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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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due to the unfortunate, the kiln was deeply out of fucks when this mug went into it. there are glaze bubbles and pinholes on the inside, making it non-functional. I tried refiring it and it made it worse :')
#it's still so pretty#ceramic#ceramic mugs#ceramic art#sgraffito#carving#glazeware#skull#greenery#plants#leaves#did the boiling water test and some of my mugs started pinging and it was very depressing lol#and the worst part is they ping for HOURS#not often#but maybe once every few hours#and each time it's like 'oh.... right'#thanks
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I'm sorry I keep forgetting this account. I made a ref sheet for my harpy character! I love my very depressed ptarmigan, my beautiful koi fish
#oc#the harpy#artists on tumblr#ref sheet#character design#godverse#my art#art#ocs#im still trying to get out of a long term depression thats why im absent or too socially anxious to check or reply to things#the storys changed a lot and im pretty happy with it all though!#any pronouns bc i cant for the love of god decide on a name or gender for them#maybe they simply forgot their name and gender
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Shoko „who after a long sloppy make out session holds her cig to your mouth and makes you inhale it but laughs cockily when you get into a coughing fit and coyly says ‘aww poor baby, you take Gojo and Getou at the same time, on both ends but can’t handle a ‘lil cig’ and takes pitty on her pretty baby and kisses it all better again” Ieiri
#lately on my mind#the only person who’d make me call her mommy#a pretty emo doctor in deep depression#the only woman who makes me blush#she could bully me and I’d still love her#geto suguru#jjk suguru#getou suguru x reader#sugusato#satosugu x reader#satoru gojo#jjk#jjk gojo#jjk geto#jjk thoughts#jjk thirsts#shoko ieiri#ieiri shoko x reader#ieri shoko#jjk shoko#she should totally dominate me#I can fill that void baby#jujutsu kaisen#gojo satoru#getou suguru
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I’m not sure if this has been pointed out before, but one of Satoru’s hugest motivations in life is “not letting anyone take away youth” from young people, just as Toji had done to himself and Suguru.
And in JJK 0, Suguru attempts to kill Maki, Toge, and Panda along with Yuuta, as well as causes the death of countless other sorcerers during the night parade of 1,000 demons. He had turned into exactly what Satoru was trying to protect his students from.
Yet, Satoru never resents him for it.
Not at all. It blows my mind. Satoru still only regarded him with trust, respect, and love. He still referred to him as his “only best friend”.
In the moment that Kenjaku fooled Satoru into thinking that Suguru had survived, he was happy to see him. There was not an ounce of anger towards Suguru like there easily could have been.
And (manga spoiler ahead) Satoru even goes as far as to imagine Suguru as he had been after he committed his atrocities, in the gojo-kesa robes and standing beside the teenagers he had tried to hurt the year before, only saying, “If you had been there, I would have been satisfied.”
Like, Satoru fully understands who Suguru was in that moment and straight up loved him anyways. Suguru had become the very thing he resented the most and yet somehow was never the object of Satoru’s resentment.
Holy hell.
#called to check in yup i’m still in stsg purgatory#i’ve set up camp here it’s actually pretty nice once you get used to the daily crying sessions and depressive spirals#jjk meta#satosugu meta#but is it meta if this is what happened canonically hmm#satosugu#gojo satoru#satoru gojo#stsg#geto suguru#suguru geto#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jujukai#jjk spoilers#jjk manga
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YAY I GOT THIS DONE ON HIS BIRTHDAY. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAJIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE YOU RUINED MY LIFE AND ALSO MAYBE SAVED MY LIFE. WHO THE FUCK KNOWS I DO LIKE YOU A LOT THOUGH
#hajime means so much to meeeeeee#hes the reason i started posting art online (not on tumblr at the time though)#so without him i wouldnt have made like. 80% of my friends#and i do not know where i would be without some of my friends ive met bc of that#like ive had some NASTY depressive episodes since then that im pretty sure i only made through because of them#hiii phantom specifically. looking at you. ilysm if you read this#anyways not to get so real on danganronpa art sdfvgfrde#sdr2 is one of my favorite games of all time like genuinely. it has a lot of sentimental value to me i guess#i was a big fan of the first game but i watched the anime (and several playthroughs) but sdr2 was the first dr game i acually played myself#i actually also watched the dr3 anime before i played sdr2?#and uh. so i went in completely spoiled for it#that being said i still absolutely adored hajime. maybe im basic but i always love protagonist characters#also johnny yong bosch's performance is so fucking good;;;; i cried at the end of the game and it wasnt even particularly sad#anyways. danganronpa was my first hyperfixation that i can remember and it was so meaningful to me. i dont know where id be without it#even if im not as interested in it now it still is really important#would i recommend it? i mean it depends. i think danganronpa is for a very specific kind of person which is the person i happen to be#ok no more tag rambling time to do normal art tags#doodles#danganronpa#hajime hinata#izuru kamukura
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Just realized how proud I am of myself and of my progression in art.
My old stuff was undoubtedly horrible! As I listed, there was no lighting/shading, no backgrounds, bad anatomy, bad proportions, stiff poses, inconsistent colors, I didn't even give anything a watermark! Bad bad bad...
My new art, I am experimenting with backgrounds, colors, perspective, foreshortening, poses, gestures,expressions, emotions, all that! I'm just better now. Better than I ever have been. And I'm very proud of that.
#Saying I'm proud of myself is pretty big coming from a gal with serious self loathing and depression 🔥🔥🔥#i'm just a girl#Who got really good at art!#Still not as good as I could be though#I'm still improving and whatnot#But I'm at my prime rn#Old art#Bad old art
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hi!!! so i've been binging your blog and you make alot of undnertale stuff(same) and been wondering, any ocs???? as an oc owner I love when people ask me if i have ocs so might as well pay it forward. though it's totally okay if you don't have any!! it hard making ocs that you care about. And if you don't have any, don't you have any aus?? (asking caise i may or may not make fanart, though do NOT believe me productivity it negative zerooooooooooooo)
Hello!! Yeah, I do Undertale a lot.... Like, a LOT. Uh, I don't really have OCs, I'm pretty sure you're talking about Undertale OCs? Ones that you care about... Yeah I imagine that's kinda hard to do... I did mention before that I had a skeleton guy, I searched around for cool font names, settled with Oswald, made him a cool dude whose design was slightly based on Greek soldiers. I liked him too, I thought he was awesome at the time!! But other than that and a few made up monsters I don't have anyone, terrible, I know!!
And aus? .... Uh, the only one that stands out that was actually DECENT was one where I thought "what if Undyne remembered resets". I kept seeing sans remembering in comics and stuff so I was trying to think of someone else, someone COMPLETELY different, and got Undyne.
I still think it wasn't half bad! Not sure if it's been done before, but, in short, it would've been during Flowey's time, no Frisk. (Although that could be interesting too) Undyne would be able to remember because of DT of course!! And it'd revolve around how she's figuring out what's actually happening, trying to stop it, finding hope and comfort in places she wouldn't previously, and realising and appreciating the people around her more, and how she can affect everything around them.
It'd be like those classic time loop stories where the hero has to find a way for everyone to be happy, and only then would the loop stop. Although it'd be different here, very different. I still like it, probably keep working on it actually!
Well!! That was a wall of text!! Thanks for the ask!! It IS kinda nice to ramble about your stuff!! Also productivity being zero is SO relatable!! Don't worry! :'D
#answered ask#rambles#it ends up being pretty depressing at some point#and the question still remains if undynes resolve and determination will prevail or if she will give up just like sans#speaking of the 2 they become good buddies!!#you can probably guess why...#so yeah#thats it i guess!!#a cookie for reading it all!! 🍪#:D
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Prompt:
Dick stumbles upon Jason while he’s at his most deranged and sawing heads off people to stuff them into a duffle bag and deliver it gift wrapped to the GCPD.
Dick is sick to his stomach. How can one person be capable of something so atrocious and laugh while doing it!? He needs to get back to the cave. He needs to warn Batman and Robin. This new player isn’t just dangerous, he’s evidently trying to rival his namesake in blood and violence alone and he’s succeeding.
(If Dick hadn’t been too busy keeping his late dinner inside his stomach, he may have noticed the warning creaks of the support beam.
As it is, the chains holding the beam in place snap and Dick goes down. Tumbling straight into the gory mess giving himself a concussion to boot at the Red Hood’s feet.
Shit.)
#Jason is a bit maniacal#and still riding a Lazarus pit high#but then Nightwing pretty much falls from the ceiling#and Jason says#free real estate#he didn’t plan on this happening but there’s no better way to rule up Bruce than to kidnap his favorite bird right?#after all#the Original Boy Wonder#is so much better to have at his mercy than just the little cuckoo bird#Bruce is sure to do anything to get him back#Jason will have his revenge#one way or another#dick didn’t exactly treat him WELL when he was alive#so you know what they say about two birds and one stone#sadly he did NOT plan on Dick being so depressive and mopey and lowkey burnt out#Jason’s mother hen instincts are coming through strong and he doesn’t like it#the pit’s got no chance#jason todd#batfamily#batfam#dick grayson#robin#red hood#Nightwing#dick and Jason#bruce wayne#tim drake#prompts#fic#angst
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kitty and merthur parallels bc i'm sad pt.1 (beware of spoilers!)
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#guys fear not although merthur will (like kitty) spend a long time apart#they will meet again and declare their love as true#but yeah this was hella long and i still have a part 2 coming (not even kidding right now) i'm sorry if that's annoying :(#but also there were just SO many amazing parallels and i really wanted to make a master post and include as many as i could#i hope this first part was pretty fun to read (and not too depressing although we know it probably was)#this actually took me ages to make so i hope u enjoyed it at least somewhat... *shy*#part 2 will be coming tomorrow bc i dont want my blog to just be one big thread rn :'))#BUT if u (like me) miss kitty like mad then PLEASE watch bbc's merlin and bask in all the similarities between these two iconic couples#kit herondale#ty blackthorn#kit x ty#kitty#arthur pendragon#merlin#arthur x merlin#merthur#the dark artifices#the wicked powers#merlin bbc#tda#twp#tsc
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House of the Dragon s01e06, The Princess and the Queen // A Clash of Kings by George RR Martin, Chapter XXXVII, Theon III // House of the Dragon s01e07, Driftmark // A Clash of Kings by George RR Martin, Chapter XXIV, Theon II // Fire & Blood by George RR Martin, Chapter XII: Heirs of the Dragon - A Question of Succession // House of the Dragon s01e08, The Lord of the Tides // A Clash of Kings by George RR Martin, Chapter XI, Theon I // A Clash of Kings by George RR Martin, Chapter LVI, Theon V // House of the Dragon s01e08, The Lord of the Tides // A Clash of Kings by George RR Martin, Chapter XXIV, Theon II // House of the Dragon s01e09, The Green Council // A Feast for Crows by George RR Martin, Chapter I, The Prophet (Aeron I) // House of the Dragon s01e09, The Green Council // Game of Thrones s02e03, What is Dead May Never Die // House of the Dragon s02e01, A Son For a Son // A Dance with Dragons by George RR Martin, Chapter XXXVII, The Prince of Winterfell (Theon IV) // House of the Dragon s02e02, Rhaenyra the Cruel // A Clash of Kings by George RR Martin, Chapter LVI, Theon V // House of the Dragon s02e03 The Burning Mill // A Clash of Kings by George RR Martin, Chapter XXXVII, Theon III // House of the Dragon s02e04, The Red Dragon and the Gold // A Clash of Kings by George RR Martin, Chapter XI, Theon I // David J. Peterson on Aegon's use of High Valyrian // Game of Thrones s02e02, The Nightlands // House of the Dragon s02e04, The Red Dragon and the Gold // A Clash of Kings by George RR Martin, Chapter LXVI, Theon VI // House of the Dragon s02e04, The Red Dragon and the Gold // Game of Thrones s03e04, And Now His Watch is Ended // Fire & Blood by George RR Martin, Chapter XV: The Dying of the Dragons—The Red Dragon and the Gold // A Clash of Kings by George RR Martin, Chapter LVI, Theon V // House of the Dragon s02e07, The Red Sowing // Game of Thrones s03e07, The Bear and the Maiden Fair // House of the Dragon s02e08, The Queen Who Ever Was // A Dance with Dragons by George RR Martin, Chapter XXXVII, The Prince of Winterfell (Theon IV)
#hotedit#gotedit#house of the dragon#asoiaf#aegon ii targaryen#theon greyjoy#long post#(c)lsb#happy theon thursday!#idt theon had a drinking problem the way aegon2 did that parallel is more abt a sibling disapproving when theyre drunk#the viserys/balon freudian slips are similar bc its abt the pref for chosen daughter heir#if rhaenyra was still his only child her claim wld be pretty solid whereas balon doesnt need to forget theon if he thinks of asha as a son#shed def be the heir then as theon's elder#i feel like this is depressing since aegon2's not getting any ~redemption arc but he just gave me such theon vibes in s2
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Come back home when you have some sense
You can throw your life away just not at my expense
You’re not the son I raised

#jhariah#this one just rawrrfrrr#and then uh another line thats like ‘tell me did you raise a man?’#nice#im just listening to the new album to cope with nasty sickness and feeling out of it#god this album is really good it has every emotion in there like this song for example just the part where they scream the chorus its like#hnnnghhh#hm some other moments from the album im liking a lot uhhh i love re: concerns a lot#the part where hes like reading off the complaints and then the part where hes just screaming and its like BAM BAM BAM BAAAM#sasuke is so good and the bit at the end where its like ‘i just want you to know im so so...’#like hes gonna say sorry but cant seem to say the word for whatever reason and i know nothing about sasuke#but i has to imagine the fan girlies are eating gravel over that one lol it gets me#and theres just that like spooky echoing afterwards#the intro to fire4fun goes SOOOOOOOO hard i was losing my shit its awesome#the entirety of trust ceremony is giving me big feelings but specifically that part towards the end where its all quiet and you hear#its like whistling i think? like a marching band is coming in maybe#but it also kinda sounds like nature too and idk i like got a little bit um magical at that part cuz i was driving down a big hill#and it had been raining but there was a clearing in the clouds and the sun was bright and like at this particular hill#you can just see everything like the land stretches for miles theres trees hills the river farms all that shit#and idk with the extreme stress and depression ive been feeling its hard to have these moments where life seems worth it#and its hard to really feel anything anymore or to feel in the moment but idk i was just going down that hill seeing everything and it was#very majestic so yeah that song is definitely gonna have the same effect as pin eye for me#which i must mention pin eye again its still OOOOGHH very good it came at a pretty good time for me#yeah basically this album is uhhhh whats keeping me somewhat grounded rn i recommend 👍
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I think that forgotten coffee cups should age into a delicious beverage like fine wine instead of growing mold the likes of which a House MD patient would encounter.
#taylor's tag#shitpost hours#anyways. I call the coffee cups my depression collection.#it rhymes. that makes it fun and silly and not an admission of mental illness.#(joking. I'm doing pretty okay these days but I do still have a coffee cup problem lmao.)
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i just woke up so i haven't actually watched the pokemon direct thingy yet, but i heard they mentioned they aren't pushing out another console release at all for 2024 and if that's true then frankly THAT news is way more hype than any actual game announcement could ever be. go girl let us wait!! this is genuinely what i've been begging for for years now
like, oh a new Legends game? that's neat i guess. oh wait it's being given literally ANY time to cook and they aren't crunching Game Freak to hell and back in order to pump out a bunch of half-baked annual releases for the first time in ages?? NOW we're fuckin talking. LOVE to see the torturous cycle broken
#buny text#pokemon#granted they may have just delayed their plans simply because nintendo still isn't releasing a new console til pretty late in the year#and they cannot feasibly keep trying to squeeze things down into a format the switch can (barely) handle without losing goodwill#but i'd like to hope that this also proves they don't need to be pumping out 3 console titles and multiple DLCs in such short spans of time#i'd love to see what might happen if the pokemon devs were ever given the kind of long thorough dev cycles that the zelda team gets#like let gamefreak cook for as long as they need and release when they actually feel it's ready. please.#as frustrated as i am with how SV turned out the majority of my frustration was that you can still FEEL the devs' passion in there#but it's massively overshadowed by jank and lack of polish and design decisions that would only ever be made under intense time pressure#the last chunk of that game's story is cool as hell but getting there was such a depressing experience that it's very hard to recommend#these are clearly artists who still have good ideas and interesting experiences to create! give them the time they need to do it properly!
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THE (CATHOLIC) SCHOOL I (UNWILLINGLY) GO TO HAD AN ASSEMBLY ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH TODAY AND??? THEY SHOWED A VIDEO OF MARKIPLIER???
THE SPEAKER DOING THE PRESENTATION CLICKED TO THE SLIDE WITH THE VIDEO ON IT AND MY BRAIN JUST BUFFERED
SHE WAS LIKE "Have any of you ever heard of Markiplier before?" AND I WAS LIKE ???????????
#yes#i know hes like#famous#or whatever#but i didnt think famous = being brought up in an assembly at my catholic school#it was a video of him talking about mental health and about having conversations about it#so it fit the subject matter#but it was still so weird#i mean she was a guest speaker#and also a pretty good one too???#like i will admit i went into it with low expectations#because my school doesn't have a great history with how they treat mental health#but the information she was giving was actually good and she didn't sugarcoat or gloss over things#and she didnt treat depression like its just “being sad” or like depression is the only thing that can affect a person's mental health#she also had support resources and one of them was the trevor project??#which was very very pleasantly surprising to see#i dont know if our school admin knew she was going to include that#either way it made me happy to see#but overall i'm still baffled at hearing the words “have any of you ever heard of markiplier before” at my school#markiplier#i don't really know what else to tag this as tbh
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This boomer opinion that "my kids deserve no inheritance, I'm going to spend it all on jetskis and cruises, they should just work hard like I did uwu" is so funny to me because this is the same generation who'll constantly berate the childfree about "leaving behind a legacy" and it turns out the legacy these boomers are leaving behind is their children struggling with lifelong poverty during the worst financial times since The Great Depression, something that their own parents went through and subsequently left these boomers an inheritance so as to avoid.
#and this whole “my kids should just work hard like I did” thing is also pretty funny#bc the statistics literally show every generation since the boomers has worked harder than the previous#but with no increase in wages#boomers didn't work hard to accumulate their wealth#they accumulated wealth by being born in the wealthiest time in recorded history#do boomers really think they worked harder than their own parents who survived The Great Depression?#the silent generation really was the best imo#they actually did struggle like millenials struggle today#& when they did pull themselves up by the bootstraps they left their boomer kids an inheritance to ensure they'd never struggle with poverty#the silent gen really did protect boomers from hardship so thoroughly these ingrates don't even understand what poverty is#they don't even recognise the legacy their own parents left them to protect them from poverty#they're willing to destroy their own parents' legacy and throw their kids into the fire#all because they don't recognise the privilege of living through the easiest financial time in history#the poverty of their day probably could be cured with a job flipping burgers#so they think that's still the case#they have no idea what their own parents protected them from and what they're obliviously throwing their own children into#childfree#anti natalism
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