#that’s why he’s subjected to torture in almost all of my art of him

[zombiegirl789]

I swear he’s not my favourite guys…

Killer sans by @ rahafwabas

[decodedlvr]

18+

“Oh.. hell yea baby bounce on it”

You and Steve have been together for 5 months now. Met in college, specifically art class, he was forced to take an elective, anything for him to graduate. That’s when he saw you in the middle of the room.. naked. Well kinda, there was a long white sheet wrapped around you. Figure drawing was that days subject.

You seemed happy? Not at all flustered having all eyes on you, Steve was a bit intimidated, not only because of how beautiful you looked and all, but everything about you made the whole room glow. And made the bulge in his pants grow.

After class he was the last one out, he wanted to talk to you, little were you aware he was stuck behind in the room; that’s when you dropped the sheet to put your clothes back on. You both screamed in sync and he scrambled out of the door faster than you could’ve blinked.

Later that afternoon, you seen him in the library and came up to him to talk about the book he was reading. He was surprised you didn’t mention the incident, and since then you two hit it off.

He knew you were a virgin, so heavy make out sessions, mutual masturbation and lots of oral was the base of your guys relationship.

You woke up, extremely needy and horny. No vibrator or dildo could sedate your craving other than Steve. He wanted to take his time with you, telling you that you’ll know when the time is right. He made a mistake years ago losing his to quickly so in his terms, he’s doing you a favor. In your terms, he’s torturing you.

You swear he gets off on it.

You’ve been rubbing your pussy up against your hand every five seconds at work, coaxing him through sexy texts and lewd photos. Trying to give him the heads up you’re ready for him to finally fuck you. Or “make love” as he’d exclaim. same shit

He’s usually arrived home by the time you get off of work and today, you were definitely worked; panties have been sticking to your cunt since 10 this morning

“I need you now!” you shout kicking your shoes off and tossing your bag elsewhere, meanwhile, he’s wide-eyed, staring at you with a mouth full of cereal

“Pardon?”

“Steve baby please I love you so much but I need your cock in me right now, I’ve been so horny all day, I mean I can literally smell myself through my own pants right now,” you admit ridding him of the bowl, climbing into his lap, immediately grinding your hips

He scoffs.

“Baby we’ve been through this.. damn, really can smell it huh?” he replies cursing himself, biting his lip, “I thought we were going to wait? you know I want it to be special for you”—

“and it will be, please I promise I’m ready” you pout

The heavy feeling of you has him already babbling.

—“just like that baby, bounce it a little bit — y-yeah that’s it there we go,” he strains bucking, his hips up into yours, cock fully solid

“yeah? like that daddy?”—

“Don’t! Stop that.. fuck, don’t call me that, you know what that does to me”

“what does it do hm?” you lean down to nip his ear, “does it make you wanna fuck my brains out?”

He growls, moving your hips faster “What the fuck are you doing? Why are you doing this to me, fuck! keep bouncin, keep boucin that hot pussy on my dick sweetheart oh— shit”—

“Come on Stevie you know you want it, you’ve been dying to feel my pussy squeeze it, anytime with you will be s-speacial, just.. PLEASE!” you, almost in tears, begging; your thighs are burning the faster and harder you grind

“Ahhh, fuck it, get up!”, he demands angrily and eagerly ripping your pants and soaked panties off—

“Open those fuckin legs, ill make ya feel real special tonight”

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[eponastory]

K/tangers are really annoying. They basically claim we enjoy making Katara suffer in our fic for fun. Like exploring her relationship with A/ng in a negative light, the way it's hinted in canon that he was a neglectful father and possibly a neglectful husband. I mean, no? We like to write about it because we actually give Katara a voice that canon refuses to give to her. We let her feel things other than being A/ngs mouthpiece and champion. We don't want her to suffer, but how the post canon material is written, she seems to suffer by suddenly not having a voice anymore. The fearless, opinionated Katara we see in Atla isn't there anymore. She's a shell of her past after getting with A/ang. It's fair to assume that something negative is happening to her, and it doesn't mean we hate her. Actually, the og creators hate her. We just explore and disect the canon material and come to our own conclusions.

They also found out about the Katara keeps her scars trope from this years Zutara month and claim we hate Katara for not letting her heal her scars. Again, no? In canon, Katara's scars were inflicted by A/ng, and his reaction to it was overshadowed by Katara's feelings. By immediately healing them and letting them disappear, the show centers A/ng's feelings as more important because Katara immediately went to him to console him and make sure he isn't upset. Sokka was the only one who stood up for her. And that's my problem with K/taang. It's more about A/ng and his feelings than Katara. We don't hate her by letting her keep the scars. We actually love to explore her feelings and center HER perspective and experiences.

The fact that we even have to say any of this is a clue to how much Kat*angers actually understand the source material. While this ship discourse has been going on for the better part of two decades now, it certainly wasn't this bad until the recent influx of 2020 youngins just now discovering the show exists. (The ones who were in the trenches seem to not care as much because they are adults like myself and are better at handling their feelings) I'm going to leave it up to the failed education system for this.

I genuinely mean this because there is no more structure to the way English Language Arts is taught anymore. This is coming from someone who has been out of high school for almost twenty years and has seen the destruction of school curriculum. Its quite sad and I could literally use this discourse as a way to fuel the debate about the education system as a whole.

But I digress.

Katara is a character that has been cheated. I could effectively say that A*ng even cheats on her because he pursues his own goals without acknowledging hers at all or even worse, separates her from everything she has ever known. This is implied in LoK, so yeah. We can go there. Again, all of this is subjective and that's fine. But I'm a proof is in the pudding person and there is a looooooot of proof.

From the mouths of the creators themselves.

So yeah. We explore Katara's character like we should.

And it also begs the question of if the antis really know how character development happens?

Why torture of course!

I torture the shit out of characters. I'm not biased. I'm currently torturing Katara in a story to give her a more gritty personality. It's part of the process. You have to put them through shit in order to make them stronger. It's the flaws and the controversial things that make or break a person in real life so why not do it to a fictional character?

Anyway, I couldn't agree more with your statement, anon.

[placeinthisworld]

ttpdta review part one 🤠

let me preface this by stating that i am a swiftie first and person second in this situation. i have grown up with taylor and feel as if shes my big sister- yes i can make fun of her but if i see anyone else do it i will get fiercely protective. i do understand her music is not only art but also her form of therapy. that being said, throughout these nonsense notes i am constantly mentioning that taylor should go to therapy. i am aware of what she has said about therapy (and why she doesn’t go) but i would beg to differ with her…especially after this album release lol.

taylor is an extraordinary storyteller and song writer. i believe this album is full of evidence of that, but it also has some faults that prevent from being as good as i felt like it could have been. overall the album feels rushed.

i also feel like it’s important to recognize the elephant in the room. i know we probably all expected this to be a joe breakup album, so the fact that it turned out to be a “fuck you matty healy” album shook us all a little bit. i know matty had a controversial history, im not gonna sit here and defend him. i don’t know much about him other than what is forced against my will. i do however know that he struggles with mental health issues/ substance abuse/ addiction. i’m not gonna comment much about his personal issues, i don’t feel like that’s right and taylor’s constant references to drugs throughout ttpd definitely rubs me the wrong way. i should also mention i grew up with an active addict and do view things from that perspective, so i feel slightly triggered by the topic and my feelings about that may just be personal but i do mention that in my notes when it’s relevant.

lastly, i am not a music production girlie idk shit lol. i only know i am a aaron dessner stan so any song with his name im already biased towards and i am aware, if u don’t like that idk what to tell u lol. i just know what i feel like is “good” or “bad” but music is subjective🫶🏻

1. Fortnight:

Hate the functional alcoholic part. Like the beat, the chorus is catchy. One thing i love about a taylor swift song is that theres always a story and its always visual. I like the metaphor of the “good neighbors” of like having this teasing/ longing feeling for someone that you could have had a life with. “Your wife waters flowers/ i want to kill her + my husbands cheating/ i want to kill him” feeling like you were robbed of her life, feeling “all my mornings are mondays stuck in an endless february” reminiscing about the short period of time where you were together and convinced it would last forever (only for it to end before it even started). I do not listen to much post malone but i enjoyed his verse!! So many florida references we get it everything bad happens in florida.

i have not seen the video yet oooopsies

2. Ttpd:

i thought this was the opening of Hey Stephen (the remix) or something at first. gotta say i absolutely love the way she sings “you left your typewriter at my apartment/ straight from the tortured poets department” i enjoyed the vibe of this song, and lyrics up until the “you smoked then ate seven bars of chocolate (OKAY SOOOOOOO ME CODED NGL I LAUGHED at this point i could let this lyric slide- bit then she had to mention the charlie puth and golden retriever thing and ngl it almost ruins the song entirely for me. Tbh when i first listened to the leak i thought this was a fake AI song and that i was sending around a fake leak bc these lyrics started to get a little weird to me. ‘Sometimes i wonder if youre gonna screw this up with me/ but you told lucy you’d kill yourself if i ever leave” …………girl i am begging you to see a therapist (side note did anyone else have a friend in hs whos bf would say that shit a lot?? I remember straight up fighting with a friend who refused to break up w her bf bc he would threaten to end his own life is she did and he was like 16? If an adult is saying that same shit i would be Very concerned not gossiping about it???) “i chose this cyclone with you” my first reaction was: ride the cyclone the musical? Overall i liked the first half but you lost me at charlie puth (hes the one with eyebrow right? I think i get him and miles teller mixed up) (i dont know who either of these men are)

3. My boy only breaks his favorite things:

Okay tbh i thought this was gonna be one of my least favorites, but the total opposite happened. I think this is one of my top 5 favorites on this album. I do think that there is a difference between a poem and a song and that they are not always interchangeable. I feel like if this was edited into a poem it would be KILLER. The visuals, the the story, the vocabulary, the sadness in it. “Im queen of sandcastles he destroys/ There was danger in the heat of my touch/ once i fix me/ hes gonna miss me/ i felt more when we played pretend then with all the kens / cause he took me out of my box” i feel like ever since folklore, taylors been trying to push these big fancy words and sometimes it feels awkward and forced, but this is one of the rare songs that doesn't suffer from that.

4. Down bad:

meh. Chorus is catchy. I dont love the narrative “fuck it if i cant have him/ i might just it would make no difference” but i also have never once experienced that over a person before lmao……….taylor go to therapy. Nothing really stands out about this to me otherwise. No offense, but it sounds like a generic jack antonoff song lol. Like maybe if another artist released this, i would enjoy it more but idk i wouldnt expect it from taylor i guess. Just kinda feels boring to me sorry if u enjoy it <3

5. So long, london:

oh man were done with british men now for real for real. “ two graves one gun. I'll find someone” its over for joe and matty (but thats fine if all she has to say about joe is what i think she said on this album i am happy i think We Get It…) Aaron dessner i love u (remember when he reposted me on his ig ahh).”i kept calm and carried the weight of the rift/ pulled him in tighter each time he was drifting away” + “I stopped trying to make him laugh/ stopped trying to drill the safe/ i didnt opt in to be our odd man out/ im pissed off you let me give you all of that youth for free�� oof i FELT that one a LITTLE too hard. I think this is both a song about matty and joe- i think she had a life and an attachment to london just in general through both relationships, “im just mad as hell because i loved this place” and so reflecting back on how both are over and how all those plans with either are done. “You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days” OKAY kinda hate this phrase bc it feels like shes placing blame on whomever’s mental health/ depression, like as if they made the conscious decision to sacrifice the relationship solely. This very much feels like “how much sadness did you think i could take before i got bored???” overall top favorite songs bc it doesnt have too many cringey or odd lyrics and the production is 10/10 thank u aaron dessner ilysm king

6. But daddy i love him:

tbh when i got the leak this was the first song i listened to bc i thought it was gonna be the worst one and i wanted to get it over with (i was RIGHT until she dropped that second half……..) and i DIDNT have the lyrics obviously so i couldnt for the life of me figure out if she really said “im having his baby…..NO IM NOT!” until the VERY end of the song and bro…….the cringe. The cringe. The cringe. This is also when i started to question if this was real or if i was passing out a fake leak, lol. I dont understand how she could be saying this shit about matty. And like we all know it lol. “Sometimes growing up precocious sometimes means not growing up at all” …….but like does it??? I feel like thats kinda an oxymoron or something like i understand what shes trying to say and MOST of the time her metaphors and comparisons make sense to me but like this one doesnt. Growing up precocious means to grow up more advanced in maturity, how would that also mean not growing up at all? Is it just me getting stoned and overthinking things? “Ill tell you something about my good name/ its mine alone to disgrace” true that bestie ur doin a great job by being so politically quiet over the past couple of yeats after making a whole asss documentary about wanting to be on the right side of history. But I digress i am just one of those bitches performing soliloquies you'll never see. Overall this song is very weird and cringey imo and i wish it stayed in whatever vault it was sitting in lol.

7.Fresh out of the slammer: “In the shade of how he was feeling” -_- dont like this narrative already. I could honestly go on a rant about why i dont like this song but im going to spare for the sake of my sanity in this review of thirty one fucking songs but its along these lines “to the one who says im the girl of his american dreams” oh brother. otherwise i dont care for many of the lyrics, the chorus/ melody/vibe is mid i guess. It sounds like another jack song (i was right)

8. Florida!!!: “all my friends smell like weed or little babies” okay i know what she was trying to say but im SORRY you cant tell me she couldnt think of ANY other way to say her friends are either parents partiers lmao. Deserves jail for that but luckily the vibe and the chorus of the song are really catchy and florence’s voice is beautiful in it. “Well me and my ghost we had a hell of a time/ yes im haunted but im feeling just fine” CHILLS i loved it. I didnt think i would like this song but (maybe as much as i like no body, no crime which is meh) but no i lowkey love this song and think its really fun. Once again the drug references start to get heavy here in the album and like i mentioned i do get slightly triggered by drug mentions.

9. Guilty as sin?:

okay taylor we get it you masterbate. Another strong jack song and it’s pretty similar to others on the album so nothing besides the sexual lyrics stand out.

10. Whos afraid of little old me?:

“if you wanted me dead you should have just said/ nothing makes me feel more alive” ooooooooooh i love that. I feel like a live or an acoustic version of this song would give me CHILLS. “Is it a wonder i broke / lets hear one more joke/ then we can all laugh until i cry” honestly so relatable, “i was tame, i was gentle til the circus life made me mean” oh :( that hurt bc it just reminds me of the vibe shift during midnights era/ eras tour where it *feels* like she started to pull back from being taylor swift and started to become Taylor Swift (™) and the way her fans/ media has treated her made her mean or cold or something and that just makes me feel sad. “Whos afraid of little old me? You caged me and then you called me crazy! I am what i am cause you trained me! SO. WHOS. AFRAID. OF ME? Again the narcotics line kinda makes me feel icky but thats bc i have that thing about drugs and just dont LOVE all the references to them. Like i know its not that serious but theres a reason why i dont seek out artists that typically talk or write about that stuff ya know so its weird. Overall i think the production is one of the most unique ones on this part of the album.

11. I can fix him (no really i can):

i hate it all around i think. I hate the narrative of “i can fix him!! I can handle a dangerous man!!! No really i can!!!” there is a reason why this song is barely 3 mins long lol it should have been cut but i think taylor wanted to Be Edgy. i dont care for the productions or the lyrics, its very forgetful imo.

12. Loml:

okay i really thought this was gonna be a joe song (rip) so i was thinking it was gonna be really deep and sad and like it IS but with the context of it being the pt 2 fling with matty it doesnt seem like it now. Anyone who thinks this is not about matty please look at the lyrics and be so serious “whos gonna stop us from waltzing back into reklndled flames/ if we know the steps anyway” I think matty just said too much shit to taylor during their fling and taylor WAS truly convinced this her invisible string and he promised her a lot that he couldnt upkeep and ghosted her and she took it SUPER hard, i mean two breakups in one year is a lot (me, whos never been through a single breakup once). I just dont understand how she feels like matty is the greatest loss of her life. One of my favorite tracks on the album, “our field of dreams engulfed in fire/ your arsons match your somber eyes” a LOT of these lyrics are actually really good imo. I think im the only one that didnt find the “mr. steal your girl and make her cry” line idk i thought it was actually kinda neat, the phrasing of it, kinda contradicts the title “love of my life” because he was never that serious or respectful of her and only use her from the beginning. This is another song that i think would make KILLER poem over song. Overall i think the piano is haunting and a live version of this will make me die, thank u again aaron dessner 10/10

13. I can do it with a broken heart:

ngl i thought this was the opening to mastermind for a hot second- also gave me a scare on whether or not this was a fake leak lol. Catchy ass chorus but very YOYOK. “Breaking down i hit the floor/ All the pieces of me shattered/ as the crowd was shouting “more!” ooffffffff seeeeee that is exactly WHAT i was afraid she was feeling durning the eras tour after the joe breakup/ matty situation and all these stupid twitter and tik tok swiffers were out here overanalyzing EVERYTHING and demanding rep tv like every other day. “Im so depressed i act like its my birthday” …….okay taylor. Like a lot of people have said, i think she interchanges “depressed” for “sad” a lot and the two are not the same. I think taylor wrote this song (but specifically the “i cry a lot time but i am so productive” and was like “yup this part is gonna go viral on tik tok,” initially i wrote “feels like taylor saw that depression barbie commercial in barbie 2023 and wrote a song based on that” lol which i still agree with. Overall the production of this screams midnights reject lol, very jack antonoff. Over time this song has grown on me a lot. Originally i didnt care for it but now its kind of a bop but i think its bc its so similar to YOYOK. “Try and come for my job” @taylorswift deadass you couldn’t think of anything else to say instead. cmon. I was mostly on board until that very last part, just seemed very cheesy lol like its not a big deal but i thought it delivered well without it.

14. The smallest man who ever lived:

(aaron thank u for saving me and this entire album) “they just ghosted you/ now you know what it feels like” OUCH. “i dont even want you back i just want you to know/ if rusting my sparkling was the goal/ and i dont miss what we had but can someone give/ a message to the smallest man who ever lived” oh this was somber af. I am obsessed with the phrasing of the chorus. I also LOVE taylors deeper voice its def giving me the same feelings MTR gave me from folklore, that made me CRY and this was very similar. This is another classic taylor song that i could EASILY write like a ten page essay about if someone put a gun to my head. I know that its about a *romantic* relationship, but it feels general enough to be able to relate to anyone who is close to someone with an addiction or struggles with substances. A lot of addicts dont understand the impact of their addiction or their behaviors that they display while struggling. To meeeeee, this feels very much like “you were self centered and betrayed my trust, was any of this true? Real? Am i paranoid or is this that deep?” “it wasnt sexy once it wasnt forbidden” has me thinking lots of things. I think that describes taylors “type”if that makes sense? Like i said i would need to literally break this song down line by line like its ridiculous i have too many thoughts about this song i have listened to it on repeat six times by the time im typing this. “In public showed me off/ then sank in stoned oblivion” FUCK. “you treat her like an also-ran” honestly i have never heard of that phrase/word thank u dr. swift. “Were you sent by someone who wanted me DEAD/ did you sleep with a GUN underneath OUR BED/ were you writing a BOOK?/ were you a sleeper cell SPY? IN 5O YEARS WILL THIS BE ALL DECLASSIFIED?/ AND YOU’LL CONFESS WHY YOU DID IT!/ AND ILL SAY GOOD RIDDANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” tears were formed besties. Also love the gracie abrams reference. “And you deserve prison but you wont get time” i feel like is very metaphorical like you DESERVE to be punished for what you did to me but you won’t admit to the guilt, you wont admit your wrongdoings, you wont admit that i would have done anything for you and you have no problem replacing me. “You said normal girls were boring/ but you were gone by the morning” first of all red flag girlie, nonetheless heartbreaking. “And in plain sight you hid/ but you are what you did” i say this with all the love in my heart, someone take taylor swift to a really good really private therapist. I could say more but i think i need to move on because i am now on my eighth cyle of listening to this song.

15. The alchemy:

already kinda hate it. “What if i told you im back/ the hospital was a drag/ worst sleep i ever had” do you think taylor swift has ever been admitted to a real hospital in this context. Feels very out of place and like i said earlier i dont love the psych ward visuals/ references she keeps inserting in this album. “He jokes its heroin but this time with an e” thanks! I fucking hate that line so much. Feels very icky, not funny. I get what shes going for but it falls so flat for me. The football references (yall know my opinion on meathead!!!!!!!! I will not engage!!!) are fucking dumb. Production is kinda lame and uninterested. Will only listen to this song if by force and will not repeat it ive head enough lets move on.

i have Lots Of Thoughts. i don’t think anyone cares about what i have to say though so i don’t think i’ll bother posting the rest lol but i did do a lot of work so ill post just a bit to make myself feel better.

[puffpastrycrimewatch]

Mirame

Omg this took so long, I hope you guys like my world and want to see more it, I did doodles of all the gods so you have a visual of them, lol let me know who's your favorite and why

So, in my story Mirame the world is high fantasy

let's start with the a little bit about the world then gods we'll go over the races in a different post

The world

For now we're calling this world Mirame (Spanish for look at me)

Mirame has floating islands kept up by waves of magic left behind from dead gods, hollow mountains, magic that flows through almost anything, different planes of existence such as Gahenna (hell) that can be passed through with the right amount of magic, demons, fairies, bug people and much more!

The world is entering a Renaissance when the story starts, technology has just begun, there are magic trains and cars.

I'll go more into the depths in a separate posts in the future

GODS

The gods have different jobs to keep mortals alive and the plane of existence from falling, even if they don't want to, they don't all get along with each other, they're at each other's throats in the present

Brugmansia

(concept art, still feeling out her design)

The weaver of life, she's quite narcissistic and looks down on mortals, she has a son called tentsosra, she cares deeply for him, she also has a right hand man, he's more rude than brugmansia.

Brugmansia created a race called Erklings, she created them in her own image, she has very high standards for them and if they don't meet them there are consequences.

Mortals always hunt down her creations as trophies or for rituals, in order to stop humanity from touching her beautiful creations (creatures and plants) she created monsters that solely attack mortals, such as sirens, forest guardians, trolls, etc.

Brugmansia often kills mortals in the most brutal ways possible, to teach them a lesson.

brugmansia is very injured at the start of the story due to Satra attacking her with a new disease, at the start of the story brugmansia is at her weakest and most vulnerable.

Tentsosra

(concept art)

God of the elements, born from a seed brugmansia found and watered with her tears tentsosra was born, treated like a son making him loyal to Brugmansia willing to risk his life to protect her

He is kinder than his mother and more curious by nature

Tentsosra created a race of people called Obi that can change from human to animal, however they have been hunted to extinction at least that's what most think, barely anybody knows of their existence

Known for hunting mortals on Brugmansia's behalf

Tentsosra is worshiped by huntsman seeking a bountiful hunt as well as protection from brugmansia's creations.

Katabasis

(Since I already did a post about katabasis I'll just dig a little deeper into them and where and what their domain is)

God of the afterlife, they control what happens to your soul, Katabasis has direct connections to Gahenna (hell) and is in charge of keeping the peace with them, as an all out war for the mortal plane can spell out disaster.

Katabasis fascination with mortals is quite disturbing, Katabasis used to torture souls or treat them kindly to see their reactions, like tearing a bugs legs off

Some see katabasis as a bad omen, others celebrate Katabasis hailing them as the greatest god of all

Katabasis domain is on the edge of life and death, they have subjects called psychopomps, they help Katabasis with sorting and escorting souls, unfortunately some souls are rebellious and still have fight in them transforming them into undead creatures, often distorted beyond recognition, they're often dealt with by Amelia Vilheart.

Satra Nosferatu

(concept art, I'm still redesigning her lol)

God of gluttony, disease, and cannibalism. Satra loves the taste of Ko'nari flesh specifically, but she's not picky she'll eat any mortal she can get her hands on. Satra hates brugmansia with a passion, they have fought countless times, however recently Satra had lost but left brugmansia deeply injured, she had slinked into the earth, recovering and waiting to attack any moment.

Satra is very childish, but also surprisingly smart in tactics, she used to be Brugmansia's ORIGINAL creation, staying by Brugmansia's side like her daughter until Brugmansia saw Satra devouring one of her creations that's when brugmansia banished and disowned her.

Satra has minions called nymes, they usually dig through the head of someone and drag their body for Satra to consume, they also grave rob, but there are ways to ward them off, by calling on your God to protect your loved ones graves of begging on your hands and knees fod satra to desecrate your loved ones corpse.

Moshi Yama

(concept art, I also need to redesign her, also yeah your eyes bleeding is supposed to happen-☠️)

Goddess of parties and lust but she used to be the god of prosperity, she was worshiped by the fairies, they loved her but ever since the incident they despise her and call her a disgrace to the gods.

Moshi Yama has the ability to bend and warp reality, some think it's just illusions though, it's like being on acid

she was born from the legendary gods Malachite and Parhassus, they died from their love for each other and decided to give birth to Moshi Yama and Amato Yama causing them to perish in a beautiful and tragic display of their love, Moshi Yama and Amato Yama were mischievous when they were younger causing the other gods problems

fast forward Amato Yama had betrayed Moshi Yama attacking her worshipers city at that moment Moshi Yama had given up and decided to lay low and have sex with many mortals searching for something, until one day she noticed great potential in one of Amato Yamas generals, a possible new god

Amato Yama

(still designing ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ)

God of war but he used to be the god of trickery

as you know he is the twin of Moshi Yama, he hated this fact, he felt like he was her shadow, constantly overlooked, until one day he decided he would rise up, so he ordered his worshipers to attack Moshi Yamas "pawns" and so began his empire

he grew a nation and ruled it himself, which is blasphemous for gods, they're not supposed to interfere to that extent, so when Neiths husband went to stop him Amato Yama was furious and so they fought and unfortunately Amato Yama won, feeling the rush of victory and the hatred of the gods he decided he would kill all the gods until he was left

Neith

Goddess of the sun and knowledge, she has a daughter named Mao, her husband unfortunately died by Amato Yamas hands.

She's about 10 feet tal and has been alive throughout creations of mortals, her godly form is said to be as big a 4 mountains by her followers.

Neith covers herself head to toe to conceal herself as she grieves her husband's death, nobody remembers how she looks, it's been lost to time, she has a horn that can be pulled out to reveal a spear, she never uses it unless the situation is dire, she often avoids confrontation.

Her followers are very secretive, and share knowledge with Neith

Mao (also known as the Phoenix)

The god of freedom and flames, she's only been around for 8 hundred years but it seems she already has a whole city devoted to her.

She has a horn like her mother that can be pulled out to reveal to be a javelin

Mao has left her mother's side and is now trying to inspire the mortals of the world and to help them just like her father, however she doesn't know what it's like to be mortal so sometimes she makes bad decisions and causes troubles for her worshipers.

Mao was born with the ability to control flames to the extent that she can cause it to not hurt but heal somebody, the same as her father.

Mao feels like she must prove herself worthy to be known as the daughter of one of the greatest gods to exist

Castile

(concept art)

God of the moon and entropy

She's a child, and possibly from the plane of Gahenna

She is afraid of becoming a monster and destroying everyone as prophecied

As she grows older the more stronger and uncontrollable she becomes, her body grows more and more with devilish features, she does not know her parents all's shes known is a giant empty castle and her ghostly caretaker Cerberus.

When the story begins Castile has herself in a deep slumber so she would not harm, using her astral protection to help her followers

Castile loves her followers as they love her, she does not care for what they do or harm she is just so greatful to be herself again.

The consequences of her power include uncontrollable hunger, heightened ability to hear, increased strength, sharp nails, increased magical abilities and new spells, and if consumed enough a full vampirism transformation in which you can either lose yourself to the monster inside and only watch through empty lenses or gain full control with ultimate power and intellect, which is very rare the average is lost self.

The one major problem with castile is she doesn't know how to help mortals as a God and ends up making lives more worse and those around them but she sees her meedling as helpful, castile didn't even know she was God until she slumbered

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Holy shit, you get all of that? (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠)

[prismsofmystery]

Harbertine Peachman HC's

One of my only other TNMN GB OC's that I've kept for some time is Harbertine Peachman. The twin sister of Robertine.

These were supposed to be released with the Abby Kadabbi HC's but I guess I'm a whole month late teehee.

To start off Harbertine just goes by She/Her and is just a mere mortal. Nothing really surprising there.

She's semi mute, so she'll only talk if she ABSOLUTELY has to, which to be fair is almost never. The doorman (Helga) has already associated her with silence so any version of her that speaks will be terminated, making her job all the more easier.

She's definitely a big back, but isn't able to eat as much as Abby. She can eat a full large pizza by herself though.

Has been mistaken for Robertine by other neighbors countless times, especially Elois for the first few months. She at first wore a darker blue/purple bow to kind of signify that she was a different person but Elois thought Robertine was just changing up her style (bless him.) It wasn't until Harbertine got a 'H' pin on her dress and Elois saw her and Robertine in unison walking to their apartment that he realized he fucked up and apologized, though Harbertine wasn't really bothered by it.

She was more concerned that he wasn't getting his words to her sister, who really needed to hear them.

Harbertine, whenever she does leave the apartment, has a habit of wandering off and being gone for hours, either obtaining a meal or seeing something she likes. She gets torn a new one by Albertine every time for it but can't help it.

She does feel slightly resentful towards her sisters, I mean they're closer to each other than they are to her and she doesn't quite yet understand why that is...It's just not fair to her at all but she doesn't know what to do about it.

She secretly enjoys doing arts and crafts, it calms her. She occasionally goes upstairs to Martin's place and helps him sow up some things sometimes.

She's aroace, I just genuinely can't see her being involved with someone romantically let alone sexually.

She's the neighbor who asks for fucking McDonald's the moment she sees the golden arches.

She's the neighbor who can make you a quick snack.

She's the neighbor who leaves you on read at 3:18 before finally replying with "why would you subject yourself to such torture"

Her hand writing is very loopy and pretty.

Here's her relationship with some of her neighbors

Romana - They see eye to eye on a lot of things but don't talk much.

Louis - She likes his cookies and happy-go-lucky attitude a lot, but doesn't have the heart to tell him. He enjoys having her over due to the peace (silence) she brings.

Albertine - Secretly fears Albertine but would never say that out loud. Albertine kind of has to keep an eye on her because of the type of shit she's capable of. They do love each other very much, though.

Robertine - She's very close with Robertine but her hesitance to speak makes getting closer really difficult.

Elois - Finds him nice and slightly more tolerable than his brother. Though it's mostly awkward considering he was accidentally courting her half of the time.

Sylvestre - She doesn't hate him per se but definitely doesn't like him either. His arrogant attitude would make her uncomfortable and inferior to him, not to mention he's the only neighbor capable of making Albertine scream so damn loud..which she doesn't like. (she knows it's not his fault and Albertine is just like that sometimes but still)

Agnes - Agnes is an opp on all fronts. Agnes has tried to smooch her when hammered, which Harbertine just sat there and took, not knowing what the hell to do. The way Agnes speaks about her profession does NOT make it any better.

2nd Floor

Glenn - Not sure.

Arlene - Finds Arlene's enthusiasm adorable and secretly loves when Arlene starts lore dropping.

Nacho - She would come over to FEAST. She doesn't give a damn what the hell that man is saying as long as there is food on the table (jk) she enjoys his cooking and his humbleness.

Anatolii - They have a mutual vow of silence that is only broken when something truly outrageous happens.

Martin - He's probably the only person she'd speak to verbally so he doesn't feel like it's because of his deviated eye that she stays silent. They'd both sow and craft while gossiping.

Izabelle - She gets all the juicy gossip from Izabelle, either because she's the only one who listens or Izabelle doesn't register her presence when she starts rambling.

Floor 3

Raffael - They have this weird mutual agreement that they're like father and daughter.

Ann - She has to resist the urge to feel this woman's no doubt very squishy face. She adores Ann so much she'd give up her life for Ann. Ann enjoys her company too and they have tea together (which Harbertine usually crushes the moment the cup is handed to her)

Frances - Intense blinking matches/staring contests before heading to their respective apartments.

McKendra - Come on. Her and Abby are spawning into that place the moment they smell apple pie. She does enjoy hearing McKendra talk in her southern accent.

Stephanie - Not sure.

Michael - She finds his puns slightly amusing. Only slightly.

Wilma - She fears this woman so much it's actually crazy.

Abby - They're like partners in crime. The moment there is food involved, at least. Abby can speak SL and they usually talk that way. (they also commit other heinous crimes like tax evasion)

(Bonus) Chelsea - The type of shit Chelsea says actually leave her up at night either with nightmares or shower thoughts.

[chasm-connected]

tagged by @beyondthetemples-ooc!

The rules are simple - find a sentence, or excerpt, that includes the words you’re given and paste it in, and include a link to the finished story if you want. But honestly, these are guidelines at best - do what you want.

My words to find:

Fly, Green, Independent, Fixated, Magical, Incoherent, Copy, Mental, Fire, Glowing

I’m tagging: uhhh i think everyone i know who would do this has already been tagged, please feel free to do this if you want

Your words are:

-Egg -Epiphany -Pastry -Hot -Rock -Fox -Feather -Bullet -Child -Bake

Synonyms allowed if these are strange, I don't know what I'm doing, let's a-go

LMAO I THINK ALL OF THESE ARE KETUCARI LETS GOOOO

i cheated and some of these are short blurbs that came along with an image but i made sure that i was picking ones that were a few paragraphs long at least.

Fly: Royale was watching the sky herself now. "Keep looking up at them. Soon you might feel... a pull. Let it take you up."

Royale began floating, a golden light covering her. [Airborne]

"fly" itself was in this one but this part was more interesting.

Green: I apparently have not mentioned the word green in years and using types of plants as a synonym feels like cheating.

Independent: sorry, can't find this one

Fixated: "Focus here, child," Ante spoke. An army of Deads raised their head in the space beyond space, but the cub couldn't lift his physical head by his own will. "You're safe here. Blink twice if you can hear me." [i'd encourage your smiles, i expect you won't cry]

this one is in the middle of a storyline, content warning for heavy subjects but mostly child abuse if you read that whole storyline

Magical: Riley padded forward, looking into the case. An electric violin sat there, clear and shining. Riley picked it up and the bow with it and laid back, turning it over in their fingers. They never learned proper magic, both to the chagrin and relief of their captors, and had to fight their way out with bare fists, teeth and claw. They tried to draw from some source within themself, and... nothing.

Leslie looked on, expecting.

Riley sighed, a rumble in their throat and rosin freshly on their bow. [i don't know if this one is about me or the devil]

Incoherent: I don't think I've used the word, exactly, but the word incoherent describes a good chunk of this specific lit so I'm linking it. TW for torture and mention of culling dragon children. [this ain't a noose, this is a leash]

Copy: I REALLY WISH THIS CAME UP LATER IN THE MONTH BECAUSE UH. I'M GOING TO BE DOING AN ART PIECE WITH SHADOW COPIES LMAO. IT'S PROBABLY GOING TO HAVE A LIT ACCOMPANIMENT. I can't find this in my recent/last couple of years of work though.

Mental: “He’s Talik,” Viral’s voice was a low song, so deep in his ear that it was in his head. “He gets control of your mind and makes you bet. Why do you think we keep coming back? Take him on and I’ll halve your price.”

“You’re not as quiet as you think,” Ante’s voice echoed, and the two scattered. [sell your fortune to me],

Fire: “Oh, shit,” Twe’s back arched, alarmed, and he scrambled to take off his mask. “No, you - you see, you’ve got it wrong. It’s just theatre, Your Glory. Cin’s been drenched in a chemical, she wouldn’t burn.”

“Just the forest,” Evermore averted her gaze. Kandriya could take it, but the idea of an intentional forest fire in a zone that burned so easily weighed heavily on her. [when the wine drinks itself]

Fire was in almost every piece I tried to find things in, i had to pick something Interesting

Glowing: The creature was short and stout, covered in spines and horns. They were the color of metalworking, glowing in parts like the fire of the profession itself. [what's up ghosts]

[thevoicefromanotherworld]

"BE A GOOD GIRL FOR ME"

(I'm so inspired to write rn that my fingers tingle ngl)

Art classes with Logan were the most boring of all. It's not that he was bad at them, on the contrary, they tried hard to make them as entertaining as possible, it's just that he didn't do it, so they became a kind of torture that you couldn't escape from.

He was explaining the requirements that a painting had to meet to be considered good, when you felt a familiar sensation in your mind, a pleasant warmth that began to spread in your frontal lobe.

"Charles?" -you murmured without moving your lips- "What's wrong, is everything okay?"

"Everything is going great, beautiful" -he confirmed making you smile slightly- "I hope I didn't interrupt you"

"No, I'm in art class" -you announced- "Logan really tries hard to make us interested in the subject but it's too boring, really" -you complained- "he's not the problem" -you paused- "Why did you call me?"

"I should ask you that," he said, making you frown, not knowing what he meant.

"What do you mean?" you asked, lightly levitating your pen in the palm of your hand in an absent-minded manner.

"Oh, you know perfectly well," he murmured, his voice getting lower and lower. "You were thinking about me," he said, making you cross your legs, trying to put pressure on your bundle of nerves. "There's no point in denying it, I know it's like that," he whispered, making it almost seem like he was there, next to you. "Why did you cross your legs if not?"

"Shit, Charles, you can't do this to me," you complained, feeling your excitement spread through your body in intense waves.

"That mouth," he scolded you. "Did I teach you to talk like that?"

"No" - you murmured, you couldn't see him, but you felt him nod-

"Fine" - he whispered- "Now be a good girl for me and pay attention to class, mhm?" - he murmured, you nodded- "I'll take care of you later"

He left your mind as quickly as he had entered, causing a moment of instability that made the pen you were levitating fall to the floor with a clink. Logan turned to look at you, as did some of his classmates.

"Hey kid" he called- "You okay?"

"Yes" you answered blushing due to nerves- sorry

He shook his head letting you know that nothing was wrong, before turning back to the board.

You growled under your breath, before starting to write down what Professor Howlett was writing, while trying to forget Charles' masculine voice invading your mind.

It was impossible to concentrate like that.

[hannahsmusings]

Jackson

*Jackson was pointedly looking out the tinted windows, his phone clasped so tightly in his hands that his knuckles were nearly white, his knee was bouncing anxiously since his body was filled with so much of this awful energy that he didn’t know how to get rid of, wanting to run a marathon right now just to tire himself out physically, his body feeling so awake and alert and his mind feeling sluggish and hazy* *your scent fills up the backseat and he almost tries to not breathe, not wanting any of that lingering in his nostrils once you were gone again, not wanting to be able to torture himself with the memory of you anymore, this whole night was already too fucking painful and he knew he would think about your dress and how bloody perfect you looked tonight for days and weeks to come, he didn’t need your scent adding to the memory* *as the car started driving and you were silent, Jackson let his body relax just a bit, his hand not squeezing his phone nearly to the point of breaking it and he was taking shallow breaths of air, getting into that comfort zone of a silent car ride, his eyes still fixed on the widow even though he could see nearly nothing since the window was dark and it was night time* *he tenses up immediately as soon as he could feel your body angling towards him, your attention and eyes on him and his heart was pounding so hard it was threatening to break out of his body and get the fuck out of this car, his ears and head pounding with anxiety, his eyes moving from the window to forward, but still refusing to look at you, getting ready to be on the defense, preparing for you to blame him, preparing for you to quit right here right now and claim that it was all his fault, you were happy with your boyfriend and you were going to pursue art, being his assistant was causing you personal issues and you needed to leave your post immediately* *he looks over at you ever so quickly, feeling like he was going to be sick and quickly averting his eyes and looking down at his phone instead* What? *his voice was low and hoarse, it sounding just as strained as he was currently feeling, swiping his phone unlocked and aimlessly going through his emails, furrowing his brows as he read over subject titles he had already read, wanting to look busy in this moment for some reason, it being the only defense mechanism he had right now*

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*you were doing a good job of hiding how tense you were but I could see it because I’d learned to look, the slightly raised vein in your neck, the sharpness of your eyes, the bounce in your knee and the clenched jaw, I noticed everything about you now, I couldn’t help but look, having always wanted to just understand you* *your voice sounded strained and you weren’t looking at me, feeling frustrated by your phone for a second as I felt you were being dismissive and I needed your attention* *glances at Martin in his rearview and sees he looks away in the hope of giving us some privacy, looking back at you and frowning a little* Please, this is important. *my hands were trembling with nerves, not sure how you’d take this as I clasp them in my lap and fiddle with my fingers, biting my lip gently but you still don’t look at me* Jackson, look at me. Please...*my voice was quiet but clear, I was begging for your attention so I could get this out, watching as you reluctantly look up from your phone at me and suddenly having your eyes on me, void of any warmth, made this so much harder* I-I want to explain..*whispers, struggling with my words now* I mean, I want to explain about everything this week, and why I left and why I didn’t get in contact..*pauses as I take a small breath* But I think explaining would be justifying and I don’t want to do that.*pauses as I close my eyes for a second* I-I just need to say I’m sorry...*glances away nervously as I take a breath, looking back at you to gauge your reaction but when I couldn’t I just keep talking* I’m so fucking sorry. Shit, I didn’t want to swear. Bugger.*covers my mouth with my hand as my cheeks flame, shaking my head a little in embarrassment as I look back into your eyes* I’m messing this up and I so wanted it to be perfect as I know I’ve hurt you and I am sorry. I’m sorry for just disappearing and leaving you to it, I’m sorry I didn’t call you. I’m sorry I said that I’d always be there for you and I wasn’t. *my voice was thick with emotion, having to clench my hands in my lap to prevent myself from reaching for you, looking down for a second before I look up at you through my lashes, eyes a little glassy with how much I felt this* Jackson, I’m really sorry.... 

[sadistic-softie]

Personality/biography post idk. I got extremely bored.

My personality as a fictional character kinning playlist and some others:

INTJ-T (16 personalities. I retake the test often)

Fav colors:

Chartreuse green

Any green

Red

Purple + violet

Indigo

Silver

Fav music genres:

Disco + future funk

Breakbeat genres

EDM genres

Rock genres

Metal

Rave

A lot of weird shit I can't place a genre on

Experimental electronic music

Videogame OSTs

Funky mental shit:

Anxiety/depression combo, OCD, dermatillomania, occasional severe dissociation, AvPD, CPTSD+hypersexuality, substance use shit but it's mild stuff like sugar and cough drops and mouthwash strips idk why but keep me away from the stash, raised by YouTube YTPs, creepypasta, and vine compilations.

Severe tornado phobia+nuclear war phobia? Idk why, bear phobia (not unreasonable IMO), silence phobia, mild agoraphobia, defensive to a fault, extremely repressed anger, Mommy issues/child of divorce/dead parental figure cliche, friendless lmao, scared of friendship and love, doomed by insecurities to eternal and excessive introspection? And probably some other shit.

Pride:

AFAB, Pansexual, omniflux (Romantic), demiromantic, polyamorous, genderfluid

All pronoun sets:

She/her, he/him, they/them, she/they, he/they, she/he/they, (any/I don't care).

Weird hobbies/fixations I've had forever:

Autocannibalism/cannibalism

Bugs/insects/bug-like creatures

Character creation/design/OCs

MLP

Blood

Bondage/pretending to be stuck on purpose because the struggle is fun????(Idk I was a weird kid)

Fictional torture

MUSIC ALL THE TIME

Legal system and criminal justice

Mysteries and thrillers (media)

Mediocre/shitty videogames

FNaF 😭

Artsy shit idk

Generic thick silver chains

The idea of prison dungeons

Human sized cages

Medieval castles/houses/armor (real + fantasy)

Fire + candles

LPS

The background art in almost any LPS media

Swingset for hours as coping mechanism

Hospitals/doctors/medical settings

Random:

I like how blood tastes and I think it's hot

I have a huge collection of figurines and plushies

JJBA genuinely changed me as a person

Saw2004 is my new comfort movie (and it came out on my birth year!) I've watched it probably way more than ten times now

I go crazy for certain pasta and seafood dishes

I enjoy binge eating grapes and sunflower kernels

On rare occasions, I have manic episodes of ??? that scare my family and myself

I've been through quite a few things I'm surprised I survived

My voice can only really sound masculine when I'm singing a certain way

My fear responses are typically flight or faun (or vomit)

I've never broken or fractured a bone

My childhood song was Walk by Pantera

Like Star Trek, dislike Starwars

School subjects: best at english, worst at history

I feel more like a fictional character than a real person at all times (and definitely not the main character)

Also, I'm a fury (don't jump to conclusions)

Also I'm a sadist (don't jump to conclusions)

Also I tried to make a list of all my kinks once and it filled two whole pages and it was not done but I gave up.

Main kinks: piss, hands, bondage, sadomasochism, humiliation, medical/doctor, praise, degradation, bandages/casts/injury treatment.

Also I weigh 210 lbs lmao

Hyperhydrosis and asthma team up to kick my ass all summer long and also other times I guess

I had a lot of fun making this tbh

I had fun making this little Google slides thingy:

Credits:

https://www.amazon.com/HZMAN-Adults-Faux-Leather-Guards/dp/B08NX1FCYC

https://www.amazon.com/Short-Sleeve-T-shirt-Pocket-Color/dp/B004SWKZKQ

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0C9BLC8C1/ref=twister_B0B68SHQSD?_encoding=UTF8&psc=1

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https://www.quiksilver.lu/renegade-military-cap-for-men-AQYHA03575.html

https://www.target.com/c/jackets-coats-men-s-clothing/overcoats/-/N-5xu2aZjasm7

https://www.etsy.com/listing/858883486/antique-style-key-earrings-pewter-tone?gpla=1&gao=1&&utm_source=google&utm_medium=cpc&utm_campaign=shopping_us_e-jewelry-earrings-dangle_earrings&utm_custom1=_k_CjwKCAjw8diwBhAbEiwA7i_sJSItCXP0JBlqI0wBEKJYGk5-ZRsRp1pWHPMIQSSYFX9_c9Afr1NZ9BoCoJkQAvD_BwE_k_&utm_content=go_1730355986_69478005242_337579321560_aud-2079782229334:pla-354749636391_c__858883486_450713716&utm_custom2=1730355986&gad_source=1&gclid=CjwKCAjw8diwBhAbEiwA7i_sJSItCXP0JBlqI0wBEKJYGk5-ZRsRp1pWHPMIQSSYFX9_c9Afr1NZ9BoCoJkQAvD_BwE

https://thursdayboots.com/products/mens-vanguard-burnt-copper-made-in-usa?utm_source=google&utm_medium=g&utm_campaign=962342135&utm_content=240236334646&nbt=nb%3Aadwords%3Ag%3A962342135%3A49104084414%3A240236334646&nb_adtype=pla&nb_kwd=&nb_ti=pla-395290287825&nb_mi=102426604&nb_pc=online&nb_pi=1456278405129-1&nb_ppi=395290287825&nb_placement=&nb_li_ms=&nb_lp_ms=&nb_fii=&nb_ap=&nb_mt=&gad_source=1

https://kingbabystudio.com/products/large-handcuff-1

https://www.cowinaudio.com/products/cowin-e7-noise-cancelling-headphone?currency=USD&variant=8261733842995&utm_medium=cpc&utm_source=google&utm_campaign=Google%20Shopping&stkn=da3f463283b8&gad_source=1&gclid=CjwKCAjw8diwBhAbEiwA7i_sJTfTTT5104yE69u9lk_LFZ6EB8rChTW-sM_SWl2W8Z2jhljeMMzyIhoC_QMQAvD_BwE

https://poshmark.com/listing/Vintage-Lime-Green-High-Waisted-Dress-Pants-Straight-Leg-Slacks-KASPER-Size-4-640f4e04964bd1013773177c

https://www.google.com/search?q=purple+dress+shirt+short+sleve&sca_esv=383ef31e719fe62f&sca_upv=1&rlz=1C1VDKB_enUS1037US1037&udm=2&biw=1536&bih=695&sxsrf=ACQVn08O7m_YSWYTDmB6eJYdN9AoITyxXQ%3A1712767859261&ei=c8MWZqi6D_GA5OMPibe80AY&ved=0ahUKEwjov9W-jbiFAxVxAHkGHYkbD2oQ4dUDCBA&uact=5&oq=purple+dress+shirt+short+sleve&gs_lp=Egxnd3Mtd2l6LXNlcnAiHnB1cnBsZSBkcmVzcyBzaGlydCBzaG9ydCBzbGV2ZUizalAAWOdmcAh4AJABAJgBjgGgAaUWqgEEMzEuNLgBA8gBAPgBAZgCJaACvBSoAgrCAgcQIxjqAhgnwgIEECMYJ8ICChAAGIAEGIoFGEPCAgsQABiABBixAxiDAcICCBAAGIAEGLEDwgIFEAAYgATCAg0QABiABBiKBRhDGLEDwgIGEAAYCBgemAMLkgcEMzQuM6AH038&sclient=gws-wiz-serp#vhid=mTHxmJZAg7h8UM&vssid=mosaic

https://www.amazon.com/JVC-Wireless-Earbud-Violet-HAFX9BTV/dp/B076F79M5Y

https://www.amazon.com/FEEL-Self-Adhesive-Elastic-Bandage-Assorted/dp/B07GWJ1KKW

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https://www.encoredataproducts.com/on-ear-headband-style/soundnetic-classroom-basic-stereo-headphones/

https://www.amazon.com/Stickers-Valentines-Self-Adhesive-Envelopes-Scrapbooking/dp/B0C84SKNK7/ref=asc_df_B0C84SKNK7/?tag=hyprod-20&linkCode=df0&hvadid=675672786953&hvpos=&hvnetw=g&hvrand=16831560872684017218&hvpone=&hvptwo=&hvqmt=&hvdev=c&hvdvcmdl=&hvlocint=&hvlocphy=9001654&hvtargid=pla-2247509997358&mcid=720b42607c4d3422ae9d22a0e05d03e1&gad_source=1&th=1

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[drottni]

LBFAD rewatch observations part 5

1. Shangque is so pure and straightforward.

2. The way DFQC immediately latches onto any explanation of XLH's behavior of saving him. When Shangque says "she had an opportunity to escape but she gave it up to save you. It shows that..." and DFQC eagerly turns to him and says "shows that?" like yesss please?!?! tell me what does this mean?!?!? someone! anyone! And then immediately rejects the idea of "she's becoming a loyal subject like me!"

3. No words for how beautifully soft that petal shower scene is. Her joy and his smile. 🥺

4. The great Dongfang Qincang and his weakness for Flower Cakes made by his wife.

5. "Damutou is more intimate" !! 🤝🏼 "You can call me whatever you want" !! 🙃🙃🙃🥺

6. Man. Dylan Wang's acting in that "high on XLH's emotions" scene was soooo goood. The tortured joy where he is laughing but you also see his frustration. The angry sadness where you can see him crying but also the rage. His shaking hands as he grabs the Jade Ring and the deep breaths to ground himself. Oof. *Chefs kisses*

7. Also can we just talk about the multiple times he has made a fool of himself in front of his advisors because of her shenanigans but like....it never impacted his reign. They just figured out logical explanations and kind of just went with it... (excluding Xunfeng ofcourse because he actually can and does question DFQC). Like his advisors must be having headaches from the whiplash of emotions he gave them ��

8. Sulking DFQC and coaxing XLH are the cutest. Ignoring her as they leave the pond illusion. The way he is shaking as he tells her she could have died if he didn't come on time and that she has to stay within his sight always. Her offering up the Destiny Book to please him. His disgruntled "oh so you fixed it right away for Changheng, I see how it is" her "ah but you know what saved me! This little inside thing that only you and I know!". And then finally him easing off and telling her "I would find you anywhere" and her teary eyed "My master who was the dearest person to me said the same thing and you...." All the little ways these two say "I love you I love you" without yet realizing that they do.

9. HIS HANDS. When she passes out and he catches her. His hands just rubbing her shoulder out of affection, concern, the need to feel she is still here alive with him. Ahh. That subtle movement 👌. (Also. Her just passing out from the exertion of her powers and maybeee from the almost realization that this menace of a king, the great Moon Supreme, might also be someone very dear to her. Like yes gurl I too would just pass out on the brink of such a realization)

10. "Are you still angry?" *cute little smile* "No" *sulk* "Yes you are" *pout*... "Damutou, I'm soooryy" *big puppy eyes* "Eat." *melted under the ray of her sunshine*. THE CUTEST BABIESS. (I love that she apologizes. Despite the fact that her intentions had never been to run but she acknowledges that she put him in a bad situation. That she sees how much this upset him and she is sorry for that.)

11. "You can't just come into my heart" 🤝🏼 "I can go wherever I want" 💀💀

12. "Why was I allowed to in the past? What's the difference now?" XLH: UHM SIR I WASN'T IN LOVE WITH YOU THEN. DO YOU MIND IM TRYNA HANDLE THESE NEW FEELINGS.

13. DFQC is such a heavy full of depth and compelling character and I just love Dylan Wang's portrayal and I just--- gahhh! *muffled screams*

14. I don't think I can express in words how much I love the scene of DFQC turning away from XLH while he weeps and then turning and collapsing into her. It is art. It is poetry. It is EVERYTHING. Dylan Wang's acting my god. The pain the sorrow the need for comfort its all so beautifully expressed on his face. XLH's tears and pain for him. The hands. Ofcourse the hands 😭😭 Also. XLH refusing to give up until she found the thorn pricking at him and pulled it out so he could heal. I love her. For seeing the pain and anger buried in him and saying "something here is not right. His reputation as a terrible monster who slaughters his family is wrong. I will figure this out and I will help him however I can" and then doing it! Refusing to back down even at the last minute when he says it isn't her place to ask! Being there for him as he goes through the grieiving process. Fiercely defending him against everyone who dares to say he is heartless. God. I love them both.

15. Head empty no thoughts just DFQC's little hand gesture stopping XLH in her tracks before she can come to stop him from taking the lightening strikes.

16. DFQC asking her to teach him how to be warm towards people because no one ever taught him that 😭😭

17. Her teaching him how to smile by showing it to him and then suggesting to also "hug" Xunfeng and his love adled brain IMMEDIATELY going "How?" *puppy eyes* and her immediately almost folding him into a hug but just barely stopping herself! You cannot tell me he did not know that would happen. He definitely knew she would "show" not "tell" and most definitely wanted her to hug him. We already seen him be sneaky as heck when telling her "No I am still weak I neeeeed you to help me walk" when it was straight up nonsense 😄 Even adding little fake coughs to convince her. I love me a sneaky husband who tries to coax more love out of his wife.

18. "This is the first time I have ever thanked a person. Don't refuse me." 😭🥲

That entire interaction of theirs is so giggle inducingly cute like omg the smiles they can barely contain the teasing "are my flower cakes ready?" "did you finish your medicine" "its too bitter *pout* but I did it, not a single drop left! *satisfied smirk*" AAHAHHHHHHHH but this line !! "Don't refuse me" !! Don't take this moment from me! Just let me adore youuuuuuuuu!!!!

[dentedsky]

Review of The Untamed

This is one of the only tv shows i have ever marathoned and then immediately watched all over again. I started watching this show on Netflix knowing absolutely nothing about it; i didn't even know it was a gay love story... likewut. I had previously over saturated myself with American sitcoms and so looked for something completely different. Little did I realise I would smack myself in the face with my own love for the characters, themes, costumes, and downright beauty of the thing. I was immediately hooked in when in the first scene the lead character is murdered by his brother, cos I am a real sucker for stories that start out with, "Once upon a time, I DIED!!!" That to me is pure chef's kiss.

If you haven't watched it yet, let me forewarn you: the first two episodes are a clusterfuck of situations and lines and characters you don't give a shit about and have no context for. But push past these into episode 3 and beyond, and trust me, you will.

So here is my review of The Untamed. I'll try to be as spoiler-less as possible.

General premise

Five major clans control majority wealth, power and magic. Teenager Wei Wuxian is from one of these clans, and attends Ancient Chinese Hogwarts with BFFs/siblings Jiang Yanli and Jiang Cheng. But it's not all fun and hormones; soon after the semester ends they are thrown into war. Despite knowing magic and sword art, they are woefully under-prepared for the carnage and political shitshow that follows. Alliances fray, hearts are broken... and Wei Wuxian dies.

Sixteen years later he is resurrected by a necromancer who wants revenge on his shitty family. Wuxian's crush from magical high school, Lan Wangji, is now a 30-something hottie and a top-tier wizard, and is investigating a sword spirit that's gone apeshit. Since the revenge plot and the sword spirit issue are related, they team up buddy-cop style to solve the mystery.

The Pros

Costume and set design

It's beautiful. Someone in the costume department was having a ball with this one bc every outfit is gorgeous and unique. The long shots of the ancient Chinese sets are eye candy too. I found myself drinking in every little detail of their clothes and swords.

Themes and metaphors

I've seen a couple of Australian movies that talk about asylum-seekers, but I've never watched a show that has brought in the subject quite like this one. No doubt the episodes dedicated to our untamed hero Wei Wuxian saving war prisoners are a metaphor for China's incarceration of its minorities, but for me I was seething, constantly remembering that cunts like John Howard chose to use their power to treat people fleeing oppression like they were nothing but inconvenient garbage. Why governments choose to infeasibly sweep refugees under the rug rather than help them I still don't understand. In The Untamed, it's highlighted that the reasons are all about power - who has power must do all they can to keep it, even if it means torturing people they have never met, and slandering those who don't fall in line.

Cancel culture and mob mentality is a constant theme in the show, shown throughout several episodes from start to finish. Although set thousands of years before the invention of the internet, The Untamed highlights one important truth: internet trolls have always existed in some form or other and they will never change. They don't attack the reputation of others because they honestly believe that person deserves it - they do it because it fucking makes them feel good. If you can't take their shit any more and you kill yourself, it only solidifies in their mind that they were right all along. It's uncomfortable, and is almost impossible to endure. Like Lan Wangji, I wanted to take sweet Wei Wuxian into my arms and whisk him away.

The love story

Hooo boy, da love story. I ofc realise this is the main reason fans love this show. Between them, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji portray all the emotions that have ever existed, and then some. I found myself melting at Wuxian's every smile, looking closely at Wangji's infinitesimal widening of his eyes or curl of his lips. Wuxian is a guy who talks a lot with his mouth and his body but never says the right things, and Wangji is a bloke who says very little but his thoughts are written all over his supremely gorgeous face. And when they're together... woof. Gurrl. Idek. The chemistry is just... something. There is some over-acting on Wuxian's actor's part in some scenes Wangji's actor isn't in, but when these two are in a scene together, they're kind of amazing. The actors put full effort in, and it shows.

The Cons

CGI and make-up

Although the same genre, don't expect the production value of Game of Thrones, or The Witcher. This one runs more along the CGI lines of Merlin and Doctor Who. If you can use some imagination and stomach those two shows, then you can watch this. Similarly, the zombies are not scary, like, at all. But maybe that is less to do with make-up and more to do with wangxian being so overpowered that if this was a jrpg video game, wangxian would be lv 99 by age 17.

Plot holes and side characters

This show is well written and paced. However, there's one episode in the second half that you could quite frankly chuck in the bin and nothing of value would be lost. The side story involves a third-rate villain and three side characters who the villain emotionally and physically tortures for shits and giggles. If you liked these characters, that's great, but the whole thing to me stank of torture porn and added nothing to the main plot or central characters or relationships. The Untamed is not the only show to suffer this; Altered Carbon comes to mind. There was literally a whole ep in that show dedicated to torturing the lead and I'm still flummoxed as to why some stories choose to do this when literally there is no point?? I get that this villain is central to The Untamed plot and that he is a dark reflection of Wuxian's future if he didn't have Wangji as an anchor, but those things could've been shown in other ways without dragging three characters idgaf abt into some flashback that bored me to tears.

Summary and general thoughts

Omg, dis my fandom now. I'm already reading fics and God, look, writing fucking essays. I'm so naughty - I got my bff into it just so I could have someone to talk to. Luckily, her 1st language is Mandarin, and after watching the show, she read the web novel in 4 days, then translated the porn for me. Of what she tells me though - unpopular opinion - I think I prefer this drama. I prefer the idea that Wuxian fell for Wangji love at first sight, and also, I'm not a huge fan of sex while drunk - it's actually kinda triggering for me. That's just personal things tho. Wangxian have some beautiful moments that I like to rewatch and keep cupped in my hands.

6/5 stars.

[loveoaths]

𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐃 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓.

lio, he/they,  20+. i write fic and talk about the mandalorian, star wars, and other shit i like here. sometimes that shit is nsfw.  follow at your own discretion. AO3: waterdeaths.

star wars content you’ll find here: mauldin, darth maulposting, ANDOR ANDOR ANDOR, cassian/din aka cassidin, din djarin’s sad little life, star wars meta, jedi love, mace windu, kit fisto powerhour, maulsoka, anadin (anakin/din djarin), quinobi (quinlan vos/obi-wan), lots of love for the star wars ladies (reva, padme, leia, ahsoka, luminara, asajj ventress, etcetera), dinluke, star wars: visions, and much more.

other content you’ll sporadically find here: hades (game), interview with the vampire, barbie (2023), poetry, and more.

core writing concepts:    the sins of the father as the backbones of their sons, selfish sacrifice, unearned forgiveness, thriving in spite of trauma, self-destruction as a survival mechanism, degradation of the human spirit, destruction necessitating change, what makes a man a monster, and love as the question and the answer.  dark subject matter is present; this blog is not for everyone. again, follow at your own discretion.    

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i accept writing prompts and requests! i have the right to decline requests as well. this is for fun, people.

in-progress fics 

Attachment Theory (Rating: E) Din is a Mandalorian, but when Luke comes for Grogu on Moff Gideon's ship, he acts like a Jedi: he selflessly gives the child up.  Grogu is a Jedi-in-training, but he acts like a Mandalorian: he is territorial and attached to his buir, and his protectiveness easily manifests as violence. Luke is supposed to be Grogu's Jedi Master, but how is he supposed to teach Grogu how to let go, when he himself struggles not to hold onto parts of his past?

The answer: the trio go on stupidly a dangerous cross-galaxy road-trip in the rebuilt Razor Crest to a lost Jedi library in search of Jedi training tools. Pairing: Dinluke, DinMaul(ish).

The Father, The Son, and the Unholy Ghost (Rating: T)  Luke likes Din. Din likes Luke. Din is less crazy about Luke's insane, evil father who keeps trying to kill him from beyond the grave. Pairing: Dinluke. Now featuring art by @its-not-a-pen​!

Fate Lays Her Heavy Hand (Rating: T, Eventually E) Darth Momin, heretic of the Sith and galaxy’s greatest hater, time-travels to the Republic Era to end Sidious’ reign before it begins. Why? Because he hates Sidious almost as much as he loves the Force. Pairing:  Maul/Padme/Momin, Vader/Krismo Sodi

Nothing is My Name (Rating: T/Gen) An exploration of Din Djarin’s life, from his childhood on Aq Vetina to his early years as the Covert’s lead hunter. Pairing: Mild Din/Armorer, Din/Paz Viszla, unrequited!Din/OC

The Devil’s Red Right Hand (Rating: T, Eventually E) Through sheer orneriness and force of will, Maul rejects death, rips a hole in the Force, and propels himself back in time to destroy Sidious by stopping the Clone Wars from ever happening. First stop: Naboo. Pairing: Potentially Maul/Padme

In the Shadow of the Valley (Rating: T, Eventually M) AU. The first Mandalorian Jedi was Tarre Viszla. The second was Din Djarin. AKA, the one where Din is a padawan, and everything is terrible. Pairing: Potentially Din/Padme/Anakin

The Bitten Hand Holds the Bounty (Rating: M for torture and graphic death) Someone hires Cad Bane to kidnap Grogu. Din sets the galaxy aflame to get him back. Pairing: DinCobb

Negative Space (Rating: T, Eventually E) Nature, they say, hates a vacuum. Which explains why Din, someone who is force negative or totally cut off from the Force, touches the Force beacon on Typhon and screws up the time-stream so bad he winds up in the Old Republic Era.

finished fics

creature of desire, you’ve a fever for the fire: (Rating: M, graphic animal death | Wordcount: 3000) In which godhood is a thing with teeth, sainthood was made to block the light, and Kimimaro is just a man looking for divinity in the flesh.

patches make the quilt  (Rating: T | Wordcount: 5633) The war is over. Haku and Zabuza rebuild their lives on a farm, and find themselves growing in the process.

death of a bellflower (Rating: T | Wordcount: 1238) Even for a Kaguya, Kimimaro is especially out of touch, with a naivety that seems incongruous with his family name. Privately, Kimimaro’s milky, wide-eyed stares remind Haku of a newborn kitten’s: seeing without discerning. Zabuza thinks he's a liability. Haku thinks he’s cute. Pairing: Haku/Kimimaro, first crush

death is a friend of mine (Rating: T | Wordcount: 5676) Haku’s never feared dying; he’s done it many times. It's finding something to live for that's the hard part.

blood under the bridge  (Rating: T | Wordcount: 1302) Zabuza dies during the battle for the bridge. Haku dies with him, though his heart yet beats.

a kicked dog still bites (Rating: T | Wordcount: 600) Yamato is assigned surveillance duty over a Yuki, of all things, and he’s 100% certain the next six months are about to be cold and miserable. Pairing: Gen

din djarin posting

force negative!din 

fic about din and grogu time traveling in the stupidest way possible and meeting anikin and obi-wan

dinluke

padawan!din au (wip)

cassadin

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[nimata-beroya]

DECONSTRUCTED REALITY (Kalluzeb Minibang 2022)

This is my piece for @kalluzebminibang 2022!! It's been a blast to work on it, and I hope that you enjoy reading it as much as I did writing it. Amazing art by @gaylucanis coming soon!

Rating: teen and up

Warnings: referenced torture, brainwashing, implied genocide, PTSD

Words: 2.947 of ?

Chapter: 1 of 4

Synopsis: What if Alexsandr Kallus has been a rebel all along, even if he doesn't remember?

CHAPTER 1: Shattered Reflection

17 BBY

Coruscant

With wary expectations and his hands clasped behind his back, Colonel Wulff Yularen observes through the one-way transparisteel as an 8-trooper squad brings the prisoner into the lab. As a general rule, he’d think using that number of escorts is excessive, but this isn’t the average insurgent that he usually deals with. Three platoons under the orders of Yularen’s best student were needed to bring the man down.

As expected, the prisoner struggles to get free. His shouts are muffled by the partition, yet the vitriol in his words pushes through transparisteel and duracrete. Yularen almost can feel the anger hitting him in waves. It makes, yet, no difference to his situation. Handcuffed and outnumbered as the rebel is, he has no chance against the troopers who subdue and strapped him onto a stretcher. Then, he’s further neutralized when a med droid injects an anesthetic agent into his bloodstream, and the man loses consciousness after thirty seconds.

“Do you believe the procedure will work? The latest report says that another test subject was lost yesterday,” Tarkin says.

Yularen cast a peeved glance at the admiral standing next to him before returning his eyes to the other room. “I don’t see why it won’t work this time around,” he said, trying to hide the irritation in his voice. “Earlier errors have been rectified, and the candidate is optimal. The subjects used so far were weak, but this one is not.”

The pattern is obvious. The psyche of weak-minded subjects breaks under the implant’s influence. Thanks to the thorough interrogation he conducted on the prisoner, Yularen is sure that the man has the mental strength to survive the procedure. If the implantation goes as planned, the Empire will gain —for much Yularen hates to admit it— one of the most brilliant tactical minds ever born to replace one that was lost recently. It needs to go right. The failed expedition on Onderon left Yularen in a precarious situation in the Emperor’s eyes. This is his chance to prove his worth.

“If it works, what will you do? Take him to replace your dead pupil?”

“When,” Yularen puts great emphasis on the word, “it works, it’ll be as if I didn’t lose him in Onderon. The Empire will gain a survivor, a hero; a reminder of why we must end scum individuals such as Gerrera. It’ll show why we must show a hard hand dealing with the terrorists which only desire is keeping the galaxy at war.”

“That remains to be seen.”

Yularen grits his teeth, annoyed by Tarkin’s skepticism, his tone laden with a barely restrained contempt. Still, the sentiment is hardly a surprise. Yularen has always known that one man’s downfall assures the rise of another; nothing is a more certain thing in the Imperial Army. Those around him will take a hypothetical failure on his part as a trampoline to go up in the ranks, and matters little if they’re above or beneath his position.

But they will see. He will be victorious in this.

As the troopers retreat, leaving the medical personnel alone in the lab with the unconscious prisoner, Yularen stretches his hand out and pushes the comm button next to the window.

“Proceed,” he commands.

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[anhed-nia]

BLOGTOBER 10/5/2022: THE ISLAND OF LOST SOULS (1932)

Rewatching this movie had me looking up the history of mules. I guess we've been making them since before 1,000 BC, out of usually a female horse and a male donkey. (This is apparently easier than the other way around for some reason that I'm too lazy to sort out) We like them because, as George Washington put it, "more docile than donkeys and cheap to maintain"—that is, it's easier for them to get and keep a job. You may have guessed already that I'm siphoning all this off of Wikipedia, so I'll add without further worry of sounding especially educated that Charles Darwin wrote: "The mule always appears to me a most surprising animal. That a hybrid should possess more reason, memory, obstinacy, social affection, powers of muscular endurance, and length of life, than either of its parents, seems to indicate that art has here outdone nature". The thing about the mule, though, as with many interspecies hybrids, is that you usually have to make them from scratch because of an imbalance of partnerable chromosomes. Not much has changed in this regard since the time of Darwin, but we still consider the mule to be worth the effort.

Why the hell was I talking about this? …Oh, it was because of the difference between H.G. Wells' 1896 novel The Isle of Doctor Moreau, and its most successful adaptation, Erle Kenton's ISLAND OF LOST SOULS. Despite the 1932 film being pre-code, it is inevitably less aggressive about torture than its literary predecessor, which was in part inspired by the contemporary anti-vivisection movement of the latter 1800s. There is only so much Kenton (a former animal exhibitor, whatever that's worth to you!) could show, or maybe that he was willing to describe, in terms of what happens in rogue vivisectionist Dr. Moreau's dreadful "House of Pain". The book is focused on Moreau's idea that being motivated by pain is a primitive characteristic, and that his homemade humans can be perfected through exposure therapy. He laments the inevitable return of the bestial characteristics in his test subjects, but believes that his necessarily agonizing creation process will ultimately bring the results he craves: "Each time I dip a living creature into the burning bath of pain, I say, this time I will burn out all the animal, this time I will make a rational creature of my own."

As a refresher, the exiled Moreau (played in the film by Charles Laughton, who of course is EVERYTHING in this movie) is trying to make a his own humans from the raw material of various living animals. Protagonist Edward Parker (Richard Arlen) is appalled by this discovery when misadventure delivers him to the titular island, but he is still slow to pick up on the fact that the alluring Lota (Kathleen Burke, who also joined co-writer Philip Wylie on MURDERS IN THE ZOO) may be a product of Moreau's process, despite the doctor's suspiciously aggressive attempts to hook them up. With his fiancee Ruth (Leila Hyams) still over the sea, Edward is happy to sample the wares until he discovers Lota's feline claws. It seems that he was able to preserve his naivete because of Moreau's promise that Lota is "pure Polynesian", which to him justifies the fact that she has little more intelligence than a house cat; I'm sure there is abundant scholarship on themes of racism and miscegenation in ISLAND, but since I'm not in the know, I'll just leave that there for someone else to pick up. What Moreau seems mostly concerned about is the fertility of his creations (specifically, whether they can produce new humans), and when it becomes clear that Edward isn't going to consummate with his catwoman, the doctor is disappointed—until Ruth arrives to rescue her man, attracting the attention of lonely Beast Men. For better or worse, we don't get to find out whether that would make for a fruitful union, because of the inevitable uprising of the creatures (led by Bela Lugosi) against their monstrous creator.

ISLAND OF LOST SOULS remains effectively disturbing after almost a century, but it's interesting to observe how it was censored. Themes of rape and forced parenthood were either a little too subtle to punish, or just not perceived as that big of a deal in the face of actual blasphemy. Sure, the vivisection element was problematic, but what really bothered censors was Moreau playing God. The British Board of Film Censors found the idea of humans controlling evolution "repulsive" and "unnatural", and in America the Production Code Administration insisted on the removal of any implication that Moreau had created the Beast Men himself. The film was also banned in multiple states just for its frank acceptance of the theory of evolution.

It's interesting how graphic sadism and sleaze can be upstaged so dramatically by ideological problems—although today we see a similar moral outrage on the part of audiences who demonstrate an increasing fervor for purely aspirational content. One hopes that people who condemn the ethical content of movies are paying equal attention to the new resurgence of book banning by authorities with whom young progressives would surely not wish to be identified. To my mind, it's perfectly natural to be offended by media, but the experience should be taken as more of an opportunity to explore your own feelings and context, than as grounds for wholesale rejection of the work in question.

Meanwhile, if you find yourself a little disappointed by the generically hairy dog- or ape-like appearance of the filmic Beast Men, versus their many and varied appearances in the novel, check this shit out!

[chainofclovers]

Ted Lasso 2x8 thoughts

I am so lucky that the creators of Ted Lasso decided to make this entire show specifically for me. #blessed

If last week felt like a bit of breathing room (albeit tense, poignant, character-progressing breathing room) with distinct narrative lines, this week’s episode was a chaotic yet tightly-written swirl of pain and hope and sadness! No neat subject headers for this one, y’all. Just my brain and heart in the inadequate form of a bulleted list. It is the medium available to me at this time.

I am going to remember the moment when Ted calls Sharon and tells her his father killed himself for the rest of my life.

(I could say a bunch of stuff about his face and what he says and how he tries to hide his tears from Beard right after and how insanely much I adore this character and ahhhhhhhh but I’m just going to leave that scene there in our collective memories.)

Jamie. JAMIE. Higgins has given some great advice about love on this show, but his musings about his up-and-down relationship with his own father were not helpful in the context of Jamie’s dad, who is an abusive piece of shit. I really adore that all of the main AFC Richmond staff members are realistically a bit hit-or-miss with their advice and life philosophies (some are mostly miss this season, of course).

And I am completely in awe of the moment when Jamie punches his father. The way he just stands there after Beard kicks his dad out of the locker room. The way you can hear a pin drop. And Roy—Roy who is learning in so many areas of his life about his influence on people, learning that the things he needs aren’t necessarily the same as the things other people need—is the one to cross the room and hug him. Hold him, really, with the tenderness Ted used when he hugged Rebecca outside the gala in 1x4. God.

I’ve thought a lot about how s1 was about giving people a soft place to land. There’s always an angel there when you need one. There’s always an opportunity to be kind. If you look for someone, you find them. If you look for the good in someone, you find the good. And as everyone works through their individual journeys in s2, that can’t always be the case anymore. But there are still so many moments of angels on this show, and it’s not about chance and serendipity and fate [not that it was about that in s1] but about the effort it takes to become someone who can be there for someone else. Or who can be there for yourself. I’m so proud of Jamie for physically fighting back against his father. I’m so proud of Roy for being the one who recognized what Jamie needed.

I have every feeling in the world about how Ted is almost totally frozen both times (s1 and s2) he witnesses Jamie’s father abusing him. In s1, he was still there for Jamie after, and I have every reason to believe he’ll be there for Jamie after this incident as well, but that frozen stance HURTS. He’s in so deep with his pain about his own father that it’s like he physically cannot snap out of it to act in the moment. It seems entirely outside of his control, and it breaks my heart, because Ted wants so badly to be a good father, a good coach, a good friend, a good partner, a good patient. He’s there for people in all kinds of ways, even in his current less-than-capable state. He takes care of Sharon post-concussion and even gets her a new bike! During the disastrous match at Wembley his coaching is ineffectual and everything is chaos but he’s the last one standing on the pitch! But this really awful thing keeps happening to Jamie and Ted is just…frozen in the face of it. Like one of those nightmares where you’re running in place.

The frozen-in-place nightmare also kind of applies to the way the total separation between Ted and Rebecca feels, too. I have never for a moment doubted the writers’ intentions in setting these characters up as soulmates on parallel journeys, and I’m actually really digging (on a story level) how disconnected they are right now. It is IMPRESSIVE that their absence in each other’s lives feels like such a glaring loss, one we cannot forget even as there are so many other things happening onscreen. It is 100% not just shipper goggles making me process information about Ted while thinking about Rebecca and information about Rebecca while thinking about Ted. I know there are a lot of really angry and frustrated people in the fandom right now (both T/R shippers and T/R antis and non-shipping fans who don’t get why s2 is different from s1) and while I understand being frustrated by choices characters make, and frustrated by the feelings the show makes us feel that we just want to feel more of or less of, I continue to agree with pretty much every narrative choice happening right now.

Agreeing with the narrative like this?! This is such a unique experience for me as a viewer—to feel like I’m on a ride that is at once absolutely wild and incredibly sensible and well-crafted, and to feel simultaneously completely invested and anticipatory and speculative but also totally willing to trust where it goes. I long for Ted and Beard to really talk. I long for Ted and Rebecca to stop missing each other. I long for Roy to have a serious conversation with Ted about what’s happening with him. I long for Keeley to find a vocation, something that drives her beyond her projects. I long for so many things! But I wouldn’t long for them if this show was less good. If the show was less good, I wouldn’t have a wish list a mile long because I wouldn’t be so attuned to the details and potential lurking in every scene. THIS IS SUCH A GOOD SHOW, I CANNOT HANDLE IT, I LOVE IT SO MUCH.

(To that end, a great deal of the Ted Lasso tag and so many Twitter reactions reactions to the show feel super stressful right now and I am kind of just trying not to look?! I love this fandom so much because of the amazing conversations that happen and because of brilliant fic and because there are some awesome people I never would have encountered were it not for this show. That little bubble is wonderful and I’d stay in this fandom no matter what in order to keep experiencing those things. But fans’ catastrophic reactions to every little thing that happens, every little choice a character makes that isn’t the “perfect” choice? The takeaway that the writers—on this show of all shows—wake up in the morning ready for another day of torturing shippers rather than another day of writing a beautiful story they genuinely want to write? I do not enjoy those parts at all. I would like to opt out of those parts. I’m having such a magical experience watching this show and talking about this show and listening about this show and writing about this show with a variety of people who feel all kinds of ways. I truly wish I could somehow transfer the energy of this experience onto all the people who are hating it right now. I don’t mind at all that people are having vastly different reactions to this show and are sharing their honest feelings, including the really angry ones (I can appreciate something and disagree with it!), and I get that sometimes the language of fannish reactions is intentionally, ironically hyperbolic. But there feels like this very serious trend of people legitimately thinking writers on this show are targeting shippers and have lost respect for their characters, and I just feel like an alien from another planet when I see that stuff. I guess I just feel like people make art because they want their art to be visible to other people and to themselves, but that doesn’t typically involve specifically catering to or torturing a subset of that audience?)

I am more fascinated by Sharon Fieldstone than ever before. I have been running through every single action with her and Ted so many times. The confirmation that she’s living in club-provided housing (that could not look more different from Ted’s club-provided flat). Ted clearly noticing the many bottles. Sharon’s face while she tries to casually recycle them. (Sharon could legitimately have a more problematic relationship with alcohol than Ted does, and I find that extremely interesting and am very curious to find out what happens there.) Sharon leaving him voice notes while she’s concussed, probably because she’d been thinking about him shortly before the accident. The way Ted calls her and does all the funny voices and it’s not frustrating like all the times he uses his silliness and allusions to deflect during their prior conversations because this time, those behaviors are just a part of him showing care for another person. The way they stretch each other, and Ted is still wrong about the things he’s been wrong about, but they both grow all the same.

While it is pretty much impossible for me to imagine that this show would include an actual romantic relationship between Ted and Sharon (it would be beyond unethical even if they could write it well, and Sharon in particular is so professional and committed to her work, and it would erase so much of the powerful message about the importance of seeking therapy from a professional who is not your friend or partner, and I would totally hate it), watching this episode was the first moment I had this queasy little feeling that it’s possible that Ted could end up developing really complicated feelings about Sharon since, at this point, he’s been honest with her about things he’s hardly spoken about before and you can really form an attachment to people you feel safe with in a new way. (I mean, I’m sure Michelle knows what happened with Ted’s father, but I’m not even certain if Beard does.) He’s so broken right now, and Sharon is such a great person and so different from anyone else in his life (even though Rebecca is also different, and Beard is also different, and Roy is also different, and so on), that I could see things getting really fuzzy for him. I continue to have faith in the way the storylines on this show are handled. I’m just. Putting this here.

(In saying that, though, I also wanna make it really clear that I don’t just automatically assume anytime a new female character is introduced that they’re going to end up becoming a romantic complication. Like, Phoebe is allowed to have a teacher who is an attractive woman and AFC Richmond is allowed to have a sports psychologist who is an attractive woman and Keeley is allowed to talk to Jamie Tartt without it threatening what she has with Roy and all these people can exist as human beings without the introduction of romantic drama.)

Isaac gives every player one haircut per season, OH MY GOD. The JOY during the haircut scene. YES.

KEELEY AND REBECCA. Their text thread. The affirming video call right before Rebecca goes into the restaurant. The way Keeley sits all snuggled up against Rebecca in her office.

I was pretty thoroughly spoiled for the Sam and Rebecca plot through 2x8, and I was bracing for something far more problematic and tortured than what happens in this episode. The words I would use to describe their scenes: awkward, cute, cringy, and understandable. There are a million reasons why this relationship isn’t sustainable, but I felt completely understanding of both their choices here. This show has a lot of thesis statements, but I keep going back to the idea from 2x1 that there are people who enter your life to help you get to the next point, and I think it’s entirely possible that Sam and Rebecca will mutually be that for each other.

I find comparisons between Rupert and Rebecca super upsetting. There are absolutely meaningful things to say about the irony of ending up in a situation with an uncomfortable resemblance to certain taboo elements of an ex’s situation. But that ex is abusive and manipulative and cruel and Rebecca has exhibited NONE of those behaviors, and it makes me really sad to think that people feel that the writers on this show have betrayed Rebecca in giving her this storyline.

As always, I reserve the right to keep blathering about this show. I’ve had a headache for a couple of days, but my head is also so full of 2x8 thoughts that I couldn’t keep them in even if the circumstances for writing this were not ideal. I kind of hate that I’ve included frustrated fandom thoughts within the analysis of what I felt was an absolutely gorgeous, complicated, heartbreaking, near-perfect episode of television, but if ya can’t be a little dramatic on your own tumblr while you’re feeling raw and under the weather, where can ya?