#that’s why I love dankworth so much

[dracomeir]

I’ve been staring at my drawing of burlington throughout the day. The brain rot is real.

[girllookingoutwindow]

Yeah an innocent like Pen during that period and very obviously lusting over Colin with her mother in the same room would be highly suspicious. Based on Daphne, Eloise and Penelope’s curiosity about how a women would fall pregnant in season 1, they have absolutely no idea about sex or lust.

 I think at that point Portia didn’t care as she thought the wedding is in the bag. I mean, she witnessed how sweetly and lovingly Colin gave Pen the ring. Portia was absolutely gushing with Pen once he left. Excited not only because her daughter grabbed a rich and influential Bridgerton but so very happy that he was definitely besotted with her daughter. Portia might pressure her daughters to find husbands with money but she also never stopped Prudence or Philippa from marrying men without a great fortune because she saw how Mr. Finch and Mr. Dankworth cared for her daughters.

Hi, anon.

I think the reason why Portia was suspicious of Colin and Pen engagement in the beginning it was because she thinks he's a rake. I think she always believed he wasn't a serious guy, just a flirty boy. The fight changed her point of view. She trusted him, and she started to question herself after. So, I don't think she would care so much. Maybe she thought it was just love or maybe she figured out something else was happening there, but I think she was okay with it. Portia is not so judgemental about others, she was only afraid about what could happened to Pen. If he loves her, she's okay with whatever, that's the reason why she asked to Pen that in the first place.

But they had the face of this two fucked before all the rest of the season, even when they fight.

[hot-tea-gardenparty]

My thoughts on Season 3, Part 2 of Bridgerton

The polin first-time intimate scene was gorgeous! So beautifully shot with such soft, sweet emotions that it truly felt like I was invading on a private moment between two real people. Nicola, you are a goddess, and don't let anyone else tell you differently. Thank you for being a showcase that all women, no matter their body type, can be sexy and desired.

I really wish we had had one additional intimate scene between Colin and Pen. Like I was hoping for angry sex or even just Colin giving into his desires for Pen even when he was frustrated because of Whistledown. They did nothing on their wedding night and even after colin found Pen wandering outside at night and nearly finger-banged her against a shop door - this didn't continue. WHY NOT?! EXPLAIN WRITERS.

Eloise pissed me off in the first two episodes but by the final two I was fine with her again.

Colin stating that Pen meant to entrap him in the marriage was so fucking low and unfair to say and made me physically squirm. Colin if anything you were the one to entrap her. Chaos Colin came out to play hard-core.

Cressida didn't need this much screen time. At all.

Mondrich storyline was still boring but much more in the background, so it was better.

Benedict. Oh sweet man, what are they doing with you? I don't think the writers know what to do with you. I love that he finally admitted to his bisexuality - but how they went about it was so generic and stereotypical. I wish he could have figured it out on his own without the insistence of another fling with a woman who doesn't matter in the long run.

Every time all thr Bridgerton siblings are together on screen I smile so wide my jaw hurts.

Kanthony are cute as always. Looooved Kate's interactions with Violet, Eloise, and Colin. Also, Kate's dresses this season were IMACCULATE!

I adore Finch and Dankworth. Those two and Colin Bridgerton make up the golden retriever husband trio and I never want to see them unhappy.

John is precious and I want to protect him at all costs. I hate that he will have to be said goodbye to eventually...

MICHAELA. YOUR COUSIN MICHAELA?! WHAT. WHAT! *insert gif of kombucha girl here*

Polin fought too much and were apart too long. I wanted more Polin happy and together.

[malspinningyarns]

Random thoughts during Bridgerton season 3 rewatch, episode 3

The dream is so Mr. Darcy walking across the foggy field in the 2005 P&P

There is a editing mistake where Violet walks to Francesca twice pre and post Benedict’s comment to Gregory

Colin at Breakfast:

Love Charlotte’s heart wig

Phillippa is so dumb. But this is why sex ed is important

Varley is so happy Penelope has a visitor and it’s Eloise

Another wrap to hide Claudia’s broken arm

No one really is going to notice Colin and Penelope unchaperoned again, aren’t they?

Colin’s coat looks dark purple in the light and Pen’s wrap has purple in it.

This is the most awkward Colin has ever been

Those are some massive antlers on that one taxidermy buck

Speaking as someone who is around a lot of taxidermy at work, you kinda just get used to it. But I see that look on Debling’s face very regularly

Debling’s WTF look the Cressida’s comment about rather being a predator than prey. 😂

There are some judgy faces from the Cowpers when Lord Cutbill talks to Francesca

Colin is in yellow, Penelope is in blue

Debling, don’t compare a woman to a dead animal (even I think their conversation is kinda cute otherwise)

The ballon is yellow and blue! (Of course it is)

I love that Dankworth is smart enough to make a double entendre and the Finches don’t get it

Colin is so down bad watching Penelope lick her fingers

Cressida is so lost at the beginning of the conversation with Debling

Penelope’s confusion at Eloise reluctantly bringing up the Great Auk and Eloise responding look of “Don’t ask” is a great moment

Penelope trying to get in on this bird conversation is me at work

I think this look is the best Colin look

Poor Colin is being bullied by these two guys

I do love Will and Alice even if I don’t fully know the purpose of their plot

I literally can’t figure out how old Lady Tilly is supposed to be

Business bitch in a sparkly suit

If I was Eloise, I also would not want to be a witness to this conversation

I love that it was the Dankworths getting interrupted that caused the balloon problem

Way to go everyone leaving Pen behind

Colin is so angry that Hawkins just gets on the balloon (and probably that Debling “saved” Pen)

Portia straight up denies Lord Hawkins in the cuntiest way. 😂

Love the suspenseful music for Cressida and Penelope’s chase to Debling

Francesca hearing he wants 8 children just smothered that relationship

Violet’s face crack realizing Marcus is Lady Danbury’s brother

The way Fran and John keeping looking at each other is very cute

Penelope using Colin’s comments about bravery to talk to Debling 😭

Debling just gave Cressida’s lemonade to Penelope, which is kinda a dick move. This man is fickle

Colin absolutely is not subtle around his mom

Colin’s head turn at that music chord is just *chef’s kiss*

I’m obsessed with the cellist’s crazy wig

So much gold in the foreground with the blue night in the background.

Colin’s going to cry watching this dance

[bisexualfemalemess]

BRIDGERTON SEASON THREE PART TWO SPOILERS

I’m actually not ready for this because it’s the last episode of the season and still so angsty but of course it has to be.

Already can’t do this. WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE OPENING SHOT IS COLIN BROODING ON THE SOFA WHILE DRINKING HIS TEA FUCK OFF???? 😭😭😭 Communicate please??? Or at least look at her, colin. I actually can’t handle this. WORST MINUTE OF MY FUCKING LIFE, NOW HE’S FUCKING OFF TO BRIDGERTON HOUSE BECAUSE HE WISHES TO LEAVE????? MAKE UP OR I WILL KILL MYSELF!!!

Fuck off, cressida, not her knowing about lw and black-mailing her??? So much for her redemption arc. Not her telling portia??? Like that’s not your place???? Someone needs to give our baby a break. Aww, portia’s character arc is actually so important to me like not her thinking penelope just always left because her social battery died and she just let her be, that’s actually so cute. I swear if portia turns on her now too i’ll kill myself again, at least we got peneloise back though so maybe i won’t actually. WHY ARE PEOPLE SO PETTY TOWARDS HER ONCE THEY FIND OUT ABOUT WHISTLEDOWN??? LIKE THAT IS STILL THE SAME GIRL YOU KNEW MINUTES BEFOREHAND YOU JUST KNOW MORE ABOUT HER NOW???? At least penelope immediately tells colin this time so he cannot be petty about it.

DOES DANBURY KNOW??? Is this how we get agatha x penelope friendship next season??? Agatha bridgerton coming home????

Ooh a finch x dankworth ball??? Interesting. Oh? Francesca and john moving to scotland?

STOP BROODING COLIN AND TALK TO YOUR WIFE JFC! I love how eloise isn’t choosing sides, our baby girl has truly grown. AH! ELOISE SO TRUE “do not let your marriage be the scar.” Queen behavior, peneloise and polin soulmate-ism. Aww Poor baby pen sounds so tired of all the shit that’s happening to her. I love how they’re trying to figure out how to get penelope out of this situation and i love how colin ‘my wife’ bridgerton made an appearance even though he’s angry with her, 🗣️ He will not stand for anyone blackmailing his wife 🗣️ they’re all so shocked that baby girl’s filthy rich. ALSO LET HER FUCKING SPEAK. this is her mess, she was not looking for help just support and all of a sudden her opinions don’t matter anymore :( Y’all need to let go of your anger towards lw and try to support pen instead of trying to fight her battles for her. She’s just standing in the corner watching as they’re talking about her and what to do :( at least involve her, don’t ignore her and cut her off. Jesusss.

And Benedict’s having a threesome again, interesting but unnecessary.

Protective Colin bridgerton but he’s still angry with her :( “to hear word from home. From penelope, in fact.” STFUUUU STFUUU STFUUU JUST MAKE UP ALREADY WE DON’T NEED ALL THIS YEARNING AND ANGST AND PINING WE GOT ENOUGH OF IT IN PART ONE :((( Aside from that I’m actually so fucking happy that he essentially just called penelope his home, I’m actually gonna combust. I hate how he’s still trying to separate penelope from whistledown “penelope’s no villain” and then he goes on to say that he gets her hate for whistledown???? Did we not just learn that they were the same person, colin? CRESSIDA I STILL FEEL INDIFFERENT TOWARDS YOU BUT BLESS YOU FOR CLOCKING HIS TEA!!!!! “You do not sound as if you hate whistledown. You sound as if you are jealous of her.” PREACH IT! He shut that shit down to fast, like the moment he’s gonna admit that to himself he’s gonna be able to forgive her. THAT FUCK ASS WIG I HATE IT SO MUCH. PLEASE THE RESHOOT WIG MAKES HIM LOOK LIKE A KEN DOLL LIKE ITS SO PLASTIC 😭😭😭😭

PENELOISE SCENE I LOVE THAT THEY’RE BACK. “tell me what you are reading?”With eloise grabbing her hand? 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 WAR IS SO TRULY OVER. Colin literally fucked up so bad, not cressida asking for double 🙄🙄🙄 Also penelope’s dress in this scene is so gorgeous. Aww, he’s willing to lie to Benedict for his wife so that the cressida drama can stop. PLEASE JUST MAKE UP YOU IDIOTS. Awwww eloise grabbing her hand in support. I just know peneloise and polin will mirror the christina x meredith x derek dynamic from grey’s with Eloise just bursting into their home unannounced and colin will understand but still be so tired of it.

STOP CUTTING TO BENEDICT THREESOMES THEY HAVE NOTHING TO ADD TO THE STORY IN THIS EPISODE 😭😭😭😭😭

Honestly the lady danbury and violet friendship is so special to me like violet did not care that she was running around with her dad and Agatha loves her more than her brother, that’s so cute.

STOP IT RIGHT NOW THE POLIN SCENE LIKE HE WANTED HER AND HE LOVES HER BUT HE CANT BE WITH HER UNTIL EVERYTHINGS FULLY OKAY BETWEEN THEN BECAUSE HE’S A DEMI SEXUAL KING. THEY NEED TO MAKE UP SO BAD SO THAT THEY CAN MAKE UP FOR THEIR WEDDING NIGHT.

STOP IT HE LOOKS SO DISTRAUGHT SLEEPING ON THE COUCH AND PENELOPE FIDDLING AROUND WITH HER BRACELET AS SHE SAYS SHES GONNA SPARE HIM THE CONFIDES OF A SHARED CARRIAGE ACTUALLY SHUT UO THE ANGST IS TOO MUCH :(

AWW PENELOPE’S LETTERS MADE A COMEBACK. THE FACT THAT HE KEPT ALL OF HER LETTERS WHERE IS MY COLIN BRIDGERTON????

PENELOPE MY QUEEN GETTING TO SEE SOME OF HER MOMS WORST SIDES AND POPPING OFF ON HER. Mother-daughter bitch off! “Oh and from whom?” Well, her family actually. Portia crediting penelope and apologizing for overlooking her, the development is so cute. “We must do better.” So true actually and the fact that it’s coming from portia just shows her development.

Francesca’s wedding was actually so beautiful and her heart to heart with violet beforehand was so cute. Polin sharing a look during francesca’s and john’s wedding and penelope subtly touching him with her shoulder, i’m gonna throw up. STOP THE ANGST.

the bridgerton siblings being chaotic and teasing each other is something so dear to my heart actually.

Penelope’s outfits this episode are all actually so gorgeous, she looks so ethereal in this season in general but especially in this episode. No not her seeing a genuine smile on colin’s face during their wedding party and her smile slowly fading. The angst is angsting.

Aww penelope loves his family so much. The study scene is actually so… “then how am i meant to help you?” “By loving me!” Pop off, pen. Might need to bash his head into a wall a couple times though because our baby boy is very stubborn right now. Like it’s so special to me, her speech is sooo dear to my heart. HANDS, HANDS, HANDS! 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Oh? Penelope writing to the queen AND Violet? What is going to happen?

Lmaooo Benedict got one taste of men and he could not stop. I’m actually crying, my favorite pansexual, (i love you but please stop taking screen-time from polin during their own damn season the irony of people complaining polin got too much screen time last season and now during their own season they barely get as much scenes as the previous leads) IM CRYING BENEDICT DOES NOT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT THAT WOMAN LMAOOO.

Aww a benedict and eloise swing scene, so on brand. Real el back not giving a fuck about fitting in anymore because she got pen back. ELOISE IS A LESBIAN I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH AND I WISH BENEDICT SHARED WHAT HE FOUND OUT WITH ELOISE SO THAT SHE WOULD KNOW THAT IT’S OKAY 😭😭😭

Penelope’s ball dress looks so gorgeous. AWW SHE PAID FOR THE BALL 😭😭😭😭 SHE’S SUCH AN AMAZING SISTER DESPITE ALL THE SHIT THEY’VE SAID AND DONE TO HER OVER THE YEARS. Not my poor baby standing on the sidelines again 😭😭😭 Where’s colin when you need him???

Oh, the queen showed up. SHE’S PISSED???? PENELOPE WHAT HAVE YOU DONE??? AWWW. Penelope revealing herself to the ton, girl boss. Her entire speech is her admitting her flaws and defending herself in the same breath. She’s one of the best, if not, the best written character on the show and it is about time the haters realize that. The fact that she keeps eye contact with El and Colin while defending herself but also assuring them about their own insecurities while doing so 😭😭😭 I’m crying, Colin actually smiled at her, he looks so proud of his wife 😭😭😭 Stfuuuu. Are we getting that make-up? PENELOPE MY QUEEN INTO THE LIGHT INDEED! AWW THE QUEEN ACTUALLY PARDONED HER OH MY GOD.

The ton needs to stop whispering if you have anything to say, say it to her face, The Featheringtons showing support and phillipa demanding that varley releases the bugs to save her sister from embarrassment 😭😭😭

Colin i’m so serious when i say go to your wife and ask her to dance. AWW THE DANBURY-PENELOPE SCENE. I have hopes for a friendship in season 4. She knew all along and kept the secret 🥹🥹🥹 “who loves the Bridgertons more than I” Especially her soulmates colin and eloise 🥺🥺🥺🥺 Aww penelope and her mother are actually so important to me “my girl” OH MY GOD THAT SCENE FROM THE TRAILER WHERE SHE LOOKS SO FONDLY AT SOMEONE AND THEN TURNS TO SEE COLIN WAS WITH PORTIA. SHUT UP THATS SO CUTE.

She looks so worried, please make-up i swear to god. “That i would not object to an annulment if you requested one.” COLIN WE HAVE 14 MINUTES LEFT IF YOU DO NOT SHUT THAT SHIT DOWN AFTER EVERYTHING SHE’S DONE TO SHOW YOU SHE CARES I AM PERSONALLY GONNA BASH YOUR HEAD INTO A WALL REPEATEDLY.

Oh never mind, the shock on his face, like that was never even a thought to him. He was always gonna stay married to her. FINALLY “you are her.” It took him a while to get there but he finally accepted that part of her and it’s so cute. His speech is actually so…he’s such a healthy male character, the only man ever actually, like you will not be able to find a man that is so in touch with their feelings that he can admit he was jealous and that you’re actually a braver, better person than he is. COLIN BRIDGERTON THE MAN THAT YOU ARE🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ this speech is so dear to me.

STFUU THE PARALLEL TO EPISODE ONE

Episode 1: “Goodbye, Mr.Bridgerton”

“Pen, i….”

Episode 8:

“You are a very good man, mr. Bridgerton.”

“Now, will you please do me the honor of joining me on the dance floor, Mrs. Bridgerton.”

STFUUU HE ACTUALLY CALLED HER MRS BRIDGERTON THAT IS A WIN FOR ME. Them dancing together will always have a special place in my heart, especially since everything’s resolved and they’re all giggly.

Oh, Eloise moving to scotland with francesca, oh my god. OH??? Francesca bridgerton, i know what you are and Michaela stirling i did not realize your game. Welcome to the sapphic club, fran.

OH????? Penelope riding colin!!!! Yay! I wish they kept in the longer version of the scene since this was apparently originally part of a montage but i’m so glad they finally got their shit together and consummated their marriage. Penelope loves colin’s chest hair so much.

OOOOH? Masquerade ball. Ben’s season next?

Pen’s and eloise goodbye hug was so long actually, they’re the cutest. Penelope’s little wave to her, my peneloise heart 🥹🥹🥹

“Goodbye.” SHUT UP

Oh my gosh, the epilogue. Polin had the heir so fucking cute. THEIR MARITAL BLISS IN THE EPILOGUE THEY’RE SO SICKENING ACTUALLY. Aww phillipa wants her daughter to be a writer so cute. POLIN WRITER COUPLE AND PENELOPE SUPPORTING HER HUSBAND IN WRITING AND PUBLISHING SO TRUE . NO STOP THE TRANSITION FROM JULIE ANDREWS TO PENELOPE’S VOICE WAS ACTUALLY GENIUS I’M GONNA THROW UP.

ALSO THE SYMBOLISM OF PENELOPE AND COLIN HAVING THEIR FINAL KISS BASKED IN SUNLIGHT IN FRONT OF THE WINDOW WHERE SHE USED TO SPENT HOURS TRYING TO SPY INTO HIS ROOM IM GONNA CHAIN MYSELF TO A TRAIN TRACK ACTUALLY.

Yours truly, Penelope Bridgerton

That’s it, i’m checking myself into a mental hospital now. What the actual fuck.

Wow. Awww guys all i want is playing during the credits that’s so cute 🥰

I actually don’t know what to do with myself for another two years until we learn what these characters are up to again. Like this season was actually so special to me i am dying for more especially more polin since they cut that short for some benedict awakenings and setting up for his season but i am glad for the bits that we did get.

Overall i do not have too much criticism for this season so i give it a solid 9.5/10

[browneyedbeauty5725]

Bridgerton season 3, what to say. I loved it but I was also disappointed at the same time. Spoilers if you haven’t already watched it all

Disappointment #1 I understand what Kanthony fans meant about last season now. There were just too many subplots going on. There’s always the main plot and at least two to three subplots but at least two of those subplots tie into the main one and the other one doesn’t . We got that with Cressida’s story and the Featherington family heir. They tied into Colin and Penelopes story. Why Penelope was desperate to get married and why Cressida was so desperate to get the Whistledown reward.And the ones that didn’t were Francesca’s and Benedict’s but Francesca’s still made sense because her story starts after she’s been married to her first husband for a minute, she gets married her first season and then after a couple years we see her again so her storyline this season made sense so even though it didn’t tie into the main plot it still fit with the season as a whole especially if you’ve read the books. I hate to say it because I love him so much, but Benedict’s storyline was so unnecessary this season. I enjoyed him getting to explore himself and his sexuality but to me that’s something that could’ve been done in his season.

Disappointment #2 we didn’t get Colin’s speech “ I love you with everything I am, everything I’ve been, and everything I hope to be.” I just loved that moment so much in the books and I’m so sad we didn’t get to hear him say it.

Disappointment #3 I think we all knew as soon as we got the Featherington subplot that this is what was going to happen especially when we didn’t get the Penelope/Lady Danbury friendship which is the whole reason they named their firstborn after her but I’m still mad they took Agatha from us. They already took Amelia away with Simon n Daphne so they better still give us Agatha eventually when Colin n Penelope have a girl.

Disappointment #4 the entire season did feel really rushed but that’s because it kind of was cause they only give us 8 episodes and there were 600 other stories going on at the same time,thankfully we already had two seasons of Polin buildup to work with.

Like #1 Polin of course. I loved everything about them.

Like #2 The Featherington family subplot.I actually enjoyed Prudence and Philippa a lot this season. They were just so cute. I loved them being so excited about their ball. Also Mr. Finch and Dankworth are just the cutest. They are totally “my wife” bros like Colin. Portia was going through it this whole season lol. I loved her realizing and opening her eyes to how she’d treated and overlooked Penelope for years and them kind of realizing they had more in common than they thought. And just seeing that a lot of what Portia did was to protect her girls cause her husband kind of put her between a rock n a hard place.

Like #3 I still hate Cressida but I liked her storyline and the friendship with Eloise because one someone needed to put Eloise in her place a bit, and two it showed that even one of the most popular debutantes still had her reasons to be just as desperate to find a husband. I think it helped open Eloise’s eyes a bit more to really listening to people and not disregarding what they were saying simply because she didn’t want the same things and didn’t understand why they didn’t feel the same way she did. It showed that even the girl who is everything a debutante is supposed to be was having just as much trouble as someone like Penelope who was considered the opposite of what a young lady should be in society. It showed that she could be a genuine and nice person but she lets her own desperations and wants overcloud that and that she was willing to turn on someone she considered a friend to get what she wanted. Whereas when Penelope wrote about Eloise it wasn’t to help herself , it might’ve still been wrong but she had genuine good intentions.

Like #4 I loved how Eloise and Penelope’s friendship came full circle. I think they really needed the time apart because Penelope needed to see she was letting whistledown go to her head and not really thinking about who she was hurting at that point and I think Eloise needed to really see that she needed to start listening more and understand that just because someone’s opinions or wants were different than hers doesn’t mean they weren’t still important. And how even though she was so angry and hurt that she still wanted to protect Penelope when she was hurt. She also saw how easy it was to hurt someone herself without meaning to.

Like #5 I loved Penelope standing up for herself. I loved her owning up to her mistakes. Her saying I made some mistakes and could’ve handled certain situations differently and I’m sorry for them I truly am but I’m still proud of what I’ve done and achieved as a whole. And more importantly her not letting Colin bail her out of trouble. Her saying you know what no more lying. No more running and hiding, it’s time to take responsibility and own up to what I’ve done all I need you to do is love me and stand by me.

This last one isn’t necessarily a disappointment or a like. But them turning Michael into Michaela. I knew people were speculating and I’m not sure if it had been confirmed before the season dropped and I just didn’t see it but I was surprised by it. At this point in time I don’t hate it but I’m also not sure how I feel about it. I haven’t read Francesca’s book yet so it won’t really change any of that for me. It’s more of I don’t have any specific feelings about it at the moment and a wait and see how they do the storyline in that particular season for me kind of thing. I could absolutely love it.

Also I think it was made pretty obvious by Eloise bringing up the masquerade that Benedict’s season is probably next and I’m excited for him and Sophie but I’m also a little worried and curious about how they are going to tie his behavior in the book into the show cause oof Benny boy you was troublesome

At the end of the day I enjoyed the season as a whole, it was good.

[bekkachaos]

BRIDGERTON THOUGHTS PRT 3 !

Okay here's everything else 😅 part 1 and part 2 of my ramblings if you're bored!

Again, S3 part 2 spoilers below!

I really wish they didn't make me like John Sterling so much. I mean how dare you? I know what's coming and this is just rude!

And Michaela Sterling?? Oh we are going to get fed!

And bisexual Benedict too?! I feel that's been hinted at since that episode where he walked in on his painter friend, but also now that we have Michaela, I feel that they won't do the same with Sophie and genderbend for his story too, if it's not his story next season, I feel like he might explore more. But I do think he may be next, especially with the mention of the masquerade ball by Eloise at the end.

Also why did it keep cutting from Colin and Pen being all tortured and breaking my heart to Benedict being the sexy meat in a bisexual sandwich?? THE WHIPLASH

Eloise drove me nuts in the first episode, I just felt like she was being unnecessarily cruel but at the same time I can understand why. And she got past it in a beautiful way that I really enjoyed, just that first episode I was yelling at her to take her nose out of the sky!

Kate and Anthony were gorgeous as we knew they would be, and I love Anthony's face when Colin announces his engagement and he realises he can't upstage with his news. He is such a dramatic little man!

Not to mention him interrupting Kate when they were talking to Colin and just irritating her while she tried to make her point (and in doing so, proving her point).

Violet and Lady Danbury's friendship is amazing and I love it and I love that they brought up Violet's father without having to really talk about it, and then the cut to the hat? Oh it was so sweet!

I actually love seeing the featherington sisters, especially Prudence, out of their mother's favour, I feel like that's not really happened for them before, especially not in favour of Penelope and it was a cool dynamic.

Also the way I love Finch and Dankworth, they are hilarious together and just so adorable, I think there's one clip where they're both just standing staring in awe up at this cake and it made me laugh so hard.

And Prudence saying something nice to Philippa at the very end at the ball? That was lovely.

In my opinion, we had way too much Cressida, I'm sorry but I just didn't care enough for the amount of screen time she got. I know we probably had to set up for the blackmail and her reasoning but I just didn't care.

And it actually annoyed me how she was the one to mention to Colin that maybe he was jealous of Penelope and Whistledown, I just didn't like that it came from her but I know that somebody had to actually say it because ya boy wasn't admitting it to himself.

In the book you kind of flip between the two perspectives and you can tell that jealousy plays a part in his frustrations, but it's probably not as obvious in the show if you haven't read the book.

Okay I think I'm done, gonna go watch it again and see if I have more to say but I had to get it out 😂

If you've got this far come yell about it with me 💕

[zalrb]

LET'S GET THROUGH THEM QUICKLY - Bridgerton 3.02 Review

1. Why do we care about the Kent family? I mean, I'm glad there's a monoracial Black family but they seem incidental.

2. Honestly, the Featherington Sisters who I'll just call the Terrible Sisters seem to be the only ones actually having fun with their husbands. I mean there's Kanthony but they're busy getting busy, so.

3. Colin's coat, doesn't it kinda make him look like a bum tho?

4. I would love this height difference if he were anyone else.

5. "You're saying you want my help after what Lady Whistledown wrote?" SHE WROTE NOTHING. GET IT TOGETHER.

6. Lady Featherington this entire season is going to be like

7. I WANT TO BE OUT SHOWING OFF MY HUSBAND, NOT IN BED. AND IT FLATTENS MY HAIR. Priorities.

8. Honestly, this show doesn't care about rules, tell her to get on top.

9. I don't know, the play at debauchery annoys me, either he's having a threesome in bed or we don't have to see it.

10. "Do you know what I discovered abroad?" "I've been to 17 countries, do you know what I discovered?" He's that guy. That guy is annoying.

11. Who ARE these people?

12. That is a hideous dress.

13. They couldn't get a French English-speaking actress?

14. Jesus christ, how many of these Bridgerton children are there?

15. Oh my god, they are DULL.

16. I just find it funny because as a teen, friends-to-lovers was my jam and I just feel absolutely nothing about this.

17. She is giving and he gives nothing back. GAZE at her with your "remarkably blue eyes" dammit.

18. Bridgerton annoys me so much with the lack of chemistry.

19. Like her reading his sex journal and getting turned on by it, theoretically I get that, theoretically I should be fangirling but I'm just like who CARES, it's Colin?

20. But honestly, more than that, they don't have the chemistry necessary for me to find this giddy and sexy and cute-embarrassing because they don't have sexual tension and they don't have familiarity either. They're just two people in a room.

21. I'm holding my head because this ENTIRE sequence is passionless and bloodless. She's reading his journal, he catches her, she's flustered, he knocks over whatever that was made of glass, she rushes to help him, OMG THE TOUCHING OF THEIR HANDS, THERE'S SOMETHING THERE. I get it. I can SEE this written, I know what it's supposed to be and it's FLAT and it's contained and it's contrived. Nothing about this feels like it organically happened.

22. And the way they're staring at each other is just ... *sigh* I SHOULD BE GETTING ROSSCHEL

23. Miss Featherington talking to her sons-in-law like

24. I don't think I've EVER laughed out loud watching this show until now

25. "Mr. Dankworth you are ... so ... pretty." "Oh!" How can anyone care about the romances in this show?

26. Uh oh, Fuck boy Mouse Man is getting jealous. She touched Lord Basilieo's hand.

27. I mean, OG Mouse Man was a fuck boy too. They're all pretty terrible.

28. "His horse recently died" *laughs* what?

29. "When I have a disagreement with someone, I find the best course of action is simply to pretend they are dead." Ha! I think I just like all of the terrible people in the show. They're more fun!

30. My family was indeed worried about me as a child since I only loved the Disney villains.

31. That was an odd dance.

32. I mean they all look odd to me.

33. "This can all be rather enjoyable" I mean, can it? Can it really?

34. Why do we care about these Kent people?

35. "That is quite ... expressive music" is there music that isn't expressive? Help me god.

36. "I might be pregnant already! I must eat for two." "Your arrogance does not count as two people." I DON'T CARE, THEY HAVE THE BEST LINES. THEY'RE NEARLY FUNNY.

37. MOM. WE ALREADY HAD SEX.

38. "INSERTS HIMSELF? Inserts himself WHERE?" Like this is the most entertaining part of the show.

39. "Did you read the passage about Lady Carter's housekeeper??" Read it? I wrote it!

40. Again, the gossiping about Colin helping Penelope should be dramatic and it's ... not? Like they do the vertigo effect and she's crying in the carriage and it still feels muted.

41. "I could die tomorrow and I've never been kissed and that would kill me." "But you'd already be dead, so..." Paraphrasing but LOL. I know what they're doing/going for but it really just sounds like he does NOT want to kiss her.

42. Also giving Jacob and Bella vibes. If you don't want me to die you must kiss me.

LET'S EXTORT KISSES.

43. Nicola deserves a better screen partner, jesus.

44. This is supposed to be transformative and I just DON'T believe it.

[sweetbuckybarnes]

Penelope's Callers 3/10

Summary: Colin calls on Penelope, but finds that Penelope already has callers.

Taglist: @josephine-waters

Masterlist

The morning after Lady Danbury's ball, Colin got up early and barely ate his breakfast as he thought over what he would say to Penelope when he called on her.

"Colin, what is the matter?" Violet asked over her cup of tea. Before Colin could Evernote spit a reply out, in rushed Eloise with the latest Lady Whistledown's Society Papers.

"She'll make up anything just to get our attention!" Eloise exclaimed. "Miss Penelope Featherington danced with three different men last night. Duke Harry Dankworth of Flintshire, Mr. Marcus Anderson and Lord Debling. Maybe it's time she hung up the shrine she holds for Mr. Colin Bridgerton." This made Eloise laugh. "Penelope having feelings for Colin, it's absurd!"

As Eloise continued to laugh, Violet looked over at her son, who seemed to have sunk further into his chair. Could other people see the crush Pen had on him, but somehow he couldn't? As he came to realise his feelings, Pen was pushing hers to the side.

"Eloise, why don't you go show the new Whistledown to Francesca and Hyacinth?" Violet asks her second eldest daughter, who shrugged her shoulders and walked away. Once Eloise was gone, Violet took a seat closer to Colin. "Colin, darling."

"She hasn't, hasn't she? She's had feelings for me this whole time?" He asks, looking over at his mother.

"Truthfully, darling. She's loved you for years..." Violet tells him, and Colin nearly slips further into his seat.

An upset noise left Colin when the words left Violet's mouth. "Mama, what do I do?" He nearly whines.

Violet reached over and fiddled with the hair on the top of his head. "Flowers. That's always a good place to start," Colin looked up at her. "Get her roses."

Colin had heard for years between his mother and younger sister Daphne that different flowers and colours mean different things. "Yellow roses? Yellow will-"

"No."

Colin looked over at Violet, surprised she cut him off so suddenly.

"Never give a woman you intend to court, yellow roses. Never. Do you hear me, Colin Bridgerton?" He nodded his head, almost scared of his mother. "Now, they can't be lavender roses, because she's not your first love," Colin looked at his mother confused. "You were engaged to her cousin during her first season."

Colin blinked, remembering the time when he was engaged to Marina. He wished he could wipe that experience off the face of the earth. "What I feel for Penelope, it's a lot stronger than anything I felt for Marina."

Violet looked at her son, he had the same look on his face as Edmund when she was doused in flour at eight years old. Of all of her children, Colin was the most like her late husband, and she could see so much of herself in Penelope as she was once a wallflower and clung to the safety net of the edge of the balls.

"Lavender roses will do nicely then, my darling."

After a visit to the florists, Colin arrived at the Featherington Home, there were already three carriages sitting on the road. Judging by the crests on the side, it was Dankworth, Anderson and Debling. The same three men were seen dancing with Penelope at last night's ball.

Colin muttered a curse and jogged up the steps. Standing by the door was Ludders, Featherington's loyal butler.

"Mr. Bridgerton," Ludders greets.

"I'm here to see Miss Penelope," he says, rolling the bouquet over in his arms.

Ludders blinks. "I will go see with Mrs. Featherington if you will be accepted," he says, allowing Colin in and then he waits at the end of the corridor in front of the door which leads to Featherington's green drawing room.

But the door opened, and he was allowed in, the first face he sought out was Pen's as she sat on the sofa next to her mother, looking at him with scrunched eyebrows and judging eyes. It was obvious it wasn't Pen who allowed him in.

"Mr. Bridgerton, we weren't expecting you," Portia Featherington says, sitting up straight as if she had a wooden ruler stuck down the back of her dress. "Would you like to take a seat next to Lord Debling?"

It should be noted that sat on the other side of his Pen was Prudence, the only other unmarried Featherington lady.

"Thank you for seeing us on such short notice," said Lord Debling, who stared Colin down out of the corner of his eye. That's when Colin remembered Lord Debling, from the night of the Featherington ball, when he was so drunk out of his mind he couldn't tell his left from his right.

"It's my pleasure, Lord Debling," Portia smiled, not taking notice of Colin. It had been well-known that Portia wanted to marry one of her daughters off to one of the Bridgerton sons.

Colin didn't pay attention to anything Portia was saying, as he just kept looking at Penelope, wondering what was going through her head. The sun was shining off her hair, and sometimes in her eyes when it came out from behind a cloud, which would cause her to squint for a moment.

"Penelope, would you stop squinting!" Portia very nearly demanded of her daughter.

"The sun is in my eyes, mama," Penelope said, raising her hand to give her eyes some shade. The sun made the freckles appear like stars on her arms and cheeks.

"Who are your flowers for, Bridgerton?" Asked Anderson, who stared down the sofa at Colin.

For a second, Colin forgot he was holding the lavender roses. He could see Portia motion to Prudence for her to sit up straighter.

But, Colin handed the bouquet over to Penelope, who stares up at him, very surprised.

Lifting her hand to take them, she gave him a small smile which made his heart flutter. "Thank you, Mr. Bridgerton," and his heart stopped fluttering.

He got used to her calling him both Colin, and Col on the rare occasion, but it wasn't often she called him Mr. Bridgerton. He didn't like it.

[shadesofnavy]

If I may ask, does Pico know the full extent of what Adams' family put him through all his life and how only ONE family member actually bothered to give him some actual care? Actually does he even know the full extent of what his father went through?

If so then uhm Pico feel free to shoot me afterwards for this but with how much of a depressed mess Adams was, him abandoning you was probably the kindest thing he could do in his current state. It was wrong yes and I don't agree with what he has done, but you can't deny that he wasn't exactly the most stable person there

Pico has no idea. Not one fucking bit. Adams never told him about what the Dankworth family, besides the short "they weren't good people." He never explained why they were when asked, and he'd tell Pico not to ask about them whenever he got curious when he was younger. He hated to think and talk about what the Dankworth family was. He appreciated his older sister who was the only person who bothered to fucking raise him, but he didn't even want to think about her.

Pico has no idea why his dad was the way he was towards him, why he never truly loved him, why he was the most depressive person he's ever met besides himself. To him, Adams will always be the bastard who booked it when shit went downhill. The crook who left completely him high and dry. The one who let him become who he is today. Pico loved Adams. He was the only person in his life that he trusted and loved, that he felt safe with, and he just left.

And he wondered about it. It killed him that he didn't know why. He blamed his own existence that Adams was the way he was. He hated himself, and he later grew to hate Adams.

[dollypopup]

I'm in the same boat as you on all of the opinions you've been sharing publicly. Do you think there's any chance that they'll release any additional scenes that they nonsensically cut?

I don't know if you'll be feeling up to writing any fanfiction, as I've had a bad taste in my mouth about all this myself, but everything of yours I've read is amazing and I looked forward to all that you share!

Fortunately or unfortunately, all I know how to do is share opinions publicly lol The curse and benefit of saying everything with my whole chest, I guess. I really doubt that they'll release anything extra, sadly. For as much as the production listens to fans (and I actually think that's what caused a lot of problems this season-- when you write to try to please fans and not for the good of the narrative, you're bound to have pitfalls in the story you want to tell, but I digress), they don't really respect us very much, you know?

I've been writing a bit! Finishing Come Over Here and Profound For Me, which has been difficult because it's my version of S3 and Part 2. . .was painful, but I have an ideal ending for it and whether anyone else likes it (prob the story I've gotten the most polarity about!) I'm writing it for me, and that's what matters.

I'm really grateful that you enjoy my stories! I don't know what will come from my account in the future, there are some WIPs in the works. Cohapfm will def be finished, I'm prioritizing my selkie AU, and there's a fun modern comedy where Colin and Portia hate each other but he gets a friend to hook up with her and she's suddenly super nice after she's had an orgasm lmfao Hopefully that washes some bad taste away! Here, have a snippet of that one. I think we could all use some levity

Since the first moment Portia Featherington and Colin Bridgerton met, they had hated each other. Detested, with a passion that rivaled only the strength of how indifferent Portia was to her own daughter, and as much Colin loved her. Odd, really, considering they’d met when he was just a gangly thirteen year old, but Portia had never much liked children– her own, or anyone else’s. 

Colin delighted so much in kicking footballs into her prized lemon tree, dying Biscuit with beet juice so he’d come back with hot pink hearts over his white fur, and leaving prank calls- Congratulations! You have won tickets to the Graham Norton Show! To claim your tickets, please say milk 20 times in a row. . .great, now what do cows drink? Oh, so sorry! It’s water. No tickets for you!- that made her mum stomp around the kitchen and swear her revenge. 

So infuriated did he make Portia Featherington that though she claimed Penelope would die loveless and alone, but hey, at least Portia would never need a nursing home, when they began dating, she simply refused to acknowledge it. When he was her friend, he was but an acquaintance, upon becoming her boyfriend, finally her friend, and now that he was her husband– well, boyfriend was generous. 

Which was why Penelope nearly choked on her mashed potatoes when Portia gave a long suffering sigh and asked– “So, Colin, what is your favorite food?” over the dinner. It was a once in the blue sort of occasion, as Penelope imagined she got lonely in her big house with no one left to fill it. Prudence had moved in with John right before becoming Mrs. Dankworth in a surprise shotgun wedding, Phillipa and Albion already had her sweet niece Phoebe, and Colin had delighted in christening every last room of their flat with Penelope the instant they secured the lease. 

Why in the world would she even ask him? She despised him! So much so that when they walked through the door, though she welcomed Penelope, tepidly, but still, she glared at Colin’s choice of outfit, disgusted at the casual T-shirt and his grown out hair– If you’ve not funds enough to afford a pair of clippers, I can be charitable so you might look presentable for once. To which he replied Say, Portia, did you get new shoes? They hide your hooves remarkably well!

What was she doing asking him his favorite food? Portia had never cared about Colin’s favorite anything?

And then, she did actually choke, when beside her, Colin responded unhesitatingly, with “Pussy.”

[andthebubbles]

bridgerton 3x02 (spoilers under cut ofc) (it's liveblogging so it's a bit repetitive)

i swear penelope is not THAT awkward as she now seems to be (when talking to the gentlemen in the park......)

also, as always, enjoying the benedict content :3

and i don't find eloise annoying this season!! in fact i'm just waiting for more creloise aaaah

portia reminding her daughters to get pregnant fast lmao

why is colin raking about lmao

the polin so far is boring... but i'm hoping it gets more interesting soon. mostly i'm just waiting for more benedict and more creloise...

ohhh the eloise and francesca scene; i love all the siblings interactions tbh

BCGH playing cards!

polin doing unchaperoned things lol

HAHAHA pen's "have you gone mad?" IKR

okay so far the polin is boring.... and colin chucks her in the study and pen starts touching a coat? i presume that's colin's, not anthony's lol (certainly it doesn't look like anthony's study anyway) // okay yeah it's colin's study and pen is about to read porn apparently

colin and eloise!! more sibling shenanigans. i love it

BENEDICT WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS

"they've taken to hunting in packs" wait isn't that a line from something else...? (eta: oh! harry potter??)

WHY IS HE

SCREECHING WITH LAUGHTER WHY WAS THAT SO AGGRESSIVE

is he already drunk???

portia called dankworth pretty?? haha

eloise doing an s1 anthony. love to see it

SCREAMINGGGG CRESSIDA SKJFGKJFG WHY SKJFGNKG YES THIS IS SUCH GOOD ADVICE

oh goshhh the heart eyes cressida continuously does at eloise 🥺

ummm are they gonna fuck

portia put that biscuit back on the tray?!?! haha

PORTIA GIVING SEX ED LESSONS??

wait, eloise confided in cressida about colin's lessons, but... it showed her not telling anyone any gossip? but her mum said it? or... aghgh well i'll see soon

eyyy yes, cressida didn't tell :3 and BOOM she's dishing out some good lines here :3 (the one about the looking glass) (omg her being hurt at eloise accusing her, i love her so much)

portia reminds me of my own mum re the benefits of not getting married ha...

WHAT. PEN ASKED FOR A FUCKING KISS??????

omg this convo is hilarious, and awkward

but the music once they kissed was glorious!

[britcision]

IT HAS BEEN A WHILE but it’s 3am and I’m not in bed so it’s DRAGONS O’CLOCK

And today we’re going to CHEAT

So I told you about my good good dragonborn lad, Yuriy Babin

And now I’m going to tell you more about his good good son, Havoc, aka my favourite NPC about 70% of the time

He’s a void dragonborn like his daddy, but only half dragonborn (dragonbiefling, because I refuse to allow humans to be the only monsterfuckers in the world), but he is still a very good boy

And my Havoc is an extremely good boy

He does not have any kind of disabilities or learning disorders; he’s just around 7’ tall, built like a brick shit house, and decided that since thinking too hard only made him sad, he will never have a single thought again

And when you’re about 7’ tall, massive, and have two beefy and much smarter girlfriends, approaching every person like a new friend and every situation as a fun adventure doesn’t really have consequences

He has all the sense of direction of a particularly confused duckling, which is appropriate because he is a path of the duck barbarian, and is frequently found Leroy Jenkinsing his way about town

(In spite of at least one of his girlfriends trying to keep some form of track of him; the other is perfectly happy to cheer him on and is therefore unhelpful)

Finding Havoc and bringing him back to his mom’s shop will net any adventurer a 15% discount for a month on her magical potions and wares

This discount is frequently necessary

The party already met Havoc because I’ll allow them to try and cast Message to each other without knowing where the other is, with a d20 roll to see if it succeeds

And Havoc was extremely interested to suddenly hear a new voice in his head, because heavens know it wasn’t a thought, so when the voice stopped he wandered around til he found them

Most of them promptly adopted my sweet golden retriever ass boy but he’s had a couple run ins with the cleric because the cleric tried to get Havoc to help him find the party when they got separated

Havoc, who had left the party about 5 minutes before, did not recognise their descriptions until the ranger’s dire wolf found them both

The cleric is not a fan of Havoc

Havoc is a barbarian lad, but he’s an interesting barbarian lad partially because of his heritage

And I actually don’t mean the dragon side

He’s got a nifty breath weapon that can be either gravity, star fire (radiant/fire damage mix), or for some ungodly reason a teleport, and a scattering of black scales on royal blue skin that have the occasional moving star or nebula peeking through

But see, that’s just aesthetic

That’s not what makes him interesting (although being a lovely himbo lad is justification all its own)

See, Havoc’s mom is a level 20 chaos warlock formerly known as Mayhem, who could probably ascend to patronhood under her primordial chaos spelldaddy with a little extra work thanks to a dash of extra fey heritage

(Mostly useless, but I really can’t recommend The Half Race Handbook from DMs Guild enough, it keeps shit balanced by taking primary traits from one species and secondary traits from the other; mixes beyond that are just for flavour)

And Mama wants to make sure her boy is safe on the road, so she pulled some strings, and got her sweet little boy a pact weapon

No, Havoc does not have a single level in warlock

Because in this magical land we value informed consent, and even warlock pact magic has to acknowledge that this himbo ass motherfucker cannot and will not be informed

What he does have is the only gun in the entire game

This gun is sentient, as all good pact weapons should be, and used to go by the name Pierce Braxton Percival vonKron Cheswick Fernsby Dankworth the third because yes, he’s an homage to Critical Role’s Percy and his original dark path

Havoc calls him Crunchy

And Crunchy is a throwing gun

What is a throwing gun you ask? Why, it’s a gun in a world where no guns have yet existed, in the hands of a sweet, beautiful himbo who knows that this is not what crossbows look like

Silly Crunchy, you can’t shoot. You have no arms!

So clearly he’s some kind of bad boomerang

Crunchy would love nothing more than to not come back to Havoc ever again

He’d love to be lost, or stolen, or put in the hands of someone with a single surviving braincell who he could persuade to use his trigger

But he’s a magic pact weapon

So he always comes back

Much to his dismay

The ranger’s going to be pissed cuz I told her I put a gun in the world and that she couldn’t have it and I think she’s been planning to have the rogues help her

Buuuuuuut that’s not gonna go their way 😈

They don’t know Havoc has Crunchy yet but I can’t wait for them to find out

One of Havoc’s girlfriends is also a dragonborn but she’ll have to wait for it to be 3am another bad night

And at some point I’ll get back to the actual dragon dragons on the list but fuck you guys Havoc is the best of them all and no we can NEVER let him talk to Chatsmont

[recentanimenews]

Love of Kill – 01 (First Impressions) – With a Song in Her Heart

Bounty Hunter Chateau Dankworth (Oonishi Saori) comes afoul of a killer more skilled than she: Song Ryang-ha (Shimono Hiro). He overpowers her, but it’s not her life he wants to steal; it’s her heart. So he lets her go in exchange for her name and number.

While Chateau’s options were limited that night, she quickly comes to regret the one she chose. Song proceeds to constantly text, call, and even send her a video of a target of hers he caught first, and is willing to offer her in a trade.

They meet at a juice bar Song digs, but as you’d expect, Chateau wants to get down to cold, logical business, not juice. Her gambit involves surprising and then stunning him with a taser, but he’s to quick, and almost seems to predict her movements. It’s gotta be frustrating for a skilled killer like Chateau to more than meet her match.

Song’s terms for giving her her target are nothing monetary. Rather, he wants to go on a date with her for Christmas Eve. Chateau, who distrusts anything free but can’t pass up the opportunity to cross a name off her list, goes along with it, showing up an hour late doing the bare minimum needed for their encounter to be interpreted as a “date”.

Song takes thing to a fancy hotel room with a gorgeous city view, complete with dinner and a 1982-vintage wine. Chateau wisely remains at a remove, wondering out loud how Song plans to “use her” and why she’d be “of interest” to him. To Song’s credit, he doesn’t try anything truly vile, and when Chateau wants to leave, they check out.

Before parting ways at the station, Song does get in a quick farewell hug to “confirm” something: her “scent” doesn’t bother him, while everyone else smells “putrid”. We end with a cryptic voiceover portending a “final stop” in their romance “ending in tears”, then a flashback to a young Chateau in the back of a car, presumably her parent murdered in the driver’s seat.

Love of Kill had me feeling a lot of things. Contempt for Song, mostly, and sympathy for Chateau, who couldn’t escape his clutches if she tried. I love stoic, logical characters like Chateau; even though she doesn’t really say or do much, she exudes a wonderfully cool detached aura, which makes Song’s stalking that much more upsetting.

The thing is, as someone rather desensitized to antiheroes (Soprano, White, Draper, and Dexter to name a few), I didn’t despise Song, and even kinda sorta came to understand why he decided to pursue Chateau with such gusto. If everyone in the world “smelled” terrible to you and made you sick, what would you do if you suddenly found someone who didn’t?

So far I can’t really see Chateau falling for this guy, but at the very least they seem to be kindred spirits: killers keeping themselves at an expansive remove from the rest of humanity. But I definitely want to see where this goes.

By: braverade

[itdobe-foggy]

Heart and Soul (Aaron Hotchner x reader)

Requested: no

Warnings: language

Word count: 2,684(oops)

“Well, are you gonna say anything?” You were freaking out. Absolutely freaking out. You had finally done it, You confessed your feelings. You confessed your feelings to your BOSS! God, what were you thinking?!?! Why did you have to go and talk to Prentiss like that?!?! She told you he probably felt the same way because, “you’re so pretty and smart and amazing at your job.” Still think that Emily? Because you sure don’t. He’s just standing here, looking at you looking at him with expecting eyes. But, of course, he did nothing. Hell, you didn’t even see him blink. 

Your heart is going 1,000 miles an hour. And so are your thoughts. Although Reid would scientifically differ, it was happening. As soon as he looked like he was about to say something, the door opened, It was the one and only bubbly Penelope Garcia. “Sir? We have a case. It’s an ugly one.” You were still standing there, almost starting to sweat with anxiety. “Hotch? Are you still in there?” 

Of course he was. That was a ridiculous question, Maybe you could play it off as a rhetorical question? No, then you’ll be talking too much and you’ll probably seem desperate for an answer; a chance to hear his deep, rough voice. 

“Well,” you cleared your throat, “It’s been fun but we’ve got to get going.” God, you were hoping your shared team WOULD’NT notice the tension between you too but that was very unlikely. You went out his doorway slowly, hoping and waiting for him to say something, anything. But why would he return your feelings? 

Strictly because, well, he was your boss and closed off to everyone. So why would he tell you his problems when he has Rossi? You hoped he could trust you like everyone trusts him but the legitimate likelihood of that was minimal. After Hotch and Rossi knew each other for god knows how long and he only knew you for about a year and a half.

This walk, this agonizingly slow walk of simply a few feet, was a terrible one. Why? The answer was simply. You did the one thing you had tried to prevent by pushing it down. But maybe feelings are like a volcano in some ways. You hope it doesn’t happen yet deep down, deep deep down, everyone knew it would. It was bound to happen. Because that’s how life is sickeningly amazing. You fall in love, effortlessly, yet you can’t do anything about it. 

As you sat in your chair and everyone was staring at the doorway, waiting for Hotch, your eyes met with Emily’s. She looked hopeful because she knew how much courage it took for you to do that. 

“Ok, my fine furry friends. You will be going to Oklahoma. In the past week and a half, four women have been killed. I’ve already tried to see if anything connected the victims and there’s nothing. Amiee Schifler, 38, was a white teacher. Katrina Dankworth , 42, was a Spanish lawyer. Jolene Spinster, 30, was a stay at home mixed mom. And then  Leanna Marlow, 39, was an African American scientist. There is zip that connects these girls. But after they were killed there was something that was fishy. All of these girls got a tattoo by the UnSub. And when I mean unprofessional I mean it like never before. I’m talking jagged lines, sometimes there was too much pressure, other times there wasn’t enough, it was the whole deal. The tattoo was a date. We don’t understand the date just yet, but they all said different years. The M.E. can’t figure out why. Hopefully you cutie patooties can.” Well, this should be fun. A case where we should tell the rest of the something else yet Hotch and I can’t even look at each other. Great.

Three days later

Hotch said that after that we could have the weekend off. We all needed it, all for different reasons. For Morgan, an unknown African American late 20′s female so he would have to talk to his aunt yet again. For Prentiss and Reid, she was with him when he got shot, and she got grazed, so they would have a thrill about paperwork. For Rossi, he found out about his ex-wife having ALS and would probably pass away soon. For JJ, Henry went to the hospital so she left early. And for you and Aaron, well, you had some thinking to do. 

You thought, and hoped, that a bath would clear your mind. So, you let yourself get taken away my the faint Frank Sinatra music and lavender scent take you to paradise. It was peaceful. The best part was, you could change the scene however you want. You could be on a beach with friends and laughing, or inside a log cabin while it rained as you were curled up with a good book. 

But of course, as soon as it came, it was gone. The weekend was now over, everyone feeling refreshed. Reid was on leave and Prentiss would still travel just not go in the field. As for JJ, Henry was feeling better, it was just a little bug so Will stayed home with him. Morgan had to deliver the unsettling news that they still didn’t know where Cindi was.

What about Aaron? Well, that’s where you are right now. Heading to the BAU ready for a paperwork day. As soon as you stepped behind the glass doors, you heard a ping from your phone. You looked down to see who it was. 

H - “Meet me in my office in 10.”

Y - “Ok boss”

Seeing his name made your heart skip a beat but it also made your stomach drop. Well, you have 10 minutes to kill and hopefully paperwork would calm down your nerves. It was nothing bad, right? There’s only one way to find out.

Now you were starting to panic. It had been 8 minutes. The dreaded meeting was yet to come. You told Emily everything. How you spilled your heart and soul out to him and he stood there with no expression, how the two of you barely made eye contact the entire case, how unbothered he was when you spoke, all of it. So when she told you that the meeting might go well.... Let’s just say you doubted her and told yourself not to get your hopes so high, But you did anyway. 

After your excruciatingly long wait of just 10 minutes was up, you made your way toward that door. His door. Did they add more stairs or were you exaggerating? Who knows. This felt like the longest walk of your life even though it was just three steps, three small steps but in that moment felt like climbing on boulders. 

Your heart was pounding out of your chest and your hands were slightly starting to sweat. Before you entered the door, you looked over to see Emily giving you a thumbs up and winking at you. That made you feel a little bit better. Not a whole lot, but a bit.

Slowly, you opened the door. Whether to try and calm your heart rate down or to simply acknowledge your presence without speaking, or even both, was beyond you. You could feel your heart racing as you stepped through the doorway. As you walked in, you could hear your shoes against the ground and Aaron scribbling a pen on a report.

You cleared you throat to relieve it of the frog caught in it. 

“You wanted to see me?” You spoke in a quiet tone in the doorway, hoping that maybe, just maybe, if you didn’t draw too much attention to yourself, the situation would go away. Unfortunately, that wasn’t the case. 

“Yes, please sit down.”

You sat down wiping the sweat from your hands to your dark pants. You looked down, too scared to make any sort of eye contact. You couldn’t bring yourself to even attempt to look him in the eyes. The reason being that the two of you hadn’t looked at each other willingly. It was just that awkward between you and your section chief. 

“Agent (Y/L/N), what you said the other day was unprofessional. However, I’ve been thinking a lot since then.” Oh boy. That couldn’t be good. What was he thinking about? Had he come to a conclusion? If so, what was it? Was it good? What does he mean?

Your mind and heart started racing. Every possible thought going through your head. You feel your stomach drop as all the worst case scenarios run like a movie in the back of your mind. 

“Sir, am I getting fired?” You felt like you were asking a ridiculous question. It felt almost as ridiculous as the scenarios rushing like waves in your mind. One of them being your favorite which you can’t stop thinking about: him kissing you. Yes, his lips looked rough but the thought of the warmth coming from his lips onto your was an image you didn’t want to go away.

“No, (Y/L/N), you aren’t getting fired. You’re a solid agent, I have no reason to fire you.” You let out a sign, mentally and physically. That was such a relief to hear. You were determined that because you let your personal life interfere with your professional life, he would just get rid of you. Leave you to the wolves broken-hearted. 

“(Y/N)...,” he started slowly. You didn’t want to see and sign of sadness, guilt, or anything along those lines. 

“Yeah Hotch?” you spoke starting to slowly bring your eyes, not to meet his, but to at least get in those dark orbs general direction.

“I spoke to Emily the other day.” Your heart dropped into your stomach. Why would she do that? What did she tell him? Would she tell him anything? You hoped not. 

“Oh yeah? What did you two talk about?” You looked down at your hands, sweating again. You started picking at the around your middle finger. Unconsciously, your leg had also start bouncing without you telling it to. When you noticed, you immediately stopped yourself.

“We talked about you.” There was a short pause but it was too long to your liking. 

“You and your emotions. (Y/N), she told me how much you love me and how you feel when I walk into a room. Whenever I was with Haley, we argued. A lot. And I hated it. I loved her but this job is my life. Even on our best days, Haley and I didn’t feel that way about each other. Over these past few days, I’ve looked at you with a new light. I’ve felt such a warmth I’ve never felt before. When we got back from Oklahoma, I went and talked to Dave. I told him that I have feelings for you and he said he already knew. He said he could see it before I was even thinking about it.”

You could feel your heart rate start to slow down as you got more calm. You slowly started to even your breathing as you two talked about the older Italian. He was a father figure to everyone and had a special place in everyone’s heart. 

“Aaron, this is Rossi. He’s the real life equivalent of Cupid. I thought that was common knowledge.” You tried to lighten the mood which seemed to be successful since you got a true and rare Aaron Hotchner smile™. That was always a win in your book.

“(Y/N), I don’t know what’s gotten into me but since that day, I just can’t stop thinking about everything you said. More importantly. I can’t stop thinking about you. Your hair, your gorgeous eyes, everything. I realize I had feelings for you. I just pushed them so far down because of Haley, that not even I knew about it. “

So, wait, wait, wait. What? Is he saying what you think he’s saying? Oh great. Now here’s the awkward cliche “what are we now?” A question you only thought you’d hear on TV shows. 

“So what are you saying Hotch?” Really? That’s the best thing you could’ve come up with? What, are you in high school? You were an idiot sometimes. You think he knows what he’s saying but with an inexpressible face, there’s no telling. Right at this moment, you needed one thing. To hear him say it. 

There was a part of you that half expected him to say he doesn’t feel the same. It was something you had dreaded thinking about but since here he was, knowing everything you felt towards him. Well, you were a profiler after all. You had a feeling.

“(Y/N), you know what I’m trying to say.” You didn’t know if he was going to say more but you knew you had to interrupt him. 

“Say it. I need you to actually say it so I don’t get my hopes up. If I’m going to get heart broken, I need to know from you. Say it, Hotch.” If you were right, this is going to be a life changer. For everyone. 

“I have feelings for you. I’ve tried to fight it. I’ve tried to hide it. I’ve tried to get away from it but I can’t. When we went to Oklahoma, you started coming into my thoughts. I’m not ready to say I love you because I’m still hurt about Haley but I’m damn near close to it.” You were baffled. You were at a loss of words. 

You could see him starting to stand up. He walked around his desk and your eyes followed the movement of his dark suit. He was now behind you, standing in front of his couch. Your options were to awkwardly sit in front of him or you could stand up and face him for the first time in almost a week. The second option sounded better. 

You were standing up, looking down at the ground not ready to meet his eyes. You were focusing on anything else. The smallest of scratches on the floor, the feeling of the cushion, the sound or your heart beat, anything. As you finally stood up, you looked to meet his eyes but instead you saw his chest and neck. He was standing right in front of you. 

“Oh, I’m sorry. I didn’t realize how close you were standing. That’s my fau-”

Your sentence got cut short as you felt lips on yours. It was Aaron’s rough yet extraordinarily soft and warm lips in yours. It was a soft kiss. Both you were worried that you would scare the other one away. You wrapped your arms around his neck as he lashed his hands in your hips.

As you pulled away, you looked into his dark eyes.

“Well that wasn’t expected,” you chuckled. He looked into you eyes as his hands went from your hips up to your sides. You loved feeling his hands over your skin. They kept going up to trace over your arms and finally landed as he cupped your cheeks.

“That was the whole point. Spontaneity is a beautiful thing.” He said as he joking rolled his eyes.

Suddenly, the sound of knocking filled the room the two of you were in. Whoever was at the door didn’t give either of you time to move.

Rossi entered the room, chuckling.

“Don’t worry guys. I just came in here to say congratulations.” As soon as he finished his sentence, the three of you looked out the door onto the bullpen.

What you saw made you look down and made your face heat up and turn as red as a tomato.

It was the whole team just staring up at the office smiling at the two of you.

Soon the happiness was spread as he wrapped an around you. He chuckled as you looked up at him and he kissed the side of your head.

You felt content. More importantly, with his arm around you looking out at the team, you felt home. That’s a feeling you never want to leave.

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Cleo Laine - If Music Be The Food Of Love It's so easy to say "Excruciatingly White Jazz". And if i were 19 right now, i would name my new band "Excruciatingly White Jazz". But all your fans are just gonna call you EWJ. "Where's that at? If you need me i'll be at the bar... " In these times, it seems half the people are worried about "cultural appropriation" and the other half is busy mashing everything up. Me? I'm gonna throw my hat in the ring of everyone mashing everything up. I mean i understand the problems inherent in "cultural appropriation"... but where were you assholes when The Police happened? "Not even born yet." is not my idea of a good excuse. So, yes - i can get behind British White Jazz. Especially if Cleo Laine is doing the singing.

Seriously, we all love John Coltrane, but he was not gonna come up with the idea of singing Shakespeare to jazz. And that in a nutshell is why it's good White Ladies discovered Jazz, too. White women know a good bargain when they see one - and lyrics in the Public Domain is indeed a bargain! Even i can include the entire lyrics here, for not even a penny!

If music be the food of love, play on. Give me excess of it that, surfeiting, The appetite may sicken, and so die. That strain again, it had a dying fall. Oh, it came o'er my ear like the sweet sound, That breathes upon a bank of violets, Stealing and giving odor. Enough, no more. 'Tis not so sweet now as it was before. O spirit of love, how quick and fresh art thou, That, notwithstanding thy capacity Receiveth as the sea, nought enters there, Of what validity and pitch soe'er, But falls into abatement and low price Even in a minute. So full of shapes is fancy That it alone is high fantastical.

What does it mean? Oh, what does it mean? It's brilliant is what it is - and why is it here in Jazz, and not in a Pop song? Because Popular song is not really concerned with telling these truths. You can't sell the swindle, if you put the truth out there on the line! You can't tell them that by the 500th listen, "Call Me Maybe" is gonna make you want to rip your eardrums out. You can get rich telling people that their first love is going to go away (and rather, quickly?)... SAID NO ONE, EVER! The brilliance of Shakespeare is often that he's the exception to the rules - it don't hurt that he was very much involved with MAKING the rules - he COULD get away with plainly explaining the obvious. The thing that you first love is gonna make you sick one day - 99 times out of a hundred. "Enough! No more!!!"

I was introduced to this song, Cleo Laine's music by another gay man. So, this tune also makes me wonder about the idea of Gay music - is there such a thing as inherently Gay music? I don't know what Cleo Laine would say, but i would like to think she would say, "Well if there's such a thing as British Jazz... ?"

Enough! No more!!!

STOP PRESS! I have been informed by a Scottish e-mail pal that Lady Dankworth (Dame Cleo Laine by her own rights) is not white. She is of mixed racial heritage. (Her father was black and her mother was white - unmarried, as well!) Her skin is relatively white and her husband was white. (And outside of the wigbox, that certainly explains that fierce mane of hers.) Me? Like the perfectly awful white man i am, assumed she was just like me. I regret the error, but more the assumption.