. my friend was on a waitlist for 6 years, and had to wait 3 more to actually get somewhere, and had to deal with incredibly invasive and humiliating shit that didnt even seem to serve much of a purpose. my doctors didn't even chase me up on my weight. i haven't weighed myself since i was like 12.

and when i don't pass, it isnt a problem, because it is not nearly as taboo for a woman to wear pants as it is for a man to wear a dress. its actually fairly standard. i just get treated as a girl. which sucks! but is still a relatively normal thing to be.

whereas trans women have to take a much more substantial risk when presenting themselves as. themselves. it is Dangerous to be seen as a "man" in a dress. you lose privilege because you are seen as very probably gay, or even more extreme as some kind of sexual predator.

i know we're on tumblr, and this is a fucking echochamber of loving GNC men and wanting to see men in dresses, but people get attacked for looking like that, even more so when they're trans women and not men at all.

to my understanding, to be a trans woman is to sacrifice either your privilege or your sense of self. it's terrifying. isolating. i couldnt begin to feel that sort of fear.

when a trans woman speaks up and says that my group, transmascs trans men, threaten her? it is my duty to give her support as someone who cannot fathom how hard it is to be her. i don't make it her problem if that makes me feel hurt. i make it my mission to make people like her feel safer. and thats as simple as treating her like shes a human being.

the harassment ive seen from trans men on this platform aimed towards trans women (more recently patricia taxxon) is fucking disgusting. it isnt making us look any better, it isnt making us any safer to be around. its absolutely fucking disgusting. you people are tar pits and i want nothing to do with you. no i dont care about her fetishes. leave her alone.

not at all have i said trans men dont experience discrimination. btw. but the discrimination we experience does not hinge on the fact we are men, it hinges on the fact that we are trans or we are seen as women.

if theres anything anyone wants to like correct me on im all ears but im not gonna respond well to people being shitty. im fed up with what ive been seeing go around. we need trans people to be listening to eachother and helping eachother, not encouraging behaviour that makes our trans sisters terrified of us.

thanks for listening to my rant its been a long week.

*compulsion who asked

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