#stimili

[futurefind]

//no mood quite like 'i want to Watch ThingsTM' but also 'i want to sit n vegetate w as minimal stimuli as my antsy brain can handle so my few hours off work can Feel longer' :'D

[sana6085]

Swallowtail Butterfly

When I was watching the movie, I wondered why Fei Hong was bull-headed while being tortured by the police. If he would rather be violated, why not just make a statement as convenient and it would relieve him of the pain. I was sure that he had used counterfeit money, but I could not get why he was the only one being hurt in this way when he was not the only one involved. Even after watching the movie, the image of his tortured yet headstrong attitude remained in my mind.  I have read a book called “The 7 Habits of highly effective people”, and I felt like I could understand how he felt at that moment. In the book, there was a section that said that people are free to receive stimuli (experiences) and how they react to them. The following examples were also given as evidence. A prisoner who was forced to live in a Nazi camp and was exposed to the situation next to torture and death was freer than any Nazi soldier. Because he had the freedom within him to choose his reactions to the stimili, and he was aware of and created them. He had gained the freedom within him to realize that no one could take away his own dignity and identity, even if they physically hurt him. The book helped me understand Hong’s reaction to the torture. Perhaps, I guessed, it was because he felt that no matter how much he was physically harmed, to react to it as the police wanted him to would be to pervert his beliefs. His beliefs are the way of life he has chosen for himself and the people he has decided to protect. He knew that if he chose not to be tortured any further, he would destroy his beliefs and self-esteem, which he had developed over the years, and he would be controlled by others, even his own dignity. I was able to understand this in my own way.

In addition, it was also interesting to see the process of Ageha's growth depicted in this film. It was exciting to see how Ageha, who had never spoken on her own, gradually grew up to become an independent adult, for example, by starting to make counterfeit money by herself or by making a decision to get a tattoo. Even in the final scene, Ageha throws a large sum of money made from counterfeit money into the fire. I felt that it showed Ageha's determination to break with her bad past and live on her own from now on.

[oswednesday]

the problem with me is i dont have anything “comforting” to decompress with, sometimes ill be sitting down to eat or in a state and it’s like either active stimili or it was made by the devil

[artoutforblood]

I forgot to post this one 

[NAME SPLASH]

                        J U D A S

                                            as the

                                                       W R A I T H

info on them under the cut:

Judas was raised in a cult as a weapon. They were the fifth Michael and was taught they were God’s archangel reborn on Pandora to serve the Priest Father, who was revered as God’s mouthpiece. They were conditioned to show no outward emotion, to be able to battle even through heat stroke, starvation, and dehydration, and that halo on their head sends neural shocks to their brain to stimulate pleasure when they kill. They were never allowed to interact with others in the cult community, only the priests and nuns.

Often sent out to decimate and slaughter entire communities that “slighted” their God at a young age, Judas found themself lost and dying in the heat, forced to take shelter under a lone cliff or suffer skinburns (albino). That’s where a young Ellie found them, half dead from dehydration but still unsettlingly calm.

No one was ever supposed to see them. They were to always allow one survivor so that they could spread the tales of the angel of death descending upon them, delivering God’s wrath, but no one was to see them. That halo is also a cloaking device that allows them to go invisible and disguise themself as someone else. The Priest Father would want this girl to be dead.

But, if she was helping God’s angel, then surely he would understand. And they came back, watching from afar until Ellie saw them. And they came back again and again, and allowed Ellie to introduce them to Scooter, and then to Moxxie. 

Of course they were going to find out, though. When Judas was on the precipice of young adulthood, the priesthood went to kill the family. But, Judas was good at their duties, and found out. They followed them and, one by one, killed the priests that went to attack Ellie. Their loyalty to her and her family was more than to the man and God that locked them in a dark basement until they could be used. 

After dispatching them, they returned to the cultist community to kill the rest. They first rounded the children and locked them in the school, telling them to play, watch the telivision and stay inside and not listen to what is going on outside. 

Then, the started with the church, slaughtering all within, and finding and rescuing the next Michael, a young child of three who had been trapped in their cage. Then, they moved on to the adults, and spared none except for the babies in their cribs.

When there was none but the young children, they set fire to community and took the kids and left. Without knowing where else to go, they brought them to Moxxie’s until they could find homes for them.

Their robes, once white, were now drenched dark red with blood. The sword at their side, stolen from the archangel’s armory, was covered in it as well. After three days and three nights, they remembered themself and gave themself a new name: Judas.

It took them a lot of time to condition themself against their previous conditioning. They gave Scooter their halo so he could turn off all of the nueral stimili, but they still get excited when they kill. 

Now they’re a mercenary for hire, and a good one. No one knows who they are or what they look like. They wouldn’t even offer a name, and so there are now rumors of a Wraith that leaves a bloodbath wherever they go. 

The Crimson Raiders heir them on BL3 to infiltrate the Calypso’s and spread chaos and destroy outposts, against their wishes as they dislike involving themself in wars. But, as a favor to Ellie, they do it.

FL4K and they grow close through their shared love of the hunt and, despite it being strictly sexual at first, they do become a couple.

[perchanceapoet]

It Is Not About You. On Being Neuro-atypical and Grieving.

When the person with autism breaks down. When the person with dyspraxia breaks down. When the neuro-atypical person breaks down, nine times out of ten it is not about you.

The grief you are seeing has been with the neuro-atypical person for days, sometimes weeks, often months. 

It always starts small. For instance, we could not tie our shoelaces after trying twice or we caught ourselves doing one of our constant check-check-checks (e.g.: Do I still have my keys?) and we momentarily felt like a crazy person. Next a visit to the supermarket felt like a trip to an arcade, lights and signs and stuff and people and too-many-stimili-stop-please. Then someone was mean to us. Or we percieve that this person was mean to us. The grief builds. We try not to let this happen, but somehow, the grief always grows.

The grief is a bucket slowly filling with water. The thing that makes it spill over, it is probably not you. Perhaps it was a sad comercial. Or perhaps the coffeemachine ran out of hot chocolate this morning. Or something, anything just reminded us of someone we lost. 

I understand that you want to help. Unless you did something explicitely wrong, start by letting go of the idea that you caused this grief. Talk to us. Deconstruct the complicated ball of twine that is our grief right now. Or try to. Be there. Do not leave our side. Even if others think we are overreacting and should just be left to stew in our ‘silly’ tears. This grief is not silly. It is real. Be there. That can be enough.

[bellwitchfaggot]

vaguely inspired by a post that val made but um i feel like a lot of people when discussing their mental illnesses/neurodivergences (when they have more than one) try to break down each symptom into a box of “this is caused by THIS disorder” if that makes sense, when in reality if you have multiple neurodivergences (which as a term includes mental illness and literally always has, to be clear) then your disorders can and will and do interact with one another and the sooner you acknowledge this and the fact that since your brain chemistry and life experiences are not going to match up exactly with anyone’s, your experiences with your neurodivergences will never be exactly the same as someone else’s, the easier it is to just give up on trying to fit in boxes altogether and get started on treatment/recovery

an example of this (one i can speak to personally) is schizoaffective disorder. i’ve seen people (largely non schizoaffective people, lol) seem to believe that schizoaffective disorder is like an entirely separate disorder from schizophrenia, when in reality it’s simply a grouping term to describe someone who has both schizophrenia and a mood disorder. this is useful because, again, when you have multiple disorders, their symptoms often overlap and often affect and interact with each other, and if you have bipolar disorder and also schizophrenia, the bipolar symptoms are going to interact with the schizophrenia symptoms and your schizophrenia will look slightly different from someone who is schizophrenic but doesn’t have a mood disorder (for example, a classic symptom of schizophrenia is flat affect, lack of distinct moods, etc (negative symptoms) but if you have a mood disorder these may not be as present in you). psychiatrists recognized this so they created a separate diagnosis to describe the difference between having only schizophrenia and having schizophrenia + a mood disorder

it’s not any less schizophrenia just because the symptoms are slightly different; it’s just schizophrenia that is affected by other neurodivergences as well. your brain chemistry and your life experience and your external/environmental stimili are interacting constantly to create your unique experiences and shape how you interact with the world and with others and with yourself and that’s why it’s near impossible to fit your symptoms into perfect little boxes and why we should largely consider abandoning our current idea of what psychiatric diagnoses mean entirely

[styx-n-stone]

Asexuals can have sexual desires and like sex. They simply just don’t feel sexual attraction.

Think of it like this:

Sex is eating 

People are baked goods

So there’s a bakery with a window display of their foods. 

Some people will see the cupcakes in the window and have to have them. 

Other people see the cookies and have to have them.

Some people get a little bit of everything or what they get changes with their mood, but near every time they pass they get something to eat.  There are people who really want to get something but don’t because they are dieting or saving room for dessert.

There are also people who take one look at the bakery and book it in the other direction cause it repulses them. 

And there are also people who usually can pass by it and not need anything but there’s this one particular cupcake that the bakery has and they can never pass that up.  There are people who pass by feeling no need to eat, maybe they’ll pop in when they are with their partner and eat just so they don’t eat alone. But they really don’t need to. Most of the time they aren’t hungry.

Then there are people like me who don’t go in the bakery because they particularly like the food, but because they are just kinda hungry and could use some food. They eat because they’re hungry and they like the food. But they don’t need it upon sight. Maybe the food isn’t even that tasty for them but they just like feeling full. Some of us get hungry often and the bakery is convenient.  For Aces like me, we have libidos and can want/like sex. It’s just a chemical need for us that we like to have satisfied. It’s not triggered by a stimili but is purely a mood. And that’s valid. We’re still aces. Asexual doesn’t mean hates sex, just no attraction.

[natebuzzlover344]

Stimily (Stiles x Emily)

❤️

[tv-head-enthusiast]

Please sir he is starved of stimili

1 like = one 25 cents 

1 RB = 50 cents

[allenaef]

Сладкого утра и доброго дня, люди! Хмурое, но теплое утро в Подмосковье пусть перейдет в теплый солнечный предпятничный день! #сдобрымутром #четверг #лето #июль #яхочумоно #перезагрузка #перерождение #reload #ценимомент #живисейчас #любивсегда #stimili #vivimi #summer #hocredutoame

[happyfunnycoolgirl96]

why the fuck did i watch lee hardcastle simpsons at midnight on a school day not in a OOooHH i’m gonna shit my paNts i shook in my boots, like lee hardcastle stuff isn’t funny and i’m able to watch a claymation video of the simpsons getting brutally murdered by jimbo (???) without getting horrified but, it upsets me how you would work so hard to create something so unemotional and purely shock value with not a lot of meaning or humor or any substance at all other than oh shit man!!! homer got his hand cut off!!! OOOOOOH itsrainingdownblood n bones aAWWW MAN hes got exposed MuSCLES and a prolapsed asshole!!, like considering how long stop motion takes watching lee hardcastle shit just makes me feel kind of horrible for a second and then its like, well the visuals kinda sucked. guys its midnight i dont usually get like this, as in this pissed over this one content creator just doing his sick thing. blaarruuraaargh let me get real for a second school kinda sucks i would usually facetime somebody about this but everybodys sleeping tight rn anyway i just feel kinda perpetually bored these past three weeks i just don’t feel like i get enough stimili ever and everyone in my school is introverted and quiet since its one of those schools that you get it purely because your grades are above average so i guess i kind of expected this but im not used to not being surrounded by jokes who chop you in the chin on a daily basis, what a weird thing to complain about jesus. i’m gonna devolve this lee hardcastle rant into general rambings about how my day went so HARD, also don’t watch the lee hardcastles simpsons gag its not funny its just kinda disturbing like if you wanna watch a family get murdered play dough style thats alright by me im not your mom but youre gonna want your 2 minutes back if youre not soft and doughy its just meaningless violence and it’s not even fun to watch violence okay like its gross enough to make you sick in the stomach its just so empty honestly. alright i’m getting to bed hope you guys didn’t hate reading this or something that would suck. tell you what though sometimes i used to look at peoples personal posts and be like, why oh why would you post this? who is this for? but that was before i became a peoples who wrote personal posts and like, theres something cathartic about making posts like this in comparison to sitting someone down and telling them something long and winding with no point or conclusion like this, since it’s sort of placing the weight on someones shoulders if they read something they didnt want to read since reading posts is always optional, i guess its just the feeling of being like WHOOSH! the feelings out, its out there on the table for both of us to see! out of my system whoo boy. and thats all i have to say on the matter

also if you clicked readmore on this on desktop you probably saw my new massive bart picture i slammed on the right side of my page. you guys like it lol it really cements the whole “im crossing my fingers this guy doesnt have a kin page. please dont have a kin page” feeling. i hope i dont give off an obsessive vibe over this cartoon ten year old lmao otto man and lisa are my favorite characters surprisingly barts kind of a dick sometimes so he gets bronze place. i wonder why i delved so quickly into simpsonsmania so long after the show quit being popular like back when i was obsessively watching and talking about south park in 7th/8th grade i thought simpsons was kinda old guard or lame. i was so fucking into south park in that time of my life what was my deal, i haven’t even really changed as a person in that aspect of controlling how much i like something or just being able to put on the brakes if i’m getting way into something like just imagine my current blog right now except my icon and sidebar and about page are images of... kyle brovflislkislov. sometimes i’m like, no i’m not gonna get back into south park that was such a dark period of my life but there was also that time where i was pretty young and generally unhinged or just not a chill person to be around, and that was also the time i was a SUPER ABSOLUTELY ENGULFED RAGING FAN of ren and stimpy and i jumped back into that pretty quick, like that was the main content on my blog not that long ago. WHOO IT JUST HIT 12:30 AM IM GOING TO PUNCH THE SHIT OUT OF THE HAY OR JUST HIT IT LIKE EVERYONE SAYS. GNITE I HOPE YOU GUYS HAD NICE DAYS OR THAT THE NEXT ONE TURNS OUT BETTER, AS CORNBALL THAT SOUNDS 

[asking-jude]

Hi. So i was at a psychologist. I told her about my panic attacks and that i don't know what to do with them. Then she asked me to give her examples of situations when i had attack. It was really hard for me because every attack is caused by something different and wierd (for example i had attack when i was sitting at home and relaxing, i told her about it when i was talking about symptoms). Anon 🐼 part 1

(ask continued) … I told her about one situation when i was afraid that i said something wrong and because of that i had attack. She told me that if i know that i’m overreacting i should just tell myself that i’m overreacting. And also she told me that i should go to her with specific problems. Like my anxiety isn’t specific problem? My panic attacks aren’t specific? Should i tell her about every panic attack that i have in a week? I don’t know what to do. Please help

Hi there, I am sorry that you are dealing with panic attacks, I imagine they are very uncomfortable and overwhelmingly frightening. I do not think you are overreacting. For that example rather, I think the panic attacks may come from the worry of what someone else may think/react if you’ve said something wrong. The outcome of something is what I believe may trigger your attacks. As far as the instance of sitting and having an attack out of nowhere, remember that some thoughts occur on a subconscious manner and you may not even be aware that you’ve thought of something that may have triggered your attack. All instances however, are different and I believe that no two attacks are the same, even if they have similarities. I can’t tell you how to treat your attacks, as I am no professional, however I can advise on how to handle the problem with your psychologist.

It sounds that your psychologist has demeaned the severity of your attacks by saying you may be overreacting. You are already aware of how you are reacting. You may also be aware of the relation of logic to your panic attacks and the situations that allow them to occur. That, however, does not delete the fact that you have a seemingly uncontrollable physical reaction to the stimili that caused your attack. The main issue is not necessarily what triggered the attack, but the attacks and how frequently they occur that substantially bothers you. If your psychologist is sweeping your concern under the rug by suggesting you are overreacting, unfortunately, you may not actually be being “treated” well, if you leave your session feeling worse and more concerned than when you arrived. Remember that a psychologist is a trained doctor. With that being said, note that you should treat your psyhchologist the same way you would treat a medical doctor you feel did not do enough to treat you, and you may want a second opinion. It may be in your best interest to venture towards new treatment with a new professional. I understand that ideal in itself may cause anxiety, as change can do that, especially if you are used to this professional. However, you may find comfort in speaking to someone new, and you may find a fresh perspective that may help you in the longrun. Your psychologist will have no option but to understand it is in the business of your best interest for your mental health to see someone who may try to advise you differently and more effectively. Patients do it all the time with medical doctors and many  benefit from making that decision. 

On the other hand, if you wish to continue seeing this professional, by all means, do what you feel is best for you. But in this case, it is a good ideal to be more assertive in your request for treatment and advice. Let your psychologist know exactly what you have stated in this inquiry and express your concern and discomfort about her thoughts. It may push her to be more open to other perspectives on your situation and provide better treatment. If she genuinely cares about your mental health, she will change it for reasons other than losing a client and the monetary gain that comes from your visits. Try to prepare for this confrontation to avoid a panic attack in her office about her tactics. You need not worry about her reaction; it is her job to be open minded and receive constructive criticism from you about her services, just as much as it to advise you on your life and disorder. 

Asking Jude published a video on social anxiety this summer. It is well researched and all information is backed by licensed practitioners from Psychology Today. Even if you don’t have social anxiety, this video will provide tips and tricks for dealing with most anxious thoughts or behaviours. Please, watch it and put our tips into practice: https://youtu.be/HoiOxyEm3qI 

I hope if you choose either piece of advice, you find peace in your ventures, and I sincerely hope your panic attacks decrease over time. 

Best wishes,

Ieisha Ford

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[rollercoaster59]

11 and 11 , car show... + Stimili... Somrthing nuce.... Ok, fhum chum

[westdesertsage]

When they remember us, our distant descendants will be shaking their heads at the demographic transition, where we each took far less than full advantage of the reproductive opportunities our wealth offered.  They will note how we instead spent our wealth to buy products we saw in ads that talked mostly about the sort of folks who buy them.  They will lament our obsession with super-stimili that highjacked our evolved heuristics to give us taste without nutrition.   They will note we spent vast sums on things that didn’t actually help on the margin, such as on medicine that didn’t make us healthier, or education that didn’t make us more productive.

Robin Hanson

[riptire-ready-to-roll]

Would you mind doing a matchup? Im a bigendered bi romantic asexual. Im 5' 6" and really enjoy doing things but like get really annoyed if theres too many stimili around me?? Im also have really diverse tastes and dont enjoy not trying new things.

I ship you with Symmetra !! she gets overstimulated easily, and she also would make you indian food to give you a diverse taste and teach you some things!!

[symposiumlouma-blog]

Vendredi 31 août

'On sait comment on a commencé, on ne sait pas comment ça va terminer", c'est le titre du workshop proposé par Théo Hillion et Guiomar Campos.

Le workshop de ce matin débute dans le hall de la salle Guy Ropratz. Nous nous regroupons alors près du comptoir de l'accueil du théâtre. Tour à tour une personne grimpe sur celui-ci, devenu une plateforme sur-élevée, pour se laisser tomber dans les bras des différents membres du groupe, juste en dessous.

L'exercice s'étend dans l'espace et les chutes se succèdent alternativement, le groupe se rassemble pour recueillir le poids de la personne qui tombe. Nous arrivons finalement sur le plateau  et terminons la séquence dans un noir presque complet.

Nous nous installons ensuite dans les gradins et ouvrons notre écoute aux bruits ambiants. Les multiples réceptions sonores deviennent des stimilis induisant nos réactions corporelles.  

Puis, des groupes de 3 se forment: l'un d'entre nous réitère l'expérience et propose une danse instinctive pour laquelle Guiomar suggère l'image de l'enfant.

La dynamique explorée ouvre l'exercice suivant nommé ''petite transe et non préméditation'' d'après Vincent Dupont. L'enjeu est de contrecarrer tout mouvement pré-pensé. Notre réactivité est vive puique qu'aucun de nos gestes ne doit être conscientisé. L'exercice se conclut par un message adressé à l'un de nos partenaire, sans même choisir le moment où cela va se produire...

Durant l'après-midi, nous nous sommes consacrés à l'organisation des projections du soir et de la journée de rencontres du lendemain. Quelques heures plus tard, ce lieu dont nous avons pris possession s'ouvre pour la première fois de la semaine au public pour une séance de visionnages de captations brèves sélectionnées par chaque artiste.