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hauntedbydreams ¡ 16 hours ago
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imagine Vi with a gf that will do drastic things to their appearance and not mention it- like reader just shows up with new piercings, haircut, nail set etc and just plays it off to mess w/ her
"I've always had those wym?" "It was just a trim idk what you're saying"
Ok I’m obsessed w this idea bc it’s literally me, I shave and dye my hair every month and don’t realize ppl can’t recognize me when they don’t see me every few weeks, oopsi. This also ended up being very self indulgent BECAUSE I GOT A TATTOO OF VI’s NAME ON MY LOWER NAVEL 😌 I’m so down bad for her it’s not even funny (this IS a photo of MY tattoo so plz just lmk if ur gonna use it for anything)
Anyway hope u like this! (And thank u for my first Vi ask!!) requests/asks are always open!
Lil suggestive at the end but nothing too crazy I’d say…
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Vi loves that you’re so all over the place, it makes her feel like you’re always changing and it’s kinda why she fell for you in the first place.
But she was not prepared for the amount of drastic appearance changes you bombard her with on a monthly basis.
You’ll show up with a random new hair color one day, walking into the gym she works at to drop off her lunch. Just strutting into the place, so nonchalantly, like there’s absolutely nothing new when in fact your hair went from brown to black with bright green highlights.
Vi’s at the reception about to head to the back with a new client when she sees you. She doesn’t even register that it’s you at first and her jaw only drops when she does a double take.
“Hey honey” you say in your regular loving tone.
“Uhh… Hi.. uh- hi baby?” Vi’s so confused but you just look at her innocently and bat your lashes. “I brought you lunch!”
“I see that” Vi looks down at the bag you dropped on the counter and leans over to kiss you on the cheek quickly. “I also see you’ve got a new hairstyle?”
You look at her surprised, “oh this?” you’re picking up strands of hair twisting them around your fingers absentmindedly “yeah I guess…”
“You guess?!?” she stares at you incredulously “it’s quite a big change cupcake!”
You fake being hurt and pretend dramatically, placing a hand your heart “So you don’t like it?”
“No, no, no! I didn’t say that! I just meant it’s so different!” Vi’s reaching over to run her fingers through your hair “I really like it”
“It’s really not that different Vi, just added the green” you brush it off, messing with her a little.
Vi swears your hair was brown and not black but she just shrugs, “as long as you’re happy!”
Then one day you’re off work early and you walk by this piercing shop every day on your way home. You’ve got a few piercings on your ears and that one on your belly button that Vi adores, but you’ve been wanting a septum for a while.
So before you can convince yourself otherwise you’re walking out of the piercing studio with a fresh silver ring in your nose.
You walk into your apartment met with the sound of Vi playing video games on the couch. Swooping down you attempt to give her a peck on the lips while she moves her head around your figure trying to see the screen “Hi Angel… one sec I just have to pass this level, then I promise I’m all yours”
You let her be and go to quickly clean your brand new piercing before she’s done with her gaming.
Later you guys are making dinner together and Violet can’t help but notice the silver ring glittering above your top lip when it catches the light. To be fair, Vi is always staring at your lips anyway, so it’s not like she really wasn’t gonna notice a piercing right above them.
“Uhhh hey babe?”
“Yeah Vi?”
“Did you always have that septum piercing?”
“Mhm” you’re humming absentmindedly as you stir something on the stove.
Violet can’t think straight, cause is she that distracted and so down bad that she didn’t notice her beautiful girlfriend had a septum piercing?!? Or is this another one of your “what do you mean I didn’t change anything!” moments like when you showed up with dyed hair and pretended it was the exact same or when you got new nails done and told her you’d been wearing them for weeks…
She swears you messing with her like this is gonna be the death of her, but… she’d never complain.
Nothing prepares Vi for your next drastic move though, cause she goes absolutely feral when u show her the tattoo u got of her name on ur lower navel.
Oh no. You’re done for. Cause she’s almost quite literally on her knees drooling, staring up at you with big blue eyes and you know she’s about to jump your bones and never let you go.
Vi knew you were going in for a tattoo appointment that day. But what she didn’t know is that you decided to surprise her with a little “VI”, the same one she has on her face, but in ink the color of her hair. The deep fuchsia pink you love.
So when you come home from your tattoo appointment, Vi thinks you just went for the bigger piece you got on your leg. So she jumps from the couch as soon as she hears you entering your apartment “Hey! you’re back!” and she’s running down the hall kneeling at your legs, lifting your trousers to see the new piece with an excited “Lemme see!!!”
You’re just as excited and giggle while she admires the work. But you keep ur mouth shut and don’t say a word about the little surprise tattoo you have of her name just above your panty line.
“It’s so cool! I love the colors and it’s so much bigger than I thought you’d go for! I love it!” Vi’s voice pulls you out of your thoughts. “Did it hurt? You were at the studio for a while…”
“Nah it wasn’t too bad, plus the artist was so gentle and it’s not like it’s my first rodeo Vi.” You’re rolling your eyes at her concern and she’s standing back up pulling you in for a long kiss.
“I’m gonna go unwrap the tattoo foil and wash the new ink, are you ok to start dinner hon?” You yell into the kitchen as you walk toward the bathroom. “Yeah! In a minute!”
Before you’ve even finished undressing to hop in the shower, Vi’s bursting into the bathroom claiming she needs to wash her hands before cooking. (but you both know there’s a perfectly good sink in the kitchen and she just loves barging in on you in the shower).
She’s smirking as she leans on the side of the sink “Cute panties”
You look down and immediately cover your face in embarrassment realizing you’re wearing high waisted flower-patterned cottons. It’s not your usual choice and they’re kinda reserved for shark week cause you don’t think they’re cute, but it was your best option for getting a lower navel tattoo and making sure it didn’t get irritated. “Stahppp Vi, I had to wea-“ you catch yourself before you can tell Vi about the tattoo.
She’s already sauntering over to you her hands finding their place on your bare waist making you shiver. “I don’t know… I still think they’re kinda cute..” Vi trails off as her fingers dig under the band and slowly lower it.
You’re waiting in anticipation for her to notice the tattoo at any moment, and then she does.
Her eyes go wide the second she sees it. You swear you can see her brain reset to factory settings and her mind go blank.
She doesn’t know what to say or do. Sliding down to the ground, shes now on her knees in front of you, hands on your hips holding the band of your panties down with her thumbs as she just stares at the little fuchsia pink “VI” on your lower navel.
“Vi?” You try gently, dragging the word out like a question.
“Hmm?” She’s not looking at you, just staring at the tattoo of her name on your body as she swallows hard. “Fuck Angel, fuck… is that… is that my name, sweetheart?” She’s biting her lip inhaling and ur nodding a happy “mhm” down at her.
Something short circuits in her then. The way her name is permanently on your skin. The way her name on you marks you as hers. She’s breathing heavy.
She thinks she’s drooling but she doesn’t care. She’s focusing her pretty blue eyes up on you now. You cup her face and try to play it off like you usually do, teasing her with your big appearance changes, teasing her “Oh, I’ve totally always had thi-“
Before you can finish she’s up, kissing you hungrily, her hands on your waist and the side of your neck, crowding you against the sink. Your breath hitches as you notice the glimmer in her eye and you can barely contain a little gasp when Vi’s thigh slides between yours.
“Don’t bullshit me Angel, we both know you haven’t always had a tattoo of MY name-“ she’s brushing her fingers across the fresh lettering, making you wince “-especially not here of all places.”
She’s kissing your neck, sucking on the soft skin leaving marks everywhere, slowly making her way down your body. Your hands are in her hair as she reaches your navel. She’s kissing everywhere but the tattoo, stopping to say a few words in between light pecks and little kitten licks “Fuck sweetheart… mmh, I can’t believe… you, fuck… got my… name tatted… ugh.. fuck” her voice trails off sounding so thick and needy. She’s looking up at you through her lashes and you know you’re done for.
You whimper and Vi’s vision goes fuzzy. Forget the shower, forget dinner, she’s carrying you to the nearest bed… so she can look at her name on your skin while she makes you scream it.
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theroamingtrashcan ¡ 18 hours ago
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Is anyone else worried about the next LoL show? Like I know its going to be beautiful, and probably well written, but I don't know if its even going to come close to the majesty of Arcane. Specifically, the line in the teaser they dropped (that Ik is for the next season of LoL) "Piltover was a lesson" is worrying me.
What made Arcane as good as it was, to me, was the intmacy between the characters. From the sisterhood and family Jinx and Vi shared, to the random pianist who joined the war aginst Ambessa and Viktor simply because he felt he had to, to even Marcus just having a daughter. These details, that inconnected the characters, that made them feel raw and human, gave such a weight to all the death and destruction that occured throughout the show.
But, if it was all just a "lesson", what does that mean for the future? It kinda demeans what happened in Arcane in a way that worries me. Yeah, the scope of what happened is relatively small compared to the world of Runeterra, but being small is what made it good. Zeroing in on a select few characters in one city, letting them build that intimacy that was integral to the show's story. I am worried about the next show losing that and just becoming "sexy LoL characters who partake in big magic fights with cool music in the background".
Idk, I hope everyone I've seen interpert "Piltover was a lesson" as a good thing is right. I just cannot get out of my head that it is not inherently a good direction to take the series. Bigger is not always better. However, this all hinges on that teaser being connected to the next show, which I honestly cannot see how it isn't. From literally showing Mel, to name dropping Piltover, I am almost certain that this was meant to give us a taste of what coming.
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my-rose-tinted-glasses ¡ 21 hours ago
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Rose Recaps 2024 - Rose-Tinted Glasses
Post your most popular and/or favourite edit/gifset/analysis for each month (it’s okay to skip months!) @troubled-mind made her own year summary, and I wanted to play to. I want to look back and see what I did and kinda give myself a pat on the back. I've been feeling not that inspired about giffing lately so this might help.
January
Most Popular: Myungha is all of us
Favourite: The Glitch
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This one took me a long time to make but I had so much fun. It was a request and I immediately knew what I wanted it to look like, adding the red flare, but then I actually had to make it, which is when I get in trouble, because there are only so many hours in the day and I'm never happy. But I'm really happy with this one.
February
Most Popular: Is the magic gone? - Cherry Magic Thailand, EP 11
Favourite: The End
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Yes, it's Love for Love's Sake again. I adore this set. I just love how it turned out. I had a good time trying to get the look I wanted. And of course, them. I love them.
March
Most Popular: S01E06 | S02E06 | S03E06 - Young Royals
Favourite: "So, I've been searching all this time…for someone who would polish off that dish with me."
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This show changed me and healed me and it all started here. I love this show too much for words, but I did try to explain my love for it in my second favourite post from this month. It's magic.
April
Most Popular: Silent Screaming - Unknown, EP 9
Favourite: Ok this isn't exactly my post or just one but all the answers from #Rose's Day of Asks, April 2nd. It was just so much fun to go on a ask spree, and get to know some people better and get show recs and just generally interact more. It broke my brain a little but it was such a fun day for me. Also it was a fun excuse to just ask questions, because sometimes I feel awkward dropping by someone's inbox to ask some random question. May
Most Popular: Domesticity - Unknown, EP 12
Favourite: "The ocean is for contemplating things bigger than we are..."
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This is such a special set to me. I did it as a gift to the always kind @twig-tea and I love it a lot. She loves the sea and so do I, so to work with it in different shows and just look at it while I was making this set was such a treat for me as well. This was the post that started it.
June
Most Popular: Oyei & Cher - Wandee Goodday, EP 6
Favourite: The 25:00 in Akasaka running.
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This show got me so bad. This post basically started because of @lurkingshan tags on another post and then because @colourme-feral asked me about who would do the running in the inevitable running to the beloved moment. And it was fun discussion with great additions from @lurkingshan here and @emotionallychargedtowel take here.
July
Most Popular: Ayaka is in Love with Hiroko, EP1
Favourite: Zettai BL is back!!!
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I had a blast giffing this show. It was just great seeing my faves again and getting a new fave in Hatano. Many thanks to @ikeoji-subs for making it possible for us to watch it.
August
Most Popular: 'Friendship is nice, isn't it?' - I Hear the Sunspot, EP 8
Favourite: Rose Watches OJBL - The Novelist: Playback (2021)
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Never was I happier to have started the ojbl project that when I finished this series. I love it so much. And this project is dying down because I've seen most of the good ones, and will make my way through others more slowly that I had before. But this project was definitely one of my personal highlights from last year.
September
Most Popular: THE Kiss - The Time of Fever, EP 4
Favourite: 'You've grown up well, Go Hotae.'
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I am so critical of my work but damn do I love this set so much. The colours just make me so happy. And them of course. No secret that I absolutely lost my mind with them.
October
Most Popular: The amazing Nam Yoon Su - Love In The Big City, EP 1
Favourite: So I've been thinking about time.
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The day I was so smart. I was very proud of myself for figuring this out. It seems silly now, but it was driving me crazy and I felt really good when I finally cracked it. This show also occupied so much of my brain.
November
Most Popular: Parallels LITA - Love in the Air Koi, EP 1
Favourite: Love in the Big City by Sang Young Park | PART THREE
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This show gave me so much pain, but it got me doing something different. I really loved making these. And this one was the best of one. I am so rusty using photoshop that it was a challenge at first, and it took ages but it was also really fun. I love these edits a lot.
December
Most Popular: Panther Eyes - Caged Again, EP 6
Favourite: Miseinen parallels - Episode 1 | Episodes 1, 2, 4, 5, 6
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I had been paying attention to the places Jin was visiting in the first episode to spot them when they appeared again, so i was very happy when I was finally able to collect them all.
Well that's it for yearly recaps I guess. I feel like I'm getting better at this giffing thing and also writing some thoughts down, even if I still feel intimidated by some people. I had fun here last year and I hope this one continues to be great. I just need to find some inspiration and start giffing again properly. Have a wonderful year everybody! 💜
Also, if anyone wants to do this consider yourself tagged! and you can use this site where you can look for your top posts of each month.
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ask-squidbeaks-agents ¡ 2 days ago
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And the redesigns of the agents are done!! As you can see there is one new addition, a second New Agent 3 The extra info from the separate posts are all below the cut-
Captain 3
Adam joined the NSS purely because he wanted to help and be seen as useful. Not be cast aside like he was with his parents for his twin sister. Agent 4 is actually Adam's younger sister (not his twin) the pair have a funny relationship, on the surface they don't seem to get along but the pair do genuinely care for the other. As much as she annoys him, Adam adores his little sister. He has been through... a lot... His time in the Metro is probably the most traumatising both mentally and physically, due to his scaring Adam suffers from chronic pain. Generally he is able to deal with the pain- it's there but on good days he can ignore it, bad days it's hard for him to do anything. The scaring has also caused him to become visually and audibly impaired on his right side. Adam's fight style is that of punching (mainly due to his anger issues), despite his slim build he is quite strong. He works as a freelance DJ though sometimes he'll join his twin sisters rank team for the extra money. Adam is dating Agent 8, after Agent 8 confessed his feelings to him some time after Octo Expansion. Generally Adam gets along with both Neo Agent 3 and New Agent 3, they remind him a lot of himself and sisters as kids.
Agent 4
Camri is the younger sister of Captain 3, it was complete coincidence that Marie recruited her as Agent 4. Her swim form is genuinely tiny, it's unknown why but she is kinda insecure about it and doesn't like to show it off. Camri was not always arrogant and stand-offish, when she first joined she was quiet and nervous. Being around Marie allowed her to open up, becoming the Agent 4 we (annoyingly) know today. Camri's fight style isn't well known by others due to the fact she will avoid fighting if and when she can (which is ironic considering how often she tries to start fights) The reasons for this is partially because she's lazy but also because she wants to hide her actual skill and strength- she likes to remain unpredictable. Her and Agent 8 are roommates and best friends. She used to work for Grizzco (key words used to until the whole bear in space thing) but now she works along side Agent 8 for Ammo Knights. Camri and Captain 3 don't usually see eye to eye (like the fact she refuses to call him "Captain") but the pair do genuinely care for each other. Camri looks up to her older brother more than she'd like to admit. The New/Neo Agent 3's have very different opinions about her, Neo Agent 3 dislikes her- finding her arrogant and lazy but New Agent 3 admires her- wishing to be as strong and carefree. Also random fun fact- Camri is immune to hypnosis.
Agent 8
Eight comes from a large family back in Octo Canyon, he's the youngest of eight however he doesn't really remember any of his siblings- at least not faces or names. He ran away which is how he came across Captain 3 (Agent 3 at the time) and ended up in the Metro together. The Metro was traumatising for Eight but at least he had (Captain) Agent 3 (and others) with him while down there. Eight does in fact remember his name; "Octavius" however he doesn't like being called such and prefers to go by "Eight" (Captain 3 is the only one aware of his name) Eight's fight style is stealth based, he prefers to sneak and get the upper hand. Eight is roommates with Agent 4 and works for Ammo Knights. He's best friends with Agent 4 and gets along with both New Agent 3 and Neo Agent 3. Eight is dating Captain 3, he confessed his feelings about a year after Octo Expansion.
New Agent 3/Neo Agent 3
This pair were raised by Salmonids nearly their whole lives, they don't remember much from before. Runt is a smallfry who was raised along side these two (he gets his nickname from being the runt of the pack) At some point just before ROTM these three got lost during a big run, resulting in them some how ending up in the desert near the crater. They went in hoping to find temporary shelter, met Cuttlefish and well rest is history. Veronika is slightly fuzzy, having decided to completely ignore warnings and poke the fuzzy ooze. It did cause her to act a bit like a feral cat but she was able to regain control over herself. Hina and Veronika cover each others weakness in a fight, Hina is a kicker and Veronika a puncher. Hina greatly looks up to Captain 3 and Agent 8. Veronika admires Agent 4. Hina and Agent 4 do not get along for various reasons like Hina finds Agent 4 to be arrogant or the fact Agent 4 is slightly jealous over Hina having Captain 3 as a mentor (Agent 4 is scared of Captain 3 replacing her as his little sister with Hina which is nonsense btw)
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letsbealone-together ¡ 1 year ago
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Tomorrow will be my first Christmas where I won't wake up in my family home. I moved out and will just go there later.
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sonknuxadow ¡ 2 months ago
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when i watched the one about silver i could hear all 11 sonilver shippers on the planet wailing in agony in the distance
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sparklingchim ¡ 7 months ago
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#can i yap for a moment#im extremely sleepy but im feeling very upset and mad and confused#also lowkey questioning whether me feeling all that is justified or if i am overreacting#anyway#made out w a boy tonight#and he wanted to go to his place#and i was like no i wanna stay and dance with my girlies#and he gets upset??#asking why i'd kiss him if i don't wanna hook up and i said i just wanna have fun?#made me feel so stupid#that anger in me led to a little fight with another boy (who was unfortunately very cute) and i just wanted to punch him#i just hate when boys think they're so superior#so i argued with this stupid but hot man#until an ex? friend shows up and he was pretty drunk just yapping about things#anyway he basically told me he'd like to rekindle our friendship#but not in a heyy haven't talked in so long let's meet up again#it was in a heyy let's hang out again got a new big car and moved out of my parent's house 😋#which gave me the ick bc that's why we aren't friends anymore and i told him no multiple times#and got sad bc he was one of my closest friends#anyway and then we left the party#this guy pulls me aside the parking lot#and i was so embarrassed bc there were so many people and they were all looking and i could already see people gossiping about it#and i just wanted to die#and then he just CONFESSES??#gives me flowers and all which is saur saur cute#but i legit have zero feelings for him </3#and have commitment issues and have never been in a relationship and don't wanna be in one#actually grosses me out thinking about relationships </3#the confession was so random and i kinda lost another friendship? even tho i wouldn't rlly consider him a friend we just share sum classes#but yeah boys are so stupid and confusing and i dunno how and why i get myself into these situations :') m sorry just needed to rant </3
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inkz123 ¡ 2 months ago
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Drawing for @lapoiseveamel683 of their fnaf sb OC Selena🐆💕 Thank you!
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jrueships ¡ 5 months ago
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r u the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u buy whatever little thing u want as an adult and struggle with saving for the big mandatory thing,
or the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u just never buy anything small bcs u had to learn to live without it and constantly try to save for the next big thing in 500 yrs
#everyones been asking what i wanted for my bday and i always say nothing#like i hate the feeling of getting somebody smthing just to get them smthing like personally#it needs to come from the heart for me. if it's for smthing big like a bday#now like getting someone a coffee judt to get them one on a random day is dif bcs it's just smthin random on a random day i can understand#but idk like as a kid into adulthood the only bday my relatives / guardians have ever celebrated was my adopted brother's n my dad's#the dad bcs hes a hyperconservative dictator lol n the older adopted bro is cus hes got higher needs#so everybody gets more money taking care of him n stuff so u gotta act like u care abt him according to the guardians#but like i never even knew bdays were that big to people. like i mean i know OTHER PEOPLES bdays are big to them#i find ppl who rlly love their bdays to be rlly cute. like i dont think theyre selfish or make fun of em cus theyre judt having fun#n like u only get one x yr bday so have fun with it!!#but for ME? my bday was never anything special n i dont think it is now#everybody feels bad or smthing for me or for not getting me nothing today but it's like?? this is the norm??? im cool with it#ive been thinking abt other stuff like i just dont have time to think abt the pleasures rn. i have to double on the pain or smthing#like my friends always laugh abt how i dont drink coffee/tea or alcohol bcs u cant be in the medical field without a lil smn smn#& it's like idk ! i like ppl that do do that kinda stuff but like! i never grew up with that & it just feels odd to do it now kinda thing#idk im very cheap but also i will use the fact that im cheap on the small stuff to justify wanting to make a big purchase#i have a weird relationship with buying things for myself vs for others like 4 others i will buy watever u want bro#sugar papi ted#hey heres this idk insert raccoon bracelet bcs u like raccoons n love wearing bracelets so i thot of u n bought it#but if i buy smthing for me it has to have a dual purpose or smthing#i got to have a free dessert today n chose the churros over the tres leches cake slicr cus u can judt make the cake#but i dont own a deep fryer so i cant make churros n storebought churros just arent the same#like im just always idk comparing or needing to know the use of things yanno#if i do smthing. i have to see it thru. & it has to have multi purpose#i mean just look at my username jrue ships or jrue's hips like#im unwell when it comes to that#idk is anyone else like this#anyways yea this whole new thing of getting stuff on one day is hard for me like it just never matches up with my time#of course ill see stuff id like to have but like. ill just make myself forget it n by the time stuff like this rolls up it's like idk#i COULD get a new laptop but i got one that works just fine. i got an ipad on its last legs but can i still turn it on? alright
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kyouka-supremacy ¡ 8 months ago
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#Wow. Mr Ayatsuji was right#I think it's the first chapter in the entirety of bsd that ever had me go “oh” and “wow” out loud#This is so cool. I mean not much to see yet but these were all such cool plot twists#For a moment I really feared Dostoyevsky had taken over Gogol? I'm a little glad that wasn't the case poor Gogol#I suppose Bram is now like‚ dead-dead? I'm sorry. Not overly sorry but still sorry. I liked him.#Today I took lunch with a friend and she's a big jj/k fan and was talking about how everyone dies and I was like#“lmao. No one in bsd ever dies. ever”#How to be proved wrong in the span of 2 hours pfftttttt#Anyways I'm SO SO SO SO SO ////////////SO//////////// GLAD THE ACTION IS BACK AT THE AIRPORT. Ss/kk for pride month 2024 I can FEEL it#I think... Maybe? The new mega three sided singularity will create a new ability-entity. It makes sense doesn't it?#Something so powerful to create a new being. Spawning from Fukuchi's body. The dude from the season 5 finale#You know. You saw the similarities with Fukuchi. Yeah It makes sense#Next chapter is going to introduce them then show everyone at loss and desperation–#and then in the last page Akutagawa's grand entrance as being alive#I'm not even joking btw. It sounds reasonable enough. Akutagawa kinda has a thing with last pages entrances#Gotta explain the new outfit though. Something something and magical girl tranformations#Anywayssssssss good chapter. Hope the next one is going to be even better <3 (sskk 🙏) (sskk 🙏) (sskk 🙏) (sskk 🙏) (sskk 🙏) (sskk 🙏)#random rambles
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lemonthepotato ¡ 4 months ago
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Cringe warning: very bad Esperanto.
Mi povas mergi min en Esperanto čar mi ne faris multe da progreso ekde 2019. Mi kredas mi komencis lerni en 2019, sed mi rezignis dum (por?) unua jaro. Mi rezignis la hispana, la franca, la japana kaj la irlandano čar… nu, estas evidente kial. Tro da lingvoj lerni (por lerni? Lerni sentas malgxuste.)
Sed, mi restis kun la Esperanto(n?) čar gxi estas facila. Mi volas lerni lingvon por la sakeo (that’s… is that seriously the word? Sakeo? I joked once that Esperanto is 80% English words with -o and the end and 15% other languages with o- at the end, but I digress) de lerni lingvon. Homoj diras ke tio estas malbono kialo, sed, kial? Estas amuza… ne estas krimo amuziĝi.
Honeste, mi estis (estis for ‘have been?’ doesn’t feel right…) uzi Google Translate por helpi min, sed ne por lambastono. nur por kontroli se mia gramatiko estas bona. Ne estas, evidente, sed… mi estas nesekura pri gramatiko. Mi scias ke gxi ne estas bona, sed gxi estas probable pli bona ol mi sed mi ne uzis gxin.
Cxiuokaze… mi havas punkton kun ĉi tio; estas malfacila mergi en konlang! Jes, mi povus aligxi servilo de Discord, sed… la embaraso. Mi estus kiel, “Bonvolu… mi estas…” kaj havas furzo de cerba! Cerba furzo? (Googling how to stutter in Esperanto. Great.) (also I’m realising I said bonvolu instead of… oh my god? Am I seriously forgetting hello? Oh, Saluton!)
Cxu mi probable lernu la lingvon de miaj lando, la irlandano? Probable, sed honeste? Neniu parolas la irlandano en la nordo. Ili apenaŭ en la sudo. (Ne estas sude, mi ne zorgas se Google translate diras alie… ne sentas gxusta.)
Cxu mi havas punkto kun cxi tio? Ne. Sed, hej, diras al mi kiel CLAPPED mia Esperanto estas. Kaj, jes, mi eĉ ne provis traduki clapped cxar gxi estas pli amuza al ne.
Mi estas tiel malbona pri Esperanto. Mi devas fidi al tradukistoj por helpo. Mi uzas Google Translate por helpi kun tempoj kaj gramatikoj, sed la vortoj estas plejparte el mia cerbo, se tio havas sencon.
Mi ne havas kialon pri ĉi tio. Mi supozas, ke ĉi tio estas testo de miaj kapabloj. La rezultoj? Tre malbona, sed, hej, mi afiŝos ĉi tio, ĉiuokaze.
Edit: after writing this post, I got an easy, actually video about languages recommended… lol
#lemons random rants#Esperanto#conlang#conlangblr#did I mention I want to learn Toki Pona too#anyway- point is with this post- it’s hard to immerse yourself in a conlang#because podcasts in Esperanto tend to be about Esperanto- for example#I dunno.#4-5 years and I still suck#yeah I know doing one duolingo lesson a day is probably why- but you’d think I’d be somewhat good after 4-5 years#I can read basic paragraphs in Esperanto but some words fly over my head.#I could probably read and understand ‘there was a fruit that was very yellow and juicy’ but could I write that sentence? er… unlikely#I also get tio/tiu and all that jazz mixed up#same with mia/miaj/miajn and all that.#I guess it’s kinda intuitive. sometimes I look at something and think ‘this doesn’t feel right.’#I have the same problem with art where I got really discouraged because people assume I’m a beginner#I’ve done art on and off since 2018. even before that I drew a lot in 2017 and 2016.#I’m just not that good.#same with languages.#sometimes I wanna learn music too.#but I make something super generic and repetitive. and give up. because I don’t know how to structure a song.#my instinct is to just add more and more but never change the er- core… melody?#this post took 20 minutes I could’ve been working on my writing or something.#it’s not laziness. I work really hard at my writing. I just struggle to invest time in anything else because… I’m not a natural at it. also#it strangely feels like slacking off when I do anything other than write#edit or proofreading#also I’ve technically cleared the entire Esperanto course on duolingo like five times#I like skipping to all the ‘big tests’ sometimes where they don’t give hints and they’re very long#as for my Toki Pona? Even worse! I know a lot of the words but not how to structure it. suli. laso. mi. jan. a. awesi(?). kulupu. Soweli#Soweli my beloved creature. insa? look point is I know some words but not how to structure things
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tempestmothstorm ¡ 9 days ago
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Thinking about human versions of the tadc gang. I think they would work great in The Office (they would suffer immensely)
#⚠️ WARNING: me rambling into the void about the office workers theory#also thinking about what jobs they have in real life cus idk there’s a lot of weird stuff#my theory has always been that they’re just office workers at c&a and while I still think that’s true there’s like a few wrinkles about it#like I feel like if everyone was just coworkers and also remember their past lives wouldn’t they recognize the others at the circus#not even anything big like if could be their voice or random habit but who knows if the circus just erases that too and not just their names#lot even just put together that they all put on a headset for their job and that they’re all suspiciously office workers for c&a#also there’s like a couple mentions that could be interpreted either way#like gangle being a manager and zooble being a tattoo artist ‘at one point’ specifically#they could have pivoted from those jobs to the office stuff if they only did it at one point in time#but also depends on how long that would to go from one job cus of it takes years idk if zooble is old enough#also queenie being into entomology could just be her job where she was then invited to play test or she could just like bugs as a side hobby#idk a lot of things but at the same time them working the same job together just fits perfectly and also thematically#cus like the big theme is finding meaning in stagnation through connections and what fits that more than working a shitty job with friends#I’m kinda obsessed thinking about their office dynamics and how they differ in the circus#idk I have ideas I’ll get to later but for now the brainstorms shall stew#oh no this was supposed to just be a post hinting about my human designs I’m working on oh no#anyways character design is fun and I think my longer and gangle design are my favourite?? they’re the most unique I guess#well making jax a trash goblin looking guy is also unique but eh#it autocorrected kinger to longer oops#tempestmothtalk#why did I do this? idk man I need to yap somewhere
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bromcommie ¡ 1 month ago
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what if we worked as ranch hands together for decades and then you got mauled by a bear because I was drunk on the job because of the recent harrowing death of my young son and then I spent the rest of my days as a recluse taking care of you and exclusively spending my time with you while you lived on my ranch and continuously bitched at me about this bear as a metaphor for both of us getting back to living our lives and dealing with our grief. what if I finally did it by forcibly co-adopting my estranged daughter-in-law and the granddaughter I didn’t know I had with you and therein ended up experiencing the joy of family and community again. AND my up-until-recently-secret granddaughter called us two gay old cowboys to our face. and then me and her tried stealing the bear from a local zoo/circus for you but accidentally set it free instead because wink wink it’s a metaphor wink wink. what then
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aroaessidhe ¡ 10 months ago
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2024 reads / storygraph
Exit Plans for Teenage Freaks
YA contemporary + a little sff
follows a boy who suddenly finds himself able to teleport when he walks through doors, often against his will
and has to figure that out while dealing with a new crush, the end of high school and the queer club, and figuring out whether he definitely wants to train to be an ASL interpreter like his father
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girl-bateman ¡ 8 months ago
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Feeling a debilitating sense of dread and despair 🤨 Which probably means nothing😍👍
#girl help i cant get out of bed i feel so so awful for no reason at all#literally my soul is gone or something#i have no desires and no joys and no sense of being blessed#which is crazy bc i love life and im so blessed ! usually.#ig i should do something abt it tomorrow if it doesn't get better#alternatively get back into therapy bc tbh... after that horrible sex thing ive felt kinda off#like even after i was able to eat and sleep and function normally without the tremors and head jerks and whatnot#like its not dramatic anymore but i kinda feel drained of life and joy#moments of genuine happiness and fulfillment are ... ? idk. i did feel happy once this week and that was nice but it didnt last obviously#but like ! im not depressed in a depressed way. i take good care of myself and i read my books and eat food and hang out with friends#i just kinda dont recognise myself ig. i mean i know ill get my spark back but maybe i need some professional help#idk !! it kinda feels very silly tho#like ive been in and out of therapy for more than half of my life. and being one year therapy free was a big step for me !#so going back for this little ridiculous freakout feels like a setback#kinda like im making up things to be wrong with me just so that ill have someone to talk to ? or to have attention idk#it doesn't make sense bc i really was proud for getting bettter and i rly dont want to be in therapy anymore#but who knows 🤷‍♀️#there is also this slight risk. just clinically speaking by purely looking at symptoms of certain things. with no stake in the matter! lol#that there might be something bad and [lets not think too hard about it] that lies as a root cause of my little mental breakdown#like according to my sex having friends losing your virginity is awful but not THAT awful and not in THAT way#and my friend kinda said i scared her with how i was acting when i talked to her abt it. like my demeanour and body language and whatever#and i do trust her to know whats normal versus concerning when i dont have my own stable grip of reality#plus. if i was an outside party and applied my psych education on myself. i would say its not looking super good#but i cant really do that bc im not some random patient. im me myself and I 😩✋️ thank you#but whatever. itll be fine. tomorrow will be a better day ! yay !
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cutielatias ¡ 11 months ago
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I find fatal frame a little interesting cuz despise being a horror game, if we look deep into it, the games are actually about very simple and sad themes/situations(all the horror games are like that,now thinking). Even the second one that I thought it was more horror cuz of the haunted ville theme,actually is about a more deep/simple situation, after seeing a text from the director talking about the endings/characters this becomes much more obvious. I'm going to try to do a mini analysi of "what i feel the situation of the game is about" and will be interesting to see from a twin's point of view(since the whole theme of the game is about identical twins/ twin's relationship). In shorts words, is about how much society/"life" tend to want to separate twins and how this is harmful to the twins and twins itself fear this fade.
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●The ritual the ritual represents society/people's ideia(mostly adults) that the twins after reaching a certain age (adulthood(18)) they should be separated, so much so, that the people who perform the rituals are even the adults(i know i know, is because only a "wise" person would know how to make a ritual, yeah but let's forget it the horror aspect and think in a more normal way, is very specific being adults, already showing that this demanding comes mostly from a authority/the people in general), people do this believing that this will be better for the twins or somehow this is more appropriate to society's standards, with that, the ritual in the game is even something said to be done for the sake of the village and their residents, the village representing society,how for society it's best the twins being separated. The thing of "becoming one" on the ritual, is a way of saying becoming one in a way of becoming "one person", without your twin by your side/without being around your twin,but just like in the game we can see that this is not right at all and this is something that the twins themselves don't like it and try to run away, even the twins that do the ritual didn't want to do it, and the twin's that stayed/lived none of them have happy endings or lived for to long after that.
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■kiryu twins- if we seem the story in a normal way, basically, the other twin got so sad with the loss of her sister that she even got depressed and lose herself and gone crazy.
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■tachibana twins- itsuki end up feeling so guilt and sad by living without/losing his twin that he end up commiting suicide so that they could stay together again.
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■Yae and Sae-(this twins are kinda weird actually, doesn't even feel that wrong to separate they…, but fine) though we don't know much what happend with yae after she runs away, i think she didn't lived much longer after that, sae died with sadness and anger cuz of her sister breaking their promise, and yae becomes emotionless and died cuz she couldn't live with the fact that she left her sister behind.
None of them have good endings, even though it may seem like something good, live by your ownself "again" the fact of being such abrupt choice, that its not made by the twins own wish, makes very harmful.
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●Mio and Mayu feelings In the beggining it's has a flashback of mio and mayu when they were kids( i never really understand much of this flashback before, i thought it only exist to show the similarite between mio and mayu with sae and yae, but now seeing the director commentary, even this scene have way more deep meaning and very twin relatable) mayu slipped on that day on purpose(and the same happend a little with that sae)mayu always felt that mio could lived without her, and while mio was slowly leaving her behind this thoughts become bigger and bigger, making her almost suicidal, so she decided to slipped/hurt herself so that mio could pay attention to her again(i find interest on the director words he says that mio also knew that mayu did that on purpose on that day, and this is such a twin move, we can sense each other feelings, so we probably feel when one twin do something on purpose; but mio just didn't understand why mayu did that, but she feels, which is a very twin thing). both mio and mayu have the fear of losing each other or that somehow life will separate they, this is a thinking that a lot of twins really can have, since when we grow old, we end up building our own lifes,especially ordinary people, people date, have works, marriage and some even have kids, which are things that separate us, you can't always stay with your twin when you have those things (nowadays i don't have much of that fear but when i was a kid i used to think about it, but now, not much, cuz i gonna be honest, i not normal(this is very obviously), so i probably wont have an ordinary life, and i don't feel me and ana's paths are much different from each other, so we probably will always stick and stay together)but for ordinary twins this probably a thinking. the meaning of mio and mayu journey is very relatable to that feeling.
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●Final now we get to the end (or the conclusion or final message of the game, I think) it's difficult to say whats the game wants to say or express (because i think just like anything, its depends on the point of view),but I think the game just portrays a twin connection/relationship, and shows how the twin's bond is so strong to the point that not even a ritual where the twins kill and hurt the other, the twins will never stop to love each other, and it's also shows how it's a beautiful connection but at the same time there's a suffering and melancholic on it; the part of people wanting to separate them and the fear of the twins themselves if one day this happens and how the twins almost cannot live without each other (they can live, but it will be an empty and depress life), and how the idea of ​​separation is something painful for the twins, so much so that in the end where we kill mayu, I feel that the reason why mayu/sae wanting to kill themselves /do the ritual so much, comes from the feeling of both of them being afraid of their twins leaving them(a bit possessive…but ok~) but at the same time they know that this can happens and that it's also wrong to not let the other twin live their life, so they prefer to die, so that they don't see them and their twins separating cuz for them this is more painful than die, but at the same time also letting the other twin live their own life/"be free".
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