#straight up looking at the fan like ok core there obvs

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Ghost trick got me thinking about puzzles in my living room 💀💀💀💀

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So, I finished The Untamed and ok ok I think I have collected most of my thoughts about it. (I’m late, so I guess these thoughts don’t really matter, but I wanted to put them somewhere and here seemed like the place.) SO here’s a post absolutely NO ONE WANTS and imma do it anyway cool cool.

Firstly: love. This entire show is about love. Obviously other things too ok I’m simplifying for the sake of my point. But importantly it is about love. The love for our families, found, made and blood. The love of soulmates, romantic and platonic. The love of humanity, of the people known and unknown, love for them purely because they are human and are therefore deserving of love. The love inherent in honour and duty, the sacrifices made for that love. Loving someone—bravely, in the face of every adversity, despite being told it’s wrong. Learning to be true to that love, learning to love faithfully, learning to love, to show love, to be loved.

Bless the tireless translators. Y’all. The work you do is often thankless but y’all are so valued. Thank you.

The music. I actually don’t have the words for this, I can only thank the composers and musicians for the gifts they have blessed us with. My heart my heart my heart.

The costumes, set, props and cinematography are all so exquisite. I’m not an expert in any of these fields but I can see the care and detail paid to each facet of this show. What an absolute visual joy. Stunning.

And now, the characters.

I’ll start with the ladies. They deserved so much more. We deserved to have more than just one by the end, but I understand this wasn’t their story (still hurts tho).

Jiang Yanli. Proof that kindness is powerful. Her heart holds entire worlds. She is not weak (don’t even try me I swear to the gods). She holds her family together. She takes care of her siblings. She feeds their bodies and their souls. WWX is right—JZX does not deserve her but that’s because nobody does. But Jiang Yanli deserves to be happy, therefore her marriage to the Flower Peacock is valid purely bc it makes her happy. She stands up for what’s right, she will not compromise her morals, she will defend her family to her last breath (and so she does💔). She does not harden herself, she does not have to. Her patience and kindness, her softness, her gentleness—things that are seen as weaknesses or inferiorities—are what put her above all around her. She is gracious, she is strong, she is loving, she is determined, she is brave. She deserved better.

Wen Qing. A queen. A powerhouse. The most brilliant mind. A lightning-quick and sharp-bladed tongue. She loves Wen Ning so much and her love is powerful, just as Jiang Yanli’s. Her dedication and devotion to her people, her true family, not just a name, is incredible, inspiring. Why? Because she’s not perfect. So she learns. She grows. She becomes herself. When she’s at the Burial Mounds, she essentially adopts WWX as another younger brother, caring for him because she knows he won’t care for himself, and she does so out of love and respect. But she never replaces Jiang Yanli. She is keenly aware of all she perceives WWX loses because he aids them. Hence the pivotal, crucial: I’m sorry and thank you. She walks to what she knows is her own death with her head held high and her hand in her brother’s, offering love and support and what protection she can to the end. She does not flinch. She does not bow. She fights with all of her and surrenders with grace not reflected by those she surrenders to. Honestly I could write an entire thesis on Wen Qing but I’ll cry too hard so I’ll just leave it here that she deserved better, she deserved to live, she deserved to be free.

Mian Mian. Mian motherfucking Mian. Here is a woman who stares injustice full in the face and says no fucking way, says over my dead body, says you and what army old man. Strips the robes of the hypocritical off her own damn body, throws them at the feet of a false god and walks out, back straight, head held high. She makes her own way in the world, carves out her own life, finds love and happiness and lives. She does not compromise. She does not bow. She fights and she wins and she is glorious. And she lives she lives she lives.

Yu ZiYuan. I may be in the minority here but that’s ok. No I don’t approve of her abuse, just gonna nip that one in the bud right out of the gate. Was she fair? No. Was she cruel? Yes. Was she an incredible fighter who fought for her family, for her home? Who showed raw courage and furious strength in the face of insurmountable odds? Who loved a man with her whole bitter heart, loved her children with that same fractured heart? Was clearly the subject of spiteful rumour and vicious gossip and did not let it defeat her? Refused to bow to anyone? I do not like her, do not like how her bitterness made her cruel. But seeing her wield her blade, take wound after wound, witness the death of her love, then take her own blade and rob the monsters invading her home of the satisfaction of taking her life, took her own life with her own hands because that’s how she did everything in her life so why the fuck wouldn’t she do it in death too, who crawled her way to the man she loved, laced their fingers together so he wouldn’t die alone, so they could both die held? How can I not respect her.

Ok. The lads.

Jiang Cheng is a man-child idiot with the emotional expression range of a loquat, an inferiority complex the size of the moon and self-worth issues going back farther than the Big Bang, and I love him, ok? He loves so hard and so much and it is heartwrenching that he cannot communicate that. Some of his best moments are actually in the background, which is both funny and terribly sad. His rage is at times ridiculous, at times frustrating, at times all he has left, his joy is bright but brief, his grief is devastating. Watching JY greet WWX after the 3 months in the Burial Mounds. The entire temple scene. Crying on his knees. We were to be the Heroes of Yunmeng. Take care. Fuck me right in my feelings ok.

Wen Ning is so fucking precious and I would die for him for all eternity. What an absolute gift his character is. I honestly can’t write much more about him because I’ll cry. But special mentions to his interactions with A-Yuan/Lan SiZhui and the incredible scene where he reveals to Jiang Cheng the truth about his/WWX’s golden core. Unparalleled emotional intensity. The equal parts tenderness and fierceness of his love is breathtaking.

And the loves.

Song Lan and Xiao Xingchen. There is a lot of tragedy in The Untamed. There is great sadness in the main plot line and even in the small side plots. The Ballad of Song Lan and Xian Xingchen (as it’s come to be known in my head) is for me the most devastating and poignant. They just wanted to do good, to wander the world together and do their part to make it a better and safer place. It’s noble, yes, but it’s also so human, so close to home. Because we all want that, to know that we can do some good before we leave this world. They do not want to be involved in the petty squabbles, the undignified and cruel vying for power and dominance. They simply want to live and be. The fact that both of their deaths are pointless, could have been avoided, are the faults of poor timing and terrible terrible luck and cruel turns fate is almost what makes it sadder. Xue Yang screams that XXC is not better than him, that his righteousness and the righteous way he has attempted to live his life is all for naught. And then he is immediately proven wrong—XXC’s heartbreak means he can’t become XY’s puppet. SL is free from XY’s control and avenges himself and XXC. Which is also somehow just as devastating. That XXC and SL were so close, so very close to being together, to living, to making it, but didn’t. Nothing grand or heroic about their deaths—just the unknown and unpredictable nature of life. There is no rhyme or reason, no big important plan, no fate or destiny. They both simply die as we all one day will. And it is their potential cut short, the love and life they could’ve had, that hurts the most. They are not Lan Zhan and Wei Ying: they do not get their second chance, their reunion, their happily ever after. The look shared between SL and LWJ—the shared grief, the recognition, the understanding—and LWJ’s brief and unelaborated-on comment to WWX ‘how fortunate’ speaks volumes. How fortunate you came back/I found you/that’s not us when it could’ve been. That final shot of SL walking away and the brief out-of-focus moment of XXC walking beside him—particularly when it’s echoed with the parallel of WWX and LWJ—chokes me every time.

Wei Ying and Lan Zhan. Soulmates in every sense of the word. Their song. Their bunnies. Their child. The years they were robbed of. The yearning. The pining. The loyalty. The growth. The love the love the love. The loss the loss the loss. Every Lan Zhan. Every Wei Ying. Every glance. Every soft breath. Every gentle touch. The tenderness. The intimacy. The quiet acceptance. Their love story is one of the ages and, on a personal note as a queer person, what a gift it is to see a queer love story like this. (even when censored as a bromance, which like I mean, they tried but the glances alone are +9000 gay pining but whatever and yes I am making a joke because I’m crying don’t look at me)

TL;DR: I am so thankful The Untamed/CQL/MDZS and all of its adaptations (the source material included obvs) exists. I am so thankful to the writers, translators, casts, crews, creators. I am thankful for the community of fans that exist that love it as I do, who share that love and passion—whether through passionate discussion, rich fanfic or mind-blowing fanart. I am thankful I live in a time where content like this exists and can be shared. I learned a whole lot and I’m so grateful there aren’t even words. Love y’all. I’m gonna go be soft now. 💙

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This may be weird but can you talk about your current favorites? haha I love your blog and your art!

Ahh Tysm!! music, book, tv, food, fashion, apps, Animal Crossing friend code, and beauty faves!! Please check it out! There’s a lot of great stuff in here. (Everything mentioned below are linked!)

Music

O. When - TodayO. When - WhenPaul Kim - I’m Not the Only One (cover)

Paul Kim - Rain (Acoustic Ver)

Lorde - Liability 

Eden- Fumes (honestly I like the night core ver better lol)

One Ok Rock - American Girls (i’ve fucking loved OOR since like 2013)

One Ok Rock - Adult Suits

So… much… J-Rock… If you’d like a full J-rock list let me know!! I would love to share all of my bbs

Books

Almost done listening to: Dawn of Wonder by Johnathan Renshaw

A coming of age story about a very intelligent boy, Aedan, becoming a military officer, and all of the hilarious and exciting tales throughout his journey! Lol I explained this like shit, but it’s a great listen!! The voice actor from Audible does an amazing job and the differences in European accents is entertaining in itself. Check this out if you like: Maze Runner, Percy Jackson, Harry Potter, etc? I’ve laughed so much whilst listening to this book :3

TV

THE OFFICE - OMG I LOVEEE I’ve grown so attached to all of the characters alskdjflsdkf :’) At first I hated Michael because he was so problematic, but he was just a smol bb that needed a healthy love :)) My fave characters are: Jim (obvs), Dwight, Pam, and Kevin lol I finished this series in like a week in a half. I really really recommended it, even though everyone’s seen it except for me lol

ONE PIECE - I recently got a Hulu account, because Hulu is so much better than Netflix let me tell you. Their anime selection is out of this world they’ve got everything!! Even Steven Universe and Adventure Time!!! I had gotten a Monkey D. Luffy figure from a Loot Crate box!! And the character design was so unique, I checked out One Piece…. and I have been laughing so much. It’s one of those fun light hearted shows that you can just enjoy! Zorro and the chef guy are my faves so far hehe :3 Luffy is honestly so straight forward and a bit air headed that everything he says and does makes me LMAO You really need to check this anime out!! Such a classic!! Just going to warn you that there are like 11 seasons lol, I’m almost done with the first one, but!! The episodes are like 15 minutes? Not counting the intro and the outro lol

THE SOUND OF YOUR HEART- THIS IS A MUCH WATCH FOR ALL RUNNING MAN FANS OR PEOPLE WHO LOVE CRUDE HUMOR!! This show is from Korea, but is on Netflix! It’s an adaptation of a very popular webtoon called “The Sound of Your Heart” lol. The infamous Lee Kwang Soo plays the lead, and honestly this webdrama will have you clutching your bellies and wiping your tears from laughter. I finished this show within a couple hours. There are about 10 episodes all 20 minutes a piece. Please just check it out. I have no words to describe how glorious this show is.

Fashion

This super cute Soldier 76 t-shirt- I legit where this all the time I got mine from jinx.com! They’re legit from Blizzard, and are made from amazing quality! My only gripe is that there’s not free shipping :( Mine is in a Men’s M

(Yes I do play overwatch)

Beauty Faves

Aritaum Mirror Gloss Tint in Cinnamon Beige- Best mlbb tint, very moisturizing, and leaves a very pretty tint after it dries! I wear this lip every day

Etude House Dear My Lips in PK004- A super cute coral color that’s perfect for spring! I like to dab this onto my lips and leaves a soft finish! Make sure to apply some chapstick before, because it is a lipstick and can be a bit drying. (But I also live in a very dry climate so…) Also I think this is Red Velvet’s Joy’s pick from the line :3 

Heimish Glow Base - GURRLLL If you wanna have that I woke up like this type of glow. GET THIS it’s like that super popular Etude House primer everyone loves, but BETTER. I personally get more a glow with this Hemish one and it looks natural!! The Etude House looks natural as well, but less GLOW. Plus!! The Hemish Glow Base has SPF!!! On good skin days, I usually just do my brows, slap this on, and the Etude House Dear My Lips lipstick. I highly recommend this primer!

Apps

Baloons TD5- this used to be huge back in 2013ish lol, but I’ve been obsessed with this game

Grid Diary- a cute way to keep track of your day! I bought the full ver for like $5 but honestly, it’s worth it. I use it every day, and I can customize a number of grids I want to write in and customize the questions I want to answer about my day! I honestly can’t keep a journal, so this was a great alternative! I like to record my dreams, what I spent money on that day, how I’m feeling, the weather, what I did with my family, etc! It’s an app from Korea, so the interface is nice, clean, and minimalistic. 

Food

Nature’s Path- Love Crunch Granola - Dark Chocolate and Red Berries

THIS WITH SOME ALMOND MILK IS MY NEW HOLY GRAIL BFAST/SNACK FOOD. It’s not too sweet bc it’s dark chocolate, but you get little sweet bits of freeze dried strawberries and raspberries!! I’m in love with this granola. the only thing is I can’t eat this dry, it has to be with almond milk. please check this out, you can get it at walmart

ETC.

3DS- I finallyyyy purchased the galaxy 3ds! I’ve been playing animal crossing alot! It’s so cute and so much fun!! The only struggle is that I’m broke lol… Send me your friend code so we can hang out!!! (mutuals only)

Nail Care- After 18 ½ years of not caring about my nails, your girl has finally jumped onto that cuticle oil and nail file life lol. I’m having so much fun, please message me your favorite nail poilshes!! I have like 0 colors TT_TT

Loot Crate- I finally caved and bought last month’s Loot Crate and the theme was together? It featured: Haikyuu, Boy and his Beast, One Piece, and Ostumatsu- San!! I got a Haikyuu (full karasuno team) t-shirt, a Boy and the Beast book, a Luffy Figurine, and a Ichimatsu (my fave character) phone strap!! I’m in love with all of these products and it got me into One Piece!! The t-shirt is sosososo soft and comfy I love

Thank You So Much For Taking The Time To Read My Favorites!!