#suicidementality

[neurodivergentcutie]

TW: SI

I’m suicidal for the first time in almost 2 years.

I don’t see many reasons left to hang on. I’m suffocating.

[flowersandbasil]

If i was basil i would kill myse oh wait

[brknmnds]

@edhellfire asked:

❛ i am the devil, and i am here to do the devil’s work. ❜

"What you going to kill me?" Henry question as he looked up at his brother-in-law. Ever since the incident he had been locked up in Juniper Hill, most of the time being completely out of it due to the drugs they pumped into him to keep him calm.

He wasn't that day as it was a day where he was allowed out to see how he would cope with being re-introduced into normal living. He wasn't allowed to leave either his sister or her husband's sight and if he came under any duress then he was to be returned to Juniper Hill.

"go ahead, it's better than what I go through on a daily basis." He said to him, his voice, void of emotion. The only reason he never did was because of Olivia but she didn't need him anymore. That much was clear.

[realmofthedragon]

"She hates me... She said she doesn't love me and I am no son of hers." He said as he collapsed on the couch. His mother had told him this plenty of times, but it was always when he fucked up but this time he hadn't done anything. He was trying to be good, for his new wife, sure he still drank but that was nothing compare to what he had done for years. "I don't even know what I did this time."

He was in a deep, dark pit of depression. he felt worthless knowing that his own family felt so little of him. Sometimes, he wondered what he would be like to throw himself off his old bedrooms window. Would people mourn him? would people care? He very much doubted it, but he knew he wouldn't be able to do it. He was weak. So he kept on living and the only thing good to come out of it was Penelope.

"She will not talk about it, she will push it aside and carry on with life. I understand that she doesn't love me. My whole family doesn't but it still hurts to hear."

Penelope had great sympathy for her husband-- but she knew he had done horrible things none the less. She heard the rumors-- but he had never been harsh with her, from time to time he spoke in anger but she knew it was never meant for her, it just landed in her lap due to proximity to him. So she forgave him and little by little she was working to help him direct his emotions into more helpful means than lashing out.

"I suppose it depends on what we are eating, I would not advise being undressed for soup-- seems like a terrible idea" she kept her hand in his own as they made their way down the hall. Once at their room the guards opened their door and she sent their maids to fetch the large tub and fill it, and asked for their dinner to be brought here as well.

"Your sister's wedding is next week, perhaps once it has passed your mother will calm and we can better speak to her about the issues that plague the two of you?" The redhead suggested as she lead him to the small couch that resided in their room.

[genderfluid-creator]

I can't believe I have to say this but even IF someone is a horrible person that doesn't mean they should be sent death threats and suicide baited. I don't care if they're a fucking republican or whatever, telling someone to kill themselves is only going to affirm their "us vs them" views. It changes nothing. It only shows how much of a cunt you are.

If you're jumping at the chance to tell an exclus to kill themselves or sending rape threats, you're just as bad as they are. You're fucking worse. I'm just as frustrated with them as you are, but that will never be the way to change their minds. It's just going to send them running back to an echochamber. It's like being misogynistic to a TERF. It's worse than that.

Get off the fucking internet.

[daringdinkysart]

This June is going to be very difficult. It marks the one year anniversary of my little sisters death.

Suicide is never an easy topic. It hurts. And I miss her with all my heart. Knowing I’ll never play video games with her again hurts. 

But she’s gone.

Rest well Kat, I love you.

I’m the Butterfly, my elder sibling is the Opossum, and my little sister is the Fox. 

[sandypoetry-blog]

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[solsticevvitch]

My whole life I've had mental illness. My whole life I've been told that talking about it is weak and embarrassing. I've been taught that therapy is a scam. I've been taught that medicine will only make it worse. I've been taught that mental illness means you are crazy. I have struggled since a young age with anxiety and depression. I never knew until my late 20s that the way my mind works is diagnosable and treatable. Now I look back and realize things that I have felt my entire life are because of my mental illnesses and they are explainable and understandable. Now I look back and realize that the times I freaked out on my toxic boyfriend it wasnt just me being dramatic, it was me having a panic attack because of some traumatic past event that was triggered. The times I sat in class or in my teenage bedroom and thought time was moving without me, that was dissociation. The same reason I cant walk on a busy street for fear of people staring at me. The same reason I can't wear glasses in public because I can see clearly and people know I can see them. The same reason I only listen to music with one headphone for fear of someone sneaking up on me or not being able to hear if something bad is happening around me. All of the things in my life are finally coming together so I can begin to understand myself. I have had to unlearn everything I was taught about mental illness, about myself- in order to learn about myself and help myself. I always assumed I wouldn't live to be 30 and I would kill myself first. Now I realize that if someone would have told me at age 12 that its okay to recognize your illness and learn about it and use medicine and therapy to treat and neutralize your extreme emotions, if anyone would have been able to drill that into my head, I would be in a much different place in my life. I could have had that hope back then when my life was still forming instead of now when I've made things harder for myself to say the least. My point is if you're ignoring your mental illness or believe that there isn't anything that can help you, there is. There are people willing to help and modern medicine can really turn your life around. There are hard days, and I'm still starting my journey. But my panic attacks have gone from once a day to once a month. I don't feel like I want to die every single day. My dissociation is almost completely gone. I'm able to keep a healthy routine most days. My memory is better. I can sleep through the night without waking in a panic. I have hope. And I have hope for you too.

/this goes without saying but please reach out to me if you need someone to talk to. And if your life has been helped by treating your mental illness and recognizing yourself please share this. Because I know there are young people and even people older than me who need to hear this message./

[that-one-tea-addict]

If you have TikTok, please be cautious if this happens to you. And for the love of whatever you believe in, TELL SOMEONE IF THIS HAPPENS TO YOU!!!

[thedigitaliscollective]

I wrote a thing..

I can’t hear the noise

The room is

Empty

But for your whispers

Never had a choice

My heart is violated

But for my whimpers

And i just don’t know

Can’t throw that same shade

We cut the corners

But my knife is dull

Due to sharp veins

Whisper to me

A discordant melody

Whisper a thought choked

Dil-em-ma

Re-mem-ber

That if not for this suffering

I might still be....

Happy

[neurodivergentcutie]

I guess I don’t want to k*ll myself anymore. But I am having strong self h*rm urges. I miss the blood.

[uremoluvr]

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[rollingpenguin]

High school me was so naive and stupid. I remember condemning suicide and saying it was like taking a shortcut, during religion class in a debate. Now I think of suicide like once a week at least.

Stupid teen me.

[cowbaehawyee]

If Javert had turned in Jean Valjean he would have been promoted like,,, to general or some shit for dedication to the law, but instead he chose to be a dramatic bitch and kill himself because he couldn’t deal with even an ounce of cognitive dissonance. There has never been a bag in history that was fumbled as hard as that one

[virgilanxietysandersblog]

Virgil, sorry if this is bothering, feel free not to answer. What would you say to someome considering suicide? Thank you.

Oh... Um... Its get better. I know things derm bad and I know people say that all the time but it truly does. Even if you think no one will notice the world would be different without you. You will never have met some people, you would never have seen somethings, and never would have said you got to do something. It's not worth it to miss out on everything.

[1-800-suicidetrippin]

Honestly I’m surprised I haven’t killed myself