#thank u 🥺🥰

[yrsonpurpose]

happy 100 days of red, white & royal blue!

[mblue-art]

You made Killer such a cute little sad boy omg I am screaming. Please hug him or something, or trap him under a content little kitty idk but he needs it.

I love your art, it's so soft, sweet, warm, and cozy. Like marshmallows in warm hot cocoa <3

awe, ur sweet anon, thank u i appreciate this very much <333

belated cuddles from a kibby and his crush!! for the birthday boy! (napping at the coziest corner at ccino's 😎)

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[obisamya]

One day you'll figure me out I'll meet judgement by the hounds STRONG GIRL NAM SOON (2023)

[ambivartence]

GYU IN THE SOOP: a very happy hour 🍻

[httpiastri]

❣️ I just read your confession post for oscar and others! Can you do it for other drivers like Paul, Ollie, and Kimi? Love your writing! You inspired me to start my own Formula blog :D

❣️ – send me a prompt and one/a few drivers and i'll tell you how i think they would react!!

paul aron

paul is no stranger to short-lived flings and summer romances, but he's not as familiar with the feeling of his heart fluttering the way it does whenever he thinks about you. he isn't used to the way that he thinks about telling you whenever something good happens to him, nor the way that he wants to ask for your help when he's going through something. he doesn't understand why you're the first thing he thinks about in the morning, and the last thing on his mind before he falls asleep. it takes him so long to figure out these new feelings, and when he eventually realizes that he's falling for you, he just gets scared.

he has no experience with these feelings, and everything he's heard about real relationships – commitment, trust, loyalty – sounds terrifying. but it doesn't take long for him to realize that it's worth it if it's with you.

i think the confession itself would be quite impromptu and unplanned. i'm imagining a movie night at his place, with you cuddled up to his side, when he just can't hold back anymore. when he asks if he can tell you something, he sounds just as playful as he usually does, so you never could've guessed the words that fall from his lips after that. "you're so... special. in a good way, a great way. and i... i think i'm falling for you."

ollie bearman

i see ollie as... kind of shy in this way? he isn't embarrassed or cowardly, but something in him makes that first real step a little too hard to take. i think ollie would much rather find a romantic, subtle way to do it.

one day, you're surprised to hear your doorbell ringing – you aren't expecting anyone, right? and you didn't order anything, did you? when you open your door, you find only a big bouquet of flowers standing outside it. you smile to yourself as you pick it up, your mind instantly wandering off to the tall, handsome brit you've been spending a lot of time with recently, who has had a bit of a habit of giving you flowers. this bouquet is especially big, though, and you try to search through your mind for any possible major occasion the bouquet could be for as you bring it inside.

but when you set it atop your dinner table, a note falls out from in between the flowers. and on the note, in ollie's messy handwriting, comes that confession you've been waiting so long for.

i like you. i really like you, and i would love to see what we could be. only if you feel the same way, of course. (please forget about all of this if you don't)

i'm sorry for not having the courage to say this to your face, but i would love to see you tonight if you're free. please call me.

sincerely, your bear ☺︎♡

kimi antonelli

kimi would be very spontaneous about it. he would not be planning it; it would come as just as much of a surprise to him as to you. i see it coming when you're sitting next to each other in class/the truck/etc, and you've been playing around with him and bothering him for quite a while. when you notice that your attempts to disturb his focus haven't worked, you turn to tickle him in hopes that it will work better – and it definitely does.

kimi folds over instantly, gasping loudly as his own hands come down to wrap around your wrists. "you're so annoying!" he exclaims, switching to hold both of your wrists in just one of his hands, as his other hand gives you a playful slap across the face. "you're lucky i like you so much, otherwise..."

you both come to a halt at his words, neither of you having expected them. instead of addressing it, though, he settles for moving his hands to tickle you instead, hoping to distract you from what just happened. you definitely won't forget, though, but the change is only for the better.

[faunandfloraas]

Look at all these boys Taylor @linoyes sent 🥹🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

Also how did you access my tumblr drafts 🔎

[wildbasil]

hi everyone! i'm going to close my commission slots next week so i can make sure i get them all done by december 25th!! if you want a commission from me before next year, here's your chance! 🥰💕 i'm currently offering chibis and waist-up character art.

ko-fi.com/dizzypunch/commissions

personal use only

guaranteed by december 25th 2023*

can do: original characters, fanart, furries

payment through ko-fi

*your commission might be delayed if i have to message you for clarification and you don't get back to me quickly. to avoid that happening, please include lots of detail when you order your commission, such as pose references, clothing etc 💖💕

i'm happy drawing humans and furries alike! nsfw is also fine but please send me a message first (not sure if ko-fi is ok with nsfw and i don't wanna get into trouble haha)

thanks everyone!!

p.s. my gwyn ap nudd pin is still open for orders!

[definitelynotshouting]

im cold. shivering shivering cold. in my home, i take my last sweater, my last blankey, to use as wrapping for your birthday present. "happy birthday" i whisper to you and hand it. your eyes fill with tears because you are happy birthday. the present contains the following message: "i find you such a genuine joy to talk to. i am regularly starstruck by you, also. you are such an incredible presence in this fandom and you fill it with so much love and passion and enthusiasm, you should be so proud of your work on the hgcz, and your individual writing is some of the most beautiful and talented work i've ever had the pleasure of reading. also go fuck"

HOW CAN YOU BE SO WHOLESOME AND YET AT THE SAME TIME SO DEEPLY, DEEPLY CURSED

[fxreflyes]

BEAUTIFUL PERSON AWARD!❣️ Once you are given this award you're supposed to paste it in the asks of 8 people you adore! Absolutely no pressure but. It's sweet to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out <33

AWWWWWWW THANK YOU CAT 🥹🥹🥹🥹 I am sending this back to u my beautiful lovely mesmerizing enchanting friend <33333

also beautiful inside and out?? I’m

[sforzesco]

Allow me, if you will, a moment to go absolutely rabid over your blog and everything that goes on here. I’ve always loved history but the USA hardly likes teaching anything that isn’t American History. I’ve forgotten how much I love WORLD history, specifically the rise and fall of empires.

I’ve been smothering myself in your posts and I love it ALL. JC, Pompey, Crassus, Sulla, Octavian, Antony, Cassius, and Brutus. Wow what a mood. You don’t miss on your references or your modern AU’s and I’m over here like- I’m trying to buy whatever web comic you put out, book you write, etc.

Also, if you’d be so kind to list some material with like themes to start breaking into these topics. Preferably materials in English or translated materials.

HELL YEAH LET'S GO

if you really want to start on the ground floor for breaking into something, I'd recommend my personal favorite approach which is picking the figure that's most interesting to you, reading through plutarch's biography on them (free! online! in english!) and then putting their name through a jstor search and reading whatever sounds fun.

other than that, the primary theme I've been wandering around in lately, so these are the materials I've been really enjoyed related to that:

The Deaths of the Republic: Imagery of the Body Politic in Ciceronian Rome, Brian Walters

The Game of Death in Ancient Rome: Arena Sport and Political Suicide, Paul Plass

Ideology in Cold Blood: A Reading of Lucan's Civil War, Shadi Bartsch

Statius and Virgil: The Thebaid and the Reinterpretation of the Aeneid, Randall T. Ganiban

Rome, Blood & Power, Gareth C Sampson

I also have a comparatives tag where I play connect the dots with texts that made my brain go brrr

[alister312]

Hello there! I hope your having a good day (:

I was just watching BLU again & I came to the part where the kids were in the gymnasium reacting to the war being declared, & Gregory told Wendy to “hold onto me�� after hearing the news, comforting her. How do you think this would’ve gone if it were, hypothetically, Christophe instead of Wendy? Would Gregory take the same approach? Would Christophe reciprocate, or would he ignore it?

Just curious about what you think, as it’s quite an interesting scenario to me

that is an interesting question! especially since it kinda rewrites things so that Christophe goes to the school with the rest of them… which would definitely change at least my perception of him as well as my thoughts about what happened to him after the movie 👀 but to get to the actual question:

for one, I think Gregory wouldn’t even offer for Christophe to hold onto him. I’ve mentioned before but in the movie, that moment doesn’t seem as though it’s a mutual thing. it’s more Gregory recognizing that Wendy is scared and in need of comfort, rather than he himself also wanting it. were Christophe to replace her in that scene, I feel Gregory ought to know him well enough that he would know Christophe wouldn’t need (or want) comfort in that moment. instead, they’d share a look of mutual worry but also determination and agreement to get right into resistance action. maybe even right after the assembly.

in that one script draft, it’s implied that Gregory and Christophe were working together to free Canadian POWs the entire time. so it’s highly likely that, if Christophe were already at the school, he and Gregory would’ve gotten right into action. they might not even stick around to rally the other kids during recess, or join La Resistance! honestly it would depend on whether or not Gregory is hanging out with Wendy bc he genuinely enjoys her company or bc there is no one else there on his level (in his opinion). if it’s the latter, then I think he would never go looking for someone else if Christophe is already there.

however, to keep the movie plot from derailing completely, I could see them getting into contact with main boys hoping for information. specifically Kyle, since his mom sorta started the whole war. from there, the boys would latch onto their plan to save Terrance and Philip and then everything would probably play out about the same.

honestly in that same aforementioned script draft, for those who haven’t read it, Wendy gets a LOT more agency and more of a role in general in it. she kinda has Gregory’s role and he’s even more of a minor character than he is already. so I wouldn’t be surprised if, given Gregory were not concerned with the main cast, she were to just take on his role completely. maybe hire him and Christophe to help with just the rescue mission.

now, if there were to be any comfort touch in that scene, i doubt Gregory would announce it out loud. he’d just reach over and place his hand on Christophe’s hand while giving him that look of worry and determination. Christophe would give a similar look back, think about actually taking Gregory’s hand in his and want to do so (maybe his hand even twitches, about to, or maybe that’s Gregory’s imagination) but he’d leave first, knowing Gregory will follow with a plan already half formed in his mind.

[queer-crusader]

Send this to all your favourite moots and pass the pumpkin round! KEEP THE PUMPKIN TRAIN GOING 🎃🖤🎃🖤🎃

I'm SO SHIT at answering asks please ignore how long it took for me to get to this. Anyway I GOT PUMPKIN'D TOSSING THE PUMPKIN TO THE MOOTS. BEWARE MOOTS FOR THE SPOOKY PUMPKINING

[kinnbig]

NODT IN MANSUANG THIS IS NOT A DRILL

HUH?!?!?! huh?! omggg!!!!! 👀

[lu-sn]

ok i have been sufficiently encouraged (thank you @ameliarating ❤️)

i have many many Thoughts about how pete was treated at the main compound after returning from his imprisonment, and i tried to cram as many of them as possible into splinter, but i left out a lot of the surrounding events because they didn't quite fit. so here is my dvd commentary, which is a fancy way of saying "an avalanche of depressing headcanons" 😂

if you didn't read it, warning that this probably won't make much sense — but the premise of the fic is that chan interrogates pete about his imprisonment, and it does not go well for pete.

cw: mentions of sexual assault. and a general warning for: this got away from me, as usual, it's too many words, oops 😅

the medical examination

porsche has just started to daub at the deeper scars on pete's chest when they hear a stern knock on their door. it's not chan, but it is a guard sent by chan, and they order pete to report to the medical bay for examination and treatment.

chan is furious on so many levels. a lot of them have to do with kinn, and how incompetently kinn handled this entire pete mission, and how little kinn told chan about what happened. unfortunately he can't actually chew out kinn — but now that pete is back, he's going to go directly over kinn's head and treat pete exactly as protocol demands. and that means getting a full debrief from him, but it also means treating pete as a suspicious agent. if a man disappears like that without reporting back, it's a huge red flag.

all of that to say: chan doesn't trust pete to tell the truth, even though pete probably has an extensive history of being honest. so it would be prudent of chan to back pete into a corner. he needs to have solid evidence that pete will not be able to lie his way around

hence, the medical examination. pete's body cannot lie.

as soon as pete is given the order, a pit opens up in his stomach. this is the moment that he starts to realize, through his haze of shock, that he is not going to be able to keep his imprisonment a secret.

so he goes down, porsche trailing helplessly after him, and subjects himself to the examiner. and it's cruelly invasive. to have obtained the list of conditions that chan reads off later, it must have been.

pete has been through this kind of exam before. all the bodyguards have. it is a semi-regular occurrence. the main family needs to verify the quality of their assets.

but pete is currently all sorts of wires-crossed about being touched, and about being looked at. to have been seen by vegas as someone precious and real, and then to give all of that up — only to have a stone-cold examiner put their hands all over him, to treat him as the object he is? oh my god. i can't even think about it. it hurts, and not in a good way.

porsche is waiting outside the exam room, and he knows exactly what they're doing to pete (after all, he's been through it too). and porsche feels so fucking guilty, can barely breathe for how terrible he feels, how much he is hurting for pete. and that's when chan shows up.

"what are you doing here," porsche asks dumbly.

chan doesn't say. but porsche gets a bad feeling about this, pushes at chan until chan finally says that he's here to take pete away for a debriefing, after pete is done with his exam

and pete will never know this — but porsche thinks about pete in that bathroom, unable to speak, face crumpled in pain. and with no hesitation, porsche goes to bat for pete. "wait until tomorrow," he tells chan. "he needs to rest."

of course, chan is here precisely because he wants to interrogate pete while pete is at his weakest. but porsche has power now. he's kinn's lover. he cannot be so easily disobeyed — and so chan relents. (he'll get pete early tomorrow, and it'll be fine. gives them more time for pete's blood work to come through, regardless.)

the interim

pete manages to get away from porsche for just long enough to cry into his noodles. and not to make this scene worse or anything, but pete trying to emulate vegas's touch on his skin right after going through the exam? trying to erase the memory of latex prodding unforgivingly at him, reminding himself that he was once touched as something to be revered? (that he might never have that again?) ahahahahaha. 🔪

when he gets back to their room, porsche warns him that chan wants a debrief. and a slow panic starts building inside of pete.

he doesn't sleep that night. he probably wouldn't have, anyway, but now it's much more dire. he needs to plan. he needs to figure out what he can and can't tell chan. he needs to come to terms with the fact that he's about to lie to his employer. (he doesn't.) he steels himself to talk about the most emotionally and physically taxing period of his life. (he fails.)

(does it sink in, during that night, that pete is in terrible danger? i don't know. he's probably not thinking about it like that. doesn't change the fact that he is.)

and so when he's summoned, early enough that the sun has yet to rise, he's running on zero sleep and his nerves are shot to hell. and that's exactly where chan wants him.

the interrogation

(i almost wrote it from chan's pov, because that could have had a bunch of cool insight about how chan is manipulating pete throughout the interrogation. but then i would have missed out on all of the cronchy pete thoughts 🥺 no regrets.)

chan's goal throughout this is to get pete to a highly vulnerable state and keep him there. pete's already done half of the work for him, but chan picks up on the flinch pete can't suppress at the mention of sexual assault, and he plans to use that to his advantage later.

pete actually does pretty well for the first half! chan is simultaneously impressed and peeved. and he doesn't display this, but he does start to think that maybe pete wasn't up to anything suspicious.

but then they get to the safehouse, and oh god. pete is editing vegas out of the narrative as he goes, and he's speaking slower. his retellings are garbled and non-linear. he can't seem to consistently describe his torturer at all. it's a striking contrast to the first half of his story.

so chan lets him speak, makes note of all the holes in pete's story — and then hits him with the sexual assault ask. and it works, it works so fucking well, pete's emotions immediately fly off the rails.

and then he pushes, just on one part of pete's story — and pete crumbles.

pete didn't explicitly confess to anything the entire time, and that's worth something. but it's not enough. chan is fully convinced that pete is lying about something — but it's not like he's going to tell pete that to his face. he needs to debrief with korn first before taking any action, and in the meantime he doesn't want to alert pete of his suspicions.

so he de-escalates. he tells pete it's ok to make mistakes (lie), and he makes it seem as if pete has successfully completed the debrief (lie). this works, too. the relief on pete's face is stark.

(side note: the de-escalation was inspired by that chanbig scene in ep6 where chan tells big to calm down and that kinn will be alright. i know it's the scene that launched a thousand ships 😂 but i don't think it's meant as a kindness. it's what big needs to hear in order to snap back into being useful for the family.)

overall: the whole time i was writing this, i was thinking about the concept of second rape, which is a term used to describe the grueling lineup of police interrogations and medical examinations and court proceedings that a sexual assault survivor will go through if they choose to report. the thorough dissection of the survivor's trauma and the derision their story tends to receive can feel akin to the original assault. depending on your interpretation of canon events, pete doesn't literally fall into this category — but metaphorically, this is what he's experiencing.

(somebody hug pete please 😭 vegas WHERE ARE YOU!!!! GET YOUR ASS OVER HERE YOUR HUSBAND NEEDS YOU)

the aftermath

shower scene my beloved 🫠 i originally tried to write pete having depressing shower thoughts about his own agency and privacy being stolen away. it just didn't sound right, even when i started over a few times. and then i changed the focus from pete's pain to vegas's, and it just all clicked.

can't quite articulate this — but pete, in that moment, is totally incapable of processing what has been done to him. but he knows what happened was wrong, somehow, and the way that manifests is via thoughts about how vegas has been wronged. (he wants to burn the record of vegas's story? oh, pete. it's your story first.)

chan and korn!!! and the crowd boos. i headcanon that chan and korn actually come to odds quite a bit on this topic. chan's job is to eliminate threats to the family. killing pete is the cleanest option!

(and secretly, it might be a kinder option to pete compared to what korn wants to do with him — not that chan is necessarily thinking about it like that.)

meanwhile, korn wants to keep him around, because he loves seeing all his little chess pieces make messes of themselves. chan hates this so much. he feels that korn is inviting trouble, and one day it will backfire tremendously. he never once says this. he always cedes to korn.

(another aside — damn, i can't shut up today — chan and pete are kind of similar, no? in terms of their unwavering loyalty? chan must have been someone, and had thoughts and feelings, when he was younger. who's to say he wasn't like pete? and when pete is chan's age, he would be a viable candidate for chan's position. he just needs the sympathy to be beaten out of him first.)

and a coda, as a treat for making it this far:

after the coup, korn hunts down the file with chan's report about pete, and he reads it with fresh eyes. and it's so obvious, in hindsight, that pete was trapped with vegas the whole time. korn now has a detailed record of everything vegas ever did to pete in his darkest hour. and korn would not be who he is, if he did not immediately start conceiving of ways to use that information for his own advantage.

[alienaiver]

You talk about food sometimes and it makes me so hungry (and a little envious of your skills). Do you wanna share some recipes with me?

aawww i wanna make a meal for u so bad one day !!!!! 🧡

my arfid's really bad these days, so theres only two or three items i can eat rn, so im suuuper exhausted from not getting proper food 😔👊🏼 it usually comes and goes in waves, so im hoping itll be easier with safe foods again asap !!!! 🧡

but one recipe ill share today is a really easy way to cheat some veggies inside the tummy without having to eat them bland!! its mostly a side dish i eat with rice and some tofu/meat (fried chicken and rice is rly good with this).

take any frozen veggies you like (theyre soo good to always have a stock of vegs). i usually go with like a mix of broccoli, cauliflower and carrots bcos they come in like, the same mixed bag (i dont like cauliflower except in this). i also often add green beans and then sometimes a mixed bag of root veggies like celeriac, beets, yams and turnips but i dont have those around often so literally. mix and match whatever u want/have in stock !!!

put them in a pan where you turn the heat on low to let them thaw. when theyre semi-thawed i like to take a scissor and cut them into smaller bites but thats just preference! (tho making sure theyre all of similar-ish sizes ensures even cooking) then when theyre all thawed, i take a ton of butter onto the pan and then medium-ish heat, pushing it around once in a while

while that cooks slowly, i start chopping an onion and like. 8-9 cloves of garlic !! (lmao, dont come for me i love garlic)

then take a measuring cup and mix soy sauce, thyme, chili (as little or as much as youd like), garlic powder, onion powder, paprika (any kind is fine) and some pepper. also add a sort of sweetener that you can handle! my friend uses oyster sauce but im allergic so i use sugar or honey. if youre feeling fancy, add a little sesame oil and some roasted sesame seeds, and then finally half of the garlic you chopped up.

by now the veggies should be throughougly warm and semi cooked, so you can turn up the heat just a little to let excess water evaporate if theres any left. add the onions and the rest of the garlic and mix around.

finally, pour half of the sauce into the pan and mix, let it cook a little and then add the final half of the sauce a few minutes before serving. and ur done!!!!!

the longest part is thawing it up. but i always make a giant portion of this, and then freeze it in dinner portions that i can just reheat on a pan or microwave another day. it takes me around 15-20mins total with the slow dethawing. a little longer if im also cooking something else and shifting my focus !!

i hope i explained it well enough!!! 🥰🧡 do you have any delicious recipes ??? 👀🧡

[sukugo]

AAAAAHHHHHH THANK YOUUUU @kylermalloy @hellohalart @morning-glory215

LOVE U GUYS ALL THREE OF U GET SMOOCHED!!!!!!!! 💖💖💖💖💖💖