#such a random thing but it feels kinda big

[buntanteen]

svt fic recs list <3 - svt 10 year anniversary: mingyu - sfw & nsfw

summary: 10 sfw & 10 nsfw mingyu reader insert fics :)

contains: 18+ nsfw (mdni!!) majority is afab reader

✩ svt writing & fic rec masterlist ✩

✩ sfw section ✩

1. ❥ boy best friend!mingyu - @xinganhao

BESTIE MINGYU?!!?! IN LOVE WITH READER?!?!? THE YEARNING AND PINING AND DENIAL!?!?! THE PRETTY PICS HE SENDS AHHHHH

2. ❥ keeping score - @studioeisa

oh don't mind me~ just enjoying the bickering between gyu and reader heheh

3. ❥ just a roommate thing - @wheeboo

PERFECT FLIRTY CARING COOKING ROOMIE MINGYU?!?? THE FAKE DATING WITH SEOKMIN!?!?! THE JEALOUSY?!?! THE CONFESSION!!?!?! AHHH

4. ❥ trial and error - @leejungchans

he's SOOOOOOOOOOOO shy sOOOOOOOOOO lovesick puppy and he's trying sOOOOOO hard to ask reader on a date :,)

5. ❥ kissing his moles - @orikiys

i would be MELTINGGGG at this affectionnnn :,)))

6. ❥ local lover boy - @cheolism-archive

oh dear, i hope someone would care for me like this :,) and i hope someone is taking care of gyu like this :,) he's sooooo lover boy~

7. ❥ random kim mingyu bf texts (suggestive)- @woozivrsefactry

he's sOOOOOOOOO dramatic (i like it fdkjbfdk)

8. ❥ mingyu bf habits - @odxrilove

THE FIRST ONE IS SOOOOOO TARGETED FOR ME AH (someone take good gf photos of me PLSSS) AND THE HIDING BEHIND READER?!? BRO YOU'RE GONNA GET BACK ACHES FROM THAT I'M SHORT AF DKJFGDB

9. ❥ weekend getaway  - @suhnshinehaos

OMG THE CONCEPT AND EXECUTION OF SAID CONCEPT?!?! I'M IN LOVEEEEE (the members' commentary jkdgbfd)

10. ❥ mingyu caring for a sick reader - @cxffecoupx

as someone who has been feeling a bit physically down lately, this is exactlyyyy the kind of person i need AH

✩ nsfw section ✩

1. ❥ titty obsessed mingyu - @monamipencil

get me a boy obssessed with my chest as much as gyu is in this!?! holy shit

2. ❥ angel - @toruro

AHHHHHHHH THE PET NAME ANGEL NEVER FAILS TO MAKE ME FEEL SOME KINDA WAYYY

3. ❥ the secrets kept from roommates - @cheolism-archive

BOTH reader and gyu being SOOOO perverted (matching each others' freakkkk)

4. ❥ begging on his knees - @pochaccoups

on his knees???? exactly where mingyu should be hehe (ALSOOOOO puppy subby!gyu?!! AHH)

5. ❥ big dick! gyu - @svtswhorehouse

BIG DICK MINGYU LET'S GOOOOO

6. ❥ pillow princess - @catboyieejeno

pillow princess to his service top hehehehe

7. ❥ soft sex before bed - @nsfwhao

he's soooo sweet and soft and ARJGHKVFSB

8. ❥ Ways to have a man at the palm of your hand - @hoshifighting

OOOOOOOOOOH THE GAME THAT READER IS PLAYING WITH GYU (thank u kwannnie~) and the begggging!?!? teeheee

9. ❥ dilf neighbor! mingyu - @monamipencil

dilf mingyu....omfgggggggggggggggg

10. ❥ olderbf! mingyu x college student! reader (f) - @cherriicou

he would be like THEEEEEE perfect older boyfriend omfg

[yuh13lo]

Fresh Out the Rollers

(I love my rollers so much)

Chris Sturniolo wasn’t supposed to be at this party. Not really. He had a game the next day, a pretty big one, and his coach would be on him if he showed up to practice hungover. But Chris Sturniolo didn’t really do what he was supposed to do. Not when it came to parties. Or girls. Or anything that didn’t involve hockey and vibing.

The frat house was already packed when he strolled in, wearing grey washed out jeans, a black tee that read “pirate girl” , and some Jordan’s.

Classic Chris. Always too loud, too confident, and somehow too charming for anyone to care.

Across the house, tucked between a potted plant with duct tape holding it together and a couch that had definitely seen one too many bad decisions, she stood like a pastel daydream.

Fresh curls bounced as she turned her head. Her hair looked like it had been done in rollers and let out just an hour ago. Glossy, soft. She wore a pastel yellow babydoll dress that floated around her thighs like sunlight. She didn’t belong here. At least, not in the same way everyone else did.

Chris noticed her right away. Not because she was the loudest, or the hottest—though, damn, she was stunning—but because she wasn’t trying. She wasn’t plastered to some guy’s side, wasn’t screeching at the top of her lungs with a White Claw in hand. She was sipping a soda from a red solo cup and looking around like she was trying to find the emergency exit.

He pointed to his chest, grinned at his boys, and said, “Hold my drink.”

They groaned. “Chris, don’t ruin her.”

“Ruin her?” Chris raised an eyebrow. “I’m about to discover her.”

He walked over, his Jordan’s squeaking on the sticky floor. “You look like you fell out of a 70s love song,” he said, stopping a step away from her. “In a good way. Like a—what’s it called—vintage angel or something.”

She blinked. “That’s… creative.”

Chris clutched his chest. “Ouch. You wound me.”

She smiled a little, then tilted her head. “You don’t know what I mean, do you?”

“Not a clue. But I like the way you say things.” He looked her up and down—more curious than flirty now. “You always dress like sunshine, or is today just special?”

She looked down at her dress, hands smoothing the skirt. “I just like color. Everything else feels too… grey.”

Chris nodded slowly. “Color’s good. I wear a lot of it too. Not pastel, though. This is new. I like it.”

“You don’t look like the type to like anything that isn’t in a locker room or a solo cup.”

He laughed, loud and genuine. “You got me there.”

She arched a brow. “You play something?”

“Hockey. Forward. Number 11.” He shrugged like it wasn’t a big deal, even though the entire campus knew who he was.

“Of course you do.” She didn’t mean it unkindly. “You give off… I-don’t-do-my-own-laundry energy.”

Chris gasped. “Rude and accurate.”

There was a pause. She sipped her drink. He leaned against the wall.

“What’s your name?” he asked, quieter now.

She told him.

“Pretty,” he said. “Unique. Kinda like you.”

She raised a brow again, half teasing. “You practice these lines?”

“I don’t have to,” he said, smugly. “They just come to me.”

She snorted, shaking her head. Her curls bounced again. He stared at them like he’d never seen hair before.

“You’re really staring,” she said.

“Can’t help it,” he admitted. “Your hair looks like it smells like peaches or something.”

She tilted her head, almost suspicious. “It does.”

“I knew it.” He grinned, victorious.

“I’m not sleeping with you,” she said bluntly, eyes twinkling.

“I didn’t ask.” He lifted his hands in mock surrender. “I’m just… vibing.”

She laughed. “You’re really something, Chris.”

He looked at her with something unfamiliar in his usually cocky expression—something closer to curiosity than conquest. “Do you like the Beatles?” he asked suddenly, trying to impress her with something random and old-school.

She blinked. “Yes. Why?”

“I figured. You give off Beatles energy.”

She leaned in a little. “What’s your favorite song?”

Chris froze.

She waited.

“I… don’t actually know any,” he admitted.

Her jaw dropped. “You’ve never listened to the Beatles?”

“I know they’re, like… old? British?”

She stared at him, equal parts horrified and amused. “You uncultured menace.”

Chris grinned. “And yet, you’re still talking to me.”

“Because you’re weirdly charming.”

“I get that a lot.”

They talked for another hour. She told him about her vintage obsession, her part-time job at a flower shop, how she collected old records and had a cat named Bowie.

He didn’t even pretend to know who David Bowie was.

But he listened.

He really listened.

And she noticed.

When the party shifted, music getting louder and bodies starting to press too close, he leaned in and said, “Wanna get out of here?”

She eyed him. “You said you weren’t trying anything.”

“I’m not,” he said honestly. “There’s a late-night diner two blocks away. I just wanna talk more. And maybe try a milkshake.”

She hesitated for a second, then nodded. “Okay. But I’m picking the flavor.”

Chris beamed like he’d just scored the game-winning goal.

As they stepped out into the cool night, his arm bumped against hers, and he didn’t try to lace their fingers together or make a move. He just walked beside her, bright and loud in his wild shirt and ridiculous jordans, and looked at her like she was the most interesting thing he’d ever seen.

Because maybe, in all his frat boy chaos and hockey glory, she was.

And she, in her sunshine dress and peach-scented curls, found herself smiling more than she had in a while.

Maybe frat boys weren’t all bad.

Maybe this one was just weird enough to be real.

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[dandysworld-meh-imagines]

hi hi! My first time ever requested for something so pls bear with me lol,

May I request some romantic hcs for poly partyberry ( looey and sprout ) with reader?

thank you !!

Poly Headcanons About Sprout And Looey With The Reader!

You are doing great, dear anon!! But yes, you may! I know someone who will eat this up like no tomorrow and they know who they are, hehehe, here you go, dear anon, thank you for requesting! <3

I need sleep sobs

-Anna

-Now this is an interesting dynamic! Sprout is protective over the two of you and makes sure to take care of you two as best as he can and Looey is this kinda shy mess that really tries his best. Every day is interesting with those two as Sprout always makes sure you two are feeling well and likes to make you two food he knows you will like! Looey always likes to bring a smile to your faces and he does that through his circus shows or even by simple jokes and random tricks up his sleeves like juggling, as an example! And then, there was you, who was in the middle of all of this.

-Sprout always made sure everyone ate for the day but it's kinda double the amount when it comes to you two and his best friend, Cosmo. He likes to make sure you are all fed well and have the energy to function for the day. While Sprout is not the forcing type, he does encourage you two a lot to eat when you haven't, he is a concerned boy who just wants the best for you two. If you don't feel like eating, that's alright with him, just please tell him later on to make you something to your liking! Even eating something light is fine with him. Sprout will always remind you two if you have forgotten about it.

-Looey is more shy but he really likes it when he sees a smile either on you or Sprout or even the both of you! You two actually help boost his confidence when it comes to the performances he puts on with his friends. You two are a big reason why he does super well, yes, he is more flustered but pretty happy as well. When he sees you two smiling at him or even the compliments he receives from you two afterwards? His tail is wagging as he feels his cheeks red and his heart racing! He is pretty proud of himself for making his lovers this glad and happy, it's something that makes him feel more happier and confident, not a lot but it's definitely noticable.

-The dynamic with you three is also a nice sight to witness! Sprout's protective nature shows and he loves to make sure you two are always okay and if not, please don't hesitate to let him know if something is wrong! Sprout wouldn't really get mad at you or Looey, he is determined to find a solution and take care of you as best as he can, offering things here and there for you or Looey to feel better. Cuddles? Kisses? Soft words? Advice? You got it! Looey likes to be there quietly instead if you or Sprout have a hard time and you three take care of each other in your own ways!

-Speaking of affection, Sprout probably gives most of it! Looey is more shy and prefers taking his time and Sprout loves to show you two how much you truly mean to him. Sprout can get shy himself but he definitely likes taking the first moves and gently stroking your heads or even leaving quick peck kisses here and there. Try to show him affection back and Sprout feels himself getting flustered as he is laughing softly at your affection, it definitely makes him feel more warm and fuzzy inside though! Looey gets more flustered easily but that doesn't mean he doesn't lean towards you or Sprout happily!

-Since you and Sprout come to Looey's circus shows, you and Looey also show your support by visiting Sprout in the kitchen when he is cooking or baking some delicious sweets! He really appreciates it when you two sit down to help him and Cosmo and he loves to make a bit more extra just to give it to you two as a thanks for all the help. Sprout is also big on the praises and even helps guide you two to what to do next this and that in this firm yet gentle voice of his. Cooking or baking with him is really fun! Looey worries if he is doing a good job and Sprout loves to say yes and even guide him and even you if you are struggling! It can be chaotic, yes, but it's fun!

-Cuddling or even sleeping at night all together, snuggling up to each other like this is also something really nice. Sprout loves to be the big spoon as he tries wrapping his arms around the two of you or even resting his hand somewhere like your backs or shoulders, just a nice warmth that reminds you that he is always there for you. Looey gets flustered with the whole thing and might even overheat a little, just take it slow with him and he'll probably be good enough to show some shy affection back! His hands sweat and he is nervous and his tail is wagging lowly, reassure him gently if possible!

-It's also pretty funny how Sprout's kisses can be a little rough but he also means well. He just loves watching the two of you get flustered just by kissing you, either on your faces, everywhere else he can kiss and especially your lips! Looey, like said before, is more shy and needs time but you can't lie, when he leans into the side of your head or does something simple like squeezing your or Sprout's hand, it's something that makes you two melt since Looey usually hides his face, curls up somewhere when flustered and this and that. So moments like these are rare but so worth it to see!

-You know you can count on them for anything and know that they also have your side with anything you want to do! Those two support you through it all and love to show you in their own ways, whether it's Sprout praising you or Looey making sure to make you smile as you giggle! You can always lean back on your boyfriends for everything and you know they'll be right by your side, helping ground you if you feel nervous or this and that or even physical touches that help keep you calm (or them using their words if physical touch is something you don't really like/are comfortable with).

-Overall, it's all pretty wholesome and those two are happier than ever to be with you. Since both of them are quite tall, you like to compare your height with them for fun and they think it's cute! Sprout often gives you cupcakes to both you and Looey and Looey likes to make you smile at least once a day! Those two love each other and you so much and they are very happy in this relationship! They can't wait to see what the future has for them but as long as you three are together and always cheering and supporting each other like that, they feel like everything will always be okay.

Thank you for reading! <3

[sunanthrope]

Species euphoria things idk

My types: Zombie, Belgian Malinois, Centipede, Raven-Hearted, Wolf-hearted

Below cut as its long as hell

My legs fall asleep very easily due to physical disabilities and as much as I despise the pins and needles feeling with every bone in my body. It's very zombie.

I fucking love metal and the scream vocals always give me such zombie euphoria both to perform and listen to

On that note I'm working on writing a song in German (called Untoter Tier or Undead Animal) and there's a vocal in it that mixes scream and barking. Very cool and swag. Both zombie and dog euphoria and it's basically about therian rage and species dysphoria

My everyday makeup is sunken purpley eyes with red underneath. And nothing else. I look very pale and washed out (anemia and outside is scary) and I've got acne so I look dead lol. I've had people ask if I'm sick. It's inspired by tuberculosis (/hj)

Also acne in general? Idk very zombie vibes. I'm self conscious of it but thinking about it in a zombie way makes me happier about it. Same with my teeth which are jacked as hell, I can't even close my mouth all the way without pain and struggle. Fuck my stupid puppy life

Black nails too. Just nonhuman euphoria in general

My mohawk

My arms don't swing when I walk like a normal person's does? Idk why? They just dangle. Zombie vibes

I grind my teeth back and forth a lot because I like the clicky sound. I do it constantly. I might need a bite guard. It reminds me of those zombies in World War Z

I'm in pain all the goddamn time and that's pretty zombie. Again I hate it but it also gives me zombie euphoria

I jingle when I walk and not only is that very dog but for some reason also very zombie? No idea why

People are kinda intimidated by me in public because I have a Mohawk and my makeup makes me look dead and I'm covered in leather and spikes and chains and. That's zombie too

The smell of roadkill. It's very common where I live as people don't watch where they drive and animals don't watch where they go. Idk it's very strange but. I honestly really like the smell of rotting meat

My collection of dead things and taxidermy as well. I've got a dried/mummified beetle, mouse skulls from owl pellets, a rat skull I found on our front porch, a squirrel tail that hangs on my wallet, a snakeskin that's over a decade old

Other things I have like my brain shaped stress ball, my spider and eyeball rings, my tails, my collection of stuff I find on the ground, my dried shelf mushrooms, an old petri dish that's grown its own mold ecosystem, my monster cans

Basically I'm just kind of fucking strange and that's zombie of me idk

Sniff. Sniff sniff. Sniffing both in and out to make that dog sniffing sound. It's a stim I do a lot, it's how I smell things in general. Most people inhale but I inhale and exhale rapidly. It actually does help me smell it better thanks for asking

Beef jerkey oh my God. Everything euphoria. Flesh vibes for zombie, meat snacks for dog, even rotting vibes for centipede.

I like chewing on things and I always have. Very zombie and dog

I like when my mom gives me a bowl of cheese cubes and peanut butter crackers unprompted. She knows I'm a therian (She's a fox) and she does stuff all the time to validate me and I think thats cool of her :]

I love my dog toys so much. I have a spikey ball that lights up, a squeaky purple duck, and a squeaky giraffe with crinkly ears

Collar collection <3 my favorite is my spiked collar. The spikes are uneven and honestly I might lean into that and add even more spikes and make it even more random.

I also really love my cattle dog collar, it's way too big so it's more of a decoration, but I did have it on the collar of my battle jacket for a long time. Very long and sharp spikes

I also love my battle jacket for dog and zombie reasons. Zombie outbreak response k9 patch is all I need and more. It even velcroes on and off <3

Big stompy boots!!! They also make me taller and. I need all the height I can get. It's a struggle

Everything about my vibe also makes me feel super centipede. Spikes, leather, black, jewelry, even the makeup gives bitten by venomous centipede vibes. Fuck

I stay up late as hell. Fits because both zombies and houss centipedes are seen as nocturnal, even though I'll admit I LOVE the daytime more than anything good God. Twilight time is best time. Still light out but not boiling hot

Bleeding hearts of the world unite this was long

[letsbealone-together]

Tomorrow will be my first Christmas where I won't wake up in my family home. I moved out and will just go there later.

[gr33nish]

so i decided im gonna share some of my stranger things rants/random thoughts/headcanons i share with my friend (she's a saint) here as well just cause i can eheh

. . .

so here's a thought i had recently:

i was thinking about found family and how in fanfics they make the stranger thing gang usually closer then actually are in canon (which i love dont get me wrong) but i think they act a lot more like a real big extended family (shoutout to my 20 second-cousins who i never see) like

'we only talk to each other if nana is dying (upside down shit) and at christmas maybe'

and they are all messy af and weird like real extended family like:

yeah this is uncle steve he's going through his third divorce

this is my cousin dustin, he's my favorite, dont tell him his ego is already big enough

this is great aunt joyce she's always talking about crazy things and somehow she's always right, love the woman

this my cousin eddie, he went to prison once, we dont talk about that

this is my cousin max, she and her boyfriend break up like 60 times a year

this is uncle billy, he goes to anger management therapy mandated by the state

this is my second-cousin mike, i hate him but mom says i have to talk to him at easter lunch

do you rember when we told you great uncle jim died? yeah actually he faked his death for tax reasons and he's back now!

. . .

so yeah just some of my 2am rumbling thoughts about ST hope u enjoyed

[sparklingchim]

[sonknuxadow]

when i watched the one about silver i could hear all 11 sonilver shippers on the planet wailing in agony in the distance

[inkz123]

Drawing for @lapoiseveamel683 of their fnaf sb OC Selena🐆💕 Thank you!

[leatherbookmark]

read this article and holy shit there must be something in people who are on twitter that makes them go crazy go insane at the smallest most eh whatever thing. sure yeah there's this invisible maybe not pressure but surely temptation to be one of the cool kids and always have a snarky one-tweet response to everything, but it's not all. there's also... i don't know, siege mentality?

everyone has those snarky responses, and they appear on top of a quoted tweet instead of below it, so at least visually you're taking control of the "narrative", making your comment more important than the original tweet, and if the original tweet is the first part of a thread, chances are most people won't even click through to read it -- they just read the clapback, nod in approval and move on. on top of that, there's such a fuckton of accounts -- sometimes you see a dumbass tweet and it's already got 5k retweets, how is that possible? so maybe it makes everyone automatically convinced that they're surrounded by haters? and if they don't Speak Up, they'll get eaten?

but at the same time man. adult professional writers. not teenagers. adult. professional. writers.

[fisheadz]

Yapping about a couple of my many ISM AU iterations, this time Rainbow flavored! And Desmond flavored but that’s a fucking given at this point. I’m super tired and it’s super late so this is either gonna be downright incoherent or the most in-depth analysis I’ve ever written. We’ll see.

Rainbow is VERY sentient and freethinking, compared to the other Shadows. He can hop around tapes with Desmond, he can ALTER other tapes, he can speak to Desmond through the fucking MOON, even after being defeated (I say “defeated” like it means anything) and weakened. He has opinions outside of Desmond’s negativity, he implies that he has his own, inaccessible area that he calls Desmond from, he SEEMINGLY knows things about the patients and even Desmond that Des himself doesn’t know.

I could go on and on with these examples, but overall Rainbow is a very clear anomaly within the limited lore we’re given. He takes the form of a government agent, he’s presented as the personification of a chemical-weapon drug, and clearly he knows that he’s a part of Desmond, that Desmond is a part of him, despite all the talk about being completely different from Desmond even though that’s not entirely true, with the two actually sharing a lot of similarities.

(Another thing that separates him from the other Shadows, since while they can sometimes be very close in, well, negative personality to the others, Rainbow actually has some interests that align with Desmond’s, like music and art (although he’s much better at that last one than Des is. Sorry Des))

Obviously, we only have so much canon to speculate with, with the lore being very open to interpretation. I’ve heard talk of a sequel, and while I’m crossing my fingers so hard I don’t think they’ll ever uncross again, I don’t think we’ll get one any time soon, if at all! So until we hear more about a planned sequel, all we got is, well, what we got. So I’m running with it, as I do.

Rainbow was always a part of Desmond. That’s very clear, even stated by Rainbow himself. The Shadows were ALWAYS apart of the patients. Lucas mentions seeing something VERY similar in description to the Shade, even though this must’ve been while Allen was much younger. Allen dreams (“dreams”. Even Allen wasn’t sure if it was a dream or not) of Virginia killing herself before attacking him, before she kills herself for real. Lucas saw his own Flash during his visit to the Collective(?). Max witnessed something similar to the Shade that also physically affected his truck (more on that later, in another ramble post).

And then there’s the Rorschach test results. They all saw their own Shadows, and things relating to both their Shadows and themselves. Allen sees a ship in a storm, Max sees a crying baby, things like that, and they all feel something strange when seeing their Shadows. Virginia feels powerful, Allen feels weird, Max almost sounds amused, and Lucas felt uneasy (likely because he’s seen it before).

We never get to see what DESMOND sees, though. Would he have seen himself? A mysterious figure? Something along those lines? For the other images, would he have seen a cat? A patient? Something relating to his profession? We also see his file, that he wrote about himself, but by the end it sort of just becomes him questioning his morality, and it’s clearly rather satire to begin with. We don’t see an actual analysis on him because as he says himself, the self analysis was fueled by beer and exhaustion. And grief as well, most likely. We never see an actual file for him, so we don’t know what would form his Shadow the way it was formed, like with the others.

All in all, it seems like they were being purposefully vague about what made Rainbow the way he is. Desmond says that some things are best left in the past, about his history. It’s said by Rainbow that his parents pushed him to be a doctor, but he seems to have been okay with being a therapist before Mayer. Rainbow also talks sometimes about Desmond being kicked out of the building, all of which were joking but maybe he was having trouble keeping his apartment. He took a karate lesson in college, he’s not good at throwing things, he dislikes pineapples for some reason. There’s implications, but it’s not very telling about Desmond himself; more like what Rainbow thinks would best degrade his mental health.

The most backstory we get on him is that his girlfriend broke up with him (soon before the events of the game) and how he ended up taking in Tonia (and how she died). I’m working on getting more voice lines from Rainbow and Tonia that could hopefully reveal more about him, maybe during the boss fight, but I don’t have very much.

(I wanna note that the paintings in his bedroom remain the same, instead of changing when you look away. There’s ones for Ginny, Allen, Max and Lucas, as well as a plant and a desk. He really surrounded his life around them, and his work, especially when they died/got hurt. I thought it was a really fun detail)

All of this to ask: what the hell is wrong with Rainbow? Why is he the way he is? He seemingly has some semblance of control over the Collective, and he has knowledge that Desmond himself doesn’t, so he must be very powerful in some sense. I doubt it’s because of Desmond’s knowledge and experience with getting into people’s heads, it’s not like every therapist can do what he does in the game. Probably.

It could be the strain of AR that they dosed him with the put him out of the picture, which is the one I like most, but that also poses more questions about why him, why at that time, how were they planning on covering it up, etc. It’s not like people just randomly go brain dead in their offices like Rainbow implied he would, and there would be a lot of evidence left behind, since they evidently just left him there for Lucas to find. Maybe they were staging it as a suicide, which maybe wouldn’t be a super far-off assumption with what we do know, but there’s still too many holes in that story.

You could argue that Mayer is pretty fucking stupid sometimes, but that’s no fun. Too realistic for my liking. So, I have, like, three versions of what’s basically the same AU in spirit.

Rainbow is a targeting, airborne parasite that Mayer was trying to use to sorta brainwash Desmond, and the plan went bottom-up. This would mean that Desmond’s Shadow IS still in there, that or Rainbow merged with it which would make more sense. Something I’ve always wondered about was the fact that Desmond never got past the In Between. He enters and exits, but he never reaches the tape. Rainbow forces the fight to happen in the Between, and maybe he stopped Desmond from going into the tape since he clearly still had quite a bit of power after being beat.

Another version that’s along those lines is that Rainbow is an actual government agent, sent into the CU to take out Desmond since he was clearly getting too close to the problem. A thought I have is that during the meeting where Rosemary was found to be the whistleblower, they mentioned that they were going to kill Desmond, and that’s why Lucas was so frantic in his call to him. He’d just lost Rose, and he was about to lose Desmond too. He couldn’t just go over and check on him, because Desmond still didn’t quite believe it all, so he was between a rock and a hard place. There’s a lot I could say about this, but that’s for another time.

So they dosed Desmond with the special strain of AR, and Rainbow (quote-unquote) entered from somewhere else. At first his plan was to keep Desmond in the basement until he died, but when Desmond proved to be more stubborn than that (again, there’s a lot I could say about how he was able to push past the effects, but not rn) he realized that Desmond dying in a tape wouldn’t yield the same effect that his higher-ups wanted, so he makes sure Desmond stays alive whilst whittling down his mental health.

He stopped Des from fully entering his own tape at the beginning, so that he couldn’t luck his way into figuring things out. In the end, with Des weakened and Rainbow getting stronger by the minute, he decided to give Des his OWN tape, where he’d be strongest. He made the fight happen in the In Between because Desmond wouldn’t be able to move around freely (the anti-gravity is fun but would probs be very nauseating in person, just jumping from floating island to floating island). He fails, but he’s still in the CU, hence his appearance in the moon after the fact. Either Mayer/the CIB leaves him there for failing, or kills him and he ends up sorta haunting Desmond and the CU.

He’s a sadistic bastard, so he taunts Desmond with the knowledge he has moderator access to, like Tonia being dead and his patients’ suffering. He lies about always being with Des in order to make him question things further, but it doesn’t do much in the end. This version would change some things about the game, minor stuff, but that’s all the thinking I’m doing there.

And then, there’s the one where Desmond was patient zero, in a way. They reopened the experiments in the 60’s (RIP Wheeler), and Desmond would’ve been a child around then. Through plot magic, exposure to such a raw form of AR at such an early age might’ve given him some side effects, including but not limited to being able to do what we see in the game. This can follow Rainbow being a parasite, or him being another young experiment that merged with him/ WAS merged with him in the experiments, and changed appearance as Desmond, and by extension HIM, grew up.

Desmond DOES say that his past was best left behind, so either he remembers the experimentation, or he doesn’t. I’m thinking that last one, because it opens the opportunity for that angsty “…what…?” moment. Be it repressed memories, induced amnesia, being too young to have remembered or something else, he finds out one way or another. There’s ALSO the opportunity for Lucas angst, because imagine how HE’D feel about it.

Not very thought out, OBVIOUSLY, but I just find it so fascinating how strange Desmond’s situation really is. Lucas was in the CU, only once that we know of, and it seems like he was in his own PC, before he came to Milton Haven and his PC turned into the park. Probably his home back in Florida (can’t remember if he explicitly said it was). And he was only there for, like, a minute, but it was enough that he ended up killing Wheeler in the real world. Desmond evidently didn’t move when he was in the CU, and he was there much longer than Lucas was. Lucas saw his Shadow as his own reflection, not as a physical thing. He managed to climb down from his tree while he was in the CU and use his firearm in parallel to how he used it in the PC.

It’s all so strange, and everyone seems to experience AR contamination differently. Allen’s visions, Lucas hearing the voices of those infected, Virginia’s outburst, Max’s irritation and mood swings, Desmond’s protectiveness and paranoia, it made a WTF (so funny that it’s named that) worker really sick, and it made everyone feel horrible in general. People reacted differently to it, but no one got sent to the CU that we know of. Maybe Allen, with his visions and such, but that’s dipping fins into “more than a man-made chemical” territory, and while I’d love to scream about that, this is already entirely too long.

There’s a lot more, like Rosemary and how she got in the CU, after being killed, and how she passed on after fulfilling her mission and how she ALSO had some control over the CU, albeit for a limited time… but that’s for another time. A part 2 perhaps.

Most of this is ordered really weird cos I was just laying down my thoughts as they come, but the general gist of it is, Desmond is a very very special boy and either has a lot of bad people who want his brain-dead, or has a weird connection to AR and therefore his Shadow does as well. Makes Rainbow’s one comment about his patients not being able to fight their own Shadows so what makes Desmond so special, really funny.

That is all for now. ISM Target AU and ISM Patient Zero AU. Oh, joy.

[tempestmothstorm]

Thinking about human versions of the tadc gang. I think they would work great in The Office (they would suffer immensely)

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Exit Plans for Teenage Freaks

YA contemporary + a little sff

follows a boy who suddenly finds himself able to teleport when he walks through doors, often against his will

and has to figure that out while dealing with a new crush, the end of high school and the queer club, and figuring out whether he definitely wants to train to be an ASL interpreter like his father

[cutielatias]

I find fatal frame a little interesting cuz despise being a horror game, if we look deep into it, the games are actually about very simple and sad themes/situations(all the horror games are like that,now thinking). Even the second one that I thought it was more horror cuz of the haunted ville theme,actually is about a more deep/simple situation, after seeing a text from the director talking about the endings/characters this becomes much more obvious. I'm going to try to do a mini analysi of "what i feel the situation of the game is about" and will be interesting to see from a twin's point of view(since the whole theme of the game is about identical twins/ twin's relationship). In shorts words, is about how much society/"life" tend to want to separate twins and how this is harmful to the twins and twins itself fear this fade.

●The ritual the ritual represents society/people's ideia(mostly adults) that the twins after reaching a certain age (adulthood(18)) they should be separated, so much so, that the people who perform the rituals are even the adults(i know i know, is because only a "wise" person would know how to make a ritual, yeah but let's forget it the horror aspect and think in a more normal way, is very specific being adults, already showing that this demanding comes mostly from a authority/the people in general), people do this believing that this will be better for the twins or somehow this is more appropriate to society's standards, with that, the ritual in the game is even something said to be done for the sake of the village and their residents, the village representing society,how for society it's best the twins being separated. The thing of "becoming one" on the ritual, is a way of saying becoming one in a way of becoming "one person", without your twin by your side/without being around your twin,but just like in the game we can see that this is not right at all and this is something that the twins themselves don't like it and try to run away, even the twins that do the ritual didn't want to do it, and the twin's that stayed/lived none of them have happy endings or lived for to long after that.

■kiryu twins- if we seem the story in a normal way, basically, the other twin got so sad with the loss of her sister that she even got depressed and lose herself and gone crazy.

■tachibana twins- itsuki end up feeling so guilt and sad by living without/losing his twin that he end up commiting suicide so that they could stay together again.

■Yae and Sae-(this twins are kinda weird actually, doesn't even feel that wrong to separate they…, but fine) though we don't know much what happend with yae after she runs away, i think she didn't lived much longer after that, sae died with sadness and anger cuz of her sister breaking their promise, and yae becomes emotionless and died cuz she couldn't live with the fact that she left her sister behind.

None of them have good endings, even though it may seem like something good, live by your ownself "again" the fact of being such abrupt choice, that its not made by the twins own wish, makes very harmful.

●Mio and Mayu feelings In the beggining it's has a flashback of mio and mayu when they were kids( i never really understand much of this flashback before, i thought it only exist to show the similarite between mio and mayu with sae and yae, but now seeing the director commentary, even this scene have way more deep meaning and very twin relatable) mayu slipped on that day on purpose(and the same happend a little with that sae)mayu always felt that mio could lived without her, and while mio was slowly leaving her behind this thoughts become bigger and bigger, making her almost suicidal, so she decided to slipped/hurt herself so that mio could pay attention to her again(i find interest on the director words he says that mio also knew that mayu did that on purpose on that day, and this is such a twin move, we can sense each other feelings, so we probably feel when one twin do something on purpose; but mio just didn't understand why mayu did that, but she feels, which is a very twin thing). both mio and mayu have the fear of losing each other or that somehow life will separate they, this is a thinking that a lot of twins really can have, since when we grow old, we end up building our own lifes,especially ordinary people, people date, have works, marriage and some even have kids, which are things that separate us, you can't always stay with your twin when you have those things (nowadays i don't have much of that fear but when i was a kid i used to think about it, but now, not much, cuz i gonna be honest, i not normal(this is very obviously), so i probably wont have an ordinary life, and i don't feel me and ana's paths are much different from each other, so we probably will always stick and stay together)but for ordinary twins this probably a thinking. the meaning of mio and mayu journey is very relatable to that feeling.

●Final now we get to the end (or the conclusion or final message of the game, I think) it's difficult to say whats the game wants to say or express (because i think just like anything, its depends on the point of view),but I think the game just portrays a twin connection/relationship, and shows how the twin's bond is so strong to the point that not even a ritual where the twins kill and hurt the other, the twins will never stop to love each other, and it's also shows how it's a beautiful connection but at the same time there's a suffering and melancholic on it; the part of people wanting to separate them and the fear of the twins themselves if one day this happens and how the twins almost cannot live without each other (they can live, but it will be an empty and depress life), and how the idea of ​​separation is something painful for the twins, so much so that in the end where we kill mayu, I feel that the reason why mayu/sae wanting to kill themselves /do the ritual so much, comes from the feeling of both of them being afraid of their twins leaving them(a bit possessive…but ok~) but at the same time they know that this can happens and that it's also wrong to not let the other twin live their life, so they prefer to die, so that they don't see them and their twins separating cuz for them this is more painful than die, but at the same time also letting the other twin live their own life/"be free".

[the-n3w3st-g1rl-g1rl]

the fact that Chara's big plan to destroy the barrier involved them committing suicide…

like, killing themself for "the greater good"… and it didn't even work, either…

if anything it made things worse. because it made Asgore want to declare war on all humans. it caused Flowey to exist and caused mass murder on multiple resets.

and this isn't me blaming Chara for that. this is me saying that their suicide didn't improve anything. killing themself was a horrible idea with massive consequences. they didn't need to die, they didn't deserve to die and dying did not fix anything.

I don't understand how anyone sees them as a villain really…

[reikunrei]

i want to. experience the wilderness. i need to. go on a hike sometime soon. i want to climb up a big mountain.