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imagine Vi with a gf that will do drastic things to their appearance and not mention it- like reader just shows up with new piercings, haircut, nail set etc and just plays it off to mess w/ her
"I've always had those wym?" "It was just a trim idk what you're saying"
Ok Iâm obsessed w this idea bc itâs literally me, I shave and dye my hair every month and donât realize ppl canât recognize me when they donât see me every few weeks, oopsi. This also ended up being very self indulgent BECAUSE I GOT A TATTOO OF VIâs NAME ON MY LOWER NAVEL đ Iâm so down bad for her itâs not even funny (this IS a photo of MY tattoo so plz just lmk if ur gonna use it for anything)
Anyway hope u like this! (And thank u for my first Vi ask!!) requests/asks are always open!
Lil suggestive at the end but nothing too crazy Iâd sayâŚ
Vi loves that youâre so all over the place, it makes her feel like youâre always changing and itâs kinda why she fell for you in the first place.
But she was not prepared for the amount of drastic appearance changes you bombard her with on a monthly basis.
Youâll show up with a random new hair color one day, walking into the gym she works at to drop off her lunch. Just strutting into the place, so nonchalantly, like thereâs absolutely nothing new when in fact your hair went from brown to black with bright green highlights.
Viâs at the reception about to head to the back with a new client when she sees you. She doesnât even register that itâs you at first and her jaw only drops when she does a double take.
âHey honeyâ you say in your regular loving tone.
âUhh⌠Hi.. uh- hi baby?â Viâs so confused but you just look at her innocently and bat your lashes. âI brought you lunch!â
âI see thatâ Vi looks down at the bag you dropped on the counter and leans over to kiss you on the cheek quickly. âI also see youâve got a new hairstyle?â
You look at her surprised, âoh this?â youâre picking up strands of hair twisting them around your fingers absentmindedly âyeah I guessâŚâ
âYou guess?!?â she stares at you incredulously âitâs quite a big change cupcake!â
You fake being hurt and pretend dramatically, placing a hand your heart âSo you donât like it?â
âNo, no, no! I didnât say that! I just meant itâs so different!â Viâs reaching over to run her fingers through your hair âI really like itâ
âItâs really not that different Vi, just added the greenâ you brush it off, messing with her a little.
Vi swears your hair was brown and not black but she just shrugs, âas long as youâre happy!â
Then one day youâre off work early and you walk by this piercing shop every day on your way home. Youâve got a few piercings on your ears and that one on your belly button that Vi adores, but youâve been wanting a septum for a while.
So before you can convince yourself otherwise youâre walking out of the piercing studio with a fresh silver ring in your nose.
You walk into your apartment met with the sound of Vi playing video games on the couch. Swooping down you attempt to give her a peck on the lips while she moves her head around your figure trying to see the screen âHi Angel⌠one sec I just have to pass this level, then I promise Iâm all yoursâ
You let her be and go to quickly clean your brand new piercing before sheâs done with her gaming.
Later you guys are making dinner together and Violet canât help but notice the silver ring glittering above your top lip when it catches the light. To be fair, Vi is always staring at your lips anyway, so itâs not like she really wasnât gonna notice a piercing right above them.
âUhhh hey babe?â
âYeah Vi?â
âDid you always have that septum piercing?â
âMhmâ youâre humming absentmindedly as you stir something on the stove.
Violet canât think straight, cause is she that distracted and so down bad that she didnât notice her beautiful girlfriend had a septum piercing?!? Or is this another one of your âwhat do you mean I didnât change anything!â moments like when you showed up with dyed hair and pretended it was the exact same or when you got new nails done and told her youâd been wearing them for weeksâŚ
She swears you messing with her like this is gonna be the death of her, but⌠sheâd never complain.
Nothing prepares Vi for your next drastic move though, cause she goes absolutely feral when u show her the tattoo u got of her name on ur lower navel.
Oh no. Youâre done for. Cause sheâs almost quite literally on her knees drooling, staring up at you with big blue eyes and you know sheâs about to jump your bones and never let you go.
Vi knew you were going in for a tattoo appointment that day. But what she didnât know is that you decided to surprise her with a little âVIâ, the same one she has on her face, but in ink the color of her hair. The deep fuchsia pink you love.
So when you come home from your tattoo appointment, Vi thinks you just went for the bigger piece you got on your leg. So she jumps from the couch as soon as she hears you entering your apartment âHey! youâre back!â and sheâs running down the hall kneeling at your legs, lifting your trousers to see the new piece with an excited âLemme see!!!â
Youâre just as excited and giggle while she admires the work. But you keep ur mouth shut and donât say a word about the little surprise tattoo you have of her name just above your panty line.
âItâs so cool! I love the colors and itâs so much bigger than I thought youâd go for! I love it!â Viâs voice pulls you out of your thoughts. âDid it hurt? You were at the studio for a whileâŚâ
âNah it wasnât too bad, plus the artist was so gentle and itâs not like itâs my first rodeo Vi.â Youâre rolling your eyes at her concern and sheâs standing back up pulling you in for a long kiss.
âIâm gonna go unwrap the tattoo foil and wash the new ink, are you ok to start dinner hon?â You yell into the kitchen as you walk toward the bathroom. âYeah! In a minute!â
Before youâve even finished undressing to hop in the shower, Viâs bursting into the bathroom claiming she needs to wash her hands before cooking. (but you both know thereâs a perfectly good sink in the kitchen and she just loves barging in on you in the shower).
Sheâs smirking as she leans on the side of the sink âCute pantiesâ
You look down and immediately cover your face in embarrassment realizing youâre wearing high waisted flower-patterned cottons. Itâs not your usual choice and theyâre kinda reserved for shark week cause you donât think theyâre cute, but it was your best option for getting a lower navel tattoo and making sure it didnât get irritated. âStahppp Vi, I had to wea-â you catch yourself before you can tell Vi about the tattoo.
Sheâs already sauntering over to you her hands finding their place on your bare waist making you shiver. âI donât know⌠I still think theyâre kinda cute..â Vi trails off as her fingers dig under the band and slowly lower it.
Youâre waiting in anticipation for her to notice the tattoo at any moment, and then she does.
Her eyes go wide the second she sees it. You swear you can see her brain reset to factory settings and her mind go blank.
She doesnât know what to say or do. Sliding down to the ground, shes now on her knees in front of you, hands on your hips holding the band of your panties down with her thumbs as she just stares at the little fuchsia pink âVIâ on your lower navel.
âVi?â You try gently, dragging the word out like a question.
âHmm?â Sheâs not looking at you, just staring at the tattoo of her name on your body as she swallows hard. âFuck Angel, fuck⌠is that⌠is that my name, sweetheart?â Sheâs biting her lip inhaling and ur nodding a happy âmhmâ down at her.
Something short circuits in her then. The way her name is permanently on your skin. The way her name on you marks you as hers. Sheâs breathing heavy.
She thinks sheâs drooling but she doesnât care. Sheâs focusing her pretty blue eyes up on you now. You cup her face and try to play it off like you usually do, teasing her with your big appearance changes, teasing her âOh, Iâve totally always had thi-â
Before you can finish sheâs up, kissing you hungrily, her hands on your waist and the side of your neck, crowding you against the sink. Your breath hitches as you notice the glimmer in her eye and you can barely contain a little gasp when Viâs thigh slides between yours.
âDonât bullshit me Angel, we both know you havenât always had a tattoo of MY name-â sheâs brushing her fingers across the fresh lettering, making you wince â-especially not here of all places.â
Sheâs kissing your neck, sucking on the soft skin leaving marks everywhere, slowly making her way down your body. Your hands are in her hair as she reaches your navel. Sheâs kissing everywhere but the tattoo, stopping to say a few words in between light pecks and little kitten licks âFuck sweetheart⌠mmh, I canât believe⌠you, fuck⌠got my⌠name tatted⌠ugh.. fuckâ her voice trails off sounding so thick and needy. Sheâs looking up at you through her lashes and you know youâre done for.
You whimper and Viâs vision goes fuzzy. Forget the shower, forget dinner, sheâs carrying you to the nearest bed⌠so she can look at her name on your skin while she makes you scream it.
#I canât believe i actually got a tattoo of her name#iâm just a girl#vi arcane#arcane vi x reader#haunted by dreams tf#vi brain rot#vi headcanons#violet arcane#vi arcane x reader#vi fluff#vi x fem reader#vi x you#request#reqs open#asks open
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Is anyone else worried about the next LoL show? Like I know its going to be beautiful, and probably well written, but I don't know if its even going to come close to the majesty of Arcane. Specifically, the line in the teaser they dropped (that Ik is for the next season of LoL) "Piltover was a lesson" is worrying me.
What made Arcane as good as it was, to me, was the intmacy between the characters. From the sisterhood and family Jinx and Vi shared, to the random pianist who joined the war aginst Ambessa and Viktor simply because he felt he had to, to even Marcus just having a daughter. These details, that inconnected the characters, that made them feel raw and human, gave such a weight to all the death and destruction that occured throughout the show.
But, if it was all just a "lesson", what does that mean for the future? It kinda demeans what happened in Arcane in a way that worries me. Yeah, the scope of what happened is relatively small compared to the world of Runeterra, but being small is what made it good. Zeroing in on a select few characters in one city, letting them build that intimacy that was integral to the show's story. I am worried about the next show losing that and just becoming "sexy LoL characters who partake in big magic fights with cool music in the background".
Idk, I hope everyone I've seen interpert "Piltover was a lesson" as a good thing is right. I just cannot get out of my head that it is not inherently a good direction to take the series. Bigger is not always better. However, this all hinges on that teaser being connected to the next show, which I honestly cannot see how it isn't. From literally showing Mel, to name dropping Piltover, I am almost certain that this was meant to give us a taste of what coming.
#arcane#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#arcane s2#league of legends#and yes the steady decline in writing quality we saw in s2 does not help my fear
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Rose Recaps 2024 - Rose-Tinted Glasses
Post your most popular and/or favourite edit/gifset/analysis for each month (itâs okay to skip months!) @troubled-mind made her own year summary, and I wanted to play to. I want to look back and see what I did and kinda give myself a pat on the back. I've been feeling not that inspired about giffing lately so this might help.
January
Most Popular: Myungha is all of us
Favourite: The Glitch
This one took me a long time to make but I had so much fun. It was a request and I immediately knew what I wanted it to look like, adding the red flare, but then I actually had to make it, which is when I get in trouble, because there are only so many hours in the day and I'm never happy. But I'm really happy with this one.
February
Most Popular: Is the magic gone? - Cherry Magic Thailand, EP 11
Favourite: The End
Yes, it's Love for Love's Sake again. I adore this set. I just love how it turned out. I had a good time trying to get the look I wanted. And of course, them. I love them.
March
Most Popular: S01E06 | S02E06 | S03E06 - Young Royals
Favourite: "So, I've been searching all this timeâŚfor someone who would polish off that dish with me."
This show changed me and healed me and it all started here. I love this show too much for words, but I did try to explain my love for it in my second favourite post from this month. It's magic.
April
Most Popular: Silent Screaming - Unknown, EP 9
Favourite: Ok this isn't exactly my post or just one but all the answers from #Rose's Day of Asks, April 2nd. It was just so much fun to go on a ask spree, and get to know some people better and get show recs and just generally interact more. It broke my brain a little but it was such a fun day for me. Also it was a fun excuse to just ask questions, because sometimes I feel awkward dropping by someone's inbox to ask some random question. May
Most Popular: Domesticity - Unknown, EP 12
Favourite: "The ocean is for contemplating things bigger than we are..."
This is such a special set to me. I did it as a gift to the always kind @twig-tea and I love it a lot. She loves the sea and so do I, so to work with it in different shows and just look at it while I was making this set was such a treat for me as well. This was the post that started it.
June
Most Popular: Oyei & Cher - Wandee Goodday, EP 6
Favourite: The 25:00 in Akasaka running.
This show got me so bad. This post basically started because of @lurkingshan tags on another post and then because @colourme-feral asked me about who would do the running in the inevitable running to the beloved moment. And it was fun discussion with great additions from @lurkingshan here and @emotionallychargedtowel take here.
July
Most Popular: Ayaka is in Love with Hiroko, EP1
Favourite: Zettai BL is back!!!
I had a blast giffing this show. It was just great seeing my faves again and getting a new fave in Hatano. Many thanks to @ikeoji-subs for making it possible for us to watch it.
August
Most Popular: 'Friendship is nice, isn't it?' - I Hear the Sunspot, EP 8
Favourite: Rose Watches OJBL - The Novelist: Playback (2021)
Never was I happier to have started the ojbl project that when I finished this series. I love it so much. And this project is dying down because I've seen most of the good ones, and will make my way through others more slowly that I had before. But this project was definitely one of my personal highlights from last year.
September
Most Popular: THE Kiss - The Time of Fever, EP 4
Favourite: 'You've grown up well, Go Hotae.'
I am so critical of my work but damn do I love this set so much. The colours just make me so happy. And them of course. No secret that I absolutely lost my mind with them.
October
Most Popular: The amazing Nam Yoon Su - Love In The Big City, EP 1
Favourite: So I've been thinking about time.
The day I was so smart. I was very proud of myself for figuring this out. It seems silly now, but it was driving me crazy and I felt really good when I finally cracked it. This show also occupied so much of my brain.
November
Most Popular: Parallels LITA - Love in the Air Koi, EP 1
Favourite: Love in the Big City by Sang Young Park | PART THREE
This show gave me so much pain, but it got me doing something different. I really loved making these. And this one was the best of one. I am so rusty using photoshop that it was a challenge at first, and it took ages but it was also really fun. I love these edits a lot.
December
Most Popular: Panther Eyes - Caged Again, EP 6
Favourite: Miseinen parallels - Episode 1 | Episodes 1, 2, 4, 5, 6
I had been paying attention to the places Jin was visiting in the first episode to spot them when they appeared again, so i was very happy when I was finally able to collect them all.
Well that's it for yearly recaps I guess. I feel like I'm getting better at this giffing thing and also writing some thoughts down, even if I still feel intimidated by some people. I had fun here last year and I hope this one continues to be great. I just need to find some inspiration and start giffing again properly. Have a wonderful year everybody! đ
Also, if anyone wants to do this consider yourself tagged! and you can use this site where you can look for your top posts of each month.
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And the redesigns of the agents are done!! As you can see there is one new addition, a second New Agent 3 The extra info from the separate posts are all below the cut-
Captain 3
Adam joined the NSS purely because he wanted to help and be seen as useful. Not be cast aside like he was with his parents for his twin sister. Agent 4 is actually Adam's younger sister (not his twin) the pair have a funny relationship, on the surface they don't seem to get along but the pair do genuinely care for the other. As much as she annoys him, Adam adores his little sister. He has been through... a lot... His time in the Metro is probably the most traumatising both mentally and physically, due to his scaring Adam suffers from chronic pain. Generally he is able to deal with the pain- it's there but on good days he can ignore it, bad days it's hard for him to do anything. The scaring has also caused him to become visually and audibly impaired on his right side. Adam's fight style is that of punching (mainly due to his anger issues), despite his slim build he is quite strong. He works as a freelance DJ though sometimes he'll join his twin sisters rank team for the extra money. Adam is dating Agent 8, after Agent 8 confessed his feelings to him some time after Octo Expansion. Generally Adam gets along with both Neo Agent 3 and New Agent 3, they remind him a lot of himself and sisters as kids.
Agent 4
Camri is the younger sister of Captain 3, it was complete coincidence that Marie recruited her as Agent 4. Her swim form is genuinely tiny, it's unknown why but she is kinda insecure about it and doesn't like to show it off. Camri was not always arrogant and stand-offish, when she first joined she was quiet and nervous. Being around Marie allowed her to open up, becoming the Agent 4 we (annoyingly) know today. Camri's fight style isn't well known by others due to the fact she will avoid fighting if and when she can (which is ironic considering how often she tries to start fights) The reasons for this is partially because she's lazy but also because she wants to hide her actual skill and strength- she likes to remain unpredictable. Her and Agent 8 are roommates and best friends. She used to work for Grizzco (key words used to until the whole bear in space thing) but now she works along side Agent 8 for Ammo Knights. Camri and Captain 3 don't usually see eye to eye (like the fact she refuses to call him "Captain") but the pair do genuinely care for each other. Camri looks up to her older brother more than she'd like to admit. The New/Neo Agent 3's have very different opinions about her, Neo Agent 3 dislikes her- finding her arrogant and lazy but New Agent 3 admires her- wishing to be as strong and carefree. Also random fun fact- Camri is immune to hypnosis.
Agent 8
Eight comes from a large family back in Octo Canyon, he's the youngest of eight however he doesn't really remember any of his siblings- at least not faces or names. He ran away which is how he came across Captain 3 (Agent 3 at the time) and ended up in the Metro together. The Metro was traumatising for Eight but at least he had (Captain) Agent 3 (and others) with him while down there. Eight does in fact remember his name; "Octavius" however he doesn't like being called such and prefers to go by "Eight" (Captain 3 is the only one aware of his name) Eight's fight style is stealth based, he prefers to sneak and get the upper hand. Eight is roommates with Agent 4 and works for Ammo Knights. He's best friends with Agent 4 and gets along with both New Agent 3 and Neo Agent 3. Eight is dating Captain 3, he confessed his feelings about a year after Octo Expansion.
New Agent 3/Neo Agent 3
This pair were raised by Salmonids nearly their whole lives, they don't remember much from before. Runt is a smallfry who was raised along side these two (he gets his nickname from being the runt of the pack) At some point just before ROTM these three got lost during a big run, resulting in them some how ending up in the desert near the crater. They went in hoping to find temporary shelter, met Cuttlefish and well rest is history. Veronika is slightly fuzzy, having decided to completely ignore warnings and poke the fuzzy ooze. It did cause her to act a bit like a feral cat but she was able to regain control over herself. Hina and Veronika cover each others weakness in a fight, Hina is a kicker and Veronika a puncher. Hina greatly looks up to Captain 3 and Agent 8. Veronika admires Agent 4. Hina and Agent 4 do not get along for various reasons like Hina finds Agent 4 to be arrogant or the fact Agent 4 is slightly jealous over Hina having Captain 3 as a mentor (Agent 4 is scared of Captain 3 replacing her as his little sister with Hina which is nonsense btw)
#also from now on Veronika will be under the tag âNew Agent 3â and Hina will be under âNeo Agent 3â#ask the agents#agent 3#agent 4#agent 8#new agent 3#neo agent 3#splatoon#splatoon 2#splatoon 3#art#smallfry
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Tomorrow will be my first Christmas where I won't wake up in my family home. I moved out and will just go there later.
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when i watched the one about silver i could hear all 11 sonilver shippers on the planet wailing in agony in the distance
#i have mixed feelings on what they said about sonic and silver's relationship personally ..#like to be clear ive never really shipped them anyway so i dont have that sort of bias going on here#and im not against the idea of them being like brothers either i think that has the potential to be really cute#it just feels kinda random for them to say that in an official thing? even in something thats not really canon like twitter takeovers#because i cant think of a time in the games or comics where their relationship has really come off that way.#feels like they just made that up on the spot#(which its fine if they wanna make up random little character traits on the spot but . maybe dont approach relationships that way)#and i say this as someone who does interpret a few sets of characters who are technically just friends as being like sibilngs#but whatever. its not that big a deal To Me but i imagine a lot of sonilver fans are upset rn. which is fair .#but im less unhappy with the fact that its sonic and silver specifically#and more just generally dont like the idea official media assigning random familial relationships that didnt exist before#and dont really have a real basis for them or feel like a natural development of the characters' existing dynamic#idk just doesnt feel like a good idea to me
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#can i yap for a moment#im extremely sleepy but im feeling very upset and mad and confused#also lowkey questioning whether me feeling all that is justified or if i am overreacting#anyway#made out w a boy tonight#and he wanted to go to his place#and i was like no i wanna stay and dance with my girlies#and he gets upset??#asking why i'd kiss him if i don't wanna hook up and i said i just wanna have fun?#made me feel so stupid#that anger in me led to a little fight with another boy (who was unfortunately very cute) and i just wanted to punch him#i just hate when boys think they're so superior#so i argued with this stupid but hot man#until an ex? friend shows up and he was pretty drunk just yapping about things#anyway he basically told me he'd like to rekindle our friendship#but not in a heyy haven't talked in so long let's meet up again#it was in a heyy let's hang out again got a new big car and moved out of my parent's house đ#which gave me the ick bc that's why we aren't friends anymore and i told him no multiple times#and got sad bc he was one of my closest friends#anyway and then we left the party#this guy pulls me aside the parking lot#and i was so embarrassed bc there were so many people and they were all looking and i could already see people gossiping about it#and i just wanted to die#and then he just CONFESSES??#gives me flowers and all which is saur saur cute#but i legit have zero feelings for him </3#and have commitment issues and have never been in a relationship and don't wanna be in one#actually grosses me out thinking about relationships </3#the confession was so random and i kinda lost another friendship? even tho i wouldn't rlly consider him a friend we just share sum classes#but yeah boys are so stupid and confusing and i dunno how and why i get myself into these situations :') m sorry just needed to rant </3
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Drawing for @lapoiseveamel683 of their fnaf sb OC Selenađđ Thank you!
#commissions#my commissions#fanart#fnaf security breach#not my oc#shes so prettyyyy#have i mentioned i love fnaf?#fnaf gives me so much nostalgia feelings#i wish it was a thing when i was much younger#also the pizzaplex on security breach#the building is SO DOPE#id legit be there almost every week if it actually existed#also im jealous of people who have chucky cheese where they live :[[[#that place looks rad#tho im big sad that they replaced their animatronics with people in mascot suits#like idk it kinda removes the magic knowing that theres just some random person inside trying to act all jolly and stuff to appeal to kids#liek i wan cool animatronics thats what maked that place UNIQUE#ok ok i stop yapping lol
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r u the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u buy whatever little thing u want as an adult and struggle with saving for the big mandatory thing,
or the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u just never buy anything small bcs u had to learn to live without it and constantly try to save for the next big thing in 500 yrs
#everyones been asking what i wanted for my bday and i always say nothing#like i hate the feeling of getting somebody smthing just to get them smthing like personally#it needs to come from the heart for me. if it's for smthing big like a bday#now like getting someone a coffee judt to get them one on a random day is dif bcs it's just smthin random on a random day i can understand#but idk like as a kid into adulthood the only bday my relatives / guardians have ever celebrated was my adopted brother's n my dad's#the dad bcs hes a hyperconservative dictator lol n the older adopted bro is cus hes got higher needs#so everybody gets more money taking care of him n stuff so u gotta act like u care abt him according to the guardians#but like i never even knew bdays were that big to people. like i mean i know OTHER PEOPLES bdays are big to them#i find ppl who rlly love their bdays to be rlly cute. like i dont think theyre selfish or make fun of em cus theyre judt having fun#n like u only get one x yr bday so have fun with it!!#but for ME? my bday was never anything special n i dont think it is now#everybody feels bad or smthing for me or for not getting me nothing today but it's like?? this is the norm??? im cool with it#ive been thinking abt other stuff like i just dont have time to think abt the pleasures rn. i have to double on the pain or smthing#like my friends always laugh abt how i dont drink coffee/tea or alcohol bcs u cant be in the medical field without a lil smn smn#& it's like idk ! i like ppl that do do that kinda stuff but like! i never grew up with that & it just feels odd to do it now kinda thing#idk im very cheap but also i will use the fact that im cheap on the small stuff to justify wanting to make a big purchase#i have a weird relationship with buying things for myself vs for others like 4 others i will buy watever u want bro#sugar papi ted#hey heres this idk insert raccoon bracelet bcs u like raccoons n love wearing bracelets so i thot of u n bought it#but if i buy smthing for me it has to have a dual purpose or smthing#i got to have a free dessert today n chose the churros over the tres leches cake slicr cus u can judt make the cake#but i dont own a deep fryer so i cant make churros n storebought churros just arent the same#like im just always idk comparing or needing to know the use of things yanno#if i do smthing. i have to see it thru. & it has to have multi purpose#i mean just look at my username jrue ships or jrue's hips like#im unwell when it comes to that#idk is anyone else like this#anyways yea this whole new thing of getting stuff on one day is hard for me like it just never matches up with my time#of course ill see stuff id like to have but like. ill just make myself forget it n by the time stuff like this rolls up it's like idk#i COULD get a new laptop but i got one that works just fine. i got an ipad on its last legs but can i still turn it on? alright
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#Wow. Mr Ayatsuji was right#I think it's the first chapter in the entirety of bsd that ever had me go âohâ and âwowâ out loud#This is so cool. I mean not much to see yet but these were all such cool plot twists#For a moment I really feared Dostoyevsky had taken over Gogol? I'm a little glad that wasn't the case poor Gogol#I suppose Bram is now likeâ dead-dead? I'm sorry. Not overly sorry but still sorry. I liked him.#Today I took lunch with a friend and she's a big jj/k fan and was talking about how everyone dies and I was like#âlmao. No one in bsd ever dies. everâ#How to be proved wrong in the span of 2 hours pfftttttt#Anyways I'm SO SO SO SO SO ////////////SO//////////// GLAD THE ACTION IS BACK AT THE AIRPORT. Ss/kk for pride month 2024 I can FEEL it#I think... Maybe? The new mega three sided singularity will create a new ability-entity. It makes sense doesn't it?#Something so powerful to create a new being. Spawning from Fukuchi's body. The dude from the season 5 finale#You know. You saw the similarities with Fukuchi. Yeah It makes sense#Next chapter is going to introduce them then show everyone at loss and desperationâ#and then in the last page Akutagawa's grand entrance as being alive#I'm not even joking btw. It sounds reasonable enough. Akutagawa kinda has a thing with last pages entrances#Gotta explain the new outfit though. Something something and magical girl tranformations#Anywayssssssss good chapter. Hope the next one is going to be even better <3 (sskk đ) (sskk đ) (sskk đ) (sskk đ) (sskk đ) (sskk đ)#random rambles
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Cringe warning: very bad Esperanto.
Mi povas mergi min en Esperanto Äar mi ne faris multe da progreso ekde 2019. Mi kredas mi komencis lerni en 2019, sed mi rezignis dum (por?) unua jaro. Mi rezignis la hispana, la franca, la japana kaj la irlandano Äar⌠nu, estas evidente kial. Tro da lingvoj lerni (por lerni? Lerni sentas malgxuste.)
Sed, mi restis kun la Esperanto(n?) Äar gxi estas facila. Mi volas lerni lingvon por la sakeo (thatâs⌠is that seriously the word? Sakeo? I joked once that Esperanto is 80% English words with -o and the end and 15% other languages with o- at the end, but I digress) de lerni lingvon. Homoj diras ke tio estas malbono kialo, sed, kial? Estas amuza⌠ne estas krimo amuziÄi.
Honeste, mi estis (estis for âhave been?â doesnât feel rightâŚ) uzi Google Translate por helpi min, sed ne por lambastono. nur por kontroli se mia gramatiko estas bona. Ne estas, evidente, sed⌠mi estas nesekura pri gramatiko. Mi scias ke gxi ne estas bona, sed gxi estas probable pli bona ol mi sed mi ne uzis gxin.
Cxiuokaze⌠mi havas punkton kun Äi tio; estas malfacila mergi en konlang! Jes, mi povus aligxi servilo de Discord, sed⌠la embaraso. Mi estus kiel, âBonvolu⌠mi estasâŚâ kaj havas furzo de cerba! Cerba furzo? (Googling how to stutter in Esperanto. Great.) (also Iâm realising I said bonvolu instead of⌠oh my god? Am I seriously forgetting hello? Oh, Saluton!)
Cxu mi probable lernu la lingvon de miaj lando, la irlandano? Probable, sed honeste? Neniu parolas la irlandano en la nordo. Ili apenaŠen la sudo. (Ne estas sude, mi ne zorgas se Google translate diras alie⌠ne sentas gxusta.)
Cxu mi havas punkto kun cxi tio? Ne. Sed, hej, diras al mi kiel CLAPPED mia Esperanto estas. Kaj, jes, mi eÄ ne provis traduki clapped cxar gxi estas pli amuza al ne.
Mi estas tiel malbona pri Esperanto. Mi devas fidi al tradukistoj por helpo. Mi uzas Google Translate por helpi kun tempoj kaj gramatikoj, sed la vortoj estas plejparte el mia cerbo, se tio havas sencon.
Mi ne havas kialon pri Äi tio. Mi supozas, ke Äi tio estas testo de miaj kapabloj. La rezultoj? Tre malbona, sed, hej, mi afiĹos Äi tio, Äiuokaze.
Edit: after writing this post, I got an easy, actually video about languages recommended⌠lol
#lemons random rants#Esperanto#conlang#conlangblr#did I mention I want to learn Toki Pona too#anyway- point is with this post- itâs hard to immerse yourself in a conlang#because podcasts in Esperanto tend to be about Esperanto- for example#I dunno.#4-5 years and I still suck#yeah I know doing one duolingo lesson a day is probably why- but youâd think Iâd be somewhat good after 4-5 years#I can read basic paragraphs in Esperanto but some words fly over my head.#I could probably read and understand âthere was a fruit that was very yellow and juicyâ but could I write that sentence? er⌠unlikely#I also get tio/tiu and all that jazz mixed up#same with mia/miaj/miajn and all that.#I guess itâs kinda intuitive. sometimes I look at something and think âthis doesnât feel right.â#I have the same problem with art where I got really discouraged because people assume Iâm a beginner#Iâve done art on and off since 2018. even before that I drew a lot in 2017 and 2016.#Iâm just not that good.#same with languages.#sometimes I wanna learn music too.#but I make something super generic and repetitive. and give up. because I donât know how to structure a song.#my instinct is to just add more and more but never change the er- core⌠melody?#this post took 20 minutes I couldâve been working on my writing or something.#itâs not laziness. I work really hard at my writing. I just struggle to invest time in anything else because⌠Iâm not a natural at it. also#it strangely feels like slacking off when I do anything other than write#edit or proofreading#also Iâve technically cleared the entire Esperanto course on duolingo like five times#I like skipping to all the âbig testsâ sometimes where they donât give hints and theyâre very long#as for my Toki Pona? Even worse! I know a lot of the words but not how to structure it. suli. laso. mi. jan. a. awesi(?). kulupu. Soweli#Soweli my beloved creature. insa? look point is I know some words but not how to structure things
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Thinking about human versions of the tadc gang. I think they would work great in The Office (they would suffer immensely)
#â ď¸ WARNING: me rambling into the void about the office workers theory#also thinking about what jobs they have in real life cus idk thereâs a lot of weird stuff#my theory has always been that theyâre just office workers at c&a and while I still think thatâs true thereâs like a few wrinkles about it#like I feel like if everyone was just coworkers and also remember their past lives wouldnât they recognize the others at the circus#not even anything big like if could be their voice or random habit but who knows if the circus just erases that too and not just their names#lot even just put together that they all put on a headset for their job and that theyâre all suspiciously office workers for c&a#also thereâs like a couple mentions that could be interpreted either way#like gangle being a manager and zooble being a tattoo artist âat one pointâ specifically#they could have pivoted from those jobs to the office stuff if they only did it at one point in time#but also depends on how long that would to go from one job cus of it takes years idk if zooble is old enough#also queenie being into entomology could just be her job where she was then invited to play test or she could just like bugs as a side hobby#idk a lot of things but at the same time them working the same job together just fits perfectly and also thematically#cus like the big theme is finding meaning in stagnation through connections and what fits that more than working a shitty job with friends#Iâm kinda obsessed thinking about their office dynamics and how they differ in the circus#idk I have ideas Iâll get to later but for now the brainstorms shall stew#oh no this was supposed to just be a post hinting about my human designs Iâm working on oh no#anyways character design is fun and I think my longer and gangle design are my favourite?? theyâre the most unique I guess#well making jax a trash goblin looking guy is also unique but eh#it autocorrected kinger to longer oops#tempestmothtalk#why did I do this? idk man I need to yap somewhere
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what if we worked as ranch hands together for decades and then you got mauled by a bear because I was drunk on the job because of the recent harrowing death of my young son and then I spent the rest of my days as a recluse taking care of you and exclusively spending my time with you while you lived on my ranch and continuously bitched at me about this bear as a metaphor for both of us getting back to living our lives and dealing with our grief. what if I finally did it by forcibly co-adopting my estranged daughter-in-law and the granddaughter I didnât know I had with you and therein ended up experiencing the joy of family and community again. AND my up-until-recently-secret granddaughter called us two gay old cowboys to our face. and then me and her tried stealing the bear from a local zoo/circus for you but accidentally set it free instead because wink wink itâs a metaphor wink wink. what then
#posts you can tell I wrote before my first cup of coffee#late november hit and suddenly Iâm on a roll with the predictable hallmark-esque movies#absolutely ridiculous#anyway this is about an unfinished life (2005)#possibly the most random obscure holiday-feeling-but-not-actually-a-holiday-film with big name actors in it ever#but all jokes aside#I just spent over an hour and a half looking at beautiful scenery#and listening to robert redford muttering different variations of âgood goddamn piece of shit son of a bitch what kinda bsâ the entire time#all in all: 108 minutes not terribly spent!#even with whatever the hell that was with the bear#anyway.#as a side note I need my brain to stop thinking inappropriate things at inopportune times. that man is almost 70 years old. enough#what if I just start using this blog as the nonsense stand-in for my movie journal when I donât have my notebook around#maxâs shuffled movie adventures#max.txt#delete later
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2024 reads / storygraph
Exit Plans for Teenage Freaks
YA contemporary + a little sff
follows a boy who suddenly finds himself able to teleport when he walks through doors, often against his will
and has to figure that out while dealing with a new crush, the end of high school and the queer club, and figuring out whether he definitely wants to train to be an ASL interpreter like his father
#Exit Plans for Teenage Freaks#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#this was def one that is just a short YA book to read that was available at the library and iâd seen it has an ace SC so why not#It's fine! a little silly and definitely quirky. felt very 2018-queer-ya#both in use of the random sf element and also like. mc has a big friend group in every flavor#talked about addressed queer discourse in a relevant way most of the time (ie whatâs the difference between bi and pan? whatever u want)#I thought the inclusion of ASL and the MC planning to be an interpreter - and the steep learning curve of that - was interesting#I think the ace character was done mostly well but a) why did it bring it up in a way that his aceness inherently took him out of the MCâs#(as the ace char still goes on dates with boys)#and b) why was the ace character ostricised from the queer club and not the guy who was aphobic to him#The sf thing is a little random but I feel like it gelled ok. It fit pretty well within this subgenre of#âcontemporary YA with a little sff but the sff is just there for the MCâs journey and itâs still mainly contemporary â#the whole secret agents thing was a bit silly. but also it kinda worked with the quirkiness.
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Feeling a debilitating sense of dread and despair 𤨠Which probably means nothingđđ
#girl help i cant get out of bed i feel so so awful for no reason at all#literally my soul is gone or something#i have no desires and no joys and no sense of being blessed#which is crazy bc i love life and im so blessed ! usually.#ig i should do something abt it tomorrow if it doesn't get better#alternatively get back into therapy bc tbh... after that horrible sex thing ive felt kinda off#like even after i was able to eat and sleep and function normally without the tremors and head jerks and whatnot#like its not dramatic anymore but i kinda feel drained of life and joy#moments of genuine happiness and fulfillment are ... ? idk. i did feel happy once this week and that was nice but it didnt last obviously#but like ! im not depressed in a depressed way. i take good care of myself and i read my books and eat food and hang out with friends#i just kinda dont recognise myself ig. i mean i know ill get my spark back but maybe i need some professional help#idk !! it kinda feels very silly tho#like ive been in and out of therapy for more than half of my life. and being one year therapy free was a big step for me !#so going back for this little ridiculous freakout feels like a setback#kinda like im making up things to be wrong with me just so that ill have someone to talk to ? or to have attention idk#it doesn't make sense bc i really was proud for getting bettter and i rly dont want to be in therapy anymore#but who knows đ¤ˇââď¸#there is also this slight risk. just clinically speaking by purely looking at symptoms of certain things. with no stake in the matter! lol#that there might be something bad and [lets not think too hard about it] that lies as a root cause of my little mental breakdown#like according to my sex having friends losing your virginity is awful but not THAT awful and not in THAT way#and my friend kinda said i scared her with how i was acting when i talked to her abt it. like my demeanour and body language and whatever#and i do trust her to know whats normal versus concerning when i dont have my own stable grip of reality#plus. if i was an outside party and applied my psych education on myself. i would say its not looking super good#but i cant really do that bc im not some random patient. im me myself and I đŠâď¸ thank you#but whatever. itll be fine. tomorrow will be a better day ! yay !
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I find fatal frame a little interesting cuz despise being a horror game, if we look deep into it, the games are actually about very simple and sad themes/situations(all the horror games are like that,now thinking). Even the second one that I thought it was more horror cuz of the haunted ville theme,actually is about a more deep/simple situation, after seeing a text from the director talking about the endings/characters this becomes much more obvious. I'm going to try to do a mini analysi of "what i feel the situation of the game is about" and will be interesting to see from a twin's point of view(since the whole theme of the game is about identical twins/ twin's relationship). In shorts words, is about how much society/"life" tend to want to separate twins and how this is harmful to the twins and twins itself fear this fade.
âThe ritual the ritual represents society/people's ideia(mostly adults) that the twins after reaching a certain age (adulthood(18)) they should be separated, so much so, that the people who perform the rituals are even the adults(i know i know, is because only a "wise" person would know how to make a ritual, yeah but let's forget it the horror aspect and think in a more normal way, is very specific being adults, already showing that this demanding comes mostly from a authority/the people in general), people do this believing that this will be better for the twins or somehow this is more appropriate to society's standards, with that, the ritual in the game is even something said to be done for the sake of the village and their residents, the village representing society,how for society it's best the twins being separated. The thing of "becoming one" on the ritual, is a way of saying becoming one in a way of becoming "one person", without your twin by your side/without being around your twin,but just like in the game we can see that this is not right at all and this is something that the twins themselves don't like it and try to run away, even the twins that do the ritual didn't want to do it, and the twin's that stayed/lived none of them have happy endings or lived for to long after that.
â kiryu twins- if we seem the story in a normal way, basically, the other twin got so sad with the loss of her sister that she even got depressed and lose herself and gone crazy.
â tachibana twins- itsuki end up feeling so guilt and sad by living without/losing his twin that he end up commiting suicide so that they could stay together again.
â Yae and Sae-(this twins are kinda weird actually, doesn't even feel that wrong to separate theyâŚ, but fine) though we don't know much what happend with yae after she runs away, i think she didn't lived much longer after that, sae died with sadness and anger cuz of her sister breaking their promise, and yae becomes emotionless and died cuz she couldn't live with the fact that she left her sister behind.
None of them have good endings, even though it may seem like something good, live by your ownself "again" the fact of being such abrupt choice, that its not made by the twins own wish, makes very harmful.
âMio and Mayu feelings In the beggining it's has a flashback of mio and mayu when they were kids( i never really understand much of this flashback before, i thought it only exist to show the similarite between mio and mayu with sae and yae, but now seeing the director commentary, even this scene have way more deep meaning and very twin relatable) mayu slipped on that day on purpose(and the same happend a little with that sae)mayu always felt that mio could lived without her, and while mio was slowly leaving her behind this thoughts become bigger and bigger, making her almost suicidal, so she decided to slipped/hurt herself so that mio could pay attention to her again(i find interest on the director words he says that mio also knew that mayu did that on purpose on that day, and this is such a twin move, we can sense each other feelings, so we probably feel when one twin do something on purpose; but mio just didn't understand why mayu did that, but she feels, which is a very twin thing). both mio and mayu have the fear of losing each other or that somehow life will separate they, this is a thinking that a lot of twins really can have, since when we grow old, we end up building our own lifes,especially ordinary people, people date, have works, marriage and some even have kids, which are things that separate us, you can't always stay with your twin when you have those things (nowadays i don't have much of that fear but when i was a kid i used to think about it, but now, not much, cuz i gonna be honest, i not normal(this is very obviously), so i probably wont have an ordinary life, and i don't feel me and ana's paths are much different from each other, so we probably will always stick and stay together)but for ordinary twins this probably a thinking. the meaning of mio and mayu journey is very relatable to that feeling.
âFinal now we get to the end (or the conclusion or final message of the game, I think) it's difficult to say whats the game wants to say or express (because i think just like anything, its depends on the point of view),but I think the game just portrays a twin connection/relationship, and shows how the twin's bond is so strong to the point that not even a ritual where the twins kill and hurt the other, the twins will never stop to love each other, and it's also shows how it's a beautiful connection but at the same time there's a suffering and melancholic on it; the part of people wanting to separate them and the fear of the twins themselves if one day this happens and how the twins almost cannot live without each other (they can live, but it will be an empty and depress life), and how the idea of ââseparation is something painful for the twins, so much so that in the end where we kill mayu, I feel that the reason why mayu/sae wanting to kill themselves /do the ritual so much, comes from the feeling of both of them being afraid of their twins leaving them(a bit possessiveâŚbut ok~) but at the same time they know that this can happens and that it's also wrong to not let the other twin live their life, so they prefer to die, so that they don't see them and their twins separating cuz for them this is more painful than die, but at the same time also letting the other twin live their own life/"be free".
#fatal frame 2#random things#finally!!! i finished this text (dont know why took me so long)end up not even that big#But not gonna lie its was a bit difficult to explain the things (maybe the text can even end up a little confuse on the end)...#But whatever i tired so it gonna stays like that#This mio and mayu/sae and yae are kinda sus somethings on the game are kinda er*tic/yuri material(i not blind this game is sus)#...and i know thatđ but if we ignore this part it does portray a twin bond/feelings well#I think i gonna chance the beggining of the text cuz now i played the others fatal frames again and now i finded their stories kinda weak#I didn't like it#It's really only the second one that its more well done(the others do talk about simple/deep themes but for me they...#are not well developed)
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