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Like really. How am I supposed to leave or stop crying?
#she’s been so happy to see me#and I’ve been doing nothing but crying#and she’s laying in her spot right now#that I’ve been missing feeling her in#and my heart is shattered into pieces#it hurts so badly#and I have to see her again tomorrow and say goodbye for real#how do I say goodbye
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the only reason I hc billy as an emancipated minor is literally just so that mary can still live with the bromfields and freddy can be fostered by the vasquez family. so rosa and nora have no actual relation to each other or have the rights to tell billy what to do but theyll pick him up for school and have extra bedding and a toothbrush saved for sleepovers and knuckle down his head (rosa) and fix his collar (nora) and. will pick up a household object and swing harder than any mlb player could trying to protect him faster than he can blink
#blended families but also I’m not his mom angst…#batfam people don’t interact w this post lol#billy batson#hc#ive actually been thinking abt mothers in fiction so long I’ve now infected my marvelfam mind palace#sorry to Marilyn but I think Billy is very ok without really growing up without her in the same way you don’t miss something u weren’t born#With…. But ofc Nora and Rosa feel that there’s something a little tragic about that
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Things I make for myself when insomnia kicks in
Just a chart about what I wanna change up and keep consistent in my art - I mainly wanna draw Raph with a tail because he deserves one, it fits too well. Donnie gets a long tail too because I didn’t realize how dino-like he looks until I gave him one, and now it’s a must for me haha.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt headcanons#note these are veryyy much for my own art so by all means ignore this completely for your own unless it resonates#these are just my personal headcanons#I’ve been getting more and more fond of the turtles having tails - especially Raph whose design honestly feels more complete with one#I also am now attached to Donnie having a long tail too because 1) he looks cute with one and it really works for him and-#2) I LOVE giving the Brains and Brawn duo more stuff in common#I could write an essay about how many things Brains and Brawns duo has in common in general#but also portal duo as well!!#we already know that Mikey and Leo look a LOT alike#so I think it’s cute when Raph and Donnie have stuff like that in common with each other too#like how canonically Donnie’s sclera are on the yellow side like Raph’s#anyway I’m sorry if this is a random post I am very tired and still have not slept#ALSO yeah i wanted an excuse to doodle April it’s been too long i missed her#I’m excited to finish this comic up to show the OTHER reason I gave Donnie a long tail#I made this in like five minutes because working on my comic was not working out#also Draxum totally has a tail he’s a sheep#I lean away from Mikey and Leo having longer tails mainly because their designs are already so busy#with all the colors and shapes present on them#so to me longer tails kinda takes away a bit#meanwhile Raph and Donnie are more monochrome in comparison so I feel like tails only help them?#I think as well Donnie’s torso/carapace being on the shorter side makes a tail balance him out#(me trying to justify the visual gag im putting into the comic for literally only two panels)#didn’t draw the caseys because I am tiredddd#and they would have just ended up where April is anyway
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I hate it when I headcanon a character who’s canonically a girl as a trans man and make ships of him and a character who’s canonically a guy and I refer to it as a gay/mlm/guyxguy/whatever ship and someone gets mad. Like omg let trans people have FUNNNNN. Why are queer headcanons and genderbends cool until they’re saying that the character is trans???
“OMGGG you’re so misogynistic I can’t believe you would erase FEMALE representation!!!”
and like half of the characters in the franchise are women, and a total of… NONE of the characters are trans men. Also, my headcanon doesn’t change the source material. If my stuff upsets you, you can block me and go engage with the source or maybe every single other fanwork, since mine is the only trans man hc for this character that I’ve ever seen.
or when people are like “WTF??? this is so transphobic!!! how dare you imply that a character who looks like that could be a trans man?!?! do you think that trans men are women or something??? she uses she/her, and you’re misgendering her!”
No, I don’t think that being a trans man makes you a woman or vice versa. That’s why it’s a headcanon, and the headcanon is that this character is actually a trans man and not a woman at all! You’ll never guess what pronouns most trans men had to use at some point in their lives, and you really won’t like it when you find out about pre-(or no-)transition trans men… or trans men who are in the closet… or trans men who don’t know that they’re trans yet.
“But the character is a kid!!! Saying they’re trans is sexualizing them.”
I’ve seen this one from other queer people. Like did you miss when all of the homophobes said this about your identity, or do you think that bigotry is only bad when it’s directed at you?
“Why would you say ‘testosterone could fix her’??? Are you trying to call her a delusional woman?”
Why would your brain even go to that first? This literally has to be a bad faith reading, because there’s no way that someone could see what I said and get this unless they were specifically looking for something to be mad at me for.
(Note for anyone unaware: “Estrogen would’ve fixed him!” was a meme going around at the time I said this. I’m not sure if it’s still super big, but this was a joke to the effect of that.)
“So girls can’t be tomboys anymore? You just wanna trans everyone?”
This is like actual real life transphobic rhetoric. This isn’t even just shitting on my headcanon, but in fact, sending transphobic hate to a trans man. Thanks 👍. Maybe you should go send JK Rowling another message about how much you loved her essay instead of bothering me.
#transgender#trans#trans man#transandrophobia#<- not all of it but the ‘it’s misogynystic to be a trans man!!!’ part is. esp because it’s something that people say about real trans men#is this inspired by a Tik tok about how making male characters women is empowering and making female characters men is misogyny?#(although that post was weirdly about genderbending gay ships? idk why that’s discourse going around 😭😭😭. I miss old fandom sometimes.)#not exactly. although the comments on it sucked. I’ve seen multiple variations of posts like that and all of their comment sections made me#feel like I was wading through raw sewage with how full of shit the commenters were.#I saw one violently threatening anyone who portrays a canon girl as a man (in stupid Tik Tok speak)#oh Feng Min… oh Hilda Pokémon… oh Y PokéSpe… you’re all beautiful young men to me#nonbinary hcs also get you that last one super hard#I haven’t seen as much of this about hcing canon guys as trans girls other than posts where op says ‘name a girl character who (blank)!’-#and then makes an addition that you’re an evil misogynist if you said a MALE!!! (even though Brock Pokémon is a transbian to me </3)#which icks me out so bad. omfg. like she’s a girl to ME!!! so maybe that’s why I’m naming her under a post about GIRLS!!!#I imagine that most of the reason for not hearing much about it is because these types of headcanons just… really aren’t common#so if you have a bunch of experience with headcanoning characters who are canonically men as trans girls and the hate that it gets you then#feel free to add on (and also please talk to me about your headcanons… there are so few of us. we need to stick together!!!)#it’s not derailing despite this post specifically being tagged about trans men#that’s just bc that’s all that I talk about in my original post#this post has been in my drafts in different forms for probably like months#long post#I guess#anyone remember a while back when someone on this app got violently mad that someone put a character (canonically a guy) in the m/m tags on#ao3 bc the guy was hced as trans in the fic#and the post was like ‘grrr the ao3 gender ship things are talking about GENITALS!!! not gender!!! I’m not transphobic though <3.’#so now to imagine what it’s like to hc a character who’s canonically a girl as a trans man just imagine that but it’s worse and also you’re#getting it from other trans people too 👍
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I know we all wanted to see Agatha with a happy ending but we can’t forget that she is technically a villain just with a super complex backstory but one that does include her being a serial killer. She kept murdering and is rather brazen about it. I’m sure a redemption arc would have felt satisfying, but she’s not quite remorseful for her actions quite yet and she’s still playing the victim complex even to her ex.
She’s complicated and deep and we love her for it, but she won’t get that stereotypical superhero ending because that’s not who she is. At the end, and even before her Wanda prison, she was covenless and alone.
I like to think that her “calculated risk” of giving herself up to Death was a final acknowledgment that perhaps her life is done because there’s not many directions she can go in. She was able to see that even being with Rio was not possible because of the grief and grudge she still held, so there wasn’t anything holding her to stay.
#just some thoughts#I’ve been processing this show the last two days#and I miss these characters already#but had to come to the conclusion that Agatha is still technically a villain#she just happened to be a likeable one and gay and we all got attached#but she had a life of killing and surviving#I do feel bad for her#but she did what she wanted#agatha all along#agatha harkness
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🧋Me 🤝 Corry 🍫
#corruption#corry#oc#oc art#my art#ignore my horrible handwriting#you’re going to see her more often because she my baby gremlin#I’ve missed drawing her#being feeling unmotivated to draw twst cause I’m out of drawing ideas#nothing really has been inspiring me lately#don’t worry I plan on writing silly twst stuff
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Were any of u in the like massive 2014 skype group chats with uhhh let me think. Allie C3po Matt croagunk pastanumbers (shoutout pastanumbers) ummm the artist formerly known as jez possession but she had different urls back then. Taquito and nyehs and perchu. Whomst else. Oh me obviously ehehehe
#i feel I am forgetting some highly essential characters#it’s been so long#and miraculously I’ve still found some people from back then#tho didn’t get jez’s info before she deactivated fml I’ve lost her again.. I miss you jez possession
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no thoughts, just the way the narumi sisters are so different yet fundamentally similar at the same time yk?
#i love the functionally dysfunctional relationship of the narumi sisters to an unhealthy degree i think…#i’ve just been thinking about how both sisters put each other up on a high pedestal while having a less than high opinion of themselves and.#aaaaaaa just the way sena calls mona her angel while thinking of herself as a useless/subpar older sis#a n d how the main source of mona’s depression is her constant comparisons with her beloved big sis sena is just. aaaaa#just!!!! the way sena pushes herself past her limits in her attempts to portray herself as an ideal big sis for mona#even at the expense of her own health sometimes (see also: the beach sisters honeypre event)#i really feel like the way sena thinks she isn’t good enough of a big sis to mona is pretty glossed over for the most part tbh.. man.#(i have many thoughts on this tbh. none of them coherent)#and just. aaaaaaaaaaaa im really happy that both of them have great support systems (their families + [midori for sena]/[monacas for mona])#like. even though they don’t personally think they’re good enough compared to their ideals…#at least they have people who are there to love them for who they truly are. their true selves (honto no watashi) if you will—#idk i just wish both of them could see themselves exactly how their sister sees them…#b ut man i really want idol sengen season 2 just so that we may be able to see how sena reacts upon finding out what happens to the bracelet#i doubt they’ll show it in an mv but. man. i really want to know how she’ll react…#im probably misremembering and misinterpreting a bunch of stuff about sena huh… i miss her thoughhh#i miss seeing the sisters together tbh. i think the gen 3 sibling pairs should sing together a la tokyo [season] session style
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Hi guys! One of my nearest and dearest friends from high school has been diagnosed with leukemia, and her family is doing some fundraising to help with expenses. If you have any spare change lying around you’d like to toss over (or even have a dire hankering for a shirt!), it would really, really, really mean the world to me. Thanks gang
#man#she really has been the closest thing i’ve had to a little sister. ate lunch together for two years. in chorus and drama together and always#goofing off. i started calling her by a nickname that was quickly adopted by classmates and teachers. there is a lot i miss from high school#and a lot i don’t—a lot that makes me feel missed and a lot that doesn’t. i miss her and she makes me feel missed#i’m laughing as i type this because i think i’m too stunned to cry. sorry to get so candid. man.
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orange cat and black cat dynamic
[ID: a digital uncoloured doodle of two original, stylised Flatland characters named Liz and Ruth done in a cutesy art style.
Liz is a humanoid creature with a seven point star-shaped head, one eye, a tail with a star on the end and an amputated left forearm.
Ruth is another, smaller, humanoid creature who has an eye for a head with a blunt point on top, a drooping eyelid and four bottom lashes, a dent in her side and spots all over her body.
Liz is on the left and posed stood on her heels. She is looking over to her right at Ruth. The rightmost spike on her head is twitching up and down, akin to a cat’s ear flicking, and there is a little question mark beside her. Ruth is on the right, she is smiling up at Liz and laughing. Her hands are held by her sides and her knees are bent inwards. There is a thought bubble beside her that says “cute…”.
The background is white.
End ID].
#orange cat and black cat describe their personalities almost perfectly#i would say black cat and golden retriever but atlas is more golden retriever than liz#i’ve said it before but. all flatties are just weird cats to me#liz is just cat#i haven’t shown elijah’s (liz’s youngest brother) 3D form yet. he’s also very cat#giving ruth a little bendy rat tail i feel like she’s been missing out with her stiff short tail#i’ve been seeing so much cutesy art on my dash recently i wanted to try my hand at it#flatland#oc#elizabeth huntsworth#ruth galton#supernova
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MCFLY JULY ‘24 — playing hooky.
MARCH 8, 1983
“Hi Doc, sorry I’m late.”
The fourteen-year-old greets @doctorbrown as usual, sliding the key under the mat and leaving his skateboard by the door. Einstein immediately bounds over, tail wagging, and Marty scratches him behind the ears.
“What’s on the list for today?” the boy continues, completely oblivious to or deliberately ignoring the fact that it’s Tuesday at 12:03 PM and he should most definitely be in Mr. Johnston’s fourth period geometry class right now. “More welding, maybe some circuitry? Dreamin’ up some new schematics?”
As if sensing his best friend’s discontentment and knowing he’s been found out, he groans, flopping onto Einstein to give the canine an impromptu hug. The sheepdog, pleased at the attention, thumps his tail more vigorously and licks the teenager’s face.
“C’mon, Doc,” Marty wheedles. “Linda’s skipping today too! It’s not like I got any tests or anything. Anyway, I learn more from you. You know that.”
What he’s pretty sure the scientist also knows is that, other than Doc himself, nobody actually gives a shit if he’s at school or not. Not his parents, especially not after last night. They probably don’t even realize, and sure as hell don’t care, that he’s gone.
#drabble tbt.#mcflyjuly#mcfly july ‘24.#doctorbrown#i bet this happens pretty much every other week in tp…#dysfunctional families with an addict parent are really really hard#you’re not really thinking about anything other than putting one foot in front of the other and making it through another day#i talk a lot about how tp doc pretty much raised tp marty (along with tp marty raising himself) and i meant it#(this is also not the last you’ll hear of that this month)#i do think when he and jen start going out that’s more motivation for him to come to school to see her#but before then??? good luck#esp with this boy’s untreated adhd and how he’d rather be doing literally anything else other than school#an institution that makes him feel so so stupid as it is#we’ve been back together for five minutes and you’re already talkin’ about the end of the universe. i’ve missed that. [doc & marty.]#you're my best friend in the whole space time continuum [doc brown.]#queue. this is heavy.
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jjk 267 leaks + spoilers in the tags. ill be completely honest i understand the jjk criticism I’ve seen for this chapter but i also don’t care
#be a plot device at the very end of the series vs die for yuujis development#I’ll take this im just happy to see her!#ALSO genuinely. i Do have the same issues with the manga.#but out of everyone who’s died for the plot™️ she’s the one who should have a comeback#the past few chapters including this have been reverse shibuya for me where things have been surprisingly good for how AWFUL its been#todo supporting yuuji - yuuji pitying sukuna - megumi communicating w yuuji - nobara returning#good feelings all around for me#to clarify: most of my disappointment in the series as a whole is from decisions made prior to these chapters. because of those writing#choices this end is already flawed. BUT this is still the Best outcome imo#im fairly satisfied. i do think gege is Done done with the series by this point though#and the weekly Shonen Jump work conditions + editors did No favors to the writing and art#jjk leaks#jjk 267#i also don’t think gege is going for the full tragedy now#nobara existing is already so momentous. she was yuujis hope back then and now she’s back there’s hope in the end#of course I’d love if she was more of an explored character than. an absent symbolic figure in this half of the series#but I’ve missed my girl so much 😭#One Fear is time skip end where she’s with yuuji and megumi is with Hana………………#that’d be so bad it’d be hilarious
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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.
#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void#shits rough dawg#I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts#haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier#it’s cold#saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours#guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left#even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are#I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh#my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week#maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting#woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside#hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning#can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience#anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments#I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now#ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever#you can ignore this#text
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#byler#stranger things#twelvegate#something something time fuckery#something something it seems like lonnie could be both el and will’s dad…#however I think this could be a misdirect…#bc something’s not right…#I feel like if we’re dealing with a time loop in some shape form#apparently Henry doesn’t want Will and el to know each other…#this is what I’ve been saying about byler evidence also low key being willel wondertwin evidence#we’ve always associated Will going missing in s1 and el disappearing in s2#as Mike being able to handle their relationships separately and how that came to a head in s3 then s4#and how they did that to show mike can’t juggle both of their relationships the way he’s attempting to (el romantic/Will platonic)#but I think it’s actually also interesting that Will and el are kept apart for so long…#and then finally when they’re together it’s like all of these memories are surfacing for el…#around March 22nd…#and the fact that what saved her back in 79 was the memory of her birth…#I just think that’s so interesting…#in combination with the repetition of 7/5 test subjects tattoos being the only ones focused on in every flashback#and all the twin imagery#it’s like they’re subconsciously remembering each other#maybe vecna realized the only way this could work is if they didn’t know each other#even to the point of ‘putting them against each other’…#reminds me of that shot of 11 & 12 at the basketball game#but I don’t think it’s going to work…#I think Will and el are too selfless and love each other too much to do what Henry and the audience expects#el is also going to realize that she has even stronger familial love for Will than she ever had romantic feelings for Mike#and you know what this also means??#remember the crazy together scene? ‘they wouldn’t understand..’ ‘eleven would’ 🤯 SHE WOULD!!
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beaut 🐎 🍂
#new car!! but I’m mourning my old one#I’ve cried twice about it pls#sentimental to a fucking fault#everyone should start out with a used little car with a cd player she was so beat up but so loved#cars been there for the last six years through so many moments#happy and sad and tears loss and laughter#she held up and protected us through so much#so many deep talks and star watching and laughter in that car#so much damn food eaten in there (and spilled)#bared witness to a lot but she needed more work than I could do and it was time#I would’ve made my friend take her if I knew I would be this sad about it#it’ll get easier though just feels like a loss of a friend right now#they said she was going to auction not destroyed so maybe she'll be someone else's first car#new babe is badass she’s so beautiful#will fill her with memories too#she can’t ever replace her but I love her already and I’m excited for all the adventures we’ll see together#right in time for fall too#have to decorate her and put love into her like the other#idk how to act with a brand new car my other one had like 125000 miles like huh!#my radio didn’t even work (again)#| miss her little crusty ass!!!!!#here's to a new season though of change and growth and feeling safe out there 🖤🧿#(almost got a green one but it wasn’t the right shade in the sun) but she was pretttty#saw the most delicious green one with big olllll tires maybe in the future
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I’ve been thinking lately about the romances in the wheel of time books. RJ gets a lot of (deserved) flack for the romances in his books, but I do think there’s some stuff I really like that I don’t always see in fantasy, especially in the 90s when RJ was writing. Massive book spoilers under the cut
Okay so for all that RJ was Not Good at writing romance build up (Egwene/Gawyn, Nynaeve/Lan, and Thom/Moiraine as maybe the crowning example) I absolutely LOVE how he wrote female characters who were 1.) deeply in love and 2.) primarily motivated by things that had nothing to do with their romantic partner.
Elayne falls rapidly in love with Rand in book 4, and then proceeds to have a bunch of arcs that have little to nothing to do with Rand - hunting the Black Ajah in Tanchico, solving fantasy global warming with the Bowl of Winds, and taking the throne of Andor. Even though Rand tried to “give” the throne to Elayne (which pisses her off), she still has to struggle for it and overcome significant hurdles. Nynaeve’s whole plot of learning to break her block while maintaining her passion and rejecting Aes Sedai serenity has nothing to do with Lan. Same with Egwene, Aviendha, Moiraine, Tuon, and even Suian (and personally the Suian/Garreth Byrne relationships is one of my least favorite relationships in the series).
It’s so refreshing! I devoured book after book as a kid in the 90s and early 00s and the romances were usually SO central especially for the female characters. Even when reading the books, I remember being 14 and going “shouldn’t Elayne be with Rand somehow? Shouldn’t he be helping her take the throne?” Simply because that’s what I was used to. Think of how much weaker the story and the characters would have been!
The crowning example is in aMoL (which I know was written by Sanderson, but I feel like RJ laid enough groundwork and precedent that he still gets a bit of credit) when Rand proposes the Dragon’s Peace and both Aviendha and Elayne have BIG criticisms of what Rand tried to do. They love him! They worry about how it will affect their relationships with him! But their devotion and responsibility to their own people trumps their romantic ties and the narrative *doesn’t punish them for it.* It’s a great scene and one of my favorite Sanderson chapters in the books.
Anyway, I was just thinking how interesting it was that the thing I like least and the thing I like most about RJ’s romances both come from his focus on individual character motivations over his focus on romance.
#sorry to neglect Min here I just don’t remember her storyline well enough to feel like I can write on it#I’ve just been thinking about why I loved the girls so much#especially as a kid in like 2006#this is why!#I’m missing some nuance here but I was just trying to get my big picture thoughts out#wheel of time#wot book spoilers#wot books#wheel of time book spoilers#elayne trakand#aviendha
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