#suffering in the wake of my accidental obsession

[six-demon-bag]

i have never been so consumed by character . before. why is this one an integral part of my psyche and brain and soul and skull i am going to do violence and gnaw on him until i die

[bonsiii-art]

Please blab about the dynamic changes between Anon and Longan, we're all sat and listening OwO

ALRIGHTY ( •̀ ω •́ ) [ TL;DR bc omg this is long: Anon and Longan's relationship power imbalance goes crazy but they're both kinda into it. Warlord route is where things get rocky and it ends in a messy breakup, where Anon crumbles Longan. Emperor route is where everything is fine and they have a happy wedding :) ]

So, with Longan's new costume, it outlines three possible timelines that all branch off the main one, all starting from the outcome of the final confrontation between Longan and Gingerbrave and co. Establishing Longan and Anon's relationship before the branch-off point, while it's romantic, there's a huge power imbalance. Longan sees Anon as something that's theirs, body and soul. And this results in them having lots of control over Anon's activities especially where they go.

And Anon surprisingly does not mind it... as much at least. Their reasoning why is up to anyone since I like to keep my Anons as blank as possible. In this instance, set up is inevitable <:D. Back to this, I believe that while they are okay in their role that Longan's given them, they hope that the old dragon becomes more sentimental and trusting of them. So that Anon won't be just a cookie to them, they'll be their cookie, their one and only.

During the final battle, Anon would be in Longan Shaman's care, flying around with them in their wyvern form to stay out of danger. So, that's how they are currently and whatever happens in the story 2 months from now will help me decide what goes on from there for the main timeline! >:P ( @snipersiniora since this does answer your question. uwo quick answer is both!)

Now the two routes, starting with the Warlord of Eternal Rest path! As said, this is where everything went super wrong for everyone. The battle raged on until all the dragons were on their last legs. Longan would've hoped that the three dragons' struggle would make them falter but their resolve proved stronger than that. So, it was either them or Longan... and Longan won, killing all three. Lychee had also fallen during this due to having a change of heart and protecting Rambutan from falling debris, getting mortally wounded in the process. The destruction from the war was so great, it would scar the world for years to come. And due to Longan being pushed to their limits, the elimination of cookiekind was not perfect, as in a few survivors still remained, hidden from the dragon orbs. After the initial chaos, Longan attempts to preserve what's left of the islands and their palace. This takes years and their relationship with Anon suffers for it as the ivory dragon spends less and less time with them. Anon still loves them so they try their best to comfort Longan. However, once they saw Anon looking slightly older due to age, the reality of their cookie's mortality hits them and they panic, turning Anon into stone. (Btw, this is going off the idea that Longan can reverse the effects of turning one into stone via their power.) Finding that the world was in ruins no matter what they do, they shifted focus to finding a way to make Anon into a dragon to lengthen their lifespan. Now that they're truly alone, Longan realizes how much they took their companionship for granted and becomes unhealthily obsessed. Insert a small scenario during this period where a surviving cookie somehow sneaks into the palace to find a way to defeat Longan. That cookie finds an altar where Anon's statue is kept and in getting caught by the dragon, ends up accidentally knocking it over. The statue breaking in places sends Longan into a rage, quickly killing the intruder. The dragon's able to fix the statue with the life powder from the fallen cookie and other materials so it's cool for now, I just like angst :) Whether it's through magic or medicine, Longan finds a way to turn Anon into a dragon! So Anon wakes up, extremely sore (from being broken as a statue) but now a proper dragon. They're in a lot of confusion and unease, with their new form and the fact that Longan is much more doting than they remember. Since the dragon is less restrictive of where they go now, Anon travels around Earthbread. Things happen and they end up befriending cookie survivors. This friendship plants the seed of doubt in Anon, seeing the cookies don't deserve to live in these conditions. This all culminates in Anon creating a plan to get rid of Longan. The plan ends up being successful. All in exchange for the heartbreak Anon endures for the rest of their life, reliving the moments before the end and remembering how Longan did not fight back...

And now the Emperor of Eternal Paradise path!! This is where Longan got eeeeverything they wanted. In the final battle, they were able to get Pitaya, Ananas, and Lotus to submit defeat (or at least get them to a point where they can no longer fight on.) Once they quelled the rebellion, they set out all of their dragon orbs to take out the rest of cookiekind. After getting everything settled, Longan promises to formally be with Anon once they find a method of turning them into a dragon. And with endless resources on hand now, this takes almost no time at all (and no statue era for Anon 😔). In a new paradise, sprawling with nature and dragons, Longan and Anon vow their love and loyalty to each other. (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) To the other dragons, they'll never shake that feeling of something missing in their lives now. But for Longan, It's nothing short of perfect.

Sorry I didn't write much here; It's a bad end where everyone's completely boned. Except Longan. :D If you read all the way to the end, I'm sorry and thank youuu qwq

[di-42]

Not a bad reading month at all! Hope your MFLs are hungry! There is something for everyone in this list and I hope you’ll be spoiled by these fictions the same way I was and am. Some of these are true gems!

As always, if you want your fiction removed from this list, or know someone who does, please let me know and I’ll remove it no questions asked.

I’m doing my best to tag the writers, if you know a writer’s username that’s not tagged here, please tag them so they know how loved they are!

The completed fics and the one-shots in this list will be added to the nice and accurate lists of di-42, witch, so look out for new or updated lists and follow my side blog if you want!

Last but not least, you know who would judge a fiction based on the number of kudos, don’t you? That’s right, the Metatron!

But enough chitchat! Let's get to the point! Let me tell you all about

June's Juicy Fictions

Go, spread the love, enjoy, and remember that even a little heart emoji as a comment can make a writer’s day!

WIPs:

The Trouble With HELL, by @beerok23. Rated E, chapters 13/19.

I might have developed a little obsession with this rivals to friends to lovers fic! I keep thinking of this human version of our Ineffables and the ways in which their brilliantly built romantic and sexual tension might be resolved. The characterisation, the banter and the humour in this story are absolutely off the charts, the plot and the mystery are compelling, and the slow burn is delicious and agonising! Everything comes together splendidly in this (so far) angst free fantastic human AU. I can’t recommend it enough. If you don’t read WIPs consider subscribing to read it later, but the story is complete and the writer has decided to have mercy on us all and posts twice a week!

Accidentally In Love, by SpyGlassez. Rated T, chapters 13/49.

Lovely and tender human AU. Ace Aziraphale is suffering from long COVID and is living a fairly solitary life, thinking he’s not worthy of other people’s genuine friendship. When he follows the advice of his only online friend and puts an ad in a magazine to meet new people his life might change for the better. One third in, I’m loving this story about friendship, love, courage, honesty and healing.

Group Chat: Flat 3B, by whatkeepsusalive. Rated T, chapters 5/15.

I dare you to find a sweeter, fluffier story than this amazing, joyful, friends to lovers human AU. Crowley and Aziraphale are flatmates and clearly in love with each other. But I’ve never read any fiction where the take on their mutual pining is light and happy and open. The gentle banter, the enamoured flirting, the disarming honesty this version of our Ineffable show is new and I want to see more of it. All completed by a good amount of humour. Highly recommended.

Mornings After Nights Before, by Majnoona @majnoonathelibrarian. Rated M, chapters 1/3. 

I love the gentle and delicate tone of this human AU. Aziraphale wakes up in a stranger’s bed. This has happened before. What has not happened before is that he doesn’t want to leave. Great characterisation and just lovely, warm vibes. I can’t wait to see what happens next!

Scorn And The Saint-Maker, by beardo @e-rated-beardo. Rated E, chapters 42/?

Anthony and Angel’s saga continues in this not-quite human AU. The plot thickens and other things harden. I’ve said it before and I’ll never tire of repeating it: the prose in this fic is just beautiful and touching, the characterization and the humour are great and it has some of the best smut scenes you will ever read. I love all these things, but what keeps me hooked on this story is that I want to know what happened, how it happened, when it happened/happens/will happen and how they are going to fix it. And if the journey it takes to discover that is wonderful, all the better.

Complete Stories: 

Ear Plugs And Ever After, by Siobhans_world. Rated E,13k. P. Jun 25.

Human AU where Crowley, recently divorced, and Aziraphale meet at a metal concert. Crowley taking his vulnerability seriously is very cute and Aziraphale being self confident and caring is, as always, lovely.

Showstopper, by espresso_six_shots. Rated E, 40k. P. May 25.

Sweet and zero angst human AU, where Crowley is an actor who decides to take part in a TV baking show (I think based on The Great British Bake Off) because he has a crush on the judge, Aziraphale. As the story progresses, more of their backstory is revealed. As a big fan of side characters I loved everyone who made an appearance in this fic, with Tracy sometimes stealing the scene. Lovely.

90 Days To Change Your Life (A Wanting You Companion Fic) by @spectrallydistracted. Rated M, 20k. P. Mar 25.

Oh, I loved this story so much! Human AU that starts with a fantastically self confident ace, cage dancer Aziraphale and a fairly cynical Crowley who goes home with a different woman every week. This is the story of Crowley's journey and is told in his POV; its companion, Wanting You… Is New (which I haven't read yet, but will soon) will tell you Aziraphale's POV. I loved every minute and every aspect of this story: Aziraphale's joy, Crowley’s self discovery, a touch of angst, and the two of them working hard on themselves because being with the other is what matters most. A special mention goes to Bea, whom I thoroughly adored!

One-shots:

Conveniently Inconvenienced, by LCwrites. Rated E, 5k. P. Sep 24.

Funny, light-hearted and very hot human AU featuring a very self confident Aziraphale. It's a treat.

Two To Tango, by Anonymous. Rated E, 2k. P. Apr 19.

Book Omens PWP with two Crowleys and a very, very happy Aziraphale. Read the tags and enjoy!

In The (Second) Beginning, by cherryfeather. Rated M, 2k. P. Jun 19.

Delicate and tender post season 1 fic where our Ineffables open up to each other and Talk Feelings. It's what we all need.

Thoughts From The Other Head, by Aerenii. Rated E, 913 words. P. Jun 25.

Prepare to guffaw with this seriously hilarious fic! Every line will make you laugh harder than the other! In-universe crack fic where Crowley's cock can't take it anymore and has a heart to heart (well, I say heart…) conversation with Crowley. They need to tell the angel how they feel! A gem!

Fruits of Labor, by cyianodiy. Rated E, 674 words. P. May 25.

Very sensual ficlet set in the bookshop. Food is involved.

The Bookmark And The Beach Cafe, by in_a_pickle. Rated T, 4k. Jan 24.

Absolutely lovely and delicate in-universe fiction where Aziraphale gets chatting with a waitress while he's away from London on an assignment.

I had a lump in my throat the whole time while reading this, but it's so beautiful. The ending is open and bittersweet in the sense that the story is set at some point before the events of season 2, maybe even before the events of season 1, therefore the ending will be whatever the ending of Good Omens is.

If You Could Just Stay A Little Longer, by @crowleysgirl56. Rated T, 4k. P. Jun 25.

An interesting take on what went on between our Ineffables in 1941, and why they didn't talk again until 1967.

Not A Thirst Trap But An Oasis, by LexArturo, scullyphile @brenna Rated M, 4k. P. Jul 24.

Lovely story where Aziraphale and Crowley were school friends who went separate ways and find each other again via Instagram. Featuring trans Aziraphale, genderfluid Crowley, beautiful art, and sweetness.

Free Wheelin, by @theravenmuse. Rated T, 783 words. P. Jun 25.

Hilarious crack fiction where Crowley takes part in the Cooper’s Hill Cheese-Rolling and Wake and Aziraphale is a paramedic. They are adorable.

Read Between The Lines, by @missunderstoodlyrics. Rated E, 5k. P. Feb 24.

I loved, loved, loved this friends to lovers human AU! Crowley and Aziraphale work at the same webzine, are friends and are secretly pining for each other. Just the right amount of miscommunication and very low angst, this story is so sweet and heartwarming!

Let Me Be Empty: A Prologue, by @koala2alll. Rated E, 4k. P. May 25.

High angst fiction but with elements of tenderness that pop up unexpectedly. Crowley is missing Aziraphale and decides to turn to Lucifer for comfort. The fic is narrated in Lucifer’s POV and does not have a Crowley and Aziraphale happy ending. It's beautiful, but please read the tags.

Taking Some Pictures Or Something, by his_infinitevariety. Rated G, 2k. P. Nov 20.

Oh, the sweetness of this fiction! Post canon (written after season 1, but might very well be set after whatever will happen in season 3), Crowley gives Aziraphale his phone to take pictures while on a day out in the South Downs. Aziraphale discovers Instagram. They are so adorable and in love, and will make you smile so much!

My own A Little Lighter, After All, rated T, 3k. P. Jun 25.

Little human AU where Crowley and 5 year old Warlock move to Tadfield. As a new single parent figure, Crowley is resigned to the idea that there isn’t any space for romantic love in his life. Enter the local bookseller.

Read May's list here.

[kotton-kandy953]

━ 𝚂𝙰𝙲𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙸𝙽𝙴

➛ yandere!male headcannons × fem/gn!reader

title page┆word count: 0.2k┆warnings: second-person pronouns, kidnapping, murder, obsessive behavior, stalking, yandere themes┆a/n: I accidentally deleted the request I got for this post D: I’m so sorry!!

general ! yandere ! shuichi saihara x g/n ! reader hc’s

❝ I don’t deserve you…❞

As a yandere, Shuichi Saihara would be too scared to admit his unwavering love for you… especially if you both were friends. What if his confession brought an awkward tension between your friendship? What if you rejected him?? With those thoughts plaguing his mind, he results to the most logical response in his mind. Stalking.

He'd follow you home/to the dormitory every night and wait for you outside of the building to wake up every morning. At night, he’d watch you from a window, soaking in the view of your sleeping form. And of course he wouldn’t dare glance away as you changed into your clothes every morning. You were just so perfect.

And of course, Shuichi feels horribly guilty while doing so. You’re a human being with emotions and feelings… but he’s already gotten into the habit of doing it. He’s just so addicted to you.

Even with his unhealthy obsession, Shuichi would never murder anyone. Or… that’s what he wants you to believe. Of course, their deaths wouldn’t be anything too brutal such as bludgeoning or being tortured. He doesn’t care for their suffering. He just wants them to disappear.

And as for kidnapping? I believe that Shuichi would keep you locked in his own home. In the deep fear that you’ll run away and report him to authorities, he’ll keep you chained up until you’ve completely gained his trust. Or better yet, if you return his love.

These are my Shuichi hc’s! I hope you enjoy them, anon asked for this! (Again, I am sorry D:)

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[wetcatspellcaster]

Metapost: "The Ascendent"

**this is a meta for my fic, Pieces Still Stuck in Your Teeth, and NOT a discussion of the BG3 game canon in any way. If you try and make this into a disk-horse, I will BITE you**

(spoilers under the cut for Chapters 1-23 of Pieces Still Stuck in Your Teeth).

So... remember in the Chapter One endnote when I said I was a Spike/Buffy fan first, and a person second? x

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In more seriousness, there was a number of fictional seasonings/ingredients that went into creating what I felt was the villain of a Gothic horror, and what I felt could turn the Ascendent into something that was both 'fixable', and something I enjoyed writing.

Those ingredients were:

Spike and the idea of 'soulless' vampires in the BtVS canon - do I like this conceit of BtVS worldbuilding and how it's used in the show? No. I think it often underlines how bad Whedon is at writing romance. BUT I do think it gives Buffy this free pass for which vampires she can/can't like or adopt, and I needed some of that for my protagonist. I need a 'I can fix him' moment - BtVS has those in fucking SPADES.

Howl's Moving Castle (this one was accidental, I'm still mad at myself but I can't deny it's there) - man conducts magic ritual for power, removing an essential part of himself in the process that needs to be returned

Picture of Dorian Gray (the idea of an exterior staying pristine while something hidden suffers and decays)

Curse of Strahd (the soulless in Barovia, which I mentioned in Chapter 23)

The idea of default moral alignments in D&D. I have a whole chapter arguing against this in my thesis (mostly bc it's often applied to entire races) but I was fascinated by creating a set of circumstances where I feel like a default moral alignment is valid, actually. 7,000 deaths seems like a good set up. I wanted to imagine a being that was trapped within a default moral alignment, and the laws of its very being prevent it from being good no matter what it tries, and it knows that (this kind of creates a feedback loop with the Spike/Buffy stuff)

The parts of the BG3 canon I took and REMADE (I'm stressing this throughout, I was making a horror story and a horror monster your honour):

Astarion conducts the Rite of Profane Ascension with scars on his back, but has to scar Cazador's back personally, suggesting that um... the Rite REALLY SHOULDN'T BE CONDUCTED BY SOMEONE WHO'S GOT THOSE SCARS. Cazador wasn't going to do it that way, is all I'm saying!!

The idea that Ascended!Ending Astarion is a concentrated version of certain traits that have persisted throughout his story - his flirtiness, his understanding of sex as a mechanism and expression of power, his use of a façade as a mask for trauma he refuses to acknowledge.

The lines alluding to dissociation in the brothel foursome, post-Ascension.

The idea that Astarion seduced Tav to survive or protect himself- in my case, because I made the Ascendent empty save for Astarion's survival instinct, the idea that he would gravitate towards Tav as one of his default modes to potentially survive made sense to me - this is why it becomes an obsession.

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For me, when writing, the Ascendent is a few things:

An intensification of vampirism in a different, fucked-up direction. Yeah, A!Astarion, you can walk in sunlight and you can eat and drink and don't need blood. But you are still a hungering maw of emptiness that feels like it will never be whole or close and connected to the living - just now in a wildly different, metaphysical/existential direction! Welcome to depression, alienation, and otherness!

A soulless being, that knows it is soulless - that initially was very happy with its life but then as the years passed, increasingly spends its every waking moment knowing there is something innately wrong with it that it can't seem to shake, no matter how much it engages with life and all the pleasures of life. (see the 'every meal without savour' speech)

A magically literal metaphor for Astarion's dissociation in moments of extreme trauma, up to and including the fight with Cazador - essentially, the moments when there is nothing but a performance or an exterior, because the self/soul are suffering and they cant' come to phone right now

Astarion's survival instinct. As I say in Chapter 23 - Mephistopheles thinks it is an empty body, who's performance is trying to deny the reality of it's own existence. Rosalie, who has a bit more understanding of Astarion, sees that the performance is not just a coping mechanism but one of Astarion's main modes of survival. The Ascendent is Astarion's survival instinct/techniques for endurance, without any soul or person behind them to protect. This is how I tried to tie in the flirty, hypersexual persona and wrap it with a bow.

I wanted a monster that was undeniably scary, and monstrous to me (oh? you can't fit in or be happy no matter what you do and no matter how hard you try, and you think there's something intrinsically off? how's that autism diagnosis going Emma) but that I also felt sympathy and true sorrow for. I needed to have motivations for him chasing after Tav that I could write meaningfully from and sympathise with.

Not only has Astarion used Tav as a life-raft once before, they've also proven to be the most secure thing he's ever clung to. Of course a rabid survival instinct Astarion would become obsessed, and see them as a potential solution to the problem (this was then intensified by Rosalie also being a walking, overbearing moral compass, and having bound him in a contract in the first week of living, accidentally - a lawful good immoveable objects meets a default moral alignment unstoppable force.)

...Because I also wanted that moral alignment spice!! Wizards of the Coast, default moral alignment is fucked up actually!!! Imagine something trying so desperately to be good - literally being bound in a pact and having been told to be good - but the laws of the universe and its very essence are like "nah mate, we kind of want to destroy and annihilate everything, we're neutral evil personified". That's scary!! that's fucked up!! that's what a birth from 7000 deaths gets you!!!

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So, now for the actual timeline, for people who aren't interested in my silly musings but mostly just want answers lmfao.

Rosalie makes the decision not to intervene in Cazador's mansion, making it seem like she'll support whatever decision Astarion will make there.

Rite of Profane Ascension happens. Astarion conducts the ritual, rips his own soul from his body, the Ascendent is born with literally zero context. Mephistopheles is fucked in Cania, because a bunch of stuff has just gone wrong.

(oh, by the way, the Ascendent knows Infernal as a default language. Bc it's born from an Infernal rite.)

The Ascendent is now default neutral evil, and feeling some kind of way. Rosalie and him break up. He's supposed to have everything, but the one thing he thought was a done deal - his most stalwart suppporter - just rejected him.

Netherbrain defeat (the Ascendent is not invited. Imagine being an all-powerful, hypersexual survival instinct vampire, and your ex-girlfriend neither wants you for sex, nor your power.)

Rosalie accidentally binds the Ascendent (a soulless devil) in a pact demanding that he never kill anyone, when that's literally what the Ascendent's new existence/new default moral alignment is driving him to do. Then, she fucks off and goes into hiding.

Well. The Ascendent can just get another wizard, to help him learn all of Cazador's secrets to cope [Hemlock is recruited].

The years go by! The Ascendent is doing sooooo well. Everything is great, guys! I'm rich, I'm beautiful, I have lavish parties and lots of sex - why do I feel nothing? I'm a vampire perfected - I have no hunger for blood, I can walk in the sun, I can enjoy all the freedoms of a living, breathing man - why do I feel like I'm starving? Why does everything turn to ashes in my mouth? I have friends - oops, I've sabotaged all those friendships with my innate neutral evil destruction. Why can't I feel anything? What's wrong with me? I'm doing everything right? Why doesn't it feel that way?

Also, I can't kill anything to feel better about it, because my hidden ex-girlfriend bound me in a pact.

In this time, to reflect the gradual degradation of the Ascendent's happiness and it's increasing awareness that it is something Other and innately wrong, the reflection starts going weird. Starts going strange. Starts getting a bit fucked up. Almost as if, when he looks in the mirror and sees a person, *nothing* should be what's there. Imagine being a spawn who couldn't see your reflection, and then a vampire who could see it's reflection, but knows that they're innately empty. Knows there's nothing there. I'd freak out a little bit about it as well tbh, I'd go a bit tooth and claw and elongated jaw about it.

The Ascendent finally admits that's there must be something kinda fucked about it. Life just ain't working out, lads. He starts looking for any and all impossible cures that will help with the malaise in his soul (and that innate essence problem, caused by default moral alignment). These include: more bad decisions, such as a house in Cania bc the Ascendent is hoping he'll feel more at home with devils than he does with mortals. All it does is make him feel more isolated and alone.

But eventually, he settles on two things! - Wish (Hemlock's idea), and Rosalie (the Ascendent's idea). Clearly, we just need Rosalie back! Her leaving is actually what fucked him up in the first place - none of this existential bullshit! She fixed us one, she can fix us again.

But looking for Rosalie hasn't worked out. In order to get a shot at her, the Ascendent goes and bargains for his own soul from Mephistopheles. Mephistopheles, adding a new sheet in excel titled 'what the fuck happens when i give this soulless monster a soul to play with?', agrees and starts tracking his new data.

Obviously, just putting the soul back in yourself will fix you. But the Ascendent, the nothingness living inside Astarion's body, will die. Taking the soul back would erase itself. The Ascendent - who is survival instinct personified - would never do this.

So instead, it starts interviewing and cannibalising the soul. Bc a soul is what it needs, this is the closest it's ever felt to being alive. Bc it's made this all about Rosalie, he thinks he's found his solution. The chase is making him feel alive again. It's true love, lads! not the soul.

Wish auction happens - the Ascendent is beaten to the punch by some unknown (hot) wizard.

This avenue cut off, the Ascendent makes the decision to try and win Rosalie back.

Astarion advises that to make her come back to the Gate, he should murder a bunch of people. Because this comes from the soul, not the soulless devil nothingness, it circumvents the pact.

...The events of Pieces begin!

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And finally - the Ascendent tries to destroy Jar!Starion for many reasons in Chapter 19:

The Ascendent knows that it dies, if the soul and the body get reunited (or is that constant high alert survival instinct just no longer needed, because the problem is fixed? you decide.)

The Ascendent values Tav above itself. Tav is going to fix them. Astarion believes he could never fix himself.

Dissociation - that soul isn't me. I'm here, looking at my soul. If I get too close, it'll kill me.

Self-hatred - that soul isn't me. That man made a mistake, and I've had to live with the consequences. He doesn't deserve to live, for what he's made me become.

The knowledge that Rosalie/Tav will only ever want that version of him, not the one that's living and breathing, that sees itself as the most wretched, fucked-up version of itself. So... give them no choice. They have to deal with me and love me at my worst.

And if the Rite didn't work - if the version of the Ascendent walking around isn't the best one, and the one people want... what was it all for? Why does the Ascendent feel like this? Why does it have to suffer?

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....And, that's my little meta post! If anyone has any questions about the timeline or any motivations at any points in the fic, I'm obviously more than happy to explain things via ask/comment, as always!

TLDR: I just wanted to make a Gothic horror. I wanted a dark romance, fucked up obsession vampire/mortal dynamic, but I also wanted a situation that was scary for both Astarion and my Tav. I personally think an Astarion who is so dissociated and separate from reality that he feels that in his bones daily, is scary. It's the lingering impact of the traumas the Rite and those 7,000 souls embodied.

I was literally just trying to make it a horror, for everyone involved.

[thatgayunoriginalbastard]

The development of Odyseidon throughout EPIC is just "Drug" by Simple Creatures

I've been listening to nothing but EPIC for the past five months but when I decided to listen to something else, the first song I heard made me think of Odysseus X Poseidon as soon as I got to the end of the first chorus, that song being "Drug" by Simple Creatures. Don't see it/don't know the song? Well let me break down all the lyrics and explain why it works almost shockingly well.

"I got a feeling that the weather's gonna change / So I'm turning off my brain for a minute"

That one is pretty obvious, especially if we're looking at this song through Odysseus' POV. We can look at this as being in the Ocean saga, about around Keep Your Friends Close, Odysseus having the wind bag with him but accidentally falling asleep after staying awake for 9 days.

"I had a premonition that tonight is getting strange / So I'm turning up the sound when you get in"

In Keep Your Friends Close, Odysseus realizes that the bag is being opened while he is still asleep, the dream version of Penelope telling him "Odysseus, they're opening the bag, wake up!", which of course makes Odysseus wakes up and he realizes that his dream was telling him the truth. The second of the two lines is obviously a little less direct but the sentiment works for Odysseus landing in the land of the giants and realizing that Poseidon is there, instantly being horrified and would rather be literally anywhere else.

"'Cause I can't watch you dig your own grave, dig your own grave, today / And I can't hear a word that you say, a word that you say"

This one does have more of a Poseidon vibe to it, especially with him telling Odysseus to apologize only to call him an idiot for thinking that an apology would actually work to stop Poseidon from killing them all. And of course there's the whole argument on whether or not Odysseus' apology actually is a good apology or is, like the song says, him digging his own grave by trying to say that they were just doing what they had to to escape instead of showing real remorse.

"You got me going around in circles in my head / The signals that we send / Electric confidence"

After Poseidon destroys all but one of Odysseus' ship, Ody is left mentally scrambling trying to figure out what to do

"Push me, pull me down / Pick me up, drag me around / Parade me through the town / Fake jewelry wear me out"

Poseidon wants to murder Odysseus, so I feel like this is pretty fitting, as if Odysseus is goading Poseidon to do everything he wants to. It also works as Poseidon isn't really killing Odysseus because he wants revenge for Odysseus blinding his son, but because Ody got cocky. He wants to make an example out of Odysseus, something shown even more clearly in Get In The Water. Poseidon refuses to be humiliated and, especially after Odysseus manages to escape him using the wind bag, killing Odysseus becomes even more of a matter of pride. Also there's AnniFlamma's animatic for Ruthlessness where Poseidon is straight up manhandling Odysseus throughout multiple parts of the song, quite literally doing what those first two lines describe.

"Can't get enough of your drug"

Fellas, is it gay to repeatedly mirror statements that your greatest enemy said, Odysseus saying things like "Remember me" and "I am your darkest moment" in Remember Them and Poseidon saying those same things in Ruthlessness. Poseidon becomes almost obsessed with killing Odysseus, literally waiting off the coast of Ithaca just so he can kill Odysseus as soon as he returns. Meanwhile Odysseus is always thinking of Poseidon, bringing him up in songs like There Are Other Ways, Monster, Suffering, and Different Beast, songs that show Odysseus slowly learning to change his ways from trying to talk his way out of things into more action-based strategies, eventually leading to him adopting the ruthlessness that Poseidon wants him to learn, even saying "Ruthlessness is mercy upon ourselves" multiple times in Monster, accepting the philosophy.

"I ignored the warnings on a bottle full of pills / And I stumbled off the rails for a summer / I bought a filthy car with a thousand dollar bill / Just to watch it rust away in the gutter"

While this one is a lot more metaphorical, it does still fit with Odysseus' slow breakdown throughout Circe, Underworld, and Thunder sagas. Because he is relying more on ruthless actions, he is becoming less trusting, less open, and suffers because of it. He stops telling Eurylochus things and stops listening to him, he does whatever he thinks is right, and takes songs like No Longer You as evidence to double down on being a monster.

"'Cause I can't watch you dig your own grave, dig your own grave, today / So I'll just disappear with no trace from here, with no trace"

Poseidon only shows up in three songs in the musical, Ruthlessness (song 13) and Get In The Water and 600 Strike (songs 34/35). There's a whole 21 song gap between Poseidon's first and second appearance because Odysseus keeps avoiding him, but also because at some point Poseidon decides to stop looking and just waits at Ithaca, us not knowing when that change happened. But these two lines kind of read like Poseidon talking and then Odysseus responding. Poseidon doesn't want to look for Odysseus and just waits at Ithaca, meanwhile Odysseus gets stuck for 7 years on an island that stays unknown to the outside, mortal world. He isn't sailing around anymore, being confined to land and disappearing from Poseidon's view by no longer travelling via his domain.

"You got me going around in circles in my head / The signals that we send / Electric confidence"

As Odysseus is trapped on Calypso's island, he is stuck being haunted by all his past memories. Granted during Love In Paradise while we see him being haunted by his mom, Polites, and Eurylochus, we don't see him being haunted by his crew or anyone else that Poseidon killed, but we do get things like "Every friend, I saw them die" and some lines from The Underworld where he was being haunted by his dead crew who were calling him out for what happened with Polyphemus and Poseidon. Then there's also the darker part of Odysseus being at minimum considering killing himself via jumping off of one of the cliffs on Calypso's island, leading him to die in Poseidon's waters, something that he will later refuse to do in Get In The Water.

"Push me, pull me down / Pick me up, drag me around / Parade me through the town / Fake jewelry wear me out"

I admit that this next one is a stretch, but in the songs Dangerous and Charybdis, Ody has to deal with the rough seas and the monsters that are in, being pushed, pulled, picked up, and dragged around by the waters and creatures on his way to get back home. Then at the end of Charybdis, Poseidon shows up to get in his way and, as I mentioned before, prepares to get his pride back through killing Odysseus, even wanting to humiliate him in a sense in Get In The Water by not even forcing Odysseus to do anything and just telling him "Get in the water" instead of doing anything himself, at least before the end where he does take matters into his own hands.

"Can't get enough of your drug"

Keeping this short as to not repeat myself because like I've said, Poseidon has gotten lowkey obsessed with Odysseus, feeling like he has to kill him and that forgiveness is not an option. He has looked for him, waited for him, and when Odysseus finally arrives home, Poseidon plans to kill him just to twist the knife and to make sure that nobody forgets just how powerful he is.

"I can't tell what's real or what I'm dreaming anymore / Don't know how to feel when I've felt this all before"

At the end of Get In The Water, Odysseus is once again being haunted by the voices of his fallen comrades as Poseidon is drowning him. He's slowly dying and being met with the ghosts of his loved ones who are all waiting for him. It could be him hearing voices, or it could be him actually hearing them as he starts to pass on to the underworld. And as for the second line, he has felt the kind of dying feeling before back on Calypso's island. I mean, as Jorge has confirmed Love In Paradise is where we see the truth in "I see you on the brink of death" and Get In The Water is where we get the same for "I see you draw your final breath". He has been on the brink of death before, he's just a lot closer to actually dying. And that's thanks to Poseidon.

"I can't tell what's real or what I'm dreamin' anymore / Don't know how to feel (Don't know how to feel)"

The first line is the same as the previous bit, but the don't know how to feel works with what would very surely be a whole lot of conflicting emotions that comes with him dying. Yes most of his loved ones are waiting for him in death, but like he says in 600 Strike, he can't afford to die. And also in 600 Strike we get him going from angry assuredness, knowing that he cannot allow himself to die and making sure that Poseidon can't kill him, to straight up wrath as he tortures Poseidon until he stops the storm.

"You got me going around in circles in my head / The signals that we send / Electric confidence"

As much as people hate the wind bag jetpack, that is the "canon" version of what happens in 600 Strike and Odysseus sure is zipping around literally, as well as metaphorically as stated in the previous part. Odysseus is also, again as stated previously, very confident in the fact that he won't die because he simply cannot afford that to happen.

"Push me, pull me down / Pick me up, drag me around / Parade me through the town / Fake jewelry wear me out"

Once again, wind bag jetpack. And unlike the previous times this part has come up, Odysseus is the one who will doing all of these things to Poseidon by fighting him relentlessly then torturing him for all the gods to see, decorating himself with golden ichor as he stabs Poseidon over and over again, humiliating him as he is just a man, or a monster, who is still managing to best a god.

"Can't get enough of your drug"

By the end of 600 Strike, Poseidon is begging for Odysseus to stop and asking him "After everything you've done, how will you sleep at night?". Even if he hasn't killed Odysseus like he wanted and will very likely sulk over being humiliated by a mortal, he still got Odysseus to show his philosophy is correct. In torturing Poseidon, Odysseus is doing what he has to, but what he has to do is prove Poseidon right that ruthlessness is mercy upon ourselves. And after Poseidon has gotten to see Odysseus truly embrace ruthlessness (for better or for worse), he tries to get in one last victory by trying to make Odysseus feel guilt since Ruthlessness and Get In The Water both had Odysseus trying to plead with him and appeal to his emotions, only to find that Odysseus isn't going to give him any more satisfaction, simply responding to his question with "Next to my wife". Poseidon wanted to see Odysseus destroy himself with the realization of what he just did, but Odysseus refuses to feel guilt for that, leaving Poseidon to only get seeing Odysseus embrace ruthlessness but without any additional enjoyment that would come from the annoying mortal feelings regret or remorse or anything else like that.

"I can't tell what's real or what I'm dreaming anymore / Don't know how to feel when I've felt this all before"

Finally we get to the end of the song and at this point Poseidon looks like Swiss cheese and Odysseus is planning his next war crime. Poseidon is bleeding out on a rock after a mortal he has hated for 20 years just bested him. Odysseus is returning home. They're done with each other. And yet, there's no doubt that they have forever impacted each other. Poseidon has certainly impacted Odysseus in multiple ways besides the ruthlessness he shows with the suitors (in WYFILWMA we hear the melody of Ruthlessness play during the line "Left a trail of red on every island). As for if Odysseus impacted Poseidon, we don't really know for sure because we don't see Poseidon again after 600 Strike. However, it wouldn't be impossible to think that after everything Odysseus has done, he will have at least in some way impacted Poseidon, at least for a while.

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You might be wondering what all that has to do with Odyseidon outside of just vaguely fitting their story. Well, for one, toxic yaoi. But to be more specific than that, even if the obsession (or at least it's obsessive on Poseidon's side, Odysseus is more just rightfully careful and probably traumatized), the rightful hatred, and fear they have regarding each other at various points isn't inherently shippy, when looking at all of this through that lens, the hateful chemistry that they have is palpable. And of course they do, they're the main protagonist and the basically main antagonist, it's practically the rule of good fiction for characters in that dynamic to work well together in the narrative. And when you're a person like me, I can see their dynamic as fitting a song that is comparing a toxic relationship to a drug. They work great with the trope of "enemies and lovers" and I will never not be pleased with the amount of times I've seen fics that take 600 Strike and make it hate sex. Because yes.

So yes, I know that I am insane for seeing some random song as working really well with Odyseidon, but I think that when it's all laid out like this it's pretty clear that the two of them do fit it pretty well when looking at the literal, metaphorical, and admittedly stretched interpretations of their songs. And if none of you agree then I can and will make an AMV to this whole song with them just to prove my point further.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.

[chaoticbardlady99]

Fluff of companion pairing of your choice taking care of each other after a really hard fought battle (not related to their own personal quests), maybe when one of them went down or was severely wounded. Both feeling like they aren't "enough".

Needing space from everyone else, but realizing that being near each other was still okay. Soft words, tenderness. Safety, security, wholeness.

As the World Caves In (Karlach x Shadowheart)

Author note- I’m so sorry, this has been sitting in my inbox for a hot minute but I really wanted to feel confident. I’ve only romanced Astarion, but I’ve watched quite a bit of Karlach and Shadowheart content and I’m OBSESSED WITH THEM! So I hope you enjoy :) I definitely think I didn’t go the direction you were thinking, but this just flowed better for me.

P.S. lightly edited

CW: mentions of abuse, mentions of death, fear, mentions of Astarion x Tav

Picture from Kazuliski’s YouTube video about Karlach’s dinner date.

Karlach gently strokes Shadowheart’s hair as she sleeps soundly against Karlach’s chest. Shadowheart tells her the warmth from her engine soothes her to sleep like no other herb can. She also appreciates the white noise which made Karlach laugh so hard she peed herself when Shadowheart said it initially.

Karlach wishes it would help her sleep tonight too.

It had been an incredibly difficult day at Last Light Inn- Marcus had been a surprise for all of them. Shadowheart had been the first to make contact with the monsters he brought with him. Shadowheart had frozen- in the midsts of a religious crisis- and was struck down. Three of the creatures had descended on her as she screamed for help. Karlach had killed them all in swift, swinging blows, but the damage had been done. Karlach was grateful Isobel hadn’t been taken- she isn’t sure if Shadowheart would have recovered without her.

The moment Shadowheart sat upright and gasping for air was the same moment Karlach swept her up- the two of them crying while holding one another. Karlach supposes that you don’t accidentally walk into fear- to some extent everything must have some reason. She’s decided that fear finds you, hunts you for sport, and it makes a home in your heart. Karlach never thought she would ever feel that scared again in her life after Zariel had shoved the infernal engine in her body, but all that suffering had been ripped out and put on display again the moment Shadowheart began to scream for help. It certainly hasn’t gone away since- it’s only grown and created more worries.

Karlach is suffering from her own internal chatter. Almost losing Shadowheart today made her affection for her become slightly melancholy. She realized she doesn’t want to live without Shadowheart, but she is going to have to. Karlach will be in the Fugue plane all alone while she watches Shadowheart have a life.

At the beginning of the journey, the idea of dying a free woman at the end of this giant debacle was a tolerable thought. She wants to believe that she will be able to explore with Tav, Shadowheart, and the rest of their companions after this is all over. Karlach even imagines a world where her and Shadowheart live together- going on double dates with Tav and Astarion, becoming properly reacquainted with Baldur’s Gate together, and maybe one day she could even convince Shadowheart to adopt a couple children. They could grow old together, go on dinner dates, explore the world, and just be in love for as long as the Gods would allow them to be.

Karlach isn’t that lucky though and that’s what drives the tears down her face. She stiffles the sobs in her chest as Shadowheart continues to snore- not wanting to wake up her healing Wonder Woman.

It hurts to know when this is all over that everyone else will get to move on and she will simply cease to exist. Shadowheart will move on and have a life with someone else one day- Karlach will be nothing but a distant memory.

She doesn’t want that- not even a little bit. It makes her even more angry with Gortash than she was before. He really took everything from her at the end- even her future.

Astarion and Tav sit together at the fire, talking excitedly, and as happy as Karlach is for them, she can’t help but be incredibly envious. Astarion frequently worries that his inability to be out in the sun after this will scare Tav off- at least he won’t instantaneously combust. Also Tav is half-Drow, she could probably give a shit less about being in the sun anyway.

She didn’t realize that her sobs had become more aggressive.

Karlach doesn’t want to die. She thought she lost Shadowheart today and it felt like the whole world had caved in on her. Now she has to prepare herself to look her love in the eyes one last time as she takes her last breaths too?

It’s so Gods Damn unfair it makes her chest hurt.

“Karlach?”

Shadowheart is propped up and staring up at her with concern. Karlach tries to smile and just breaks into a fit of crying again. She sits up and pulls Shadowheart into her lap- the smaller female’s face resting in the crook of Karlach’s neck.

“What’s wrong, K?” Shadowheart whispers softly while rubbing Karlach’s back.

“I- I though- I lost you and I just,” Karlach chokes on her words, “I don’t want to die, Shadowheart. I want to stay here with you and grow old and senile together.”

The silence in the air isn’t uncomfortable or daunting- it’s melancholy and pessimistic. The grief is all consuming.

“I don’t want you to die either, K,” Shadowheart says, her own tears streaming now, “I have never met someone like you and I don’t think I ever will again.”

“You will,” Karlach says with a choked laugh, “and you’ll forget all about me.”

Shadowheart has Karlach’s face in her hands and is kissing her- hard- before looking at her with the most adorable, angry face Karlach has ever seen.

“That will never happen,” Shadowheart scolds, “and don’t you ever speak those words again or I’ll- I’ll….”

Shadowheart sits and thinks for a second- looking past Karlach’s shoulder with her eyebrows furrowed before shrugging her shoulders.

“I don’t actually know what I would do, but I can and will turn you into a sheep if that’s what it takes to never hear you say that again.”

“I’ll just keep BAAING until you change me back, you know.”

“Then I suppose we’re having lamb chops one night for dinner.”

Karlach laughs loudly and Shadowheart joins in- leaning her forehead against Karlach’s. When their laughter dies down, they just sit there and breathe each other in.

Shadowheart reminds Karlach of a walk at night under a full moon, but right after it rains- when the dew makes the grass sparkle and the world looks like magic.

Shadowheart is magic. She makes Karlach feel like she could do anything. Karlach would lay her life on the line a thousand times over for Shadowheart and never regret it. Shadowheart could betray her and Karlach would still thank her for their time together. How lucky is Karlach to have a chance at love at all? Maybe that’s not worth throwing away in spite of how scared shitless she is to end up in Zariel’s hands again.

“The only way I will survive,” Karlach whispers, “is if I go back to Avernus. Wyll offered to go with me and like that’s great and all, but…. It’s- he’s not you.”

Shadowheart’s delicate, callused fingers wipe away the ghosts of Karlach’s tears before she leaves a lingering kiss on Karlach’s forehead.

“I love you, Karlach. I want you to live, but I also don’t want to take your choice from you,” Shadowheart says with conviction, “if you want to, I will go with you to Avernus and we will find a way to fix your heart. Then we can come back and be as old and senile as you want. Deal?”

It’s Karlach’s turn to surprise Shadowheart with a kiss. Her hands glide up the back of Shadowheart’s shirt and Karlach relishes in the way Shadowheart melts into her chest. Her hands glide up Karlach’s chest and over her shoulders- connecting loosely behind her neck. Shadowheart hums happily as Karlach kisses her jaw and the sensitive skin on her neck before kissing her lips again.

Karlach had sworn she would never go back to Avernus. She would never give Zariel the chance to hurt her again, but if being afraid and on the run is the price to pay for a working heart and a life with Shadowheart- well it might just be fucking worth it.

“Deal,” Karlach whispers.

[rrsolomon]

The Darkness Comes Full Circle

Hey y’all! Just wanted to pop in and say I basically took the week off to recharge and refocus. I’ve been working on Restless non-stop lately, and I honestly needed a break to breathe and clear my head.

That said, today I finally made some MAJOR progress and I’m so excited to share it. I finished Drea’s arc, Andy’s arc, AND Adam’s Vendetta arc, which feels so damn good to have done. So, I wanted to break down each one and show you what I’ve been working on!

Drea’s Arc

Drea’s arc was all about uncovering the truth. She starts off thinking Cider is nothing but a paranoid conspiracy, but the deeper she digs, the more terrifying the truth becomes. Hacking her way into Cider’s systems reveals just how dangerous they truly are. Their obsession with Adam and the flute, their plans to “activate” his abilities with the Shimmers—it’s way more than she expected.

As Drea dives into her investigation, we see her paranoia grow. Her online interactions in the dark web and deep web reveal how far Cider’s reach extends, making her feel hunted even as she hunts them. By the time she witnesses Adam’s transformation at the lake, all her doubts about Shimmers are shattered. It’s not just a theory anymore—it’s real. And it’s deadly.

Her arc ends with her making a desperate choice: reach out to Adam and warn him before it’s too late. She decides to meet him at the Black Tooth Grin bar, determined to save him from the darkness threatening to consume him. But will he listen to her, or is it already too late?

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Andy’s Arc

Andy’s arc was pure cruelty from start to finish. Driven by his obsession with revenge over the accidental death of his younger brother, Jaime Garcia, Andy spends years tormenting Adam. His sadism isn’t random—it’s a calculated response to what he sees as the ultimate injustice.

But his obsession with making Adam suffer only ends up sealing his own fate. The lake scene is the culmination of all his hatred and rage. By murdering Adam’s mother, Teressa Carter, right in front of him, Andy thinks he’s broken Adam completely. But instead, he only awakens something far worse.

Adam’s transformation into the Silver Serpent starts here. The cold, calculated way he dispatches Andy’s enforcers and taunts Andy before killing him shows that something in Adam has snapped beyond repair. Andy’s death isn’t just the end of a bully—it’s the catalyst that pushes Adam into a world of darkness he can never come back from.

Adam’s Vendetta Arc (Act III): This was the hardest arc to write, but also the most satisfying. Adam’s Vendetta arc is all about revenge and how far he’s willing to go to make Andy’s followers pay. And oh boy, does he make them pay.

It starts with Chapter 22 - Vendetta, where Adam’s spree of revenge begins. He confronts Amy Velasquez and Dan Anderson with a terrifying coldness, his actions calculated and brutal. You can see how much the Shimmer’s influence has twisted him.

Then comes Chapter 23 - An Email, where Drea finally warns Adam about Cider’s true intentions. It’s a moment of clarity, but Adam’s anger still propels him forward, ignoring the warning signs.

By the time we reach Chapter 24 - Vendetta II, Adam’s descent is almost complete. He takes down Sammy Ortiz, fully embracing the darkness within him. It’s not just about revenge anymore—it’s about losing himself to the power and the rage.

In Chapter 25 - Richard The Kid Dickinson, Adam targets the spoiled rich kid who thinks he’s untouchable. This confrontation is personal, vicious, and ugly. But Adam doesn’t care. He’s too far gone to stop now.

Chapter 26 - Anthony Lee is where Adam ties up the last loose ends. The final confrontation leaves nothing but devastation in its wake. By the end of this chapter, Adam’s transformation into the Silver Serpent is nearly complete.

And then there’s Chapter 27 - The End. This chapter absolutely wrecked me to write. Adam finds out Carry can’t have children because of his actions, and it shatters whatever humanity he had left. She leaves him, and Adam records a final video message that leaves his fate hauntingly ambiguous. Did he leave, or did he end his life? I’ll leave that for the readers to decide.

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I’m just so excited to have these arcs finally done. It feels like a massive weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I’m so damn happy with how it’s all coming together. There’s still more work to be done, but I feel like I’m on the right track.

Thanks for sticking with me through this whole process. I’ll keep y’all posted as more gets done, but for now, I’m just gonna enjoy the satisfaction of finally nailing these arcs down.

Catch you later! 🖤

[minquiec]

the ways in which you talk to me jia shows love to hb specifically

Hey god

It's me

Y'know

Again

I'm rlly going crazy w these lately and I don't Know Why but uhhmmmrhrm these were just scenarios I thought of that I think is cute so 🧍

I'm really obsessed!1!1 with this sleeping theme recently?? But anyways here we goes

Imagine if like hobie can't stand sleeping in the heat

Like he hates sleeping in hot temperatures and it drives him insane he hates it so much that it makes it hard to sleep and makes him even more restless than usual (ref my last post that I made)

and he also hates it cause he can't cling to jia as more cause EUEUUGEHH ITS TOO HOT but gf is too far ☹️☹️☹️💔💔

But anyways the scenario was he accidentally slept over at jia's and caught the summer heat in her world at it's WORST (cause I think china summers are hotter than eeenngland?? Idk it was a 2 minute google search don't trust me)

Bro was fucking going thru the motions

Actual suffering it was badddd for him and he thought it was bad back at home

And so it's like maybe 1:26 am in the morning and he's feeling way delirious and semi asleep but also not cause he feels like literal shiet with half a foot in hell

low-key sulking in his semi sleep cus it's so uncomfortable

And jia can't stand it!!! She hates seeing him so uncomfortable it makes her ☹️ awe

So what does she do except start quietly rummaging thru her drawers and closets to finddddd

A fan 🎉🎉🎉 yayyy

And if ur wondering no it's not those folding fans

IT LOOKS LIKE THIS

The design is very human, much wind very good

But anyways while he's marinating in his own sweat she also tiptoes to the bathroom to get a basin of water and a cloth

And armed with a fan and a basin she returns back to bed

And then,,,,ueueueueu UEGRHEH SNJFJEBJE

she'd start fanning him while up at 1 in the morning, occasionally swapping to the basin of water to wipe at his wayyy over heated skin like his face or back etc

(not rlly related but YKNOW WHO SHE LEARNT THIS FROM her grandma pwfhshsh y'know the ones who's DEAD cause she did the same for jia when she first arrived)

This isn't as big as the other one but it's still cute to me is she peels fruit for him

(the way she shows love is jsut very,,asian 😭😭😭)

I thought this cause to me ngl the idea of peeling fruits is soo

It's soooo

💔💔

Cause like imagine a mandarin right (or clementines or oranges idk the difference I'm not a fruit)

Usually when you peel for yourself you'd wanna remove the white fibers in between just because it's nicer to eat that way

If you were to offer bits of your mandarin to someone you're not that close to, you'd probably lowkey half ass it or even just give them half with the peel still attached 😭 (I'm jk)

BUT if it was for someone u care abt

You'd wanna put in the same effort you put into peeling as if it was for yourself

AND ITS JUST THE IDEA OF LOVING SOMEONE IN SUCH A MUNDANE AND SIMPLE WAY

I'm gone ugh

But yes jia peels fruits for hobie

That's it for now I'll probably wake up at one again some other time to add to this

[a-mess-of-a-crow]

RED MASS

This post will explain a bit about the lore of my undertale AU Red Mass.

((and long))

So. Here we go.

Red Mass is a fictional horror fan game where the war between monsters and humans has not happened yet, but it is on the edge to.

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It is a cold war, fights between smaller human and monster groups happen on the daily, humans build weapons against monsters in secret, and the fear of an attack causes monsters to try and find something stronger to defeat them instead.

Gaster, at the time a renounced scientist, a Prodigy of his time, was tasked to invent a weapon, strong enough to defeat humanity when they attacked monster kind. And after humans presumably killed his wife, he was more than willing to eradicate them all.

It has been said that when a human and a monster soul combined, they will become a god.

And so, it was Gasters mission to create this god.

But first he has to find suitable souls.

The game would have begone with the player playing frisk, a human, who was captured by Gaster for their magic, they possessed fire AND metal magic, which was something he has never experienced before. Frisk was captured as a child, but over the years grew into an adult.

They are trapped in the underground facility, forced to fight and strengthen themselves, to level up, not just their stats but also to raise their LOVE.

But at one point in the game, you switched position.

With sans (in this AU he is Gasters son), who somehow got stuck in this dilemma, with a father who is more than mentally unstable, seeking unreasonable revenge for the death of his wife.

Papyrus, his younger brother, willingly agreed to help his father achieve his dream. He becomes obsessed with gaining power and becoming the god who slaughters human kind.

In the game, as you play to try and escape, encountering horrible failed experiences, misshapen creatures, not human or monster, you discover a way out as Frisk and sans.

Throughout the endless torture, Sans has gained the ability to eat dust and souls, temporarily receiving the power of the soul he ate.

That would help him escape.

Frisk however could use sans as leverage against his father to hold him hostage and secure their own freedom.

Neither of them know that the plans wouldn't have worked. The facility is highly secured, anti-magic security embedded everywhere.

And Gaster is too cruel to let one human escape, cause a commotion and perhaps even starting the war if the humans would find out what is happening.

The game would have had multiple endings.

In the fight between them, they accidentally free the monstrous creatures that were held captive who destroy the facility, Frisk, Sans and Gaster and everyone with them. Everyone there is dead but everyone else would continue off living.

It would have been the best ending.

But that is not what happened.

Gaster has created a God. But it wasn't part of the game and that god wasn't a god that is easily influencable.

Red Mass was a God of pure determination. Who experienced FEAR and HATE.

They FEARS all the suffering and pain is could get, the consequences of their actions.

They HATES everyone responsible for its suffering. And they will make sure that there is noone left to hurt them.

In a mixture of blind rage and absolute terror, the Game was no more. But that wasn't enough.

There was nothing but HATE AND FEAR inside them.

And so one timeline after the the other dissappeared. Until there was nothing left.

No AU. Nothing.

Just a void.

Where Frisk and Sans wake up in. With nothing but confusion of how they got there.

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And that's basically the extremely cut introduction of the prequel!

And with extremely cut I mean EXTREMELY CUT.

So after that whole wacky mess, Frisk and Sans explore the Multiverse, meet other undertale AU characters, completely different Universes with their own stories to tell and people to meet.

After plenty of wandering around in the wide space of everything, Frisk decided to settle down and build themselves a home in the Anti-void. 'A canvas of infinite possibilities' they said.

Sans helped them build a city, for others who were lost without a home. Refugees, misfits and other people of all color and shape gathered to create a place to call home.

((cringe name incoming))

The city of 'Paradise' as the citizens named it, is a symbol of hope for those who try and find an answer of what they can do with their life.

It's also a place to live without discrimination or judgement. A place to gather knowledge and share it.

Of course taking care of literally millions of people isn't a job for 2 people alone.

So Sans, who has been so incredibly bored with everything and has been building little machines in his free time, decides to build some robots to help them.

And his endless creativity gave them names.

Vera, Bun, Cupcake, Celery, Zinc, Kat (Copy cat) And Shade.

((Quick description))

Vera (Aloe Vera) He takes care of the foraging and food supply

Bun (Bunny) He takes care of animals and also food supply

Cupcake He is responsible for processing the food, he is a baker

Celery She is the cook

Zinc She is responsible for constructions, science and engineering

Kat (Copy cat) She is a social worker, as her name indicates, she is actually a hive mind and has multiple bodies all working in the social aspect of the city

And Shade. He is the right hand of both Frisk and Sans, he has been programmed to help the both in improving their fighting skills, but also he is responsible for outside ordeals, such as trading with other parties

So those were like, the main side characters.

If you are STILL INTERESTED after all of this, then please leave a comment if you got questions or ask directly, but I will make more posts explaining Frisk and Sans and the main World building and what the fuck kinda bullshit this is.

Oh and why Dee is named Dee and has an obsession with rubber ducks and why Frisk hates it when Dee called them Bee.

Beedee hehe

I hope you had Fun btw :)

[the0ldmann]

My brain has decided whenever it tries to dream and Astarion is there, it is going to accidentally wake itself up with excitement.

Hello?!?! Wtf bro! This dream was your idea! The obsession was your idea! You literally have never bothered to dream about any other obsession or blorbo ever, but oh, the bland looking generic elf that happens to be a vampire catches your attention one night because you took one longer look and guess his backstory correctly, and now you act like a little school girl?? Piss off I hate you why must you make me suffer like this-

*has not been sleeping well because of Astarion brainrot*

[blueeyedrat]

Steam Next Fest, winter 2025. More comments under the cut.

Over half my list is puzzle games, as is typical. Some hits: Is This Seat Taken is a charming little logic puzzle about arranging pieces to fulfill more and more complex requirements, while AI Kill Alice is a different sort of logic puzzle about finding more and more novel ways to use the limited tools you're given. Quadphos is a nice minimalist Minesweeper-esque that ramps up in complexity nicely.

Some misses: Enlightening might be a nice sokoban if it had a better control scheme, but as is it didn't hold my interest. SpreadCheat is a game I had my eye on for a bit, but the humor became grating almost immediately and the math puzzles weren't interesting enough to overcome it.

A couple demos I played are games I first saw as prototypes of on itch.io, and it's nice to see them getting expanded on. Play Twice's demo is somewhat basic, but having already played the prototype I didn't really need the concept proven to me. Hot Wax is an arcade puzzler in the vein of Tetris; the way it iterates on the concept is very interesting, but also it screws with my Tetris instincts in every possible way and I'm still trying to wrap my head around it.

Programming puzzles have long existed on a spectrum: more mechanical (like SpaceChem, Opus Magnum, Prime Mover, or my recent obsession ABI-DOS) and more raw coding (like Shenzhen I/O, Human Resource Machine, or A=B). If you're in the mood for the latter, QuantumPulse 2A might be what you're looking for. Simple but intriguing core mechanic, with a lot of different ways to solve and optimize. In the grand tradition of Zach-likes, it's even got solitaire. What's not to like?

Another miss: Train Valley Origins feels like a slightly clunkier version of the original Train Valley; I liked the first two games and passed on the third, and I suspect I'll be passing on this one too. On the other hand, I can already see myself sinking time into Islands and Trains; it's a simple sandbox like Townscaper or Tiny Glade, but one that offers just enough options that I might accidentally lose several hours getting everything just right.

Isle of Reveries is another retro Zelda-like, and it more or less lives up to that ideal. The movement's good, the combat's fine, and the demo (consisting of an opening segment and the first dungeon) has a good variety of puzzles and tools to use, with one in particular that could make for some very interesting scenarios further down the line.

Meanwhile, Tall Trails takes the "climb everything" style defined by modern Zelda (and the games that followed in its wake, like Sable), mixes in some speedy 3D platformer movement, and turns the whole thing into a collect-a-thon. Turns out, it's a pretty fun combo! Thumbs up.

Wanderstop is… a curiosity. There are plenty of "cozy" games out there. There are plenty that are specifically about running some kind of "cozy" space, like a garden or a tea shop. There are games that function simultaneously as a space for escapism or simple routines, and as a narrative about escapism or simple routines. And, well, there's a reason for that! These ideas dovetail nicely with each other, if you can pull it off. The demo for Wanderstop only offers a small glimpse of the larger story, but the core concept (essentially, an action game protagonist suffering severe burnout and becoming stranded in the "wrong" genre) is a compelling enough hook that I'm interested to see how it plays out. The demo hits the right beats mechanically, has a lovely aesthetic, and has enough of a dev pedigree that I have high hopes for it.

[inseparabiles]

The state of our health care in this county that has apparently just abandoned everyone who can't afford private care has gotten to such levels of tea leaves reading I'm laughing about it today.

So, two of the major issues we've been dealing with for years with chronic illness is 1. a heart rate that keeps jumping sky high (120bpm) even during sleep for no reason, and 2. horrific chronic pain affecting muscles and joints.

Started taking magnesium two months ago I can't remember why, but did. There was a good reason for this because we made the conscious choice to yeet the recommended dosage after doing research on what safe doses are - considering our diet has diminished to "nothing" basically, a recommended dosage is often useless with supplements because it assumes you're a base healthy person who isn't horrifically deficient in things that are supposedly abundant in modern foods.

Magnesium turned out to be one of those that you don't really have to worry about, so, with the recommended dose being 1-2 pills a day, we sometimes took 3, and just didn't worry about it if we didn't remember how many we'd taken and just take one on top in case. Don't try this at home but we needed this supplement for ---

actually I remember why. It was the constant, nonstop tremor that we had for a month straight that was new to our symptoms and would not go away. Full-body deep-muscle shaking, all hours of the day. That was the reason.

--- but yeah don't try this at home but we had good reason to think we might be deficient and there was no harm in doing a check on if supplementing would help.

And uh. We've been taking beta blockers for five years now, for that heart rate issue that doctors looked at and went "what the fuck" over after taking 20 000 gallons of blood and 100 heart films and an xray and an MRI and having us on overnight stay hooked up to machines.

Two months of magnesium supplementation, and... we haven't needed the pills for about two weeks now. Currently trying not to obsessively take them out of fear - the issue itself is not dangerous, we won't die to having the heartbeats from hell, but with our digestion already not fucking working, taking beta blockers when they're not needed is just giving us acute gastroparesis and it is NOT fun to eat three spoonfuls of food only to feel like you've stuffed yourself with a three course meal and two desserts for three fucking hours after eating. Like imagine eating a jar of baby food and it's all sitting halfway up your throat for two hours because your stomach is so full and no I am NOT talking about reflux. Reflux, thank fucking god, is not one of the issues we have (unless we trigger it by being stupid but this applies to most people alive). Also our blood pressure is already low as it is for some fucking reason so taking a pill where not needed is like ok guess I don't have any blood pressure and also my limbs and lips are literally a strong shade of greyish blue and colder than ice. Fun!

So. Yeah. Went a full 24h the other day without a beta blocker and suffered 0 bouts of heartbeats from hell, took half a pill yesterday because it was too frightening to go out without it, woke up today (waking up is a guaranteed trigger to heartbeats from hell) and had 0 issue, ate a full fucking meal straight out of bed (eating anything meaningful to an empty stomach is a trip straight to Satan's asshole when it comes to this issue) and suffered 0 consequences and have still not taken a pill or a half of one or even sniffed in their direction after, feeling perfectly good.

Looks like we accidentally cured out heart issues while attempting to cure the fucking seizure-like tremors (which we also did cure by the way, that was absolutely a magnesium issue there). Our newbie still gets them when he's compromised (love you bud) but that's from emotions, not because of nervous system dysfunction or whatever the fuck that was all about before.

Ok so. Magnesium supplementation fixed the heart and fixed the tremors. What we have left is this oppressive, crushing muscle pain that - yes - some of it is easily explained by "things are legitimately broken" but we also get the worst fucking spasms when exposed to cold water or air that feel like a heart attack in the wrong spot on the body, that being the upper back and particularly the large shoulder muscles, and there's just no good explanation for that. Taking a muscle relaxant hurt like being torn into pieces with one of those, it's rigor mortis level shit that's happening over there. Still doesn't fit the symptoms of MS, doesn't fit the symptoms of ALS, doesn't seem to fit any other deadly and immediately concerning condition, so what it COULD be is (throws dart at wall by random) another symptom of some kind of a deficiency.

And the point I'm even writing this is that AC took to google with this thought to check what we might need to supplement besides magnesium, and the first thing that jumped out at us like a fucking punch in the face was

omega 3s

just the realisation that we were already deficient five years ago when we last supplemented

that ever since our diet has gone down to fuck nothing, and if it was bad then then right now, for the past year, we probably haven't ingested a single milligram of an o3 like from ANYTHING

googled up quickly what gives you omega3s and it made us crylaugh like ok allergic to fish. allergic to nuts. can't digest legumes. allergic to shellfish. allergic to seeds.

the only source we have for omega 3 looks to be our fucking cooking oil and butter. Let me just be really clear here: to have any chance at getting even the remotest taste of these in our diet we'd have to be drinking the cooking oil basically. Called our mum like hey do you want to throw us a penny so we can buy some supplements because uhhhhh and she googled it and was like "yikes jesus" too like

yeah no look

our eyesight is steadily getting worse again and it's BOTHERING us because it's not supposed to be doing that and some days it's fine and others it is NOT our memory is shot like a sieve and our thinking doesn't work in the slightest it's like middle stage dementia levels bad at this stage feels like our muscles don't fucking work AT ALL anymore it's just pain day in pain day out

MAYBE WE SHOULD BE EATING SOME OF THIS. Like will it cure it no it fucking won't our spine has some sort of structural joint damage that makes a grinding ass sandy noise and a slipped disc and nerve pressure and our finger joints hurt and our leg won't fucking hold our weight getting off a seat because the knee joint has busted and our shoulder is perpetually out of its socket and hurts so fucking bad but there's nothing we can do about that, but

dear fucking god

MAYBE INSTEAD OF JUST COMPLAINING ABOUT THE DIGESTIVES WE SHOULD BE MAKING SURE WE'RE NOT FUCKING DYING OF MALNUTRITION.

It's that fucking idiotic autistic thing again where every source online says "you can't physically have a deficiency this bad in a developed country but you might feel better eating supplements anyway :)" that's had us like "oh ok then :)" for years and I'm just now here like

you know when they say "you can't have a deficiency" they mean people whose stomachs.... like.... digest food

who can eat something OTHER than processed white meat and dairy

all this time the only thing we've been worrying about is our iron levels (and we should supplement that again too before it goes to time to die levels) but like

just having our environment be like "a healthy person can't have nutritional deficiencies that affect their normal life" has just processed into ok then even though "a healthy person" is NOT what we are by the LONGEST fucking shot like

yes the average person can't end up on beta blockers for a magnesium deficiency because they're eating food.

have you considered that the fact that you are NOT eating food might............ you know............................... put you in a different category

Anyway we'll go get some fish oil whenever the sun stops being a bitch outside and see if that does anything for any of our issues that might loosely be related. Worst case scenario nothing interesting happens and we'll be just as achy and fucked up as before but slightly better nutritioned. Better case scenario SOMETHING is fixed. Best case scenario we won't have to be in such ass massive amounts of pain every fucking hour of the day anymore.

Fingers crossed.

[scarlet-ancunin]

Hi! I absolutely love your desire fanfics and I was hopping you could write one for me.

The idea is that the reader and desire have been together for a while but because Desire is so obsessed with getting Dream to spill family blood, the reader starts to feel neglected. So the reader has to tell Desire that they feel abandoned.

Thank you and have a nice day/night!

Also could I be Vixen Anon?

of course Vixen Anon, here is your mini Headcanon will mix with another request from @the-masked-scorpio

Their request: Desire accidentally snapping at reader maybe desire is stressed with their siblings specifically dream and reader being the great s/o they try to be funny to cheer them up but desire tells them to shut up reader is like "right sorry I won't bother you anymore I'll be with Cain and Abel if you need me".

Gonna be depressing for a bit before better be aware.

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Please Don't Forget Me

love was all you felt for Desire, it was unconditional and you Knew Desire felt the same about you.

Everything was going well for both of you since Desire asked their sibling if she can make you immortal to remain by their side.

Death being surprised by this especially since Desire was definitely the cruelest sibling out of all of them could fall in love with anyone.

She granted their wish and they thanked her before leaving to see you once more.

Of course it everything was going beautiful and perfect for 100 years until Desire found out Dream, their older brother escaped.

Thats when they stopped talking to you for long periods of time. you felt your heart ached whenever you tried to talk to Desire and the only thing said was

"Later y/n" or "not now y/n" you looked away sadly and walked away sitting in the room once more. You wanted them to be with you why did they have to be so determined to bother their older brother.

At one point you decided maybe making Desire laugh or forget can help them not be so stressed about their mission or not focus so much on it.

Even if you can get them to laugh or smile would be enough for you. So you found Desire one day in their heart gallery pacing and thinking.

"Desire i have an idea why not just mess up dreams realm with random things like trashing the place" you grin. you proceeded to say another funny idea until Desire snapped looking at you

"Y/N SHUT UP" they said noticing you went silent quickly before looking away. "I-im sorry I'll just go i won't bother you anymore."

"Then leave your annoying me" they said turning away and picking up their twin siblings sigil as you walk away you could hear them summoning their twin sister.

You went to visit Cain and Abel for a bit their dragon playing with you but after a while you went back to the threshold you stopped from entering the heart gallery when you could hear Desire complaining about your idea being stupid and annoying "they always say stupid things instead of helping"

"Maybe it was meant to be that way to help you twin brother, they dont like you stressed" she would say sadly but listened to them complain more.

"I dont have time for games I want my big brother to know his place and trashing his Kingdom won't do that...so useless"

You felt your heart sink and unfortunately Despair could feel it strongly looking over. "What is it?" Desire asked their twin. "I thought i felt something...continue" they mumbled they knew it was you but for some reason they didn't want to see you suffer since they actually liked you.

You walked out of their threshold and into the waking world once more.

You look up seeing the clouds look just as gloomy as you felt. The first droplets of sadness against your cheek.

You started to wonder if it was the rain at this point or your own tears streaming down your face. You walked towards your home getting to your door in a soaking mess but someone met you their.

"Death? Why are you here" you asked glad it was raining because you can blame the rain for you soaked face and slightly red trimmed eyes.

"How are you doll" she asked. She helped you inside since you did buy some things to try and num the pain of missing Desire.

"I'm doing great" you said half heartedly looking at her smiling weakly. But that mask had a crack of reality the moment they mentioned Desire.

"W-we are doing great Death thanks for asking" you turned away "you can't lie to me dear we spend to much time together so i do know when your not okay. Do you want to talk about it?"

"N-no i don't" your voice cracked and your longing and anger was mixing together a perfect combination to catch a certain Endless attention.

Death looked over seeing Desire there suddenly looking at you they wasn't smiling.... No, they was smiling but it was not noticeable. "My sister we can talk later if you like I would like to spend time with Y/n."

Death nods saying of course but she heard you scoff and so did Desire who looked at you darkly for a moment and you could feel your heart beat faster and the urge was becoming stronger as you grabbed a glass cup squeezing it so tight that it cracked. Why? Why was Desire......you felt nothing but hatred in that moment, you wanted Desire to know how much you was mad at them for ignoring you, for neglecting you....for being mean and hurting you..

Your shatter the glass and it fell to the ground making you wince slightly seeing the cut on your palm.

While looking at it your tears fell once more. Suddenly their chest was pressed against your back and their hand held the one that was bleeding. They made you look at them and smile small at you.

"Im sorry y/n i didn't mean to ignore you this much or belittle you...you are important to me-"

You shoved them away "y-you have a funny way of showing it... i heard what you said how useless i am to you how much i get in the way of your stupid plans" you spat. Their eyes widen.

"I given up everything to be with you because i love you so, so much and it hurts." You said and threw a pillow at them to which they slapped away effortlessly.

"Y/n i didn't mea-" you cut them off swiftly "but you did it anyway! Why did you make me immortal so i can watch you do stupid things that can lead to something awful happening to you!"

"Why do you have to ignore me so much just because your stupid brother is free again he is stuck in his ways but that has nothing to do with you!" you shouted.

Desire agreed that Dream was stupid but he knew the situation was treading on dangerous ground. They didn't want to lose You.

Desire pulled you close suddenly and let you hit their chest crying a heartbroken cry "don't forget me please, I-i don't want to be alone a-again" you cried.

If Desire never knew what sadness felt like they did now seeing you broken like this in the edge of despair all because of them.

They felt their chest ache and they kept saying im sorry over and over making you look at them by placing their hands on your face kissing you deeply and passionately. "Shh y/n i promise i will try to be there i don't ever want you thinking i will forget you again your mine and mine alone and i want nothing more then to give you everything you long for. You are my perfect lover and i will always desire you and nothing else."

You looked at them eyes slightly puffy and sniffing your bottom lip pouting just a bit and shaking a bit.

Desire had to admit that expression was actually adorable but they decided to keep that to themself.

"I won't leave you i promise y/n....I love you so much." They said softly taking your hand in theirs.

"Come home with me...please"

"Of course my love" you said softly sniffing and rubbing yours eyes tiredly.

Desire sighs softly picking you up watching you cling to them and immediately falling asleep tiring yourself out.

"Oh my love....I will never let you cry like this again" they said returning back to their Threshold

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Taglist: @justaproudslytherpuff , @sherazyjade , @the-masked-scorpio , @sugakookieswithacupoftae16 , @happilydangerousworld , @harlekin6

[sugawaraxo]

COCKWARMING THE PRETTY SETTERS

warnings: definitely smut 

characters: tooru oikawa, tobio kageyama, kenma kozume, koshi sugawara

a/n: i’m taking request btw :) my inbox is open. also, this is kinda long so grab your popcorn haha

oikawa

 - oikawa is obsessed with you whether he wants to admit it or not

- which is wild because no one would’ve expected him to ever be more obsessed with anyone other than himself

- but here you are

- and he LOVES being around you 

- just being in your presence makes him all giddy and smiley

- though he does try to compose himself whenever you guys are around his teammates but usually fails 

-  he’s not obsessed in a weird or creepy way, but just enough for you to know that he’s all about you and only you

- and you love it

- and of course oikawa’s obsession with you rings no surprise that he’s obsessed with being inside you 

- as long as he’s close to his pretty y/n, he’s happy

the two of you had just finished a long and strenuous two rounds of sex and were more than ready for bed. but when oikawa got out of bed to get towels for the two of you to clean up with, you felt extremely empty. you were exhausted, that’s for sure. but a big part of you just wanted him filling you up again, even if nothing else happened. you pout, knowing that your attentive boyfriend would notice when he came back, which he did. 

“hm, what’s wrong pretty girl?” he asks softly as he starts to gently clean his mess off of your stomach with a warm towel. 

“i want you inside of me again.” you say in an almost whisper, a little embarrassed by the words that just left your mouth and he laughs lightly. 

“you’re so cute.” he says as he tucks a piece of hair away from your face and gives you a kiss. “but i’m so tired.” he finishes, then plops down on the bed beside you, big spooning you. 

“no, we don’t have to have sex again, i’m exhausted too. i just want you inside me.” you say shyly. you feel his dick twitch behind you and can’t help but smile a little, knowing you’re about to get what you want.

“oh, like cockwarming?” oikawa asks and you nod in response. “hm, ok. yeah, we can do that.” he smiles before kissing your forehead. he was already big spooning you so he was in the perfect position to just slip it in. he pulls down his shorts just enough so that his member could spring free, then pulls the panties that you were wearing under one of his shirts down just enough for him to have access to what he needed. he teases your folds with his tip a little bit, causing you to tense up. then he slowly pushes himself inside you, it not being too difficult with you still being wet from earlier. the two of you moan in unison, both sensitive from your previous interactions. once he’s fully in, he stays there and wraps his arm around your waist as he plants a soft kiss on your shoulder.

“does that feel good? is that ok?” he asks before pressing more soft kisses on your shoulder and your neck.

“it’s perfect.” you coo and he pulls you a little closer with the arm he had slung over your waist.

“goodnight princess.”

“goodnight oikawa.”

- you definitely have morning sex when you wake up

kageyama

- let’s be real here, he really doesn’t know what any kinks are

- he just learns what he likes and what he doesn’t like from you and waits for you to tell him if it’s a kink or not 

- you end up having to tell him that basically anything sexual can be a kink after he keeps asking you “is that a kink?” every time you two do something new in bed 

- you find his lack of knowledge on the subject adorable though, even though you constantly tease him about it 

- he honestly just goes with the flow and follows your lead in terms of sexual things

- not that he’s the submissive one, you just know more about sex so sometimes you have to give him extra guidance

- he doesn’t mind it though, he wouldn’t wanna learn it from anyone else but you

- and you just so happened to teach him his new favorite kink

you two are making out on kageyama’s bed. it starts off innocent at first but slowly progresses into a messier and more heated kiss. you’re on top of him, tugging on his hair while he grips onto your hips. you begin slowly grinding against him causing him to moan softly into your mouth. his sounds were always so pretty and always instantly made your core pulse. you continue grinding on kageyama, giving both yourself and him pleasure. but it isn’t enough. in one swift motion he flips you over so now he’s the one on top. without detaching his lips from yours, he pulls his member out of his pants and lifts up the skirt you’re wearing then slowly pulls down your underwear, revealing your wet core.

“pretty.” he mumbles before licking a teasingly slow and soft stripe up your folds. you moan at the sensation and shut your eyes in pleasure. he continues to please you with his tongue before inserting two fingers into you. it hurts a bit more than usual but you shrug it off because the pleasure outweighs the pain. he continues with this for a few minutes more before he can’t take it anymore and positions himself at your entrance. he slowly begins pushing himself in, but as soon as he’s all the way in, you yelp in pain.

“ow ow ow! stop!” you groan, and kageyama does as told.

“what’s wrong? s-should i take it out?” he asks, concern laced in his voice.

“no no, keep it in just let me adjust to it.” you say. the day before, you and kageyama had some hardcore sex. you had unintentionally somewhat intentionally made him jealous so that he would punish you, and oh that he did. but your poor pussy was suffering the consequences. 

“ok princess, i won’t move. just let me know when you’re ready.” he says softly and you smile at his sweetness. he starts kissing you again, this time more deep and passionate as opposed to the sloppy, heated kiss that got you here in the first place. you were slowly beginning to relax around your boyfriend while he was losing his mind trying not to bust inside of you. something about not moving but still being inside you, feeling you around him. the anticipation. it’s driving him crazy.

“oh no, i’m gonna cum.” he says shyly as he pulls away from the kiss and accidentally cums inside of you. he hides his face in the crook of your neck in embarrasment and you just giggle at him, as that isn’t the first time that’s happened. 

“is, is that a kink? not doing anything, just being inside you? because i think i have that kink.” he mumbles into your shoulder.

“it is actually, it’s called cockwarming.” you say as you gently stroke his hair, trying to relax your still clearly embarrassed boyfriend. 

“hm, well can we never do cockwarming again, that was embarrassing.” he sighs before finally removing his head from the crook of your neck and looking at you.

“i don’t think it was embarrassing baby, i thought it was cute. but if you don’t wanna do it again we don’t have to.” you reassure him and he blushes at your compliment.

“maybe we can do it again sometime then, but for now it’s time to get you cleaned up.” he says before picking you up over his shoulder and taking you to the bathroom. 

kenma

- anyone who knows kenma knows that he is always preoccupied with video games

- whenever he’s playing, it’s fairly difficult to get his attention

- as his girlfriend, you’ve somewhat learned to accept this, even though you would like more attention from your boyfriend

- but you take what you can get, knowing that’s just how kenma is and you wouldn’t ever wanna change him 

- but sometimes you get needy

- really needy 

- and kenma isn’t always the best at reading that

- so you take it upon yourself to get the kind of attention you’re craving from your boyfriend

kenma doesn’t really get flustered too often. but when he does, oh anyone in a ten mile radius can tell. the first time you saw him really get flustered was when he gave you his hoodie while you were out on a date. it had gotten colder than you expected so he gave you his jacket to keep you warm, and as soon as you put it on, the boy went red. he couldn’t even form coherent sentences at first and you thought it was the most hilariously adorable thing ever. ever since that day, you’ve worn his clothes whenever you wanted his attention; hoodies, sweatshirts, t-shirts, you name it. today is one of those days. kenma has been gaming all day in some sort of tournament and you’re beginning to get frustrated because of how badly you’re craving his touch, so you pull out the big guns. you put on one of his favorite hoodies, one that you’ve never worn before, and head into his gaming room. he’s sitting is his gaming chair deep in concentration, shooting at someone and talking to who you assume is kuroo on his headset. he doesn’t even notice you at first until you come sit in his lap, your legs resting on either side of his as you lay your head on his shoulder. 

“hi kitten.” he whispers away from his mic before placing a gentle kiss on your lips and you hum in response. you played with the hair at the nape of his neck for a little bit before your overwhelming feeling of neediness comes back. you lift your head from kenma’s shoulder, now somewhat blocking his view of his computer screen.

‘i want to feel you inside me’ you mouth to him. he hadn’t even realized what you were wearing until right then, and his cheeks blush bright red. he places a finger under your chin and uses it to pull you in for a kiss. “go for it.” he whispers to you as he pulls away, reverting his attention back to his game that he had forgotten about for a quick second. you easily slip his member out of the sweats he’s wearing and give it a few strokes to get him hard. you were wearing absolutely nothing under his hoodie in hopes that this would be the outcome, and when he notices that as he glances from you back to his computer screen every so often, he mumbles 

“dirty little kitten, this is exactly what you wanted hm?” 

“mhmm” you respond and he smiles.

you continue what you’re doing and position kenma’s tip at your hole before slowly sinking down on it. your breath hitches at the feeling of being filled up, while kenma clenches his eyes shut and bites his lip in order to hold back his moans. once he’s fully inside you, you lay your head on his shoulder again and just stay there.

“hm, that’s it? you just wanna cockwarm me?” kenma asks curiously. 

“mhmm. just wanted to feel you inside me, that’s it.” you say sleepily, slowly drifting as you shut your eyes. 

kenma can’t help but smile, “you’re adorable.” he says before planting a kiss on your cheek. you smile a small smile in return before dozing off on kenma’s shoulder, him still buried deep inside you. 

every so often you would move around in your sleep and kenma would have to bite his lip to hold back a moan so the friends he was playing with wouldn’t hear, but it was worth the risk because he loves just being this close to you, and you do too.

sugawara

- suga’s high sex drive really surprised you when you two first started dating

- his kinkiness surprised you too

- you thought he would always be very gentle and vanilla

- but you were very mistaken

- not that you’re complaining though

- he’s always open to trying new things

- so when you bring up the topic of cockwarming, he’s intrigued

“is that something you wanna try bunny?” he asks after you finish explaining to him what exactly cockwarming is.

“we don’t have to if you don’t want to, i just think it’d be interesting to try.” you shrug

“i agree.” he says, before leaning over to start kissing your neck. that’s your weak spot, so you take this as suga saying he wants to try right now. the two of you are currently on the couch, in the middle of watching a romcom but clearly that romcom has been forgotten as suga continues to make little love bites on your neck. you lift his chin to kiss him because you know if you don’t stop him now, he’ll cover your whole body in hickies. the kiss is soft, but passionate and you can feel yourself quite literally melting into it. somehow you end up straddling suga, still lost in the kiss. you suddenly notice a pair of familiar fingers making their way down to your most sensitive area. he teases you, rubbing his fingers over your pajama shorts, knowing you’re getting needy because of the way you’re starting to softly moan into his mouth. he takes this as a sign of you wanting more and breaks away from the kiss so he can take off your shorts and your underwear, with a little bit of help from you. once your bottom half is completely naked, he grins and begins kissing you again. the sensation of your bare core against suga’s sweatpants was teasing you, so you began moving your hips to get some friction. suga moans a little at your sudden movements and you can feel him getting harder. he pushes you up off of him slightly so that he can pull his sweats down, them ending up just hanging around his ankles. now both of your bottom halves are naked, and you’re staring at each other in anticipation.

“sit on it bunny.” suga instructs and you follow his orders, sitting down on his length and feeling every inch against your walls. that feeling when he first inserts into you will never get old. 

“mm, suga.” you moan. he instinctively thrusts after hearing your pretty noises, completely forgetting what you guys were supposed to be trying.

“no, don’t move.” you laugh at him and he blushes apologetically.

“sorry, i couldn’t help it. you’re just so pretty.” he apologizes and you melt.

“it’s ok suga, you’re adorable.” you smile. “i’m gonna turn around now, but keep you inside me and we’ll finish the movie just like this, yeah?” you say.

“yeah.” he nods in agreement. without pulling suga out of you, you turn so that you’re no longer straddling him but sitting in his lap with your back facing towards him, your face now facing the tv. you guys finish the rest of the movie exactly like this, you sitting on suga’s lap with his member deep inside of you and suga occasionally thrusting up into you just to get your reaction. 

[yanderes-galore]

I really enjoy reading your fnaf concepts :) Could I request some headcanons for Funtime Freddy?

Oh dear...Sadistic bear time.

As with all my FNAF concepts unless specified, animatronic or android, doesn't entirely matter for this concept. Different format than the other ones and I could've put more content but it'd be long. He may work well for a scenario....

Yandere! Funtime Freddy Concept

Pairing: Romantic/Platonic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Yandere behavior (somewhat), Extreme sadism, Blood mention, Death, Murderous intent, Kidnapping, Manipulation.

- Having Funtime Freddy become fixated on you at all is problematic.

- He's sadistic, and most of the time compared to other variations of Freddy, would rather see you cower under him.

- Funtime Freddy thinks your sobbing is funny!

- Your suffering is hilarious and awfully cute!

- While the robot has such a strong fixation on murder... he can't bring himself to kill you.

- Instead, he soaks in the feeling of scaring you.

- Breaking you down to the point you're trembling and bleeding.

- "THE FUN'S ONLY JUST BEGUN, FRIEND!"

- There's no remorse in him.

- While the other versions of Freddy may care somewhat about your comfort, this one does not.

- There's a certain glee he has when he traumatizes the one he's fixated on

- If something about this fixation won't let him kill you...he'll just do the next best thing!

- Meeting the sadistic bear would most likely be you being lured towards him or working maintenance.

- Bon Bon's just talking his ears off about how what he's doing isn't right!

- Not like the robot cares about what the puppet has to say.

- Not when there's the opportunity of playing with a new friend.

- "Come over here! I've got a surprise!"

- "Freddy! You should go back to your stage!"

- "Not now, Bon Bon! We've got to greet our new friend!"

- He is in no way slow burn with obsession.

- Funtime Freddy likes action.

- He's also hell-bent on pursuing you through the dark.

- You're never safe in one room, he'll find a way to catch you.

- Your attempts at escape are adorable, but he'll be annoyed sooner or later.

- "We've PLAYED tag already...Bon Bon's found you a ton in Hide & Seek, too. Let's find a new game.... You may bleed a bit for this one-!"

- No doubt when he's bored of 'playing' with you he'll trap you in his chest cavity...

- You're under his control, now.

- Wiggle too much and you just might activate his spring locks....

- "I can hear you breathing in there...."

- Bon Bon tries to calm Funtime Freddy when he gets too...rough with you.

- He's supposed to be the fail safe... which worked until you were caught the first time.

- Now Bon Bon's pleads and warnings fall on deaf ears while Funtime Freddy has his fun.

- At least Bon Bon keeps you from accidentally dying... usually.

- "I think that's enough now!"

- "Awww! But I was just starting to have fun!"

- Funtime Freddy also really likes to 'claim' it's your birthday...when it obviously is not...

- That's most likely just in his usual coding.

- Being Funtime Freddy's fixation would also make you have a high chance of...death.

- He may not mean to as it would ruin his fun, but it has a high chance of happening....

- "Hey~ Wake up! Don't tell me you've really kicked it...!"

- He has not locked you here to 'protect you'

- He's locked you here to play with.

- Even if you did escape your cage, it's temporary.

- He'll find you again, anyway.

- "I know you're in here somewhere~!"