#thats actually where the blog name comes from if i remember right

[brainmoss]

tagged by @sometimes-i-talk-a-lot Thank you so much!!

Tag nine (9) people you’d like to know better

last song: Came back from a festival some days ago and just realized I haven't listened to anything since! So, some sort of dance song/mix whose names I don't know by BLOND:ISH

currently watching: Started listening to TAZ: Ethersea in the podcast category. Also been binge watching Charborg/CHRBRG on youtube because I thought he had left youtube, turns out he just switched channels, so now I'm catching up ahah Hey pardon just remembered Puppet History is back on too!

currently reading: Whale Weekly (severely behind but I think I'll get on an audiobook to catch up), Dracula Daily, and "Tribuna Negra: Origens do Movimento Negro em Portugal (1911-1933)" by Cristina Roldão, José Augusto Pereira & Pedro Varela. Picked it up when I had some hours to kill in the city and it's a theme I'd like to know more about, have been really enjoying it, very informative. Not sure if it's how a book presentation works but I might be able to get it signed tomorrow?? maybe???

current obsession: not sure actually. am on a weird period of my life i think. Barbie movie maybe? Will watch next week with some friends. Get money? Go to go to more festivals? My cats? Indie games on steam? Sorry i can't really think of anything that's been pulling my interest in particular lately.

I would like to get to know quite a few of you better but tags on my blog seem to be meh, so I'll let whoever wants to awnser these go for it!

[homestuckreplay]

Seeking Friends (MUST be named John)

(page 1129-1136)

tiny jade tiny jade we got tiny jade!!!! look at them both <3

Unfortunately this is now a Grandpa Harley hate blog. That ridiculous amount of force used to kill a butterfly. (a transgender butterfly at that!!) The unnecessary show of power and dominance. And for what? To show a small child that destruction of life is his idea of fun? No wonder Jade has such a refusal to hurt animals – I feel like she’s associated with life and growth while Grandpa is associated with death and destruction. Like on the one hand, having to handle her grandpa’s death at a young age and being the only one around to clean up and stuff the body must have been incredibly traumatic for Jade, and being alone ever since can’t have helped. But I don’t think she’d be doing much better if he’d lived! This is not a tragic situation where Jade almost had a good guardian! In fact, Jade regularly acting like her grandpa is still alive could come from him being SO omnipresent and overbearing while she was alive that she never really spent any time without him, until he was entirely gone.

Although I’d say Bec is already acting like Jade’s actual guardian, as he’s clearly the one taking care of her while Grandpa is destroying the beautiful landscape with his inappropriately large firearms.

We still have all scenes occurring on a beta kid birthday, but there’s no year on this one. What does Grandpa Harley think is the right age to introduce Jade to the thrill of the hunt? Probably way too young, but Jade can already read well as she has no trouble with John’s note, so I’m gonna say this is her 6th birthday. December 1, 2001.

Unfortunately you cannot open it yet! This package has an important journey to make first. You are planning on delivering it momentarily. Good thing you already know what's inside. Otherwise you would surely be consumed by curiosity and suspense. You sincerely pity anyone who might be forced to endure such a fate. (p.998)

The reveal of Jade’s package is really cute. I think the above quote is intentionally hinting that Jade knows what’s in the package through the power of Prophecy and Visions, but it’s actually the more mundane (kind of?) reason – she already opened the gift years ago! And inside we get the fabled ‘dear jade,’ page, completing the set, plus a note that contains SO much beta kid lore that I’m so excited about.

Jade wears blue and takes up gardening because she receives this package, creating a stable time loop around these interests. This Blue Slime Ghost shirt could be the first shirt used to make the wardrobifier, as young Jade is wearing a plain shirt.

We don’t know when Jade started seeing dream visions, but from her reaction to John’s letter, there’s no indication that she thinks about things in the weird past/future, seeing herself as an agent of the timeline way that she thinks in 2009. I would bet that this is the beginning of her relationship with predestination. I also think this might have caused her to wake up on Prospit, as she’s been contacted directly by the future, and this makes her more open to temporal communication

John thought he was going to be so late with Jade’s present when he remembered how far away she lives, but he actually got it there incredibly early, so huge W for John. (and an even bigger W for the heroic mail carrier PM). Jade’s response was ‘john thats ok really! im sure will get to me exactly when it needs to and it will be a nice surprise when it does!’ and she was right. The gift was definitely a nice surprise, as tiny Jade had no clue it was coming, and if it prompted Jade’s interest in gardening and potentially her visions – a key source of guidance for her especially after she loses her grandpa – then it did happen at exactly the right time. I like the idea that all of Jade’s weirdness was prompted by the seemingly most normal character.

John has NO supernatural awareness in this letter, and is totally stumped as to why Jade’s pumpkins are disappearing – but he’s listened to her when she’s talked about her gardening woes, and his ‘i'm sure you know the fun is in growing them and taking care of them until they're ready’ is a good read; it feels like something Jade herself would say. And John gives Jade a shirt that not only matches his, but is ‘way more awesome’, so he’s really putting her first. There is something about John’s gift to Jade that feels somehow lesser than his honestly inspired gifts to Rose or Dave – it ended up being really impactful, but wouldn’t have been if she had received it in 2008, where it would’ve just related to her existing interests. But I understand that, because sometimes when someone is THAT important to you, it’s impossible to represent that with a physical gift.

John also went to a store, and to the post office! I feel very vindicated because I find the idea that John does leave the house and interact with other people but still feels alone, alienated and ‘homestuck’ way more compelling than the idea that he’s literally never left the house and yard or spoken to anyone outside his family. Similarly, he signs all the notes to his friends with ‘(john)’, so he wasn’t literally named on his 13th birthday - ‘it is only today he will be given a name’ is more a statement about independence and coming into his own. I like this official confirmation that some of the video game aspects aren’t meant to be taken literally, and I think it opens up more angles for interpretation in future.

Finally, we learn that John met Rose and Dave through Jade! So either Jade was the common link that met all three of them individually, and then brought the group together, or John and Jade were friends and Rose and Dave were friends, and Jade united the pairs. I think the first is more likely, as having received this letter, Jade will be on the lookout for friends named John, Rose and Dave, and may get hints to her meeting them when she starts seeing visions on Prospit. As usual (but also for the first time), she will have a head start while everyone else is oblivious.

As if the Package storyline wrapping up wasn’t proof enough, the adventure map shows that we really are at the end of act 3. I cannot wait to see how the act ends and where the story will go in act 4.

> Jade: Tie giant shirt around yourself like a wizard’s cape.

[rise-my-angel]

Confession: I sometimes hope that Martin never finishes the books so that Targ stans are forced to accept that the show one is all they're ever gonna get. Like, yes Dany becomes Mad Queen, yes Bran becomes King, yes the North becomes independent. That's what happened, and you'll have to live with that now, your dream of a book ending where Daenerys gets to rule the entire Westeros unopposed and gets a happily ever after is not real.

My stance is pretty much: I think the Mad Queen arc will not go down the way the show portrayed it, but it will happen. I think to the outsiders of Westeros, it will appear that Dany went mad like her father, but to the readers, it will be clear that she is not mad, that this was an inevitability from who she is and what she beleives in. But the perception of Westeros remembers her by that name.

I don't know what I think of Bran being King in the end because I personally think that the abolition of the Iron Throne is the right way to go for the realm, but I do think the North remains independant, but also done differently.

That being said, and especially after how ungrateful some people showed themsleves to be towards grrm after his blog post about hotd came out, I think some of these people just dont deserve to have the books come out. I think some people have proven that they do not respect him enough anymore to be worth putting the series out for them. These people were so ungrateful they said his opinion on the adaptation of his own work, didnt matter. Those people don't deserve to have the books come out.

Some people too are also just so obnoxious about what they think will happen. I can't tell you the amount of times I've seen people say they can't wait until the books come out so they can rub in it peoples faces who say Lyanna was raped, when its proven it was a love story, and its like? You shouldn't be eager to insult and talk down to people who believed an event weve been told was rape was actually rape..

Like, Dany in the book is interesting because no matter what her thoughts say to herself, her words and actions all show she is not a good person and she is only getting worse. She's interesting because you start the story rooting for her, only to suddenly watch and realize that you didn't really know this girl you were rooting for the way you thought you did. She's interesting because you're watching someone turn into a dangerous, violent, and cruel leader who beleives that she both is owed the Iron Throne and thinks she has some divine right to it, both things which in a person who freely uses such cruelty, is such a dangerous thing.

I personally don't like her, but I like watching her descent and where she's going because thats interesting to me. But, a lot stemming from show fans have devolved into defending her every step of the way and not engaging with her on the level of cruelty she repeatedly has portrayed.

At this point, I just think it's a mistake to assume that the series would end with anyone on the Iron Throne. I think the way the show did it was stupid, but I think the concept of destroying the Iron Throne, either literally or figuratvely, is where this series would be headed.

But I think thats an unpopular stance at this point, so I don't really expect people to agree with that. At this point, I've made my peace with the shows ending to the point if its the only one we ever get, thats fine. It'll just be funny to me to watch people still complain about it years later.

[naughtless0000]

i played and beat mouthwashing for the first time yesterday. here's how that went..

to start off, i wanna say there's MAJOR spoilers and im gonna be yapping so here we go

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staring off with cool screenshots i took, just so we dont immediately jump off into the depressing yap fest

immediately said "oh boy i love playing fnaf" when i was here (i saw fanart of daisuke and it was him saying 'cmon, its just like among us, you can do this' while crawling though the vents) -

despite the implications i found this to be really fucking cool, but thats just me. and the more you think about it the more games you remember that have a scene where youre going into/coming out of a giant open mouth from the head of a character -

i still cant entirely wrap my head around the fact that swansea has this custom swan key just for him. like, haha, i get it, "swan"sea, swan key.. but where did he get it from? not the key, but the custom holder? makes you wonder how long he's had it for.

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i couldnt find my own screenshot of him, i dont know where it went, but yimpy........ yimpy.. i have a feeling daisuke drew it, who else would it be -

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ok, now its time for the depressing stuff

god. let me tell you about the genuine distress i felt. i had the isopropyl before it was even mentioned, so the first time i had to clear the foam to get to the medicine cabinet. i was just fucking around a little bit when i was stuck in the game (for a stupid reason might i add) so i just mixed it with mouthwash cause i was like "hey, this will make it actually better to use as real mouthwash, right?" (am i an idiot? out of game, like, am i stupid? do you understand what i was thinking though? the disinfectant? anyways..) and when it made the plain mocktail.. i was like "haha this is funny." and then it quickly became NOT FUNNY. when daisuke NEEDED IT, so i had to take the LONG ROUTE TO GET SOMETHING ELSE. AND I BLAME MYSELF FOR HIS DEATH

i know that there probably arent any different routes in the game and it was meant to happen.. but i feel like i should play it again BECAUSE COME ONNNNNN. - i got it spoiled for me that anya was pregnant when i was looking for the solution to helping her out of medical. which, by the way, i was a complete idiot during that part. all i needed to do was click on a different part of the door to continue the game, so im just stupid. you wont believe my face when i realized how dumb i was. so when she said she was pregnant i didnt have a genuine reaction to it, cause i got it spoiled. kind of the same thing for when we get to see what curly looked like before the game, but it wasnt really a spoiler to me because i had no intention of playing the game when i started seeing content for it. i was seeing fanart, and friends posting about it, but i really had no clue. so i knew of curly, and i started to recognize who daisuke was in fanart, and i knew anya but not her name, but i never saw swansea before i went onto the steam page. daisuke ended up being my favourite character.... we can all just WONDER how im FEELING NOW. technically speaking, everybody but curly does die in some way. so if you have a favourite character besides him, forget being happy- actually, scratch that. if you play mouthwashing AT ALL, FORGET BEING HAPPY. BUT ITS SO GOOD!!!! genuinely!! another 10 dollar indie game that completely ruined me!!!!!! mouthwashing is genuinely such a wonderful game, and i wonder if we could be getting another one? but i dont know how a second game would go. does curly ever get found? since he's in the cryo pod, but also (like i just saw someone say when i was looking up the word for cryo pod..) his injuries alone could end up killing him, right? maybe? he is frozen for 20 years, would that stop the bacteria from killing him? i dont know for sure. -

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before writing this blog, i had another where i was updating as i played the game. here are a few things i said, and i'll be adding my thought now after the fact. -

I HAD EVERY RIGHT NOT TO. I NEVER WANTED TO GIVE HIM THE AXE IN THE FIRST PLACE. -

well. when you show a giant, sharp knife, its gotta be used for something other than cake. time to feast. (IM SORRY.) -

youre just an idiot. click on the door and not just the handle. -

this pretty much sums up my experience playing the game after a while (especially being a daisuke fan) -

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anyways. two more screenshots i took

and thats pretty much it i feel like playing the game again after writing this, so maybe i'll do another post about it take this thing i made before i go

sums it up................

[mokacheer]

hahaha thanks for the mass tag game @ruanbaijie this shall be fun!

aka: nine albums or songs I've been listening to lately x nine people I’d like to get to know better x tag game with no name

1. why did you choose your url? - no idea, my theories are that i was obsessed with rosario + vampire so i took moka, and since moka is cheery/happy i just bam. i honestly don't know 💀

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them. - i used to have a ton because younger me dabbled in the RP world (lets not remember those times but remember the cool people i befriended) but right now no just this blog and the other blog i help run <3 @otomokatsuhiro (if you love old anime youll immediately follow ;) )

3. how long have you been on tumblr? - since may 2012 😵 (save me)

4. do you have a queue tag? - nah

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? - an old friend of mine told me about it and actually made this blog for me. now thinking about it idk if it was her that came up with the name, if i had a different name to begin with... no clue :s

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp? - its yuki!!! must i explain why?! (plus it matches my vibe here alot of mutuals say im super sweet or a ray of sunshine ((ily it makes me happy everytime i get that hehe)))

7. why did you choose your header? - it just matches the overall pink cute vibe :p

8. what’s your post with the most notes? - still to this day its a 29 frame gif of a phone ending call... here

9. how many mutuals do you have? - i counted at the beginning of the year and i believe i had 108? but now obviously its 108+ :D

10. how many followers do you have? - 17.2k+ x-x

11. how many people do you follow? - 544! i remember at one point i wanted to keep the number limited but thats so stupid!!

12. have you ever made a shitpost? - uhhhh probably when i was younger. i used to constantly post #personal text posts so idunno

13. how often do you use tumblr each day? - help me

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? - yeah a small amount of times, most would be reposters telling me "no this is my gif i made this! i wont remove this from my blog!" with my watermark clear as day in the corner lol..

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts - meh it's your blog at the end of the day, if you want to reblog something do it, if you dont dont. it's sad to see most people just like posts but they come from different platforms and fail to realize what kind of site tumblr is. hopefully eventually they will get it tho! amen

16. do you like tag games? - yes! i love that i get tagged in them but also forget alot of the time to ever get to doing them so i apologize for being late on this one hehe

17. do you like ask games? - plsssss i love seeing that notification light up in my inbox. it fills this bloggers heart with joy.

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? - oh i got a few @gojosattoru (where have you been ;w; </3), @hanae-ichihara (ill always miss you <3), DEFINITELY @taohs hehehe

19. do you have a crush on a mutual? - nope, having a crush on here has never happened for me :p

20. what is the last song you listened to? - charli xcx speed drive EASYFUN remix, its sooo gud

21. what are you currently watching? - the magical girl and evil lieun. are archenemies, fairy tail 100 years quest, maybe some other misc. stuff i cant think of rn.

22. sweet/ savoury/ spicy? - all of the above, i love sweet + spicy

23. what is your current relationship status? - single times *salute emoji*

24. what is your current obsession? - SMILING FRIENDDDSSSS asjdiaoshjdajsid

25. what are nine albums/songs you've been listening to lately? - aprils-bloom by julie areyouhome? by juno britpop by A.G. Cook right back by Frost children i like it by Frost children spring is coming with a strawberry in the mouth by Caroline Polachek magic sword by 4s4ki tome by veltpunch 365 by charli xcx

tagging: @taohs @cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga @oneechangoddess @yuujies @scary-friend @fuwanek0 and others that wanna have fun

[slashingdisneypasta]

💛RE anon, here. I mean, I was gonna just say that names fine, but then I read your whole reply and started vibrating into another dimension and muffling my screams because OK OMG OK jealous Blackie, right?! I had this thought the other day. So, this is, again, entirely your fault because even though Freddy turns up in my dreams with…slightly alarming frequency and I’ve written myself so many self-indulgent things in other fandoms over the years, the Robert parts of my brain have been sadly neglected for some time.

Anyway anyway anyway: you know that part where the creepy sheriff is hitting on Fay just before Blackie pays the bribe and does that cute little “I’d like to strangle him” claw thing? The sheriff is being too familiar with the reader/oc or what have you while Blackie is at the register and clear as day I’ve got the image of him coming over and clapping the sheriff on the shoulder a liiiiiiiiittlle too hard. Laughter just a bit forced. Teeth gritted. Nearly growling. “Now, sheriff…reckon you oughta be a little more RESPECTFUL to my wife.” He does the claw while the sheriff gives an oily apology, she feels a sudden pressure on her hand at the same time, looks down to see a ring. The matching one is on the hand Blackie was resting on the counter. Cue the eyebrow raise but she’ll call him on that, later, if he’s through dancing around it.

But, no, he’s not admitting anything. Not Mr nonchalant “oh, I was having so much fun watching you all run I wished you were here. Iced tea?” It goes about like the “you think I’m gorgeous” scene in Miss Congeniality. You know, one with the candy bar of rejection? Rings disappear. He was just being nice because she was uncomfortable. She’s very annoyed. And kinda hurt.

Post attempted firing squad, when he was clearly keeping her behind him, she gets up the nerve again and with the close call it goes like the second “you think I’m gorgeous scene.” With the smooch.

So, after that possibly unhinged digression…which should probably be a warning that when I have time to turn up I’ve been writing too many headcanons…you may also call me the madly inspired anon, if you like. (PS, feel free to answer this on whichever blog you’d prefer. I’ll definitely be checking both.) And for now, I’ll say goodnight 🙋🏼‍♀️

💛 Madly Inspired Anon!! Thats a beautiful name actually, I'll use that one so long as you like it too! ^^

Y E S Jealous Blackie XDD For my own ideas, I've been on and off considering a fic where reader is another cook or waitress, or maybe a dishwasher or a cleaner, or something at the cafe, and she l i k e s Blackie. Right? And he knows it- she doesn't make any attempt to hide it. She's trying to get him, and he's acting like he's not interested (because, immortal trauma)... b u t, whenever a visitor gets too comfortable with Y/N (And maybe she's liking it- enjoying the attention she's not getting from Blackie) he always swoops in and ruins it for her. And she gets s o f r u s t r a t e d by him she ends up confronting him about it like 'you are acting like my boyfriend but without any of the benefits. if you want me, tell me. if you dont- leave me alone!'. I just cant figure out where that quote comes from though 😅 I know the first part did not come from my head but I cant remember what I scooped it from and I must give credit!!

ANYWAY though- your idea is way better XD And- y e s I know that claw thing XD Here:

I do that myself all the time XD 😂😭 He is my spirit animal.

I'M VIBRATING AT THE IDEA OF BLACKIE GOING FREDDY-EYED (BASICALLY GLOWERING BUT WITH THE POWER OF THE CHARCOAL MAN) AT THE SHERIFF FOR BEING GREASY WITH Y/N AND THEN B R U S H I N G I T O F F, oh my goodness. And, uh, STEPPING IN FRONT OF Y/N DURING THE FIRING SQUAD SCENE!?? OH MY GOODNESS. And Y/N teasing him about it??? Oh my goodness XDD If he doesn't kiss her to make her shut up I'm gonna sue XD

You've given me so much material for before-sleep fictional man fantasies XD

[frostbite-the-bat]

what do you do in petz + how the fuck is spam tong in petz

ok, so! petz, or in this case, PF Magic Petz specifically, is an old, OLD pet simulator game from the 90s! it's made to run on doo-doo potato computers, and uses it's own wacky technonogy called, and bear with me, "ballz", to render the pet models.

there's other games by pf magic, but we'll focus on petz. before they became stinky ubisoft petz. (ubisoft bought petz) nono ignore that. this is PURE FUCKIN' MAGIC PETZ! (thats what pf stands for)

you adopt a dog or a cat... and you take care of it! and unlike most modern pet sims - your pet truly has a personality of its own. for the game's age it's actually surprisingly complex, and the community is finding new things each year! i believe just last year (or two years ago??) we found out petz have FAVORITE COLORS.

each pet is unique in their own way!! signature animations, favorite foods, what relationships they have with other petz, how you've trained them... one pet may love being fed cheese, while the other may not.

of course there's also personalities for each breed, as each breed has it's own personality. i can't explain this one well, so give this a read!

i used to play petz a lot more back then, nowadays i just check in on it sometimes, but the genuine connection you may get to feel towards your silly guys is real.

fun fact i only adopt cats. i dont do my breeding from scratch but the guys i adopt from other people or PUGS (petz universal game site) (i hope i got that right) i dont like the sounds dogs make. i still need to finish graphics for all my cats. heres some of them. i love them.

what really makes this game is the community! it's a small, but surprisingly lively and friendly community! many of these people may even be twice your age, enjoying this silly pet game online with everyone, it's wonderful! the game is very moddable, and people make their own breeds, toys, areas... anything you think of, it can be put in this game with enough time and creativity!

some people make realistic, breeds, and some people make Silly Guys! like me for example! i'm really into fan-made media petz! it's how i got into the game, after all! i've made some hexied (modded petz) of my own!

ralsei is my best example. gif taken from my site

also, most people around the petz community have their own websites! for their downloads, shows, or to show off their petz!! what you can do is endless. i made my site because of that, though it's in constant disrepair and i SWEAR one day i will move to neocities.

and yes!! shows!! people do shows!! you can pose and take pictures of your petz and it'S actually a very pixel precise thing, trying to get your pet to do a show pose! people do these shows on forums and even give each other little graphic trinkets like badges!!

speaking of graphics... STAMPS!! petz fans love stamps!! i collect some, too, but my collection isnt as impressive as some other people.

people even have stamps for their own sites, that's where these come from!!

already creeping to petz spamton, dont worry!

but about petz hexing, i wanna give a shout out to the skinstealer system at the bad_death site. i admire their work so much. check it out!!! i reblog their things sometimes. (well..on my petz blog but i'll start doing so here, too)

ANYWAYS. PETZ SPAMTON. WHAT IN TOON IS THAT.

Well. you prolly werent there for it but petz spamton took some places of the internet by storm and OH BOY WAS IT BOTH REALLY COOL BUT ALSO VERY TIRING SOMETIME. im not the creator, i do not take credit, however i am partially responsible as that entity was created on my server. (after my friends talked about the reanimated joshua and the promised land video from saberspark - its a big collab and we talked about the people who worked on it. one of them was Moonkitti who has a petz profile picture. i then left the convo but my friend who i wont name so they feel comfy <3 remembered petz and had the wonderful idea of Modding Spamton Into It.)

i was graced with being able to see THE BEASTS PREMIERE. AND LATE AT NIGHT, WATCHING A DISCORD CALL OF THIS THING BEING BORN, SCREEN RECORDING IT ON MY PHONE.... LATER USING THE FOOTAGE TO MAKE This Infamous Video.

petz spamton doesnt look like this anymore its had many updates. (you can see the history on my spamtons as id update a new one and keep it with certain updates!! for example otterpop doesnt have colored paw pads, but mango does.) but this is the original. i had an og adopted as well but i lost it </3 BACK UP YOUR FILES BACK UP YOUR FILES BACK UP YOUR FILES BACK UP YOUR FILES. I MISS YOU CHEESE-TON.

and WELL.. PEOPLE LIKED THIS MOD...! much much fanart... and even some drama uh oh please people dont sexualize feral animals. thanks. go to hell and die. it was both very fun but as you can imagine it got overwhelming especially for my friend so i am keeping them anonymous!! they do have a sideblog for petz just named "petzspamton" if you want to see The Og.

it got many people into petz!! it was wonderful to see people discover this old game. hell! even i got into it this way! though as trends are, they usually go away eventually. i stay however because im ill. hashtag number one spamton pet breeder. dont take it the wrong way. i like spamton mixies.

oh yeah! the breeding in this game! SURPRISINGLY VERY COMPLEX. WONT BE GETTING INTO IT. but! two petz can have a baby! including modded petz! it can create Monstrosities. but some are niceys! i like both the cursed ones because funny but also getting some niceys to keep :) i have many mixed spamtons!!

for example iceshock (white) and creature! (grey)

the possibilities truly are endless !!

but yeah. the hype died down but its always funny meeting people, talking about interests, we get to deltarune. I mention petz, then they say oh yeah petz spamton i know that AND THEN THEY REALIZE WHO I AM "YOU MADE THAT SPAMTON VIDEO" BRUH IT HAS 4K VIEWS ONLY LIKE HOW DO YOU FIND THIS SHIT . THIS HAPPENED ONCE OVER SOMEONE I MET ON A FUCKING CLUB PENGUIN PRIVATE SERVER. i do not like micro fame but oh my god this shit is always so fucking insane and funny to me i love it i love being a fucking cryptid. BUT ANYWAYS

things layed dormant. petz spamton server dead as hell. my own server #living tho #gaming #swag #iamruinbornaftonialwayscomeback.

and then... THEN... SPAMTON SWEEPSTAKES OCCURS. AND THERES A PETZ MENTION THERE. DID WE CAUSE THAT? OR IS IT TOBY JUST LIKING OLD GAMES AS HE DOES.

WELL READ MORE HERE BECAUSE I TALKED ABOUT THIS ON MY WEBBED SITE !

BUT YES. SPAMTON IS IN PETZ NOW. IM PARTIALLY RESPONSIBLE. ITS PROBABLY BEEN REFERENCED BY TOBY FOX??? IF YES THEN I HAVE 2 NICKELS FOR HAVING A THING IM RESPONSIBLE/PARTIALLY RESPONSIBLE FOR BEING NOTICED BY THE CREATORS. NOT A LOT BUT WEIRD IT HAPPENED TWICE.

PLEASE ASK ME ABOUT MY SPAMTONS. I LOVE THEM.

but man if i may get goopy orizfhhguguughh ill be fr height of petz spamton hype got Tiring .im sosososos glad the server we had for it was tiny as hell and secret because MAN. URUGHH

[dragonsoftheshadows]

Your name comes up every now and then but has anyone asked how you are handling everything yet? I haven't seen you only as much and hope it's to take a mental check to get better vibes around you not because you're struggling horribly with the backlash for speaking up.

Kinda a mix of irl and focusing on my own projects actually though I'm surprised it's still bothered to put energy into saying stuff about me any which way. I've been struggling to draw like wanted since all of it so rediscovering a main art style as well as a second one to play with a side blog for a Cult of the Lamb thing to store my lore more than anything with a friend

This one is on a base trace over at first to get shapes and design down but an example of the species project and a reason it will be open when more public just wanting to vibe with others even if recycling some of the design from another character concept I never went through with. Absolutely still need to adjust the yellow of the eyes admittedly and couldn't be bother to do my usual signature when so heavily base reliant for this start.

Uh I suppose a few redesigns in general to remove Vidia influence over any of my art even if she doesn't know of how much it effected some characters. Actual piece are all over but some are had completed at least.

Minesona got updated art and, well, admittedly thought a person I was accused of tracing art was cute, so I tried to mimic the style. It was not my cup of tea to do but was a fun exercise, especially already practicing chibis and trying to find a style to feal right for the COTL project.

New baby thats very cotton candy and chocobo and all you need to know is Fii made a very fun species called Somnia Custodes and I'm in love with their birds because they remind me of chocobo so they are great for posing.

I'm working on lining art I penned on a postit note while bored at work because man I love my gremlin but he is not good about caring for his health or listening

Same day postit abomination where I combined all of @the-bone-vault characters that I remember into one man

We are also in an artist telephone game that chibi and simplified my old goat design UwU

By artist telephone I mean he drew off of a friend doing the sketch and then I colored it

I also got a page where I've been drawing out every in file face paint for followers and be planning big things but this isn't the account for that analysis on my plans with some of these for my lore :3c

[75edrecovery]

75 Hard - ED Recovery Edition - Join Me??

To preface, I am absolutly aware that the 75 hard challenge is about getting fit and usually loosing weight, which I am definatley not looking to do and none of my rules are that of the actual 75 hard - its just a fun title.

I have just got myself in such a rut and if I can hold myself accountable for 75 days to properly try and get better I can see where I am. For context, I was diagnosed with anorexia last July after an awful year and since then have not got any worse but not any better either. I'm just stuck at home - working the odd jobs, rarely seeing friends or getting any enjoyment out of life. In October, I chose to take a year out of Uni to 'get better'. My mental health has improved being away from Uni but I have not made any real progress and now feel completly usless as I'm just sat at home. Somehow, I'm comfortable because (I realise I'm very lucky to say this) my life doesn't have a lot of challenges right now, but I'm also miserable. I properly realised yesterday that recovery is not going to be comfortable becuase I've really got to push myself to get out of really bad habits. Its going to be hard - hense the name - but better now than in 5 years, right?!

So this blog is about holding myself accountable. I try properly for 75 days and see where I am. And I don't just mean in eating more, though that definatley needs to be a part of it, but just try harder at life: see friends, work, engage with therepy, all of it. And if my life is worse in 75 days because of this, well, I know its not healthy to say, but I can always go back. I dont think thats likely though... if I do this properly.

So, my aims

Weight gain. I don't want to go into it too much and make it a focus but I can't deny it needs to happen. I want to be well on my way or at a healthy weight. Not sure it will happen in 75 days but I want to eventually be fully weight restored. I'm not going to write down my rules here for how this is going to happen becuase most of them involve eliminating a lot of restrictive habits that I don't want to trigger people with/give people ideas. But I've written them down for myself and need to stick to them

Visit my friends at Univeristy and join them on a night out. Got 3 uni's I would like to visit in the next 75 days. Have really neglected friendships over the last year. I have great friends that are supportive but I want to show them that I am getting better

Get a job, but don't let it become a way of restricting. Got 2 interviews this week so well on the way to making this happen. I have been working since I got back from uni but it was making me miserable as it was very isolated and it was very active which isn't great for me right now. My ideal job is in a coffee shop and after months of applying I have 2 interviews for them this week so feeling pretty happy about that!

Restore family relationships

Daily self-care

Reduce screen time

Read more and work on hobbies

I'm going to use this list of aims to come up with a list of rules for each day, but this post is gettibg quite long now so might do it seperatley.

I have no idea if anyone will every read this but if you are and you are in a similar situation to me, please join along! Comment your own targets/rules or any questions you have and we can hold each other accountable a bit. I abolutley realise my aims dont apply to everyone with an ed (specifically the weight gain one) but we can all have our own.

Remember, 75 days - thats finishing 12th of April (just in time for Easter). If we do this properly , our lives may be complelty different my summer.

I will try and post each day with updates/motivations and reminders (mainly for myself) of why I'm doing this.

xoxo

[79522114149]

what would someone who writes write about in a blog? i've gone so far off the deep end in trying to be abstract with my words to somewhat soothsaying to riddles to simple to mixed and i've seen some great work through the years if i would have to give it a percentage about 20-35 percent of what i wrote would be considered great and at least 15 would be better than what is considered the best, i feel at par if not a bit more chaotically original with robert frost an edgar allan poe i don't write horror but i used to and that was probably some of the best years of my life, once i came back from my imagination everything seemed bland and safe and now i have trouble going outside. i guess ill just use this as a dump station for my thoughts that does not mean i want my work copied but all what i consider great will remain in my thoughts until ready to be published or implicated which yes i know i am 27 no diploma and 50k in debt by 28 im confident ill catch up on the past 10 years i've lost to bad decisions recovery which to this day i do not feel guilty about and that being said i have felt guilt constantly until i realized i survived what would have probably killed others, i might believe in god i might not im not sure whos sales pitch seems not only better but based in truth, i hope its not what some say that science and religion are just two different languages saying the same thing, foolish followers throw rocks through windows and claim they are saving the race, as if we were the first or the last who knows i really wish i knew but maybe the desire of truth is a vice in itself a wretched horrible thing which has brung nothing but uncertainty fear and guilt for walking down a road with no sight i hope i take the right turns i feel as if not just my soul but the soul of entire legions rests within me waiting to be saved, i hope i bring what was intended of me, will i meet greatness in the way hollywood sales it or is a ratty old shake on the edge of a beach with or without a few who adore me is the heaven i'm actually chasing, is marijuana enough or have i been substituting happiness too long i've forgotten what it truly feels like. i need to forget what came before and focus on what will be i hate when people say be in the present and be in the now it feels like they're trying to keep my soul from experiencing what it could if it only believed and desired what if they sold of the fantasy of flying so we'd forget about our ability to travel through space, time, dimensions and who knows what else, how could you say you believe in history and not believe that everything around you is just your generations version of what others came and will come to see claiming their truth different from yours is the correct one, maybe thats the trap the belief that our intuition is not enough as if we just thought hard enough we would find the information flowing through our genetic code instructing our muscles the way fighters teach their muscles to remember combinations in times of stress like sleepless warrior killing in the name of freedom like others killing in the names of their gods, i seem to be disgusted by the repetitive actions like war and how rises bring collapses, or is that what they sold us so we the rest will make sense, is rome still running things? theres not a single place where i am not followed, people seem to be so obsessed with me they're spending others time and money they've stolen from others.

[jupiterseemsnice]

Day 36

ive been told that journalling helps with things but im the type that i will buy a million of those cute empty notebooks with the intentions of filling every single page but dont ever pick them back up when they've made a home in my room. I have been going through alot lately mentally so i thought tumblr might be a fun throw back to type away my sorrows to an empty audience. I remember when tumblr was poppin and you were super edgy and cool if you had one. Now mind you i was a freshmen in highschool in 2010 so im dating myself a bit here but i remember how cool you were if you had a popular blog. I am 28 now and a mom of two but you'd never know that if you seen me out in public. I dont look like im 29 nor do i look like ive birthed two whole humans. But i am and i have. Life sucks if im honest. Growing up we were told that going to college and getting good grades or being amazing at something was going to set you up for success but i dont really think thats true. I mean yeah some people from my high school have really thrived in this life but also alot of the big names in high school are where im at right now. I dont want this life for anyone cause its hard and some days i really cant stand it. Some days i cant even stand myself. But im trying I guess. I recently was fired from my job. And ive learned a few things. 1)dont trust anyone 2)no matter how old someone is they still live in that highschooler headspace. Maturity doesnt come with age. which is sad cause we are all OUT of highschool and have been for quite some time. I think some things i need to actually put into perspective is stop giving love to people who really dont deserve it. They dont have your best interest at heart. They will step on you the first chance they get. You owe the world and everyone around you NOTHING. You focus on you and what is going to benefit your outcome. 2024 is going to be your year and as cliche as that sounds its gunna happen. Because ive personally had enough. Because by sulking and sitting here feeling down and sorry about myself its not like im giving them any other reason to think different about what has been said. Lets just take it one day at a time together. Because i cannot keep living in this woe is me shit. Im better then this We are better then this. And like my mom always said the only one that can fix it is ourselves. lets make 2024 our bitch.

Amen.

ps Renee Rapp is MOTHER

[2-curious-cups]

29th of October, 2023

Hey av,

I’ll just start calling you like that since you „signed“ your last text here like that. I wondered already for a longer time if you actually want me to call you with a nick name, but somehow im uneasy with applying nicknames when i hear them from friends (like ale from zoi) bc then I always feel like im stealing something, life if it were somehow awkward to use it as well. Now I got an invitation to use it which makes it feel right.

When you sended me this blog the other day I was feeling quite overwhelmed. I couldn’t really tell what I think about it and what it means. So I decided to sit with it until I feel like I’ve made my mind up. Day by day that passed I felt like saying sorry for not being able to respond yet, and day by day I told myself, that this reaction would play into the tennis match that you want to avoid. So I’m not saying sorry. But thank you for that super cool medium!!! I actually love the idea of having somehow an online diary that we share with each other. Where can just narrate on our own, remember on our own, associate on our own, but also can of course respond to each other. I think it’s fun, it’s a new experience, it’s playful and a vivid archiv to look back on you and me and the world. On the other hand, I’m also afraid of what this shared medium that I don’t have with anybody else could create as meaning for our bonding. 

These days feel somehow pale. Uni started again and as always I’m a bit too absorbed by my feelings of not belonging. Not belonging to that sphere of academia but also to that group of people. I’m dreaming again about people from uni letting me now that im stupid and pathetic (the other day it was the german guy stefan, if you remember him lel). Some days like today, I feel the fear very intensely in my body. I’m longing to run away from social interactions, my body and my mind freezes. Yet, generally on most days I feel like I’m better than usual to convince myself of the fact that it’s just a matter of time, until I’ll feel like I’ve arrived here again after the summer pause and that we all know and share feelings like that. 

And then there is the war. As u can imagine the intensity of the discourse about it is also represented in uni. People with palestinian and arabic background position themselves quite openly and clear. Words like genozid are being dropped in combination of german responsibility. It has not been taking much time quantity wise, but If it comes up it’s quite intense. Of course. I feel like we are laking a space where we can together discuss about it as the main topic and not relating to it and then dropping very emotionalized comments. But of course it’s emotionalized how could it not. I’m rambling and I feel lost with my emotions of being overwhelmed and immensely sad, not sad enough and not helping, not knowing if I want to go to a demonstration for the palestinians, how much that would hurt my israelian friends, how much information my opinion is lacking, to what extend we all need to get rid of the dimensions good and bad, right and wrong, how my mind should be able to explain happenings by history but not justifying at the same time (I feel like thats a rethorical figure that is almost impossible: how can you try to understand in what circumstances people think and feel and desire without inherently being a justicifation?). What does it mean for my active behavior to not stand finally with one or the other side, but stand for peace and not answering violence with violence? I feel lost and i feel I’m lacking ability rn to talk about it in a way that gives me comfort. But on the other hand, we all need to sit in discomfort with it. 

The last week I was hosting Mira which was very nice. I started a pole dance class. I love the idea of jumping and flying around the pole, even though I look like a clumsy monkey still. It will eventually get better - looking forward to the day when my body learned the new movements and it actually feels like dancing. The other day Lotti folded her hand into my hand when I left her and I felt very moved by that, I really wonder how that relationship will develop. I need to leave now for uni. And then the weekend is calling and I’ll be occupied by a party here a party there and uni in between. I’m already looking forward to be a bit tipsy and having fun while smoking :p

Kisses, Aline

[away-ward]

Can these anons who talk about pd's fb groups cite what pd and their fans said there or something? Especially those who claimed about alex's fans wanting more page-time or whatever because at this point with no screenshots or link proofs for the pd group conversation (except for the bonus contents), it becomes more of a "hearsay" than it's a concrete proof that these events happened. I'm not saying that it's unbelievable they happened, i'm just saying, as much as we hated nightfall, alex etc., to accuse authors (real human beings) without proof and slandering them and namecalling them for things they possibly didn't do (that are mostly fictional) is... a bit much, no?

Sure we can call out whatever bullshit PD wrote on PAPER, they can never deny it, they're all published everywhere, but these fb interactions (about fictional characters) anons keep on mentioning were always so vague, it bcomes more like a gossip, than it's the truth, because of how no-facts it was, and as a casual reader of this series, it doesn't sit right with me how many times different anons kept on bringing up about pd's fb group interactions, even from KO's past and older asks, without even linking or showing pictures of these interactions happening. And if there's one thing i know about this fandom is that readers really interpret a lot of things differently than pd (justly or unjustly) and misunderstanding happens all the time (especially between the portugese/non-portugese fandom due to translation alone, not counting anything else yet), even in discussions, so? Screenshots or links, anybody?

Also, i've been around to see those tweets claimed by anon during the release of nightfall, and while i agree that so many readers were disappointed with nightfall and some even expressed their disappointment really badly (even some dn twitter accounts that exist even until now there) by calling pd with various vile names, and pd got so many backlashes on goodreads, it was always just implied that some crticisms were going around on fb, but i never remembered any screenshots or links about them happening. The backlash and death threats against pd on twitter was so bad from readers, that they dont even use twitter after a free ebook promotion for credence then.

I am not siding with pd or anything, but i feel like as much as we hate their stories and there could be valid criticisms of them, when it comes to what pd actually did outside of their fictional stories, we really gotta be mindful of what we spread to others because cant this be considered as slander? Maybe even bullying, whatnot with all the namecalling, especially when you make something up and it never happened? That's why it's also to quote canon texts, or even loosely describe/paraphrase them during discussions. Because boundaries like these are easier to cross when people are too busy being chronically online behind anon asks or accounts to remember that pd's a real human beings despite whatever fictional things they published.

Where do we draw the line towards an author's slander? Some even talk about their husbands and kids disrespectfully too, like thats just pure vile shit. Mind your boundaries. It's not real life you know. There are more respectful ways to relay your message, than spreading rumours or hearsays. I mean if you dont care about pd, whatever, then care about KO here at least, because this is their blog, and they're the one who might catch fire for it? Idk, as i've said before, i got no problems with these fb interactions, but these anons who kept on mentioning it seems to not have any proof of what happened years ago, and only based things on "oh so i've heard from someone", "oh so i talked to some here and there", "oh remember when", which creates more gossip than necessary. I'm not a pd fan, just a neutral party watching discussions going around here and had to stopby to drop this ask. KO, what do you think?

Hi, Anon. Thank you.

I think I’m going to reply to your message out of order because you’ve touched on something I did think I was eventually going to have to say, so why not now.

Where do we draw the line towards an author’s slander? Some even talk about their husbands and kids disrespectfully too, like that’s just pure vile shit. Mind your boundaries.

Yes. This.

I’ve tried to be careful about it in the past, but I know I’ve gotten lenient as I’ve gone on. But going forward, if you’re message contains any type of threat or hateful speech towards PD as a person, I won’t post it. I won’t even acknowledge it. And that goes for their kids and husband as well.

We can talk about their faults as an author and storyteller. We can talk about their characters and plots, but I want to leave them alone. They have to live their life too, and nobody should feel unsafe because they wrote a fictional book about fictional characters in a make-believe town.

PD did not write any of these series to personally offend any of us, and it’s just not right to degrade them so viciously.

Then care about KO here at least, because this is their blog, and they’re the one who might catch fire for it?

One, thank you. That’s very kind and thoughtful of you to say. I was actually very touched.

Two, I have worried about this. It’s weighed on my mind that, if left uncheck, this blog will turn into what people complain DN twitter and insta is like; a place of hate and vitriol, where discussion and sharing just can’t take place.

I’m new at running a blog like this, so I sometimes don't know how to handle something that causes me to pause. My general approach as been to first be nice, second respond to what I can while being nice.

Please remember that all of these messages pass over my eyes first – not PDs, mine. I take in all of the negative things that get said. And then I have to think about them, and how to respond in a way that is respectful.

I wanted a blog that I could share some of my DN writing, some HC, and discussions. My hope was that more people would feel comfortable blogging about DNs as well, knowing that there's other who have an interest. I've settled with the idea that the blog may just become some sort of Anonymous message board? And that's fine, as long as people can remain kind and respectful to others, I can let it go on, but if it becomes a war zone, I will shut it down.

It’s not fun if everyone is just disagreeing all the time.

And that’s not to say that I think that’s what’s happening right now. So far, I feel for the most everyone has been respectful of each other. I’m just warning that if it starts to go in a different direction, I won’t continue posting like this.

So, I guess that summarizes my two main points:

You can talk about PD, as long as it remains about their books and writing. But I personally don’t want to hear hateful speech about them. I don’t want to have to take it in or post it for others to do so. So no name calling or tearing down their person. No threats to their person or loved ones.

Be respectful of other’s opinions and interpretations. You can disagree with them, as long as it isn’t in a degrading way. Again, I haven’t seen this so far. Maybe some have come close to the line in my opinion, but I’m not thinking of anyone specifically. I’m not calling anyone out.

Just a general notice going forward.

Okay, back to the other parts of your message:

Can these anons who talk about pd's fb groups cite what pd and their fans said there or something?

That’s an excellent reminder.

I’ve always taken everything that gets told to me on here with a grain of salt. It does at times feel like it’s something that’s been passed around so often without people checking. But as I don’t have fb and if I did, I wouldn’t be in PD’s group, I have no way of verifying.

So, if you guys do have ability to provide a reference for your claims, that would be great and appreciated.

I won’t say I’ll require it at this point. Just know as a reader, this blog is unverified, and some of these might not be accurate or maybe influenced by personal opinion.

As an example, I recently said that PD didn’t want to do anything with the series because they had a hard time with the backlash after NF was released. I based that on the FAQ page on their website where they said:

“I think most of you understand how hard the response on the series was for me. I write too slow, readers are forced to wait too long, and by the time the next installment finally releases, you’ve developed your own ideas on what you think should happen, and when it doesn’t, so many got angry with me. I’m tired of disappointing people, and I think if most of you are honest, you know you don’t want to see the next generation doing the things their parents did. Not really. Right now, they’re safe in your head where I can’t ruin it.”

This said to me that they’re very aware of what the response to this series as been. I’ve coupled this with the multiple times they’ve said they’re not going to continue writing for DN. To me, they sound hurt.

So, just like that, that’s the only type of reference I would need. A direct quote, screenshot, link to something, what have you. For some, it would be helpful, but at the same time, don’t believe everything you read on the internet. Always check and verify for yourself.

it bcomes more like a gossip, than it's the truth, because of how no-facts it was, and as a casual reader of this series, it doesn't sit right with me

And if there's one thing i know about this fandom is that readers really interpret a lot of things differently than pd (justly or unjustly) and misunderstanding happens all the time

This is very true, and I’m guilty of this as well. I appreciate the reminder to not circulate gossip. But it can be hard to get screenshots from something that happened years ago, so maybe I’ll come up with some kind of system to tag what is unverified information.

i feel like as much as we hate their stories and there could be valid criticisms of them, when it comes to what pd actually did outside of their fictional stories, we really gotta be mindful of what we spread to others because cant this be considered as slander? Maybe even bullying, whatnot with all the namecalling, especially when you make something up and it never happened? That's why it's also to quote canon texts, or even loosely describe/paraphrase them during discussions. Because boundaries like these are easier to cross when people are too busy being chronically online behind anon asks or accounts to remember that pd's a real human beings despite whatever fictional things they published.

I know I’m basically circling back to what I said first, but I just wanted to note that I really appreciated this paragraph. Thank you. For the reminder that our words to have an affect on others. Even if PD doesn’t see this, we’re in control of cultivating our fandom experience. We can get bogged down with hate and frustration towards PD, or we can choose to be better. I definitely don’t want be a bully to anyone, especially strangers on the internet who have never done anything to me. So, I will try harder to avoid speaking that way and supporting that kind of attitude.

If anyone is put off by this, that’s fine. These kinds of limits are not for everyone, but please respect my efforts to feel more comfortable with the material I post to this blog. I’m not targeting anyone.

Truthfully, I’ve enjoyed my time so far and would like to continue enjoying. So please be mindful to the kind of things I’m going to have to read and take in, and I’ll do the same for you.

Love, KO

[the-facebreaker]

SHIPPING INFO //ANSWER THE FOLLOWING FOR YOUR MUSES SO PEOPLE KNOW HOW SHIPPING WORKS ON YOUR BLOG.

WHAT IS YOUR OTP FOR YOUR CHARACTER(S)?  Mmm...from canon characters, i ship Sett with Karma, Irelia and Soraka mainly, but i am open to many ships, and i dont have a clear otp yet... and ocs are of course their completely own thing uvu.

HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?  It's hard to answer, since we got plenty of ageless people in Runetera, and Sett being half-vastaya, we actually dont know his lifespan. I would say as long as they are mentally compatible, it's all good.

HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY ARE CONSIDERED NSFW?  Honestly, the moment the scene becomes clearly erotic. Even kissing could be described in an erotic way, and thats honestly it.

ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING? Kinda? Sett is a difficult man with a strong personality and a very vulnerable interior. He will flirt, he will date, he will form relationships, but to really let someone in...Much more difficult, he's been hurt a lot. I consider shipping as true connection, not just fun times.

WHO ARE OTHER CHARACTERS YOU SHIP YOUR CHARACTER WITH?  I once, before i deleted the blog, had a very big ship with a Xayah...she was not with Rakan, that one, and Sett and her developed a lot and eventually fell in love. It was...really sweet. But then i left, and in my absense, so did that Xayah-mun so... But i always remember it fondly. And then, i also had a very sweet ship with @nameaprice's Diana uvu That was sweet as honey, i loved them so much and still doooo...They met again on discord, im just :eyes: over them right now!

DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?  MMMmm..i do prefer organic ships that come naturally through roleplay, but if we reach a point where there is an attraction felt, i would like a heads up and a discussion, to make sure we are both comfortable.

ARE YOU SHIP-OBSESSED OR SHIP MORE-OR-LESS?  I freaking love shipping. im a freaking ship whore. I guess ive had such good ships over the years that ive become spoiled, i want that good shit, but holy fuck i love ships.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM? I dont knooow i named all the ships so far and i cant really choose Dx

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?  With a lot of love and patience for my bullshit uvu Also really, patience, i ship on chemistry and it takes a while sometimes. I can't even say Sett's worth the trouble, walk the line at your own risk xD

Tagged By: MYSELF

Tagging: YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

[glassesblu]

What’s your favorite Au you’ve made with Ingo and Emmet?

This is sooo hard cause I have a lot of AU now! :weary:

Let me enumerate my current AU (a lot of these i've developed with @belltrigger though some AU I consider Belltrigger being the better authority on and are AU Belltrigger first came up with, like Bot Emmet AU, Dead Dove AU, and the combo AU - Sitcom AU)

The AU I have with short descriptive blurbs! (I have also linked some art I have done of my own AU

Age Difference AU

Quite standard, and a lot of people seem to have their own version of this. Where Ingo has returned quite a bit older than Emmet! I have mine set where Emmet is 30 and Ingo is 45! I know I call him an old man a lot, but he's at best Middle aged. Admittedly I haven't deeply explored the angst potential. I think Old man Ingo is so fucking chill. Emmet has experienced a lot of burn out and exhaustion hallucinations, but is still hopeful and cheerful when Ingo returns.

Fav bits: I just looove old Ingo. I think the story of him being lost to time and returning nearly right where he left - he’s different now, he feels out of place, he’s changed from his *twin*. I love thinking of making them work hard to fit together again. And also giving him memory loss angst and injuries that last and all that! Love it! And I love too that Emmet just, lost himself with his grief. It’s a good AU

AU Names: Old!Ingo (Oingo) & Young!Emmet (Yemmet)

Find on my blog!

Read Direct from the Source by Belltrigger

Reverse Ages AU

Where the opposite is true! Ingo has come back having aged to only 30, while Emmet is aged 45! This AU is where Emmet has become extremely bitter and closed off. When Ingo returns, he has to contend with his own changes and feeling shame for it. While Ingo tries his best to be what he thinks everyone expects of him, even if he cannot remember. A Domsub dynamic has become really prominent in this AU and contributes to their healing (I think its mostly just limited to their sexual encounters and not a lifestyle thing). Sex is really difficult for me to discuss though. Anyone can ask me things, but some nsfw questions I might not answer just in general.

Fav bits: I’m really surprised by the sexual aspect being very important cause thats not usually what I do, but it works so well with how I think about their lore in my head. I also LOVE bitter old Emmet. I love how just, he’s been alone for so long and when Ingo comes back he’s frightened that they won’t fit anymore. And for Ingo, he tries to suppress his feeling of inadequacy, and when Emmet finds out he’s saddened and shamed that he did not consider Ingo’s feelings as well. They make it work! They are so in love.

AU Names: Young!Ingo (Yingo) & Old!Emmet (Oemmet)

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Read Collar by Belltrigger

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Changeling Ingo AU

AU where Ingo is actually a form changing creature that feeds and consumes the identity of other people and takes their place. BUT OOPS in his first foray at being alive, he changes into a young kid Emmet (who lost his parents recently) and ends up becoming his brother! He torments Emmet for a few years, though Emmet being a bit oblivious to it because Ingo hasn’t stepped it up to more dangerous levels. Then Ingo just, grows attached to the human he’s supposed to eat? He grows to care for Emmet as a brother, a friend, and then a lover. But he becomes shamed about his existence. He can’t eat other people because that would take him farther from Emmet. He wouldn’t be his twin anymore. And he can’t very well eat Emmet. Emmet finds out and still loves Ingo whole heartedly. He sees that Ingo cares about him but he doesn’t see how much Ingo struggles. But they live on. Ingo has to deal with being a creature that can’t feed in the way he’s supposed to, and Emmet has a giant monster brother that he loves and wants to reassure.

Fav bits: Eheh I started this cause I wanted to make a ‘one person is a creature’ AU and by luck of the draw, it was Ingo! And I just love this AU. I’m just in love with the idea that you feel so, angry and violent and full of malice but. You want to love and be loved and you try to just, be kind. And it’s so fucking hard and it sucks! Changeling Ingo doesn’t have an easy time. But I think he’s happy still, with his brother. I actually have part of a write up of this AU HERE (to be continued at some point.)

AU Names: Creature Ingo (Cringo) & Changeling Ingo AU Emmet (CIAU Emmet)

Unicorn Emmet AU

This one is a joint creation with my dear friend @belltrigger ! In this AU, Emmet is a beautiful Unicorn that frolicks and nurtures the forest with his magic. Ingo is a skilled hunter who works in service of the Queen. Emmet has been long observing Ingo as he works in the forest, and finds his respect of nature to be admirable. Ingo spots Emmet once and reports the sighting to the Queen, who then orders Ingo to capture him and have Emmet kept in the royal bestiary. It turns out that Emmet cannot live well in captivity, and he slowly weakens. Ingo is kept busy with work, living a sort of detached lonely life, until he visits the unicorn again and the unicorn speaks to him angrily. Ingo feels remorse, and frees Emmet. Emmet is magicly weakened, and Ingo chooses to accompany him and protect Emmet from bounty hunters who seek to return the unicorn to the queen.

Fav bits: It’s just fun to draw Emmet so pretty!!! I just think this AU is a bit romantic, and it’s fun! Ingo is pretty inexperienced with people and relationships even if he likes people. And Emmet doesn’t have the same mindset as humans. It’s a fun AU to think about!

AU Names: Protector Ingo/Unicorn Knight Ingo & Unicorn Emmet (Uemmet)

Royal AU (Reverse Ages spinoff)

This! Is another AU I thought up with belltrigger since its inception!

Emmet and Ingo were twin princes who were preparing to assume the throne, but Ingo sadly passed away at 20 years old due to serious illness. Emmet slowly closed off with grief, and when he became king he mostly closed off his kingdom as well. He still had alliances, but did not himself participate in social type stuff. He took care of his people the best he could.

Ingo, a ghost, saw that Emmet was miserable without him. He could not pass on, and forced a reincarnation in order to try to reach Emmet. He was reborn in another kingdom, and grew up with no memories of his past life. Ingo waited 5 years before reincarnating, and grew up to about 20 years of age before meeting again with Old!Emmet who was 45 years old.

They were drawn toward each other, sparking a camaraderie much to everyone’s surprise on behalf of Oemmet. Yingo in this AU is a charismatic young prince, who has somehow won the heart of the closed off King.

Fav bits: Yingo and Oemmet are pretty different in this AU, but they’re so cute and reverent of each other! I just enjoy drawing their little outfits, and giving Old Emmet a softer expression compared to the original Reverse Ages stern ness of Old Emmet. This AU is also really tragic in some ways (READ BELLTRIGGER’S GIFT FIC HERE) and I may write a post about this AU as well, since we have more or less finished the whole story of this AU.

AU Names: Prince Yingo & King Oemmet

Mermaid Emmet AU (Horny DeadDove AU, sorry)

Actually i’m making a post about this AU! It will be a companion post to @belltrigger ‘s future Dead Dove AU post. They are not related in their creation, but these two AU are quite important to our current fun AU, Death Train AU (a combo AU where any submas AU could be thrown into!)

It started out mostly as a dead dove sex AU, but now it’s quite emotional and angsty too, i’m verrry fond of it.

Fav bits: It’s monster fucking, kidnapping, and Egg preg. What more could you want?

AU Names: Wife Ingo & Mermaid Emmet (Mermmet)

Thanks for reading!

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Idk if you've talked about this before, but how closely tied do you think the stockpiling nature of OfA is to the "passing down" nature of it? I was thinking about how Midoriya has access to the quirks of the previous holders, and I was wondering how much of that is due to the stockpiling quirk vs First's quirk. Like, if AFO had given and taken the stockpiling quirk multiple times to people with different quirks, would it have "collected" those quirks too, since it's a stockpiler? Or was it purely First's quirk that allowed the other holders' quirks to be passed on as well? Because if it's the latter, then what exactly is the original quirk stockpiling? Before realizing Midoriya could access the previous holders' quirks, All Might said OFA gets stronger each time it's passed on. Would that mean it only accumulates the holders' physical abilities unrelated to their quirks? But that can't be right because OFA has supposedly made all the quirks it contains stronger. So if it's the former, then since AfO held the stockpiling quirk at one point, did it also "collect" a copy of AFO and Midoriya will be able to access it eventually?

i did once answer an ask with a mathematical breakdown of OfA multiplying x amount of average human strength as an example to show the difference between periodic compound interest and continuous compound interest. um, because i teach economics and i always thought that making it entertaining was the best way to get it to stick. that one had showed that izuku should have a truly ridiculous amount of strength, though i dont remember the exact numbers rn. you can try to find it on this blog... good luck.

anyway, thats not really the question you're asking, so lets get into ofa and try to science a quirk that probably is just magic.

I have answered the question below the cut in three parts, plus a lightning round to try and make sure i answered all the parts of your question.

1- stockpiling quirk vs First's quirk: For this, i am going to say that i quite like the theory that First was actually quirkless, and the stockpile quirk just took a little bit of AfOQuirk with it and thats why it could be passed on afterwards. In this situation, i think what OfA does is that the Stockpile Quirk makes a copy of everything in it's holder- their memories, their dna, their energy and vitality. It does not boost any of those until it's passed on- the Stockpile was very small and could only copy AfO's genes that had the AfOQuirk, but at tenth generation would probably copy more than that if passed to someone with AfO and with a hoard of other quirks. On being passed, it then adds to the new holders strength, while working to copy their base traits. So, First got a little stronger with a boost from AfO, and his quirk though he didn't know it, while OfA ran him through a copy machine to make a vestige to paste into the next body. Second has the strength and dna of first and afo, plus some ghosts, and could use his own while it was being copied. And so on. But that's just the "First was actually quirkless theory", so lets work on the assumption that First did have a pass-along quirk

2- First's original quirk. Which doesn't even get a name, thanks guys. We know it should have something to do with passing on quirks, and on relying on consent of the giver and dna transfer, which makes it different than AfOQuirk. AfO can steal and give, but doesn't require dna. There are even some panels in the manga that imply AfO doesn't even need physical touch to take a quirk, as it appears he steals many quirks at once by jumping over a crowd of people. unfortunately, Bones decided to just cut that scene out of season five for some reason, so it's still a mystery and maybe he's using some other method. thanks, bones. hope those last two movies you had to shove painfully into quasi-canon were worth it. Anyway, different activation methods. Now, given that ofa requires on consent of the given, it does make me wonder: if someone knew about ofa, and wanted to give an ofa holder their quirk, and provided dna for it, would it stick? Can ofa both take and give, but only based on willingness? Seems like a possibility that would have never been tested. BUT i am getting super off topic bc i am writing this answer late at night, sorry. Right, so how much of this is First's quirk? Given that it's described as the ability to "Pass on his quirk(s)", i think all of the quirk-stockpiling, including the vestiges, are from First's quirk. On his own, his quirk would collect dna, which includes quirks, and quirks are just straight up haunted. On his own, without the stockpile, he could have passed on his quirk to second, and started the line like normally, but the holders would not have gotten any boost of strength, just possibly the ability to use previous quirks. Maybe only access them if they were originally quirkless? maybe not, without the 'stress' of the stockpiled they'd all be fine with multiple quirks? Who knows. Point is, thats what i think the options are. Either 1, the quirk-vestige stuff comes from afo, first was actually quirkless, and the strength is stockpile, or 2- the quirk-vestige stuff comes from first, and the strength is stockpile.

3- So what is the stockpile doing? Ok so the stockpile is like soup. bear with me. the longer you keep your ingredients in to flavor a broth or stock, the stronger the flavor will be, right? A chicken bone and some carrots in some stock for ten minutes wont' be as flavorful as a chicken bone and some carrots that have been cooking in a stock for an hour. Basically, the stock liquid is the stockpile, and the ingredients are the user's quirks. because of this, i think that it makes sense that Second's Quirk, whatever it is, has received a larger boost from OfA than, say, Black Whip has. It's been in the soup longer. That doesn't mean it's necessarily going to be stronger than black whip when izuku accesses it, because BW probably got to start off stronger, but it will have gotten more of a boost. You can also think of it as a loan- OfA took a quirk loan out from Second way before it took a quirk loan out from Banjo, so Second will have accrued more interest than Banjo, but the total sums also depend on how much was there to start with. Man i hope these metaphors make sense. BUT, but, but, but. The stockpile only has access to these quirks to boost them because of First's original quirk (or the copy of afoquirk it took) On its own, it would have just stockpiled up strength and energy- i think of it more like interest on a checking account with a bank (you get a boost just by having money in there, and it slowly grows over time.) than like a feruchy metalmind (where you would store 'strength' to use later, at the cost of being physically weaker now). While the metalmind concept does technically fit the definition of 'stockpile' to me, i don't think thats how it worked bc it doesn't sound like what AfO meant when he talked about giving it to First. and i mean, AfO has been wrong about quirks before, but still. Interest from a bank is probably how it works. On its own, the only thing the stockpile has in its bank account is physical strength. the AfOquirk copy or First's original quirk let it open up its bank account to more, including the quirks.

lightning round-

Before realizing Midoriya could access the previous holders' quirks, All Might said OFA gets stronger each time it's passed on.

Yes but AM doesn't know a lot of things about OfA. I do think it gets stronger as its passed on, either though Option One of the past user's being pasted onto the next one when it's passed, or through Option Two of it getting stronger as its used, and more passes means more holders means more use.

Would that mean it only accumulates the holders' physical abilities unrelated to their quirks? But that can't be right because OFA has supposedly made all the quirks it contains stronger.

While OFA does make the quirks stronger, i'm not sure if it did much in a user's lifespan or only after it was passed on- Banjo talks about Black Whip being much stronger for Izuku than it was in his time, but i don't remember him mentioning anything about it being enhanced significantly during his time holding ofa.

So if it's the former, then since AfO held the stockpiling quirk at one point, did it also "collect" a copy of AFO and Midoriya will be able to access it eventually?

IMO, possible- but only in Option One where First was originally quirkless. there, he'd have both a vestige and an afoquirk to deal with. In Option Two, he would have neither- except whenever tomura stops by his headspace with an afoquirk and vestige sticking out of his shoulder.