#sturdy nerdy responds

[tyunkus]

first off, i loooove how you got taehyuns subtle nerdiness thats hidden under the huge layer of nonchalance he tries to go for in that fic it was so perfect…such realistic dialogue between two people which made it even more delicious…..for a hard thought i honestly think he’d just be obsessed with really taking care of you at PEAK neediness. taehyun in the fic mentioning to y/n he can be used to “destress” and i honestly see him being a big advocate on that. wanting to massage you fully with body oils and creams. candles lit. everything…gets your real lose before he turns you over and really gets to touching you…feel like he’s the type to like watching his hands prod and play with you but not really touching you where you really want him to yanno…its really exposing and vulnerable but thats what makes it the best for him hehe

first of all IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK A WHILE TO RESPOND i had to rly let this Sit in my head for a bit cuz GOD. secondly thank you so much im so glad people liked my characterization of taehyun and the dialogue AHH!!! AND THIRD OF ALL UR SO RIGHT!?!?!?

i think taehyun would be kind of a service top under the guise of a soft dom. like he wants to act all tough and sturdy and HE IS but he also turns to mush whenever you start begging for him all sweet and pretty.. and he's genuinely so happy that you trust him enough to go to him whenever you're stressed. LIKE he genuinely gets off on U getting off.. would do anything to make you feel good.. so he prepares all the oils and creams and whatnot and lights all the candles and kisses you soft, like you're something he can break, and honestly that's part of it - the amount of trust he knows you're putting in him, the responsibility for him to pleasure you 🥹 AND HIS ENTHUSIASM ON TOP OF ALL THAT..?!?!? like literally tripping over himself for the opportunity to touch you!!!

so yeah he'll take a while massaging you, undoing the knots in your muscles and tension in your body, his hands are so gnetle but so firm FUCK!! running up and down each crevice of your body but he makes you feel so loved through it all, whispering and murmuring about how pretty and good you are!!!! such a good baby, such a sweet, compliant girl, thank you for letting him take care of you, he wants to make you feel so good !!! but dont be fooled.. while he is doing this to help you unwind he's also getting something out of it too,,, watching the way his own fingers trace and dip the curves of your body, the warmth of your perfect pussy around them too!!! would fuck u with his fingers slow and steady, make you really feel it, before he even gets his cock out of his pants!!! ACKK!!!

[sturdy-nerdy-stitchery]

1, 7, and 10!

1) How long have you been stitching?

I’ve been stitching since I was a wee teen! maybe around 12 or 13? I’ll be 35 in 2 months. All I know is, since my mom was big into cross stitching when my brother and I were tots, she thought it would be great to get me a small kit from hobby lobby. At least I THINK she was the one who got me the kit, now that I think upon it. Maybe I got the kit MYSELF with my allowance? I have no idea now...All I know is, my first ever project was a little bee, stitched on 11ct aida fabric. The kit came with all the pattern, thread, needle, hoop, and cloth From there, I just remember my ADHD getting hooked on this new thing, and as common with ADHD people, we tend to go big or go home while the adrenaline courses through our veins, and i remember buying more cross stitch pattern kit things at hobby lobby (a few still sit in my crafting drawer).Thought it would be a life long hobby, but also with ADHD people, we lose interest eventually (or quickly) and we have to move on to something else  that gives us that instant gratification/excitement. I lost that interest for SO many years..15 years, my threads just collecting dust...until one day, I got that inspiration again...that “go big or go home” and thought “OMG I SHOULD CROSS STITCH SAILOR MOON STUFF!!” and I had all these ideas, bought all these threads and hoops...then...never touched them. until about 2 or 3 years ago when i had this GRAND idea to stitch a baby bib for the baby still inside her comfy, warm, and wet, home. But I wanted my own patter, so i went to MS paint and started pixelating a T.A.R.D.I.S...and from there, that excitement kicked in, and it’s been kicked on ever since. 

7) Do you have any other crafty/artsy hobbies?  

any other hobbies? well, aside from cross stitch and knit? Uh, drawing used to be a hobby. I think mainly because I was in school, and one way that kept my ADHD attention focused was to fidget, and i fidgeted by doodling on my  notes/notebooks...Man, from middle school onward. Sketch books. Weeb art. OC characters. And as time progressed, my art skills got better. I took art classes in high school, in college...hell, even thought that getting an illustration degree was what i wanted to do, only because i was pressured to pick a degree by my mom, and illustration looked cool because i saw ONE portfolio that had an anime drawing in it. After college, it seems my art has taken a back seat. I never seem motivated or inspired to draw these days. other hobbies include reading (something i used to do A WHOLE FUCK TON until i got into a reading slump. I’ll be lucky if i read one short story a month. and by short, i mean...ones on my kindle that say “read time: 2 hours” or less. I own so many books and manga...and back in high school and college, i was a HUUUGE WEEB. the annoying kind of weeb who tried to use japanese words in everything. I used to read SO much manga. I hope i can get back into reading more...But i’m not going to hold my breath...I love to cook. This hobby i do often...or often enough when my anxiety isn’t running amok...I do it often BECAUSE MY FAMILY HAS TO EAT so i’ll feed them delicious meals! Thankfully, the rule in this house is: who ever cooks, the other person cleans up. I HATE CLEANING UP BUT I LOVE COOKING! works in my favor! great, now i have to think about what to cook for dinner tonight with the tofu i have. I would say sewing...but...i only do it out of necessity...when i have a hole in a shirt, or need to finish a commission book mark, or need to work on halloween costumes. I wouldn’t say that this is a hobby per se. Or maybe it is? I did take a sewing class through the park district for 2 sessions...in those 3 months...i leanred new techniques and things...but she didn’t teach any seamstress sewing, as the instructor doesn’t know how to sew clothes. Only projects, bags, etc. I saved all her hand outs and projects. I hope one day, to have the space in a new home so that i CAN get back into sewing. I’ll add gaming too! I don’t do it often, as i am very indecisive on what to play  next unless a new fav of mine comes out...and i know that when i DO play, i get addicted and i can play for 8 hours straight if you let me. I am currently playing FALLOUT: NEW VEGAS...as I’ve never played it before...and it’s been sitting on our game shelf for years. I’m the gamer type who like to explore too much...so games for me take 3x or 4x as long to finish because i can’t just do the story line and be done!

10: How/where do you get your patterns?

For the most part, I make my own via KG CHART (look up kg chart or kg-chart in the search when you are on my blog page). I got so tired of seeing nothing but cute bears and flowers, so I decided to make my own, and then sell them on my Sturdy Nerdy Stitchery Etsy page. 

I also may look on etsy and buy some patterns that I see that I like...or, since craft stores seem to be expanding, I can find more selection of cross stitch kits and things and they aren’t just limited to cute bears and flowers! I bought a unicorn one at the AC Moore craft store! 

[witlessficcer]

Drabble Before Bed

Note: Drabble Before Bed resumes tonight with a prompt provided by @marvel-27. 

Natasha’s trying to avoid Peggy at all costs but not for the reason everyone is thinking. Natty has a crush on the British Super Soldier and doesn’t know how to express that without being a stuttering mess. The woman is a whole foot taller than her. 

Summary: Nat is flustered by meeting Captain Carter for the first time and fight with incorrigible inner self about avoiding the new arrival.

This fic did not turn exactly like the prompt, but I took spirit of all the way to absurd silliness. I hope you enjoy. 

Lying to Yourself 

It was not long after Captain Carter emerged from the Tesseract gate that Natasha Romanoff realized she had a problem. A big problem. When Fury had introduced them it was all she could do to be friendly because her body was betraying her. The Black Widow was undermining herself when she should be the model of courteous professionalism. If not professional, then at least apathetic, giving  the towering, musclebound hero the brush off. However, in her present, addled state she had barely been able to get out the words: 'Nice to meet you.'

How many kills do you have, Nat? How many retrieval missions? How many mindless henchmen have you dispatched? The fact that a thawed out fossil from the 1940s is making your heart skip a beat is absolute nonsense. What is it about her brown hair and brown eyes has you discombobulated? She's not the first fitness model you've ever been around? Are you thinking that her sturdy waist and bulging biceps are too much for you to handle? Are those broad shoulders making you all giddy inside? Like she's gonna take you on a piggy Nat ride? I'm not hearing much resistance to my rather provacatory thought process? You should have seen Fury when you fell A-PART in front of his new champion. The man has only one eye and it was and it was just as wide open as his mouth when you started sputtering all over over yourself.

I did not sputter all over my self. I just couldn't...form a coherent sentence.

My point exactly. Not sputtering, just drooling mindlessly. What on earth could she have thought? Something along the lines of: This is SHIELD'S top agent? Is she okay? Did she come to work with a fever?

It's not a fever. It has to be a latent trigger from the Red Room.

If I could roll your inner eye, I would. You reached all the way back for that one. Denial is just denial. She's a studmuffin and you think you're above being attracted to anyone, much less another woman.

Since when did you become my therapist.

I've always been your confidant. I always speak the truth and you only think you do. Back to the beefcake. What are you going to do? More stammering and yammering incoherently? Awkward exchanges with the hot field hockey star while you clutch your training manual and push up your glasses? I never in a million years thought I would see Nerdy Nat again. Drykov beat that shit right out of you.

Nerdy Nat was never a thing. Stop it. You're baiting me. Trying to get me to do something I don't want to do.

The proof is in the White Russian pudding shot, Natasha. Here comes Hill. I'm sure she has a message from Fury.

“Agent Romanoff,” Maria Hill said, amiably. “Colonel Fury, would like to see you and Miss Carter in his office immediately. Something about clearing the air.”

“Tell Fury that the only air that I will clearing is a dive off the platform if I have to meet with Miss Carter.”

Ohhh. That was classy. Make yourself look like a bitch. Really get into the Black Widow persona. That'll teach Fury, and Muscle Beach.

“Um, okay,” Hill said, unsure how to respond. “Are you sure that's what you want me to tell him?”

“Tell him my dog ate my homework,” Nat deadpanned. “I'm playing hookie.”

Hookie for some noo-

Shut up!

Bottom line is you're going to have to face that strapping Super-Hero soon enough and there won't be any hiding from how she makes you feel.

[shammyb]

smitten journal entry

So, Yesterday, after a slow, tedious, long day of work, I decided instead of going out for Pride, that I really missed James (aka Daddy). I decided to shoot him a text message while at work letting him know I was missing him and though we planned on getting together Tuesday, that I was available for cuddling and seeing him after work. He immediately responded that he would be home by then and would love to see me and give me a surprise gift he had been telling me he got just a couple days prior. I was anticipating to find out exactly what it was, and to my surprise, it wasn’t what I saw coming---while I got those presents as well.

  After I got home from work, I went on a nice lil 20-25 minute jog. How amazing the breeze felt across my perspiring skin on that warm summer night. Once I got back home, I felt energized, showered, packed my things, and walked over to James’ house--Lucky me, that we now only live about 6 blocks away from each other. If we both didn’t value our autonomy so much, the lack of distance could be too convenient. Any who, as I got to his house, I was welcomed with a huge hug and kiss, and giggled my way into the apartment doors. His home is lovely: It’s a fully finished basement unit of a large Victorian home, with his own private backyard, kitchen, and laundry unit. Minimal, but his appreciation for art shows from the art he has hanging on his walls. As well as his massive nerdiness. I always have adored nerds. Side note, I’ve never met a nerd who wasn’t a giant kinkster.

We sat at his bar top counter and chatted for a minute, until I eagerly asked what my surprise was. He pulled a miniature box out of his backpack and handed it to me. On the front of it was a small image of what appeared to be two Magic Wand’s laying on a mattress, and a giant frog chilling out on the other side of the mattress. I laughed, and though the image was cute, and thought that was the gift. Then he told me I had to open the box. I wanted so badly to shake it..But knowing my luck, I’d break whatever was sitting inside.

I opened it up, and laying on a small piece of Styrofoam, was a pair of earrings, with miniature sculptures of the Hitachi magic wand. They were fucking adorable, and I couldn't get over how amazing and silly, but how ME they were! I’m going to school for sex education, and love getting people talking about what brings them pleasure--and these were the icing on cake for my new adventure while i get myself closer to the sex educator/therapy route! A little ice breaker or conversation starter, and so hilariously cute. The sculptures were so intricate looking, even with the spiral cord hanging aside the wand, that I was afraid touching them would break them!

I was in shock, and told him how much that was not the gift I was expecting, but how sweet and funnily, thoughtful they were. He knows I like big crazy statement earrings, and that I love talking about sex--our entire relationship is pretty kink centered. Anyway, after a while longer of catching up, he grabbed my hand and walked me into his room, where he then showed me the gifts I was expecting to be the original surprise. He opened his little chest of fun things, and pulled out some new elaborate, different sized sets of hemp ropes. We had been practicing shibari--him learning/trying out new knots on me, and me very much enjoying being practiced on. The original ropes we had been practicing with were cotton, and one was black, the other red. We are both drawn to beauty and the aesthetic of the artform, and agreed one color throughout would be a lot nicer than miss-matched ropes. The hemp smell of them definitely took me back to late middle school and early high school, when I was a little bit of a stoner, and extremely into making hemp braided jewelry for friends and family on the regular.

Anyway, THEN, after putting the ropes aside, he pulled out the gift I had been MOST excited for..one we had talked about one or two nights spent before this... Which was a leash and collar. I had never had one with a partner, but it was something in my kinky brain I had always fantasized about. It was a beautiful black leather, handmade collar with a sturdy O-ring on the middle front, for the leash. And oh so subtly, but enough to see, were the words “Daddy's Girl” engraved on the front. He then pulled out the leash, which was made of chain, besides the handle which was leather, and subtly engraved on it, were three hearts, because he enjoys sending me three heart emojis in text messages. Having him put the collar on me was one of the most intimate experiences I believe I’ve ever experienced with someone. I had very vulnerable intimate experiences with Jake, a former Daddy (my first), but we had never gotten me a collar. After he put it on me, he told me I was officially his little girl. My heart melted. I had never felt so warm, and so turned on. I felt loved in a way I had always craved from a partner. The type of submissive I had always dreamed of being. And I felt that he too, naturally felt very paternalistic and loved gifting me the present of being daddy’s property. After that, we had the most passionate, and honest sex we’ve had since we met. I felt like it was for me, what getting the title of “girlfriend” or “partner” officially, is for others who are more vanilla minded. After fucking endlessly, and being all daddy's, we nuzzled up, giggled, he told me how adorable I was, bit my nose, pretending he ate it, and gave each other a bunch of little pecking kisses all over each others necks/chest/chins. I felt like we were connecting in the way we both had honestly been wanting to, and that we had both reached a level of trust in one another to be vulnerable enough to take on those roles.

Originally, I was going to go out for Pride, but in all honesty, I had a far better night.

In the morning, we woke up together, not wanting to get out of bed what. So. Ever. Nor could we stop giving each other affectionate kisses. Until, time started creeping by, and our stomachs started getting hungry enough to force ourselves up. He asked if I wanted to be taken out to brunch, and I said hell yeah, that sounds far better than the granola and cup of coffee I was planning on having at home! We got dressed, and walked down the road to a place called Paradox Café. ---Two steps backwards, it is fathers day, and I had to crack all the jokes to him, him being my Daddy and all --. For it being fathers day, we were only two people behind on the waitlist for the next table. We ordered food, people watched, talked about how therapy was going for him, and how he’s about to invest in a new digital camera, to start up yet another hobby. We chatted and stared into each other's cool eyes and giggled for most of the rest of the morning, until eventually time got to us, no food was left on our plate, and we had to start walking back towards home and heading separate ways. I’m one happy little girl though. I finally feel like a puzzle piece that has been missing in my puzzle of needs has been reconnected with one that fits just right. I feel warm and fuzzy. I’m cherishing it while it’s here. I’ve done a lot of other things in my life to get me here, but the extremely unexpected development this relationship that casually started back in the fall/early winter, is definitely a huge contribution.

[jadewing-realms]

“You think this troubles me?”

Nobody needs the distraction of meaningless prattle. Words that mean nothing, do nothing but clutter the air and make it hard to focus on the pertinent issues. So when the briefing room empties of all the superfluous jugheads who can’t contribute, leaving only the operatives known to the public as Ground Zero, Deku, and Crow clustered around the holographic map of the eastern edge of the Minato ward, the very last thing Bakugou Katsuki expects to hear spoken, out loud, in all seriousness, is:

“You should tell Uraraka how you feel.” 

And Deku’s not even kidding.

Katsuki can tell because the moment he hears those words, his head snaps up fast enough to make his vertebrae pop loose after hours of staring in the general ground-ward direction, and his childhood tagalong is wearing his Game Face. It’s the one where his big eyes are stunningly steady compared to his usual jitter and his mouth is set in a straight line instead of his trademark smile.

Of course, Katsuki responds to this out-of-the-blue declaration like any intelligent man would:

“What the f***??”

Unfortunately, this does nothing to deter the little nerd, who continues to stare at him from under his tense brow. Or at least, he does until it seems like his unruly fringe, draping from the front of his undercut, makes it incredibly difficult to do so and he tosses it aside with a jerk of his head. That seems to break his intense attempt to reprogram Katsuki’s brain via Eye Contact, and he leans both gloved hands casually on the edge of the projection table. “I’m serious.”

Katsuki gapes at him like a goldfish for three seconds before he glances around, checks for hidden cameras or anybody who might possibly be thinking it’s the perfect time to eavesdrop. When he finds none of the above, he levels his rival with a sturdy glare and replies quietly—just in case that All Clear status decides to change on a dime.

“The h***, Deku, you’re bringing this up now??” Katsuki snarls. “We’re f***in’ briefing. We’re about to set up a sting.”

“She’s gonna be there and I know you haven’t told her yet. It’s relevant.”

Katsuki scoffs. He knows about her involvement in this operation, of course. Uraraka told him about her recruitment just yesterday, when she accosted him as he came off the train platform on his way to his patrol. They’d both conveniently had the same idea to visit the same coffee shop en route, to her delight and his chagrin. Not that he didn’t—doesn’t—like her company. He wouldn’t still be dating her if he didn’t. At the time, she hadn’t reached her agency yet, her Hero suit in a duffel and herself clad in workout clothes instead and when he’d commented on her choice of wardrobe in late autumn, she admitted to jogging to the area instead of taking the train. Heck, she’d even invited him along some days, if he felt like it.

Which he did. He really, really did. Still does. They train together already, sure, but this would be even more time he’d get to delegate to her, and there’s a part of him that would do so gladly. But he hasn’t told her that; he can’t. For many reasons. Which he begrudgingly admitted to Deku not two weeks ago, under strict confidence. Some confidence. And quite honestly, he’s sure he’s been nothing but inconspicuous all this time. Ochako hasn’t even said anything. So where the h*** does Deku get off calling him out like this?

A thousand and one crude, defensive, perfectly appropriate responses flit past the forefront of his mind, except he can’t settle on a single one beyond his raw astonishment at Deku’s unnerving amount of gall. Instead, he gestures his speechlessness with an open palm and turns an ‘are you serious’ glance of confirmation to their third and senior companion. Crow, to his credit, keeps his arms folded, one delicate hand raised to press the crook of his index finger over his lips, and simply closes his black eyes to shake his head once. A refusal of involvement.

Smart man. Regrettably. Can’t he be partial to reason just this once? Why does Crow always have to be so good at this whole diplomat thing?

Deku’s not finished apparently. “You almost cost us the last op.”

“What!? In your dreams. I f***ing owned that op!” Katsuki spits back in defense. “I took both of those punks down with a single Howitzer.”

“After you almost managed to be taken hostage, which would have doubled our problems.” Deku raises an eyebrow. “You remember why that happened?”

“Don’t patronize me!”

“You banked everything on a joint Climbing Silver maneuver with Red Riot as your forward, risked both your safety and the whole operation, all because Uravity went down and Kirishima wasn’t about to let you charge in there by yourself like an idiot. You let her circumstances negatively effect your performance and it’s not the first time in the past month.”

Katsuki grinds his teeth, not needing or appreciating the reminder of his embarrassingly risky life decisions. They’re his business, d*** it, Ochako-centric or not. It’s not like Deku can prove a thing either, so really, the two of them are the only people who know that what he’s accusing Katsuki of is 100% true. It’s been hard to keep his head in the game lately, not that he’d make it obvious to anybody else. Though, by the way Crow’s eyes are darting between them while he himself remains silent, Katsuki gets the idea that their intuitive handler doesn’t need proof to sense what’s really going on. He’s always been annoyingly perceptive.

Katsuki will throw himself into traffic before he admits his own guilt, though. To anybody, especially his nerdy co-worker and his operation manager. Contrary to popular opinion, he does have a sense of dignity. It’s for that same reason he hasn’t told Ochako about his doubts yet.

He just… needs time. He can’t just come out and tell her that the rational part of him has been questioning their relationship ever since he came back from America. He can’t let her know how deep he’s in, not now… Maybe not ever. For many reasons. Top of the list being that, as he plunges headlong into his career, he’s not sure if there’s even going to be room for her in his narcissistic heart, dead-set on becoming the #1 Hero. After what she went through with her previous boyfriend back in high school… it wouldn’t be fair.

It’s her or his ambitions, and he’s not sure he’s ready to make that decision.

Until he sorts out his s***, it doesn’t matter how his heart leaps every time she says ‘hey Katsuki!’, using his first name like she already f***ing owns it, and he turns to find her with that boxy, utterly-adorable smile of hers on that goofy round face; doesn’t matter how many secrets they share, how many nights spent swapping dumb stories under the stars, decked out in full Hero gear on top of some building somewhere… yeah, no matter what, he can’t say a word. Because he doesn’t want to lose any of that until he decides he has no choice.

“I don’t have to listen to this,” Katsuki grumbles, averting his eyes to the map in front of them. He tries to focus on the target location, tries to think of possible exit routes and most likely wrenches, but he can’t freaking focus, not with Deku’s eyes boring into him from across the table. “You guys were the ones who brought me in for this. If you don’t want me here, then make up your d*** minds.”

“Your CO already signed the paperwork,” is the first and most terribly unhelpful thing Crow says.

D***, that means he’s locked in here until the operation’s over. Stupid paperwork! Why the h*** would Mirko do that to him? After all the song and dance against joint efforts…

“I’m just thinking about Uraraka. And the operation,” Deku adds, his expression taking on that incredibly earnest air of I Mean Everything I’m About to Say. “It’s going to take time and patience and plenty of risk, especially for her… If you get caught up in this… whatever it is, you’ll be putting her in danger. You’re the one who’s always saying she can more than handle herself. So we all need your guarantee that you won’t let anything cloud your judgment, and I honestly think that coming clean to her would be the best way to avoid that! That’s all.”

“Like h***,” Katsuki scoffs, keeping his ire directed at the hologram. It’s better than being subjected to that infuriatingly kind face that he just knows Deku’s giving him right now. He knows the nerd is talking about more than just the operation at this point. He’s not a moron… Even after their breakup, Deku and Ochako have been irritatingly close, and Deku’s never ceased to jump to her defense at the drop of a hat. His bleeding heart also renders him too sympathetic to Katsuki’s plight to outright accuse him of anything, so instead, he translates over to this incessant advice crap.

News flash for the nerd: Katsuki doesn’t need his concern. Or his help.

Besides. Doesn’t he understand that giving Katsuki advice on his relationship with his ex-girlfriend is like, the weirdest s*** ever?

But never let it be said Deku knows when to stop talking. “You just seem so… troubled lately. You’ve been in this sorta fog for the longest time, even Sasuke noticed the other day. He says he actually managed to hit you without activating his Reaper.”

Katsuki feels a vein pop in his forehead. That b*****d actually told him that!? The h***, why would he do that? Well, that’s it, their regular sparring sessions are done. He’s not about to subject himself to this on a regular basis, if the moron’s just gonna turn around and blab all his weaknesses to f***ing Deku.

“You’re both delusional,” Katsuki accuses. His angst is none of their d*** business. The defense is lacking in fire, though, because quite suddenly, a heavy sense of Tired has taken to hanging off his shoulders like Crow’s four-year-old brat. This whole conversation is honestly the last thing he wants to deal with right now and it’s draining him out like yesterday’s coffee.

“Kacchan, you can’t just… leave her hanging! Itachi, can help me out here?” Deku finally concedes his inability to convince Katsuki of anything. Which is really something he should’ve been convinced of within their first year of half-baked friendship back when they were kids. But then, Deku’s always been a bit slow in the Giving Up department. The fact that he’s looking for confirmation from the person who just denied it from Katsuki irks the latter enough to make him privately seethe.

The elder Uchiha in question lowers his hand from his mouth just enough to shake his head unhindered. “Mm, don’t bring me into this. I’m just waiting for you to finish.”

“But even you’ve noticed how weird he’s being lately, right?” Deku’s fishing and Katsuki doesn’t try to hide how insulted he is by this.

Thankfully, Crow remains neutral. “And you think this troubles me?”

Thank you! Finally, someone on his side. Kind of.

Deku looks a bit surprised that his Moral Endeavor isn’t being properly supported by the only other empathetic being in the room. “B-But, wait a second. It’s gotten to the point of effecting performance rates. I just said that.”

“F***ing lay off, Deku,” Katsuki spits, tired of his friend’s crap. He’s stopped sounding concerned and now he’s just being nosy. “You’re the one not focusing here.”

“This is a legitimate concern to me,” Deku reiterates, gesturing into the space between them with a stiff hand that demonstrates his inflexibility on this issue. “Things can go haywire fast when personal issues get tangled up in professional operations.”

“Yeah, ‘cause you’d know all about that,” Katsuki needles and he knows it’s not fair, but he’s always had an on-point Bulls*** Radar. Deku possesses an uncanny knack for setting it off. Usually when his Naive Idealism comes into outright conflict with Practical Experience, which Katsuki knows both he and Deku have in spades.

“Hey, I’m working on it!” Deku looks a bit hurt. “That’s why I’m even saying anything right now!”

“Okay.” The single word from Crow crashes between them like a grand piano dropped from a crane, and it shuts them both up quick. Their handler snatches up their attention without moving a muscle from his pensive position.

Once he’s certain he has them captive, Crow goes on. “Ground Zero is correct. This is something of a rabbit trail. However, if any of our operatives has concerns for their safety or the safety of others, I want to keep that in consideration. I’ll review the roles and see if we can move things around to best avoid conflicts of interest. I’ll run the final setup by you, Deku, before I send it on for approval from Insight. Does that sound agreeable to you?”

Deku rubs the back of his neck. He doesn’t look the happiest, but he knows a good compromise when he sees one. He nods. “Yes, thank you.”

Katsuki just glares daggers at the traitorous wretch, while Crow continues heedless.

“Good. And I trust this won’t be an issue in the future?” Crow’s bottomless gaze shifts toward Katsuki and it’s both pointed and soft. He knows that look. It means he’d like to Explain to Katsuki a Thing but is otherwise refraining for obvious reasons of professionalism. That look can either be good or very bad. Sometimes both simultaneously. Katsuki hates it.

Stiffening, he clenches his fingers against the edge of the table, the blue light from the hologram highlighting every crease over his knuckles. He shoots his senior a glare tailored just for him. “Of f***ing course! What the h*** kind of question is that?”

Crow holds up a placating hand and turns away, relinquishing the subject. Which is more than can be said regarding Deku, who’s gone back to staring at Katsuki like he can read his thoughts written on the slopes of his forehead, his steady gaze promising more uncomfortable confrontation to come in the near future.

Katsuki’s going to have to watch his back for a while.

[janeykath318]

Repost of Old Fic

Jim x Reader (left out the read more thing so you can all see it)

(Science Officer Jim AU)

It was a slow shift in Medbay when You got a call from the science labs informing of an accident. Somebody had blown themselves up again, apparently. Your boss sighed heavily upon hearing the news.

“S’probably Jim. Kid can’t go a month without making something go BOOM. He’s a genius, but an absolute menace, I tell you.”

“I haven’t met the guy, so I’ll take your word for it,” you said, with some curiosity. Leonard had mentioned his nerdy best friend many times, but you’d only been on the ship three weeks, so you hadn’t yet encountered said Jim.

“Well, you’re about to right now,” McCoy sighed, nodding at the limping blue clad figure being helped through the door by two sturdy red shirts.

The CMO gestured the group over to a biobed and you looked him over, assessing his condition. He looked a little dazed and was sneezing continually, dirty blonde hair sticking up wildy and dark-rimmed glasses askew on his face.

He didn’t appear to be bleeding or anything, but the chances of having been exposed to noxious gases looked high, and you scanned him with the tricorder, while Leonard questioned his dazed patient.

“What did ya do this time, Kid?” He asked in exasperation. “Please tell me you had your mask on this time.”

“I did,” Jim wheezed. “Took it off too soon, I think.”

Leonard groaned loudly and started lecturing Jim about being an idiot while you scanned him quickly and prepped the hypo, handing it to Leonard, who quickly administered it to Jim.

“Ow, Bones,” he complained, rubbing his neck. “Warn a Guy next time.”

“Keep your safety mask on next time,” Leonard countered.

“Did you hurt your leg, Lieutenant?” You asked, addressing Jim for the first time. He fixed his reddened blue eyes on you and for a split second you were distracted by their color. “I’m Nurse Y/N, by the way,” you added.

“Bones didn’t tell me he’d got a new nurse,” the patient said. Pleased to meet you Y/N. I’m Jim Kirk. Yeah, I think I got some glass from the explosion in my leg.”

“I’ll take care of it,” you said, before Leonard could harrumph again.

It was a tedious process getting the tiny bits of glass out, but Jim was cooperative and quite a delight to you. (His cuteness didn’t hurt either). He chattered about his science projects enthusiastically (once he was done with the oxygen treatment for his smoke inhalation) and complimented your steady hands as you removed shard after shard.

“There you go, Jim,” you said, having finished cleaning and bandaging. “You’ll all set.”

“Thank you, Nurse Y/N,” he responded. “I’m such a doofus and I’m afraid you’ll see a lot of me down here. I’m kind of accident prone.”

“Let’s hope they’re all very minor accidents,” you told him, adding in a low tone. “He gets really grumpy when you’re hurt.”

Jim laughed and he looked even more attractive. You were seriously in danger now of falling under his spell and were glad Len had left the room for the moment. That man had an uncanny knack for sensing attraction going on, even though he always denied it.

“Yeah, he does. I’m in for another lecture after shift,” Kirk sighed. “Am I allowed to leave now?”

Before you could answer, a thunderous “NO!” Came from Len, who returned to lay down the law, poking furiously at a PADD.

“I want you in here for a few hours to make sure everything’s cleared up. No ifs, ands, or buts!”

At Jim’s disgruntled expression, the doctor waggled his finger at him like a parent scolding a misbehaving child.

“Maybe that will teach you to quit being careless with your life, kid.” He admonished. After another quick checkup, he told you what needed watched and moved on to the next patient.

Jim looked very annoyed and you sympathized with him. Medbay wasn’t a place one wanted to spend much time in unless they worked there.

He straightened his glasses and sighed.

“He’s such a tyrant sometimes,” he sighed. “He could take lessons from you in bedside manner.”

“He’s like that with the people he worries about most,” you explained. “You have the fortune—or misfortune—Of Being one of those.”

“Well, since he’s got such a nice nurse, I guess I’ll survive,” Jim sighed, smiling at you in a way that made your cheeks heat up.

“I didn’t know the science type could be so smooth,” you replied, with a smirk.

“Oh, you’d be surprised,” Jim replied. “I can occasionally not be horribly awkward around the ladies, especially one I really like.”

His own face grew beet red as he spoke and you were charmed.

“You only just met me. How do you know I’m likable?” You playfully countered.

“First off, Bones doesn’t work that closely with the nurses he doesn’t like, and two I just get those good vibes from you.”

“I’m glad I give off positive energy, but I’m not allowed to flirt with the patients, no matter how adorable they are,” you informed him, “but if perhaps we were to run into each other off duty, we could continue this conversation,” you hinted, working hard at skirting that line.

Jim took the hint and behaved himself, but was unusually good natured and Leonard stared after him suspiciously after he’d been released and practically pranced out of Medbay.

A few days later, Jim didn’t sit by him during lunch and Leonard was beginning to be worried, until he spotted his best friend sitting across from his new nurse, the two of you flirting hard and oblivious to anyone around them.

“Damnit it, Jim,” he groaned. “Can’t trust you anywhere.”

[solo-trio]

High Significance (Ch. 2)

Words- 2.2 K

Warnings- Slight suggestive themes, Marijuana use, Marijuana mention, Angst

A/N- As I promised, here’s chapter 2! I’m moving to Japan tomorrow so it may be a bit before I post any new content but Please Enjoy!

The next morning you had hoped to talk to Kylo before he departed for the day. Hands shaky and sweat tickling your hairline, you sipped green tea in the kitchen. The calming effect the tea usually provided was overshadowed by your flickering mind. You finally heard a noise in the direction of his room and froze. He rushed out, only barely glancing at you. “Morning.” you just wanted to hear his voice at this point. 

“Morning,” he mumbled, gathering his coat and scarf off the rack near the door. 

“I made some tea for you.” The cup sat on the counter. Steam rising from rim as the smoke had from you yesterday. Kylo didn’t make any move to acknowledge it. 

“No thanks,” He mumbled while halfway out of the house. Your tears cascaded down your cheeks before the definitive slam of the door echoed through your abode that felt warmer without Kylo.  It was not the kind of warmth that you felt from the tea, the warmth that caressed your throat and blossomed in your chest, but rather an highly intense warmth, as if the lights in the kitchen had been magnified and every slimy and disgusting corner of you was exposed and you were alone because no one thought you were worth it. Your elbows grew sore as you stood numb, shoulders hunched, leaning against the granite.

The following week was the hardest your relationship had faced thus far. You quickly learned the dynamic between the four of you when the vibes surrounding were less than good. Ben and Matt had been kind but you could feel them receding their affections. There were less kisses, jokes, and smiling in general. Matt and Ben respected Kylo’s reluctance and you were glad they did. The brothers strong respect for each other is what helped this unique arrangement flourish. You had barely seen Kylo other than in the mornings when you strived to make things right. You threw yourself into work not being able to take the other siblings slight coldness also. Your superiors all commented on your impressive dedication but less than presentable appearance. The nights that you had spent crying alone in your room had manifested on your face in dark circles and a splotchy complexion. 

 Throughout the days that dragged on, Kylo’s anger had converted into pity and guilt. Seeing you trying everything to keep him melted his heart, as your respect for his space also had. Late at night he went sleepless, wishing to feel purpose as he caged you in his hold. He imagined you banging his door down to demand an end to his stupidity before he apologized, kissed you, and reminded you how devoted he was. A small noise deep in the night would break him out of his contemplating. Straining to listen, he realized it was sobbing he had heard, coming from you. He covered his face with his large hands attempting to avoid crying with you. He hated himself after he closed the door on you morning after morning, the regret growing nearer to unbearable. You had lied though. That simple fact shook him to the core. Kylo loved how being with you was unfiltered and without agenda. The betrayal wretched his mind to the possibilities of what else he didn’t know about the girl he held above all. He was blowing it out of proportion, he knew, but his emotions controlled him when something like this happened. 

 While you worked overtime, Ben and Matt waited at home for Kylo, who was also spending more time away from home than usual. They laughed at the similarities between you two as they stood in the kitchen. They saw Kylo enter, sweep the room for you, then proceed upstairs. “Kylo,” Ben called out. Kylo proceeded upstairs without any indication of pausing. 2/3 of the Solo Organa triplets chased after their pouting sibling. Barging into his room, Ben and Matt couldn’t stand to see the flame of their happiness sputter because of Kylo’s stubbornness any longer. It was time for them to forgive, forget, and move on. “Kylo, What’s your deal? Is it really that significant that you don’t love her anymore?” Ben stood in Kylo’s room initiating the conversation they should’ve been hashed out days ago. 

“Of course not!,” Kylo looked down already willing to forgive her but wanting to present his troubles to his brothers just once in hopes that they’d understand, “but she lied and I gotta be honest it hurts.” His voice broke, just barely at the end, but Matt caught it. 

“I know Kylo. It’s hard for you to trust people.  But it’s not like that with her. She didn’t lie out of malice or deceit. What she does doesn’t hurt anyone. She’s been a gift and the fact that we’ve all had personal things come to light that she’s been very accepting of makes it really unfair that she’s getting judged for this right now.” Matt eloquently laid out what he and Ben had agreed upon from the first moment she had apologized. 

Kylo felt even more guilt. He knew that, of all three brothers, you had tried considerably to make him feel loved and accepted despite his very prominent flaws. This was the confrontation he needed, to finally get past his doubts and to put a quiet to his persistently hostile mind. He drew in a great amount of air, paused, and nodded. Ben patted him on the shoulder. 

“We’re glad bro. We love you and so does she.”

“Yeah. Thank you guys” Kylo, freed from the chains of paranoia, changed and waited impatiently for you come home. 

As you stripped out of your outer layers and ditched your black heels, you heard Ben and Matt talking in living room. You wandered in to see them playing video games together and joking around. A smile grew on your features for the first time since the incident. Matt glanced to the entrance of the den, feeling a presence. When he saw you, his eyes lit up from the excitement of getting to be as affectionate with you as he could now that Kylo was feeling better. Seeing Matt smiling so happily up at you filled your heart with gratefulness after the drought of attention from your thoughtful nerdy muffin of a boyfriend. He nudged Ben who eyes twinkled at you also. You felt tears of happiness sting your eyes. 

“Hiya babe. Welcome home,” he greeted. 

You giggled with cloudy vision. 

“Hi,” you responded. 

Matt mentioned something about snacks as he got up and headed for the kitchen. “I can get them for you,” you offered. He grabbed your arm as you turned and pulled you back to him. He dipped you and delivered a generous kiss to you lips, leaning you back slightly. You hugged him tightly as he kissed you and slowly brought you both back to vertical. 

“I got it beautiful. Why don’t you go change and we can figure out dinner.” He kissed your forehead and strode off. Your heart was humming in your chest as your skin burned where contact had been. You only thought of how happy you were that things were back to normal. On the brief journey to the stairs though, fear towards Kylo and your’s stance replaced your current delight . Would he be as kind today as Matt and Ben? Would he forgive you? Your hand connected to the railing and your feet proceeded one after another up the carpeted steps. 

“Welcome home.” A voice yanked you from your thoughts and to the second floor. There Kylo stood with a warm smile aimed at your climbing figure. Hearing more than two words from him broke you down. His smile blasted away all your hesitation and fear of rejection. You would do anything to keep that smile and the man it belonged to. The sounds of your stomps now propelling you up the stairs echoed through the stairwell as tears leaked from you. You threw yourself into his arms, clutching to him as much as your strength would allow. There was nothing but your need for him. “Please Kylo I’m so sorry. I love you so much. I’m so sorry I lied to you. Please don’t hate me. I’m so sorry Kylo. It’ll never happen again.” You sobbed into his chest. His own eyes unable to hold back a few tears as relief crashed into him, each wave more liberating. He encircled you with his sturdy arms and relished getting to hold you once more. He now felt complete. Kissing your cheeks, temples and forehead, he apologized himself. 

“I’m so sorry for being such a dick. I forgive you. I love you,” he whispered to you. You lifted your head and pulled back slightly only to give your hand room against his cheek. You missed everything about the way he felt. He drew you back in to the closest proximity possible and deeply kissed you. You refused to let him go even after you both had to catch your breath. 

“Sweet girl,” he growled. You kissed repeatedly on the second floor platform until they grew desperate,hungry and he whisked you to his room where you voiced your love for each other in breathy confessions and choked praises. 

You laid with him in his bed, wrapped in his arms. You ran your hands through his dark hair, sighing happily while feeling the silky strands flow through your grasp. You rested against his chest as he did your favorite thing and ran his fingertips gently across your bare back. You lengthened you neck to kiss him hard. “We should go down. They’re probably getting hungry,” you suggested, pulling away. Kylo’s stomach, as if on cue, rumbled and he looked away as a blush exploded on his cheeks. You giggled, kissed over his stomach and rolled out of bed. He groaned at having to relinquish his much-needed time with you. You threw a T-shirt of his on and assured him you’d be waiting downstairs for him. “I expect more make up time” he grumbled. You rolled your eyes at his adorable neediness and clasped his hand to venture to the first floor.

You, Ben and Matt were drawing up a list of dinner options. You just waited on Kylo for his input. He leaned against a wall and you questioned what he was craving. At this moment, a thought popped into his head. There was no reason to it but wanting to show you he really was sorry and willing to reserve judgment. He would’ve never even considered it before, but he admitted to himself that everything he did with you was fun and memorable and opened himself up. 

“I think we should smoke then order pizza. I hear it’s good,” he suggested as he would’ve ordering Chinese or cooking. The three at the island’s mouths and eyes immediately gaped open.

“Dude your kidding, right?” Ben tried to rationalize what he thought he heard Kylo say. 

“No, I want to try it” Kylo replied in his usual serious tone. You moved to have somewhat of a private conversation with him as Ben and Matt stood baffled. 

“Kylo are you sure? I don’t want you to feel pressured to do anything you’re against.” you voiced your worry at his sudden eagerness to partake in the activity that just threw your relationship for a spin. 

“You like it right? And plus, if I’m going to be so against it I might as well experience it for myself right?” His explanation made sense, so you nodded and turned to the other two. 

“Are you guys cool with that?” you inquired. 

“Family smoke sesh!!” Ben yelled enthusiastically as Matt nodded contently. 

 You packed a bowl and all sat on the balcony. Kylo whispered in your ear how he only wanted to do it if you were on his lap the whole time. You comfortably positioned yourself against his cool body and clicked the lighter awake to take the first hit. You laughed as you got high, tried to teach Kylo how to smoke, and witnessed each of your boyfriends cough wildly on separate hits. You snuggled Kylo as the evening wind caressed your skin, encouraging goosebumps. “I love you.” You rested your head on his shoulder as you watched two of your favorite things come together. Kylo expelled the smoke in a slow way letting it thicken before releasing it. You wondrously watched the mass stretch towards the sky until it disappeared. Kylo kissed your head and passed you the pipe. You became hypnotized as you shot gunned each of the boys. Watching them exhale the smoke they gathered from your lips made you inexplicably happy and a good deal aroused. While they teased you for being a giddy dork, the doorbell rang. Matt got the pizza and you all scrambled in to get a bite. You looked at Kylo as he downed a slice. 

“It’s really good.” He rolled his eyes at everyone waiting for a reaction. 

You popped in a movie and did your best to cuddle with all three of them. They separately whispered needy praises in your ear before your night took a turn for the better. Smoking with the boys was definitely something you’d be doing more often. 

[velvetchen]

Dynamic | pt. i

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Scenario: Superhero AU Pairing: Chen/Reader Word Count: 1830 Rating: T (warning for language)

Summary: You’re the leading superhero of the city, and you’ve fought Dynamo for years. It’s the way it should be - good vs. evil, hero vs. villain. But what happens when a bigger evil threatens everything?

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The warehouse is dark. Really dark.

Your steps echo on the damp concrete ground, your bright fuschia suit dull and grey in the small light that streams through the holes in the roofing. You would use your powers to move around, maybe find a good hiding spot – but damn, it was getting even darker. You can barely see a thing. From memory you know there should be a mezzanine lining the back wall and a couple of storage units right about –

“Fuck!” you hiss as you crash into something heavy and metal. There was the storage unit, so the mezzanine stairs should be to your left. Maybe you can hide up there to get a good look at the playing field. If only it weren’t so goddamned dark. Your arch nemesis really had great taste.

A buzzing crack lights the air behind you in bright fluorescence. Too late. You whirl around on your heel, raising your Protogun. As if it would help – all the sonic pulses would dissipate too quickly at this range.

A figure floats right above the giant doorway you’d entered through, illuminated eerily by the lightning crackling over his hands and over his arms. He wears a matte black helmet that lets you see none of his face. You know who it is, though.

“Have you been there the whole time, Dynamo?” you growl, your voice echoing back at you. You don’t lower your gun. Your posture stiffens, muscles tensing, ready to move. In the light coming off him you scout out a few landings you could spring to if you needed, and a large hulking object that looked sturdy enough to guard from any fire.

He doesn’t say anything, just chuckles, and suddenly he’s whizzing towards you, still floating. Damn those Hoverboots. You’ve been wanting those for ages, but they’re just too expensive. Besides, you’re hard enough to catch on your own.

Dynamo stops about twenty feet away, the electricity still rippling over his body. “I could have struck you anytime, and you never would have seen it coming.” He throws his head back and laughs again.

This irks you more than you want to admit. “Well, why didn’t you!”

“You did invite me to a fair duel. As far as I know, striking you unawares is cheating.”

You scowl.

“See? I’m not so evil, after all.” You know behind that mask he’s grinning, even though you’ve never seen his face.

You shift your weight from foot to foot, feeling foolish. “Let’s just start.”

“Yes, m’lady.” And then, in a flash, his lightning bolts are shooting out towards you in a wide arc. Your eyes go wide and you move just as quickly, blinking out of view and reappearing fifteen feet in the air, just above the attack. You know if you teleport closer it’ll just be easier for him to strike. You need to play smarter.

Thing is, he usually outwits you.

As you fall back to the ground, you fire a pulse from your gun. It’s a lucky shot. Hit him in the leg. Even at this distance, the pulses are still too weak to do any real damage. You’d increase the power setting, but this is a duel, not an actual battle. Anything lethal is forbidden - and that includes your primary weapon, the Blade. 

Dynamo barely flinches at the shot. He responds with two bolts of lightning instead, crackling along the ground like whips, moving along the damp floor right toward you. You blink out and reappear right behind him, pushing the gun straight into the small of his back. Before you can pull the trigger, you feel the electricity moving through the gun and into your hand. The muscle spasms and you’re forced to let go. You blink, moving in the air and vaulting up onto the mezzanine.

There’s your gun, though. On the ground. Right next to him. You spit out a few choice words.

His laugh carries up to you. “Dynamo, one. Rush, zero. Try again?” He tosses your gun up into the air and you catch it. It’s powered off, probably fried by his lightning. You swear again and smack it with your palm, hard. Nothing.

“I’m going to get you-”

“Not if I get you first!” He’s laughing. This is fun for him – he isn’t taking it seriously. He isn’t taking you seriously. You grit your teeth. You won’t let him win again.

He gathers his lightning up in his hands again, a dense ball of crackling electricity that you recognize as one of his “signature moves.”

You smile. Maybe it’s time to try out a signature move of your own.

Just as the lightning leaves his hand, you drop into a crouch. Then you blink. You’re at his feet. He sees you, but it’s too late. You sweep your leg out in a wide circle, knocking him onto his back. His helmet hits the ground with a thunk. Then you’re on top of him, ignoring the little shocks of electricity where the fabric of your suit touches his. He can kill you anytime. Pump a lethal amount of electricity into your body and stop your heart.

But this is a duel. You smile, your hands around his throat tightening and your knees on either side, pinning him down. “If I had my Blade, you would be dead.”

“If you had your Blade, this wouldn’t be a fair duel.” He sounds annoyed, like he can’t believe you actually cornered him. The score is evened.

Your smile grows sickly sweet. “Exactly.” You climb off him and extend your hand to help him up. “I hope you pay me back for the Protogun you ruined. Those are expensive.”

Dynamo takes your hand. A strong shock runs through it, more powerful than the last one. “Fucking ow! You asshole!” You drop his hand and clutch yours. He laughs hard, slapping the ground.

“There,” he breathes in between bursts of laughter. “Payment.”

“Screw you, Dynamo, what the hell?” The shock’s gone now, but your hand still throbs.

He gets to his feet and hovers so that you have to crane your neck back almost painfully. “That’s what you get for knocking me on my back with no warning.”

“It was a fight! What did you expect me to do, hug you?”

“I wouldn’t complain if you did.” You could imagine that devilish grin again.

“I know you can’t see behind my mask, but I hope you know I’m rolling my eyes really hard right now.”

“Thanks for telling me.” He starts to move backwards. You can still hear the smile in his voice.

“Thanks for letting me know I entertain you so much!”

“Thanks for almost shooting me point-blank!”

“Again, it was a fucking fight!” You have to yell to reach him at the far end of the warehouse. “Fuck off, Dynamo!”

You hear him laugh as he flies up and out of an open window. So that’s how he got in. Sighing, you just walk over to your dead Protogun and pick it back up. Hopefully your nerdy roommates will know how to rewire it.  

You close your eyes and think of the little abandoned shed not too far from here, where you stashed your clothes and other weapons. Teleporting long distances usually takes a lot of energy, so you try not to jump into places with a lot of people. Like your house, for example. Neither of your roommates actually know you're, well, a superhero. They just think you're unusually obsessed with cosplaying Rush, which isn’t out of the ordinary. Rush is pretty popular, if you say so yourself.

You open your eyes, and you're in the shed. Your pink backpack is right where you left it, covered by an old cardboard box. You pull it out and rummage for your clothes, quickly stripping out of your supersuit and pulling on the old jeans and t-shirt. Then, your glasses. You pull your hair out of its high ponytail and let it hang down around your face. Like this - quiet, mousy Y/N - nobody could ever confuse you for Rush, the badass, foulmouthed superhero that’s been saving the city for years.

Saving it from none other than Dynamo, of course.

There are a couple of other villains here and there, but Dynamo is a supervillain. He usually pulls off the big stuff, like bank heists and plane hijackings and whatnot. But you've been fighting each other for so long that you felt almost like...friends.

Friends that tried to kill each other, anyway.

You pack everything up and sling the backpack on your back. Then you step out of the shed and onto a quiet street in the suburbs.

You know this area well enough, you guess. You’re a volunteer teacher at the district elementary school, and quite a few of your students live in this neighborhood. That's how you found this shed, tucked away near a patch of forest, and set up base.

Hiking your pack higher on your shoulders, you start down the pavement, pulling your phone out of your pocket as you walk.

3 new messages.

One was a marketing message. You deleted it. The other two were from your roommate, Kyungsoo.

Soo: Hey Y/N Soo: I'll be out this weekend, I'm visiting some friends. Just letting you know

You quickly tap out a reply.

Y/N: No problem Soo, thanks for the heads-up!

The phone drops from your hands as you collide with something solid for the second time today. You watch in horror as a crack slashes across the screen.

 "Oh my god, I'm so sorry, are you all right?"

You look up into the eyes of a guy, maybe a few years older than you. He’s flushed and slightly sweaty, like he's been running.

"No, no, it's my fault, I should know better than to text while walking-" You laugh nervously as he bends over to pick up the phone for you. When he notices the crack he frowns, almost pouting. “I’m sorry, I can get that fixed for you.”

“It’s totally okay,” you say, smiling again. “No worries at all. Sorry for crashing into you?”

He grins, the corners of his mouth turning up and his eyes crinkling into half-moons. “It’s good. I wasn’t looking where I was going either.” His smile turns sheepish. “Hey, do you live around here? I don’t recognize you.”

“No, um, I’m just passing through,” you say, laughing nervously again.

“Oh. Nice meeting you. I’m Jongdae,” he says, holding his hand out. You grasp it uncertainly and shake, once, your skin tingling oddly where it touches his. Damn nerves. “I’m Y/N, nice to meet you too.”

“See you around, Y/N,” he says, then shoves his hands in his pockets and starts off, whistling a light tune.

You look at your hand. It’s still tingling. Then you look back at him as he walks away. He was handsome, sure, but handsome enough to give you butterflies all over? You shake your head and head off, too. 

[rayhneatess]

The Extra Paladin

Summary: Shiro has been brought back and now, there is an extra paladin. No one knows what to do about it and who should stay behind. Because of this, Lance is left questioning his role and importance in the team, wondering if he will be the one left behind.

Rating: K/G

Genre: General

"Form Voltron!"

The black lion condensed, and Keith watched as Red, formed the arm. Lance was still trying to get the hang of the lion and he was glad he could be in synch with it. All he had been doing as of late was letting his team down. Especially since Shiro came back.

It was as if he made even more mistakes than before. For some reason the only time he didn't make a mistake was when he was forming Voltron. And that may have just been because Red appreciated Keith enough to help him out by forming the right piece.

"Disband!" Again the lion followed Keith's order, and Lance sighed. Even when he had been in Blue, he had made a mess of things. Lance had never really been a leg kind of guy. He wasn't sturdy, didn't hold the team together very well, and above all, he wasn't dependable. Being the arm was far more his style, but he feared he may have to give it up soon.

The team headed into their holding rooms and Lance waited until the others were on the bridge. He then walked over to the blue lion's holding. "Hey buddy." He reached his hand out, but Blue kept silent. "Look, I know I'm not your paladin anymore, but I was hoping I could at least talk to you." At this, Blue leaned down, head nuzzling into Lance's palm. Lance smiled and looked up at the big lion, unaware that the others on the bridge were now watching him through the security cameras they had installed.

"What is he doing?" Allura asked, getting ready to stomp down to her lion and drag him away, but Pidge put her arm out and stopped her.

"Wait, I think he just wants to talk to Blue." Allura stepped back and huffed, annoyed that another paladin would want to talk to her lion. Keith, Shiro, and Pidge watched intently, listening to what Lance had to say.

"I'm not really sure what to do Blue." The lion purred into his hand. "Maybe I'm just not good enough for this."

The lion pulled back and snapped at him, as though telling him he was wrong, and Lance replied as though he understood the creature.

"Right, but everyone is doing wonderful. And now that Shiro is back, Keith will go back to Red. Allura is most definitely your rightful paladin, so where does that leave me?" Pidge wanted to go in there and tell him off, tell him that he was being an idiot. However, Keith held her back.

"No Pidge. He needs to get this out."

"On top of that," Lance continued, "everyone else has their uses. I don't. I mean Pidge is really good at anything nerdy. Coran knows how to run the castle, and Allura is necessary to run the castle. Hunk is a fantastic cook and Shiro is a wonderful leader. Keith, I don't really know exactly what his purpose is." Lance had sat down, Blue laying down, head in Lance's lap.

"That little-" Keith was getting ready to march in there when Lance spoke again.

"However, Keith is better than me, in every way. So what does that leave me with?" Blue made a sound similar to a whimper and a whine. "Exactly. Nothing." Blue whined again and Lance stood up. "No buddy. I honestly don't know."

Everyone was watching with curiosity. "He can actually understand them?" Allura was the one who posed the question, and everyone exchanged glances. They didn't know, and honestly, none of them could actually understand them like they were speaking their language to them. They turned back to the conversation.

"I don't know if I'm going to leave yet. I haven't decided, it's not exactly like I have anywhere to go. At least, not where I would actually be wanted." Blue snapped again. "Maybe by you. But what about the others?"

Blue looked around and Lance did as well, seeing Red not too far from them. "Oh come on, Red would prefer Keith, we all know that."

Snapping once again, teeth clanging, Blue gently gripped Lance's shirt and pulled him over to Red. Lance nodded and slowly put his hand out to Red, waiting for the lion to bite his hand off. Instead, Red nuzzled him, a lot like the blue lion had done at first. Red whined, and again Lance responded as though he knew exactly what the lion was saying. "Yeah huh. You so would."

Red snapped, and everyone looked at each other. "Do you think he can understand all of them or just-"

"Yellow did not say that Red! I heard what he said to you." They all looked back at the screen, confused when they saw all five lions there, surrounding Lance. He turned to Hunk's lion and tapped the metal nose. "Bad boy. You can't say those words even if Red was wrong about what you called-"

"That answers that question." Pidge looked up at the screen they were watching to see Lance laughing. He hadn't laughed really since Shiro came back and Pidge wondered if he had held a grudge. Frowning, the younger girl walked to the bridge, no one wanting to stop her.

"Hey Lance."

Lance looked up to see Pidge standing there, a worried look on her face. "Oh, hey Pidge. What's up?" His smile changed, and Pidge could tell it wasn't as real as the one he'd originally had before.

"I just wanted to come and see how you were doing."

"I'm good, just talking to the lions."

Pidge took in a breath before asking the question everyone on the bridge wanted to know. "Can you actually understand them?"

"Well yeah. Aren't we supposed to? Wasn't that part of basic training?"

"But you can actually understand them like they are speaking English to you."

Lance just nodded before getting up. "Look, I'm gonna go rest, I didn't really have the best training session today. I did almost blow you up after all." He smiled sadly before leaving her alone. Everyone had left the bridge after that revelation, to go and think about it.

When he got to his room, Lance took a shower and then changed into his night clothes. He put his headphones on before lying down. Lance turned to face the wall, knowing that no one would just walk in without knocking first. Not that he could hear the knocks anyway.

He thought about what Keith said. "It will all work itself out, don't worry about it." Or something. Contrary to popular belief, he liked to have a plan. He liked to know exactly how things were going down, because then, even if things got messed up, he could at least have some sense of direction. What Keith had said was not useful at all. It didn't encourage him in any way. In fact, it wasn't really an answer to the question that had been looping in Lance's mind. It may have even added more.

Lance groaned as he realized something was shaking him. He turned away from the wall to see Keith standing there. "Lance! I've been yelling at you through the wall for like ten minutes!"

Lance rolled his eyes. They always did that. Yelled through their shared wall at the other. "What do you want?"

"I want to know what's wrong with you." Somehow, Lance had managed to take his headphones off without realizing it, and he watched as they dropped to his bed.

"Nothing is wrong."

"That is bullshit and you know it. Now tell me."

"What did you really think when I came to you a few days ago, after Shiro got back?"

Keith frowned in confusion. "You mean about you leaving the team?" When Lance nodded, Keith's frown deepened. "I don't think you should. I think if anyone should leave it's me-"

Lance snapped his head up and glared at Keith. "No. You have more you can offer this team than I do."

"Lance. Man, come on. I can't adapt easily to situations like you can. I can't have a good joke at any time. All I can do well is brood."

"No disagreement here."

Keith scoffed before continuing. "My point is, you have strengths that keep us all together. If you left the team would fall apart. Look at what you did for me. I never would have gone into the black lion if it wasn't for you. I never would have even come this far if not for you. And Pidge sees you as an older brother. How do you think she would feel if another of her older brothers just left? This time on purpose. And Hunk, you and him have a good little joking brother ship. You two have a seemingly unending amount of tricks that go back and forth with each other. I'm not sure about the others, because I haven't really observed you with them, but trust me. You mean a lot to all of us, and if you left, our team would fall apart. If any of us is irreplaceable, it's you."

Lance looked at Keith before grinning. "I stand corrected. You are good for something other than brooding."

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Good and Bad in Gaming

Gaming is one in all the biggest interests and even careers within the international. humans play games for a laugh or getting to know while others document videos approximately the video games. In this article, i'm able to cognizance greater on gaming itself and now not so much the side of a way to make gaming films. gamers are available in all one of a kind a long time, genders, religions, places and shapes. The backgrounds of folks who are game enthusiasts make gaming that rather more a laugh.

Backgrounds of gamers can play a component in the kind of video games that humans play. There are all styles of combinations for distinctive classes relating to the sort of video games and form of gamers. You really want to have a look at the sport's website to get all the pertinent information earlier to shopping for.

there are numerous online systems where you can purchase video games from which include Steam or Humble bundle. those sites will come up with the outline, movies with the aid of the business enterprise, images, person and non-user tags, evaluations, website, business enterprise and their social account(s). Be aware the game's internet site might not display you the whole lot you want to know. at least, a gaming company will display a brief income pitch description, small quantity of pictures (5 at quality), one or two videos by way of them and their social debts. The maximum they may offer is an informative description, their social money owed, consumer critiques and films via them.

allow's dive proper into what's perceived as poor about gaming. most people of the bad matters approximately games come from the actual-existence human beings on those games, the kind of video games and the types of games for the wrong character. A game may be poorly made but it's no longer usually the case where the game itself is awful. it is able to be wherein it changed into the wrong sort of sport for the wrong person. that is wherein the types are available in. perhaps a game has a chunk of violence. that does not make it terrible; it simply makes it the incorrect sort of game for a seven 12 months vintage. Or perhaps you got a puzzle game for a person who loves motion type video games. So the action loving character may not revel in it, but that does not make the puzzle sport horrific!

The types of video games are countless from nudity, tablets and alcohol, horror, gambling with money and extra. these different sorts are wrong for teenagers gamers as well as wrong for people who do not like seeing such matters.

Gaming has exact and horrific facets similar to the entirety else. The secret's how true and bad are those facets. for example, a few video games have a horrific facet with gamers that like to fight lots. that is commonplace in video games. understand for quite a few gamers this is not a huge deal; but, for kids who're new to the sport or even gaming in trendy this may be frustrating. There are instances whilst you want to keep away from the awful aspects all together. There are instances when the good outweighs the terrible. If this takes place and there are not any problems with the sport itself; then the terrible aspect is simply that one little fly for your room which isn't any big deal. warning: If the awful outweighs the best, i'd strongly endorse heading off that sport.

another factor that people will nag a game developer or writer approximately is representation. have to I say, a lack of representation which isn't always restrained to race, frame type and message in the sport. in case you are able to customize your person, then of route you may now not have a problem with representation. there is a trouble in some games where they don't represent sturdy and smart ladies, minority females and men, massive, small, tall, and brief ladies and adult males. be aware how I failed to placed "men" after woman for sturdy? that is due to the fact adult males in games are constantly represented as robust and smart.

In games that display a male sturdy and clever, he will often likely be white, tall, skinny, movie big name looking and buff. you may not often see him be a minority, short, overweight, no longer buff, nerdy looking, while still being robust and smart. you notice this even less for ladies. some girls in games also are white, tall, thin and strong while showing skin like no the next day. You simplest see these women in mmorpg games (hugely Multiplayer online position playing sport) though. RPG games are intended for fantasy worlds in which you mostly fight people and monsters. Of route the women' stats can be sturdy but they won't look robust.

In most games, once they add a individual in an effort to play they always add a white male first, then a white woman, then a black male, after which a black woman. They do not even truely upload folks who are mixes of races or in between. with regards to the black characters they handiest upload one coloration of "black" or "African American" and not every black man or woman on the earth is that shade.

In video games, the majority of the characters are continually thin and tall. You do not without a doubt see characters that are quick and skinny, tall and chubby, short and overweight, and so forth. There are a whole lot of folks who are not skinny and who aren't tall.

Then lastly, there is the mental message that is going with the gender, race, and frame type. What do I mean through the intellectual message? some games send an indirect message about that man or woman being robust and smart or some thing else. at the same time as for other games it may be a mental message either on motive or no longer. for example, in the sport you play and also you see a minority girl who is brief, overweight, nerdy looking and her trends are to be a goof ball, naive, and dumb. it may send a intellectual message to you that humans that look like her are similar to her. they are no longer clever, they are not thin, and are not tall. They did poorly in faculty, and many others. and so on. so you start wondering the ones matters based on now not simplest seeing this in that sport time and again once more, however when it happens in different video games too.

The worst element is NONE of these items are actual. sure, a few human beings aren't skinny, tall, and perhaps now not that brilliant; but not anyone is like this! You do have brief obese minorities who're smart as all get out! you've got all sorts of combinations of folks that ARE clever! Of direction, all these items about gender, race, frame kind, and messages are not simply in gaming; they're in films, television shows, ads, and so forth. what's exciting is that a number of the creators who make the games, movies, television indicates, commercials, etc., are minorities themselves and they make up the population of the earth. (search "world populace by means of race 2016" and click on the primary 3 hyperlinks if you do not trust me.)

quick disclaimer: i am no longer BASHING all of us! sure, i used to be shouting that. This segment of the article is telling you what I recognize, study, hear and enjoy in gaming.

if you do not believe me pass take a look at modern television indicates, movies, advertisements, and games. A display to examine for precise illustration is Milo Murphy's regulation. two video games to examine as a reference for true illustration are OverWatch and Atlas Reactor. Now in these fields it has gotten better for illustration mainly gender, race and simply now beginning frame type (in particular in this order). a few games even add robots and creatures as playable characters to avoid having problems with illustration. This gets rid of the problem of customers looking a man or woman to symbolize their actual or desired gender, race, or frame type due to the fact now there is a man or woman most users can agree on. in the end, you can't please all people.

o.k., now that I ranted and got the horrific stuff out of the way; allow's get into the coolest elements of gaming! you have game enthusiasts as younger as three years antique and as antique as ninety+! no matter your age, race, gender, faith, lifestyle, or place gaming may be top for all of us. Gaming cannot most effective be a laugh, however useful and academic.

A benefit with gaming is it may assist youngsters have greater self assurance in themselves and be more social. if they play an internet multiplayer game and talk to different gamers around the world, this could assist then get used to talking to other human beings besides family and that they benefit self belief in what they may be saying. they could cross from an introvert to a social fanatic! it can take place fast or slowly. although it's not a game however a place for gamers, artists, style designers, automobile fanatic, and so on. to chat; it's going to nonetheless assist them be more social. preserve in mind though, typing to someone after which voice chatting to a person are  distinctive studies. youngsters may be very social while typing but very shy whilst voice chatting.

that is how i am. earlier than i used to be shy while speakme to people I did not know whether or not it was online or offline, now i've turn out to be greater cozy with it due to the fact I realize the way to cope with myself and have faith in myself. however with regards to voice chatting online, i'm the quiet character on the chat. Counterproductive proper! you might even forget i used to be in a call with you! before while the humans at the financial institution said "hi" I wouldn't say whatever, now I definitely respond and say "hi. How are you?" After that I don't surely assume to talk with them so i will be quiet once more lol. See what I mean? After socializing, in fashionable, over the years you get higher at it and grow to be much less fearful and more assured in your self.

every other benefit with gaming is group work. once in a while in games the best manner to win or accomplish a aim is to paintings with one or extra players. In sure video games, players are allowed a assignment may be performed with only one player, however it is probably more difficult unless you've got extra players than your self. different instances sure responsibilities can not be accomplished with one player and want  or extra. There are instances you are making a set with your buddies or circle of relatives to complete the purpose. different instances you could make a set with human beings you didn't understand.

this is in which it can get tricky. If it is a game wherein you may make a collection it truly is invite simplest, you'd simply invite your friends or circle of relatives. you can strategize with them, you'll be more comfortable talking with them, and you may all agree to work together. If it is a sport wherein there may be no institution system but you could nevertheless work with others, aka free for fall, and you may communicate with them there might also nevertheless be a purpose that could simplest be completed with a couple of players. Do you have to play with other gamers you've got in no way talked to earlier than in case your circle of relatives and buddies can't be part of you and you actually need to complete this aim?

This is not a horrific issue although! this is wherein you not only come to be greater social but you learn how to paintings with different gamers you've in no way met before. if you usually play with your circle of relatives and pals you both already understand a way to work collectively, how the alternative thinks, and many others. however if it is someone you have in no way met it may be a touch difficult. Me and my brother grew up doing the whole thing together without actually having any friends, maybe colleagues and associates however now not without a doubt friends. So we have been very used to knowing what the opposite wanted or how they played and so forth. but whilst we definitely got two buddies, it become very hard to agree on many stuff. So if you play and paintings with other human beings now it will be easier later. Me and my brother have advanced our abilties to work with others.

some other advantage is staying power which ties in with group constructing and socializing. after all, so that it will get better at some thing you no longer best ought to hold doing it but you need to have endurance even as doing it. There are normally in video games in which you have to wait. just like studying is in the whole lot, you need to have persistence for the whole lot. In games you always must await something. You want to have patience for locating something, something to complete cooking, some thing to complete demise, your friends to come back back from going afk (faraway from Keyboard), the next wave of monsters to return, the subsequent level to open up, and so forth. and so forth. I needed to have patience while writing this newsletter! So gaming permit you to have more staying power in gaming and normal life.

any other advantage is hand and eye coordination. while you're gaming you have to pay attention to what's happening for your screen while also urgent your controller or keyboard button to do extra things in your display. if you need to transport your individual in that game, you need to use your keyboard and mouse or a controller even as still looking at your screen. it's like gaining knowledge of how to type. maximum of the time you're alleged to learn how to type phrases and sentences at the same time as looking at your screen without looking at your keyboard. This equal factor applies to gaming. you have for you to press the needed keys so that it will accomplish that factor you are seeking to do at the same time as looking at your screen. in spite of everything, in case you're urgent your keys but no longer searching at your screen, how are you going to understand in case you're doing it right?

Now, this one is a advantage and academic gain - reminiscence. games can help enhance your memory. How? permit me tell you. Take what I stated above approximately typing. The individuals who can have a look at their screens and type without looking at their keyboard have something called "muscle reminiscence". when they need to make a positive letter seem on display they simply need to press that key and that they do not should examine the keyboard because they have got press that key so often they themselves and their muscle mass recollect where that sure secret is. you have muscle memory already. don't agree with me? take a look at your keyboard proper now. you see wherein all the letters, numbers, and emblems are proper? The letters aren't in alphabetical order. So each time you attempted to type your call or some thing on a virtual keyboard where the letter had been alphabetical; Did you're taking you longer than usually to type that word and was it weird and confusing? It was. i've carried out it. you realize why?

while you type or textual content to a person you realize the phrase you want to make seem on screen and you recollect where the keys are. maybe you can't inform them so as if someone asked you however if they requested you to kind a phrase you'll be able to kind it because you understand where the keys are. For me I recognise a way to spell certain words while i'm typing however maybe now not how to spell it verbally. this is due to the fact i'm seeing the word being spelled in front of me. Technically while we type to each different we're spelling out phrases after which reading them in our mind. however whilst you talk out loud you do not see the words you just pay attention them. certain, whilst you study textual content on display you pay attention them to your mind, even proper now not you hear these words i'm typing, but you don't verbally pay attention them and you are seeing each letter make up that word. whilst a person spells something wrong you without delay note it because it's no longer spelled proper and you read it. whilst someone speaks something you do not examine any letters, you best hear the word.

So games permit you to increase muscle reminiscence and thoughts reminiscence. If you may keep objects in recreation you need to take into account in which you put it, or in case you need a recipe to make something you would possibly keep in mind the recipe, or maybe you don't forget a element about some thing important, or maybe you take into account the manner via a maze or the manner domestic. a few games are even built just to help enhance your memory or the most effective manner to maintain progressing is remembering positive statistics. My mother can kind without looking at the keyboard however struggles with trying to stroll in video games.

So now let's get into the educational advantages. One instructional benefit is math. Now, the game doesn't ought to have a aim to train you math in order for it to have math. The point of going to high school is to get an training! not socialize, however you still may make buddies. So this is applicable to all video games. the game does not constantly should have a aim of J but it'd encompass J. Its aim is probably X however it'd nevertheless have J. In a few video games you may build homes and use recipes to make items. How huge do you need your a way to be? 30 blocks X 10 blocks X 60 blocks? Did you understand what I just stated? let me say it differently. 30 blocks at the X axis (left and right at the floor), 10 blocks on the Y axis (up and down on the floor), and 60 blocks on the Z axis (up and down in the air). this is the way you'd build a house, using math, in a game known as Minecraft. With these coordinates it method your own home can be a rectangle with a very tall roof. permit's use Minecraft once more for this subsequent example.

in case you want to make four swords for instance, what do you need? You want wood and iron. How an awful lot wooden? How a great deal iron? we're going to start with the handle. You want two sticks to make the deal with for one sword. One wooden log may be changed into 4 wooden planks, take two and you could then make 4 timber sticks. You want to make 4 sword handles. So what number of wooden logs do you want? One. For the sword itself it takes  portions of iron. You want to make four swords, so how an awful lot iron do you want? 8. See? depending on what you are making and the way lots of that component the recipe can name for lots of resources or only some.

some other educational advantage is problem solving. There are plenty of video games with puzzles or none however it is able to nevertheless consist of hassle solving. an awesome recreation as an instance is Scribblenauts unlimited. on this game you visit make specific locations fixing people's troubles to cause them to satisfied which offers you an item to therapy a person. to be able to remedy their issues, you have to use adjectives and nouns to solve the hassle itself or make something to remedy the problem. The exceptional component is you could resolve that problem many specific ways and no manner is the wrong manner. some games even alternate based in your selections and we call those "paths". some paths can trade, live on the equal route, or stop. so that you need to solve each hassle the high-quality way otherwise you may pick the wrong direction or a route that ends.

every other academic benefit is reaction timing. in case you don't want to die in a certain recreation your response to some thing might be the identifying reality of your survival or grave. The extra you check your reaction timing the quicker you'll get and soon you may be able to react to things quickly. this will come from video games with fight like MMORPGs, shooters, and PvP (player V participant).

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Struggle in Seattle -Anxiety and The Big City

It was two in the morning and I was riding in the back of an ambulance while crying at the top of my lungs. 

As standard, I was loaded in head first, feet to the doors while clutching my Soviet-Era teddy bear that has accompanied me across the globe since I was three. He was a sturdy toy, unnamed but well loved, covered in coarse gray fur and, as I liked to joke, probably stuffed with twigs and radioactive material. For some unknown reason, my brother and I used to fight over him frequently as children to the point where my mother had to resew his head back on at least a handful of time. But now, he was with me, and he was my only anchor to the earth that I had left at least a week prior and just recently became lucid enough to make the toughest decision of my life. I was going into voluntary psychiatric hospitalization and I was going alone.

Oh, and it was TWO IN THE FUCKING MORNING!

The ambulance ride reminded me of being trapped in the eye of a tornado and with no way out except to brave the storm and pray I got out alive. The outside swirled by in dark flashes, only briefly illuminated by the passing of outside lights that immediately faded back as we drove past them. I was accompanied by two first responders, one driving and the other, a young, thickly set guy no more than 27, sat in the back with me and calmly talked me through the trip. He made no reaction to my cries of terror, but simply engaged in talking, keeping me focused on random topics until they could deliver me to the arms of the mental health ward in Overlake Hospital. Jokes on him though, I cried the entire ride and even more when we finally arrived at the hospital doors. If my anxiety didn’t stop for me, it sure as shit wasn’t going to stop for him. 

Let me stop right here and tell you why I was going to the mental health ward. I had been having non-stop anxiety attacks for a week after battling a crippling flu the week prior. I was entirely nonsensical; frequently crying, moaning, and screaming while completely neglecting my personal health and hygiene. I didn’t eat, I didn’t shower, I didn’t go to work or engage in hobbies, I simply cried until I was exhausted enough to sleep and slept for ten to twelve hours a night with frequent naps in the day. It was the second time in my life my mental health had paralyzed my life so severely and the first time I had to be hospitalized for it. Correction, I chose to be hospitalized for it, something that I had to keep reminding myself over the next three days. Especially when at the end of three days, I wouldn’t be going home, but to a new house in Seattle. I was hospitalized the weekend I was supposed to move thirty miles away. Some say that the stress of the move is what might have broken me but at the time, I couldn’t really say what it was. Heck, I couldn’t say much of anything that didn’t sound like a garbled scream anyway.

Anyway, so there I was, two in the goddamn morning, rolled into the mental health ward, clutching a teddy bear with my purse at my feet and nothing but the clothes on my back. My husband would later tell me that letting me go and admitting to himself that he couldn’t help me anymore was one of the hardest things he ever had to do, but he was relieved that I was going somewhere safer than the house. Somewhere where I could really focus on getting better and just tap out of the real world. The ward itself was relatively nice and consisted of a donut shaped hallway with rooms on the exterior and a shared hang-out room in the middle with puzzles, coloring pages, and a TV behind a plexiglass box. Very One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest as one of my visitors pointed out later. Of course, the tour was done as soon as I arrived because when is a better time to show a person their new surroundings then when they are a sleep deprived, raving lunatic? Thankfully, it was a short tour and I quickly got my vitals checked and allowed to lay down as they did my intake before, blessedly, passing out in a haze of sweet relief. 

I don’t remember much that night, but I do remember instinctively getting up two hours later and trying to run off. No terror or reason, just escape. Luckily, I got startled into lucidity when one of the nurses asked where I was going to which I simply furrowed my brow and turned back around. I was not escaping tonight.

Also, I’m pretty sure a vampire came in and stole my blood at five in the morning. They said it was nurse but I have my doubts. 

The three days slowly but surely crawled by. The first day was the hardest, of course. Getting used to the new situation, facing being alone during an unstable mental health situation, trying to get back to eating and cleaning myself of my own accord while dealing with the overwhelming shame and guilt of being in there in the first place. It was a lot! On top of that, I had to go to group therapy classes and just try to get it together. Fortunately, I was not alone. The mental health ward is very popular this time of year. 

Everyone there had their own reason for putting themselves in there. Some had been entertaining suicide and didn’t want to go down that path, some had been struggling with bi-polarism and alcohol and taken a turn for the worst, while others were dealing with an anxiety related eating disorder or an un-diagnosed personality disorders or a co-morbid relationship with mental struggle and drug addiction. Some, of course, simply crashed into the floor of life and couldn’t get back up on their own. Two in particular stand out to me, not for their overwhelming problems or strangeness, but for the help that they had given me simply being present and our ability to share our feelings. I shall call them O and K. 

O was a wonderful, non-binary person who had struggled with homelessness and a series of strained relationships accumulating in a living situation consisting of them, their former lover, and former/current best friend all in a studio apartment on Capitol Hill. Though I couldn’t truly say what the circumstances were that had driven them to strongly consider jumping in front of a train but I can say that merely thought of them wanting to do it was enough to shock O into taking themselves straight into voluntary psychiatric. K, on the other hand, was a sweet, nerdy girl with a fierce streak of violence and anger that she hid well but wasn’t shy about bringing up. She carried around a set of beautiful pens that she doodled with and had a history of short term institutionalization, so she was a welcome help to my frayed nerves. Much like O, I’m not exactly sure what brought her in, but I was glad to have her. 

Of course, I was also very lucky to have visitors everyday. My husband came on the first day with a change of clothes and words of encouragement, followed by a visit from both my mother and husband the second day. My mother was happy to see me but I could see it was hard for her, probably for both of them, though the relief of me being there painted over any worry. Ultimately, it was good for me to be there. This sentiment was also reflected when my partner Kyle and best friend Whitney came on the last day followed by my other partner Chris and his room-mate Tyler. I was hoarding love like a dragon hordes gold and I wasn’t letting it go. I was very lucky to have the support system I had, something that I took full advantage of by calling everyone I could on the shared phone. I even spoke to my brother who had managed to call upset that I hadn’t phoned him about my condition and to inform me that he loved me and he had diarrhea. You know, all the important things.  

Anyway, I can go on and on about my stay at Overlake. The classes I took, the maddening cat puzzle I worked on, the other patients, the adorable male nurse that made the stay easy on the eyes and the other nurse who was obsessed with Russia’s participation in WW2. I learned a lot and I carried my work folder around for days after I left. I watched the Bumblebee movie which I never thought I do and made friends. I struggled, but ultimately survived. I eventually ate on my own, showered often, brushed my teeth and was even allowed to roam the hospital grounds as long as I checked in with the nurses every half hour. I even full on, guffawed laughed at the goofiest ass clown fish I had ever seen in the lobby that wouldn’t stop humping on the anemones. Seriously, if you ever find yourself in Bellevue, Washington at the Overlake Hospital, check that shit out, it’s hilarious!

The point is, I got better. I wasn’t 100% by any means, but I was out of the worst of it. I was functioning and ready to get a move on as I had bigger fish to fry. 

Seattle and my new home. 

And then the panic attacks came.

[sturdy-nerdy-stitchery]

Hi, I just read your post about needing some help in regards to the pattern to your baby blanket. We've never interacted before but I wanted to help anyway. In my (far from perfect) experience this should indeed be a garter stitch, so in both the knit and the purl row you would always switch to a knit stitch for the letters. I hope I understood your question correctly and this is somewhat helpful to you.:) I really like your blog and hope you'll have fun with the blanket!

Goodness, almost a month late on this ask!! SORRY!! OMG SO SORRY!Anywho...Thanks for the advice! since the ask, I have gotten a handle on how to do this...and in doing so, have come to understand the science behind doing it and how to do it properly. There is apparently math involved...sort of...and designing too...so that everything fits properly...It currently doesn’t look how i envisioned...but i now know what i need to do next time so it turns out how i like it. I know what i need to do BUT I AM NOT FROGGING OUT 10 ROWS OF WORK JUST TO START OVER AND GET IT TO LOOK RIGHT! my verticals are 2px wide the way i envisioned, but my horizontals are only 1px wide. I know now what i did incorrectly...but. fuck it. I aint frogging out all those rows!

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Ask the Vet With Dr. Kris: Dr. Kris Answers June’s Questions

Welcome to our regular “Ask the Vet With Dr. Kris” segment! Once a month, Dr. Kris answers as many of your questions as he can, and you can leave new questions for him in a comment.

Dr. Kristopher Chandroo is a veterinarian, scientist, photographer, animal welfare advocate, and creator of Stress to Success (STS): The Essential Guide to Medicating Your Feisty, Grumpy or Reluctant Cat.  Dr. Kris wants  your cats to be twenty years old. And counting! And he wants to provide medication and therapy to them in a way that respects the bond between cat and human.

Here are Dr. Kris’ answers to some of your questions asked in June. If your question didn’t get answered here, Dr. Kris will answer them on his own website in the future. Subscribe to his updates so you’ll be notified when the answers are published.

11-year-old cat with cancer of the spleen

Hi there. I have an 11-year-old cat named Tom, and he was diagnosed with spleen cancer early this year. I want to do a splenectomy and maybe chemo, but the procedures are expensive and I can’t afford them. I feel like if I just him “go” my heart will be broken, and I’m not sure what to do. The vet is great and we are giving him meds for his other conditions (thyroid, hepatitis and a heart issue stemming from the thyroid problem) as well as meds for blood in his stool but we aren’t really treating “the cancer” so to speak right now. I am wondering if it would be good for Tom to have the surgery and maybe chemo if needed, assuming I can find the money, or if putting him through surgery would be hard on him. My vet thinks it would be a quick procedure and might give Tom more time, but I want him to feel better too—that would be my main reason for trying this. I’ve been reading your site for awhile and thought I’d ask your opinion. Thanks so much!

There is one very important thing I want you to know.

You’ll never be that person that “will just let him go”.

And this will remain true, whether you opt for surgery or not.

I’ve seen dogs and cats do amazingly well after removing the spleen, and have years of happiness.

I’ve had a patient die within 48 hours after splenectomy. A splenectomy that got paid for with credit cards. There were two ways those folks could have responded. Anger is the first way. Instead, they printed a portrait of me and their pet they took years earlier in an exam room, gave it to me as a gift, and broke down and cried. It is hard watching grown men cry.

You will always feel conflicted about making a decision like this. One way won’t ever be right over the other.

If you do the surgery, I always tell people that we are hoping for the best, but we must be prepared to say goodbye much faster than we would like.

If you don’t do the surgery, then you need to believe that there is something called “dying well”.

That even when our bodies are passing, which all of our bodies will do, that we can still nurture and tend to our relationships. So this valuable, special time we have left is honored.

So your heart will still break. But you won’t ever be just letting him go.

Should you toilet train a cat?

How successful are these kits which tell you that you can train your cat to use a toilet? Do they actually work? Is it traumatic for the cat. I am old live alone, and am starting to have trouble bending down to clean the litter box.

Ingrid’s reply: I’m sure Dr. Kris will address this, Terry, but in the meantime, here’s my input: I don’t believe cats should be toilet trained – it goes against their natural instinct. You may want to take a look at this litter scoop, which can be used without having to bend down: http://amzn.to/2rlPI3I

Dr. Kris’ reply: I agree with Ingrid on this. Training a cat to use the toilet is a testament to how trainable and adaptable our cats can be. If done right, and you have a healthy, non-arthritic cat, I would not call it traumatic, it can be done.

But there is much to be said for proper scratching and burying behavior in the litter box. I’m sure within the population of millions of cats, there are folks out there who have cats doing well with the toilet training, or have some combination of toilet and ground choices.

Having said that, it sounds like the litter box needs to get closer to you, or the scoop needs to get closer to the litter box.

A cat can climb a short hill, find a great place to use the bathroom, then come back down. They are going to the bathroom on an incline.

So, there aren’t any rules that say you can’t put the litter box up on something sturdy, so the cat walks or jumps up to use it, and you don’t have to bend down as much. Of course you have to do it so your cat feels good about using it this way.

I’ve got 35 year old turtles (the red-ear slider types you used to see in dime stores). I’ve had them since I was a little kid. They live in my living room in a converted outdoor pond. It’s so well designed, if you didn’t look, you wouldn’t know at first they were there (they do like their privacy sometimes). But instead of on the floor, it’s on a very sturdy Ikea coffee table with a metal base. So for maintenance, I’m not wrecking my back…and I like my turtles off the floor, and they get to look out the window and see the whole world.

I’m sure in the comment section people might tell you about their experiences with hi-tech litter boxes (self-cleaning etc), and of course, that long scoop Ingrid mentioned might be just the ticket.

Good luck!

Male cat “pretends” to spray

One of our four-year-old neutered male cats (they’re brothers we adopted when they were three months old) “pretends” to spray–he backs up to something, usually a cabinet door, and does the shimmy/wiggle as if he’s marking. He’s not bothering us or anything, and obviously nothing is coming out, but what’s his deal with this? His brother does it too every once in a while, but I get the idea he’s just being a copycat (however, our copycat is also weird; he has a thing for carrots–they make him crazy. Catnip does nothing for him but a give him a piece of a carrot and he rolls around on it).

Ha ha ha. Your cats are hilarious!

This is what I want to know. Are you guys eccentric or quirky!? At least a little bid nerdy? Please tell me yes. Please tell me you have the quirkiest family with quirky cats, because that would be the best thing ever.

This sounds normal to me…normal for an awesome weirdo, full of personality quirky cat who will show you a diversity of behavior that only he or she knows the reason to.

Cat doesn’t like to be stroked

I’m looking after a friend’s cat. She likes to be stroked because she comes running and rubs herself against me. She will tolerate a brief petting on the head and neck but if I stroke her too much, she spits and hisses and lashes out. She doesn’t like the base of her tail being touched either – something that a lot of cats like. Do you think there might be a physical reason why she doesn’t like being stroked? Does this sound normal behaviour? I have had several cats in my life, all of them enjoying a stroke more than this cat.

Providing your friend’s cat is healthy (i.e. no debilitating arthritis, anxiety, cystitis etc. etc. etc.), I often call this NYSS.

New York Subway Syndrome.

Which, is, just because I come close to you, sit right beside you, and then our bodies happen to touch on a crowded subway, it doesn’t mean I give you permission to purposefully touch me. And if you do, despite the fact I’m sitting right next to you, and I’m really attractive, look out cause I’m gonna go all ninja on ya.

It’s not just a cat thing.

Cat with eosinophilic syndrome

My cat is being treated for Eosinophilic syndrome. His white cell count is very high but shows nothing definitive. He is on treatment w/ steroids, and has a feeding tube in as he lost weight and was not eating. He as put on some weight and eats some. I was wondering what else we can do? I have even tried a couple of sessions of acupuncture!

Oh no! Sorry to hear this. I am happy he has gained some weight!

The fact that his appetite has dropped means we must consider chronic eosinophilic leukemia. I’m not saying that he has that, but it is worth a discussion about that with your vet. There are other reasons as well (feline gastrointestinal eosinophilic sclerosing fibroplasia), and usually you need an ultrasound to suss them out. I would also want to know what this kitty’s vitamin B12 situation is. Those are all talking points I would take your vet.

Best wishes!

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Good and Bad in Gaming

Gaming is certainly one of the largest pastimes or even careers in the world. People play games for fun or gaining knowledge of while others file videos approximately the games. In this newsletter, I will cognizance more on gaming itself and not so much the facet of how to make gaming movies. Gamers are available all different ages, genders, religions, places and shapes. The backgrounds of individuals who are gamers make gaming that much more fun.

  Backgrounds of gamers can play a component in the form of video games that people play. There are all varieties of combinations for special categories regarding the form of games and type of gamers. You really need to look at the sport’s website to get all the pertinent records previous to shopping for.

  There are many on-line systems where you could purchase games from which includes Steam or Humble Bundle. Those web sites will come up with the description, videos through the organization, images, person and non-user tags, critiques, website, organization and their social account(s). Be aware the game’s internet site may not display you the whole thing you need to understand. As a minimal, a gaming company will show a brief income pitch description, the small quantity of images (5 at best), one or videos by means of them and their social accounts. The maximum they’ll provide is an informative description, their social accounts, person evaluations and videos via them.

  Let’s dive properly into what is perceived as poor about gaming. The majority of the poor matters approximately games come from the actual-life humans on those games, the sort of games and the styles of games for the wrong character. A recreation may be poorly made but it’s not continually the case where the sport itself is awful. It may be where it changed into the wrong form of recreation for the incorrect man or woman. This is where the types are available in. Maybe a recreation has a bit of violence. That would not make it bad; it just makes it the incorrect type of sport for a seven yr vintage. Or maybe you bought a puzzle recreation for a person who loves motion type video games. So the motion loving person won’t enjoy it, but that does not make the puzzle sport bad!

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The styles of video games are infinite from nudity, capsules, and alcohol, horror, playing with money and extra. These differing types are wrong for youngsters gamers in addition to incorrect for people who don’t like seeing such matters.

  Gaming has good and horrific aspects much like the entirety else. The secret’s how top and terrible are the one’s facets. For instance, a few video games have an awful aspect with gamers that like to fight a lot. This is commonplace in games. Understand for a variety of game enthusiasts this is not a huge deal; but, for youth who are new to the sport or even gaming in standard, this may be irritating. There are instances whilst you want to keep away from the terrible aspects all collectively. There are times when the best outweighs the horrific. If this happens and there aren’t any problems with the game itself; then the horrific aspect is simply that one little fly in your room which isn’t any big deal. Caution: If the bad outweighs the good, I could strongly advocate keeping off that sport.

  Another component that people will nag a recreation developer or author approximately is representation. Should I say a lack of illustration which isn’t confined to race, frame type and message in the game? If you’re able to personalize your individual, then of the path you may not have a problem with representation. There is a trouble in some games where they do not represent sturdy and smart ladies, minority ladies and adult males, large, small, tall, and brief women and men. Notice how I failed to put “adult males” after a woman for strong? That’s due to the fact males in video games are ALWAYS represented as sturdy and smart.

  In games that display a male robust and clever, he’s going to normally probably be white, tall, skinny, movie famous person looking and buff. You will rarely see him be a minority, quick, obese, now not buff, nerdy looking, whilst still being strong and smart. You see this even LESS for females. Some girls in games are also white, tall, skinny and strong even as showing skin like no tomorrow. You only see THESE females in MMORPG video games (Massively Multiplayer on line Role Playing Game) although. RPG video games are supposed for fantasy worlds where you by and large combat human beings and monsters. Of course, the women’ stats may be sturdy but they may not look sturdy.

  In maximum video games, after they add a person in an effort to play they usually add a white male first, then a white lady, then a black male, after which a black woman. They do not even actually add those who are mixes of races or in among. When it involves the black characters they best add one shade of “black” or “African-American” and not each black man or woman on this planet is that color.

  In games, the general public of the characters is constantly skinny and tall. You don’t absolutely see characters which are short and skinny, tall and overweight, short and chubby, and so on. There are a variety of folks that aren’t skinny and who are not tall.

Then finally, there may be the mental message that is going with the gender, race, and body kind. What do I mean through the mental message? Some games ship an oblique message approximately that man or woman being robust and smart or some thing else. While for different video games it is able to be an intellectual message either on the motive or now not. For instance, in the sport, you play and you see a minority girl who is short, overweight, nerdy searching and her tendencies are to be a goof ball, naive, and dumb. It may want to send an intellectual message to you that people that appear to her are much like her. They’re no longer smart, they are not thin, and aren’t tall. They did poorly in school and many others. And many others. So you begin thinking the one’s matters based on now not handiest seeing this in that recreation time and again, however, whilst it takes place in other video games too.

  The worst element is NONE of this stuff is authentic. Yes, some humans are not skinny, tall, and perhaps now not that shiny; but now not EVERYONE is like this! You do have quick chubby minorities who are clever as all get out! You have all kinds of combos of those who ARE clever! Of course, all this stuff approximately gender, race, body type, and messages are not just in gaming; they may be in movies, TV shows, ads, etc. What’s exciting is that some of the creators who make the video games, movies, TV shows, commercials, and so forth., are minorities themselves and they make up the populace of the earth. (Search “world populace by using race 2016” and click on the first three hyperlinks in case you don’t believe me.)

  Quick disclaimer: I AM NOT BASHING ANYONE! Yes, I became shouting that. This phase of the item is telling you what I realize, examine, listen and experience in gaming.

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If you do not agree with me move has a look at present day TV shows, films, advertisements, and video games. A display to look at for proper illustration is Milo Murphy’s Law. Two video games to study as a reference for suitable illustration are OverWatch and Atlas Reactor. Now in those fields, it has gotten better for illustration specifically gender, race and simply now starting body kind (in particular in this order). Some games even upload robots and creatures as playable characters to keep away from having troubles with representation. This eliminates the hassle of customers wanting an individual to symbolize their actual or preferred gender, race, or frame kind because now there may be a man or woman maximum users can agree on. After all, you can not please every body.

Alright, now that I ranted and got the bad stuff out of the manner; allow’s get into the good components of gaming! You have game enthusiasts as young as three years old and as vintage as 90+! No, be counted your age, race, gender, faith, culture, or vicinity gaming may be precise for all people. Gaming cannot most effective be amusing, however beneficial and academic.

  A gain with gaming is it could help adolescents have greater self-assurance in themselves and be extra social. If they play an online multiplayer game and speak to different players around the arena, this could help then get used to talking to different human beings except for family and that they gain self-belief in what they’re saying. They can move from an introvert to a social enthusiast! It can show up rapid or slowly. Even if it’s now not a recreation but an area for gamers, artists, style designers, vehicle enthusiast, and so on. To speak; it’ll nevertheless help them be more social. Keep in mind although, typing to someone after which voice chatting to a person are specific experiences. Youth may be very social when typing however very shy whilst voice chatting.

  This is how I am. Before I turned into shy while speaking to humans I did not recognize whether or not it become online or offline, now I’ve emerged as greater at ease with it because I realize the way to manage myself and believe in myself. But with regards to voice chatting on-line, I’m the quiet individual on the chat. Counterproductive right! You would possibly even forget about I became a name with you! Before when the people on the financial institution said: “Hi” I would not say some thing, now I definitely respond and say “Hi. How are you?” After that, I do not absolutely assume to talk with them so I’ll be quiet once more lol. See what I suggest? After socializing, in preferred, through the years you get better at it and come to be less fearful and more assured in yourself.

  Another advantage with gaming is group paintings. Sometimes in video games, the best way to win or accomplish an intention is to paintings with one or more gamers. In positive games, gamers are allowed a challenge can be finished with handiest one player, but it is probably more difficult unless you have got greater players than your self. Other instances certain obligations can’t be achieved with one player and want or greater. There are instances you’re making a group along with your friends or own family to complete the purpose. Other instances you could make a group with people you didn’t realize.

  This is where it can get difficult. If it is a game wherein you could make a set this is inviting simplest, you would simply invite your pals or own family. You can strategize with them, you’ll be greater secure speak with them, and you may all conform to work collectively. If it’s a game wherein there is no institution device however you could nevertheless paintings with others, aka loose for fall, and you can speak with them there may also nonetheless be a goal that could only be finished with a couple of gamers. Do you have to play with other gamers you have in no way talked to before in case your circle of relatives and buddies can not be a part of you and you really need to complete this goal?

  This is not a terrible thing although! This is where you no longer most effective turn out to be more social however you discover ways to work with other players you’ve never met earlier than. If you continually play along with your circle of relatives and friends you both already realize the way to work collectively, how the opposite thinks, etc. But if it’s someone you have never met it can be a bit difficult. I and my brother grew up doing the whole lot collectively with out truly having any pals, perhaps colleagues and friends but no longer in reality buddies. So we were very used to understanding what the other desired or how they played and many others. But when we surely were given two friends, it becomes very hard to agree on many stuff. So if you play and work with different people now it is going to be less complicated later. I and my brother have progressed our abilities to work with others.

Another advantage is persistence which ties in with crew constructing and socializing. After all, in order to get higher at some thing you no longer simplest should hold doing it however you have to have patience even as doing it. There are many instances in video games in which you need to wait. Just like studying is in everything, you have to have persistence for everything. In video games, you usually have to look ahead to some thing. You need to have patience for locating some thing, something to finish cooking, some thing to finish death, your buddies to come back lower back from going AFK (Away From Keyboard), the next wave of monsters to return, the subsequent stage to open up, etc. Etc. I had to have endurance while writing this article! So gaming will let you have extra endurance in gaming and regular lifestyles.

  Another benefit is hand and eye coordination. When you’re gaming you need to pay attention to what’s happening on your display even as additionally urgent your controller or keyboard button to do extra things on your display. If you want to move your person in that sport, you have to use your keyboard and mouse or a controller at the same time as nonetheless searching for your display screen. It’s like getting to know a way to kind. Most of the time you’re presupposed to learn how to type phrases and sentences whilst looking at your display with out searching for your keyboard. This same aspect applies to gaming. You have so as to press the needed keys for you to accomplish that element you’re looking to do even as looking at your screen. After all, if you’re urgent your keys but now not looking at your screen, how can you recognize in case you’re doing it right?

  Now, this one is a gain and academic gain – reminiscence. Games can help improve your reminiscence. How? Let me tell you. Take what I stated above approximately typing. The individuals who can look at their displays and type with out looking at their keyboard have some thing known as “muscle memory”. When they want to make a sure letter seem on screen they just ought to press that key and that they don’t must study the keyboard due to the fact they have got a press that key so commonly they themselves and their muscle groups remember wherein that certain keys. You have muscle reminiscence already. Don’t trust me? Take a look at your keyboard right now. You see in which all the letters, numbers, and emblems are proper? The letters aren’t in alphabetical order. So whenever you tried to kind your call or something on a digital keyboard wherein the letter have been alphabetical; Did you’re taking you longer than normally to type that word and was it bizarre and perplexing? It becomes. I’ve done it. You understand why?

When you kind or text to a person you know the phrase you need to make seem on display screen and also you don’t forget wherein the keys are. Maybe you can not tell them so as if a person asked you however if they requested you to kind a phrase you’d be able to type it due to the fact you understand in which the keys are. For me, I recognize how to spell positive words after I’m typing however perhaps no longer how to spell it verbally. This is because I’m seeing the word being spelled in front of me. Technically when we type to each other we’re spelling out words and then analyzing them in our thoughts. But when you talk out loud you don’t see the words you simply pay attention them. Sure, when you study textual content on the screen you pay attention them to your mind, even proper no longer you listen to these phrases I’m typing, but you do not verbally hear them and you’re seeing every letter make up that word. When someone spells something incorrect you straight away notice it because it’s not spelled proper and you examine it. When a person speaks something you don’t read any letters, you best hear the word.

  So video games assist you to build up muscle reminiscence and mind memory. If you can save objects in game you need to remember where you put it, or in case you want a recipe to make some thing you may keep in mind the recipe, or perhaps you don’t forget a detail about some thing important, or perhaps you do not forget the manner through a maze or the way domestic. Some games are even built simply to help enhance your memory or the best manner to maintain progressing is remembering positive information. My mother can type with out looking at the keyboard, however, struggles with trying to stroll in games.

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So now allow’s get the educational benefits. One academic gain is math. Now, the game would not need to have an aim to teach you math so as for it to have math. The point of going to high school is to get a training! Not socialize, however you still might make friends. So this is applicable to all video games. The recreation would not always have a goal of J but it would include J. Its aim is probably X but it’d nevertheless have J. In a few games you may construct houses and use recipes to make objects. How big do you need your the way to be? 30 blocks X 10 blocks X 60 blocks? Did you recognize what I just said? Let me say it differently. 30 blocks on the X axis (left and proper on the floor), 10 blocks on the Y axis (up and down on the ground), and 60 blocks on the Z axis (up and down within the air). This is the way you’d build a house, the use of math, in a game referred to as Minecraft. With these coordinates, it approaches your home will be a rectangle with a very tall roof. Let’s use Minecraft once more for this subsequent example.

  If you need to make 4 swords for instance, what do you want? You want wood and iron. How a good deal wood? How plenty iron? We’ll start with the take care of. You want two sticks to make the manage for one sword. One wooden log can be changed into four wood planks, take and you could then make four timber sticks. You want to make 4 sword handles. So what number of timber logs do you need? One. For the sword itself, it takes portions of iron. You need to make four swords, so how tons iron do you want? Eight. See? Depending on what you’re making and how many of that element the recipe can call for plenty of assets or only some.

Another instructional advantage is hassle fixing. There are lots of games with puzzles or none but it may nevertheless encompass problem-solving. A good sport as an instance is Scribblenauts Unlimited. In this recreation, you visit to make one of a kind places fixing people’s issues to make them satisfied which offer you an item to cure someone. In order to remedy their troubles, you need to use adjectives and nouns to solve the hassle itself or make some thing to remedy the hassle. The great component is you can remedy that trouble many different methods and no way is the wrong way. Some games even trade primarily based on your selections and we call these “paths”. Some paths can change, stay on the equal direction, or end. So you need to resolve every problem the great way otherwise you could choose the wrong direction or a path that ends.

  Another educational benefit is reaction timing. If you don’t need to die in a certain sport your response to something may be the deciding truth of your survival or grave. The extra you check your reaction timing the faster you’ll get and soon you’ll be able to react to matters speedily. This can come from games with combat like MMORPGs, shooters, and PvP (Player V Player).

You do quite a few these things in games without even understanding it! When you play that recreation you simply must do A, G, M, and S to do some thing it’s far you’re looking to do, without knowing the real world the ones abilities are technically referred to as B, H, N, and T and utilized in three, 6, and 9. See? So you just should get used to applying the one’s capabilities within the real global.

  Some games are higher for positive ages or interests. Some video games are meant for little children, some are for teen and teens, and others are for adults. Then there are video games only for human beings interested by robots, motors, fashion, princesses, ice skating, etc. So the games should have the equal advantages, however, those advantages might be better for certain humans than others.

  Some video games are being utilized in schools or college, as checks for robots and even to educate positive subjects. I these days was given a game a good way to teach me how to study and write the Japanese characters while surviving in a sport international. Some people who do not speak English now are aware of it sufficient to talk to English audio system just by gambling or looking video games in English! If you find a person who knows how to talk, study, or write a little Japanese; ask them if they have watched Anime. Most English speakers understand some Japanese because they play or watch Anime things.

  So whilst you see your youngsters or grandparents playing some games, don’t suppose it’s horrific. It may be helping their memory, problem-solving skills, math capabilities, or they’ll be mastering every other language or mastering greater about a topic.

  As you examine, there are right and bad sides to gaming. I propose you simply have fun and be secure while gaming. There are masses of video games out there for every sort of individual and greater video games are nonetheless coming. Games allow you to improve and teach you abilities you now not most effective use in sport, however, you may use in faculty and within the actual global. Games allow you to get sharp and stay sharp. Have amusing gaming and y’all stay safe!

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Good and Bad in Gaming

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Gaming is one of the biggest interests or even careers within the global. Human beings play video games for amusing or studying while others file films about the games. In this newsletter, I’m able to attention greater on gaming itself and now not so much the side of the way to make gaming motion pictures. Gamers come in all different a long time, genders, religions, places and shapes. The backgrounds of people who are Gamers make gaming that much more a laugh.

Backgrounds of Gamers can play a component inside the sort of games that People play. There are all forms of combos for distinctive categories referring to the type of video games and sort of Gamers. You really want to have a look at the sport’s website to get all of the pertinent records prior to shopping for.

There are many on-line platforms in which you may buy video games from consisting of Steam or Humble Bundle. The ones websites will give you the description, films through the employer, photos, consumer and non-person tags, critiques, internet site, organization and their social account(s). Be aware the sport’s internet site might not display you the entirety you want to recognize. As a minimum, a gaming organization will display a quick sales pitch description, small quantity of photos (5 at great), one or two videos with the aid of them and their social money owed. The maximum they’ll provide is an informative description, their social debts, consumer reviews and films by way of them.

Allow’s dive properly into what is perceived as terrible about gaming. The majority of the terrible matters approximately video games come from the real lifestyles Human beings on The one’s video games, the type of games and the kinds of games for the incorrect man or woman. A recreation may be poorly made but it is now not always the case in which the game itself is bad. It is able to be in which it become the wrong kind of game for the wrong individual. That is wherein the kinds are available. Perhaps a sport has a piece of violence. That doesn’t make it terrible; it just makes it the wrong kind of game for a seven 12 months vintage. Or Perhaps you acquire a puzzle sport for a person who loves movement kind games. So the movement loving character may not enjoy it, however, That doesn’t make the puzzle game terrible!

The forms of video games are limitless from nudity, drugs and alcohol, horror, gambling with cash and more. Those different sorts are incorrect for kids free online gaming enthusiasts as well as wrong for folks who don’t like seeing such things.

Gaming websites has right and terrible sides just like everything else. The secret is how properly and horrific are The one’s facets. As an example, some video games have an awful side with players that want to fight plenty. This is common in video games. Recognize for numerous Game enthusiasts this is not a large deal; but, for adolescents who’re new to the sport or even gaming in well known this could be frustrating. There are instances whilst you need to avoid the awful sides all collectively. There are instances while the coolest outweighs the bad. If this takes place and there are no troubles with the sport itself; then the bad side is simply that one little fly in your room which is not any big deal. Caution: If the awful outweighs the best, I might strongly suggest averting that recreation top 10 gaming websites.

Every other component that Human beings will nag a recreation developer or author about is representation. Have to I say, a lack of illustration which isn’t restrained to race, frame kind and message in the sport. If you are capable of customizing your character, then of a path you’ll now not have a trouble with representation. There may be a hassle in a few games where they do not represent robust and smart girls, minority females and adult males, massive, small, tall, and short ladies and adult males. Be aware how I didn’t place “adult males” after lady for robust? It’s due to the fact men in video games are always represented as strong and clever.

In games that display a male robust and smart, he’ll normally probably be white, tall, thin, movie famous person looking and buff. you will not often see him be a minority, quick, chubby, now not buff, nerdy searching, even as nonetheless being robust and clever. You spot this even Less for females. some ladies in video games are also white, tall, thin and robust even as showing skin like no the next day. You best see These ladies in MMO video games (Massively Multiplayer online Position Gambling recreation) though. RPG games are meant for fable worlds where you primarily combat Human beings and monsters. Of direction, the women’ stats may be strong however they might not look robust.

In maximum video games, once they upload an individual a good way to play they always add a white male first, then a white girl, then a black male, after which a black woman. They do not even without a doubt upload people who are mixes of races or in among. With regards to the black characters, they simplest add one color of “black” or “African-American” and now not each black individual on this planet is that color.

In games, The general public of the characters is constantly thin and tall. You don’t actually see characters which can be quick and thin, tall and chubby, brief and chubby, etc. There are numerous those who are not skinny and who aren’t tall.

Then ultimately, There is the mental message that is going with the gender, race, and body type. What do I imply by using the mental message? a few games send an indirect message approximately that character being sturdy and clever or something else. at the same time as for other video games, it is able to be an intellectual message both on reason or no longer. As an instance, in the sport, you play and you see a minority lady who is short, chubby, nerdy searching and her developments are to be a goof ball, naive, and dumb. It can send an intellectual message to you that People that appear to be her are just like her. They are not clever, they aren’t thin, and are not tall. They did poorly in college, and so forth. and so forth. So you begin thinking The one’s matters based on not most effective seeing this in that sport again and again once more, however when it occurs in different video games too.

The worst element is NONE of these items are proper. Yes, a few People are not skinny, tall, and Perhaps now not that vivid; but not Anyone is like this! You do have brief overweight minorities who are smart as all get out! You have all forms of combos of those who ARE smart! Of path, all this stuff about gender, race, frame type, and messages aren’t just in gaming; They’re in movies, Tv suggests, ads, and so on. What’s thrilling is that some of the creators who make the games, movies, Tv suggests, commercials, and so on., are minorities themselves and that they make up the population of the earth. (Seek “world populace through race 2016” and click the first 3 links In case you do not accept as true with me.)

Short disclaimer: I’m now not BASHING All of us! Sure, I was shouting that. This segment of the item is telling you what I realize, read, pay attention and experience in gaming.

If you do not consider me pass to take a look at modern day Television suggests, films, ads, and video games. A display to have a look at for accurate illustration is Milo Murphy’s Law. two video games to examine as a reference for suitable representation are OverWatch and Atlas Reactor. Now in Those fields, it has gotten higher for illustration mainly gender, race and just now beginning frame type (especially in this order). a few games even add robots and creatures as playable characters to avoid having troubles with representation. This eliminates the trouble of customers wanting a man or woman to represent their actual or desired gender, race, or frame type due to the fact now There’s a character maximum customers can agree on. After all, you can not please Anyone.

Very well, now that I ranted and were given the awful stuff out of the manner; Allow’s get into the coolest parts of gaming! You have Gamers as young as three years old and as antique as 90+! No matter your age, race, gender, religion, culture, or area gaming can be desirable for Everyone. Gaming cannot only be amusing, but beneficial and academic.

Again with gaming is it may help youth have greater self-belief in them and be extra social. If they play a web multiplayer game and talk to other gamers around the world, this can assist then get used to talking to different People except for family and that they advantage confidence in what They’re pronouncing. They are able to cross from an introvert to a social enthusiast! it could manifest fast or slowly. Even though it’s now not a sport, however, a place for Gamers, artists, fashion designers, vehicle fanatic, etc. to talk; it’ll nevertheless help them be more social. Keep in thoughts, though, typing to someone after which voice chatting to someone are exclusive experiences. teenagers may be very social when typing but very shy whilst voice chatting.

That is how I’m. Earlier than I was shy whilst speak to People I failed to understand whether it become online or offline, now I have ended up more cozy with it due to the fact I understand how to cope with myself and trust in myself. however, With regards to voice chatting on-line, I’m the quiet man or woman at the chat. Counterproductive proper! You might even overlook I was on a call with you! Before while the Humans on the bank stated: “Hi” I would not say something, now I simply respond and say “Hi. How are you?” After that, I don’t definitely anticipate to talk with them so I will be quiet again lol. See what I imply? After socializing, in well known, through the years you get better at it and end up Less nervous and greater confident in yourself.

Some other benefit with gaming is crew work. From time to time in games, the handiest way to win or accomplish a purpose is to work with one or more games. In positive games, players are allowed a mission can be accomplished with best one player, but it is probably more difficult unless You have got greater players than yourself. other times positive obligations can not be finished with one player and need two or more. There are times you’re making a group with your pals or circle of relatives to complete the aim. different times you can make a collection with Humans you failed to know.

That is where it can get problematic. If it is a game where you may make a set That’s inviting simplest, you’d just invite your pals or circle of relatives. you could strategize with them, you would be greater at ease talking with them, and you will all comply with paintings together. If it’s a recreation wherein There is no institution gadget however you can still paintings with others, aka loose for fall, and you could communicate with them there can also nonetheless be a purpose that could only be completed with a couple of games. Do you need to play with different players you have never talked to Before if your family and friends can not join you and also you really need to finish this goal?

This isn’t always a terrible issue, though! That is in which you now not most effective emerge as extra social however you learn how to paintings with other gamers you’ve never met Before. In case you continually play along with your family and friends you both already realize the way to work collectively, how the alternative thinks, and so on. however, if it’s someone you’ve got by no means met it is able to be a bit difficult. I and my brother grew up doing the whole lot together without absolutely having any buddies, Perhaps colleagues and buddies but now not simply friends. So we have been very used to understanding what the opposite desired or how they played and many others. but while we without a doubt got friends, it becomes very hard to agree on many things. So In case you play and work with other Humans now it is going to be simpler later. I and my brother have progressed our capabilities to paintings with others.

Another benefit is staying power which ties in with team building and socializing. In spite of everything, a good way to get better at something you not best should Keep doing it but you have to have patience whilst doing it. There are frequently in games where you need to wait. just like reading is in the entirety, you have to have staying power for the entirety. In video games, you continually need to await something. You need to have patience for locating something, something to complete cooking, something to complete death, your friends to come back lower back from going AFK (Faraway from Keyboard), the next wave of monsters to return, the following degree to open up, and so on. and so on. I had to have staying power whilst writing this newsletter! So gaming will let you have more patience in gaming and ordinary existence american bad boy.

Any other gain is hand and eye coordination. whilst you’re gaming you have to pay interest to what is going on in your display even as additionally urgent your controller or keyboard button to do greater things on your screen. In case you want to transport your man or woman in that sport, you need to use your keyboard and mouse or a controller whilst nonetheless looking at your screen. it’s like studying how to type. most of the time you’re alleged to discover ways to kind phrases and sentences whilst looking at your screen without searching at your keyboard american bad boy movie trailer. This same element applies to gaming bad girlfriend. You’ve got in order to press the wished keys in an effort to do so factor you are looking to do while looking at your display screen. In any case, In case you’re pressing your keys but now not searching at your display screen, how can you recognize In case you’re doing it right?

Now, this one is an advantage and educational benefit – memory. video games can assist improve your reminiscence. How? Let me tell you. Take what I stated above approximately typing. The folks that can study their monitors and kind without looking at their keyboard have something referred to as “muscle memory”. once they need to make a certain letter seem on display they just ought to press that key and that they don’t need to have a look at the keyboard due to the fact they have got a press that key so usually they themselves and their muscles don’t forget in which that sure secret is. You’ve got muscle reminiscence already. don’t accept as true with me? Take a look at your keyboard right now. You notice wherein all of the letters, numbers, and logos are proper? The letters aren’t in alphabetical order. So whenever you tried to type your name or something on a virtual keyboard wherein the letter have been alphabetical; Did you take you longer than normally to kind that phrase and become it weird and confusing? It became. I have accomplished it. You know why?

whilst you type or text to someone You recognize the word you need to make seem on screen and you remember in which the keys are. Maybe you can not tell them so as if a person asked you however If they requested you to type a word you would be able to type it because You realize in which the keys are. For me, I know a way to spell certain phrases while I’m typing but Perhaps no longer the way to spell it verbally. That is because I’m seeing the phrase being spelled in the front of me. Technically while we kind to each different we are spelling out phrases after which reading them in our mind. however whilst you talk out loud you don’t see the words you just pay attention them. Sure, when you examine text on display you listen to them on your thoughts, even right now not you listen to These phrases I am typing, however, you don’t verbally listen to them and you’re seeing every letter make up that phrase. while someone spells something incorrect you at once Word it as it’s no longer spelled properly and also you read it. when someone speaks something you do not read any letters, you best listen to the word.

So games allow you to build up muscle memory and mind reminiscence. If you can save objects in game you have to keep in mind in which you placed it, or In case you need a recipe to make something You may recall the recipe, or Maybe you don’t forget a detail about something critical, or Maybe you recall the manner through a maze or the manner home. some games are even constructed just to assist improve your memory or the best manner to Hold progressing is remembering positive data. My mom can type without looking at the keyboard but struggles with attempting to stroll in video games.

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So now Allow’s get into the educational blessings. One academic gain is math. Now, the game does not have an intention to teach you math in order for it to have math. The factor of going to school is to get a schooling! not socialize, however you continue to may make pals. So this applies to all video games. the sport doesn’t constantly should have a goal of J but it might encompass J. Its goal might be X but it’s nevertheless have J. In some video games you can construct houses and use recipes to make gadgets. How massive do you want your how to be? 30 blocks X 10 blocks X 60 blocks? Did you Apprehend what I just said? Let me say it in another way. 30 blocks on the X axis (left and right on the ground), 10 blocks at the Y axis (up and down at the floor), and 60 blocks at the Z axis (up and down inside the air). That is the way you’d construct a house, the usage of math, in a game known as Minecraft. With These coordinates it manner your private home will be a rectangle with a completely tall roof. Let’s use Minecraft once more for this next example.

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The Sweet Scientist

Jim Kirk x Reader

Fluff, Science Officer Jim AU

It was a slow shift in Medbay when You got a call from the science labs informing of an accident. Somebody had blown themselves up again, apparently. Your boss sighed heavily upon hearing the news.

“S’probably Jim. Kid can’t go a month without making something go BOOM. He’s a genius, but an absolute menace, I tell you.”

“I haven’t met the guy, so I’ll take your word for it,” you said, with some curiosity. Leonard had mentioned his nerdy best friend many times, but you’d only been on the ship three weeks, so you hadn’t yet encountered said Jim.

“Well, you’re about to right now,” McCoy sighed, nodding at the limping blue clad figure being helped through the door by two sturdy red shirts.

The CMO gestured the group over to a biobed and you looked him over, assessing his condition. He looked a little dazed and was sneezing continually, dirty blonde hair sticking up wildy and dark-rimmed glasses askew on his face.

He didn’t appear to be bleeding or anything, but the chances of having been exposed to noxious gases looked high, and you scanned him with the tricorder, while Leonard questioned his dazed patient.

“What did ya do this time, Kid?” He asked in exasperation. “Please tell me you had your mask on this time.”

“I did,” Jim wheezed. “Took it off too soon, I think.”

Leonard groaned loudly and started lecturing Jim about being an idiot while you scanned him quickly and prepped the hypo, handing it to Leonard, who quickly administered it to Jim.

“Ow, Bones,” he complained, rubbing his neck. “Warn a Guy next time.”

“Keep your safety mask on next time,” Leonard countered.

“Did you hurt your leg, Lieutenant?” You asked, addressing Jim for the first time. He fixed his reddened blue eyes on you and for a split second you were distracted by their color. “I’m Nurse Y/N, by the way,” you added.

“Bones didn’t tell me he’d got a new nurse,” the patient said. Pleased to meet you Y/N. I’m Jim Kirk. Yeah, I think I got some glass from the explosion in my leg.”

“I’ll take care of it,” you said, before Leonard could harrumph again.

It was a tedious process getting the tiny bits of glass out, but Jim was cooperative and quite a delight to you. (His cuteness didn’t hurt either). He chattered about his science projects enthusiastically (once he was done with the oxygen treatment for his smoke inhalation) and complimented your steady hands as you removed shard after shard.

“There you go, Jim,” you said, having finished cleaning and bandaging. “You’ll all set.”

“Thank you, Nurse Y/N,” he responded. “I’m such a doofus and I’m afraid you’ll see a lot of me down here. I’m kind of accident prone.”

“Let’s hope they’re all very minor accidents,” you told him, adding in a low tone. “He gets really grumpy when you’re hurt.”

Jim laughed and he looked even more attractive. You were seriously in danger now of falling under his spell and were glad Len had left the room for the moment. That man had an uncanny knack for sensing attraction going on, even though he always denied it.

“Yeah, he does. I’m in for another lecture after shift,” Kirk sighed. “Am I allowed to leave now?”

Before you could answer, a thunderous “NO!” Came from Len, who returned to lay down the law, poking furiously at a PADD.

“I want you in here for a few hours to make sure everything’s cleared up. No ifs, ands, or buts!”

At Jim’s disgruntled expression, the doctor waggled his finger at him like a parent scolding a misbehaving child.

“Maybe that will teach you to quit being careless with your life, kid.” He admonished. After another quick checkup, he told you what needed watched and moved on to the next patient.

Jim looked very annoyed and you sympathized with him. Medbay wasn’t a place one wanted to spend much time in unless they worked there.

He straightened his glasses and sighed.

“He’s such a tyrant sometimes,” he sighed. “He could take lessons from you in bedside manner.”

“He’s like that with the people he worries about most,” you explained. “You have the fortune—or misfortune—Of Being one of those.”

“Well, since he’s got such a nice nurse, I guess I’ll survive,” Jim sighed, smiling at you in a way that made your cheeks heat up.

“I didn’t know the science type could be so smooth,” you replied, with a smirk.

“Oh, you’d be surprised,” Jim replied. “I can occasionally not be horribly awkward around the ladies, especially one I really like.”

His own face grew beet red as he spoke and you were charmed.

“You only just met me. How do you know I’m likable?” You playfully countered.

“First off, Bones doesn’t work that closely with the nurses he doesn’t like, and two I just get those good vibes from you.”

“I’m glad I give off positive energy, but I’m not allowed to flirt with the patients, no matter how adorable they are,” you informed him, “but if perhaps we were to run into each other off duty, we could continue this conversation,” you hinted, working hard at skirting that line.

Jim took the hint and behaved himself, but was unusually good natured and Leonard stared after him suspiciously after he’d been released and practically pranced out of Medbay.

A few days later, Jim didn’t sit by him during lunch and Leonard was beginning to be worried, until he spotted his best friend sitting across from his new nurse, the two of you flirting hard and oblivious to anyone around them.

“Damnit it, Jim,” he groaned. “Can’t trust you anywhere.”

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