#that's kinda wild

[traumasurvivors]

I turn 31 on Saturday.

I remember the panic when I was turning 28. It felt like I really only began living in my mid twenties. I spent most of my teen years thinking I was going to kill myself eventually, so I never made a plan for my future.

I spent my early 20's struggling with suicidal thoughts, and I even made some genuine attempts. I really only began healing around then and it felt like it was only around 25 when I began really living.

It left me feeling sick with anxiety and sadness anytime my birthday came around because I felt like I'd lost so much time.

And I've come to realize that while I did lose years to mental illness, trauma and abuse... I still have so many years to enjoy. I can't get those back, and getting stuck on thinking about that is taking away my current time from me. I deserved better, but I can't fix that. I also deserve to enjoy my time now, and I can't do that when I'm stuck on the past.

As my birthday approaches this year, I don't feel anxiety. There's a little bit of sadness which I think is fair, but mostly I feel curiousity. I am curious for what the future holds, and I know that I can still make a beautiful life for myself.

I am so loved. I spend so much time laughing. I spend so much time doing stuff I love.

I lost time. But I don't have to continue losing time.

I hope that if you are dealing with the feelings I did about getting older because of the years you lost that you can get to a point like me. I allowed myself to grieve that loss, and I can't even fix that, but I can still enjoy my time now and I intend to.

[birdyverdie]

so i guess another way to see if the bones belong to a child is if it has red bone marrow huh

[get-acronixed-meme]

100 FOLLOWERS, YAAAY!!! <333 🥳🥳✨🤭💕😎👉👉🥰🤭💕

[astorkes]

someone care to explain to me why everything has changed yet it feels like nothing has changed yet it feels like everything has changed yet it

[onethousand825days]

wait why was that guy in charge of soothing me??

[mrtryingtowrite]

Bro, who even are you?

You know I actually have no idea. But does anyone? Anyway I made this tumblr because I wanna talk to somebody about how annoyingly hard writing is and how I literally just came up with the loose idea for a novel in about the span of an hour tonight and now I'm contemplating how tf I'm supposed to find either: A: The time to do something with the idea, and the time that it'll take to find the time to figure it out, which then eats into the time that I'm supposed to be making a CV and Biography and APPLYING FOR ACTUAL JOBS

or

B: The emotional literacy to explain to myself that I do not infact have the time I have a feeling due to my innate inabiliity to help myself as I manage to help others. I feel A will infact be the winning option. That said... I'm also pretty sure A is going to lead to the most pain down the line when I realise that the story isn't actually worth reading. HOWEVER, there is always the possibility that the writing brilliance that my year 7 english teacher discovered 10 years ago may finally be put to good use. ONLY ONE WAY TO FIND OUT!

[abyssforphantoms]

That post put me in an existential crisis at 3am last night and I'm still not over it.

LIKE WHAT IS MY STYLE?????? HELP!!!!!!

I just started doing the cartoony eyes thing because I like to be able to tell where a character is looking, yet I still like official style alot. (Also maybe got influenced when I binged watched transformers animated and transformers prime. I really like the different eye shapes for the characters in those two shows.)

I haven't been in the sky community that long but I just noticed something...

[eydilily]

(look at what i have to offer) — this is the spider's nest.

[endy-boi]

i wrote a lil python script to look at my music library and total up the number of songs per artist. here are the top 25 artists in my library by song count!

script is below the readmore if anyones interested

i'm using the TinyTag library to read metadata. it's just the first result i found when i was doing research. i'm happy with the results for this script, but it's missing some metadata i'd like to read so i'll hafta look for another library or something.

[isjasz]

Feather and Crystal (I remember)

Set after wild life session 5, under the premise that dd gave each other a feather earring and a crystal necklace back in 3rd life <3 They can be seen in a lot of my past pieces, the og concept was from bugs buggsxp back during dl !!

[valeriapryanikova]

cool af skin

[lume-ish]

"Get in Loser we just won the life series"

ignore how scuffed the car looks cars are hard

[thesadpuffin]

Zelda Reacts Part 7

helloooooo everyone! Merry Christmas if you celebrate it and Happy New Year in advance! I'm thrilled I managed to do this before the end of the year, things have been hectic but I SO missed making these aaaaaaaa

this was another highly requested outfit, and I do love this one a lot so it was fun to draw. somethin' about Link in black...👀 (also feels like a missed opportunity to do the Tingle set for Christmas, but oh well, it's coming later XD)

Part 6: Voe <<<

[xxplastic-cubexx]

obligatory beach divorce doodling

bonus rough cover redraw of x-men #41 (1995) But Beach Divorce below cut

[appystruda]

WHAT THE HELL

I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT THIS UNTIL NOW BUT GUYS I FUCKING DREW THIS TEAM UP BACK IN 2023?????????? I REMEMBER DOODLING THEM BC I THOUGHT THEY WOULD BE SILLY

[whatidkwhatimsupposedtowriye]

AHHHHH EPISODE 5 WOKE UP SOMETHING IN ME I DIDN'T KNOW EXISTED

so have a comic I made that i didn't like enough to post but because it reminds me of them in today's episode