#teehee i guess idk

[amative13loser]

I really like The Cranberries. Like really really like them.

Growing up my mom had the No Need To Argue Album on CD and I'd listen to it a lot. I didn't really like the other music as much.

Specifically I listened to go to sleep. For some reason I spent many years unable to sleep without music.

So sometimes I'd have a radio playing the boring local channels, and at some point I had headphones plugged into the radio I kept on my bed to listen to the same CD.

On repeat, all night long for several years.

I'm pretty sure that was my bad era too so it was probably a self comfort thing too.

People talk about depression but not the apathetic kind. I remember just laying in bed for hours in the dark, listening to the same songs and imagining stories in my head.

Even if I was hungry and had to use the restroom to the point of physical pain I didn't move. I just couldn't.

Later on I learned it was maladaptive daydreaming and executive disfunction. Words and names for the problems, helpful I guess but there wasn't any help in the moment.

I spent years out of the world and in my own head and no one ever tried to help. No one checked on me, no one asked what was wrong, no one noticed or cared. It made the loneliness worse and is probably why I still struggle.

I'm much better though today.

I had to help myself which took a long time, but I did it. I got therapy, convinced others to pursue therapy too. I slowly stopped daydreaming and focused instead on odd tasks on my phone to keep my brain busy. And I advocated for myself to get medication because my normal brain and coping just wasn't enough.

I have real friends, not many but I trust them all dearly. And my family is more understanding and follows my lead in getting help. I'm stronger and able to speak up for myself more to.

I still have problems though, that will take a long time to fix. Or maybe never but I'll still work to cope.

My main issue nowadays is that damn loneliness.

Going outside is a lot, people in small towns are boring and unsafe, and there's nothing to do anyway.

Still I always yearn to go out and do more even though I know I struggle to exist as I do now. One day though, I just have to be patient.

Very very patient. I'll find my other half person, I'll travel, I won't be scared, I won't be sad.

One day, I just have to wait for now and prepare until then.

[heynhay]

mercy, are you still with me?

[from where the apple falls by europa_report]

[puzzle-masx]

Patton :3

[theelmoarchive]

Gay love will prevail and save the day

[radioactivemicrowaverat]

Wow more Micheal kinda unfijished

[scourge-sympathiser]

SCOURGE SUNDAY 001/???

just a little guy

[buwheal]

Not sure if you ever mentioned, but what IS your favorite flavor? I can't tell from looking at the cake.

[heavyshrimp]

golden

[vomitingstars]

Ha Ha Ha! Check it out!

A blue haired ghost uncle and his Puppet Nephew have discovered Anime!!!!!!!11111

[exaltior-a]

i find it somewhat hard to articulate why i love junedave so much other than like. dave is such a loser and june knows it and shes like awwww dude ur soo lame (voice you'd use to talk to a cute but very stupid dog) and dave would be so into it that his dick would explode

[zee-thezebra1]

"Look At The Monster I've Become"

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Felt angsty lol

No background and sketch

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[onethousxndvoices]

these three pull up on you wyd

(close ups under the cut!

[nineratsinatrenchcoat]

"Do you ever think Nublar changed you for the worse?" "Yeah. Sometimes."

A scene from Maladapted (B-team fic) that I'll get around to writing eventually guys I promise hehe. For now, view the sad children :3

Absolutely exploding with joy over this comm, done by the fabulous @lovemoroporo! Came out wonderfully, especially considering that they're unfamiliar with jwcc!

Fun fact: you can glean 4 of my headcanons about these two from this pic. Guess what they are :D

@gingericywolf @lamponellatempesta your B-team juice is here

[sprolden]

found a website that lets you send flowers I the mail for quite cheap and i've truly gone mad with power. i feel like sending your friends a little bouquet in the mail is such a lost art but each of my friends is always so surprised and delighted when they receive one<3 i love it so much if I could attach a letter sprayed with my perfume I would

[darkland-blood]

SOME RT DESIGNS + HEADCANOND TEEHEE :3

(Duck is too hard for me too Draw ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ)

[lily-claw]

Old man Hinata (with fangs) 🫠

Click on the image to see the details better pls :3

@infinitemilk