#that gave me a lot of chrissy vibes

[sugawhaaa]

YEOSANG X READER

Under your spell

{Brithday special Chapter 1/2}

‼️WARNINGS:: suggestive, talk of sexual abuse/assault

💄Pairing::Idol!Yeosang x stripper!fem!reader

👠Genre:: lap dance, flirting, stripping (duh) I think that's it but please notify me if I missed anything :)

💋A/N:: This chapter is one of two. The second chapter will be erm yk actually doing it but this chapter is the layout of the story and where u are etc etc so if you just want to read the smut you can go to chapter 2. Chapter 2 will be posted on Yeosangs birthday because this is a birthday special!!!

There was no doubt that Yeosang's friends were somewhat more sexually active, we'll put it. Yeosang isn't oblivious to sex and he isn't a virgin but when it comes to super kinky things he is still testing the waters. His friends on the other hand were already swallowed by the waters. They've been to many clubs including strip clubs, they've been to sex hotels, sex stores, etc. When Yeosang's birthday rolled around they decided to give him a big surprise, perhaps the biggest you can give a man.

They booked out a personal room in a strip club, picking a specific girl that perfectly matched Yeosang's type of woman. They picked Yeosang up at his house and drove him to the location of his "birthday party" where more of his friends were waiting. Eventually, everyone gathered outside the strip club and Yeosang's face burned red.

"This…this is where my party is at?" He asked in disbelief. San nodded with a smile before hugging him, squeezing him hard.

"You're officially the big 25!" He said as he squeezed the life out of his hyung. He let go of him and smiled.

"Y-Yeah," Yeosang couldn't shake the fact they were at a strip club. His heart was racing. His hyungs led him inside and took him to the front desk. Yeosang pulled at the collar of his shirt, trying to get some air. Seonghwa gave the receptionist the information for their reservation and some staff led them to the private room.

On the way there Yeosang couldn't help but notice the main area of the club. Big groups of guys gathered around a girl on a stage. She barely wore anything except massive heels and he felt the need to look away from the way her body moved.

Finally they were all led to the private room. Soft music played with drinks were placed in a bowl of ice on the side tables. Yeosang didn't know where to go first or what to expect. He just stared at the small stage in the center of the room with a long metal pole, a circular couch around the stage. He bit his lip and one of his hyungs put an arm around his shoulders.

"I know it's a lot at first," hongjoong smiled before taking a sip of his wine. "But trust me you'll love it," he nodded before patting Yeosangs back for reassurance.

"So how does this work exactly?" Yeosang looked up at Hongjoong who definitely had experience at these places.

"There's not much to it. We basically just sit around the woman and watch her dance," Hongjoong shrugs. "It's a little stiff at first but once we start getting into the vibe it's amazing," he smiles at the birthday boy. Yeosang chuckles nervously and runs his hand through his hair.

"Right…" he looks back at the stage.

"C'mon let's go sit, she'll be here soon," Hongjoong takes his hand and leads him to the couch. The two of them sit together and have just a few drinks when you finally make your entrance. You come through the main door and shut it behind yourself. Deep down you're a little nervous, you've never had so many people in a private room with you. Most of your colleagues say the more the merrier, it's more fun when there's multiple people all having a good time but now that you're seeing all these people you're questioning them.

Hongjoong turns back to look at you and he waves kindly. You smile and walk over to him, bending down to his level from behind the couch. Yeosang stiffly turns to look at you as well but as soon as you bend over he can see basically all of your breasts. He instantly flushes and looks back at your face.

"You're the one who was booking this room right?" You ask, trying to be louder than the music without yelling. Hongjoong nods.

"That's me," he smiles before putting a hand on Yeosang's shoulder. "This here is the birthday boy though," Hongjoong chuckles as he pats his shoulder. Your attention is drawn to him and he instantly freezes up. His heart caught in his throat enabling him to speak.

"Oh~ I'll keep that in mind," you smirk and Yeosang chuckles nervously. "What's your name cutie?" You smile as you rest your forearms on the head of the couch.

"Yeosang," he blushes as he looks you up and down again.

"Yeosang," you smile. "Well I hope you enjoy tonight~" you extend your hand out to him and his body shuts down, freezing in place. You stroke some stray hairs out of his face and tuck them behind his ear. The feeling of your fingers on the back of his ear is enough to make his blood rush. You then notice the birthmark under his eye. Your eyes linger on it for a moment. "Is that a scar?" You ask, genuinely curious. Yeosang is still stuck in your trance but once his hyung hits his shoulder he comes to, realizing you asked him a question.

"I-Its a birthmark," he nods with a shy smile. You rub your thumb over the red mark.

"It's so pretty," you smile before coming back down to earth. "Well I suppose you're not here for idle chit chat are ya?" You chuckle and stand up again. You walk over to the stage and instantly all the attention is drawn to you.

You begin your little performance, starting with a little warm up to loosen up your muscles. There were a lot of people at the party so naturally not everyone's eyes were on you which was kind of a nice feeling. But as your dance got more intense and more erotic people started sitting around the stage, cheering and even throwing a bit of cash. You kept an eye on Yeosang. knowing that this was his party, You wanted him to have a good time. He seemed to loosen up a bit throughout the show which was a good start. You decided to turn things up a notch and step away from the poke for a while. You went around to the edge of the stage and interacted with some of the guests. Nothing major but little seductive movements and gently touching them on their shoulders or cheek.

It got the guests quite excited and you could see how much fun they were having now. Finally you got around to Yeosang's side of the stage and you laid down on the stage, making eye contact with him. You swing your legs around and hop off the stage. You stand in front of him before leaning down, rubbing your hands up his thighs.

At first he was star struck from the attention but as you continued to feel him up he started getting into it. You then turned to sit on his lap, grinding your hips against him to the rhythm of the song. You could feel his erection straining against his pants press into your ass. Yeosang tossed his head back and finally put his hands on you. He hesitantly lifted one of his hands up to caress your waist. You turned your head to look at him, he looked purely under your spell as you gazed into each other's eyes. You caress his jawline, guiding his face closer to yours before standing back up again.

You went to the stage and continued your dance. As the end of the party drew near some of the guests began losing interest in your dancing which was honestly okay with you. You can't expect everyone to be constantly drawn to only you, but there was one person who couldn't keep his eyes off of you. Yeosang stayed on the couch the entire time, subtly moving the fabric of his pants to rub on his boner.

Then the lights changed color in the room. The entire time they'd been here the lights were purple and red and now they're green, meaning their time is up. Everyone started packing up and getting ready to leave. Yeosang bit his lip hard before standing up, turning his back to you. You stopped dancing and watch as his band mates come over to talk to him.

"How was that Yeosang!" Mingi wrapped an arm around Yeosang with a bottle of wine in his other hand.

"It was fun," Yeosang smiled softly at Mingi. Mingi's ears were bright red and he looked like he was about to pass out from the amount of alcohol he just drank in the past 2 hours.

"She was so hot," Jongho sighed as he gathered up some of the alcohol they brought. "You're one lucky guy Yeosang," he smiles. Jongho's eyes were also glowing red but he acted far more sober than Mingi. By far the most wasted though was San. His eyes were hazy, his face was pure red, and he kept swaying as he was standing next to Seonghwa and Wooyoung.

"Seriously San you need to be careful," Seonghwa said as he cleaned up his face with a napkin. You notice the state of San and walk over to the three men.

"Is he okay? Do you want a glass of water?" You ask as you place a hand on his shoulder. San let's out a groan as he nods his head. You go back to the stage quickly and retrieve a plastic water bottle from underneath it. You also grab a robe while you're at it. You hurry back over and open the water bottle for San. Wooyoung takes it before helping San take a drink out of it.

You throw your robe on while Seonghwa thanks you.

"Thank you so much," Seonghwa says with a bow.

"Don't worry about it," you chuckle and swish your hand as if to brush off the gratitude from him.

"I think I'm gonna hurl," San mutters out when Wooyoung takes the bottle from his mouth. Wooyoung panics and looks around for a bucket or something. You overhear his words and get a garbage bin from the corner of the room before handing it to him. You turn to look away from San as he vomits into the bin. Seonghwa and Wooyoung join San in the corner comforting him.

"So sorry about that," Hongjoong apologizes with a worried expression.

"Don't worry about it. This happens all the time," you explain as you try to tune out the sound of San puking in the background. Hongjoong keeps apologizing but you keep telling him it's alright. While your talking with Hongjoong Yeosang can't help but stare at you. He keeps looking you up and down, admiring every inch of your body as you talk. "Does he have a safe ride home?" You ask genuinely concerned for all of their health due to the amount of alcohol they all chugged in the past 2 hours.

"Yeah, were waiting for our manager to arrive," hongjoong chuckles embarrassed. "Apparently there's some traffic so we might be here a while," Hongjoong says with an apologetic expression.

"Don't worry about it. Make yourselves comfortable," you smile before heading back over to the couch. "This was my last shift so I'm packing up myself," you explain and the members follow you like ducklings. They're all eager to hang out with a hot stripper after hours. They sit on the couch and go on their phones and talk amongst themselves, except for one member. Yeosang. He's just stuck in a daze and you decide to go up to him. "Is everything alright Yeosang?" You ask warmly and sit next to him on the far side of the couch.

"Y-Yeah, I'm good," he blushes and avoids making eye contact.

"Did my dance earlier bother you? Ever since I did that I've noticed you've been acting differently. I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable," you apologize sincerely with a bow. Yeosang instantly shakes his head and waves his hands around.

"No, no! It was amazing! It's just…" he pauses and looks down. You look at him eager to hear his response. You hold his shaking hand to comfort him.

"What's up?" You ask softly.

The two of you then get interrupted by Hongjoong.

"Alright guys, the vans parked out front,"

Yeosang looks upset as he turns to Hongjoong. You can both sense the chemistry in the air. Yeosang doesn't want to leave and you don't want him to leave either.

"I'll stay back," Yeosang blurts out without thinking. Hongjoong raises an eyebrow at him before seeing him sitting right next to you, your hands interlocked. Hongjoong nods with a wink before rounding up the members. You look into Yeosangs eyes as you hear the members all leave the room, the door slamming shut leaving the two of you alone.

"You were going to say something?" You look at him with alluring eyes. His lips part to speak but nothing comes out. He looks down at his knees. You rub his thigh gently to comfort him. His eyes follow your hands movements, looking at your long slender fingers filled with strength due to your dancing talent.

"I just wanted to say, tonight was an eye opening experience," he starts. His words are cautiously spoken as he takes deep breaths. "I've never been to a place like this. I was honestly a little afraid but," he looks up into your eyes with determination. "I've never felt so connected with a woman before. I-I just want to hang out with you," he admits with red cheeks. "I know it sounds crazy, but I…I feel like I'll regret it if I leave you," he holds your hand tightly. You tilt your head before lifting your hand from his leg, stroking back his hair.

"Honestly, I was going to say the same thing," you smile and he looks at you surprised. "Most men that come in here are rich middle aged men who think they're entitled to everything," you explain as you hold his hand. You can feel Yeosang relax as his breaths slow down. "When someone like you walked in I was so intrigued. You were shy, and respectful. You seemed to truly love me, not just my body," you smiled and his heart skipped about a thousand beats. His face flushes, the compliments circling in his head. "I just needed to learn more about you,"

Yeosangs eyes brighten as he looks at you. He wants to make a move. Pull you close, kiss you, touch you, feel you, anything. He didn't know what to do. He started to speak but he only stuttered over his words. He didn't know what to say.

He felt like he was under your spell.

[dwobbitfromtheshire]

I don't know. I never really been a Mileven endgame shipper. . . Maybe for a hot minute when someone pushed me. I do think it gets a lot of unnecessary hate. I respect it as a ship. The more I think about it, though, I really prefer Henderhop. I love both Dustin and El. They would be adorable together. I've always headcanoned them both as pansexual as well as asexual so there's that.

As I'm thinking about them, I can't help but think about how they give me Hellcheer vibes. It gave me the thought. . .what if they Byers stayed in Hawkins. . . If El and Mike stayed broken up during season 3. What if Suzie had broken up with Dustin? (As much as I love them, the fact that they live so far away is a problem.) Anyway, what if El tries to become a cheerleader? Let's face it, that girl loves the idea of trying to lift people's spirits. Chrissy taking El under her wing and protecting her from the bullies much like Eddie did for Dustin would be awesome. El being the one to make Chrissy realize that she deserves better than Jason and her mother. Chrissy eventually takes Max under her wing as well.

Dustin would feel guilty at first, and of course, there would be drama. They're teenagers in high school who have been through the ringer. . .I expect nothing less. Dustin would feel honor bound not to date his best friend's ex, but then it's Mike reassuring him after getting a little upset. . .because he did love El, but they were really young, and El deserved to explore her options. They both realize that their friendship is stronger than anything that life can throw at them. I really like the idea of Henderhop pushing Hellcheer getting together earlier.

[jovenshires]

🦚 for the queer ask game!

🦚 - Are there any queer books/shows/etc. that you would suggest?

oh my god YEAH absolutely. i used to be a queer media connoisseur (im no longer a romance girlie when i consume media bc i write so much of it but i still have love for the genre). i'll do one rec for each category up here but ill put some more under the cut!!

book: aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe. it's my favorite book i've gotta put it out there. literally changed my life when i was like 16 i love it so much

show: there's so many popular ones that i feel like if you're gay you've already seen them by now, so im gonna throw a curveball and go with crazy ex-girlfriend. they talk a LOT about lgbtq+ identities and explore dynamics with different couples, and if you love musicals, you absolutely must go watch it rn i fear

movie: moonlight. oh my god if you haven't seen moonlight go watch moonlight it's so so incredible 10/10. a drama that follows a black gay man from childhood to adulthood, explores the themes of masculinity, family, and friendship as well as romantic love. it's just an incredible movie it deserves all the hype tbh

music: once again there's so many popular queer musicians nowadays that i Do Not HAVE to rec (you know the ones they go hard), so im gonna rec chrissy chlapecka!! she just makes such incredible, sugary-sweet pop music about such amazing fucked up shit i love her

send me some gay asks!

okie doke as promised here's some more recs from yours truly bc i really, really love media and have a collection to rec atp NDNKFNKND ill try to order them by genre from least to most obscure LMAO

BE WARNED: i do read some graphic stuff - im an adult and my media taste reflects that. before you read anything i rec, look it up for trigger warnings!! i don't want anybody to be hurt by something i recommend. <3

books:

of course like. simon vs the homosapien agenda by becky albertalli is out there. this is one of those classics i was talking about KDNKFNFK it's very ya-gay-romance-romcom you can eat up ya know. the movie's also not too bad (people think it's 'cringey' nowadays but that was HUGE for me when i was like 19 and had my first girlfriend). anyway it's feel-good fluff if you like that kind of thing!!

red white and royal blue is obviously another classic and one i can't rec enough. i love the way its written, i love the characters, i love the plot. like it's everything, if you're into the romcom vibe this is a great one to check out. (and as a bonus this one also has a movie and it Slaps)

it's not like it's a secret by misa sigura is a pretty solid wlw coming-of-age novel that i highly rec if you're into the rom-com type book. it's also got some EXCELLENT poc representation!!

bloom by kevin panetta is a graphic novel and i love it. so so so much. truly i think i read this in a day and i am NOT a huge graphic novel reader. feel-good romcom, poc rep, body diversity, AND pretty pictures. what is there not to love. everyone should read bloom tbh

lies we tell ourselves by robin talley is Probably my favorite wlw book ever. it's historical fiction and it is Everything to me. and im actually a known historical fiction hater so take it from me - its Good.

carry on by rainbow rowell is i think a classic at this point and i love it. so so so much. you ever identify with a character a little too hard. yeah thats me and this book. i gave my best friend a copy for her graduation. it is an Excellent take on 'remember all the heroes you wanted to be gay when you were a kid. imagine if they were.' it's my beloved

a hero at the end of the world by erin claiborne is another great one in the same vein, with a punchy, dry humor twist. basically if you were a harry potter kid but you hate jkr. you'll love this one and carry on KSNDKDNFK

nimona by nd stevenson is another graphic novel!! it's another fantasy, so if that's your cup of tea, i highly recommend it. it's got an amazing queer love story, a genderfluid protag, and most importantly, found family. literally everything. (it also has a movie but i haven't seen it yet

the raven cycle by maggie stiefvater is HUGEEEE i love that series it reshaped me. it's. mystery/supernatural i would say? it has multiple of my fave queer characters of all time and honestly. everyone there is a little gay. one of my absolute faves <3

we are the ants by shaun david hutchinson is a sci-fi horror adventure story and this one. it stuck with me. the main character hit me so hard and his internal struggle is so SO interesting. if you're into this kind of shit. give it a shot!

every day by david levithan is not one of MY all-time faves, but i can still say it's super interesting and has great rep!! it has a genderfluid/agender main character (depending on how you look at it). i will say i think there are multiple books in the series (?) but i stopped at one bc. it made me too sad anyway. <3

the perks of being a wallflower by stephen chbosky is not queer bc it's explicitly about a queer character or a queer love story, BUT. it still has one of my favorite lgbt characters of all time. patrick you will always be famous to me. as a bisexual girl in a catholic high school, saw a Lot of myself in patrick. (i do also have a special place in my heart for the movie bc it was my depression movie as a teen but patrick is played by ezra miller so be warned)

one of us is lying by karen mcmanus is another one that's not just. About a Gay Couple BUT it is one of my fave books (a murder mystery retelling of the breakfast club) and it has a gay main character!! his struggle with his sexuality is something he really struggles with and he has a boyfriend and i adore him.

shows:

i mean obviously like. heartstopper is incredible. like i said im not super into the romcom/young adult genre anymore but that show is just so beautiful and amazing and really healed my inner gay teen. it has a really diverse cast and representation for all kinds. i really recommend it!!!

everything sucks was gone before its time, but it is SUCH an amazing show. it has one of my fave on-screen wlw couples of all time. it's a feel-good, coming of age classic and i miss it deeply. (what did you just say??? 'katie rewatch it' oh my god you're onto something)

now if yall know me. glee is absolutely gonna be on this list. is it good? technically no. is it one of the greatest pieces of satire ever created? up until season three yes. i realized i was gay via santana lopez. THE gay character of all time. and all the love in my heart for all the other lgbt characters (kurt hummel you will always be famous to me......) some of it's a little dated (don't get me STARTED on unique) but it does genuinely have some great lgbt rep and if you watch it with a grain of salt it's a great comedy

julie and the phantoms made by kenny ortega (of THE high school musical and descendants fame) and it has a gay character i love!! (actually technically it has a few <3)

i'm a huge consumer of kids' media (i think phineas and ferb is a literal masterpiece and im not even kidding) so if you're like me and enjoy the disney/kid show beat i cannot rec andi mack enough. it's dramatic it's campy it's fun it's silly it's got a FANTASTIC gay character and a gay couple i deeply adore and not to mention!! so much representation!! it's like junior fosters tbh

we're gonna get into a little pocket here of like. normal romance but slightly niche - animes! sasaki to miyano is like my top lgbt anime rec. it is so, SO good. just absolute feel-good romcom goodness pls give it a shot

depending on interpretation, ouran high school host club arguably has a nonbinary character, some bi/gay characters, and a trans character! now. it IS hella dated do not get me wrong. BUT for the time? incredibly progressive and a wonderful watch. just brace yourself for some out of pocket shit

stars align has one of my favorite lgbt characters EVER, a nonbinary icon <3 and it's like. a PLOT. truly so rare to see something like that done on tv, let alone in anime. this is a sports anime - soft tennis my beloved - but it has So Much More To It than that.

another gay sports anime is run with the wind, a recent fave of mine. and i don't mean gay in the way that most sports animes are kinda gay. i mean he literally says 'im in love with this guy.' it's an amazing watch if you like that kinda thing!!

if you want an aroace genderfluid protag. the disastrous life of saiki k is up there as one of my fave animes ever AND saiki (the main character) is my fave protag of all time. this silly lil show is supernatural (ish?) and comedy all wrapped into one fantastic show i highly recommend!!

segueing back into live action shows, buffy the vampire slayer is an AMAZING, iconic, female-led supernatural dramedy with some early and, for its time, incredible lesbian rep.

yellowjackets because i LOVE unhinged lesbians. i didn't even know there was gay people in this - i started watching because i love horror and girls' soccer DLNKFNFLN and it's amazing!! if you like tragic gay women i HIGHLY endorse yellowjackets.

in the flesh. look. here's my pitch for itf. do you love being sad. do you love catharsis. do you love zombies. you will LOVE in the flesh. please. i miss it so bad i've seen this show 4 times (and you're right i should also watch this one again!!!) and i never tire of it.

sense8 is a sci-fi show and IT IS EVERYTHING TO ME. truly the diversity is unparalleled. so many lgbt characters of so many different identities. polyamory, trans people, a neuro-link that's destroying peoples' lives. it literally has everything.

the get down is not just an lgbt show, BUT it has an incredible lgbt character/storyline that i adore. a musical show, a historical fiction piece (which means a lot coming from me), and almost every character is a poc. pls give it a shot it's everything

bodies is another one that isn't just about lgbt+ rep BUT. it's incredibly diverse, examining people facing discrimination throughout history (you've got a gay mc, a jewish mc, a muslim mc, AND a disabled mc) and it just has such amazing plot lines and representation. it's a murder mystery/sci-fi double whammy, so give it a shot if you're interested!!

movies:

alex strangelove is a good, underrated, coming of age classic. it follows a guy who struggles with his sexuality. very teen rom-com-dramedy core!!

i adored boy meets girl when i watched it. a very romcom-y movie about a trans woman from a small town dreaming of getting out....... friends to lovers.......... i adore it

happiest season is a christmas movie and it's very sweet. its been panned (there are some just criticisms on the plot tbf) BUT i do think it's really cute

to wong fu thanks for everything julie newmar is just. so so good. it's an underrated classic imo. three drag queens go on road trip, end up in a small town, and change it for the better. it's literally so amazing it's just feel good found family PLEASE give this one a shot

the birdcage is another classic i so genuinely enjoy. who doesn't want robin williams and nathan lane as their gay dads. at the end of the day it's all about found family, love, and old gay men.

handsome devil is a foreign film - irish to be exact! - and i love it so much. once again as a catholic school kid.......... yeah. YEAH. anyway go watch the og gay nicholas galitzine movie LKNDKFNKNLFNKLF

pride is a historical piece and an excellent movie. it's got its ups and downs but god it's just an overall good movie. another irish film, coincidentally!

the way he looks is also a foreign film, this time in spanish, BUTTTTT it's one of my faves i love it so much. it's very feel-good, sweet, romcom so if you feel like you could be into that - give it a shot!!

rent, if you're into musicals, has some of my fave musical characters ever. angel dumott schunard you will ALWAYS be the love of my life. it is deeply sad but. other than that. i live in denial.

the prom is a much more light-hearted and silly lgbt musical. people shat on that movie but i think it's SWEET and cute and has some bangers!!

i mean like. we can joke ab how hyped it is all we want but brokeback mountain is basically required gay watching. it is EXACTLY as amazing as everyone says it is. the chemistry..... oh my god we could never make that movie again it was like catching lightning in a bottle.

bodies, bodies, bodies is a fun and campy lgbt horror if you're into that kind of thing!! the ending was a bit not my fave but otherwise it's an incredible cast and got some great silly scares

on the topic of gay horror, jennifer's body is gay and again, exactly as good as everyone hypes it up to be. you want gay women who are terrible to each other? oh boy do i have the movie for you

and i promise ill wrap on gay horror with it chapters 1 & 2. reddie will unfortunately always be famous.

everything, everywhere, all at once is not Just a gay movie BUT. it has an incredible gay character and it factors so interestingly into the mother/daughter relationship. i love that movie i will always talk about it

music (these are all just people i personally listen to but there are SO many more. im not gonna expand on these ones too much just go check em out you'll get it):

lil nas x

troye sivan

kim petras

kesha

tegan and sara

brandi carlile

hayley kiyoko

rina sawayama

peach prc

renee rapp

adam lambert

scene queen

willow

halsey

clairo

cavetown

janelle monae

[violetnatilly]

I was listening to a very particular song, that gave me this idea bunny for an HG fic!

Has anyone ever written an HG fic, where both of them are dating in secret (out to their closest friends), but Papa Harrington put ultimatum for Steve to marry and get the company and keep Harrington name relevant and Steve chooses to marry instead run away with Billy. It was 80's, rich gay men were more likely to marry women for family, to appease the society.

Billy, heartbroken, chooses to move away from Hawkins and join Eddie & Chrissy on Eddie's trip tour/trip to cali to get big.

Billy writes a song (he is a author/poet for me) that he never intends to do anything with but Eddie finds and convinces him to let Eddie use it. Eddie produces the song, while Chrissy sings it along with Eddie, and puts up in his latest album, that has all the metal songs, a totally different vibe, lyrics and singer.

That song ends up becoming the number 1 from the whole album, brining Eddie a lot of fame and attention. Billy asks not to be credited for writing, and Eddie keeps the name of the writer blank.

The song becomes famous, that one day while driving his kids, Steve hears it on radio and instantly recognizes Chrissy's voice. He has a gut feeling who has written the song, he tries to find the writer, but Eddie has blanked the name. The song ends up becoming something so personal to Steve, it brings in a lot of memories and pain.

[thatgirlwithasquid]

tag game: stranger things edition 👻

tagged by @ratbastardbilly and @intothedysphoria (ty guys xx)

1. ride or die ship (your otp): CUNNINGWAY!!! They’re my girls. Chrissy and Heather my beloveds. I have never been so hyped for a ship before and this is the first time I’ve put this much effort into one, but if I don’t advocate for this rarepair then who will? (the answer is bambi. bambi will. but whatever, you get the point)

2. most annoying ship: there isn’t really a ship i find WHOLLY annoying. stancy maybe. i also think jancy and mileven have ran their course and jopper gives me a lil bit of the ick. obvi no hate to the ships or those that ship it!!

3. second favourite ship: ima have to say harringrove, but there are others i like a lot too!!

4. favourite platonic relationship: heather, chrissy & billy. the chaos trio. more should be done with them <3

5. underrated ship: there are so many!! argyle/chrissy (which i am lovingly referring to as pompompinapple, just try and stop me)? byergrove (billy/jonathan)? calicheer (billy/chrissy)??? how can i possibly choose????

6. overrated ship: uhhhh this feels dangerous. but steddie. dont get me wrong, i love this ship, but the boom in works for them was INSANE cause i dont think they have TOO MUCH chemistry in canon (tho there 100% is a good bit and it makes sense)

7. one thing i would change in canon: the blatant lack of care the main cast have for characters outside their group. no empathy for billy, barely anyone looking into heather, characters dying that no one mentions again…

8. something canon did right: I really liked steve and dustin’s dynamic. like, a LOT. they cocked it up a bit in s4 for the sake of ‘haha, dumb steve’ but yeah. theyre sweet :)

9. a thing i’m proud of creating for the fandom: my sideblog @poolsidepanic . i know that its a niche ship but i hope i help other people who love them as much as me actually be able to enjoy their ship and not just… be disappointed when they come up empty handed. the art and little fics and such i make over there make me so happy <3

10. a character who is perfect to me (wouldnt change a thing): heather. sassy, bitchy, yet kindhearted lifeguard? yes. the only thing id change is the DISSERVICE THE DUFFERS GAVE HER WHEN THEY KILLED HER AND IGNORED HER EXISTENCE.

11. the character i relate most to the most and why: steve. just how he responds to the offhanded comments the people he cares about make to him, that they never seem to realise hurt.

12. character i hate most and why: neil, karen, brenner. no explanation needed

13. something ive learned from the fandom: idk. ive always wanted to be a positive person but seeing some of the toxicity in the fandom has made me really want to keep my little blog as positive and safe as i can for everyone. some things we see SUCK but if i can make someones day a lil better id like to? so not really a learn but an encouragement to be nicer wherever i can

14. three tags i seek out on ao3: i dont read a lot of st fanfiction, actually. i havent been in the mood for it for AGES!! but in general im a slow burn, hurt/comfort, angst kind of person. i love the occasional, agonising right person not enough time or some character bashing for the sake of compelling suffering (if done right!!!)

15. a song i strongly associate with my otp/favourite character: ooooh fun!!! ‘Groan’, ‘Wet’ and ‘Maggot’ by Dazey and the Scouts are so Billy. ‘Drunk Walk Home’ by Mitski gives me Chrissy vibes, and ‘Maggot’ again for her tbh (billy and chrissy, my sad beloved blorbos). there arent any songs i associate with cunningway yet tho 😔

tagging: @bigdumbbambieyes @hargrove-mayfields @billyhargrovesupsidedownshadow @every-dayiwakeup and anyone else interested in sharing :)

[pearlypairings]

I am curious to know what haircheer is all about!

ahh it's my own ship name for steve x chrissy lol. while hellcheer is always superior, I've been intrigued by how Chrissy would change in these different relationships (never Jason xP).

In that WIP, it's a long fic essentially where Steve's dad won't pay for all his college tuition and despite working, he desperately needs a scholarship. Recruits haven't offered him anything for basketball, those are extremely competitive. But Robin and him overhear that a senior cheerleader lost her scholarship after an injury, and she convinces him it'll be easier to win that scholarship (with Chrissy's help).

Here's a little unedited teaser:

"Steve?" He winced."Yeah, sorry I'm here." "Jason said you were on another run today by his house."  "Yeah..."  "I run a lot too. Usually when I'm stressed."  Her small voice offered a little more consolation, propping up his purpose and soothing his angst by the sweetened tone. "Yeah?” Steve twirled the cord, tilting his head to stare off at the stupid abstract painting with kindergarten splatters of black and cream. “Does it work for you? There’s been a lot on my mind lately." "Not really. Is it just art class bothering you or…" She trailed off. Steve considered her question, she was giving him an easy-in to talk about the tryouts, but how did she know there was more to this conversation. She was so perceptive even over the phone. "Being a senior can be a real pain in my ass." He finally gave up. There was a gasp on the other side of the line, followed by a resigned sigh. "Well, being a junior makes me want to scream."  "You'll never guess the real reason why I wanted to call you."  Her side was silent, not even a breath. Oh shit, he fucked up. She must have thought he’s coming onto her, after he’d just told her he wouldn’t. He scrambled with the receiver. "I, uh, I want to join the Hawkins cheer squad." Smooth, Harrington, smooth. It was absolute silence.

It gives romcom vibes with him trying to learn how to be a base cheerleader and participate in stunts where he has to throw her. And of course , he starts to see how Jason isn't always very kind to her outside of games.

~ choose another wip title from this post <3

[believe-that-you-can-my-friend]

¬a chrissy lives au

Vecna's attack leaves Chrissy a heaving mess on the floor of Eddie's trailer, Uptown Girl the soundtrack of the most horrific scene Eddie, an enthusiastic horror cinephile, ever witnessed. Somebody - something - is targeting her, she tries to explain between ugly sobs and it's the second time in a day that Chrissy Cunningham is in need of his help. He offers her a place to go into hiding, Reefer Rick's abandoned lake house, gives her a change of clothes, drives her there and stays all night by her side, keeping watch, holding her hand, meticulously rewinding and replaying a Billy Joel cassette, because it gives her a weird sense of safety.

A picture of her - cheerleading uniform, high ponytail, good girl smile - is being broadcasted on the Breaking News segment on the muted TV the next morning, the words "captain of the cheerleading squad goes missing" in bold letters at the bottom. Henderson is the one who finds them, along with Steve Harrington of all people and a girl from band, Robin. The fourth member of this unorthodox team, Max Mayfield, Eddie's neighbor, says she saw them last night bolting out of his trailer in concerning alarm and, after the news of Chrissy's disappearance, they needed to investigate. When the four of them finally leave, Chrissy and Eddie are still trying to wrap up their heads around the unfathomable things they learned about Hawkins. They are both hiding now, for different reasons; Chrissy in 'near-victim' protection, as Robin cleverly stated, and Eddie just in case somebody else apart from Max saw them together and connected the dots wrongly.

The following morning, a picture of him - Hellfire Club t-shirt, untamed mane, face pulled in a dark scowl - accompanies hers on the morning news, the words "cheerleader sacrificed in a satanic ritual?" in bold letters at the bottom. Eddie turns off the TV the moment she walks into the living room. When the four-member party arrive later that evening for a much needed food delivery, they inform him that some jocks testified that they saw Chrissy get into his van after the game. Police are searching for him, the whole town is sharpening pitchforks to hunt the 'freak'. Later, when Chrissy unlocks herself out of the bathroom, having overheard the hushed conversation, she finds him curled up on the couch, defeated and forlorn, glistering eyes focused on the harsh light of a lantern.

She tells him that he treated her with more kindness than she's ever wished for and she's been so care-starved to the point that now she's taking advantage of his decent human behavior. But they're mere acquaintances - not friends or even more, too carried away by the make-believe sanctuary they build these last couple of days - and it's not fair for him to be treated this way because she is afraid to face her problems on her own. So, she's going to leave, first thing in the morning. Clear his name and then fight her battles. Let him live his life peacefully and take her own in her hands. Eddie doesn't get to object or voice a different opinion. He just stands there, beating himself up for being, once more, a helpless coward, as she watches her walk away.

She doesn't get far. A pair of headlights illuminate the dimly lit room, then tires squeak to an abrupt stop. They both freeze, eyes connecting in the dark in silent alarm. From the outside, Jason's voice echoes viciously through the night.

"Alright, let's capture us a freak!"

[doverstar]

Do you think we'll have Eddie next season? Personally, I think he will be in season 5, BUT not like everyone is expecting. They gave Dustin a trauma, so they have to work on it. Maybe Eddie will be a Billy 2.0, which means we'll have a lot of flashbacks OR maybe Vecna ​​will play with Dustin's mind, idk.

Hiiii! Thank you for caring about my opinion; I do enjoy talking about Stuff.

Okay, SO. Based on several interviews, written and recorded, with several people in the cast/crew of the show, plus the writers' actions in the past, plus everything the Duffers have said lately:

To my extreme regret and misery, my opinion is that they totally will not be bringing Eddie back. Not officially.

The Duffers have said that Eddie was always gonna die. That there was no scenario in which the people of Hawkins would not be out for his blood once Chrissy had died in his trailer. That the only logical outcome for the character was always that he'd die. Like. They wrote him to kill him off. And I get the vibe that Eddie wasn't written as that lovable a character until Mr. Quinn interpreted him a certain way.

I think that if he makes a reappearance at all, yeah, I agree with you that they'd probably do it in a Dustin-trauma-Billy-2.0 thing.

I don't think for one second that they're bringing Eddie back. If they did, it would be pure fanservice at this point, because they never intended for him to survive. Crew members have publicly said they understand that we love him and they hear us, and they loved him too. Someone made a freaking corn field design of Eddie's face. Metallica gave the actor a replica of Eddie's guitar. METALLICA. It's not like the show crew/creators are unaware of the love.

So to me, I think if they brought him back in S5, it would be just because they want to capitalize on the love we have for Eddie. And when stories pander to fans instead of just doing what the writers originally intended, or what the writers would have done without the fan influence, stories usually suffer. Cuz when all's said and done, successful show writers are successful for a reason. If they change their plans for fans, the story's direction could change, or they'd add/take away to it and it might not flow as smoothly. If they brought Eddie back, we'd all be happy for that first viewing, but later on I think it might prove itself to be bad story-wise. Like, what, Eddie's randomly there? Eleven suddenly revives him after he's been decomposing in the Upside Down? We still don't understand how she was literally able to jumpstart Max's body after she clinically died. Dusting 001 into an alternate dimension out of nowhereis pretty insane for a super-powered kid to do, though, so hey, maybe she can fully resurrect the dead. Regardless of the dead's loss of blood, ruptured vital organs, many holes in his actual flesh from where demonic bats ate him alive. We've suspended our disbelief far enough in the past; what's a little more? (I'm only being 30% facetious; I am all for El bringing Eddie back to life.)

I think the story would suffer especially if he's a vampire, which I 100% believe will not happen. It's such a cool headcanon for him to mirror the story of Kas in D&D lore, in a way, but. It doesn't. Work? For the show's lore/established expectations? I can elaborate later if you want! But I love all the fan creativity surrounding the Kas Theory; the idea of Eddie as a vampire? hamana hamana hamana-

Basically, they'd have to jump through a lot of hoops to make it make sense. It's not fair he died, but they could give us closure in other ways. (I don't want the other ways. I throw them across the room like a toddler with mashed peas. I spit in the Duffers' general direction.) I think they'll prove to the town that Eddie was innocent all along. The best way (in my humble, unpublished, un-famous-show-writer opinion) for them to do that would be to let all of Hawkins see that they've been dealing with a very-real alternate dimension for years now, and that that's what was killing people, and that Eddie actually died helping to try and stop this dimension and its creatures from hurting the town.

They could do a lot of things to fix Eddie's story, though. My leading, super-vague theory would be that the Upside Down is clearly wonky time-wise. Time froze there the day Will disappeared, right? So - ehh, this implies time can be manipulated in that dimension (I think). I'm no sci-fi expert or anything, I have no idea what I'm talking about- 

And if time can be manipulated, maybe Vecna's manipulating it? Which means that El, who has the same abilities as Vecna, can also manipulate it. So my biggest theory right now is that she turns back time in the Upside Down, so that whoever died in the UD is rewound so that they're not dead (Barb, Eddie, etc.). In fact, one idea I've thought they might do for the show's finale is that El uses her powers to completely reverse everything that happened in the Upside Down since the moment 001 became Vecna. And maybe no one remembers its influence on Hawkins (or maybe only the Party does, and the victims). That's the only way I can see them bringing Eddie back, if it's not flashbacks or Vecna visions.

Thanks for the ask!

[boltcuttersfetched-archive]

Do you have any ‘controvesial’ ST opinions?

hmmm …….i don’t know if they count as controversial but here are some of my takes!!

i don’t really care who mike ends up with. i truly could not care less. i have other parts of the plot that i’m worried about.

season 2 is objectively the best season but season 3 is my favorite because it’s pure unrestrained summer fun!!

the chrissy wake up meme was never funny. it drives me CRAZY.

i think eddie and chrissy could’ve had a cute friendship and i would’ve liked to see that. but i don’t really understand shipping them. eddie just gave me such flaming homosexual vibes from his first entrance that like. i mentally cannot compute him being with a woman PERSONALLY. but i’m not gonna hate on people who read him as bi because literally it has no effect on my life whatsoever.

stancy is acceptable but ONLY as a divorced t4t couple. jancy is nice and will probably be endgame and i’ll be fine with that. but i really only care for ronance out of the three.

i feel like eddie’s actual characterization gets lost in the shuffle a bit. i think more casual fans are sort of losing the point of him? like yes, hot metalhead etc. etc. but he’s also a nerd, and poor, and a stoner/dealer and all of those things are not only OKAY but are vital parts of his character that i feel like are being erased. also like….a lot of the people who are thirsting over him would’ve bullied him in high school lol

the duffers are usually really good at creating group dynamics but season 4 just felt so CLUTTERED with too many plot lines.

[ramp-it-up]

Cuddle Buddies

Pairing: Roommate! Rafael Casal x Reader

Word Count: 2.4k

Warnings: Minors DNI, RPF, angst, cursing, pining, jealousy, suggestive language, butt slapping, fluff! No smut!  All errors my own. I apologize if you like the smell of patchouli, lol.

A/N: This is an answer to the following ask from @teatro-dira :

Okay so I don't know if this is kinda weird but like an Rafael x reader were they are like really cuddly(like a lot of hugs, cuddling and stuff) friends and roommates and everyone teases them asking them if they're dating. Then Rafael gets a girlfriend which makes y/n lowkey feel betrayed and jealous, but he doesn't realize that. Y/n accidentally ruins their relationship(you chose how). They get into a fight, but it ends in fluff. Hope you understand what I mean:)

Here it goes! I hope you like it!

———-

A series of unfortunate events led you to this situation six months ago.

You were subletting Rafael’s apartment in Santa Monica when production wrapped a month early on his project in Vancouver. He had nowhere to go, and neither did you, so you agreed to share the space.

You vibed, almost as much as he and Daveed did. Folks began to call you the fourth Muskateer, for as much as you, Rafa, Daveed and his girl were always together. 

You all talked, smoked, and created together. You and Rafa especially were always all over each other, keeping each other warm under blankets on the couch, watching movies while you ran your fingers through his hair, in one or another’s bed watching videos, or writing in tandem. 

It was all good, cause Rafa was being a man-whore at the moment with several ladies, and you were just chilling. It was dope. 

Almost.

It would have been all the way dope, except...

Except for the fact that you were in love with Rafa.

You loved sharing the same space with him, because you could smell him when he just got out of the shower, play in his silky hair, and feel his strong arms around you. And when he wore grey sweats…. Damn.  You and your little bullet celebrated every time that happened.

Everyone could tell, except for Rafael.  People ragged on you two so hard, that you vehemently denied it every time, to the point of getting heated.

One night, you side eyed the teaser through a cloud of smoke after catching Rafa’s grimace when they said you two should get together.  Your mood sank at what you perceived was rejection.

“I would NEVER get with Rafa, that’s the homie.  He’s like a brother to me. Ugh. Getting with my brother? No way. We’re just Cuddle Buddies.”

Rafa blinked and then took a toke.

“Exactly, we the homies. Platonic Ride or Dies.  It’ll never happen.”  He passed what he was holding and then stood up. “Cuddle Buddies till the end.”  He sounded disgusted.

“I’m going to go get some food. I’m hungry. What does everyone want?”  After everyone yelled out their orders, you offered to come with.

“Nah, sis.  I’m good.  Gonna clear my head. I’ll be back soon.  Rafa peaced out and you sat back down with the crew.

-------

Ever since that night, Rafa seemed a little distant.  He was always busy, and never had time to sit and kick it with you the last couple of weeks.  You all never seemed to link.

One night, he was home when you came in with groceries.

“Oh shit, I didn’t know that you’d be here!” You put the groceries down on the counter while Rafa was at the stove, cooking up some pasta with marina.

“Mmmmmm. Smells good!” You went and stood very close to him, expecting him to give you a side hug, at least.

He just turned and glanced at you, a smirk lifting one side of his face.

“Will you never learn to keep an umbrella in the car? You always come in soaking wet from the rain.”

Here he was, shaking his head that you didn’t have enough sense to come in out of the rain.  How could this talented genius ever want to be with you?

You just played it off, as usual. “I’m starving. I didn’t think I would make it through cooking, but you’re always clutch, Rafa!” 

Rafa stood there and gaped at you.

“Uhhhhh… I thought you said you were driving down to the Vista to see your mom… I have someone coming over for dinner....”

“No.  She’s decided to go on a cruise to Cabo with her bestie… she just called and told me as she was boarding the ship this afternoon.  The hussy. Tryna be fast with her little friends.”  You laughed.

“So, who’s coming over?  UTK? Wayne? Jimmy?”

You jumped up on the counter and watched as Rafa put some french bread with butter and garlic in the oven.  Smelled like heaven.  Those guys would definitely invite you to stay.

Rafa wiped his hands on the towel that was hanging on the stove. And turned around to face you.

“Her name is Aurora.”

It was like he’d punched you in the gut. He’d NEVER brought one of his heauxes around. You fought the urge to double over, even though you felt nauseous.  When you looked at him, he looked concerned.

“Hey, you okay?”

You jumped down from the counter and quickly nodded your head, laughing weakly.  

“I...uh.. Yeah.  Like I said, I haven’t eaten since breakfast, expecting to be at dinner with my moms by now.”

You grabbed your groceries, putting them up quickly and grabbed an apple, taking it to your room.

“I’m going to get out of your way in a minute, I’ll go over to Carla’s and hang with her tonight. We’ll probably go out and do what we do, you know?”

Rafa still looked worried.

“Are you sure you’re ok? You need more than an apple. Look, stay…”

“NO!”  Your voice was raised and it startled you.  “I mean, I’m not one to be a cock blocker.  I’ll just get my stuff and get ready to go.”

Rafa just watched as you scurried into your room. Why did you feel like crying?  Why did you feel as if you would never breathe properly again?  You got out your phone and called Carla.

20 minutes later, you exited your room dressed for the club with your overnight bag.  There was a strange smell in the room, and it wasn’t pasta.  It was patchouli.  You HATED patchouli.

You didn’t realize you were giving the gas face until Rafa came out of the kitchen followed by a short, but cute woman, with a body like, whoa. 

Of course.

Rafa glared at you and you fixed your face.  That bestie telepathy was on point. Then he looked up and down, as if he were judging your freakum dress.  Well, fuck him.

“Oh, hey!  Y/N, this is Aurora.  Aurora, Y/N.”

Aurora ignored your outstretched hand and went in for a hug. 

“Y/N!  I’ve heard so much about you that I feel like I know you intimately, just like Rafael.”  

You tried to keep your face straight in reaction to her scent, then gave her a sideye. 

Was it the inept way she rolled the ‘R’ in Rafael, or the thinly veiled shot at your relationship? Either way, you felt like slapping the shit out of her. You looked at Rafa, but then just cleared your throat.

“And I’ve heard so much about you as well.  You’re all Rafa talks about.” He shook his head behind her.  “Nice to meet you, but I’m headed out for the night.”

It was then that Aurora saw your bag and brightened up.  

“Oh!  You do look nice. Are you leaving, you sure you don’t want to stay?”  

You could smell insincerity a mile away. Even patchouli couldn’t cover that up. You just smiled at her.  

“No ma’am.  I’ve got places to see and people to do.”  You winked at them as you walked out of the door, holding up your umbrella.  “Stay dry y’all.”

You made it out the door without crying of jack slapping that little bitch or Rafa.  You were winning.  

But why did it feel like you’d lost everything?

-----

You and Rafa successfully avoided one another for days.  He was either over Aurora’s or you were with Carla, your mom, or just stayed in your room.

One time you passed Rafa and Aurora on the couch watching a movie on your way to the kitchen to get something to eat.  Rafa’s head was in her lap.

You stopped dead in your tracks when you heard Rafa’s slightly raised voice say: “Don't’ mess with the swoop, Babe.”

‘Babe.’ He called her Babe. That’s it. It was time for you to go. 

You were cramping Rafa’s style.  You just tiptoed back in your room, making little to no noise so that they could watch the movie in peace. You didn’t see Rafa looking at your door after you went in.

----

A week later, you let Rafa know your move out date.

“Wait. What?”

Rafa’s mouth was open. You repeated yourself.

“Well, I’m going to move in with Carla. She’s going to let me ride her couch until this other place comes open in three weeks. It’s a sweet deal, near the studio….”

Rafa’s mind was racing, you could see the gears turning.

“Well… why don’t you just stay here until then, we got a good thing going.” He looked upset. What was up with him?

“Rafa… I’m just in the way.  You’ve got Aurora…”

“Hold up, wait.  We aren’t even that serious.  I mean, I just stopped seeing Bev and Chrissy. He looked at his watch. Last week.”

You laughed at Rafa’s fuckboi ways.  “Well, what about me? I might want to date someone and bring them over…”

Rafa’s face changed.

“Bring someone over here…”

But it didn’t sound like an invitation, it sounded like a threat.  

It was your turn to stare at Rafa.  “What the hell…?”

He straightened up.  “I mean, any of your guests are welcome here.”

You sighed and shook your head. 

“See what I mean? Things are getting tense, I want us to stay friends, not be tight with each other all the time.”

Rafa grinned.  “You said ‘tight.’”  He dodged a couch pillow thrown at his head.

“What are you, a 12 year old?”  You were rolling.  He really was one of your best friends.  But you needed space to get over yourself.  And him.

“Okay.  You grown.  But just know that you don’t have to go.  And know that I will miss the hell out of you.”  

Rafa came over to hug you, and he held you longer than normal, and then kissed the top of your head.  You looked up at him, still in his arms and it was like…

You cleared your throat.  “Well, I guess I better go start to pack.”

Rafa stepped back.  “Ok.”

Both of you hurried to your perspective rooms.

-----

One night, a couple of days later, Rafael came into your room without knocking.

“What did you say to Aurora?”

You were laying on your stomach on your phone, in just your t-shirt an panties.  You rolled over and looked at him. 

“What are you talking about?”

Rafa wasn’t yelling, but he was keyed up.

“What did you tell her the last time you talked?”

You put your head down to think, then brought it back up. 

“I just said that I was going to miss playing in your hair when we watched movies, that I knew it was your favorite thing.”

Rafa nodded, then shook his head.  

“Y/N, you’re the only one I let touch my hair.  Aurora has barely been allowed near it.”

“That’s…. New.”  You were perplexed.

“No it isn’t. Everyone knows I don’t like people messing with my hair.  Aurora accused me of having feelings for you.”

You were sitting up now, crossing your arms and standing before Rafa.

“That’s ridiculous.”

Rafa looked like he was about to explode. He threw his hands up in the air and walked out of your room.

“OF COURSE IT IS! RIDICULOUS!”  He was really agitated.

“Yeah, I know all too well that you think it's ridiculous for me to want to be with you.  I don’t know what makes you think I’m not good enough for you?”

“Good enough for ME?  You’re the one running around with all the model/actress types, you’re the one who thinks I’m beneath you.  You said so that one night when you said we were ‘Platonic Ride or Dies.’”

“Here we go! Total distortion! Did you hear what you said before I said that?  You said I was like your brother.  Your brother.  You think it’s that disgusting to be with me.”

“I just said that because you made a face when what’s her face said we should be together.”

“I made that face because I was imagining fucking your brains out.  It was probably my cum face.”

You stopped and stared at him, mouth hinged open.

“The fuck?”  You burst out laughing.  “You are mad outta pocket Rafa.” Rafa was rolling too.  “But you ain’t gotta lie.”

Rafa stopped laughing.  

“Why do you think I’m lying?”

He was moving closer to you. This felt… dangerous. He looked up and down your body, and it was the first time you felt uncomfortable being comfortable around Rafa.

“Because you told me that you wanted to just be Cuddle Buddies a month after you came back from Canada. You drew a line in the sand.”

Rafa shook his head at you and smiled, green-blue eyes twinkling. 

“I knew you were too zooted.  I shouldn’t have tried to shoot my shot.”

“Run that back for me?”  You couldn’t believe what he was saying right now.

“What I said was..I wanted to be Cuddie buddies. Cuddie is… you know…”  

He pointed to your crotch.

You looked down, and then up at him again. “I can’t with you Rafa….” 

Rafa tilted his head in that sexy way at you. 

“Can you really not?” 

You were stunned.  Rafa continued.

“But I’m serious. When you came back with ‘Cuddle Buddies,’ I thought you were blowing me off and just wanted to be friends. So, I just settled into the friend zone.”

“Do you mean you’re attracted to me? Rafa, that’s funny as hell. You want me for my body?”

Rafa raised his eyebrows at you. “Hell yeah. C’mon girl. You know you’re fine.” 

Your cheeks heated up. You stared at him for what must have been a solid minute.  The possibilities of this alternate reality where Rafa liked you like you liked him opened up.

“But, Rafa... I don’t wanna be just cuddie buddies.”

“Oh. Ok, Cool….” Rafa cleared his throat and looked everywhere but at you.

“I want your heart.” 

Rafa paused when he heard that and his face fell as he moved toward you.  He took your arms in his hands.

“Y/N I'm sorry, I can't give you my heart.”

It was your turn to pick up your face.

“’Cause you already have it.” 

His mischievous grin made your stomach flip.  But you were mad.

“Fuck you, Rafa.” You were laughing with happiness, despite him playing too much.

“Oh, you don’t have to tell me twice.” Rafa swooped down and threw you over his shoulder. “I’ve been waiting six months for that invitation.”  

You were trying to kick and scream. 

Raa swatted you on the ass, then smoothed his hand over the cheek that stung.

“The more you struggle, the more you’ll be begging me to stop in a few.”

You struggled some more, but he made it to your bedroom and deposited you on the bed.  He glared down at you, all sexy green-eyed god.

“Try me, Y/N.”

You reached for the drawstring on his sweats.

“If you insist, Rafael.”

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[vitaegratis]

vcnusians​:

         deana’s  in  a  good  place,  not  feeling  like  anything  too  embarrassing  happened  to  her.  as  long  as  their  dynamic  doesn’t  shift  into  some  weird  pity  thing,  she  likes  the  way  it  is  and  she’s  grateful.  it  doesn’t  surprise  her  to  hear  eddie  describe  her  as  a  ‘challenge’,  most  people  do.  taking  social  cues  from  others  and  the  issues  she  had  with  her  peers  at  her  last  school  before  hawkins  and  even  on  her  first  few  days,  she  had  cultivated  the  moody,  enigmatic  persona  and  gotten  used  to  solitude.  she  stopped  engaging  with  people  and  chose  not  to  because  interacting  with  people  who’d  just  call  her  a  freak  for  the  way  she  dressed  or  her  interests  was  a  lost  cause.  she  didn’t  want  to  associate  with  their  kind  anyway,  eddie  was  different.  in  a  good  way,  like  her.  “it  takes  a  lot  to  scare  me,”  she  smirks.  sure,  not  knowing  anyone  here  was  intimidating  but  –  eddie  gave  her  a  chance  she  wasn’t  expecting.  “i’m  glad  you  tried  getting  to  know  me.  as  for  a  fight…  i’ll  save  the  claws  for  anyone  who  has  something  to  say  about  you.  or  chrissy,  or  anyone  else  in  hellfire.”

         “mm. i’m glad too… though to be clear - i only thought you’d be a challenge. you proved me wrong. apparently, getting you to feel like you could trust me, that i was ‘one of your people’… took much less effort than i anticipated. and as for you getting my growing fond of you, it just sort of… happened naturally? i mean. why wouldn’t it?” at the mention of claws it occurs to eddie that he’s still holding her hand - and he gives it a little squeeze before drawing back with an apologetic smirk. “i don’t doubt it. you’re loyal. got that whole ‘mild mannered, but will cut a bitch if you mess with me and mine’ vibe.” didn’t scare easily? he believed it, which made her earlier panic attack of sorts all the more… concerning? and the fact he was able to calm her down. he could be all arrogant about that, but. he wouldn’t. he just didn’t have the heart. deana was used to being on her own - but now she had people who accepted her, loved her. she knew that, so. what was there to be scared of?

[yikesharringrove]

Okay episode three let’s gooooo

Thesis statement: this is, so far, the scariest season, and I say that as a compliment. Vecna has interesting character design, although I’m pretty over cgi monsters. Give us some practical effects. Get Doug Jones in that slimey lil suit. That’s what was so good about the first season. I like the horror movies vibes, but I said this in my evaluation of ep 1, I miss the low budget monster mash that was season 1. They’ve gotten too big for their britches by now. I like how we’ve kind of switched for el always being the center of it all to Max being the center of this. Not that El isn’t still important to the story, I just like that it’s not something coming to kill el AGAIN. If they are teasing Steve and Nancy I’m gonna freak out. Then breaking up and both moving on was major character development for them BOTH. don’t ruin it like this I’m begging please.

Okay, here are the notey notes:

SAM OWENS SAM OWENS SAM OWENS

“She was trained for this very thing. Remote assassinations” sooooo, maybe vecna is one of the kids? Like one that survived that weird attack that should’ve maybe been mentioned before now in a weird flashback?

Okay this is the first time I’ve ever really liked Jonathan and it’s bc he’s High and Weird.

“Hi Murray 😄” “you kids like risotto?” “Yeah 😄🤪”

“She didn’t look fine” mike literally fuck off

Okay el has killed a lot of people and monsters and things angela took a skate to the face she is literally going to be fine and also never bully you again just chill.

Yeah the upside down is connecting to vecna, I really don’t think he’s an upside down guy.

“We’re not killers like Eddie” literally shut up Jason I wanna attack YOU with a skate.

Steve doing his fruity little wave somebody FUCK this man.

Dustin: there’s nothing to worry about

Eddie: *is wanted for murder* ??????

Nancy’s hairpin is the trans flag colors happy pride

Everyone getting out of Steve’s car like they’re the fucking Scooby Gang.

El pulling out the receipts of mike only saying “from” love that gal.

Jonathan saying he’s el’s brother and then saying stepbrother is amazing on all levels. He IS her brother but also his mom DID marry hop so he IS her stepbrother. Love it.

Steve saying “we’re at the trailer park. should we not be here?” When they’re figuring out what connects Fred and Chrissy is why he’s the first bimbo to survive the first act of the horror movie.

THEY BETTER NOT WITH THIS STEVE AND NANCY BULLSHIT. THEY BETTER NOT.

Steve: wipe your feet

Dustin: *aggressively wipes foot inside car”

Steve: oN tHe OuTsIdE nOt On ThE iNsIdE

Steve: always the babysitter. Always the GODDAMN babysitter

(Someone has been wound a lil right since their bf died. Long time no dick, huh steve?)

How can I join the weirdo garage band????? PLEASE. The drummer. I want gemder. Gimme your gemder 🔪🔪🔪

Sorry these cops interrogating this CHILD without speaking to a parent????

“Did you wanna kill her?” BRO WHAT

“We’re her brothers. And we’re family.” YES YOU ARE YES YOU ARE WILL

I spy a Volkswagen thing. My mom’s first car was a 1973 red thing and we still have it. It’s how I learned to drive stick lol

FINALLY they gave Joyce the hair she deserves. Sis got a full blowout.

Jesus, hop is really doing anything to get the fuck outta here

“So he’s a grandpa murderer who can turn invisible and lift people into the air” Robin STOP Nancy so clearly wants to claw her skin off this is amazing what a duo.

“I don’t really have a filter or understand social cues” bro. neurodivergent robin for the WIN.

“I’m missing collarbones, not eyes” STOP DUSTIN

“When you basically threw yourself at Nance” if this season ends with Steve and Nancy I’m cancelling my whole Netflix subscription. No more Netflix for the whole family. FUCK THAT.

This whole Steve and Dustin car chat made me witch cackle. “I’ll punch you so hard in the face that your teeth will fall back out” literally brothers. BROTHERS.

Max looked her shrink dead in the eye and said fuck the police.

Oh el is going to JAIL jail.

Actually nevermind rip to these guards about to be killed dead.

I LOVE a woman who wears pantyhose under slacks. Queen.

Meanwhile Hopper is cutting off his foot like it’s the first saw movie.

Steve and robin get along so well because they’re both the most annoying people alive I love them.

“Bigfoot is absolutely real” okay big time weirdo robin is EXACTLY what I needed

The basketball team avenging Chrissy like I did NOT sign up to watch riverdale on this night

I���m not saying stranger things has directly copied tremors. But that’s exactly what I’m saying.

GO LUCAS GO LUCAS GO

Sam Owens wins #1 dram queen award

[beccasissy69]

For my training today Goddess wants me to write about 5 women I’ve come across in my time with her who have influenced me and (obviously) write a little about the impact they’ve had one me. Choices can be female presenting, so drag queens are ok, as well as females and can cover anything (shemales, porn star, influencers and so on).

I don’t think many of my choices will be surprising if you’ve followed me for a while but I want to make sure I have a selection and don’t just pick all porn stars 😂...typing this makes me think about all the porn stars who mean a lot to me but I won’t get to mention!

I’ll save my top choice to last but the rest are in no particular order.

First up is Luna Rose. She’s a drag queen and in my early days with Goddess, she gave me a few to look at and study and Luna was the first to really vibe with me. 

I learnt a lot about makeup from her but what I really love is her feminine energy and mannerisms. Spending time with her as she goes through a makeup haul or tries on new outfits is a lot of fun. I love that I can see her growth on her channel and it feels achievable. She shows how makeup is fun and colorful and she also loves wearing very large 🍈🍈.

I was watching one of her videos for this (and this might be the silliest thing I write here) and it really stood out how much her hand movements have affected me 🤣.   

Next up is a much newer love, Chrissy Cocoabutter. Goddess had me watch her towards the end of last year and I adored her straight away. Her very exaggerated, over the top drag/sissy look and mannerisms (❤ her voice!) and how she is completely upfront and unabashed about what she wants.  

Like Luna, you can see her early videos and her growth. Knowing that others have struggled with the same things is important, even if you *know* they must have, seeing it is different. 

She’s also “real” in a way that porn stars can’t really be (and OMG, I just realized she wears glasses and I think Goddess pointed me towards her after she made a point of saying I needed to wear my glasses when I do photoshoots 😅), she does it all herself! She’s a glorious, amazing trans sissy slut and I’m so glad she shares so much.

My one “traditional” porn star for the list is the fabulous Kianna Dior. She was the first one I watched who I really felt a connection too. All of the women I’ll write about here share some commonalities but Kianna is probably the one who stands most on her own because I just love watching her work. 

She’s older and she has amazing boobs (my first falsies were the same size!) but I think she marks the point when I started to watch women in porn more as idols and people to emulate and less as objects I desired. I mentioned her boobs but what I remember is them oiled up and wrapped around 🍆. 

I wanted to include at least one trans porn star and I was thinking Aubrey Kate because I love her glammed up style but I knew of her before my time with Goddess so I picked Daisy Taylor.

I’ve spoken about it a few times but the film Genderella holds a special place in my heart because it was the first time I felt like I saw something like myself reflected in pornography and it made me feel like there’s more there, it’s just that I’ve never been exposed to it.

The first time I watched Daisy, Goddess pointed me to some of her early scenes with her (then) partner and they felt like sex instead of porn. Slow and tender with building passion, intimate in a way that you only tend to get with people who have a connection and watching it expanded my horizons in the same way Genderella did and broadened my definition of possible.

There could only be one Number 1 and it has to be Wifey. 

I loved her the first time I watched her but every time I see her, I pick up on more and more. To begin with it was her skills, I loved watching her perform, show herself off, work a guy, work a 🍆...

But as I went back to her again and again, I would focus on her outfits or her nails or her makeup or her mannerisms or other specific things and I feel like she’s just a total package. 

When I think about my ideal life, it’s usually hers I’m thinking of and, even though I know that what we see is edited and presented just so, I find her super inspirational. It’s not in the same way as (for example) Luna but in the way that a world class athlete might inspire you to follow in their footsteps, even though you can’t reach the same heights.

I use her as a base for a lot of my outfits (with varying success 😅) and the first time I was hooking up with a guy, I had her videos playing on a loop as I was chatting on Grindr and waiting for them to arrive to keep me in the zone. 

[martianclown]

writers making jason carver an abusive r*pist in their fanfiction or whatever, make me uncomfortable. don’t get me wrong i do not like jason at all, i think he was an egotistical maniac, but i don’t think he’s a complete monster either. up until he yk starts a manhunt, he could be worse. he did seem to actually care abt chrissy (and lowkey i would have bullied eddie too so that’s not a problem i have with him) he still was pretty weird, idk why he felt the need to bring up a bunch of dead ppl in his basketball speech, but idk ppl turning him into a one dimensional monster rubs me the wrong way

strongly agree | agree | neutral | disagree | strongly disagree

I dont like Jason much either and if what you're saying is true that's pretty fucked up tho. I haven't read anything new on ao3 besides things that have already been linked to me so I wouldn't know what's going on.

But Jason gave me bad vibes from the jump and it's so weird to me that people can forgive him a lot easier than Billy. (Not to make everything about Billy but I'm making everything about Billy 💀) He's worse in my eyes.

Anyway, he gives me the ick real bad

[cxsmicmyeon]

starry i have recs!!!!

oldies but goodies: amigo by shinee, it's you by super junior, back by infinite, janus by boyfriend, i yah by boyfriend, paradise by infinite

women: melting by miss a, good luck by aoa, flashback by after school, sixth sense by brown eyed girls

also the entirety of max changmin's solo discography, and tvxq's rise as god album, and anything and everything by boa, etc etc etc

i have more recent stuff for recs too if my 2nd gen agenda is not entirely your vibe lol ♥

chrissy hiii this is a ✨lot✨of rec i will revisit the rest later but here is my queue rn

back was good!! it gave me vibes i cant put my head on rn but good!!

amigo is rly funky love the beats n stuff :D

good luck not rly a fan of the sax but everything else is rly good!

already very intrigued by the ooohs in devil 👀the transition from the first ~40s fitted really well im getting a lot of soul genre esque vibes it’s rly cool!!

i feel like i would hear flashback in an arcade lmao it’s cute! rly cool vibes n such it was good!!

janus sounds either like an anime intro song or a song that would play as the credits in a kdrama (and an anime too what the heck) it’s cute!!

the boa song (pls lmk if there’s a english alt title idk how to read japanese) is so giving me jongdae vibes af i also rly like her voice and also this song sound like it would be in a drama too lmao

overall solid recs!! i may add amigo and devil and the boa song to my playlist i likes them the best!! (:

[madster2005]

”Whatever Happened to Robot Jones?” Fanfiction: Polyneux, 1998

Chapter 3: Wake Up Call

-SYSTEM'S REBOOTING: 5% COMPLETE-

I'm confused.

Why am I rebooting, and why does it feel... different?  I've had reboots before, and I do not remember them being like this.

...Huh. Did I have reboots? Now that I think about it, I can't remember anything. Who am I? Where am I?

I can not sense my body. I just feel numb. Do I even have a body? What would its purpose even be in this void?

Do I have any meaning here?

-SYSTEM'S REBOOTING: 34% COMPLETE-

Life.

I remember living. It was interesting. I remember hearing, seeing, feeling, and tasting. I wish I could experience more of that, It would be more interesting than this feeling of emptiness.

That oil substance was nice to taste. Oh, and roasted nuts and bolts. Those were very good. I remember two other beings making those for me. I believe I cared for them a lot at one point.

They seem important, so I will hold onto that thought.

-SYSTEM'S REBOOTING: 57% COMPLETE-

Mom and Dad-unit!

How could I forget them? Well, at least I remember now. They took care of me throughout all my stages of life, all the way back to when I was first built. They were always there for me, through many simple and complex situations. Mom-unit used to sing me lullabies before I went into sleep mode each night, and would hold me when I was scared. Dad-unit would drive me around our small town and gave me advice and reassurance about many things I’d have to face.There's many more memories in my databanks, but I'd be here for a while If I was to list them all out.

Where are they now?

I loved them.

I'm scared.

Mom-unit, please come and wake me from this nightmare...

-SYSTEM'S REBOOTING: 72% COMPLETE-

Humans and Robots.

So many differences between the two, yet they are so similar.

From what I've analyzed, I was a Robot. My name was Robot Jones, and I was a KX-8 Unit.

It is harder for me to understand humans, however, I do not think I ever did. Both physically and mentally, they have fascinated me. Another thing I have noticed from these new oncoming memories was a trend of studying these creatures. Even now, I feel very drawn to them, as if I'm meant to be around them.

Was that my purpose?

-SYSTEM'S REBOOTING: 97% COMPLETE-

I'm starting to feel physical sensations. The numbness is fading, and with it the dark void.

I'm certainly glad this could mean I'm not going to be here forever, but where will I go then? Will I go back to reality?

I wish I could recall why I left in the first place.

I have remembered a lot more, and most of my memory banks have been restored. However, am I truly ready to go back and face everything myself once again? Wait, I don't think I can-

...

-SYSTEM REBOOT COMPLETE: NOW ACTIVATING...-

At 7 AM, the weak call of an old alarm was heard from the garage of Chrissy’s home. With it, the faint noises of robotic joints and processors coming alive. The wake up call was silenced after a few moments by it’s owner; whom it was literally a part of.

Robot Jones, after silencing the alarm, slowly opened his eyes. To say he was oblivious and confused would be an understatement. He scanned the room and realized he’s never been to this location in his life. although the tools and metal parts on the walls, tables and floor were familiar to him. It made him think of his time at ‘JNZ Robotics’; The place he was made. This place lacked the vibes that the factory had however, and to RJ, was much too messy and unorganized.

He drew his attention away from his surroundings and to himself, and noticed he was sitting on a small dog bed in the corner. He also saw he was plugged into the wall. RJ, in the midst of his confusion, decided to run a diagnostic just to focus on something else and get a least some info. Basic things were listed, such as his battery life and power consumption, but what made his processors drop was the current date.

-JAN 19, 1998-

“Negative, that can not be correct...” He spoke softly to himself, denying this to be true. RJ decided to re-run the check, hoping there was just a mistake. To his horror, the date he saw was the exact same as before. His eyes widened as he remembered what the date he was last active was August of 1985.

‘I’ve been deactivated for 12 years, 5 months, 17 days, 7 hours and 57 seconds?!’

He felt as if he was going to pass out. His systems felt overloaded, and he simply brought his knees to his chest and wrapped his small arms around them. This only caused his panic to grow worse, as he noticed the orange and reddish tint around his joints and in the crevices of his exterior.

Rust.

Robot was shaking now, and he felt a small amount of oil accumulate in his eyes. He pulled his legs closer to his chassis and dug his head into his knees, curled up into a ball.

“This c-can not be happening”