#that shit makes straight up no sense but it clearly would explain why people are so easily irritable down there

[jade-curtiss]

I'm never gonna believe people go to church outside of being forced. Like that's the one thing about American culture I just straight up not believe. I mean the social disparity, cia beating conspirationists up at the sketchy operation challenge, Ronald Regean, etc, but people waking up on a sunday morning to get guilt tripped? Hello?

[barbiiecams]

mine

rafe cameron x reader, fighting. this is short but i been thinking ab this a lot..

“rafe im letting you know right now i will fuck her up if she tries me.”

“yeah okay.” he chuckles, not believing you in the slightest. “she won’t try anything baby, leave it alone.”

he took another sip of his drink while you gave him the dirtiest stare. all night his ex, sofia, was staring you down, whispering about you, and giving you dirty looks. she didn’t like you because you came straight after her, and that was fine because you didn’t like her either.

“all night she’s been starting shit. i let her bumping into me slide, but now she’s over there clearly making jokes with her ugly ass friends. does she hate herself or something?” you sat up in your lawn chair.

one thing about it, you were never afraid to get down with someone especially if it was about your man. you definitely weren’t as crazy as rafe himself, but just maybe if you were pushed hard enough.

and this bitch who was now walking up to the two of you new exactly which buttons to push.

“great, now she’s walking towards us.” now you were really sat up, ready to smack some common sense into her if she tried it.

“you summoned it.” rafe jokes as you hit his chest, half jokingly and half not.

as she started getting close enough to the point where you could hear her feet in the sand, rafe pretended to be on his phone.

“hi y/n, hi rafe!” she says in a very unrealistic friendly voice. rafe doesn’t answer, and you just look at her with a look that says ‘why are you here.’

to your dismay, topper suddenly comes up next to rafe. “yo bro, they’re making it snow inside you gotta get some.”

and rafe being the addict he was, plus not wanting be around his ex, he got up as quickly as he could. “be right back.”

you truly should’ve went with him, but you didn’t. you wanted to get up and slap him for leaving you there with her in the first place.

he walks away, and sofia takes this as an opportunity to sit down in rafe’s chair. you weren’t having this tho.

“can i help you?” you ask.

“we can’t just talk? we have all this unnecessary beef.” she says.

“i wonder why.” you mumble as you stir the drink with your hand. the drink that was starting to become indented like a stress ball the way you were squeezing it. you hoped that Jesus was on your side and hers. at any moment you could easily crash out and she would have to deal with it.

“y/n, i don’t hate you.” she says with a smirk on her face that said otherwise.

“well we’re nowhere near acquaintances so you might as well.” you told her. yea, you were on that tonight.

“what’s all the hostility for?” she giggles, “sounds like you know where he’s bound to come back to.

now you know she did not just…

“excuse me?” subtly and slowly, you started tying your hair up.

“i mean come on, rafe with someone like you? it’s not meant to be.” she chuckles.

“and what do you mean someone like me?” suddenly the jewelry on your ears, hands, and neck started coming off too.

“do i seriously have to explain it? im not trying to embarrass you.” she laughs some more while looking you up and down.

now you were standing up, fully out of the chair, thinking about each and every way you’d do some damage to her face.

she got up from her chair as well, trying to match your energy but she still didn’t get what was about to happen.

for some reason, she’s just not getting the hint that you were genuinely about to rock her world in the worst way.

“there’s a reason why YOU’RE his ex. i hope you understand that.” you said. you were trying to actually speak before you did something she wouldn’t like.

“and that’s cool. but soon the roles are gonna be rever-”

she couldn’t even get the whole sentence out of her mouth until you slapped her clean across the cheek.

a few people saw this and immediately went “damn!”.

and when she sat there, just holding her cheek and looking at you as if she couldn’t believe you would actually hit somebody, they started going “nah i wouldn’t take that.”

she regains her composure. “you thought that was cute?” she says before attacking you right back, and now you were in a serious catfight with rafe’s ex.

a crowd forms around the two of you in a circle, people recording and being extremely loud.

you were getting hits in, but so was she, so now you had really no other choice but to maneuver your hands to her hair and drag her.

sofia was on the ground, pinching and gripping your arm that was holding her head while you threw blows to her face repeatedly.

“LET ME GO!” she screamed.

“TOLD YO ASS TO STOP FUCKING WITH ME.” you said while you got your punches to emphasize your words.

many people must not have liked sofia, because aside from your few friends at the party cheering you on, other randoms were even for you.

“DO HER SHIT IN, Y/N!”

“YEA Y/N FUCK HER UP.”

“THATS WHAT TF SHE GETS.”

blood started dripping from her nose, getting all of her face so you definitely weren’t stopping — until you were forced to.

the crowd was getting bigger and bigger, voices were getting louder and louder, but someone must’ve had to run inside and notify rafe that you were in a fight. that man wasn’t stopping a coke rush just to see a fight, let alone some random person.

but hearing that it was you fighting? oh he was on go.

a big pair of arms wrapped around your waist, forcing you to be pulled away while you could see toppers hands forcing the grip you had on her hair off.

you weren’t gonna stop that easy. you fought against their restraints and tried hitting her as much as you could, but in reality the two of them were way stronger than you.

“that’s ENOUGH.” rafe yells.

“yea listen to your man!” sofia says while scrambling to get up.

“at least you finally got the hint he’s mine!” you responded real quick.

rafe’s hold on you was real tight. your arms and legs might’ve been free, but you couldn’t go anywhere even if you tried.

once sofia was up, she was quick to try and charge at you again. “you bum bitch.”

you used your free leg to kick her to the ground, sending her to her ass once again. “WHOS THE BUM HOE?”

everyone gassed up at that as well. you’re not the type to fight like this. you really didn’t even know you had all this in you. but tonight, she pushed the right buttons and sent you over the edge.

rafe wasn’t amused at this at all. “would you stop?!” he yells again, now picking your legs up which forced you into a bridal position.

“RAFE PUT ME DOWN!” you yelled at him.

“you can be put down once you’re calm.” he says while walking away with you in his hands. he had to push through the huge crowd with a bunch of ‘move out my damn way’’s.

topper wasn’t too far behind the two of you, chuckling to himself about the fight he just had to help breakup.

the whole time rafe was muttering to both you and himself. “i leave you alone for 5 fucking minutes.”

rafe brought you inside away from the party and up into his bedroom. once you two were there, he threw you down onto his bed with an annoyed look plastered on his face.

you just sat there in silence looking at him as he then wiped a hand over his face. right after, he spoke up. “what’s wrong with you?”

you make of face of serious offense. “what’s wrong with me? what’s wrong with that bucked tooth ex of yours?”

he let the tiniest smirk crack at your joke but he put it away quickly.

“what did she even say? did she hit you first?” he asked.

“she kept talking shit. so i slapped her.”

“what did she say is what i wanna know.” he huffs.

you sigh. “she kept saying how i’m not pretty enough to be with you, how you’re gonna go back to her soon. it was pissing me off.”

he snorts, “do you genuinely believe that?”

“obviously not-”

“then you had no business to be hitting on her.” he says in his firm dad tone that you absolutely hate.

“um yes i did. and don’t even try to have a talk with me about this you’ve literally done worse-”

once again he cuts you off. “this isn’t about me.”

you roll your eyes. of course he’ll never admit he’s a hypocrite.

“whatever. why are you defending her? maybe she wasn’t wrong after all.” you shrug. you knew this was a stretch, but it was pissing you off how he’s basically saying that you’re in the wrong.

you watch the furrow in his eyebrows form. “what are you talking about? i’m not defending her, but you can’t just be going around almost sending girls in a coma.” he tries to reason.

the only thing you can do is sit there with still an annoyed, and upset expression on your face, adding a pout on that couldn’t help but stick.

he sighs while sitting down on the bed himself and bringing you into his lap.

“i know she makes you mad baby, i get it. and you’re right, i’ve done and probably would’ve done worse if it was me. but i know you, y/n. you don’t fight like that. i don’t want you to get in trouble.” he tried comforting you while stroking your thigh.

“she needed the common sense knocked into her anyways.” you said while snuggling into him.

he chuckles, “that i can agree with. but next time she really does make you feel like you need to attack her, just tell me. if there’s one person that will humble her good enough it’s me.”

this makes you crack a smile, but then both of your phones went off with messages.

opening yours, many people are already sending your fight video to your phone.

your friend then texts you after sending the video to a group chat you’re in with her, and a few other friends.

‘girl you knocked the mario coins out her head she went home crying 😭’

your other friends start responding and laughing at the whole thing in the group chat, and both you and rafe are sitting there, laughing as well.

“shit baby, who knew you had that in you? my girls got some heavy hands on her.” he kisses your cheek while taking out his own phone to text his friends.

“i don’t even crash out like that. but clearly it’s different when it comes to you.” you chuckle while getting up and dragging him with you to go party again.

nobody dares to try this with rafe tho. everyone knows he doesn’t play about his girl.

[rei-ismyname]

What's Up, Doc? Storm #2

Storm #2 was super weird, zipping all over the place with zero interiority from Ororo. That obviously sucks, but the exchange with Doctor Daye left me scratching my head most of all.

- He doesn't treat X-Men, a volunteer team who have never heard of the hospital. Flat out refuses, won't even let them in the door. His only rule.

- He quotes all the donors, most of whom are billionaires. Charles Xavier is/was rich, but most of the X-Men have negligible income or assets.

- The miracle pills were for humans, dipshit. The resurrection protocols were for reversing genocide.

- Ororo doesn't know what the fuck he's talking about, but he clearly has a massive chip on his shoulder. Only her Avengers ID card got her in the door.

- How did he stay out of ORCHIS gulags? The X-Men probably rescued his ass from that. If not, literally everyone else.

- Only when she hands over a priceless personal heirloom from her dead mother does he pocket it and relent. Straight up extorts this desperate woman. 'Uhm, thank you' as if he doesn't know he's gatekeeping lifesaving medical treatment.

- Okay so they weren't there when you needed them. Did you tell them? The X-Men did not exist at the start of Krakoa, there was a ~2 year period in universe where they were in an alternate universe, dead or disbanded.

- How did they fail you? Not funding this hospital that's super well hidden and was unknown to them? TF?

- He has all the power here and he's squeezing Ororo in every way he can.

- Including wasting her time and sandbagging her, carrying on about himself.

- When he knows she has less than 6 hours to live.

- What if she didn't have anything valuable on her? Was he just going to say no, fully aware she's about to die?

- 'I forgot again' what the fuck is wrong with you? You made your stupid point and your still going with your personal grudge when she's terminal?

I am truly baffled by the point of this scene. Is it meant to be taken as an actual failing of the X-Men? It's kinda what it sounds like but it does not make sense given the timeframe. If Chuck knew about this he would have donated millions - Pre-Krakoa he ran multiple philanthropic organisations and gave heavily to charities. If it is meant to be taken seriously it's not explained at all. 80% of the patients are mutants but he left Krakoa bc people needed him. For what, exactly? Krakoa took care of mutant health.

If it's not meant to be taken seriously then why is this prick even in the book? He's just being cruel. 'Thanks for the only physical reminder of your mother, you're going to die soon. Bye!' This was a disappointing issue but holy shit I don't know what anyone involved was thinking. An editor should have caught the absurdity of this story.

[howtonerdoutovereverything]

Fairly Oddparents: A New Wish Season 2 Predictions

OK, OK, OK, I know this topic has probably been discussed to death, but considering I'm new around these parts, and also considering I've been thinking about this for literal weeks, I figured I’d just spill all my thoughts out. If I forget anything or if I think of new stuff, I’ll just reblog this post and add it.

Anyways, let’s start by looking directly at the end of the Season 1 Finale.

Hazel’s friends (and brother) now know about the existence of fairies

So this is probably the biggest thing to come out of the finale. With her one rule-free wish, Hazel wishes that her friends (and brother) can keep their memories of the craziness that just transpired, meaning they now know about the existence of fairies and the fact that she has fairy godparents. This has the potential to open up a lot of interesting dynamics.

Seeing Hazel and Dev interact after they found out about each others’ fairy godparents in Battle of the Dimmsonian was so fun, as it’s not a dynamic we’ve seen a lot of throughout this franchise (at least to my understanding; I haven’t watched the OG show in a LOOOONG time). So now that the group of people “in the know” has expanded, and considering they all have a much different relationship with Hazel than Dev, a ton of wacky shenanigans could ensue. For example, Hazel and Antony now both have to keep Cosmo and Wanda’s (and I guess also Peri’s) existence a secret from their parents, which I can definitely imagine being used for gags. Also, I’m sure Jasmine, Winn, and Antony are going to want the fairies to grant wishes for them, meaning they’ll have to ask Hazel to make those wishes. I can totally see an episode where Hazel is constantly making wishes and gets super exhausted/frustrated. But in general, I think that the fact that Hazel doesn’t have to keep her fairies a secret anymore means that her friends can be involved in more episodes, or at least be involved in a more significant way. Jasmine and Winn, while being great characters, definitely deserve more development. Perhaps we could meet their families. And with Antony, perhaps we could meet his girlfriend?

But if we’re going to talk about friends, there’s one person in particular we have to bring up…

Dev Dimmadome (and all of his shit)

So…here’s the thing. Dev 100% remembers everything that went down in the finale. I know this is a fairly common theory and people have been discussing it, but just in case you’re out of the loop, here’s why I think this is the case.

When Hazel makes her rule-free wish to Jorgen, she specifies that she wants her “friends” to remember the events of the finale. And while, in the moment, she’s definitely thinking about Jasmine, Winn, and Antony, it’s made clear throughout the past few episodes (specifically in Best of Luck, if I remember correctly) that she still considers Dev a friend despite all the disagreements they’ve had. She even spells out in Lost and Founder’s Day that friends can have arguments and still be friends, so unless that belief of hers has radically changed (which I doubt), it would make sense if Dev ended up getting lumped into the wish purely because she still views him as a friend. As others have pointed out, this could explain why Jorgen freaked out so heavily when Hazel made her wish. Why would he react like that if there wasn’t going to be some big consequence?

And speaking of big consequences, I think Dev remembering his attempt to take over Fairy World and the loss of Peri as his godparent is going to have a big impact on him and affect the direction in which his character arc goes. At the end of the finale right before Hazel makes her wish, Dev straight up says that he thinks he deserves his punishment, and seems extremely dejected. The weight of his actions is clearly affecting him, and when you add on his realization that the fairy godparent he treated so horribly still cared about him even when he was on the verge of death BECAUSE OF THAT MISTREATMENT, I feel like Dev is going to be starting off the season in a pretty bad place.

I feel like for the first episode or so, Dev is going to be wallowing in his regret and just generally feeling like trash, but not knowing how to deal with it. He knows what he did is wrong, and seems convinced that Hazel isn’t going to forgive him or that it isn’t worth pursuing a friendship with her any further. Hazel will probably notice this and attempt to talk to him, as she’s not used to seeing him like this (and also is probably assuming that his memory being wiped would mean that he’d be “back to normal”, because remember, she doesn’t know he remembers). Dev will keep avoiding her, some shenanigans will happen that force them to come together, and Hazel will push Dev into admitting what’s wrong. He’ll finally spill that he remembers what he did and feels horrible about it and there will be some sort of reconciliation (I imagine Hazel saying that she doesn’t fully forgive him, but doesn’t want to see him be miserable because, at the end of the day, she’s still his friend and wants him to be better). This will set the two of them off on a good note for the rest of the season.

But that doesn’t mean that everything will be fine and dandy with Dev…

Peri’s role

So given the fact that Peri has swiftly become the fan-favorite character of this series, I have a feeling that, if Season 2 is greenlit, the team behind the show will want to give him a more prominent role than he had in Season 1. I remember being a bit disappointed that we didn’t get as much of him in the show as I was expecting, but then again, I doubt the team could’ve anticipated just how popular Peri became.

With that being said, let’s consider where Peri is right now. He’s just lost his first-ever godkid, whom he cared about despite the fact that he wasn’t very appreciative of him. Given that Peri was very clearly trying to prove something through his godparenting of Dev (mostly that he could “make it on his own”), losing him is going to absolutely DEVASTATE HIM. I can picture him crashing in his parents’ apartment, crying on the couch while eating ice cream and having absolutely no self-confidence. But I can also see him attempting to secretly help out Dev even though he’s not his godparent anymore. I’ve seen plenty of artwork of Peri disguised as a babysitter that Dale hires, and I think that would be a great way to get more Peri and Dev interactions as well as provide a fun twist on Timmy and Vicky’s dynamic from the OG show. Dev will likely be a bit conflicted by Peri’s attempts to help him out, and I can see an episode of them sort of reconciling. Given that there was originally going to be an episode centered around them in Season 1 that got scrapped, this could be a good way to reuse that old idea. Plus, if I’m honest, I just want to see Peri’s human design.

Plus, having Peri essentially go undercover at Dev’s place will give us an opportunity to check in on a certain character…

Dale and Project H (and the Pixies…?)

Ah, yes, everyone’s favorite bastard and terrible father, Dale Dimmadome. The last time we saw him (besides the finale), he was obsessing over Project H, AKA his attempt to figure out why Hazel didn’t buy anything on Founder’s Day. We saw Cosmo and Wanda essentially (and inadvertently) feed Dale the answer he was looking for: Hazel has fairies and therefore doesn’t need to buy things. When Dale inevitably discovers this, we know there’s gonna be a plan that involves fairies somehow. But what?

Personally, I think the most likely answer is that Dale is going to want to utilize fairy magic in some way so he can essentially play genie and bring himself more fame and esteem. Or perhaps he’ll create some uber-expensive device that allows people to wish for things, but the catch is that people have to pay in order to make wishes. Given how powerful fairy magic can be, I can see this being super successful, and Hazel, Dev, and their friends will need to find a way to rescue the fairies who have been kidnapped and had their magic taken (including Cosmo, Wanda, and Peri). However, there’s another wrinkle that I think could also be interesting and possibly a bit more unique…

So originally, according to the series bible, the Season 1 finale was going to involve Dale teaming up with the Pixies. Given that the Pixies are very business-focused, Dale would likely get along with them and be willing to team up with them in order to satisfy his greed. They could easily reuse this concept for the Season 2 finale, as the Pixies seem like an interesting and fun group of villains to have the gang go up against. Plus they would probably pose a formidable threat and invite some creative scenarios and solutions in order to defeat.

There’s also one more possibility I want to discuss in regards to potential villains and season-long arcs…

The Galax Institute

In “Crock to the Future”, we’re introduced to the Galax Institute, where Hazel’s father works. It’s revealed that A.J. is currently the head of the institute, and Crocker has been attempting to land a position there. We know that the Galax Institute studies paranormal phenomena, and it’s hinted at in the first episode that fairy magic could very well be one of those things. This could potentially be a great set-up for a season-long conflict.

I feel like A.J. being the main villain of this season would be a really fun twist. He doesn’t even have to be a mustache-twirling villain or super conniving, but having him serve more as just an inconvenient and unknowing antagonist would be interesting. He could be leading an effort to study increased supernatural activity in Dimmadelphia, and after finding out that a good amount of it is centered near the Wells residence, he could assign Marcus to investigate. Hazel and Antony would then have to try and hide Cosmo and Wanda from their dad and find a way to stop the Galax Institute from learning about the existence of fairies. Having Marcus technically be on the side of the “bad guys” could lead to some really interesting dynamics. Hazel might have to eventually tell her dad about her fairies in an effort to get him to help her protect them from the Galax Institute wanting to kidnap and study them. And considering Dale will likely still be playing a large antagonist role, perhaps he could be funding the Galax Institute’s research after taking part in a board meeting with them and noticing similarities between the phenomena they’re describing and what he’s found out during Project H. This could lead to some more complex conflicts that would be really fun to watch unfold.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaand that’s about it for now! Feel free to share any of your thoughts/predictions with me, as I’d love to discuss possibilities for this season!

Oh, and most importantly: STREAM THIS SHOW WHEN IT COMES OUT ON STREAMING SO WE CAN GET A SEASON 2

[dangerkittenclaws]

simon x medic!ed!reader

word count: 1.1k

warnings: eating disorder thoughts, actions, consequences, fainting, unestablished relationship, mutual pining ftw

a/n: have this blurb of hurt/comfort that came to me while i work on requests and part 3 of pop. luv u <3

You wake up in bed with a horrendous stomachache. You tap your phone beside you, it reads 3:48am. You throw your covers off of you, covered in sweat.

You roll to your back before immediately curling up with your arms held tight around your stomach to stave off the cramping.

When was the last time you had eaten? Right. That's something that normal people do.

It had only been…two.. three.. you count in your head. Four…days? That's not that bad, is it? You’ve gone longer.

Another pang shoots through your midsection. Noone else would be in the rec room to watch you eat.

Cereal. Cereal is what your stomach wanted. Something sweet and full of sugar and carbohydrates. You think you’ve seen a box of Choco Rice in the cabinet.

Your brain fights back equally, the Chinese takeout you had the other day with everyone would be enough to hold you over until lunch tomorrow. It was full of carbohydrates. More than enough, surely. You could throw the cereal up after too, that was always an option.

You should know, as a medic, how nutrition works. Of course you know and you tell others, but ignore every bit of logical information when it comes to your own wellbeing. You don’t count in that particular equation.

“Fuck it,” you mumble to yourself as you turn over to throw your legs over the side. You don't even bother with slippers and you open your door as quietly as possible, the other hand gripping the hem of your damp shirt.

Your vision goes dark around the edges and you reach out for the wall of the hallway to stabilize you. You touch a hand to your forehead before moving on.

You enter the rec room at the end of the hallway where the hulking figure of Simon is leaning over a steeping cup of tea. He turns at your rather noisy entrance.

Shit. You didn’t want anyone here. You can always take it back to your room.

Dizziness fills your head and you become unfocused, still leaning against the doorframe.

“You alright there?”

“Yeah, uh, I…,” you take a few steps forward and another cramp twists in your stomach, hunching you forward.

“Clearly not,”

“No, I, sorry, I just feel dizzy, just forgot to eat yesterday,” you explain wildly trying to complete your mission before you get asked any more questions.

You know Simon is watching your every move. You try to control your movements, to try to stop your hands from shaking as your blood sugar is dropping dangerously low.

You open the cabinet and grab out a bowl for yourself. You stare at the empty bowl on the counter for longer than necessary, trying to make your eyes focus on the task at hand. The more you stare the harder it is to stay standing straight, you realize.

Simon gets close to you, and you feel a hand at your back. You tip backwards and crumble. “Fuck,” is the last thing you hear.

You come to on the rec couch, letting out a whine.

“There you are, love.” Simon comes into view.

“Now you want to tell me why you just passed out on me?”

Your face goes red and you want to implode and disappear. You cover your face with your inner elbow.

“No hiding. Tell me. Please.”

“I…I haven’t eaten.” you nearly whisper.

“Right, in how long?” his long fingers graze over your other arm, like he’s trying to calm a scared cat.

“Just since yesterday morning,” you lie.

You see his eyes catch your glance over, you know you’ve been caught. Why did you even try with him? It’s like he has a sixth sense. You know this.

“Try again.”

“Four…four days.”

“Let’s get something in you so you don’t pass out again, that sound okay?”

You nod in agreement.

“You stay here, I’ll bring you something.” He touches your arm again to reassure you.

“‘kay.” you mumble out, turning on your side. Your vision is better and you can focus a bit, but you don’t let your eyes wander, it makes your stomach drop. You close them to be safe.

You don’t know how long you lay there with your eyes shut, ears listening to Simon puttering around the stove.

“You want to sit up for me?” Simon is there, holding a plate above you. You don’t know what it holds.

You manage to prop yourself up a bit backed up to the armrest, bending your legs to sit cross legged. You realize you probably look ragged and pathetic to the lieutenant.

Simon lowers the plate to put in your lap, you finally see what mystery food he made you.

It’s still steaming scrambled eggs and a piece of buttered toast. Your eyes nearly pop out of your head. It’s a lot.

He reads your mind before you can speak.

“Don’t expect you to finish. Just need something in you. We can figure out the rest in the morning. The real morning.”

You smile at him, picking up the fork. You look down at the plate. You choose a medium piece of egg to stab first.

“Ill just be in there cleaning up, okay, love?” You look up at him and give a small nod before turning back to the daunting task in your lap.

Not all of it. Just a little. Just enough.

You lift the fork to your mouth and the moment the eggs hit your tongue you salivate. You realize how desperately hungry you really are. They’re buttery and salty and perfect.

Before you know it, there's another forkful and another, a few bites of toast too.

Your stomach is protesting at the sudden change but you can tell you’ll be able to keep it down this time.

Simon made it for you. You have to keep it down. You can’t let him know how long this has really been going on, they’ll discharge you and it’ll be a big fuck up. You’d gone too far already, fainting in front of your team, by god. Simon walks back into the room to check on you.

“You did great, love.” You give him a small smile before turning back to the tv to watch whatever late night talk show was on.

You set the nearly empty plate on the coffee table in front of you. The sight of it makes you sick.

He sits next to you with an arm around the back of the couch. You curl up into his side, trying to suck up the warmth he’s radiating.

His arm moves down to your shoulder and he pulls you in closer. You don’t fight your drooping eyelids as you listen to the talk show and the air slowly filling and exiting his lungs.

Your breathing evens out eventually and Simon smiles down at you. You fell asleep cuddled into him, arm slung around his middle, gripping his sweatshirt in one fist with every bit of energy left, silently telling him not to leave.

“Little medic needs to be looked after too.”

[ellybobelly]

And Even More Lies? Chapter 3

Part 2

Julia rubbed her eyes and groaned “So you see? This is all I have but it’s really starting to make sense” she stretched out on the couch, clearly exhausted.

Bucky, who didn’t need as much sleep since the serum in his veins, was still going over all the papers she had written or printed out “Oddly” he agreed “Yes it does. I can’t see why people who weren’t looking for it wouldn’t piece it together…” he placed two maps together, slightly overlapping “The criminals though, so you know where they’re originally from? Not all of these people can be from this town..”

Bucky waited for her to acknowledge what he asked but when no response came he turned around to find her sleeping. She was curled up around a pillow and her head was halfway on a cushion and half way on the arm rest. He shook his head and chuckled “I guess it was a big day for you” . He picked her up and moved her slightly so her neck wouldn’t hurt in the morning.

—

Julia yawned as her eyelids fluttered due to the sun shining through the blinds of the pool house. It had been a while since she slept that well, she thought to herself, before starting a big whole body stretch. Just as she was about to however, her blood ran cold as ice and she snapped straight up. Practically jumped out of her skin.

“Morning sleeping beauty” Buck grinned as he leaned against the table in front of her “Did you sleep well?”

From feeling frozen to now feeling like she was on fire she stood up “Ooooooh my god oh my god oh my god! I am so sorry” she clasped her hands in front of him and gave him a slight bow “I don’t even remember going to sleep! I feel so horrible!” Her voice exasperated “I can’t believe you’re still here…”

Bucky waved her off “Oh don’t worry about it, I figured that you needed the rest. Not all of us are superheroes” he winked and walked over to the other side of the couch and propped himself on the arm rest. Julia groaned and sat back down

“So why are you still here anyways?” She looked up at him, a hint of sadness on her voice

“Well” he sighed and looked down at her “Although I am officially pardoned by the United states, I don't think it would be a really good look for me to steal your car. I drove yesterday but it's still your car after all” a shit eating grin plastered on his face. In response, her eyebrows furrowed and her mouth curled into a tight line, clearly done with his joking. She then ran a hand through her hair, trying to comb it out a bit. She was always thankful she cut it right above her shoulders because the type of fluff she had would always get the worst knots.

“I’m serious Bucky. I mean, you didn't have to stay here. I would have driven you back” Bucky just raised his eyebrow and made her continue “Well at least you could have woken me up and you could've had the couch” she blushed “I would never want you to sleep on the floor” the sadness in her voice earlier obviously from guilt. He moved from the arm of the chair to the cushion next to her

“Don't worry about that, I didn't sleep!” he smiled “I don't really sleep all that often because of the whole ‘super soldier’ thing” he explained when her expression only showed more guilt and worry “Buuuut, that is very kind of you. You don't need to worry about me too much though” he clapped her on the shoulder and shook her a little bit “Lighten up, don't we have some drug dealers to bust?” with that she smiled and relaxed a bit. She found him very relaxing to be around even when he was trying to give her a hard time. She felt really comfortable with him even though he was a stranger and she didn't know what it meant, she didn't mind it.

“We actually do! So I assume that since you didn't sleep and hopefully didn't just watch me sleep like a creeper” amusement in her voice “I'm sure you had time to go over everything, well most of everything” she started to get up when the pool house door slammed open with a bang. Before Julia could truly even react Bucky was on his feet. He stood in front of her, as if ready for an attack, knife already out and waiting.

“Juuuuuullliiiaaaaaaa” came an obvious fake whine from the other side of the door. A female voice whose form had yet to appear. As she made her way around, back to the door and hands full of coffee and doughnuts “You seriously need to turn your ringer on. I know it's oo-” she paused and her eyes went wide “Off”. While only a few seconds, time seemed like it went on forever or like it stopped completely. No one knew. Bucky put his knife away and coughed awkwardly.

“UHHHHMM!? Jules??? What the hell is going on???” The girl slowly walked around to one of the tables and put the food down, pushing some of the papers aside. Bucky backed up and went to stand at the side of the couch, embarrassed but it didnt show. The pool house door made a too long creak as it shut itself and everyone was staring between each other. “Seriously Julia? Who the hell is this weirdo?!” she pointedly stared at Bucky. Julia crossed the room and took the coffee with her name on it

“Heyyyyy Alice” she chuckled trying not to sound like the idiot she felt like “I’m so sorry. I totally forgot that we had plans today. Yesterday was CRAAAAZY! Like you have no idea, not only did I run into-”

“James!” Bucky walked up to her quickly with his most charming smile on and hand out “I’m James. Julia told me about her research and I wanted to take a look at it”

Alice looked him up and down “Uh huh” her arms crossed in front of her. She walked around him but never turned her back to him “Julia is that true? You're not like… being held captive by this ..Freak” she whispered into her ear but still deliberately made sure Bucky could see her mouth and hear her words.

Julia kindly pushed her friend back “Alice I’m fine! I promise! Actually, I wanted to introduce you to …. James” her tone having a questioning air to it that was definitely picked up on so she changed the subject “Oh my gosh, Your sweater is so soft!” She knew she couldn't resist talking about fashion.

Alice immediately beamed and took a step back and gave a twirl and a pose “Isn't it! The whole thing is!” She was wearing what was essentially just a light cream coloured sweat suit “I also got it in pink. It's soooooo comfy! I could get you one if you like it!” her entire demeanor was different now, she went to go grab her iced coffee and picked up a doughnut. She held the box open and tilted it towards Bucky, inviting him to have one if he wanted.

Bucky had to admit that they looked really good as well as a show of good faith so he took one “Thanks” he said with a tight smile and a small nod before going back to behind the couch, leaning over the back of it now, just watching them. Julia and Alice caught up, talking about stuff he wasn't paying attention to. He was, however, paying very close attention to Alice. She looked so familiar to him. She was a pretty girl of average height.Vietnamese, he guessed. Her build was hard to tell with her baggy sweat suit on. She had what was clearly very long blonde hair with what looked like chunky brown highlights. It was piled on her head in a very floppy bun with a matching white headband, keeping her bangs at bay. Her skin looked tanned, if not slightly burnt. But all of those superficial things were always subject to change. What most stood out to him was her eyes. The first time she shot daggers at him, there was a sharpness and chill in her brown eyes that stuck out to him. She also had a beauty mark under her right eye. The more he thought about it the more he couldn't place it. She wasn't someone he fought as the Winter Soldier, she's alive after all. She definitely wasn't someone he trained either. Neither for HYDRA nor the Red Room. He just knew that he knew her from somewhere, but where? He took a deep breath and decided not to think about it too much. For all he knew, he ran into her when he was trying to regain his memories and she gave him the same stink face. By the time he finished his doughnut, lemon creme, he noticed that the room was silent. He had apparently been trying stare a hole into the drink carrier and the girls were both starting to get weirded out

“Jaaames? Hellooooo… Earth to weirdooo?” Alice leaned over and waved her hand in front of his face.

“Sorry! I didn't mean to space out like that” he stood up and walked around to sit on the yellow couch that Julia had slept on earlier “So whats up? Have you made any discoveries?” a cheerful smile on his face as he looked up at the two of them.

“Actually!” Julia walked over to a table to grab a few pieces of paper, a couple maps “Alice pointed something out that I never even noticed before. The crimes that are happening by these ‘half supes’, I’m calling them half supes now because well, you know” she grinned and walked over to Bucky to show him the papers “So while there are always people who sell drugs or do low level crimes in every neighborhood, you would think that there would be less crimes in places with less population. For the most part that's true, but if there was drug that was going around, only accessible to low level criminals that would give you superpowers, maybe, then wouldn't there be even higher rates in cities?” She showed him the maps and overlapped them and put them up to the light. When he saw them a flash of suspicion came across his face although Julia didn't seem to notice “See? Alice pointed out that in Trenton itself, there are almost no crimes like these that could even maybe pertain to half-supes! Of course there are still crimes and still superpowered people there, but it's nothing like it is in the small neighboring towns!”

Bucky took the maps, the same maps he was looking at the night before. “So Alice, You pointed this out?” He looked at her and tried not to seem distrustful. Alice just shrugged and went back to playing on her phone. She was sitting cross legged on a small table, using it as a stool. “This is some really good info. It makes you wonder why, although it would make sense if this was just a trial drug. Like not the final thing”

“Yes!” Julia chirped and pretty much jumped down onto the cushion besides Bucky, facing him “I was thinking that whoever is making it doesnt want it distributed in the city yet because it's not perfect yet. In the city you have bigger and more important clients that you wouldn't want to give shitty drugs to! So you make sure you're far from your desired distribution base and give it to people who you know one would believe or even miss if they died or got taken down”

“So youre saying that whoever is doing this isn't making it out of a lab in the sticks but someone right in the center of downtown and using these poor saps as guinea pigs?” Bucky sat back, actually impressed with her ability to put it together. He already had come to that conclusion though last night, she was still very impressed. He was more worried about how Alice managed to pick up on it though. For all he knew she was just your average 30 year old girl into fancy tracksuits and pink coffee. Just Julias girly friend who is into fashion, picked up the same info he did earlier and a chill to her eyes that he couldn't shake. He knew her but he was just going to focus on that some other time. This was Julia's time.

“That was exactly what I was thinking, Buck! And it really makes sense! So for the next phase of all of this, I think we need to start trailing them. Ya know, like following them around and doing stakeouts in the seedy areas where these crimes have the highest chances of seeing a trade go down”

“Hold on now, we don't even know what this substance looks like. You've made no eyes on any product. You don't even know who it would be given too or who it would be given out by. There's a lot of things that aren't clear yet”

“Well I think that if me and you have a stakeout and we just watch some streets in uhhh” she grabbed a pen and circled some streets “this area. I think it's gonna be our best bet” she smiled when he took the papers and looked them over

“And why these streets?”

“Ugggggh” Julia groaned as she looked up on her phone “Isn't it obvious? Just look at the big picture. Put all of the maps together and you'll see the pattern” when she noticed Bucky was just staring at her she grabbed one map of the local towns and brought it to him “See? In almost every location there have been around 5 or 6” she glanced at Julia “...half-supe attacks. They are always at five or 6. Never more of never less. Now if you look over here where Jules circled there are only 2 so far. The pattern is clear and I really don't believe all of this suddenly stopped and that's it. They're done.”

“It means we can expect more attacks in the area…” bucky nodded “You're really good! Julia told me this isn't your thing. Where did you go to school?” he tried his best to not sound like he was trying to pry information out of her.

“Community College, with Jules” Alice blinked like he just asked her if the sky was blue

“Oh yeah! She did tell me that. You two had oddly every single class together as well. What a fun way to meet someone. Someone that you like makes it even better” his tone barely above a sneer.

Julia was looking at the two of them and could not figure out why they were both acting so strange. From a few hours, days(?)She spent time with Bucky, he always seemed to be calm and jovial even when he was teasing her. He never made her feel bad about anything really. He was nice to her and truly listened and now he even believed her. He didn't mock or ridicule her. He made her feel safe. So why did Alice, the nicest person she knew, her best friend in the whole world, someone who knew her soul inside and out, seem to have a problem with him? Maybe she didn't recognize him and really just thought it was a weirdo in all black with a metal arm who could possibly hurt her friend. Either way, they were both acting off from the way she had known them. It almost felt as if they knew each other. That made her chuckle. How on earth would they know each other and she would recognize THE Bucky Barnes? She was obviously just over thinking things. So with a small cough in order to break whatever tension was going on,

“So Bucky! When do you think we could start doing this? I’m sure you're super busy and stuff and i'm kind of errr in between jobs right now, so i was thinking that I could take the first shifts and you can join me whenever you can! I can give you my number so I can text you my location” her eyes as bright as her voice.

“Bucky?” Alice snorted loudly “THAT'S her nickname for you?? I mean like the gas stations in Texas??” her laugh was a full roar now.

Julia realised she slipped up because he had introduced himself to her, of all people, as James so that must have meant something right?

Julia started laughing as well “You're actually right Al! Don't you see it? He's got the cute chubby cheeks of their mascot” she poked his cheek “And he's just as cute as Bucky Beaver!” she giggled.

“You are sooo weird Julia, but hey, that's why I love you. Now I almost feel bad for poor beaver boy” Alice wiped a tear “I'm gonna keep calling you james if that's okay with you” a toothy smile on her face

“That would be very fine by me Ms. Alice. Thank you” he chuckled, just trying to get past this. But when Julie had poked his cheek he was surprised that he didn't react. His reactions have been fairly steady by now but he still has some trouble when people touch him without warning, especially in his face. And then she said he was cute. He knew she meant it just to cover her mistake and to distract Alice but inside, his chest felt warm and he was hoping any blush that crossed his cheeks came off as embarrassment inside of whatever this feeling inside of him was.

“But if I may continue on what Julia was saying earlier about taking shifts, I don't think that is a good idea. And while I do occasionally have stuff to do, it seems a bunch of free time has just shown up in my schedule and I definitely don't want you going there alone. It wouldn't be safe for either one of you to be sitting in a car all night in the sketchiest parts of town, specifically WAITING for crimes to happen. Do you have any idea of how dangerous that would be?” Julia, if you're going to go anytime, I'm always going to be with you. I am not leaving you alone out there. Anything could happen to you and you have no way to protect yourself.” he realized that his hands were on her arms and she was staring wide eyed at him with a small blush on her cheeks, lips slightly parted. He briefly looked down at her lips and then to her eyes again. Why did he do that? No he can't think about that. He let go of her arms slowly and placed his hand into own lap trying to be as chalant as possible.

“And you're going to protect our sweet little Jules here?” Alice teased but was interrupted by Julia “Hey he knows what he's doing, I trust him Al!!” defense growing stronger as the sentence went on

“Woah! Woah woah woah, Hold on! I wasn't trying to say anything about your weird boyfriend or whoever this guy is. I mean he's obviously been in some part of our military. Just look at him! And I didn't forget about the lovely welcome knife I walked into this morning! I was just messing with you guys! Both of you are so easy to poke at, look at you both now! I thought there were other people in the room and not just two tomatoes” she tried to keep it in but failed and doubled over in laughter. You guys are really just too much!

Both Bucky and Julia turned to look at each other and it seemed to only make it worse because they immediately turned away. Alice sat up after she got through with her laughing and wiped a tear from her eye

“Oh what time is it?” she checked her phone “Oh not too bad. Anyone care for a smoke break?” She turned to look at both of them. Julia just shook her head “I'm good, you go. It looks like a nice sunny day outside. Hopefully I’ll see it soon, she joked”.

Alice turned to Bucky “Do you smoke?” he did actually have a pack in his breast pocket but hadn't been thinking about it recently. He too turned to Julia as if asking permission and she just smiled and waved him off “Have fun, I really don't mind” she had moved over to another chair and curled up just playing on her phone.

When Alice and Bucky stepped outside she led him to where she usually smoked. It was on the side of the main house which they passed when they walked in. There was an ornate metal bench that he must have missed under the cover of darkness. Alice pulled out a baby pink square thing that bucky assumed what the kids called ‘vapes’ days. She inhaled and blew out smoke that smelled like strawberry cotton candy. He chuckled as he pulled his grungy old pack from his breast pocket, gave it a few taps on his palms, before picking one and lighting it with the only lighter he had; a rainbow dolphin making splashes in rainbow waves. It was the last one at the gas station. The two of them just sat there in relative peace and silence for a while, smoking in their own separate ways. Bucky spoke up first after a long drag

“So who are you Ms. Alice?” his tone pointed and his expression flat.

“Who am I?!” she faked offence but then rolled her eyes “I’m Julie's best friend in the whole world. I feel like I should be the one asking you that actually” she took another puff.

Bucky shook his head slowly

“No. No. That's not what I mean and I think you know it” he was just watching his cigarette burn at this point “I want to know WHO you are” his eyes grazed up to meet hers slowly.

Alice played with her little pink square, rolling it in her fingers

“I don't see why any of my personal information would be pertinent to you Mr. Barnes” her eyes met his and they sent a chill down his spine. Those were these eyes he knew. “I will admit that you were not the person I expected to see today. So now I'm going to rephrase my earlier question; Who are you to Julie and why are you hanging around her. What orders do you have that deal with my girl? Her voice was cold but dripping with indignation.

Bucky sat up straight and turned to face her “You showed up in her life out of the blue and suddenly became best friends for life. You clearly have no problem lying to her, seeing as you know who I am but you don't want her to know that you know. You tell her you don't like this whole project she has going on but you picked up the same things I did”

Alice took another deep puff before rolling her shoulders and her head before exhaling

“What are you asking me Mr.Barnes? And make it concise.”

Bucky looked at her for a while. A few moments into her deep chocolate eyes. He knew a lot of people with those types of eyes. Not the shape or the color. Eyes that are like his own. Impenetrable vaults that hold the secrets of the world's powers. Eyes that will never give anything away unless it is their owners choice.

“Who do you work for and what do they want with Julia?” His tone was calm but there was a fire inside slowly burning to the top. Julia was just a stranger after all, he had no right or reason to be so defensive of her.

Alice looked down and just smiled. It was a sweet smile, almost sincere “You seem like a good man Mr. Barnes, I am truly amazed by your recovery. The strength and bravery you have in order to overcome something so horrible as the things that happened to you. And with Julia, it's now clear that you truly only do mean well. However I would strongly suggest you abandon this project. There are things going on that neither you nor Julia need to ever find out about. There are other things in the world that have nothing to do with you ‘Little Avengers’ or whatever. And since you have no idea who I am, I think it's safe to say that I do my job very, very well.” with that she stood up and put her little square back into her pocket. She took a few steps before she turned to look at him “I hope you understand what I'm saying. You need to pull away from this. I can handle Julia. I have been after all these years. You are not needed here. More importantly you are not wanted. The best thing for you to do is find some reason that you can't continue on with this, i don't care what it is, but that you and julia are not to work together and you will never, I mean never, have any kind of contact with her ever again. You will become a ghost to her. If she reaches out to you, because she will, ugh such a sweet sap, ignore her. Ignore her at all costs. Just like the rest of your friends already do” she winked with knowing. “This is bigger than you Barnes, so so much bigger than you, and you will only make things worse if you stay around her”. She raised her hand and rubbed the back of her neck “I got to go know, so just tell her that I had to run, it wont phase her. Oh! And if you even try to tell her anything about our little chit chat here, she wont believe you. I'm her best friend after all~” smiled twisted in malice “And you're just a stranger superhero she saw on T.V. Plus you still don't actually know anything about me or who I work for. You know nothing James. There is nothing here for you. Let it go and get back to your life. This is not your mission.” and with that she walked away.

Bucky just sat there speechless. He craned his neck to see which direction she left in but the house was too big and she was already gone. Holy fuck what did he just hear. Her best friend is some kind of super secret super spy that even he couldn't place. He was sure she wasn't from a group he had ever heard of before. He thought he knew all of them. And what did she mean by ‘his friends already knew’? Is that why the Avengers told her no? How high does this go? Who is she? Who are they? Who has the power to control the Avengers by telling them to ignore all these weird things? What is going on???

Bucky sat there for what felt like eternity before he stood up, thoughts swirling in his head. Questions in every direction with no answers in sight. Should he just leave? Is Julia going to be in danger? It seems like she is safe so far and has been for a while. Alice, if that's even her name, hasn't hurt her or put her in harm's way for over a decade. They live together. But Why? Why would some organization spend all this time watching one girl and infiltrating her life for nothing. For safety? To see if she cracks a case that may or may not be able to be cracked? A drug case no less. It doesn't make sense. He had to go inside, he had to see Julia. He opened the door and she didn't even flinch. She was just sitting there going over multiple reports to see if there were any matching clues that she had missed the first 100 times she had done this already.

“I'm glad you're back!” she turned to smile at him “Did you guys have a good talk? I know she can be kinda much sometimes”

Bucky just watched her. Nothing about any of this made sense but for her sake he just shrugged it off and smiled back, he could process all that later “Yeah um yeah we did. She really likes clothes huh?” that got a laugh out of Julia and made her turn her chair around completely. Bucky, who still felt like the wind got knocked out of him, sat down on the yellow couch and relaxed, trying to play it cool “Oh! She told me to tell you that she had to run and that she's sorry”

Julia just shook her head and waved him off “That's just Alice, she's always on the go. She'd probably lose her head if it wasn't attached” she laughed. Her laugh warmed his heart in a heart breaking way. “So well what's next? I figured you'd probably want more than a doughnut to eat, would you want to go get breakfast or probably lunch now, somewhere? I feel like I at least owe you that”

Bucky really couldn't understand what kind of organization would be after her. She just seemed so… harmless. But then again some of the most dangerous people are. But not her. No way.

“So?” Julia asked again “Wanna go get something to eat or drink? Maybe even talk about the mission” a smile wide on her face.

“Oh uh yeah!” Bucky ran a hand through his hair “That sounds really nice actually. I didn't know how hungry I was until you said something” he wasn't but he'd do it for her.

“Awesome! That sounds great! Ummm would you be okay just staying here for a minute, i'm just gonna go inside and freshen up a bit and then we can hit your apartment if you want to, before food?” she waited for his agreement “Oh! I only said that because I don't know how comfortable you feel taking a shower and stuff at my parents house. They're really nice and i know that they would have no problem with it but just all the stuff last night and i don't know YOUR comfort level and i—”

“You're rambling” Bucky interrupted with a chuckle “Go do whatever you need to. I'll be here when you get back. Then i'll swing by my place and the we can go anywhere you want for food” he put his hand on her waist her and gently scooted her out the door “we have a plan, and I will be waiting he with baited breath” he joked “so go go go so we can get this show on the road!”

Julia left giggling and when Bucky finally had her workshop all to himself he had noticed that she left her phone here. He picked it up and it immediately opened ‘Geeze Jules, not even a password’. On the first pages it was all standard apps and games. Nothing unusual for a girl her age. “I really shouldn't be doing this, this kid trusts me” he grappled with the guilt and ran his metal hand through his hair “But I need all of the information I can on this Alice woman so I can find her. Because I am not leaving Jules and I am definitely not leaving Jules with her”.

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As always I hope you liked it!!! I really like this character actually! I’m excited to see where it goes :3

Also I’m on AO3

[anewstartrekfan]

Explaining/rationalizing Bones’ speech in Requiem of Methuselah

A lot of people call what Bones said about Spock never knowing love because it isn’t in his book, uncalled for and straight up inaccurate to the show. And to that I say it’s intentional. Bones in that scene is pissed at Spock for being insensitive when Rayna died and wanted Spock to help Kirk cope.

My evidence is two fold.

1. There’s a scene earlier in the episode where Bones uses reverse psychology to get Spock to drink some brandy with him and Kirk.

The scene itself is innocuous on its own. Just banter between the triumvirate. But when you compare it to the big scene stealer, it shows McCoy’s abilities and intentions. It also shows how much Bones has gotten to know Spock over the show. Whereas in conscience of the king Bones would just straight forwardly ask Spock if he wanted a drink and Spock would shoot him down, here in Requiem, Bones has to almost goad Spock into partaking in this human vice. And at the end of the episode he does the same thing when he says Spock will never know the lengths men will go when they love someone.

It’s just with the Brandy scene Bones is playful. Whereas when Bones says Spock will never know what love is, he’s laying it on thick so Spock will do the opposite. To get it into that thick Vulcan skull that yes he does love Jim enough to help here. As evidenced by the love theme from empath literally playing in the background as Spock erases Kirk’s memories.

2. When Rayna dies Spock is cold AF

Listen, I understand that Spock is Vulcan, and literal, and logical. But no amount of that is ever gonna excuse the first 6 seconds of this exchange.

Kirk whispers: What happened?

Spock, normal volume: She loved you captain.

Like good lord look at Kirk’s face Spock just ripped his heart in half.

Especially when earlier in the episode Spock was trying to hide Rayna’s true nature because he’d hoped he was wrong. (He wanted to protect Jim’s feelings) Also before she dies, Spock tries to warn Jim not to overwhelm her with his love but Spock stops short of saying that explicitly. And the reason this matters is Spock sees himself in Rayna. He sees what will happen if he allows himself human emotions.

It kills her.

So Spock, explains plainly to a clearly emotionally devastated Kirk why she died to answer Kirk’s question and to justify to himself why he will never let himself have these emotions. And Bones, Mr. “Emotions are good even when they’re bad,” stands there in silence because in this instance, what Spock is saying is literally correct.

“The joys of love made her human, and the agonies of love, destroyed her.”

Notice how the first half of that statement doesn’t have a positive connotation at all. It’s just “made her human.” Meanwhile the second half is clearly negative.

Yeah Bones was not gonna let Spock get away with saying that in the long term.

"You see, I feel sorrier for you than I do for him because you'll never know the things that love can drive a man to. The ecstasies, the miseries, the broken rules, the desperate chances, the glorious failures, the glorious victories. All of these things you'll never know simply because the word love isn't written into your book."

Is what Bones said fair? No. Could Bones have gone about it less harsh? Of course. But after what Spock said there was no freaking way Bones was gonna let him off the hook that easily.

In closing, Bones’ speech at the end makes sense when you take into account he’s shown to know how to manipulate Spock earlier in the episode and there was no way he was gonna let Spock get away with shit talking emotions to the degree that he did. Regardless of the accuracy Spock could have been kinder to Kirk and the old man. Instead, how Spock explained what happened left Kirk in such a state that he admits how lonely he is.

And he’s not even drunk.

Why Bones said what he said comes down to character motives not “was Bones right?”

[disventurecamptakes]

mod jake what r ur thoughts on tomjake? both like canon and what they could be

Question for me yippee!! Thank you anon!! /gen

Personally I liked tomjake in season one quite a bit, I was more invested in them as separate characters than as a couple but they were mostly cute in the beginning and they had a lot of good angst moments later, like the zombie episode was oddly sweet to me and got me invested in their relationship. And Tom’s elimination genuinely made me cry, it was a great twist, and him still wanting to save Jake after everything that he did made it even more tragic that he got booted that episode. I think that’s why Tom’s like seeming acceptance of what happened in the finale kind of felt cheap to me, I really would’ve liked him to hold onto that sense of caring for Jake while still resenting him a bit— and I felt like his semi-forgiveness came out of no where, which became more apparent in season three when we found out that Tom had straight up been ignoring him and Miriam, so like what was even the point beyond giving Jake a reason to clearly restrain himself.

I think it’s obvious that Jake’s my favorite DC character, and I miss pre-S1 finale tomjake tbh— but that being said, I feel like season three is focusing on their relationship way too much while still not doing anything with it. I don’t like how Tom’s just randomly ignoring Jake and always mildly annoyed at him. To be honest, S3 Tom and S1 Tom feel like completely different characters to me; and I know they’re building up to explaining why that is, but I feel like the suspense is kind of empty, because we’re eight episodes in and haven’t even gotten a hint beyond him (possibly lying about) having a boyfriend. And while Jake’s my poor meow-meow and I want him to get better, I think he should’ve gotten worse first. The shit Jake endured in season one just felt (to me) like it was laying the ground for an antagonist arc. I think it’s just because I enjoy angst and antagonists, but I really think S3 would’ve been better if we saw Jake get a bit underhanded beyond voting out James; like I think it would’ve made sense after the manipulation and mental distress he’s been dealing with. Also I believe an anon on the blog said before that the Tomaiden baiting would be more interesting if Tom had a one-sided crush on Aiden, and I fully agree, I think it would add more depth to the drama and give us more stakes as the audience and make Jake seem more sympathetic instead of just like…trying and failing to overcome his trust issues for the one millionth time, which I know some people find annoying.

I’m not sure if this made sense, I’m just spitballing here, I’m hoping this build-up pays off soon, and I don’t hate the focus on Tom or Jake this season nor do I necessarily think the writing is bad; I just would prefer for the build-up to be more substantive, I think Tom’s being a tad unreasonable without much critique from the narrative yet, and I think both of their characters and their relationship could be made more interesting by having Jake be resentful still (allowing for more character growth later and making him more entertaining) and including notions about Tom’s lingering feelings for Jake.

So overall, I think S1 Tomjake was pretty good and S3 is…realistic, but I’d honestly prefer dramatic morally-gray yaoi spectacle over realism. But also S3 isn’t done yet and this boils down more to my personal preferences than a genuine critique of the writing. 👍

[livelist]

Okay because clearly I am still upset about this.

April 23:

To Spn Con Audience: “By show of force: how many of you would consider yourself introverts?" How many extroverts? And how many bisexuals?” “I’m all three.”

April 25:

“I want to deeply apologize for misspeaking this weekend...“My clumsy intention was to wave off actually discussing my sexuality, but I badly fumbled that and [I] understand that was seen as me coming out as bisexual.”

THIS DOES NOT MAKE SENSE. Misha did not need to "wave off actually discussing [his] sexuality." He brought it up himself. He is literally just speaking at a podium, and of his own accord, announces that he is Extroverted, Introverted, and Bisexual. That is a pre-planned, pre-written statement if I have EVER heard one!!! Literally like... bisexual doesn't even make sense in that list? Its clearly a joke so he can come out in a funny way?

Like what argments even exist that can possibly explain what he meant if not "he is Extroverted, Introverted, and Bisexual"? Do you think he just stupidly thought bisexual was a word for both extroverted and introverted? Because that seems fucking impossible!!!

Why would bisexuals be in that list? Also, hes asking the crowd, meaning he literally does not need to say that he is ANY of them!! The whole and only point of asking was so that he could announce that he was bisexual!!! That is the only reason to do this little song and dance audience interaction in the first place!!

I mean, its not like he asked "How many straights? How many gays? How many bisexuals?" And then he felt weird and said "I’m all three!" That could sound more like a natural conversation topic that ended with him making an awkward joke that he thought was nonsense and actually made him sound bisexual. But he obviously did not say or intend to say that, I’m just writing fucking fanfiction to try and make any of this make sense!

Like seriously, there is no way to interpret the actions of April 23 than an authentic coming out of a bisexual actor. I cannot fathom any other interpretation. It is not a mis-speak? What was he trying to say if not that? Please, give me any crazy theory you have, I’m begging, because I have nothing.

And that brings me to April 25.

I really don't see how to interpret the combination of these actions as anything other than biphobic. Either one (1.), he thought it was appropriate to joke about coming out as bisexual, and pretend that it was real for two days, or two (2.), his statement on April 25 was a lie, he did mean to come out, and was forced, by either internalized or externalized biphobia, back into the closet.

1., I think, is overtly biphobic, because intentionally deceiving people into thinking you have come out for multiple days, using that to gain attention and therefore money, making coming out and bisexuality seem like the butt of a joke, like.

Fuck I’m just feeling again how fucking CONFUSING this shit is! There is no logical way to interpret it!!!

Occam's Razor honestly, 1. Doesn't make sense its too weird and confusing for his statement on April 23 to be a joke, lie, or misspeak.... it doesn't compute...

2. Internalized or externalized biphobia forced him back into the closet.

Honestly this is the only thing that actually makes any sense to me. Whatever has been forcing/convincing him to stay in the closet for decades forced/convinced him to walk it back (poorly).

I honestly honestly hate to do this because I really try to take people at their word as much as possible. I give people the benefit of the doubt. And ESPECIALLY when it comes to sexuality. I really believe that we must defer to what they call themselves, because even if they will change their minds one day, I believe that questioning them or invalidating how they define themselves in the moment does more harm than good. Or, in simpler terms, I think that people getting constantly questioned about their sexuality usually makes it harder for them to figure it out themselves.

But also. This is a middle aged man, a public and loud supporter of queer people, and he knows he not only has a specific presence within that community, he knows what his fans *think* about his sexuality. (Whether or not the fans are problematic for that is a matter for a different time.) So forgive me if I feel I should hold him to a higher standard when he makes statements regarding his sexuality.

But this isn't a high standard.

The incredibly low bar he couldn't manage to cross?

Don't authentically come out and then take it back two days later

I didn't even think I had to make a fucking bar for that!!!

It's genuinely so hard to even wrap my mind around what the fuck happened here! What is he claiming happened? "Misspeak"?!?!

Okay. I’m sorry. It's so hard to be clear on this issue because it just genuinely doesn't make sense. But I hope I made it a slightly bit more clear why it doesn't make sense? And seriously, I need answers. At least give me a better lie so I can sleep better at night.

I would really care so little if he was bisexual if it wasnt for the fact that he SAID HE WAS ffs I’m out I hope he and his wife and kids are very happy

[daydreaming-scheming-demon]

i try to respect other beliefs, i really do, but i want to voice some thoughts on the concept of an afterlife. from my perspective it looks obvious there’s nothing after death. all sorts of fiction has been made to ease minds or explain the unexplained: changelings, vampires, etc. but then society advanced, and science advanced, and people realised that was all bullshit once they got scientific answers to what’s really happening. most people these days have accepted a lot of scientific discoveries, even most modern christians believe in a round earth and dont believe in anything like vampires, except maybe demons and angels. and the answers science gave about phenomenon were usually so much simpler than the fiction written to explain said phenomenon.

an afterlife is one such fiction. isn’t it obvious? if it were true surely science would’ve found some slither of evidence at this point. the tales only exist to put minds at ease once humans were advanced enough to realise they would die, it’s a coping mechanism. same with the heaven and hell thing, are bad things happening to good people and good things happening to bad people? well no worries, it’ll all be fixed in the afterlife.

but it’s madness. to think you’re so special that the universe will make room to store you after death, there’s been quadrillions of human lives, and an unquantifiable number of lives of all sorts of other species, a number so big it looks infinite from a certain angle, and let me get this straight, you think the universe will make a special little space for all of those lives in some afterlife? dude, if the universe wanted you around forever you’d simply live forever. no, you will end to make room for more lives, lives which will also end.

and it feels kind of self-centred to me too, or at least human-centric i suppose, usually coming with the idea that human life is so very important compared with everything else in this vast expanse of a universe. like i said, the simplest answer is usually the correct one. when a window breaks nobody says it’s gone somewhere else, because it hasn’t gone anywhere else, it’s simply broken, ended. why would it be any different for humans or any other life? in the grand scheme of things, none of us are much more significant than a window, one could even argue a window has more significance.

science has advanced so far, surely it’d have found some sign of a soul at this point if one existed. the simplest answer to that is there is no soul, the soul was yet another fiction, created to explain everyone’s seemingly coherent consciousness in a way easier to cope with than the simpler explanation; that humans are nothing more than bodies, that nobody is anything more than bodies. a meat body with a meat computer, that is all, and when that’s destroyed, just like a smashed window it has simply ended, it has not gone anywhere, it has ended.

and to think there’s not just people who believe in an afterlife, but that said afterlife will judge them based on morality; a concept dreamt up and believed purely by humans. that sounds utterly ridiculous. sure, other species can have sympathy, but never a morality system. to think the universe will judge you based on a concept you made up is insane. to believe the universe gives a shit about if you helped an old lady across the street or not is insane.

to say it once again, im fine with people who believe in an afterlife. just have a lot of opinions on this, ones that i probably wouldn’t tell them. and as said, i can clearly see how believing in an afterlife could help a person. damn, sometimes i wish i believed in an afterlife, finite existence is fucking terrifying. in fact i may be writing this more out of fear of my own finite existence than i am out of hate for the concept of an afterlife. which may not make much sense but whatever.

[blackstarchanx3new]

Creations AU, But I obnoxiously over explain it PT 5

Pages 121-150

Cody, why do you keep having to have hyper realistic eyes it's unsightly.

So Cody only messes with Mike's trauma around the bite, presumably because it wouldn't work nearly as well on people who didn't see it:

This thing can warp reality to his whims. Which already is a far cry from the powersets we've seen so far.

For whatever reason: Cody Afton is a powerful presence in the bulding.

Cody is a lot less open to Mike's investigation it seems. Rather snidely remarking "Let's play 20 questions".

His dialogue pops out of his word bubbles quite frequently and he's visibly glitching.

His wording is very specific:

"Cause if he could get his hands on Cody's soul he'd put it in the robot with the LIKNESS of the head crusher"

He's not in the suit that bit him.

Which was something foreshadowed by the two robots having small details wrong:

The teeth and outfits specifically. The suit Cody is in is much more similar to the Freddy we already met back in the first few pages.

Possibly just a straight recolor of that one than the Fredbear animatronic we know took a bite out of Cody.

Rather this suit is one that LOOKS like Fredbear.

Which uh, begs the question: Why was the other one in the poster/the floating head.

Also William wasn't behind this.

Rather some girl was. Wonder who she is...

HEYO IT'S THAT PUPPET PLUSH! :D

The one robot HENRY made...

I didn't bring up Henry before, we don't have much to go off of with him yet, the one robot he made is possessed by a girl, and she has the power to stuff souls into the robots.

This event pisses Cody off as this suit wasn't something he would have chosen for himself.

He's a self described abomination which reflects how he truly feels about himself and his situation. He's also quick to rage.

Cody's soul was fragmented and missing a big chunk...Odd. Wonder what happened to the rest of it...

Cody's body seems to actively warp to a more...realistic bear. He has gums and his teeth grow sharper.

So "Cody' isn't really "Cody Afton" at all. At least not a direct ghost way...

Rather some weird amalgamation of Cody Afton's soul, this suit and rage.

We continue to see his powers are rather disturbing, his ability to warp reality being used once again.

His mimic of Mike has dead eyes which are just, lovely to look at...

Cody that's unsightly stop it.

He drops Mike into the void. Bye Mike.

Falling falling here we go.

Funny how he says "Son of a bastard" instead of "Son of a bitch"

Bet that's not relevant at all.

He's still not convinced what he's seeing is REAL. I wouldn't either. Shit is wild.

Cody continues to distance himself from "Cody Afton" by talking in the third person, but I'm going to keep calling him Cody just for simplicity sake.

Hah.

I mean.

True.

Considering what we've seen.

Mike admits to his mission's details further:

He's trying to stop people from dying here.

Neato.

Mike's cool.

Few things:

Hi Cody Afton.

People did NOT get this shot: Fucking...he fell...so far. Upside-down and now he's right-side up again. IT'S REALITY WARPING AGHHHHH. ISN'T THAT COOL!? LIKE BRO I FEEL LIKE IT'S COOL!!! Also we're back in Fredbear land you can tell cause of the floor.

Cody's human design here was fun to think of: It's clearly him as a young man compared to when he died as a child..

Cody's eyes are still dead, along with his fingers being tinted black. He's designed to look like a corpse.

Cody giving warnings and a reality check.

Someone's trying to scare you straight.

Showing him an end Mike isn't a fan of.

And because I've spoiled this before: Where Mike starts corrupting into Freddy is foreshadowing for smth down the line. Hehehehhehe.

I enjoy the method of "Freddy-fication" is slapping. That's just amusing.

Hah. He's stubborn.

Notice how Cody doesn't refute Mike's assumption it's William behind what's going on...

He would know after all as an all seeing presence in the building...

Makes sense since he IS the guy who's building the robots with people in em.

Cody's sad. Aww.

Mike's one determined mother fucker considering everything.

Haha: He was pissed with that drop kick.

Cody's parting message is just, wonderful. I love Cody. XD

The corruption fades away as Mike falls back down the hole he previously rose/fell from.

Huh.

So SOMEBODY'S afraid of their daddy for some reason...

William must be a scary guy if the reality warping demi god is spooked.

Also oh my goodness there were two of them-

WHO THE HECK IS IN THE FREDBEAR!?

Whoever they are, they find this shit hilarious. They seem to be on good terms with Cody whoever they are considering from Cody's words, the "Floating head" with flat teeth is this entity and they co-op scares together.

For people who know game stuff: You know that they laugh like a girl because of the Golden Freddy laughter clips.

HI BONNIE! :D

Mike wtf is wrong with your hand?

Also more conformation Mike doesn't smoke and in fact finds it repulsive.

Mike's been asleep? I GUESS.

Weiiiird.

It's 5 Am now.

Also not a cheeky reference to the FNAF rap in no way is this a cheeky reference-

Okay fine

"IT'S FIVE AM I'M GOING STEADY, NOW I'M SCREWED IT'S GOLDEN FREDDY!!!"

Yes. There's a lot of FNAF song jokes in this comic. Because I'm a filthy FNAF fan to my core.

Obviously SOMETHING is going on with the hand Cody messed with...

And oh my. Cody's reputation proceeds him...

So he's KNOWN stalker gotcha.

That door on the stage I mentioned earlier? That's where this bitch is camping out.

Imagine just ripping your own head off to get your point across.

It starts to become clear what Cody's personality is outside of just being an ass:

He's an angsty trickster.

They're playing Minecraft. Because if Bonnie's "Older brother" vibe wasn't apparent before it is now. XD

Which hurts cause of how Cody ended at the hands of his actual older brother Josh.

Also Cody only comes out when there's "A gap in the nightguards"

Aka they're dead and or quit.

It's the nightguards he's avoiding being scene vulnerable in front of.

DEAR GOD. DID PEOPLE MISINTURPRET WHAT BONNIE WAS SAYING HERE.

People legit have NO READING COMPREHENSION so let me get into Cody/Golden Freddy as a character:

People misconstrued: Anti social with "NOT TALKATIVE" Because people are dumb.

This is what I mean by people have NO READING COMPREHENSION.

Where did Bonnie say Cody "Doesn't talk" Where? I defy you to find that because it's not fucking here.

Nowhere. He never said that.

And I KNOW people were just reading each other's comments on webtoon and ignoring the source text because people REPEATED THE PHRASE WORD FOR WORD

"I DUNNO HE SEEMS PRETTY TALKATIVE"

HAHAHHAHAHA You'RE SO FUCKING FUNNY, BEING CHEEKY ABOUT THIS COMIC YOU CLEARLY AREN'T READING YOUR SO SMART OUTSMARTING ME BY SAYING I AS THE AUTHOR AM WRONG ABOUT WHAT I WROTE YOU'RE SO CUTE TEEHE

This pissed me off. A lot. Because holy shit how hard is it to read the actual comic to base your ideas off of and NOT other people's comments?????

Let's go over what Bonnie ACTUALLY HAS TO SAY ABOUT CODY SHALL WE?

"He's not exactly the social type if you catch my drift"

"but when he's down there, it means he's avoiding everyone and wants to be alone"

"He only really comes out when there's a gap in night guards"

"I don't think he likes getting caught on camera"

"It's a bit weird he came to see you"

"What I'm getting at is he's a bit shy"

Where in there, did Bonnie say Cody/Golden Freddy doesn't speak?

I'll wait.

Oh wait, it's not there: Because this was pulled out of someone's ass to get an "Actually" on me. Because "Actually"ing authors/comic artists is the biggest thing I notice people LOVE TO DO. For NO REASON.

"Tehehe, I'm so smart I saw through your bad writing, all I had to do was be an idiot to do it! :D"

Stop acting stupid to try and one up authors/artists. You just look dumb as hell I promise.

What Bonnie was ACTUALLY getting at: Is that Cody is anti-social. He avoids people and doesn't like interacting with others unless it's on HIS terms. Because despite all his big talk HE IS SHY. He in fact IS EXTREAMLY TALKATIVE. He MASKS when he does feel empathy through rage and taunts. He WARNS Mike to gtfo for really no other reason than from concern as the mask of not caring and rage slipped. He even REPEATED the advice Bonnie gave: LIVE.

He usually masks his care through terrifying the crap out of people but as we've seen HE WILL TALK TO THEM. The only person we know FOR SURE he has a good relationship with as of this moment IS BONNIE. And he TALKED to Bonnie.

Literally WHERE in these sets of pages could you get "He's not talkative" from??? Where would you assume a character SAID that?

Jesus Christ. This kind of brain dead reading of media just grinds my gears.

Even MIKE refutes the idea Cody is "shy". Which Mike, you don't know Cody that well... He could be shy in most circumstances AS WE SEE IN THE FLASHBACK for all he knows.

Bonnie even seems to KNOW Cody scares the crap out of night guards, considering Cody's appearance to Mike concerns him.

Anyways this was the kind of brain dead "I'm not paying attention to what I'm reading" shit that made me disable comments on the Webtoon of Creations. Because it was JUST shit like this in the comments. I like to call this concept: Comment inbreeding. Because you're just taking ideas from other commenters, when someone was already wrong creating abominations of media inturpritation.

COME UP WITH YOUR OWN IDEAS WHILE READING A PEICE OF WORK. DO NOT RUN TO THE COMMENTS.

So far, only ONE of my comics vocal fanbase has actually understood EVERYTHING I lay down onto the table: And that's the FSR audience.

Webtoon audiences did this AGAIN with William's character in the side comics. Calling a character who has built complex machinery and hid his crimes from everyone, an idiot, ONLY because he isn't socially skilled.

How fucking stupid do you have to be to compare social skills with intelligence? Like that's straight ableism shit but I digress.

I hated the comments on this comic and like: Again I hate to be an ass who disses their own fans but Jesus Christ what are you a fan of if you don't even get what you're reading and seemingly only read to try and get a "Gotcha" on me??? Why are you searching for flaws where they don't fucking exist?

There's TONS of errors in this comic: mostly art and spelling related ones. Because here's a secret: I CAN'T FUCKING SPELL HALF THE TIME. :D

I think the Creations comics have the MOST design/art errors out of ANY of my comics because I designed some of these bitches way to complex. (Funtime Freddy's colors are one example)

But the dialogue isn't really one of them????

Anyways apologies for the rant. This kind of brain dead analysis/lack of analysis of art (Not even just mine, in general) just pisses me off.

My brother Billy Because he is WAY more into webcomics than me. showed me a comment section on a comic he was reading the other day: Where people were so stupid they didn't realize there was a time skip, and he SHOWED ME where it said there was a timeskip: AND IT WAS IMPOSIBLE TO MISS.

I shit you not: The top 5+ comments on this tapas comic were all about how people were confused because they didn't realize/didn't care to notice there was a time skip.

I feel so sorry for that comic creator and I'm sure they are also in pain over this shit.

Like the method of "Rush to the comments to get an explanation instead of READING" was/is such an issue. Why?

Why can you just read it?

I swear, I felt like the "Rick and Morty is only for high IQ people" but for reals. And that's silly because this comic is A GOOFY ASS FNAF AU.

Sure there's a LOT to it, but it's like, not even an hour read to read the whole thing in one sitting. You can retain information for an hour lmfao. And if you can't over LONG times of waiting for updates: REREAD UPDATES.

Oh hey Michael's relevant again.

Mike you're sus.

People didn't get this either:

Reality is a lie. That's the point of this scene. Cody's affects lingered. Cody's scene was REAL.

Also Mike, you talk like you have personal experience with that.

Bonnie continues to just be a bro.

HAHA WOAH WHO DAT MIKE????

Heheheheheh.

That's Jeremy isn't it Mike?

HELLO GHOST-

Mike doesn't seem to see him.

Butt touch. Touching that butt-

Also funny reference to what Mike said at the start of the comic.

He cracked guys.

Our boy smiled.

What we know now:

Bonnie is virtually conformed to be this Jeremy person Mike's looking for.

And that means Jeremy is dead.

Mike and Jeremy clearly had a friendly relationship, whoever they were to each other.

So back to why Mike was hanging onto the cigarettes:

Were those for Jeremy? Seems likely. Bonnie's speech pattern seemed to shock Mike the first time they met and Mike's "It's nice to see you again" was clearly directed at Jeremy NOT Bonnie himself.

Jeremy's text here is in green and if you'll remember Bonnie's eyes flashed green when Mike said that.

YALL KNOW I LOVE FORSHADOWING. HAHAHAHAHHAHA

Anyways funny how it ends here for now. Perfect cut off.

[thebookmarker99]

Venting time. I don't even know why I'm still a part of the Hellaverse fandom. I'll give season 2 a chance of course, but I can't sit here and lie that season 1 was done well at all. Yeah, there's the episode limit but that doesn't explain the flipflopping with characters and leaving a bunch of plotholes. It's not even a case of plotholes which can be reconciled toward the end, it's just straight up 'nope, that doesn't make fucking sense and even half the fans realised it'.

It certainly doesn't help that the creator and her sycophant followers absolutely hate the one ship you adore. I would be quite content enjoying a fanon ship that is supported by the creator, but instead, not only does its very sane fandom demonise anyone who likes it, but this bullying is indirectly encouraged by the staff.

Shit, even one of the oldest Charlastor artists straight up considers it their NOTP now that they work on the show. Where did that come from? To make it worse, there's an undeniable amount of romantic subtext forced into C & A's dynamic in order to bait shippers, and I fucking hate that. After how you treat people that enjoyed their, very clearly, superior dynamic in the pilot, you use this as a means to get money out of fans who still yearn for those wholesome interactions. Was it really a surprise C and A's signed print was the most expensive lmfao.

I'm genuinely wondering why any Charlastor would even want to support this show when the creator straight up thinks you're subhuman. All over two fictional characters, she will allow her cronies to relentlessly mock you on social media as if she doesn't have a myriad of controversies under her belt. And do I personally want to support this? Absolutely not, which is why I don't purchase the official merch that keeps breaking on arrival for these unfortunate buyers.

[holly-louisexox]

Ribcage X Andy Biersack- Part 11

Masterlist

"There's one thing you should know about me Delia Vincent, I don't date. Got no heart to break and emptiness is safe, keep it that way."

He was adamant in his choices...

...But then things changed.

Not my GIF

"Okay Jinxx, I just need you to quickly play something on your violin to make sure the sound system is working. After that, if you guys could just go straight into Shadows Die I can adjust the violin accordingly." Delia explains as Jinxx stands tuning his violin before giving Delia a thumbs up to acknowledge he had heard what she had just said.

"Hey, I bought you a latte, extra caramel, the way I know you like it." Shevy grins walking into the sound booth where Delia was currently sat.

"Thanks Shevy, you're a lifesaver." Delia smiles back before gleefully accepting her coffee.

"So have you spoken to Andy today?" Shevy smirks slightly.

"Nope, he's still avoiding me." Delia shrugs trying to not care when in reality, she was anxiety and guilt ridden about the whole thing.

It had been a week since the whole Delia getting drunk and sharing a bed with Andy situation had occurred. Thankfully CC, Jinxx and Jake did not know about it, if they did they were keeping the jokes away from it all. In that week however, Andy had been avoiding Delia it seemed.

"I honestly do not understand him. He was eyeing you up the whole time we were at that club. Yes he was with some random women like always but even then he didn't seem too interested in her." Shevy explains trying to make sense of it all for her own sake, if not Delia's sake.

"Well he clearly isn't interested otherwise he would have spoken to me." Delia shrugs again trying to not let the conversation get to her.

"You like him, don't you?" Shevy asks gently; as much as she was trying to be a good friend to Delia, it was pretty clear that the pair of them had something going on, Andy was never normally this confusing about people.

"that's the issue Shev," Delia sighs before continuing "I don't like him, he's a complete asshole. I liked the version of him I saw the other night; where he actually gave a shit about someone who wasn't himself. We were actually laughing, he actually seemed happy, normal even."

"Yeah, I do feel like that guys wears a mask a lot to be the star the fans see him as." Shevy sighs slightly. "Maybe trust try and talk to him? Have you tried doing that?" Shevy suggests.

"You're kidding right? That's going to be super awkward. Plus he's always with the rest of the band anyway." Delia is clearly taken away from Shevy's suggestion, as logical as it same be.

"I'm just saying, next time the opportunity arises go for it." Shevy shrugs slightly "Anyway, I need to go get their show outfits ready so I'll see you later hun."

"Yeah no worries, see you in a bit." Delia smiles slightly.

Why did guys always have to be so confusing?

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"Great show as always lads!" Shevy smiles as she walks into the backstage room everyone was sat in; everyone but Andy.

"Right so we ordered in pizza cause me and Shev completely forgot to pick up after show meals, hope you guys don't mind." Delia continues as she follows Shevy holding 5 different types of large pizza; one being vegan for Andy to enjoy. Yes it was also 5 pizzas for the 7 of them, CC and Jake had been known to basically inhale a large amount of food after a show; where the both of them put all that food Delia would never know.

"Any of you guys know where Andy's gone?" Shevy asks the rest of the band when she eventually also notices him missing.

"He's being a twat." Jinxx states simply.

"Okay, please do explain that one." Shevy rolls her eyes slightly; honestly she wasn't sure if she wanted to know the details, but the dude also needed to eat.

"The guy started vaping again the other day, god knows why after he's quit smoking for so long." Lonny explains whilst clearly being worried about his band mate.

"For fuck sake. Okay, well, at least it's not cigarettes I guess?" Shevy responds sounding slightly stressed. "Delia can you go and talk to him please? You might get through to him without him making it personal. If one of us goes to lecture him he'll go off on a tantrum."

"I'll try but I'm not exactly his favourite person ever." Delia laughs lightly before putting the pizzas down on the table. "Dig in guys, before it gets cold."

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"Let me guess, you've got some sort of weird and funky flavoured thing that no one will ever remember the name of?" Delia asks trying to make a joke to lighten the mood slightly whilst also making Andy aware of her presence.

"It's menthol." He replies not even looking in her direction.

"And here I was hoping it would be some sort of funky flavour to laugh about." Delia smirks slightly- she was not sure where this confidence or lame humour was coming from but at least it was making her feel less awkward.

"What do you want Delia?" Andy kills Delia's mood by looking at her and talking in his signature monotone, that confidence lasted long didn't it just?

"I just came to tell you that we got food, you must be hungry." Delia explains awkwardly. "Also, the others kind of agreed between them that sending me out would make it less personal. They're all worried because you've starting smoking again."

"Honestly, I didn't expect to make it past 30 cause I used to smoke a pack a day and drink like a camel but here I am. I don't really care anymore." Andy tries to sound defensive but instead his words come out some what hurt sounding.

"Look, I know we don't see eye to eye, and I know things have been shit for you, but is it really worth potentially throwing everything?" Delia tries to reason with him. He seems vulnerable right now, maybe this is how she'll get through to him. "I know you're like this because of Juliet, is it really worth letting her win in this way?"

"Oh great. You just had to bring her into the fucking mix didn't you?" Andy snaps. "Look, you may think that you're this great person who can fix everything, but guess what? This is the real world and shit does not work like that even if you hope it does. You're so fucking stupid Delia. You know what, I don't care. When this tour is over I never want to see you again."

And just like that, Andy is storming off back inside. That could 100% have gone better, although it also could have gone much worse, right?

[deceptive-daydreams]

underground update 🖤🖤 oh my gosh each chapter becomes my new favourite, I'm sure.

the comparison between the physical damage in the aftermath of the storm and the emotional damage in the aftermath of Eddie and R fighting for so long was beautiful. One of my favourite parts especially was the mention of 'deep puddles that would soak you up to the knee if you happened to misstep' this feels so similar to her relationship with him at the start of the chapter. Like she's trying to dodge and hop her way around her interactions with him, stopping herself from drowning in a puddle. Such great analogy's.

I think how she has to keep reminding herself of what he did, how he messed up, is a great take on forgiveness. It's a super fine line to walk between forgiving someone and wiping the slate clean, but not letting yourself become gullible or naïve that they're never going to hurt you again. Where do you draw the line? She's gotta land somewhere between not holding a grudge for the rest of her life, and not becoming a total doormat. It's so hard. 'Someone could say a million of the right things but it doesn't excuse their wrongdoings or the harm they're capable of' Her thought process here explains that so perfectly. And you're so right about the Olivia Rodrigo song. It's 1 step forward and 3 steps back in her determination to hate him and hold onto those bad parts, not in the progress of their relationship.

The way she's describing his eyes like whiskey was really clever, how it can warm you up, relax you. but it could still leave a bit of a bite, how it's got some heat to it. Reminded me of the sugar comparison last chapter, just gorgeous.

And then how she can't stop ogling him! All while he's doing a crap job of making drinks but she's too zoned out on how he looks to care 😍 it's like their conversation during the storm has lifted her blinkers and she's seeing more clearly now. But she's still being stubborn and I love this about her because she's me and I cling onto the bad parts of people to stop myself being made a fool of again, even if I should let it go. Can't. No way. Major Meg from Hercules energy and I'm here for it.

Then theres Eddie's aftermath. He's practicing a bit more patience with little reward at that point, but he's only thinking of her peace and how to protect it. Especially from himself, straight up admitting to himself that a negative reaction was better than no reaction at all, because he just wants her attention. Just wants her to notice him. Which is heartbreakingly hilarious, she's noticing you well enough pal, don't you worry. But really, him questioning his place in her life? If he even has one now? Just cut me open and leave me to bleed out, my chest physically hurt at that point. He's so in love it's not funny.

The conversation between Eddie and Steve was interesting, he's got all the patience for R right now and none left for Steve. And so it should be. Still got zero sympathy for Steve, he even says to Eddie how much Steve knew of R really liking, then really hating Eddie, and he still doesn't know why he did what he did. Maybe just because you could Steve? But then I get that this whole story is hilighting relationships and how people fuck up with eachother, not just in a romantic sense, so maybe Steve will get his redemption. Eddie thinking 'get your shit together, please' though... pfft. Pot kettle black much?

And then Will's house! I love that Will is bringing them together. She's still trying to shield him from the bulk of what's gone on but I wonder if Eddie has done the same? Knowing that he also visits Will often and is his friend. They clearly talk about her a lot I'm guessing with the bad baker comment. And then Eddie's reaction to seeing her! Buddy. Dilated eyes. Your body is literally filling with happy hormone just looking at her. I can't. He wants her so bad it's making me sick. I love it 😍 the 'can't I be bad at something and still try?' line. Ugh. Love how you slipped that in there like it doesn't apply to nearly every character in this fic. Yes you can be bad at something and yes you should still definitely try. Cue 'this is me trying' on Spotify 🖤 then he stays and he wants in on the matching pjs and it's all too much for Will who just wants mum and dad to stop fighting and got his wish 😭 the cruel summer! The line they finish on!! I'm combusting! This was so perfect. Congrats on another amazing chapter, just perfection 🖤🖤

AHH YAY🥹 it’s analysis time

ugh yessss she’s just so worn out and she sees the aftermath of the storm and is like ‘same’ like girl can’t catch a break. Ugh it makes me so sad cause she feels she has to dodge him like that but it’s like how can she trust anyone at this point she just keeps getting fucked over (but also relatable like she is me, I trust no one)

god yes, forgiveness is so hard because it’s like you can’t spend forever enraged cause it only causes inner pain but you can’t just let them off easy either so like you said it’s a super fine line. I happen to be too forgiving sometimes so it’s really liberating to write reader in this fic as so stubborn and not tolerating being walked on. And it’s only becoming more difficult for her with the way she sees him now so she’s in this territory of like ‘can I trust him?’ but quickly reeling back like ‘no no no he’s bad remember?’ Seeing him in a different light is def overwhelming so it’d really screw with your emotions

I think when I wrote the whiskey part I had been like two drinks in too and I was like god this is how she feels looking into Eddie’s eyes or even thinking about them like you’re just a little bit love drunk and leaning into that feeling and it feels a bit too good so your perceptions a little off but when you sober up those feelings are still there, you’re just not brave enough to confront them.

dude he’s such a shit barista but let’s be real, reader is pretty much responsible for basically making him train himself…so maybe she’ll show him the ropes for real some day 👀 but yeah now she can’t keep her eyes off of him and I like to think that before their conversation she kinda just tuned him out and didn’t even bat an eye in his direction, that’s how disgusted she was with him like ‘we can fight like no tomorrow but once we’re out of the ring you don’t exist’ so even when she would have to pay him any mind, it was always in a bad light so any attraction for him was just heavily blanketed in hatred. SHE IS SO MEG FROM HERCULES YOURE RIGHT OMG, the whole ‘no chance, no way, I won’t say it no, no’ is sooo this chapter

ugh yes, my dear Eddie 🥹 it’s def ironic he’s like PLS ACKNOWLEDGE ME EVEN IF ITS TO TELL ME YOU HATE ME but baby boy doesn’t even notice her absolute fawning over him literally ALL THE TIME at work. Like man makes cleaning look so hot but he’d never know. It’s so dumb they both stare at each other quite literally any chance they can get but the other one never notices and honestly we could even chalk it up to neither one feeling worthy of love or even like which is just 😭❤️‍🩹

LMAO Steve was never meant to be a villain but it just happened

the scene at wills house is honestly one of my favorite scenes I’ve ever written because I have such a soft spot for Will and Eddie, they just should’ve been able to have a friendship in canon but obvi it can’t happen now so I can at least write it 🥹 and yeah Eddie is such a lovesick puppy like he sees her and his eyes grow like 5x bigger, literally becomes the 🥹 emoji. I’m so glad you had this reaction to the line in cruel summer, it was never planned from the beginning and sort of came together as I wrote and i was like yesss!!! Like everything that happened in this chapter was pretty much unplanned and it was supposed to set up a completely different scene but it will have to wait…most likely for the next chapter but we’ll see

thank you for reading and taking the time to talk in such detail it gives me the biggest boost in motivation 😭💜💜💜

[val-the-protoss-simp]

Yeah, so. The best way I can explain my thoughts on these ships (especially Artazun - Artanis/Vorazun) is using one of Avril Lavigne's most iconic songs:

He was a boy

She was a girl

Can I make it anymore obvious?

Like, I'm not trying to throw any shade at all, people can ship whatever they want. But I am yet to meet a person who ships these two that explains why they like them so much in a way that makes sense to me. Because sooner or later, their explanation boils down to "He's a guy and she's a gal so ofc they'd be into each other" as if a straight ship is some kind of default and if a story has a male main character and a female main character, they have to end up together. And I just don't see it. Them as friends? Sure, absolutely, imo they're great as friends, but not as a couple. Alarak and Artanis have way more chemistry with one another. Bit of a hot take but so does Rohana and Vorazun. But Artanis/Vorazun is about as interesting to me as watching paint dry is. It's like when you pick up a mediocre romance book where the girl character obviously ends up with the boy character because That's Just How Things Are no matter of they're good together or not. No thanks. Pass

Kerrinor is a bit more complicated in a sense that the game actively tries to convince you these two are really into each other. But if I had to sum up their vibes, I'd reach for Sk8tr Boy again. "He was a boy, she was a girl, can I make it anymore obvious?" I just don't get the romantic vibes at all off of these two. Raynor frequently comes off as an incel that gives the vibes of someone who'd insist they know better than you and just to listen to them because they know best, while also transforming into the biggest simp in the galaxy in SC2 as he pines over a woman that's obviously not into him.

And Kerrigan gives me the vibes of someone who really does wanna see more in this weird relationship, but more because she thinks having someone to love will make her feel whole and worthy of living rather than that she really wants this. Like, if shit didn't go south and she didn't get infected, I'm 100% that eventually she'd go "Yeah sorry lol this ain't gonna work." and break it off with Raynor. Like, I do think she cares deeply for Raynor, don't get me wrong, and at one point might have thought what she feels is romantic love, but eventually comes to a point where she realises that it's a sense of kinship rather than anything romantic. She loves him as a friend, that is all.

And funny enough, if you know more about his character, you know he had a wife and a son that he tragically lost. Knowing this information and how he's written, Raynor comes off to me as someone who's desperately looking for that kind of love again, albeit without realising, because the time he spent happy with his family was the happiest he ever was and his defeated, depressed ass desperately wants that again. So he seeks that shit and Kerrigan just happens to be there.

You can clearly see that he cares deeply about her, but his feelings of affection are misplaced to the point he doesn't want to see the kind of person she is and instead tries to morph her into the kind of woman HE wants. Which is not who Kerrigan is at all. Revenge is all she has left, no matter what it takes, and Raynor again and again tries to talk her out of it for his own personal wants when she makes it very very clear this isn't something she wants to do and that she cannot just let go of what Mengsk did to her and what that man's choices turned her into. And instead of trying to understand why someone he supposedly understands so deeply would want to kill the man who robbed her off of everything and turned her into a monster that killed billions, he gets butthurt when she doesn't wanna run off with him and live happily ever after. I love Raynor for many reasons, I think he's a well written character in a lot of aspects but this just. Ain't it. If the game treated this behaviour of his as a flaw, I'd dig it. But instead it tries to tell how boo boo poor Raynor is just so unfortunate to want a woman that doesn't want him, even when he ignores everything that's important to her. That's just not doing it for me, fam. I get that the game tries to ram it down my throat as the technically only canon ship it gives us in its five installments, but I can't get behind it. Kerrinor is a big fat no for me, let them just stay friends.

a ship where i see what people see but it is simply not very interesting to me personally it’s like

[theuniverseawakens347]

And in this situation I’m asking to the people who helped make me homeless for a conversation and you feel like I’m bombarding your space because you want to clean up and make it right with me so you come fully wrapped in everything you owe me plus the conversation but your tiring me out having me rock my fucking brain and yell and sister is calling me and pick on you for being an asshole to me when I wasn’t deserving of that

Elaine Howard I would really love to know how in the fuck I have ever been deserving of you being fucking Cunt hard assholes to me and why in the fuck you would think Vivicca telling you any type of ounce of bullshit was back in my actions I’m showing you who I am every single time you talk to me you don’t know Vivicca I don’t know that goddamn woman so why are you trust anything she has to say about me to your face

The answer is because she’s black

So one more time I’m apologize for pestering like I said because I don’t really want to myself however your ancestors are popping me to talk to you because your past do with a fucking respect you need to give me and it’s pissing them off because you’re trying to work so fucking hard Howard to Lee to make me look like a fucking daemonic piece of fucking shit and you really trying to do the same shit to Tristen and you don’t know neither one of us

- Lee got you talking to Ian saying its Tristan

Also why would God give you a fucking apology when you have failed me so many times you want Jesus Christ to be a white fucking man who looks like you hits your fucking Stainglass in the goddamn bedroom overlooking the fucking bed you fuck on

Why would that make any fucking sense- the Catholic Church asking …

Also Tristen has his side his point of view from the outside looking in I have my point of view from actually living with you both 24 fucking seven Howard are used to go to work with you Lee I’ve stayed at home with you I’ve been on both sides of both of you Howard you have no friends except for three and that’s the same get down at the Pantages as well you don’t really have comrades you have people that you talk to because you worked with them but you’re not actually doing anything outside of a luncheon here or there to maintain a friendship

You have your Facebook you have Bill and Pat we go on a vacation we met them in our next your vacation we’re staying over at their house but you have Internet conversation with friends where you can easily fucking lie about anything

And then you have your brother Ronald and Laura you don’t talk to them at all except for over Facebook it may be a birthday text and call here and there and same with Tom and Janet but you only go over when they invite us for fucking dinner lease invite y’all over to our house for hosting gigs let’s have the family come over but why did everybody all of a sudden just stop when I started college Lee Garlington would you like to explain that because people wanna get to know Cashay why is Cashay not talking why is she not comfortable to be herself and that doesn’t mean just be a black person but like you can clearly see Cashay is traumatize Lian Howard what’s going on with your daughter

And when your ask these questions you just say what we don’t know she doesn’t want to be around as she hangs around with her drug attic friends she smokes weed 24 seven I don’t know if she’s drinking but I wouldn’t fucking be surprised but we gave her a car in the very first and only thing she does is go straight down to the fucking hood but you don’t explain to them why I go to the hood where my birth family is where my fucking roots are you want me white washed to live comfortably in your house which means I have to sacrifice what I am when you look at me a black girl - the code switching

- how many of ur black friends naturally do this - who from the hood and who grew up affluent - HOW MANY OF THEM ARE YOU SEEING IN FULL - struggle n pain NOT JUST RACE.

… 

Vivicca I don’t owe you an apology talking about your fucking cancer I put on my blog Vivicca you have cancer it’s doing what it needs to do you are an evil grimy piece of shit fucking person who plays the victim fucking card just like Jada Pinkett Smith I have alopecia code for I got an STD I pass is somebody and I don’t wanna try to fucking know that high HIPAA violation you pass it to my fucking family you idiot and decided to have fucking children and leave at a whole slew of shit that fucks up their mental and their autonomy over there fucking bodies you are all fucking rapist I put on my Block proudly I will say my rapist fucking names so that a victim can fucking know when they’re in that fucking energy

That was before I fucking knew my inherit it was the entire fucking world

And stop saying I’ll fucking ruin things for me again your aunts sisters are pissed off at you for being so stuck in your own fucking ways you don’t want to drop resistance against who you dim your fucking enemy which is your daughter who is showing you got a goddamn thing but nothing but niceness

But you mad at my Granny Florence because she felt really fucking hard to get me out of your fucking Grip Lee

Are you gonna read this and get all types of fucking mad that’s not my issue and ancestors agree with me and sodas the fucking house state of union

Because again it boils down to one of you is comfortable in full not letting your entire fucking true self show when I am in for comfortable wearing my fucking flaws on my goddamn sleeve so if you don’t wanna fuck with me you ain’t have to however Howard you have now made it a legal situation Lee Garlington

- vivicxa im not apologizing to you BUT YOU OWE MY ELDERS AN APOLOGY AND THE BLACK COMMUNITY - RODNEY KING. MARTIN MALCOM ROSA . Who else YAL lily GHANDI NELSON MICHAEL .. keep going or you get it Howard.