#that's just liking quirky clothes

[biathediamond]

i really do mean it when i say that ADHD is one of the most misunderstood/misrepresented mental disorders and that i genuinely can tell when you got diagnosed off tiktok

[apocketfullofhobbits]

'trc adaptation is bad bc they mixed timelines and cut out lots of stuff' 'trc adaptation is bad bc they sanitised adam's bitchiness' 'trc adaptation is bad bc they made the ganseys democrats' NO TRC ADAPTATION IS BAD BC IT'S SET IN 2024 and not in 2001 like god intended!!

[halfbit]

accidentally made another autistic mc. wonder how many i made before i even realized i was autistic

[blossoms-phan]

are you normal or do you end up in a men’s clothing section thinking about what would look good on dnp

[istherewifiinhell]

some of us are walking around in clothes u find ugly and also. find modern 'in' fashion so fucking weird. u know like when one of those LA youtubers has merch and its like. what the fuck IS that.

[death-rebirth-senshi]

She has to be Barbie.

[keylovesstuff]

17, 22, 68. 😊

17. What do you do when writing becomes difficult? (maybe a lack of inspiration or writers block)

I think since I tend to write in spurs and only work on one thing at a time, I rarely get writers block. However, if I find myself stuck at a certain part and just aren't sure how to move forward, that's just a sign that I'm done for the day and my two braincells need to be recharge. So I mindlessly scroll the internet, play a game, and watch some vids... maybe eat something too...If I haven't, I tend to ignore that when I get really focused 😤. I come back to it when I'm ready, and that could range from days to a couple of weeks. I don't force it.

22. Are there certain types of writing you won’t do? (style, pov, genre, tropes, etc)

Reader x Character, especially if they're a real-life person. I mean, I can't read them that long writing them, but my gosh, if it's not hilarious to see people act out the 'standard' scripts, and then there was a point where Youtubers would read and would react to those fics about themselves and I was done.

68. What, if anything, do you do for inspiration?

I read and look at other people's fanworks, interpretations, and headcanons about characters and shows alike. I think I can add Youtube video analysis in the mix, those are also fun to watch, and even if it's on a completely different character or event in a show, I'm able to think about how it could fit to this person if that makes sense. For as toxic as Twitter can be while lurking, there's the occasional user that makes some sense on a Fandom thing, and it makes think differently about something.

[riyaaaaaaaaaah]

girl dinner this girl math that girl pockets girl crushes girl whatever the fuck Im going to fucking lose it

[thornshadowwolf]

DAN AND PHIL RETURN????????

[rjalker]

[ID: The "Okay, but that's worse" meme from The Good Place, edited so that Eleanor is now saying:

"Everything a nonbinary person wears is inherently a fashion statement and inherently outstanding because being nonbinary makes you weird and quirky.".

Chidi responds, "Okay but that's exorsexist. You do get how that's exorsexist, right?" While Eleanor frowns, trying to figure it out.

End ID.]

[vaugarde]

not that im not happy with my family or anything but man growing up with conservative parents was exhausting and sometimes i look at stuff like the last post with envy. what do you mean ur family gets matching tattoos my moms too busy pearl clutching over how painful and nasty and permanent it is

[bigcryptiddies]

I’m always grateful for people who post the non quirky parts of things like adhd because even though I do relate a lot to posts that make funny haha jokes about it sometimes the imposter syndrome sets in and I need to be reminded that no this is an issue you are very much dealing with girl you are straight up not having a good time

[foone]

I see a lot of people joking about the adhd thing of "I have a appointment/phone call at 3pm, guess I won't do anything all day!"

But no one seems to make the connection that it's a time blindness thing. One of the symptoms of ADHD is not having a good and accurate sense of time. And not doing stuff prior to an event with a hard deadline is an obvious coping mechanism for that.

Can I go to the store? It's 10am and the appointment is at 3pm. How long does going to the store take? An hour? Three hours? Five hours? I DON'T KNOW!

I get anxious trying to do things before appointments because I'm aware that I don't know how long those things take, and that if I think I do, I may be very wrong. Too often I've been like "hey I can walk to the corner store and grab a drink, that'll take like 15 minutes!" and then an hour later I get back and whoops my rice has burnt.

Plus there's also the fact that ADHD people know that motivation and focus is a two-edged sword.

Like, let's say you decide to play a video game. You've got time, you can pause/save whenever, so this should be a perfect fit to make good use of your waiting-time. So you start playing and WHOOPS you get really focused for some reason today (because people with ADHD do not get to pick when their brain decides to focus) and the next time you look at the clock it's 2:49 and you haven't showered or dressed and the appointment is 30 minutes away. Fuck. (you could have set an alarm, but now you're asking people with the forgetting-things-and-time-ignoring condition to remember it set alarms)

And with motivation, it can be almost worse. Instead of playing a game, you so something useful or creative. You clean your room or fix your plumbing or write a story or draw a picture. And suddenly it's great. Your brain is firing on all cylinders. You've got all the motivation you can ask for, and you are FLYING. the ideas are brilliant, your hands are nimble, you're getting stuff done you've been putting off for weeks or months. And then the alarm goes off. Time to go to your appointment. Fuck.

You drive there, your brain still full of ideas and plans. But by the time you get back, the motivation is gone. You may still have the ideas but you don't have the drive to write them down. You can't force yourself to do it. Your sink is still in pieces. Your room is half-cleaned, and you have to shove all the sorted clothes into one big bin just so you have somewhere to sleep. You've left things half finished again, in a cycle that has been repeating your whole fucking life. It seems sometimes that nothing ever gets finished.

So next time you don't even start. There's not time. You've been burnt too many times. Why add another half-completed project to your pile of shame?

My point is that people seem to be going "lol I can't do anything all day if I have an appointment at 3pm" like this is a quirky "oh I'm so scatterbrained!" weirdness they alone have, and not a major complication of a disabling mental illness.

(and that's not even getting into the secondary effects. If you know that having an appointment ruins your whole damn day, you're going to avoid them. Even when it's things like "going to that party" or "meeting your friends for a drink/game" or "going to a movie with that cute girl from your math class". Things you should enjoy. Things that'd help you be social. Things that make you feel human.)

[inkskinned]

even 2 years ago people still said autism with a whisper. it was also how people sometimes whisper lesbian, like they're afraid of uttering a slur. autistic was either an insult or it was something terrible, a horrible burden only select people endure. "select people" were usually 9 year old boys and skinny white men.

they are not hispanic young adults with a dog and a life and friends. i can make (sustained, calculated, painful) eye contact. with certain people, i don't even have to count how many seconds i am holding their vision - i can just look at them. i can wear clothes that bother me, i will just have a worse day than usual. i might cry about any changes to my schedule - but change is scary! this is normal!

when i was 16 it was OCD. i mean that was the thing everyone said. i totally have ocd. they would arrange 6 colors of gel pen in rainbow order (no worry for indigo feeling left out) and they'd be "so ocd" about it.

if you struggle with intrusive thoughts, be careful at this next paragraph, but. at 16 i developed a compulsion that involved self-harm. my ocd was convinced i was simply forgetting that i'd hurt someone terribly - a thought that persisted for no clear or delineated reason.

at some point i will probably write about how the idea of "morally pure thoughts" was hell for me and others with ocd, but this was the odd dichotomy for many of us: they liked our "aesthetic", but were genuinely repulsed by our lived experience. "intrusive thoughts" now means "cutting your hair in the sink" instead of talking yourself down from believing horrible things. "so ocd" is a label without any true understanding.

it's something i've talked about before - in multiplicity - but i firmly believe in the veracity and necessity of self-diagnosis. i think it saves lives and it saves tragedies from occurring. as someone raised in a house that wasn't safe, self-diagnosis was, for many years, the only viable option. 15 and honestly googling: am i depressed or there demons affecting my behavior.

but it is not genuine self-diagnosis anymore, most of the time. it is a strange, blanched version of that whispered word autism. now certain traits are constantly seen as "autistic" - any passing intense interest. any flubbed social interaction. people say it while laughing - a touch of the 'tism.

and i like the acceptance! i do. i like that people are talking about it. i like that if i self-identify, more people speak up and say me too, bitch. but there is something-else quietly happening, the way it happened to OCD. the quirky, "fun" parts have been washed and sanitized and removed of all suffering. now it is just something that makes you "a little bit silly."

it took me 27 years on this planet before i learned to make friends. something about me just seems incredibly odd, i guess, some kind of radiation monitoring. someone once (in a way that was almost friendly) told me i am doing the right things, but in a way that's off-putting. i have scoured myself raw attempting to be charming.

someone on tiktok does a deep dive into their particular passion. the top comment says "what kind of autism is this lol". like we are a breed of animal. like it has no influence on our experience. like our life is a fresh breeze, an open meadow.

more often for me, life was a drowning.

[idkwhatimdoingbutimgonnacontinue]

One of the funniest things about child me is that I could not differentiate between a hard rule and a soft rule.

An example of which is that it never occured to me that you can wear closed toe shoes without socks until I was much much older.

Like, my parents were like, "Put your socks on first, then your shoes." And child me took that and ran with it much further then they had meant me to.

[megalo-station]

I know Bethesda has the (well deserved) reputation of creating their games out of hacked together duct-tape-laden spaghetti code on an ancient quirky engine but I feel like FromSoft deserves their fair mention too. Bonfires aren't objects, they're a visual mesh with an invisible NPC standing on top of it that you "talk to" when you want to sit. Tons of enemies are just two NPCs glued on top of one another because they didn't know how to make an enemy have more than one attack that can fire off at a time. Winter lanterns' frenzy buildup attack comes from an invisible guy sitting on their heads shooting you with an invisible gun. Djura doesn't shoot you with his gatling gun, he just sits there doing nothing (with his cape sitting right around his ears due to how the game renders cloth physics from far away) because the actual NPC shooting you is the gun itself. Lothric and Lorian aren't two separate NPCs holding onto each other, they're one NPC with a second, invisible NPC glued to its back that takes damage on behalf of Lothric. Why? Because they couldn't figure out how to make one NPC ride on another one. They straight up went "We couldn't figure out how to make one NPC ride another, so we combined two NPCs into one and then glued another one to its back, simple." Really it's amazing how much of FromSoft's game design is just "we put an invisible guy here to do things because we couldn't figure out how to make the visible guy do it"

Even Elden Ring for all its advancements in mounts and whatnot has hilarious behind the scenes quirks. When Radahn does his meteor attack he doesn't track you, he teleports his horse underneath you and then aims at the horse