#thanks for reading my rambling if you read this far ahaha

[ace-of-hats]

ocs as tarot cards is so fun i need to draw these sometime

[angeart]

fic writer interview!

thank u ben for dragging me into this 💕

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How many works do you have on AO3?

11 right now, one of those being a huge ongoing multichapter fic.

What's your total AO3 word count?

343,418 words... and yes, 250k+ of those are just hmtb

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Help me to breathe (HC | 1,776)

don’t be afraid, little bird (there are no cages around you now) (HC | 455)

flowers in your hair and air in your lungs (HC | 341)

Elegy (HC | 225)

these flowers will wither (like you and me), but they're not dead yet (Life Series | 139)

^ that 3rd place genuinely surprised me. huh. (it's the fic i keep forgetting exists)

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i want to! i just really, really, really suck at it for some reason. i think a part of it is that i get so hyped whenever i get a comment notification that i run to read it on my phone no matter how busy i'm at the moment, but i don't like responding on my phone. except if i don't do it right away, it falls into the rabbithole of all my other tasks that i struggle to juggle and stay on top of, and...

i kind of got into a habit of answering the chaptered fic's comments, at least, when i'm about to post a new chapter. but since my uploads have slowed down so much, i worry that it doesn't feel engaging or rewarding enough to people who commented? 🥺👉👈

i really want to do better. i'll keep trying. i love you guys <3

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

i've sat here pondering this question for far too long. i don't write outright angsty endings, which is wild considering angst is my staple. thinking about my fics, i've come to realise a lot of my endings are simply... hopeful.

i think if i'd have to pick, two come to mind for this question.

Elegy > simply because there's so much fear and grief in there, and by the end of it, the consequences are still very much present. and despite the hope of them somehow managing to push through and move forward, it's not all that simple. nothing is resolved. they made it through Day One of the aftermath, and all of it is really still in front of them. the wounds won't easily let go. the tangled mess will have its consequences, no matter what. (think of grian's fears renewed. think of mumbo trauma. think of impulse.) (so much is still in shambles. so much is still at stake.)

even if it hurts (and even if it isn't a dream) you can have a home here > or the sleep demon grian fic. because, once again, there's no easy answer to the hurt and fear that's just been wrought. he's held safe, but it's not going to protect him outside of this singular moment. he's stuck in a reality that's cruel and unwelcoming, and even with gentle hands around him (for the moment, for now), he's still going to be afraid.

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

once again we run into my problem of hopeful but not really happy endings, although... maybe this one has an easier answer.

these flowers will wither (like you and me), but they're not dead yet > or the third life dancing fic. it's got its share of Complicated Feelings(TM) but a lot of it is just about dancing and feeling alive and being in love. experiencing things together, even when they're destined to end in blood and death.

Do you write crossovers?

nope, I don't! although i let ben sometimes drag me into a crossover au idea from time to time, and we yap and ramble about it in our DMs :3c

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

i haven't received any hate. a negative comment or two that kind of stuck, but nothing that i would call hate.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

ahaha. ahahaha.

right now the only smut i write is a part of private hhau rps with link. and those are a little bit ✨deranged✨

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not to my knowledge.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

no, never.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

there have been attempts! and plans! they were always split by POV or into parts. but none worked out so far. (there was the priate au fic idea, the secret life "5+1 times..." kind of fic idea (grian angst!)... and the ribbon incident for the hhau mimic arc - which might hopefully still happen one day! but. we'll see.)

i do write RPs all the time though (link and plantie <333 love u for indulging me) and the coauthored fic on AO3—will i find my home, my home, my home in you?—is basically just a published piece of RP. on top of that, me and link have plenty of rambles that we work on together, and i do meddle with help ben with aus all the time... so that's something! it's always a lot of fun. but a full fledged fic is a little bit trickier. maybe someday.

What's your all-time favorite ship?

this one isn't going to be shocking at all. if you know me, you know the answer.

(yep, it's scarian.)

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

i have many wips, and i want to finish all of them! ... there might be some that are getting dusty, but shhh. shhhhhhh. i do not want to admit these things. let me live in denial. all my wips are (eventually, one day!!!) getting finished. mhm. yep. definitely. <3

(although i might have to give up on most of the coauthor ones—)

What are your writing strengths?

i'm mostly going off what people said to me but... well, clearly, gutwrenching angst is the simple answer everyone agrees on. and i love that so much, because angst is such a big part of my writing. (i do not say it lightly when i claim i can angst anything—)

i tend to dive into character's headspace and poke and prod at the emotions until they spill everywhere. so you could say that scenes with emotional spirals and anything with emotional impact are my natural habitat. it's my playground, and i tend to use all kinds of visuals and descriptions as my little building blocks.

from time to time i also get a comment on writing characters' voices right! which always makes me happy to hear. <3

What are your writing weaknesses?

one thing i definitely struggle with a lot is group scenes. whenever there's multiple characters around, it's difficult for me to keep track and keep everyone engaged. it's hard to carve out enough space for everyone's reactions. i think this sort of goes with the above point, of me liking to prod at emotions, and that becomes harder to cleanly do with more people on the scene. (my favourite scenes to write are the ones where there's just two people.)

transitions can also give me a hard time. moving between scenes or ideas or conversation topics (esp if in a group) (hello hmtb sleepover i wonder why i'm stuck on writing u for so long—), wrapping up things. stuff like that.

and... you know what, i'll throw it in here. mumbo. mumbo, when he's an active participant in a life series, is the bane of my existence. i can never write him when that's going on, and it's a problem because he's somehow always in all of my wip scenes when it happens. (head in my hands)

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

if it makes sense for the setting and the characters, and you know the language, then sure, go for it. i have personally never done it or even really thought about it. it just doesn't come up for me as it's not relevant to the stuff i write.

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

wow this brought back some embarrassing memories.

anyway i think the first one might've been naruto? i actually ended up writing a long multichapter fic for it (unfinished. i just dug up the file to check and i've invested 134k words and 49 chapters into this story. this was years and years ago.)

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

oh, i don't think there's any right now. i'm very cozy in my little desert. i like right where i am.

What's your favorite fic you've written?

there's always one singular fic that comes to mind at this kind of question, and that's the cursed forest au fic - even with death haunting your footsteps, your flowers will bloom again. i think it's something about the way it's written, sprinkled through with pretty words. melancholy wrapped up in flowers and rot... mm.

i do have to say though, i had lots of fun writing and absolutely love the whole boatem circus series so far, and ofc hmtb is very dear to me too <3

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tagging time. i don't tend to tag people in these kind of things, so take this with zero obligation, but @funkyplantguy & @mochiwrites & @wren-kitchens if you think you'd have fun with this, give it a shot! <3 and of course anyone else who wants to do it!!

[milleart]

hello! it's your 7kpp secret santa here! it's very interesting to see someone who pairs their mcs with blain AND jarrod! the doc included in the spreadsheet is much appreciated! *puts on interviewer hat* some questions i would like to ask are:

we all know that blain can't stand the mcs simply because she exists, but is there a deeper reason to why he loathes nayeli during the summit (apart from the blackmail 🤭)

from the doc it seems like lien hua doesn't seem to love jarrod in a romantic manner, so how would she answer someone who asks her what does she like about her husband?

happy holidays and a happy new year!

hiiiii anon, hope you're having a wonderful new year and thank you so much for putting the effort for ssanta ❤️ i guess i do have a thing for 'difficult' romances and messy relationships ahaha...

my reply ended up being a bit rambly so i put it under a read more, hope it all makes sense!!

re: nay and blain he could probably write a whole essay on 'why nayeli is the absolute worst' but to put it short, while blain's a petty person in general a lot of what makes nayeli nayeli is a direct antithesis to what makes blain blain.

nay's very playful and teasing and her little jokes and jabs poke blain just where it hurts the most aka his pride. he invests a lot of effort in his appearance and status but nay's irreverent humor just completely undermines that, she turns his vanity into a punchline and doesn't even have the decency to react appropriately cowed when he gets angry about it, she just finds it even more funny.

even when she's being honest with her praise he doesn't really know how to deal with it, it's praise so it makes him happy on some level but then it being nayeli immediately sours it, he doesn't know how to take it from someone like her and just chalks it up to sarcasm

on top of that she makes him feel irrelevant which is like the worst thing for someone whose entire identity is built on being the center of attention. this especially rankles him with ana because he tries SO hard to charm her but ana just doesn't give a shit. meanwhile nay makes some stupid little joke and ana's howling with laughter and slapping her knee. and it feels like every other time he finds ana nayeli's not too far behind. it's actually just because she gets along well with ana and they have fun spending time together but to him it's personal.

and to make things worse she just seems to be everywhere, always up to something. and she just doesn't seem to care about anything, about what people think - and that just doesn't compute to someone who constantly behaves as if the entire world was watching him. he doesn't catch on until much later that she thrives on being underestimated and seen as some silly airheaded hise weirdo - and by the time he does catch on, she's already got his secrets in her grasp.

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re: lien hua and jarrod

lien hua's feelings on jarrod are kind of complicated and they don't really turn romantic until muuuuuuuuuuch later.

she finds him relatively straightforward in behaviour, while she enjoys the challenge of 4d chess conversations where everything has 7 different meanings, it's tiring to be constantly on guard and analyzing. meanwhile jarrod's someone who wears his heart on his sleeve and says what he thinks, even if it's rude or crass. and it's frustrating, yes, especially since someone in his position should KNOW BETTER but at the same time it means she doesn't have to guess. and that's nice.

he also has a lot of passion and knowledge about the few specific things he cares about and they might not be things lien hua super enjoys doing herself but it's interesting. it's more than just smacking things with a sword, there's strategy and quick thinking and graceful movements. there's tracking prey, understanding how it thinks, knowing its habits, waiting for the right moment to strike. she once asked about the kind of weapon he uses and whether it was a longsword or a greatsword and the answer was a rant so intensely autistic hyperfixation-like she was positively starry-eyed. she likes that side of him.

at the same time, there's also something she doesn't consciously realize or is unwilling to admit to herself, but for the longest time she sees him as a kind of project. she's been raised in a pretty isolated way, the summit has her learn to apply her knowledge and influence outside of books and debates and there's a huge power rush in that, in being able to influence someone like him, nudge him to be something better. it's very patronising and naive, even if it comes from a place of good intentions.

it's really only after shit goes completely sideways with the exile and the long and humiliating road back to jiyel when they're both thrust completely outside of their comfort zones that things really change for them and lien hua realizes her feelings aren't so… easily categorized. that it catches up to her that maybe you don't really put yourself between someone and an angry mob just because they're a funny project for you to fix. they're both completely out of their element - jarrod stripped of his power and title and everything he was taught to believe was owed to him, lien hua's unshakeable belief that no matter what at least she's SMART having completely blown up in her face because her machiavellian plan of fixing everything went to hell - and forced to lower their defenses and really rely on eachother, plus a nice heaping of trauma bonding on top and… things happen :3c

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thank youuuu for reading all this and i hope it helps, if i can clarify anything further still just ask 🙏

[batbeato]

What would be your thoughts on George if he was transgender? I'm curious, because a very very very large part of his upbringing was Eva attempting to outdo Krauss in, if not being the perfect heir, raising one and, usually, I think I've only seen portrayals and analysis of what that would mean for Battler and Jessica.

You have one of the best (at least in my opinion) understandings of the characters, and I read your Jessie+Yukari fic (and they were...so...cute! Also, good on Krauss and Asumu, there!), so I was wondering what you thought of this scenario.

I'm afraid I don't have a very good grasp on George's character, but he seems to have had a pretty strict upbringing in regards to his education. Being raised to become the perfect heir would also meaning confirming to the gender role of a man - even though he (she?) wouldn't truly feel that way. Or alternatively, be so deep in denial, actively wading into the closet so far back s/he ends up in Narnia.

As much as Eva loves George, I don't think she'd react well to him being transgender. Considering...everything, especially in the Ushiromiya family. This sounded more thought out in my head, but it's all kind of bleeeehh written out, sorry! I wanted to ramble more and my mind just went absolutely blank.

Thank you for your faith, ahaha. Not sure it is merited but I appreciate it <3

Honestly, I feel like George being trans would be... very difficult for their family to accept. Like, Eva loves her son a lot, and she worries a lot about forcing George to be the "perfect Head", but in the end despite her worries she still gave George a very strict upbringing and George is a lot closer to his easygoing father than he is to his very strict mother (who also wants to arrange a marriage for him). He doesn't even clearly express that he isn't interested in an arranged marriage to Eva. He just plans to spring his engagement with Shannon on her and everyone else in the family. A big public show of things, probably to make sure Eva has less of a chance to force him to change his mind or marry someone else. It's... not really the actions of a person who trusts his family to be normal about him disobeying expectations.

If George was trans I can imagine them repressing it, because they were raised with a lot of stuff about gender roles and misogyny and just. Yeah. I can imagine their relationship with Shannon being a sort of "look, I can be Normal, I am definitely a Man who loves Women" (is actually a trans lesbian using attraction to women to deny transness). Would add an extra layer of "fucked up" to the whole thing where the jealousy of Battler is more about Battler being a man (something they're supposed to be but aren't deep down) and being jealous of Jessica is about Jessica being an open tomboy not conforming to gender norms or expectations of being a proper lady (ignoring or just being ignorant of the fact that Natsuhi punishes her for it, or just that Jessica can keep being a tomboy in spite of Natsuhi's disapproval/punishment).

I just feel like George... wouldn't be open about it. At all. Not even to Shannon. Another tragedy of Rokkenjima where if only people had opened up they'd have found they weren't alone in the terrible misogynistic patriarchal society they feel so trapped and lonely in. And it would probably fuel George attempting to fit into the masculine, patriarchal expectations where they're supposed to take this leading role of a provider/leader and treat women a certain (terrible) way and they're trying very hard to fit those expectations to the point where they're blind to how it hurts Sayo even as they try to improve and self-reflect because it's ultimately a defense mechanism to hide their transness and perceived 'otherness'. Lots of internalized transphobia there.

[pertinax--loculos]

Re: The Job

First of all, I have to say thank you so much to everybody who congratulated me on the new job, gave me good vibes when I was freaking out about it, all that -- basically everybody on here who took a moment to wish me luck or congratulate me, you guys give me life. <3

So I start on Friday (ahh!) and given that there's a Cert IV involved, the next 54 weeks of my life are essentially planned out (AHHHHH!). So that's not terrifying or claustrophobic or anything ahaha... ha. I'm sure I'll get used to it; this job pays a lot of money for something you can enter unskilled as a 'mature age' person, so I'm very keen to take full advantage of it.

With that being said: NaNo.

So I was planning to do NaNoWriMo this year (because I'd convinced myself I wouldn't get The Job, because the expectation of failure hurts less than hope), and I was feeling kinda keen about it because I have Psyche Shards pretty much fully zero-outlined.

(And guys, I actually think this could be a really cool story. There's this particular conceit about it that's going to be difficult to pull off, but with the planning I've done I'm pretty sure I can do it. And I think it'll make it a really engaging read with some pretty awesome reveals and whatnot at the end. I'm kinda excited about it.)

Now, I'm going to be working full time for the first time in... almost ten years (!), so I don't really wanna set up 50k as a goal. When I'm in the flow I can write that easily in a month (see: writing ~190k in just over a hundred days for ATN), but I don't know how I'm going to cope with the fulltime hours.

But, I also think it would be a good opportunity to set a writing habit with the new Job, rather than letting it fall by the wayside. So, at the moment, I'm thinking I'm gonna set a writing time per day (ie one hour), use the hype of NaNo on here to help me get into the groove, and let the wordcount fall where it may.

(I was really tempted to give @winterandwords's CalmWriMo a go, too, and I may still do that for the community feel. We'll see!)

But yes! I'm sorry this got long and rambly (no surprise there 🙄) but that is my current thoughts re: writing and everything else that's going on in my life.

If you go this far, feel free to come tell me what your plans for NaNo are! I'm trying to catch up with everybody but I'm semi-overwhelmed with everything so direct interaction will probably be the best way to get me haha.

Regardless, I hope everybody's going well, and that the words flow true and easy. ^_^

[citrus-cactus]

Howdy, all! I can't post my art summary quite yet because it contains part of someone's Secret Santa gift, so I thought I would fill out the fic summary template created by @reliablejoukido (see her original post here!). Even though I didn't publish (or finish!) much, I did start writing again this year, and that feels like a huge accomplishment, so it seemed like it would be fun to look back and talk a little bit about what I have in the works.

First, the finished fic!

My er... grand return to writing (I wouldn't call it that, but I did have a lot of fun writing and drawing for it, even if it took 6+ months from start to finish ^^;). I love these three characters as a trio so much. It was really hard to pull out a quote I liked and have it make sense in context, so I put the summary in there... but since I brought it up in another post, I thought I'd share what one of my editing drafts looks like:

(ok, so maybe not the tiniest font imaginable, but sometimes there are cross-outs to the cross-outs and sometimes I DO run out of room near troublesome paragraphs and in the margins!)

Now, onto WIPs!

Hmm, well! That sure is a title, isn't it? ;) I wanted to write Junzumi and came up with this idea late last year, and finally started trying to figure it out. It's meant to be fun and flirty and a bit awkward, but the ultimate goal is to be kind to JP, because he (and his body) are given so little love overall. And even though JP and Zoe are not actually hooking up in this fic, it is meant to show the relationship between the two of them in college, and how they could start going from friendship to dating. There IS nudity, but it's meant to be tasteful and respectful, I promise!

Oof. I haven't forgotten this fic, I swear (even though I published Chapter 4 three years ago!). I got really excited to work on it earlier this year (flush with success from actually publishing something, rotfl!) and then let it continue to languish (orz). Upon reflection, the reason it's been stalled is I was having a hard time figuring out the flow of action, but after re-outlining it in September I think I know now what Maki needs to be doing in order to experience the emotions I always meant her to be feeling in this chapter. And yes, she and Meiko meet (yay!).

Chapter 6 has been done for YEARS, and Chapter 7's probably pretty close to done as well, so it really is just this chapter being the hold-up.

AKA, Garg Fic #1. Been mulling over ideas for fic for this fandom all summer, and finally decided to write one based on some minor characters from the SLG comics (that I didn't even read, and can't read now because they're out of print). But I AM reading the new Dark Ages comics, and I'm proving to be a really good guesser about certain details, so actually, I feel INCREDIBLY validated about my original vision and characterization, ahaha.

As you may be able to tell from the quote selection, this is not a happy story. But I believe it's a story worth telling. It's about preserving customs in the face of tragedy, and mourning, and extinction, and love.

AKA, the thing that pulled me away from writing Garg Fic #1. I was possessed. I was writing something in my head about Macbeth's relationship with Demona this summer, and suddenly (VERY suddenly) it morphed into this. Dang, but they're fun to think about. This fic is weird, it will contain one MAJOR narrative trope/cliche, and it's definitely going to be NSFW if I end up getting that far. But I reeeeeeally like this paragraph I wrote for it XD

Thanks for the template Zuz, and thanks to everyone else for letting me ramble about writing! See you again for the art roundup!

[nikkippy]

Kalim x reader | Love Letter -ラブレター (YOASOBI)

Author's note: after chapter 4, i dont know what im doing, anyway your honor kalim is in love with the prefect exibit a is his valentine's letter (who starts it off with 'hey love' ?!! from his first valentine card) exibit b is that he trusts us in chap 5 and tells us his insecurities (? idk i read that a long time ago might just be making it up)

GN pronouns (they/them), reader is the prefect yuu, also! if possible, do read it while listening to love letter by YOASOBI, it's inspired by that song. reader doesn't really show up (might make a part 2 tho where they actually show up and react to the letter or smth)

Summary: Kalim ends up talking with Silver about his crush so Silver tries to help him out (with his old man's courting techniques)

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Decorations everywhere, pillows all around, enough to make a mess out of the room. Some of the animals who'd freed themselves amidst the chaos roamed the dorm

"Ahaha! Look Jamil, the elephants are playing around the fountain!"

Kalim says, an enthusiastic smile on his face, as Jamil huffs out "Kalim! Not now!" while trying to take care of all the animals

On the corner of his eye, Kalim sees a parrot flying outside and going through the mirror. Thinking that going after the bird could lessen his friend's burden, he went for it, warning Jamil with a simple "I'll be back soon" (to which Jamil replied "wait, Kalim!") he runs out the dorm, following the bird

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Outside, he sees it flying to a more calm and shaded place, seemingly dazed, he lands atop of a sleeping man with silver hair and a calm aura

Looking closer, he noticed the male was a friend of his, namely Silver, like his hair and eyes. He tries to wake him gently to not scare the parrot and after much struggle, the male finally opens his eyes, letting a soft 'huh' out as he looks in Kalim's direction

"Ah! You finally woke up Silver!"

"Hm? Ah yeah, thank you Kalim, I must've fallen asleep again" he answers, still waking up by the looks of it "Hey Silver, if you don't mind, would you like to come to my party?"

"Party? When is it?"

"Well" Kalim replies "It's today! Around 6 pm! Think you can come?"

"Hmm" Silver thinks "Maybe another day, but I can help in the meantime" helping the male get up, Kalim says "Thanks! I have a feeling you're good with animals so I'm sure you'll help a lot"

Making small talk on the way back, they end up talking about what happened so far, and mostly, about the prefect

"The prefect is really nice! They helped me so many times and are a precious friend of mine" Kalim keeps going on and on about the prefect of ramshackle "I see, they seem like a lovely person, you talk very foundly of them, Kalim" Silver slightly intervenes, putting a stop to Kalim's excited ramble. Still, Kalim continues "Yeah! They saved me and helped me when I was at my lowest, I really treasure them, they're more precious than any of my jewels!"

"Hmm, hey Kalim, do you like the prefect?" Silver asks to a beaming Kalim "Huh? Ah of course, I already said it but they're a really good friend"

"No, like" Silver continues "Are you perhaps in love with them?" He asls straigh away to a now slightly blushing Kalim "Eh?! Umm, I haven't thought in that way"

After some time, Kalim exclaims "Yeah! I like them!"

"That's nice to hear, do you have any plans to court them? I remember the ol- I mean, father teaching me about it"

"Courting? I mean, as a son of the Asim family, they do teach some things but I never paid attention, I was always daydreaming" Kalim replies with a smile. "Then" Silver proposes "Would like me to help? Although I may not have the best advice, I do think I can help with the matter"

"I'll be counting on you then, Silver! Maan, I feel I'm using you at this point, sorry" He apologizes, but Silver denies "It's fine, I'm the one offering help, besides, I don't mind it"

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When they reached the Scarabia Dorm, both men went inside and organized everything to the best of their abilites, with mostly Jamil taking care of everything. After managing everythin out, Jamil brought some drinks and snacks for the others, excusing himself to finish the last preparations for the party

Now alone, Silver starts out "Maybe you should sing them something"

"Like a love song?" Kalim inquires "But I'm not sure I can do it right away, if possible I'd like to do it as soon as possible, and the party will starin a few hours"

"Well then, how about a love letter instead? You can still show them your love with your words, just in a different way"

"Oh! Nice idea, Silver!" And so, Kalim started writing

Hey love

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[tathrin]

i’m so in love with your AU, especially the parts where Gimli is being influenced / hearing the whispers of his ring!! i love hearing Gimli’s inner workings and thoughts as he’s further being corrupted. im not sure where I got the idea that dwarves are more resilient to the influence of the ring (not sure if this is from canon or fanon or just vibes ach) but it’s really fascinating to read your story with the thought that dwarves are resilient (ESPECIALLY GIMLI!!! the knight in shining armour who in the movies literally immediately tried to destroy the ring) and seeing just how far gone Gimli has gone to justify the corruption to himself. its like Gimli is an unmoveable rock and his ring Knows This, so it has chipped away at him slowly, until he withered away and has become something unrecognisable. given what it took for legolas to recognise gimli fully and completely (him taking off his ring) it seems this is already in effect!! but somehow though despite the corruption and the pain going on here i still Trust gimli, isn’t that insane? 😅 it’s like yeah he’s definitely being influenced by evil energy and yeah he’s committed war crimes but also he’s Gimli so that’s okay 🫶 no but in all honesty i feel like how legolas did first seeing him, couldn’t recognise him at first but once i did i flinched back in fear at the dark lord of erebor i saw!! (but also i just feel like when it comes to gimli i cant lose hope!) maybe he snaps out of the evil influence, maybe he falls further into its hold!! who knows what’s gonna happen in this AU? cant wait to read more! <3 (also many apologies for the HUGE chunk of text 😅)

Oh my gods don’t APOLOGIZE for this, I am flailing over it. I am writhing on the floor making happy screams. Thank you ahhhh I am so glad you like it, thank you! And I’m going to respond by rambling my ass off at you, so I hope you don’t regret it too much ahaha. But like. yes! Gimli IS the knight in shining armor! The unmovable rock! The incorruptible pillar! But now...

Well, now I have to justify a dark take on him in this weird-ass AU idea that bopped me on the head out of nowhere lmao. So I’m going to just gush my thoughts out at you incoherently, and see if I can A: get them a little more concrete in my head and B: see what you think! (This is what you get for engaging with me I’m so sorry. You stuck your finger through the cage and now I’m gnawing on it excitedly lol.)

You’re right about Dwarves and the Rings btw, the original Seven Rings couldn’t corrupt the Dwarves the way they did Men (no Ringwraithdwarves lol) they basically just gave them Severe Goldsickness, iirc. But! it’s not gold that Gimli wants! Over him gold shall have no dominion. So that wouldn’t be a very viable way of getting to his heart, silly Ring. So basically where my head went was, the Rings work by corrupting a person’s goodness not by just like. mustache twirling mwa-ha-ha evilness, right? They get to you by offering you what you want, not what the Dark Lord wants; that’s how they hook you, anyway, and then it shifts and drags you down with it into what It wants...but that’s how it starts.

With Frodo, the way the Ring got to him was through him showing Gollum mercy, basically: the whole “I won’t kill you, but if you attack me again you’ll be thrown into fire!” thing. Sure it was wearing him down all along in little ways, but that was where the Ring got its final major defining “in” with him. With Boromir, it was “hey do you want strength to defend your city?” and yeah, of course he does! Who wouldn’t? That’s a viable desire!

So with Gimli, Durin’s Ring has really been working with not a lot so far, tbh.

It’s certainly been enacting influence! Twisting, corrupting, cajoling; chipping away, as you said. A year ago, he wouldn’t have been able to bring himself to do X...but a year ago, he had to do Y. And doing Y makes doing X easier to bear; that’s how corruption works. And the Ring has certainly been working hard. But it just hasn’t been able to get much of a grip.

Because Gimli is compromising his sense of right and wrong for the sake of the greater good, sure; but that was less about the Ring on his hand luring him in than it was about the fact that all of Middle-earth has been conquered by a Dark Lord, so there are no good choices left. Do you defy Gondor and watch your people be slaughtered on the altar of your pride? Or do you bend your knee and try to keep them alive as best you can? Gimli chose the latter, and that’s led to a terrible (and slowly corrupting) struggle, because he has to side with evil “for the sake of his people” and accept, allow, and sometimes even order evil things done, and there’s no good way off that road to hell once you start walking it (especially in Tolkien) — but he hasn’t really needed (or wanted) the power of the Ring. Yet.

Now all of a sudden here’s Legolas in chains before him, and elves are the one thing in Middle-earth who don’t get the option of “bend your knee to the bad guy and live, or defy him and die” — for them, it’s just die. And of course Gimli doesn’t want to stand back and watch Legolas die. But maybe Gimli can save him! He’s the Lord of Erebor! He has a Ring of Power! He should be able to do something to save him...right!?

And that’s how the Ring is (finally!) getting its big “in” with him here.

He’s already compromised himself so much, he thinks; he’s already got so much blood on his hands, spilt to save his people. He’s watched children in Dale starve, because he doesn’t dare give them food the Dark Lord doesn’t think their people have earned. He’s watched Mirkwood burn and stood behind his walls and done nothing. He’s let elves be worked to death in his mines. He’s accepted a Ring of Power, and all it’s done has been to leave him even more powerless than before. He’s stood back while good people were executed, because nothing he said could have saved them and daring to try would have only made more trouble for the people depending on him. He’s pledged his allegiance, and that of his people, to a monster for the sake of making sure the dwarves who rely on him live to see another day. He’s already damned. So what else does he have to lose?

Well. Legolas’s life, as it turns out. And if the Ring can save him...well.

Gimli is such a good, strong person. He’s never wanted power for himself, or lordship, or anything like that. He just wants to save people, to protect them. And just like with Boromir, the Ring is going to offer him the power to do that, and that might be what pushes him over the edge from slowly damning himself by making the best of increasingly bad choices...to falling off the edge into total darkness.

But we’ll see! I have no idea where this story is going to go, so maybe it’ll be a story of salvation! Or maybe it won’t. We get to find out together. Yay?

[novarhetta]

I think I'm going to start posting my short stories and writings here on top of my WH sketches and ideas. Too often have I written a story that just sits in my documents collecting dust. Even if they're not amazing, it feels like such a shame that they're left unloved and neglected.

And so! I shall share. If by chance you do enjoy them, please let me know! It warms my heart greatly when my creations are appreciated by a stranger.

To add to that! If you DO enjoy my creations and have a question, a prompt, or anything you'd like to see in my style, please do not hesitate to send me a message or an Ask! More often than not, my ideas are fuelled by the questions of others.

Ahaha, this turned into a bit of a ramble! If you've read this far, thank you, and I appreciate you! You're an amazing person! I hope your day is simply the most!

[rnisa]

What’s your take on A and B’s backstory? Especially A, how do you characterize him? Also please accept my drawing of them!

WAIT HOLY SH-

I WASN'T EXPECTING THIS AT ALL!!! Your artwork is REALLY fucking good. Your lighting and shading is off the charts - especially the gradient effect, that's something I really like to see. I love how you draw masculine features, the eyes came out very nice. Also thank you for your question, I apologize for the hell you've unleashed as I just do not stop talking -- Warnings for way too much nonsensical rambling ahaha. Anyways, my thoughts are below, what are yours?

As far as A's backstory, I sadly have not put much thought into it. I can't recall if it was confirmed A was male or female but I liked to think A was female, as a break from the 90% male cast, honestly. I feel very badly for A. As someone who has struggled with s*icide ideation growing up, it always hurts my heart when young children go through with it. Words can't express the feeling... no child should be pushed to that breaking point. Anyways, A was deeply troubled and had so much pressure, and clearly they saw no way out of their situation. They saw death as their only 'freedom'. Wammy's doesn't sound like the most ethically-run place, but I'll save my thoughts on that for another day.

The only thoughts I have are that I do believe B loved A - for no reason other than I love a traumatic love story. It was unrequited, but B didn't care - he loved A and didn't need A to love him back. He was happy just being around A and was perfectly fine being "best friends forever". I wouldn't even classify it as romantic love, just...you genuinely and unapologetically love this person, and love having them in your life, no matter how that is. No...this love wasn't just black-and-white. Sorry if I'm not making, any sense.

Other than that, I haven't thought of A all that much - so if you have any headcanons, please feel free to submit them. I encourage it and I'd love to read it. Or just @ me in your own posts about it so I could not miss it, if you'd like.

As far as B goes, my thoughts on him have changed quite a bit since re-reading LABB (I had done some headcanons about a month ago before refreshing my memory, so some things I said, I'd like to take back). We know that B was born with the Eyes, but of course, there's no way he could have known what they were, so it took him a while to really understand what it meant. Let's assume by now, he's seen enough death in his life - even indirectly so, such as watching the news - and being as smart as he is, was able to figure out that he was special. At first, before he figured out that seeing numbers and names above peoples' heads wasn't normal, he creeped out his parents by asking, "What do those numbers mean?". He was taken to a few doctors before realizing that it wasn't normal, and at least once was being medicated for a mental illness he didn't actually have. Eventually, once he learned that what he could see was not normal, he lies by admitting that he was just joking. After all, he didn't want to be locked away. Just knowing that he was special, and nobody around him could understand, would be enough to torment anyone. I do think that B felt completely and utterly alone.

I feel like his parents had a strained relationship and at least one of them wasn't around much - I'd like to think he didn't feel much when one of the two died - but the other, he begged not to leave, not to go outside that day, and...well, they did. He felt cursed. He knew that there was something supernatural about him. He had no knowledge of the Death Note, of the existence of Shinigami, but he was just...different.

Now of course, he felt crazy. Part of him wondered if he really was sick, in some way, but what could he do? He struggled. And then, he was taken to Wammy's. The place for "gifted children". Now, we have no backstory of how Wammy found ANY of these goddamned kids, but let me pull something out of my ass real quick for B. I honestly think that he might have specifically requested, if not traveled by foot to the orphanage itself and said, "I'm special, let me live here." If anything, because he had nobody else to take him in. I think he'd do what he could to prove his worth and live there, but either way, Wammy noticed something special was about him. He didn't tell Wammy that he could see lifespans, or see names. He just pulls up saying his full, real name and that was enough to both unnerve and make Wammy curious. B was special after all, so he took him in. The orphanage wasn't great, but it was a place to stay. He'd have food, shelter, and access to comforts he didn't even have while his parents were alive.

And then he met A. As B climbs up the ranks, it's clear he's the "backup". In case A fails. B honestly, didn't care for L at first. He didn't give a single shit, he wanted his own path. What that is, is up to you - but he did not plan on becoming L.

I think B had always been drawn to violence. He'd always been curious about death and by this point, was not afraid of it. His fascination had him buying books, searching the internet, for gore...all in the name of science. He was intrigued by what the human body was capable of, the various stages of decomposition... he was a strange one. If it weren't for Wammy's and the whole L thing, I think he'd've gone on to become an incredible surgeon. Gore, death and blood were not frightening to him, it didn't make his stomach churn. Sure he'd enjoy helping people, but the opportunity to cut people up wasn't all that bad to him either. He'd enjoy the work.

As we know, that isn't how things play out, and he becomes a serial killer...I think A's death was his final tipping point. The final event that just...caused him to snap. He hated L. He hated how A killed themself while trying to become good enough for L. B loved A, and would never forgive L.

[littlelasagne]

May I ask how old are you? Bmo is so great and sometimes I think the words that you use are mature. The idea of the fic also seems like the writer has experienced and learnt a lot in her life. Does that make sense? I don't know how to describe it but yeah something like that 🤣

Hey 🌸

Hahah I get what you're saying. I'm 28 years young. 😎

I'll take this all as a compliment lol! I honestly don't think my word choices are all that mature!! There are times that I've tried to express complex ideas, but I am aware of using clear language in those cases. I also don't think I've experienced anything particularly extraordinary, or more than the average person.

Rambly spew of thoughts below...

I don't think being older automatically means you're a better writer. You could be 85 and have lived the most interesting and unique life, but lack the skills to translate those experiences into a convincing, entertaining story.

Similarly, a 12 year old could have amazing technical writing skills better than an adult writer, but lack the experience that naturally comes through growing older and experiencing life's ups and downs.

That's not meant to be discouraging. Writing is a skill that takes a lot of practice, there are trials and errors, frustrations and successes. All of which comes in time and anyone willing to put the effort in will get better, whether for fanfic or original writing.

'Read, write, live' is the live laugh love of writing advice, but it's pretty solid. It covers all the basics: reading helps you learn to how to write, writing makes you stretch those skills, and living and ~experiencing things~, being curious and open-minded helps you create more realistic and interesting characters and stories.

My writing is far from perfect, I know I have a loooooooot to improve on and I know my writing is probs not to everyone's tastes and I accept that. For the time being, I'm having fun with fanfic. 😊 I think I have grown a lot as a writer and editor over the course of writing BMO.

One of the things I set out to do when writing BMO was to make Levihan feel like real people. So I put a lot of effort into making them feel natural and believable. If you've read my fics, please know that I've spent hundreds (the last time I checked before my laptop died in summer, it was just over 1,000 so idk how many it is now) of hours researching, writing, editing and proofreading to get that result!!

There is no magic trick, no shortcut. It's hard work, my brain is exhausted after work, I get totally stuck and lost on how to progress and edit a paragraph. It is a struggle (hence how long it takes to update these days😅) to juggle everything, but I do still love writing fanfic. Nothing beats the feeling of satisfaction when you nail a sentence or finally put what you're thinking into words. And I love levihan and snk just as much as when I started.

Ok, that was a bit of a ramble, but mostly relevant to the ask, I think 🤣. I don't have the energy to be coherent right now ahaha. To answer your question, I'm 28 lol.

I appreciate you sharing your thoughts, whoever you are anon! 🥰💕 Thank you for reading my writing! Are you a writer too? Happy to chat writing if you ever wanted to. 😊

[ruki--mukami]

Let me just say that open interactions on your blog are such a great idea! It's so interesting to see how the same starter develops a completely different story depending on the character Ruki is interacting it and their previous dynamics.

As a reader, I just wish some of them could sometimes last longer as some stories are just dropped in the middle.

Anyway, I am having enormous fun!

🧩 Thank you so much, Anon!! I’m glad to hear that you, as a reader, have been enjoying the open interactions and have fun reading them. I’m well aware some people who follow my blog might follow for one or the other (asks vs. rp reblogs) but I’m elated if there are people who are content with even just reading the replies that I have written for each person and their OC. 

It’s definitely a fantastic way for me to both indulge myself in settings I’ve always wanted to see Ruki in while also furthering his relationships with other characters. And it’s also quite the fun challenge to write it in a way that would make sense for each dynamic to respond to. For instance, I wouldn’t want an academy scenario since I know not everyone goes to school. Especially with the scars this time around. I tried writing that sentence in particular so that it could potentially be a big deal, or it might just be any ordinary day if the OC has already seen him exposed before (i.e., love interests he has been interacting with since forever).  

It’s also more entertaining for me, as a writer, to keep each plot different, just because writing the same exact story each time gets dry for me very quickly. Furthermore, it’s fun for me to incorporate traits specific to each OC that Ruki can comment on (in hindsight, there were some missed opportunities that I regret but oh well—that’s what the second round of replies is for!) just like how I write my asks. I try to write each answer in a way that, if taken out of context, it wouldn’t make sense for any other scenario/character because that’s just how unique they are. From his lovers to the people he only interacted with a few times, I’m always excited to see how the plot will turn out. 

Sorry for rambling—all these factors that go into each response are just very fun for me to explore. I have a little criteria checklist in my head each time I write in general, so the open interactions add a new level of challenge for me. But seriously, Anon, I commend you if you truly take the time to read each thread in full—I honestly didn’t expect anyone to go that far, ahaha. I regret how the stories seem to drop in the middle as well (trust me—I probably only finish about 1% of my rp threads, the rest end in cliffhangers due to my own fault💀✋) but that’s because I try to reply to everyone in a timely manner while not leaving anyone out (to those I still haven’t replied to yet, I’m so sorry I swear I’m not ignoring you—it’s just a poor time management+sporadic motivation issue, if it’s something personal, you would know by now since I like to be transparent). 

For the people I do roleplay with, please don’t hesitate to let me know if there is a particular thread you’d like me to prioritize. My system right now is currently: reply to the open interactions + those who didn’t partake and have their own thread so that I can still interact with everyone. There have been times when I considered prioritizing writing speed > quality for the sake of finishing the stories, but as someone who enjoys taking my time and writing things poetically, I prefer to make sure everything sounds acceptable before hitting reply, rather than writing whatever idea comes to mind then sending it off without any revision. 

Anyway—TL;DR, I’m ecstatic to hear you’re having as much fun as I am with this, and for those who partake in not only my open interactions but just anything to do with my blog in general, thank you so much. It’s always a joy to rp with everyone and I look forward to helping everyone develop their characters as someone who runs a canon blog. Also I haven’t forgotten about the previous open interaction and hope to reply to those when I get home from my outing currently. 🧩

[king-psycholyze]

Context coming right up ! Buckle up this gotta bit long @ The second ask, yes ! This does have a small connection to that post, but the idea is a big more refined now. For anyone confused :

This initially happened because I kept all my practice sketches grouped up and they ended up looking like they went together, so I formed an idea and branched off of it- A Rebirth Headcanon or AU ! When Phil dies, rather than becoming a ghost, he starts over- 'new' body, random location and timeline- Bam, Watson in The Pit. Usually Phil is painted as the immortal, but I took a spin from this and applied that to Techno, considering Technoblade never dies- Bam, famous Gladiator of The Pit, The Blade ! Phil randomly disappearing? Part of this HC/AU thing is I went "Hey, what if Phil was out one night during a blizzard, gets trapped under ice and dies or something? Ahaha- Techno would never know" Because angst is fun sometimes {= So essentially > Phil disappeared one night, to Techno's understanding he just went on his own way, it's not like they hadn't parted ways before in the past- thus not knowing his friend actually had died. > Enter Phil is now Watson, far in the future around the time The Pit takes place, and Techno is a famous Gladiator known to be undefeated. > The rest is unwritten / a mess but hello that is the idea. Also considering AU/HC stuff with Ran & Watson I had rambled about before too this is gonna turn into a huge mess I need to clean up- Who knows, I may make a fic if you guys want, considering there's just 1 more week left of this semester, which would leave me with plenty of free time to work on it- and then I could draw out scenes better woop. Thanks for reading I essentially just started rambling and didn't go back to proof read WOOP

[glassesblu]

haxorus and chandalure if you dont mind? :>

Hi Anon, thanks for the ask! My pleasure to answer

[haxorus] do you think they hide their relationship? if so, does it bother either of them?

I change day to day cause I like different scenarios THOUGH I have to say i’m a fan of secrets and guilt and some angst here and there haha. Let me ramble unstructuredly and let is see where it takes us.

I do think the long term subway employees kinda know or just feel that its true? And they don’t really care - the bosses are good people, fair enough bosses, pretty enthusiastic and hardworking, but mostly take on extra stuff themselves (probably cause they want to?) but that usually leads to the other employees wanting to even out the work load and things get done pretty efficiently in the end. I don’t think the lads ever let the employees know explicitly - they’re pretty crisp and professional after all. But maybe they feel like the employees don’t know when they do lol.

Their friends kinda know too I guess, but yknow I don’t know much about how it feels to want to be lovey dovey in public :think_emoji: I do think they’re not touchy at all with other people, but kinda naturally touchy with each other in incredibly casual ways? And that it’s sort of like a life long thing they’ve developed even in the start with their brotherly relationship. Though I do think they are aware of some ways other people view touch. Sometimes they don’t think about it though.

I think in OG age difference AU, Yemmet is more obviously into Oingo, I mean in the sense like INGO is BACK and I will LOOK at him and you cant stop me!!! and Old Ingo is just, Oh? heheh :) THOUGH He does like propriety and professionalism in the subway, EMMET Please Behave! I don’t think in this AU they’re that secretive if they had a bit of a lovey relationship pre-disappearance. This will get way too long if I try and live-think about confession post-PLA so let’s move on for now o3o

I think in reverse!agesAU, they aren’t keeping it a secret neither I think - but they’re pretty private about it. They’re both worried they’re not right for the other, and like take a lot of steps getting closer in their own home. I think when they are more confident at accepting love from each other, they might go on low key private dates, or far away trips so they can enjoy each other’s company doing new things.

[chandelure] which one do you think most likely initiated their relationship? how?

Im also a bit loosey goosey with headcanons here :P So let me livethink and ramble.

I do enjoy the idea that it just feels so natural to them that for a bit they didn’t even think about the progression? They have always liked to snuggle, they always do everything together, and their twinliness as youths made them look pretty cute and endearing to most people. I mostly think about them as 30+ year old men haha so my ideas about them as teens are limited, but thats always such a transitional stage yeah?

Ingo feeling guilty or worried about scorn hurting his brother... I love it. Make him feel guilty!!!  (check out ‘in a gray area’ by anon OAO!) Ahaha if we go with that version of Ingo, I like thinking that they already kind of in the ‘vague zone’ of a relationship, and he maybe tries to put some distance between them. Which in turn upsets Emmet, and that upsets Ingo, then they just get pulled back stronger into their twin star orbits.

I think in reverse!agesAU, Ingo is actually the one to initiate some of their stuff. Mostly in talking though and actively spending time with Emmet (who’s like, oh yeah I forgot how to do that). Though I do subscribe to what @belltrigger said in collar where they haven’t been physically close for a bit after Ingo gets back (in any sense of that, and Emmet initiates in that fic).

I could live think more but it will get long! Cause im indecisive and enjoy exploring different versions!

Ta, thank you for reading

[prince-simon]

HEYYY,

i wanna start by saying that i absolutely love PSCU and all of my friends will testify that i can’t go a day without somehow bringing it up😅

What i’d love to read is of course the wedding (of course with the churros cake; Simon definitely deserves that one), especially like the moment of Wille walking down the aisle (i’m just assuming that that’s how it’s gonna be). Then of course i’d love to read some more smut, because you have such an amazing way of writing it. I’m asexual, so sex is far out my personal comfort zone and reading/seeing it usually makes me really uncomfortable and low key makes me spiral in anxiety. But the PSCU smut is incredibly well written and i absolutely love their dynamic and communication (it feels like something i’d want to experience with a partner). Everything feels so natural and organic, plus the emotions and sensations are so perfectly described (like their thoughts getting less and less because they just can’t form a coherent thought anymore, etc.) that reading those parts has from the get go been, and still is (i’ve read the scenes, aka mainly chapter 12, A LOT of times at this point😅), an amazing experience that doesn’t make me anxious or makes me feel weird. So please more of that!

So conclusion of my little ramble: you’re absolutely stunning and i love you and what you’ve created❤️😌

PS: maybe we can also get some more insta pics (because long hair omar supremacy)?

— Mj💕

hiii mj!!

omg you're talking about this to your friends??? that's so wild to me aaahhh

the fact that i've already written the wedding scene in like september ahaha granted there needs to be a lot of reworking bc characters made different choices that's gonna influence this but i am so incredibly excited for it too oh my god it's gonna be so emotional!!

also holy shit that's such a huge compliment? i'm so glad you feel comfortable reading my smut! their feelings towards each other and the emotions in the moment are always so so important to me and i'm so happy that makes it good for you! there's definitely gonna be more of that ;)

there's definitely gonna be more insta pics too! i do enjoy creating them a whole lot hahah

thank you so much friend ilyyyy 💗

[inkykeiji]

Omg Wuthering Heights! I actually did like that book a lot and read it in high school. If you like that one, I think Great Expectations can be a good read. I think other books I enjoyed that is part of classical/well known literature is Great Gatsby, Ethan Frome, and Streetcar Named Desire (they have elements of cheating so drama~). The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn, Bless Me Ultima, and Tuck Everlasting I would say is more fun to read. I think some slightly darker themes were Lord of the Flies and The Crucible. Very old timey books I thought were nice are Macbeth and the Odyssey. All have great perspectives on the social commentary of the time period!

I haven't been able to read any good books since high school and I miss having the time to read them. Sorry for the ramble and thanks for sharing your recommendations Clari💗💗💗

yes yes!!!! oh my fucking god i am LOVING it!!! heathcliff is such a !!!!!!!!! RASCAL and i am totally here for it like i have completely fallen in love with him (because of course i have 🙄🙄🙄 another one of my problematic faves i guess LMAO) but yeah!!! my boyfriend and i actually began reading great expectations but we ended up putting it down and forgot to pick it back up!! i’ll try it again after i finish wuthering heights!! <33

the great gatsby i’ve always been on the fence about and idk why??? i have absolutely no reason to keep avoiding it but i just keep skirting around it hahaha ._. i’ve never read a streetcar named desire but i do LOVE the film!!! huck finn i did read!! the other two i’ve never heard of but i will make a point to look them up!!! (´∀｀)♡

AH lord of the flies has been on my to read list for SO long urgggggg one day i will read that book!!! the crucible i tried in high school and didn’t really like it but i was quite young at the time so i might enjoy it more now! oh my goshhh hahaha i have never attempted to tackle the odyssey but i have read the iliad! to me, reading ancient literature always feels like eating your vegetables LMAO like you know it’s good for you but goddamn sometimes they are difficult to get through!

i LOVE shakespeare though. like love love love love love shakespeare, i’ve read nearly all of his work!! my favourite shakespeare plays are hamlet, othello, and macbeth!!! his tragedies are by far my most preferred, and then his comedies, and then his histories (his histories are where i’m lacking ahaha D: ) but yeah!!

aw sweetpea i’m sorry to hear that :( because i minored in literature in uni i had to continue reading for my classes, so i think i’m quite lucky in that respect! but it can be difficult to find the time to read especially if lit isn’t ur area of study :( life is hectic!! you’ll find a balance tho <33 give yourself time!! even if you can find just half an hour a week to set aside for reading, as a treat or something, that’s a great start! and omg please don’t apologize!!!!!! i love talking about art, especially film and literature, so!! <33333