#tbh im just more tired now

[toxooz]

naw whos the crusty ass bitch who thinks its cute to take my ocs cause what is this

[non-un-topo]

More cishet observations from the past month at work:

- They really fucking buzz off of the TERF wizard book series

- Their favourite place on Earth is Florida (why???)

- If you tell them you're an artist, they will ask you if you've ever "tried out AI"

- They will joke about OCD a lot

- They absolutely hate their bodies and will take any opportunity to talk about food in a toxic way (bonus points if they compare their body/food to yours)

- They hate their spouses and think that this is funny

- They. Do not. Have interests. (Besides the TERF wizard book series)

- They don't watch movies or TV??

- If they have kids, the way they talk about them makes it sound like it was genuinely the worst decision they ever made

- If they don't have kids, they will still fucking talk about having them

- They don't like cats??

In other weird news, I'm gendered correctly at work and I pass to the point that cishets actually talk to me like I'm a cishet guy.

[kheprriverse]

Y’all thinking about an older Ares has RUINED me

[burningfunobject]

I miss viktor arcane dearly

[faygelehh]

I DEEPLY miss the era of being an online artist and being able to have a page with detailed customization and SLATHERING it with your ocs, your art, your friends, other artists you looked up to, etc . And striving to make it really POP, but like, not as a form of… “branding” or trying to sell your aesthetic, back then it was literally just “hiii look at my ocs :3c i made this page myself with basic html and i had fun!! Look look look!!”, i miss pagedolls, i miss pixel art, i miss old school deviantart and tumblr where we actually cared about each other’s page themes , i miss artists being a more intertwined community instead of being forced to focus on what is the most “palatable” !! I wish we didn’t have to sell an easy-to-swallow “brand” to survive, i just want to create, and i miss when there were platforms FOR artists, yknow?

[bunnyboy-juice]

spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner

[realjem-art]

I've been working on this on and off since... April 2023. Jesus Christ

Now, if I had started this nowadays, there are a lot of things I would have done differently (such as making sure the base was a bit better, fixing the wings, making the cracks in a better way, using better brushes, adding better in-between frames, etc etc); but there's only so much I can fix over time without making the process even longer than it's already been, so I'm stopping it here and calling it done.

All in all, it still turned out decently well, as most of this was made as, essentially, my first full attempt at full rendering! I've certainly learned a lot more since I started this, and it was definitely a good experiment.

[gemharvest]

mood swings got me like

[skitskatdacat63]

[thr4shgender]

(wip kinda) drew a guy thats NOT jerma for once! hes just a sad wet beast 💔

[zymstarz]

the reason aromantic is trending makes me so tired. "cis het-aligned aspec people arent texhinically queer!!" the planet is on essentially irreversible fire [both figuratively and literally] and youre trying to reaurface decade old, online exclusive queer infighting. its pointless, its embarrassing, and its insane that you think saying "nuh uh" will suddenly "fix" some hypothetical cis het-aligned aspec's connction to not fitting in... especially when this exact behavior proves the point of them not fitting in. if youre that obsessed with micromanaging and cultivating who considers themselves queer to your specific liking, then i hope the next queer person you meet in real life has such a wildly contradictory and differently labeled identity and it makes your head explode. fuck you

[zantedeschia-praesul]

-

[bkgexe]

oh I got a weird little geto fic that I’m gonna post the first part of tomorrow… (accountability post) I’m actually so excited to keep working on it. wow it’s nice to have time off and energy heehee

[elytrafemme]

holding my breath on this but its only been like 3 days of me REALLY posting other shit on here than just my thoughts and it already feels so much better. like i am glad i have this space to talk about my mental health and very kind people who have stuck with me through my many years of breakdowns but like... i don't know. i'm kind of sick of dealing with my own shit, and being able to like rb silly posts or talk about my interests on here just feels better. i'm still going to be sad as fuck on here sometimes, probably, but i like that i can kinda be a whole person more. i'm so tired of tumblr being the holding cell for my misery. i'm so tired of being miserable. least i can do is post about pokemon every once in a while

[chiistarri]

need 2 isolate myself and unfriend everyone #asap

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

i posted that stupid shit on my instagram i might just kill myself fr

now im afraid i wont sleep for another 24 hours damn 😭😭