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brayden i have nowhere to go from here
Get out of my head get out of my head get out of my headâŚPLEASE get out of my head đ
#wren leave me aloneâŚ#annonymous#iâm scared#please help#brayden did you ask the lunch lady to queef on your chicken nuggets#perchance I requested them cheesy#stop stop talking#what I just wanted a little fermunda cheese on my nuggy#shut up shut your mouth#âŚmr belding? earth to mr belding? hah!!! Iâve left him whittably speechless#brayden I have nowhere to go from here. all I have is the nuclear option#nuclear option? whatâs that supposed to mean vladimir putin?? âŚUNO REVWRSE???#THATS RIGHT BRAYDEN BE AS WEIRD AS YOU WANNA BE TELL ME DI YOU HAVE A CLOACA#WHAT!! only birds and reptiles have those!!#well birdsâŚand reptiles..and-and therian plushies like yourself!!#WHAT THATS JUST A RUMOR#tell me is your cloaca moist#mr belding youâre making me uncomfortable#Iâm making YOU uncomfortable..well..well try this on for size!!#MR BELDING ITS TINY đđ#SEE BRAYDEN WERE NOT SO DIDFERENT#WHY ARE YOU TALKING LIKE THAT#I WANT YOUR MILKSHAKE BRAYDEN#I HAVE MY MILKSHAKE AND A LONG STRAW#PUT IN YOUR MILKSHAKE DRINK IT ALL UP
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Ray's After Ending is so funny because for a good chunk of it, most of the RFA members are knocked out by V's sleeping gas (Saeran is immune, Saeyoung isn't present bc he was kidnapped by his agency under his father's orders and MC wakes up in like an hour) but the game has a call feature where you can call the characters and it would be a waste if you couldn't use it bc the characters were unavailable so instead they have other people pick up the call (Jumin's driver picks up Jumin's phone, Jumin's father picks up Zen's phone, Yoosung's friends and mom pick up Yoosung's phone and Jaehee's coworkers pick up Jaehee's phone) and we do get to learn about the characters from outsider's point of view but it's so funny to me that these people are visiting their loved ones and suddenly the phone rings and they decide to just. answer it. and start talking to this stranger they've never met
#prince's talk tag#maybe its not actually weird people just pick up their loved one's phone call for them but i personally wouldn't#i cant stop thinking about how its Jumin's father that uses Zen's phone like Chief Han what were you doing in Zen's room??#i know they needed to assign somw character to Zen and he's not on speaking terms with his family#but I would of thought Chief Han would go to Jumin and the driver could go to Zen#does this mean something? am i thinking too hard about this?#also rip yoosung his friends and mom lowkey kinda dragging him in their call with you#and with the friends since one of them is a girl one of the options is like 'A girl?!?! are you dating??' and shes like 'no lolol'#'he's nice but i dont see him like that'#the main thing that made me make this post was thinking about Yoosung's mom saying how Jumin calls her sometimes and sends her holiday gift#like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! idk man that just plays on a loop in my head#i know thats like a very professional thing to do. Jumin was raised to please people in a business capacity#and the he cares about the RFA so yea it makes sense. im sure he has gifts sent out to companies his works with#and I'm sure if the other members had a good relationship with their parents hed do the same with them#but in the RFA Yoosung and I guess V are the only ones with parents they talk to#idk if he sends a gift to V's father tho bc we never talk to him#but man. while i know hed do it with the other members if he could just the fact he does it with Yoosung is sweet#and it makes the part in Seven's route where he calls Yoosung's mom about her son's dilemma make sense to me bc they do talk once in a whil#so its not too out of the blue when he does it i guess#but man can we talk about how awesome Jaehee is? bc her coworker that picks up her phone spends every call gushing about her#like we knew she's great at her job but man hearing her coworker talk about her fills me with such love and admiration#and she's apparently really loved by the other assistants too like they all gush about her#jaehee is the best character in the game im not joking around#they wanna get close to her but bc she's their boss it's hard T_T#and the one that picks up the phone wishes Jaehee knows she was the one that stood with her overnight when she wakes#Yuni (the assistant you're talking to) says she would of quit the job had it not been for her#LIKE!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAA!!!!#it was a nice way to use the call feature during the first two days of the characters not being awake to answer#and even though this is supposed to be the last thing you play before completing the whole game#you still learn something new about the characters you've known since day 1
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#keep getting advice from my family about how to buy a house#i dont want to own a house????#or an apartment???#i want to travel and live in different places and explore#the idea of settling down and putting down roots is not something thats even on my radar#why do they keep talking about it#i dont dream of that#stop talking as if its my only option as if its supposed to be what i want#i want to get out of here#but not to settle down somewhere else
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fragile line | daniel ricciardo
pairing: daniel ricciardo x driver!reader
You and I walk a fragile line I have known it all this time But I never thought I'd live to see it break
what happens when the driver daniel falls in love with, ends up being the one who brings his career to a screeching halt? word count: 7.7k (im so sorry) warnings/tags: fluff-ish, plot with implied/very little smut, angst, mclaren danny, zak brown (gross), some incorrect f2 stats but whatever, time jumps, really just a lot of angst, its a rollercoaster
âWhat do you know?â
âWhat do you know?â Daniel repeated the question back to you, the emphasis making it clear as day that you both carried the same career-altering information.Â
His signature grin and comforting optimism were nowhere to be seen. Instead, Danielâs expression could be described in a variety of ways. Solemn, disappointed, hurt.Â
âWhat was I supposed to do?â You asked, going straight to the defensive. You couldnât be helpful in this scenario, you just needed to explain yourself. He wouldnât understand it from your perspective, but you had to try.Â
âNot take the seat,â he offered a solution, as if it was that simple. âMy god, I mean, theyâre cutting my contract early, Y/N. For you.â
âFor the sake of the team,â you corrected. You had no say in this. McLaren had plenty of driver options for the 2023 season. There were rumours of Danielâs contract coming to an end a year early anyway, everyone heard them, everyone ignored them. The only thing that remained uncertain for a while was who would replace him should the rumours be true.
You.Â
âYou donât even like McLaren.â You told him, voice raising a little as if that helped get the point across. âYouâve struggled with this team since day one.â
âThat doesnât mean I want to stop racing.â
âMcLaren is not the team for you and you know this.â
Daniel scoffed, eyebrows twitching, âDid Zak tell you to say that?â
It was a rhetorical question, but Daniel noticed the way your bottom lip quivered. He caught the way your eyes dropped from his, even just for a split second. There was something unspoken between you, something that weighed on your mind and Daniel stepped forward, wanting to know what exactly it was.Â
âZak-â you started, reluctant to even say this. â-he doesnât know Iâm here. Iâm not supposed to be here. Iâm not supposed to talk to you or anyone about it, not until your announcement comes out.â
Here meaning Danielâs flat in Monaco. The place you spent more nights at than your own. You played it off by saying his view was better but that was such a bullshit answer. Danielâs flat always felt more like home than yours ever did.Â
You had formally met the Australian driver a few years ago, but god did time fly. It was at a race in Monza. You could pretend you didnât know the date but of course you did, you had it memorised. September 3rd, 2020. There was no way you could forget the day your life changed for the better.Â
Or possibly, for the worse. It was up in the air at this point.Â
You were new to the Formula 2 series. The only female driver on the grid as you raced with Prema alongside Mick Schumacher. F3 proved to be quite a successful stint for you and you had your eyes set on the coveted Formula 1 series. You wanted to be in the big leagues.Â
Daniel saw that. He saw how determined you were to not only make waves in Motorsport, but to make something of yourself. You trained just as hard, if not harder than the other drivers in the junior series and Daniel had seen that for a while. He was often surprised to see you at the hotel gym, already working up a sweat when he walked in at a little after 6am. He would be even more surprised when he saw you there in the evening when other drivers went and called it a night or even went and celebrated.Â
Your race weekends were the same as F1 weekends, but you just had limited ones. It was a shorter season, less intense, but whenever you were there. Daniel saw you. He saw you and he paid attention. He even rooted for you, very publicly as well whenever he could, despite the two of you never having exchanged a word.Â
The first time you heard about Daniel cheering you on was after the Monaco race, quite early on into your first season. You qualified 7th, not ideal for a track like Monaco where the opportunities to overtake were far and few between, but somehow you did it. And then you did it again. And you could say it was luck but it was really smart strategy and an insane amount of driver skill that had you finishing fifth. In Monaco.Â
Those were Danielâs words. He was asked pre-race if he watched the F2 run and he said of course. He said he âwouldnât have missed it for the world,â wanting to see what you could do this weekend.Â
âItâs not luck, sheâs incredibly talented,â Daniel had told the Sky Sports reporter. âSheâs doing big things in the series, and Iâm rooting for her. Truly. Itâs rare a driver comes around with such raw natural talent, where you look at them and you know racingâs just in their blood, but itâs in hers. I would love to see her in Formula 1 one day.â
You watched that interview clip about twenty times. Daniel Ricciardo, the Daniel Ricciardo who had won Monaco a few years back, was complimenting you. He was rooting for you.Â
It wasnât until Monza, nearing the end of your season that he finally approached you.Â
âI want to work with you,â Daniel said, straight to the point. You were in the middle of stretching in the hotel's fitness centre. It was only Thursday, the race weekend itself had barely started but Daniel knew heâd find you in there.Â
You pulled your airpods out and looked up at him in the mirror, âYou what?â
âI want to work with you,â Daniel repeated, this time sitting down on the floor next to you. He kept your stare in the reflection. âIâm not a trainer by any means, but I want to work with you. I want to see you in Formula 1.â
You were flattered, honoured really, but you didnât know what that entailed. âWork with me how?â
âWell, regular fitness training for starters,â he said. âBut managing, really. I want to help you with everything that it takes to move up. Media training, mental preparedness, finding sponsors, getting you in touch with the right people. Let me help you, Y/N.â
You werenât sure what brought this on. Part of you was convinced it was because he knew this would look good on his behalf. If you did make it to Formula 1 and Danielâs name was attached to yours, heâd look like a genius. A hero. He would be known as the first person from F1 to publicly support you.Â
But that wasnât what it was at all. When you agreed and accepted his help, you soon came to learn that Daniel didnât want to be in your spotlight at all. He found the opportunities that you needed and then stepped back. He didnât mention to the media at all that he was helping you, he didnât see a need to. He saw your potential and he truly wanted to help you make something off.
So there he was during the off season, meeting you in London where you resided. He trained with you, set you up with the right people, did weekly check-ins, he really was like a sort of manager.Â
He was there during pre-season testing the following year, literally. He stood in the Prema garage like he was just another member of the team. No one really questioned it, not when you said he was acting as a mentor to you. Everyone loved Danielâs presence there and he was told he was welcome whenever.Â
He was there during race weekends whenever he could find time in his own busy schedule. He was never there during the actual race, needing that time to prepare for his own, but he always watched from his drivers room or had someone in his ear updating where you were and what was happening.
He was there in Silverstone, when you crashed during Saturday's Sprint Race.
It was one of the last sessions of the day, Daniel had already finished qualifying and he was standing in the back of your garage, arms crossed over his chest, eyes glued to the screen.Â
He was the first voice you heard when you spun, losing the breaks in mere seconds and all you could do was brace yourself for the impact of the barriers.Â
âTell me youâre okay.â Danielâs voice came through your radio. Not your engineer, not your team principal. Daniel. âSay something, sweets, tell me you're okay.â
Sweets, he called you. But only ever in private, or in front of close friends. What started as a joke when you complained about him not having any sweets in his flat the first time you visited in Monaco, stuck.Â
But everyone had access to the team radios. It could be heard by other engineers, other teams, fans even and those watching at home should F1TV choose to broadcast it.
Of course they did. They aired the exchange for everyone to hear and it spread like wildfire. It was all anyone on social media could talk about.Â
âSay something, sweets. Tell me youâre okay.âÂ
âIâm okay,â you sputtered out, hands shaking as you unclenched them. It was an instinct to pull them off the steering wheel and tuck your arms to your chest, physically bracing where you could.Â
âGood,â Daniel breathed out a very obvious sigh of relief. âGood.â He paused, and then with a quiet chuckle added, âWhat the fuck was that then?âÂ
You laughed in response, needing the humour at such a traumatic time. You had crashed before, but this was a bad one. You didnât even need to step out of the vehicle to know you were lucky to not feel any immediate injuries, but there was a ringing in your ear and the adrenaline was preventing you from really understanding the damage your body had sustained.Â
It wouldnât have helped, though, to have gotten an earful, not like it was your fault anyway. It also wouldnât have helped if you were asked again and again if you were okay. The more people asked, the more stressed you would grow. Daniel knew you needed a bit of lightheartedness at this time.Â
âNo brakes, Danny,â you answered through a soft laugh.
âThat just sounds like an excuse to me,â he muttered, the sarcasm evident even through the crackling radio.
âAre you going to continue to question my driving abilities or are you going to send medical out here to help me?â
That whole interaction went viral. From the radio message, to the clips of Daniel accompanying you to the medical centre, to the photos of the two of you smiling in the paddock despite the bruising on your body, the concussion you were diagnosed with and the instruction from the doctor that you were not stable enough to race on Sunday. Â
Which sucked, to put it plainly. But you were with Daniel. He made the situation bearable. With his arm around your shoulder, he walked you to the car at the end of the day, having waited with you the whole time.Â
People speculated, of course. Questions were asked.Â
Why was Daniel Ricciardo paying such close attention to you? Why did he get over the radio when he crashed? Why did it sound so flirty? Had he been in your garages the whole time and no one noticed? Was he a mentor? A friend? More?
You had put out a statement when you got to the hotel, thanking everyone for the kind words and well wishes. You shared that you would not be driving on Sunday and you also shared that you were thankful for the support of Daniel Ricciardo, your mentor, who reminded you that even the best of the best crash out sometimes.Â
Mentor, you publicly called him Thatâs what he was, right? Or trainer. Or Manager. Or friend, really. There were a lot of words to describe his relationship to you.Â
People online didnât believe it. They thought there was more because, who looks at each other like that if theyâre not fucking?Â
But you werenât. Honest to god, that line with Daniel was never crossed. You never even considered it. Always content with his companionship and his advice, you didnât want anything physical or romantic.Â
At least, you thought you didnât.Â
Daniel dragged you into his room instead of letting you go up to yours because you were under strict instructions to not be left alone for the next twelve hours should the concussion worsen.Â
âIâm glad youâre okay,â he said, handing you a glass of water. âI know I joked over the radio, but I was worried. It wasnât a pretty crash.â
âAre any crashes pretty?â
He sat down next to you, closer than normal considering when he rested his arm over the back of the couch, his fingers were within the distance needed to play with the strands of your hair.Â
He sucked in a breath through his teeth, âI guess it depends on the driver. I make the crashes pretty.âÂ
The comedic gasp you let out as you clenched your chest had him laughing.Â
âDaniel Ricciardo, are you calling me ugly?â
âDonât twist my words!â He exclaimed, eyes squinting as his smile widened. âI said I was pretty.âÂ
You hummed, âYou pretty much said I made the crush ugly.âÂ
âI didnât say you were ugly,â Daniel playfully tugged on a strand of your hair. âYouâre not- I mean, you-â
And then the humour faded. He met your eyes, his hand fell to your shoulder. He was still smiling but it was the sort of gentle smile one wears when they figure out the answer to a question that had been eating at them for a while.Â
Something clicked for Daniel. At this very moment.Â
He wasnât going to let it escape him.Â
âPretty doesnât do you justice,â Daniel told you, voice lowering. âYouâre breaktaking, Y/N. On the racetrack, at home, at events, you put everyone around you to shame. And itâs not- it isnât just your appearance, itâs you. Everything about you. Your heart, your charisma, the way your eyes light up when you smile but only if youâre talking to people you like,â he chuckled, having experienced it first hand and having seen the way you donât look nearly as pleased when someone you dislike approaches you.Â
You were speechless, though. Frozen where you sat as this admission came out of seemingly nowhere.Â
And Daniel was attractive, that was an undeniable fact, he was everything anyone could ever want in a man. But you never allowed yourself to look at him the way other people would. He was your trainer, manager, mentor, friend.Â
You had no words to explain the way he was staring at you now. Nor could you explain why it made you feel more alive than driving a racecar at inhumane speeds ever could.Â
Daniel took another breath, eyes never leaving yours. âYou are unlike anyone I have ever come across and I know, in my lifetime, I will never find someone who could ever compare to even a fraction of who you are.â
There was no way you could continue to be just friends after those words passed his lips.Â
You kissed him. You had to. It wasnât like there was anything you could say that would match what he had already said, nor could you even find the words.Â
You kissed him and Daniel pulled you onto his laps, your legs moving to straddle either side of his hips. His hands roamed your body, sliding up the Prema shirt you still had on as your tongue roamed every possible inch of his mouth.Â
His hand gripped your waist, rolling you over top of him so you could feel in a matter of seconds how this conversation had now taken a turn. His cock started to harden, constricted by his pants, but you still felt it underneath you each time he shifted, each time you grinded against him.Â
When you reached for the hem of his shirt and pulled it off, Daniel leaned back, both of you taking that second to catch your breath and question if you were really going to do this.
âIs this a mistake?â You whispered, your thumb gently tracing over his lips. Your working relationship was perfect. This could ruin everything. You had fears, doubts, worries. One night could lead to dozens of complications.Â
But Daniel shook his head and all of those thoughts vanished.
âNo,â he said, sounding so sure of himself with that one syllable. âIâve made plenty of mistakes in my life but you are not one of them.â
That was the only validation you needed. You kissed him again, more lust, more passion, than before as Daniel stood up, carrying you towards the bed at the back of the room. He dropped you down on the edge of it, smiling at the squeal that escaped your lips.
Daniel wanted to worship you every way he could. He was gentle with you, with your body, as he dipped his head between your thighs, making you feel a wave of euphoria that no one had ever brought you too before.Â
It wasnât until you were begging for more did Daniel realise he didnât need to be gentle the entire night. He slid two fingers past your folds, lifting his head and hovering his body over yours, wanting to feel your desperate breaths hit his face as he rapidly thrusted his digits in and out of you, your walls clenching around him.
When he attached his lips to that spot on your neck, his teeth pressing against your skin, you saw stars. Danielâs motions didnât let up as you came around his fingers, loving the way your legs shook and how you dragged your hand through the hair on the back of his head.
He was cautious about doing anything else, knowing you were injured, he didnât want to overstimulate you or cause any more pain.Â
But you needed him. You reached for the zipper of his pants and tugged it down, telling Daniel you wanted this, as if the way you looked up at him didnât already make that perfectly clear.Â
He was careful when he entered you, patient. The tip of his cock slid past your folds slowly and he kissed your collarbone so gently you almost didnât feel it as you adjusted to his size, quiet moans emitting from the back of your throat.Â
He had praised you before, but only ever at the race track, so there was something so familiar yet so foreign about the way he whispered against your skin. It lit a fire within you.
âYou take me so well, sweets,â he fought back a groan as your walls tightened around him when you clenched your legs. âSo good for me.â
It was safe to say the dynamic between you two changed after that night.Â
Daniel adored you already, admired you greatly for your achievements and growth in the sport. But now he fought with himself every weekend, knowing that he couldnât touch you how he wanted. He couldnât show you the attention he so desperately wanted. He couldnât kiss you when you got that podium in Belgium, despite finding a way to sneak out of the pre-race duties for a second to run to the barrier to be there for you with the rest of the Prema team.Â
Whatever was going on between you, it was unlabelled and it was private. The rest of the world didnât need to know you were sleeping with the man you looked up to, the one who helped you become a great athlete in such a short period of time.Â
People continued to speculate. You were private, sure, but you werenât overly careful.Â
You were seen landing in Monaco over the summer. You were spotted hanging out with Daniel on plenty of occasions. Even though you kept your hands off of each other and refused to act like anything more than friends out in public, you were different when you returned after the break. You both were. Everyone noticed.Â
Daniel was, if it was even possible, happier. And you were less stressed it seemed. While you were still fighting a constant battle of being the only female in F2, it no longer seemed as heavy because the weight of it wasnât just on your shoulders anymore. Daniel was there too.Â
It wasnât just physical, what you had. The emotional connection you shared was undeniable. Daniel was always there for you, and you, him. During the bad days, the good ones, and everyday in between.Â
When you finished the season 5th in the drivers championship, the only person you wanted to celebrate with was Daniel. He was so proud of you. He watched you go from finishing 13th last year to 5th. He played a huge part in that, but when you tried to tell him that, he only brushed it off, saying that it was all you, he was just happy to be there for the ride.Â
It was his idea for you to test drive for McLaren at the end of the year, too. âWeâll get you in a real F1 carâ he said. And you didnât question it when the offer was brought forward to participate in a few practice sessions. It was exhilarating and terrifying and you cried tears of joy when you stepped out of his car because this was what you dreamed of. Driving a Formula 1 car.Â
Now you just needed a permanent seat and Daniel wanted that for you too. He was your biggest supporter, and you only grew closer as the days went on.
You met his family over the holidays. He spent New Years Eve in London with you.Â
When the season started again, he spent more time with you and Prema. When there were no scheduled F2 races during F1 weekends, you accompanied him in the McLaren garage.Â
At this point, quite a few people knew you were together, or at least they assumed it.
You didnât post about it, you didnât want to, you didnât need to. Daniel didnât need to show you off, nor did you feel obligated to let everyone know you were with him. What you had was private, it was sacred, it was only for the two of you.Â
But of course whenever you had a good performance, whether it be from a practice session, qualifying or a race, heâd share your celebration picture to his Instagram story.Â
âWould you ever do a shoey?â Daniel asked you one Tuesday night, zooming in on a photo of you, more specifically on the smile on your face as you clenched your second place trophy from Imola on Sunday.Â
You rolled your eyes but the smile was impossible to hide as he came up behind you and wrapped his arms around your waist, tugging you into his chest.Â
âNext time you win,â Daniel suggested with a laugh. âI expect a shoey.â
âIâm not Australian.â
âYouâre dating one, sweets.â
You never actually discussed what you were. The term boyfriend-girlfriend seemed so childish. Dating was, in a sense, accurate, but again, there were no labels. He had your heart, you had his. That was the only thing that mattered.Â
âThe world doesnât know that,â you pointed out.Â
âThey kind of do,â Daniel kissed your cheek, giving your side a squeeze as he stepped aside to help you prepare dinner.Â
You werenât even sure when you fell into such a domestic lifestyle but there you were, practically moved into Danielâs place in Monaco at this point and he was at your side, chopping carrots for the salad while you prepared the chicken breasts.Â
âA shoey would confirm it,â you glanced up at him, but the smile on his face told you he wasnât completely against the idea.Â
Daniel stepped behind you, fingers playfully pinching your waist, âJust think about it. If you donât want to, you donât have to. I just reckon it would be entertaining for everyone.â
He didnât bring it up again, not even when you got third in Spain and didnât do it. It was your first time getting a back to back podium since you started racing and of course it was something to celebrate, but the idea of a shoey made your stomach churn. You werenât sure if you were ready for the world to know about your commitment to Daniel.Â
You walked a thin line, being with him. And while you enjoyed every possible minute spent with him, you knew the world was cruel. The second you officially went public, youâd lose respect in the motorsport industry.Â
The only female F2 driver dating an F1 driver? How scandalous.
Despite the rumours, the correct rumours, you were still in a bubble with him. You could pretend you were just friends, close friends. The tabloids had nothing to go off except your polite interactions and maybe a little too friendly smiles and so what if you were there in the McLaren garage cheering him on?Â
You were his biggest supporter and he was yours.
But it didnât help that while your performance was improving, his was rapidly declining. While you had less races than his, already your stats were better. You qualified in the top 5 for the first three races. You finished second in Imola, third in Spain, already better than how you started the season last year.
Monaco was next. Daniel loved Monaco, you both did. Everyone did, it was the pinnacle of Formula 1.Â
It was unfortunate that your weekends ended up so drastically different.Â
Daniel qualified 14th and then finished 13th. He wasnât proud of it, but he did his best to hide his disappointment for you, especially since you were starting on the front row, P2, for the feature race.Â
And somehow, you won.Â
After trailing behind Drugovich for the majority of the race, you were starting to believe you would finish behind him too. And you probably would have, had there not been a safety car almost six laps after he boxed for fresh tyres, giving you the advantage of newer tyres and less wasted time. It was a strategy your team was banking on, waiting for a safety car. It was risky, but it paid off. Overtaking was nearly impossible with Formula 1 cars, but you had a better chance in your series and somehow, by the grace of god, you did it. You pulled ahead and swiped the lead from Felipe.Â
You made history that weekend. The first female F2 driver to not only podium, but to win at Monaco. You gripped that first place trophy so tight your hand turned red.Â
Usually, F2 didnât draw nearly as big of a crowd, but this weekend was different. Everyone was a fan of the series after that performance, a fan of you. You saw people in the crowd wearing Red Bull gear, Ferrari merch, McLaren hats, and they were all applauding you.Â
Of course, you were blown away by the support. Hearing your national anthem play was an incredible sound. There were tears in your eyes and your entire body was trembling, yet somehow you managed to find Daniel. Right in front, with your team.Â
He was so proud of you.Â
Despite his shitty qualifying, despite knowing he had such a low shot at earning points at his race that was in just under an hour, he was there for you. You couldnât tell if he was cheering the loudest, or if you were just so prone to finding him in a crowd that you couldnât process anything or anyone else.Â
You werenât sure what came over you, but once you grabbed the champagne bottle, you found yourself taking your shoe off as well. As Felipe and ThĂŠo started spraying their bottles in celebration, you poured the bubbly liquid into the sole of your racing shoe and lifted it up to your lips, pointing directly at Daniel who couldnât believe what he was watching.Â
It was rancid, as you figured it would. It was champagne out of a sweaty shoe, you knew it wouldnât taste good, but it was a shoey and it was for Daniel. Felipe patted your back, laughing at your reaction and muttering something about how Daniel would get a kick out of that.Â
He was right, but Daniel wasnât the only one who found it entertaining.Â
Your name was once again trending following the Monaco Grand Prix. Not Checoâs, even though he won the F1 race. Your name.Â
Not that you really cared that night. How could you care about what the internet was saying when the man you were with told you that he loved you for the first time? Nothing online mattered, not when Daniel took your face in his hands and told you he was madly in love with you. He was proud, he was happy, he was in love.Â
And you knew you loved him too. You had known this for a while. Monaco was just the perfect time to say it.Â
After going about as public as you could without physically coming out and saying you were dating the Australian driver, Monaco was the perfect place to tell him you loved him. You were on cloud 9, you were making history, you were in love.Â
You continued to deny, or at least ignore, the rumours that followed, still. You both did. You were in love with each other, not the whole world. Things would get complicated if you announced you were dating. You were vying for a Formula 1 seat and you wanted it without Danielsâ influence.Â
But at the following race in Baku you were asked similar questions.Â
âYour shoey last week, did that have anything to do with Daniel Ricciardo being there to cheer you on? You two have gotten pretty close in the last few months, heâs one of your mentors, isnât he?âÂ
You shifted your weight to one leg, wondering what the fuck kind of post-qualifying question that was. You had just completed three back to back podiums, you were on a hot streak now, starting third at this next race and the reporter only cared about what happened at the podium celebration last weekend.
âSorry, did you have a question about this week's race?â You asked, and when he stammered over his words, you just nodded and walked away, a tight smile on your face.Â
Danielâs conversation went a bit differently.Â
âY/Nâs shoey last week, we all saw it. Was that your influence?â
âYeah I never thought sheâd actually do it, it was sweet,â Daniel laughed. âIt was great though, I happily pass the tradition onto her.â
âSheâs really come along in Formula 2 since she started back in 2020, do you think she has what it takes to be Formula 1âs first full-time female driver?â
âAbsolutely,â there wasnât a shred of doubt or hesitation. He was happy to talk about you, to explain to the rest of the world why you were up and coming and should be taken seriously as a real contender for a Formula 1 seat. He probably would have continued on if his PR rep hadnât pulled him away, reminding him of other duties.
The next few races were similar to your first ones. A couple more podiums, some outstanding qualifying sessions, more history being made. Your phone was blowing up weekly, everybody wanted to talk to you now and you knew Daniel had something to do with it. Him constantly sharing the faith he had in you did wonders for your reputation.Â
You might have been on top of the world, but you were well aware you were alone up there.
Danielsâ performances were anything but newsworthy. He had gotten a few points in Austria and France, but nothing to be extremely proud of, especially when he compared his 9th place finish at the Red Bull Ring to your first place podium, making it your second one this season.Â
He never let his disappointment for himself and McLaren stand in the way of your achievements. In fact, you didnât often speak about the races when you were together. You were aware Daniel was having issues with the team, with Zak, with the car, but he didnât want to weigh you down with his own problems, even though you assured him time and time again you could handle it.Â
Really, if Daniel had come to you with his struggles, you would have thought twice when Zak Brown approached you prior to the Hungarian Grand Prix. You probably would have slammed the door to your drivers room in his face if you knew how Daniel was being treated at McLaren.Â
But Daniel held his cards close to his chest while Zak laid his all out on the table.
âIf a spot opened up for you,â he said, after spending the last ten minutes talking about the rich history of the team and praising your accolades. âWould you consider it?â
It wasnât an official contract, just the start of a conversation that could lead to one.
Of course you thought of Daniel. And Lando, having grown close with him simply through Daniel.Â
âFor 2024?â You asked, knowing both of them were set to continue driving through to at least the end of 2023.Â
âNo,â Zak shook his head. You didnât like how harsh his tone had turned, having no remorse for what he was about to say. âDanielâs contract would be ending early.â
You leaned back in your chair, fingers tapping the table as you tried to recall Daniel ever telling you that he was leaving McLaren. âIs he- he wants out?â
âItâs mutual,â Zak assured you. âHe knows we canât give him the car he wants and unfortunately, heâs not delivering what we need. We had high hopes with Daniel, but the working relationship isnât what any of us thought it would be.â
Itâs mutual. Those two words was all it took to convince you that Zak Brown and Daniel had already had a conversation about this, about terminating the contract a year early.Â
It didnât help that Zak brought up your test sessions in the McLaren from last year, pointing out that you had better times than Lando, even. He went on to praise what you were doing this year at Prema and said, multiple times, that you would be an asset to McLaren should you choose to go that route.
And who were you to turn that down?
A team principal of a Formula 1 team wanted to sign you. Was it unfortunate that it was Danielâs seat? Yes, obviously this situation was less than ideal, but he wanted out. You were convinced he wanted out, that he was done with McLaren. A 45 minute conversation with Zak Brown convinced you of that.
You should have been wary when at the end of the conversation he said, âDonât tell anyone about this, yet. You know how the public can be, letâs just keep this to ourselves for the meantime.â
âBut I can talk to Dan, right?â You asked.Â
Zak knew you were dating Daniel, it was a little harder to hide that from his team than it was the rest of the world. Maybe thatâs why hesitated before answering, knowing that keeping a secret, something as big as this, from a partner had the potential to cause chaos.
But he shook his head, âBetween us, yeah?â
And you listened to him. You wanted that Formula 1 seat so of course you followed orders.Â
You desperately wanted to talk to Daniel about it, but you knew you couldnât. And either he sensed that something was off, or he was dealing with his own problems again and wouldnât share, you really couldnât tell when the summer break started and things just seemedâŚdifferent.Â
You didnât go to Monaco for starters, even though Daniel invited you to. But there were so many meetings with Zak and the board at McLaren that it made more sense for you to stay in London for the start of the break.Â
Daniel didnât call as often and you wanted to give him space, knowing that this break was probably needed for him. You expected he was out with friends, letting loose, getting the weight of a horrible season off his back even if just temporarily.Â
The plan was to go to Monaco for the last week and a half and then travel to Belgium together. You had to delay that plan, however, when Zak called you and said it was official.
The 2023 seat was yours.Â
You wanted to celebrate, with Daniel, but how could you celebrate with the person you were replacing?
It was strange that Daniel had said nothing to you about leaving the team during the summer break, especially since Zak had said time and time again they were on the same page, that Daniel was ready to leave. The only thing that crossed your mind was he was given strict instructions to not say anything to anyone either, at least until McLaren went public with the news.Â
But with it being official, with you having just signed on the dotted line, you were tired of keeping it to yourself. You may not have been able to share the news with anyone else, but you had a right to have a conversation with Daniel about it.
You didnât know how he would react. Surely heâd be happy for you, right? You were getting a seat in Formula 1, something that both of you desperately wanted to happen. And again, you were under the impression the departure from McLaren was mutual. He would be happy that someone he loved was taking his seat, right?
Right?
You had to tell yourself that the entire ride over to his place. You unlocked the front door to his building and took the elevator up to the fourth level. You didnât think to knock, knowing he never locked it when he was home so you pushed open the door and stepped in, your suitcase trailing behind you.
You were happy to see him. He was always a breath of fresh air, despite the odd distance between you, you still loved him. You always would. He muted whatever was playing on the screen and stood up from the couch when he heard you walk in.
Usually, Daniel would greet you with a kiss.
Usually, heâd be smiling so hard his jaw would be hurting.
Usually, he was happy to see you.
You left the suitcase by the door and met him halfway, only he stopped walking when there was about a foot of space between your bodies. To you, it felt like you were still miles apart.
âDo you have something you want to tell me?â He asked, arms crossed over his chest.Â
Your heart sank.Â
You had convinced yourself, Zak had convinced you, the whole back of house team had convinced you, that Daniel was aware of this upcoming change. That the termination was mutual. You taking his seat might have been a surprise, but it was never supposed to be a blindside.
âWhat do you know?â you asked.Â
âWhat do you know?â Daniel repeated the question back to you.
You were both fully aware of the exact same information. Daniel was leaving. You were taking his seat. Only, you had been informed this much earlier than he had.
âWhat was I supposed to do?âÂ
âNot take the seat,â he scoffed. âMy god, I mean, theyâre cutting my contract early, Y/N. For you.â
âFor the sake of the team,â you said and then added, âYou donât even like McLaren. Youâve struggled with this team since day one.â
âThat doesnât mean I want to stop racing.â
âMcLaren is not the team for you and you know this.â
Daniel scoffed, eyebrows twitching, âDid Zak tell you to say that?â
âZak-â you started, finding it difficult to hold his stare. This wasnât the Daniel you knew. â-he doesnât know Iâm here. Iâm not supposed to be here. Iâm not supposed to talk to you or anyone about it, not until your announcement comes out.â
He rubbed his hands over his face, taking a few steps away from you. It hurt, watching as he tried to physically distance himself from you. Like being in too close of proximity would set him off.
âI struggled with the team, yes, but Iâm not ready to give up racing. You have now left me without a seat.â
It was easy for Daniel to blame you, you were standing right in front of him. You were quite literally the driver set to replace him.
But the real villain was Zak, for not having opened up this line of communication earlier. For making you believe everyone was on the same page. It was Zakâs fault for rushing to end the contract with Daniel instead of putting in the effort to work with him. He saw the shiny new toy that was you, that Daniel helped create, and he wasnât going to let someone else take it first.
Daniel wanted to blame himself too, but he wouldnât let himself think about that until much later. He was the one who did everything he could to help you grow in this sport. He was the one who introduced you to Zak and the rest of the McLaren team. He was the one who got you in the car for the practice sessions, his car. Foreshadowing at its finest.
âYou are unbelievable,â Daniel spoke quietly, heated with anger but his words were like ice as they sunk deep into you. âAfter everything Iâve done to help you for you to betray me like this, I just- I donât think-â
You knew where this was going and you wanted to put a pin in it before he could finish any of his thoughts.
âDonât finish that sentence, Daniel,â you whispered. âPlease. Please, we can figure something out.â
âThereâs nothing to figure out,â his mind was made up. âYou took my seat.â
âWouldnât you rather it me than someone you donât know? Someone you donât trust?â You tried to turn this around, have him look at the positives, if there were any. âDaniel, everyone on the grid loves you, youâll find a new team. One that helps you grow and get to where you want. McLaren isnât that, we both know it.â
âI think you should go,â was his only response.Â
âIf I hadnât signed that contact, someone else would have,â you pointed out, grasping at straws here, painfully honest straws, but straws nonetheless. âPiastri, OâWardâŚMcLaren had options, Dan. Arenât you at least happy for me that I out-qualified all of those guys?â
Daniel actually laughed, âYou want me to be happy for you? Are you fucking kidding me?â
âDan-â
âLeave.â
âIâm not leaving.â
âYou need to,â he was stern. He was angry. He was done. With you, with the team, with everything he used to love and cherish. He was done.Â
You thought you knew Daniel. You thought you knew how this conversation would play out. You figured it would still be rocky, but god you now realised how naive you were to believe you could still make things work.Â
âI love you,â you told him, because what else could you say except remind him that you were so hopelessly in love with him, that he was all you would ever want in life.Â
Except, that wasnât exactly true, was it?
You wanted a seat in Formula 1 too. You just never thought youâd have to sacrifice one dream for the other.Â
Danielâs stare was cold. He only looked away for a second to nod his head towards the door behind you, âIf you loved me, you wouldnât have done this.â
You stepped forward, desperate at this point because how could he do this? How could he throw away what you had, over a seat?
Or was it you, who had ultimately thrown away what you had when you sat down with Zak Brown all those weeks ago?
It pained you to think about the strong possibility of that being the case.
âIâm sorry,â you whispered, because you were. You were sorry about how this turned out, how he was betrayed, how this was coming to an end. You grabbed hold of your suitcase and nodded, backing up towards the door, âI really am sorry, Dan.â
He didnât believe you. Why would he? In his eyes, Formula 1 was more important to you than he was. A career decision that benefited you, but ruined him, mattered more than your relationship. It was a bold move, a cold move, one that you didnât think would lead to this.
Neither of you could have predicted this. On September 3rd, 2020, when Daniel first said he wanted to work with you, neither of you thought it would end like this.
Just as you grabbed the handle of the door, Daniel opened his mouth, wanting to get the final word in. And you really wished he hadnât because those final words destroyed you.Â
âIâve made plenty of mistakes in my life, but I never thought you would turn out to be one of them.â
You said nothing. You walked out of that Monaco flat with your head low and your heart even lower. You couldnât even be excited about the next season, or the remainder of this one where you had the potential to finish in the top three.Â
You weren't happy, you were empty, you were defeated. And painfully so, you were also still in love.
Despite what was said, you knew it would take a while to get over Daniel. He was your rock for so long, he was always there for you and even though he could disappear without so much as a second thought, your feelings couldnât, the memories couldnât. It would take a long time until you felt whole again.
You didnât know it yet, but the decision to take that McLaren seat would haunt you as you moved forward in your career.Â
This was not going to be the last time you ever saw Daniel.Â
part 2 haunted
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It's just business
Javier PeĂąa x informant!f!Reader
Summary: As one of the drug cartels' representatives, you were incredibly useful to Agent PeĂąa. However, he can't stop his habit of fucking his informants. Warnings: +18, MDNI, rough sex, unprotected PIV, hair pulling, dirty talk, insults, rough!dom!Javier, mention of drugs, mention of killing, reader eats meat, age gap (not specified) Wordcount: 3,1k An: I admit, I got hot when I wrote this. As much as I have a weakness for soft Javi, I can't resist rough Javier as well. Itâs for my all slutty sluts, enjoy xx Music I worked with: Trust Issues - The Weeknd (Remix)
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You and Javier had a purely business relationship. Information for information. And he honestly wasn't happy about it. He'd rather see you behind bars.
Or in his bed.
Both options were satisfactory.
But he promised you immunity in exchange for information. You were useful and that's the only reason he gave you what you wanted in return.
That's why he was driving towards the city center again with a folder of documents on the seat next to him. He was already smoking another cigarette out of nerves after today's work. And the worst thing was that he continued working after work. What an irony.
He parked under one of the skyscrapers where you were supposed to wait for him. He looked at his reflection in the mirror and fixed his hair and mustache. He didn't look perfect but he was after a whole day of sitting in a damn office. He had the right to look and feel like shit.
Despite that, he put on some cologne and changed his shirt to a fresh one that was lying on the back seat. He carefully buttoned every button and straightened the collar of his black shirt. He took a briefcase with documents and a leather jacket from seat next to him and then headed towards the entrance to the skyscraper.
You loved meeting him in damn rich places. You emphasized your position in this city.
It was amazing how well it was to live on illegal money and hands covered in blood.
You were the perfect example of how beautiful the devil can be. And Javier was just a man who was easy to persuade to sin.
However, fate did not want to allow it.
You were the only informant he did not put his sticky hands on. And he didn't know if he was more pissed off or relieved that at least he hadn't sold out to someone like you.
He took the elevator up to the top floor where the restaurant was located. Too lavish for his taste. But it suited you perfectly.
The waiter directed him to one of the tables in the middle of the room. What else could he have expected?
You loved to shine.
But your excuse was that it was darkest under the streetlight.
That's why you always met in public places in full view.
The black dress barely reached mid-thigh and the shiny jewelry added sex appeal to you. You slowly sipped your champagne, watching the view of the illuminated city outside the window. Even the fact that Javier approached the table and sat down opposite you, didn't distract you. Only a smirk appeared on your lips as you took another sip of champagne.
He watched you in silence for a moment before he sighed and looked at the view outside the window himself. From this perspective, the city looked like paradise. It was a shame that so much shit was happening on its streets.
Shit that you were also responsible for.
âWe could be quite successful together on the streets of this city,â you said lightly. Javier glanced at you but didnât comment on your words. He had long since grown tired of refusing you such cooperation.
You took the last sip of champagne and finally turned your gaze to him. Damn piercing.
He wondered how you would look at him as he pushed his cock inside you.
âNot nice of you to keep me waiting,â you smacked your lips disapprovingly and glanced at the watch on your wrist. âAs much as seven minutes,â you added, raising your eyebrows in amusement. âWe should respect each otherâs time, wouldnât you agree?â you asked confidently.
He watched you in silence and really wished he could wipe that smirk off your face.
Javier couldn't remember the last time he hated someone as much as you and wanted someone so damn much at the same time.
Kill you or fuck you? He saw no difference.
âSorry,â he commented briefly, without an ounce of sympathy. You smiled wider.
âI accept your apology. Champagne?â you suggested, pointing to the bottle between you. Javier declined with a shake of his head.
âIâm driving,â he explained, to which you nodded in understanding. Suddenly, a waiter appeared out of nowhere, placing a meal in front of you. If that was what you could call a piece of meat with a few unnecessary decorations.
âDisfrute de su comida,â the waiter said with a pleasant smile. You returned the gesture, taking the cutlery.
âGracias,â you replied with a warm smile.
Javier watched you silently like a predator. You always had impeccable manners. You were always so damn nice and polite. You made him sick.
How on earth were you complicit in so many bad things?
How on earth do you pull the trigger on so many people's heads and look like an angel at the same time?
You began to eat your meal gracefully. And as usual, he didn't even touch his. Nothing new, and yet you ordered for him every time.
âI see youâre not very talkative today so I suggest we get straight to business,â you suggested, chewing on a piece of meat and taking a sip of champagne.
Javier wordlessly pulled out a stack of papers from inside his jacket and placed it on the table between you. You put down the cutlery and picked up the briefcase. You began to look through its contents in silence. You took your time. You had to be sure that everything you wanted was in it.
"Family information is classified even for me," he said immediately to forestall your question. You glanced at him for a moment and then started reading again.
âWe both know you can if you want to, Agent PeĂąa,â you replied with a smirk. Javier clenched his jaw, watching closely as your fingers gently turned the pages. How your lips tightened in concentration. How your eyes followed the text intently.
Fuck, he was getting hard just by looking at you.
"I won't risk my job because of your whims," ââhe said in a slightly lower tone. You looked at him, raising your eyebrows with a smile.
"Aren't you already doing that? Sitting at the same table with me? Talking to me without witnesses and without handcuffs?" you asked with that sly glint in your eye.
Yeah, he was getting harder.
He shifted uncomfortably in his chair. You snorted slightly when you didn't get an answer from him. You went back to reading the data and Javier was tempted to pour himself that damn champagne. He had to drink something. He couldn't be fully focused on you or he would go crazy.
You glanced at him, observing his actions but didn't comment on it. He poured himself half a glass and drank it all in one go.
"Hard day at work?" you asked lightly without looking away from the papers. Javier looked at you and put the glass on the table.
"No more than yours," he snapped. He couldn't help the venom in his voice. But you got used to it.
"No, my day was exceptionally pleasant," you replied, reading another sheet of paper.
"Sure, taking your own shit is pleasant," he said with disgust and leaned back heavily in the chair. You laughed quietly under your breath.
"You'll be surprised, but my life doesn't revolve around cocaine."
"Oh yeah?" he raised his eyebrows in mock surprise. You looked up at him with a gentle smile.
Fuck, you looked so cute.
So sexy.
His dick twitched.
âYes,â you nodded. âI went bowling with my nephews,â you said happily. He clenched his jaw tighter.
His sexual frustration was boiling through his veins like poison.
âBut I killed a few people in my five-minute break. Just for fun,â you teased him and winked.
You closed the folder and put it in your bag. You took a deep breath and sipped your champagne.
âIâm not satisfied. There are a few things missing,â you announced before you started eating again.
Javier straightened up and poured himself some champagne again. This time he began to calmly sip the fizzy alcohol as he leaned his elbows on the table.
âI gave you too much already,â he replied raising an eyebrow.
âI disagree,â you replied swallowing the meat and you looked up at him. âDonât treat me the way you wouldnât want to be treated,â you said seriously.
Javier sipped his champagne watching your cold gaze.
âYou expect me to give you full information?â you asked raising an eyebrow. âThen give me the same in return,â you added seriously.
Jesus, he loved it when you talked to him as if he were a disobedient dog.
"Otherwise, our cooperation won't need to continue," you announced, starting to cut another piece of meat. "I don't need you as much as you think," you noted indifferently. And Javier knew you were right.
He needed you more than you needed him.
He nodded, sipping his champagne.
âSo give me today something thatâs worth the information I gave you,â he announced, trying to get to safe ground. He knew when to back off. And that was the moment.
You put the cutlery on your plate and looked at him.
âYour information is worth shit,â you said seriously and reached your hand to your bra between your breasts. Javier couldnât help but stare at your movements. âBut unlike you, I keep my word.â You pulled a small piece of paper out of your bra and held it out to him.
He looked at the small piece of paper and reached for it, deliberately brushing his fingers against yours.
Your skin was so damn soft and cold compared to his.
And he couldnât help but think that heâd want to help you warm up.
He unfolded the folded piece of paper and read the address in his mind.
Fuck, even your handwriting was perfect.
âMore cocaine will pass through this house on Friday night than will fit in your ridiculous agency,â you explained, and he immediately put the note in his pocket, mentally jotting down everything you said. His agent instincts immediately kicked in. He watched as you calmly sipped your champagne, your tongue licking up a stray drop.
Were you doing that on purpose so he couldnât concentrate?
âFew people, lots of stuff. Something you like,â you said with a forced smile. He loved how reluctant you both were to share information with each other.
Maybe you werenât so different after all?
Apart from the important fact that you were on opposite sides of the law.
"This is going to be a big operation for which you will get a certificate and a brave scout badge," you teased. "So I expect you to leave me alone for at least a month after this," you added seriously placing your empty glass on the table. You wiped your lips on a napkin leaving a trace of lipstick on it.
Your meeting was coming to an end.
âNo promises,â he replied with a smirk. You forced a fake smile, looking at him with reluctance.
âDonât fuck with me, Agent PeĂąa. None of us will benefit from this,â you warned before getting up from the table. You adjusted your dress that had ridden up your thighs and his gaze didnât leave yours for a second. âKeep an eye on my bag,â you said indifferently and headed towards the bathroom.
Javier watched your hips sway from side to side with every step and he felt like a hungry animal. You disappeared behind the wall and he immediately looked at your bag. His leg started to bounce nervously as a very stupid idea started to form in his head.
Well, sometimes he had to admit that he thought with a different head than the one on his neck.
In a second he stood up taking your bag and followed you. He looked towards the men's room before quickly slipping into the women's room.
You were washing your hands when you heard someone come in. You looked up and in the reflection in the mirror you saw Javier watching you carefully. You frowned turning towards him.
"What are you-" you started but you were interrupted by the sound of the door lock closing. You looked at his hand feeling your pulse speed up.
Javier quickly crossed the distance between you and in one move threw your bag on the sink before he grabbed you by the cheeks and attacked your lips.
You moaned in surprise stepping back from his strength. He pressed your hips against the sink not letting you move away. His kisses were so strong and intense that you were unable to fight him. You clenched your fists on his shirt when his tongue crept into your mouth and immediately dominated yours. You moaned as you felt him rub his hips against yours and his hard cock made itself known.
You finally gathered enough strength to push him away from you. Javier took a step back, giving you a moment of respite. You looked at each other, breathing heavily.
You were in shock at what had happened and he was even more shocked that he had done it at all.
"What the fuck, PeĂąa?" you gasped, swallowing hard. Javier was silent for a moment, his gaze only gaining intensity.
"I'm checking if fucking with you will bring any benefits," he replied confidently before he closed the distance between you again and turned you towards the mirror in one move. You leaned your hands against the sink as he pinned you with his hips again.
You began to breathe heavily as his hands pulled up your dress exposing your hips. You watched in the reflection as he focused on unbuttoning his pants before pulling out his cock with a sigh of satisfaction.
His gaze found yours in the mirror before you felt him start to slide his dick over your ass.
âFeel it?â he asked raising his eyebrows. âHow hard I am just from your fuckinâ bullshit,â he growled and slammed his cock on your butt. You gasped for air when he ripped your panties apart in one move.
"They were expensive," you mumbled, tightening your fingers on the sink. His tip ran over your wet slit, spreading the moisture that had already leaked out of you.
"I'll buy you new ones," he said before he pushed into you with a strong movement, entering all the way.
You screamed in pain, resting your hand on the mirror and looking at his reflection with hatred. Javier tangled his hand in your hair and pulled you back, making you moan, arching your back.
"Be a good girl for once," he mumbled against your ear, maintaining eye contact with you in the mirror. You clenched your jaw tightly, holding back the urge to spit on his reflection.
A sly smirk appeared on his lips before he began to thrust into you. Hard and deep. Making you unable to hold back your moans.
His grip on your hair tightened, holding you in place. Every movement of his hips was damn precise, hitting your weak spot. His growls echoed off the bathroom walls as he watched his cock disappear inside you.
âYour pussy is just as harsh as your mouth,â he panted, catching your gaze in the mirror before he tugged on your hair, tilting your head to the side.
You hissed in pain and then pleasure as his lips bit into your neck, beginning to suck and nibble. You closed your eyes, feeling the pain mix with pleasure with each thrust of his hips.
âDid you ever wonder what they would do to you if you went to prison?â he murmured against your skin and began to place wet kisses along your length, all the way to your shoulder. âWith a face like that, you better not end up there, right?â he began to nibble on your arm and his hand dove between you and the sink.
âAre you threatening me?â you gasped.
âIâm warning you,â he replied before his fingers found your clit. You moaned as he began to massage it perfectly in time with his hips.
Your orgasm was approaching with great strides.
âDo you know how many things I could do to you if you were handcuffed?â he asked, looking at your face contorted in pleasure. âYou would be begging me to stop,â he growled against your ear, speeding up his thrusts. You moaned, fighting for the tiniest bit of oxygen. âFuckinâ slut,â he growled, looking down as his hips slammed against yours with a loud slap.
"Don't let yourself, dog," you growled, looking at him with hatred. Not only was the cop fucking you, but he was also being too self-conscious with his words. He laughed bitterly then growled feeling you slowly tighten around him more and more often.
"Oh yeah, I forgot," he mumbled massaging your clit harder. You whimpered and your knees trembled. "I'm supposedly on the other side and yet inside you," he said with superiority. "Irony of fate, huh?" he mumbled with a smile of satisfaction and you felt your legs start to tremble. "And now you're going to cum from my cock," he laughed bitterly. "But don't worry," he whispered in your ear. "I won't tell anyone about that." He bit your earlobe sending waves of shivers straight between your legs.
You gasped moaning when you came so hard that Javier hissed in pain. He let go of your hair making you stumble against the mirror, supporting yourself with your hand at the last moment.
His hands tightened on your hips as he pushed into you further. You gasped for air as you felt the waves of your orgasm spread through your body. He growled in his throat before pulling out of you and grabbing his cock, pumping it a few times before he came on your ass with a groan.
You were both breathing heavily after your orgasm when Javier reached for the tissues by the sink and wiped his cum from your skin.
"See?"
Your eyes met in the mirror.
"Like I was never here," he said, throwing the tissue into the trash and hiding his cock in his underwear, buttoning his pants.
He slapped your ass and growled in satisfaction at seeing it shake before straightening your dress.
"See you in a month," he winked and headed for the exit. He unlocked the door and stopped before leaving. He glanced at you over his shoulder with a sly smile. "Unless you miss me sooner." And he left.
-> (part 2 "Forbidden fruitâ)
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pairing â killer!johnny Ă (f) detective reader
genre .. warnings â smut, graphic depictions of murder, graphic depictions of violence, noncon, mentions of pregnancy, johnny is 43
summary â you're an accomplished detective in the detroit area and johnny suh is a prolific serial killer. when your department sends you on its behalf to pull back his layers, you attempt to convince johnny to recount his experiences and unravel the mystery once and for all.
wc â 10.3k
a/n â this is a repost. it is connected to do you like it, dr. lee? but can be read as a standalone story. this fic is somewhat darker than my usual fics and i encourage readers to proceed with caution and heed the warnings; you have been advised.
donât like it, donât read.
the deepest prick of unease settled through you and you shuddered from its nipping cold.Â
killers were your forte, but none like this. never in your life had you ever met a killer whoâd been at their craft for over a decade. they typically got sloppy after the first half, which insinuated that this johnny suh guy, whoever he was, was far from an amateur.Â
âgate twelve,â came the guardâs voice, speaking into a transmitter. he was to escort you to johnnyâs holding room.
the gate lifted. behind it, you clocked the riveting face of detroitâs worst nightmare, hands cuffed at his back as he sat facing you. there was a sort of twisted grin on his face, not as if he was excited to have a visitor, but excited his visitor had been you.
âgood luck with this guy. officers tried to get him to budge. he didnât take the fifth, but the bastardâs damn good at talking in circles,â the guard whispered in your ear.
âduly noted,â you replied quietly, stepping further and taking the seat across from johnny.Â
the guard left you to your devices, shutting the door behind you and leaving through the passage that led to the gate. complete and total privacy was the only way johnny agreed to talk. your department initially refused, insisting there should at least be one or two other officers monitoring the interview, but you let him have his way.
if you wanted to get this man to talk, that was your only option.
âhello, johnny. iâm detective ___ from the detroit police department,â you introduced yourself coolly, cloaking your nerves with confidence. never would you show a guy like this any fear.
johnny hadnât stopped grinning since he made eye contact with you. youâd seen pictures at most and he was devilishly handsome, even more so in person, but it didnât compensate for his unsettling aura. âthatâs a beautiful name, detective.â
âflattery will get you nowhere, suh.â
âitâs gotten me here,â johnny quipped.Â
âyes, it has. and i suppose you already know why iâm here.â
âyes, i do,â johnny said, pleasant thus far. âyou want me to tell you about the murders.â
you bobbed your head. âi do. you see, youâre an enigma to me, johnny. you turn yourself in, get fingerprinted, and all of the sudden our databaseâs going off because your prints are connected to three other crimes over the past twenty-five years.â
johnny feigned surprise. âwow, itâs been that long?â
âit has,â you replied, in spite of knowing he couldnât have not been aware. âmartina mortes in 1998, sabrina lee in 2005, christine dalton in 2013, and the college professor this year.â
johnny leaned back in his chair. âiâm familiar with those names.â
âyou should be. you sexually assaulted and murdered these women,â you spat, none too tender. âexcept for martina mortes. you only strangled her. do you want to tell me why that it is?â
âwhatâs the weather like today? i havenât been outside, but summer has been kind to detroit.â
ignoring him, you persisted, âlet me guess. she was your first victim and that kill, unlike the others, was spontaneous. her being dead defeated the purpose of the sex act, didnât it?â
âwell, do you like your partners warm or cold, detective?â johnny asked, deflecting.Â
you were heeding the guardâs warning. it seemed this guy liked to answer questions with questions, your least favorite type of offender. âthatâs why when you subsequently added the sex act to part of your crimes, you kept your victims much longer, because you like to see them suffer. until you got bored. then, you killed them and dumped their bodies like trash.â
as if he was disinterested, johnny glanced to the side and yawned.Â
the audacity on this guy was astounding. âam i boring you, suh?â
johnny replied with total indifference, âif you think you know everything, then why are we here?â
you answered without hesitation, âbecause i think youâve wanted to tell someone about what youâve done for a long time, johnny. but you realize that youâre not like other people. iâm giving you the opportunity to get it all off of your chest.â
johnny cocked his head to the side, as if he was contemplating your offer. his face was borderline inscrutable. it was difficult, if not impossible, to decipher what he was thinking.
you restrained from heaving a breath. there was a crushing weight on your shoulders, the expectation to get this guy to crack. if you couldnât do it, nobody would - ever. âhow many victims do you have?â
âfour.â johnnyâs answer was quick, automatic. like he didnât even have to think about it for a second.
folding your arms on the table, you shook your head. âno, i just donât think thatâs true. see, weâre pretty sure martina mortes, your high school girlfriend, was your first victim, and the college professor was your last.â
johnny cocked a brow. âbut?â
âbut thereâs no way someone like you couldâve resisted your urges between four kills over the past two decades and then some.â
there was no point in denying the four victims, because you already had substantial proof. nor did johnny deny that martina was his first victim, because given the decomposition of the bodies, she died long before the other three. admitting that she wasnât would be admitting that there were unfound others.
and johnny had no intention of implicating himself more than he already had. the only reason he turned himself in was because he didnât want to prolong the inevitable, for whatever reason. he pulled his lips into a mock frown. âyour assumptions about my self-restraint are hurtful,â he replied.
whatever, moron, you thought irritability. âi think theyâre more than just assumptions.â
johnny teased, âthen, let me know when you know something.â
you narrowed your eyes, groaning, âoh, come on. i know and you know that you canât ignore your desires for a month, let alone over ten years. you have a compulsion. killing makes you feel powerful, it makes you feel in control, and you canât live without the high it gives you.â
âyou make me sound like an addict,â johnny remarked, pretending to be offended.
âit wouldnât be so far from the truth,â you said, glancing over the file at your end of the table. âthe first two kills were seven years apart. the second two kills were ten. full offense, i donât see how you could control yourself for so long.â
âyou can believe what you want, detective. i didnât kill anyone else,â johnny lied, not that you ever needed to know.Â
of course, he couldnât control himself. the second he took someoneâs life, it became a part of him, and his purpose in this world became clear to him. for the first time in his life, he felt as if he had something that made living worthwhile.
you surrendered. it was obvious johnny was intelligent and he wouldnât be easily tricked into confessing. âokay, fine. letâs talk about the victims we know of. tell me about martina mortes.â
âwhat is there to tell?â johnny asked, brow cocked. âwe met in junior high. then, in eleventh grade, we got together.â
âtell me about why you killed her,â you insisted, painfully curious. âit happened in chicago, before you moved to detroit over the summer. you killed her in the heat of the moment.â
johnny gave the impression that he would take a minute to crack, so you were surprised when he said in response to your prodding, âwe got into a wrangle, if you will.â
that much was obvious. âwhat kind of wrangle?â
the garage was hot and the air was stuffy, making it difficult to breathe. to say nothing of the frustration scorching johnnyâs skin, his face tensed into an irritated glower.
there was something about women he never liked, the seemingly inherent ability to blow almost anything out of proportion, as exhibited now as his girlfriend screamed in his face. his stepmother was the same, never not coming up with a reason to fuss at him. he was always walking on eggshells around that woman.Â
martina was bristling. âyou always fucking do this, johnny.â
johnny heaved a breath, sighing, âwhat - what do i always do, martina?â
âyou trivialize everything i go through. you make me feel like iâm overreacting when iâm not, you just refuse to hold yourself accountable,â she spat.Â
âmartina, weâre about to go to college, for fuckâs sake! you canât focus on your academics and a goddamn child. i donât get why you wonât just have an abortion and call it a day,â johnny roared, heating up a thousand degrees.
âgod, do you listen to a word that comes out of my mouth? my parents will kill me, johnny. if not for being pregnant at eighteen, then for killing it.â
johnny sighed. âi donât see the part where thatâs my problem.â
tears blurred martinaâs eyes. she came up to him, shattered by his careless and embraced by isolation, and bellowed, âyou want to know what your problem is? your problem is that youâre an incompetent bastard with no regard for other people!â
johnnyâs body was engulfed in flames but his shoulders were cold, and he lost control of his emotions, grabbing martina by the throat. he effortlessly lifted her with a single hand and smashed her against the closest wall none too gently, watching her eyes wince closed.
âyou wanna say that again?â johnny asked, nothing short of belligerent.
ache spread out through the back of martinaâs head, a ceaseless throbbing worse than any hungover. her feet dangled off of the ground, waving and kicking, fingers weakly prying at the ones pressing down on her windpipe. until she was completely still, legs dropping, hands going limp at her sides.
âi didnât even realize how long i spent standing there, until she felt⌠empty, and i knew she was gone,â johnny confessed, but his tone was far from sympathetic. âshe scratched me. you know, when she was trying to pry my hands off. i didnât know until hours later.â
you shook your head, disdainful. âyou killed your pregnant girlfriend?â
johnny groaned, âoh, please. i was eighteen. i wouldâve been a terrible father.â
âi would be slightly more inclined to accept that as an excuse if it werenât for the fact that you had a son by sabrina lee only two years later,â you said viciously.
âa lot can change in two years.â
âiâm sure it did.â your eyes flickered over the file again, but nothing would allow you to familiarize yourself with this killer more than talking to him yourself. âfor example, you realized just how much you liked killing.â
if johnny couldâve raised his hands, he wouldâve. âyour words, not mine.â
you leaned over the table, unrelenting. âtell me about it, johnny. how did it feel when you strangled her with your bare hands? what was it like?â
johnny chuckled. âis that what you wanna hear?â
you nodded.Â
johnny leaned in too, getting closer to you, and whispered in your ear, âi squeezed every last breath out of her, one by one, until there was nothing left for her brain and she went slack in my arms. and when i was done, i felt elated. i felt free. it woke up this dormant sensation inside of me that i swore to never repress again, because it made me feel alive.â
your lungs started to feel shallower, like no breath could reach the bottom, and you sensed your heart come to a halt for a minute. johnny pulled back, grinning from ear to ear, as if he was proud of himself.Â
âdetective, did i startle you?â johnny asked, tilting his head ever so slightly.Â
your face hardened. âwhy would you ever think that?â
âyouâre not as good at feigning indifference as you think you are, detective. full offense,â he mimicked, mocking.
heâs just a fragile man that kills women to make him feel better about himself, because he needs to be in control. donât give him power over you. thatâs what he wants, you said to yourself, shutting any and all other thoughts. âso, you killed martina, nobody could connect her disappearance to you, and by the time they discovered her body you were already studying for college two states over.â
johnny ignored you, at least for a little. he was taking a liking to making you feel uneasy around him. âhas anyone ever told you how gorgeous you are?â he asked out of nowhere.
âyou arenât my type. i donât fool around with serial killers,â you replied sharply.
johnny didnât seem to be offended, but you didnât expect him to. âreally now? it feels like weâre on a date right now. after all, we are getting to know each other.â
you asked, âhave you always had such a distorted perception of normal human interaction?â
johnny shot with no hesitation, âhave you always had such a sharp mouth?â
you pulled yourself together. the only way you would get anywhere with this guy was by establishing that you were the one in control. âokay, enough. this is my interview, suh. you answer my questions, not vice versa.â
âthatâs not any fair,â johnny told you, that unnerving smile still on his lips. âi donât have to tell you anything, you know. and without me, you lose the only key to those answers you want so badly.â
âyou shutting up doesnât make much of a difference, considering youâre already dodging my questions,â you replied.
âletâs play a game,â johnny suggested.
you werenât in the mood for any games, but that was johnnyâs method of operation. âi donât like games.â
âyouâll like this one,â johnny insisted, laughing. âtwenty questions.â
your shoulders dropped. âam i supposed to be guessing something?â
johnny shook his head, something sinister about him. âno, itâs much easier than that. we take turns asking each other questions until iâve answered ten and youâve answered ten.â
you stared into his eyes, willing yourself not to break contact. he was just as relentless, silently cocking a brow at you, as if to challenge. and you werenât an idiot. thatâs exactly what it was. you asserted, âi go first, you can only ask me yes or no questions, and if i donât like your final answer i get to press you for another.â
johnny slightly lifted his shoulders in a nonchalant shrug. âyes, maâam.â
âokay,â you started. âwhat made you move from illinois to michigan?â
âi was kicked out of the house. didnât have anywhere else to go. but i had a buddy here whose family took me in,â johnny answered frankly.
you pondered those words, wondering if his aforementioned buddy knew about his secret indulgences. or if he asked why johnnyâs parents kicked him out of their home. it wouldâve been the question scratching at your mind, itching to be answered.
johnnyâs lips parted. âwhat kind of perfume are you wearing - honey lavender?â
âyes,â you said, focusing your attention on anything but the possibilities of how he couldâve known that. heâd been with so many people to the point where he just knew. âwhy did you get kicked out of the house?â
âmy dad always thought there was something different about me, ever since i was a child. he was a nasty piece of work. he found my journal, read a couple of things i wrote, and decided there was no hope for me in the house,â johnny ranted.
that piqued your curiosity. âwhat did you write about?â
âwait your turn,â johnny sang. âyour hair smells just as lovely as the rest of you. do you match scents all the time?â
you were mildly uncomfortable, but given the type of dude he was, you stifled it. âyes. you donât have to be such a pervert all the time, you know?â
again, johnny rolled his shoulders, chirping, âyou call it perverse. i call it amusing.â
you almost cursed under your breath when you realize youâd asked him a question. âwait, i didnât mean to askâŚâ
johnny cut you off, âthatâs too bad. itâs my turn again. do you like necklaces?â
ânot ones made out of fingers,â you retorted. it was meant to be a joke to hide how unsettled you were, hyper aware of the necklace dangling around your neck. you could feel invisible pressure on your throat.
johnny snickered. âiâll admit that was funny.â
you pressed, âwhat did you write about in the journal?â
âmy dreams,â he admitted vaguely, though in reality, he wrote endlessly about his corrupt fantasies of abusing women. some pages were about his stepsister, and there was a few about what heâd done to martina, though not explicitly. âyou have the most beautiful eyes. theyâre the perfect shade.â
you were certain he had told many other girls those same words and were not flattered in the slightest. the glare you were giving him was ferocious. âiâm not sure if thereâs a question in there somewhere.â
âdo you think your eyes are pretty?â
âi havenât really thought about it,â you told him, quick to change the topic. youâd encountered your fair share of stranglers and it was no secret why he was so interested in your eyes. âwas your relationship with your father estranged?â
ânothing was enough for that man. i had the top grades in my class and the highest gpa, and he took my door off its hinges and seized my privacy,â johnny told you, words harsh, but his tone plain. âhe was obsessed with being the perfect family, something that was ruined the second my mother destroyed everything, and rather than embrace me, he turned me away.â
your eyes flickered. there was something about his language that stood out to you. courtesy of the research youâd done on him beforehand, you were aware that his father was divorced then remarried his stepmother, who already had a daughter johnnyâs age. but rather than describe his parentâs separation as a divorce, he said his mother destroyed everything.
what a hostile view towards women, you mused, repulsed. but given the nature of his crimes, it adds up. and it mightâve been the origin of his hatred.
his family was twisted. you couldnât fathom how his father, aware of just how unwell his son was, clocked his abusive fantasies towards women, and instead of getting him the help he needed, he left him to his own devices to slaughter them as he pleased.
you blinked when johnny leaned, craning his face towards yours, and snapped out of your reverie when you jolted back.Â
âthere you are,â johnny said, chuckling at your surprise. it was all over your face. âiâve been talking to myself all this time. you mustâve been thinking about me.â
âno, not really. i was wondering if i forgot to feed my dog last night.â it was an obvious lie, but you would never encourage this guy to feel more important than he was.
amusement gleamed in johnnyâs eyes. he was having a wonderful time, truth be told. had you not been so pretty, he wouldâve clamped up like a crab, but you were so pleasing to the eye that he didnât mind confessing a couple of truths. âa dog. thatâs interesting. i myself have always wanted a pet - a snake. the constricting kind are my favorite.â
âyou donât say,â you droned, voice dripping with crisp irony.
your sarcasm was chucklesome to johnny, but his words were the truth. he remembered, all those years ago, asking his father for a pet snake. and when he refused, johnny, in turn, killed the family dog. he added, âthey donât just suffocate their prey. they coil around them, almost like a straitjacket, and cut off its blood supply.â
you replied, âyeah, but animals hunt to survive. you hunted because you had nothing better to do with your life.â
âin my humble opinion, weâre all animals of nature, and creatures of sin,â johnny told you in a whisper, as if he were telling you a secret of some kind. âanyways, itâs my turn now.â
you resisted a disgruntled exhale.Â
like his questions couldnât get any more absurd and strangely perverse, johnny asked, âwhen you shower, what do you use - a washcloth or a loofah?â
âthatâs not a yes or no question,â you replied with total disinterest.Â
âitâs hardly any less simple.â
âa washcloth,â you replied, though only because you needed to ask him your questions and resisting an answer would only waste valuable time. âwhy did you wait so long before killing sabrina lee?â
johnny smiled at the mention of his sonâs mother, but the grin on his lips was distinguishable from the others. like he didnât even realize he was smiling. âshe was special. i loved her.â
âno, you didnât. you donât hurt people that you love.â
âmaybe thatâs true for you, but youâve called me everything but a child of god and itâs clear you donât think you and i are alike,â johnny said. âi donât miss her, though, because she left a better print on this world. a world that was never made for her in the first place.â
a better print on this world. your brows furrowed, until you remembered the child they shared together. âyou know what i think? i think whatever you felt for your sonâs mother was the closest thing to love youâll ever be able to pull from your ugly black heart.â
âyouâre very strongly opinionated,â johnny responded, ever so unbothered. maybe some decades ago, it wouldâve irked him to the point of breaking, but he was much more in charge of his impulses now.
you lifted your shoulders, gazing at him with the most discerning of eyes. all he could think about was how nice it wouldâve been to seize you by the throat and watch the light dull from them.
to your surprise, johnnyâs next question was not as a deviant as you assumed it would be, asking, âwhat made you decide you wanted to become a detective?â
âbecause of the people i used to know that arenât around to tell you why,â you answered distantly, before pressing, âhow was sabrina different, johnny?â
johnny perched over the table again, an uncomfortable distance close to you, made worse by his whispers. âbecause unlike the others, she didnât beg me to stop - she begged me to finish. for it to be over. and when i wouldnât, she begged me to kill her.â
the mental picture you got was cruel. your heart hurt for these women that had no idea what hit them until it was too late.Â
âi put these women out of their misery,â johnny continued.Â
you spat in a heartbeat, âthe misery that you forced them to endure.â
johnny winced. âno, these women were miserable long before they met me. they were just ignorant of it. impressionability is a weakness.â
âeither you have one hell of a god complex or you are working overtime to justify your sick actions.â
johnny merely shrugged, vicious and ominous and everything in between. there was something so dark about his spirit. you could feel it just from sitting within a couple of feet of him.Â
johnnyâs memories were triggered. he was reminiscing about the times he shared with his sonâs mother, how perfect she was. there were no other women like her. she was his favorite victim, someone he took his sweet time with, while the others were disposed of in a few months time.Â
midnight loomed, riding on the tail of dusk. johnny was counting down the minutes until the clock struck twelve, a self-imposed rule to gauge his willpower. the second the hour came, he bolted from the crackling sound of the cabinâs fireplace to a bedroom, anticipation like a stimulant.
the wooden floorboards creaked the closer johnny crept to the door. save for himself and the woman chained to the bedpost, the cabin was void of life. it belonged to the parents of a close friend who ensured it was vacant whenever johnny needed a place to indulge his twisted fantasies.
which was basically all of the time.
he meandered inside with a crisp bottle of water in hand, droplets condensing at its sides. sabrina laid right where he left her, just as broken, dreading her next breath. tape adhered to the flesh over her mouth, muffling her whimpers. there was nobody around for miles, the cabin was totally isolated, but it was a safety measure.
the chains were used likewise. when johnny was not there, the restraints kept her prisoner. johnny, reckless as he could be back then, was many things and stupid was not one of them. the chains stretched long enough to reach the bathroom but no further and he had his loyal friend help him test it after each victim.
âcan you go further?â johnny called out.
jaehyunâs lower limbs were shackled, ceasing his footsteps just shy of the hallway as he came to a total standstill. ânot if i want my legs to follow me,â heâd retorted.
johnny had snickered. âgood.â
had johnny been there, though, he would take the chains off. none of this was fair, even johnny didnât believe that, but not giving them the chance to fight was too unfair. he needed not to chain them when he had the gift of his big, burly arms.
johnny waltzed over with a lighthearted and carefree gait, as if this was just another wednesday afternoon to him. and in some sick, despicable way, that wasnât too far from the truth. he ripped the tape from sabrinaâs lips, watching her face tense with pain.
âjohnny,â sabrina rasped, voice croaking. he could tell from her flushed face and misty eyes that sheâd been crying. âiâm thirsty.â
johnny cocked a brow, glancing to his hand. he had an irritating knack for playing dumb. it used to be endearing. now, with everything she knew to be true torn from her bare hands, sabrina didnât know what to think. âwhat - you want this?â
sabrina nodded.
âyeah?â he popped off the top, throwing back a few gulps just before releasing a satisfied, âah.â
sabrinaâs lips trembled. âplease.â
had she been anybody else, johnny probably wouldâve dangled the water in her face just to snatch it away, but there was something about sabrina that made him gravitate towards her. in a rare moment of benevolence, johnny handed her the water, letting her drink.
she didnât drink in short sips, but in giant gulps as if sheâd known for some time that theyâd be her last. when her thirst was satiated, she wiped her mouth with the back of her hand, handing the bottle back, and whispered, âthank you.â
johnny set the drink aside before returning to her, unshackling her limbs. sabrinaâs breath quickened the moment the chains clacked harshly against the floor and nearly stilled when he brought his hand to her flushed face, tracing her chapped lips with a calloused thumb.
his thoughts rushed with unbridled exhilaration, ablaze with suspense, but he slowed for a moment to marvel at her loveliness. johnnyâs hand touched her hair, touch tender in ways it would never be again, because he would never again know a woman as great as her.
he brought his lips to her ear, nibbling at the shell before asking, âdo you know what i want you to do?â
sabrina bobbed her head, starting to halfheartedly peel off her clothes without needing to be told. with so many days held prisoner in this hell hole, it became routine. like sheâd already resigned herself to her fate and knew johnny getting his way was inevitable. he always got what he wanted.
to be frank, it came out of nowhere. she never saw this twisted side of him coming. all she knew was that she became suspicious of his lack of family presence and it was too late when she saw him for the monster that he was, and then she woke here.
it had to have been months ago, although sabrina couldnât have been sure how many. everyday started to bleed into the static hopelessness of another. sometimes johnny wouldnât show for days, leaving her to live antsily, dreading his unavoidable return. other times, he would spend a day or two in the cabin, fucking her into kingdom come.Â
as if she couldnât be any more faultless. johnny smirked. âsmart girl,â he purred. he would never deny her wit, given that sheâd caught onto him, but her lack of strength was her only vice.
johnny restlessly tossed his own shirt over his naked shoulder and came to step out of his boxers. there was mischief on his plush lips. he knew something sabrina only knew from the unkind churn of her gut.
the end was more than near. it loomed over her, relentless and remorseless, and all she could like it to was dark and leaden clouds in a somber sky. even then, there was almost nothing she wouldnât give to see the world again, but sheâd long kissed that hope goodbye.
âdown,â johnny told her, tone dark and stern.
she pliantly did as told, bare back meeting the mattress. johnny crept over her, hard cock twitching at the sight of her so meek. typically, he liked when they put up a fight, but sabrina knew better.
johnny could tell she was fighting back tears, willing herself not to cry with a stabilized breath, but her endeavors were in vain the second he started to force his way inside her. they escaped her eyes and dampened her cheeks, unable to overlook the agony of the stretch.Â
âshh, baby,â johnny crooned in her ear, the weight of his body bearing down onto hers. âwhatâs the matter? you used to beg me to fuck you.â
sabrina shook her head, silently pleading for a mercy she knew deep down that johnny wasnât capable of. âplease make it quick.â
johnnyâs tone was almost sweet. âbut baby, you told me you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me, remember?âÂ
johnny knew that his words werenât reassuring and he didnât intend for them to be. there was a reason why he loved how she tried to hold herself together. he got to push her limits, find her breaking point. in the end, she would get her wish, and in a way, johnny thought that that was love.
her walls were just as tight and vice-like as theyâd been all those times heâd taken her before. if johnny got close enough to her, let his hands wander and tease as they never not had done, sabrina would still involuntarily gush around his cock. like her body knew she was forever a slave to his touch.Â
just looking at her face as she wept sent shock waves of pleasure rippling through his dick and chest. sabrina didnât cry in noisy, gasping sobs. her tears dripped from her thick lashes quietly, mouth parting in the most silent of whimpers.
and she orgasmed the same way, johnny remembered. back when things were normal between them, when she begged for him to fuck her, as he called it, her release was marked by a volatile shudder, but a silent cry of ecstasy.
johnny pushed sabrinaâs lips into an upward curling with his thumb and index finger. âsmile for the camera, sabrina,â he whispered.
sabrinaâs brows furrowed, painfully oblivious to the camera tracking her every emote. johnny couldnât not document his deeds. there was something about being able to play them over, immersing himself back in that moment over and over, even when the life itself could not be so easily brought back.
but for johnny, they could be. when he rewatched these videos again and again, it was like he could feel their pulses thump in their neck, resuscitating.
johnnyâs hands were everywhere, fingertips traipsing towards sabrinaâs neck where marks lingered from all the times heâd strangled her, only to slacken his grip when she was just shy of passing out. the bruises were different colors, indicative of different healing stages. sabrina tensed, startled, and wondered when it would all be over.
âjohnny.â sabrina was overcome with defeat. her voice cracked as she asked, âjohnny, please just cum.â
johnnyâs face tensed with pleasure. âfuck, babe, when you say it like thatâŚâ
he stood at the brink of climax, threatening to teeter over, and there was only one thing that could knock him over quicker than anything else. it wouldnât be anything she said, anything she did, but only a weakness johnny had the power to wield against himself.
âyou want me to finish?â
sabrina nodded.Â
johnny chuckled darkly. âthen, in that case, itâs time for you to get your wish, baby.â
he watched her shoulders slump, releasing all hope of ever knowing anything different again and accepting that this was where things ended. thinking about the feeling he remembered none too distantly, one that almost seemed to keep his blood pumping through him, in a way, johnnyâs fingers itched.
johnny lifted his hands, bringing them to sabrinaâs face, but before he could touch her, she exclaimed, âwait, johnny!â
his brow cocked.Â
sabrinaâs lips trembled. âcan you tell me what today is? please?â
âwednesday,â johnny replied, holding his hands around her neck, but keeping his grip slack. for now.
âwednesday,â sabrina said, pulling her lips into the faintest of smiles as tears blurred her vision. âwill you tell haechan that i hope he has an amazing thursday?â
âthat can be arranged,â johnny said, grinning.
sabrina nodded, setting her mind at ease. sheâd already made peace with this day some months ago. she never knew when it come, but she saw it as something bound to happen. âthank you,â she whispered.Â
those were her last words. because when johnny tightened his grip at her throat, almost like tightening a noose, he couldnât bring himself to stop in spite of the agonized gleam in her stare. and then her stare was empty, and johnny had already emptied his load inside of her.
to describe the sensation he got from killing in a way that captured its essence would be impossible. it was more than feeling the life leave her. it was more than watching her eyes become soulless. it was a release, a way of relinquishing all of the vacantness he harbored, and knowing that his heart was still there.
it would always return, sometimes as soon as the next day, but for a minute, johnny was whole and no drug could replicate that kind of contentedness.
johnny did tell haechan what sabrina said. he wasnât all too sure why, maybe it was because she was his mother and haechan was her son that theyâd created together, and johnny would never have it any other way. for her to be the one to give him a child, he couldnât imagine any other woman in her place.
it was almost unfortunate that she had to go so soon. even johnny thought that her demise was premature. had she not grown so suspicious of him, johnny could imagine making her his wife, maybe even spending the rest of his life with her.
their marriage wouldnât have been without his secret dark life, but sabrina wouldnâtâve been a victim. alas, loose ends needed to be tied. johnny couldnât trust that she wouldâve kept quiet, and even then, she was in a much more fitting place for an angel like herself.
there was much of this memory that would be abridged. never would johnny reveal anything about the cabin or the dear friend that helped him commit his indulgences, or even the existence of the tapes. if they found those videos, that was proof of murder with a grand total of 106 women.
the air around you was heavy and the words youâd just been fed werenât easily take in. âwhat youâve just told me is really sad.â
but johnny didnât look sad. whether or not he ever truly cared for sabrina would perpetually be a mystery. âmaybe,â he started. âbut tell me that you wouldnât hurt the person you loved most if it was what was best for them.â
âi did. but what i had to do is different from what you were.â
johnnyâs interest was piqued. âhow come?â
âit was my responsibility to decide whether or not to take my sister off of the ventilator. there was no hope for her,â you confessed, though brushed over it quickly. âwhat happened to your ex-wife?â
ânot that interesting of a story,â johnny said. âshe wasnât sabrina, i got tired of her, here we are.â
âand yet she wasnât a one-off like martina mortes.â
âhad she been a one-off, my body count would be one number higher. that was a favor,â johnny told you, grinning as if you actually had something to be grateful for.
you didnât waste a second to accuse, âbecause you need to keep your victims to extract all the relief that you can from them, right?â
âiâm afraid itâs not your turn to ask questions,â johnny replied tauntingly. âwhat was your sister like - did she have long hair? what color were her eyes? how long were her lashes?â
sick son of a bitch, bellowed the voice in your head, though you willed yourself to remain composed. it was plain on his face that johnny didnât want an answer - he wanted a reaction. and as furious as that made you, you couldnât let him provoke you. âthatâs none of your business,â you said, but there was a loophole. âbut she was beloved.â
that qualified as an answer. johnny glanced at you in a way that made you feel see-through, as if he knew that you were threatening to come apart at the seams and didnât buy your nonchalance for a minute.Â
sated, he went on to feed you bullshit about his ex-wifeâs death, though there were only four people who knew what truly happened to her and one of them was dead.
johnny remembered that day like it happened yesterday. it was a thursday evening when heâd come home from work. christine had picked haechan up from school hours ago and johnny wholly expected to come home to her in the kitchen.
it was dark outside. the moon was a mere sliver and the stars were duller than they typically were, almost like they had witnessed something that drained their spirits. johnny remembered struggling to identify his house key, trying each of them until the door clicked open.
âiâm home,â johnnyâs voice thundered as he turned to lock the door.Â
there were quick footsteps from upstairs. haechan, johnny thought, more than familiarized with the sound. but there was none of christineâs usual voice.
âdad, iâm hungry,â came haechanâs voice from the stairs, coming down them one by one.
that in itself shouldâve been suspicious, but instead, all johnny could think about was how sabrina wouldâve already fed her son. âhasnât christine made dinner by now?â johnny asked, irritated.
haechan shook his head, though johnny couldnât see. he was hanging his coat on the rack, like he always did after he locked the door. âshe canât right now.â
âwhy not?â
âbecause i think sheâs dead,â haechan replied, nonchalant as ever.
that was the very second that johnny turned around and noticed that haechan was stained with blood. it was all over his face and the spots would probably never come out of his clothes, not that they would be kept.
for half a minute, johnny was genuinely stunned.
haechan didnât say what happened, and there was no need to. âthe blood wonât come off,â was all he said, showing his father the pair of hands that heâd washed with vigor.
johnny heaved a breath. he shouldâve seen this coming. haechan took after his father and he never liked christine. to say the least, johnny couldnât blame him. âwhere is she?â
âwhere they all go,â haechan replied, as if it was the most normal and natural thing in the world to him.Â
johnny headed for the basement with quick footsteps, haechan following behind. if somebody were to come down there, they wouldnât suspect a thing. not only was it decorated to look like one, but it was used as a man cave. behind a soundproof wall, though, was a dungeon for his prisoners.Â
in this case, there was a trail of blood leading to the wall, proof that haechan had somehow brought christine there after he hurt her. johnny entered the cell and saw her there behind the bars, coming to her side to check her pulse.Â
pressing his thumb to her wrist and neck, johnny sensed a pulse, though it was weakening. âsheâs not dead,â he said, wresting his phone out of his pocket.
haechan didnât look so relieved, but he didnât voice his dissatisfaction. âare you mad?â
johnny glanced down at christine. haechan had used a kitchen knife, attacking her in the heat of the moment. she was butchered and blood-splattered, on the verge of slaughter, and yet johnny couldnât find it in him to offer any compassion. âthat you hurt her? no. that you made a mess? a little.â
now that was a relief. to haechan, at least back then, his dad was the coolest guy that he knew.
there was quite the scene in front of him and johnny didnât have a thing for blood. he shook his head in reproach, chastising, âiâm going to teach you the right way to get rid of a woman when youâre sick of her.â
that piqued haechanâs curiosity.Â
johnny was quick to dial jaehyunâs number. he had medical experience and that was what he needed right now. when the call connected, he said, âiâm in calling in a favor.â
jaehyun patched her up again. at least for a few months, johnny still needed her breathing. they scrubbed the floors free of blood, burned haechanâs bloodied clothes, and it was as if nothing ever happened.
what johnny had told you was only a fraction of the truth, but still enough to make you want to grimace. it bemused you how he got away with murdering his ex-wife and nobody thought to suspect her husband with a track record of disappearing partners.
âyou want to know whatâs really amazing?â you started, though it was more like disgusting. âhow three of the women youâve killed were your significant others, and somehow, youâve only now been incriminated.â
johnny looked proud of himself. had it not been for haechan, he probably wouldâve never been caught. âsabrina never told anyone that we dated, or that she had a baby by me. her parents wanted her to focus on her education. if they knew sheâd gotten pregnant, she wouldâve been the black sheep.â
âand you took advantage of that,â you hissed.Â
âso what if i did?â johnny asked, careless. ânot to mention that dozens of teenage girls in chicago were going missing at the time. they added martina to that number and called it a day. is that sad? maybe. but thatâs how it works.â
âand as for your co-worker?â you asked sharply. the boldness of his crimes astounded you. âher husband grieves her. were you having an affair?â
the thought of her made johnny chuckle. oh, were we, he reminisced. it was a misfortune that he didnât get the chance to have his way with her the way that he wanted. and for that reason, he couldnât regale you in a truthful account of her death.
what happened that day, the day his co-worker died, challenged his fate and was the reason that he only now knew the imprisonment he thrusted upon others.
johnny knew when he spotted her that he would revel in her vulnerability. married, but she hardly wore her ring. her kind was the most naive - the kind that believed ecstasy was without costly sin. one way or another, she had to reap what she sowed.
he worked his way inside her pants, but it was hardly any work; she was on a desperate pursuit for pleasure and when johnny promised it to her, offering content on a silver platter, she thought less with her brain and more with the throbbing between her legs.
for months, johnny slept with her, which was far from typical. if she were anybody else, johnny would have pursued her for a couple of weeks time, then banished her to the underground prison. though considering he already had a victim down there at the time, he had some time to spare.
it was no secret that she had grown fond of johnny in ways she hadnât been of her husband in a very long time, and though johnny found her to be special, in a way, he could not reciprocate her feelings. when johnny saw her, all he felt was the overwhelming urge to use her without a lick of remorse, and squeeze those panting breaths out of her.
it was a shame that he never got the opportunity. johnny already tested the bounds of his self-restraint when it came to her, each of their encounters consensual with her oblivious to his deepest, darkest desires. sometimes, his fingers would wander to her neck, but even that was wanted.
what was not wanted was the tyranny over her body that preceded her death. it bemused johnny to learn that his son, along with two of his friends that he thought of like brothers and johnny thought of like sons, ravaged her to the brink of being unrecognizable.
had johnny held control over the situation, he wouldnât have cared what happened to her and would have even permitted them to go to town. but what happened was somehow darker. when he got a call from the professor late that day, hearing her broken sobs over the phone, he told her to meet him at his house.
that was his first mistake.Â
it wasnât that she didnât come. she made it there, hopeful to confide in johnny about the nightmare that tore her apart, but it was haechan that opened the front door. and when she entered, there was no hope out of her coming out breathing.
haechan had been a downward spiral ever since a month ago when he stumbled upon the tape of his mother. ever since he was a boy, haechan watched every tape he could find of his fatherâs dark life, even sharing them with his friends as if they were movies and not snuff.
but this was not like those. this was his mother. and watching her suffer, listening to her final request before her untimely death, broke haechan in ways which he would never recover.
haechan had known since he was little that his mother was dead and his father was to blame, but his understanding of what happened to her was skewed. if heâd known eighteen years ago what he knew today, when johnny had his own son aid him in his motherâs demise, none of it would have ever happened.
to say nothing of the fact that what johnny had haechan do was only a mere fraction of his motherâs suffering. haechan would fetch things from the other side of the cabin he vaguely remembered visiting every now and then for three months. when he was not there, which was often, he would lie to his neighbors about her whereabouts.
even though when she died he was only a kid being taken advantage of, haechan hated himself for letting it happen right under his nose. he wished he wouldâve told his neighbors the truth. maybe if he had, his mother would still be alive and kicking, and he would know the only woman he ever cared for.
that was why he went after his professor that he knew his father had also been eyeing closely and having an affair with. her fate was obvious. johnny would entertain her for a while, somehow charm and woo his way into her pants like he did every other woman, kidnap her and keep her downstairs for three months, then kill her and identify the next victim.
but johnnyâs liking of her was also hopelessly discernable. she was living too long. and that was a telltale sign that johnny took a special interest in his sonâs professor, something that haechan feared would rival the affection (if it existed) for his mother.
haechan was not keen on having his mother replaced. the last time it happened, he snapped and maimed his stepmother. and he was not afraid of doing so again.
when haechan exacted revenge, it felt like nothing he had ever done before. vengeance tasted like heaven. his professor tasted elysian. and he had never felt so good about himself, but then the high wore off, comparable to the fading release johnny got after strangling his victims, and familiar pain seared through him once further.Â
vindictiveness was a lethal venom, festering quickly upon injection. after haechan got what he wanted, there was a greed to replicate that feeling, in spite of the fact that nothing would compare to that first blow. in his own way, unlike his fatherâs but similar nonetheless, he was pivoting towards release.
haechan was on the brink of something like psychosis when he heard those knocks on his front door. and when he peered outside, spotting the professor, his recklessness got the better of him.
she was dead before she even stepped inside the house. haechan yanked her inside, brought her downstairs, and forced himself onto her for a second time that day. when she wept for johnny, wishing he would come home, haechan almost pitied her naĂŻvetĂŠ.
if haechan hadnât killed her, wrapping his hands around her throat the way that he knew his father had been yearning to, johnny would have.
the look on his professorâs face was pitiful. âsorry,â haechan said, though he clasped his hands around her throat harder. âbut i have to make a statement.â
it was not particularly a difficult thing to do, at least not to stomach, but killing her was merely just a means to an end. he didnât get off to it like his father wouldâve. haechanâs interest lay in inflicting psychological damage, but he did it because he knew how much it pleasured johnny to squeeze the life out of his victims.
and if haechan couldnât have what he wanted, then as long as he lived, neither would his dad for tearing it away.
johnny came home moments too late. haechan left his professor in the cellar for his father to find, eyes wide and face pale.
johnny glanced around. he saw her car parked outside, but no sign of her. when haechan came from his bedroom on the upper floor, a creeping feeling of deja vu flooded johnnyâs chest, but he asked, âwhere is she?â
haechanâs face was expressionless. âsheâs dead,â he replied, confident. âi mean it this time.â
johnny shook his head. âyou killed her?â
âwasnât it you that said you were going to teach me the proper way to dispose of a woman when iâm sick of her?â haechan asked, approaching his father as he crept down the stairs.
though johnny wasnât pleased, he willed himself to calm down. âdid you strangle her?â
âyes.â
johnny figured, from the lack of blood staining his house this time around. âwill you tell me about it?â
that caught haechan off-guard. he expected his father to be angry, to let loose. he had to have been dreaming of choking her since the day he laid eyes on her. âyou sick fuck,â haechan sneered.
johnny snickered, unbothered. thatâs rich. âwho do you think you got it from?â
obviously, from the face haechan was making, he didnât like that. his nonchalant attitude dissipated. âiâm not like you!â
âkeep telling yourself that. maybe one day youâll delude yourself into believing it,â johnny replied, hanging his coat on the rack in spite of knowing he would be leaving again soon.
âiâm not like you - i mean that.â
johnny, miffed, rolled his eyes and said, âcome on, son. you think i donât know you and your friends have been watching my tapes for the past decade and then some like theyâre cartoons?â
âbut not momâs,â haechan spat, loathing fizzing in his stare.Â
johnny froze, then spun around. âis that what this is all about?â
haechan nodded, pleased his father was finally getting the picture. âi found it in your study. you hid it more carefully than the others, because she was special or you didnât want me to find it, i donât know.â
johnny heaved a breath. âyou were never supposed to see that.â
âbut i did,â haechan replied. âand iâve suffered every day for the past month because of that.â
johnny shot without hesitation, âa suffering you brought upon yourself. nobody asked you to go snooping around in my things.â
haechanâs lips were twisted into the meanest snarl johnny had ever seen. emotion wrecked through him in its totality. âis that whatâs important to you? i shouldnât be surprised. you couldnât even spare your own sonâs mother from your heartlessness.â
johnny massaged his temple, summoning all of his willpower. âplease,â he groaned, sensing an incoming headache. âwomen are weak, cheating whores. just look at your professor. maybe your mother wasnât, but she was a liability.â
if that was supposed to console haechan, it had the complete opposite effect. âare you saying she deserved it?â
âiâm saying that youâve always been too soft,â johnny said, not bothering to sugarcoat his chastising. âjust like your mother. even when you were a child. thatâs why i had you help me, i hoped you would harden up a little.â
haechan scoffed. âunbelievable.â
âyour mother went quietly. she didnât even fight it, haechan. so, why are you?â
âbecause of that,â haechan told him, vitriol in his voice. âshe didnât ask you to stop one time. she just asked you to get it over with.â
johnny tipped his head back. âah, yes. she really was perfect, wasnât she?â
that was all it took to kindle an unforgiving rage within haechan and in a moment of fury, flickering through him in a flash, haechan lifted his hand to smack his father.
johnny caught his wrist, as if this werenât the first time this had happened and it was wholeheartedly expected. his voice lowered to a mere hiss, âiâve never laid a hand on you. ever in your life. donât make today be the day i start.â
haechan glared, but wrested his way out of his fatherâs grip and backed away.
johnny smoothed down his shirt and headed for the kitchen, knowing haechan would follow. this conversation was far from over. ânow, if you excuse me, i have to clean up your mess,â he said, pulling a burner phone out of a drawer. âif you donât mind.â
âi can clean up my own mess,â haechan replied, scowling.Â
setting the phone on the counter, johnny reached for a glass. âno, you canât. not without digging your own grave. unless you want to go to prison, pack your shit, ask one of your buddies if you can stay with them for a few days, and take the tapes with you. hide them.â
haechan made a face. âwhat are you talking about?â
johnny sighed. âwe canât get away with this one, son. her carâs parked outside. thereâs too many loose ends.â
âwe can get rid of the car. you donât have to go to jail!â haechan shouted.
âitâs either you or me. frankly, iâm doing you a favor. you wouldnât last two seconds behind bars,â johnny hissed. he grabbed another glass, sliding it across the counter, then said, ânow, wine? you know, to celebrate your old man going away? i believe thatâs what you want.â
haechan shook his head. never in his life had he been so conflicted. his father that heâd been so bent on despising until the day he died was voluntarily confessing to a crime he didnât commit, just so that his son wouldnât have to suffer in prison.
âwhy are you doing this?â haechan asked, bristling with emotion.Â
johnny sighed. âbecause i love you, son. even if you donât think so. and because your mother would be turning in her grave if she knew you were in prison.â
haechan blew out a breath. then, after a moment of reluctance, he grabbed the glass on the counter and reached for the wine bottle.Â
johnny snickered. âatta boy.â
âi wonder how your son reacted when he learned you were going to prison for murder,â you said, pondering. âyou live in the same house. i wonder how he didnât know.â
johnny lied, âhe was at a friendâs house when i killed her. doesnât like that it was his favorite professor.â
you nodded along, buying his lies. âthat is a lot to take in. i mean, imagine your dad was having an affair with your favorite science professor. then, he kills her, like how he killed your mom.â
johnny shrugged his shoulders. âhave you never heard the phrase âthe heart wants what it wants?ââ
âi have,â you replied. âand i guess your heart wanted to stop the function of others.â
johnny laughed at his own expense. âoh, please. you give me too much credit. you shouldnât make me out to be more romantic than i am.â
you shook your head in disappointment. âyou make these women want you, and then you undo everything. that has to be part of the amusement to you.â
âit gets a chuckle or two out of me.â
your lips were tempted to curl into a frown for the umpteenth time that day alone. âwhy?â
johnny leaned up in his chair, exclaiming, âbecause itâs fun!â
you were going to say something, but he didnât give you the chance.Â
johnny continued, âeveryday, as adults, we do the same job for hours and come home. people want excitement in their lives. women get exhausted of coming home to their husbands or nobody at all.â
your stare was blank. âand your point is?â
âi didnât just make those women want me, baby. i made them need me,â johnny told you smugly. âi brought a spark to their lives, and i took it away just as fast. and i do it⌠because i can.â
âbecause you could,â you corrected, confident he would never be free of this place for as long as he lived. âyouâre going to be in here a very, very long time.â
johnny grinned. âi wouldnât be so sure.â
you cocked your brow. âwhatâs that supposed to mean?â
âwouldnât you like to know?â johnny teased. you hated the smugness in his tone. like he knew something that you didnât.
the door opened, and the guard from earlier returned. âi hate to interrupt, but itâs time for the count,â he said, coming behind johnny to undo his cuffs.
it all happened in a blink. johnnyâs weight was pressed flush against yours, roughly thrusting you into the table. your body screamed, agony spreading through your side, but your gun was in a lockbox outside the room.
johnny knew from your conversations alone that you werenât the type to go quietly. your first instinct was to fight back. naturally, you struggled against his hold, refusing to bend to his will even as panic shot through your chest. your whole body was on guard, aiming for survival.
but to your misfortune, your might was no match for johnnyâs. you glanced to the guard for assistance, but when he only stood there as if he was waiting for it to end, the most unsettling feeling of realization washed over you.
âdonât fight him,â the guard said, arms crossed. âyou wonât win.â
johnny snickered when he noticed your eyes widen in shock. you hadnât seen that coming. though you tried to resist, it was over once his slender fingers came to your throat, and you genuinely feared for your life.Â
you didnât realize how good you had it just being able to breathe until you couldnât anymore. your breaths wouldnât come. it felt as if your bones were being crushed. your whole body was on fight mode, but it was like johnny had the reins, shutting down your senses one by one.
âyou put up a good fight, detective,â johnny whispered darkly in your ear, admiring your struggle.
your lips parted, but you couldnât speak no matter how hard you tried. your self-preservation instincts were no match against him. all you could do was meet johnnyâs stare. the pressure on your neck was too much to handle, and in seconds, you were out.
âlights out,â johnny said. he released your throat, having no intention of killing you and leading you for dead, but knowing that you would likely regain consciousness in a matter of seconds, he grabbed you by the hair, smashing your head flat against the table to subdue you.
jaehyun winced, but he did nothing to step in. âpoor girl,â he mumbled under his breath, pitying you. âhad enough?â
âfor now,â johnny replied. âletâs go.â
jaehyun gave johnny a uniform to wear so that he would blend in amongst the uniforms like jaehyun had and when he was ready, the two of them fled before they could be deterred.
when they had successfully gotten away, jaehyun asked with his hand on a steering wheel, âyou know that i donât agree with this, right?â
johnny snickered. it had absolutely been said. âyou havenât agreed with my lifestyle for the past twenty-five years, yet you still help me. why?â
jaehyun frowned. sometimes, he asked himself the same question, but deep down inside, he knew the answer. âbecause we may not share blood, but weâre brothers,â jaehyun replied. âand for my brother, iâll do anything you need.â
johnny quipped, âlike smuggle me across the border?â
âlike smuggle you across the border,â jaehyun said, chuckling. âwhen we get there, thereâs gonna be this dude named mark. heâs gonna help you out. iâll be in touch.â
johnny nodded. âi canât thank you enough, man.â
âjust lay low and stay out of trouble,â jaehyun said, shaking his head.Â
johnny grinned with mischief. he was already thinking about all of the beautiful women he couldnât wait to get his hands on. âno promises,â he answered, sighing contentedly.
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Here I am at my ex's place, again.
As if the four previous betrayals weren't enough, I had to fall back into his arms, again.
It was 3 a.m. We had just come back from a random party, and when he went to shower, I couldn't help but snoop through his phone.
It wasn't new; trust clearly never existed in our relationship, and I was too drunk to stop myself from going further.
Unsurprisingly, while snooping through his phone, I saw that he had continued talking to the girl he had cheated on me with the week before.
I thought he had truly changed this time and that tonight we would be able to have fun in bed! What a fool I was.
Tears didn't even come this time; I was too accustomed to this situation. I simply got up, silently grabbed my things, and grabbed a cheap bottle of vodka from his bar. What? I needed it more than him, and anyway, he probably won't miss it given its price! Then I stumbled out.
"Oh my fucking god!" I sighed as I took a big gulp from the vodka bottle.
I grabbed my phone from my pocket to order an Uber, only to realize that at this hour, the prices were exorbitant.
"Fuck!" I groaned, tossing my head back before straightening up and fixing my hair.
My heels were killing my feet, and my dress was far too revealing for me to hitchhike or even consider walking home.
I went through my contacts and called all my friends, more or less close, who had their driver's licenses, hoping that one of them would be awake. Of course, none of them were.
I took a deep breath, trying not to lose patience and throw my phone on the ground. What the fuck am I supposed to do right now??
I took another gulp; this time, I almost fell to the ground because of the amount of alcohol in my blood.
In reality, I had one option left, one person I didn't want to call. Matt.
I don't even know how I have his number in my phone; this guy is clearly the last person I want to talk to.
I turned back towards my ex's apartment for a moment, sarcastically thinking maybe it's not so bad anyway. It wouldn't be the first time I went straight back to him after he cheated on me.
Then my eyes returned to my screen, where it said âMattâ in my contacts. I owe it to myself to have a little more respect than that.
I sighed before dialing the number; maybe he was sleeping too, maybe he wouldn't even answer, and even if he did, he probably wouldn't want to come pick me up.
I let the phone ring for a few seconds before telling myself that this was all ridiculous and hanging up.
Oh well, anyway, in both situations, I was dissatisfied, so I might as well turn to something I'm used to!
I started walking back towards his apartment when my phone started ringing.
I didn't waste a second to answer, hoping it was one of my friends who had seen my call, but of course, it wasn't.
"Why the fuck are you calling at 3 am, y/n," I heard Matt's raspy voice say, with the muffled sound of music behind him.
"I need you to do me a favor," I said, rolling my eyes, and he started laughing.
"Yeah, sure, bye," he began to say before I cut him off.
"No, Matt! Please, I'm serious!" I said, desperate.
I heard him sigh as if annoyed, but he didn't say anything more.
"Come on, you know I wouldn't have asked you if I had any other option, please," I added, biting my lip.
"It must be something really important for you to beg me like this," he said in a provocative tone, what an asshole.
"I'm not begging you, asshole," I said, getting annoyed. The insult came out on its own, and I can't even blame it on the alcohol because I really wanted to say it.
"Insult me one more time and I'll hang up. You're lucky I even had the decency to call you back," he said condescendingly.
I sighed, gosh, why did I call him?
"What do you want?" he added.
"I need you to come pick me up," I started to say before he burst into laughter.
"I'm busy right now, y/n, I'm not your damn taxi. Aren't you old enough to call an Uber?" he said.
"Do you see the time? It's way too expensive right now!" I complained.
"Well, that's not my problem, so figure it out!" he said, and I could hear the smirk in his voice. It must have pleased him to know I was in this situation.
"Matt, come on!" I said, grumbling.
"And what do I get out of it?" he replied.
"I don't know, whatever you want, I just want to go home!" I told him.
"God, you're really annoying, y/n," he said, sighing, and I smiled, understanding what that meant. "Where are you?"
"At Ben's," I replied.
"Y/n, are you fucking kidding me? He lives on the other side of town!" he said, getting annoyed.
"You're a fucking liar, Matt, you live barely 15 minutes from here!" I said, furrowing my brows.
"I told you I'm busy, I'm at a party. You're making me go out of my way to take you home!" he said, still angry.
"You know what, Matt? Go fuck yourself if you're going to leave a completely drunk girl in the street in the middle of the night," I snapped, furious, before hanging up. What a fucking asshole! I hate him so much!
I kicked a rock lying there, feeling anger bubbling up even more.
I brought the bottle to my lips again, this time taking three big swallows. If I had to go back to Ben's, I'd need a lot more alcohol than this.
I was about to start walking back to my ex's apartment when I felt my phone vibrate again. It was Matt, again.
"Mattâ" I started to say before being cut off by his voice.
"Don't move from where you are, I'm coming," he said, sternly, before hanging up.
"Iâ" I started to say before realizing he had hung up, then I sighed.
Ultimately, I didn't even know if it was a good thing or a bad thing.
I stumbled over to the bench across the street and sat down.
"What did I do to deserve this?" I sighed, looking up at the sky before taking another drink.
At this point, I'd even prefer to go into an alcohol-induced coma! It might sound exaggerated to you, but believe me, it's not!
As far back as I can remember, the relationship I had with Matt was contentious.
It all started in high school when I met Nick, who quickly became a close friend of mine. Then I met Chris and Matt, his brothers.
At first, everything seemed fine until Matt decided to start hating me overnight for no reason.
Anyway, since then, he became cold and distant, which really hurt me, especially since at that time, I had a crush on him. So, I quickly started to dislike him, and since then, nothing has changed; we've remained âbest enemies.â
After waiting for about 30 minutes, I saw Matt arrive in his car and park right in front of me.
"I thought you were on the other side of town?" I said without moving from where I was.
"I hurried; I wasn't going to leave a drunk girl alone on the street," he replied, referencing what I had told him earlier.
"Mmhm, feeling guilty, huh?" I said with a smirk.
"Shut the fuck up and get in the damn car, y/n," he said, getting annoyed.
"Fuck you," I said, squinting.
Let's just say the amount of alcohol I had consumed in the meantime hadn't made me any nicer.
"Okay, that's enough; figure it out yourself, y/n," he said, starting the car again.
"No! Okay, I'm kidding! God, you take everything too seriously!" I said, chuckling, and quickly got up to reach his car.
Once I reached the door, I tried to open it, but it was locked. "Matt, open up."
"Ask me nicely, and we'll see," he said.
"Don't be a pain; just unlock the door for me!" I said, continuing to try to open it.
He didn't say anything and simply crossed his arms, looking at me, waiting for my response.
I sighed before saying what he wanted to hear, "Please, Matt, open the door for me."
"See, wasn't that hard," he said with a smirk before unlocking the car.
I opened the door and got in.
"Nice accessory," he said judgmentally, referring to my half-empty bottle.
I just gave him a dark look.
"So, what is it this time? Wait, let me guess, he cheated on you again, right?" he said amused.
"Go fuck yourself, Matt," I said, crossing my arms and looking outside.
"It was with who this time, one of your friends again?" he said, chuckling, and I didn't respond.
"No, it's his neighbor, isn't it? He slept with his neighbor? Whatâs her name again?" he said with that damn smirk.
"Can you please start your fucking car? We're not going to stay here all night, damn it!" I snapped.
"Hmm," he simply hummed, starting the car. "Anyway, I'll end up finding out because you always end up crying in Nick's arms," he said, shrugging.
After that, I didn't want to open my mouth again; he had already annoyed me enough. I just kept my gaze out the window in silence, hoping the journey would pass quickly. And indeed, it was going to pass quickly considering the speed at which he was driving.
"Matt!" I said, gripping the handle of my door when he took a very tight turn at a dangerous speed.
He didn't respond. "You're drunk," I said, looking at him.
"I'm not," he replied without looking at me.
"Yes, you are," I said, frowning.
He didn't respond, so I continued, "You always drive like this when you're drunk."
"Y/n, I told you I was at a party. Yes, I had a drink or two; otherwise, I would never have agreed to come pick you up," he said, scoffing.
"That's bad," I said.
"What, because you're sober right now?" he said, laughing, looking at the bottle on my lap.
"But I'm not driving," I said, raising my voice.
"Can't you be a little grateful for once in your fucking life, y/n," he said, hitting his steering wheel.
I flinched when he did that and stayed speechless, looking at him.
"It's not like you had any other options, did you?" he said, looking at me sharply, then accelerating.
"Matt, you should keep your eyes on the road!" I said, starting to panic.
But for some reason, maybe it was the alcohol, but I couldn't help but find it exciting, this mix of adrenaline and anger. It was like a Molotov cocktail with alcohol added.
"Why, what's wrong?" he said, maintaining his speed, and I looked at him, not knowing what to say.
"Are you scared?" he said, smiling.
"Matt!" I yelled as we narrowly missed a car while passing it.
"Does it scare you?" he continued.
I felt the tears welling up; I was lost, I was scared, but I liked it.
"Answer me, y/n!" he said, accelerating even more, the situation becoming more than dangerous.
"Yes!" I screamed, closing my eyes. "Yes, I'm scared!" I said, feeling a tear run down before opening my eyes again.
"But you love it, look at you, you can't help but watch," he said amusedly.
His eyes slid over my thighs, which were pressed together, and it made him smile.
"You really like this, don't you?" he said, slowing down when we arrived in front of my house.
The adrenaline still hadn't subsided; it was too much for me. I broke down in tears before opening the door and quickly getting out of the car; I felt like I was suffocating.
He stayed in his car for a moment, seeming hesitant, but he eventually turned off the engine and got out.
I immediately started walking towards my house, and he followed me, shouting, "y/n! y/n, stop!"
I didn't listen to him and hurried to grab my keys. "y/n, I'm sorry! Please!" he said, running towards me.
I opened the door, and he reached my side at that moment. "y/n, come onâ"
I turned around, and without thinking, I kissed him.
I had been dying to do it.
And even though it killed me to admit it, I had been dying to do it for so long.
He didn't disconnect our lips; on the contrary, he deepened our kiss, leading us into the house backward.
Our tongues battled for dominance for a long moment, our teeth clashing. Without paying attention, my back collided with the wall of my living room, causing me to groan in pain, which allowed him to win our dominance battle and slip his tongue into my mouth.
I quickly forgot the pain when he grabbed my throat with his hand and pressed the lower part of his body against mine.
His lips left mine to place open-mouthed kisses on my jawline while applying pressure on my neck to keep me pinned against the wall.
"I knew you'd like that. I wonder how wet you are right now," he whispered in my ear, making me sigh with pleasure.
It would have been weird if I weren't drunk, I mean, Iâm making out in my living room with the guy I like the least on earth, and honestly, it seems even more exciting this way.
"Ouch, fuck!" I moaned when he dug his teeth into my neck to leave his mark.
He reconnected our lips in an even more ravenous kiss after that, and I rushed to remove his clothes, starting with his top.
I slid my hands down his stomach to his belt to remove it. I was about to take off his pants too, but I was caught off guard and distracted when he slid his hand between my legs to feel the wet spot on my panties.
"So fucking wet, I knew it," he said with a smile before starting to massage my clit through my panties.
I moaned and dropped my head against his chest when he slid his hand under my panties to make direct contact with my pussy, making me shiver and grab his arm for support.
He wasted no time inserting two fingers into me and massaging my clit with his thumb.
"Fuck," I whimpered against his chest at all this sudden stimulation.
"Look me in the eyes, y/n," he ordered, but I was so lost in my pleasure that I didn't respond.
He increased the pace and grabbed me by the throat with his free hand this time. "I told you to look me in the eyes when I fuck you with my finger, y/n," he said firmly, and I moaned at the force with which he squeezed my neck and the speed at which his other hand moved between my legs.
"Mmph," I whined, struggling to keep my eyes open, and he seemed to love it judging by the smirk on his lips.
"You're such a slut for letting me do all this to you when you claim to hate me every day," he said, pressing against my ear to degrade me, and it only turned me on even more.
My legs started to weaken, and I felt my orgasm approaching. Without meaning to, I clenched my legs around his hand.
"Keep your fucking legs open, slut," he ordered, tightening his grip around my throat.
"Matt, I'm going to come," I told him, my face contorted with intense pleasure.
"No, you're not," he said, removing his fingers from me and releasing his hold on my throat, causing me to almost fall forward and moan at the lack of stimulation.
I looked at him confused, and he knelt in front of me, slowly removing my panties without breaking eye contact.
He then began kissing the bottom of my thigh, slowly and gently moving up towards my pussy. "I want you to come on my face," he said before burying his head between my legs under my dress.
I gasped in surprise as he did so, gripping onto his hair before letting my head fall back against the wall behind me.
He circled my clit with his lips and immediately started sucking, causing me to cry out in pleasure. I was already extremely close to the edge, but I've always been very sensitive.
"Oh my god," I whispered, placing my hand over my mouth when I realized how loud I was moaning.
And it seemed to amuse him because I felt him chuckle between my legs.
He shook his head between my legs, teasing my sensitive clit with his tongue. Just the sight of his head like that under my dress was enough to push me over the edge.
"Fuck, I'm going to come, Matt, Iâoh god," I moaned again, and he slightly lifted my dress to watch me. That was the last straw for me; when I saw his piercing blue eyes, I immediately came on his face, letting out a string of curses and moans.
He then straightened up, and I threw myself at him to kiss him.
He took a step forward, slamming me violently back against the wall, and it would be a lie to say that I didn't love it.
This time, uninterrupted, I ran my hand over his pants to feel him through his jeans.
And he intensified our kiss as I started unbuttoning his jeans and lowering the zipper.
Then I separated our lips, and he looked at me confused.
I looked at him, biting my lip, and began to kneel down, but before my knees could reach the floor, he suddenly grabbed my throat, making me gasp in surprise. "Mattâ" I struggled to say because he was squeezing so tightly that I couldn't breathe.
"I can't wait, y/n. I want to feel you around me now," he said, releasing my throat, and I took a breath.
"Do you have a condom?" he asked, moaning as I continued to feel him through his pants.
"No, but... I want it inside..." I said timidly, and he widened his eyes.
"Please, Iâ" I started to say before he grabbed me by the hips and turned me against the wall, making me sigh in surprise.
"You're going to make me come before you even touch me if you keep that up, baby," he said in my ear, starting to unzip my dress from behind, but it got caught in the seam.
He didn't seem to have much patience because right after that, he ripped my dress off my body, tearing it, and I sighed in surprise at the force of his action.
"Matt!" I said, still facing away from him but turning my head toward him, and I saw him smile.
"Oh, it's okay, darling, I'll buy you another one," he said, slapping my ass and leaving a kiss on my shoulder as he removed his pants and boxers.
He trailed his lips up to my neck, leaving hot kisses, all the while taking his member and rubbing it against my entrance, causing me to let out small moans.
"I'm going to fuck you so well that I promise to make you forget about your ex," he whispered as he gradually inserted his member into me.
My jaw dropped, and my brows immediately furrowed at the burning sensation; he was much larger than Ben, without a doubt. "NghâMatt," I moaned when he hit the depth.
"That's right, say my name, get used to screaming it because this definitely won't be the last time I fuck this pretty pussy," he said, groaning in turn before starting to move inside me.
He gripped my hips with his hands, digging his fingers into my skin, and when he began to pick up the pace, I arched even more, hungry to feel him even deeper inside me than he already was.
"Fuck, I knew your pussy would be perfect for me," he said, slapping my ass before thrusting a bit harder.
"God, MattâOhâ" I cried out as he started hitting that sensitive spot inside me, making me see stars.
He chuckled at my moans before grabbing my hair to pull it and turn my head so I could look at him.
"You look so pretty just like that, all for me," he whispered before kissing me and wrapping his arms around my waist to hold me in place and go even faster.
Our kiss was really messy because he was fucking me so well that I struggled to concentrate and not moan.
"Fuck, I need to see your face!" he said, separating our lips and pulling out abruptly, making me moan at the lack of contact.
Before I could react or understand what was happening, he turned me to face him again before placing his hands behind my thighs to lift me up and insert his cock into me again, and I moaned at the new angle.
"I've never tried this position before; let's see how long we can hold it like this," he said, chuckling before resting my back against the wall behind me.
I chuckled too before wrapping my legs around his hips, and he resumed his pelvic movements, making me roll my eyes and let my head fall back, driven by my pleasure.
He took the opportunity to bury his head in my neck and kiss me, so I lost my hands in his hair, playing with it and pulling on it.
"You smell so fucking good," he whispered against the skin of my neck, and I moaned.
"Matt," I said in a high-pitched moan, and he looked up at me.
"Mh?" he said, continuing to abuse my pussy with his deep thrusts.
"MmmMmmh-" I hummed with my eyes closed, unable to form a coherent sentence due to the overwhelming pleasure engulfing me.
He licked his lips, chuckling, "I'm fucking you dumb, huh?" he said proudly, and I didn't respond, so he started thrusting harder and more brutally.
I opened my eyes, feeling my orgasm approaching, and lowered my head towards him, grabbing his face with both hands. My mouth was open, emitting only sinful moans.
His eyes locked with mine, and he realized what was happening, so he increased the pace even more.
"Matt!" I screamed louder than before.
"Come! I know you want to come for me, y/n!" he said breathlessly. I could feel him twitching inside me; he wasn't far behind.
"F-fuck! Mphh Matt-" I moaned before tightening my pussy around his cock and climaxing, dropping my head forward.
He grabbed my face with one hand to kiss me before he also climaxed after a few more thrusts.
He then rested his head on my shoulder without letting go of the back of my thighs, and I wrapped my arms around his neck.
We were both out of breath.
He gently let my feet touch the ground, and I kept my arms around his neck to support myself.
"Bath?" I asked him, smiling.
"Only if there's a second round," he said, chuckling before kissing me.
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Im sitting in the dentist office and my brain just thought of an azriel x reader fic / alternate universe where he and Elain have a baby or child and reader is the nanny. Its azriels pov mostly as he falls for reader while elain is still debating about lucien. And reader well shes totally oblivious of azriels attraction towards her.
Oblivious Attraction
You sat in front of your vanity while debating on how exactly you should present yourself. It felt as if the bar was set far too high for you to reach but you never turned down a challenge. There were so many different options but decided on a business casual outfit. You decided on a cobalt blue collared shirt paired black slacks and slip ons. As you began your work to form the loose curls, you ran through every possible word or conversation.
Your resume with great references made you a top choice for employment. Children were your passion and being a nanny was a perfect job for you. The hours were long but it never mattered to you even though it left hardly no time for a social life. That wasnât a big issue either in your opinion because you felt fulfilled in life.Â
The drive through the nice neighborhood had you enamored with the beautiful homes with matching or complimentary to the others. It was nicer than you had originally thought and it made it a bit intimidating.
You took a deep breath as you parked your car, muttering prayers to whatever force was above to be on your side.
Azriel watched as Elain flitted around the kitchen to get the remnants of breakfast cleaned up before leaving. An interview with yet another possible nanny would be happening within the next ten minutes and he was ready to get it over with. All three candidates had great resumes as they required but the first two hadnât felt right in their opinion
It was important to the both of them to have the perfect person to care for their daughter while they worked so having someone that they felt that they could trust was imperative. His work hours were long and whereas the mother of his childâs was shorter, she usually spent her time elsewhere when she got off. It grated a nerve that the female was absent from the home so often but he had stopped complaining.Â
What was supposed to be a one night stand had turned into weekly occurrences that ended up with her pregnant. For that simple fact alone, he had moved her into his home in hopes that something more would form other than physical attraction. It hadnât gone as he had hoped but they comfortably coexisted for the sake of their two year old.
He knew that her attention was torn between him and another male, a fact that he had only learned by accidental chance. Even though it hurt a piece of his heart, he always felt as if he couldnât fault her for it. She deserved more, especially when he wasnât able to give her the time and effort that she obviously needed.
A knock on the door had him pushing the thought of Elain and Lucien out of his mind, feeling hopeful that their last contestant would be the one. They truly did need the help and time was of the essence. He was shocked when he opened the door, the beauty of you taking his breath away. Their last two prospects had been older but he wasnât expecting a beautiful female around his age to be standing on his threshold.
âOh, youâre early!â Elain exclaimed happily with Sophie following close behind. âHello!â
Azriel glanced at the clock and you were five minutes early. Confidence emitted from every fiber of you, especially when Sophie looked up at you with a smile. His own hope began to cement when the girlâs smile was returned with a gentle one that set the room at ease.Â
Elain guided you to the couch in the living room where they held their previous interviews. His daughter climbed up beside you, talking the best that she could at her young age. It was something that Sophie hadnât done with the previous two so Elain and himself waited patiently while watching you engage with her.
âWeâre so glad to have you here,â Elain started with a smile. âShe seems to like you already.â
âSheâs a delight,â you laughed, gazing at the girl momentarily with a tender smile on your face.Â
âYour resume is impeccable.â He gauged your reaction but your confident expression as you held his gaze and found nothing negative about you. âIt is rare to find someone so young with extensive experience and references.â
âIâve always loved children.â Your voice didnât shake and you didnât cower under both of their watchful gazes. âI started babysitting at sixteen and I found my first job as a nanny at eighteen once I graduated.â
âYou have extensive education.â Elain scanned through the classes that you had completed in college. âEarly childhood education, special needs education, First Aid and CPR certifications, and multiple language classes. You were also in the top five of all of them.â
âAll of said classes coincide with your first nanny job.âÂ
He had memorized your entire career timeline that also paired with your education. You still didnât shrink from the question and he noted the hint of pride in your eyes. If what he was assuming was true, you had every right to feel that way about yourself.
âWith my first official nanny job, I took classes online and then night classes for the ones that required me to be physically present.â
âDid that affect your job?â Elain countered, a small frown pulling at her lips.
âNot at all.â You shook your head as if in disbelief that you would be questioned about it. âI loved the two children that I was caring for and it was completely my pleasure to have every moment with them.â
Your answer was so genuine that he knew that calling the parents wouldnât be needed. He also didnât need to question your love and passion. Not when his daughter placed herself in your lap in contentment. The air around them was so light and it was a feeling that he hadnât felt in a long time.Â
âDo you have any concerns with the cameras within our home?â He watched your reaction carefully to see how you would react. âSome have had concerns about them.â
âWhy would I be bothered by that?â you asked, your brows furrowing. âI donât see why it would ever be a problem for a parent to not be concerned enough about their childâs welfare to check in when a stranger is keeping them.â
To him, that was answer enough for him. Even as Elain continued to ask you questions, he kept his eyes on you with a hint of adoration filling him at the sight of you and his daughter.
Once the interview was over, you spent the rest of the day bonding with Sophie. Elain had left shortly after the interview had wrapped up and you were left alone with Azriel. You knew that he was watching you carefully and you didnât mind because you would have done the same thing.
âWe never did go over all of the requirements for my job,â you started as you sat beside him at the table while Sophie ate her lunch. âI want to be sure that everyone is happy with the work that I do.â
âWell, she will be starting school soon so it would be beneficial to be sure that she is on track with the other children,â he replied thoughtfully. âAlong with housework and errands that we are unable to do ourselves when needed.â
âThatâs more than reasonable but with the agreed upon salary, I was expecting more,â you mused, more to yourself than him.
âBelieve me when I say that with Sophie alone, you will have your hands full,â he chuckled, his hazel eyes shining with amusement.
 âI wholeheartedly look forward to it.â
You grinned at him and he only gave a small smile in return. The day was relatively simple and you were relieved that he didnât constantly hover. He would come into his daughterâs room every so often to see how the both of you were getting along and seemed content.
By the time that you got home, you were exhausted enough that you didnât bother with anything other than falling into bed.
Azriel had taken the previous day off of work simply to see how you were with his daughter. He was confident that they made the right decision and his daughter listened to you better than she did her own parents most of the time. You appeared a bit hesitant to leave when it was Sophieâs bedtime but left without a fuss.
Two hours had passed after his daughter had been in bed when Elain finally came home. A hint of cologne was on her but he said nothing as usual. He wished that she would make up her mind if she wanted to truly be with him instead of them being in this inbetween state in their relationship. The fact that the mother of his child was still entertaining her ex had once been somewhat of a sore spot that was now numb.
A month passed without any issues with you and Sophie was so smitten to the point that she hardly asked about why her mother always got home so late. He was always so exhausted when he came home but you never failed to have a hot meal waiting for him. It was something that he had never had and your eyes lit up every time that he thanked you. A spot in him warmed every single time that he saw that beautiful smile on your face just as it did seeing you interact with his daughter.
The slow feeling of longing began to form around that time and he got off of work as early as possible whenever he could just to be around you more. You always greeted him warmly in a way that he hadnât felt from Elain since the first month of their ârelationshipâ, leaving him craving more and more each day.
He stopped caring about what hour that Elain came home, enjoying your company more than he ever had hers. Small touches were exchanged every so often, a small brush of his arm against yours in passing or a gentle brush of his fingers over yours. No matter the subtle signs that he tried to give, you seemed completely oblivious.
âHow was your day?â you asked as the three of you ate the food that you had prepared that afternoon.
âA bit stressful as usual,â he admitted, adoring the small frown that formed due to the fact that you cared about his well being. âBut overall, it went well.â
âI much prefer dealing with children,â you laughed, glancing at Sophie who was focused on eating. âCorporate jobs just donât sound appealing.â
âThey arenât,â he agreed before nodding to his daughter âIt gives her the life that she deserves.â
You hummed in agreement, the sound running through him and causing a small smile on his face that you missed.
You were content with your job and utterly happy that you could do what you loved. Azriel was great company but a spot in you hurt for him when you noticed that he wasnât used to having food already made for him. You rarely saw Elain and you wondered if she had taken longer hours with her job. The weekends were the only time that all three of you had any time off so you assumed that the mother made up for it then.Â
It didnât help though that you were bored during those two days. You were so used to getting up early and arriving at their home at six each morning. By the time that you had spent six months with them, you were still with Azriel and was present to put Sophie to bed yourself while her father caught up on extra work. You couldnât lie that you loved it because the girl was the best child that you had ever had the pleasure of working with.
âRunning late this morning?â she asked Azriel when he opened the door on a Friday morning.
âJust a bit,â he admitted, his voice still laced with sleep while Sophie was crying upstairs.
âGo ahead and get ready.â
You didnât wait for a response before running towards the girlâs room.
Azriel had stayed up longer than he usually did the night before and he barely had time to throw on his business suit, the tie tied haphazardly around his neck. It had taken his mind a moment to realize why there was a knock on his door so early in the morning. Through his sleep filled brain, the sight of you and then your worried expression over his appearance sent his heart racing. Love was beginning to bloom within him for you but he was never sure if he should express it.
He did as you told him to do and by the time that he was fully ready, Elain was gone to her own job and you had Sophie at the table eating breakfast. It always amazed him how easily you were able to calm his daughter even though Elain and himself always had trouble doing so.
âDo you have time for me to finish making you a proper breakfast?â you asked, looking him up and down.Â
âNo.â He did the same to you, enjoying the sight that was you before him. âI appreciate the offer.â
âIs that everything that I need to accomplish today?â
You pointed to the list that Elain had made the night before. He nodded, feeling somewhat bad that you had more to do than usual today all while doing so with a now three year old in tow. You simply nodded with a smile and he had to force himself to leave his home.Â
His stormy Friday workday felt as if it dragged by longer than usual. He usually watched the cameras in the home every so often just so he could see you but you were out running errands.. Not only was the normal hours of his work day long but so was the later hours that he had no choice but to stay late.
By the time that he rushed home, he found you asleep on the couch with Sophie curled up contently on your chest. It was a beautiful sight to behold and he didnât have the heart to disturb either of you. His daughter loved you just as much as he was beginning to. He took a deep breath when his heart began to race when he gently pushed a piece of hair out of your face.
It was yet another form of the gentle touches that were exchanged between the both of you but a part of his heart hurt whenever you began to address him as a friend. He wanted so much more than that but knew that it would be inappropriate. It didnât stop his longing but he didnât have the opportunity to ponder long before the front door opened again.
Elain was home early for a change and the close of the door had you shooting up in a panic. Your eyes were wide as you held a still sleeping Sophie to your chest protectively. He didnât think you had any means of protecting his daughter and yourself but it was admirable either way.
âI am so, so sor-â
âItâs alright.â He gave you a small smile even though your eyes darted between the both of them. âYou have had a long day.â
âI still didnât-â
âIt really is okay,â Elain assured, picking Sophie up gently to take her to bed. âGo home and get some rest.â
You nodded and stood on slightly shaky legs before giving him an apologetic smile. He escorted you to the door as he always did and his heart picked up his pace whenever you held his eye contact. The way that you looked at him had him hopeful but he walked to the window to be sure that you got out of his line of sight safely.
He frowned when your headlights came on but instantly went out again and the sound of your car starting didnât reach his ears. You sat in your car for five minutes in the hard downpour before you finally raced back to his front door where he was waiting for you.
âCar trouble?
âIt wonât start,â you whined quietly. âI donât know anything about cars.â
âWould you like a ride home?â
Surprise filled your face for a moment before you nodded shyly. He had to use all of his willpower to stop the laugh that wanted to leave him and used the excuse of retrieving his keys to doing so. By the time you were sitting in his passenger seat, you were both completely soaked and a pout was on your face.
âDoes a little bit of rain bother you?â he asked in a teasing tone.
âSugar melts in the rain,â you quipped and this time he wasnât able to stop his laugh.
During the ride home, you told him about the busy day that you had while he listened intently. Mental images filled his mind with each story, the ones of you taking his daughter for ice cream being his favorite. Both of your arms were touching on the armrest and he wanted nothing more than to wrap his hand around yours. It was a strong testament to his willpower to not do so.
When he pulled up to the home that was smaller than he had imagined, you made no move to instantly jump out. He knew that you enjoyed being around him but he also knew that you were oblivious to how he felt.
âIt doesnât look like itâs going to let up,â you muttered while leaning up to look out of the windshield.
âAccording to the report, itâs supposed to be that way for the rest of the night.â
âWell at least I can immediately jump into the shower.â
He chuckled but when you looked at him, he realized that he had moved closer to you out of what felt like instinct. You didnât break his gaze, even when his eyes darted to your mouth and then back to your eyes. His breath caught in his throat when there were mere inches between your mouths. Once you realized what was happening, you pulled back and jumped out of his vehicle without so much as a goodbye.
It was then that he realized that he was completely and utterly fucked.
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Can we talk about how dangerous petrol stations can be for wheelchair users? Because I feel like this is something that gets overlooked by pretty much everyone.
A lot of Australian petrol stations have a sign somewhere that tells wheelchair users to beep their horn and the worker will come and help you. But not a single station I've been to has ever actually told their workers this is what they're supposed to do, so most just ignore you when you do it. I've also been sworn at by other drivers who thought I was beeping at them.
So you have to get out of the car and assemble your chair - which takes a good minute, but to be able to do that, you need to park far enough out from the pump to allow the space to actually assemble the chair, if your fuel door is on the driver's side, which usually results in you parking in a way that partially blocks the road or is too far for the pump to reach. If your fuel door is on the passenger side, you have to assemble your wheelchair in the road between pumps (and people are often not looking for something as short as a wheelchair user in that environment).
When its busy, navigating around between your car, the pump and the store is also really dangerous, because again, people aren't watching for a wheelchair user (I also have the same problem on my short prosthetics, and I imagine little people would have the same issue). I've almost been hit a few times because people just didn't see me. Pay-at-pump makes this easier and safer because you dont have to go in, but I live rurally, not every place has that option (assuming I can even reach the keypad on the pumps that do).
Then there's getting back in. You have to disassemble your chair again, which can take time. Only about a minute or so, but that hasn't stopped people beeping and yelling at me for taking too long and holding up the line for the pumps when it's busy.
My old work van was fitted with a side wheelchair lift so we didn't have to do the assemble/disassemble bit, but we couldn't use it at petrol stations because the fuel door was on the same side as the lift, which meant we needed to leave a little over a meter between the van and the pump to get out, and most pumps don't have that much reach. a few stations specifically for trucks (as in, big 18-wheeler trucks) did, but that just increased the "people can't see you" risk even more because we were even less visible to truck drivers due to truck blind spots.
It's all well and good to mandate that petrol stations have a disabled parking space out the front, but that doesn't make them actually accessible or usable to disabled drivers. We don't all have someone with us to help, we shouldn't need to. I got my car modified so I can drive it on my own, without the aid of other people, I want to be able to safely put petrol in it on my own too, which, as of right now, depends on inaccessible public inferstructure.
#disabled#disability#inaccessibility#wheelchair user#physically disabled#physical disability#wheelchair problems
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I remember you being something of a scholar on christian theology. I have a question if you don't mind. My tumblr is full of people clowning on american conservative catholics that are angry that the pope basically fired that bishop in Texas, and the tumblr posters saying "lol u disagree with the pope that makes you disagree w/ god's word" or "that makes u a protestant" etc etc.
And while I do enjoy dunking on the trad caths, I think I heard at some point that the pope isn't always talking with his authority as god's most special boy on earth. That most of the time he is just being a human and therefore could be wrong/make errors. Not that I care about the jerk bishop losing his job, but I'm curious, how do we know when the pope is or is not talking with the authority of God backing him up? Does he have to say a special phrase at the start and end of the speech, or hold both hands up above his head, or something?
Okay so what you're referring to here is actually the concept known as papal infallibility, which is one of my favorite pieces of Catholic canon for one very simple reason:
You learn about it as being essentially the Pope is God's most special boy on Earth and what he says is always directly spoken to him from God and therefore is infallible. And if you are like me when you first hear about this concept, you will immediately get trapped in shower arguments for the rest of your life fantasizing about calling the Pope homophobic and arguing for the Catholic church to please stop being so goddamned homophobic all the time.
This is when you learn that papal infallibility is much more fallible than it is made out to be, and this is basically the source of the issue with Strickland, Torres, and any other Bishop that Francyman has decided to give the boot. See, papal infallibility isn't merely a divine play-pretend godmode button, it's a complex and intricate place within theological debate and Vatican hierarchical bureaucratic structure.
Without going into too much of a in-depth explanation, another way to think of papal infallibility is that it's essentially the Holy Roman Catholic version of the President of the United States declaring an executive order that bypasses the Senate. Infallibility is used for similar reasons--it's got a semi-strict set of rules attached to its usage, which means that the Pope is not constantly infallible, but rather that the Pope as God's chosen elect on Earth therefore commands His greatest attention, which allows the Pope direct intercession and communication with God on paths that the Church as a body should walk.
There are usually supposed to be bureaucratic machinations for dethrocking or deposing a bishop, much of which is directly connected to confirming and providing direct evidence for certain crimes that the Holy See would consider too serious to allow him to continue serving in his position. But the Pope is the divinely elected God-Emperor Best Favorite of Oily Josh and his Daddio Self, so generally speaking when it comes to the Pope, there's always the option baked in for him to say "Fuck you I'm the Pope and you're going to do what I say without precedent".
This is the core of the issue for the current Strickland debacle--there might not be hard-and-fast written rules stating that Strickland can be removed from office through traditional means, but Francis doesn't approve of what he's preaching and using his office for since it's causing the minorest of itty-bitty issues with his principled stance of being The Pope That Liberals Might Vaguely Not Hate As Much. So he's functionally exercising a form of papal infallibility by skipping over procedures and etiquette to tell Strickland "Fuck you I'm the Pope and you're going to do what I say without precedent", and Strickland is going "But I thought you would only do that to bishops who belong to brown countries :(", and here we are.
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WHAT YOU NEED S. Geto x fem!reader
"And I'm gon' give you girl, what you fiend, I'm the drug in your veins, just fight through the pain, He's what you want, he's what you want, I'm what you need, what you need, what you need"
⼠In which Geto entertains you when the guy you want doesn't
content: reader is indecisive, geto kinda takes advantage of that??? slightly toxic (look at me stepping out of my fluff comfort zone) slightly suggestive, a little bit of angst
A scream crawls its way up your throat and you throw your phone across the room, no regard for the aftermath of that action. You've been casually flirting with this guy for months and every once in a while he gives you the cold shoulder, ignoring your calls and everything. You know he is because he'll read your messages and not respond.
He called you an "obsessive bitch" the last time this ordeal happened because you had managed to call him 237 times and leave him 400+ texts in the span of a week. He later apologized for calling you that and you forgave him because of your desperation to get with him.
This whole thing has happened four times, and you'll admit those weren't your brightest times. Your friends have told you to stop talking to him because this obsession isn't healthy and if you two did have a real falling out who knows what you'd do.
UnLuckily for you, your favorite distraction was driving around with Gojo and happened to be near your complex. Geto. He of all people has tried to convince you that you don't need this man, and he's proven time and time again that he's the better option (as fucked up as he is) but you won't give up on this guy until he gives you a verbal rejection.
Knock, knock, knock. You know who it is, so you don't bother to open the door. He has a key and depending on how long he's been standing there he might have heard your little tantrum.
After a minute you hear the lock click slowly, giving you a chance to run toward your bedroom and lock the door. You don't want to see him. He's so addictive and bad for you and you deserve a normal man, you suppose. The problem is you're far from normal so of course Geto is the only one who will truly understand you. He's what you need after all.
Those three soft knocks at your door make you tense up slightly as you hide under your covers with your eyes closed imagining what it would be like if you and that normal guy started to date.
"Open up princess. Seems like you're still chasing after that fucking idiot." His voice is like honey and you almost do go open the door for him and invite him into your heart like you always do.
"Go away, Geto. I don't want you here- I don't need you here." Your voice is so small and you hate it. You know for a fact he isn't convinced.
"Geto? What happened to Suguru or Sugu?" He asks softly, you can almost picture it. He's leaning against your door with a smirk on his face.
"I.... I don't. I don't-"
"You don't what? Need me? Who are you trying to fool? Open the door so I can make it all better." His voice lowers a few octaves on that last part and you jump from your bed to open the door. You're greeted by Suguru who's gazing at you lustfully, but you know behind that lust is worry and care.
"There she is, my beautiful little mess. Did you miss me?" He's been out of town for two weeks (you counted the days). Of course the first person he'd visit when coming back was you.
"No. I was doing fine without you." You lie through your teeth. He knows you're lying too. You've never been good at hiding from him.
"I missed you too. I was hoping you'd come to your senses though, and leave that poor man alone. He can't handle you, baby." Suguru holds his arms out for you and you run to them hugging him tightly.
He hears your soft sobs and he knows he's twisted for smiling but he loves it when you cry. "I want him Sugu, I want him so bad." You whine into his chest and he feels your salty tears stain his shirt.
"I know you do, baby, but he doesn't want you. I'm what you need." He reminds you and you cry into his shirt for a good couple of minutes.
When you do come to yourself again, your teary eyes meet his and he smiles at you warmly. You give him a weak smile in return and he has to admit that it made his heart swell a little bit.
"What do you want to do, sweetheart?" He's rubbing your back up and down slowly. The other hand is planted on your ass, giving it a little squeeze.
You keep eye contact with him as you fumble with his belt buckle, "Such a good girl." His look is almost predatory when he sees you drop to your knees.
(one day i'll come back and write smut for this :P)
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You're cuddled up against his bare chest. He's so warm and inviting, you hate it. Well, you only partially hate it. You hate the fact that you don't hate it enough.
"Feeling better?" He already knows the answer but he wants to hear you say it. Suguru always wants a verbal response from you.
"Mhm." That's all he's going to get out of you. You're mad that you sucked him off and fucked him. It hurts to know you'll never be in a normal relationship. You love him and you hate him all the same.
"Will you let me keep taking care of you? I want to put a label on what we have." He sounds so sincere and sweet, but you see right through him. He wants you to be his, so he doesn't have to share you with anyone. As endearing as that sounds it also sounds suffocating.
Suguru is already a very demanded presence in your life. There is fear planted in your brain and you wonder what will happen if you come to like that with time. More than you already do.
"You want to be my boyfriend?" Buying time was crucial, you still needed a minute or two to process this. It's not the first time he's asked you this question. Any other time you would have replied without effort but now you wonder what it would be like to have him in your life as a romantic partner.
"Precisely."
He's watching you like a hawk. The way you bite your lip in thought, the way you don't meet his gaze, the way you shift in his arms, he notices it all.
"Okay, be my boyfriend. Give me what that other guy couldn't." A pleased smile makes its way to his face as he hugs you close.
"Best decision you've ever made." He smirks and you look away. Instead of hate you feel butterflies.
He's yours. You're his. This might be the start of something new and beautiful. But who truly knows?
I wrote this for a little challenge hosted by @halosdiary where you write abt jjk men but base it off a song by the weeknd. I was going to do "shameless" but i read my rough draft and hated it so i switched up and decided to do "what you need"! Hope you guys enjoy this little project!!
#geto suguru#geto#suguru geto#geto x reader#suguru geto x reader#geto suguru x reader#geto x female reader#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk angst#geto angst#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#getou suguru x reader#suguru x reader#getou x reader#geto suguru x you#the weeknd
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Bunny!Ghost anon, you know who you are. I'd like to once again address you because this is your. Fault. I've now discovered this will be a much longer fic than I'd initially anticipated. Because of that, have a little snippet of a scene that's been eating away at my head, but won't come till later in the fic. Just to tide y'all over till I can get you a proper first chapter. đđ
*** Watership Down-Bad, scene ???***
Johnny was sitting at his desk when Simon entered the Sergeants's shared office, his back to the door. He didn't look up when Simon knocked on the doorframe.
"Unless someone's dead or dying, give me a minute." Johnny grumbled without stopping. He was typing like a mad man.
Simon considered his options for a moment. He could make himself known, Johnny would ask what's wrong, they'd talk, distracting Simon from his overactive mind. He could walk away, letting his maybe partner? the Sergeant finish his work.
The poor man looked exhausted though. And disgruntled. Truly, he looked how Simon felt. Fuck it. Simon shifted.
He hopped quietly up to Johnny's desk. Took half a second to evaluate his target and plan his trajectory. Then launched himself.
"Bloody christ!"
Simon landed on the desk, the keyboard went flying. It came unplugged from the monitor as it flew, then crashed into the ground loudly, keys detaching and scattering who knows where about the room. Simon huffed, settled his chin onto his dewlap, and stretched his legs out and behind himself. He closed his eyes, but not before catching a glimpse of a stunned Johnny, arms up from jumping and pushing his chair back from the desk when he'd been startled, mouth agape.
Silence.
"Ghost?" What a stupid question. Who else? Not like he could answer, though.
If anyone were to ever ask, Ghost hated being pet, being touched. Ghost had bitten his fair share of people for getting their grubby hands on his plush fur. But... Simon craved connection. He hadn't realized how desperate he was for affection until it had ben offered, and he'd lashed out, like always. Outside of his warren, he always lashed out. But Soap was a stubborn bastard. Going so far as to continuously reach out towards him, even though he always nipped. So he flopped. And if the self proclaimed 'rabbit expert' didn't see this as the tentative olive branch that it was, well then Ghost was fucked, and Simon would be alone forev-
Simon was suddenly being pulled off the desk. His eyes flew open of their own accord and he made to bite the arms that were intent on restraining him, legs kicking spastically in protest.
"Oh go ahead then ye bastard, ye've bit me before, and ye will again a thousand times." Johnny pulled him off the desk and situated him in his lap. Simon, the large bunny that he was, sprawled with his back legs in soaps lap, near the edge of the desk, and his head resting on Johnny's shoulder. One of Johnny's hands cupped his rump, supporting him, not restraining.
They held their positions for a moment, both waiting for the other to decide this wasn't what they actually wanted. Eventually, ever so slowly he could feel himself aging, Johnny brought a hand up to stroke down Simon's back. Then again. And again. He brought his hand higher, pushing Simon's ears back to his body, and breathed what could've been a slight laugh when they bounced back up.
"Suppose we'll talk later then, aye?" Did he expect a response? Surely not. He wouldn't be getting one anyway. "Hang on," Johnny instructed as he started to shift himself lower in his seat, most likely to be more comfortable. Unfortunately he jostled Simon, who was not pleased. "Don't bite me just because you're a touch uncomf- ach! Ye fucker!" He chuckled as he scolded Simon, who had buried his face in the other man's shirt to bite at his peck.
Simon was now on his side, curled a little, head tucked under Johnny's chin. Being pet. It'd been so long since he'd willingly been pet. It was pleasant.
He lost track of time, only noting its passage when the petting stopped, and he mourned the absence of it. Johnny's hand stilled on his back. His world shook as the human beneath him began to snore. Simon settled in deeper, snuggled closer to the kindness he didn't feel he deserved, and allowed himself to purr. No one would know.
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"The fuck is all this?" Gaz said aloud as he entered his shared office with Soap and found the remains of a keyboard scattered all over the floor. Had the man finally lost it?
Thump.
He looked around. Soap was asleep, head thrown back, drooling and snoring in his desk chair.
"Wha-"
Thump.
Curled up against Soap's chest, evidently kicking the desk, was the biggest fucking rabbit Kyle had ever seen in his life.
"Ghost?"
Thump!
Louder and more incessant this time. Didn't that mean he was angry? He looked pretty pissed. Maybe Gaz didn't actually need to file the report on the rookies breaking each others noses again. He threw up his hands in surrender, and left as quietly as he could.
#ghoap#ghostsoap#soapghost#call of duty#modern warfare#cod mw2#fanfic#simon ghost riley#trans!ghost#rabbit shifter ghost#shifter au#john soap mactavish#ao3#watership down bad au
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I'll be with you
[For @inubaki! Happy birthday!! I hope your day was amazing! â¤ď¸]
This fucking sucks. Adam groaned loudly as he slumped in his seat, face looking tiredly up at the red ceiling. Red. Before he didnât care much for the colour, but now, with red painted everywhere he went as if he wore red tinted sunglasses all the time, he had come to hate the colour with a passion. Charlie went around the group, letting them choose which journal they wanted. The princess had talked everyoneâs ear off with her lengthy speech about gratitude and taking things for granted, except Vaggie because of course she always supported any of Charlieâs exercises no matter good or bad of an idea it was.Â
Unfortunately for Adam, he was the second last person in the group circle, with Alastor just after him. When Charlie finally got to him, he only had two options: one had âLive. Love. Laughâ written on it in cursive with rainbows in the background, and the other was a plain beige journal with âMy Lifeâ written on it. Adam quickly chose the beige journal, better the boring one instead of sparkly rainbows. In his peripheral vision, he noticed Alastorâs smile twitch a little when Charlie handed him the remaining journal.Â
âOh, thank you dear,â Alastor said as he slipped the journal into the shadows, most likely never to be seen again.Â
âNo problem at all!,â Charlie beamed.
Honestly, Adam wasn't sure how she managed to stay so bright and cheerful in such a miserable shithole of a place that was Hell, but props to her, he supposed, but that didnât mean he was going down the same delusion. Adam looked down at the journal in his hand. Three things he was grateful for everyday, huh?Â
It has been almost two months since Adam died in the failed Extermination, revived as a sinner, and was now a resident at the very same hotel he tried to destroy trying to redeem himself back to Heaven. Well, âtryingâ would be an exaggeration, more like forced to stay at the Hotel by Sera and Lucifer. Sera just wanted him back as an angel in Heaven to stop the others from wondering where the first man disappeared to; really, she just wanted to keep the âmessâ he made under the rug. And Lucifer, well, he just wanted to keep his precious princess happy. If Adam could be redeemed back to Heaven, then maybe Charlie could even get Heavenâs support for her hotel since Sir Pentiousâ redemption apparently only made them decide to at least leave the hotel and its residents alone. No news about the possibility of future exterminations yet though.Â
In reality, Adam wasnât even sure if he wanted to get redeemed. Donât get him wrong, he hated being in Hell, the place was absolutely vile and disgusting in ways he never thought was even possible. But he was kind of glad to have some of the weight be lifted off his shoulders. He would have preferred to have all of the weight be lifted off him when he thought he finally, truly died at the battlefield, but it seemed that God had other plans for him. He already lived long lives in both Earth and Heaven, as a human and as an angel, but now he also had to live a life in Hell as a sinner. It was wearing him out. He just wanted to be relieved of any duties; he just wanted to finally be done with everything. Being in Hell, he was constantly reminded of his failure in the garden of Eden, how he also bit the apple despite knowing he shouldnât just so he could selfishly remain with Eve. Sinners themselves were proof of the filth he knowingly allowed into the world, and as much as he hated killing his own descendants, the Exterminations were truly the only way he could clean up his mess. Or at least that was what he believed; when news of Sir Pentious being redeemed reached the hotel, Adam thought he was going to die a third time. This entire time he spilled the blood of his children, thinking that that was the only way for him to make up for his mistakes as well as, in a twisted way, saving them from an eternal life in Hell, it was all for naught. Redemption was possible. Some of those souls didnât need to be erasedâŚ
Adam flipped the journal open. He had so many regrets in his eternally long life that all good things seem to simply fade into the background. Well, almost all the good things. He still wasnât sure how it came to be, but somehow, he managed to earn Michaelâs love that even led to a promise of eternal devotion. Yes, the archangel Michael, Luciferâs very own brother. It was certainly an odd twist of fate, but his union with the archangel was something Adam would never ever regret no matter how many lives he would end up living. Michael was the only reason Adam was even sort of trying this redemption thing, otherwise he would simply tell Sera to fuck off and leave him to suffer in Hell. Despite the strong urge of giving up, Adam wanted to at least see Michael one more time. He knew he didnât deserve it, especially with their stark differences in, well, everything important, but he couldnât help it. He was just a human needing to be with the love of his life.
Yeah, he was grateful for Michaelâs love even though he didnât deserve it. He could write that in the journal. He would write that everyday.
Just as the group was about to get up from their seats and off to whatever they wanted to do for the day, a loud and purposeful knock on the hotel door sounded throughout the lobby. Charlie perked up from where she stood, somehow managing to look even happier as she excitedly made her way to the door. Everyone was currently present at the lobby for her activity, even her father, that knock could only mean one thingâŚ
Charlie pulled the door open, beaming brightly as she greeted her new guest, âWelcome to the Happy Ho..telâŚâÂ
The words quickly died in her throat as her jaw simply dropped at the sight before her. What was such a being doing in Hell, especially at her hotel?! In front of Charlie was the most divine angel she had ever seen, with such celestial presence exuding off of him as if the very Heavens had gone down to visit Hell.
The angel gave Charlie a small smile as he stepped closer towards the now open door. âHello young lady, sorry but Iâm looking for Adam, the first man. I heard he was staying here?â
âOh, uh, y-yes,â stammered Charlie, still stunned at the presence before her, as she took a step to the side, letting the angel into the hotel. âJust this way.â
âThank you,â the angel thanked with a quick nod of his head before entering the hotel with quick, determined strides. He stopped by the lobby, looking around briefly until his eyes landed on a group of people gathered in a circle, and then zoning in on a specific sinner, looking different and yet all too familiar. The large black horns, blackened gold wings, floppy brown ears, and the long fluffy brown tail, swinging back and forth in impatience, did nothing to obscure the fact who the supposed sinner was.Â
Before Lucifer could even react to the sudden guestâs presence, the angel already made his way towards the group, angelic presence heavy and almost burning, stopping just beside Adam and looking extremely displeased.
âAdam.âÂ
âWuh?â Adam turned and swore he nearly died a third time as shock ran through his heart at the sight of the person in front of him. There, he sat dumbly on the carpeted floor, looking up at the new guest, both happy and confused. âMichael? What are you doing here?â
âI could ask you the same.â Michael stood over Adam, arms crossed and a rare scowl painted over his normally gentle face. âI didnât think your annual âday tripâ with your exorcists included you dying, becoming a sinner, and staying in a redemptive hotel for almost two months.â
âUmâŚ,â was all that Adam could say, still completely baffled at his husbandâs presence here. At the hotel. In Hell. How did he find out in the first place anyway? Adam could do nothing but look down, unable to meet Michaelâs eyes anymore as guilt resurfaced only to drag him back down. He had already accepted it long ago that the archangel was too good for him, but now, after having everything vile and revolting about him exposed, he felt he didnât even deserve to be in his presence.Â
â...Iâm sorryâŚ,â he said, quiet and apologetic, his torn heart visible for Michael to see.
âAaawkward!!,â yelled Angel out from across them, followed by a pained yelp and a hiss when Vaggie smacked the back of his head to quickly shut him up.Â
Michael closed his eyes and took a deep breath, letting the air settle in his lungs for a moment before releasing them back out. A much softer look replaced his stern gaze once he opened his eyes again as he leaned down and offered a hand to Adam. âWeâll get through this, okay? Together this time.â
His angel really did come for him. Starting from the garden, throughout his hardships on Earth, his afterlife in Heaven, and even when he had fallen to Hell, Michael remained Adamâs guardian angel, steadfast in his devotion and, for some reason Adam couldnât fathom, desired to forever remain by his side. It was a bit much really, for someone like him, especially now that he was nothing but a lowly sinner. So instead, Adam kept his eyes glued to the red carpet he was sat on, opting to pick himself up instead as he always had and always should. Just as he was about to push himself off the floor, Michael crouched down instead, going down to his level, and cupped his face with the softest hand Adam had ever felt. Michaelâs blue eyes looked straight into him, not piercing but gently knocking, asking with all the tenderness of the world.Â
âCome on, letâs get you back up, okay?â
Adam felt his heart creak at those words, and yet he couldnât help the relief that washed over him as a small smile crept on his lips. It seemed that his angel was adamant about staying by his side; Michael was just weird like that, he supposed, to be so attached to him. In the end, Adam ended up timidly accepting the hand offered to him, whether he deserved it or not.Â
âUm, soooâŚ,â Lucifer coughed into his fist, looking awkwardly around the lobby. â...long time no see, huh? MichaelâŚâ
âWait,â Charlie cut in as she finally stepped into the lobby after letting the scene earlier pass by first. âMichael, as in THE archangel Michael? Angel of justice and warrior of God Michael?â
Now that he was a bit calmer, Michael finally let the awkward and strange situation he forced himself into fully sink in. And, oh, how out of place was he. âThatâs me,â he replied.Â
âOoh, a bigshot from Heaven. I wonder how big you really are~â Angel pondered aloud for everyone to hear, earning him another smack to the head from Vaggie. âOw! I was just asking!â
âOr, I donât know, he could just be my brother?â Lucifer rolled his eyes.Â
The sparkle in Charlieâs eyes brightened up even more, rivalling even that of Heavenâs image in the sky. âOh my gosh!!,â she squealed as she bounced on her heels. âI canât believe this! Uhh, oh gosh we were not prepared for your visit, uhm.âÂ
Within a span of a few seconds Charlie went from eagerly shaking Michaelâs hand to fussing and worrying about the state of the hotel.
âThe hotelâs fine my dear. Spotless even!â Alastor said, the smile on his face as wide as ever, though the look in his eyes told otherwise. The presence of another angelic being from Heaven was certainly unwelcome to him. That, and he wasnât going to accept any critiques on the hotel he had worked so hard to upkeep, especially not from some spoilt angel! âThereâs no need to worry so much.â
For once Lucifer found himself agreeing with Alastor, even nodding slightly along with him.Â
âI think so too, duckling,â tried to tell her, trying to ease her unnecessary worries away. Really, what was the fuss? Just because his brother was here. âBesides,â he turned his attention back to Michael, his gaze a little more serious. âHeâs an unannounced guest.â
âOh, Iâm planning to stay in Hell, at the hotel, if you would have me,â Michael announced to a shocked still crowd. Even Adam, who was standing by his side, had his mouth agape, eyes wide in shock and face pale at what Michael had just casually revealed.Â
âWHAT?!,â exclaimed everyone in the room except for Michael, who easily stood there so sure of his decision.Â
âI wish to have Adam back in Heaven, and so Iâm staying to ensure that,â he explained, turning his gaze back to Adam, a small smile on his face, though Adam could immediately tell that even though there was still love in it, the tenderness plastered on that smile hid a blazing holy flame. âWeâll have to carefully plan your progress, right Adam?,â he asked, smile brightening up even more, Adam could almost feel the blaze from where he stood.Â
âR-rightâŚ,â Adam reluctantly agreed, afraid of the talk they would definitely be having later. Michael hadnât been mad at him for years; the archangel held a lot of restraint when it came to most things, and it often took a lot for him to even become irritated. But for him to be upset and mad? That was when Adam knew he truly fucked up. Michael was going to untangle him, and he wasnât sure if he could ever be ready for that; more than a millenniaâs worth of tangled fibres of his being was not going to be easy to unravel and sort out, nor would the effort be worth it, if he had a choice in the matter.Â
âYou canât justâ,â Lucifer tried to interject but was soon cut off by Charlieâs excited squeal.
âOf course you can stay!â
âCharlie, sweetieââ
âThen you have my thanks,â Michael said with a small bow. âIâll make sure to put in a good word about your hotel to Heaven.â
âWaitââ
Charlie gasped, exhilaration flowing in her veins. Support from someone like Michael might just be what she needed for her hotel to be taken more seriously by Heaven. Just the thought of her hotel being official in Heavenâs eyes and her dream finally becoming true sent an electric joy through every fibre of her being, leaking out into the world outside her in the form of bright happy sparkles.Â
âThat would mean so much to me..!,â she sniffled, tears now pricking her eyes like sparkling jewels from sheer joy.
And just like that, it was decided that Michael could stay at the Hazbin Hotel.
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synopsis: Your normally grumpy roommate feels bad about drinking your last canned beverage and makes it up to you
wc: 1.8k
tw: none, just fluff
Homework. Your least favourite thing about college. The sheets of paper littered your bed as you poured over your work. The sun was far gone and you had officially run out of caffeinated drinks. You took this as a sign to go collect more refreshments before continuing your studies.Â
Pushing your selection of pens and pencils to the side you hop off your bed and make it over to the door of your room. Posters half fall off of the aged wooden panels, matching the walls of the rest of your room. Opening the door you are greeted by the sight of your normally grumpy roommate, Anakin. He was majoring in something like engineering, you couldn't really remember.Â
He doesn't even acknowledge your presence, either focusing on what he is typing or straight up ignoring you. You wouldn't be surprised if it was the second option. You had been living together for 6 months and he still hadn't warmed up. You had tried to befriend him but he wasn't interested, opting to shut himself in his room and play his music way too loud. The walls were thin and you heard everything. âMaybe he was just bad at talking to new peopleâ is what you told yourself, but it had been half a year by this point.
You make your way over to the tiny kitchen, bee-lining over to the fridge that couldn't keep cold for too long. Upon opening it, you are greeted with well, nothing. Great. You knew that you had stocked up before your upcoming exam only days ago. You should have had enough to last you at least a week. There was only one answer; Anakin. He must have taken some of them for himself.Â
Turning on your heel, you face him with a look of disapproval on your face. He doesn't notice you or doesn't care enough to stop what he is doing. You cough loudly which gets his attention finally. âYes?â He monotones.
âDid you have the last of my drinks?â You try to keep your composure but the stress of your upcoming exams makes your voice crack. You know it's silly to get emotional over energy drinks but it is all too much. You turn on your heel so he doesn't see and return to your room, slamming the door. Way to make an exit.
You stand in the middle of your room trying to gather yourself but you end up just crawling into bed, under your stationary and half done papers. Maybe sleep will fix it. It was late after all and you haven't gotten more than a few hours of shut-eye in the past few days. Closing your eyes you fall asleep almost instantly. Dreamless slumber takes you into its grasp.
Waking up in the morning never felt so hard until now. Blinking the sleep out of your eyes you turn to the side, making the remaining pens tumble to the ground. You almost shoot out of bed after your eyes find your alarm clock. 11am. Oh no. You are late, really late. And you have a test in 40 minutes. One you were supposed to study for as you didn't understand the content as well. Scrambling out of bed you notice you are still fully dressed, you must have forgotten to take off your clothes when you fell into bed. Grabbing the door and swinging it open at full force you notice a piece of paper on the tiny coffee table.Â
The handwriting is scrawny but you can still understand what it reads; âsaid you were sick, don't go to class. Check emailsâ. You do as it says and sure enough you have received an email about rescheduling your test from today. You silently thank whatever force is behind this. You notice there is more writing at the bottom of the page in smaller print; âcheck fridge - A.S.âÂ
You walk over to the fridge, paper still in hand. Opening the door you are met with a sight made in collage student heaven. 12 e energy drinks sit there waiting for you. He had even gone as far to select different flavours, all of which were your favorites. He must be more observant than you realised.Â
You spent the rest of the day in the deserted dorm finishing your homework and getting started on a project that wasn't due for a while. You knew classes were out when you heard the tell-tail sound of cars and feet in the hallway. Friday nights signalled parties for many students, giving them a break from the stress of lectures and too much work. Normally your nights were spent protecting your peace and watching reruns of sitcoms on your laptop.
You hear the click of a lock from the front door before the shuffling of feet towards his room. A knock on your bedroom door brings you out of your trace, and you let out a âcome in!â Anakin's head peeks around the door, âsorry for having the last of your cansâ he breathes out. âDonât worry, I was just stressed and overreacting. But thank you. I appreciate the gesture as well as you bailing me out of class today.â This was probably the longest you had ever spoken to him and he was surprisingly pleasant. Maybe there was a nice guy under his normally cold personality. And to think all it took was some caffeine.Â
âWhat are you watching?â He questions, now fully opening the door. âUm, just some bad sitcom. It's nothing really.â You are confused at his sudden niceness. âCan I watch with you?â He questions what has happened to the Anakin you knew 24 hours ago. He must have caught onto your questions as he speaks; âlook, I realised that I haven't been the best roommate and I kinda shut down all your attempts to be friends. And I was thinking maybe we could start over?â he directs his eyesight away from you. âoh sure, yeah, I would like thatâ you reply and nod to the space next to you on the bed. He steps into your room for probably the first time and you can see him take in the posters and assorted belongings everywhere. Making his way to your bed, he plonks down beside you and you resume play.Â
It had been two months since the energy drink incident and it was safe to say you and Anakin were now friends. It made your life a lot easier now that you and your roommate got along. Every Friday night you would alternate picking a film to watch in either of your rooms and you begin to look forward to these small moments with him. You even caught yourself counting down the minutes until he arrived after his classes, which finished later than yours did. It was silly how you had begun to develop what could only be described as a crush on the mechanical engineering major (you had finally picked up what he was studying).Â
Pushing open the door to your room, you make your way to the kitchenette. You are about to grab out a frozen pizza to cook for dinner when the front door unlocks and Anakin comes in holding a bag. He shuts the door with his back, kicking off his shoes in the process. âNope, not tonightâ you look at him questionably. âTonight we dine Like royaltyâ setting the bag down he pulls out a selection of ingredients.Â
20 minutes later Anakin is telling you to sit down before producing 2 plates of actual, non-frozen food. Who knew the guy could also cook. He passes one of the plates to you before he sits down to your side. âI didn't know you could coolâ you state, âI don't really either, I had to follow a recipeâ he replies, âbut it smells goodâ. You both dig into the warm food, a change to your unpredictable diet of late.Â
After a few long minutes of silent eating Anakin looks up at you ânot bad if I do say so myself.â You laugh âthis is really good, you should cook more often.â âMaybeâ he replies before finishing off his food. You also finish your plate and you both stand up to wash the few dishes created. After a lot of stumbling around the tiny kitchen to put the plates back in their original place, you both collapse onto the old couch.Â
âThat was nice,â he says, turning his head to face you. âYeahâ you agree. The almost set sun makes the room dim and you really should go finish your studying. You nod towards your room and get up, âwell the papers call me againâ you joke and he rolls his eyes. You almost make it to your door before he calls your name and throws you a can of your favorite drink, which you almost drop. You save your hand in thanks before heading inside. Something about the drink in your hand feels off, it's lighter than usual.Â
Settling down on your bed you take the can in your hands and open it. There is no drink inside. On closer inspection you notice that the bottom has been cut out of it and put back. As well as this there is a roll of paper in it. Fishing it out with your fingers, you unfold it. âkitchen counterâ is all it reads. You get up again and open the door, seeing another can on the counter. Anakin isn't here either, spiking your confusion. You pick it up seeing that it is empty as well, apart from another piece of paper. âcome to the roofâ it reads.Â
Curiosity peaking, you throw on a sweater and your shoes before heading out to the roof. After climbing the multiple flights of stairs you reach the door to the roof. You push it open with your side and step out on concrete. The sun is casting its last light over the tops of the buildings, silhouetting Anakin as he stands.Â
You step towards him and he smiles at you before he speaks. âhiâ you reply with another âhi.â he reaches up behind his head nervously, a side to Anakin you hadn't seen before. He seems to think for a moment before speaking, âI know this is stupid, but I think I like you and I'm not sure what to do.â You stand there stunned at his confession, before he corrects himself, âI know I like you, more than I should. And I know I shouldn't because I was an asshole to you for 6 months.âÂ
You don't know what to say. He likes you. The guy you like is standing here saying he likes you. You make up your mind before stepping closer to him. âI like you too, Anakin.â He looks surprised, clearly expecting a completely different reaction. You reach him and take his hand in yours, âlike I really like youâ you laugh nervously.Â
âCan I kiss you?â He asks and you nod in reply. He leans down and places a gentle kiss to your lips before you wrap your hands around his neck. âIt really is something out of the movies,â you think to yourself and smile. He places his forehead against yours and you and Anakin both burst out laughing. âThank God for your caffeine addiction.â
I wrote this at an ungodly hour and i'm not sure it makes sense, no beta reader - we die like real men
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Sometimes it feels like im a goddamn ai trying to act like a human
Like if im talking with my friend I'm usually following a script based on how others interact. It's usually goes like: greet them, ask an insignificant question to start a conversation, make a funny joke, let them talk while you nod
And I dunno I don't think it's supposed to work like that?? Kinda feels like I'm the only one who doesn't know the rules
Sometimes someone tells me something that clearly means a lot to them but I just can't figure out in what way?? As in is that a bad or good thing and if its bad then is it bad in a sad way or an angry way? How do I respond? If I go with the neutral option then it'll feel like I'm not listening to them which isn't true :( idk life is hard
Also a lot of times when someone is talking to me I tend to not look at them and play with my phone or doodle or whatever and I have to constantly remind myself that I should stop because it looks like I'm not listening to them, but when I try too keep eye contact I just stop listening :((((
Idk if any of that made any sense sorry
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Your writing is so genuine! And so brilliant. And I love that youâve taken up writing for Kate! I hope youâll do more! Perhaps like the fake marriage thing, but the reader asks Kate in a rush to be her fake girlfriend at this reunion sheâs going to, and like the fake marriage fic, sheâs kind of desperate? Because her old classmates thought sheâd be nothing?
Thank you! I hope you like this one too!
âShit.â
âProblem?â
You looked up from your phone, the email on the screen glaring up at you like an omen you hadnât prepared for. With a look of concern, Kate was looking at you over the top of her computer. Youâd paused on your way out when the notification had come up on your phone, juggling with your bag to not drop the phone. Now, you were frozen, looking at her, not wanting to admit to your boss what a loser you were.
âKind of,â you said, ânot really. Itâs fine.â
âYou donât sound very sure about that,â she said.
âMy school reunion is tonight and I forgot. Iâve been so focused on that project with the lasers that it slipped my mind,â you said, hoping that would end there.
âDo you have time to get there?â she asked.
âI do. Unless you need me to stay late,â you said, seeing a perfectly acceptable way to get out of it.
âNo, no, you go have fun.â
She must have seen something in your face because she stood, approaching you with a raised eyebrow. Youâd spent enough time with her over the years to know she was seeing more than you wanted her to. Sometimes being friends with your boss had its downsides.
âUnless you donât want to go,â she said.
âItâs not that,â you said, âitâs just always a bit awkward to go to these things alone. And I canât talk about my job because.â You gestured at the whole building as the concept of confidentiality, âso itâs not exactly conducive to these sorts of things.â
âBut you want to go?â she asked.
You didnât want to outright lie to her. Which might explain why the most insane thing came out of your mouth next.
âI donât suppose you want to come with me, do you? Just pretend to be my girlfriend for the night?â
You immediately felt your skin heat and you shook your head. Embarrassment was a heavy drug and you felt the need to just turn around and walk away rather than deal with the consequences of your request. Running away was always an option.Â
âNever mind, thatâs stupid. Ignore me,â you said, immediately trying to move past the moment.Â
âIâm confused why you want me to go with you,â she said, âunless itâs just the fact Iâm the only one here.â
You squeezed your eyes closed, not wanting to face her. Your heart was fluttering in your chest and your stomach was roiling with panic. It had all gone wrong so quickly, and you hadnât even shown up to the reunion yet.Â
âBecause if I could pull a woman like you then I would have proved them all wrong,â you answered.Â
You hadnât wanted to tell her exactly how the other students had thought of you in school. The absolute derision youâd faced on a daily basis. The way the opinion of your classmates had sunk into you until youâd begun to believe it.Â
âWrong about what?â she asked.
âLetâs just say that the other students didnât think much of me,â you replied, not willing to go into all the nuances of your time at school.
She considered you a moment, those dark eyes sweeping over your body before settling on your face once again. You shivered, not wanting to admit what it did to your already turbulent heart.Â
âAlright then, but weâll have to stop by the wardrobe department on the way out,â she said.
âWhat?â You couldnât quite let yourself believe what she was saying.
âIâll go with you but I think we could both use an outfit change. No one will be impressed by either of us dressed like this,â she said.Â
You trailed her into the lift, still not quite able to believe what was happening. Kate was going as your date to your school reunion. The woman you had spent too much time fantasising about to be professional was going to pretend to be your girlfriend for the night just to get back at your classmates for being mean to you when you were a teenager.Â
Pushing into the wardrobe department, set up after one too many undercover operations had ended in disaster due to bad shoes, Kate turned to look over you again. She strode off, expecting you to follow. You did, unable to do anything else.
She handed you a dress from a rack, eyes sweeping over you again. You took it, unsure what you should do.Â
âGo on,â she prompted, hands gently nudging you towards one of the changing rooms at the back of the room.Â
You did, slipping the silk over your body. Staring in the mirror, your eyes travelled over your body. The dress clung to your curves, highlighting you in a way you were unused to. Just the feeling of the material against your skin felt decadent, more expensive than your usual clothes.Â
âAre you dressed?â she asked.
âIâm not sure about this,â you called to her.Â
âJust let me look at you,â she said.
You stepped out of the tiny room, staring at your bare feet. You couldnât meet her eyes, not needing to see the censure in her gaze.Â
âI donât know what you were talking about. Itâs beautiful on you.â
You looked up, finding her focused solely on you. Your cheeks heated as you shifted your weight from foot to foot. Abruptly, she nodded, passing over a pair of heels to you.Â
âYouâll do very nicely,â she said.
âArenât you-âÂ
Your words cut off as you looked at her properly. Gone were the navy slacks and the military inspired blazer. In their place was black trousers, black jacket, a white button up that was unbuttoned daringly low. Cleary youâd spent more time staring in the mirror in disbelief than youâd thought. And clearly she was trying to kill you.Â
âCome on, you can return the clothes on Monday,â she said.
She grasped you around the elbow, offering you stability as you balanced while putting on the heels. Your hand grasped her shoulder, her warmth seeping through the layers of her clothes. If you didnât look at her, she couldnât turn your brain to mush. But then her hand came up, unclipping your hair until it fell around your face.Â
âMuch better,â she said.
She was so close to you, those brown eyes softening as they traced over your features. Your breath left your chest and you were frozen under that gaze. Her fingertips brushed over the apple of your cheek before she stepped away.Â
âYou look lovely. Now shall we get out of here?âÂ
âOkay,â you said, trying to ignore the swoop in your stomach.Â
Her hand on your lower back led you away, to her car, opening the door for you like a proper gentleman. You slid into the dark interior, doing your best to settle your heart. It had been a stupid idea to ask her to do this for you, a moment of desperation asking for a fantasy youâd never allowed yourself to voice.Â
Tonight was going to destroy you in one way or another.Â
Sitting in the darkened cab of her car, the air felt too close, the walls pressing in. You were trying not to look at her, staring out the window, but you were so aware of her. In your peripheral vision, you could see her toss her blonde hair out of her eyes, not wanting to stare at her. It would be so easy when she looked that good.Â
She parked the car before you had the chance to come to terms with the situation youâd found yourself in. You stared out the windshield. The silence stretched.Â
âWe could always turn around and get dinner somewhere instead,â she said.
âWhat?â You turned to look at her.
âYou donât have to go in there,â she said, ânothing is stopping you from leaving now.â
âItâs not that simple,â you said.
âWhy not?â she asked.
âBecause,â you said, knowing you had to say it so she could understand, even if you hadnât ever wanted her to know this about you, âI need to prove them wrong.â
Her hand reached out, resting against yours clasped in your lap, fingers twisting together almost painfully. You let them relax under her touch, trying not to do any damage before youâd even got started.Â
âI know I shouldnât care about what a bunch of pricks said when we were teenagers but I canât let it go. They made my life hell and I want to show them they were all wrong. That Iâm something now. That my life is worth something,â you said, your words spilling out your shame into the silence for her to consume.Â
âOf course your life is worth something. Anyone who made you feel otherwise is so very wrong,â she said, sounding fierce enough to have you flushing.
âYou have to say that. Youâre my fake girlfriend,â you said.
She smiled at your weak joke, her pity unwelcome when you were trying to lighten the mood. Her hand squeezed yours, leaving you feeling like you should have kept your mouth shut.Â
âJust forget I said anything,â you said, tugging your hands out from under hers.Â
âNo. Hang on.â Her fingers curled around your arm, keeping you from pulling completely away, âwhat just happened here?âÂ
âNothing. Sorry. Iâm all over the place tonight,â you said.
She considered you for a moment. You couldnât look her in the eye, just needing the night to be over. Then you could slink away and curl up in bed and wallow until your self pity turned you into a disgusting heap of viscera.Â
âCome on, letâs go show everyone what an amazing person youâve grown up to be,â she said.
You slid out of the car, the cool night air enveloping you. Her palm slid along yours, fingers tangling with yours as she fell into step beside you. It was so warm and steady, and yet just that touch was making your knees feel like jelly.Â
You had to get a grip on yourself.Â
The hall was lit like a dimly lit wine bar, the kind of trendy place youâd never found yourself in. Although, you could easily imagine Kate there, sharing a drink with someone, leaning into them in the intimate atmosphere. You stopped imagining that scenario pretty quickly.Â
âWine?â she asked.
âWhat?â There was no way she could read your mind, was there?
âThere appears to be an open bar,â she said, âred?â
âWell, if thereâs an open bar, I might have something a bit stronger,â you said.Â
You ignored the people around you, making a beeline for the bar, your hand still firmly in Kateâs. You passed Kate a glass of wine, fingers brushing together. Without thinking about it, you took a drink from your double whiskey, the burn of alcohol going through you.Â
âRight, is there anyone you were hoping to talk to?â she asked, turning to look at the room.
Youâd mostly ignored everyone in the room as youâd hightailed it to the bar. Turning now, you wished you still could. Just the thought of approaching someone made you want to throw up.Â
âLetâs do a lap,â you said.
Her fingers tightened around yours, surprisingly making your heart calm a little. You looked up at her, finding her eyes so kind when they gazed down at you. You found yourself leaning into her, her warmth giving you comfort as you took a turn about the room.Â
âAre you okay?â she asked.
âIâll let you know once I have an answer,â you replied.
Her smile was soft and for the first time you didnât feel silly for your anxiety. You let out a long breath, turning back to look at the faces around the room. They were familiar, if different. Time had changed everyone, and yet it was like being a teenager again, going to assembly, surrounded by your peers.Â
âNo way.â
You cringed at the voice, loud and jarring in the space. Turning, you almost flinched back at the blonde woman looking at you, a grin on her face. Perfectly curled hair, makeup that had definitely been applied by a knowledgeable hand, clothes that cost more than your entire wardrobe put together, you knew exactly who was looking at you.Â
Elizabeth Hartmore had made your life a living hell.Â
Your name sounded venomous on her tongue, the delight she took activating your flight or fight response. Kateâs hand squeezed yours but you had no words for her. You regretted ever coming.
âDiane and I had a bet going about whether youâd show up. She thought youâd never show your face here but I know you better than that,â she said, those knowing eyes practically seeing inside your soul, finding every weakness you had, âlooking for a handout? Or are you hoping to use one of us to give you a leg up after failing on your own?âÂ
âI havenât,â you tried to say before the words died on your lips. So much for proving them wrong. You couldnât even get a sentence out.
âWhat was that?â Diane asked.
âSheâs hardly a failure,â Kate said, helping where you couldnât, âif anything, sheâs rather successful.â
âAnd you are?â Elizabeth asked.
âKate Stewart, Commander in Chief of the Unified Intelligence Taskforce,â she replied, âand the very lucky woman who gets to call this one mine.âÂ
She untangled her fingers from yours, holding her hand out to Elizabeth to shake. She did so, her eyes sweeping over Kate, presumably taking in her entire being, the easy confidence which she inhabited her own skin. Kate slipped an arm around your waist rather than return to holding your hand, warm and heavy and so present. Her hand rested on the swell of your hip, almost proprietary. Your heart tripped over itself. Having her so close was doing all kinds of funny things to you.Â
This had been such a bad idea.
âIâve never heard of the Unified Intelligence Taskforce,â Elizabeth said.
âNo, I donât suppose you would have,â she replied.
You had to bite down on your lower lip to keep from smiling. The absolute disdain Kate had managed to infuse in those seven words was a thing of beauty. Her arm tightened around you until you were nestled against her.Â
âI hope you know sheâs just trying to ride your coattails,â Elizabeth said when she had no other comeback.Â
âShe stands rather well on her own two feet,â Kate said, still so calm.
Her lips brushed your temple and you startled, not having expected it. Her chuckle was warm, fond, familiar from late nights and shared car rides.Â
âDonât you, darling?â she asked, looking down at you, warm brown eyes sparkling as her lips pulled up into a smile.
âI do alright,â you replied, finding yourself breathless.
âTheyâd be lost without you,â she said and you knew she was putting how she felt as your boss into words. Your cheeks heated, the praise doing something funny to your stomach. Her lips tipped up into a smirk and you cursed her for being too good at this.
âKate,â you said, not really sure where you were going with it.
âIâd be lost without you,â she said, her voice low enough to make the conversation feel intimate. It was like sheâd forgotten the other two were even listening, but surely she couldnât have. The whole point of her being there was to prove them wrong about you. It had to be fake.Â
But the way she was looking at you felt all too real.
âWhat do you even do?â Elizabeth asked, breaking the moment.Â
âIâm a scientist,â you said, barely thinking of the words, still caught in the way Kate was looking at you. Like you were something precious. Something to be coveted, âa physicist.âÂ
She scoffed.Â
âA rather bloody good one, too,â Kate said.
Your lips curled up into a smile. Her hand squeezed your hip and a shiver went through your body. You watched as her gaze dipped down to your smile, lingering longer than was necessary before making its way back up to your eyes. Your breath caught and you felt her go still, her body pressed against yours from how tight her arm was around you.Â
In that moment it stopped mattering if she was pretending to be your girlfriend. It stopped mattering that this was all meant to be making a point. It stopped mattering what those girls thought about you.
You knew who you were and those girls didnât matter to you at all. But Kate did. Kate mattered a whole lot.
âCome on,â you said, âletâs go.â
She quirked an eyebrow at you, but didnât argue. You placed your glass down on the closest surface after draining it, sliding your hand back into hers, and leading her back out the door youâd come in. Twenty minutes in there had been enough. You had your answers, and they were that it didnât matter anymore. You were happy, and you loved your life, and it didnât matter what a couple of sad women thought about you.Â
Besides, Kate thought highly enough of you for all the rest of them not to matter.
âThat was rather quick,â she said as you stepped out into the cool night air.
âHow about that dinner now?â you asked.
She stopped, forcing you to follow suit lest your hand pull out of hers. The warmth of it was the only thing tethering you right now and you liked the feel of it in yours. The way she was looking at you was full of confusion.
âWhat has gotten into you?â she asked.
âYou were right. I donât have to be in there and defend my existence to those people. They donât matter to me, so why should their opinions? Iâd rather go have dinner with a beautiful woman who likes my company and cares about me enough to go through this charade,â you answered.Â
âYou think Iâm beautiful?â In the dark, you couldnât be sure but you thought you saw a flush on her cheeks.
âOf course,â you said, âyouâre one of the most beautiful people I know.â
Sometimes stating the truth was more simple than avoiding it. And in that moment you felt fearless. Your earlier epiphany was still buzzing in your veins and you felt invincible.Â
âThatâs rather flattering,â she said.
âSome facts are fundamental truths of the universe. Thatâs one of them,â you said.
âBloody hell,â she laughed, âwhat are you doing to me?âÂ
âSorry, I thought I was being clear. Iâm asking you on a date,â you said, âfor tonight, somewhere nicer than my school reunion.â
She blinked, as if youâd said something completely out of turn. You tugged her closer, your hand still connected to hers. She went easily, approaching you even as she seemed to not understand what you were saying.
âKate, I think youâre wonderful. If you donât want to go on a date with me, thatâs fine. But cards on the table, I like you. Quite a lot in fact. And maybe Iâm ruining our friendship, but all night Iâve been going out of mind because it turns out I quite like being your fake girlfriend,â you said.
âYou do?â she asked, voice faint as if you were overwhelming her with information.
âI like you touching me. I like people thinking Iâm yours. I want to be yours,â you said.
âOh fuck it.â
With her hand in yours she pulled you to her. Her free hand curled around the back of your neck and then she was kissing you with a desperation that had you breathless. You melted against her, submitting. Her teeth nipped at your lower lip, tongue soothing over it before you opened to her, tasting wine and something that was specific to her. You moaned, your hand sliding around her waist, pressing closer. Her fingers tangled in the hair at the nape of your neck, tugging until you were nothing but a puddle of desire.Â
Someone in the distance wolf whistled and you were sharply reminded that you were in the parking lot of your old high school, snogging like a teenager with your boss. You drew away, not far from her, still sharing air as you tried to catch your breath. Her eyes were molten, gazing on you, the flush obvious on her cheeks from so close.
Sheâd managed to kiss the words away from you. Your teeth sunk into your lower lip, uncertainty filling your chest as the silence dragged on. Her eyes slipped down, focusing on your mouth, eyes darkening as the moment stretched.Â
âKate?â you whispered.
âYes, darling?â she asked, voice deep, almost raspy.
âIs that a yes to dinner?â you asked.
âItâs a yes to all of it,â she said, âitâs a yes to you.â
Your lips brushed hers in another kiss, softer, sweeter, lingering when you knew she wasnât going to push you away any second. Her warm hand cupped your cheek, holding you close, gentle with you. You let out a long breath once you pulled back, almost a sigh, eyes fluttering open.
âIâm yours,â you whispered.
âThen shall we get out of here?â she asked.
âPlease,â you said.
And take you out of there, she did.Â
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