#thank u lani such good questions

[hawksblooded]

🍁+ is there anything that could utterly shake the foundations of Liz' worldview? Does she have any core philosophies she lives by?

↣ QUESTIONS.

ALIZEBETH DOESN'T KNOW THIS, cannot know this, as very few characters in my setting have proper knowledge of how their world works, but the undead can never be eradicated. I mean, she knows she was never going to stop them herself, she was never under that delusion of her own importance, but she will never know that their complete erasure is impossible. The force that animates them is the same that animates all other living things, and thus so long as there is life, there must be un-life.

If she were to ever meet the undead saint Keld, who retains his humanity in full and continues to faithfully protect the Shroudwald where he died centuries ago, this would certainly shake her idea of the undead as this unavoidable evil, this perversion of life. Keld himself sees his own condition as a blessing, one that allows him to persevere and do his duty beyond the limits of mortal life. It would be enough to give her pause for a while, as he would be very different from every other undead creature she has met, including the more sapient/humanlike ones such as vampires etc. She would be forced to reconsider her stance on one of the most crucial pillars of her thinking.

SHE DOESN'T HAVE MUCH in the way of philosophies - she doesn't have the time to think of such things. But she believes firmly in protecting the weak & innocent. She would give her life for it. She has a sense of social duty regarding this, that anyone in power should be made to defend those without it, and thus has a somewhat negative view of royalty, aristocracy etc. Alizebeth believes that, though life is hard and cruel, fortunes change and one should never give up on it. It is the single most precious thing in the rough, survival-of-the-fittest world she's grown up in.

[stormblessed95]

Hey so as I stated I like jk song rec. Is there any thread where all his covers of there artists and rec up to date are given? Would be helpful thanks!

So this is a ton of content for me to go through. 🤣 we are talking almost 9 years of content here, 🤣🤣 I'll try to compile a list for you. But if I miss any, I want you all to remember... 9 YEARS OF CONTENT HERE. Lol thanks 💜💜 JK does have great music taste though, so let's get it! In this first post I did over his music recs,, I covered songs he recommended on Twitter, and songs he covered either on Twitter, YouTube or SoundCloud to the best of my knowledge (2015 - 2020). You can find that post here:

In this, part 2, I'll try to cover his Spotify list recommendations, his vlive recommendations and his Instagram recommendations along with any new song covers he has done since 2020. Again, to the best of my knowledge, if i miss any, please be forgiving!

2016

-160814, JK covered If You: BigBang on King of Masked Singer as the fencer

161129, JKs first solo vlive. During the vlive he covered and shared these songs with us:

- Half Moon: Dean, Gaeko

- Fools: Troye Sivan

- Paper Hearts: Tori Kelly

- Galaxy: Bol4

- Bermuda Triangle: Zico, Dean, Crush

- Lost Stars: Adam Levine

- I Know: RM, Jungkook

- Lost: BTS

- Boyfriend: Justin Beiber

- Begin: BTS

2017

Spotify Playlist recs from 2017:

- DNA: Lia Maria Johnson

- ILYSB - Stripped: Lany

- I Need Some Sleep: Eels

- Beautiful Lies: Birdy

- Dear No One: Tori Kelley

- Like A Star: Corrinne Bailey Rae

- Ghost in the Wind: Birdy

- What Do You Mean: Justin Beiber

- Clouds: Before You Exit

- Lullaby: Acro

- Dream Latern: RADWIMPS

- Namdemonaiya (movie verison): RADWIMPS

- Heavy Weather: Billy Marten

- Oasis: Jasmine Thompson

- Boyfriend: Justin Beiber

- Colors of the Wind: Tori Kelly

- Theme of Mitsuha: RADWIMPS

- 7 years: Jasmine Thompson

- Lost Boy: Ruth B

- Mannequin: Yuna

Spotify Playlist recs update 2 from 2017:

- Mic Drop (ft. Designer) (Steve Aoki Remix): BTS, Designer, Steve Aoki

- Sunburn: Droeloe

- Leaving: Illenium

- Beautiful Creatures (ft. Max): Illenium, Max

- Bedroom Floor: Liam Payne

- do re mi: Blackbear

- I Miss You (ft. Julia Michaels): Clean Bandit, Julia Michaels

- New: Daya

- Silence: Marshmello, Khalid

- Crime (with Skott): Grey, Skott

- Wolves: Selena Gomez

170422, JK went on vlive and was later joined by vmin. Part 1 and Part 2 of the vlive. During the live, he sang and shared these songs:

- It Ain't Wrong Loving You: HONNE

- Question: Lauv, Travis Mills

- Change Gonna Come: Shuko

- Unrequited: Totem

- Electric: Alina Baraz, Khalid

- Please: Lee So Ra

- Stigma: BTS

- I Need U: BTS

- Lie: BTS

- Can't Love You Anymore: IU, Hyukoh

- We Don't Talk Anymore: Charlie Puth, Selena Gomez

- Purpose: Justin Beiber (JKs cover)

- Change: RM, Wale

- Through the Night: IU

- One More Weekend: Audien, Max

2018

180906, JK did a solo vlive. During the vlive, he sang and shared these songs:

- Euphoria: BTS

- Best Part: Daniel Ceasar, HER

- Belong to You: Sabrina Claudio

- Bad Intention: Nikyee Heaton

- Through it All: Charlie Puth

- Honey: Kehlani

- Lovely: Billie Eilish, Khalid

- Ocean Eyes: Billie Eilish

- My Favorite Part: Mac Miller, Ariana Grande

- BED: Nicki Minaj, Ariana Grande

- Your Side of the Bed: Chase Huglin

2019

Spotify Playlist recs from 2019:

- Feel Something: Bea Miller

- Back In My Arms: Charlie Hanson

- God Only Knows: The Beach Boys

- Call You Mine: The Chainsmokers

- Do Me: Kim Petras

- Up: Sing Street

- Like You: Tatiana Manaois

- Find Yourself: Great Good Fine Ok

- Rainbow: Kasey Musgraves

- Tomorrow tonight: Loote

- You Should See Me in a Crown: Billie Eilish

- Love Me Less: MAX, Quinn XCII

- 190210, on Fancafe JK recommended the song The Flower Garden: Hisaishi Joe

2020

Spotify Playlist recs from 2020:

- Purpose - stripped: Etham

- Malibu Nights: LANY

- Mean It: Lauv, LANY

- by my side: Honne

- More & More: Finding Hope

- 201008, JK tweeted out a video of him singing Savage Love Remix: Jason Derulo, BTS

2021

Spotify Playlist recs from 2021:

- Permission to Dance: BTS

- Butter: BTS

- Mikrokosmos: BTS

- ON: BTS

- Blue & Grey: BTS

- Euphoria: BTS

- Butterfly: BTS

- Lost: BTS

- Mad at Disney: Salem Ilese

- Feel Something: Bea Miller

- People I Don't Like: UPSAHL

- Ashes: Stellar

- Hey Stupid, I Love You: JP Saxe

- Peaches: Justin Beiber

- We Belong: Dove Cameron

- Test Drive: Ariana Grande

- Your Power: Billie Eilish

- Boys Will Be Boys: Bülow

210227, JK did a solo vlive with his bright blue hair. He sang and shared these songs:

- Still With You: JK

- Who: Lauv, BTS

- At My Worst: Pink Sweat$

- Fix You: Coldplay

210307, JK did a solo vlive again. He sang and shared these songs:

- Blue Side: Jhope

- Abyss: Jin

- Blue & Grey: BTS

- At My Worst: Pink Sweat$

- 10,000 Hours: Dan & Shay, Justin Beiber

- UGH: BTS

- Filter: BTS

- Nothing Like Us: Justin Beiber

- Sweet Night: V

- Moon: BTS

- Jungle (Coca-Cola ad): BTS

- Holy: Justin Beiber

- Hello: Adele

- Moon of Seoul: Kim Gun Mo

210729, another JK solo vlive, in quite the outfit. Lol He sang and shared these songs with us over the hour:

- Smile Again: Blackbear

- Me & Ur Ghost: Blackbear

- Peaches: Justin Beiber

- Stay: Shane Thompson

- Leave the Door Open: Silk Sonic

- Hold On: Justin Beiber

- As Always: Ra.D

- Euphoria: BTS

- Dope: BTS

- Idol: BTS

- Baepsae: BTS

- Outro: Wings: BTS

- So What: BTS

210831, JK rings in his birthday on vlive for 2.5 hours with us. The songs he sings and shares with us here:

- Off My Face: Justin Beiber

And then he treated us to a BTS vlive concert as well, with the BTS songs as followed:

- Paradise

- Dimple

- Born Singer

- Pied Piper

- Let Go

- Two! Three!

- Mic Drop

- Autumn Leaves

- Spring Day

- Just One Day

- Magic Shop

- Heartbeat

- Rain

- Film Out

- Zero O'clock

- Sea

- Best of Me

- Mikrokosmos

- Home

- Love Maze

- Waste It On Me: Steve Aoki, BTS

-211028, Jungkook posted his cover on youtube of Falling: Harry Styles

- 211216, JK shared On The Low: Justin Park on Instagram Stories

- 211216, JK shared Generation (Prod. Lean$moke): Homies on Instagram Stories

2022

- 220203, JK covered Hate Everything: Golden on a Instagram Post

- 220204, JK posted a dance cover to Bare Wit Me: Teyana Taylor on a Instagram Post

- 220206, JK shared Roses: Finn Askew on Instagram Stories

- 220206, JK shared Too Many Feelings: Ruel on Instagram Stories

- 220206, JK shared Space: Audrey Nuna on Instagram Stories

- 220207, JK shared Even Days: O3ohn on Instagram Stories

- 220208, JK shared Never Change: Jeremy Passion, Melissa Polinar on Instagram Stories

- 220209, JK covered The Night of 1991 When Cold Wind Blew: Park Hyoshin on a Instagram Post

- 220209, JK shared It Takes Two: Fiji Blue on Instagram Stories

- 220219, JK shared Toxic: Boy with Uke on Instagram Stories

- 220219, JK shared 26: Lauv on Instagram Stories

- 220221, JK shared So Good: Joan on Instagram Stories

- 220222, JK shared Superstar: DeVita on Instagram Stories

- 220226, JK shared Love on the Weekend: Aria Ohlsson on Instagram Stories

-220309, JK shared the song Tú: Maye on Instagram Stories

-220329, JK shared an update with us while dancing to Winter Blossom: Dept, Ashley Alisha on Instagram

-220330, JK shared the song Baby Powder: Jenevieve Division on Instagram Stories

-220330, JK shared the song Never Let Me Go: Mac Ayres, CARRTOONS on Instagram Stories

-220331, JK listened to Invincible: Omar Apollo, Daniel Ceaser on Instagram Stories during a Q&A game while in quarantine

-220402, JK listened to Your Side Of the Bed: Loote on Instagram Stories during a Q&A game

-220402, JK answered a question on Instagram Stories about what was his current favorite song with Loving You Girl: Peder Elias, Hkeem

-220402, JK listened to Everything Sucks: Eric Nam, Vault Boys on Instagram Stories during a Q&A game

- 220402, JK listened to/sang Tango: Abir on Instagram Stories during a Q&A game

- 220402, JK sang Lovable: Kim Jongkook on Instagram Stories during a Q&A game

- 220402, JK listened to Strawberry Skies: Kid Travis on Instagram Stories during a Q&A game

- 220402, JK listened to Mirror Mirror: Milli, Fhero, Changbin on Instagram Stories during a Q&A game

- 220402, JK listened to so many songs during this Instagram Stories, lol here is a good link someone already compiled! Lol

220405, JK goes live super late at night after the Grammys to spend time with ARMY for an hour. The songs he listened to during vlive are:

- Tango: Abir

- Stuck With U: Ariana Grande, Justin Bieber

- Love Letter: Anthony Lazaro

- Dancing With Your Ghost: Sasha Alex Sloan

- Trace: Jeremy Passion

- Love Yourself: Justin Bieber

- Good For You: Peder Elias

- Easy: Mac Ayres

- Closer: Saweetie, H.E.R

- Pizza: Oohnyo

- BRB: Epik High

- Rock Witchu: PRETTYMUCH

- By My Side: Junny

- High: The Chainsmokers

- Test Drive: Ariana Grande

- Leave The Door Open: Silk Sonic

- What 2 Do: Dean, CRUSH, Jeff Bernat

- Ghost: Justin Bieber

- Cold in LA: Why Don't We

- Backyard Boy: Claire Rosinkranz

- 220521, JK listened to IDK You Yet: Alexander 23 on his Instagram Stories

220615, JK goes live at night and ends up singing 16 songs too. The songs he sang were:

- My You: Jungkook

- Young Love: BTS Namkook Demo

- Love You: Kim Woo Joo

- Still With You: Jungkook

- Graduation: BTS 3J Predebut

- Run BTS: BTS

- That That: Psy feat. SUGA of BTS

- Super Tuna: Jin

- Chilly, Windy Night in 1991: Park Hyo Shin

- It Must Have Been Love: Yoon Do Hyun

- HeeJae: Sung Si Kyung

- Emergency Room: IZI

- Love, Maybe: MeloMance

- If It Is You: Jung Seung Hwan

- 12:30: BEAST

- Soju Hanjan: Im Chang Jung

220901, JK goes live late at night to celebrate his birthday with ARMYs on Weverse. He celebrated and then played and sang songs with us too. The songs included:

- Butterflies: MAX & Ali Gatie

- Ex I Never Had: LANY

- Happy Ending: Chris James

- Love Back: Why Don't We

- Beautiful: Anne Marie

- Just One Day: BTS

- Left & Right: Charlie Puth, Jungkook

- Bad Decisions: Benny B, BTS, Snoop Dog

- Butterfly: BTS

- DDAENG: BTS

- Blue & Grey: BTS

- Love Is Not Over: BTS

- Paradise: BTS

- Coffee: BTS

- Autumn Leaves: BTS

- Christmas Tree: V

- Louder Than Bombs: BTS

- Mic Drop: BTS

- 134340: BTS

- Magic Shop: BTS

And that brings us up to date as of now, through September 2022. I can definitely try to keep this updated through the year of 2022 as well for Spotify, vlive and Instagram recs as he does them. Again. If I missed anything, feel free to let me know. Otherwise, I think this is all of them!

[watchyourbluesturngolden]

songs that make me think of vampy and why

this is for drea and leyla ONLY thank u

daylight- taylor swift "i don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you, i don't wanna think of anything else now that i thought of you" bc vampy loves her so much he only wants her 😔 midnight love- girl in red "I know I'm the last one you try to call but I always give in to give you it all" "your silver is my gold" bc miss chiropractor treated him terribly but he loved her with everything and would have gone back to her no matter what watch you sleep- girl in red this one is obvious: bc vampy watches bloodbag sleep :) also "the scar on your spine, you fell off a roof when you were nine" is all appreciating the tiny details about someone and that is definitely something vampy would do :( paper rings: taylor swift "i hate accidents except when we went from friends to this" line without a hook- ricky montgomery "oh baby i am a wreck when i'm without you" bc vampy loves bloodbag so much he just wants to be with her always 😔 dead girl in the pool- girl in red this one is kinda weird but i feel like bloodbag is gonna die at some point and then vampy will just be like "theres a dead girl in the pool (or wherever her corpse is laying slfjskldfjkldsj) i don't know what to do" and then he's gonna make this face

bad habits- ed sheeran bc he was just slutting around before he met bloodbag demons- imagine dragons dont make fun of me for this I KNOW but fr it's vampy renegade- taylor swift "you wouldn't be the first renegade to need somebody" he needs bloodbag 😔 starting line- luke hemmings i can't really explain this one but it's like how you always talk about how his happiness is overshadowed by the fact that he's a monster or whatever million dollar bills - lorde "theres nothing i want but money and time" and vampy has literally all the money and time :) solar power- lorde this is harrys hot girl anthem idk happiness- taylor swift "there'll be happiness after you, but there was happiness because of you" this is him reminiscing on miss chiropractor i wanna get better-bleachers "i didn't know i was lonely til i saw your face" "I didn't know i was broken til i wanted to change" come on 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 good 4 u - olivia rodrigo this is his fuck u song for miss chiropractor my tears ricochet- taylor swift "if i'm dead to you why are you at the wake" it's ironic innit 😌 what a feeling- one direction "what a feeling to be right here beside you now, holding you in my arms" please 😔 "everybody needs someone around" 😔😔😔 "but i can't hold you too close now" bc he has severe attachment and commitment issues :) all you had to do was stay- taylor swift "had me in the palm of your hand, then, why'd you have to go and lock me out when i let you in" omg miss chiropractor really hurt him 😔 king of my heart- taylor swift "and all at once you are the one i have been waiting for" bloodbag @ vampy 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 cruel summer- taylor swift "I love you ain't that the worst thing you ever heard" bc he knows getting close to bloodbag will ultimately only lead to pain for everyone involved "i don't wanna keep secrets just to keep you" bc he can't tell bloodbag everything about him even tho he probably wants to :( thank u next- arianna grande this is weird BUT if miss chiropractor hadn't fucked him up so much he never would have met bloodbag tear in my heart- 21 pilots again don't make fun of me for this I HAVE AN EXPLANATION "you fell asleep in my car i drove the whole time but that's okay i'll just avoid the holes so you sleep fine" if bloodbag fell asleep in his car he would definitely do this :( shape of you-ed sheeran "now my bedsheets smell like you" his room probably smells like honey and lavender all the time now and he's probably foaming at the mouth constantly cowboy in LA "let's skip the club, lets skip the crowd, i wanna take you on a date" bc they both hate clubs!!!!! "I'll hold your hand I'll hold the door bc that's how i was raised" he's a gentleman 😔😔😔😔 & burn- billie eilish "i'll sit and watch your car burn with the fire that you started in me, but you never came back to ask it out" idk for some reason this has vampy and miss chiropractor vibes take me to church- hozier religious trauma babes 🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼🕺🏼 speechless- dan+shay "i'm speechless, staring at you standing there in that dress" love 😔 yours- russel dickerson "i came to life when i first kissed you, the best me has his arms around you, you make me better than i was before, thank god i'm yours" SCREAMING AND CRYING AND SHAKING tolerate it- taylor swift "i know my love should be celebrated, but you tolerate it" MISS ******** DIDN"T APPRECIATE OR CELEBRATE HIS LOVE MIA- anarbor "thinking about my life and everything i did wrong along the way"😔 lay low- josh turner for when bloodbag and vampy go to a cabin in the woods for a week and just love each other 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 who can save me now- anarbor "you stabbed me in the back" this one is pretty literal LSKFJLKSJFLKDSJ "you could have at least been kind enough to let me turn around" ouch 😔 dopamine- anarbor "i'm hooked on your dopamine" vampy and bloodbag ugh lie to me- 5sos this give me vampy and ******** vibes "i wish we never met, cause you're too hard to forget" "while i'm cleaning up your mess i know he's taking

off your dress" bc she probably cheated on him while they were together 😔 and he would have stayed with her if she told him she loved him, even if he knew it was a lie 😔 cotton candy- yungblud it's just a happy song with good vibes like bloodbag and vampy currently have :) small talk- niall horan i don't even have to say anything here pillowtalk- zayn "so we'll piss off the neighbors" chappy 9 vibes dancing with our hands tied- taylor swift "i loved you in spite of deep fears that the world would divide us" vampy rn 😔 once in a lifetime- one direction vampy will live a million lifetimes but he will only ever have one bloodbag 😔 holy ground- taylor swift "tonight i'm gonna dance for all that we've been through but I don't wanna dance if i'm not dancing with you" they've come so far omg 😔 since we're alone- niall horan "you can show me your heart, if you put it all in my hands no i swear no i won't break it apart" crying if i could fly- one direction "for your eyes only i'll show you my heart" rollercoaster- bleachers again i can't explain it but it makes me think of him 😔 so long- niall horan "so if we knew all along why did it take so long" good question bestie current location- LANY "i need your current location to be my current location" they're idiots in love and want to be together all the time 😔 why dont we go there- one direction "hey i don't want you to be the one that got away i wanna get addicted to you you're rushing through my mind i wanna feel the high i wanna be addicted" well hes already addicted to her blood so might as well like you lots- LANY bc they both have issues and can't say love lmao too much to ask- niall horan vampy though wanting love was too much to ask of miss chiropractor 😔 walking in the wind- one direction this one just has his vibes man 😔 heartbeat- carrie underwood "dancing to the rhythm of your heartbeat" bc vampy is obsessed with listening to bloodbag's heart (fan behavior if you ask me) idfc- blackbear this is vampy and ******** bc "tell me that you love me even if it's fake" city of angels- 24kgoldn "i sold my soul to the devil for designer" yes this made me laugh the woods- olivver the kid "waking up in the middle of the woods" "don't you wanna get out of here, out of the woods" flashback to when he was dead in the woods oop "you brought me down to the river, and you pushed me in, hoping that the white rapids would challenge my ability to swim" bc... she's a murderer omg this verse is talking about leaves and i'm freaking out it fits 100% this is crazy "You pick up two handfuls You tell me they're all dried up & dead You know that's nothing like us We'll live forever instead" just a little bit of your heart- ariana grande vampy bc he loves so deeply and completely that he will give all of himself to someone even if they won't do the same my strange addiction- billie eilish bc he is addicted to her blood :) cross your mind- niall horan this is vampy and ******** "love the way you hurt me and it doesn't even cross your mind" "leaving me in pieces (literally lmao) but i swear it's worth it every time" everywhere- niall horan that scene where vampy smelled some perfume or soap or something and it made him think of bloodbag 😔 everything makes him think of her now 😔 "swear it's hard to think it's hard to breathe when you're in the air" put a little love on me- niall horan "you're the only one i need" 😔 bend the rules- niall horan VAMPY AND ******** ALL THE WAY "i'm not saying that you're lying but you're leaving out the truth" heartbreak weather- niall horan "all of my life i've been sleepwalk living, running around the same bars i've been in, it can be so lonely in this city, but it feels different when you're with me" bloodbag and vampy 😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔😔 mr loverman- ricky montgomery "i miss my lover man" vampy is probably dramatic like this all the time now that they're official 😔 bad blood- taylor swift again, just for the irony 😌 vapor- 5sos "i want to breathe you in like a vapor i want to be the one you remember i want to feel

your love like the weather all over me" they're so in love like this 😔 catch fire- 5sos "all my life i've been waiting for moments to come" he's been waiting for bloodbag his entire life 😔 beside you-5sos "i wish i was beside you" they want to be together all the time 😔 black and white- niall horan "that first night i was standing at your door fumbling for your keys then i kissed you" ARE YOU KIDDING ME not in the same way- 5sos this is vampy and ******** just bc they were so toxic lkfjskldfjsdlkjf lonely heart-5sos "and i haven't slept in days" lmao ghost of you-5sos "my feet dont dance like they did with you" thinking about when vampy danced for bloodbag and what if they break up 👁️👁️ why wont you love me- 5sos vampy at ******** 😔 he just wanted to be loved 😔😔😔😔😔 fool's gold- one direction "i let you use me from the day that we first met" "i know your love's not real, but that's not the way it feels" STOP IM SAD last first kiss- one direction "let me be your last first kiss" i want them to be together forever 😔 truly madly deeply- one direction "foolishly completely falling and somehow you kicked all my walls in" bloodbag really snuck into his heart huh 😔 fireproof -one direction "nobody saves me baby the way you do" ugh 😔 long story short-taylor swift "clung to the nearest lips long story short it was the wrong guy" (or in vampy's case the wrong vampire) gold rush-taylor swift "and the coastal town we run around has never seen a love as pure as it" bloodbag and vampy are all i want 😔 no judgement- niall horan bc vampy would never judge bloodbag 😔 daddy issues- the neighborhood again im not even gonna say anything here new angel- niall horan "the touch of someone else to save me from myself" this is vampy 😔 god is a woman- ariana grande vampy after he brought bloodbag home the first time something like this- the chainsmokers "just something i can turn to, somebody i can kiss" ALL VAMPY WANTS IS LOVE sweater weather- the neighborhood idk this song makes me think of him all of me- john legend "all of me loves all of you all your curves and all your edges all your perfect imperfections" KSFLKSDJFKLDJSFLJSDKLFJDSKL i like me better- lauv "i like me better when i'm with you" she makes him a better person 😔 sex- eden "oh no, i think i'm catching feelings" vampy when bloodbag went on a date with someone else half a heart- one direction bc bloodbag completes him 😔 theyre so disgusting 😔 only angel- harry styles "turns out she's a devil in between the sheets" woman- harry styles vampy when she was on a date with someone else bc hes a jealous moron temporary fix- one direction this has chappy 1-2 vibes a.m.-one direction when they first started falling in love and he wanted to be with her more often 😔 something great- one direction "i want you here with me like how i pictured it so i don't have to keep imagining" through the dark- one direction just all of this song 😔 happily- one direction "you know i wanna be the one who holds you when you sleep i just want it to be you and i forever" 😔 electric love- borns "i can't let you go now that i got it" canyon moon- harry styles they're just happy like this rn 😔 sunflower vol. 6- harry styles "kiss in the kitchen like it's a dancefloor" "mouth full of toothpaste" when they brushed their teeth together 😔 adore you- harry styles obviously

[doienseatee]

One with the Star

GIF IS MINE 

Pairing: Doyoung x Reader

Genre: Strangers to Lovers, Fluff, College

Note: I haven’t proofread this (as always) but here it is! I’m so sorry it took me so long to finish this one. I wanted it to be perfect (at least for me sksksks) next chapter will be in Doyoung’s POV so stay tuned for it i guess? I hope you enjoy this as much as I enjoyed writing it. Here’s a list of the songs that I listened to while writing this (they’re not exactly relevant to the plot but they made me feel good and set my mood to write hehe)

I LOVE YOU (TREASURE)  I LIKE U (NIKI) ILYSB STRIPPED (LANY) STILL INTO U (PARAMORE) YOU BELONG WITH ME (TAYLOR SWIFT) LOVE STORY (TAYLOR SWIFT) STYLE (TAYLOR SWIFT) SOMEBODY TO YOU (THE VAMPS FT. DEMI LOVATO) BLACK MAGIC (LITTLE MIX)

Your likes and (especially) comments are highly appreciated :> Thank you so much if you’re still here and I hope I won’t disappoint you. I can’t wait to write this story in Doyoung’s POV and I hope you are too :> Thank you so much and enjoy! 

Word Count: 2.6k

Summary: You developed a crush on the school band’s vocalist and somehow got close with him when you friend, Jungwoo, joined them. You’re too shy to make a move and so you are more than happy to be friends with a star like him.

CHAPTER 3

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A lot of things were going through your head when you read Doyoung’s text message. 

“Did he really say “date”??”

“Why is he inviting me again?”

“Is he interested in me or he’s just naturally friendly?

“Did he mean “date” in a romantic way?”

“Is it really Doyoung who texted me??”

are just a few questions that you can’t seem to find the answers. You didn’t know how to react and most certainly, you didn’t know what to reply back. You didn’t want your response to come off like you’re excited and gushing over his invitation. You also didn’t want to seem like you’re being forced because certainly you’re not. You didn’t know what to do and the fact that your 2 hour class is already halfway through and you still haven’t responded to his message isn’t helping at all.

“Sure!” too boring

“I would love to” too obvious that you’re excited

“I’ll check my schedule” sounds like you don’t have intentions to go

You’re not even listening to your professor anymore at this rate and Doyoung is all that you could ever think about. You’re afraid of your reaction coming off as “overreacting” so you’re thoroughly thinking about it (yup, for more than an hour) because it really doesn’t make any sense to you. 

You were going through so many thoughts but your ears rang when you heard your professor say “due in 2 weeks” for a project you are totally not aware of so you forced yourself to forget about his message and direct your attention to the man’s lecture in front of you. 

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It was about 5PM when your professor in your last subject of the day finally dismissed you and you were on your way to meet Jungwoo in the cafe near the university since he basically bailed on you in the morning because he slept too much. 

He was already sitting in your usual spot when you arrived and you saw two cups of frappe on the table. It was supposedly his “peace offering” to you for missing the practice and leaving you alone especially he was the one that was supposed to be there since it was his first day of practice. 

“I’m sorry for not showing up but you should thank me for giving you a chance to have a date with your crush” 

and you almost spat your drink when you heard him say those words because you never told him that you are crushing on Doyoung 

“What? Do you expect me not to notice when you’re all heart eyes when you see him?”

Your shoulders fell when you realized that you weren’t lowkey at all and that Jungwoo was actually aware all this time. You felt like you were betrayed by him for not telling you that he knows but you were mostly sulking about the fact that you weren’t discreet and Doyoung could’ve found out already. 

“Seriously though! I’ve been with you for the past 3 months so I know that you have the hots for the man and I confirmed it on the audition day. You were stiff as a rock when you saw him and tried to play it cool. So not you!” 

And as much as you wanted to defend yourself, you had nothing else to say because it was all true. 

“OH RIGHT I DIDN’T TEXT HIM BACK YET!” you suddenly remembered about his message since you were occupied by your classes. 

“What?” was all that Jungwoo could say with his confused face. So of course you explained everything from the time that you ate after the cancelled practice to the exchange of numbers and to his text message asking you to have a “snack date again” tomorrow.

“DAMN!! HE LIKES YOU TOO!!!” he exclaimed while grinning from ear to ear and you hit him jokingly because his words were absurd

“No way!! He probably just meant it as a friendly date or what” you tried to deny it but you actually had some hope at the back of your head but of course you didn’t want to assume. 

“I bet my entire semester allowance that he’ll ask you out to date him after your little snack date tomorrow” he looks so confident and you just wanted to smack him for that 

 As much as you still wanted to argue with him, you needed to answer Doyoung’s message as soon as possible. He might think you’re ignoring him or what so you ask Jungwoo what to reply in his point of view of a guy and not as your friend 

“I’m down for it!” will definitely make me happy and probably Doyoung too” was his advice but you asked him if it’s okay and doesn’t make your feeling too obvious 

“Just go for it!! I swear, he’s interested in you and your reply will give him hope!” so you just shrugged and started to type your reply.

As you were about to send your reply, you hesitated and put your phone down but Jungwoo snatched it away and he sent it instead and so you hit him again for the second time of the day

“Trust me on this one please, you can unfriend me if things will go wrong” and you did trust his words and let a little hope ignite in you. 

You went on and asked him how he found out about your little crush on his now bandmate and it consists of “your interest when i introduced you to them on the acquaintance party”, “i caught you stalking his instagram profile”, “i saw your eyes form a heart shape when you saw him passing by in the school cafe” 

You were thinking of what excuse to say although there was no escape when the both of you were interrupted when your phone rang indicating a text message was sent to you. 

“It’s probably Doyoung! Check it!!!” Jungwoo was so excited (and you) and you tried to check your phone screen only to see that he did replied to you 

“See! He instantly replied!! He’s interested in you!!!” you tried to dodge him and his assumptions and composed yourself to reply to whatever Doyoung sent but again, Jungwoo snatched your phone so he can “read it for you”�� 

“Great! I thought you’ll reject my invitation, I was kinda waiting for your reply” 

“See! I told you!! He likes you too!!” he reacted and you just snatched your phone away from him to confirm if what he read was true and indeed it was real. 

“WTF” was all you could say 

“Reply to him ASAP!!!” your friend was urging you to do so but again you didn’t know what to say, it’s not as if you could say “I didn’t know how to reply so sorry lol” or “I was overwhelmed so I didn’t know what to reply” 

“Just tell him you’re busy and didn’t see his message until your last class, that’s enough to put him under the impression that you were just busy and not trying to ignore him or whatever” Jungwoo did make sense so you tried typing 

And so your conversation went like: 

“Oh no! I was just busy with my class so I didn’t notice your text message :)”

“I was worried that you didn’t want to be with me that’s why” 

“I enjoyed your company a while ago! I won’t say no to you”

“That’s a relief! Would you mind if I take you out on a lunch date tomorrow instead of a snack date?”

“I’m up for anything. My class starts at 2PM tomorrow so it’s all good”

“Should I pick you up or something?”

you were shocked with his offer but you actually liked it but you didn’t want to admit it since you might be a nuisance to him if you’ll agree.

at this point, Jungwoo’s trying to peek at your conversation since you’ve been texting non-stop for the last 10 minutes and completely ignored his presence but you didn’t mind him and continued to speak to Doyoung 

“It’s fine! I don’t want to disturb you. Let’s just meet up somewhere?”

“I insist and besides, I don’t have any classes tomorrow so I’m free all day.”

“Are you sure? I can just take the bus or something”

“I’m 200% sure. So can I have your address? :)”

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“DAMN” 

“Why? What happened?” Jungwoo immediately asked you when he hear your voice 

“He’s picking me up on our house tomorrow”

“What did I tell you!! He likes you!!!!!” he was so adamant and you calmed him down to avoid getting attention from the people in the cafe 

“I won’t agree until he directly tells me okay? I’ll just assume this is a friendly date” but you know deep inside that you were hoping 

30 minutes later, you both separated and went to your respective homes. Jungwoo didn’t say his usual goodbyes and instead wished you luck with your “future lovelife” and wished to see you holding hands with Doyoung the next time you’ll meet. 

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You are not a morning person and so being up at 8 AM is an achievement but your excitement didn’t really let you sleep that much and the 3 hours of sleep felt just like a blink to you. A lot of things were going through your head as to how your day will go by with Doyoung. 

You actually talked to him until 10PM the night before and just pretty much talked about yourselves and it was like a continuation of your conversation when you were eating.

He radiates comfortability and he feels like home with the short span of time that you talked to him and now you weren’t feeling awkward and you felt comfortable with the thought of being with him. 

Although the thought of him liking you does still bother you and is making you nervous but you tried to convince yourself that whatever happens, you’ll still consider him as your friend and that’s more than enough. 

He’ll pick you up at 11AM yet you were up at 8 to start preparing and look decent enough. You know your fashion and makeup so it shouldn’t be a problem but it still did. 

You tried to scrub every part of your body to look and feel good. You didn’t notice that you spent almost an hour in the shower doing all of the excess rituals than your usual half an hour and short routine when taking a bath. 

Nothing in your closet seems perfect enough to your liking. It was as if half of your wardrobe was gone but in reality, they’re just the same and you just can’t pick an outfit.

After a good 30 minutes of debating with your closet, you settled with a white surplice top and blue culotte pants paired with a white doll shoes and you were now left with the makeup look. 

It was either a natural look or an almost full glam look but you went with a natural look. You put on Powder, Mascara, Blush and a coral toned Lipstick to finish your makeup and unknowingly, the simplicity brought out your confidence and you thought that you were now ready to meet Doyoung. 

You were still finishing your overall look around 10:30 AM when he called you to say that he is now on the way to your house to pick you up so you hurried and backpack filled with the things that you need for your class after your lunch “date” with Doyoung. 

Although it’s true that you are now comfortable with him, the lunch date with him is still different and you suddenly became nervous but you tried to keep it cool while you were waiting in your living room. Your mom did ask you where you are going but all you said was “to school” so she won’t ask you further questions if you’ll say “a date”. Knowing your mom, she’s talkative so your conversation won’t end and you promise to tell her everything after. You were too occupied thinking of Doyoung to chit chat with her. 

The screen of your phone lit up with Doyoung’s “I’m here” text message so you said goodbye to your mom and went out to greet Doyoung in his black BMW car. 

The window in the passenger’s seat was open and he was waving from the inside. He was wearing a black polo shirt with a pair of white jeans and black sneakers. You were about to drown in your thoughts of how good he looked but he started to talk and ask how was your sleep so all the time that you were traveling to whatever restaurant he’s bringing you,  you just talked to him like how you texted. 

After a good 15 minute drive, he declared that you were now in your destination and you prepared to go out of the car but he told you to stay put and he rushed to open the car for you. You just mumbled a small “thank you” for his gesture even though it’s melting you on the inside. 

The restaurant wasn’t that far from your university since he didn’t want you to be late for your class and you mentally screamed at how thoughtful he was. It wasn’t a fine dining restaurant but not something that students are usually going to hang out at. It has a chill ambiance and you loved it. 

“Do you like the place? I’m sorry I still don’t have any idea of what you like so I brought you to one of my family’s favorite.” Doyoung had an apologetic look while he said those words to you but you assured him that it was fine and you liked it.

“You can choose the restaurant next time” he offered but you were shocked with the “next time”

so you asked him 

“Only if you want to because for me I would love to take you out on a date again after this” and how could you say no to him when he was smiling like an adorable bunny

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The food, the place and the person you’re with were all great and you had a good time so you were really happy and you thanked Doyoung as you were both walking to the parking lot. 

“I should be the one thanking you for accepting my invitation. I thought you’d say no to be honest”

“Why would you think that I won’t say yes?” you asked him as he was about to start the engine of the car 

“You’re too beautiful for me, I didn’t think I had a chance. Plus I really thought Jungwoo was your boyfriend” 

“What do you mean beautiful? I’m not” you tried to laugh your confusion because between the both of you, he was the one that’s unreachable so it was crazy to hear those words from him 

“I’m not kidding! I like you!” he stopped trying to start the car and looked at your eyes with conviction 

“what?” you were a mess and you were trying to understand everything that’s going on although you kind of prepared yourself for this but you were expecting the worst case scenario so you’re still confused as hell.

“I like you, a lot! And I actually invited you today to ask if you’d like to go out with me but I got too shy when we were eating.” he looked away after his confession and you also didn’t know what to do

your face displayed nothing but shock and confusion with his confession and you just can’t believe your crush actually likes you so all you can say is “what?” and he just grabbed your hands and interlocked them with his while saying

“I like you so much and I’ll do everything for you to be my girlfriend”

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THANK YOU!

[holographic-chogi]

Protector pt.20/23

Author: holographic-chogi

Pairing: fem!reader x skz

Warnings: mentions of guns, familial trauma, familial neglect

A/N: Hi guys...I’m really sorry I’ve been gone so long! Things got kind of intense during the the move, and it became difficult to balance writing along with all the other things happening in my life. Thank you to everyone who has read in the past and/or is still reading this series, I’ve grown really attached to it and don’t plan to leave it unfinished. As you can see, there’s also been a final chapter determined! The outline is done, and you guys can expect the final installments soon. Lastly, 

Summary: a virus has wiped out most of humanity, and society has collapsed. People survive in groups where they live in constant fear and a struggle to survive. Women were the primary victim of the virus, leaving few behind. You are one of the few, kept in secret since the beginning. However, you’ve just been caught.

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You woke up in the morning similar to the way you had a couple nights ago, abruptly and full of fear. It had been two days since then, and the nightmares had scarcely waned in their intensity.

The blankets tumbled to the ground as you shot up, backing against the wall in confusion, until finally processing where you were.

Home. Your room.

Your heart panged at the site of the empty spot next to where you had been sleeping. Changbin was probably on shift, though you sure wish he wasn’t.

Or, maybe, you scared him off. You could hardly call yourself the same since you’ve been back, and part of you wasn’t sure if Changbin would still love you the way you are now.

It wasn’t supposed to be like this. You were supposed to make it here and everything was supposed to be okay again. You weren’t supposed to feel like this anymore.

Miserable.

Everyday, while the sun rose and set, your thoughts and dreams were haunted by the memories of your night with Taeil. Physically, you were beginning to heal (save for the inevitable scarring), but mentally, you existed within those few hours with your attacker. It had gotten pretty hard to stay present.

You don’t actually remember sitting on the floor, but you found yourself there. You stared at the wall in front of you as your mind poured over all the possible ways Jiho and his goons could sneak in.

His goons… were they after Hyoseob about now?

You raked your fingers through your hair as you remembered parting ways with him in the woods. He was right, you would make it here. You really hoped he was okay.

Or Bambam?

Then it became hard to breathe, and your sore throat began to tighten. You couldn’t take this. Not anymore. Why was Bambam even in those woods? Was he yet another person who put themselves at risk to protect you?

Like your brother.

You knew now that no one was safe. Standing from your spot on the floor; the wood creaked beneath your feet, and you cringed the idea that anyone could hear you. You were already this dangerous burden, wasting away their space and food, did you really need to be noisy on top of that?

No one said anything about the way you changed, but your head was drowning in a sea of thoughts you imagined them to have. Thoughts of contempt, resentment and hatred.

Your heart began to pound as you heard your door handle move; a tiny part of you expecting Jiho or Taeil to emerge from the entrance.

But you immediately felt a sense of calm as you spotted Hyunjin. He smelled like the pine trees that populated the woods outside, so you assumed he had just come back from hunting.

How long had you been spiraling like this?

Your face reddened at the realization of how you must look right now. Stray hairs clung to the edges of your sweaty forehead the same way yesterday’s pajamas clung to your thinning frame as you stood, teetering, next to the dresser.

Unsurprising to you though, Hyunjin didn’t bat an eye. “Wanna get some fresh air?”

Although everyone else at the Farmhouse treated you like you were going to fall apart at any moment (arguably justified), Hyunjin treated you like you.

It was a good feeling.

And you can’t deny, you never worried about what Hyunjin thought of you, because somehow, you knew you didn’t have to. He had become your healing space.

“Not really, but I probably should.” Your voice was still a bit raspy, though it had been subtly improving. “I’m probably driving everyone nuts with how little I’m pulling my weight. Maybe I can go help reinforce the fence…”

He shook his head, “You aren’t driving anyone crazy, they’re just worried.” He paused, his voice becoming slightly lower as he subtly looked you up and down.

“I’m right here with you, and you’re in a safe place full of people that love you. Please don’t torture yourself in here.”

At that, the thin veil that held back your tears up until this moment, burst. You were unable to keep the emotions from leaking out of you as you sobbed into your hands.

You felt a gentle tug around your shoulder, before you were wrapped up in his arms, back on the floor. As you sob into his hoodie-covered chest, you reciprocate, limbs trembling as you cling to him for life.

“I have you, Y/N. You’re safe. You’re loved.”

It would take time to believe this, but if anyone would be able to drill it into your head, it’d be Hyunjin.

Once you were able to calm your voice a bit, you let a question slip through the cracks, “How can you see me, when no one else can?”

With the ends of his fingers, he lightly directed your chin upwards. Much to your chagrin, this was to look you in the eyes.

“The others don’t understand what hurt is, not in the way that we do.”

With this, you were speechless. He had worded the feeling you’d had about him but could never put words to. Up until this point, you felt an unexplainable kinship and sense of understanding with Hyunjin. But it all made sense now: the world before the virus broke him just as much the world after. Just like you.

You stared into each other's eyes for a moment, Hyunjin patiently waiting for you to process his words until you finally whispered, “Can you tell me your story?”

He chuckled to himself.

“My father was a soldier, so was my brother. I suppose I was going to be one too.”

You raised your eyebrows, “You? A soldier?”

His gaze shifted down, resting on the floor in front of him in shame. “Yeah. They thought the same thing”

You looked him up and down in panic, “no, I--”

He shook his head, cutting you off. “It’s okay. It’s never been any mystery to me that I’m not meant for that.”

He continued, and you didn’t fail to notice his brows furrow and his eyes harden. “I tried my best to keep up. I learned to shoot, fight, even speak the way they did.” he shook his head in exasperation, “But it was never enough. My family’s perception of me was always clouded by everything I wasn’t and should've been, and they never looked past that until the very end.”

His voice was breaking now, and instinctively you began to rub his back, urging him to continue.

“And I’m the only one left now, the sole survivor. I was the only one young enough to survive the virus. I never met my mom, and my only living family died disappointed in me.”

Silence. And then a sob; “I hated the way they lived, and I hated the person they expected of me--” he paused before finishing his sentence, attempting to gather himself.

“It’s why I’m out hunting all the time. It’s the only time I ever feel worth anything.”

He finally looked back at you, and you had to stop yourself from crying too. He looked so defeated; eyes brimming with tears. You gently reached out with your other hand to hold his, and you vaguely noticed the scars you left him, ages ago.

“Y-you say I’m the only one that sees you, but Y/N, you’re o-only one that sees me too.”, He smiled through another wave of emotion, “That’s why I really need you to be okay, do you u-understand?”

You nod back hurriedly, unable to open your mouth to speak without crying.

“Whenever I hunt alone it’s…it’s just me alone with my thoughts. It feels like the world is empty, just me and my resentment alone.” He smiled as he continued, “But with you, it’s so easy. My mind is quiet, and I’m not alone.”

Then it came to you, you knew exactly what to say, “We have eachother, Hyunjin. Always.”

He then stood up, stretching out a hand, “That’s it, I have something I need to show you.”

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[mydearesthrry]

places we won’t walk (chapter one) || peter parker

summary - the doors at midtown seem a little boring, but when you get introduced to someone you seem to remember, what happens when they seem to remember you too?

word count - 2.9k (wow shes gettin better!)

pairings - peter parker x fem!reader

warnings - like mild mention of s*xual assault, angst if you squint really hard, mj being a softy for you, mj being a lowkey bi, peter being stupid as always, y/n calling peter a colonizer.... thats it ok enjoy

a/n: so i know i last updated in october, but as u all saw i have a 25 days of xnas thing going on (PLS I WROTE THE A/N LIKE A MONTH AGO PLUS I FORGOT ABOUT THE XMAS THING DISREGARD) so pwww updates will be slow (as if they werent already omg) but the next chapter will be arriving hopefully, fingers crossed, on xmas eve or xmas! also, are you guys watching the new euphoria episode? also, i’ve stopped using the word ‘stuttering’, as it may be ableist, and i’d never wanna come off as insensitive. anyway lmao, enjoy chapter one, the trials and tribulations of hitting someone in the nuts.

also side note psa: biggest thank you to @blossomparkers for helping me so much w this chapter. i owe it all tooooo u lani yani. thank u for everything !!!!!

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when y/n y/m/n stark was in her early years, she was never aware of the impact her father would and did hold over her life, and in turn, the whole world. for the longest time, you’d always assumed that your father wasn’t real, and everything that had been told to you by malicious family members who were jealous over your father’s “successes” had been lies, and you had it believed yourself. no one would even think that you were tony stark’s daughter until it had been mentioned. tony’s snarky attitude had been a character trait that you’d gotten, and you always took pride in your humor and attitude.

the story of your mother and tony had been messy and all over the place. from a drunken hook-up followed by multiple days of morning sickness, to a surprise pregnancy test, the storyline of your parents had been.. well.. interesting to say the least. you never focused on your family’s history, solely based on the fact that you didn’t have two fucks to give about your family history, but you also never knew your father which was-- bizarre. 

when tony had found out about you, he claimed it was a drunken accident, a mistake, and one he made when he was “less responsibly a stark”, which was actually just some fucking bullshit, but he didn’t wanna admit that he hooked up with some random chick at a bar that he thought was hot.

since you had been raised by a mother who was barely there, you had to raise yourself. you were kinda street smart and book smart, and you were always smart when it came to books, because you were the type to want to learn-- unlike others.

when you were in your teen years, you had tabs on you and the media on you 24/7 to make sure you didn’t royally fuck up. the unwanted attention became too much when you started realizing that people didn’t want you for your personality, they wanted you for your title. but this was after you moved from brooklyn. nuvale and peter never saw you as some “movie star”, or some famous person in the media because you weren’t. but when you had grown to learn what your father did, he had forced you to not fuck up to maintain his-- somewhat okay reputation. 

you always wanted that superstar life, as a fantasy of course, but when you got to it, you realized the cliche-y-ness of it all. you’d idolized the famous women in the media-- idolized how they looked like. you realized fairly quick how fucked up the media truly is. you realized how things really aren’t as they seem. its not just the galas that look extravagant, or getting to wear a fancy new gucci outfit every night. it honestly was a whole bunch of other shit you wouldn’t even imagine. it comes with the no privacy thing- people stalking you in public, the death threats, so much shit that wouldn’t happen as common if you were just anonymous.

being an avenger (basically), your dad had natasha teach you the ropes; the basic rules of how to kick someones ass. it was a handbook that the women of the avengers had created, and it had all the rules and regulations of how to spar someone on the team, and basically how to righteously beat someone's ass up. it was never really something you found too important, but as you grew older, you realized that it was very important to know, especially since you were a girl.

despite your harsh remarks and snarky attitude, your father always knew how to hit a sensitive point in you that always managed to break you down. you never quite understood why he would want to make you feel worse about yourself than you already felt, but regardless, you always felt underappreciated by him. being a stark, you were expected to be a genius, get over the top grades, and constantly be able to keep up, but with your luck, you were graced with depression, social anxiety, and a 4.0 gpa. fun, right? 

wrong.

when you were 11, you had made friends with the kids in your apartment halls, and you learned that their names were nuvale jones and peter parker, and you were basically the golden trio. you were hermione, peter was ron, and nuvale was harry. which, now that you look back at it, makes much more sense than any other arrangement. you also had another friend, harry osborn, but once he moved away, there was no way for you to talk to him anymore. he had moved across the country to california, and from then, it was just you, peter, and nuvale. your best friends ha been there for you for what seemed like decades, although you only knew them for about three.

peter was the boy with the rosy cheeks who little 12 year old you would get butterflies in her tummy. or the type of boy to bring you an extra snack if you weren’t able to pack it the night before. he was the type of boy to walk you to the nurses office if you got hit with a dodgeball. he was the type of boy to fall for someone like you. but he didn’t. or so you thought. 

little prebubescent y/n was an awkward girl who thought the world would be on her side when she needed it the most, or that whenever you needed peter or nuva, they would be there. you didn’t think your best friend would stop talking to you after you had moved away. you were too naive to know that peter liked you, and you were too naive to know that he had liked you back, but you wanted to believe what your brain would tell you, so you decided to flush your feelings down the drain and forget about them, which, in hindsight, was a pretty shitty idea. who would’ve known?

your alarm clock blared loudly from beside you, causing you to let out a loud groan in protest. you hit the side of your head angrily, then whining and rubbing the spot which you hit. whines and loud sighs fell from your lips as you rubbed the sleep from your eyes and pulled the covers over your head, knowing what would come next after you would try to snooze your alarm.

“good morning, miss stark, how could i be of service to you this morning?” friday’s voice echoed through your large bedroom. you peaked your eyes and forehead from beneath the covers, your eyes slowly starting to adjust to the light that was pulled through the big blinds which were now open. 

“mmm, fri, just tell happy to get the car ready, ill be ready in a few min- nevermind, tell him to get ready in thirty, im probably gonna fall asleep in the shower.” you croaked, taking your phone from the charger which was on your nightstand. you slipped on your bunny slippers and turned on the heater in your room, the draft filling your room with cold air throughout the night.

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once you walked through the large industrial doors of midtown’s cafeteria, everyones voices started to drop into sharp hushed whispers, making you roll your eyes and pull your hood up over your face. you pulled your airpods from your pockets into your ears and tried your best to avoid any and all eye contact with anyone you did end up coming into contact with. you walked over to the food bar where you grabbed a red school tray and plastered on your best smile to the lunch ladies who work oh so hard to make sure you all were fed. as you walked through the line, you could feel the intensified stares on you, making your back erupt in chills. you didn’t like to be watched, and the fact that you were a so-called celebrity didn’t help your cause in any way. 

“hey.” a low voice called from behind you. it was a girl with curly hair with gorgeous light brown skin, and a jawline that would cut you. you were almost astonished by her beauty, but you remembered the facade you had to hold, especially to strangers that you didn’t know.

“hey?” you asked unsurely, wondering if she was with the media or not. which was something that tended to happen quite a bit.

“don’t worry, i’m not with the press. you just seem interesting.” she said in a monotone voice, but still with a strong look of seriousness on her face. you giggled softly when your eyes locked and your faces went totally still, making the girl in front of you laugh as well. she held out her hand in front of you, while also balancing her tray and book in the other hand. you placed yours into hers and shook it, smiling when she told you her name.

“michelle jones.” she smiled, your throat getting a little tight at her last name, and you had to admit that it struck a little chord within you, but you quickly cleared it from your thoughts and introduced yourself as well.

“y/n stark. pleasure to meet you, jones.”

“pleasure to meet you too.”

“so, i get that you’re new here,” she started walking, inviting you to walk along with her. “what- what are you doing here? i mean i get you’re smart and all, but this is a nerd school; you literally could’ve gone anywhere, so, might i ask, why here?”

“hm, interesting question. seriously i don’t know. my dad and i don’t really get along so he makes the decisions and i tell him if i like it or not. which by the way, i’m gonna have to stay near you-- you’re the only one making this bearable for me right now.” you snorted, nudging your elbow to hers. 

“hm, daddy issues. great song, love the artists.” she smirked, making you shoot your head back in loud laughter, gaining some side eyed glances from a few people sitting at the tables around you.

“so, where are we sitting? i usually nev-”

“hey mj!” you were interrupted by a boyish laugh and hoots and hollers coming from a table two tables ahead of you. 

“jesus fucking christ. what? just because i got some and you didn’t doesn’t mean that you have to be that fuckin’ loud about it.” she grumbled, placing her tray down, slinging the backpack on her right shoulder beside her. you looked at her with a nervous but curious glint in your eyes. she gave you a knowing look which said, ‘just go with what i say’, making you nod in understanding.

“woah! holy shit! i m- i mean woah- nice to- nice to meet you!” the boy fumbled over his words, looking at you and michelle in disbelief, shaking his friends shoulder and poking at his cheek.

“nice cut, g. looks nice.” you said to him, giggling as you stuck your straw into the mini juice box.

“o-oh, thanks… g?” he said back to you, observing your looks with a confused expression written on his face making you giggle at his confusion. 

“peter! look! y/n stark is at our table!” he whisper shouted to his friend, making you look at michelle with a smile on your face and playfully rolling your eyes. she looked back at you, rolling her eyes as well, gesturing to her head as if saying ‘idiots’, making you giggle and turn back to them. 

“so, bowl cut dude, what’s your name?” you nodded to him, picking at your salad with the blac spork that was so cordially given to you by mj. 

“n-ned, ned leeds.” he smiled sheepishly.

“and you, colonizer, what’s your name?” you tapped on the table, alerting the boys attention. you could hear michelle and ned hollering and snickering from their seats, but decided to keep your poker face rolling. but i mean, how couldn’t you? the look on his face was absolutely priceless. 

“peter park- wait did you just call me a colonizer?” he cut himself off in his own sentence, looking at his other friends for confirmation, to which they nodded, still cackling at the fact that you had indeed call him a colonizer.

“peter park, hm?” you teased, ignoring the way you hesitated and ignoring the way your chest felt heavy when the name of peter was said.

“n-no thats not my name-” he said, tripping over his words, making you let out a chuckle. 

“i’m messing with you. with what you’ve given me, i could only guess your name is peter parker?” you rested your chin on your hand, engaging in the awkward conversation.

“yeah. thats my name.” he said more confidently, giving you a tight lipped smile.

“nice to meet you, parker.”

“you too, stark, my pleasure.”

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after the small encounter with your new found friends, you had gone back to your respective classes, which meant that your next class had peter in it. after you had split up, you decided to get there early to avoid any commotion surrounding you.

as the boring class continued, you heard the loud clicking of high heels in the hallways, which had to be one person and one person only.

“stark,” someone shouted from the door which swung open. low and behold, in front of you was the prickly bitch, your principal, mrs cunningham. “come with me, eugene’s parents have requested a meeting with you and your father considering that you had just hit their son in the private areas!” everyone snickered and laughed. finally someone had stood up to flash’s shit. 

“y- you punched flash in the nuts? i thought that was just a rumor?” peter stuttered, looking at you in disbelief.

“yeah, the fuck was i gonna do? let him flirt with me? no. that bitch tried to grab my ass. i’m a stark, i was raised better than that.” you whispered to him, packing your bag as you did so.

“hm, guess you’re right. well, good luck stark.” 

“thanks parker.”

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once you arrived in the principals office, you saw what seemed to be his mother in one of the seats decked out in expensive pearls and diamonds. typical.

“little miss over here punched my son in the privates! i will not allow this to happen!” fuck. you thought; another one of those stuck up cunty parents.

“pfft, probably paid to get their son into here.” you muttered under your breath, playing with your protection bracelets incase anything was to ever happen.

“wHAT? mrs cunningham, i will not allow this child to talk about my son this wa-”

“hello! i was called in?” a voice interrupted, one you could only peg as your father.

“ahh! mr stark! you’re finally here!” your hilarious excuse as a principal said cheerfully.

“i am! and i am here to.. come and have a meeting about my daughter's- behavior?” he asked questiongly, already seeing the triumphant and cocky look on your face. he knew you weren’t at fault, and you were gonna lie your pretty ass out of it.

“well, mr stark, we have a student in the nurses room due to the actions of your daughter!” she looked at him menacingly. he shook his head with a smile on his face and walked over to you, grasping your shoulders in his hands.

“well kiddo, wanna explain what and why you did what you did?” he smiled, giving you two taps on your shoulder, already knowing what was next. you two had a pretty good acting schedule when it came to it, when in reality, you despised eachother.

“sure daddy! eugene had been hitting on me for several days now, and even found my private social medias in use to.. how can i say this, use me for my fame? he tried talking to me, very inappropriately on several occasions, and even went as far as to try and grab me in areas in which i find extremely inappropriate, without my consent, might i add, which doesn’t seem okay with me. does it seem exceptional to you, mrs thompson?” you asked, while only keeping your eyes on his mother.

“why, i am so sorry miss stark! his father will be in contact, i did not raise my baby to be this way! im sorry for any inconvenience he may have caused you!” she gasped, raising a hand to her heart. 

“it’s okay, i just request, may this never happen again? i would not like my privacy to be invaded, much less from your son, and can i please ask that he never try to hit on me, nor any girls at this school ever again? i can only imagine how many other girls this may have happened to, mrs thompson.” you sighed, your eyes filling up with fake tears. you reached up to touch your fathers hand, tapping it twice back, knowing that you both had just won.

“never again miss stark, once again, i am so sorry this happened to you.” 

“it’s okay. now mrs cunningham, shall we see our way out?” your father answered for you, looking over at the old white woman who looked like a piece of cheese. she could only nod in awe, giving you the cue to pick up your bags and walk proudly to the door.

“thanks i guess.” you muttered, pulling out your airpods once more, hoping to seal the conversation with your father.

“yeah yeah, no problemo.” he muttered back, avoiding eye contact and stuffing his hands in his  pockets. 

once you reached the door, you remembered that you had left something in your locker, and informed your dad that you’d be going back to get it. he all but nodded and looked back at his shoes before trudging to the car.

once you entered the seemingly halls, much to your surprise, you saw a scrawny teenage boy lifting open a set of lockers, which you didn’t even know was possible, and pulling out a red and blue suit. once you saw who the hands belonged to, your mouth fell agape as you gasped,

“peter?”

[the-bangtan-boys]

'⭐ ult group tag;

i was tagged by the cutest sweethearts @kooseokss 💓 & @joonni 💓 to do this tag! thank you cuties ahhh! I LOVED READING YOURS! it's always so lovely to get to know you better 🤍🥺

[rules: answer the following questions for your ult kpop group]

here is mine 🥰💫;

1. who was your first bias?

namjoon 🥺🌱

2. who is your bias now?

namjoon 🐨, taehyung 🐻 & jimin 🐥

3. what was the first mv you watched by them?

idol

4. what's your favorite mv?

okay i can't just name one 🥺🙊🙈 .. on (both versions), blood, sweat & tears, mic drop, spring day, dope, war of hormone, i need u, fire, boy with luv, dynamite.... 🤍

5. if you could listen to one of their songs for the rest of your life, which would it be?

this is pretty hard and i thought about that a lot .. maybe either life goes on (because it's such a comfort song ☁️) .. or dna/best of me .. cause they always make me happy whenever i hear them 💓

6. who would you want to see them collab with?

ohh i mean there would be plenty artists who would make me super happy if they collaborate with them but... mhhh idk...i think also just them would be enough for me .... if i should pick- maybe lany, cheat codes again or the weeknd & (my heart also still wants a gotbangtan moment but- 🥺💓)

7. what (mv) concept do you want to see them do?

dark concept or like blood, sweat & tears; maybe also a kinetic manifesto film like for on again; hyyh maybe ??? 🙈

8. have you ever had a dream with any of the members in it?

yes just recently i dreamed that i met tae and jin (both dressed bv season 3 like) in a supermarket and casual chatted with them, i asked tae to sing me 'fly me to the moon' and he sang it for me 🥺 + i think maybe 1 or 2 other dreams but i can't remember

9. if you could spend the day with one member, who would it be and what would you do?

namjoon (we would go to a park, chill at han river, maybe also hiking, walking through a forrest or just bicycling 🚲🌱🌿🌅)

or tae (i would love to visit an art gallery with him or an old record store or something like that (i'm not that good with my knowledge of art but i bet it would be super interesting to learn all these things from him, maybe also painting together 🥰🎨)

or jin (i just had the idea that i also would love to go on a party trip with jin omg hdhjg that would be so hilarious and he would make the silliest jokes 🙈🙊😅🥳 & also partying with entire bangtan would be amazing- ....!!!)

10. which member do you think you could get along with best?

tae, hobi, jk and namjoon (?)

11. which member do you think you would argue with?

maybe jimin? idk why I LOVE THIS FAIRY ANGEL but idk why i just had this thought 🥺😂 also maybe yoongi- whenever i would want to do something and go out and he would want to stay home 🙈

12. if you had to let one member scroll through your tumblr, who would it be?

jungkook- i guess he would have some perfect ideas how to make my blog even cooler (theme, header whatever), i bet he would be even a pro in these things 🙊🥰✌ + maybe he would laugh hahahah, that would be okay 🙈😂

💓 i'm tagging: @svenery @rosereddawns @asunflowercalledjimin @springkitten @ourseokmin @madeitwang @mystically-mysterious @cherryjk @utopiajeon @marvelousbangtan @07lov @alovelyalien @starlightkosmos @vminsos @dixmond-taurus

[sauiice]

“I find that these days, the lines are blurry between flesh and machine, between leadership and bloodlust- between ‘good’ and ‘evil.’ I also find that humans, more varied than the stars themselves, love to dance upon these lines, and they dance to a tune loud enough to drown out any who would dare ask them to turn the damn radio down.”
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some promo art for my wip comic: Should We Go Home!!! its uh, a working title. 
The story is mostly set in a galaxy known as Eulenis, home to several inhabited solar systems with ecosystems and societies both beautiful and deadly. Communications and travel between planets are essentially akin to traveling countries, interplanetary functions and other technology constantly being improved- and the morally gray human empire, the Empire of the All-Hand, has been steadily crawling its way to power. Humans can be found on just about any other planet, views on them as varied as they are. They are a species known for altering themselves and the world around them, advancing their biotechnology and genetic modifications to grow strong and fight in an Empire that outlaws robots to do it for them.
This story follows the tale of Lim and Lanie Gemino, two siblings that rise from the bottom of this empire’s streets to carve their destinies into the cold steel of history- and their wills into their own flesh and bone. 
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if anyone wants to ask questions about the world, the rough direction the story might take, the Gemino siblings, or just wants me to info-dump more, pleasE let me know, either comment or shoot a question at my inbox!! i’d absolutely love to gush about it, it offers new perspectives and i’d love to answer any questions i can without spoiling! this story’s been brewing for years and i’m so excited!!! and for anyone reading this far thank u, i’d take a bullet for u

[hhgossip]

HIDDEN HILLS WEEKLY ISSUE #1

IN THIS ISSUE OF HIDDEN HILLS WEEKLY, WE ARE TALKING ABOUT THE OUTRAGEOUS LIFE’S OF OUR VERY OWN RESIDENTS IN OUR GROWING GATED COMMUNITY! FROM LOVERS REUNITING TO A MESSY PUBLIC BLOWOUT BETWEEN TWO FORMER LOVERS! LET’S GET STARTED HIDDEN HILLS !

BREAKING NEWS: ANNIKA BADIE AND JAYDEN HANSEN CAUGHT ARGUING OUTSIDE OF NASHVILLE’S FAMOUS GAYLORD OPRYLAND RESORT !

a night that started out like any other award show: full of glitz and glamor, some good music and laughs, rewards and praise for a years worth of hard work. who knew ( or could predict ) it would end with tears and a public screaming match ? the 54th annual country music awards were nothing short of spectacular, and a proud moment for some of our very own hidden hills residents. margarita trejo, performing her award winning song the bones winning awards for female vocalist of the year, song and single of the year. cameron nelson, performing his newest hit cold as you, winning awards for male vocalist of the year and album of the year. as well as annika badie performing her newest single hole in the bottle winning the award for musical event of the year. cameron nelson and annika badie ended up honoring country music sensations brad paisley and carrie underwood with a spark-filled tribute performance of the duos song “remind me”. the set was the first time the two artists had collabed since nelson’s last tour where badie starred as his opening act. it was a memorable night with huge names all coming together for a night to celebrate country music with stars like: morgan wallen, eric church, miranda lambert, carrie underwood, brad pasiley, hosted by reba mcentire and darius rucker. the evening ended with hansen and badie caught on camera linked hand in hand singing along trejo’s closing performance of the bones, their son lorenzo ( age 5 ) seated happily between the two. after parties were roaring throughout the night in the streets of nashville, though it seemed that two of the award winners opted out of the festivities. fans and hotel staff say that badie was seen in the hotel bar hours later alone, chatting with some fans as she ordered the house a round of drinks and shortly after nelson showed up. the two had a few drinks, talked, and eventually ended up leaving together. 

 neither were seen until the next morning, nelson photographed leaving the hotel on his own, everything seeminly returning to normal or so opryland resort staff and guests thought it safe to assume. roughly an hour later, sources say there was a noise complaint to about the suite belonging to badie and before security had the opportunity to address the situation and ask the occupants to tone it down, staff say jayden hansen ( father of annika’s only child ) was overheard yelling in the hallway something along the lines of,  “enjoy your flight back to wherever it is you decide to go. either back to hidden hills or cameron’s room.” the "peter pan” songstress was seen shortly after running after hansen barefoot in nothing but a t-shirt asking him to come back to her room and talk. neither jayden’s team or annika’s team chose to comment at this time, both teams saying badie and hansen asked for privacy and thanked fans for respecting their wishes at this time. though it was hard to ignore that only a day after her arrival back in hidden hills, badie was photographed outside fellow songstress isabelle amor’s home neither nelson or hansen in sight. so does this mean the end of jayden and annika ? is there a budding romance between country’s newest and most sought after bachelor cameron nelson and country vixen annika badie ? or is this the beginning of a new messy southern love triangle ? we’ll keep you updated, but we hope for the sakes of all involved that fans get some good music out of the dramatic events of this past weekend !

BACK TOGETHER: ZEKE KING AND ISABELLE AMOR CAUGHT OUT AND ABOUT SHOPPING FOR JEWLERY!

the heart wants what it wants, doesn't it ? well hidden hills residents, ever since we got the word that isabelle amor, 28, moved into our lovely gated community, we all have wondered when she and former beau, zeke king, 27, ( also know as isaac king ) were going to bump into each other ! it looks like it’s finally happened, maybe it just had to happen beyond our closed gates ?!  here’s what we do know that the former lovers were spotted in a jewelry shop together. king was reportedly there for about ten minutes before amor arrived to the shop. employees stated that both celebrities were well mannered and very kind to them. the big question on everyone everyone’s mind ? why they were both at a jewelry store in the middle of the day ? 

well our sources tell us that king was checking out the engagement ring section and while amor came in not long after initially asking for a birthday present for a certain someone in her life before king had caught her eye ( or so they were trying to make it seem ). the singer was the one who reportedly greeted the talk show host and actor. according the the employees, the two stood there talked for about an hour, and they were said to be nothing but smiles and laughs. king even asked her what type of ring that she liked the best. belle pointed at one and according to employees and said, “i think this one is the most beautiful one they have, it’s the one i’ve always wanted.” with a smile on her lips. now there were no signs of king’s current girlfriend, nicole hampton who he’d recently rekindled with after her mid-august almost vegas wedding to actor theo dean or either heartthrob’s children. is there trouble in paradise for hampton and king ? are our favorite problematic off again on again duo working towards making things take a turn towards on again ? 

WEDDING ON PAUSE... : JORDYN GELLER AND CALEB WALSH PUT THEIR WEDDING ON HOLD A G A I N!

just a few short weeks ago, NFL linebacker for the LA chargers caleb walsh took to twitter to announce that he and long time lover model and singer jordyn geller were in fact weeks away from the wedding we’ve all been waiting for. in late 2018, only a week before their orgininal wedding date, the power couple confirmed their split for the first time. sources close to both families say the “i hate u i love u” singer caught cold feet and the couple spent a year apart. though both had some very public flings in that time, eventually geller and walsh reunited. they’ve both said their reunion was almost inevitable when walsh’s football season came to an end and he found his way back in hidden hills. 

though many were excited to see our favorite lovers confirm they were in fact back together, not everyone was happy about it. zeke king, close friend of geller, has countless times on twitter poked jabs at the idea of his disapproval - as well as caleb’s ex-girlfriend annika badie. that didn’t seem to stop the love birds from deciding to head back to the idea of heading to the altar. after months of speculation from the public and fans on twitter, caleb walsh comfirmed the question on many people’s mind: he and jordyn were in fact engaged. the wedding was set for novemeber 10th at the montage hotel in laguna beach, the couple was said to have spared no expense and it was set to be the wedding event of the year but to everyone’s surprise ? the wedding was put on hold. and no, this time it wasn’t per jordyn geller’s request. it was because of scheduling conflicts on the hotel’s end and walsh’s games. will these two ever really say i do ? i guess time will only tell !

CHEATING SCANDAL: SPENCER STONE AND LANIE SINCLAIR FIRST A BABY NOW THIS ... !

lanie sinclair was spotted early friday morning leaving the home of her ex fling, 5 second of summer band member spencer stone. neighbors tell us the young actress was seen leaving the house with her two young children, wearing a shirt that appeared to have belonged to stone. we can only imagine what happened between spencer and lanie that night. the two are currently expecting their second child together, even though they both are in a relationship with other people. fans of sinclaire and stone seem to “ship” the pair together more than they do with their actual partners ! could the two be rekindling their romance ? only time will tell. we have reached out to representatives of both parties and lanie’s boyfriend and girlfriend ( scout kessler and paige ricci ) and spencer’s girlfriend ( frankie hart ). we have not received any comments from those involved, but we cannot wait to see how this unfolds.

[peterthepark]

crush culture - [three]

come on, take my hand

pairing: steve harrington x reader (university & modern au)

summary: ice skating and late night endeavors always lead to something good. especially when steve likes holding your hand.

warnings: fluff, uses of social media, strong language, cuteness overload

A/N: chapter was inspired by dumb stuff by LANY! check them out! such a good band <3

series masterlist

You chuckle brightly as your phone lights up for the third time in a row, buzzing softly with a notification from Steve. Shoving a spoonful of Chinese take-out into your mouth, you type back, blissfully unaware of the mischievous looks that your roommates give you.

He’s been texting you for weeks - whether it be to check in on you, or ask about your day, or to share new music with you. Steve truly meant it when he had said that he enjoyed your company. You didn’t mind the sudden companionship between the two of you, becoming closer to Steve couldn’t make you any happier. But you did wonder if he felt the same way, based on his flirtatious innuendos and his cheeky comments.

What if you were simply trying to see what you wanted to: that he liked you back?

“When we said text Steve, we didn’t mean text Steve.” Kate smirks, twisting her fork into the chow-mein. “You guys have been at it nonstop, huh?”

You shrug, locking your phone. “He’s just being friendly.” Robin huffs loudly, groaning as she leans back against the chair. “I don’t wanna jump to conclusions, Ro. And I really don’t wanna rush into things, either. We don’t need another Jake situation.”

“God, I forget about that asshole.” She laughs bitterly, fists clenching at the mention of his name. “Piece of shit.”

Kate continues making conversation, talking amongst herself with Robin as you return to the messages on your phone.

what are u doing todayyy?

nothing rlly, gonna relax my ass off since it’s already break 🎄

You bite down on your thumb, before continuing to type away.

what about you?

The grey ellipse appears on the screen, bouncing as Steve begins to reply - only for it to disappear shortly thereafter, where you found yourself left on read. You frowned, hoping that you hadn’t lost his interest. Giving him a couple of minutes, you slip your phone away, dragging your feet to the front door to grab the mail as you thought of worst case scenarios.

You pull open the mailbox, sticking your hand inside to grab the pile of white envelopes and coupons from the local market. Shifting through the papers, you take notice of a few important letters, eyebrows raised when you see one sent from London. A breeze brushes past your calves, and you turn in surprise to the sound of a small, chiming bell. Pedaling in circles around you, Steve plants his foot on the concrete, pulling the red bike to a stop.

“Hey!” You laugh heartily, putting the stack of mail under your arm.

Steve grabs the drink carrier in the basket of his bike, handing you a hot cup of coffee with a shy grin. He sports a grey beanie, and little wings of his hair pop out from beneath the fabric.

Adorable.

“I just wanted to repay you for that last time.” He remarks, “If I remembered correctly, it’s your favorite.”

“Thank you, Steve.” Your fingers brush against his as you generously accept the cup, ignoring the nervous tremble in your voice. “How’s your morning so far?”

“It’s alright. Better now. Thanks to you.” His head charmingly bobs to the side. Dipping your heads, you both blush with bashful smiles. “But I, uh, just finished my newspaper route around the neighborhood. And I’m headin’ back to my place.”

“Yeah? Maybe we could hang out today or something?” You shrug in suggestion, unsure of your words. “If you’re not busy.”

Steve smiles faintly before he nods his head in agreement. He tries to seem as calm as possible towards your question, but internally, he was truly exploding with butterflies. Has a girl ever made him feel this way after such a long time? It had been years since he genuinely felt the fantastical flutter in his stomach. And most importantly, it had been years since he oh-so-badly wanted to purse a girl as much as he wanted to pursue you. The littlest things that you’d do would send him into a captivated trance - like the way you’d let the sleeves of your sweater hang over your palms, cupping themselves around the heat of your coffee.

He was crushing on you.

A sliver of him didn’t sit well with the feeling. He’s always had a bit of trust issues with girls, especially after his past three ex-girlfriends. He forgot how crushes made him feel starry-eyed and lively, like he was on top of the whole world.

But who’s to say he wasn’t complaining about said crush? He likes you. End of story. Did he want to be something more? Maybe. If you’d let him.

More like if he’d let himself.

“Do you wanna come inside for a little?” You point at your apartment, swaying gently.

He hums undecidedly, as if he were making a tough decision. “Is it okay with your roommates?”

Robin and Kate lose their minds as soon as Steve walks through the door. Of course, they try to seem as subtle as possible with their excitement - not wanting to reveal the fact that you had feelings for Steve - but clearly, they were doing a terrible job in doing so. Kate would roughly nudge you in his direction, while Robin would wiggle her eyebrows at him. When Steve would have his back turned to them, they’d pretend to make-out in a comically exaggerated way. Ever the support system.

You offer him a combination of breakfast-lunch-and-dinner, sliding over a plate of the take-out from earlier. Steve rejects out of courtesy, but you respectfully insist, which causes him to, in the end, accept the food (mainly because he was unable to resist the pout on your face, and who wouldn’t say no to good ol’ Chinese food?) You sit and talk together at the dining table - him munching on Mongolian beef while you take careful sips from the latte he’d given you. Robin and Kate would butt into your conversation a few times, mostly to get to know Steve, asking him questions that you’d think only your family would ask.

Eventually, you retreat to your bedroom, cockily challenging him to a game of Mario Kart. You sit against your headboard, thumbs mashing the triggers as you speed past Steve.

“I’m telling you, Harrington. You can never win against me.” You giggle at him, pointing at the screen with your controller as you victoriously cross the finish line.

“You’re cheating!” He shouts, eyes wide with disbelief at how you managed to win again.

You turn to him, sending him a skeptical look. “There’s no cheating in Mario Kart! How could I possibly cheat?”

“Okay, fair. Then that means you must’ve hacked the game. There’s like no way. You’ve won like five times!”

Playfully, you toss your hair over your shoulder, finding amusement at the way he tries to stifle a laugh at your antics. “I’m just that good, Steve.”

In denial, Steve calls for another rematch, forcing you to pick a different character this time because he just doesn’t believe that you’re actually winning through Toad. Instead, you blindly pick Princess Peach, and Steve sticks with playing as the classic Mario. And to your downfall, you lose.

“Ha! I fucking knew it! Cheater!”

“Steve! I am not!”

“Yes! You won every damn time with Toad and now you’ve lost as Peach? Y/N, that’s some shady ass shit.” He gestures animatedly, wagging a finger at you.

“Uhuh. Go on. Go on. Bask in your victory. How many times have you won? Once?”

Cockily (and clearly fed up with your shit-talking), Steve asks for another match, this time, challenging you to a race around Rainbow Road. However, you lose again, causing Steve to win by one round.

“Hell yeah!” Rejoicing, he tosses the controller onto the bed. He throws his hands up, playing an imaginary trumpet with apparent joy that makes you smile.

“Oh, please. I let you win.”

“Nu-uh. I doubt it. You wanna know why?”

“Enlighten me.”

His voice drops to a whisper, tickling your ear as he leans closer into you. “I’m just that good.” You roll your eyes at his mocking tone, copying the words that you had said earlier with confidence.

“Keep telling yourself that. It’ll manifest someday.” You snort, pushing his shoulder. “Okay, so does the loser still get punishment?”

“I’m a man of my word.” He winks at you. “This isn’t necessarily a punishment though.”

“Oh?”

His chest rumbles as he chuckles, “More of an - an invitation that you can’t say no to.”

He couldn’t possibly...

“There’s this holiday ice skating thing downtown.” He starts, fiddling with the loose thread at the end of his sweater as he raises his head to meet your dumbfounded stare. “Come with me, Y/N?”

Was he asking you on a date?

Speechless, you stutter, cheeks heating up with sudden shyness. “Of course. I mean, I can’t say no, right?”

You exchange laughter, legs brushing up against each other as you scoot further up the bed.

“But do you want to say no?”

His eyes flicker up to meet your gaze. His brown eyes are intense, swirling with curiosity and anticipation as he awaits your response. With the hand furthest from your view, he crosses his pointer and middle finger over each other, silently sending a prayer to the universe that you’d say something that wouldn’t break his poor heart.

“Steve,” You shake your head. “I’d say yes even if I did have a choice.” He bites down on his bottom lip, feeling his heart pound from your words. “So, tonight?”

“Tonight. I’ll pick you up.” His arm brushes up against yours, and you suddenly become dizzy with all the emotions you were experiencing. “Sounds alright?”

“Sounds perfect, actually.”

-

Sighing, you stare at your reflection in the mirror, fingers playing with the loose strands of hair that wouldn’t stay in place. You readjust the earmuffs on your head, patting them down with a growing smile. From outside, you hear the soft ring of the doorbell echo through the hallways. With one final outfit-check, you slip your backpack over your shoulders then pick at your bubble jacket for any ugly stains or threads.

“Y/N! Steve is here!” You puff out your cheeks at Robin’s shout, giving yourself a brief pep talk before you’re barreling towards the front door. Robin grins proudly at you, placing her hands on your shoulders with a content look. “Don’t make an idiot out of yourself.”

You chuckle, placing your hands over hers. “Thanks. I’ll be sure not to.” She pulls you into a hug, whispering in your ear to call her if anything goes wrong. Turning the knob of the door, you’re met with Steve on your doorstep.

He smiles widely when he raises his head, face softening when he sees how cozy you look. “Hey.”

“Hi.” You shut the door behind you.

“Y-You ready to go?” He gestures at the motorcycle parked on your street - red and white, and all Steve Harrington.

“We’re going on that?” Realizing how rude that must’ve sounded, you continue. “I... motorcycles are just - they - I’ve never been on one, so...”

“There’s a first time for everything.” He laughs, scratching his jaw. Noticing your uneasy expression, he reaches out to touch your forearm. “Hey... you’ll be fine. You’ll love it.”

You sit behind Steve, calming yourself down as he starts up the bike. Wordlessly, he hands you his helmet.

“Are you sure? What about you?”

He shrugs, “Take it. Want you to be safe.” You place the helmet over your head, shivering from the cold. “You gonna hold on now or what?”

“Huh?” Steve takes your hands in his, placing them over his stomach so that your arms wrap tightly around his waist. “Oh, right. Yeah. Of course.”

Your breathing halts for a minute as he revs the engine, before he’s pulling into the street carefully. You squeak as he drives faster, whizzing past cars and stuck taxis. The chilly wind blows through your hair, and you can’t help the laugh that escapes your throat. Steve feels his heart grow at the sound, glancing back at you when the stoplight turns red.

Beautiful. Gorgeous. Pretty. No word in the world could describe you. But perfect seemed like a close one.

Steve helps you off the motorcycle, holding your hand as you hop down. The ice rink is filled with people, while Christmas music plays faintly over the speakers by the bleachers. He doesn’t let go of your hand; neither of you utter a word about it as you walk over to the rental skates. The only time he pulls away is when he puts his ice skates on, tugging on the laces expertly before he offers to fix yours. You don’t reject, laughing at the mess of strings you had accidentally created. His hand finds its place with yours when you head into the rink, holding onto the sides for support as you both get yourselves accustomed to the slippery ice.

Soon, you and Steve start to race each other around, nearly bumping into strangers as you glide past him. He grasps your hand before you can escape, which causes you to fall back into his chest from the sudden action. Steve instantly catches you, holding you by your hips before you can plummet to the hard, cold ground.

“Easy there, tiger.” He laughs against your skin, cold breath nipping at your neck. You blush, finding your footing once more. You spin around to face him, eyes trailing over the snowflakes that line the ridges of his beanie. “Did I tell you how, um, how cute you look... tonight?”

“Steve...”

“I mean, you look cute everyday but the whole...” He points at his ears. “...the whole earmuff thing brought out the - your - your cuteness.”

Just as flustered as you, he leans beside you against the rink’s fence, blinking up at the stars. You look over to him; you count the freckles on his jaw and the way the corner of his mouth turns up into a shy smile when he catches your eye. You dig the bladed toe of your skate into the ice, planting yourself in place as Steve slowly angles his body towards you. His hand comes to rest behind you, then his face is merely inches from yours. You hold your breath. Steve’s gaze flickers down to your lips, and the bridge of his nose gently grazes against yours. His head lowers while he parts his lips and closes his eyes.

He’s going to kiss you.

Until your phone buzzes loudly, and you groan in irritation. Steve’s face falls, and he tears his longing stare away from your lips when you step back to answer it.

Fucking hell.

“Hello?” Your voice is weak, raspy as if Steve had already kissed the life out of you - which he didn’t. Because you just got interrupted. “Kate? Yeah. What do you mean I... oh, fuck. You guys aren’t at home anymore? Fuck. Yeah, okay. Thanks. No, I’ll figure it out. It’s fine. I swear. Alright, bye.”

“Everything okay?” Steve sounds disappointed, but also worried, based on the tone of your voice.

“I left my freaking keys back at the apartment.” You laugh bitterly, cursing under your breath. “Kate and Robin had to go to Levi’s for something urgent and they won’t be back till like later-later.”

“Oh.”

“Yup.”

“Then come back to my place.”

What? Your jaw falls open at his words, and you rub your eyes to make sure that you aren’t dreaming.

“Are you sure? I could always find someone else and-“

“No, no. It’s okay. Plus, I live really close. It’s not a big deal for me or Jonathan.”

You and Steve linger around the rink for a few more hours. The tension between the two of you is clear - the accidental touches and accidental, nervous eye contact. Once the rink starts to clear up, you both decide to go home (or well, to Steve’s place).

-

His lofty two-story apartment is the same as it was during the party, only this time, silence fills the emptied space. You toss your shoes in the corner by the door, wincing when it echoes loudly throughout the living room. Steve pads out of the hallway, handing you a warm set of clothes.

“Steve, this is a lot. I’m only staying for tonight. I can sleep in these.” You huff, shrugging your jacket off and hanging it over the couch.

He shakes his head, smiling at you. “Here, it’s just a nice gesture from me to you. I’m insisting.” You hesitantly take the folded pile of clothing from him, holding it to your chest as he directs you to the bathroom.

Out of your cold and icy clothes, you tug down the long sleeves of Steve’s thermo, inhaling the sweet scent of vanilla. Then, you move towards Steve’s bedroom, knocking softly at his door. You hear a brief ‘yeah!’ from the inside, and you poke your head through the crack between the doorway.

“I’m gonna go sleep now...” You nod your head over to the couch by the TV. “Thanks for letting me stay.”

“No problem. You’ll be fine back there?”

“Yeah, thank you.” Steve sits on the edge of his bed, playing with his hands as he blinks at you. “G’night.”

You retreat towards the couch, plopping onto the leather cushions with a grunt. You lay the plaid blanket over your legs and curl up into the bundle of pillows. Burying your hands between your thighs for warmth, you shut your eyes, hoping that sleep would find its way soon.

It doesn’t. Tossing and turning don’t help at all - neither does the stiffness of the couch. You try your best to fall asleep, whether it be browsing on your phone or turning on the TV, nothing brings you there.

You knew you were making a bad decision once you had gotten up, letting the blanket trail behind you like a train as you quietly tiptoe into the hallway that led into Steve’s room. You screw your eyes shut when your hand reaches out to turn the knob, which makes the door creak slowly when you push it open.

The hall light peeks into Steve’s dark room, causing him to turn onto his back when he sees your figure. “Y/N...?”

“Hey, um... I can’t really - really sleep, so I was...” You clear your throat, hoping your voice would stop trembling already. “I was wondering if I could... stay with you? If that’s okay. With you. Maybe.”

You tug the blanket tighter around your shoulders, searching Steve’s sleepy face for a reaction. He mumbles something inaudible, before he pulls the comforter back and outstretches a large hand towards you.

“C’mere, beautiful.” He whispers as you crawl onto the bed, tucking your feet beneath his white sheets. He flips onto his other side, facing you with a tired smile.

“Hi.”

“Hi.”

He laughs into the pillow, while you innocently bat your eyelashes up at him. You find his hand under the covers, your pinky finger latches onto his, and you bite back the hazy grin on your face.

“Y/N?” Steve murmurs, a curl falling against his forehead.

You place your free hand on his arm. “Shhh...”

“Can I... can I...”

You force yourself to stay awake, listening to him stutter endlessly. With half-lidded eyes, you meet Steve’s admirable stare. Then, his hand leaves your pinky, trailing up your side until he stops at the nape of your neck. The bed shifts as he rolls closer towards you.

You gasp lightly when he kisses your forehead. Then the tip of your nose. Then your left cheek. Your right. And finally, he halts for a moment. His thumb swipes across your jaw, and you feel your eyes slowly, slowly, slowly close. Your eyebrows furrow in thought when Steve continues tracing letters on your jaw.

His finger follows the curve of the eight letter until the pad of his thumb lands on your bottom lip.

He spells out the words: I like you.

Steve tilts his head, and you squeeze his hip to let him know that it’s okay. A euphoric feeling washes over your chest when his lips press against yours. They’re soft - a little chapped from the cold - but it doesn’t faze you. He tastes of pumpkin spice, and you lean further into him for more. Laughs bubble from the two of you when you accidentally elbow his cheek, but return into the kiss once more.

He lets his lips hover over yours for one moment, then he places a chaste peck on them before he’s pulling back. He doesn’t want to. But he did need oxygen.

Yet, who needs oxygen when a person makes you feel like they can provide you all the possible air in the universe?

Steve smiles again when he recognizes the relaxed expression on your face. He pushes your hair away from your face, and then, he’s drifting off to sleep as well.

You take his breath away.

And at the same time, you’re the fresh air in his lungs.

-

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21 Questions Tag!

Hi! This is my first question/answer thingy ever and thank you to @vanaera for tagging me!! ok luv u enjoy!😘

1. Nicknames: My nickname actually is Cora lol (it's short for my real name shhhh that's a secret) I have also been called 'Laura' but it's mostly people who mishear it

2. Zodiac: LEO (yes I understand we kind of suck but oh well)

3. Height: I was 5'4 (163cm) last time I checked but I act like I'm 6'2 and look like I am 4'10 cuz of my incredible asian baby face #blessed

4. Hogwarts House: Ok this is hard because I used to be a Ravenclaw but then I took the test again a while ago and I was Slytherin?? I took a bunch more recently and seems like I gradually became more Slytherin as I grew up, which I totally understand

5. Last thing I Googled: "How much do butterflies weigh" I was watching a documentary on the migratory habits of Monarch Butterflies hehe (google it it's actually super cool they fly from Mexico to Canada but are so tiny)

6. Favorite Musicians: Ok this was super hard because I am hella indecisive but... BTS, Samm Henshaw, Anthony Ramos, Travis Garland, Kiana Lede, Lauv, Emotional Oranges, LANY (just to name a few!!)

7. Song stuck in My head: Sympathique by Pink Martini REFUSES to leave my brain, but also no complaints cuz it's actually a good song (it sounds so happy but is actually depressing as fuck, very confusing)

8. Following: 69(hehe lol)

9. Followers: Not many yet cuz this account still babie

10. Asks?: Not yet but any are welcome!

11. Amount of Sleep: It honestly depends, I put my body through some torturous shit oops... right now its 8-9 but it used to be 3-4

12. What are you wearing right now: Lol really exposing my quarantine fits rn huh? I'm wearing my old highschool basketball shirt and fuzzy sheep pajama pants because FASCHON

13. Dream Job: I really want to be a Diplomat (maybe working for UN?), but like even a political analyst or assistant is cool too

14. Dream trip: I really wanna visit Brussels or Geneva

15. Instruments: Ah yes my asian expertise... jk more like years of lowkey trauma. I play the piano, flute, guitar, french horn, uke and recorder (I don't even know if the last two count but at least I can play the jojo theme song on both?)

16. Languages: Korean, English, French

17. Favorite Songs: Tbh this changes like every month but I am currently obsessed with: Stella Jang-Villain, Apink-Dum Durum, Eloise-Subside, BTS-My Time, BTS-00:00, Sydney Franklin (feat. Mac Ayres)- Forever,Kiana Lede-Skiterlude, Rich Brian (feat. AUGUST 08)-Arizona

18. If you were an animal what would you be? A rat or mouse (I know ew but hear me out) I think I'm more of a generalist, not really specifically good at anything but generally willing to try anything. I am also kinda smol i think?

19. Favorite Food: MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP ICE CREAM. Sorry Namjoon I love you and your smexy brain but you are WRONG

20. Random Fact I have a phobia of butterflies and fish because they look so fragile and I don't want to accidently crush them or damage them

21. My aesthetic: Old books with writing in the margins, preferably old dictionaries, black coffee in stained mugs and rain. Lots of rain and clouds, cool humidity and moss and big unruly trees.

ahhhhhhh wow that was long. Thank you to anyone who read and I haven't really had the chance to make a lot of friends on here yet but here are some people I think are super cool @minsprings @subtlejiminie @hopetookmysoul @yoonsgiggle @jjkfire @jungkookiebus and anyone else who wants to because I really wanna get to know more ppl here! You honestly don't have to do this lol but you are welcome to if y'all have the time! Ok luv u bye

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Stuck With Me (Peter Parker x OC)

Hello it is i, the author of this slowburn fanfiction. I also have it on Wattpad! My username is madmax68421, so go check it out, I also have a buckyxOC. Enjoy :)

Today is just one of those weeks, well months. It feels like each day drags on, but then all the sudden it's Monday again. You just wonder what have I been doing, why are all the days mushing together? I guess it could be the rain, it's been raining almost every day this week.

It always gets Peter moody. I guess because it's annoying getting rained on while you're just trying to do your job, swinging through the city. Ned just hates rain, and I have a dog who loves the mud, but hates baths. I'm pretty sure Michelle is the only one who likes it.

"It's great antisocial weather." She always says

Another contributing factor to the days running together is, it feels like they are all the same.

Wake up, hear screaming from parents downstairs, get ready for school, hear dad slam the door to go to work, eat with crying mom downstairs, go to school, hangout with Ned, Peter and Michelle, come home, do homework, and go to bed.

Considering I'm with my friends most of the day it's not too bad. But I'm just tired of it all.

I sigh as I continue painting my hippie van, or Caroline. I dipped the paint brush into the mint green paint can again, and continued my work. Jon Bellion's Good Things Fall Apart blasting in the background. That and the heavy rain is enough that no noise in the house can be heard in the garage. Silence at the Kahale house was hard to come by so I welcomed it with open arms, as the paint fumes danced in my nostrils.

That's when the day dreaming started, it had almost become routine. Something to look forward to while I painted and did other maintenance on Caroline. It was pretty much the same scenario every time.

Peter and I sharing a long conversation in the van while Michelle and Ned sleep soundly. We are in a playful argument when suddenly he looked into my eyes and we kiss.

Ok, I know it's weird and not realistic. First off I am so hard in the friend zone. Second no one just does that, but hey a girl can dream. But really she can't because her cush is way out of her league. I mean come on he's Spiderman!

I was the second to find out, Ned being the first. Though I'm pretty sure me and Michelle knew around the same time. He came home one day after "the Stark internship" with the biggest black eye I had ever seen.

I was talking with Aunt Mae when he came home. He did a double glance at me and then bolted for the bathroom

"Peter?" Aunt Mae said, just as confused as I was.

"I just have to go to the bathroom!" He called out.

But he didn't know that I got a quick look of his eye before he bolted. That and the fact that like a year ago all the sudden he went from cute Lil Peter to shredded, taller Peter. And and a couple other things that had happened, making us all suspicious, I got up and went in his room. It took me about 60 seconds to find his suit.

The sudden pause in my music took me back into reality.

It was a text from Michelle in the group text

M: Hey nerds, how does Good Eats sound to you guys?

I was the first to respond

L: sounds amazing, I'm starving :))))

N: sure but I've got no cash 😒

I roll my eyes. Ned has been putting off getting a job for months.

L: I'm freaking loaded so I can pay for you 😘😘

N: thanks a love

L: I got u bb 🤠

M: get a room

P: Or just stop.

N: ayy Peter you coming?

P: I guess.

L: want me to pick you guys up?

M: Nah I don't trust your driving

L: um, rude :(

N: Yess plss

P: No.

My mood sinks, if that makes sense. Seems like Peter is annoyed with me, and I don't know why. I shake my head. Texts always sound passive aggressive. But something about the periods, and short and serious answers makes me question that. Maybe he was actually being passive aggressive.

guess I'll find out tonight

M: what time is good for you guys? I was thinking 6.

L: sounds great, that good with you Bubby? What time to you want to be picked up? 

Bubby is what I can Ned, he is pretty much my twin brother. First off we are both Hawaiian, second we just get eachother. Our humor is very similar so we can just make stupid jokes to eachother all the time.

N: 5:30 works great for me. Thanks ❤️!

L: don't mention it 💛!

Peter still hasn't replied. Maybe there is something wrong. I bite my lip and decide to text him away from the group chat.

L: hey Peter you ok? :)

P: 💬

The bubble goes up and down as he is typing before it disappears from my screen. I wait for it to return, but it doesn't. I dicide to text Michelle and Ned.

But Michelle beats me to it.

M: is it just me or is bug boy off?

L: was just about to say the same thing. I tried asking but he just left me on read.

M: I'll talk to him.

L: :( ok tell him I love him if he replies to you.

M: will do.

I notice a lack of Ned in this conversation, but before I can think of it any more I see my clock says 4:49. I close the paint can and head inside.

That's when I get hit in the head with a plastic cup.

"Ow what the frick" I exclaimed

My mom comes rushing over to me. "Oh Lani, I didn't see you!" She glares up at my dad who is on the other side if the room. He looks very mad. "It was meant for your father."

I don't know what I'm supposed to say to this. I dicide a "oh, it's fine" will do. The little voice in my head faintly whispers but it's not fine. I push it down. mom's going through a lot right now, she doesn't have to think of me over powers the whisper as I leave the room. My mind is blank except for the thought of the small, but definitely there pain on the side of my face.

Getting to my room I make my mind busy as I get ready for tonight.

1.1k the others will be longer hope you liked it:))

[oftripps]

“ –– wow. ”  it’s not so much a critique as it is a g-rated expletive. tripp forces a smile mid-chew and blinks. “ my tastebuds are screaming. gah–– uh, singing. singing. ”  he avoids swallowing and as ring-decorated fingers snag a napkin, wide eyes drifting to the tabletop as a small jingle breezes past tensed lips. “ ~ allergic to mushrooms ~ ”

or, alternatively: this is somethin’ new! the caspar slide pt. 2 !! & this time, it’s ‘bout to get funky !!  so i’m linc and this is tripp and he’s........ a trip, honestly, so let’s just... yeet on into this ––

( joe keery + 22 + muse 12 ) isn’t that phillip joel “tripp” goodman over there? i heard he joined faction: one after they got back to west ham. it’s funny, ‘cause they were only on the service trip because HIS BANDMATES DUPED HIM INTO THINKING THE SIGN-UP WAS FOR A WOODS-THEMED OPEN MIC GIG. hopefully they fit in there – they’re JAUNTY but also OUTRÉ. oh, i’m sure they’ll be fine.

out the door !  ( tripp goodman: a roadmap )

look up townie family in the dictionary and you’ll find a portrait of the goodmans directly beside. these folks have a looooong flippin’ legacy here in lil’ ole west ham, kansas. it all started with montgomery goodman, a good man, who helped west ham’s founders break ground on this midwestern charmer several centuries ago. and now, the goodmans still live on the same property –– a refurbished farmhouse ( now closer to mcmansion ) surrounded by five acres of roooooollin’ hills. once upon a time, they were farming folk. now, theresa and joel goodman run the town’s one and only veterinary clinic. 

honestly, growing up? tripp was a problematic kid. he’d take in frogs from the woods and start his own frog hotels. he’d sneak pets from the clinic to school who “ needed help learning their numbers ”. in class, he’d flick sunflower seeds at the backs of his peers’ heads and, when threatened with discipline, claim he simply “ wanted to see if they’d grow  ” .  so no, to answer your question–– tripp never really saw the real wrath warranted by his rulebreaking.

in fourth grade, he chose the saxophone as his required instrument. he caused such a commotion in his house, that his parents asked his teachers to suggest something quieter. the viola. the flute. the clarinet. the piano. instruments came and went,;instruments were quickly mastered and abandoned. because dear lord, how many times could they listen to the spongebob theme song played on woodwind ?!  on strings ?!  once middle school rolled around, little phillip joel knew his way around a whopping total of six instruments, a tally that would only grow in the coming years. eventually, his parents caved and allowed him to keep playing, so long as he respected instrument curfews. they gave song requests to avoid hearing the same pieces on repeat: the goodman household was probably the only one blessed with an oboe-and-beatbox rendition of under the sea. young phillip joel’s take on the issue was simple: not all heroes wore capes.

( tw: domestic unrest, mentions of violence ) theresa and joel split when tripp was 9. just seven months later, tripp’s mother moved in with her girlfriend: tripp’s guitar teacher, ms. lillith. tripp didn’t mind ms. lillith. she was chill. he came to find out she could knock back a chocolate milk almost as fast as he could, and she liked her grilled cheeses with swiss only. his best friend became a thirty-six year old woman who happened to be his mother’s girlfriend. and that was fine. he could dig it. but joel goodman? oh no. his family name was tarnished. the scandal was too much to bear. joel sued for full custody and nearly made it, thanks to hometown politics and loyalties. but then he made one fatal mistake: he crossed his own son.

at 10 years old, fifth grade phillip joel returned home to his father’s after school with three fingernails painted effervescent blue. sidney frasier made me so cool, he gushed as he put his colored nails on proud display. dad, aren’t i so cool?  the next day, his dad enrolled him in the town’s peewee football program. he returned home from his first practice with a black eye and a split lip. from a ball, the coach insisted. hit the poor fella square in the face, real strong. phillip joel put up a fight against football; it wasn’t for him. it conflicted with music practice. couldn’t he just play music with ms. lillith instead?

the custody battle persisted. they settled on a parenting schedule. joel contested, consistently, months later. and so the cycle persisted up until phillip joel’s 12th year, when he was knocked out cold on the football field. the broken ribs came from hefty tackles. bruises from the fall. concussion from the impact. but theresa spun it to her advantage: joel had since started coaching the middle school team. this was an instance of parental neglect. and, when the courts didn’t comply, she instructed her son to jump down the stairs. one broken ankle later, and joel goodman was accused of child abuse. his word against his injured son’s. the maneuver won theresa full custody. phillip joel has yet to forgive himself.

after the custody battle’s conclusion, joel stayed in town: but phillip joel didn’t want a thing to do with sharing his name. his mother still scolds him as phillip joel, but to everyone else, he became tripp –– inspired by his knack for, you guessed it!, tumbling over his own two feet.

in high school, tripp was the class clown. always smirking, always grinning, always ready to catch someone off guard. he became a pivotal part of west ham high’s jazz band, and even formed a small group with a few buds: face. they played some school events: homecoming, pep rallies, prom. garage-baked young rock, their songs often preached meetings under bleachers and high school never ending. 

in senior year, the band saw a reboot: and after assuming a more indie, spacey sound and a nifty new name –– 1757. –– they saw a rise in local celebrity. coffee shops commissioned them for jam nights. they played on the local radio. so they collectively decided to stick around and see how far they could ride this west ham fame train. with tripp as their frontman, they always leave a memorable impression: he’s not exactly the most run-of-the-mill performer.

1757.’s sound is reminiscent of LANY: i’ve reblogged a few tunes onto tripp’s blog for reference. he’s v much a paul klein / matty healy vibe. big into music. big into losing himself in it.

so what was he up to before the service trip? playin’ tunes. working part-time as a waiter. and brainstorming ways to get out of going on this trip, as soon as he realized his stupid bandmates lied about the form he signed. an open mic in the woods ! pah !  he should have known. but the concept sounded pretty flippin’ cool.

wear our shades on our nose, 'cause we're cool like that ( tripp goodman: the man, the myth, the ledge )

oh god, he’s  w e i r d .  he believes in goblins and ghosts and aliens ( oh my )!

still VERY VERY close with his mother. v broken up about not being able to get through to her, because it was about to be his parents’ wedding anniversary and they were going to anti-celebrate it with big slices of oreo cheesecake and setting things on fire.

how he feels about coming home to west ham: post apocalyptic version.

uhhhh... can he please get a waffle? specifically a cinnamon raisin waffle with extra cinnamon and a shit ton of syrup? actually. syrup with a side of waffles?

why he was banned from his personal twitter.

“ do you even lift, bruv? ”  * proceeds to pick up a teacup & lift his pinkie like a true knock-off british monarch, shitty accent included *

listens to wham! and glam rock. unironically.bluetooth speaker mounted on his bike. no helmet! like an absolute boss. he knows!! wild!! shades on. it’s 2am. it’s dark. but true swag obeys no clock.

catch him biking everywhere stranger things style, actually. his bike’s name is milo because he can roll on for miles. mess with milo and he’ll fuck u up. aka find out if you’re lactose intolerant and slip heavy cream into your meal.

has a strong vendetta against blue doritos. which might take root in some horrific experiences involving cheez wiz, cool ranch, weed, and the new york subway system at 4am on a tuesday. spring break freshman year of college. oof.

he has a lil drawwwwl. tease him about it. he’ll probably blush.

stress-hums chili’s babyback ribs without realizing. catch him singin’ that about to be murdered.

weapon of choice: kindness.

actual weapon of choice: baseball bat.

he will write little jingles to keep morale up. “ so we’re trapped / cash us inside / how bou’ dat ? ”

has a passion for introspective literary quotes. but... has somehow managed to learn each and every one wrong.

friggin’ loves superheroes even though he can’t be bothered to watch the films? he just… always used to get made fun of for liking comic books even though he never read them? “ arachnid man is uh...  heh. he’s pretty dope, huh? ” he embraces the falsehood. someone call him on it.

9/10 times if he’s in the gym, it’s just to eat his donut and watch pay-per-view movies on the bike for free.

apple pie can absolutely be breakfast if you try hard enough. jeez. get with the times, man!

he had a legitimate pet rock before going on this service trip. but has no idea where that bugger’s gone. probably got fed up with tripp serenading him with “ we will rock you ” at all hours of the night.

lawful good. will wave other drivers on forever.

got into an accident on his bike once. bitch broke his arm and he just kept on smiling.  “ no you have a nice day! and uh.... hey. mind if we like... call an ambulance? ”

low key feels like he’s the reason his parents’ marriage crumbled. low key guilty about it. low key wonders if maybe he lived up to his father’s expectations, he might have saved them a lot of grief.

give benny goodman by saint motel a listen and tell me that’s not his soul in audio form.

known for slightly hyperbolic storytelling.

pansexual as heck. falls in love. hard. it’s a mess. he can’t hide it. hence the shades.

he has brilliant hair. and it’s immortalized in his high school yearbook.

is hellbent on being a source of positivity in this terrible situation. can he interest you in a meme in these trying times? how ‘bout a granola bar? maybe a good ole game of mash?

he’s convinced this is an elaborate prank. or a social experiment. maybe aliens. but let’s not question it too much, let’s just.... have a good time? hakuna matata? no worries? lol where the twizzlers at?!

leaves a voicemail for his mother every morning and every night. maybe he cries. maybe.

he has one ear pierced because like.......... senior year of high school, he wanted to feel more cool.

allergic to mushrooms, shellfish, eggs, and harbingers of doom.

he truly boggles minds. just.... v out there? v spacey. he closes his eyes and drifts about on stage, fingers dancing on the keys, body moving in eclectic ways. he says “groovy” and fuckin’ means it. he dresses in prints inspired by grandma’s carpet. lots of half-buttoned flowy shirts, boots, tailored statement pants, dangly necklaces. he’s got his hands full of rings –– they symbolize milestones. and some are just, like... pretty. and one’s his mother’s old wedding band.

where the hell are my friends !  ( wanted connectz. )

i was gonna do a whole section on this and got lazy but like.... anything. all the things. good, bad, ugly, beautiful. hurt him. make him suffer. but also support him a bit.

i imagine he’s got a solid squad goin’. he’s in faction one too, so... hmu for those.

i feel like he’d be pretty chill with the greeks? yeah bro, he parties. he’ll chill. he’ll crack open a cold one and pretend to understand what those letters on your jacket mean! pie-apple-fate-uh? cool stuff !

ride or dies. pls.

he needs someone to like....... melt his heart. maybe someone unexpected.

thisssss got long & disorganized but yes! let’s plot! let’s do this thang! #hype!!

[lizziebennet]

First of all thank you for your fantastic take on bohemian rhapsody 👌🏻🙏🏻 but what I actually wanted to ask was if you have any feel good book recommendations? I hope you had a great day and have an even better tomorrow!! 😊

first of all LOVING the positive vibe of this message

and yes i do!!!!!!!! lmk if u have anything specific ur looking for but here are a few reads that i have loved recently: 

renegades by marissa meyer – superheroes!!!!, complicated moral questions, excellent diverse characters, and a slow burn romance that i am DYING over

strange the dreamer by lani taylor – the most sumptuous fantasy writing, outstanding worldbuilding, an adorable love story, complex moral questions, unparalleled in ya high fantasy imo

the bear and the nightingale by katherine arden – russian folkore, nature myths, religion vs magic, slow folklore-y style storytelling, lovably spunky main character, winter! 

circe by madeline miller – greek mythology retelling from a goddess’s pov, the most gorgeous writing u can imagine, cottage witch vibes, #fuckthepatricarchy, its madeline miller come on 

the dark days club by alison goodman – jane austen but with a demonhunting twist, regency history, brooding dark male lead with a heart of gold, baddassness, social pressure vs demonhunting, sexual tensionnnnn

illuminae by amie kaufman and jay kristoff – multiformat, SPACE!!!!!, hacking the government, artificial intelligence is scary, a greAT romance, adventure

k there are a few hope they spark ur interest!! 

[redsinbloom]

20 questions tag ✨

thanks sm to @xliverpool for tagging me 🙏🏻 💕

rules: answer 20 questions and tag ~20 people you wanna know better!

nicknames: In (full name is insyirah!)

zodiac sign: cancer ♋️ (sun and moon!), born 1 july

height: 1.49m. i’m tiny. don’t even tell me how many feet that is

hogwarts house: ravenclaw 💙

last thing i googled: i’m not kidding.. “jordan henderson” bc i wanted to see if anyone wrote any new articles ab my captain heehee ♥️

favourite musicians: coldplay, the band camino, fall out boy, jeremy zucker, loote, the script, chelsea cutler, lauv, LANY, the 1975, amber run, paramore - THE LIST IS VERY LONG.

song stuck in my head: not ok by chelsea cutler & kygo ✨

following: 180

followers: 180 (strange coincidence bc i dont follow back everyone)

do you get asks?: not really, send me one if u want heehee ! i like writing so i might be down to write a fic or two if yall have a rq 👀

amount of sleep: 3-4 hours during school terms. love the singaporean education system ☕️

lucky number: don’t rly have one but 17, 14, 7

what i’m wearing: fake black nike sweatpants, pink shirt with some words embroidered on it i really like; “life is full of emotions, some are good, others bad. but everything happens for a reason and we must learn from it.”

dream job: something to do with the humanities, particularly history, love it. maybe law or politics

instruments: guitar and piano, but my dad smashed my guitar a month ago. press F to pay respects to Bob, he was a good guitar

languages: english, malay, tryna learn german in my free time!

✨10 favourite songs currently (not in order):

• tomorrow tonight - loote

• not ok - chelsea cutler & kygo

• peaches - new heights

• berenstein - the band camino

• turn - the wombats

• hypersonic missiles - sam fender

• turbulent - waterparks

• twenty something - nightly

• YOU - michael andrew

• nothing - the script (been in my monthly playlists for 5 months now HAHA)

random fact: i’m currently reading the grapes of wrath by john steinbeck and giovanni’s room by james baldwin 📚

aesthetic: in a few words - soft, clean, warm! in items - oversized graphic t-shirts, dusty CDs, tea, black ink, thick stacks of books, round glasses, black ear studs, and 5 o’clock sunlight on a wall through a window pane

clubs i support: LIVERPOOL FC ❣️, tottenham hotspur, england NT, leicester city FC. don’t rly watch bundesliga or la liga

people i’m taggin:

@tavrin-callas @delboyanddier @iwlytte @theholyhendo @georginiwijnaldum

[dreaminterlude]

get to know me tag ~

was tagged by the cuties luvi @alwaysminhyuk​ and rae @soulclub​ thanks bbs and sorry it always takes me so long to get to these tags even tho i love being tagged in them ;__;

nickname: maryam / meowyam hehe or meow

height: 5’6

time: 12:00pm

fave bands/artists:

kpop: astro, bts, shinee, day6, taemin, chungha, key (i need 2 get into more kpop!!)

non-kpop: hozier, james blake, vampire wekend, the neighbourhood, LANY, prettymuch, khurangbin, justin nozuka, mac ayres, the japanese house, so many more i can’t think of 

song stuck in my head: legitimately for some reason it’s together by eunwoo from the top management ost LMFAO and i don’t know why

last movie i saw: i honestly can’t even say omfg....but the last thing i watched was the finale of touch your heart which was so good!!

other blogs: my old blog that i accidentally deleted and legit had for 9 years ;__; but just this now sigh

do i get asks: i don’t, but my inbox is always open if anyone wants to be friends with this weirdo

why i chose this username: so i used to be astronautika waaaaaay waaaaay back in high school i think, and when i fell in love with astro, i thought it would be a great username to reuse hehehe

following: 170 !!

what im wearing: i’m at work rn and it’s always so motherflippin cold so my big ass orange JACKET

dream job: would probably be a novelist or a professor, and the latter i’m hopefully on my way to becoming!! :’) just have to make sure that i can get thru the next 5-6 years doing my phd, but honestly just the idea of research and teaching and being at school all the time (lolololol) and learning is so....dreamy. i know this gets romanticized a lot, but genuinely, it is such a dream to be in school forever (i say this now as i tell everyone that i run into that i hate school and im ready to graduate............i only have to write 4 papers in 3 weeks hehehehe i’m noT DYING or anything)

favorite food: oh my god so many....pizza.....biryani.....ramen.........fried chicken, burgers, chocolate chip cookies, yellow curry..........the list can go on forever but i’m hungry now thanks

play any instruments: unfortunately no :’( i took a piano class in high school but really lacked in any skill LOL

hair color: black-ish? with brown-y highlights

languages: english, urdu, arabic, bits of spanish. would love to learn turkish, persian, korean!!

most iconic song: honestly, i think replay by shinee is an iconic song.....want by taemin, what makes you beautiful by one direction...................this is a difficult question lmao

random fact: i was born on halloween LOL

describe your aesthetic: stationery, flowers and floral scents like jasmine and rose, tea, sunshine, a lot of laughter, happy music, windows rolled all the way down in the car, nice fresh clothes

i feel like everyone’s done this, but anyone who wants to, should and say that i tagged u~! i really enjoyed doing this tag hehe