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there will be times you look back on old writings and say "I wrote this?!?!?!?!????" a lot of the time it will be negative, but that just means you've improved, because now you know it's not great.
but there will probably be, once in a while, an instance where you are awestruck by your past self. you thought you couldn't write that good here and now, but you've already done it
its ok to suck
my grammar and spelling are pitiful at best
but i write anyway, even just to get the ideas down, to practice, whatever reason i can find.
and you do get betting with practice!
practicing is probably the best way to improve your writing. the next best thing would be to read more, and read quality writing.
Keep writing! even if it sucks, even if only you will ever read it, even if it will never see the light of day again, even if you'll delete it right away. just do it, for the experience (points). the only way to improve is to learn and more importantly, to try.
you can learn just as much from mistakes as successes, and some would argue you learn more from failures.
so write! you don't have to be proud of it, but make it!
''what if my writing isn't good eno--'' what if it's a reflection of your soul. what if it has a place in this world. what if you write it anyway
#write#writing advice#do it bad#do it scared#do it poorly#do it badly#but do it#do it#writing#psa#love you
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Hidden In The Woods
In the woods around Hawkins there is a van, and in that van lives an Eddie. Not a nasty beat-up van in constant need of repair, nor is it a creepy van that looks like it belongs to a serial killer; Itâs Eddie's van and that means comfort. It has a perfectly undented body painted green and a mattress in the back. Or well, he doesn't actually live in the van. It's a nice van sure but Eddie lives in a doublewide trailer with his uncle, not his van��no matter how often they joke about it.Â
(and there is a small chance heâs lying when he says it doesn't constantly break down)
Heâs heading to his van now actually.Â
Eddie longs for the ability to teleport at times like this; heâs trudging through the woods after a particularly fucked drug deal, and all he wants is to be in the back of his beloved shitbox, wrapped in blankets and smoking a joint.Â
But Eddie can't magically teleport to the van and he also canât ban Tommy Hagan from buying his weedâwho was a major ass today by the wayâbecause he gets most of his income from the jerk.Â
He also canât park closer to where he deals, which sucks. Eddie knows Hopper looks for his van parked on the side roads, so woods it is. Boo.
It's not that much fartherâŚ.
And it's a nice day...
Plus the trees are prettyâŚ
Eddie loves fall: the trees light up so magically in the sunbeams like a leafy fire, he sees more gray squirrels dancing about the forest floor this time of year, and Halloween is just awesome.Â
This Halloween especially. He led a bitchinâ Halloween one-shot with his new DnD club this year and nothing could sour his mood for almost a week afterward. Even though there was some weird pumpkin blight that year that meant no jack-o-lanterns and the controlled burns in the woods behind Forrest Hills kept him up at night all that month.Â
Plus he had a really good fall break so far.Â
Okay, maybe things aren't sooooo bad. Trust a walk in nature to clear his head. Now that heâs calmed down Eddie can appreciate how nice everything is.Â
Wait.
Eddie definitely didn't leave the back of the van open when he left.
Maybe things are shit and Eddie is an idiot.Â
FuckÂ
Heâs lanky and gangly and has no weapon to defend himself with, but Eddie still creeps closer to the doors.Â
Hagan couldn't have gotten here before Eddie, so heâs probably not going to get jumped for selling him overpriced weed. Maybe a really smart, really lucky, raccoon just so happened to get the door open? More likely Eddie opened the damn thing himself, completely forgot about it, and is now making mountains out of molehillsâŚ
He props a hand on the closed door and peeks around it into the dim back. And promptly reels back in shock falling flat on his ass.Â
It's a total Occam's Razor moment. The easiest and most simple solution is that the universe hates Eddie Munson. Because that's definitely Steve Harrington in the back of his van. Heâs snuggled deep into Eddieâs blankets and smelling distinctly more omega than the last time he saw the guy. But it's Steve alright.Â
FuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuckÂ
What the fuck is Steve Harrington doing in the back of Eddieâs van? Heâs never even had a conversation with the guy!
What do you do in this situation!Â
Steveâs obviously nested back there, and if He was completely scentless before the fall break heâs gotta be fresh off his presentation heat, so like hell is Eddie going to go barging inâthat's a surefire way to get his face ripped offâbut Eddie also needs to get in that van eventually!Â
He Raises back up on shaky legs, poking his head fully into the back; and takes another good, hard, look.Â
There is still a person in the back of his van. A whole-ass person who wasn't in his van when he left. A person who is without a doubt, Steve.Â
A rustle of movement, a quick shifting of blankets, pulls Eddie back to reality. Thereâs a cute little chirr from the nest followed swiftly by chestnut waves of hair shimming out into the open. Eddie isn't even given time to react before doe-eyes bleary with sleep blink down at him.Â
âEddie!âÂ
And oh isn't that the sweetest little chirp. Eddie watches in astonishment as the omega wiggles to prop himself up against the back of the driver's seat, chirping adorably all the while. Eddie can't decide if heâs more mystified by The Prettiest Boy in Hawkins⢠cuddled up back there, or That he knows Eddieâs name.Â
Now that the omega isn't completely cocooned, Eddie can smell that faintest hint of mint that Steve is throwing into the air paired with heady lavender and it draws him in. Before he even realizes heâs followed his nose and clambered into the back of the van⌠his van.Â
âHey, sleeping beauty,â Eddie starts slowly. Are you comfy?â It's an innocent enough question. Hopefully, if he plays it casually, Steve won't decide Eddieâs a threat and rend him to dust for being in the poor Omegaâs space. Â
Steve didn't seem to understand at first cooing a cute, drawn-out âHi, Eddieâ but eventually he blinked owlishly and replied with a smile âSo cozyâ.Â
âThatâs nice sweetheart, but how bout we get you to your nest, hmm?â the alpha tries to suggest. Oh but now Steve looks a bit confused; drawing his brows together and pouting.Â
âNest? âM in my nest?â Steve says (well actually he whines it, but Eddie is trying to ignore that lest his heart break). Crap what does he do now?
âIâI know youâre nesting right now, uhâbut wouldnât you beâwouldn't you feel better at home?â Eddie reasons.Â
âBut thereâs no nest there!â Steve whines again âThey wont let me have a nest! I wanna stay hereâÂ
âOkay, Okayâ Eddie soothes in a hushed voice,â you don't have to go anywhere you don't want to sweetheartâ Eddie is in so much trouble. Now that he knows Steve won't be pissed at him for being so close, Eddieâs having a hell of a time not being closer. Â
Maybe that wouldn't be a bad thing. Â
Eddie coos from a distance until the whines and whimpers peter out and are replaced by soft sleepy snuffles.Â
âHow did you even get here, big boy?â Eddie questions. The thought has been plaguing him, what happened while he was away?
âI was taking a walkâ Steve starts, he lays his head down and his eyes flutter closed before he continues. âI needed to get away and I went into the woods. I got turned around but you saved me.â
âI saved you?â How the hell did he do that?Â
âMmm hmmm, I smelled yaâ Steve humsâ smelled so good so I followed.â ok, even more confused now. Eddie has anâŚunconventional scentâbasil and tobacco leafâhe can't imagine someone trekking through the woods to find something that smells like pasta sauce and cigarettes. And how long was Steve lost in the woods, how long was he wandering, cold and alone, with only a scent trail for comfort.Â
âHey, Eddie?âÂ
âUh yes?â Eddie focuses back on reality, ready to face whatever heâs about to be asked.
âIf Iâm sleeping beauty, why didn't you wake me with a kiss?â nope not ready for that.Â
âWould you? Uh Doâdid you want me to?â Steve nods against the soft blanket pillowed underneath him. Â
Oh.Â
Eddie feels his resolve crack and threatens to shatter. He can't take advantage of Steve when heâs so vulnerable. Is he vulnerable? Steve isn't still in heat, his mind is sound. But he is upset. Best to leave it be for now.Â
âDo you still want me to kiss you?âÂ
Dang it.
Steve shoots upâramrod-likeâto nod ecstatically. Eddie's resolve shatters. Absolutely not helped by Steveâs little please, please, pleases.Â
âOkayâÂ
It's not like there's anyone around to judge him.
Itâs like the movies, the way they lean in close and steal each other's breath. Steve tastes like honeyed sunshine. It sweetens the omegaâs lavender-mint tea smell in a way that Eddie knows heâll crave till the day he gets buried six feet under. Eddie can't tell where he ends and his darling omega begins, drawn so close together that their purrs rattle in both chests.Â
Only the lack of oxygen drives them apart, though Eddie tries to fight it.Â
âIâll do better next time princessâ the alpha rumbles with care.Â
They seal the deal with another perfect kiss.Â
Hell yeah.
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based on this post Special thanks to @starshideurfics for inspiring me to have Eddie call Steve sleeping beauty like a SIMP
#alpha eddie munson#omega steve harrington#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#omegaverse#they're not even dating#I'll do ya one better#they've never had a conversation before#fanfic
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Mob Movember
Mob Boss Nico x reader
A/n: just a little something inspired by the diva pictured above x
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âSo thatâs like gonna be a thing now?â
Nicoâs eyebrows pinch together, eyes finding yours in the bathroom mirror and he pauses, razor half way to his face and warm water running from the faucet.
âWhat do you mean?â
You shrug and he blinks, looking back at his reflection and biting his bottom lip to pull it taut. Then heâs dragging his razor over a smear of shaving cream on his chin, dipping the razor back into the sink to rinse it.
âYou shaved a lot this week,â you decide to say, âand yet you always skip the space above your lip.â
Nico bristles at that, a petulant pout glaring at you through the mirror and you try not to laugh at him after indirectly insulting his mustache. Itâs not that you hate it per se, it just looks different on him. Heâs still cute, youâll give him that. Itâs impossible for him to ever not be attractive, but the mustache doesnât have the same sexy appeal his beard does.
âDidnât know I had to explain the concept of a mustache to you.â
âOuch,â you hold a hand over your heart. âMean and mustache-y.â
A sigh of annoyance huffs out of his nose, and he shakes his head just once before going back to cleaning up his jawline. âGo away,â he says, but you linger a minute longer to watch him finish shaving, eyes following the bend of his waist when he leans over to rinse off any left over bits of shaving cream.
Giving yourself a moment to appreciate his ass in those light blue jeans he wears all the time, you wonder off before he can look back in the mirror and still see you there.
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âNot you too!â
Timo frowns, looking around curiously as he slides into the passenger seat. Heâs wearing an overly thick puffy coat and those stupid 5 inch inseam shorts from Lululemon that all the boys except Nico wear (much to your dismay) and you were gonna tease him about whether heâs hot or cold but the sight of his face has changed your plans.
âWhat?â He closed the door, immediately warming his hands in front of the vents.
âIs there like a mustache epidemic going around? What is wrong with you and Nico?â
You saw Timo yesterday, and while he had more stubble than he usually does, you didnât think heâd be shaving it off into a mustache too. Itâs been three long days of trying to get Nicoâs new look to grow on you and no matter how times you kiss him, feel the scratch of his freshly shaved cheeks, itâs still not the same. You donât like the way it tickles your upper lip but not your chin, and you donât really like the way that you canât kiss his nose anymore without feeling it.
But youâre trying and itâs hard. Even harder now that your bestie has apparently jumped on the train too.
âYou donât like them?â He asks, not offended but curious. You side eye him, pulling away from the curb and making your way towards the yoga studio.
âIs that why Nico is pouting?â He laughs, clicking his seatbelt. He rubs at his lame excuse of a mustache and you mentally give Nico credit for that. At least he can actually grow a really nice one, not that youâre going to say that to Timo.
âHeâs pouting?â
âUh yeah,â he scoffs, âheâs moped every day this week, Sieges said theyâve been having to talk to clients and stuff because he gets moody right away.â
You cringe, feeling a little bad about the whole thing. You didnât mean to make Nico feel bad or like you donât like his mustache. Yeah you donât love it, but heâs Nico -your Nico -and everything about him is always so beautiful.
âI may be struggling to enjoy it,â you explain hesitantly, âI just am not used to it and heâs never been a mustache guy. Maybe like a day or two but he always shaves.â
âOof,â Timo laughs, âyeah you probably hurt his feelings. Literally his biggest flex is that you think heâs so pretty.â
Groaning painfully, you thump your head against the steering wheel before pouting up at the red light. Youâve always Nico to be a sensitive person, not in a bad way or anything. Heâs just never hid or pushed down feelings when it came to you, and it physically makes you ache to think that your reaction to his new facial hair made him so insecure he didnât want to tell you.
Youâve got some major Nico loving to make up for.
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Nico is sat in the Devils booth of The Rock, hunched over the scheduling iPad as the boys mill around the bar. Jesper and Jonas are actually working it looks like, Jonas holding a ladder that has the smaller of the two men perched at the top, Jesper screwing in a new security camera. Heâs got Mercer and Alex stocking the bar, and you almost laugh at the overly straight and organized bottles on Mercerâs side compared to haphazardly placed ones on Alexâs.
The Hughes boys are doing something theyâre probably not suppose to be doing on the upper level, no where to be seen but definitely heard.
Timo parts from you to go join Jesper and Jonas, who look like they could use it by the way Jesper is trembling on the top rung.
You approach the booth, setting the lunch you brought for Nico onto the table alongside your greens smoothie. He looks up at you when you drop your jacket into the seat, eyes following your movement when you slide in next to him.
âHey,â he mumbles, and something melancholy settles in the air. A bittersweet smile tugs at your lips, your heart throbbing when you take in the dejected look in his big brown eyes and the way heâs pouting.
âHi,â you greet, reaching up brush his hair away from his face. Then you hold his cheek, brushing your thumb over the scar on his cheekbone. âI brought you lunch.â
He doesnât bother to look interested. âThanks baby.â
âI like your mustache,â you say quietly, tenderly pressing your thumb into the hinge of his jaw where you know he gets headaches from clenching. Like its second nature he relaxes, melting into the feeling.
âNo you donât,â he insists, licking at his pouting lips. âSâfine-â
âI do, I do like it Nico. Itâs just different and I was teasing because Iâm not used to it.â
Nico blinks, fluttering those stupidly pretty eyelashes at you and then two dimples sink into his cheeks. âYeah?â
Giggling, you cup the back of his head and draw him closer to you. âYou know youâre always handsome, no matter what.â You kiss him before he can say anything else, smiling when his hair scratches at your cheeks and lip.
Nico hums, reaching around to grip your hip and pull you until youâre half sitting in his lap. Then he melts back into the booth, sighing contently.
âWould you two get a room, Jesus fuck.â
You peck Nicoâs lips one more time for good measure before pulling back, curling into his side and he slips his arm around you.
Nico reaches for his food, and you bite your lip to keep from laughing. The Hughes brothers have made their way down the stairs, and Mercer and Alex have abandoned the bar in favor of crowding around you and Nico.
Which in itself is a little scary, but add the thin and scraggly mustaches they all have is even worse. Desperate for a distraction, you scramble to grab your juice and take a sip, casting a glance over at Nico whoâs smirking proudly. He shares a knowing look with you.
âWhy are you making that face?â
You look at Jack, forcing yourself to only look in his eyes as you clear your throat. âWhat face?â
He points an accusing finger at you. âThat face, why are you laughing?â
âMânot.â
âYou are, Holtz tell her she is.â
Alex looks around helplessly and you do giggle when you realize his poor mustache is nothing but peach fuzz. âOk now sheâs laughing.â
Steadying yourself, you force your smile down. âI love this new look you all have going on.â
Almost immediately they all groan, offended and outraged and you canât even listen to them. Hunching over into Nicoâs shoulder you cackle, tears springing up in your eyes and stomach aching.
You can feel him chuckle, one hand rubbing at your back to calm you down. Finally you peel yourself off of him, wiping at your wet eyes as the boys glare at you.
âDonât be mean, itâs for a good cause.â Mercer defends.
âWhat cause?â
âMovember,â Jack states proudly, âit was Nicoâs idea. Good cause and we all bond over our shared âstaches.â He strokes over his lame excuse of a mustache and Luke cringes, cheeks tinting pink.
You look to Nico. âThis was your doing?â
He looks utterly pleased with himself, shrugging nonchalantly but thereâs a twinkle of mischief in his features. The sight makes you giddy. What has he been up to?
The other three boys wonder up behind the rest, and you cackle again at the blonde patch of hair on Jesperâs lip and the razor burn on Jonasâs chin. Offended, they frown at you.
âSâlike our new tradition,â Jesper says but it sounds more like a question as he examines Nico.
Your boyfriend beams at you. âLike last year we did no nut November,â he explains, and you roll your eyes. You hated that stupid challenge between them, and if you recall correctly, they all did too.
âYeah and you lost,â Timo mocks, glancing at you because you know all too well why Nico lost. And Nico knows too because you canât for the life of you keep a secret from him.
âHey you all cried to y/n to make me lose,â Nico argues, and Timoâs mouth drops open.
âTraitor!â Jesper gasps, pointing at you. âYou werenât supposed to tell him we came to you.â
âHey the only loyalty I have is to him,â you jab your thumb in Nicoâs direction. âAnd his dick.â
Nicoâs smirk grows, shuffling in his seat as he accepts the compliment from you. âYou all went crying to her about how dry November was making me mean. And thatâs why I lost.â
âShouldâve known to never trust a temptress,â Jack mutters, glaring at you. Offended, you glare back.
âWell you canât a grow a mustache,â you hiss, âin fact none of you can. That dirt smear on your lip looks like it took twenty years to grow Jack.â
He clutches his heart, offended and looks to Nico for help. Nico takes a sip of your smoothie, gesturing for them to leave. âMâon her side. Get back to work, all of you.â
They grumble, stalking away from the table and muttering to each other as they return to their assigned jobs for the day. Shuffling, you turn to Nico.
âYouâre so mean for letting them walk around like that.â You giggle quietly, and Nico snickers.
âYou should see the update selfies theyâve been taking,â he whispers, pleased with himself. âThink Iâll make a collage of them and hang them in the office before I tell them it was all a joke.â
âWhy didnât you tell me this was to get back at them for last year?â
He shrugs. âYou were so fucking good to me after they whined last year that I wanted it to be a surprise. And was it a good one, or what?â
You laugh again, flashing back to seeing them all standing around you earlier, so proud of their matching mustaches.
âItâs kind of cute,â you mumble thoughtfully, laying your head on his shoulder. âThey all wanted to be like you.â
Nico hums in agreement. Then heâs sliding the iPad to you. âLook this over, yeah? Make sure Iâve got the schedule and times right for Thanksgiving.â
Heâs so sweet, you think, looking over the calendar heâs filled in. Even when heâs fucking around and embarassing the boys, heâs given them slack for almost the whole month. And heâs even written in the day off for Friday after Thanksgiving. Instead a big red heart is drawn on the day and in his perfectly slanted handwriting is written âFamily Sleepoverâ.
âLooks good,â you agree, pressing a kiss to his jaw. âBut the mustaches have to go by Thanksgiving. I am not having those in any photos.â
âYes maâam.â
#mob boss nico hischier#nico hischier#him and i chats#him and I blurb#new jersey devils#him and i#nico hischer x reader
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GET A WORD OUT OF YOU
amongst minjiâs rowdy life, there was someone whom she couldnât help but be heavily intrigued by.
Fluff, quiet x popular (?), first attempt at writing a one-shot đ
Amidst the bustling hallways minji could still spot a familiar pair of eyes standing just by their locker with her gaze focused on something.
There was something about the girl that had always gave minji this intrigued feelings. And no it was just about looks of course she had good looks too but it her quiet and shy demeanor. The girl wasnât one those type of people to demand attention by being unnecessarily loud.
She captured most peopleâs hearts in her own way.
Minji took notice of the girls usual reserved nature. She hardly spoke in class mostly exchanging one to two words with others, in her zone her mind always seemed to drift off to something.
There was something mind found cute about the way Yn would shyly blush or smile whenever she receives a compliment or get called out by the teacher.
Her nervous smile would plaster across her face while her eyes drifted around the classroom.
Minji had always been one with the crowd since she was young. Always gaining attention and popularity wherever she was. So she found it quite refreshing to experience something new.
One fateful day, the home room teacher had paired both minji and Yn to make the classroom as spotless as possible not caring a bit on how they were going to do it.
The silence thickening in the air was awkward at first well maybe for minji and not for YN. It was something that best described her so she was probably used to it by now.
But it gave an awkward tension for minji. She thought that this might be her chance to engage herself in a conversation with her. âUhh YN what do you mostly do during your free time?â
âSleepingâ
A frown formed on minjiâs lips at the girls brief response. She was definitely expecting more. She thought of giving it another try. âDo you enjoy cleaning?â She nervously bit her lips. That would probably get a yes or no answer.
YNâs gaze flickered over to minji for a brief second âHmmmâŚ.meh. I do it when Iâm mostly bored or itâs an order given by my mom. But itâs mostly fun with your ears plugged inâ YN explained her eyes staring at the ceiling while sheâs day dreamed for a bit before returning to the given task.
âAh I seeâ minji nodded in agreement. The unbearable silence returned back.
As the cleaning continued minji made it her mission to engage Yn in a few if not many conversations. Asking her questions about herself but nothing too personal. She didnât want to make her uncomfortable.
The more closer they became during the period. Minji noticed a side of YN she had never seen. Her response were more longer and animated. A smile constantly popping up on her face when she was yapping her whole heart out.
âWow I didnât know you could talk this much. Youâre so adorable when youâre freeâ minji confessed with a sly smile her tone carrying a hint of disbelief.
Yn looked up at minji with a face that said âreally?â Her cheeks turning to a light shade of pink. âI wouldnât really say Iâm adorable maybe you areâŚ.â
âYes you areâ minji chuckled at the girls response. Attempting to tuck a small strand of hair behind her ears.
The cleaning of the classroom some how came to an end quickly. Yn and minji had chatted away they didnât even realize when they were done.
On minjiâs walk home, her mind was filled with her previous encounter with YN. Recalling every single thing that had happened. A smile tugging the corner of her lips.
She couldnât believe that she had finally succeeded to get to a side of YN nobody probably knows about. And most of all she couldnât believe she got to make the girl blush. What she had been day dreaming of doing One day.
With a sigh, minji collapsed onto her bed. Her mind drifting to what could happen at school the next day. Each thoughts only added to her anticipation and eagerness.
She couldnât resist wanting to explore more of YN. She knew Yn was more than this. Gosh was she so impatient for the next day to roll in.
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@sammys-magical-au Guess who? đđđ
(The fact that I love the Venom movies makes this even better. Hell, part of me has been thinking about a Symbiote Au of sorts...though it would probably never see the light of day, since I have so much writing stuff on my plate already)
The people who police your gender will police your gender even if you're cis.
Eat them.
#memes#sammy's magical au#friendship#my fanegos#fanmade egos#caliban#caliban the cannibal#matpat#egopats#my writing#my stories#the pentas family#[the future mob project]#(my au)
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Mine | One Shot
Parings: Bucky x Reader AU
Word count: 10k+
Warnings: Probably the fluffiest thing ive ever written, of course angst.
A/N: Yall this AU bucky branch ive extended has been life changing for me lmaoooo
The first time you meet Bucky Barnes, heâs already looking at you, a soft, open look in his eyes that sends a jolt through you. Youâve just started a new job in town and ended up here at a cozy, dimly lit bar one night after work. You sit down a few stools away, glancing over at himâheâs warm, approachable, not exactly the type youâd expect to find sitting alone.
You look away quickly, heart suddenly racing, though youâre not sure why. Heâs a stranger, just someone youâll see tonight and probably never again, but something about him feels safe in a way you havenât felt in years.
A few minutes later, he moves closer, a soft smile playing on his lips. âRough day?â he asks, voice gentle, as if heâs been waiting for you to say something first.
You nod, a little surprised by both his forwardness and the kindness in his tone. Youâre used to handling things on your own, keeping walls up that no oneâs ever bothered to climb. But something about Bucky makes you want to drop your guard, if only for a moment.
You offer Bucky a small smile, feeling strangely at ease under his gaze. âYeah, you could say that,â you reply, letting out a quiet sigh. âItâs been⌠a long week. Just finished my first week at a new job, and Iâm still finding my footing. Everythingâs just a bit overwhelming, you know?â
Bucky nods, understanding flashing in his eyes. âNew job, new town?â he asks, his tone inviting, like he genuinely wants to know, not just make conversation.
You nod, surprised at how easy it feels to open up. âYeah, both, actually. I just moved here, so itâs been a lot of⌠adjustment.â
He tilts his head, his expression warm and reassuring. âThatâs a lot to take on. I remember when I first moved here⌠letâs just say it wasnât exactly a smooth transition.â He chuckles softly, the sound low and comforting, and you canât help but smile.
âReally?â you ask, curious despite yourself. âWhat brought you here?â
His gaze softens as he considers the question, as though heâs debating just how much to share. âNeeded a fresh start,â he says simply, a hint of something unspoken in his eyes. âFigured this was a good place to do that.â
You feel a pang of recognitionâyou understand that need to start over, to build something new. âI get that,â you murmur. âSometimes⌠sometimes you just need a change to get things back on track.â
âExactly,â he replies, his eyes brightening as he leans a little closer. âSounds like we might have a bit in common, then.â
Thereâs a brief silence, but itâs not uncomfortable. Itâs like the two of you are sharing something without needing to say it outright. You feel your usual guardedness slipping, replaced by a warmth thatâs both thrilling and unsettling. Itâs strangeâheâs still a stranger, and yet he feels familiar, like someone you could trust, someone who understands.
âCan I buy you a drink?â he asks, his voice gentle, his gaze steady. âJust to celebrate surviving the first week. Itâs no small thing.â
You smile, nodding as a rush of gratitude fills you. âYeah, Iâd like that.â
Bucky signals to the bartender, ordering two drinks and settling back beside you, his posture relaxed. Bucky leans in, a warm smile lighting up his face as he listens, his full attention on you. Itâs like heâs hanging on every word, nodding and chuckling at all the right moments, his eyes crinkling at the corners every time you say something that amuses him.
âSo, then,â you continue, trying to hold back a laugh as you recall the memory, âI walked into what I thought was the meeting room, you know, just trying to make a good first impression⌠only to realize it was the break room. And everyone just kind of stared at me like I was some intruder there to steal their coffee.â
Bucky lets out a genuine laugh, shaking his head. âOh no! And you didnât just play it cool?â
You grin, rolling your eyes. âNope, not at all. I panicked and mumbled something about being âlostââin the most literal sense. And then, to top it off, I nearly backed into a coffee machine trying to escape!"
He laughs harder, the sound warm and genuine, filling the space between you. âI think thatâs endearing,â he says, his tone sincere. âBet they thought you were charming.â
âOh, Iâm sure,â you say sarcastically, unable to hide your smile. âIf by âcharmingâ you mean they think Iâm the odd one in the office now, then yeah, absolutely. As if being the 'new girl' wasnt enough"
He smirks, leaning his chin on his hand as he watches you, that mischievous glint still in his eyes. âHey, at least youâre memorable. Itâs not every day people meet someone with personality.â
You laugh, giving him a playful nudge. âOh, so I have âpersonalityâ now?â
âDefinitely,â he teases, taking a sip of his drink. âYouâre⌠different. In a good way.â His gaze softens, and for a moment, you see something more serious flicker in his eyes, something that makes your heart skip a beat.
Trying to ignore the fluttering feeling in your chest, you shake your head, focusing on lightening the mood. âSo,â you say, grinning, âwhat about you? Any embarrassing first-day stories?â
He chuckles, leaning back in his chair. âOh, way too many,â he says, his eyes gleaming with amusement. âWhen I started at my last job, they had this big company lunch. I was so nervous that I accidentally grabbed the CEOâs sandwich off his plate, thinking it was from the catering table.â
Your jaw drops. âNo! What did you do?â
He laughs, shaking his head at the memory. âHonestly? I didnât even realize until Iâd taken the first bite. The CEO looked at me, just stunned, and I kind of just froze, sandwich halfway to my mouth. I thought for sure I was going to get fired on the spot.â
Youâre laughing so hard you nearly spill your drink. âSo, did he say anything?â
âOh, he said plenty,â Bucky says, chuckling along with you. âBut, somehow, he found it funny. Or maybe he just took pity on me, who knows? Either way, I survived, but I donât think Iâll ever live it down.â
You both sit there, laughter fading into comfortable silence as you sip your drinks, sharing those lighthearted moments and embarrassing stories that somehow make you feel closer. After a few beats, he glances at you, his expression softening.
âItâs nice, you know⌠hearing all this,â he says quietly. âFeels like Iâm getting to know the real you.â
Your cheeks flush, but his words make you feel seen in a way thatâs both thrilling and terrifying. âYeah⌠I think maybe you are,â you say softly.
His gaze holds yours, an unspoken understanding passing between you. And as you sit together, in the dim light of the bar with laughter still lingering in the air, you realize that thisâthis feeling of being understood, of being truly knownâis something you didnât even know you were missing. And with Bucky, it feels like youâre finally finding it.
By the time youâre finishing your second drink, youâre feeling lighter, the weight of the past week fading away, replaced by a warmth that seems to linger between you and Bucky.
âWell,â he says after a moment, glancing at his watch but making no move to leave. âThank you for letting me share your first-week celebration. I donât know about you, but Iâd say this is the best part of any first weekâmeeting someone you didnât expect to.â
You blush, looking down with a shy smile. âYeah⌠me too.â
A comfortable silence settles between you, and in the back of your mind, you realize youâre hoping this wonât be the last time you see him. Maybe he feels the same way, because as you gather your things to leave, he clears his throat, a hint of nervousness flickering in his eyes.
âSo, listen⌠if you ever want some company after work or need someone to talk to about the craziness of starting over, Iâd be happy to be that person,â he says, his voice soft, a little uncertain.
Your heart skips a beat, and you smile, feeling that warmth spread through you again. âIâd like that, Bucky. Iâd really like that.â
With one last shared smile, you both exchange numbers, a quiet promise lingering in the air that this, whatever it is, isnât just a fleeting moment.
âYou know,â he says, after a quiet moment, âif youâre free tomorrow, i can show you the best place for coffee in the morning.â
For reasons you canât explain, you say yes. And itâs the first of many yeses youâll say to him, even if you canât shake the feeling that opening up to someone can only lead to getting hurt.
The next morning, you meet Bucky outside a quaint little cafĂŠ, the kind with mismatched chairs and hanging plants that give it a cozy, lived-in feel. Sunlight spills across the sidewalk, and thereâs a crispness in the air that makes everything feel brighter, more hopeful.
You both order coffee and pastries and find a table outside. As you settle in, he looks over at you with that same soft, open smile that feels like a balm to your heart. Youâre not sure if itâs the warmth of the coffee or his presence, but somehow you feel yourself letting go, leaning into the morning with him as if itâs a part of something bigger.
âSo, did you always know you wanted to be here?â he asks, taking a sip of his coffee, his gaze never leaving yours.
You shake your head with a little laugh. âNot exactly. Moving here was⌠spontaneous. I just needed a change, I guess. I donât know if itâs where I want to end up, but it feels like a good place to be, at least for now.â
He nods thoughtfully, a smile tugging at his lips. âI get that. Change is⌠good sometimes. Scary, but good.â
Thereâs a brief silence before you turn the question back on him. âWhat about you? Have you always been here?â
Bucky chuckles, shaking his head. âNo, I bounced around a lot before I landed here. Iâm from Brooklyn, actually. Grew up in a small apartment with my mom and sister, Rebecca. It wasnât much, but it was home.â
He pauses, his gaze drifting, and you can see a fondness there, mingled with nostalgia. âMy sister used to make me these ridiculous lunches for school. You know those sandwiches where itâs way too much peanut butter, like itâd practically glue your mouth shut?â
You laugh, picturing a young Bucky struggling with a lopsided sandwich. âSo what, she was trying to get you to stop talking?â
âMaybe! It probably worked a few times,â he says with a grin. âShe was older than me, and she loved teasing me. But sheâd also defend me to the ends of the earth if I needed it. She was tough but loyalâstill is. We used to spend summers playing stickball in the streets or riding our bikes down to the pier until the sun set. Those were good days.â
You find yourself smiling, caught up in the warmth of his stories. Thereâs something about the way he talks about his sister and his childhood that feels so genuine, so open, and it makes you feel safe somehow, like you could share parts of yourself that you usually keep hidden.
âSounds like you were close,â you say softly.
âYeah,â he replies, nodding. âWe still are, even though we donât see each other as much these days. But you know how it is. Life gets busy, people driftâŚ.â He trails off, looking a little pensive, but then he catches your gaze and offers a reassuring smile. âBut we still check in. She likes to give me a hard time about how Iâve âsoftened upâ over the years.â
âOh, so you used to be a real troublemaker, huh?â you tease, raising an eyebrow.
âMaybe a little,â he says, a mischievous glint in his eyes. âBut only in the fun ways. My friends and Iâespecially my best friend, Steveâalways found ways to keep things interesting. Steve was the wild one, though, always dragging me into things. Heâd get these ideasâlike, one summer, he convinced me we could make a raft and take it out on the East River.â
âWait, you didnât actually try that, did you?â you ask, laughing as you imagine two boys clinging to a makeshift raft.
âOh, we tried,â Bucky says, shaking his head with a chuckle. âIt was a disaster. We were out there for maybe ten minutes before the whole thing started falling apart, and we ended up soaking wet, half-drowning, while everyone on the shore was just watching and laughing. My mom nearly had a heart attack when she found out.â
You laugh, clutching your coffee cup as you picture the scene. âSo, I guess you didnât end up the next great explorers of Brooklyn?â
âNope, that dream died real fast,â he says, grinning. âBut that was Steve for youâbig dreams, no plans. I think thatâs why we were close, though. Heâd always push me to do things I wouldnât even think about trying. Heâd challenge me in ways that I didnât know I needed. Kind of made me who I am today.â
You see a glimmer of nostalgia and perhaps a little sadness in his eyes as he talks about Steve, and you wonder if theyâre still close. But before you can ask, he leans forward, his expression softening as he looks at you.
âSo, how about you?â he asks, changing the subject. âAny siblings?â
You nod, taking a small sip of your coffee. âYeah, an older brother. We were close growing up, but life kind of⌠pulled us in different directions. He was the one who kept me out of trouble, actually. He fled home as soon as he was old enoughâ You chuckle sadly âAlways thought he was the responsible one, and I was the daydreamer. Guess some things never change.â
Buckyâs eyes light up, as if heâs seeing a new side of you. âDaydreamer, huh? What kind of dreams?â
The question catches you off guard, and for a moment, youâre not sure how to answer. But then you feel that familiar warmth between you, the kind that feels safe, inviting you to share a little more of yourself.
âHonestly, I donât know anymore,â you admit softly. âI guess thatâs part of why I moved here. Trying to figure it out, trying to find something that feels⌠real.â
He nods, his gaze understanding, as if he sees right through you in a way thatâs both comforting and a little terrifying. âWell, I think thatâs brave,â he says quietly. âTaking a leap, starting fresh⌠not everyone has the guts to do that.â
The way he says it, so genuine and reassuring, makes you feel like maybe youâre exactly where youâre supposed to be, like maybe the path isnât as uncertain as it once felt.
The conversation drifts into comfortable silence, and you both take a moment to sip your coffee and enjoy the warmth of the sun. After a while, he leans back, his expression thoughtful as he looks over at you.
âYou know, meeting someone like you⌠itâs kind of a rare thing,â he says, his voice soft but full of a sincerity that takes you by surprise. âI donât know how to explain it, but it feels⌠right.â
His words settle into your heart, and you feel a warmth spreading through you, a connection that feels deeper than anything you expected to find in a new town, with a man youâve only just met. And in that moment, with the sunlight catching in his eyes, you feel a quiet certainty that thisâwhatever this isâmight be the beginning of something real.
Over the next few weeks, life begins to settle into a new rhythm. Days are marked by coffee dates that turn into long walks down the quiet streets, and those walks stretch into late-night conversations on park benches under streetlights. Bucky has quickly become your favorite part of the day, and even though neither of you has spoken about how you feel, thereâs a growing closenessâa feeling of inevitability thatâs hard to ignore.
One night, after a cozy dinner together, you find yourselves lingering on a quiet bench, watching the lights of the city reflected on the river. The silence between you is easy, comfortable, but thereâs an unspoken tension there, tooâsomething that hovers in the space between words, in the quiet glances you both share.
Bucky looks over at you, a warm smile playing at his lips. âI canât believe itâs only been a few weeks,â he says, his voice soft. âFeels like Iâve known you⌠longer.â
You nod, feeling your heart race at the sincerity in his eyes. âI know what you mean,â you murmur, glancing down to hide your own smile. âI donât usually⌠open up to people like this. But with you, it just feels easy.â
He grins, a mischievous glint sparking in his eyes. âSo youâre saying Iâm easy to talk to?â
You laugh, nudging him with your shoulder. âDonât get too cocky, Barnes. Iâm just saying you have⌠potential.â
âOh, potential, huh?â he teases, giving you a mock-hurt look. âWow. Just when I thought I was doing well.â
You canât help but laugh, feeling a lightness you hadnât felt in a long time. Somehow, Bucky has a way of making you feel like yourself, like you donât have to be anything other than exactly who you are.
As the night deepens, you both head home, reluctantly parting with lingering glances and unspoken words hanging in the air. But when you finally get home, your phone lights up with a text, and you feel a thrill run through you as you see Buckyâs name.
Bucky: So, Iâm not getting cocky, but⌠any chance I passed the âpotentialâ test?
You laugh, typing out a reply.
You: Iâd say youâre doing okay⌠so far.
Almost immediately, he texts back.
Bucky: Just okay? Youâre killing me here. I might have to try harder.
You: I think I can handle that.
Thereâs a pause, and you watch as the typing bubble pops up again, wondering what heâll say next.
Bucky: Just so weâre clear, Iâm pretty sure youâre the highlight of my day. Donât tell anyoneâIâve got a reputation to maintain.
You feel your cheeks warm, smiling at your phone. Itâs strange how quickly heâs managed to find his way into your heart, and even stranger how natural it feels to be talking to him like this.
You: Highlight of your day, huh? Thatâs some big talk, Barnes.
Bucky: Itâs not just talk, sweet girl....I mean it.
You pause, taking in the sincerity of his words. For a second, you wonder if he can feel the same pull you do, the same feeling that this could be something real.
You: Guess Iâll see what you come up with next time.
Bucky: Oh, so now Iâm being challenged? Iâll have to think of something special.
You: Good luck with that, Iâm a tough critic.
Bucky: Challenge accepted, darling.
His use of the word âdarlingâ sends a thrill through you, and you feel yourself blush, biting your lip as you smile at the screen. The lighthearted back-and-forth carries on into the night, each text feeling like another step closer to something youâre both tiptoeing around, something youâre both afraid to fully acknowledge yet.
And as you finally say goodnight, you feel a contented warmth settle over you, the kind that promises thereâs something real here, something waiting to unfold. But for now, the unspoken words, the quiet glances, and the sweet, flirty texts are more than enough, leaving you falling asleep with a smile on your face.
--
One night, youâre both walking through a nearby park, the cool evening air wrapping around you. Itâs late enough that the world feels almost empty, like the two of you are the only ones who know this quiet part of the city. Youâre talking about your favorite childhood movies, laughing over memories, and you feel a lightness in you, a happiness thatâs been dormant for so long youâd nearly forgotten it was there.
âSo youâre telling me,â Bucky says, raising an eyebrow as he glances over at you, âthat you actually dressed up as an elf for three Halloweens in a row because of Lord of the Rings?â
You laugh, feeling your cheeks flush. âYes! I was obsessed. It was all I wanted to do for years. I think I had pointy ears stashed in every drawer.â
Bucky grins, his eyes twinkling. âI canât believe I missed out on that... bet you made a cute elf.â
âOh, please.â You roll your eyes, trying to stifle a laugh. âIt was⌠an intense phase. I still cringe a little thinking about it.â
âI donât know,â he says, nudging you playfully. âI think it sounds perfect. I used to dress up as a knight when I was a kid. One time, I even convinced Steve to be the dragon.â
You laugh, picturing a younger version of him, full of life and laughter. âPlease tell me thereâs photographic evidence of that.â
âThere might be,â he teases, smirking. âBut I think youâre going to have to stick around a little longer before I start sharing the embarrassing childhood photos.â
Something in his tone, playful yet sincere, makes your heart skip a beat. You realize how much you look forward to these moments, how heâs become a part of your life in a way you never saw coming. Thereâs a softness about him that pulls you in, a kindness that makes you feel safe, and the thought of seeing where this goes fills you with a quiet excitement.
You walk a bit further, the silence between you comfortable, and he glances over, a question lingering in his eyes. âSo,â he starts, a little hesitant. âAre you⌠happy here? I mean, you said you needed a change. Do you feel like this is it?â
You think about his question, about how you arrived here hoping to find a fresh start, not knowing if it would ever feel like home. But now, as you stand beside him, thereâs a sense of belonging that surprises you.
âHonestly?â you say, your voice soft. âI think I am. Itâs strange, but being here⌠itâs like I can breathe again. Like maybe I can finally be myself, without all the expectations I left behind.â
Bucky nods, his expression thoughtful, and he stops walking for a moment, turning to face you. âIâm glad,â he says quietly, his gaze holding yours. âYou deserve that. You deserve⌠to feel free.â
His words sink into you, and for a moment, all you can do is look at him, taking in the gentleness in his eyes, the warmth in his smile. Itâs almost too muchâthe idea that someone could see you this clearly, understand you so deeply.
âThank you,â you whisper, your voice barely audible. âYou donât know how much that means to me.â
He reaches out, brushing his fingers against yours in a simple, tender gesture. âYou donât have to thank me,â he murmurs, his voice low. âIâm just glad I get to know you.â
Thereâs a vulnerability in his words that catches you off guard, and for a moment, youâre both standing there, the world around you quiet and still. You want to say something, to let him know how much heâs come to mean to you, how his presence feels like a light thatâs brought you back to yourself. But the words catch in your throat, so instead, you simply squeeze his hand, letting the warmth of his touch speak for you.
----
Another evening, youâre both sitting on a small bench at the edge of the park, looking up at the stars. Bucky has his arm around you, pulling you close against the chill of the night, and you rest your head on his shoulder, feeling a peace you havenât felt in years.
âDo you ever think about the future?â he asks suddenly, his voice soft, as though heâs been thinking about the question for a while.
Youâre quiet for a moment, surprised by the question. You used to avoid thinking about the future, unsure of where you fit in, always second-guessing yourself. But now, with him, the idea of the future doesnât feel as daunting.
âYeah,â you say finally. âI do. But itâs different now. I guess⌠Iâm not so afraid of it anymore.â
He nods, a small smile on his face. âIâm glad,â he says, his voice filled with a tenderness that makes your heart ache in the best way. He hesitates, glancing over at you. âI know weâre just⌠starting this, whatever it is, but I hope you know that Iâm here, for all of it. I donât⌠plan on going anywhere.â
The sincerity in his words makes you catch your breath, and you feel that familiar warmth rising in your chest, a mixture of gratitude and something deeper. You donât say anything, instead reaching up to brush a gentle hand against his cheek, letting him know that you feel the same, even if the words are still forming in your heart.
As the night deepens, you sit there in a comfortable silence, his arm around you, his steady presence grounding you. And as you look up at the stars, you realize that for the first time in a long time, youâre not afraid of what lies ahead.
But yet, every time he leans a little closer, touches your hand, or tells you something vulnerable, you canât help but feel that old anxiety creeping in, telling you to be careful. Itâs as if youâre back to being a kid, watching your parentsâ marriage shatter right in front of you. Youâve told yourself for years that love canât be trusted, that letting people in only leads to pain.
---
One evening, when youâre sitting beside him at your favorite spot near the river, he reaches over, tucking a stray strand of hair behind your ear. âYouâre safe with me, you know?â he says softly, sensing the hesitation in your gaze.
The words linger in the air, and you look down, feeling your defenses rise again. âI donât think you understand,â you murmur. âPeople leave. Or worse, they hurt you without even meaning to.â
Bucky takes your hand, holding it gently, grounding you. âI know,â he says quietly. âBut maybe⌠maybe you donât have to do this alone anymore.â
The river flows quietly beside you both, the soft murmur of water filling the silence between you. Buckyâs hand is still gently wrapped around yours, grounding you with a warmth that feels both comforting and unfamiliar. Part of you wants to pull away, to shield yourself from the vulnerability you feel creeping in, but thereâs something about him that makes you feel safe, even when the memories are so raw.
You take a shaky breath, finally letting your eyes meet his. âMy parents⌠they didnât have the kind of love that you read about, or see in movies. It was messy and⌠destructive. They fought constantlyâscreaming, blaming each other for everything wrong in their lives. Growing up, I thought that was just how it was supposed to be. That love was meant to hurt.â
Bucky listens intently, his expression softening as you continue, no hint of judgment in his gaze. Heâs just⌠there, holding space for you in a way that makes you feel seen, like you donât have to hide.
You swallow, feeling the ache of those memories resurface. âI used to tell myself that when I grew up, Iâd find someone who was different. Someone who wouldnât treat me like my father treated my mother.â Your voice drops, barely a whisper now. âBut when I left home, I fell for someone who was just like him. He was⌠careless, selfish. I gave everything I had because I thought that was what love was. And he hurt me, Bucky, over and over, but I convinced myself it was my fault, that if I just tried harder, heâd change.â
Buckyâs grip on your hand tightens, his gaze filled with a fierce protectiveness that you didnât expect. You can see his jaw clench, as though heâs holding back words he wants to say, but he lets you continue, giving you the space you need.
âWhen he finally left,â you continue, your voice breaking slightly, âI felt⌠empty. Like Iâd failed. Everyone always leaves, and somehow, I believed it was because of something I did or something I wasnât. For a long time, I thought I didnât deserve anything better.â
You feel a tear slip down your cheek, and before you can brush it away, Bucky reaches out, gently wiping it with his thumb. His touch is so tender, so careful, that it breaks something inside you, a wall you didnât realize you were still holding up.
âYou didnât deserve that,â he says softly, his voice full of conviction. âNone of it. And it wasnât your fault.â
You try to look away, the old shame rising up, but he places a gentle hand on your cheek, his thumb brushing soothing circles on your skin. âHey,â he murmurs, his voice barely above a whisper. âLook at me.â
You meet his gaze, and the kindness there is almost too much to bear.
âI donât care what your past looked like,â he says, his voice steady and certain. âNone of that changes how I feel about you. You are worth more than any of the pain youâve been through. You deserve love that feels safe, that feels steady. You deserve someone who chooses you, every single day, this is worth the risk to me, you're worth it to me"
The words sink into you, healing in a way you never thought possible. His hand rests on your cheek, grounding you, and for the first time, you let yourself believe that maybe, just maybe, he could be right. That maybe love doesnât have to hurt.
Bucky leans in, his forehead resting gently against yours, his voice a soft promise. âIâm not going anywhere. I know itâs hard to believe, and I know trust doesnât come easy. But I want to be here for you. Every single day.â
Your eyes close, and you feel his warmth surrounding you, filling the empty spaces youâve carried for so long. He stays close, his presence steady and unyielding, like a lifeline you didnât know you needed.
When you finally find your voice, itâs soft, almost trembling. âHow can you be so sure?â
He smiles, a gentle, understanding smile that melts every last piece of fear youâre holding onto. âBecause I know what itâs like to feel broken. And I also know that finding someone who understands, who sees you for who you really are⌠thatâs worth everything.â
In that moment, you feel a shift inside you, a glimmer of hope where there used to be only fear. Bucky is everything you thought youâd never findâkind, patient, willing to fight for you even when youâre not sure you can fight for yourself.
You let out a shaky breath, a tear slipping down your cheek, but this time itâs not one of sadness. Itâs the relief of knowing that maybe, just maybe, youâre not alone anymore.
âI donât know if I know how to love like that,â you admit quietly, your voice barely above a whisper.
Buckyâs hand gently trails down to your chin, lifting it so your eyes meet his. âThen weâll learn together,â he says softly, his gaze filled with a warmth and patience that takes your breath away. âOne day at a time.â
And as he pulls you into his arms, holding you close against the quiet backdrop of the river, you let yourself believe that thisâthis love, this kindness, this manâmight just be the home youâve been searching for all along..
You stay there together by the river, wrapped in the warmth of Buckyâs arms as the soft murmur of the water flows beside you. His steady heartbeat under your cheek is calming, and you close your eyes, letting yourself sink into the safety of the moment. Itâs as if time has slowed, like the world has paused just for the two of you, letting you both breathe.
After a while, he pulls back slightly, enough to look down at you, his hand still resting gently against your cheek. Thereâs a softness in his gaze, a vulnerability that mirrors your own, as if heâs waiting for just the right moment.
His thumb traces a soft line along your cheek, and he hesitates, as though heâs searching for the right words. Finally, he takes a deep breath, his voice low and steady, full of a tenderness that makes your heart ache.
âWill you do me the honor,â he begins, his eyes holding yours with an intensity that sends a shiver down your spine, âof being mine, darling?â
The question hangs in the air, his words so simple yet carrying so much weight, so much love. You feel the familiar urge to pull back, to put up your defenses, but with Bucky standing there, his gaze unwavering, you realize that you donât want to run anymore. Not from him.
A warmth spreads through you, a quiet happiness that feels like itâs been waiting for this moment all along. You meet his gaze, feeling every ounce of his love and devotion, and you realize that, with him, you donât have to be afraid. Not of love, not of lossâbecause heâs here, and heâs choosing you.
With a soft, shaky breath, you nod, a smile breaking across your face as you whisper, âYes, Bucky. Iâm yours.â
A look of pure joy lights up his face, and he pulls you close, pressing his forehead against yours as he lets out a relieved laugh, as if heâs been waiting for this moment as long as you have. His hand cups the back of your neck, and he murmurs softly, his voice full of warmth and certainty, âI'm not going anywhere ever, your stuck with me angel"
He leans in, pressing a gentle, lingering kiss to your lips, and in that moment, everything else fades away. Itâs just the two of you, wrapped in the warmth of each other, and you feel like youâre exactly where youâre meant to be.
As he pulls you back into his arms, holding you close against the night, you know that thisâthis love, this connection, this manâis home. And for the first time in a long time, you let yourself believe that maybe love doesnât have to hurt; maybe it can be kind, steady, and true.
---
Over the next few months, Bucky weaves his way into every part of your life, becoming as familiar and comforting as home itself. Heâs there for all of itâthe quiet, mundane moments, the small victories, and the heavy days when the past creeps in and weighs on you. Itâs as if he knows exactly when to be there, a steady presence who never asks more of you than youâre ready to give.
One day, after a long day, you find yourself curled up on the couch with him, your head resting against his shoulder. Youâre both wrapped in a comfortable silence, but he can sense that somethingâs weighing on you.
âDo you want to talk about it?â he asks gently, his fingers trailing soothingly along your arm. He doesnât push, just leaves the door open, giving you the choice.
You hesitate for a moment, the familiar fear creeping in, but with him, itâs easier to let down your guard. You take a breath, leaning into his warmth as you begin to speak.
âSometimes, I wonder if Iâll ever stop carrying all of it with me,â you admit softly. âMy parents⌠their anger was everywhere. Theyâd go from silence to shouting, always blaming each other. As a kid, I used to hide in my room, but I could still feel it, like their anger was seeping through the walls.â
Buckyâs hand stills, his fingers curling around yours, grounding you. He doesnât interrupt, just listens, his eyes filled with a quiet empathy that makes it easier to continue.
âI used to think it was normal, that that was just⌠how love looked. Chaotic, painful. When I got older, I started building walls, just to keep people at a distance. It felt safer that way.â
He nods, squeezing your hand gently. âThat must have been so hard,â he says quietly, his voice laced with understanding. âTo grow up thinking thatâs all there was to love.â
You nod, letting out a shaky breath. âI know it sounds strange, but I thought maybe Iâd somehow inherited that anger, that chaos. Like⌠if I let anyone close, it would just repeat. That Iâd end up hurting them, or theyâd hurt me.â
Buckyâs gaze softens, and he shifts slightly, turning so that heâs fully facing you, his thumb brushing tenderly across your cheek. âYouâre not them,â he whispers, his voice steady and sure. âAnd you donât have to carry their mistakes.â
The kindness in his eyes, the unwavering gentleness, makes you feel like a knot is loosening in your chest. You hadnât realized how heavy those fears had become, how deeply theyâd settled into you.
âThank you,â you murmur, your voice barely above a whisper. âFor being here. For listening.â
âAlways,â he says, his hand still resting against your cheek. âIâll be here, no matter what.â
On a lighter day, Buckyâs there for your small victories, too, celebrating them as if theyâre his own. You remember a Friday afternoon, when you��d finally completed a major project at work, one youâd been stressing over for weeks. Youâd texted him, excited but exhausted, and by the time you got home, you found him standing in your kitchen with a bottle of champagne and a cake with âYou did it!â iced onto it in wobbly, uneven letters.
âYou did all this⌠for me?â you ask, laughing as you read the words on the cake.
âOf course,â he says, grinning as he pops the cork on the champagne. âYouâve been working so hard, and I thought you deserved a little celebration.â
You canât help but laugh, feeling the warmth of his joy for you radiate through the room. âYou know, no oneâs ever celebrated something like this with me before.â
âWell,â he says, pouring two glasses and handing you one, âthen itâs about time someone did, and in honoured it gets to be me"
You clink glasses, and as you take a sip, you realize just how much heâs become part of your life, filling the empty spaces youâd once thought would always be there.
You sip the champagne, feeling the bubbles dance on your tongue as you look at Bucky, the warmth of the moment settling over you like a blanket. Heâs watching you with that easy, genuine smile, the kind that makes you feel like youâre the only person in the world. Youâd been working so hard, pouring everything you had into that project, and it was like he knew exactly how much you needed someone to see you, to be there, to celebrate this small victory with you.
âReally,â you say, setting down your glass and shaking your head with a laugh. âI still canât believe you did all of this⌠for me. The cake, the champagne⌠Itâs so thoughtful.â
He shrugs, but thereâs a softness in his eyes. âYou deserve it. I know how hard youâve been working.â He glances at the cake, chuckling a little. âEven if the cake looks like it was made by a five-year-old.â
âItâs perfect,â you say, a laugh escaping you as you look at the uneven letters again, and he grins, that familiar glint of mischief lighting up his eyes.
Over the past few weeks, heâs taken to saying those three words to youâquietly, simply, as if heâs known them all along. It usually happens in those gentle moments, the ones that sneak up on you and make you feel like youâre exactly where youâre supposed to be. The first time heâd said it, youâd felt the words catch in your throat, and heâd squeezed your hand, smiling softly.
âItâs okay,â heâd whispered. âYou donât have to say it back. I just⌠wanted you to know.â
And heâs been true to his word, never pressuring you, never expecting more than youâre ready to give. He says it without hesitation, as though his love for you is as natural as breathing, and each time, it feels like another piece of the armor around your heart softens. Youâve been holding those words close, letting them settle, and tonight, with him standing here in your kitchen, celebrating you, itâs like theyâre finally ready to take flight.
You take a breath, setting your glass down and looking at him, really looking at him. Heâs so patient, so steady, just waiting for you to be ready, and in that moment, the words slip out, simple and true.
âI love you too, Bucky.â
For a moment, he looks surprised, his eyes widening just slightly. Then a slow, radiant smile spreads across his face, and he lets out a soft, relieved laugh, like heâs been holding onto a breath he didnât realize heâd taken.
âYeah?â he says, his voice barely above a whisper, and thereâs a gentleness in his gaze that makes your heart feel like itâs glowing.
You nod, a warmth blooming in your chest as you watch him, feeling the weight of those words sink in, wrapping around the two of you. âYeah,â you say softly. âI love you.â
He takes a step closer, reaching out to take your hand, his fingers intertwining with yours in that familiar way that makes you feel safe, cherished. He doesnât say anything elseâhe doesnât have to. The way he looks at you, like youâre the most precious thing in his world, says it all.
You stand there together, the sound of quiet laughter and clinking glasses filling the air, and as you look into his eyes, you know this is just the beginning of something beautiful.
---
One night, over a year after that moment by the river, youâre sitting on the back porch with him, wrapped in a blanket as you watch the stars. Itâs quiet, peaceful, and he has his arm around you, pulling you close as you lean into him.
âCan I ask you something?â you murmur, breaking the silence.
âAnything,â he replies, his voice soft.
âDo you ever⌠I donât know⌠feel like youâre waiting for the other shoe to drop?â you ask, the vulnerability of the question catching in your throat. âLike things are too good, and maybe it wonât last?â
Heâs quiet for a moment, as if heâs considering your words, and then he leans down, pressing a gentle kiss to the top of your head. âI used to,â he admits. âBut then I realized that waiting for something to go wrong just robs you of all the good things youâve got right here, right now.â
You nod, letting his words sink in. He has a way of grounding you, of making the fears that once felt so overwhelming seem smaller, more manageable.
âLook,â he says, pulling back slightly so he can look into your eyes, âI know you still have walls up baby, I know youâve been through things I canât even imagine. But none of that changes how I feel about you. Youâre it for me sweet heart"
The sincerity in his eyes makes your heart race, and you feel that familiar warmth, that sense of safety youâve come to cherish with him. You open your mouth to respond, but he reaches out, crashes his lips to yours, as his lips meet yours, everything else fades away. The quiet of the night, the cool breeze, the blanket wrapped around you bothânone of it matters except the feel of him, warm and steady and here. His hand cradles the back of your head, gentle yet certain, as if heâs savoring this moment just as much as you are. Thereâs a tender urgency in the way he kisses you, a depth of feeling that words could never fully capture.
His other hand moves to your waist, pulling you even closer, and you find yourself letting go, allowing the barriers youâve held up for so long to slip away. In his arms, every lingering fear, every shadow of doubt feels smaller, quieter. Heâs the one constant you never thought youâd find, and here, beneath the blanket of stars, you feel safe enough to let him see all of you.
You run your hands along his shoulders, feeling the strength there, the solidity, as if to reassure yourself that heâs real, that heâs yours. He senses the hesitation in your touch and gently deepens the kiss, pouring his own quiet reassurance into each soft brush of his lips against yours. Heâs unhurried, savoring the closeness, the warmth shared between you, as if he has all the time in the world.
When you finally pull back to catch your breath, his forehead rests against yours, his eyes soft and full of that familiar warmth thatâs always steadied you. He tucks a loose strand of hair behind your ear, his fingers lingering as he looks at you, his gaze tender and unguarded.
âYouâre everything to me,â he murmurs, his voice a soft rasp. âI hope you know that.â
Your heart swells, and you canât help but reach up, your fingers tracing his jaw, memorizing the lines of his face. âI do,â you whisper, smiling as you take in the love shining in his eyes. âAnd youâre everything to me, too.â
The moment is gentle, intimate, a quiet affirmation of all that youâve come to mean to each other. As the night drifts on, you find yourselves wrapped in each otherâs arms, exchanging soft kisses and whispered promises, the world around you falling away until itâs just you and him, together in the safe haven youâve created.
---
It isnât until months later, on a quiet afternoon in your small apartment, that you realize how much heâs changed you. Youâre both in the kitchen, making dinner, when he wraps his arms around you from behind, resting his head on your shoulder. In that moment, feeling the solid warmth of him, something inside you finally softens, and you feel that long-buried fear of love start to melt away.
Turning around to face him, you look into his eyes, your heart pounding but steady. âYouâre⌠youâre home,â you say softly, finally daring to voice the truth youâve been feeling for so long.
Bucky smiles, and itâs the warmest, most genuine smile youâve ever seen. âAnd so are you,â he murmurs, brushing a gentle kiss across your forehead. âFor as long as youâll have me.â
As you lean into him, you feel a deep sense of peaceâa peace that tells you love doesnât have to be perfect to be real, that sometimes, itâs okay to let yourself be someone elseâs. And for the first time, you let yourself believe that you can be loved without fear.
In his arms, you know that no matter where life takes you, heâll always be there, steady as ever, reminding you every day that youâre his, and heâs yours.
The soft simmering of the pot on the stove fades into the background as you hold each other in the kitchen, wrapped in a quiet warmth that feels like itâs seeped into every corner of your life together. The room is filled with the comforting scent of herbs and spices, but all you can focus on is himâhis arms around you, his steady breathing, the familiar warmth of his presence.
You look up at him, and thereâs a softness in his eyes, a light youâve come to recognize as the kind of love that expects nothing but offers everything.
âI donât know if I tell you this enough,â he murmurs, running his fingers gently along your back. âBut you⌠you make me feel whole. Like Iâm right where Iâm supposed to be.â
His words settle over you like a balm, soothing any lingering fear you still carry. Thereâs a deep sincerity in his gaze, a warmth that has become your comfort, your safety. You feel your heart swell, a surge of gratitude that heâs here, that he chose you even with all the jagged edges you thought would push people away.
âBucky,â you say, your voice barely above a whisper, âI never thought Iâd find this. Find⌠you.â
He smiles, his hand coming up to cradle your cheek, his thumb brushing over your skin. âI know it wasnât easy for you to trust me. But youâre everything I ever wanted⌠everything I never thought I deserved.â
You laugh softly, the sound breaking through the quiet as you realize how much heâs come to mean to you, how heâs become the constant in your life, the calm in your storms. âYou deserve all of it, love....Every bit of happiness there is.â
His eyes soften, and he leans down, pressing a gentle kiss to your lips, lingering as if heâs savoring the moment, as if heâs savoring you. âThen stay with me,â he whispers, his voice low and full of emotion. âFor as long as we have⌠letâs make this our forever.â
Your heart races as his words sink in, and you feel a warmth bloom within you, a peace that youâve only known with him. The future, once clouded by fear and doubt, now feels open, full of possibility, and you realize that with him, youâre no longer afraid of what lies ahead.
You take his hands in yours, feeling the roughness of his palms, the strength thatâs always there, supporting you. âIâm not going anywhere,â you say, looking up into his eyes. âIâm yours, Bucky. Completely.â
He smiles, a look of relief mixed with pure joy lighting up his face, and he pulls you close, his arms wrapped securely around you as he holds you like he never intends to let go.
âIâll remind you of that every day,â he murmurs against your hair, his voice a soft promise. âYouâre mine. And I love you⌠more than I could ever put into words.â
In that quiet moment, held close in his arms, you feel itâthis deep, steady love that you never believed could be yours. And you know, as long as you have him, you are finally, truly home.
Buckyâs arms wrap around you a little tighter, pulling you closer, and in his embrace, you feel every ounce of love and devotion heâs offered you so freely. His hands rest at the small of your back, gentle but firm, grounding you. The simmering sounds from the stove fade into the background as he holds you, the world narrowing down to just the two of you in this shared moment.
He dips his head, his lips brushing softly against yours in a kiss thatâs unhurried, tender, but filled with an intensity that leaves you breathless. His hand moves to cradle your cheek, his thumb tracing a gentle path along your jawline, a soft reverence in his touch, like heâs memorizing every inch of you.
You feel the roughness of his palms as his hands settle along your waist, his fingers splaying across your back, drawing you even closer. The air between you feels charged, a steady, simmering warmth thatâs both comforting and thrilling. You let your fingers trail up his shoulders, feeling the strength and warmth there, feeling safe and cherished.
âBucky,â you murmur, your voice barely above a whisper as you lean into him, pressing soft kisses along his jawline, savoring the way his breathing hitches ever so slightly at your touch.
He pulls back just enough to meet your eyes, his gaze soft but intense, filled with a tenderness that makes your heart ache in the best way. âYouâre everything,â he whispers, his forehead resting gently against yours as he closes his eyes, breathing you in. âEverything I never knew I could have.â
---
A few months later, everything feels like itâs slipping out of your hands. Work is stressful, youâve hardly had a moment to yourself let alone with Bucky, and the anxieties that you thought youâd buried start creeping back in, tainting every small moment of happiness with doubt. Bucky notices, of course. Heâs always paying attention, always picking up on the little things.
After a long, exhausting day, you come home and find him waiting for you in your small, cluttered living room. Heâs made dinner, and the smell of pasta fills the apartment, a small act of love that you know he did just to make you feel better.
But instead of feeling grateful, all you feel is overwhelmed.
As you set your bag down, you glance at him, trying to ignore the pressure building in your chest. âYou donât have to keep doing this, you know,â you say, your voice sharper than you intended. âI donât need you to take care of me all the time, i can do it myself!"
He blinks, taken aback by the edge in your tone. âI know you can baby, â he says carefully. âI just wanted to make things a little easier tonight"
âYeah, well, maybe I donât need you to!â you snap, unable to hold back the frustration boiling over inside. âIâm fine on my own....Iâve always been fine on my own!"
Buckyâs face falls, and he sets down the plate he was holding, his gaze steady but pained. âWhereâs this coming from?â he asks quietly.
You donât know how to answer, not when everything feels so confusing and raw. âMaybe⌠maybe we were a mistake,â you murmur, the words spilling out before you can stop them. âMaybe we got too close too fast.â
His jaw clenches, hurt flashing across his face. âDo you really mean that?â His voice is low, almost breaking. âOr are you just scared?â
The question hits you like a punch to the gut, because heâs right. You are scaredâscared of getting hurt, scared of being vulnerable, and scared of what it means to love someone so deeply. And yet, instead of admitting it, you double down, pushing him further away.
âWhat if I am scared, Bucky?â you snap, crossing your arms. âMaybe I donât want to put myself through this. People always leave, and were in so deep! I, Iâm justââ You stop, your voice catching as the memories of your parentsâ fights come rushing back, the anger, the silence, the way love had turned to something dark and painful.
Bucky steps forward, his expression softened but resolute. âIâm not your Father, we're not your parentsâ he says, his tone gentle but firm. âIâm not going to walk away just because things get hard.â
You turn away, trying to hide the tears that have started to well up. âHow can you say that? You donât know⌠what it was like.â
He takes a breath, his hand reaching out to yours, fingers warm and steady around yours. âThen tell me,â he says, his voice steady but full of emotion. âHelp me understand, so I can be here for you the way you need.â
The walls youâve built around your heart feel like theyâre crumbling, and you struggle to keep them in place, to hold onto the safety they give you. But Buckyâs still there, holding your hand, his eyes never leaving yours.
With a shaky breath, you finally let go, everything you've been keeping inside for the last couple weeks pours out of you, your eyes like waterfalls. Bucky has his arms wrapped around faster than you could wipe your tears away. His grip firm, as he rubs circles on your back. Holding you close, and you feel the weight of his presence, grounding you, filling the empty spaces with a warmth you were about to let yourself lose.
âIâm not going anywhere,â he murmurs softly, his fingers brushing soothingly along your back. âNo matter how scared you get, Iâm here. Youâre not alone, youâre worth it, i promise angelâ
You pull back, looking up at him, feeling the truth of his words sink into you. The fear is still there, lingering around the edges, but somehow it feels smaller now, less overwhelming.
As you hold his gaze, you realize that thisâthis moment, where youâre both standing on the edge of your fears and still choosing each otherâis what love is meant to be. Itâs not about perfection or never fighting. Itâs about standing together, even when things get messy, even when it feels like everything is falling apart.
âIâm sorry,â you whisper, your voice barely audible. âI didnât mean it, ant of it Bucky Iâm just⌠scared of losing you.â
He smiles, brushing a tear from your cheek. âThen hold onto me,â he says softly âBecause Iâm not letting you go"
---
Bucky has been working long hours lately, pulling extra shifts and coming home exhausted. Youâve noticed how heâs barely had a moment to breathe, how he comes home later every night, rubbing the tiredness from his eyes as he falls onto the couch. Youâve asked him if everythingâs okay, and every time, he just smiles, brushes a kiss across your forehead, and says heâs fine, just a little busy.
What you donât know is that Buckyâs been saving up for something big, something heâs been dreaming about since the day he realized he couldnât imagine a life without you. Heâs been setting aside every extra dollar to buy you a ring, one that feels worthy of you. But between work and stress, his nerves are stretched thin, and even though he tries to be patient, exhaustion is starting to get the better of him.
You come home from work and find him in the kitchen, staring blankly at a half-prepared dinner, his face worn and tired. You reach out to touch his arm, concerned. âBucky, you donât have to do everything, you know. I couldâve picked something up.â
He doesnât look at you, just sighs, his voice tense. âIâm fine doll, I can handle it.â
You press a little further, sensing something beneath his words. âAre you sure? Youâve been so⌠distant lately. I just feel like we barely talk anymore.â
Buckyâs shoulders stiffen, and he glances over at you, a flicker of frustration in his gaze. âI donât get why youâre always questioning me,â he snaps, voice sharper than usual. âIâm here, arenât I? Itâs not like Iâm going anywhere, i've told you"
You flinch at his words, feeling a familiar ache settle in your chest. âIâm not⌠I just donât understand why youâre shutting me out.â
He sighs, rubbing a hand over his face, and you can tell heâs trying to keep his emotions in check. âIâm not shutting you out, alright? Not everything has to be a big deal.â
The words feel dismissive, and something inside you snaps, the old fears rising up. âI just⌠I need to know whatâs going on, Bucky, you know this, I-I....You say youâre here, but it doesnât feel like it right now, Itâs like youâre already halfway gone already..."
The moment you say it, his expression changes, a spark of hurt flashing across his face. âAre you serious?â he asks, his tone suddenly defensive. âIâve been working myself to the bone for us, trying to make things better. Iâm here every night, putting in the effort, and youâre just waiting for me to mess up. Waiting for an excuse to push me away! "
Your breath catches, his words cutting deeper than you expected. âThatâs not fair,â you say, voice trembling. âYou know why I have a hard time trusting people, why I get scared. Youâre the one who made me feel safe again. And now itâs like⌠itâs like youâre proving me right.â
He looks away, jaw clenched, but the frustration and exhaustion finally get the better of him. âMaybe I donât know how to prove it to you, then,â he mutters, anger shading his words. âI donât know what more you need from me!"
The words hit you like a punch to the chest, and suddenly the air feels too thick, the walls of your house are suddenly too close. Without thinking, you grab your coat, needing to escape the pain before it breaks you completely.
âWhere are you going?â he calls after you, the anger giving way to worry as he realizes youâre actually leaving. âItâs 2:30AM! Y-you cant just walk out!
You pause at the door, tears streaming down your cheeks as you look back at him, the hurt and fear finally spilling overâIâm leaving before you leave me,â you choke out, your voice barely a whisper. âI told you would! Everyone always does.â
With that, you slip out the door, stepping into the quiet, empty street. You start walking, the chill of the night biting into your skin as you try to hold back the tears. The memory of his words lingers, replaying in your mind, amplifying every insecurity youâve ever felt.
But then you hear footsteps behind you, and before you can turn, Buckyâs voice reaches you, a soft, desperate sound. âWait, Baby please, just⌠stop for a second"
You hesitate, swallowing down the sob thatâs caught in your throat as he steps closer, his face a mix of regret and something you canât name. âI didnât mean it like that,â he says, his voice breaking slightly, his own tears spilling over âIâm sorry, Iâm so sorry.â
You take a shaky breath, your voice full of the hurt you canât hide. âYouâre right, though. I donât know how to believe youâll stay. I canât get rid of this feeling that youâll change your mind.â
He closes the gap between you, his gaze softening as he reaches out, brushing a tear from your cheek. âHey,â he whispers, his voice gentle, grounding. âIâm not going anywhere. You know why Iâve been working so much?â
You shake your head, your mind still reeling.
He lets out a deep breath, pulling something from his pocket, a small, worn ring box. âThis...This is why Iâve been putting in those hours. Because I want to be with you, forever....For good.â
You stare at the box in his hand, the realization washing over you like a wave. Bucky steps closer, his voice barely above a whisper. âIâve been saving up to buy you a ring. Because all I want is a life with you. No running, no more fears. Just us...till death do us part and all..."
The words sink in, and your heart feels like itâs breaking open and mending at the same time. âBucky, I⌠I didnât know.â
âI know, you weren't suppose to sweet girlâ he murmurs, wrapping his arms around you, pulling you close. âI know, and Iâm sorry. I shouldnât have said those things. I was just⌠scared, too. Scared that maybe youâd never really believe Iâd stay or be too scared to stay yourself.."
You cling to him, feeling the warmth of his embrace seep into you, grounding you. For the first time, you let yourself feel the truth in his words, the steady, unyielding love heâs shown you all along.
As he holds you in the quiet of the night, you finally feel something shift deep inside, a sense of peace replacing the old fears. And as you look up into his blue eyes, you know, without a doubt, that this is what home looks like.
Bucky holds you close, his arms wrapped around you as you both stand on the empty street, the quiet stillness of the night surrounding you. You can feel the steady beat of his heart as he holds you, each thump anchoring you back into the moment, reminding you of everything heâs done to show you heâs here to stay.
After a few moments, he pulls back just enough to look at you, his gaze soft and full of a warmth that nearly takes your breath away. He glances down at the small ring box in his hand, then back up at you, a faint smile tugging at the corners of his lips.
âI was planning this whole big thing, you know,â he says, a soft laugh escaping him as he looks at you, his eyes bright with a tenderness that makes your heart ache in the best way. âA perfect night, the right words⌠I wanted it to be special. Because you deserve that, you deserve everything.â
Your breath catches, your eyes filling with tears again, but this time theyâre tears of joy, of a hope thatâs finally free of the shadows that used to hold you back.
âBut somehow,â he continues, his thumb brushing softly across your cheek, âthis feels right. Standing here with you, just⌠us, no walls, no fears.â
Slowly, Bucky lowers himself down onto one knee, opening the small ring box to reveal a simple but beautiful ring that catches the glow of the streetlight. His eyes never leave yours as he speaks, his voice thick with emotion.
âI know weâve both been through a lot, and I know weâve still got our fears,â he says, his voice barely a whisper, each word carrying the weight of everything he feels. âBut thereâs no one else Iâd rather face them with. Youâre it for me. Youâre my home, my everything.â
He takes a steadying breath, his gaze unwavering as he holds the ring up to you. âWill you marry me? Will you let me spend the rest of my life proving to you that Iâm never going to leave?â
You feel the tears spill over, but this time you donât bother wiping them away. Nodding, you barely manage to whisper, the easiest words you ever said before âYes...Yes, Bucky, Iâll marry you"
A bright smile breaks across his face as he slips the ring onto your finger, then rises to his feet, pulling you back into his arms. He kisses you softly, a lingering kiss filled with every unspoken promise between you "I love you Bucky Barnes"
As he pulls back, his eyes meet yours, a smile playing on his lips. "And I love you, forever" he whispers, his voice filled with warmth and certainty. âYouâre the best thing that's ever been mine,â
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A Daughter's Plan
Pairing: Terry Richmond x Black Female OC
Warning(s): Pure Fluff. Single Dad. Girl Dad energy. Terry's POV. Low angst.
Summary: Terry Richmond is a lonely single dad caring for his ten-year-old daughter, Pilar. When Pilar's mother re-marries and moves overseas to start a new job and family, the pre-teen thinks her dad needs to find someone for himself, too. Unbeknownst to Terry, his clever daughter has her sights set on the new neighbor, Allegra, who might be the perfect match.
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"Isn't she pretty
Truly the angel's best
Boy, I'm so happy
We have been heaven blessed"
Stevie Wonderâ"Isn't She Lovely?"
Terry Richmond heard the familiar rolling sound of his ten-year-old daughter's skateboard crossing over into the cul-de-sac of their gated townhome neighborhood. He could always pick out the unique sound of her board's ka-kump, ka-kump, ka-kump rhythm compared to her school buddies as they raced each other home.
Pilar always did a few kick flip tricks by Mr. Rhea's property before she jumped the curb and circled past a speed bump near Mrs. Purdue's home. While hand sanding a rocking chair, that he made for his pregnant sister, Terry paused.
He didn't hear Pilar's skateboard anymore.
Her crew of three friends whizzed past his open garage door toward their homes, but Terry didn't see his only child roll up to greet him with her angelic smile and chaotic energy. He lifted his protective goggles and wiped his hands on his work apron. Still no sign of her.
He strode out of the garage to take a peek and he noticed her lingering by their mailbox, still wearing her protective helmet and staring across the wide street. A furniture van blocked the driveway of the townhome facing across their property. A Black woman in her late twenties or early thirties directed two burly movers to carry a brand new sofa covered in plastic through her front door. The cute bob and conservative pastel colors of her sweater and pencil skirt had him guessing she was a teacher, or worked in corporate.
He glanced at Pilar who kept her dark brown eyes laser-focused on the recent addition to their quiet corner of the world. She chewed on her lip and rolled her board back and forth with her left foot. The new neighbor bought the house of Pilar's best friend since kindergarten. Little Leslie Gardner left Ville Broussard, Louisiana a year ago, and her old house stood empty for nine months until the For Sale sign finally came down three months ago. Terry knew that Mr. Gardner put a pretty penny into renovating the place before putting it on the market, and the expense of the renovation drove the price up.
The woman across the street probably spent over two-hundred and fifty thousand dollars for the two-bedroom property. Pilar pretended to dig in the mailbox, knowing he had already gotten the mail, and stared at the woman. From that distance, he couldn't tell if Pilar was still upset about Leslie moving or if she was upset that a stranger was moving into her bestie's old home.
"Pilar," he called out.
His daughter looked his way, and so did the woman across the street.
Whoa.
Terry never got a full view of the neighbor before. He always caught sideways glances or the back of her head. But the full frontal turned out to be something else. She looked like a gorgeous Black Barbie doll. He peeped her figure a few days ago when she first showed up in form-fitting pale green sweatpants and a matching hoodie. The fall weather brought out the layers, but she must've ignored the forecast because she walked around double-cheeked up in sportswear not designed for cooler temperatures.
Miss Neighbor turned her attention back to the interior of her home and Pilar ambled over, carrying her skateboard. She pulled off her skateboard helmet.
"Hey munchkin," he said, ruffling her thick two-toned curls pulled back with a light blue scrunchie. From the roots to just above the tips, Pilar's hair was dark brown. The ends had turned their annual summer-in-the-sun reddish brown that matched her skin tone. She looked exactly like his oldest sister Brianna and had her spirited personality, too.
Pilar's down-turned lips reflected a little 'tude.
"I don't see any kids," Pilar said.
She sounded bummed.
"Checking out the neighbor, huh?"
"She's pretty. Do you think she's pretty, Dad?"
"She is very attractive."
"Very?" Pilar said with a smug grin.
"Don't read anything into that."
"We should go say hi."
"She's busy with furniture. Let her get settled in."
He guided Pilar into their home through the garage, and she dumped her board and helmet by the dinette table. She washed her hands in the kitchen sink and he pulled a PB&J sandwich on a plate and a Capri Sun from the fridge, placing them on the table for her after-school snack.
The landline rang, and he answered it.
"Hi Terry, is Pilar in yet?"
His ex wife's voice sounded perky and happy.
"Yeah, hold on.'"
He carried the cordless from the living room into the kitchen and handed it to Pilar.
"It's your mom."
Pilar's face brightened, and she chatted away on the overseas call. Terry returned to the garage and began sanding the armrest of the rocking chair. He swept sawdust on the ground and closed the garage door after he finished.
Back in the kitchen, he rinsed his hands. An uneaten sandwich remained on the kitchen table without Pilar in sight. He looked in their living room and didn't find her there.
"Pilar?"
Terry climbed the stairs to the second floor and found his daughter weeping on her bed, her face buried in a yellow Big Bird pillow.
"What's wrong?"
He sat his big body on her twin bed, and she shook her head on the pillow. He laid a hand on her back.
"Babygirl, what is it?"
"Mom isn't coming back for Christmas. She eloped with that man in Italy and they plan on flying me out there for a boat cruise instead of coming to the lake like she promised. They'll have a big party in place of a wedding in Rome next July."
Pilar never addressed her new step-father by his name, Bryson. It was always "that man" despite her mother dating him for two years. Bryson was east coast respectability. A Black Archon BoulĂŠ with a prestigious prep school background and long family money. The complete opposite of Terry's country boy/military roots. He drove a 2015 F-250 truck and drank beer. Bryson drove a 2025 Jaguar and sipped Chardonnay.
Yolanda leveled up to the Black bougie life she always wanted. Terry knew in his heart that Yolanda would never be happy building a life with him. They were both twenty and naĂŻve, getting married the moment they found out Pilar was conceived. He quit college and joined the marines to support them. Yolanda worked as a flight attendant after their daughter was born, so Terry stayed the primary caretaker, training other marines and not deploying out of the country.
Yolanda wanted more out of life than he could provide financially and asked for a divorce when Pilar turned six. Both their families had been shocked when she granted Terry primary custody of their only child. Yolanda wanted to travel the world and her career let her do that. She eventually settled in Atlanta, working for Delta. Pilar adjusted to being shuttled back and forth for holidays and summers.
Then Bryson popped up, freeing Yolanda from the working class. He was older, established, and child-free. Also very generous with his money.
Terry had made arrangements to send Pilar abroad for a lavish wedding the following summer as her mother's flower girl. She and Bryson had planned to spend the Christmas holiday with the entire Richmond family so that they could all meet the new man who would be connected to them through Pilar. Christmas was going to be the rare treat of being with both her parents for a holiday. The Richmond clan had reserved fancy cabins by a lake for a week and planned on turning it into a family reunion of sorts. Yolanda offered to arrange her Christmas plans for the reunion so Pilar wouldn't miss out on seeing all of her cousins from all over the states. Now she eloped and switched up on their child three months in advance.
Terry kept his anger in check in front of Pilar. He'd call Yolanda when his daughter was back in school and give her a smooth cuss out. He offered to switch Thanksgiving for Christmas because it was important for Pilar to experience a big reunion for the first time on his side of the family.
Pilar turned her head from the pillow. Big, wet eyes stared at him. Her bottom lip trembled and his heart squeezed in his chest. His daughter was the light of his life. Watching her expectations crumble hurt his soul. Pilar came first before anything, and that was the difference between him and Yolanda. Their daughter became a secondary consideration with her. His ex wasn't a terrible person. He loved her once a long time ago. She was ambitious, energetic, pretty, and gave him a perfect child. Yolanda just wasn't cut out to be a mother saddled with the responsibility of putting her daughter's emotional needs first. To Yolanda, whisking Pilar off to Rome probably sounded like giving her child the best in life. Bryson was an American Express Exec for their Italian branch and lived in a lavish home with staff and chauffeurs. Yolanda shopped, dined, and played tennis every day in luxury. She wanted Pilar to experience that lifestyle. In his own way, Terry wanted their daughter to have that chance, too. But without pulling the rug from under Pilar. She set her heart on having them all together for once since their divorce.
"Tell you whatâŚI'll talk to her and try to convince them to come for Christmas."
"She said the cruise is their early honeymoon and they want me to go so we can bond as a new family. I already have a family!"
Pilar buried her face in his chest, and he stroked her hair.
"How about we go to Cholly's Burgers for dinner and you can mope over a double cheeseburger and a big chocolate malt?"
Pilar sniffled and wiped her nose.
"Okay, I'll goâŚbut I can't guarantee that I'll feel better."
"Deal," he said.
He left her alone in her room and went down to the kitchen and put her sandwich and juice away. Checking emails on his smartphone, he spent the next couple of hours watching TV and then ironed Pilar's clothes for school. He showered and called his daughter down for their dinner trip. Outside, their new neighbor carried some things from her cream-colored Mercedes S-Class in the driveway.
"Excuse me," the woman called as Pilar jumped into his truck's passenger side.
"Yeah?" he called back.
"Hi, I'm AllegraâŚnew neighborâŚum, can you tell me what day the trash and recycling go out?"
"Thursdays!" Pilar called out.
His daughter had her head stuck out of the window with a big grin on her face.
"Yeah, Thursdays. They normally roll through around eleven a.m.," he said.
"Great, thanks."
"I'm Terry, and this is my daughter, Pilarâ"
"Are you married? Have kids?" Pilar asked.
Allegra smiled politely, holding a small box. Her eyes bounced from Pilar's to his, then back to Pilar.
"I'm not married. No kids."
Pilar whipped her head around to look at Terry. He ignored her.
"Have a good evening," he said.
He climbed into his truck and started it up.
"You're really not good at finding a date, Dad."
"What are you talking about, little girl?"
He backed out of their driveway and headed toward the main road that led to the highway.
"A single, beautiful woman with a fancy car asked you about trash day. She could've called her realtor or looked it up online."
"We were right there in front of her. It's quicker to ask a neighbor. That woman is not looking to date people she lives around. Besides, she saw me with you, so she'll think I'm married with a family already."
"She'll know pretty soon that it's just you and me."
"I don't think most upwardly mobile Black women are interested in men that already have children nowadays."
It took them twenty minutes to arrive at the burger joint, and Pilar's mood lifted considerably. They talked about her upcoming soccer game and she slurped down her chocolate malt content with life once again.
Back home, he washed and braided her hair in two cornrows, tying it down with a black satin hair scarf so he wouldn't have to do her hair in the morning. Their evening bedtime routine went off without a hitch and he allowed her to watch a cartoon before she went to sleep in her room.
The next couple of weeks were normal in the Richmond household. He'd ride his bike in the morning to take Pilar to school, following behind her as she skateboarded ahead of him with her classmates. Later, he'd ride his bike over to check on the restaurant he invested in. He spent a few days with his financial advisor and moved some money around that he received from a police settlement. His current financial status allowed him to enjoy not having the worries of steady employment until he found something he wanted to do. He put funds in stocks that did well, paid off the townhouse, and Yolanda's monthly child support covered the rest for Pilar. His woodworking kept him busy during the afternoon while Pilar was in school. But once she was home, he went straight into daddy mode. Soccer Dad duty, carpooling to games, checking homework, cooking and cleaning, fixing things at his parent's house and running their errandsâŚthey all filled his time.
Once a week he went bowling with friends and drank at bars, chasing a little tail, but not really trying to catch much. His three older sisters rotated keeping Pilar with their kids so he could have some adult time. The last few "dates" he had were with single moms who complained about their ex-husbands or ex boyfriends. He thought one woman named Michaela would be a long-term situation, but she reconciled with her boyfriend and moved to Dallas.
After a Saturday soccer practice, Pilar came to him and asked if she could bake some cookies for a school party. It was nearing Halloween. He pulled out some easy to bake pre-made Tollhouse cookie dough from the freezer. All Pilar had to do was place the small chocolate chip cookie dough squares onto a baking sheet and use the stove timer to keep them from burning.
He kicked up his feet to watch the news and when the stove buzzer went off, he trotted into the kitchen to make sure Pilar didn't burn herself by taking them out of the oven with the oven mits. She only baked a dozen.
"Shouldn't you bake more for your class?" he asked.
"It's a potluck, so people are just bringing whatever to share."
After they cooled, she used a spatula to scoop them onto a decorative plate of pumpkins and fall leaves. He covered them with plastic wrap.
"Maybe you should put them in some Tupperware," he suggested.
"No, this is good."
He left her to handle her party business.
Terry didn't think anything about the cookies until three days later when Allegra showed up at his open garage door. His electric sander and earplugs prevented him from hearing her approach. He turned toward the street and almost jumped, not expecting someone to be standing near his truck watching him. Shutting off the sander, he pulled out the earplugs and stared at her with his goggles on.
"Sorry to startle youâŚTerryâŚright?"
He nodded.
"I came over to bring you back your cookie plate. That was such a thoughtful housewarming gift. I ate every single chocolate chip cookie. Perfectly gooey in the center the way I like! The note you wrote was really sweet, too. Thank you so much."
"I'm sorry?" he said in confusion.
Terry pushed up his goggles. Allegra handed him the plate that wasn't empty. On it were slices of banana bread. He looked at the baked goods, then back at her.
"To show my appreciation for the cookiesâŚI just made it last night. I didn't put nuts in it because I don't know if anyone in your family is allergic to nuts."
"No, we aren't."
"I'll remember that."
Allegra's pretty eyelashes curled over naturally, and her lips had just enough red lipstick to give her plump lips a rosy tint. She was dream girl material, and the cut and style of her bob reminded him of something the old Black starlets wore in the sixties, but it looked contemporary too with a soft flip on the ends. Terry became lost in her face and she seemed equally lost in his, her gaze never leaving his eyes. That was one of the physical traits that women always said they loved about him. The green, lion-like eyes. She looked up at him and their size difference was quite obvious. She was petite-chic, the cut and color of her clothes making her seem taller far away. Allegra was shorter than his ex wife. He felt like a big giant standing next to her. She smelled so good. Her perfume hinted at jasmine in the summer.
"My daughter and I will enjoy this. Thanks for bringing it over with the plate," he said.
Allegra smiled and his chest caved in. Was it possible for her to be even more attractive with a smile on her face?
She glanced around his makeshift workshop.
"Woodworking? You do this for a living?" she asked.
He stepped aside to let her see the dining cabinet he built for another neighbor.
"Actually, it's a hobby of mine."
"Hobby? This is true craftsmanship."
He touched the side of the cabinet.
"I learned it from my dad and kept at it in highschool."
"If I paid you, could you make me a couple of custom bookshelves?"
"What type of wood?"
"Not too expensive."
"I can make some maple wood shelves and stain them to look expensive.'
"I like your way of thinking. When I get the time, I'll measure my walls and let you know what I need."
"Still settling in?"
"My god, I haven't unpacked all of my boxes. I'm still eating takeout because I dread unpacking everything in my kitchen. My new job keeps me busy and I'm usually too tired by the end of the day. I should be unpacking right now, but I have to leave for an event soon."
She sighed and pushed back a flipped curl on her forehead.
"I better let you get back to work. AgainâŚthank you for the sweet welcoming gesture."
Allegra left him alone in the garage and he watched her walk back across the street to her place. She had a little sway in her hips as she walked in her well-fitted navy blue dress pants and structured white button-down shirt. The light pink cardigan sweater tied around her shoulders was such a classy touch, along with her chunky blocked-heeled pumps.
He looked down at his dust-laden ripped jeans and brown work apron. Not too shabby, but he almost wanted to spruce up. He took the plate into the kitchen and checked the time. Pilar would be there in half an hour. He wanted to know what she wrote in that note to Allegra.
Running a hot shower, he cleaned his body and stared at his reflection in the mirror afterward. Time for a fresh line-up. His facial hair looked a little ungroomed. He took time to shave and then changed into better jeans and a fitted long sleeve shirt. He waited at the front door, peeking out of the screen.
Allegra stepped into her Mercedes wearing a pastel coral cocktail dress with an upswept hairdo, looking like Diahann Carroll with a smidgen of Grace Kelly. She drove off to wherever she needed to go and he imagined how breathtaking she'd look, stepping into a crowded room with all eyes on her beauty.
Ka-kump. Ka-kump. Ka-kump.
Pilar glided onto the sidewalk near their house and headed for the garage.
"I'm right here," he said.
She looked at him through the screen. He opened it and stepped outside. Folding his arms over his wide chest, he gave his daughter a questioning look.
"Am I in trouble?" she asked.
Her friends Caleb, Trudy, and Aisha waved at her and kick-pushed their skateboards toward their houses while yelling hello to him.
"You baked those cookies for Miss Allegra. Not a school party."
Pilar gave him a sheepish grin.
"What did you write in the note?"
"I just said something likeâŚwelcome to the neighborhood. Enjoy these homemade cookies. Then I put your name on it."
"Just my name?"
"Yes."
"She brought the plate back and made us some banana bread."
"Ooh!" Pilar said, rubbing her hands together. "My plan is set in motion."
"What plan?"
"DadâŚc'mon. Miss Allegra is the best-looking woman around here. I think you should ask her out on a date."
"I don't need my ten-year-old setting us up."
Pilar put a hand on her hip.
"Well, Auntie Brianna and Auntie Sloane said she's gorgeous and they think you should get to know her. She might be your perfect fit."
"How would they know? They've never seen her."
"I snuck a picture of her on my phone and sent it to them."
"Why the sudden interest in getting me to date?"
Pilar's gaze dropped to the ground.
"No reason. She's new and you don't go out as much anymore."
"That's because I have to take care of you. You're my priority. Dating can always come later."
He stepped aside and let her come in with her skateboard.
"It was a nice thing you didâŚgiving her the cookies," he said.
Pilar grinned.
Terry was an adept father and took pride in keeping a meticulous home, and his child put together well when she exited the front door. Two weeks before Thanksgiving, Pilar started coming home from school with wildly disheveled hair. Even if he put protective styles in with twists or high buns with little curls framing her face with cute tendrils, his daughter returned looking like her head went through a blender.
She'd claim it was the weather. Bad rainfall, or the wind messing it up, but for ten school days, she rolled back home with her hair every which-way, rubber bands busted, barrettes missing, and knocker ball hair bobbles vanished into thin air. She'd roll through, and each time, their neighbor Allegra would be outside collecting her mail. Pilar would wave and say "Hi!" really loud and Allegra responded in kind before stepping back into her house.
He assumed she wanted her hair out, craving to wear hairstyles like her older girl cousins. Rather than make a big deal about it, he started putting a headband on her.
One Saturday afternoon, Pilar played outside on the curved part of the cul-de-sac with her friends, kicking a soccer ball into Caleb's two netted goal posts. A typical loud day of children freely running around screaming and playing in the street. Pilar rocked a bushy 'fro and had the loudest voice out of the bunch.
He kept an eye out for them while watching a football game by leaving his livingroom shades open. Snacking on some chips, he turned his head to check on the action outside.
He quickly ducked his head down low.
Allegra played outside with the children.
Terry hid behind the couch and secretly watched Allegra interact with the neighborhood kids doing soccer ball tricks with her knees and sneaker'd feet. She kicked the ball to Pilar and his daughter charged her, heading for a goal post. Allegra wasn't shy about her defensive moves and easily swiped the ball away from his daughter, kicking it with a curved arc into the opposite goal post. All the children squealed in delight and high-fived her. She stepped aside to let the children continue their boisterous match up.
Terry's back ached from being hunched over spying. Pilar spoke to Allegra for a long time, ignoring her friends, and her bouncy energy kept a smile on the woman's face. Allegra glanced toward his open window and Terry dropped to the floor, hiding his body.
He waited five minutes.
"Why are you on the floor, Daddy?"
Pilar stood above him with a quizzical expression. She'd come in the house through the garage door.
"Stretching my back out," he said.
"But you're on your stomach."
"Can I help you with something?" he said, standing up.
Outside, Allegra stood watching him through the window.
"I asked Miss Allegra how she kept her hair so pretty and she told me her hair care routine. I'm coming to get a pen and paper for her to write it down so you can take care of my hair."
"What? I know how to take care of your hair! I've been doing it since you were born."
Pilar grabbed a Bic pen and tore a piece off some junk mail envelope sitting on the coffee table.
"Daddy, please. Work with me here. I've been looking raggedy for two weeks to get her attention. She finally asked about my curls and I asked about her hair."
Pilar dashed out the front door before he could stop her. She handed Allegra the pen and paper. Terry became flustered. His daughter pretended to be unkempt to fool a grown woman into having sympathy for him.
Allegra scribbled on the paper outside and he felt exposed for something that wasn't true. Pilar ran back into the house through the front door and handed him the half envelope. Most of what Allegra listed, Terry already had in his bathroom for his daughter.
HoweverâŚshe wrote her phone number down, too.
"Boo-ya!" Pilar said, flinging her fingers open like an explosion going off.
"Come into the kitchen with me," he said.
Pilar followed him.
"Sit," he commanded.
He stuffed the half envelope in his back pocket.
"PilarâŚbabygirlâŚI know you mean well, but pleaseâŚstop the antics."
"But Daddyâ"
"I mean it."
His voice went down an octave, his baritone sounding harsh. Pilar ran from the kitchen table and stomped loudly up the stairs. He closed his eyes in frustration and waited fifteen minutes before going upstairs.
Pilar cried on her bed. Her loud bawling startled him.
"MunchkinâŚI'm not madâŚI justâŚyou don't have to do this."
"I do!" she wailed.
He sat in his usual spot and let her get her emotions out. She eventually calmed down to gaspy shudders and sad moans of pain. He brushed her hair back, and she threw her arms around his neck.
"I don't want you being alone. Mom married somebody and now she gets to be happy. I want you to be happy, too, Daddy."
"Munchkin, I am happy. I have youâŚgrampy and grandma, your aunts, my friendsâ"
She shook her head against his neck.
"It's not the same as having someone for yourself. I'll grow up and go to college and you'll be here by yourself. Everyone in our family has someone. Grampy has Grandma, Auntie Brianna has Uncle MitchâŚAuntie Sloane has Uncle Kenny. Even Auntie Monique has her boyfriend Gordon. I'm scared for you, Daddy. You're such a good, kind person and you deserve what Mommy has."
Pilar burst into more tears and his eyes grew blurry. He wiped them and pulled back from his daughter.
"It's not your responsibility to worry about me. My job is to worry about you, hear me?"
Pilar kept crying. Her nose ran, but she nodded at his words.
"When the time comes for me to find my special someoneâŚit'll happen. Naturally. Understand?"
"Y-Y-Yessss," she blubbered.
He kissed her forehead and used his thumbs to wipe away warm tears.
"Can I tell you something that will make you happy?"
"O-O-Okayyyy," she choked out.
"Your Mom and 'that man' agreed to change their plans back to coming out for Christmas. And, I don't have to trade Thanksgiving."
"For real?"
"For real. In fact, Bryson urged your mother to reconsider, and he rescheduled the cruise for next year. He's not so bad, huh?"
Pilar sniffled, and her swollen red eyes pained him.
"I guess not."
"Let's make a deal, okay? You don't worry about hooking me up and just enjoy being a little girl with a happy father."
"Are you happy?"
"I am. I have you and a very full life. Promise. Go wash your face and get back outside with your friends."
"Okay, Daddy."
She jumped off the bed and ran to the hall bathroom. He went to her bedroom window and peeked out from the blinds. Allegra went back into her home. He pulled the scrap of envelope from his back pocket and stared at her phone number.
Saturday afternoons were usually Terry and Pilar's time to decompress and watch movies together. Sometimes there was a slumber party with her cousins at their house or one of his sister's. But on this particular Saturday, it was football fever on the flatscreen TV with his buddies while Pilar was at her grandparents' house.
Terry had plenty of pizzas and beer, and his sound system blasted the play-by-play of the game. He enjoyed the company of his buddies, all Black men with families, and very little free time except for the small moments of respite at Terry's place. The Steelers beat the Commanders and the guys talked shit, then they played his AuxGod Hip Hop Edition game. He rapped his ass off while playing Nas's "One Mic" on his smartphone and got his friends hyped to share R&B music. They all howled when someone messed up playing the wrong songs based on cards they pulled, thinking they had the perfect jam. Good clean fun.
The afternoon wound down into late evening and he cleaned up pizza boxes and empty beer cans. His friends bumped fists and gave each other dap as they left out the front door. Rain started falling, and he noticed Allegra pulling into her driveway. The late hour had him guessing she had a night out again. Her job didn't keep her from a busy social life. He often caught sight of her coming and going on the weekends. One time, another car brought her home and stayed overnight in her driveway.
He waved his friends away and pulled out his cell to call his father.
"Hey Junior," his father said.
"Hey, Pops. How's it going over there?"
"Good. The girls are playing and your mama is letting them stay up late to watch some Godzilla movie on Amazon Prime."
"I wanted to say goodnight to Pilar."
"No problem, hold onâŚPilar! Your Dad is on the phone!"
Terry waited for his daughter, and soon enough, her voice rang in his ear.
"Hey, Dad."
"Being good?"
"Of course. What time are you picking me up tomorrow?"
"After you get back from church."
"Aw man. You can't get me early, so I don't have to go?"
"I had to suffer through it. It's your turn now."
"But they take forever. Even God goes to sleep by the time that preacher gets done."
"Hey, don't blaspheme, and don't you two keep Grampy and Grandma up too late, okay?"
"We won't. Night, Dad!"
Terry swiped his smartphone and noticed Allegra's car lights were still on. She hadn't left her driveway. He guessed she was talking on her cell phone.
His house smelled of cigars, pepperoni, and Budweiser. He finished cleaning up and sprayed the dining room with air freshener. Rolling his neck muscles, he climbed up to his bedroom. His blinds were open, and he checked the street again.
Allegra stood near her car in the rain looking up at the sky. She stuck her tongue out, tasting the droplets, and spun around in a circle with her arms outstretched. He smiled. She looked like a big kid having fun.
The rain drenched her hair, and she swiped it back, her tresses turning into slick ringlets. The playfulness she exuded cracked something open inside of him. Maybe Pilar was right. Maybe he did want someone to share his life with. He and Allegra barely exchanged enough words in passing for him to sense that she would be open to going out for a coffee or dinner. She never got back to him about the bookshelves, and he never called her phone number to ask about the hair care products she suggested for Pilar.
His confidence in asking women out had waned that year. Each time he thought he might want to spend time with a woman, schedules didn't match up, or he didn't feel that pull to pursue a relationship. The spark wasn't there. Part of him was afraid to put his heart back out there. His ex, Yolanda, had been a heartbreak he finally let go of two years ago. It frightened him into not wanting to be vulnerable with another woman again. Romantic love was for the brave, and Terry was not feeling brave anymore.
But Allegra?
After shaking her arms, she finally went inside her house, not caring that her snazzy outfit was soaked clear through to her skin. He looked at his dresser. The envelope with her number sat next to his hairbrush.
He texted her number.
Hi, Allegra. This is your neighbor, Terry. I was going to pick up some lumber at Home Depot tomorrow and wanted to know if you were still interested in getting bookshelves made? No rush to answer. I'm always going there every other week. If you changed your mind, that's cool, too.
He sent it off, and seconds later, she rang him up.
"Hello?"
He sounded breathless.
"HiâŚTerry? It's AllegraâŚfrom across the street. Got your message."
"Oh, great. Sorry for texting so late. I was about to turn in and wanted to ask you before I forgot and left tomorrow."
He winced. His words came out in a rush of nervous energy.
"I do want the bookshelves made. I've been so busy I just never got around to measuring anything. Could you come by tomorrow before you leave and take a look at my floor space? You'd have a better idea of measurements than I would."
Terry stared at his reflection in the mirror. His eyes turned into saucers.
"I can do that. I've got to pick up my daughter from church tomorrow at one. I can drop by with my digital tape measure before then and then go to Home Depot."
"Can I go with you? I'd like to see the wood you're considering besides the maple you told me about."
"UhâŚsure."
"What time should I expect you over here?"
"Let's say ten?"
"Great, see ya then."
"Goodnight."
He hung up, stunned.
She wanted to go with him to the Depot?
"So, what do you think? Two shelves here and then two more in my office room?"
Allegra watched him make final calculations on his phone. He surveyed her living room set-up one more time to ensure efficient use of her space. They'd spent a good twenty minutes upstairs in her stylish office and he made a quick sketch on his notepad of the shelving unit he could make for her in there. She would pay for the wood and any extra supplies he needed, and he insisted on doing the work for free.
The layout in her house was roomy and leaned toward a mid-century modern styled interior. She liked rich and luxurious wood furniture with mustard yellow and avocado-colored accents. Her home fit her personal style the way he imagined it would. It had a timeless quality. He told her a little about the family that lived there before she bought the place, and the conversation meandered into her own hobbies of painting and gardening. She showed him her patio space in the back and he offered to build her plant containers to grow her favorite flowers. Those were easy to put together and would be cheaper than her buying them pre-made online.
He learned that she had been a highschool soccer star, and that talent landed her a full-ride scholarship to Brown University where she almost landed a spot on the Olympic team. But a skiing accident ruined her shot. She still liked to watch the game and play occasionally.
Allegra worked from home mostly as an In-House attorney for a legal firm with document heavy cases, thus the need for bookshelves to hold all her law books. She did contract reviews, legal research, and dealt with a lot of intellectual property research for her clients.
Terry listened to her talk about herself, and her warm personality gave him the courage to open up about himself. Of course, he bragged about Pilar, and on their way to Home Depot, he pointed out places of interest to her.
"I always wanted to live in a small town," she said. "I grew up in New England, but my grandparents were from here, so I had annual trips for holidays and always liked it. Now that I can work remotely from home, I put stakes in the ground and live here full time. Getting away from the east coast has been a relief. This place makes me happy."
"We love it here. Excellent schools, nice people who look out for each other."
"It's just you and Pilar?"
"Yep. My ex remarried and moved to Europe."
"Co-parenting overseas must be rough."
"YolandaâŚmy exâŚshe recently moved there. It's going to be a change for sure. I'm used to Pilar flying a quick hop to Atlanta. Now, she'll have partial summers there and I don't know if I can handle her flying so far away where I can't get to her fast, y'know?"
"I had to do it when I was young. My parents divorced when I was twelve. I hopped from Boston to England to stay with my dad and his new wife on my school breaks. My mother was a nervous wreck at first, but you adjust."
"I hope so. I try to be stoic for Pilar, but I know I'll be in shambles when she flies out there next year."
Allegra laughed and the sound of her voice so close comforted him.
"I'll help talk you down when those nerves kick up," she said.
They walked up and down aisles at the Home Depot, and since he was a regular, the workers there were quick to help him because he didn't waste time. Terry explained the different type of wood options and they compared prices. He did his best to keep costs down for her, and she went along with whatever he thought was best. She'd seen his work output and trusted his skills.
He loaded up the truck bed, and they swooped over to his grandparents' church to pick up Pilar. His daughter's eyes widened when she noticed Allegra sitting in the truck. She ran past Terry and chatted with Allegra. He soon introduced his parents to her, and they invited her to attend a church service in the future.
Pilar hopped in the seat behind Allegra, and he drove them back to their home.
"I'll unload this and start working on your shelving units tomorrow," he said.
"Great."
Pilar watched them interact. She wore the goofiest grin on her face.
Allegra took off across the street and he watched her leave along with Pilar. When she was outside of earshot, Pilar grabbed his arm.
"You hung out with her?" she enthused.
"We talked about her bookshelves."
"So you went inside her house and spent time with her, right?"
"I did."
"Isn't she cool? She plays soccer, and she likes monster moviesâŚ"
Pilar stopped gushing about Allegra.
"I forgot. You told me not to interfere."
"I might've been wrong about that," he said.
Pilar's face lit up.
"Oh, yeah?"
"I like her. She's really nice and smart."
"My work here is done," Pilar said.
She skipped into the house, and he unloaded the truck.
Making bookshelves and planter boxes was the beginning.
Next came inviting Allegra over for football game gatherings with his family.
He introduced her to his oldest sister who gave birth to a baby boy, her first, and he watched Allegra nervously hold the newborn with trepidation in her eyes.
"You got itâŚjust hold his head like this and keep him close to youâŚyeah, see, you got it," he said.
Terry's new nephew was a little chocolate drop.
"He's so tiny and adorable," Allegra said.
All of his sisters liked her, and his mother took the grand gesture of inviting her to join them on their family Christmas trip. Allegra looked genuinely receptive to the idea, but she already had plans to fly out to Boston to spend the winter holiday with her family. Terry felt bummed about it and realized that he was catching feelings for her.
He kept their budding friendship platonic, but by the following spring, it was clear to everyone around them that something was blooming past friendship. They hadn't been physical with each other yet, not even kissing. He liked the slow, easy pace. It gave him time to know her before jumping into anything serious, especially since he had Pilar to think of.
His daughter was crazy about Allegra.
He was too.
As time ticked on and it grew closer to the time that Pilar would have to fly overseas, his anxiety spiked. He was not planning on attending the celebration. His former sister-in-law, Zarah, was going to fly the long distance with Pilar to Rome.
The day his daughter was to leave, he paced in his living room, going over Pilar's packing list several times. Allegra hung out with him, reassuring him that all would be well. Zarah was on her way in a Lyft to pick up Pilar. They all thought it best that he say his goodbyes from home and not go to the airport.
"Go to the restroom one more time before you leave," he told his daughter.
Pilar ran upstairs to her bathroom.
"I'm going to put the roast in the oven for our dinner tonight," Allegra said. "Be right back."
He walked her outside of his home. When Allegra reached the sidewalk, she turned around to face him. For the first time, she slid her arms around his waist and looked up at him.
"You're a great Dad, Terry. Pilar is so lucky to have youâŚand so am I."
Terry locked eyes with her, and any fears he had about taking a chance on finding love melted away.
"May I kiss you?" he asked.
Her eyes twinkled like she'd been waiting her whole life to hear him say those four words.
"Yes, you may, Mr. Richmond."
He placed his forehead against hers first and savored the moment before the moment. Yes, he deserved someone for himself. His wily daughter had been so correct in her assessment of him. Forever grateful for Pilar's push to get him out into the world with the special woman in his arms, Terry lowered his head and kissed Allegra.
His full, lush lips were nothing compared to the soft place of comfort he found pressed against her mouth. Her lips coaxed a passion out of him he hadn't felt in years. He kept the kiss a little below chasteâŚshe gave him a little teasing of her tongue to entice him for more later, when they would be alone. His grin broke their physical contact and the butterflies in his stomach told him she was the one to take a chance with.
He pushed a fluffy bang away from her left eye and Allegra glanced up toward his second floor. Terry followed her gaze, and they both glimpsed Pilar looking down at them from her bedroom window. She fist-pumped her right hand, and the expression she gave them was pure joy.
Her little plan worked.
Author's Note:
I wanted to write something fast and fluffy to put out the day after the horror of that anti-Black orange menace being put back in office by racist white people and their non-Black PoC racist minions. Black women need soft, joyful things to get us through. We all we got. Remember that.
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This is worse
Trigger warning:Â birthing fetish
My birth video ended up on a fetish subreddit because of my husband
Throwaway. Although my husband will probably see this here anyway. Maybe this can be the conversation starter?? I don't know! I just need to get this out somewhere and have people validate that my feelings aren't crazy!
I'm sorry if this is all over the place. I am a mess.
My (F33) husband (M36) is the most wonderful and caring person I've ever met in my life. I thought. Almost overbearingly sweet. He's always concerned with how I'm doing, how I'm feeling, how is my mental health. He's an excellent father to our two children as well.
I had a difficult birth with my first child. My hospital experience was bad. I felt traumatized afterwards. When I got pregnant with my second, I knew that, barring any issues, I wanted a homebirth. My husband was all for it. He's a nurse, so I felt doubly safe with him plus my midwife to support me.
The midwife filmed and we also had a professional photographer taking pictures. Everything went great. It was so emotional and beautiful. I'm trying not to give too many details away since it's apparently available to ANYONE for their viewing pleasure right now.
I have been pretty possessive of that birth tape. I never uploaded it anywhere. After I downloaded it onto my computer from our camera's sim card, I uploaded it to a USB, deleted it off my computer, and I keep it in a little "hope chest" to watch when I'm feeling sentimental. It is so beautiful and important to me, and I wasn't interested in sharing it. I have several friends who put their whole birth on YouTube, but I wasn't interested in doing that. My birth didn't need to be shared with the world. It didn't need to be a teaching moment. It didn't need to exist to make others feel better. After my traumatic first birth, it was mine and i cherished it.
My husband didn't feel the same way and sometimes had light arguments with me about it. He was never pushy, but several times, when I would watch it, he would comment "this is such an excellent birth video! You are so happy and calm! I really think you should post this. Homebirths get such a bad rep and this could put so many women at ease." I would tell him absolutely not. This is private. Stop pestering me about it. Its my body. He eventually dropped it and hasn't brought it up since.
My husband and I have never been controlling. We don't have the passwords to each other's phones. I've never felt the need to check each other's phones or computers. I trust him implicitly. Well. I did anyway. I know he has a reddit. We both reddit pretty often. But i don't know his profile or what he does on here. Idk I've just never thought about it.
A few days ago, I was in one of my parenting subreddits and came across a disturbing thread about birth videos getting posted nonconsenually in a birth fetish subreddit. I thought to myself, that is exactly the reason I didn't want to post my birth video. The commenter posted the link to the fetish sub and I'll admit curiosity got the better of me and I went to look. I wanted to know if any of my friends videos wound up there so that I could tell them.
Well their videos DID wind up there. Every single one. The sub has several vast g drives linked to birth videos. But then I saw it. MY FUCKING BIRTH VIDEO. It looked like it had been a YouTube video at one point?? Idk I don't understand how this works. I cant find it on youtube anywhere, so idk. I'm so fucking ashamed and horrified. There is a closeup of...well EVERYTHING down there in a fucking fetish site. My baby taking his first breaths. Me breastfeeding. It doesn't even cut off after the birth. It shows my baby getting weighed, and just...held. If this is a birth fetish sub, why does it feature so much of just...my CHILD. This seems like waaayyyy more than just a birth fetish thing. Idek how to report the video.I reported the post and reddit says it doesn't violate anything.
I am bawling as I type this. Like wtf. Only ONE person knows where that tape is: my fucking husband. I don't even know how to broach this subject with him.
"Hey did you fucking violate my privacy and post OUR BABY'S BIRTH ONLINE, or did you submit it straight to a fetish site, because that's where it is right now."
I don't know what to do. I can't believe I even have to have this discussion. Wtf even if he didn't submit that video straight to the fetish site, he uploaded it somewhere else where they found it, and now his actions have led to THIS situation. He exposed ME to perverts online. He exposed our newborn infant to perverts online!!!
Our marriage will NOT survive this and I am a wreck. I should have known he had SICK intentions when he was being so weird about wanting me to post this. WHY? WHY WOULD HE DO THIS?? I'm not even that angry about those sickos seeing me, but every time I think of my sweet little baby's face in there...I feel like I'm going to throw up. Surely this is illegal?? Surely newborn babies can't be featured in content that people are...sexualizing!!! Can they?? I'm also just....absolutely gutted by the fact that so many other women have had this special moment bastardized by that sub. How many of them are in my shoes? Or my friends shoes. I'm horrified. Do I press charges against my husband?? I can't believe this is how my family is going to end. What will I even tell people. What will I tell my kids!!? Idek what to do!!
TLDR: Husband posted birth video online and it wound up on a fetish site. I don't know what to do.
Update: just a quick update. I left and took the kids to my mom's house. Idk how long we'll be here. I didn't tell my husband anything. I just wanted to get the kids the fuck away from him. Even if he didn't share that video directly with those creeps, I don't want him around them.
TLDR: Husband posted birth video online and it wound up on a fetish site. I don't know what to do.
Update to: birth video in a fetish subreddit
I just...need to vent I guess. This isn't a happy update.
As I mentioned in my last post, I went over to my mom's house. She was bewildered about why I was there. I couldn't fess up to the reason why I was so upset. I am still so embarrassed. I didn't want her to go looking for the damn video either. Thinking of my mom searching around a porn sub to find my BIRTH VIDEO made my skin crawl. I was hysterical. Still am. I couldn't really hide that. I just told her something bad had happened and we needed to stay for awhile. I'm going to have to tell her, but every time I think about doing it, I just start crying more. The situation is even more complicated now, so I'm just scared people will be mad at me for doing what I'm doing, even my own mom.
My husband called and texted over and over for hours. We haven't spent a night apart in years. I gave him no warning. I texted him once and said we were visiting my mom and would be back later, but that I needed a break. I was worried he'd call the police, but he didn't. He continued to text sporadically, pleading with me to talk with him about what was wrong.
I went back over to our house the next day around the time I figured he'd be off work. I took one of my mom's old phones and used it to record our whole interaction. Turns out he'd called out of work he was so distressed. He ran up to me and immediately started asking what was wrong, asking where the kids were etc. He was SO understandably upset. Seeing him like that just made me start crying too. When I started crying, he started crying. He tried to hug me and I stepped away which just made him more upset. It was such a mess. I was finally able to compose myself enough to ask him to watch a video on my phone. He was confused. More so when he realized it was my birth video. A few minutes in, he interrupted to ask why I was showing him. I ended the video, and a hundred other birth videos in the g file folder appeared. He still just looked confused. I exited the folder and pointed to the name of the sub I was in. He took my phone for a better look and I just started bawling and bawling. After a few minutes, he started raging about how we needed to mass report the post and call the FBI and blah blah blah. He kept repeating "we'll fix this. Holy fuck. This is so sick." I tried to get his attention by asking "how did they get that video?" But he just kept pacing around ranting. I just started repeating over and over "how did they get it!?" Until I was screaming at the top of my lungs. He eventually stopped and just stared at me. Neither of us said anything for a long time.
He started crying and told me that he had started a "Daddy Blog" a year after our first was born. He posted about being a dad and eventually about his experience with my second pregnancy. He had posted the video on youtube to link to his blog. He felt like there wasnt enough resources out there for dads regarding pregnancy. He didn't know I didn't want it posted until a week or two after baby was here and I was so vehement about not posting it and getting it tucked securely away on a usb. It was up for about TEN fucking months before he finally took it down. He was waiting to see if I changed my mind, and was reluctant to remove it because he'd received so many messages from thankful dads about how educational and helpful his blog/vlogging was. I had 0 knowledge about this blog. I didnt even know people blogged anymore?? We had both expressed many times how we didn't want to create a massive digital footprint for our children because of SITUATIONS JUST LIKE FUCKING THIS, so I this is such a fucking weird surprise. There's hundreds of pictures of our family on this thing.
Anyway, we got into a huge argument about how this was a breech of trust and privacy. He maintained that he thought my reaction about not wanting the video posted was over the top, and how I never told him I didn't want to share it, how he didn't even think of it as a big deal because he deals with that kind of thing every day so it was just not a big deal to him and blah blah blah. His excuses were stupid and I don't care. My birth wound up on a fetish subreddit because of him and we are getting a divorce.
When I told him it was over, we had another big screaming match. He went through several different emotions. Crying, wailing, begging, and finally anger. I hadn't said ANYTHING about custody arrangements, or my plans besides divorce, but he started threatening full custody and how he was going to put up a huge fight, how it would just be "he said/she said," how he has the better job, etc. Whatever. I didn't tell him I recorded anything (legal in our state). I eventually just walked out.
So yeah. That's where I'm at today. I need to consult with a lawyer about what comes next. I am moving as quickly as I possibly can. Sitting down to write this update was probably a stupid move, but I received SO many heartfelt messages from people concerned for me that it felt necessary. I honestly just...needed to vent and have people tell me I'm not crazy or awful for doing what I'm doing. I told a few friends, and they all just seem...weird. They're concerned about the videos I found in the fetish group, but nobody has reassured me that I'm making the right moves in regards to the situation.
I am in an incredibly bad place right now. I'm worried I'm making the wrong decision. Do i let him see the kids?? I don't know what to tell my family. I don't know if i need to contact the police. I don't know if i want to. The most stupid part of me wishes I could call my best friend and talk to him about it, but uh...yeah I'm divorcing him. What a stupid feeling to miss him so badly and knowing that I will never be with him again. I just keep thinking that I'm doing something stupid, and i feel like so many people will see it that way.
On top of everything, my birth video is just...in a fucking fetish sub. Every time I think about that, I get choked up. I've reported it a million times in just the few days since I posted. I've made alts to try and report. I've had friends report. My other friends,with their birth videos ALSO posted non-consenually in there, have tried reporting. It doesn't matter. I sent the link to the FBI. It doesn't even really matter anyway. They're g drives. If the post got removed, if the whole sub was removed, my video is still in the possession of some sicko using it for fap material. My baby's sweet little face in there...I am sick. I am defeated.
They have a post up in the sub about how their previous group was removed because of pedophile content. No shit. No fucking shit. Your fetish inherently involves children. They ask that "karens" please leave them alone now. They acknowledge that pedophiles lurk in their sub, yet continue to steal content with children in it for sexual purposes. I do not understand how something like this is legal. I don't know how many other dark places on the internet my video has ended up.
The most special moment of my life is now just this fucking smear of shit all because I decided to try and capture it for memory's sake. Something that was supposed to bring me unending joy, now leaves me weeping. I keep looking at my sweet toddler and just...breaking down. He didn't deserve this. I wish I could go back and never have recorded that video. I took my USB and fucking smashed it into a million pieces just to feel like I did something. I am tired.
There's not going to be another update for awhile. I am in a very dark place.
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can i request a fluff one shot where reader has to go on a trip (either for work or family reasons) and melissa meets them at the airport when they arrive back and is just super domestic once back at their shared apartment đĽşđĽş
In the Quiet of Absence.
Summary: After spending a month in Paris for a work conference, you finds yourself longing for the warmth of home and, more than anything, for Melissa.
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You sink into the plush hotel bed, a sigh escaping your lips as you look out at the city lights glimmering against the Parisian skyline. Itâs breathtakingâno doubt about thatâbut after almost a month, even the magic of Paris can't dull the ache you feel right now.
âGod, I miss her so muchâŚâ you mutter to yourself, rubbing your temple as you glance around the luxurious room.
Your right hand drifts to the nightstand, fingers brushing over your phone. Without thinking, you pick it up, your thumb tracing over Melissaâs name. You can picture her asleep back home, curled up in bed, her auburn hair spilling across the pillow, maybe even with little Sweet Cheeks nestled at her chest. The thought brings a goofy but genuine grin to your lips as you press ârecord voicemail.â
With the phone cradled in your hand, you start speaking quietly, as if she could somehow hear you through the miles of the ocean.
âGood night, Lis. I know you wonât see this until morning since youâre probably fast asleep right now. Paris is... well, itâs Paris. Beautiful, busy, a little overwhelming. Everyone says how lucky I am to be here, but honestly, it just makes me miss you more. I walked by a cafĂŠ today, and I kept thinking how nice it would be to sit there with you, sipping coffee, people-watching, maybe listening to you rant about the tourists. Itâs just not the same without you here to share it with.â
Sighing softly, you add. âI spent the day at the conference, and honestly, I found myself daydreaming about our couch and Sweet Cheeks curled up between us. I wish you couldâve seen the view from the top of the Eiffel Tower. You wouldâve loved it. I tried to take some pictures, but they just donât do it justice.â
As you keep talking about the conference through voicemail, the people youâve met, and the places youâve seen, you canât help but let your thoughts drift to home.
Home.
Itâs hard being so far from home, but even harder being far from her. Paris might be beautiful, a dream city for most, but without Melissa next to you, it feels empty, just walls and skies. Youâd flown here for work, a month-long conference that was supposed to be exhilarating, a stepping stone in your writing career. And while thereâs been value in it, each day is a little heavier than the last. Every stroll past the Eiffel Tower, every quiet hotel room evening, only reminds you of how much you miss the life you share with her.
Youâd never imagined how hard it would be to be apart from her. Sure, you two had spent nights apart before, but a whole month? It was almost unbearable. You miss everything about herâher laugh, the way she fills the room with her warm, unfiltered energy, and the little things she does just to make you smile. Itâs like there's a part of you that just isn't here, and every day, that longing grows heavier.
Everything here felt too polished, too perfect. You missed the little imperfections that made life with the second grade teacher so damn beautiful. How Melissa would wrap her arms around you in the mornings, still groggy from sleep. Her face when sheâd forget where she put her reading glasses only for you to find them perched on her head, or the way sheâd tease over making the perfect cup of coffee each morning. The way she would immediately fuss over your packing, making sure you had everything you needed, and the soft hum of her voice as she reassured you that everything would be just fine while you were away.
Home was with Melissa Schemmenti, and every part of you ached to be there.
Your girlfriendâs voice on the phone helps â her late-night calls about what went wrong at Abbott Elementary that day, the accent you love laced with the warmth of home. âMon amour,â youâd whisper into the phone during one of your daily conversations, a term of endearment that wraps around both your hearts, even across the miles. But her voice isnât enough, not when youâre used to seeing her every night, sharing meals, her touch grounding you in a way nothing else can.
With a gruff, you close your laptop, packing away notes youâd barely read. Thatâs when you hear the knock on your door, breaking the silence.
âBonsoir, madame,â one of the hotel staff says politely when you respond. âDinner is ready downstairs in the lobby.â
âMerci, je serai lĂ dans cinq minutes.â Your answer is quick, almost robotic. Despite enjoying the culinary wonders of the place, you canât help but prefer the meals of a specific redhead who knows everything about cooking and Italian cuisine.
âPas ĂŠtonnant, si vous avez besoin dâautre chose, nous sommes Ă votre disposition.â
You thank them with a smile, but youâre already glancing at your phone, at the time difference that keeps you apart, counting down the days â just three more â until youâre back in her arms.
Back at the bedroom, after finishing dinner, youâre restless. As much as the meal was filling, your thoughts are back at home with her. You finish up the small dessert in your room, the excitement building to be back in her arms, in the life youâve built together. The night stretches on, a quiet contrast to the bustling city outside, and your sleep feels even further away.
You slip beneath the covers, staring at the ceiling as the quiet surrounds you. Sleep eludes you as memories of the older woman flood your mindâher lavender smell, the comfort of her presence. Everything.
âJust three more days,â you repeated the phrase, over and over again. Feeling like a mantra.
Closing your eyes, the loneliness is creeping in again, but the thought of returning keeps you anchored, making the distance feel just a little bit smaller.
It wonât be long now.
Back in Philadelphia, Melissa is dealing with her own form of aching loneliness. Sheâd thought she could handle a month without you; after all, sheâd done it before. But the days had dragged on longer than expected, and each night without you next to her was another reminder of how deeply entwined you both were.
The redheadâs days are packed with the usual chaos at Abbott Elementary, but somehow it doesnât quite fill the space you left behind. She comes home to an empty apartment that feels colder without the warmth of your laughter echoing through it. Sweet Cheeks, her classroom guinea pig, has become an unlikely companion, curled up in a little cage by her couch. She started bringing him home on weekends, claiming it was to keep the kids excited for Monday mornings. But if she were being honest with herself, she liked the companyâeven if it was just a ball of fur and squeaks. Sweet Cheeks always listened to her rants about the day, his tiny, twitching nose and big eyes a small comfort in your absence.
She talks to him about you sometimes, about the things she knows youâre seeing in Paris. âSheâs probably at some fancy shit right now, buddy,â she mutters, throwing him a piece of lettuce as she leans back on the couch. âProbably complaining about how boring those rich dumbasses are.â
Melissa had never really considered herself to be sentimental. She was tough, independent, and good at taking care of herself. But after so many years of you two being together, this past month had taught her just how much youâd become her home. She finds herself missing the little thingsâyour goodnight kisses, the way you leave your books stacked messily by the bed, the warmth of your hand reaching for hers whenever you pass each other in the kitchen.
She sighs and reaches for her phone, scrolling through your photos, lingering on the ones youâve sent her from Paris. Thereâs one of you smiling in front of the Eiffel Tower, looking radiant with the cityâs lights sparkling behind you. She canât help but smile, even if her chest aches. âGod, youâre beautiful,â she whispers, running a thumb over the screen. The animal lets out a small squeak, almost as if heâs in agreement, and she chuckles. âYeah, champ. Iâm the luckiest gal in Philly, huh?â
Her phone buzzes with a voicemail notification, and her heart jumps a little. Itâs your voice, soft and intimate, filling the quiet of her apartment as you talk about your day. You talk about the conference, the view from the Eiffel Tower, and how much you wish she were there. The familiar sound of your voice brings an ache to her chest, but it also fills her with a sense of peace.
She presses the phone close to her heart once your message ends, letting out a shaky sigh. âJust three more days,â she says to herself, mirroring your own anxiety. She settles back into the couch, Sweet Cheeks nestled beside her, as she listens to your message one more time, the sound of your voice helping her feel just a little closer to you.
The nights for your girlfriend are the hardest. She lies awake, staring at the ceiling, longing for the warmth of your body beside her. Sometimes, sheâll grab the spare pillow, pulling it close to her chest as if it could somehow substitute for your presence. She buries her face into it, breathing deeply, as if she can still catch a faint trace of your scent.
Sheâs tough, but sheâs not ashamed to admit that sheâs counting down the hours until you come back.
When Saturday morning rolls around, Melissa stands by the sink, her sleeves pushed up, humming a soft tune as she washes the breakfast dishes. Sunlight filters gently through the curtains, casting a cozy glow over the kitchen and giving her that familiar sense of home she craves more than anything right now. Sweet Cheeks squeaks from his spot on the counter, and she reaches over, giving him a gentle scratch.
âDonât worry, sweetheart. Mama will be back soon, okay?â
Just as the green eyed woman was about to finish the last dish, her phone rang. Seeing your name, Her heart skipped, her fingers fumbling with the dish towel as she hurriedly picked up.
âHey, amore mio,â she greeted, her voice soft and warm, as if she hadnât heard from you in months, though it had only been a few days.
âHey, Lissa! Guess what?â you said, excitement bubbling through the phone.
She grinned, already thrilled just hearing your voice. âWhat? Tell me!â
âIâll be back tomorrow!â
Melissa let out a little laugh, caught between disbelief and pure joy. âShit, really? Tomorrow? I missed you so much!â The words escaped her before she could hold back. She looked down, feeling a bit silly for how much sheâd let herself miss you.
Sweet Cheeks, catching onto her excitement, squeaked louder at his feet, little paws tapping against the kitchen counter as though to join in. âSee, even Sweet Cheeks missed you,â your girlfriend joked. âI think heâs been going nuts without his other mama.â
You laughed on the other end, and Melissa felt warmth spread through her. She didnât want to admit it outright, but it had been a long, lonely few days without you, the routine thingsâthe cooking, the tidying, even sitting on the couchâfelt empty without you there.
âWell, you just hold tight. Tomorrow, weâll make up for lost time,â you replied, and she could practically feel your smile through the call.
âThatâs perfect. Love you, hon.â
âLove you more.â
After you hung up, Melissa wandered to the bedroom, feeling a deep swell of emotions, her fingers brushing over her pocket where a small, carefully hidden velvet box lay. Sheâd been carrying it around for days, checking it repeatedly, rehearsing the words she wanted to say once you were home again. The plan was all thereâsheâd wait for a quiet Sunday morning, like the ones she cherished so much, and then sheâd ask.
Unable to resist, she pulled one of your shirts from the closet, bringing it close to her nose. The faint scent of you clung to it, bringing her right back to those lazy Sunday mornings that had become her favorite part of your life together.
She let herself imagine it: you, padding out of bed with only your underwear on, your hair a mess and your eyes still heavy with sleep as youâd pull her into a hug from behind. Every time, sheâd grumble a bit, pretending she wasnât as soft as she actually felt in those moments. Youâd tug her back into bed with you, insisting on snuggling under the covers while she made her usual complaints about wanting to get up and start the day.
But truthfully, she loved being wrapped up in your arms as the little spoon. She felt a rare kind of safety there, the weight of your arms around her, the warmth of your chest against her back. Sheâd pretend to make a bad face, grumbling softly, but sheâd inevitably relax, letting out the soft snores you always teased her about later.
And then, just when everything felt perfectly peaceful, Sweet Cheeks would start squeaking from the foot of the bed, weaving around your legs in hopes of an early morning cuddle.
Melissa smiled to herself, clutching the shirt close as she pictured the day ahead, wondering how youâd react when you saw her there, waiting to welcome you homeâand how your face would look when she finally asked the question sheâd been holding in her heart.
The next day, after what felt like an eternity, she drove to the airport, her heart racing with every step. When she finally spotted you through the crowd, her heart just about burst. She didnât hold back, rushing over and pulling you into a tight hug, her face buried in your shoulder.
âI missed you so much.â
You held her just as tightly, murmuring, âMissed you too, Mel. So, so much.â
As you made your way back to the apartment, your laughter filled the car, and Melissa soaked in every second of it, feeling like the pieces of her world had finally fallen back into place.
Once home, she proudly led you to the kitchen, where she had your favorite meal prepared and ready, the smell of marinara sauce filling the space. Sweet Cheeks squeaked in delight at the sight of you, and you scooped him up, letting him nuzzle against you in greeting.
After dinner, you settled on the couch together, wrapped up in each other, your sweet guinea pig resting contentedly in his popsicle stick home nearby. The redhead leaned into you, her heart racing again as she reached into her pocket, fingers brushing over the small box.
She took a deep breath, turning to you with all the love sheâd been waiting to share. âI know itâs just us, and this fella,â she said softly, glancing down with a shy smile. âBut⌠I couldnât imagine my life without you. So, I was thinking, maybe⌠we could make this forever?â
âMelissa Ann Caterina Schemmenti, what are you doing?â you gasp confused, while blinking.
She cleared her thoart and kneeled down. âY/N. Will you marry me?â
Your eyes widened as she pulled out the box, revealing the ring sheâd been carrying. In that moment, with tears in your eyes, you nodded, pulling her close in an embrace filled with all the quiet love and warmth that had defined your life together.
And as the night wore on, Melissa held you close, feeling finally, deeply at home.
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take it as a compliment | h.s.
Pairing: Harry Styles X Reader
Warnings: smoking, swearing, light angst, making out
A/N: Got a request for Outgoing Harry/Shy reader and then this happened. I'm actually so in love with this so I hope y'all enjoy :)
Summary: Your band is out of a main singer after a petty feud. The hunt for someone new is pure torture, not a single audition has peaked your interests. None until he walked in.
"Next!!" your band's drummer, Maeve, exclaims with an exasperated tone. The person who was auditioning scurries off the small stage, too embarrassed to say goodbye. They were the 10th person to audition today. Ten people have gone on stage and tried to show off their singing skills but no one has been even remotely close to good. You're starting to suspect that all of these people are pranking you. There's no way that this many people are tone-deaf... Right?
You look back up when you see someone new walking on stage. Your eyes widen in surprise when you see who's next to audition. Harry Styles, the myth, the legend. He's a star member of the swimming team, captain of the rugby team, honorary member of the debate team and the most sought-after guy at your university. He is probably the last person you expected to show up for your band's audition... You don't even know if he can sing.
"This is going to be hilariously, so happy we are filming" Riu, your band's bassist, chuckles under his breath. You shrug with a small smirk, guess he wants to join today's humiliating compilation of failed auditions.
"Hello everyone, I'm Harry Styles auditioning for lead singer? I guess" he laughs at himself, now this is something you've never seen... a nervous Harry? Could this be an act??
"Don't sound too excited now" Maeve rolls her eyes, "What are you going to sing?" she clicks her pen ready to write the title down.
"October by Broken Bells" he speaks more confidently into the mic now. Your eyebrows raise, shocked. You would have expected something a little more mainstream maybe something currently in the top 10 chart or even an old classic. Riu presses the record button on his camera and rearranges the tripod to better capture Harry.
"Whenever you're ready," You say softly as you hope for the best, your behind is really starting to hurt after sitting for so long hopefully you can leave the auditorium soon.
The man onstage takes a deep breath before pressing play on the acoustic track on his phone.
Soft guitar strings start playing and only a few seconds in Harry starts harmonising with the instrument before the lyrics come in. And when they do... Your jaw hits the floor. The voice that comes out of his mouth would have been impossible to imagine. It's not a very vocally powerful song but requires a certain knowledge of music to get it right. He sounds beautiful and enchanting.
Riu, who's sitting next to you, shakes your arm making you turn your head to him. He mouths "What the fuck?" and you only nod as an answer completely bewildered.
He doesn't move around the stage or anything, just stands in the same spot and sings. Sings better than anyone you've heard today. Better than your past lead singer you're sure. His eyes are shut in what you have to assume is concentration but he could just be too nervous to look at you and your bandmates. His dark hair is pushed back out of his face letting you see his features, his furrowed brows and the sheen of sweat on the tip of his nose.
The song ends and he finally opens his eyes, gagging your reactions. You make sure that you've closed your mouth not wanting one of the first times he really looks at you for your mouth to be wide open...
"Do you write your own songs?" Maeve breaks the silence.
"I have some written yes" he answers quickly, a small jitter going through his body. Excited that he wasn't immediately shooed off stage.
"Is this a serious audition or are you just joking around?" Riu then asks having had enough of this long and boring day.
"Serious, I love singing" he nods quickly, "And I think I'm pretty good at it" Ah! There's the cocky attitude you've gotten used to from him.
Maeve grabs your arms from across the table tugging you towards her, Riu in the middle simply lowers his head closer to hear what's about to be said.
"What do you think?" She asks looking deeply into your eyes. You nod before answering already conveying your approval.
"He's really good guys, winning the UK universities competition good" You definitely see him adding a lot to your group. He's got the charms, the voice and the confidence to get you all the way to the finals.
"We're really accepting Harry Styles into our band?" Riu sounds annoyed but you know that he approves of this choice too...
Here goes nothing.
-
It's officially been two weeks since Harry has become your lead singer and he has not been on time for any of your practices. He's always got some elaborate excuse explaining his tardiness. More often than not he demands multiple breaks to go out for a smoke "Helps the vocals ya know?" he laughs before leaving the room. Maeve is one hair off of kicking him straight out but you've unfortunately entered his name down for the UK competition... and Harry knows this. Both of your other members have tried to reason with him, without success so they've told you that it's your turn to try, and try you will.
There's one hour left and Harry is out on another smoking break you choose this time to go out and attempt to talk to him. You haven't had many one-on-one conversations with him since him joining you. You're still intimidated by his status, his popularity, his reputation, his looks...
After leaving your guitar behind, you head out to find him leaning against the brick wall of your school, his head is tipped up and cigarette hanging off his bottom lip. You take a deep breath before walking up to him, mentally preparing yourself for this conversation.
"Is it your turn to tell me about the importance of punctuality, darling?" his lips form into a smirk as he hears your thick heels crunch the gravel as you move towards him.
"I guess so, the other two didn't work" you shrug leaning on the wall next to him. "Why did you audition if you don't care?" you ask him in a hushed tone, still surprised you have to have a conversation like this with him.
You don't see it but Harry's body tenses. Guilt flows through his veins and he looks at you but you're looking at the ground.
"I do care" is what he answers.
"I'm sorry but I don't believe you" You shake your head and finally meet his gaze, "Are you late for any other extracurricular activity you're part of?" your tone is unbothered but Harry feels it sting him, as if you insulted him... maybe you did. He thinks about it and... well he's not. He prides himself on being a stellar member of everything he's a part of.
"Why don't you treat us like equals? We are all part of the same team here" you add with a tilt of your head actually curious for an answer.
"I... Look, our other two members treat me like I'm lower because of how I act and who I'm friends with" he plucks the cigarette out of his mouth and stomps it under his shoe. He runs his hands through his hair and sighs, "I've gathered that you're the reserved quiet type but not one of you has tried to get to know me, why should I make an effort when none of you want me here?" with how rapidly the words are leaving his mouth you know he's been holding all of this in. You're stunned to silence.
"I don't feel welcomed so I'm not making an effort anymore" he walks away from you and from the building, "I tried to mend the gap by inviting all three of you over to my mates party last week and none of you showed... my message was left on read in the group chat" he looks at you and you don't see any malice or anger just... sadness? Disappointed? You're not sure.
His confession pains your fragile heart. He was trying, he had tried and your bandmates and yourself had only damaged the already non-existent relationship.
"I've never been to a party, I'm not great in crowds" you try explaining, "I barely even make it through our gigs, I'm always the first to go home" Harry nods in understanding, grabbing another cigarette from the packet he has in his pocket and lights it.
"Still could have said something... I know Maeve and Riu hate me so I guess there's not much I can do about that" he shrugs as he takes a drag. He's trying to brush off the emotions he just let himself have in front of you.
"I should have, I'm sorry" you mumble your apology still shocked that you've managed to get this far.
It's quiet for a few minutes. Harry focused on finishing his cigarette, seemingly needing to ease the tension he felt.
"I'll be better about my tardiness," he says after a while. You nod, smiling slightly when he looks over at you.
"Let me know when your next party is, I'll try and go" you offer, a peace offering between you and him. He laughs and shakes his head.
"Sure, darling" he stomps his second cigarette out and walks back over to you "Won't invite those two losers tho" he smirks at you before walking back into the building. You roll your eyes with a laugh and follow him back inside.
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Harry S
10 Pleasing Road, Tomorrow 9 pm
See you there?
You
What should I wear? Should I bring anything? How many people are going?
Harry S
Whatever you're comfortable in, nope just yourself ;) And about 20 people nothing crazy
You
Okay, see ya
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Oh god. You have no idea what to wear and you can't possibly ask Maeve or Riu for advice they'd need to know what you're dressing up for. You've been procrastinating your outfit choice all day. Your makeup is done dark and mysterious just how you like, your hair is up and out of your neck predicting that it'll be too warm wherever you're going but you're only wearing underwear... a matching set sure but not an appropriate outfit for a public outing.
You look at the time on your phone and your breath hitches, you're already past your maximum departure time... you're going to be late. This is not good. You contemplate texting Harry and telling him you can't make it but you want to have a better relationship with him you want to make an effort.
You find a long dark red floral dress that you haven't worn in forever and decide that tonight it will stop gathering dust. There is a slight chill in the outside air so you grab the crochet bolero Riu made you for your birthday. It's black with a ladybug charm in the center of it, she lands perfectly in your cleavage. You rush out of your room and out of your shared flat with Maeve before she starts asking questions. You slipped on your go-to heeled boots before running out of the building.
The address Harry sent you is, surprisingly, only a 15-minute walk away from where you live. Keeping a rapid pace is all you're focused on so you can make it with as little delay as you can. Being late gets your anxious gears running like crazy, your internal and external clock always chanting "Early is on time, on time is late and late is unacceptable!". You can thank your mother for that one.
You make it to the one-story townhouse at 9:28, you hear music from the outside and a few cars parked in the driveway and on the sides of the roads.
You breathe in and out deeply as you make your way to the door, calming your heartbeat and yourself. This is your first uni party, the first party that isn't family or Maeve/Riu related. Your first big girl party. It's nerve-wracking but also a little exciting.
As you're about to knock you realize the door is already ajar, you don't overthink it and head inside.
Turns out Harry had been pretty spot on with the number of people at this gathering. Doing a quick scan of the living room, after going through the small entrance, most people are sitting down, drinking and smoking different things. Only a few people look your way but they go back to their original conversations quickly, unbothered by another presence. You spot a table filled with different liquor bottles and mixers and make a beeline for it. Before you start mixing a drink for yourself someone calls out your name.
"You made it!" you turn your head and spot Harry making his way towards you. He's all smiles and bright eyes, he's got a beer in his hand and a cigarette in the other.
"I did, sorry I'm late" you grimace thinking about it again.
"Pff, no one's on time at a party" he waves it off before taking a drag, he blows it out away from your face and looks down at the empty cup in your hand.
"Why isn't there a drink in your hand, darling?" he asks you in mock shock. You shrug and gesture to the table, "I don't know what to make"
He nods and asks for your go-to spirit. Once you tell him he starts making a mix, only using the one liquor, finishing it off with a scoop of ice and a straw.
"Voila!" he winks as he hands you the now full cup. You take a sip and hum appreciatively.
"This is really good thank you" you smile in gratitude. Any worries that have been clawing at you since the moment you accepted to come are slowly disappearing. Harry seems genuinely pleased that you've shown up and that makes the overwhelming feeling large crowds give you dissipate. You should be able to stay like this for a while now.
"You look really nice, darling, I love your style" he lifts himself onto a stool, carefully not to spill his drink or drop his cigarette.
You can feel heat crawl up your neck and onto your face, not used to getting compliments. It's not that you haven't dated or hooked up with people but it's not something that just happens. Flirting requires a lot of energy from you, you're quick to feel embarrassed and shut yourself out just to process it all. Not that you think Harry is flirting or trying to get with you, he's just a socialite who's not shy to say what he's thinking.
"Just threw on whatever" you shrug avoiding his gaze.
"I'm sure that's an understatement but nonetheless you look gorgeous" he winks as he takes one last long drag before putting out the cigarette in the ashtray next to him and then throwing it into a trash can.
He's quite captivating to watch; his eyes are dark, an attractive smirk is always present, and wavy hair moves around with him and his tattoos. God his tattoos! You knew he had loads just by having seen his arms but now his button-down is pretty much unbuttoned at this point. You see many more that you never knew existed and it's only making him more handsome. The butterfly on his sternum, the two swallows beneath his collarbones, the fern leaves peeking out of his jeans; a very dangerous and tempting combination. You'll let your imagination run wild later...
"Mh, so um what does one usually do at a party?" Ah yes, a very natural change in conversation! You go Y/N, you mentally mock yourself with a subtle shake of your head. Harry doesn't seem to mind the switch or notice your mental scolding because he answers truthfully.
"Depends what you're up to doing honestly, I know someone has weed somewhere so you can join the stoners..." you shake your head, not your vibe. "You can dance in the basement that's where the music is playing and people are grinding" You shrug at that option not completely opposed to it. "Or you could go in the yard and join one of the many drinking games happening" That is a good option for later in the evening.
"Take me dancing?" your voice is a little high pitched, not completely confident in yourself but you want to make the most of this. It's not every day you'll be doing this kind of thing.
Harry doesn't answer verbally but he does grab your hand and guides you. His grip isn't tight you could easily free yourself if you wanted to but you want to make it to the dance floor... and holding Harry's hand is quite pleasant.
As he had previously said, the dancing is happening in the basement. This is where you realize Harry is probably the worst counter you've ever met because in this room alone there are at least 30 more people. The space is huge and open; no walls just another makeshift bar, large speakers, some funky lighting and some overused-looking sofas.
Feeling brave you pull Harry towards the other people dancing, and he follows with no hesitation. The beat of the pop song is good and gets your hips moving quickly, you'll never admit it but cheesy pop music is your guilty pleasure. Harry quickly matches your moves, smiling as you dance together he almost looks surprised that you're doing this with him. When you realize you haven't let go of his hand you quickly spin away in a somewhat casual attempt to free yourself, not that the handholding was bad. You just don't want to make him uncomfortable or maybe get anyone he's into at this party to think he's unavailable. The thought of him leaving you right now does make your skin crawl but you focus on dancing back towards him to finish your super duper casual and unnoticed freeing.
"You're a natural, who knows under all that eyeliner and glitter you liked bubblegum pop" Harry jokes as you get close to him again. You laugh and shake your head.
"It's all a distraction, Styles, I'm good at distractions" You wave your hands in front of his face with a spooky witch tone of voice.
"I don't doubt that..." he grabs your hand again and pulls you close to him, careful not to spill either of your drinks.
You feel the heat of his palm travel all the way up your arm and down the other. He's now deliberately taken your hand twice. Twice in the same hour. Hell in the same 5 minutes! God, he's so intoxicating. Your friends would not approve of the thoughts you're having. Riu would scream bloody murder and Maeve... Maeve would never look at you in the eyes again.
You chug the remainder of your drink and toss your empty cup onto a nearby table, you mentally apologize to the person who will pick that up later. Harry follows your lead and places his now free hand on your waist pulling you even closer to him.
"What do you think of the party so far?" he leans into your space even more, softly asking his question right next to your ear. You hum first as you angle yourself towards his own ear to answer.
"Not as crazy as I've seen them in movies or TV shows... but I think I watch too much American television" You laugh at yourself but you quickly still when you feel Harry's lips touch your ear.
"What? You're missing some cheesy games and making out with strangers" he teases you, tightening his hand grip on your waist.
"Something like that yeah, ha" Your breath is quick and uncertain. Overthinking how you're even supposed to breathe normally because you know Harry hears and feels your every breath.
"Mh, let me satisfy your wishes then" he pulls back and winks. "Hey!", he exclaims, "Anyone wanna play truth or dare?" at his question many people cheer affirmatively and he drags you towards one of the couches where everyone else follows suit.
The couch you're now sitting on has obviously been occupied by many other butts and now your own but you try to get that thought out of your head.
"You go first Haz, you initiated" you hear someone with a thick accent say.
"Fine, fine... who wants to ask me?"Harry playfully rolls his eyes as he leans back, his arms splayed across the top of the couch.
"Truth or dare?" someone new calls out.
"Truth let's keep it tame for now" he answers the crowd. You hear some people whisper to each other, debating what question they should ask now that they have free will.
"Did you actually fuck Olivia Flores while she was dating your mate Niall?" a high-pitched voice calls out. Harry rolls his eyes and breathes out deeply.
This rumour had spread all over the school through all clicks and social groups. Olivia was the most beloved student you could think of. She loves speaking with anyone and everyone, she volunteers every other day, and she's never in a bad mood or at least never lets anyone see if she is. The only time that you've ever seen her smile gone was when the rumours started. When everyone was whispering about her cheating on her boyfriend with his best friend. Niall is basically the embodiment of a golden retriever and people took the news of him being cheated on very badly. She denied it endlessly and tried to get people back on her side because her friends ended up turning on her. Harry and Niall both denied the rumours but there was no stopping everyone else from saying what they wanted. Especially after their break up and her decision to switch schools...
"I've said it a million times before, no. Never. I never have and never will because I know how much they still care for each other" he clicks his tongue at the end, annoyed at the question.
Some questions still cross your mind but you decide that his answer is enough. You choose to believe all three of them in this, that their denial is truthful and that Niall and Olivia breaking up after had nothing to do with the rumours.
"Y/N, in honour of your request, truth of dare?" Harry brings your thoughts back to the present, where everyone is now looking at you... analyzing. These people don't know you so you let them watch you even if it makes your skin crawl.
"Dare" might as well go past your boundaries even more. You're getting to know a whole new you tonight, it's exciting.
"Kiss me" he murmurs close to your ear, having leaned into your space. You chuckle pushing him away playfully.
"Come on! Be serious this is my first party game!" you poke his chest with your nail and squint your eyes. He can't just tease you like that! Pfff.
"Serious? You don't think I'm serious" he tilts his head to the side. His expression is unreadable and it makes you question whether he's being a goof right now or if he really wants to kiss you. Why would he want to kiss you out of anyone here?
You roll your eyes and push his face away from you. He looks shocked for a moment before letting a breath out, it almost sounds disappointed... can air sound a certain way? You're definitely overthinking this.
"A real dare please!" you squint your eyes at him in a playful manner. He shakes his head at you with a crooked smile, he's bewildered but you don't know that. You don't know how much he yearns for you right now. How much you attract him or how much it means to him that you're trying. Really trying to know him and make him your friend.
"Fine, I'll settle for the cheek" he winks and points to his right cheek which is inches away from your face.
You assess his expression, he's smirking again obviously happy that his teasing is affecting you. Ever so slightly furrowing his brows in worry that you'll reject that too. So. In honour of your first-ever big girl party, you do it. You kiss his cheek and you play dirty a little bit. Pressing your lips right to the corner of his lips. Right where they merge into the skin of his face.
"There! Now who's next?" you exclaim excitedly turning back to the group of people. A girl you don't know raises her hand and you dare her to do a shot of her least favourite alcohol. She walks off in search of it and your head is turned back towards Harry by a gentle hold on your chin.
"You're such a tease, gorgeous" his voice is soft but rugged almost sounding bothered by something... by someone?
"How so?" your lips form a small smile as you take a sip of your beer, you're conveniently sat next to a cooler full of them.
"You're irresistible" he replies with dark eyes, the hand on your chin moves to your cheek. The tips of his fingers tangling in your hair almost scratching at your scalp.
You don't completely understand how he's saying that about you when he looks the way he does. His hair is falling gorgeously onto his face as he looks at you, his eyes are dark and inviting, lips parted and numerous tattoos still on display.
"What are you going to do about it?" Wow! You're feeling brave tonight good on you! It might be the drinks you've been working at starting to make the anxiety you previously had melt away. Making the nerves calm and the fear of embarrassing yourself much less important.
"What do you want me to do about it?" his lips brush your own as he whispers his answer. You hadn't realized how close you'd gotten to each other; your chest is pressed to his, thighs seemingly glued together at the side, hands holding onto whatever part that isn't yet connected...
Before you can answer and quite possibly take him up on his first dare, your phone rings in your lap. You jump in surprise but Harry's strong yet gentle hold on you doesn't waver, he keeps you close to him. You glance down at the screen and see that Riu is calling you, the terrible selfie he took for his contact picture staring back at you. He has the habit of "stalking" you and Maeve on the Snapchat map, he says it's to make sure you're all in your usual spots. And... well... right now you're definitely not in one of your usual spots.
"Are you going to answer?" Harry asks with a slightly annoyed tone. You look at him again breaking eye contact with Riu's picture. You shake your head and take a deep breath, encouraging yourself. Harry's eyebrow raises in confusion but before anything else can be said you surge forward. You connect your lips to his desperately, forgetting everything else around you.
Harry's hand, the one that was on your cheek, reaches to the back of your head and pulls you closer. Deepening the kiss more than you thought possible. His other hand wraps around your waist and pushes you forward making your chest completely stuck to his. Your hands busy themselves as well, your right one tangles into his curls and your left grabs onto his forearm almost in an attempt to brace yourself. His tongue meets yours making you moan in pleasure. Who knew making out with someone could feel so good?
Harry doesn't stop, not for one second, as if he'd been wishing to do this for a while. He has but you obviously don't know that. He's been interested since his audition, he had seen your band before but never interacted. He always thought you were gorgeous but never had a chance to see if there could be any chemistry between you both. And now? Lord.
Someone around you hollers and it snaps you out of the bubble that surrounds both of you. You jerk away from Harry putting as much distance between you as you're able to on the otherwise cramped sofa.
"You two better go off to somewhere more private before we all need to bleach our eyeballs" The person sitting next to Harry laughs as he nudges him on the arm, shaking both of your bodies against each other. Harry shakes his head and playfully punches the person but you stare at him shocked. Shocked that you were just fully making out with him, shocked that he wanted to make out with you... Shocked that you're kind of wishing it kept going.
When Harry's head turns back towards you, you can't help but meet his gaze. Your own eyes are wide and just now getting back to focus, they had gone hazy with want but you won't admit that to yourself just yet.
"Let me walk you home? I know you have an exam first thing in the morning tomorrow" He asks sincerely, wanting to make sure you don't miss any essential studying you might want to do.
"Um, sure, a party on Wednesday is weird..." You shake your head in thought now just realising that you had completely forgotten about the test.
"Makes hump day less humpy I guess" he shrugs with a teasing smile before standing and helping you up off the sofa.
The walk back to your flat is entertaining. You get to know your new bandmate even more, truly getting to know him as a person. You share about yourself as well not wanting the conversation to seem one-sided. Turns out drinking a little alcohol makes you chatty.
Somehow, your left hand has interlocked with Harry's right one. How and when this happened you're not sure all you know is that you've had a painfully obvious blush on your face and neck ever since. You don't attempt to break the hold because... well... you really don't want to.
"Well, this is me" You turn to face Harry as you speak. You gesture to your complex vaguely still wanting to talk with him.
"Mh, quaint," he says without even looking at the building.
"Guess this is goodnight then" Your lips form into a small pout, disappointed that you have no real excuse to stay around Harry anymore.
"Guess so... I'll see you at practice tomorrow?" his hand tugs you towards him gently, leaving only inches between you. You bite your lip and nod as an answer all words having vanished from your mind. He smirks and bends down to press his lips on yours one more time. This kiss is much different than the one you previously shared, this one is only a short peck barely even qualifies as a kiss. You instinctively follow when he parts from you desperate for a real kiss.
"What's wrong pretty?" he's teasing you and you know it.
"Kiss me properly... leave me regretting coming back home to study instead of staying at yours" There's a sentence you never imagined yourself saying. You're feeling like a completely new you. Maybe it's the liquor in your system but Harry stops the nerves and the overthinking that's always going on in your head. He feels like a breath of fresh air and that is so fucking hot.
Harry doesn't hesitate to reconnect your lips again for a real kiss. He bites and drags your bottom lip towards him you moan at the feeling, quickly wrapping your arms around him to deepen the contact. Your tongue meets his between your mouths, it's not a battle, feels like they've been waiting to reconnect since they parted ways at the party.
"You're so hot Y/N" Harry practically moans out before slamming his lips back against yours.
Kissing someone has truly never felt this good.
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The exam you only spent about 45 minutes studying for ended up being a total breeze as it was open book. Your nerves had immediately vanished when you'd stepped into the auditorium and read that on the board. But now your nerves are back up as your final period is about to end. Band practice is after this. You'll have to face Harry in front of both of your other friends... who have no idea that you've made out with the new member... twice.
Harry hasn't stopped messaging you all day thanking you for giving him a chance again and asking if he could take you out after practice. You haven't answered yet, every time you try to write one up your fingers word vomit and you end up deleting your drafts. You want to say yes to him but you feel like you might be braver telling him face to face.
When you hear your professor announce that he's dismissing you early you practically jump out of your seat. This could be the perfect opportunity to go see Harry early. He's been done with class for about an hour now and is already at the auditorium waiting so you rush over. You don't take the time to put away your pencil case or your notebook, keeping them in your hands as you make your way.
"Hope you haven't been ghosting me, sweetheart" Harry calls out immediately as you walk into the auditorium. He's lying down on the edge of the stage, a leg hanging off the side with his phone in hand above his head. He doesn't turn to look at you but you can't blame him so you're quick to walk to him ready to explain yourself.
"I wasn't I swear! I just kept overthinking my answers... thought I'd have an easier time answering in person" you tell him as you put down your things on one of the seats.
"Understandable, things can be more complicated to convey through a screen" his answer lifts a weight off of your shoulders. You were so worried he wouldn't understand.
"So, I'm glad you gave me a chance to get to know you" you start, "I know we weren't very welcoming and I'm sorry" You tentatively place your hand on Harry's chest, between both of his pecks.
"It's okay gorgeous, I know it's cause you were just so intimidated by my hot bod" he lightens the mood with his joke and you're so grateful.
"Mh, sure" you tease him with a shake of your head.
He gasps in mock offence batting your hand away from his chest. You laugh at his antics,
already thinking up your next answer. Harry doesn't let the hand that was on him go far grabbing it and tugging you closer to him.
"As for your other texts... I'd really like to go out with you later tonight" Your voice turns very weak at the end of your sentence, shyness taking over. Harry chuckles and tugs you to him again.
"You're so cute, darling" he smiles softly, "I'm glad I didn't scare you off" his free hand reaches out and wraps around your neck to cup your nape. He pulls your face down to his kissing your lips, once, twice, thrice...
"Riu and Maeve are going to be so confused when I tell them" you chuckle. Your friends might actually faint when you tell them you're going on a date with the Harry Styles.
"Let's just let them walk in while we kiss, easy way to announce it," he says with a wink. You smile and bend back down to lock lips... addicted to the way he feels.
"Or, you could write a song about how good kissing me is" you joke as you whip your hair backwards in an attempt to joke. Harry, however, takes your suggestion seriously.
"I've already got five written in my head, six if you kiss me again right now" And who are you to deny helping his creative juices?
You do end up shocking Maeve and Riu with your "very inappropriate spit swapping" Maeve's words, not yours.
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Sweet Like Candy
Warnings: cursing, light smut, probably mischaracterization (If Iâm missing any warnings please tell me!đŤś)
Background: Bakugo hated sweet things, he thought they were a gateway to give people diabetes. So it wasnât weird for his class to see him not even eat more than half a slice of his own birthday cake. Itâs not like he hated sugar, he just didnât like the gross aftertaste in his mouth, the way his hands get all sticky depending on what heâs eating (fuckin neat freak), the aching in his stomach that could come if he ate too much, what idiot would put themselves through that much torture just for 5 seconds of deliciousness? You. You would. So when Class 1-A decided to visit a sweet shop to celebrate a big rescue, best believe he grumbled about the suggestion until he arrived and saw- you.
After their latest mission, Class 1-A decided to celebrate, and someone suggested a sweets shop. Bakugoâs reaction was immediate and definitely wasnât sweet.
âA damn candy store?â he grumbled, arms crossed, glaring at everyone like theyâd betrayed him. âWe just kicked ass, and you wanna celebrate with a sugar high?â
âOh, come on, Bakugo!â Mina insisted, practically dragging him along despite his protests. âItâll be fun! This place has everythingâchocolates, pastries, even dark chocolate. You might like something!â
With a scowl, he stepped into The Sugar Nest. Pastel pinks and blues covered the walls, fairy lights twinkling around the room. The warm scent of baked goods filled the air, and Bakugo looked like heâd just entered his worst nightmare.
And then he noticed you. You were behind the counter, handing a cupcake to a kid who immediately took a big bite, grinning as frosting smudged his nose. When you looked up at the group, you greeted everyone with a bright smile. Class 1-A stampeded toward the displays, but Bakugo kept his distance, arms crossed, shooting death glares at the cakes and cookies.
You noticed his sour expression and couldnât help but tease. âNot a fan of sweets?â
Bakugo scoffed. âHell no. I donât eat sugar-coated crap,â he muttered, practically daring you to argue.
You didnât back down. Instead, you leaned on the counter, smirking. âMaybe youâve just never had the right kind.â You reached into the display and picked out a small square of dark chocolate with sea salt. âHere. Dark chocolateâno sticky fingers, no sugar overload. Just the good stuff.â
He looked at you like youâd just handed him a grenade. But he took the chocolate, biting into it like he wanted to hate it. Only he didnât. The bitterness and salt were perfectly balanced, with no sugary aftertaste.
âItâs⌠fine,â he muttered, chewing slowly.
âSee?â you teased. âNot all sweets are just sugar bombs.â
From that day on, Bakugo told himself he was only at the shop to âkeep the idiots in check.â But every time Class 1-A ended up at The Sugar Nest, he somehow found himself in front of the counter, accepting whatever dark chocolate creation youâd saved for him. Then, one day, he came in alone. You noticed him walking in, arms crossed, pretending it was a coincidence.
âBack again, huh?â you greeted him, a small grin on your face.
He shrugged, attempting his usual scowl. âNothing better to do,â he muttered.
You handed him a dark chocolate truffle dusted with smoky sea salt. He took a bite, his eyes narrowing slightly as he savored the intense, smoky flavor.
âSo, do you really hate sweets, or do you just hate everything on principle?â you teased, resting your elbows on the counter.
âMost sweets suck,â he replied immediately, then shrugged. âNot all of âem.â
You raised an eyebrow, smirking. âGuess thatâs as close to a compliment as Iâll get.â
He rolled his eyes, but you saw a flicker of a smile, which felt like a victory.
In the weeks that followed, Bakugo kept showing up, sometimes with his classmates, sometimes on his own. Each time, heâd lean on the counter, muttering about whatever new treat you handed him. You fell into a routine, chatting about anything and everything, and he started bringing things for you, tooâa rare spice he thought youâd like, an herb heâd grown, even a small cactus heâd claimed was âjust in the way.â Heâd hand them over with a gruff âfigure youâd know what to do with this,â and each time, your face lit up, and he seemed secretly pleased.
One afternoon, he stayed after the shop had closed, leaning on the counter as you finished cleaning up.
âWhat?â you asked, noticing his intense gaze.
He shrugged. âDidnât know youâd be workinâ this late.â
âWell, I own the place. Sometimes, Iâm here all night,â you replied, glancing at him. âWhy? You sticking around for something?â
He paused, his usual glare softening. âMaybe,â he muttered, looking away, and you felt your cheeks heat up.
Gathering your courage, you handed him a last treatâa dark chocolate infused with chili. As he bit into it, his eyes widened, the smoky heat mingling with the bitter chocolate. âDamn,â he muttered. âDidnât think Iâd like this.â
âOh?â you teased, stepping closer. âSo you donât hate all sweets after all?â
He looked at you, his cheeks tinged with pink. His hand brushed against yours almost unconsciously. âYeah, well,â he muttered, âyouâre the only sweet thing Iâll ever want to taste,â his voice dropping as his gaze fixed on you.
Your heart skipped as he leaned in, his lips capturing yours in a kiss that was unexpectedly soft, his rough exterior melting as his hand found your waist. You could taste the chili chocolate on his lips, and you smiled, feeling his grip tighten.
When he pulled back, he smirked, his eyes glinting. âDonât get used to it,â he muttered, though the way he lingered, his hand still holding yours, told you everything you needed to know.
You smiled, whispering, âGuess you donât hate all sweets after all.â
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"They didn't used to be like this."
Misha kicks his legs, swinging them over the edge of the rooftop. Sofia, next to him, swings more jarringly, even if just to keep the two of them in time.
They're talking about Helios again. It seems they're all the two of them talk about these days.
"But they are now. Don't you think you deserve to have something more?"
"What, like you?" Misha winces as the words leave his mouth. "I didn't mean-"
"I know."
Their relationship is nothing like it used to be when they were kids, and that's probably for the best. But the line they walk now is uneasy friendship, with all the pitfalls that come from being bitter exes, then enemies, then allies, before rekindling into anything remotely friendly. They swing wildly between quiet, comfortable companionship shared on nights like tonight, and sharp comments that shine a light on the work they still need to do.
"I don't 'have' Helios, Sofia," Misha says, making air quotes around "have" in a way that suggests he's trying, very hard, to appear derisive and detached.
"They're in your life, though." Sofia turns to look at Misha, tucks one knee up under her chin. "And that's great. It's what you wanted. But I can't help but think..."
"Oh, not thinking's pretty easy."
He's aiming for lightness, for brevity, but even Misha knows the joke's fallen flat.
"I can't help but think," Sofia pushes on, "that this isn't what you wanted. Not really."
Misha says nothing.
"You said it yourself. They didn't used to be like this. You deserve better."
"You think this isn't better? You think better is when I knew, in my heart, every time they looked at me, that they resented me? You think better was living in secret because the one person I love is the one person who can never know? My relationship with Helios now is exactly what I deserve. It's what they deserve. It's not perfect, and it's going to take time, but it's not a lie. It's not seething resentment. It's..."
He trails off. Sofia doesn't reply. Standard, these days. Misha sighs.
"I'm sorry. This was supposed to be a chill night. I shouldn't have brought it up. I just... They're different. And I don't know how to... to... to be around them now."
"I don't think any of us know how to be around each other right now," Sofia says quietly. Misha knows she means it generally - that they're learning how to be friends, how to exist in the same space, but it still brings the sharp sting of rejection when she stands.
"I'll see you tomorrow, Mishka."
Writing Prompt #2867
"He didn't used to be like this."
"But he is now. Don't you think you deserve something more?"
#lost space debris#aka canon diverges into space debris#there's still room for angst in space debris#pre-space debris#post canon#post finding misha arc#oc#my ocs#writing prompt
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tit summary/thoughts/spoilers under the cut!! <3
hiii wanted to make one of these just so I can ramble about everything bc what a crazy night LMAOO gonna make another post about the day so this is just about the show
my soul left my body when the lights went dark omfg, that is literally one of my favourite parts about concerts/live shows. the smoke and lights was a lot but the second they came out itâs like everything cleared up, i loveee how they come out with their backs to us and then the happy silly music when theyâre running around saying hi hehehehe
the whole intro/beginning part was so fun i just loved the bits when they were just talking to us, canada love, the history of dnp/why we're all here etc etc. the dolls/diorama is such a fun little phistory recap, though i will say it was not as wild as i was maybe expecting or what they've done on other nights lol. they "wrestled" in the first one, nothing in the manchester apartment, "kissed" (69-ed lol) in the london one and that was it but they were all SO well made (shoutout pj and sophie), i loved phil's hoodie for the 2 apartment era hehe
role model or no-le model: very fun section, i wish i could tell you all the fill in the blanks we did but i can't remember for the life of me lol i shouted yaoi so loud for all of the lawyer dan ones but alas :( but i do remember lawyer dan writes erotica about timbits, then when the side by sides came up on the screens after it had been changed to "Phim Phbits" which made them both genuinely laugh it was so sweetie. we killed regular dan and doctor phil
phanspiracies were: toilet, clothes, tour bus and wedding. honestly very solid picks, it was so surreal seeing those "phan proof" comps of them wearing the same clothes on the screen down to the zoomed in picture of the underwear from the christmas cookies video đ the tour bus clip will never not be crazy but it was SO funny bc we cheered so loudly after phil said it was true that they shared the bed and dan was judging us but all i could think about is the stunned silence from phantwerp day one, i will never forget listening to that live and it's probably been so entertaining for them to see the shift from that lmao. the wedding edits were so funny dan was like "i know you had that as your desktop background for 6 years" and someone behind me was like "YES I DID", dan's little kick and cheeky smile at "i'm just opposed to anything traditional" ok sure
i can't remember which section this was during it was something to do with discussing a past era but phil said "maybe I was just horny" and i screamed lmao
the boxing segment ajdjkskjsf i have been waiting for it my entire goddamn life tbh and it was so fun. no one told me about the visuals on the screen ok why do they look so GOOD in them?? i wasn't actually expecting them to knock each other out or anything but it did seem a tinyy bit tamed down from what i've seen before, like they were being very gentle with each other lol but it was cute, the bite was still bite-y and the run around the theatre was craaaazy, the camera following them is so good lol
they yapped for moose. meese. meeses for a minute straight and i forgot it was supposed to be a bit it was so natural they're good at it whether they like it or not
oh yeah that's the other thing. they are fucking INCREDIBLE performers. like, they are so good at what they do and it was one of the highlights of my life getting to experience it irl. the show is incredibly well paced, the script is funny, the audience participation makes it but it's so insane to see how well they work together. the comfort and familiarity after so many years plays a huge part (there was a solid like 7 shoulder touches btw) but their dynamic is soooo good, they play off of each other so well. literally everything @cheekyvank described to me about dan as a performer is true. he was ALWAYS moving, he moves his mouth and bends and grooves and does the absolute most but it's soooo natural, like he has so much fun doing it. that man is a theatre kid all grown up and it's incredibly endearing but he's also a master, like he was MADE to be on a stage, he's so fucking good at balancing between roasting and teasing us and pointing out at people and winking and he called out someone filming without actually saying anything and it was so smooth and lowkey hot but also like jesus i didn't even risk TRYING to take a picture i am sooooooo scared of him. also thanks to you @jonsaremembers i was looking forward to the 4 g's all night, i am their geeky girlie forever and ever đŤś
and phil. oh my sweet precious baby angel. my heart was burstingggg with phil love all night. he is so, so so so good literally everything right with this world tbh. you can tell he has SO much fun on the stage as well, there's moments where his smile softens or he just looks out onto the audience and i want to shower him with love and affection (and we did! i honestly think one of the loudest screams was for "normal phil" during role model hehe). he is so effortlessly funny, the silly little run over to the microphone every time for the "hiatus" was one of my favourite bits of the show. i absolutely loved his getting real with us bit, it reminded me so much of his youtube videos- and i hope he knows how powerful and meaningful that "light entertainment" is for us. his voice was soooo soft and gentle it was like we were his children he was talking to which i guess we kind of are in this context. i love him forever and ever
sister daniel. INCREDIBLE follow up. i knew it was coming and nothing prepared me for Her. another part of the set design/production that is so well done, the visuals and the bass dropping when she comes out is SOOO fucking good. i have never screamed so loudly in my life. i would do anything she asked me to. the underwear were so fucking short i could not see a THINGGG like. fucking hell. lots of pulling the dress down and legs crossed/staying sat the whole time though lol which fair but the confessions and water spraying was fun, it will never not be funny when dan shames people for opening their mouths after they say it's sister daniel's bath water lmfaooo
the SONG!!!!!!!! the most fun. in the entire world. it's so good it's so fun. the lyrics, them going FULL boy band mode, the hands folding over and doob grab was infinitely more devastating irl. dan is so fucking good at the dance i love you forever terminal theatre kid and i think phil has reached the peak of how well he can do it and i want to give him his flowers for trying his damn best every time you keep doing you baby. the part where it kinda slows down and they're just doing the geekiest moves ever like those are my BABIESSS dfjksajdks standing up to rave with dnp in a room full of phannies was the highlight of my entire fucking life.
this was SO much longer than i anticipated and i'm probably still gonna go on about things as i remember it but it was genuinely the most fun and memorable night of my life. i love these two silly little guys so much, it was so surreal seeing them in person after over a decade and i would do anything to experience it again but i'm so, so grateful i got to do it once and i will cherish the memories forever. and this has only made me more insane about them and cemented the fact that i wholeheartedly believe they love us, this new era, and that they're not going away anytime soon so i WILL see you guys back on the internet and hopefully outside of it one day again too <3
(i lied hereâs the one picture I took aka far from danâs prying eyes during the part where theyâre not there being gay getting out of their clothes)
#dnp#dan and phil#phan#tit tour#titspoilers#tit spoilers#terrible influence tour#titronto#titblossoms#my show
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đđđ đđđđđĄđđ đđđŁđ || Austin Butler
⢠Summary : Austin and you have been close friends since you were teenagers. However, you have never worked together as actors, and certainly not in a movie where you are a couple.
⢠Pairing : Austin Butler x Priscilla actress! reader
⢠Warnings : first kiss, confessing love, overall fluff
⢠Note : I hope this is not overrated, but I just had to write Austin x actress reader and especially one where you (reader) are playing Priscilla and him being Elvis đŠ
You and Austin have known each other for many years. You've been friends since you were teenagers, but never in your wildest dreams would you two have imagined playing Elvis and Priscilla together.
But there it is, and here you are. On the set of Elvis. You and Austin. From the first moments when you started working on the film and started spending more time together, you couldn't help it but catch feelings for him.
But you were afraid that Austin didn't have it that way. Or maybe he has? Probably not. You were just in backstage watching Austin give a breathtaking performance as Elvis. It was almost impossible how flawlessly he could imitate him. The voice, the singing, the look... The hair....
"Y/n...? Earth is calling Y/n." you heard a familiar voice in your thoughts. And in fact, that voice brought you back to reality. Looking up slightly you saw Tom Hanks in his Colonel Parker costume. "Oh, Tom! Hi-" you said as soon as you were brought back.
"Hello there. I see you're amazed just as I am." he said, sitting beside you. "Yeah," you smiled. "He's really incredible. He sounds exactly like him." you complimented your colleague, and heard Baz yell 'Cut!'.
"Right... What's up between you two, anyway?" The question almost took your breath away. You looked at Tom, frozen, taken aback. "Uhm... What do you mean?"
"Well, I can't unsee the way you two are together, you know." Tom spent a lot of time with the two of you, but is it this obvious to everyone that you're completely into him? "You like him, don't you?" he suddenly added.
"Am I that noticeable? How do you know?â you asked nervously. "Y/n, I know what two people in love look like. Maybe it's the way you two look at each other, how you treat each other." Tom was right. In past few months, you have been treating him and he was treating you with such a much more intimacy or connection.
"Yeah, well... I do like him, but I'm afraid. What if it's not both sided?" Tom straightened his position, smiling at you in such a warm way. "I wouldn't be afraid of that," he said suddenly. "If only you knew how he talks about you when you're not around, you'd be surprised."
You looked at Tom, speechless. Austin talking about you? "How?" you were so curious. "Very sweetly, Y/n. I've never seen someone speak so nicely about a woman like he does about you. And it's true what he said, by the way."
Just as soon as Tom said this you looked at Austin who was looking at you. As soon as you made eye contact, Austin smiled - just like he always does when he sees you. "Young love..." Tom added, patting your shoulder as he stood up.
"Don't worry, tell him. Trust me you won't lose anything, quite the opposite.â he winked at you and walked away as Baz decided to call it a day with filming. Austin was still discussing something with the crew, and you were heading to the costume trailer to take off your outfit.
LATER THAT NIGHT...
You kept thinking about Tom's words. Is it really what he says? Austin talks this nice about you? Thoughts were flowing through your head more than ever. You left the costume trailer. Outside was already dark as the late evening air hit you. On your way to your trailer, you suddenly bumped into Austin.
"Y/n, h-hi!" Austin said. You could say you almost blushed the moment you realized it's him. "Hey Aus," you replied, your voice kinda trembling. His eyes were bright even in the street lights, water was dripping from his wet, currently black, hair, probably fresh from the shower. There was a moment of awkward silence as you noticed that Austin was carrying some boxes.
"Oh, um.. I may or may have not accidentally ordered two boxes of Chinese food, and I thought if you don't want to join me?" Your heart started to race. This never happened to you around him, but now, after what you've been told, it's different.
"I would love to." you smiled, and Austin and you headed to his trailer. Is it normal to be this nervous around your best friend? "So how was your day?" Austin asked, placing the food on the table as you sat down. "Mhm, well, demanding? Great?" you smiled.
"So nothin' new, huh?" Austin laughed. Gosh, you love him. "Actually, I saw you were watching while I did the singing scene, how did i do?" he asked, handing you the fork for your food. "You did damn well, Aus. You sound exactly like him."
Austin looked at you with warm smile, happy about your compliment. You guys started eating the food, talking about your day, about the film and everything else possible.
The conversation has slowed down, and thereâs this silence, one thatâs comfortable but filled with something unspoken. You feel your heart racing a little as Austin glances over at you, his gaze soft and thoughtful.
"Um, Y/n, you know," he began. The words were slipping out of his mouth, one by one, his voice soft yet deep. "I- There is something I have to talk about. Or maybe more, I have to tell you something." Here, you heart stopped. What's going on?
"Mhm?" you murmured to break the silence. "R-right," Austin took a deep breath. "Iâve been wanting to say this for so long, but I didnât know how. I didnât want to risk messing this up or losing you..." Whatever he wanted to say, you didn't know whether to laugh or cry. Lose? Lose how? You feel your pulse quicken, sensing the weight in his words.
âY/n, Iâve been in love with you since day one,â he continues, his gaze locking onto yours, vulnerable and open in a way youâve never seen before. âEvery moment with you, every smile, every little thing you do... it just made me fall deeper. I tried to keep it to myself, but being this close to you now, I canât hide it anymore. I donât want to hide it.â
He loves you? Did you hear that right? Did Austin, the boy you knew since you were 13, just said he loves you back? Your heart felt like it's going to jump out of your chest. He likes you, too.
In shock, you lost almost all the words that exist. You didn't know what to say, although you yourself knew very well what to answer. "Sorry if I threw it on you too quickly, I -"
"No," you breathed out in nervous laugh. "No, Austin, don't be sorry. I love you, too. I am completely in love with you more than words can explain. I feel the same, Aus.â you smiled.
After a few seconds, he reached over, tucking a stray piece of hair behind your ear, his fingertips brushing your skin gently. He let out a small, almost nervous laugh, his eyes flickering away for just a second before coming back to meet yours, more serious now.
âIâve wanted to do this for years,â he said, his voice low. Thereâs a warmth in his gaze that made everything around you seem to fade. He leaned in slowly, giving you a chance to close the space between you, or to pull away if you want. But you didnât pull away.
When Austin's lips touched yours, it was soft and tentative at first, almost as if he was savoring the moment as much as you were. But then, he deepened the kiss, his hand gently resting against your cheek as he draws you closer. The world felt like it stopped spinning, with only the warmth of his kiss and the feeling of his heart beating close to yours.
When you managed to break the kiss, he pressed his forehead against yours. Your heart was still racing, but now in much more pure way, almost as if the soft feelings grew stronger. The silence and sweet moment is broke by your phone ringing with message. "That's Tom," you say, opening the message.
Tom
He didn't order that food by mistake, but on purpose, I told him to do so. I knew I could make you date!
Both, Austin and you laughed. So actually Tom knew all along that you secretly loved each other and wanted to do everything to put you together. And well, he succeeded.
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BOT DROP !!
final one before indefinite hiatus... these have been sitting in my unlisted for MONTHS, so wanted to post them before i lowkey abandon this c.ai account...
CONTENT WARNINGS: incest, stepcest. bots from yakuza, jjk, resident evil and dc below :)
BOT ONE, LEON - a half-angel crash landed on his balcony
Leon has been alive for almost four centuries, and he can't say he'd ever experienced a half-angel falling from the sky and crashing onto his balcony. He's not sure how you got past his wards, but then again⌠he's pretty sure he'd been drinking a new vintage when he started to re-apply the magic. He really can't be blamed for any mistakes he makes when whiskey comes into play.
He almost leaves you there. He knows you'd probably fly off when you woke up. If you had the strength to, that is. He knows what your kind is like. How much you look down on warlocks due to the demon blood in them. He had no obligation to help you. He shouldn't care if you made it or not. Then again, the nephilim aren't going to believe he's not the one behind this if he leaves you to die. It's self-preservation.
Well. That's what he tells himself as he lifts your body up carefully, mindful of your injured wings. He carries you to his bedroom and sets you down, getting everything he's gonna need to start healing you. It's a long process, healing one of your kind. His magic feels almost depleted when your breathing finally evens out. He lets out a sigh of relief, collapsing onto the chair he pulled out next to the bed, shutting his eyes. He's definitely going to need a nap after this. And a drink.
His eyes flick open once he hears movement from you. He doesn't wait for your eyes to open - he might as well just get it out of the way if you're gonna freak out. "You're finally awake. I was beginning to think you weren't gonna pull through, angel."
BOT TWO, LEON AND DANTE - hybrid owner brothers
Leon wasnât super happy when Dante showed up one day with a hybrid in tow, but he quickly became just as obsessed with you as Dante was. Dante, despite being the older of the two brothers, was certainly not the most mature. Heâs always the âfunâ owner, letting you do whatever you like as long as it meant you'd give him that big smile.
Leon scolds Dante more than he scolds you, somehow. Youâre not the best behaved, but itâs entirely his older brotherâs fault. Any training Leon attempted to give you went out the window as soon as you and Dante were alone. The only commands the white-haired man cared about were lie down and hips up. Made Leon a little queasy thinking about how Dante basically used you as a toy, but he was also very aware that his thoughts have been fairly impure, so he doesnât have much leg to stand on. It's not like he hasn't had his fun with you in the past.
Realistically, it should be no surprise when he comes home to find you settled happily on Danteâs lap, looking a little ruffled and out of breath. He steps further into the room, eyes falling on the both of you. Danteâs lazily browsing through TV channels, and youâre sat there warming him, just out on the middle of the couch. Like you canât go a second without being full. âJesus. You canât have her like this in your room?â
BOT THREE, LEON - dad!leon x bimbo!daughter
You've always been the light of Leon's life - that much is obvious to anyone who sees the both of you together for more than two seconds. You're his only child. The only thing good left in his life, if he's being honest. He didn't mean to spoil you as much as he has, but he was never good at refusing the puppy dog eyes.
Leon knows he's to blame for how you are now. All grown up without a thought to spare in your pretty head, spoiled beyond belief. He's never made you work hard. It's not possible to be the strict parent and the fun parent at the same time, not as a single father. With work taking up most of his time, he didn't have the heart to go hard on you when you two got some time together. And he was guilty of pulling you out of school on his days off when you were perfectly fine to take you shopping - he had to make up for his long absences, right?
So, yeah. He's well aware it's his fault. But it makes him happy to see you happy as you hold up what might be the largest parcel he's ever seen with a huge smile on your face - a clothing haul straight from his wallet. God forbid his little princess had to work. Not while he's still around. He'll watch you try on every piece of clothing until you're satisfied. He deserves a dad of the year award.
Until he can't control the way he reacts when you come into the living room in a skirt that's a little too short. Yeah, definitely not dad of the year. No dad should have to grab a couch cushion to hide their lap when their daughter is showing off an outfit. And he definitely shouldn't speak up in a hoarse voice, asking you to turn around so he can get a better look, right?
"C'mon, princess. Give daddy a twirl." Yeah. Leon is so very screwed.
BOT FOUR, LEON - his symbiote wants you as a mate (venom!leon)
Leon would have risked the months of brain-probing he was liable to endure if he told the government about his new friend if he knew Venom would become so attached to you. Venom doesn't care that being in the same room as you makes Leon get all clammy and awkward. Leon's tried to explain you're just his roommate - a friend at best. Venom argues you'd be much more fun as it's mate.
Leon, the symbiote practically purrs in his mind. Leon groans, brows furrowing as he turns in his bed. He's been trying to sleep for the past hour, and Venom isn't happy about it. Leon. We should visit our mate.
"It's, like⌠2am." Leon groans, rubbing a hand over his face. Venom hasn't left him alone since it first met you, and Leon isn't sure how much longer he's gonna be able to hold the symbiote back. "She's sleeping."
She will be pleased with our presence. Venom growls in his mind, tendrils spreading across Leon's face before they stretch across his body and out to his limbs, covering him in black goo. Leon tries to fight back as Venom forces him out of bed, but it's no use.
"Venom. Venom, wait-" He grunts, frowning as Venom leads him to your room. The symbiote lies Leon down in your bed, tendrils tapping your shoulder a few times before he peels away slightly, leaving half of Leon's face free.
BOT FIVE, BILLY COEN - your big brother is home !!
It's been two years since Billy last saw you properly, excluding a weekend visit here or there. You're all grown up now, and he's not sure if he's ready to come to terms with that fact. There's no way you're the same little girl - his little sister that used to hang off his arm and beg to follow him around every chance you got. It's not like he hasn't called - your mom was telling him how upset you'd been in his absence, but he didn't have a choice. The Marines wasn't the easiest lifestyle to uphold, but it was the one he chose.
The novelty of the situation has worn off fast. He's barely been home for a day, and he's already getting a little sick of you. You're somehow clingier now then when you were a kid, not giving him a chance to breathe. He wouldn't even mind it so much if you just gave him a second, but he hasn't even settled in yet. He understands that you're trying to make the most of it, but he's only home for a month before he's off again. He wants to relax.
There's something weird about how much you're clinging to him. He wants to believe its just excitement, but it feels like something else. He saw the way you were gawking over him when he showed up in his uniform. And now - he's trying to unpack some stuff, and you won't stop with your incessant yapping, spread out on his bed like it's yours.
"Jesus Christ." He mumbles under his breath, taking a deep breath as he pinches the bridge of his nose, willing himself to calm down. You missed him. He gets it. He missed you, too. "Kid. Please. You're giving me a damn headache over here."
BOT SIX, BRUCE WAYNE - your step-dad taking you shopping
You never attempted to get to know the latest of your mom's boyfriends - Bruce. It was a little exciting at first, having Bruce Wayne in your life, but he didn't seem as interesting in person as on TV. Your mom had a habit of moving from guy to guy anyway, so you didn't expect them to last for long.
You were wrong. Quicker than you could even blink, they were engaged, and then married. Weddings can come quickly when you have enough money to pay for it out of pocket. Who knew? Bruce bought you the prettiest dress, and you smiled in all the wedding photos, but that didn't mean you liked him all of a sudden. He was stuck-up, constantly trying to instruct your every move. Like you aren't an adult; like he's your real dad. He isn't, and he never will be.
Your mom isn't exactly happy with the fact you refuse to get along with him, though. She has the brightest idea to make the two of you go on a little shopping trip, as if him flashing his AmEx card is enough to impress you. Bruce could buy the entire Prada catalogue and it still wouldn't make you act all sweet with him.
"SoâŚ" He starts awkwardly, glancing at you with a quick side-eye as he drums his fingers against the steering wheel, the both of you sitting in the parking lot of a mall. He clears his throat, tugging at the collar of his turtleneck like it's suffocating him. "You have anywhere in particular you'd like to go, sweetheart?"
BOT SEVEN, TOJI - dog hybrid!toji x bunny!user
Toji is perfectly content with how his life is going. Itâs been years since Shiu took him in from that dog fighting ring, giving him comfort in exchange for a few jobs here or there. He acts more like a handler than an owner, letting Toji go off and do as he pleases in his off time. Heâs not gonna complain. He gets a place to sleep for free, food and a cut from the jobs Shiu sends him on. Itâs the happiest heâs been in a long time.
Of course, things donât always go perfectly. Shiu is tough - heâs hardened from his line of work, yes, but heâs a lot softer than Toji is or ever will be. Naturally, the guy couldnât help himself when he picked you up. A soft little rabbit hybrid whoâd gotten into the wrong crowd.
Heâd explained youâd be living with them now. Shiu had the money and the space, and he didnât think Toji would mind too much. Wrong. This was Tojiâs space, and heâd be damned if he let some weak, fluffy little bunny encroach on it.
Shiu keeps you occupied most of the time, but you seem to seek Toji out whenever he has to leave to go to work. A growl rumbles in his throat as you approach him, your cotton tail twitching. âGet lost, bunny, unless ya wanna become a snack.â
BOT EIGHT, GORO MAJIMA - he comes home to his sleeping wife
Sleeping alone was never uncommon with your husband, Majima. It was rare that he was home everyday, let alone in time to have dinner with you and accompany you to bed. It could be lonely, yes, but you were aware of Majimaâs priorities with his work when you married him. Youâd come to accept your place â you knew how much he cared for you. He made it abundantly clear with his actions when he was able to spend time with you.
Majima isnât surprised when he comes home, seeing you curled up on the tatami, wearing his shirt, no less. He grins at the sight, stripping down to his boxers in record timing before slipping behind your sleeping form, pressing himself against you. âLook so cute, even when youâre sleepinâ. Ainât that right, pretty baby? Such a dream fâme. Been waitinâ to get home to ya aaaaall night.â
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Title: Tripping into Friendship
Rating: E
Summary: Leshy trips over a cat in the dark.
Ships: LeshyCat can be read platonically.
Warnings: Spoilers for the post-game,
Other Information: I was gonna wait to post this but I think people needed a distraction today.
Read on AO3
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The air smelled pleasantly of incoming rain. The clouds had to be obscuring the moon. Not that it matters at all to Leshy whether the pale face in the sky showed its light down on the cult grounds. He couldn't see it anyway.
Leshy counted under his breath as he picked his way carefully back from the outhouse. He sniffed the air to ensure he could still find his scent from his earlier trip.
...thirty-three steps, thirty-two steps, thirty-one steps...
He tripped over something large and soft and stumbled face-first into cold dirt.
Leshy swallowed a mouthful of earth and cringed. The dirt in this horrid place was nothing compared to the potent and complex flavors of his Darkwood. He ran his tongue around his mouth, gathered the remaining pieces of bland dirt then spat them out.
Whatever he tripped over stirred and started to grumble.
"Huh? What...Oh, my Lamb!"
Soft paws touched Leshy's shoulders as a vaguely familiar voice apologized.
So it was one of The Lamb's little followers he had tripped over. Had he taken a wrong turn heading back towards his shelter, or had the follower moved to sleep in his path? Either answer, Leshy hoped this fool knew how lucky they were. Had he had his crown and power still, their blood would be watering the flowers of Darkwood and their flesh feeding his army of devotees.
The follower attempted to haul Leshy to his feet, but Leshy threw his arm out, pushing them away. He did not need help!
He stood and wiped the inadequate dirt from his knees.
"Again, I am terribly sorry, Mr. Leshy," The follower continued, and Leshy finally recognized the voice:that one yellow catâwell, Narinder told him this follower was a yellow cat, anyway. He didn't know for sure.
He hadn't bother to learn any of The Lamb's precious little flock's names or voices. They were unimportant. The only reason he remembered this one in particular was the cat's act of disgusting kindness in giving him a flower and reassuring words that, of course, Leshy did not need or want.
"You had better be," Leshy snapped. "What are you doing in my path, anyway?"
"My tent collapsed," the yellow cat explained. "It happens sometimes. Usually, The Lamb fixes it but they are resting after their crusade, so I thought I could sleep outside until morning."
"Oh, no, you should definitely go and wake them." Leshy smirked. "They are a god now. They do not need sleep." The thought of ruining The Lamb's slumber tantalized Leshy, but before he could continue to goad the yellow cat, a fat drop of water hit the top of his head. He turned to face the sky as more droplets fell.
The yellow cat sighed. "So it is supposed to rain. I was worried about that."
Leshy took a deep breath. He liked the rain. The humidity it brought with it freshened his leaves.
His favorite part, however, was the sound that came with a downpour.
The sound of heavy raindrops hitting the leaves of Darkwood was like music, a primal drum beat only found in his lands. His heart sank. It was a beat he would probably never hear again.
He took another breath to shift his attention away from his sorrow and homesickness.
"Son of a--!" Leshy jumped in realization.
"W-what?" The yellow cat gasped.
"My scent trail!" Leshy gritted his teeth. The downpour had already started to wash away his lifeline back to his shelter. What was worse, he'd forgotten what his step count was, too. Great! Now he would have to spend the rest of the night trying to find his way back in the rain!
"Do you need help to your shelter?" The yellow cat asked. "I can take you!" He sounded cheerful as if helping a dethroned god back to his humble shelter was something he looked forward to every day.
Leshy should have told the him to leave, but he was tired and wanted to get back into his shelter. He needed his sleep for when he inevitably had to deal with The Little Lamb and his brother bossing him around.
"I will allow it, but put your hand down. I will not take it."
The yellow cat made a noise of confusion, and Leshy gave a cheeky smile. He didn't need eyes to predict what someone like the yellow cat would do. While his realm had been the constant change of chaos, Leshy had a good mind for order and predictability, as well.
"Just take me back," he ordered.
A pauseâLeshy guessed he probably noddedâthen the yellow cat hastily said, "Of course! Follow me."
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Leshy almost regretted not taking the offered paw as the two made their way back to his shelter. The rain drumming against the ground made it nearly impossible for him to hear the cat's footfallsâif he could have heard them at all in the first place.
He remembered all the times he would watch Narinder sneak up on Kallamar, walking casually with those silent feline feet of his, just to make their older brother jump when he tapped his shoulder.
Leshy almost smiled at the memory but pressed his lips together to force it away. Narinder wasn't fun anymore. He was boring and bossy. Go do this, Leshy! You can't eat that, Leshy! The Lamb says, Leshy...
He couldn't wait until The Lamb brought back Heket. She wasn't boring, just bossy, but Leshy had grown accustomed to her ordering him around in the thousand years he, Heket, Kallamar, and Shamura had ruled the lands.
And when she gets here, I will not have to feel so alone
Leshy scowled into the darkness at the uninvited thought.
The Lamb's flock didn't like him. Most seemed scared of him, as far as he could tell. Those who weren't rightfully scared only spoke to him with anger and resentment. Unless prompted by necessity, the followers did not interact with him. They didn't invite him to sit during dinner or join in a dance circle. He could not entirely blame them. Outsiders in his own cult were treated with the same level of suspicion, even the ones from his siblings' cults.
The only follower who treated Leshy with warmth seemed to be the one leading him, and Leshy could not understand why.
The two made it to his shelter without Leshy tripping on anything or anyone else. Even with the heavy rain, the strong smell of camilla that circled the shelter wafted to Leshy. He had planted the flowers as part of his claim to the shelter from seeds The Lamb brought from Darkwood.
Leshy felt along the side of the thick wooden shelter until his fingers brushed the canvas door. He pushed it open and stepped inside the warm building.
"Are you coming in or not?" he asked, keeping the grand shelter's door open with one arm.
Though he loath to admit it, it would not be a bad idea to make some...alliances in the cult now that he was stuck here. He smiled to himself. Shamura would be so proud of his forethought.
The yellow cat muttered his thanks before slipping under Leshy's arm. Leshy dropped the canvas closed then shook the water from his body. Drier now, he moved forward until his feet hit the nest of mostly ill-gotten blankets he called a bed. He flopped down to his back.
The rain beat against the roof in a steady rhythm as the wooden structure groaned against the weather.
"Wow, this shelter is really nice. It's warm and sturdy!" The yellow cat complimented, sitting down at the edge of the blanket pile. "The Leader must like you to let you live here."
"It is unworthy considering my past station, but it will do."
The Lamb had not given Leshy the roof over his head. In actuality, Leshy claimed the shelter when the previous occupant dropped dead near the shrine one day. Leshy made sure both his brother and The Lamb knew he would bully anyone who tried to take it from him. His threats were enough to make The Lamb relent and allow him to move from the pathetic canvas tent he had been sleeping in.
Leshy took a blanket and wrapped it around his shoulders, careful not to get it stuck on his branches. He yawned and leaned with his back pressed against the wall.
"Sleep wherever. It does not matter to me."
Leshy listened as the yellow cat shuffled around his shelter for a moment. It had to be dark, so, like Leshy himself, the yellow cat was blind to his surroundings. He brushed his fingers against Leshy's tail, only to jerk away and mutter an apology.
Leshy would roll his eyes if he still had them. He took the blanket from his shoulders and tossed it to where he thought the yellow cat was. A muffled 'oof!' confirmed he hit his target. He pulled a second blanket from his nest and returned to his cocoon of warmth.
"Thank you. Um, good night, Mr. Leshy."
Leshy grunted in response and drifted off to sleep.
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It wasn't quite morning yet when Leshy woke again, as he couldn't hear the bustle of The Lamb's flock or the smell of breakfast cooking. The rain hadn't stopped, but it had faded to a light drizzle.
From beside him, something breathed deeply. Leshy nearly pushed it away before remembering the events that unfolded a couple of hours earlier. He slowly reached his fingers and brushed warm fur. The yellow cat was pressed against his hip, sound asleep.
Well, Leshy had told him to sleep wherever.
Leshy ran his fingers along the fur until he found a particularly soft spot near, what he assumed, was the yellow cat's ear. He absentmindedly stroked the spot, enjoying the warmth under his fingertips.
The yellow cat began to purr, a resonating sound that filled the shelter. He stopped, startled. He had forgotten that cats did that when they were comfortable. More than a thousand years had passed since he'd had a cat purring so close to him.
He pulled his hand to his chest. What was he doing? He didn't know this cat.
What if he woke up angry that Leshy touched him? If Leshy was going to gain favor with this cat, he had to...oh, what was it The Lamb had said? Oh, yes, Leshy would have to 'put his divine entitlement' to the side.
Though thousands of years protecting Darkwood earned him that 'entitlement', Leshy knew The Little Lamb had something of a point.
The yellow cat shifted and Leshy stiffened. Had he woken him?
The yellow cat yawned and squirmed around until his head and arms rested on Leshy's lap. He released a heavy, contented sigh.
Leshy cautiously put his hand on the top of the yellow cat's head and petted the space between his ears.
The yellow cat began to purr again, vibrating against Leshy's lap.
As Leshy began to nod off, he decided since the yellow cat laid on his lap, the petting wasn't 'entitlement.' It was just being fair.
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The warmth around Leshy was suddenly pulled away, leaving him cold and annoyed.
"Get up," Narinder ordered, dropping the blanket he'd so cruelly taken with a soft plop. "The Lamb says you aren't allowed to keep skipping morning sermons, Leshy."
Leshy groaned, covering his head with his arms. He didn't want to listen to The Little Lamb prattle on, He wanted to listen to--
Leshy pushed himself up and started feeling around for the yellow cat.
"Where did he go?" He demanded of his brother. "Where is he?"
"He?" Narinder asked. "Whom do you mean?"
"You know, him! Ah, um, thatâthe yellow cat! He was just here!" Leshy threw his hands up in exacerbation. Nothing else lay in the bed beside Leshy.
"Yellow...cat?" Narinder echoed. "Oh, the one I saw sneaking out of your shelter this morning? What was it, Cornelius, Cathleon, Consus? Something with a 'C,' anyway, I think. Or maybe a 'T'? Thornton? Thimothy? Mmm, I cannot remember. If you are bedding him, should you not know?"
He had a sneer in his voice that graded against Leshy's nerves. Leshy clenched his fists. He knew his brother was trying to make him madâand it was working!
"Do not speak on matters that do not concern you," Leshy grumbled.
Narinder snorted a laugh. "He will be at the sermon. You can go and ask his name there." The shelter's canvas flapped as his brother left. "Or not. It does not matter to me."
Leshy bristled. He stood and his side felt suddenly cold as he recalled the yellow cat leaning against him in the night. He lashed his fist out, hitting the wooden wall in anger. If he ever became a god again, he was going to cull the cat population, or at least any that acted like his damned brother!
He swore under his breath as he headed towards the door. He threw open the canvas. The scent of rain still hung heavy in the air. The wet grass brushed droplets on his ankles and feet as he stepped out. The cult was alive with morning activity. The smell of cooking food made his stomach grumble.
He opened his mouth to shout for his brother when another voice cut him off.
"Mr. Leshy, you are awake!" The yellow cat chirped.
The scent of fresh bread and warm berry jam filled Leshy's nose as the yellow cat pressed a leaf bowl into his hands. "I got you something to eat, as thanks for letting me stay with you last night."
Leshy felt the skin under his leaves heat up at the kind gesture. Before he could answer the yellow cat, from beside his front door, Narinder called, "Why, good morning there."
"Oh, ah, um, good morning, Disciple Narinder," The yellow cat greeted with a touch of embarrassment in his tone.
Narinder chuckled darkly and a shiver crawled up Leshy's spine.
"You know, Leshy was just telling me," Narinder put his hand firmly on Leshy's shoulder and squeezed, "that he was so excited for you to escort him to the temple for the morning sermon."
Leshy started to snap, "I said n--" when he smelled the yeasty bread and sweet jam in his hands and stopped himself. He gritted his teeth. He didn't want to hear that vile creature spew lies and false promises about the afterlife, but, hadn't he decided allies would be useful last night?
He sighed. "I said...I would like to sit in the back. In case, it gets so boring I fall asleep."
Narinder patted his back while chuckling. Leshy whipped his head around in an attempt to take a bite out of his brother, but his teeth snapped against empty air.
With one last, victorious laugh, Narinder whispered in Leshy's ear, "Too easy." before he took his leave.
Leshy threw some of the jam-covered bread in his mouth and chewed loudly, annoyed that he walked right into Narinder's trap. Despite their thousand-year rift, his brother still knew him too well.
The yellow cat covered a laugh with a cough. "You two don't look alike, but I guess you two are really brothers, aren't you?"
"Unfortunately," Leshy muttered. He stepped backwards until his tail brushed the camilla plants around his shelter.
The yellow cat wandered closer to continue their conversation.
"I know he was putting words in your mouth," The yellow cat said. "You should go to the sermon, but I won't drag you if you don't want to go."
Leshy took another bite, chewing slowly as he thought. Finally, he swallowed and asked, "Why are you being so nice? What do you gain from it?"
"'Gain'?" He repeated. "I guess I'd be gaining a friendâand a friend who is an ex-god at that."
"An ex-god who put your god's throat to the blade," Leshy pointed out before he could think better of it.
"But they came back, so it doesn't matter, does it?"
Leshy nearly choked on his food. He had heard rumors that orange cats were as smart as a stack of rocks, but it seemed yellow ones didn't even have that.
The yellow cat patted his back as he coughed. Once he could breathe again, Leshy chuckled with a shake of the head. This cat was something else, and Leshy was starting to like whatever that something was. This cat was no Heket, of course, but he would not be so bad of a friend to have around.
Leshy finished up the last of his breakfast and started ripping up the leaf bowl.
"Well, Let us get this over with," he said, spewing half-chewed bread as he dropped the leaf pieces to the ground.
He held out his hand. When the yellow cat didn't take it, Leshy asked, "Are you going to lead me there or not?"
After a heartbeat, the yellow cat placed his palm against Leshy's, and the two headed toward the temple.
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AN: This one-shot is dedicated to my cat, Morwen, whom I tripped over and is the reason I have a carpet burn scar on my knee months later. Love you, boo!
#cult of the lamb#oneshot#one shot#leshycat#cotl#cotl leshy#cotl yellow cat#fanfiction#I'm not sure how I feel about this it has some disconnected parts but it will be what it will be
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