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We are reaching month 6 of unemployment:):):):)
#going a bit insane#it's not for a lack of trying I'm applying to so many places#they aren't even good ones I'm applying for the most most bottom of the barrel safety hazard minimum vage jobs#I've been fucked over by 2 jobs now that said the wanted me and then either ghosted me or cancelled#the thing is I'm not ever a bad worker#as a bitch with male pattern adhd I'm basically constantly doing something I'm physically strong thanks to weightlifting#I'm perfect i look like Linda Evangelista#but none of that shit matters cause aparently you need 5 years of experience to be a server now#application for a chain burger joint asked what I've been doing for the last 6 months girl I've been applying for so many fucking jobs#and watching Lost#i got rejected from a fish factory cause cause apparently my application didn't make it seem like i was passionate enough#NO SHIT YOU'RE A FISH FACTORY#NO ONE WANTS TO WORK AT A FISH FACTORY#i would honestly wanna open uo my commissions again but i have to report everything i make and if i make more than 150 a month they#take away my benefits#so guess i can't even try to make money that way LOL#anyway sorry for the rant I'm tired
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every time a customer tries to get me to take off my mask because they're allegedly hard of hearing and need to lip read i do dream of saying "is that true???" to them because that is MY disability that they're pretending to have to be a shithead and yet i don't want to say that because if i earnestly asked for accommodation and someone asked if i was lying i would want to sink into the floor!!! but if they are lying to me i think they should feel total devastating shame and go to hell probably.
#tempted to just start maliciously complying by writing everything instead of taking#because that is a reasonable compromise if they need accommodation but will probably inconvenience them if they're just antimasker freaks#it makes me so cranky because i want to give people the benefit of the doubt because i often need accommodation for my hearing!!!#but if they are just being antimask weirdos cynically deploying the language of accommodation that's so low and gross#i'd blissfully forgotten how devastatingly unworthy of respect many customers insist on being#two years away of being treated with basic respect at work life could be a dream......#personal nonsense
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Real fan art is coming one day, but for now I really wanted to see if it was feasible to simplify their gradients into something that would fit a simple style like Bluey’s 😅
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#aaaaaaaaaAAA#they're so precious I can't ;m;#I still haven't watched Bluey so I can't really comment on show accuracy but to me these look spot on#if you ask me the gradients work really well#if you look at them and unfocus your eyes they look like their normal markings#Vasco might benefit from having one more band between the base yellow and the lighter brown but that's totally optional and might take away#from the simplicity of his design#their colors are so true to the way I color them which is both cool and kind of uncanny#like Machete's pink details which in reality are very peachy almost closer to light orange than true pink#and their colored linearts which use the same colors I use for my colored linearts#I don't know I thought that was really cool attention to detail#they're adorable#thank you!#gift art#apupcalyptic#own characters#Machete#Vasco#their lives would be a lot less stressful in bluey universe I reckon
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bait / hook / line / sinker
#the hunger games#finnick odair#thg#the hunger games fanart#this was a very very weird painting for me.#like i have painted decapitated heads and severed arms and shattered ribs and guts falling out and gallons of blood#and not once have i ever looked up from my work and been disgusted or disturbed by what i’ve painted#but the first day i was working on this one i looked at it and just felt so sick i had to get up and take a shower to get away from it#HE WAS 14 WTF WTF WTF WTF#that is a baby. that is a little kid. turned into a killer and paraded around like a novelty and used like a toy.#but on the whole i am very satisfied with this propaganda piece it's just as beautiful and unsettling as i wanted it to be#ugh my mind. nothing in the composition is overt but all the implications are there#not just the capitol's sexualization and brutalization of children but the fetishization of the districts' labor as well#as my good friend and mutual theworldiswhispering said.#'the hard labor you do is not safe from being romanticized by the people who benefit from it at your expense'#and i think about that every day#wherefore art thou#thg reread#why he so smooth.. just like a shark#[katniss voice] mfs took all my body hair cant have shit in the capitol#i just know tumblr's gonna crunch the quality of these images but i worked on a canvas 4 times larger than the usual size#so a lot of the detail gets lost when i post it. oh well. click for quality i guess#his expression changes when you're far away#far away he looks kind of vacant#close up he's smiling. like the photographer wanted a specific cocky emotion from him and it was there#but when you zoom out there's just a thousand yard stare#i did think about turning these into prints or actual posters but um. i don't think i should do that
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If anyone thinks that the GoFundMe spam on this site about Palestine is legit...
1) When was the last time you got an ask or a comment about someone's sick cat or random not-on-tumblr trans friend being kicked out since October 7, 2023?
2) apparently the people of Sudan have only just now discovered the deep financial pockets of tumblr?
It's funny how except for not using the watermelon emoji this is essentially identical to all the "Palestinian GoFundMe fundraisers" I've received over the past year and change.
If you believe these accounts are legit, you are PAINFULLY and HARMFULLY naive and you need to get a goddamn grip. Grow up, realize that people can and will scam you based on your emotions, and STOP PLATFORMING THEM.
#you are not actually turning away dying people#because dying people ARE NOT REACHING OUT TO *TUMBLR*???#ofc they aren't#use your goddamn BRAINS#this website is NOT a good source of help#unless you don't care about taking from the already-broke#we are by and large ALREADY BROKE#and the people looking for significant financial support are going to go to places with MONEY#in addition any MORAL person looking for financial support are not going to lean on the ppl who are already struggling#like they will likely still ASK#but they won't RELY on their broke friends#meanwhile these fucking scammers are like YOU'RE MY ONLY HOPE#bc they rely on our compassionate bleeding hearts#and not a single palestinian (or sudanese) person benefits from it
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#kirby#bugs#worm#ask to tag#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#I would always hang out with my dad when he gardened and take every worm he dug up#to carry it gently around the yard and eventually set it safely away from the garden tools#they're so cute I love them#the worst part about my wheelchair is it's much harder to stop and move worms out of harm's way :(#I wanna make a little worm farm once we have more space#like obviously there's value in it and it can either benefit your own garden or make a little profit in the right neighborhood#but it's entirely an excuse to own Many Worms.#favorites
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the poor little meow meow-ifictation of saionji in this fandom has got to stop i can't take it any more
#he is an interesting character yes and i like him but some of you act like he is eternally and exclusively a victim which is not true#yes he is a victim of akio and of the narrative (like every other character. he is not perticularly special in this regard)#no he is not a victim of the patriarchy (he in fact benefits from it directly at the cost of the girls around him)#no he is not a victim of wakaba (??not sure where this even came from) no he is not a victim of anthy (watch the first episode again maybe)#some of you are at all times 2 steps away from becoming the next misandry in the utena fandom person#“erm the way he is punished by the narrative for failing to live up to the masculine ideal of the prince-#-is basically just as bad as the systemic abuse he participates in putting girls through“#good lord i do not want to hear your takes on any real world feminist issues#m#bad takes#(should probably remember to use that tag. even though this isn't really about anything super specific)#and it's not about any of my mutuals to be clear. you all know how to actually be critical of how much he sucks#AND write good nuanced analysis. shockingly you can do both. actually i don't think one is possible without the other
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I offer to you the ship of Roland Cummings, Delphine Cummings, and Charlie Dowd that has been absolutely rotting my brain and is ripe for Charlie angst. I talk about them a bit here in which I discuss multiple Charlie ships but I must spread the propaganda of them o7
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Ohhhhhh despite not really being Roland/Noel girlie I can indeed see the appeal 👀
#and with this lovely art too? tempting#ask#also read your post- YOUCH#Potatolord Charlie relationship headcanon time-#he had one sided feelings for Finley that he was really sure what to do with#stayed platonic with Roland. although he probably opened up about his sexuality to him.#and roland took that as an opportunity to try and set him up with any queer man he came across#and Collins hmmmmmm…. they were probably friends with benefits you’re right about that#likeee did Charlie let me get away multiple times ‘on accident’ even tho he was so close to catching him? For sure#he won’t tell ya how that happened tho#and ourthurrrrr ougggghhhhhsjsjsj#I could absolutely see him trying to take a more passive role in the relationship#like he lets the others have time with eachother and he doesn’t push back whenever one of them interrupts some one on one time#except……… I think Oscar is much more in tune with Charlie than the other two. and vice versa. like they Get eachother much the same way#John and Arthur Get each other. Charlie’s relationship with jarthur is definitely more rocky and a learning curb. but I think if it#came down to it. Oscar would be with Charlie no matter what. cus yes Arthur loves Oscar. but not the same way Oscar loves him. and Charlie#provides Oscar with that romantic bond he’s looking for#WOAH SORRY I rambled too damn MUCH#I’ll take my LEAVE
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Fair warning: I don't think this is going to be a question, just a few post-latest chapter thoughts haphazardly stacked together under a trenchcoat.
Thank you for this chapter. It made my day to read something almost fluffy (I don't think anything in LH can be called purely fluff, and that's a good thing because fluff is best when it is padding for the plot, and that's what this chapter was).
LH Book 5 has been the beginning of payoff for the Dramione slow burn, and while that is immensely satisfying, it also means there are less milestones to look forward to. I don't know if this was an intentional decision, but I love how you started seeding in another slow burn that has kept us equally invested: the Black family drama.
I love reading anything that does the dysfunctional family dynamic well, and seeing Draco getting old enough to identify it clearly, have questions, testing his boundaries, fighting back against what he's been told to accept, has all been immensely satisfying as someone who has gone through this myself. Your depiction of the Black family dynamics has been /chef's kiss/. * spoiler for chapter 70 * when Draco witnesses his cousins casually throwing information his way, what I wanted was for one of the adults to see how much he needed that information, that connection, and give it to him. My god ❤️ You have written a lonely boy craving family so well.
Back to the Dramione of it all (and this might be a question), I love how Harry chose to approach the contained chaos waiting to unravel around him and just bluntly told Draco what he did. Question: do you think this is something Canon Harry would have done in this instance? Was there a choice to change anything in your characterisation of Harry (with respect to Canon) that resulted in this wonderful, blunt, more-mature-than-many-adults-who-can't-even-identify-their-needs version of Harry?
If not, what canon Harry actions/traits do you think would point to him acting this way?
Thank you! This is a beautiful and very kind trench coat, and I am luxuriating in it.
I will answer your question while continuing to luxuriate: I don't think canon Harry would ever confront his friends about an emotional problem, mostly because because he never does. Hermione and Ron, the two people he's most comfortable with in the world, are feuding for most of HBP, and while he does have a few "can't you guys just get along?" type-outbursts, he doesn't really sit down and ask "hey, what's going on with you? How can I help?" because canon!Harry is, as you might expect for a 15-year-old boy, better at ignoring his problems than solving them. (I also think there's an ingredient of conflict-avoidance in there from his upbringing with the Dursleys, but I'll be the first to admit that's mostly headcanon.)
My Harry is a bit softer — in part because that's just how I prefer my Harry, my favorite scenes with him are those where he's showing tenderness for things other people have neglected. This is the best of him, and this is the core of him, in my opinion. Canon Harry has this marvelous capacity for empathy, and when he chooses to use it, it's kind of astonishing how capable he is of resisting prejudice and caring for people. He's fiercely loyal in defending Hagrid, always. He makes a point of freeing Dobby, who's just spent a book trying to maim him. He refuses to let Sirius kill Pettigrew, even knowing that Pettigrew betrayed his parents ("My dad wouldn't want you to" — sweet boy, you mean you don't want them to, and you understand on some level that's the only thing you can say that will stop them.) He saves Gabrielle Delacour, because even if she would have been safe in the end, he's not leaving a little girl at the bottom of a fucking lake. He reads the Half-Blood Prince's handwriting — Snape's handwriting — and thinks: "I bet he's someone like me." On the basis of handwriting, he empathizes with this person! Harry is constantly trying to save people, and he doesn't ever really tell us why. And we'll never know why canon!Harry does that, consciously or subconsciously, but I have to imagine that every time Harry looks at someone in pain, he sees a lonely kid stuck under a staircase, and he thinks not fucking today.
#the emotional maturity — such as it is — I attribute to having more of mrs weasley's influence#in that lionheart takes him away from the dursleys and basically never sends him back#i don't think lionheart!molly would let it happen and lionheart!sirius certainly wouldn't#this is not criticism of the original — I've said many times that the early HP books are weird because they're children's books#so stuff like. child neglect. for instance. isn't treated That Seriously#because why on earth would it be it's a children's book!#and we ignore things like that in children's books because we don't take any of it#THAT seriously. except then you have to retroactively frame#harry's past as a realistic adult figure in the later books#and then it all sort of fractures. tonally speaking.#so the only thing I would claim lionheart has in that respect is the benefit of foresight#in knowing that there are going to be 7 books and they are going to explore#these characters as adults. that's all!#which is my ultimate justification of: i think this is what harry would have been#if the author had known that the books were going to follow him into adulthood#and had wanted to set up the man that harry purports to be in Book 7 a little earlier. that's all!#lionheart spoilers#lionheart#greenteacup asks
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Hey 🗑️🔥 gang (@katkastrofa @rokurookajima @shadelorde)…
Heard you guys like feral women 😏😏😏
#yes this is directly inspired by Syd and Nightmare’s recent animalistic Raava pieces#I’m sorry if you expected something related to the spirit kites but I’m obsessed with my OCs first and foremost#and Suiren is already very feral in most verses. the mermaid AU just adds a biological factor to it#but actually. fun fact. she doesn’t even look as feral as she would be were she a full mermaid#(yeah I’m spoiler alert that’s not really a spoiler given that I drew a lot for this AU last year and already gave it away. Ghazan’s human)#(meaning Suiren’s only half mermaid. I’ve never drawn her in this AU but I imagine Ming-Hua looking ever more monster like)#(bc I dislike when mermaids are just pretty girls with fish tails. give me FANGS and CLAWS and SCALES and GILLS and FINS)#(so yeah. Ming-Hua has a lot more scaled and also dorsal fins running higher up her back. and a more dexterous tail. I should draw her)#but I hope the vibe still comes across. with the blood and all 😁#was it a fish she ate or a too curious human? that’s for me to know and for you to find out#ANYWAY!! some new headcanons about my mermaids based on what you guys said about human Raava:#my mermaids don’t inherently know human language. their underwater communication sounds similar to whale singing#above water it’s more of a chirping noise? though more elongated and melodic than a dolphin’s. something between a trill and a whine#and most don’t have the capacity to speak human language. but sirens have unique vocal chords that allow the siren spell to work#it’s similar to a parrot’s. they’re very good at mimicry. it’s an evolutionary hunting tactic#but they also have more developed brains than a parrot’s therefore can not only mimic but consciously speak#though it takes time to master. like a foreign language#am I implying that when Mingzan met as kids they couldn’t understand each other and Ghazan taught her to speak human? yes. yes I am#because I’m a sucker for language barriers and think that scenario is adorable. fucking sue me.#and obliviously Suiren was taught both mermaid and human. but it was Midori who helped her keep up her knowledge#(look I don’t have that part plotted out yet but Something happens to their parents and they’re left on their own. as a parallel to SotRL)#(also btw Midori was born without a tail but still not quite human. she has scales and gills and ear fins and fangs and glowing eyes)#(and no one but Suiren and Haya know about all that. Haya makes her hide it and convinces her that she’s a half fish freak :/)#(at least.. until a certain Beifong with an interest in marine biology comes along…)#(yes Green Opal in this verse are the epitome of ‘there are many benefits to being a marine biologist’)#how did I end up talking about Midori. anyway. yes I made both Kuvira and Ghazan monsterfuckers. no I’m not ashamed#my art#artists on tumblr#Nia’s mermaid AU#sotrl suiren
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I mean, if you start a patreon or something, I'm certain people would pay you for hot sheep content
for as much as i am honored people want to Give me their Money i literally cannot accept money from u guys go donate to charity orgs instead!!
#munpost#this is not me being humble i would in fact love money but the government will take away my disability benefits if i get regular money#at least from something like that#it's why i can't open a ko-fi or anything like that either#if you really want to give me things i can open a wishlist or smthn!!#but if you want spicy lamb content i can make a pass locked blog or smthn if enough are interested
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Okay, someone uploaded the ~10 minute dream portion of the podcast - I'll link it in the comments. Here's a summary
the main story:
Starts with Phil saying that when the "their nda's are done they can talk shit now" jokes were going on, he said that when he retired he'd give context to the "imagine taking credit..." tweet
Tommy says he'd "never been in an argument with anyone before" so he was really stressed at the time
at the time tommy was in a call with eryn, jack, tubbo, and freddie and they were egging him on
from tommy's pov, dream got really personal so tommy wasn't sure if he was serious or not
Tommy contacted phil for help, phil decided to find out
other stuff:
tommy joked about there being red flags, jack and phil agreed - jack claimed he had a bad feeling from the start
the infamous part of it was "I vowed never to be horrible to dream again" "it's not worth it, it makes me too sad"
apparently jack was aggravated by dream one week into the smp and figured he was a bad person from then on (also said dream doesn't like him and was clear about that - corroborated by tommy)
jack gives dream credit for giving him the dsmp opportunity and "individual acts of kindness" but thinks that he takes ownership of other peoples' works because he helped (and doesn't like him because of that)
at the end jack said the words came out harsher than intended, he just really does not like dream
jack said if there were dream fans in the patreons he thinks they're "fighters" and says hats off to them
tommy says he done with all the behind the scenes drama so he only works with like 4 people now
phil says he has no animosity towards dream, just disdain for a lot of things he's done behind the scenes
jack says he'd be civil to dream if he saw him
says he feels bad airing "all that out online"
#discourse#dreamblr#dreamwastaken#I'm putting it here bc I think people should have full context#tbh I think tommy's fans should've just never talked about it outside of their circles#the podcast itself is just...people with a bad relationship with dream talking about it#idk like jack never calls dream a narcissist or manipulative or abusive#I think they should've just cut it out tbh#jack even said he wasn't sure if he wanted it to air#I really don't think it was meant to stir up all this#my stuff#jack's right about one thing tho o7's to people who are still active fans of both#I couldn't do it#good for you guys#I also think they just...forgot/erased the part where the whole thing was resolved (/by dream/)#and decided in their heads that their reading of taking dream seriously was correct#I honestly think they just concluded/decided dream was a bad person for whatever reason#and recontextualized/took away benefit of the doubt in various situations which were probably similarly resolved
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one of my girls might be discharged from the NICU tomorrow :’)
#c shut up#im sad they both cant be discharged together but#my other girl should be coming home tuesday the earliest#!!#so only 2 days apart :’)#im nervous for them to actually be home like its kind of weird to give birth#and then just not have to take care of ur babies right away??#it benefitted me in that i had time to recover without worrying about them#but yeah theres a weird disconnect in terms of feeling like a parent#obviously i love them to death i just dont feel fully like their mom yet once theyre home i think it’ll kick in#but just visiting them the past 2 weeks has been a unique experience!!
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I know you're keeping Clear Sky as an antagonist (and he's very compelling as one in your rewrite), but I'm curious: if you absolutely had to give him a redemption arc, how would you go about it? (Besides not fridging his sister and wives, of course.)
If I was forced to give Clear Sky a redemption arc I'd slip a femur right out of my legmeat and beat someone to death with it
I'd never write a redemption arc for him, ever. It would be a completely different character.
Clear Sky's redemption arc is not even an idea worth considering; This an extremely consistent abusive family member who drives the entire plot, a predator who will leverage the love people have for him, whose defining characteristic is that he dresses up his megalomania as "Just Trying to Protect Everyone"
And I'd give that up?! for what?
I'd rewrite the whole plot, JUST like how the writers did with TWO born evil foreigner villains so their story wouldn't get boring, so I could prove the he could be a good boy if he wanted to? WHY?
It's doing the same thing the Erins do, totally uninterested in the story of his victims to write yet another plot centered around the pain of an abusive man.
Elder Bones is disappointed in you if you even think about it, actually. I am holding the femurbone in my hand as we speak. I'm gonna GETCHA
#Bone Babble#Clear Sky can be redeemed in my wine cellar. if he'd like to come down to take a look#And I am sorry but like. I've never seen it done well. ever#When other people attempt it#I have never enjoyed an AU or an analysis post exploring some possibility for an alternate redemption arc#And I have seen a *LOT* of them#Every single one has played into legitimizing his Oh So Sincere Pain And Regret#HELL no!!!#NO he fucking doesn't!! EVERYTHING revolves around power to this character!#Any moments of sincere reflection or remorse get shoved down in the pursuit of more power and respect#He is incapable of sitting with his shame and that's INTERESTING#How he's a complete weasel who will find a way to twist the words of authority telling him to Cut It Out into something that benefits him#How the emotions people feel when interacting with him is either Guilt or Fanatic Affection#He's a horrible and toxic person!! The kind of person you're VERY lucky to get away from#So I've never actually seen anyone do it in a way that works.#And I'm not entirely convinced it exists. Anything is possible but no. Not in my house
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What people often confuse, I think, is the idea that you can have specific benefits in different situations, but that is not the same as having systemic privileges for whatever identity/presentation/assumed identity or presentation that was given benefits.
If you want an example of what I mean, I have experienced some better treatment as people have recognized me as male, but society doesn't offer me systemic benefit because I'm a trans man - my transness, even in a context of being seen or assumed as a man, is not granted to me. I'm not saying that I don't ever get treated better in certain instances where I am seen as a man (even if I'm seen as a cis man), what I am saying is that that is different than systemic privileges. I think that difference matters, since people see systemic benefits as indications that people don't need help, or even that those people need to be "taken down a peg." This viewpoint isn't conducive to helping people, if that's what your goal is.
I use myself as an example just so people aren't confused. This is a complex topic that is, fundamentally, intersectional. If the only voices being heard are one type, we will be coming away with a dangerously narrow view of how social benefits and societal privilege work.
#politics#conditional benefits are still *conditional*#people that treat me better because they assume i am a cis man for example will...#...take that benefit away the picosecond they smell transsexuality on me...#...and i have a hard time believing that is *systemic* benefit on my end y'know#the conversations around societal benefits and how systemic privileges exist are (and should remain) complex and intersectional#and i just don't buy into the idea that minirities should never have *any* benefits because that is 'systemic privilege'#having it a tiny bit better does not a systemic privilege make is my point#and while i do have some benefits granted while i am assumed to be a cis man... i'm still seen as not het and i'm seen as a *queer* man#have probably talked about this before but i still see people doing this so 👍
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I was just thinking and... Artemis is not kind. yes, for all his friendliness, and all the fancy and amicable language and behaviors he displays outwardly to just about everyone who enters his shop... he's not genuinely nice. Artemis is a demon. in any verse of his, he used to be something akin to a spirit/god of LOVE, but was twisted into Wrath, or Hatred - which is the opposite. After leaving the pits of hell, having his little demonic tantrum and breakdown and finally growing weary and finding some semblance of clarity, he's grown out of what he was once again, and became something new. He's still wrathful, hateful, angry, and morose, but now he's so much more without even realizing. He's evolved and will continue to do so over time even if he stagnates for decades, centuries even. The friendships and relationships with other muses that he develops will influence his personality and the way he views things in time, as we've seen it happen already countless times ofc! And for those who did earn his respect and care, he does truly care for them and would gladly go out of his way for them (to what degree depends entirely on the level of closeness). But again.... Artemis is not kind, by nature and he hasn't been for a very, very long time. He was genuinely just plain and simple EVIL He was a villain - a monster, unrecognizable to how he acts now- doing horrible, unspeakable deeds for the pleasure of it. It's how he got the bones he wears in and on his body. So while he might be polite, charming even, and friendly - if he does not know you... he doesn't care about you nor what happens to you. If say for example, he sees you wandering that ruined cityside he lives in - rampant with entities that prey on the Living - and he saves you from being taken by evil spirits or demons? Chances are good that he did it for himself, or to be spiteful - to deny the other entities their prize (you / your soul). If he doesn't know you, the likelihood that he'll go out of his way for you is very low. But if there's something in it for him, some kind of reason as to why it might be worth his time and energy to actually step in... he might! But like all demons, it's good to be wary and to assume he doesn't care about you or your well-being, at least at first!! Artemis is not nice, but that doesn't mean he's malicious or cruel (anymore. not intentionally - he's quite literally under the mindset that he's just 'too old and tired for that nonsense'.) Artemis is manipulative, charming, cunning - he's everything you expect from a demon (though without a host, so he's certainly not attractive in any semblance of a conventional manner lmao - but he dresses well! and I think it's also telling just how-- *gestures at all that* --that he actually is, considering he's NOT attractive... but still puts people at ease, mostly, and can charm them to hell and back if he wanted to. He uses that not to manipulate people per say ?? like, he does not have an evil agenda by any means. He's just existing at this point, distanced from the gods and devils and just living his... life(?) if you can call it that. He's TRYING to do better. But he's still just... a demonic entity. A greater demon, for sure, if he had to be equated to some kind of level or whatever, but a demon nonetheless. But even for demons, there can be growth! and he is growing, very very slowly.
#( ramblings )#( ooc )#( tbd )#??#ANYWAY TLDR I just wanted to ramble a little#please don't assume he's going to like you or your muse at ALL. he's going to be FRIENDLY. because hes a GOOD BUSINESSMAN.#he's a shop owner!!! first and foremost!! that's his LIFE. that's what he DOES. it's his EVERYTHING. he uses his charm for THAT. not for#evil deeds anymore. its been decades. centuries. since he's been like that at all.#underneath the charming businessman persona he EXUDES is a morose grumpy damaged entity that is prickly and judgemental and hot and cold#expect little from him but push him for more.! he's not one to turn down a Good Conversation. but it will take time to genuinely get#anything sincere or substantial from him relationship wise because he genuinely sees so little value in deeper connections#or in getting close to others (he literally lost everyone he loved and was betrayed deeply to the point where his old self perished and#rotted into a puddle of despair in hell... literally)#BUT !! if one does manage to get through that thick fucking skull (...ha.) of his . well then you've got yourself a pretty fucking powerful#ally then dontcha? jfhjgjfjg#he won't believe you're worth his time half the time unless if benefits him. but he is at times plagued with moments of... curiosity.moment#flickers where he might SEEM like he cares a little bit. maybe he does. but he does not acknowledge it at all and it confuses him if he doe#somehow manage to recognize it for what it is. he's been deeply disconnected from himself for a long time. hes been Lost for even longer#he can be 'loving'/affectionate even/kind to those he genuinely has grown to care for. but that takes some time and work.#the guy is not a nice person. he'll kill you without remorse if you cause trouble for him as long as your death wont cause some kind#of backlash that he doesnt want to deal with or inconvenience in general to him.#but.... he also used to be the god of love. that god has been dead for a long time though. but !! but. but.#all is not lost. not always. sometimes he feels guilty for what he became and did to people who did not deserve it.#its why he still has the bones. and the souls of the people he killed. he'll never be a Good Person. he'll never be Eros again. but he'll b#something else... given time I suppose.#ANYWAY X2...... idk where the fuck......... but. nods. tips my hat. mhm. turns on a heel and jogs away without giving anything else--
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