#suicidalideations

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when you’ve been depressed for so long that non-depressed people feel like a different species. like, some people just exist without constantly thinking about dying? they can actually maintain hobbies and relationships? they’re not too exhausted to function? they don’t spend half their day dissociating? they actually enjoy being alive? that’s crazy…

[monriatitans]

ADHD ACCEPTANCE MONTH QUOTE 13

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Wednesday, October 30, 2024

"The primary disadvantage of ADHD is that people around you are often inconvenienced, weirded out, or hurt by your behavior, so you're constantly getting judged and punished, which makes you feel like shit. Suicidal ideation is higher in people with ADHD. Self-loathing and self-medication are endemic. If the rest of the world says you're obnoxious or stupid or just not braining right, loving yourself is an act of rebellion, which is beautiful but exhausting, especially if you're a little kid. With that needy little kid always inside you, your life becomes an epic quest for love--or whatever feels like love in the moment." – Paris Hilton, Paris: The Memoir

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[treatnow]

VA: Be Broken, or be Broken Open

"The days of kicking the can down the road and measuring VA’s progress by how much money it spends and how many people it employs — rather than how many veterans it helps — are over." VA SEC Doug Collins , March 2025 VA Status Update March 11, 2025 Arlington, VA When the U.S. Veterans Affairs medical complex in Aurora, the "calamity," finally opened in July 2018, a decade behind schedule and more than $1 billion over its initial budget, it was already the most expensive VA hospital in the country. Three years later, costs to get the 11-building, 1.2 million-square-foot, 31-acre medical campus operating pushed the total tab to more than $2 billion. The June 2004 estimated built cost was $328 Million. Luckily, they finally added the multimillion dollar PTSD wing that had been scrubbed. Astonishing news, given the links between PTSD/TBI and suicidal ideation, and the multiyear declaration by the VA that Suicide Prevention is their #1 clinical priority. Doug Collins, the new Secretary of the VA, is currently overseeing an organization with a DOGE goal to return the agency to 2019 staffing levels of just under 400,000. That would mean cutting about 82,000 staff, nearly 25% of whom will be Veterans. In 2024, ProPublica reported on "How the VA Fails Veterans on Mental Health." Experts told ProPublica the failures revealed in the inspector general reports point to broad problems, including inadequate mental health staffing, outdated policies and the inability to enforce high standards across a large, decentralized health care network. The VA/OIG reports these major complaints regarding the Department of Veterans Affairs (VA): - Gross Mismanagement: This includes poor administration and oversight of VA programs and operations. - Waste of Funds: Misuse or inefficient use of government resources and taxpayer dollars. - Abuse of Authority: Instances where VA officials misuse their power or position. - Violation of Laws, Rules, or Regulations: Activities that go against established legal or regulatory standards. - Substantial and Specific Danger to Public Health or Safety: Situations that pose a significant risk to the well-being of veterans or the public. One typical example: the VA's Electronic Health Record. The first effort to modernize the system began in 2001. The estimated cost then was $11 billion, and it was expected to be completed by 2018. Between 2001 and 2018, approximately $1.1 billion was spent. However, after three unsuccessful attempts, the VA initiated its fourth effort—the EHRM program—in 2018 with a 10-year, $10-16 billion contract with Cerner to replace its legacy system. The Institute for Defense Analyses now projects that full deployment across the VA network could exceed $37 billion, with a shifting date for completion. Certainly the VA is little different from other large organizations with respect to cost overruns and cultural sclerosis. The new Secretary, like all others before him, will be hot-washed by internal researchers and staffers holding the line against new science that exposes shortcomings in their $186 million investment to draw false conclusions on the healing powers of HBOT. This from an organization that is nearly 3,000 professionals short in the very field where the need is greatest. There is a culture in the VA that resists change, particularly with respect to rethinking their attitudes about Mental Health, suicides, brain wounds, and scientifically-proven alternative therapies. Why else spend $571 Million on Suicide Prevention in 2024 while the rate increases, but allocate zero dollars healing brain wounds and eradicating suicidal ideation? Consider this chart:

The chart numbers indicate a trend: increased budgets haven't stopped the upward trend in the suicide epidemic. The DOD is suffering similar disconnects in the amount of money spent for any improvement in arresting their suicide rates. They report an active-duty increase of 12% from 331 deaths by suicide in 2022 to 363 in 2023. They are hoping -- hoping, based on no evidence -- that an “unprecedented investment” of about $261 million in the fiscal year 2025 budget will reduce suicides as the number of Active-duty military suicide deaths continues to rise. That's a 30% increase over 2024 and up from $150 Million in 2021. Both the VA and the DoD are broken in their mind-sets about some of the roots of suicidal ideation. But not all resist the science and facts. The Wounded Warrior Battalion/East at Camp Lejeune was not aware of the healing power of HBOT for TBI/PTSD when a tragic episode in the USMC brought TreatNOW to their attention. Months of efforts resulted in an agreement with the TreatNOW Coalition clinic in Durham, NC. After three years, over 140 Marines and Veterans have been granted permission to take advantage, gratis, of HBOT for their TBI/PTSD. The first patient, SgtMaj Simon LeMay and his wife's testimonial is here. Similar efforts, paid for by states, citizens, clinics and donations are continuing in VA, FL, CA, ID, KY, and CO. The NC Report is proof of the rewarded good faith investment by the citizens of NC in the health, safety, and future of their healed Veterans. Common sense -- make that UNCOMMON sense -- argues for using a proven method to heal brain wounds and effectively end suicidal ideation. HBOT is proven. REOMMENDATION: Move a large tranche of appropriated Suicide Prevention funds into an effort to TreatNOW. The VA can remain broken and allow Veterans to suffer the consequences of their neglect. Or they can break themselves open to a world Coalition of HBOT clinics that yearns to make them heroes. Do the right thing, Mr. Secretary. TreatNOW. ****************************** The TreatNOW Mission is ending service member suicides. Along the way, we have learned that we can end suicidal ideation, help end symptoms of PTSD, get patients off most of their drugs, and heal brain wounds to end the effects of Concussion, BLAST injury, mild TBI Persistent Post Concussive Syndrome, and polytrauma from AHI and Burn Pits. No Veteran or civilian has ever been killed while undergoing HBOT treatment for TBI/PTSD. Information provided by TreatNOW.org does not constitute a medical recommendation. It is intended for informational purposes only, and no claims, either real or implied, are being made. Read the full article

[feirynrune-blog-blog]

J10: 12/17/24

Its been over 5 years since my last post, and honestly the only thing thats changed (for the better) is my living situation. I finally moved out on my own 2 years ago.

Ive loved, and lost, and tried to love again... I dont know why I cant move past this. Ive been hurt by this one more than once now but I just... I cant. And the worst part? He claims to be poly, and currently has 7 other partners, which he's been with for a while... even though Ive known him longer, theyve got most of his attention. And I get it. 8 is a lot for one person to equally divide their attention between.... but like... Ive been there for him through so much, both while dating and when not. You'd think that'd earn me more than this dismissive attitude and "oh, my notifications didnt go off". Like bullshit.

All I want is a little bit of attention, yknow? A kiss, and a cuddle... just a few moments of his time, *not* spaced out twenty minutes between messages.

Then theres another who Ive been talking to almost as long as my poly love... and I'd ditch one for the other in a heartbeat if he werent terrified of long-distance. I get it, kinda. He's been hurt and cheated on by the two hes tried before...

Idk what to do anymore. I still want death to claim me but Im too much a coward to end it myself. I wish I could... I don't want to be here anymore. </3

[straightouttabraincells]

Here's another one of young Geoffrey.

Obviously he didn't do it but it's never good having those thoughts.

I don't really know what to say. I've always felt it condescending and sickening when people would say "You are loved" and "We are here for you!" and all that shit. Maybe some people want to hear that from strangers, but when I think someone barely knows me, I suspect ulterior motives behind compassion.

It's easy to get caught in a trap of accountability. Where some things out of your control, or things you were destined to fail at some point, become the justification to why you should kill yourself.

One day I'll expound upon why Geoffrey ever has or ever might feel that way again. For now, enjoy the nadir of his life.

[beetlebeetleblack]

Ophelia of Powderhorn

I walked out to the park, I believed

For a full three minutes

That I could walk out on the water

Of the lake

I stood at the edge, I wavered

Imagining the high of it, the bend under

My feet, I stood

And stared out at the geese

At the island, at the lemon yellow

Trees

I could walk out to the island and

Leave the shores of my body behind

Ophelia of Powderhorn. 

I cradled my head in my hands

like one would

Hold a broken egg

I believe, I believe

That I could step out there

I wish that I could see

The shape of the world moving

Around my fingers

I wish I could be plucked like

A string,

a part of everything

Unbroken in the motion

Of the gray season, blending

With every living thing moving

Through the dying grasses.

But I moved on. Belief must be

More fragile than what could

be termed hope

The inertia of my body on the

Paths of the park

Carried me away.

[jadamarquis]

It's crazy how you link everything to dying after a while. I see a steamroller go by, and I want to lay under it and be crushed. I see a train, I want to jump in front of it. I see chemicals in the bathroom, I want to mix them until they rot my brain. Isn't life so beautiful?

[yoursminehourss]

just had the worst chicken tenders of my life #suicidalideation

[404-selfnotfound]

coworker: are you doing anything nice this friday evening?

me: yeah, just visiting a friend [ i haven’t had a friendship in over 5+ years and will probably eat comfort food, watch series while obsessively looking up any minor physical symptoms i have, then fantasize about having an incurable disease and dieing in 2 months so i don’t have to work or exist anymore - or lie about my weekends to coworkers]

me: what about you?

[b1tchcup]

Pemdas please excuse my dope as suicidalideation

[narcissismunveiled]

https://youtu.be/NhS5rHw6RB0

#narcissism #narcissistic #narcissisticpersonalitydisorder #narcissist #narcissisticabuse #narcissists #narcissisticandemotionalabuse #obsessivecompulsiondisorder #covertnarcissist #narcissisticabusesurvivor #sociopath #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #narcissisticabuserecovery #psychopath #oppositionaldefiantdisorder #dissociativeidentitydisorder #emotionalneglect #suicidalideation #addiction #depressionawareness #depression #bullying #anxiety #mentalillness #mentalabuse #psycho #stigma #toxicrelationships #ptsd #abuse

[the-eloquent-raven]

When you feel like you can't carry on, keep trying.

#depression #ptsd #cptsd #longtermtrauma #domesticviolence #domesticabuse #suicidalideation #vnvnation #illusion #ronanharris

[404-selfnotfound]

i wish my brain didn't constantly jump to thoughts of suicide over any small inconvenience. it's exhausting

[adysoncarder]

What the fuck?

I'd put it in a nutshell but it wouldn't fit.

I don't even think I could if I tried, to be real. Maybe some other time we can get into how all of this happened but for now... I'm starting over with basically nothing except for a prayer... And I'm not the praying type.

[treatnow]

NYT: Friendly Fire Leads to Brain wounding

Pentagon researchers say weapons like shoulder-fired rockets expose troops who fire them to blast waves far above safety limits, but they remain in wide use. As we have reported for years, BLAST injury does not respect your nationality, gender, origin of the weapon, or your intention. As Dave Philipps of the New York Times reports, U.S. Troops are still training on weapons with known risks of delivering brain wounds. As Phillips reports, studies by the Navy, the Center for New American Security, the Swedish military, DoD, SEALs, DARPA, Johns Hopkins, and UHUHS all warn of real damage inflicted by "friendly fire". The search, research, measurements, data bases, added budgets, and periodic expressions of concern from DoD leadership can be viewed in one of two lights: they know and they don't care; or, they know and they dont' know what to do in the interim. Modern warfare, as Ukraine proves daily, requires more and more destructive firepower just to defend territory, let alone regain strategic and tactical advantage. So, what can done in the interim? "For generations, the military assumed that this kind of blast exposure was safe, even as evidence mounted that repetitive blasts may do serious and lasting harm. . . . Top leaders talk of the importance of protecting troops’ brains, but the military fails to take practical steps to ensure safety." Literature on BLAST injuries over the past decade overwhelmingly tends in the direction of Recommendations to find ways to protect soldiers with new and improved helmets, reduced weapon firings, education, more research, more funding, and, over time, resort to robots to do the heavy firing. Sadly for the soldier, for 100 years we've known that BLAST causes brain wounds. Even though a century of research has not definitively "proved" the Mechanisms of Action involved in causing physical, mental, behavioral, cognitive, and moral damage, we do know that the net effects of only palliating symptoms won't lead back to a normal, healthy brain. So here's a list of helpful suggestions to DoD/VA to help Warriors, Veterans, indeed anyone exposed to BLAST injury or brain wounding. Let all the research continue on mitigating the potential and actual damage caused by exposure to BLAST. Add more drugs and hallucinogenics and psychotropics to the list of possible "solutions." But let's focus some of our work on healing the wounds to the brain and body caused by BLAST exposure. An estimated 877,000 Veterans and active duty service members -- probably many more as we learn about the pervasiveness of self-inflicted BLAST injury -- are already suffering with some degree of brain wounding. Let's focus on HEALING THEIR BRAIN WOUNDS as we work the prevention side of the equation. Here's a modest proposal: Daily suicide rates, accumulating suffering, and impacts on families demand that we deal with brain wounds. We cannot continue to ignore treatments that work are safe, scientifically validated, and readily available. We cannot hide this information from the wounded. Informed consent and medical ethics demand that DOD/VA tell the wounded what is available, even though it is "off-label." Every treatment, drug, process, procedure, device and protocol currently used by DoD/VA is off-label and not approved by the FDA for treating TBI/PTSD. Keep doing what you're doing. But hold open the possibility that alternative therapies exist that are scientifically valid, clinically proven, widely available, cost effective and demonstrated safe and effective. Fund them. Rethink a Suicide Prevention Strategy that is void of any options to treat brain wounds. Too may Veterans commit suicide -- over 109,000 -- perhaps falling into depression from undiagnosed and untreated brain wounds. Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy (HBOT) is one such therapy, backed by decades of research, acceptance by the FDA for wound healing, and proven in multiple scientific studies to reduce or eliminate symptoms caused by TBI/PTSD/Concussion/BLAST. HBOT is proven to reduce and/or eliminate suicidal ideation in tens of thousands of uses . Read, really read, the current scientific literature on the validity of objective research conducted over the past fifteen years. Notice that the UHMS and the overwhelming number of real HBOT researchers know that HBOT works to help heal TBI/PTSD. Even government researchers, a few of whom still cling to the canard that "HBOT does not work," accept that patients in their studies got better . If necessary, take 10% of the VA drug budget and use it to fund HBOT treatments in private clinics where the cost is miniscule compared to current standards of care. It is a well-known fact that fully treated HBOT patients get off almost all their drugs, many of which warn of "ideation of suicide." There will be a net return of billions of dollars to the VA bottomline due to reduced need for prescriptions. Redo your cost analyses when considering where to spend dollars on rehabilitation of brain wounded combat Veterans. It has been calculated that the cost of NOT treating brain wounded Veterans will exceed $4Trillion over their 40-year lifespan. That's a degraded life, for the Veteran and the family, living with symptoms that plague far too many Veterans. For less than 1/2 of 1% of that cost, all 877,450 brain-wounded Veterans can be fully treated with HBOT. DoD and the VA should insure and reimburse HBOT-for-TBI treatments. Start with Informed Consent: let every Veterans know that HBOT can help heal their brain wound. And consider the following: service members returning from combat suffer from polytrauma unlike ever before. Knowing what we know now about the prevalence of BLAST injury, Burn Pit toxins, unreported brain trauma, the sustained pace of combat for Special Operations warriors, we need to provide functional medicine approaches to whole body wellness, starting with but not limited to brain wounds. All body systems are negatively affected by BLAST. HBOT works to relieve pain, reduce inflammation, speed healing, restore function, promote the growth of new stem cells, and allow battle-weary warriors to return to peak performance more quickly. Part of the history of HBOT is that the history of HBOT safety and efficacy is ignored or forgotten. This is a page out of the Textbook of Military Medicine, updated in 2006. This same algorithm is in the textbook in the 1980s. The “definitive therapy” then and is HBOT treatment for TBI resulting from BLAST Exposure.

The TreatNOW Mission is ending service member suicides. Along the way, we have learned that we can end suicidal ideation, help heal the effects of BLAST injury, TBI/PTSD, and acute concussion. Heal Brains. Stop Suicides. Restore Lives. TreatNOW Information provided by TreatNOW.org does not constitute a medical recommendation. It is intended for informational purposes only, and no claims, either real or implied, are being made. Read the full article