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triple-starsss · 5 months ago

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think i might've?? mentioned this before but prior to moving into the T☆S apartment, Silver didn't have a place of his own. he was a bit of a couch surfer and would live with Blaze, Vanilla or sometimes the Chaotix.

he often felt VERY guilty for staying with them so he'd frequently switch, afraid he'd overstay his welcome and thought he was intruding in their space (despite each of them saying its completely fine, he can stay for as long as he likes, he isnt a burden to them)

when he got the opportunity to move into an apartment with Sonic and Shadow it was nice to finally have a place where he knew for sure he was able to stay for good. However it still didn't feel right, he still didn't think he truly earned it.

#i really enjoy Silver feeling out of place when visiting the past in canon. like he knows this isn't where he should be.#he isn't FROM the point in time #yet everyone is so inviting and kind to him!!!#they know his situation is difficult and they're always willing to help #but surviving through horrible futures alone just hardwired him into thinking he should do everything alone!!! he shouldn't bother them!!!#WOULDN'T SAY THIS. APPLIES TO WORLD SHATTERING EVENTS THOUGH LOL #trying to incorporate my silly headcanons abt silver into the au without time shenanigans #sorry i am rambling its like. almost 2am #t☆s txt #silver the hedgehog #triple☆stars

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transsexula · 5 months ago

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Theres a very weird movement going on here, where if you mention issues related to men, you are automatically labeled an MRA.

In all honesty, it makes sense with what feminist theory has been clipped off after t*rfs got their hands on the "feminist" title and ran it through the mud. Because to them- men are evil. Masculinity is evil. Specifically trans men are evil gender traitors who want nothing more than a slice of the patriarchy pie.

Where is the space now in progressive/feminist circles for men? Especially queer men? Men who have BEEN feminists, who have been active politically, in their communities and homes- where is the space for them? What happened to stronger together? When did the mass begin adopting t*rf talking points? When did feminism as a whole become centered on those talking points?

Like. I AM allowed to talk about the issues I face in a heteronormative cis-centric society plagued with patriarchal views. That shit affects me deeply! I talk about it on my blog. In my own space. I also uplift the voices of others- especially women, and fem-aligned people. It's important to have connections with all sorts of people- it makes me feel more whole, both in the personal connections, and the connections made through works of art, books, etc.

It is frightening to watch the community splinter apart as the looming threat of a Trump term is happening. It feels like being in a crowd, helping everyone into a safe zone and reaching for a hand up- only to be left behind and closed out as the zombie hoard closes in.

Under pressure, things begin to break down. But we really need to do our best to mend the splintering, to fill the cracks and seems and divides. Because otherwise, their next step is "Conquer" and I don't want to see that for us.

#divide and conquer is the tactic. we need to be linking arms instead of acting fucking horrible to each other #we need to be a unified force not fighting each other #i saw a post that was pretty solid about needing another feminist movement BUT they were allowing some really #nasty shit to be said about trans men/mascs on their post #i can understand the frustration in some cases but. good god. everyones got a fucking anecdote #when are people gonna realize that man hating isnt cute and quirky #NO THIS IS NOT ME SAYING MISANDRY IS REAL JFC REREAD THE POST IF YOU GOT THAT OUT OF IT #im literally saying we need a new feminist movement thats completely removed from t*rfs and their ideals. its not productive not helpful #and honestly incredibly regressive ESP for how they treat women. which is crazy bc thats their entire thing.

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zweiginator · 4 months ago

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zweiginator i’m in a very tough situation:

i have this friend who pissed me off the last time i saw her when we went out with other friends in downtown n haven’t been talking to her since n she repeatedly keeps trying to talk to me n act like we’re all buddy buddy again even though i’ve stated MULTIPLE times that i do not want to talk to her.

wtf do i do

hmmm i am very confrontational about friend stuff usually and arguments so i would say to have a talk with her about what she did that upset you... however if you've already told her that and shes refusing to take accountability i think its completely fair for you to set boundaries and be like hey i dont want to talk to you or be associated with you.

so maybe find a way to be SUPER blunt about it and then if shes still not wanting to fix stuff or at least listen to you then i guess we're riding at dawn

#ask #im not much help but i get what u mean bc i had a horrible friend who just would do shitty stuff and not say anything and expect everyone t #just forgive and forget like girl thats not how it works lol #and its important to set boundaries about apologizing imo bc u dont wanna be friends with immature children who cant be accountable

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caterjunes · 4 months ago

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i know my body is doing its best but christ alive.

#keeping it fun and funky fresh #personal #i need a chronic illness tag #i've been doing frankly a lot better in the past week+ bc we got an upstairs window ac #and we've been keeping the house air conditioned bc even tho it gets cool overnight it is incredibly humid all the time (70-90%)#and the ac units take the humidity out from indoors as well as keeping things a consistent cool temp for me #but today i painted so i aired out the house all day. and. it was a mistake.#i feel fucking miserable. i could not get comfortable At All All Day.#also like. i haven't talked about this but i've gained quite a bit of weight in the last 2 years & especially the last 6 months #(being completely sedentary d/t chronic fatigue will do that to ya)#and so a lot of my clothes fit weird and feel bad and i haven't replaced them yet bc i still don't rly know how to shop #for clothing for trans women. especially bc a lot of those clothes are thrift store finds that Happen(ed) to feel good on me #and today i happened to be wearing underwear that i didn't realize were among the no-longer-comfy and the waistband would not stop rolling #and then it'd get pinched between my stomach & my lower abdomen and chafe horribly especially w/ how sweaty & sticky i was #it was just awful. it was just awful. i finally turned the ac back on even tho it's only 70° outside #bc i couldn't stand being in the (currently) 80% humidity anymore #and grayson helped me take a sponge bath after i broke down crying #and now i feel a little better but i'm just. tired. i'm tired & all of this is getting worse & my doctor doesn't seem to give a shit #heat intolerance

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birrdify · 6 months ago

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hhejheeh hold on ill do stuff for my inbox again after i draw thsi little scenario where smg3 and 4 go ice skating (i know. cold, icey place where it's just the two of them very good idea birdy) for a video ,,, maybe like theres a sponsorship/endorsement thing and they do that for fun idk. 4 brings 3 along because they had a little bicker moment "i bet i can ice skate better than you" or something (yeah they both suck and have little to no experience) and they end up grabbing each other while flailing around LMAAOO "AHHHH SMG4 STOP GRABBING ME" "YOU'RE GRABBING ME!!!"

based on my little ice skating outing w/ my friends earlierX] one of them follows me hii hhello!!! hope your ass doesnt hurt too much from falling !!!!

#flex that i did NOT fall earlier (i was horrified and it was my first time) (i kept holding onto a little guide thing that you can push #around while skating) THERE WERE SO MANY PRETTY PEOPLE THERE ND THEY WERE SO PROFESSIONAL....HOUH....#smg34 #smg4 #insert png of them holding each other yelling “MY BOYYY!!!!” when beeg and eggdog got “kidnapped” yes yes. thats what im envisioning #HHELP IMAGINE THEY GET CAUGHT ON CAMERA HOLDING EACH OTHER CAUSE SMG4 has the GRAND idea to film while they ice skate (reminds me of the ro #I LOVE THE ROT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) ajhghgjhg iimagine they...t..#after a while they llike...ATTEMPT to try harder and they start helping each other out after realizing that no one would probably enjoy #watching 2 men fail at ice skating horribly on cam (although in reality its the opposite)#OOPS i yapped in tags #birdsy rambles loudly #birdys smg4 ice skaters

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deus-ex-mona · 8 months ago

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series i’m gatekeeping from my family vs series i’m ✨ok✨ with my family knowing i’m into:

#‘why do you gatekeep hw from your irls?’ well. the thing is. i just ✨don’t want to✨#and. like. i’ve already led my family to believe that i bought bl manga when i was buying idol sengen at animate #so i think im already past the point of no return in that regard. so. um. yeah.#thank you village vanguard for the unexpected μ’s content in 2k24 you truly are yappa saikyou #i s w e a r falling back into my ll phase almost 10 whole years after i first got into it is unexpected tbh #compounded with the fact that i can now actually afford whatever im looking for. so. like. my wallet is in crisis lol #i had just reached my savings goal last month but now i’ve overspent bc i saw great deals on resold honoka-chan hoodies and i couldn’t help—#so now i have 2 identical hoodies lol. but i’ll keep one of them safe in its packaging bc im unwell like that ig #my merch whaling is out of control i s w e a r but my oshis are just too cute aaaaaaaaa #i probably should open another savings account instead… maybe that’d keep my spending under control…#b u t for now honoka-chan jersey im looking for you #tfw ur oshi is decently unpopular amongst the fans so hardly anyone resells her merch lmao #so ig the relatively fewer fellow fans she has are more dedicated to her than fans of other more popular characters lol #but at least her stuff (when resold) isn’t as overpriced as the actually popular members (birb and tomato)#so my wallet isn’t crying as hard as it could’ve been? ig? hunting for almost 10 year old merch is a pain fr though #either way. the grip idol series have on my wallet is truly insane #i wonder how many bags of chips i could’ve bought with the amount i’ve spent on hw and ll merch to date…#at least a thousand… i think. maybe even 2 thousand if my past gacha game whaling is taken into consideration…#…this is probably why it’s important to have a decent paying job ig.#oh well. at least i may be making b a n k this month with how much ot i’ve had to do this week so far…#i hope i won’t have to work till 5am again over the next 2 days… that had been a horrible experience.#help what am i even talking about anymore why am i having a life crisis right here and now u m.#anyways. dni if you dislike honoka-chan. thanks for coming to my crisis rant. see you when the last stage mv drops ig ok byeeeee

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revvywevvy · 1 year ago

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oughhh sick my beloathed I hate being sick.. yknow what I dont hate though? chip revvington :)

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e77y · 2 months ago

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Fighting the procrastination demons SO hard tonight bc I got a 100% on my high-stakes assignment for this class so I would still comfortably have an A if I didn’t do this discussion post… soooo tempting… sigh

#🤓posting #still very giddy about getting a 100% on that assignment btw #this prof is a really hard grader but he seemed genuinely interested in my ideas 🥹🥹#he’s used my assignments as good examples once or twice too #I am such a teacher’s pet I CAN’T HELP IT I love academic validation okay. sue me #anyway I didn’t expect to do well on that assignment at ALL and I spent alllll day on it in a horrible stress fugue state #so frankly I am shocked but really glad #it was admittedly a fun assignment too despite the stress/length. I found a few really neat publications and authors while researching for i #t #I’m on mobile and too lazy to retype that tag okay

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tansyuduri · 5 months ago

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Today was one of the days where my goal was like 500

I got 1888 words.(And a bit of revising, and going over things that were betad) Like My maximum goal ever is 1500 then days like this happen

#It was litteraly a NON self indulgent part of my most self indulgent fic atm #Normally when this happens its in a self indulgent part I think.#writing fanfiction #I ask myself to remember this when I inevitabley convince myself I am a horrible writer and am getting worse next time #I'll still freak out writing is hard and meltal ilness does not help #BUT REMEMBER TANSY HOW THIS MORNING YOU WERE ANXIOUS TO WRITE AT ALL AND DIDN"T KNOW IF YOU COULD DO IT #YEAH THIS HAPPENED #Also hello new people writing fanfiction is the tag where I rant about writing. It might be me thinking I'm horrible or somthing like this #r anything really

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bootyful-seventeen · 1 year ago

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i am too mentally exhausted to even deal with this shit anymore with my mom and grandma and low key wish i'd go comatose for a few years to be left alone tbh

#had a clean up service come by to see the damage and give a quote on the estimate and my grandma wasnt having it #she got upset and started crying to them about she has only 1 daughter and is trying to help her and they're trying to tell her that keepin #all that junk isn't gonna be helping anyone especially my mom but she wasn't getting it and i said i'm not helping clean the junk that's #all around the house cuz i'm tired of it all and having to manage my emotions since i am for sure emtotionally stunted from my childhood #and have to deal with a schitzophrenic mom and an absent sister who's balls deep in denial while i'm struggling to find a job here #and my grandma always stressing me ot saying she's gonna kick me out isn't fucking helping here at all like she thinks it does #so when they left she spent all day sobbing on the phone how i'm a terrible granddaughter who wants to throw out good stuff #when i'm not gonna keep helping sell shit for my mom cuz my sister can do it as her family contribution since she did nothing since dad die #and the thing is i gave them all options on clearing shit out cuz i know this family by now and shit doesn't get tossed but it migrates #cuz i said months ago i can ask some friends if they could come down and help sort and declutter #grandma said no to that and said she'll kick me out if i do it and she didn't want to pay for my mom's shit to get moved into a storage uni #she leaves the clean up to my mom and i think the backyard got worse but she didn't call anyone to throw out the junk like she threatened t #so i call a fucking hoarders clean up service cuz that's what my family is on my mom's side at this point and the city will be called too #and she has this reaction cries all day and calls everyone to say i'm horrible and yells at me saying i'm the one killing her with stress #when she's already been doing that for months to herself when i'm just tired and possibly mildly depressed or something idk #i barely leave my room and don't go outside except to walk my dog but idk cuz my family's attittude was we don't go to doctors cuz #cuz they're for crazy people but of course it's gotta switch up for my mom and no one else and i'm just sick of it all #grandma doesn't accept free help and she won't accept help that i pay for myself with my money set aside for school so i'm done #unlike her when i say i'll do something i stick to it so i'm not doing shit anymore unless i can call a friend to help with this mess #it's gonna sound like such a horrible thing but i can't wait for my family to die so i can live in a clean home again and get help #like deep serious help cleaning and big time grief councelling cuz i barely had time to process my dad's death and being the one to find hi #and that was just this february like god i am going to need so much fucking therapy in my future it's almost rediculous #and probably say screw my mom's side and visit my dad's side a lot more since they seem to be the normal ones in this shit family tree #at least they're not stupid and leave junk everywhere where one neighbour getting sick of not being able to sit outside and enjoy their yar #without mountains of junk staring them right in the face and landing a notice from the city to clean up especially since #we have chainlink fences and at least 7 neighbours can see the backyard and everyone can see the front porch when passing by #i'm just tired of living in these suffocating households and even wanna file a report myself to kick them into gear #its horrible living like this and no one should live surrounded by junk and things they never use or even garbage

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milfronin · 1 year ago

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#vent post essay ahead lol #having complexes about talking about your emotions is literally the fucking devil . its miserable. it sucks so bad.#the aamount of damage that is caused to someone by like #i mean im talking abou t me here obviously.#being the person whose like. overall ultimately tends not to feel horrible as often is like.#it's nice not feeling bad emotionally all the time but also it's like. i develop this complex about being like able to help.#i don't feel bad anywhere near as often as my friends so i can help them out and listen to them vent i can have the mental room to #like listen to them talk about their problems. yeah. but it makes me feel like. well this is my job now so i shouldn't fucking talk about m #i shouldnt vent when i feel bad because that's not what i'm known for. plus my friends already all feel worse than me more often than me. s #i don't want to dump any more on their plate than they have to deal with. i don't want to burden them anymore than i have to. and like it's #it's hard. i hate fucking talking about it and it's made so much worse when its like people i love . always been a fucking problem becaus #i just feel fucking horrible admitting that i feel bad i hate that so much. i don't want to like turn away people who care about me but li #i feel like if i tell them what's wrong with me i'll like do it anyways. i feel like i come off as super normal and happy go lucky and like #ostensibly fine. so when i admit this shit its like. oops the facade is cracking!!!!!! uh oh uh oh you can't help people so you feel bad!!!#because your fucking npd has made you feel self centered in a way that means you want to help people or some shit i dont fucking know #and so when i feel bad or get mad over something unreasonable it's like. well i hope i fucking keel over and die or something i dont like .#i don't want people seeing me like this or whatever. and my stupid fucking personality disorder just ruins every god damn thing its so bad.#my past experiences giving me complexes that lead to me feeling fucking left out over like small stupid stuff but god the worst part is lik #my brain categorizing something as being ''My Thing'' so somebody else talks about liking my thing AFTER my brain has designated it mine #makes alarm bells go off and feel like theyre fucking. i don't know encroaaching on my turf or what the fuck ever? it SUCKS ASS #it makes me feel HORRIBLE . and it's like i'm not gonna fucking bring it up because i don't wnt to be like a dick but also it's like well.#i feel fucking miserable about this but it's just like mean and unnecessary and cruel to like stifle people's fucking fun because of my dum #fuckin complexes. it's fucking constant. like oh look at you girl you feel fucking left out because you never get characters who really gri #you mentally and so now you have one but oops! someone else talked about them and now you're seeing red! you like this person though #so you're gonna feel fucking MISERABLE about this . you're gonna feel HORRIBLE because of this. and there's nothing you can fucking do #and it controls my goddamn life and i HATE IT i fucking HATE IT i wish i knew how to fix it. ghghrgurghrughruhg i want to fucking explode #and then you feel bad about feeling bad because you are fucking sisyphus. you're sisyphus. and your own anger is your boulder. you ingrate.#i hate this. i just wanted to have a good day.#jane mary cry one tear

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pupkou · 5 months ago

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i’m literally going to **** ******

#i’ve been without T for a month or so because my doctor forgot to prescribe it again when my last prescription period was over bc she could #only prescribe it a year at a time. so i went in to do bloodwork because ive been having health problems like getting a light period and #PMDD a year and a half into being on T and it happened to be when she was supposed to represcribe which iwas like ok nice!#but she forgot to represcribe it so I was 2 weeks without it before I realized that hmm something probably happened #so I called her and she fixed it. then the pharmacy told me that they're out of stock. so I called them to find out when it'd be in stock.#then they said it's in stock but she prescribed me the 10mL bottle when my insurance doesn't cover that. so I called her again to fix that.#and she said that she didn't prescribe me that because why would she when my shots aren't even close to 1 mL? so I called the pharmacy #and they said yeah idk who said that it's wrong. your T will be ready later today. I go to pick it up and quite literally the moment I pull #up to the window the pharmacists pull down the shade that says they're closed on lunch. so ive had horrible mental health and physical symp #oms for the past month because I've been without t right? so I thought okay when I come back home from moving out of my apt #because my pharmacy is in my hometown; then ill get my T. and then once I get my T I can start my new medication because I want my levels t #stabilize before we introduce something new into the ecosystem. and im cleaning my apartment today and going through bags and shit and lo a #behold? there are four fucking boxes of T sitting in a bag in my closet JUST LIKE I THOUGHT! I JUST COULD NOT FIND THEM so ive been going #through hell for fucking nothing. for literally nothing. and I was like oh my god okay I have my T I should go and pick up my new medicatio #and I go to get my shoes on and look at the clock and it's 5:01. they close at 5.#and I have my appointment with my psychiatrist on Wednesday where shes going to ask me how it's been starting my medication and im going to #have to tell her I havent started and im not better at all and im so new to her im nervous what she will say. sorry for being crazy. im not #good at this or medication. sorry. do you want me to kill myself ill do it in front of you if that would help. AUGHHHHGHHGHGHHHHHHHHHHGGHGH #NONE OF THIS HAD TO HAPPEN. I JUST HAVE SO MUCH SHIT IN MY APARTMENT BECAUSE ITS SO SMALL THAT I COULD NOT FIND PRESCRIPTION MEDICATION #I HATE IT HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LET ME OUTTTTTT (in my brain)

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seilon · 1 year ago

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got another job interview tomorrow. pray 4 me

#it was originally for a busser or server job at a cocktail bar in a luxury hotel but the manager on the phone seemed like she wanted to #interview me for the position of host so. yeah #I’m a little intimidated by that role because I am not the most social person on earth to say the least but. I may be able to get used to it #and I will admit. I am kind of motivated by the pay and tips from being a host. cause holy hell it’s 18 bucks an hour plus tips #and that’s plus tips at a 4 star hotel. where the menu is pretty pricy and the people coming there Well Off.#I didn’t really consider that before but hhhhhhh……………that sure is enticing #hoo boy but anyway. a little nervous about this interview cause I’ve never done a host or server job before #but my conversation with the manager over the phone seemed to go pretty well i think so hey #kibumblabs #oh yeah I also cut my hair short last minute and i can’t tell if that was a horrible idea or not yet #it’s not nearly as finished as I’d want it to be but. here we are I guess #I havent legit cut my own hair (let alone this Much of it) in like. a couple years now I think #I think it looks fine but I’m just hoping I don’t regret it #I know it’ll grow out again eventually but idk #I did this kinda impulsively because of the job interview tomorrow. like I was kinda worried for such a nice place they’d be a little #picky with their appearance preferences and like. I didn’t want it to look like my hair was overgrown and unstyled like it was + most of #the bleached parts are cut off now so it looks a little more sophisticated I guess #but also I’ve been getting a little dysphoric lately because I haven’t been passing despite being almost 2 years on t and I think my hair #being longish wasn’t helping #now you can see my jawline and the haircut is more traditionally masculine and etc so. praying I am not called ma’am or anything at the #store or whatever anymore.

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trainingdummyrabbit · 8 months ago

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i need to attack someone with teeth Very Badly

#tje .. the difficulties :(#piktalk #longtags; apawlogies #make a resume this get a job that learn t drive go to school book an appointment What If I Exploded w The Force Of An Atomic Bomb Rightnow #hey is anyone else seeing this shit. hey anyone else got the horrors on their schedule. hello #its so fucked up. its So fucked up. is anyone seeing this shit.#yknow whats funny tho. the other day i got a ''i heard on t/ktok that laziness isnt actually a thing and it means people just #need help. so im sorry for calling you lazy and let me know what you need to get moving again''#days later ''you have to do hard things sometimes things arent free you cant just cut corners bc youre lazy''#looks directly at the camera and Stares. Hard.#icant make this shit up mybeloveds. somethins real wrong and i sure as hell cant see it so fuck me dude iguess! hell on earth!#anyway isnt it fucked up how feeling anything ever is a fatal character flaw and it means ur horrible + irredeemable. crazy.

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guhara · 8 months ago

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ahreum attempting suicide breaks my heart this is so so sad and the fact her children also got abused by her ex husband i hope she will get through this

#horrible i have no words #im very sensitive about this topic #how i wish i could help everyone who’s struggling #t ara

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tkbrokkoli · 11 months ago

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i can start T today 🥳

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