#svicide watch

[abbey-vents-a-lot]

Wym it's not normal to be deeply in a svicidal state 24/7, write full length svicide notes (multiple of them) and also have written your will all at 20

y/o?

[the-ichor-king]

marksman OC expansion :3

Locke is a victorian-style steampunk marksman, also his name is a pun on ‘flintlock’ bcuz- well he’s centered around firearms- that’s like his whole character-

Word count: 515

Freakshow! AU belongs to @hootbon

TW: SVICIDE ATTEMPT MENTIONED UNDER CUT

Locke took a bow as the audience cheered and clapped, smiling widely (a red herring, of course) as they threw all sorts of gifts his way; flowers, confetti, bits and pieces of bones (he didn’t even want to think about where they got those from), and other things that Locke couldn’t identify as he was whisked away from the ring. He had managed to shoot each and every clay bird that was tossed high into the air without fail, and watched as the audience scrambled to snatch the shattered pieces as they rained down from the sky, eager to take home a souvenir from the show.

Locke hoped that Caine would think well of his performance this time; he spent hours practicing and training just to win some semblance of approval. But, as usual, Caine merely looked at him with contempt and disdain. Not good enough. His forced smile dropped, and he said nothing as he slipped past the newest member. Locke envied her clothing; neat, clean, and relatively untorn, save for a few rips here and there. The fabric was still vibrant, and looked out of place compared to the tattered, faded costumes everyone else wore. The living doll.

No more a doll than a shiny new toy for the ringmaster to play with until he broke it, Locke mused to himself. He wondered what piece of her the amalgamation would take for themself once she began to show signs of abstraction. The bow, perhaps. Maybe the skirt.

“Marksman.”

Locke’s head shot up; he had been lost in his thoughts once again. His gaze met the narrowed eyes of the ringmaster’s, scrutinizing each and every bit of him. Caine held out one hand expectantly.

“You know the new rule, marksman. Your shotgun. Give it here, please.” Caine said, not an ounce of emotion detectable in his voice.

Locke remembered the time Caine had caught him with his firearm pointed towards his head. Several rounds had been fired already, leaving gaping holes in his face (or lack thereof, he only possessed a mouth filled with jagged, sharp teeth). Caine was not happy to have to fix that issue, and now Locke was prohibited from having his gun outside of shows or practicing new performances.

Locke unceremoniously dumped the firearm into Caine’s outstretched hand, which disappeared with a snap of the ringmaster’s gloved fingers. He retreated backstage, climbing the rickety staircase up to the lower balcony where he watched Pomni’s ballet performance with indifference. In his honest opinion, it was amateur at best, but the audience clapped and cheered nonetheless. They’d probably still applaud for a dead skunk if Caine dressed it up. The thought made him smile, but only for a fleeting moment before he started frowning again.

Locke wondered how long it’d been since he first showed up, and how long it’d take before the twins tore him to shreds to prevent his inevitable abstraction. With the way things were going, it probably wouldn’t be much longer.

“Good,” Locke mumbled to no one in particular. “I can’t wait for this bull████ to be over.”

[katvyre]

Kat, listen to me. You HAVE to watch Archie's Final Project (My Svicide on Netflix). That shit was ALMOST as influential to me as Rocky Horror Picture Show. Nothing will ever pass Rocky Horror Picture Show, though. I forgot to mention that one. RHPS changed my life, actually. But back to Archie's Final Project. Yeah, you'll love it. You will. You WILL love it, and you WILL watch it.

(also I have no one to talk about this movie with)

-🍃

Well now I'll definitely watch it!! I'll update you on my thoughts afterwards (´∀｀)

[murswrites]

Her Deadly Wish ⎯  Yennefer Blurb

Pairings: Yennefer of Vengerberg x Reader Fandom: The Witcher MASTERLIST 🌸 JOIN IN MY SBSR EVENT! 🌸 Warnings: Yennefer being self destructive, talk about her wishes to be a mother, svicidal tendencies, angst SUMMARY: Self destruction may not be enough for Yennefer just yet. Request from @retvenkos​: final one, i promise, lololol. but might i request dramatic prompt #5 (“I’ll do it even if it kills me.”) with yennefer of vengerberg?

Dramatic #5: “I’ll do it even if it kills me.”

A/N Don’t feel bad about sending a bunch in you are single-handedly keeping my silly brain entertained with these amazing requests!! I don’t mind at all, this is a week long event so :)

You were watching her kill herself slowly. It was grueling. She was too young for a fate as brutal as hers. But she wished to be great--even greater than great. Yennefer of Vengerberg demanded to be the greatest.

Chaos can only go so far in a healthy body--no one knows what chaos can do to you if you’re not caring for yourself. Yennefer fell into bad habits trying to repair her damaged womb. It was painful. She was falling into insanity.

Nothing you said would change her mind. No matter how often you’d remind her of the risks, she’d answer all the same.

“I’ll do it even if it kills me.”

Somewhere, somehow along her life she convinced herself that she would be worthless if she could not bear children. It was so sad. She convinced herself that if she could not become a mother, why live at all? That hurt the most.

How can anyone change someone’s mind about that? Yennefer was set on killing herself for even a pinch of hope; something, anything... something she could grab and feel its warmth and love it like a mother would and feed and nourish it like she dreamt of.

But that hope never came. And neither did a child.

[lost-in-letters]

Started watching Bungo Stray Dogs and feel like kinning the guy who's priority is to commit a clean svicide without being a burden to anyone. God, what a mood.

[kuroosweakness]

could i pls have bokuto and oikawa with a su!vidal gf? kinda an emergency request but u don’t have to respond right away. thank u :)

bokuto and oikawa with a svicidal s/o 

tw: mentions of suicide, self-harm

bokuto: 

- he’ll remove all the things you can possibly hurt yourself with, just to be extra safe. one of his main priorities has always been to protect you, even from yourself 

- your home is in his arms; whenever you want to escape this world, crawl into his lap and he’ll wrap you around with his warm body. stay as long as you want in his embrace 

- you don’t know how badly bokuto wants those thoughts out of your head. if hurts him to see you not being able to enjoy your life like the way you deserve 

- talk to this boy! he hates not being able to see what’s going on in that head of yours; he wants to know all about you. the good thoughts, bad thoughts, all of it

- bokuto loves treating you. he’ll go out of his way to get you your favorite flower, your favorite snack, or even a rock he found on the way home that reminded him of you 

oikawa: 

- when you first told him, he didn’t know how to react. he was concerned, worried, scared, and felt a sudden rush of protectiveness 

- have you reached out for professional help? oikawa would definitely suggest getting help because he knows as much as he wants to support you, he doesn’t know much about mental health 

- if you do get professional help, oikawa would be there supporting you all the way!! he’s the most supportive boyfriend there is, believe me 

- oikawa has a nurturing side when it comes to you. he’ll take you under his wing and take care of you like the way a mama bird will. not getting enough sleep? not on oikawa’s watch. he’ll sing lullabies if he needs to

- he’ll make a secret signal or keyword with you where if you’re ever feeling exceptionally down, use the signal or word and he’ll immediately drop everything to make sure you’re okay

[kaneekii]

i got tagged by: @sinnlosekunst

Rules: Put your music on shuffle and post the first 10 songs that come up and tag 10 blogs

1. Not Like This - Wicca Phase Springs Eternal

2. UNKNOWN LOCATION INTERLUDE - Night Lovell

3. i love you - Billie Eilish

4. I Tried! - Brennan Savage, Fish Narc

5. Black & White - Juice WRLD

6. Fühlen - Yung Hurn

7. We Are Who We Are - Brennan Savage, Fish Narc

8. Existential - Brennan Savage, Killstation

9. WATCH ME - Night Lovell

10. Alleyways - The Neighbourhood

i tag: @sk8scum @wuestenkrieger @slitmywrists4u @4ngelliving @svicidal-god @asumi-x @kalashnykov @ey3-full @dont-try-to-make-me-stay @kippenverlust

[abbey-vents-a-lot]

Intrusive thoughts makes us feel so perverse, we would never genuinely cvm from hurting ourself

i don't know what's wrong with us

it feels funny in our headspace like static