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On the topic of Prisma candies, does the fact that unused candy gets consumed each week mean that at a certain time each week Vertin goes rifling through the cabinets and eating as much Prisma Candy as she can before the start of Monday? Like, up to an absurd amount of it?
At the beginning I thought it expired so you couldn't use it anymore. Imagine my surprise when 12 Picrasma Jars consumed from Sunday to Monday and my already maxed out Stamina had to warn me it was already maxed out.
Vertin just has that hunger once a week, every weekend, and just devours EVERY SINGLE CANDY JAR
Like, girl chill it's not like they're going stale.
She just devours them, how? No idea, she just does. It's probably like one of those addictions where she goes "I will stop eating candy" and the very next minute she's downing her third jar.
Many of those Jars end up being Faeries house at this point because they have to somehow reuse them y'know, so many jars just can't be there.
Unless Vertin has a room for those jars
Oh God imagine just a room filled with empty jars
#reverse 1999#THE BUNNY#Vertin Picrasma Candy Consumption#GIRL STOP EATING GODDAMN IT#She worries me#but imagine the candies do get stale after two weeks which is why Vertin just devours every single jar in one sitting#like they just become inedible once it hits midnight so she does a Kirby#still pretty unhealthy#Tooth Fairy can't save Vertin she's long gone
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What if we were both magic prodigies and it otherized us in different ways and we devoted ourselves to protecting a family member who has general other goals & priorities. What if we both did self-sacrifical devotion in opposite ways.
What if we were dark mirrors of each other and where I've grown overcontrolling you've grown complacent. What if, bought as a servant into a pretty loving home, ownership and control is what love looks like to me, and to you neglected and lonely growing up, love is gratefully taking any scraps of it you’re lent.
By belonging to someone, even if she comes back injured or fails at finding Delgal, she feels like she belongs and is cherished, by owning someone he feels safe in them not leaving him.
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She’s what’s tethering him do you see… And he’s the only thing giving her direction and purpose in her state. She needs a compass and he needs a support.
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They’re both so out of it 😭 It’s the weirdly intense and unearned mutual trust and reliance on each other?? They’re each other’s weird little comfort codependent teddy bear. Or at least they were headed towards that before SHE DIED THEN HE DIED THEN THEY BOTH FORGOT ABOUT EACH OTHER AND NEVER MET EVER AGAIN. Though she’s also the guard attack hound keeping him safe… And vice versa he heals her and can rewrite her very being with just one wave of his hand. They’re both so so mentally and physically vulnerable both but they cling onto each other. They can’t perceive things accurately but despite it all someway somehow they stumble into something closer to resembling companionship just before they both die. Falin is just that kind and Thistle is just that lonely. Overworked.
We both haven’t lived for ourselves in a very long time, haven’t we.
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They both have a similar devotion to the people they love but again the difference is that Thistle starts overtsepping while Falin is self-effacing. The other difference between them is that people care about Falin <3 People have given up on Thistle long ago, and he has given people reasons to, while people refuse to give up on Falin. Yaad has a mini arc about it dw about it it’s ok he’s not all alone in the end 😭😭 He reached out for Marcille’s hand but they already all wanted to help him, they just had to be given the chance to, Yaad just had to be given the chance to, it’s okay I’m okay
Hey what if we learned to get in touch with our own identity and the world around us and living in the present again through being in the worst codependent situationship ever.
Falin and Thistle sitting in a tree, sucking on flowers together because they’re h-u-n-g-r-y 💕💕💕
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I bet he’s only ever thought of flowers as useless ornaments. Weak weeds. But she shows him they’re tasty and useful and good and pretty in their own right too and deserve existing without proving their worth and waaa <33 Thistles…... Did you know thistles taste sweet if you remove the thorns and eat them?
"Even as a chimera, her kind nature remains" you can’t suppress her in the way that matters. You can’t soothe him in the way that matters. It’s doomed. You’re doomed. It’s all doomed. Save me.
#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Thistle#falin touden#thistlin#OOOOH UNHEALTHY RELATIONSHIP THAT SOMEHOW WORKS OUT SAVE ME#I need them to be traumabonded kittens to not separate post-canon#I’m seeing a raise in post-canon thistle content/interest which makes me v happy#Fumi rambles#Falin learning to disobey orders with Thistle is one of my fave things. EAT THAT CURRY GIRL!!!! Nvm that it’s gonna get you killed#It’s good for the character arc#Falin and thistle sitting on a web o-b-s-e-s-s-i-n-g <3#This is somewhat of a tldr of my huge thistlin post. Plus some thoughts i had in discord or twitter#Keeping it for another day but tbh if you see their dynamic in canon as her thinking/having picked him as her mate it changes nothing#about her behavior which I find funny. Thistle accidentally claimed himself a parrot mate bc he’s bad with monsters confirmed#Ik my thing of them learning to relax and live in the present moment again is pretty fanon BUT IT’S WHAT KUI POINTED TOWARDS#With her calming him down from a panic attack and eating berries. With the baths for dandruffs. Etc. Thistle hasn’t socialized in a long#time and he wouldn’t if it wasn’t a tool he needed to interact with BUT it’s still socialization and it’s getting him in touch with his#surroundings again even if just a bit slowly but surely!! The Toudens have a superpower in reaching Thistle. Bless#How’s that one post go again. he refuses to develop he's part of the problem he maintains the cycle he's trapped in the cycle.#she's growing she's finding her place she escaped her original role she wants to help people she will never save him she will never save hi#Something something they have to abstract each other bc relationships with humans have always been too charged and unsafe#Only by seeing each other as more concept than person more object than peer can they truly be vulnerable#Like the fuckedupness lf their dynamic and state is WHY they’re so attached. Why their dynamic could be so raw and needy#The stars aligned in the worst way. Mission successfully faile#Tfw we both need to feel needed
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i need this bizzare phenomenon of people who dislike dirkkri yet are still following me studied. did yall somehow miss like 80% of the shit i post or
#this is more of a bsky thing than tumblr thing but still#(at least i think so since checking whos following you and whos not on tumblr is a hassle so i dont do it)#im joking btw i obviously know what majority of people like that are doing#you seriously need to stop willingly enraging and triggering yourself for the thrills its fucking unhealthy af#im pretty tired of age/aging up characters discourse bc its clear to me shits gray as hell and everyone has different levels of acceptance#when it comes to it#idunno when i dont vibe with a ship or a character i simply. do not engage with posts that talk about it/block keywords and tags etc#just LEAVE. you can always LEAVE. STOP MAKING YOURSELF MISERABLE#at this point im legit worried about yall bc constantly surrounding yourself with shit you find upsetting isnt good for your mental health#okay rant over. i dont wanna talk about it too much since i value my own peace of mind
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I got tired of circling back to frustration over my nitpicks on the f&c series so I OC’d my boy. Whoops. 😅💦. I'll still post stuff in the future about the AT version because I still have a lot of doodles I haven't posted yet and doodle ideas I want to draw!!... Buuuuuut in the meantime my brain gears have been turning hardcore over incorporating this version into my OC-verse... he's a silly astronaut now <3
#pulling a 'my oc koz lord of vampires' with this one bc I simply do not care anymore. If I'm gonna be insane I'm gonna be blatant about it#but ok. ok. listen. In my complete defense. I got tired of reading all the bad takes on simon. I was getting TOO angry.#especially with how the series handled the situation so insensitively#and I was like. well. actually that's kinda unhealthy pal maybe we should back off. and that's what we're doing#still love the character ofc!! I just don't have the capacity to fully explore an AU from AT's perspective without getting angry at it#fun fact I made Itchy as a self indulgent AU to vent/cope in the first place... so I kiiiinda knew this was coming the moment I made him#like... what’s more self-indulgent than taking him out of the source material for funsies? do u get me? <3#this is surprisingly not the most self indulgent thing I've done. but it's pretty darn close#anyways no I'm not tagging him on main that's my oc now. clearly. sgweats. beards him. see? that's ichabod. clearly not simon /hj#I made a kin onion a while back and tried to grab some influences from other characters so I hope that helps a bit#some of his story beats will line up with simon's ofc but Itchy's supposed to mirror Fern so it's nice to give him some space from simon#ok no more rambles I guess here come the other tags#digital art#original character#original stuff#ichabod zymmynz#flat color#2024
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idk, maybe I'm old school, but I thought our white allies were supposed to listen when someone told them they were being bigoted & attempt to improve that behavior. I don't see acknowledging accusations of bigoted behavior as "rolling over and taking it". And I don't see what's wrong with saying something like, "hey, maybe i shouldn't have thrown my limited blm activism & voting for kamala up into a black person's face while saying they do nothing compared to me". Or, "yeah I probably shouldn't be okay with my acquaintance that thinks calling black ppl slurs is acceptable". Or, "yeah, I shouldn't have told them to kill themselves, that was out of line". Or "yeah, it's an asshole move to repeatedly call people crazy and unstable as insults". Or even, "oof, yeah, publishing a novel length ask misgendering someone while knowing full well what their pronouns are isn't a good thing to do".
I mean, how hard is it to simply say that you were wrong for something and that you're sorry? Why are you so incredibly offended that these issues were pointed out, when you claim to be such an ally, activist, and good person? Shouldn't an ally find it easy to listen to these issues and grow from them? What were you learning at these protests and all the times you spent arguing with "bigots on fb"? That your voice matters and no one else's does? That you don't need to listen to black people if you or your non-black friends don't like them? Was all the work you supposedly put into your activism just for brownie points and to look good to others, or do you really care about the issues you're putting yourself behind? I think the answers to these questions determine whether someone really is an active force in combating bigotry or simply someone that is present. Or, even worse, contributing to bigotry themselves through their ignorance and bruised ego.
#ceci speaks#nonsims#text#negative#plumbewb#tbh theres another microaggression there with the nickname#associating black ppl with shit & dirt is not usually a coincidence#but ill just be called crazy again for pointing it out so lol whatever#i think ive pointed out enough#hopefully they calm down soon bc this is getting unhealthy#i was pretty surprised to be told they were still yapping but#yeah kinda getting tired of seeing the same ol thing#i think ive said my part#unless something more blatant happens ig but i dont think there will be anything new#just... try to learn ig idk what else to say to help you#tw antiblackness#tw ableism#tw racism#tw suicide bait mention#tw transphobia#ps addressing me with all the aave is kinda weird#whyd u start talking like that lol#my last advice would be to stop that too bc it dont fit u#pls get this in the screenshot too thx#k bye
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crimson peak loustat au would be so easy….
#or loumand#yeah i know it’s because it’s a pretty basic gothic#but hmmmmmm#louis takes photos of ghosts...lestat lives in his big useless french mansion...with an unhealthy relationship w his mother...you see it#i am still processing armand in there but he also wants to kiss louis
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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.
Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.
#my characters#waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit#deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee#and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name#deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c#man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while#he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair#ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so#its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons#but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me#and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not#fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew#and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable#while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts#and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed#so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en#so you know maybe its that idk#and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now#and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it#and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad#that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal#and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it#the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer#anyway story time in the tags again#im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note#its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him#he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times#and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea#and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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On that trojan war au thing you're writing. 1. What are the tags for it, cause I'm super interested! And would love to read what you have so far! 2. "And Odysseus is a much grimmer darker man due to his home being one of the places that were first swallowed up by Erebus" - I wanna know more about this. Please tell me more.
Oh , wow, I'm so flattered! I'm very happy it sounds appealing to you <33 This work is a huge passion project of mine so I'm always glad to talk more and more about it, especially since there are many aspects occurring in the background (such as the alternate fates of the main players of the Trojan Conflict) which I cannot properly cover or even explain within the events of the novel itself.
That said: 1) If you mean tags as in ao3 - unfortunately, this work isn't on ao3 my friend :( As I said above, these are elements and concepts in the greek mythology based-fantasy novel I'm currently writing (the concept of which I outlined here in the introductory post of my novel concept!) As for wanting to read whatever writing I currently have available: I currently have three fics available on ao3 that are written in my Pursuing Daybreak verse!
The Prince and Princess series deal with a young Apollo and Artemis and the many consequences they face after Apollo has slain Python. The two works uploaded right now are Exeunt Phoebus Apollo which covers the murder trial of Python and Manent Apanchomene Artemis which covers the intense feelings of helplessness and alienation Artemis experiences after Apollo returns from his banishment and is completely changed. Both of these have themes of family, grief and relationship exploration at their heart.
The third bit of writing I have up is quite outdated but does cover the immediate aftermath of Hyacinthus' death. It's called A Petal Falleth and features Apollo making one of those Big Silly Decisions that have completely unintended but extremely important consequences: namely, instead of the larkspurs being made of Hyacinthus' spilt blood, Apollo anchors the boy's soul to the flowers so Thanatos wouldn't take him. Like the Dawn is also set in this world but because it is nsfw in nature, I wouldn't recommend it as easily as the other three bits of writing. If you don't mind the whole naked men thing though, I'd definitely suggest reading Like the Dawn for a better idea of what my current writing is like (along with eventually getting to see characters like Hector, Andromache and Cassandra/Helenus) Like the Dawn's themes are also different to the other three works with it focusing more on the power dynamics of a god/mortal relationship, exploring masculinity and masculine sexuality and self discovery.
The running theme here, of course, is that all of these bits of writing are centered on Apollo/Artemis or Hyacinth because my novel itself is centered around them. There are, of course, other important characters and figures like Eros, Psyche, Penthesilea and Iaso (one of Asclepius' daughters) but while there is the definite presence of characters from the Trojan War they most certainly aren't at the center of the novel (and the ones that are aren't the Greeks but rather the Trojans i.e Hector, Alexander, Andromache, Cassandra, Helenus, Aeneas, so on and so forth.)
2) The basis of the apocalypse in my work is cosmological! Due to Apollo's err-- untimely departure, there's no longer anyone maintaining the axis of the heavens or the navel of the earth. Because of this, Erebus - whose darkness is usually kept firmly in the spaces between the realms - begins to spill out into both the heavens and the earth. The beasts of Erebus (referring primarily to the Seven Curses - Old Age, Misery, Deceit, Violence etc etc) consume, torment and destroy whatever is inside of Erebus' darkness and Ithaca, as one of the islands on the far edge of the world, was one of the very first places that were devoured in this manner. Odysseus was visiting the Argives at the time for a festival and had left the pregnant Penelope at home since he didn't want her to suffer through the voyage in discomfort. He only finds out about the destruction of Ithaca after it had already been consumed when Athena personally interrupts a feast to warn both him and Diomedes. Needless to say, Odysseus, like everyone else, assumes that everyone on Ithaca has died and thusly is a very, very different man in terms of humour and comport. A part of him still stubbornly clings to the belief that Penelope managed to escape - that she was smart and resourceful enough to see the end approaching and do her best to escape - but that doesn't stop him from being dour for the majority of the time. Diomedes does his best to keep his spirits up in the meantime. Without him around, Odysseus is something of a black hole when it comes to the oppressiveness of his discontent though he does manage to lighten up when in the company of Helen, Clytemnestra and even Menelaus on occasion.
#ginger answers asks#ginger chats about greek myths#Diomedes did a lot to coax Odysseus out of his initial shock when Athena delivered the news#Pretty much the only thing that stuck was Ody getting into the habit of whittling wooden horses and ships#He used to speak to Penelope's stomach and tell a bunch of stories about his youth and adventures#Now he speaks to himself while he's whittling because it makes him feel like he's still speaking to Telemachus#Ody doesn't grieve Penelope at all btw He refuses to behave like she's dead until the gods personally tell him or he sees a body#DIomedes very much thinks it's unhealthy and is very worried for his bestie but he's very deliberately left that topic for Helen#and Clytemnestra to deal with. Like he punches things he can't really do that for Ody's mental health alas#pursuing daybreak posting#The Seven Curses all have names btw#And Erebus isn't really doing anything malevolently either#The gods carved the world sky and ocean out of the darkness - it's their responsibility to maintain it#Of course Nyx and Himera originally held the job of keeping Erebus' darkness at bay#But that power is one that's been broken up and passed down between the generations to prevent precisely this event from happening#Nyx's Night and Himera's Day was first given to Ouranos so he could govern the boundary between the world and the darkness without fail#Ouranos' daughters received Night - specifically Theia and Phoebe#and his sons received Day - namely Hyperion and Coeus#Apollo - ever the overachiever however - ends up being overwhelmingly endowed with these attributes and then some considering#he also gets Delphi - the center of the earth - when he slays Python#So when he errr left to get some milk so to speak - the entire order of things went with him#The remaining balance-keepers are Hecate and Artemis and both of them are Night which is too close to Erebus anyway#So y'know things aren't good like at all LMFAO#Anyway I talked a lot - thank you very much again for asking!! If you have any more questions let me know :D#ginger rambles#odysseus#apollo#erebus#diomedes#greek mythology
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Do you think Anne is a pilates girlie? I think she'd love it but would hate group fitness classes like Soulcycle (and the hype around them)
I think Anne is a horse girlie who cannot physically make herself sit still for more than five minutes at a stretch
#she still does a lot of actual chores around the farm and I think that and riding is how she gets most of her exercise#she says in RTML that some of the other riders on the national team cross-trained with running but it wasn't for her#she did say she likes tennis so maybe she does/did some of that#not to be base but there's also sex#I'm pretty sure their favorite positions include several where she does most of the work#and that they still - look me in the eyes and know I am serious - STILL do it frequently enough for it to count as a regular workout#and frankly? if I had THAT in my bed? *points at Tim* I would too#it's also been reported that she eats pretty light especially when she's working and I think that more than anything keeps her so slender#I certainly hope she's just a natural light eater and isn't restricting/doing anything unhealthy#anyway I am going to go back to my fantasy of them spotting me in the crowd at the Olympics and taking me back to their hotel#to spit roast me#have a nice day
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Idk but every time i see your username I think of everthorne 😭 i def thought you were a gale/Katniss fan for a while there
WHAT 😭 i was thinking of changing it already but that's uh definitely the push i needed 😀
everdares came from everdair (platonic katniss and finnick, pls) because their dynamic is one of my favorite things in the books and i wish the fandom explored it more, on canon and aus!!! so i wanted to bring that friendship to represent myself here, but i've been considering changing it lately tbh
#DEFINITELY no everth*rne babe#i can't believe this. betrayal by my own name#i live and breathe everlark i don't think you understand it's unhealthy at this point#i still think i have pretty unpopular opinions on gale/katniss that some people would Not like but that does Not mean i ship it
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teehee i now have a very very wonderful photo
#me leaning and slightly sleeping on the guy i like#🤭🤭#for those who follow my lore closely (so i think only milo) this isn't the cute guy in history whom i have never spoken to#this is the now pretty close friend in my school friendgroup who i had a big crush on for a few months#i became less obsessed with him but that was definitely a good thing i think crushes get unhealthy when they're too strong#and i still think he's cute obviously i mean i liked him for looks alone the first couple weeks#anyway today at this party i was sitting next to him and ended up sleeping next to him three times in succession#i mean kind of sleeping looking back i probably did doze off at points but it was kindaaa fake sleep#first time i edged toward his shoulder but didn't fully have my head resting against it#then i ducked my head up and said i wasn't asleep just resting and we laughed a little#i think he said he wanted to draw on my face avjddhbd#anyway second time my head inched toward his shoulder and was fully on there teehee#then when i ducked my head back up he was like awwe its okay and kinda tucked my head back against his shoulder#i was GEEKING bro 😭😭 i opened my eyes those three times when people questioned my sleepiness bc i could not keep a straight face#i was fighting to contain a grin the whole time#uuughh and he was saying how he didn't want to move and was getting people to pass him things abdjbdhd#he could have kicked me off but he didn't!! that's so cute#i was hoping someone would get a photo and a couple people did and they're so cute#gawwddd idk if now is the right time for anything but i really like him i enjoy his presence immensely#he's so nice he's not absolutely perfect of course but he's such a sweet guy#im thinking of that one tumblr relationship advice post about how the ancients didn't stumble across fully built temples#they found a flat place with good grass and water nearby they found a good place to build and then built#if there's any chance of things happening between us iiii think it's a good place to build#literally my only personal downsides for him are such minor things that could definitely change with age and maturing#it's just a lack of motivation or passion toward things and sometimes a bit of a lack of consideration#but i know im guilty of that too and he really is so nice he never acts maliciously#never at all augh he's so sweet#oscar.exe
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SPOILERS FOR THE NEW IWTV BUT OMG THAT LAST 20 SECONDS IM GONNA LOSE IT WE’RE FINALLY GETTING MORE CLAUDIA AND LESTAT INTERACTION I HOPE HE FEELS A TINY BIT OF SYMPATHY AT LEAST BUT HE PROBABLY WONT BUT WHQTEHWR IM GOING CRAZYYY
#ITS STILL UNHEALTHY IK BUT LIKE HE DID LOVE HER AND DOESNT REGRET HER#SO PLS LET A LOTTLE BIT OF SYMPATHY SHOW#I BEG#ANYWAU IT WAS SO GOOD#CLAUDIAS YELLOW DRESS IS SO PRETTY IM HONNA KMS WHYYYYY#iwtv#interview with the vampire#claudia iwtv#lestat de lioncourt#claudia de lioncourt
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#i really don’t like how some people are talking about how gracie said she doesn’t have an ab routine in the cosmo interview when in that#same interview she talks about how she had an unhealthy relationship with pilates during covid so we know she struggled with her body image#at one point and she’s probably still struggling now because feelings like that don’t just go away#so not only was the constant asking of that question was clearly triggering for her i think people’s reaction to it was probably incredibly#triggering as well when like i said im pretty sure she’s still struggling with her body image and having this much commentary around it#especially when people aren’t being delicate with their word choice is probably going to be a problem for her and it makes me worried#i hope she’s surrounded by people who love and care about her during this
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if u wanna know the difference between my two metonic fics nova au has nova “just” fantasise about torturing sonic to death like half a dozen times in the first chapter whereas in the heroes bad end au's first chapter neo straight up slits his throat with her claws (he's. not fine but he can't die bc of Reasons)
#sorry i refuse to write metonic that is in any way healthy or good these are fucked up kids#nova and neo metallix are some of my au metals. it’s just their chosen name in those specific aus#nova au has them toxic enough they somehow spin around into a (relatively) positive and supportive relationship#heroes bad end au straight up is unambiguously toxic and bad. it. gets better but it also gets worse#in that the extremely unhealthy and abusive behaviour is a lot more mutual.#it’s pretty unambiguously meant to be clear in that one that they both managed to mutually traumabond with each other#and they’re unhealthily codependent bc of that#whereas in the nova au they're. still extremely codependent but for much less fucked reasons (theyre still fucked)
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Just got back from a three mile run and walked into the house to my mom cooking and baking a bunch of stuff but I’m so hot and out of breath that the smell is just revolting to me right now😂
#kinda bummed tho bc the whole reason I went running is I let the ED win…#progress is not linear progress is not linear progress is not linear#trying to figure out how to not have running connected to the ED#bc I genuinely love running#I just need to detach it from ED thoughts somehow#I hadn’t run for a long time because of it#and I missed it#but it still was pretty strongly connected to unhealthy thoughts#so that sucks#I’ll figure it out tho#speaking into the void
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