#thatgermandreamer

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F I N A L L Y!

It‘s creepy how being in the damn 40‘s (or below 110lbs) feels like one of my biggest accomplishments...

(„Heute“ means „today“)

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A small “THANK YOU” to all of you - I made it to 100 followers extremely quickly.

A “Before and after” - I know the angles are bad but I deleted most of the before-photos because I hated looking at myself. I’m still not there, I still hate my legs more than anything but at least I look normal and not fat.

In 2019 I will be skinny.

Before (May 2017, around 155-160lbs / 70kg)

vs

After (December 2018, around 114lbs / 52kg)

Oh, and Happy New Year!

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~ not mine ~ Finally it’s 2019.

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Being thrifty and eating disordered is quite a combo.

I wanted to get some soup for lunch tomorrow and the lowest calorie option (I‘m planning to have that with a spelt bun which is ~200 cal) was also 50 cents cheaper than the higher ones I was debating to get.

My ED also saved 3,50€ today at lunch time.

I‘m not sure how I should feel about this though as my ED and my bank account seem to agree that I should stop eating altogether to save more money. 🤦🏼‍♀️

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Y‘all ever felt like

“I look like a fat mf but why does this size 34 short fit so loosely on my waist?! HM, shove your vanity sizing up your ass!”

*Size 34 equals a US 4 according to the label in the shorts. A skirt of the same EU size states that it would equal a US 2. So yeah, something between those.

Because same. This used to be a lot tighter. And those shorts are like super cute but I still feel like my thighs look huge.

Full pic (+ face) will be on Instagram thatgermandreamer this week.

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A friendly reminder to myself (and everyone else who needs it) for Christmas.

I have worked my butt off for 1 year and 9 months and have lost a good 22kg (or ~47/48lbs). Even if I eat like a normal person for 3 days it is literally impossible to gain all of that back during Christmas. I repeat, it is NOT POSSIBLE TO GAIN 22kg in 3 days, or even a week!

So chill tf out, bitch, and enjoy Christmas. You can go for a run or a long walk outside if you want to. And even if you gain 2kg over Christmas and New Year’s, you will get there. You will be alright.

Another friendly reminder, your maintenance calories should be around 1700-1800. If you have one huge meal for brunch it is unlikely that you will go above the required calories, especially if you stick to vegetables because the restaurant only serves meat you don’t like.

You got this. You will be alright. Nothing good comes easy and change takes time.

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I’m logging off until December 18th now.

I hope to see you again on Tuesday. If I’m not back around this time on Tuesday my blog may have been deleted. I hope it won’t come to this, and I hope many of us make it through Tumblr’s “cleaning process”.

In case I’m not back and you need to talk to me go to IG (thatgermandreamer) to find me! I’m still working out the 2019 plan but if any of you miss me... and my dumb yet somewhat great ideas I’ll be there.

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Just in case..

While I only reblog stuff and shouldn‘t be in danger of Tumblr banning me for that reason - y‘all can follow me on Instagram if you want, @thatgermandreamer. I‘m planning a 2019 IG challenge of daily posts but it wouldn‘t focus on food. It‘s rather about daily life, makeup, style, etc. I guess, and hopefully moving to another country to finally get my shit together again. Even though weight loss will be a topic when I get to my UGW.

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~ not mine ~

This outfit is fire.

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~ not mine ~

When I am at my goal weight and hopefully a little more toned - something like this will be one of my thigh tattoos.

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~ not mine ~

Most likely found on unzzy’s website or downloaded from somewhere else.