#such a moment of self-discovery and exploration and trying on different ways of being in the world

[whentherewerebicycles]

WORKSHOP WENT SO WELL!!!! the students got really into the activities and just did SUCH a good job in the debrief conversation at the end. one of the students also works for our office under my coworker's supervision (although i'd never met her before) and my coworker said the student messaged her after to rave about how fun the workshop was and how good the group discussions were. and at the end one of the professional staff who worked at the center just got up and spontaneously gave a little speech about how much undergrad research had meant to him and how much doing community-engaged work helped him untangle these complicated questions and feelings about his identity and his relationship to his community. it was just really nice!! good group, very good energy, and i think/hope they are going to want to invite us back to do more programming with their students this year. fingers crossed!!!

[myrtlebranch1019]

Why Davrin is my favourite companion in DA:TV.

With characters like Neve and Emmrich in the game—both of whom are well-written and fall under my favorite character archetypes—it was surprising to find Davrin climbing into the number one spot on my list. For starters, I’ve never been particularly invested in the Grey Warden storyline outside of Origins and my Hero of Ferelden. I don’t typically gravitate toward Grey Warden romances either. All things considered, I would’ve expected Davrin to rank lower for me, certainly not first. But I always try to keep an open mind about characters, even if I’m not initially drawn to their subplots. Surprisingly, not only did Davrin become my favorite, but the Grey Wardens turned out to be the only faction whose writing I genuinely enjoyed.

Why Davrin stood out to me

Let’s start with what made me connect with Davrin specifically, because at the end of the day, preference is deeply subjective, and relatability is often a key factor. Nonetheless, I do feel Davrin's writing doesn’t get enough credit for how realistic his arc is. Everything we learn about his past points to him being the classic "small-town misfit" (in his case, a Dalish clan misfit) who wanted to break free of his bubble. Growing up, I had a similar mindset. I believed there had to be more to life than seeing the same faces, hearing the same perspectives, and following the same predetermined path.

In one conversation, Davrin mentions how his clan felt rejected by his decision to leave. That resonated with me, but what struck me more was the subtlety in how this rejection was portrayed. In my experience, the person who leaves often carries the weight of perceived rejection far longer than the community they leave behind, which typically moves on. This nuance was reflected in Davrin’s journey—how that sense of rejection motivated him to pursue his path without looking back. It’s a mix of choice and pride, and it’s telling that he only becomes eager to reconnect with his clan near the end of the game, after he’s accomplished what he wanted.

Then there’s the moment of failure that every person faces when they leave behind everything they know—when the unknown turns out to be far more brutal than anticipated. Davrin doesn’t shy away from this, admitting that he “got his ass kicked” and went broke. That particular conversation during his first personal quest hit close to home for me. As a Dalish elf, Davrin likely faced additional obstacles, such as the pervasive discrimination elves endure in this universe. His banter with Bellara (easily missed but incredibly insightful) sheds light on those early days of hardship: how he came to appreciate the things he’d once taken for granted, how he desperately sought purpose to make all his struggles worthwhile.

What I appreciated most was how realistic and difficult his journey felt. He didn’t simply leave his clan and immediately flourish; he had to mold himself into who he wanted to be, enduring setbacks and moments of doubt along the way. Leaving wasn’t painted as an objectively good or bad decision—it was a necessary step for his self-discovery. It also wasn’t framed as a critique of Dalish culture, which I found refreshing given BioWare’s frequent criticism of the Dalish. Davrin wasn’t used as a narrative tool to disparage their way of life; instead, his story highlights that he didn’t fit in and needed to explore a different path. Which is why he is the perfect character to decide the future of the Griffons, whether they will follow tradition or the road less travelled. (By the way, I felt the moment lost its impact when the final decision was left to Rook. I firmly believe that Davrin should have been the one to make the ultimate choice, with the outcome influenced by prior conversations.)

Additionally, while the stoic warrior archetype isn’t typically my cup of tea. (For example, while Blackwall is a complex and well-written character, I never really connected with him). With Davrin, I enjoyed that the stoicism is tempered by his snarky sense of humor, boldness, fiery passion and a softer, nurturing side that emerges in his relationship with Assan. Beneath these layers, there are moments in the game when his dialogue hints at deeper fears and vulnerabilities. His line about Wardens having an “expiration date” stood out to me, overall, the post-Weisshaupt conversation is a fascinating moment that deserves more attention. While the game resolves it quickly, there’s something poignant about how Davrin’s overwhelming need to belong and have a purpose makes him the quintessential "army dreamer." This aspect of his character—the drive to prove himself and tie his self-worth to a cause and subsequently an accomplishment is subtle and easy to miss beneath the more heroic motivation to protect others, but it’s still there.

For the Adventurous Misfits

I could write much more about Davrin (and probably will in future posts), but ultimately, he’s my favorite because he represents the adventurous misfits. He’s for the ones who leave their safety bubble only to get brutally punched in the face by life. For those who tie their self-worth to their achievements and set impossible standards for themselves. Anyone who tries to avoid caring, because they’re only capable of caring too much. And lastly, for those who despite everything, refuse to give up. Davrin’s journey is one of self-discovery, resilience, and growth, and it's a story that feels both deeply personal and universally relatable.

[sageandred]

Some Positives of Heartbreak High S2 + Hopes for Possible S3

The camping episode was the best-group coming together for chaotic and hilarious moments ever-the high crawl, Malakai hallucinating, Ant + tree, Darren's mocking of Rowan

Amerie's abortion-was portrayed in a way I don't think is seen often, and wasn't what I was expecting when she was late

Quinni's storyline-She had some powerful lines; I loved her owning her truth and being a bad b*tch when ignoring Darren and friends, because she was in the right.

I want to see more of Quinni's self discovery journey.

I'd like to explore more with Darren and Cash. I do think it's great to see 2 characters who are less visible in media be in a full-on relationship; I like both of those characters individually though I'd have liked to explore more in depth the context of how their relationship works, regardless of whether they stay together or not.

I like that they showed Malakai explore his bisexuality.

Malakai come home! Or at least do a time jump to show Amerie and Malakai reuniting. They're gonna be that deep-seated "what could've been" type love, I can feel it; they've been through so much now; I think they need to grow, but a lot has shaped them while they were involved with each other that I think they are gonna have a tough time moving on from it when it's all unfinished business.

It doesn't have to be a diversity tick, but can they have more queer couples? It did feel lacking in some way after last season. If they never added more queer ships outside of what we had, hypothetically it would be fine, but we've missed some pieces and development as the show's progressed (we've only heard abt some couples from the map; also what is Ant's sexuality?)

the Cash and Harper scenes; I liked that Harper didn't blame Cash, but also didn't try to make him feel better about the situation (that was a good scene).

They actually shocked me with Bird Psycho; they had me until the 2nd half of the szn, which seems uncommon now in shows so props there and the extra twist was a good one.

More parents-it felt lacking this season

Another theme-type/campy episode-they showed a few different elements with this in this season, but I'd like to see another whole focussed episode like the camping; like some wildly out there event or special day that's mandated

Wondering what will happen with school now that theirs burned to the ground...Kind of want them all split up at the beginning of the szn for like an episode-see how that changes them & doing their own thing

[griffinborn]

ARCANE ENDING ANALYSIS

****obviously SPOILERS ahead****

Everyone is debating whether jinx is alive or dead so here’s my thoughts first I’m going to try and explain my view on WHY jinx is alive but made to look dead and then I’m going to prove HOW she is Alive. And why air vents have nothing to do with it.

WHY JINX IS ALIVE

With ARCANE coming to an end we are to believe that The piltover part of the show is over, the reason?

Well… we all think this season felt rushed, the beats didn’t land properly and character development felt shallow. That is because it was rushed it’s been 9 years since they started writing this story arc and they wanted to end this story arc that had to end at this point in this way.

if they could have produced the more quickly over a shorter period of time they would have streched the arcs and have had better pacing but it’s a long time and they wanted to move on to the next arc of this universe.

That doesn’t mean this is the last we’ll see of these characters or even piltover as a lot of piltover champions haven’t been introduced because this wasn’t the arc for that yet. We get hints of that as we see sevika become a councillor but be met with distrust and being looked down upon so now the class division and healing will go on in the background as we explore different parts of runterra (cause the writers don’t have the competence to write engaging happy stories).

The characters will come back to begin the next arc of their character growth.

Take Vi for example she is not even a person in her own right, right now she’s just ‘dirt beneath Caitlyn’s fingernails’ that does not seem like a fulfilling way to live your life for anyone. But makes sense for Vi, she needs to grow relax not be a person for a while because for her being a person means sacrificing everything she is to save others live for others but she’s never successfully done that she needs to do that live for someone else (1 person- cait) be successful in protecting them so she one day live for herself, find herself, find the meaning of being a person, her own goals. Till now we haven’t seen the story of Vi - just Powder’s sister her keeper since the first scene when she became wholly responsible for her a role that Vander did nothing to deter her from but pushed more heavily onto her.

And we kinda got a happyish end for jinx, NOT because she died so is free, NO, but because she finally got to save Vi not just from death but also stop Vi from killing herself (cause that’s what she has doing staying on that ledge not because she thought she could save Vander but because she left his dead body behind once). Show her that she has to rise above her self sacrificing bulshit, cause that only works when she is the only one protecting others not when she is fighting with others together, cause in those scenarios if she puts herself uncaringly in danger someone else will protect her and get hurt doing so.

She is alive but more importantly ready to go go on a journey of self discovery and define for herself her identity (herself not silco as Vi’s sister but not one dependent on her) away from Piltover and Zaun. Truly find herself, and be ready to come back on her own terms not bcz the outside forces dictate it.

HOW IS JINX ALIVE

I want to preface this by first cursing the guy responsible for camera work on Ep9 May seven generations of your family cry tears of blood!!

it was so hard to figure everything out!

let’s start with our North Star the stationary point around which everything revolves.

You’ll understand that in a moment.

I’ll like to draw everyone’s attention to this Frame.

Aww… Sob.. jinx hugging Vander while she kills them both… 😢 Forget that focus on the background!

the glowing runes the circular shape with an opening in the middle in 3 rings like oh? The hex gate beam!

but that could just be a pretty backdrop yeah I wouldn’t believe that even if this was the first time I was seeing it but it’s not. We’ve seen it before…

here

Here

Directly followed by

then after cutting to jayce and victor in the tunnel, different backgrounds for a sec but none of them from a consistent camera angle

and we’re back here again

Then another cut to jayvik, them finally entering the sphere, and again different backgrounds for jinx/vi/vander

and then? We’re back here again

And it’s here that jayvik enter

Disrupting the vi/jinx/vander fight and creating the ledge.

now the North Star why do I mention it? Because the existence of the gate itself is not enough to prove that the hexgate turned on, so what is?

let’s go back to the image of the blast

Notice that rune in the corner?

that’s also a repeating marker it first appears not when we get the first look at the inside of the hex gate where where jinx/Vi/Ekko/Vander have crashed but after jayvik have started their ascent and the tunnel lights up.

and again when jayvik finally enter the sphere

and again after Viktor has blasted through the ledges and is exiting the sphere

notice the lack of light entering the scene from the hole created by Vi/jinx/ekko But in all these instances the rune has the top horizontal straight line facing away from the tunnel but when the explosion happens the line is facing inwards towards the tunnel that means a the rune turned in its casing implying that a mechanism was activated.

vs

also notice how the tunnel is between the tube on which jinx lands and the ledge vi and vander land on no way that somebody moving like this

will fall towards the centre of the tunnel.

also take these 3 frames

vander gets a hold of jinx

cut to vi coming to rescue

Back to vander with jinx in his grasp turns his head towards incoming vi

The camera in the first and second image is the same, a split second has passed but the background changed.

because the sphere started rotating the moment the tunnel light up the first time, the first time we see the North Star.

Let’s have a positive outlook for the future and until then see you all on ao3

P.S. - If you think my theory makes no sense or the evidence is insufficient or disapproved do let me know….

[illicien]

What drew you to winterbaron as a ship? What kind of content do you read? Is it different from the kind of content you write? Would you like to rec a few winterbaron works? My friend is into the ship and I'm trying to see if it's something I might like but all the fics they've recked me are kind of the same in tone so I'm looking for others opinions for some variety.

Hmm! I've sort of answered some of this in the past so sorry to my moots getting this rehash.

A friend of mine dragged me into WinterBaron (kicking and screaming!!!) rather simply, actually, though what kept me here was the more grand implications of her simple origins. I'm kind of a sucker for a true power bottom, and fanart my friend kept sending me implied the fandom saw Zemo as such, and I was at least a little bit intrigued there. Enough to take a deeper look, at least.

The better discovery wasn't that the fandom had decided he was a power bottom, but that there was a strong push and pull of power in their dynamic. Bucky has all the physical power between them, it's a big thing, he's strong as hell. On the other hand, Zemo is just a guy, and yet despite that Bucky should logically have all the power between them, Zemo's intelligence and knowledge tend to leave him with an edge. That continues to be the fascinating concept about Zemo to me, but that's a different matter.

So for me, it's the manipulation, the push and pull of power, it's Bucky trying to break free of being the Winter Soldier and Zemo trying to decide if Bucky's just like every other super soldier. But it's also about understanding that Zemo knows Bucky in ways most people alive don't. He knows and understands Bucky's history as the Winter Soldier both through his research, and as a man who did horrific things on behalf of his country. And that thought can sometimes lead to softer moments of understanding, I think, that can be enjoyable in fic.

As for content I read vs write: I generally gravitate towards dark fic with these two, though there's plenty of really good stuff that isn't. There are some excellent explorations of kink in the fandom for them which is refreshing. I don't really write them as dark as I read them, since I enjoy writing the power dynamics more than the overt manipulation, but if you're looking for more tonal variety I'm sure I can make some recommendations! (Under the cut!)

** Please make sure you read all of the tags thoroughly. What I enjoy in fiction may not be to your taste, and I respect that, but the best I can do is to link to the site with the tags. 💜

Recs (under 20k words)

Just A Little More by @six-demon-bag epitomizes a lot of what I've said above, and if I didn't start out with it on the list here I'd be doing myself a disservice for how often I reread this.

Bucky goes into a painful rut and Zemo seizes the opportunity to sink newer, more subtle hooks into him.

Breathless by @zsparz is one I like to return to whenever I'm looking to feel sad but don't have a lot of time to read. I can't explain why this one hits me so hard but holy smokes does it make me weepy. Sparz is great at making me cry, though, so like - anyway.

The water kept rising. Bucky could hold his breath a long time underwater, and he remembered vividly how he’d acquired that knowledge. Sam might find him in time.

But Zemo would be long dead by then.

Past Indiscretions by @sagegarnish makes me laugh, genuinely. The whole idea of it brings me a lot of joy, and the execution is delightful.

Bucky and Zemo are trapped in 1941.

Unfortunately Bucky's past self is the only one who might know where the missing Pym Particles are that they need to get home.

When young!Bucky pulls Zemo into an alley, Bucky is forced to watch as a drunken forgotten night from his past becomes a lot clearer.

Recs (20k+ words)

That Which You Fear by @spintwinwb is a trilogy that starts off feeling like an AU and turns into something really fascinating imo. Lots of extra goodies here for comics fans, too.

Instead of freeing the people of Westview, Wanda pushed out across multiverses to get her brother back, and the entire world was caught in the crossfire. Cast in a new, peaceful life in upstate New York in a world with mutants, no Avengers, and no HYDRA, Bucky Barnes struggles to reconcile memories and dreams that no longer make sense with what he thinks he knows about himself.

One Two Many by @six-demon-bag is sweet and fun and complicated, and I really did try not to double-up on authors here but agh. What am I supposed to do??

Bucky and Zemo meet on an anonymous dating app and find a deep connection in each other. In the meantime, they grow closer in person without realizing they’re falling in love online too.

Too Good To Be True by AnadoraBlack is really one of those fics where the tropes are used so well, imo. A very enjoyable read.

Bucky wakes up with no recollection of where he is, how he found himself there, and what the heck is going on. There's also a ring on his finger, and time lost. What the living FUCK?!

The Original Sin by @zsparz because I might as well completely fail at the "only one per author" in spectacular fashion. This sits here because it sits on a very peculiar line between canon and AU and just... like I said. Sparz makes me cry. This isn't a departure from that fact.

Bucky and Zemo keep meeting over the course of several lifetimes. Zemo remembers everything. Bucky doesn’t, but there’s an eerie impression of familiarity he can’t shake — an old pain he can’t explain, with roots too deep for him to reach.

AU Recs

Removing Bucky and Zemo from the context of their complicated history in the MCU can highlight different aspects of their characters that are really interesting to explore, as someone who finds their unique characters quite interesting as well, though I also know it isn't for everyone. Neither of these recs are short so if you don't mind an AU, set some time aside for these ones.

It Started Out With a Curse by Thorny is a fun AU I never really expected to find in this fandom. I personally have a history of writing in fantasy settings so this one has a special place in my heart.

What happens when the King and Queen of a human kingdom slight a powerful fae Lord known only as "The Baron"?

Enter a world of FairyTale/Fantasy Shenanigans as Prince James navigates his deadly curse and his confusing feelings for one (seemingly) cold and untouchable fae Lord. Meanwhile, something sinister is afoot trying to gouge a rift between the feywilds and the human kingdoms...

A Gentleman and a Scholar by EternalBeta is a no powers exploration of their dynamic that's... Beautiful. It also tackles a lot of things about kink that it feels like most fic and stories generally seem to ignore. There's also an amazing sequel series.

(this series doesn't have an easy summary available so I uh... I'll give it a go here: college student Bucky has a thing for his professor, and a whole series of bad decisions behind him. The trouble is, Bucky is impatient, and Professor Zemo doesn't fuck students. So Bucky better hurry up and graduate.)

Many of the writers above have at least a few WinterBaron fics, and I do highly recommend checking out their collections. Sparz and Six-Demon in particular have some really widely varied concepts and stories they tackle, and if you're curious at all I'd also recommend checking out Sholio who has some excellent Sam/Bucky/Zemo fics! I didn't toss recs here because they weren't the heart of the ask, but I gobbled those up easily for some very sweet treaties.

[st1ckm4nnz]

My Experience Finding Out I'm Aroace: Dangers of Denial and Hookup Culture

Probably for a lot of people with queer identities, including myself, it may feel like there's "no end" to self discovery. Maybe a term you used to connect with doesn't feel right anymore, or you found a different term that more accurately describes you. It's not like you need to stick to the first term you relate with, anyways. Though it can be scary, change is normal. It's okay to explore yerself and switch through terms. The whole point is to be comfortable, anyways, so it'd be silly if you didn't have that freedom.

That all being said, it was quite shocking when I discovered recently that I'm aroace... 19 years of living and it never fully occurred to me that I was completely aromantic and asexual. Let's talk about it!!

When I was younger, I would pick who to like and I would have a "crush" on them until long enough time has passed and nothing happened between us, then just drop it easily. My friend group and I would talk about our crushes like normal teenage girls, blushing and giggling about how attractive they were. I firmly believed that I had it all pinned down, this was the way that everyone did it, I experienced normal attraction like everyone else in my grade. 100%.

In 7th grade I started going by pansexual, since gender never really mattered to me. I would continue to go on and have "crushes" in high school, until somebody started actually showing interest in me. I reciprocated, but later on I almost immediately started feeling... wrong. I felt like something wasn't right about this. While my interest in studying LGBTQ+ started growing (and simultaneously figuring out I was trans), I learned about the a-spectrum. But surely, I wasn't fully aroace, since I still experience attraction!! So I started experimenting with terms further within the a-spectrum, like demi, aceflux, not being able to make up my mind if I wanted a romantic relationship or not. By then, I already had some idea that I didn't experience attraction normally, but I still do a good amount, right?

Then, a couple years later, I met my first boyfriend, who liked me almost immediately (which the terrors of online dating in this generation sends shivers down my spine) and by then I was already starting to make this way of thinking: "If they like me, therefore I should like them too. That's just how it works." So I reciprocated his flirting. Before this relationship, I only had the experiences around me to reference what a relationship should look like. My parents, friends, social media, etc. Which, to keep it very brief, was not great examples to have. And now I finally had the opportunity to build my own experiences, only for that relationship to go terribly. Just to keep that brief, too. That relationship started to become unhealthy very quickly, and it became more than just quick dumb "love." I started to use it as a way to fill the void in my heart created from early childhood.

When I reached a breaking point and broke up with him, that kickstarted a "hunt" for someone else to fill that void. The constant cycle of finding people, instantly "liking" them and trying to get them to make me feel something again, the relationship going wrong and I get hurt again, only to start all over again when I meet someone new. Most of these never became official. I fell right into the trap of hookup culture, but not because I didn't care about anyone or I just wanted something quick, I just wanted to feel loved. And I had a very, very messed up sense of what that felt like.

This cycle only started to slow down once I began to feel burnt out, it was very evident that I wasn't happy and I didn't want to talk to anybody like that, I was aware it wasn't right but the craving to feel comforted and loved was still strong, since it never got properly taken care of. I'm honestly not exactly sure when the big aha moment was for me, but I started putting together the puzzle pieces when wondering what was wrong with me, and I realized from the start I was doing all of this wrong.

There are other factors that brought me to this realization, like being unusually repulsed by romantic and sexual stuff (not to say aroace people strictly are repulsed, just specific to my experience), not looking at people and immediately thinking they're attractive, and probably more that I can't think of at the moment. It didn't help that I'm also autistic and was diagnosed later on in life, and as many fellow autistic people describe, it feels like yer born in life without all the rules that people seem to naturally get (so this was probably the biggest neurodivergent misunderstanding in history).

But now I am happily living as aroace!! I still catch myself sometimes saying something about romantic attraction and realize that I'm probably repeating what I've conditioned myself to believe. This journey has taught me many lessons and brought attention to many aspects of myself that need extra love and care put into, and although it had an unexpected ending, I feel a lot of the weight lifted off my shoulders already.

THIS is why pride and acceptance is important. I hope one day I can proudly wave my aroace flags in the air and not care about what anyone thinks :)

Shout out to all the aroace / a-spec aligned people!! Keep being yerself ♡ I invite you all to share yer own stories as well if you'd like!!!

[sleepingdeath-light]

realising he might be gay after falling for trans masc reader hcs ; ford

requested by ; a common simp (28/07/23)

fandom(s) ; gravity falls

fandom masterlist(s) ; here

character(s) ; ford pines

outline ; “Ford Pines realizing he may be gay after he falls in love with a transmasc reader?

-A Common Simp”

warning(s) ; self discovery related angst, mostly fluff!

something important to recognise about ford is that he grew up in a very different time — he was never bigoted, nothing of the sort, but he didn’t really know all that much about non cishet people, identities and communities (he was much too focused on his research to even consider dating anyone himself, let alone who anyone else dates) — so him meeting you may very well have been his first experience getting to know someone who wasn’t, well, cis or het

all of those factors (never dating/exploring his sexuality, never being exposed to non cishet people, etc) meant that when he started to fall for you, ford started to have a mild panic — he’d never felt this way about anyone else before and didn’t even realise it was ‘love’ and ‘attraction’ until stan started bullying him for his crush, and the first person he’s ever fallen for is another man which would be especially confusing for him as he’d just assumed he was straight his whole life

(which, naturally, was quite a long time to be blatantly incorrect about something — which further adds to the mess he’s gotten himself into)

so then ford does what ford does best in a time of personal crisis and locks himself away from everyone in his lab, using his research to distract him from his confusing feelings and shooing everyone away using a half dozen excuses about ‘dangerous materials’ and ‘hazardous experiments’ — which stan knows is complete bs so he tells you the truth the moment you ask (after all, you and ford had become quite good friends at this point and it was only natural you’d worry about him in a situation like this)

and that leads to the brothers getting into an argument because ford was very much so not ready for you to know about his feelings, he’s just been outed by his brother to his crush, and he’s still trying to process everything whilst a new stressor has been thrown into the mix — and you’re trying to calm him down whilst stan is rolling his eyes and telling ford to ‘thank me later’ before walking away to continue watching whatever was on the television

which leaves the two of you alone just outside of his lab — no stan to fight, no great grand niece or nephew to use as an excuse, just you and him and the silence between you as he refuses to look you in the eye and tries to find any excuse to leave (mind drawing a blank every time — for once the brilliant scientist/stubborn old man is out of his element and he just doesn’t know what to do)

what happens next depends on if you return his feelings or not.

if you don’t then he’ll accept your answer and back off (honestly he never had any intention of confessing in the first place) — withdrawing for a while to sort out his feelings so that you can go back to being close friends again

if you do then you get a grumpy, awkward, old scientist of a boyfriend who is both incredibly protective over you and so unsure of himself that even the slightest bit of physical affection or verbal reassurance can leave him looking visibly more relaxed and calm — even if he struggles to call you his ‘boyfriend’ and instead refers to you as his ‘life partner’ (he just feels it’s a bit silly for someone his age to be using that term)

you’ll catch him staring at you sometimes because he’ll end up stuck in his own head about how much he’s attracted to you and how much he loves you — don’t bring it up because he’ll withdraw again to get over himself

[exclamationpayne]

I know shipping opinions are kinda dangerous territory sometimes but I wanna share some ships I never really thought too hard about (because Trobed is my OTP and any variation of it has taken over entirely) but that I like anyway because idk. I have nothing else to share lol

Most obvious is going first:

Troy x Annie: I feel like not letting them have a chance really deprived the audience (or maybe just me lmao) of some interesting moments. I thought Annie's crush was so cute (Maybe Alison Brie just did that so well because she pines adorably idk) and I was waiting for the moment when she'd admit it. Like for her it'd this monumental character moment and Troy just shrugs and is like sure because he only knows her from her high school rep but gets to know her and genuinely likes her even of at the start he'd just be going a long with it. I also like the jock x nerd trope soooo...yeah lol

I never wanted to see them together more than when Troy admitted he read her dairy then he opened his arms declaring his love for butt stuff. WHAT DID SHE WRITE? (This moment is also why I like troybedison. I am a simple person, I see potential or my favs then I ship).

Also, we never see Troy get anywhere with anyone so this would've been a cute blip moment with them to give this supposed mega popular football star dude one successful...date? He never gets that in the show and it baffled me to no end (even though there were little throw away lines of dates he'd been on) even if his prior self was an act but I digress.

Shirley x Jeff: I always saw potential with this ship. I think Shirley and Jeff kind of balance each other in a different way that I find appealing. S01E04 was cute to me when they bond over making fun of Vaughn. Not that that's nice but they were like two gossiping friends flowing so naturally when Jeff stopped being so guarded and saw Shirley was more than "a nice mom" lol She is also supportive of him but he also doesn't take her crap and she doesn't take his and they call each other out in their own way. I forgot what episode it was in S01 but when the group came to terms that though they were "like family" they actually aren't and can date whoever and they all look at each other with varying degrees of intrigue, interest, shock or disgust lmao I thought it meant we'd see some crazy shit but nah, it's stayed fairly predictable. Shirley saying Jeff as a nice ass just had me go somewhere like "gurl, you nasty lol Tell me more".

Anyway, they are around the same age and they are alike in a lot of ways but also so different due to experiences and I think both can be better? I felt this way since S01 and then S03's reveal back when they were kids I really thought "how had they not explored this even surface level?" And I know she was his bully in that but idk where I was going with that but if they never did anything that would've been like the proverbial ice breaker and if they did a challenge. Either way they were raw and exposed and had to figure that out to stay friends and were stronger together. I wish they let Shirley stay single so she could've had chances with other characters or something.

Britta x Annie: Can I be real, S02E15 is to blame for this and I never went back after it. Annie seemed like a character who didn't know herself (as admitted in S02E10) or what she wanted and seemed to be trying to figure that out. Whose to say she's strictly straight. Her and Britta bump heads but she had no qualms with trying to kiss Britta that night and Britta had to snap her out of it. The potential of her arc and self-discovery would've been pretty cool even if Britta was the doorstep to that threshold. Instead of chasing Jeff she should've gained a curious crush on Britta imo and learned something about herself lol The age gap is still like 10 years (Annie is 18 at the start and Britta is 28) but that's still less than Jeff and the show has no problem with these gaps so...but also, Annie wanted someone older and mature and while Britta changed overtime she started as more mature than Jeff. Idk, I have ship brain I guess.

Abed x Jeff: S01 really gives them good chemistry and while Troy and Annie are a thing I can see this happening because they had a lot of good scenes together (getting wasted together, the editor thing Jeff was doing, pottery class, etc) and they confide in each other. Or rather Jeff confides in Abed a lot. I think S02E19 is a great episode that also made me go "hmm, I see it fr" lol I like how Jeff has a soft spot for Abed and at times makes him happy by going with a bit for no other reason than Abed likes it even if he has his limits. It's cute. Jeff would be challenged at every corner because Abed does not have the same hang ups and isn't emotionally constipated lol I think Jeff would be his most vulnerable with Abed for a myriad of reasons.

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I...think that's it but idk Sorry for this essay about ships. Late night thoughts because writing fics is difficult but mentally regurgitating feels about ships is easy lol If it's not obvious, I multi-ship so I'm cool with playing dolls with characters to make them kiss lol Always have been in every fandom I decided to participate in. I will always have the OTP/OT3 that are top tier investment but I can appreciate a lot of ships outside of that. Even "crack ships" where the characters never meet in canon or maybe they do but never have anything meaningful. Half the time it's just me pitting my favs together anyway but canon justification is just a plus but not a necessity.

As of this post isn't long enough here's a bonus: friendship dynamics I wanted more of:

I'll start with the one I stated before on a separate post:

Shirley + Abed: Really cute friendship that I really wanted to see blossom more. I wrote a lot about it already here so not going to repeat but this was a wasted dynamic. Especially after Troy leaves and Abed learns that she watches horror movies. I mean, COME ON MAN.

Shirley + Britta: I saw some cut scenes where they have more scenes together and I feel like Britta was always meant to challenge Shirley and vice versa and their friendship leads them to better understanding each other. Like with Abed Shirley gets to come to terms with her flaws like being judgmental (she's the harshest with Britta like S03E04 in an alt timeline but I think since they do this with Annie that's probably why some scenes with Britta is cut.

I kind of would've liked to see them reach an understanding and Shirley learns to let go a little and Britta gain perspective and some confidence she severely lacks and made most obvious by her insecure demeanor throughout the series, especially when made fun of, S03 with her ex and again in S05E04 during the polygraph we learn that she hates herself. The idea that Britta hates herself stings and I think Shirley could've helped her gain some self-esteem (as a friend, not a mom) like in S01 with the bathroom thing. Same with how she deals with her ex, Blade, in S03 (instead of Troy aiding her, being validated by friendship with Shirley seems better to me than another guy/relationship but that's just me). Britta seemed to lack guidance and used "not like other girls" mentality to shield herself like she does with preformative activism, etc.

Idk, they underutilized Shirley in general so don't be surprised to see her name a few times lol

Shirley + Annie: They have moments, more so than her and Abed, but unless my memory is just holding out on me they didn't have a lot after S01. They are very similar and seem like sisters, even when they fight lol Idk, I like how they interact with each other and like Jeff Annie calls Shirley out and it's not a bad thing. Reminds me of how sometimes you have to call out that family member who still says sketchy shit but are unaware it's sketchy for whatever reason. That aside they are cute working together, like the S01 V-day episode to get back at Change and when they were campus security together and stopped fighting and built each other up by the end. Just women solidarity, I love to see it.

Shirley + Jeff: See, I told you she'd pop up again lmao Kind of the same with Annie, I think she has an interesting dynamic with him be barely get to see or get any development for. It's like in spurts but sporadically and far between. I'm not going to get over in S01 she pulled a brownie out of her bag and gave it to Jeff to calm him down lol Am I insane to find tiny moments like that cute? I cling to moments like this with characters. Some of my fav shi is little character moments.

Pierce + Gilbert: I really like Gilbert. When he came back for S04 in the most insane way possible I liked it. I know why we didn't get more of this (probably behind the scenes drama stuff and paying Giancarlo Esposito lol) but I'd have liked to see them grow closer as siblings since they missed their entire lives together as brothers. Both dealing with trauma left behind by the same racist, bigoted, misogynistic, asshole of a man, their father no less. Would've been nice to see them reach peace even if in little spurts/mentions idk Maybe I'm just a sucker for Giancarlo too because he rules and any character he plays I want maximum screen time but also I really do like Gilbert. His moment in at the end of the Halloween episode in S04 was one of the better ones in that season imo

Evil!Abed and Troy: I say "and" instead of "+" because not looking for a friendship dynamic with them but interaction in general. I 100% understand that evil Abed was a thing because Troy left for the AC school but he didn't originate there. He first appeared in S03E04 technically (though the worst timeline that he manifests is when Troy is absent from the group) but again in S03E12 after his altercation with Troy about the impersonators. It still has to do with Troy again though in a different context I find so interesting. Like, when their friendship is challenged bro has an evil version to deal with it (or not deal with it tbh). When Abed has to come to terms that Troy isn't always going to agree with him. I think it would've been interesting for Troy to see Evil!Abed while Abed has to come to terms that Troy is his own person and will disagree with him and expect him to give in their friendship too. I know we get that immediately after with the Pillow and Blankets war but I mean still, I can easily imagine Evil!Abed was the one who sent that email, giving commands to his 'troops' lol Am I insane to consider this? Not to take accountability from Abed (because they are both him obviously) because Abed can be so casually callous/cruel sometimes without meaning to and sometimes he does. I just think it'd have been cool if Troy had a chance to confront him, this side of him, but it's not really a thing after S03 (that makes sense anyway...). Idk, maybe I'm just talking out of my ass. It's 3am, just high on sleep deprivation and Community rn.

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We Are Lady Parts, a British series about an introverted engineering Ph.D. student who is roped into playing the guitar for a local all-women Muslim punk band known as Lady Parts, was one of the most delightful and original television debuts of 2021. Its absence these past three years has been deeply felt—but luckily, Lady Parts is now back onstage, returning with a second season of antics and self-discovery, streaming on Peacock (in the U.S.) and Channel 4 (in the U.K.).

Music has always played a major role in the series thanks to Nida Manzoor, We Are Lady Parts’ showrunner and creator, who, alongside her siblings, also writes and supervises the music for the show. Season 1 blessed us with original songs like “Bashir With the Good Beard” and “Voldemort Under My Headscarf.” Not only are there some great new additions in the second season—from “Malala Made Me Do It” to “Villain Era”—but the music this time around boasts both a tighter sound and a stronger voice. There are even some standout covers, like a stunning punk take on Britney Spears in Episode 3. Slate chatted with Manzoor to discuss We Are Lady Parts’ musical evolution, a surprise (and instantly iconic) cameo, and how we can pay homage to the trailblazers who came before us. This conversation has been condensed and edited for clarity.

Slate: While music has always been the central impetus of the show, it seems to drive even more of the plot this season. After establishing themselves and growing a fan base, the members of Lady Parts are trying to make the band a real deal by recording a debut record. This means that you got to play with the music a bit more this season. For example, there are a few more cheeky covers in there. What was your intention with writing and supervising the music this season?

Nida Manzoor: Music is at the heart of the show. It’s the heart of Season 1, and I had such a joyful experience writing the songs with my brother and sister. For Season 2, I wanted to challenge us, and thereby challenge the band. I wanted the songs to be more complex. I brought in my collaborators more on a ground level. All I came with were song titles and styles. I wanted to do a Western-sounding song called “Malala Made Me Do It” because I wanted to see the band just be silly and go different places. With the song “Glass Ceiling Feeling,” which comes later on in the show, I wanted to see the band feel like they’ve evolved from Season 1. Moving away from their traditional punk songs and seeing them explore different ways of expressing themselves was really exciting to me.

Let’s talk about “Malala Made Me Do It.” The sentiment sort of reads as an alternative to the mantra “What would Jesus do?” in so many clever ways. How did this idea come about? What does “Malala made me do it” mean to you?

“Malala Made Me Do It” was one of the first ideas I even had for Season 2, before I had any other deeper story ideas. And then, as I was writing the script with Bisma’s story arc, where we see her being challenged as a mother with her daughter moving into adolescence, I wanted to explore this idea of motherhood and her tension through the song. But with the song itself, I was like, “It’s just going to be a Malala hype track. I want it to celebrate this incredible woman who’s done so much real, meaningful work for girls and women.”

I must spoil this moment for readers because I have to ask about Malala’s cameo in the show during the fantasized music video for “Malala Made Me Do It.” What was your pitch to Malala to get her on the show? 

Initially, I had no intention to reach out to Malala. I was like, “She’s not going to want to be in the show. She’s a very serious person in the world.” But then I went to a talk of hers, and she was expressing her love of comedy, and she had this incredible dark sense of humor, this great wit. And I’m like, “Maybe I have a chance for Malala to be in the show.” So I wrote her a long letter of why I’d love her to be in the show and how I think she’s an inspiration, and sensing her love of comedy really emboldened me to do that.

She was immediately like, “Yeah, let’s do this,” and was so chill, so kind and gracious on the day. So full of love, so easy to work with. I feel like there’s a lot of reverence around her, but she’s a woman in her 20s—she contains multitudes. She does a lot of meaningful, serious work, but she’s also a really fun, joyful person. I really wanted to celebrate that.

Speaking of celebrating women, one of the focal storylines in the season, with the character of Sister Squire, explores what it means to pay homage to those who have come before you by doing something meaningful with the space that they’ve created. Who are some of your inspirations that you tried to honor with this show, particularly with Season 2?

One person for me is the actor who plays Sister Squire, Meera Syal. She is a comedy legend and hero of mine. She co-created a sketch show called Goodness Gracious Me, which is all about the South Asian experience. It was so witty. The show was so inspiring because it was impressive, it was cool, it was edgy. It made me, as a young brown girl, feel cool. To get to have her play Saira’s hero in the show was honestly a dream come true. Between working with her and Malala, I was like, “I can retire now.”

In terms of women in punk specifically, there’s the singer of the band X-Ray Spex, Poly Styrene. She was a woman of color in punk in the ’70s. It was just so rare. Her music really talks about identity, self-expression, these really meaningful feminist themes. It’s so contemporary, yet she was writing this stuff in the ’70s with such a playful tongue-in-cheek vibe. She’s been a hero and inspiration as well, making the show.

I want to talk about the covers this season. You cover three of my favorite songs: “The Reason,” by Hoobastank; “More Than Words,” by Extreme; and then, of course, “Oops!…I Did It Again,” by Britney Spears. How did you decide what songs to cover? 

I knew I wanted to do a Britney cover. I am a millennial, I came up at a time when Britney was just everything and a goddess and a queen and so much a part of my childhood. Getting to do a cover of her song, but in a punk way, was just joyful. I think it was one of the most fun days to shoot on set because we felt like we were getting to perform such a brilliant and iconic song, but also making it Lady Parts, in those iconic costumes with their suits. Even now, when I rewatch the show and when I was working in the edit, just watching the Britney performance was my favorite thing. It was everything.

Hoobastank, “The Reason,” it’s just that classic early 2000s, very cheesy, but still such a great tune. It was so fun to get to honor that song and that band because they were such a formative part of my childhood. It was something my sister suggested. We were initially going to write an original that Amina sings to Ahsan. She’s like, “Oh, it should sound like Hoobastank’s ‘The Reason.’ ” I’m like, “Wait, Hoobastank’s ‘The Reason’ is perfect. Why don’t we just try and get that song?” Because it’s nostalgic and brilliantly cheesy and it’s perfect for the rom-com storyline. So that was a no-brainer.

Oh my God, do you remember the music video for “More Than Words”? Black and white and the two of those guys with their long hair and guitar. Again, such an iconic moment growing up. That song was so phenomenal. So much of making Lady Parts is an excuse to just bring in all the music I loved growing up, and that was one of those songs that I would watch the music video for and just sing along to. Me and my siblings would sing those harmonies. So, again, it was like, “Oh, I love this song. Can I have it in my show?” It’s such a romantic song, and having Amina and Billy play that and sing that to each other was perfect for the story.

Throughout Season 1, music was a way for the members of Lady Parts to get what they really wanted, whether it was control or creative agency or freedom from self-imposed religious ideals and traditions. Would you say that it still serves the same purpose this season, or does it function slightly differently?

I hadn’t thought of that. I definitely wanted the music of Season 2 to feel like an evolution. I still think music is a way that we see the characters express themselves and express their frustration with how they feel they’re boxed in and limited. With a song like “Glass Ceiling Feeling” or “Villain Era,” it’s that traditional pop-punk sound, but what was new and different was that it was Amina leading that song, so you got to see her really enter her villain era and lead it. “Malala Made Made Me Do It,” for me, was a big move away from Season 1. I was like, “What if Lady Parts did a Western?” It was just trying to push and evolve the music from Season 1, but, in much the same way, I wanted the songs to feel organic, coming out of the storyline and the truth of the characters and grounding it in their experiences.

We wanted the songs to be fun, but we wanted them to also evolve from Season 1 in terms of style and complexity. All the songs are much more difficult to play in Season 2. The actors really upped their game because the songs are faster, they’re more intricate, there were more harmonies in them, so there was a level of difficulty that was much higher this season. But I think, in many ways, the songs operate in a similar vein of allowing the characters to express themselves through music.

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~Masterlist~

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Destiny 2

The Drifter

Hope Comes In Many Forms (Drifter x Reader)

(Self-Harm Warning) The past is being repeated, and the drifter isn't particularly happy about it. But nevertheless he's right there to help you through it, no matter what it takes.

Mithrax

The Only Hope for Me is You (Mithrax x Reader)

You get back to the Elsikni quarter in the last city barely being held together. Mithrax helps you get back on your feet and the two of you make a discovery together.

The Legend of Zelda

Link

I'll Be There For You (Botw Link x Reader)

(Self-Harm Warning) When you both make a trip to the desert things go sideways when you have to wear short sleeves. Link tries to make it all okay though.

Bittersweet Tragedy (TP Link x Reader)

Link arrives back at his home village as a wolf to find the place covered in twilight and the place raided by monsters. His first thought is to find you and make sure you're safe, despite how different he looks.

Disney

Tangled

Shining in the Starlight (Flynn Rider x Reader)

(Fem FTM Trans Reader) You're the princess except you're trans and are actually a prince. Eugene tries to help you through a moment of dysphoria.

Fallout

Beckett (Fallout 76)

The Sharpest Lives (Beckett x Reader)

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

(Violence and Torture Warning) Beckett's former gang has ambushed you and captured you, doing whatever they so pleased to you in order to "teach him a lesson." But in one way or another, you escaped from that hellhole they had locked you up in and crawled back home to him.

Aries (Fallout 76)

Old Scars, Future Hearts (Aries x Reader)

After hearing a certain holotape, and it getting stuck in your head, you're plagued with reoccurring nightmares. Aries is there to help you through the aftermath of one and some secrets are spilled.

Something's Gotta Give (Aries x Reader)

(Self-Harm Warning) After a rough run through the big bend tunnel, Aries helps you with your wounds and unexpectedly finds something he wasn't supposed to.

Hancock (Fallout 4)

Into Each Life Some Rain Must Fall (Hancock x Reader)

There's a radstorm brewing and you and Hancock need to find shelter fast. There's a place nearby that'll work, but it's awfully cramped and the thunder outside isn't helping.

The Other Line (Hancock x Reader)

(Slight Starvation Warning) There's not enough food in your stash for the both of you so you try to give what you have left to Hancock instead of yourself. He isn't having any of it though and insists you at least share, and no isn't an option with him when it comes to your wellbeing.

The Ghoul / Cooper Howard (Fallout Tv Show)

Ring of Fire (Cooper Howard x Reader)

You and Cooper are heading to collect a bounty, but it's a lot farther away than you anticipated. He's used to the sun but your pristine and non-irriated skin isn't. Heat stroke is imminent and could end up killing you if Cooper doesn't intervene.

Act Naturally (Cooper Howard x Reader)

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

(Anger Issues & Sad Ending Warning) While exploring an old section of Hollywood, the two of you stumble upon an old advertisement for a cowboy movie. But the man on the poster looks suspiciously a lot like Cooper, even down to the same smile. But it couldn't possibly be him...right?

Assassin's Creed

Ratonhnaké:ton/Connor Kenway

The Lonely Wolf That Stalks (Connor x Reader)

(Animal Attack Warning) Beauty and the beast/princess and the frog inspired except it's you and Connor and there are no princes or princesses.

Through the Frontier (Connor x Reader)

(Horror Story Warning) You and Connor are riding through the woods at night and Connor can sense that the two of you aren't alone.

Bayek

Apep's Vengeance

Bayek tells Khemu of his battle with Apep in the form of a bedtime story.

Shay Cormac

Windy Old Weather (Shay Cormac x Reader)

(Panic Attack Warning) A severe storm catches you and Shay off guard and you're forced to face your fears. Luckily he's there to keep you safe and comfort you through your anxiety.

Baldur's Gate 3

Gale

Weeping Dawn (Gale x Reader)

You have a breakdown and seek out Gale for comfort.

Astarion

Colors of the Underdark (Astarion x Reader)

(Panic Attack Warning) A trip to the Underdark goes south and you're left with no light source. Your human eyes become useless and you start to panic. You're terrified of the dark and there's nothing but darkness around you down here. Astarion can tell and can actually see you start to panic. He tries his best to comfort you.

Surgery of a Hope (Astarion x Reader)

(Sexual Assault/Assault Warning) Someone dared to try to lay a hand on you and Astarion finds out. He leaves Gale to comfort you while he goes and "takes care" of it. Or alternatively, Astarion is trying to show you he loves you in one of the only ways he knows how; by killing.

Hazbin Hotel / Helluva Boss

Lucifer

Wash My Dreams Away (Lucifer x Reader)

You wake up in a panic, a new nightmare still fresh in your mind, but Lucifer isn't in bed with you like he should be. The darkness and anxiety your dreams have left you with won't let you fall back asleep so you search through the castle to find him. He uses his gifts to help calm you down enough to go back to sleep.

What This Means To Me (Lucifer X Reader)

You've sold your soul to Vox and Lucifer doesn't know. That is until you can no longer hide the scars he leaves when he treats you like his personal play toy.

Once Upon A Dream (Lucifer X Reader) (Alastor X Reader)

Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 (Alastor X Reader starts here), Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9, Chapter 10, Chapter 11, Chapter 12, Chapter 13, Chapter 14, Chapter 15, Chapter 16, Chapter 17

(Major Depressing Themes Warning) In a sleeping beauty-inspired AU, a curse is placed over you when you strike up a deal with Heaven to protect baby Charlie, causing you to lose your memory. You remember nothing once the curse takes over; not your marriage with Lucifer, not the family you had with the two of them, nothing. So when a strange smiling demon offers you a place to stay when you can't remember where 'home' is, you take him up on his offer. 

Brain & Heart (Lucifer X Reader)

(Female Reader) (Ace Spectrum Reader) (Plus Size Reader) It's Valentine's Day; the most romantic day of the year. For most. For you, it's another reminder of just how...different you are. Society, even in Hell, expects you to act a certain way on this holiday, so you do, despite the overwhelming distress it causes you. That is until Lucifer notices just what these expectations are doing to you and he promptly puts a stop to it.

Curses & Snakes (Lucifer X Reader)

(Female Reader) You're a princess, locked in a tower from the day of your maturity. Until the day that a peculiar snake comes slithering into your tower's window. He brings a strange curse, along with a demon clad in smoke and swindling red fabrics, along with him.

Alastor

Unforgettable (Alastor X Reader)

(Autism Spectrum Reader) Everyone at the hotel seems to be overlooking you, talking over you, acting as if you're not really there. Though it's not on purpose, you know they don't really mean to be ignoring you, it still hurts. Everyone except Alastor. He's the first to notice when you start to shut down and slink away. 

Once Upon A Dream (Lucifer X Reader) (Alastor X Reader)

Chapter 1, Chapter 2, Chapter 3 (Alastor X Reader starts here), Chapter 4, Chapter 5, Chapter 6, Chapter 7, Chapter 8, Chapter 9, Chapter 10, Chapter 11, Chapter 12, Chapter 13, Chapter 14, Chapter 15, Chapter 16, Chapter 17

(Major Depressing Themes Warning) In a sleeping beauty-inspired AU, a curse is placed over you when you strike up a deal with Heaven to protect baby Charlie, causing you to lose your memory. You remember nothing once the curse takes over; not your marriage with Lucifer, not the family you had with the two of them, nothing. So when a strange smiling demon offers you a place to stay when you can't remember where 'home' is, you take him up on his offer. 

L’amour de Bibliothèque du Tueur (Alastor X Reader)

Alastor is plagued with flashbacks of his past life when you put yourself in a precarious place and almost meet the same fate as one of his victims; if he can't save you in time. The two of you find a compromise that keeps him from becoming too worried and overbearing.

Blitzø

Sticks and Bricks (Blitzø X Reader)

(Negative Self Talk Warning) When you start comparing yourself to others Blitz uses himself as an example to show you that anyone can be anything, regardless of how much smarts or knowledge they have. He refuses to accept what you say about yourself, and he sits with you through your breakdown, no matter how much you tell him he can find better.

Twisters

Tyler Owens

The World Ender (Tyler Owens X Reader)

You have some ideas on how to help heal the environment, but your hopefulness is shot down before it can even get off the ground. Tyler believes in you, but will that be enough? Or will you have to watch another tornado rip apart people's livelihoods?

Stronger Than A Storm (Tyler Owens X Reader)

There's one hell of a tornado outbreak speeding across Oklahoma, making a path straight for the two of you. You take matters into your own hands and try to do what you can to stop the devastating weather before it can hurt someone else.

Warframe

Arthur Nightingale

Infection (Arthur Nightingale X Reader)

(Female Reader) You can't get sick...right? You're a child of the void, immune to simple bacterial viruses. But yet when you pull into the Mall's garage one day, head throbbing and body aching, you can't help but wonder if that's actually true. To make matters even worse you've been so busy running errands and missions for the Hex that you haven't been keeping an eye on the calendar; it's closer to the end of the time loop than you thought. Arthur's the first to remind you, and the first to notice your change in health.

Ghosts of the Void (Arthur Nightingale X Reader)

You're unsurprisingly plagued by nightmares. Arthur offers to stay with you through the night when he hears you calling out to him, but what ends up happening is more than either of you expected possible in the realm of dreams meeting transference. He doesn't seem to mind though, guiding you through the hellscape of your mind to bring you back to reality.

The Patron Saint of Liars and Fakes - NSFW (Arthur Nightingale X Reader)

(Female Reader) “*Bite me*, Nightingale.” she spat, shoving him hard with both of her hands...He pinned her wrists to the wall, his body caging her against it, not even giving her an inch of breathing room. “Don’t tempt me, love.”

Amir Beckett

Baby, I Believe In You (Amir Beckett X Reader)

The universe seems out to get you, with how one thing leads to another and the anxiety seems to just pile up. You can't catch a break. One more altercation and you might crack into a million pieces. But Amir can notice the signs better than anyone else in the Hex. And he plans to repay you for all of those moments that you've helped him.

Flare Varleon

Drowning A Star (Flare Varleon X Reader)

(Alcoholic Reader) The techrot has receded in a section of the Mall, exposing an old bar area that the newer members of the Hex had "taken over" for themselves. A space which you *gladly* take advantage of. Drinks and all. Maybe it gets a *bit* out of hand, but who can blame you with the amount of pressure you're under? You learn to stay far, far away from the rest of the Hex when you're deep in a bottle, for nothing if their comments and side looks that definitely *don't* help. Except Flare. Who seems to find a different way to help you deal with your situation without outright telling you "no".

[overactive-sweat-glands]

Ooc: if I may ask, what is Richie? Straight, cis, non binary, bi, agender, etc…

OOC //

I don’t have anything really specific for Richie, at least for the moment. I like to think he’s in that stage of self-discovery and exploration? He’s female-leaning for sure, but could be interested in guys.

Myself and @bunsen-burnout decided that Richie and Peter dated for a week to try it out, but broke up mutually as it wasn’t much different from just being friends. But that’s really the extent of what he’s explored.

If anyone’s interested in shipping, I’m cool with exploring that or developing something for Richie in some way. The only ship I will not do is Michie. Sorry! I don’t see the chemistry between the characters or potential from canon, or without a complete character switch-up on Max mainly.

[leitereads]

Poor Things, and how God died

“God is dead, and we have killed it”, more than a century and a half later, Poor Things materializes Nietzsche’s concept with such intensity that I have had moments throughout the film where I simply couldn’t help but to watch it open-eyed and with my mouth opened.

Today we talk a lot about women liberation and gender equality, and we see media representing these topics more and more, and yet it’s disappointing to see that such representations don’t go over what we already know: gender inequality is bad, and women should be as free as men are.

Poor Things doesn’t simply tell us that, it shows us that. We follow the life of Bella Baxter, a reanimated corpse whose brain is the one of her unborn child. With her second chance at life, Bella goes through the several states of development, in a self-discovery journey, always slipping away from the grasp of men, who try to claim her as their own, and cage her in their own little cages, designed by their expectations, desires and traditions. Bella breaks away, finding herself throughout the process. Firstly, as she explores her physical/sensory world, and then as she takes in the meaning of her experiences.

We see the many faces of men, their motivations for controlling women, and the ways in which they do so: marriage, sexual intimacy, fatherhood, you name it. And we see how Bella slips away which and every time, by remaining true to herself, and reclaiming what should be hers by default: her Humanity and freedom.

Although the film focuses on freedom and self-expression, there are other underlying themes, such as redemption and the manipulation of Nature. This story’s setting is the Victorian age (by the looks of it the late 19th century), a pivotal time for advancements and a passage to a more modern world. A time that mirrors Bella’s experience in life.

Redemption manifests right at the end of the film, with Alfie reclaiming the body of his dead wife (Victoria, now Bella) as his own, deeming her “territory”. According to the information given by Alfie, Victoria herself had a sadistic sense of humour, and she wasn’t exactly welcomed to her old home by her servants. By being reborn with the pure brain of an infant, Victoria is given a new chance at life, a change granted by “god”, who shapes the world around her, so she can grow up in that Eden that he created for her specifically.

The film culminates with the death of God, Bella having killed it by expanding her Eden and letting in a whole new array of life experiences, determined to help others finding their own Edens, by giving them power over their own mortal flesh. Being a doctor allows her to help others finding their own way, but it also allows her to explore the human being through many different lenses, right to the core of Humanity.

As a Portuguese, I couldn’t help but notice that Bella’s journey started in Lisbon, Portugal, the country that initiated the Discovery Era, an era in which we also experienced what the world had to offer. And instead of taking it in internally and use it to improve ourselves, like Bella did, we forcefully tried to dominate the freedom of others, much like in the fashion of Duncan.

Aside from the poor representation on how to eat pastéis de nata, the story is perfectly weaved, showing us the intricacies of equality and power dynamics in our society.

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Elara's experience of her changing body wasn't just passive; as she grew more comfortable, she began to explore and even find a sense of playful curiosity in her new contours.

In the mornings, as she dressed, she might gently press the soft roundness of her stomach, a sensation that was entirely new. It wasn't about judgment, but more about a tactile exploration, a getting-to-know-you phase with this altered form. Sometimes, while sitting at her desk, she would subtly shift in her chair, feeling the gentle compression of her thighs against the seat, a constant, soft reminder of her increased size.

In the evenings, unwinding on the sofa, she might absentmindedly run her fingers along the softer curve of her hips, a shape that had once been more angular. There was a certain unexpected comfort in the feel of this newfound padding, a gentle weight that felt substantial and real.

She noticed it most when she moved. A slight jiggle in her arms when she reached for something, a subtle sway in her hips as she walked. These weren't things she focused on with negativity, but rather observations, a recognition of the physics of her new form. Sometimes, while dancing in her living room to her favorite music, she would laugh softly at the way her body moved differently, a little more fluid, a little more… bouncy.

Hugging her friends took on a new dimension. There was a greater surface area, a softer embrace. She noticed the way they seemed to sink into her hug a little more, and she enjoyed the feeling of being a more substantial presence in their embrace.

Even simple acts like leaning against a wall felt different. The added softness provided a natural cushion, a subtle comfort she hadn't experienced before. She might press her arm against her side, feeling the gentle give of the extra flesh, a sensation that was neither good nor bad, just… different.

There were moments of amusement too. Trying on old clothes that were now too snug could elicit a chuckle rather than frustration. It was a tangible marker of her transformation, a reminder of the journey her body had taken.

As she became more attuned to these physical sensations, Elara started to move with a different kind of awareness. She wasn't trying to hide or minimize her size, but rather learning to inhabit it fully. She discovered a new sense of groundedness, a feeling of being more connected to her physical self.

This playful exploration wasn't about fetishizing weight gain, but about a natural human tendency to become familiar with and accept one's own body, regardless of its shape or size. It was about curiosity overcoming self-consciousness, about finding a sense of ease and even enjoyment in the physical reality of her changing form. It was a quiet, personal process of discovery, a gentle dance between Elara and her new body.

[aintjennyrous]

CHILDHOOD OF

DISCOVERY AND TRANSFORMATION

As a child, I often felt like I was living in a world that didn't quite understand me. From a young age, I had a sense that my gender identity didn't align with the expectations placed upon me. I was assigned a gender at birth, but deep down, I knew that it didn't fully capture who I was.Growing up, I felt afraid to express my true gender identity. I was worried about how others would react, fearful of being judged or rejected. Society's rigid gender norms felt like a cage, trapping me in a persona that didn't feel authentic. I felt like I was living a lie, pretending to be someone I was not.My fear of expressing my gender identity was not unfounded. I saw how society treated those who dared to defy gender norms, how they were often met with discrimination and hostility. I didn't want to face that kind of backlash, so I kept my true feelings hidden, burying them deep inside.Despite my fear, there were moments when my true gender identity would shine through. I remember feeling a sense of freedom and joy when I allowed myself to express who I truly was, even if it was just in private. Those moments were fleeting but powerful, affirming that my true self was valid and worthy of acceptance.As I grew older, my struggle with my gender identity intensified. I felt like I was living a double life, presenting one way to the world while concealing my true self. It was exhausting, and I longed to break free from the constraints of societal expectations.It wasn't until I began to explore my gender identity more deeply that I started to find a sense of peace. I learned about the concept of gender fluidity and realized that my gender identity was not fixed but fluid, allowing me to express myself in a way that felt authentic and true to who I was.

With this newfound understanding, I began to take small steps towards expressing my gender identity more openly. I started experimenting with my appearance, trying out different styles that felt more aligned with my true self. I also sought out communities and resources that offered support and validation for non-binary identities, helping me to feel less alone in my journey.The more I embraced my true gender identity, the more I began to feel a sense of wholeness and authenticity. I no longer felt like I was living a lie but rather living as my true self. I realized that my gender identity was not something to be ashamed of but something to celebrate, a unique aspect of who I am.But as I navigated through the ups and downs of adolescence, I began to realize that my true gender identity was not something to be afraid of, but something to embrace. I began to see that being true to myself was more important than conforming to societal expectations. I began to see that my gender identity was not a burden, but a gift, a part of what made me who I am.It was not an easy journey. There were times when I doubted myself, when I questioned whether I was making the right choice. But in the end i knew that I had to be true to myself no matter the cost.It wasn't until I found the courage to embrace my true gender identity that I began to feel a sense of peace. I realized that I didn't have to conform to society's expectations of who I should be. I didn't have to hide who I truly am to make others comfortable. I could be myself, unapologetically and authentically.

My journey of self-discovery and acceptance has been challenging, but incredibly rewarding. Along the way, I have learned so much about myself and the world around me. I have learned the importance of self-love and self-acceptance, and the power that comes from living your truth.I have also learned the importance of community and support. Finding others who have walked a similar path has been invaluable. Their guidance, understanding, and acceptance have helped me to feel less alone and more empowered to live my life authentically.To other young transgender individuals who may be struggling, know that you are not alone. It's okay to be scared, to be unsure of what the future holds. But know that there is a community of people who support you, who understand what you're going through, and who are here to help you along the way.Embrace who you are, love yourself fiercely, and never be afraid to live your truth. You are valid, you are worthy, and you deserve to live a life that is authentic and true to who you are.

Today, I am proud to say that I have embraced my true gender identity. I no longer fear expressing who I am, no longer hide behind a mask of conformity. I am who I am, and I am proud of that.My journey to self-discovery and acceptance has not been easy, but it has been worth it. I have learned that true happiness comes from being true to oneself, from embracing who you are, not who others want you to be.

To anyone out there who may be struggling with their gender identity, know that you are not alone. Know that it is okay to be afraid, but also know that it is okay to be yourself. Embrace who you are, and the rest will follow.

[canardroublard]

Fic writer interview

Thank you @takingoffmyshoes for tagging me in the thing!

How many works do you have on AO3?

51 (putting additional text in this line because if I don't tumblr makes the font truly enormous)

What's your total AO3 word count?

283,783

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

don't make me spell it out (TMFU. Aka The Pegging Fic)

poco a poco (Rogue One. Aka The Music Student AU)

a million different reasons (TMFU. Aka the one where Napoleon's self-loathing and Gaby's inability to identify or ask for what she wants delay a threesome for an inordinate amount of time)

breathe (Gotham TV. Aka that one Gotham fic I ever wrote)

least the rose alive must three (TMFU. Aka the soulmate AU)

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try. If I'm going through a tough moment they often get unanswered, but I generally answer otherwise. Unless it's someone asking me to write more.

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?

Based on the number of times the word "bittersweet" is used in the comments section and the crying emojis, likely don't talk just hold me closer (Star Trek: Discovery). Its sister fic nor made me feel so sweet is also a bit of a downer™

What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?

I don't tend towards *unhappy *endings in my substantial works, but Dirty Talk (TMFU) is unrepentantly sappy so that I suppose

Do you write crossovers?

I don't believe I ever have

Have you ever received hate on a fic?

I'm not sure I'd call it outright "hate", but have received multiple comments on a million different reasons upset at me because I guess Napoleon being an unreliable narrator is not obvious enough for everyone.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Every now and then. And, statistically, the threesome/moresome kind.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Even if I had I have no clue how I'd know.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

I don't think so. I have translated a few of my own and others' fics as French practice.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nay.

What's your all-time favorite ship?

Hmm I'm not sure I have an OTP to Rule Them All. The TMFU ot3 seems an obvious answer. That said, I am a chronic multi-shipper within fandoms so I rarely even have an OTP within a fandom. This may not be obvious in my writing but it is my reading habit if nothing else.

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?

Before anyone says "so give me a line and take me home", it's getting finished. Just not quickly. Stop telling people I'm it's dead

In terms of genuine "yeah I'm probably not gonna finish that", birthright, my Rogue One Pacific Rim fusion.

What are your writing strengths?

I would say writing nuanced/ambiguous/fucked up little guy characters? None of my favourites are free from sin, if you feel me, and I like to explore those sins.

Also @takingoffmyshoes tells me they want to write Gaby/Napoleon the way I write Gaby/Napoleon so that, apparently :D

What are your writing weaknesses?

Structuring conflict and resolution. I often find myself resolving conflicts too quickly/easily in longer fics.

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

Entirely dependent on the context. I've done it multiple times, in multiple languages, some instances more successfully (imho) than others. For me, the most seamless way to integrate it and have the audience understand is via framing things in the POV character's thoughts (assuming they understand what's being said).

What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Doctor Who. Somewhere in the presumably purged depths of LJ there was an 11/Rose fic I wrote.

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?

Too damn many. If I had to pic one, Widows (2018), a film which left me clinically feral in the best way, has a woeful lack of fic (or people who've watched it in general. Go watch Widows. It rocks. It will fuck you up and devastate you emotionally. It's got muscly Viola Davis in a tank top. Range.)

ETA oh and Lower Decks. Because the world will be forced to endure the result of my "Mariner and Ransom have been fucking since season one and neither of them acknowledges it and both of them kinda loathe themselves for it but the sex is so goddamn hot that it keeps happening" conspiracy theory slant on watching the show.

What's your favorite fic you've written?

I'm going to completely sideline the bigger/more popular fics of mine (such that my limited popularity is). They're fine. I like them. "so give me a line" makes me want to eat plaster (Affectionate) every time I return to it. Choosing trompe-l'oreille (Atomic Blonde) because it fucks severely. By which I mean it is both emotionally and literally haunting. That is a form of fucking, right?

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[sowingseedsandshootinghoops]

Know Thyself: Unlocking Your True Potential

Note on the text: I used Madeline Miller's Circe as published in 2018 by Back Bay Books

Circe is a different kind of woman. This book makes an excellent companion piece to The Odyssey. This book really explores the character of Circe in a really interesting way. She's not quite a goddess but not a human either. She's something in between, and her journey towards self discovery is what makes up the central story of this book.

"When I was born the name for what I was did not [yet] exist" (3). It's obvious from the very beginning that Circe is something different. Because although her father is the sun god Helios and her mother is the nymph Perse, she never feels like she really belongs among them. She's not like either one of her parents. In fact, she's not really like any of the gods that she grows up with. The gods, including Helios and Perse, are vain and cruel creatures who believe that the "world's natural order [is] to please [them]" (4). They're incredibly self centered and don't particularly care about how their actions affect others. Circe is different though. She cares about other people. Pretty early on in the book Circe recounts how her dad told her that on earth there were people

called astronomers whose task it was to keep track of his rising and setting. They were held in the highest esteem among mortals, kept in palaces, as counselors of kings, but sometimes my father lingered over one thing or another and threw their calculations into despair. Then those astronomers were hauled before the kings they served and killed as frauds. My father smiled when he told me. It was what they deserved, he said. Helios the Sun was bound to no will but his own and none might say what he would do" (11).

Remorse is a foreign concept to the gods, even the lesser ones. Pasiphae, Circe's sister, is delighted by the amount of destruction that her son, the Minotaur, will bring because it means that people will talk more about her. Even Boreas, the god of the north wind, would rather kill his beloved than risk losing him to Apollo: "you think I'd let Apollo have him? He does not deserve such a flower. [So] I blew a discus into that boys head, that showed that Olympian prig", and whereas Helios feels no remorse over the death of those people, Circe feels incredibly bad for them (26). Prometheus however is the first god to show Circe that she can be different.

When she first meets Prometheus he is being punished for bringing fire to mankind as an act of mercy. He saw the people suffering down below and decided to help them, in defiance of Zeus' specific orders no less, and when she asks him why he says that "not every god need by the same" (22). This winds up being a very telling moment for her because when she asks him what a human is he says that "there is no single answer. They are [all] different" (22). She does not know it yet, but what she comes to learn is that gods and humans aren't so different. The problem here is choice, and just like the gods can choose who they want to be, so can the humans. Human beings can choose to live a life that is meaningful. In fact, the fact that every human is destined to die pushes them to do so. The gods for all their power tend to live a life that is purposeless. They don't live for any reason other than to satiate their most basic desires. They, other than Circe and Prometheus, never choose to live for something outside of themselves which means that, even though they are immortal, "they are more dead then anything[.] For they are unchanging" (485).

Humans have the ability to change in a multitude of ways. On the one hand, they have the ability to change themselves. They, unlike the gods, can regret what they done and choose to be better. Daedalus regrets playing the role he did in bringing the Minotaur to life, Telegonus regrets accidentally killing his father Odysseus. Circe, for her part, regrets trying Scylla into the horrible monster that she becomes. On the other hand, humans also have the ability to change the world around them through "practice and diligence, tending [to] their skills like gardens until they glowed beneath the sun" (135). It is in this way that Circe realizes who she is and is able to tap into her power. It is in the realization that she is a sorceress as opposed to either a goddess or a human that she is able to unlock her full potential:

Let me say what sorcery is not: it is no divine power, which comes with a thought and a blink. It must be made and worked, planned and searched out, dug up, dried, chopped and ground, cooked, spoken over, and sung. Even after all that it can fail as gods do not. If my herbs are not fresh enough, if my attention falters, if my will is weak, the drought goes stale and rancid in my hands. By rights, I should never have come to witchcraft. Gods hate all toil. It is in their nature. The closest we come is in weaving or smithing but these are skills, and there is no drudgery to them since all the parts that might be unpleasant are taken away with power. The wool is dyed not with stinking vats and stirring spoons but with a snap. There is no tedious mining, the ores leap willingly from the mountain. No fingers are ever chaffed, no muscles strained. Witchcraft is nothing but such drudgery. Each herb must be found in its den, harvested [at the proper time], grubbed up from the dirt, culled and stripped, washed and prepared. It must be handled this way and then that to find out where its power lies. Day upon patient day, you must throw out your errors and begin again. So why did I not mind? Why did none of us mind? I cannot speak for my brothers and sisters, but my answer is simple. For a hundred generations, I had walked through the world drowsy and dull, idle and at ease. I left no prints, I did no deeds. Even those who loved me a little did not care to stay. Then I learned to bend the world to my will, as a bow is bent for an arrow. I would have done that toil a thousand times to keep such power in my hands. I thought: this is how Zeus felt when he first lifted the thunderbolt (83-84).

And just like that Circe, the little nymph-reject of Olympus, found a power inside of her that rivaled Zeus'. Humans are like gods in that way. The power we have over our lives is very real. We have the ability build real, meaningful lives for ourselves and that power is very, very real. That is the only kind of power that actually matters.