#thank you SO MUCH for giving me the chance to ramble

[velveteenoutlaw]

Perchance do you do any headcannons? For rdr2 (specifically morston)

OH HELL YES I DO.

oh gosh this got a little long ok i’m 97k into a Morston longfic, so uhm i just bear with me. i have a lot of thoughts uwu

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I hc John as bi and Arthur as gay (which i wish i saw more of!! he is the gayest bear!!!)

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Before John left, Arthur and him were inseparable. They had their spats and petty fights/arguments, but they respected each other, they were partners. Something akin to Dutch and Hosea's relationship.

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John has had a crush on Arthur since the dawn of time. Like 13-14 year old John was crushing hard, but he didn’t really have a grasp on what those feelings meant.

It was just a cute childhood crush where he likes being around Arthur and maybe trying to impress him a little.

Later teens hit him like a freight train and he struggled to navigate through his feelings for Arthur. Like it’s a fight for his life not to grab Arthur and kiss him, but things like that could get him beat or worse. So he did his best to bottle it up and ignore it.

Arthur is completely oblivious. Literally no clue.

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It's when John is around 20 that Arthur realizes he might care about John a little too much. John isn't a scrawny kid anymore, he's tall and broad and god damn his voice just does something to him.

Of course this scares the ever loving shit out of Arthur. He'd done pretty well at pushing down his attraction towards men, but this was different. John wasn't some stranger on the street, this was his best friend.

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John 100% makes the first move. Despite Arthur also pining for John, he’s way too scared to act on it. Worried John wouldn’t reciprocate, worried that John would hate him for it, or even worse, he might leave again.

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Their dynamic doesn't change much, just a lot less venom behind their banter.

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John is obsessed with Arthur’s beard. He loves the way it feels against his face when they kiss and all but nuzzles up against him. Beard burn is a constant issue for him.

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John is like a goddamn vampire. Any time he can get to Arthur’s neck he takes it. Arthur loves the attention but hates all the marks John leaves.

Arthur’s more conservative about their relationship, and gets flustered when folk around camp tease him about John “marking his territory”.

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John’s scars drive Arthur fucking wild. He loves that scowl John usually has and the scars make him look a little dangerous. Just completely smitten with his face, which John refuses to believe. Arthur loves feeling the scar on John’s lip when they kiss, and can hardly resist trailing a few kisses down the scars on his cheek whenever they’re alone.

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Yeah, they're the cringe trope of "human furnace + always cold". Arthur almost radiates heat, and good god, John's hands are always like ice.

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Arthur loves holding John's hands. He loves kissing his knuckles and trying to warm them up. He'll find himself subconsciously grabbing John's hands, just being a big sap and always wanting to hold them. It always gets him flustered when folk around camp point it out.

He also likes holding John's saddle horn when they ride out together. u//w//u

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Once they're out to the gang they're almost always near each other. The most touching Arthur allows is their shoulders and/or legs touching when they sit by each other, maybe a hand on the other's thigh. John just wants to sit on his lap.

How the rest of the gang reacts

Dutch LOATHES it. He completely and totally hates their relationship. He doesn't like Arthur's loyalty being split. Dutch has to have control over Arthur and he can't handle that slipping, especially to his other child soldier. He pushes back and tries to "talk sense" into Arthur. He calls it foolish and tries to assure both of them it won't last. He "encourages" them to keep it quiet if they insist on being together. 100% tries to break them up.

Hosea does not care. Like at all. He's glad that they're in a position that they can be together, always being on the run ironically keeps them safe. He just wants John to quiet down if they're going to be fucking in camp.

Bill's upset because he's not the hottest bear in camp since Arthur came out. :( AND ARTHUR GETS A SLUTTY-WAISTED TWINK?? WHY DOES ARTHUR GET EVERYTHING?? >:( (he's thinking about making a move on Javier since this gay thing is cool in camp now)

Tilly, Karen, and Mary-Beth are GOSSIPING. The staunch Arthur Morgan has finally settled down and it's with John fucking Marston??

Sean teases John about it whenever he can as Arthur made it very clear this is not something he's joking about. Sean once asked "Why does English keep your ugly mug around?" to which John made eye contact and shoved all four fingers down his throat without gagging. For once in his life, Sean was stunned into silence.

Lenny's allowed a little ribbing with Arthur (much to Sean's dismay). A little nudge and a teasing "Marston, huh?" He doesn't care, and wishes Arthur would quit being so tense about it.

Javier is a little awkward with it. He's unsure how to act around them for awhile, it really bothers John that Javier won't look him in the eye anymore. He wants to ask John about some...stuff, but he's too shy. (he's hoping Bill makes a move on him since this gay thing is cool in camp now)

Micah is with Dutch on this one (shocker), though he's much more outwardly vehement about it. Claims it's a disease, that it's "unnatural". Makes it a point to avoid touching either of them.

Abigail is hurt at first. She had pretty much given up on the idea of her and John reconciling, but it still hurt that the possibility was gone. John had talked to her in private about it, he was stuttering and nervous. She of course cried and yelled at him and told him he was a good-for-nothing dirt bag, but after she was done crying and berating him, she just felt a little empty. Tired. She thought about it for days, and eventually started to come around to the idea. Arthur had begged her for forgiveness, she offered it but told him there was nothing to forgive, everything was okay. She was thankful that somehow the relationship seemed to get John to step up with Jack (Arthur threatened to kick his ass).

18+ nsfw

Arthur is a top through and through. Which works out great because John is a versatile bottom.

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Arthur is a total sap in bed. Kisses, praises, near worship. He’s used to being the thankless workhorse and it’s no different in bed. He loves when John is a pillow princess, just lying on his back looking pretty and breathless. Arthur’s own pleasure is an afterthought, his only goal is to draw out all those pretty sounds from John.

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They're both sappy enough to prefer positions that let them face each other. But John also likes being on his knees so Arthur can pull his hair.

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It took John a while to get used to all the praise (though he has the biggest praise kink ever). All it takes is for Arthur to purr good boy and John is weak in the knees. He still gets a little flustered when Arthur compliments his looks though.

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John literally cannot shut up in bed. Arthur teases him about sounding like an animal (but Arthur lives for all the noise). If John isn’t growling and moaning he’s giving orders; harder, faster, yes!, right there.

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John gets a little irritated sometimes with how slow Arthur wants to go. He has no patience and wants to get right to it while Arthur wants to take his time, making sure John is comfortable and properly prepped.

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John likes it rough. Biting, scratching, hair pulling, spanking, slapping, a little bit of choking ─ Arthur being the only person allowed to put their hands anywhere close to his neck.

John wants to be a drooling, panting, incoherent mess by the time they're done, and Arthur doesn't mind obliging.

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I cannot stress this enough, John is a total cock slut. He loves being on his knees worshipping Arthur. He loves choking on Arthur's dick and watching Arthur come undone and lose his composure while he's sucking him dry.

It was a little difficult for Arthur to get used to the idea that John wanted to blow him, that John gets off on it as much as Arthur does.

Embarrassingly Arthur still doesn't really know what to do with himself, as he's not used to being the one that's getting the pampering and attention. He usually has a hand in John's hair, sometimes petting him, sometimes just resting there to feel the way John's head bobs, sometimes if John's been a good boy he'll take a fistful of his hair and fuck his throat u//w//u

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Despite all that, Arthur is better with his mouth.

Arthur has dick sucking lips. all i'm sayin

thank you for reading!

[shootingstarpilot]

Do you have any advice for writing Mace Windu?

Hello friend! I've been sitting on this for a while, because everyone's got their own interpretations, but mine is based on an idea I was struggling to put words to.

(Caveat that I have not read Legends material, that people can write what they like, etc. etc.)

The way I see it, Lucas specializes in writing stories in terms of themes and archetypes. This is why certain dialogue choices or the development of certain relationships can be... clunky, let's go with that. Characters (Obi-Wan and Anakin fall into their own category, sure) are written primarily as archetypes. You have Yoda as the wise old sage, Sidious as the ultimate evil-

And Mace Windu as the ultimate good.

We see this in the Chancellor's office, right? During the final showdown. This is the moment where Anakin makes his choice- stay in the Light or Fall- and the characters visually representing that choice are Palpatine and Mace. He's the Master of the Order. He's raised a Padawan who sits on the Council with him. He's an incredibly skilled swordsman- hell, his fighting style of choice (Vaapad) epitomizes how clearly he's mastered the art of internal balance!

All of that to say- his whole character is built around the idea that he is the Good Guy. That would be the one piece of writing advice I would give. If you're wondering how to write him, start with that idea- that he is written to represent the absolute opposite of Sidious. He's the ultimate good. He is the illuminating Light to Sidious' corrupting Dark. This is why antagonistic portrayals of him never ring true to me- they're coming from a foundational understanding that I simply do not subscribe to. It reeks of a fundamental misunderstanding of his character and of the whole saga's themes.

(And also racism. I'd be remiss if I didn't mention the racism that too often plays a significant role.)

All of that being said, what might it look like to write from the foundation of Mace being the representation of ultimate good? The good thing about characters being written as archetypes is that it gives us fans a significant amount of freedom in determining what those characters look like when they're written as characters. Different people will have different takes, but for me:

Well, first off- he's the epitome of a Jedi. So all of what that entails- he is fundamentally kind, fundamentally compassionate, and fundamentally in control of himself.

He's funny. I think he has a very dry sense of humor, and that he finds joy in the smallest things.

He loves so much. He loves his Padawan, he loves his friends, he loves his family, he loves the Republic- he loves the galaxy enough to go to war for it, and he loves the men who'll kill his people.

There will never be a situation where he has the capacity to help and chooses not to.

And last but not least, I choose to believe that this man can bake pastries with the best of them. In my heart of hearts, he's a stress baker, and he mends his socks with purple thread.

Hope this helps!

[foggyfanfic]

K, but like I said I love Adelaide. Do you have any headcanons (is it a headcanon if it's your OC?) of Adelaide's physical appearance?

Yeah! No idea if it is a headcanon if it’s my OC , but I do know what references I would use to draw her. The most important thing is her skin is dark enough and has the right tone to hide a blush, so even though teenage Adelaide is constantly drowning in awkwardness and embarrassment, on the outside she looks completely unbothered. Other than that, I saw a random lady on the subway that I thought was just the absolute prettiest girl I’d ever seen, and the world must agree with me because I found a model that looks a lot like her! Adelaide looks like that random subway lady, or like Adut Akech (but very short because she’s Colombian and Cuban). She wears her hair in shoulder length passion twists, since I did a little research and they’re a relatively low maintenance protective style and that seems reasonable for somebody living in an isolated village. Plus I met a customer who had her hair in twists and I loved the way they moved.

[zenruu]

do you think in your canon Alistair ever learns Fiona is his mother?

hi anon!! first of all, thank you so much for asking, i really appreciate it!! 💕

(also i'm so sorry, i did not plan on writing this much. tl;dr: yes)

i have thought about this a lot and wavered on the hows and whys, but i always come back to wanting to make it happen.

so neria leaves to find a cure. a lot of her leads are picked up through her collaborating with avernus and the architect. the architect is obviously well aware of fiona, but i imagine avernus would be too. it'd have to have at least come up in all of his research.

neria would hear about fiona having been cured and start digging because maybe that's the key to her finding a cure herself. between looking at timelines (maric was literally in the deep roads with fiona and co. at the time = goldanna's mother couldn't have been alistair's mother), potential leads for cures (dragons with their resistance -> theirin dragon blood), etc. etc. maybe there's some hypothetical record with the wardens that notes fiona's pregnancy (bc they did try to have her take the joining again, maybe someone looked into possibilities of why it didn't work). even if there's nothing that definitive, i think she would at the very least start heavily theorizing that fiona could be his mother.

and then insert a big blurry area because i can never make up my mind on how i want the precise finding out parts to go. i go back and forth on whether i want neria to talk to fiona and be certain before even mentioning it to alistair, or whether i want her to go to him with her suspicions and then they both confirm it together. if i think about what's most in character for neria, 99% chance she'd be keeping him so updated on every part of her search that it'd be really weird for her to not mention her suspicions (or for him to not start having his own suspicions based on what she's mentioned even if she didn't say it herself)

but! in the end, yes, he does find out. i don't envision it as a fairy tale, tbh... i think it would be kind of painful and awkward all around. regrets and guilt and old wounds that linger. i think the two of them get to a decent place (as much as you really can in such a situation) but i don't think she's super involved in their lives... she does meet the kids, but again, i think it's more like "oh yeah, that's our distant grandma we see once in a rare while. she's nice but she always looks kind of sad for some reason every time we see her."

i think she and alistair both would have a lot of painful, complicated feelings about the whole thing, but the two of them having a really good, close relationship would require a lot of personal healing on both ends plus absolutely incredible communication and i just... don't see that happening, as sad as it is. so while i envision it being a 'positive' relationship, i think there's just always going to be that lingering awkward pain and walls left standing.

i know alistair would try his hardest, but at the end of the day i think fiona's guilt and regrets plus decades of keeping her distance would be too much of a barrier to overcome, even with all of his charm and love poured into it. breaks my heart a bit if i think too hard about it... you long for belonging and a family all your life. you find a woman you love and have kids of your own, and that's great, you're happy! and now, on top of all that, you get to meet your mother! finally! but while she's here physically, she still feels just out of reach.

it hurts 🥲

[bubblingacid]

Destiel for the character opinion

Hiiiiii, thanks for the ask, i just needed another reasonto yap about my tragic babygirls

Dean:

My awful sweet tragic darling boy, i love him more that life itself, he is me, i am him and he's taken up residence in my head and refuses to leave. This man has me cooking up AUs and thinking about his beautiful darling face all the time, I truly can never escape.

I just wished his stupid ass stop self sabotaging and ruining his own damn life. Babygirl, you've defeated god, it's time to actually consider therapy.

Castiel:

I need to squish this bastard like a bug, revive him, kiss him on the mouth and then punch him in the face, only to nurse him to health like a baby bird. I finished s6 recently and I'm mad at this tragic little dumbass. I just want him to be happy goddamnit.

He's honestly one of the most interesting characters ever, like literally so delicious, i love him.

[mobius-m-mobius]

a mr tesseract thought: the tva has so many infinity stones… just sitting there… they might not notice a handful of paperweights go missing

Anon you've got my full attention 👀👀

Absolutely living for all the renewed Mr. Tesseract theories and origin stores going around because he's just too perfect to continue the current story!?? I'd always pictured a Mobius variant eventually entering the picture, having succumbed to the power of the Tesseract after needing to save Loki in some way but never in a million years imagined before now that *our* Mobius could end up in that exact situation...

Plus tbh I almost feel Loki going about their self-sacrifice in such an isolated way, reliving all those centuries determined to find a solution without involving anyone else, had an obviously noble goal but a means in such a misguided way which has almost ensured Mobius will do something similar.

Mobius isn't okay. He's on a timeline that can never be his (partially to escape the memories of Loki by his side everywhere he looks in the TVA and hopefully so that back in the flow of time Loki can at least see him again as some form of company still), looking at a life I think he greatly admires but wouldn't personally want even given the choice, and seemingly the only one left directionless and without purpose with Loki being gone.

It wouldn't be a stretch to think loneliness would turn to frustration (because he's done nothing but repress *everything* in the past and deserves to finally burst and be angry and figure out how to express his emotions), confusion, and finally desperation at the thought he might be the only one who cares enough to burn things to the ground in an attempt to either find Loki again or bring him home. I've been headcanoning that similar to Loki in the last episode, Mobius will start putting himself more and more at risk searching for a solution and cut everyone at the TVA off while doing so to keep them from worrying about what he's getting involved in and stop him, which of course eventually leads right to the Tesseract as potentially one of the only methods left of traveling to what I assume is the end of time or somewhere similar.

Bonus points if Loki is watching every moment, unable to do a thing as the Mobius he knows slips further and further away while experimenting with the Tesseract until finally he can't see him on the timeline at all anymore, and as he mourns a crackle of blue energy opens nearby. Loki immediately realizes what's happened and calls desperately for Mobius, but when the figure who exits steps closer he's all cold, hard lines and an blank, electric blue stare. Temporary amnesia v4.0 let's go but make it even more angsty this time 😂😅 Eventually the Power of Love™ wins out of course but that's pretty much my dream arc for now!

[steamworksfairy]

*points at the khr oc fandom* You guys are the sweetest people ever! I've barely even joined, and already I feel so welcomed. Also the fact that so many people have asked or made it know they want to draw my ocs. Thank you so much!!!! 😭💚💚💚

[persephoneprice]

omg I came across your persephone price moodboard on my feed!! please tell me your thoughts and hcs b/c she's genuinely so so precious to me 😔

oh my gosh i cannot thank you enough for sending this!!! Persephone is one of my absolute favorites and i just adore her so so much <3

her nickname is Pippa- i think percy and all those variations are cute but i just think Pippa fits the idea i have of her better.

she’s aware of what her father fed her as a child and while she doesn’t necessarily resent him for it, she is deeply ashamed of it.

she is a very genuinely kind person, as much as you can expect a capitol citizen to be. because of this, and how pretty she is, she’s a very popular girl- but the type of popular girl that’s friendly with everyone.

she struggles with issues related to her self-esteem. i think being pretty is something she’s sort of ‘known for’ and it affects her pretty deeply. she never quite feels pretty enough or smart enough or good enough in comparison to everyone else.

she does get to know mizzen and tries to treat him as well as she can. when he dies, she’s devastated and it’s something that sticks with her for the rest of her life.

despite witnessing the horrors of the games up close, she does still marry festus creed and become the capitol socialite that her family expects her to be.

it’s not until her own son turns 13 that she fully realizes how deeply horrifying those games are. on every one of her sons birthdays after that- she can’t help but think of mizzen and how he would never be allowed to reach those ages.

[zipquips]

Hi <3

random ask for you: do you have any pets? if not do you want any? which ones?

hi!!!!! <333

i do have pets! my childhood dog (who lives with my mom rn) is a lab/shepherd mix who's name is zeus! he is afraid of literally everything, and has zero brain cells, lmao. he's eight so he's in his retired old-man couch potato era :)

my dad has a dog as well and she's a mini schnauzer named kyra! she is a menace (lovingly) and she's probably like three or younger so she has all of the energy and zero social skills (she barks at and scares away anything that steps into her yard). she has very specific routines and unfortunately is a class traitor (she makes my dad return to work after lunch for the routine :/)

i don't live with either of my parents rn so i don't really have any pets on my own :( i am moving this summer though and i'm hoping to get a dog in the next year or two once i see how school/work is timewise :)

my only preferences with the dog are that i wish them to be a rescue/shelter dog, middle ageish so they're potty trained and i have a good idea of what the energy/temperament needs of the dog are and if they match with my lifestyle, and that they're a medium-sized dog who is cool with a cuddle.

(also idk if worms count but i think composting would be neat and if i did it with worms i'd def count them as my pets, lmao)

what about you? do you have any pets? if not, what would you want?

[nerdierholler]

When Adam told Ethan that he’s so strong, how did Ethan feel about that? (~agentnatesewell)

I wanted to refresh myself on that scene and as it turns out, I stopped right at it with an Ethan run last time I played.

In the moment, he brushes it off because of the task at hand, coupled with another almost moment with Adam. He can't afford the distraction. Sometime later when things have calmed down again and he's trying to pick up the pieces that Adam left behind he replays every conversation they had and finally thinks about it.

Part of him just wants to lose it with uncontrolled bitter laughter but he doesn't. He holds it in. He feels like a failure and fraud. How disappointed Adam would be to find out how weak he really is. Perhaps things are better this way.

Then he hides that conversation away again, like he tries to do with so many memories of moments with Adam. It never really works, but he tries. He throws himself into training and getting up to speed as a full agent. He tries to be as confident and breezy as usual. Adam sees those things and mistakes them for the strength he projected on Ethan. See, Ethan's fine. He's working harder than ever and settling into his new roll. Sure things can be awkward and he's a little more quiet at times but that's all normal for everything he's been through and perhaps even a sign of maturity because part of him always worried that Ethan didn't take things seriously enough at times.

Oh how wrong he is.

There's another version of this in my head where Adam says that to him at a different time, where Ethan isn't about to march off into certain danger. In that conversation he sees that, while Ethan is strong in many ways, that much of what he shows the world is a mask. Adam finally sees the emotional stress and strain that Ethan's been carrying. This is one reason I love the breakfast conversation choice where you can ask Adam about agency gossip about him. Maybe I'll sketch out that alternate conversation about strength sometime.

[prosebushpatch]

Would you look at that? Another blog post! This time I take a look at first lines and the age-old adage of starting in the middle. Please take a look and feel free to let me know what you think!

[spiralsandeyes]

I loved reading the Magnoliaverse and especially playing with matches, and one thing that I ended up very curious about was more about Michael's backstory in this au? He's one of the characters who shows up a lot and has a lot of backstory vaguely referenced but never gets a perspective to explore that so I was wondering if you'd be down to share what ideas you had for his backstory while you were writing. Thanks in advance!

omg thank you so much for this! :')) answer got long so i'm putting it under a cut <3

it's actually kind of funny that you ask this... playing with matches has always been the heart of magnolia verse to me, and future installments were/are going to focus on the characters in that fic (particularly agnes, oliver, julia and gerry, with some others). most of them have pretty detailed backstories in my mind but michael was one of the ones whose history i've actually thought less about!

i did have a few things in mind - michael had one particularly shitty relationship when he was ~16/17 that he still carries a lot of baggage from. he had crushes before that but never anything he was brave enough to act on, so it was pretty formative for him wrt his expectations for relationships. he was basically being strung along and used by a guy who didn't have strong romantic feelings for michael the way michael did for him. michael also didn't have a lot of friends growing up, or at least not since childhood, so he really wants to be loved (in any capacity, but he's particularly insecure about the romantic). going back and forth with his divorced parents didn't help with this - he stays with his mom most of the time and had to move when he was ~13-14, uprooting most of his life to a different school where he knew no one, and he never really settled in and found friends there. he's also pretty socially anxious and until meeting gerry, hasn't quite figured out how to get out into the world. he's a homebody mostly because he doesn't know how to be anything else (yet), and though he has art school friends, they aren't very close. too much of his impressions of queerness and college life were formed by the internet/popular media and he has a bit of an inferiority complex about it - he's very aware that he doesn't Do Much aside from art and feels like a loser because of it. (this is an unfortunate combo with his body image issues, insecurities about what he can offer in a relationship, and him being very much starstruck by gerry's band, leading to some of the conflict you see in playing with matches). some other random details: he's out to his parents but has a slightly strained relationship with both of them (he's closer with his grandma on his mom's side!), he has severe adhd but i don't think he knows it yet, he's been drawing for basically his whole life but recently focusing on art forms that involve more physical processes because it's good for his mental health (atm it's various forms of sculpture).

but honestly i've thought a lot more about michael's future than his past! at this point i've been telling people for years that magnolia verse is still in progress and feeling more and more guilty when a completed work fails to materialize, but i still can't stand the thought of leaving it as-is and have to believe in my ability to finish one more fic, so... there Will be one more... but probably not anytime soon and it probably won't be gerrymichael centric. so i'll just tell you about the gerrymichael fic i DID have planned lmao.

so: ex altiora goes viral and gets very popular very quickly when they finish school and release a full album. the speed of it is great for their careers and bad for their mental health. agnes and gerry really struggle with it. gerry in particular starts getting a lot of fans which makes him REALLY nervous because he's going stealth, trying to hide from his mom, and just generally not super interested in being a public sex object! this is a little bit Weird for his relationship with michael. he gets pretty (reasonably) paranoid and wants to keep his personal life very private, but michael Does Not Get It and is hurt because he feels like he's being kept a secret. he's also a little bit jealous of the attention, though he won't admit it, and is overall experiencing new depths of insecurity that he will (eventually) Finally get to process because he still thinks of gerry as the Cool One with all the power in the relationship. meanwhile gerry is so anxious and trying to cope with the spotlight of sudden internet fame/irl fame in certain contexts (i.e. shows) and feels like he can't confide in michael about it. the tension in his and julia's friendship is also reaching a breaking point around then and they have a huge fight which leads to them (gasp) speaking honestly about thoughts and feelings they've had for years! but anyway. everything gets sorted out in the end, and michael and gerry end up much happier! michael resolves his issues, gerry comes out to the world, they work out boundaries together, everyone becomes closer :)

[yujeong]

Oooh can I ask about your Kim & Pete ideas?

Of course you can! I love them a lot so thank you so much for asking me about them ❤️ Ok, so, after The Knight's Pawn I have 2 more fics I want to write and post: One of them is a "deleted scene" I intended to add in the last chapter of The Knight's Pawn but thought better of it, because it would distract the reader and leave things in a weird place. Basically, it's what the title of the WIP suggests: Kim kisses (an unconscious) Pete. I want to explore Kim's feelings surrounding sex and love and intimacy a LOT, and with what I crafted with my main story, I believe there's room for it here. Here's a snippet, which needs editing as always:

Pete spent hours by his side, gathering his broken pieces and putting them back together, with the care of someone who might love him. Pete was asleep right now. He wouldn’t notice, not with his exhaustion having taken such a toll on him. Kim could do it without consequences.   His lips brushed over Pete’s, the touch feather-like but enough to send a tingling sensation down Kim’s spine. The feeling was strange but not unpleasant, and Kim felt compelled to press on Pete’s lips more, to really connect them together. 

The other fic will be set during the famous "hospital era", meaning in-between the 1 month the show never gave us. Having the backstory that is The Knight's Pawn, I really want to explore the possibilities of them being each other's anchor during one of the worst period of their lives. It'll also give me a chance to explore some brotherly feels, some cousin feels and both VegasPete and KimChay. I can't wait to delve into it more, I'm very excited about it.

I had shared a snippet once, which is this, but I'd like to share another one, which is from the second scene of the first chapter (yes, it'll be multiple chapters, so many things to tackle, it would be impossible otherwise):

He lit up his third cigarette, the smoke twirling in front of him as he exhaled. He was observing its path in the air, the nicotine doing absolutely nothing to calm his nerves, when his phone vibrated in his pocket.  Oh yeah, he had a phone on him. The one whose number Chay had blocked. Of course he would forget about it, given that. He took it out with bloody fingers - he hadn't even bothered cleaning up, he couldn't do it, he couldn't forget the feeling of it on his skin - and stared at the screen in disbelief.  It was from Tankhun.  That was the first worrying thing. Tankhun never texted, he always called; he didn't have the patience to write down what he wanted to say to Kim, he had told him once. Kim thought the actual reason was because he wanted to hear Kim's voice and understand Kim's mental state better. Tankhun was always sneaky like that. The second worrying thing was the message itself: I need your help. Come here now.

[fatelcved]

it's making me a lil sad to listen to my s.potify wrapped bc a good chunk of the songs are from playlists i made for ships, and i don't write any of those ships anymore. and dude, the energy i had for toiling over a playlist until i got it just right!! i remember spending so much time and going over and over the playlist until it flowed just the way i wanted it to. and i think it's a mixture of missing the connections i had and missing the energy i had bc i know i haven't been at my best this year. i feel like i don't do a good job of forming personal connections, not that i was ever the best asdf but i've noticed how i've changed. i have a lot of feelings and a lot of ideas, but the energy or motivation is really hard to find sometimes. remaking has helped tremendously, but listening to this playlist is like looking my problems directly in the eye and can i just say yikes

[balladetto]

✿ -slams this down for Prim and Sunny- 👀

let ray yell about our muses / accepting / @hyaciiintho ( Sunflower )

[catches your slam dunk with open arms] ADRI i am always holding them in my hands so gently and tenderly!! god where do i even start. sunny comes to be so, so important to prim in so many ways but i'm always rotating how they can be completely honest with each other around in the head. it is a constant thought because sunny really is the person prim would be the most upfront with about things like navi and termina and his body dysmorphia and all the disconnect he feels about who-how-what he is.

no one else really compares, even amongst other heroes and links, though it'd be kind of unfair to compare anyway when they're the same person — but also not? hard to explain but prim attaches learning to love himself again to learning to love sunny, and the innate trust that comes with wanting to and eventually actually believing in the future sunny represents is one that...i don't think can be replicated anywhere else.

plus! the fact that sunny is upfront in turn! i think about how you said he wouldn't lie about how things don't get better, how the bad things don't go away, and it crushes prim. can't expect it not to. BUT the longer they're together, the more he gets to see that, well, sunny lives anyway. sunny lives — fuller and truer to himself than prim does — anyway. and it's hope, given how it used to be handed to him back in kokiri forest when he'd ask saria or the great deku tree in the quietest moments with the tiniest voice if a fairy would ever come to him. of course one will. of course he'll be capable of being someone who feels like himself again, despite everything.

number two: you know how kids can mirror or mimic your posture and/or body language in any given situation if they're vibing particularly well with you, whether consciously or subconsciously? it's so bad with prim @ sunny. it's sooo bad and it's half-because they're technically the same person, half-because that's His Adult-Person-Dad. they tilt their head at the exact same time at the exact same angle at someone they're talking to and the person has to pause mid-sentence because it's uncanny af. and also disgustingly adorable 🥺🥺

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What do you think Siegbert’s relationship with Laslow and Soleil’s relationship with Xander are like particularly as they get older/teenagers.

anon you're enabling me i LOVE their parent/child relationships as they get older!!! read more cause this got looooong

for laslow and siegbert--well first off, i think laslow always can provide a particular brand of emotionally-based support that develops more as siegbert gets older. siegbert has his Anxiety Issues, and where laslow and xander both struggle w sociality as well, i think laslow can relate in a more... empathetic way? dealing with some of the emotional aftermath and letting feelings be feelings (this isn't to say siegbert doesn't go to xander or that xander doesn't help, i just think they're good at different things). on a more lighthearted note, i think laslow's really good at getting a giggle out of siegbert, and good at finding ways to alleviate pressure. he's been doing this for years with xander. and yes, xander and siegbert need different things, but laslow's good at pinpointing those things

something i rly like abt their relationship is that i think that where siegbert more openly shows his idolization of xander (like we see in-game), he still does something really similar with laslow. looking up to him, taking inspiration from him. it just comes out in different ways. for example, siegbert probably trusts laslow's opinions... a lot. considers his sometimes more than his own. and he's just fascinated by the stories he tells. even after laslow's married to xander, i like to think he still travels (and drags xander with him as often as he can--and also drags their kids along as often as he can hahaha), and those stories in particular really entrap siegbert. which is good for a budding prince, i think something laslow (and eventually siegbert and soleil) has that xander lacks is some open mindedness, and not being so narrowly nohr-centric in his perspective--esp in upbringing, if that makes sense. this is also why i like laslow taking xander traveling, cause ultimately i think it would do him good.

ONTO!!! soleil and xander!! ive mentioned before how much i like the grumpy-dad and peppy-daughter dynamic, but. to reiterate: i really really like it gjsjfjsnf soleil, similarly to laslow but probably even more, tends to go to xander and ramble about her girl successes and failures. just barging into his office like i hope you're not busy cause i have things to SAY!! and i don't think xander dismisses her, but he does make her wait sometimes, hahaha. i also think xander will often tell soleil what she needs to hear, rather than what she wants, and ultimately for her that's better than the alternative. he's not entirely harsh (though he can be and that's something to work on), but honest. he also dotes on her more than he should by a xander-standard LOL

i think soleil provides to xander a lot of brightness--it is NOT lost on me that they named her soleil, sun, in a place like nohr. i think surrounding xander with bright people is a fantastic idea. and just like laslow's doing with the traveling thing, soleil probably gets xander to socialize a little more, haha. he isn't a brick wall that can't talk to anybody, but--he does strike me as the kind of guy who has coworkers, but not friends, ya feel me. soleil's confident and full of energy, and tbh i think she's the type to really want attention from her parents, so asking xander to come along with her is a frequent request. and that eventually, naturally, leads to xander getting out more. she doesn't have the same setback as laslow that if he gets shy enough he'll retreat entirely while they're out, hahaha

and one final note to round this off: i like to think!! that xander and soleil are both cat people (xander = cabbit, and soleil has lines about owning kitten posters), where laslow and siegbert are dog people (i have many aus where laslow has a pet dog so this is more of a 'because i said so' kinda thing) (also you might be inclined to think cat for siegbert also but i need you to look inward. deeper. i think he'd like the enthusiasm...!!! i have more i could say but i'll leave it at that)

there you go!! :D