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nightfal1n · 5 months ago

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I usually shove my random morning doodles under the rug, lock them up and forget they exists but idk why I liked this way too much

(or I'm obsessed over how this kid looks too cool to touch by default but he can make this kind of face without feeling out-of-character which make him even more precious)

#and Kafka doesn't know and gave he too much warmth that he burns under sub-zero degree exterior #how you put out a fire that burn cold? idk #faldrawskn8 #kn8 spoilers #bc suit #still feels awkward posting arts...#actually read comment/tags but 99.9% of times don't know how to respond im sorry but thankful for every support

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labannori · 3 months ago

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Old old old Emizel and Soda art that ill never finish., theyr sweet, I miss them

#wäwä I haven’t drawn anything new for like the past month so I’m posting old stuff that still holds lol #have lots of doodles and stuff that I like but it feels a bit awkward posting them on their own so migh compile it to some big post soon #(if I remember)#jrwi fanart #jrwi #my art #jrwi show #jrwi the suckening #jrwi emizel #emizel tucker #jrwi soda #theo collins #fizzfangs

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chainsawctopus · 1 month ago

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You, me, and our loss of autonomy.

#feels awkward posting with the same caption on every site but oh well #my girls whose names start and end with A and deserved so much better #just cause i'm hyperfixated on yoshida and daisuke doesn't mean i dont care for the main women of each of these media ☝️#i'm just extremely autistic and transgender and those two dudes are high up on my kinlist especially yoshida #still #sorry women #sorry i dont talk about you enough i promise im not a misogynist #i just feel like other people are better at articulating my thoughts on you and what you represent!!#csm #chainsaw man #chainsawman #Asa Mitaka #Mouthwashing #Nurse Anya #Anya Mouthwashing #TK's art

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tariah23 · 7 months ago

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Man, I still remember participating in one of the many jjba zines that I took part in and how my piece was placed as the first page (for the second time) and how one of my mutuals/artists that I’ve always admired, hit me with the “oh… you’re on the front page again… 😅…” like man, that kind of killed me lmfao. I never got over it like man, what was that about.

#it’s not like i put the books together myself or anything all my ass did was submit my work #like this was from a really popular and well known artist as well like #their art has always been so gorgeous to me too I was like ‘I’m literally a nobody is this person really being shady or…’#rambling #I guess it’s nice being in a zine with ppl I don’t know or care to get to know at least now 😭… just submitting my art and running #referring to the jjk zine 😭 I need t start working on it uhh #zines make me feel so anxious man #it really did make me feel bad and almost guilty? I was like this is kind of awkward…#another zine I was in which was run by a mutual… well… I never even got my zine in the mail #and I even sent them $20 for some merch that they were making since I wanted to support and never got that either…#they deleted their blog but I see that they remade and draw a lot of DM and have a lot of popular posts here so it’s kind of awkward seeing #their art shared on the dash sometimes skeks #we’re still mutuals on Twitter but I don’t rly want to ask about my zine again or the $20 bucks #it’s okay like I owe other ppl stuff too I’m a late bird man but still loskekk #they were the mod for the zine too #I might hit them up again I guess I still love their art and they were always fun to talk to #there was another zine that I participated in where we had to purchase our own copy bro #i remember being so annoyed by that but went ahead and bought it anyway #I was invited to this zine so it made me even more annoyed #I #Guess it didn’t make its money back #or something like that but I remember being broke at the time and was pissed that I had to pay for my own book #I didn’t buy any of the merch because why when it was supposed to be free #if you’re participating in a zine the book and merch should be free

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pekoeboo · 3 months ago

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ugh. some thoughts.

really been trying to find the joy in drawing/writing again and honestly it's been such a challenge. friends have told me it's most likely depression that's making it hard to feel motivated and tbh they're probably right.

hoping to get back into being creative in the way I Want to be at some point tho. I miss it. there's still so much with my stories and characters that I haven't been able to share or explain and I wish I knew how without it feeling like this daunting, impossible task.

I don't know when I'll get around to actually sharing art again (or writing, if ever). was hoping that I'd manage to get some of my mental and physical issues in check recently for just long enough to get back into the swing of being creative, but that hasn't seemed to work. everything feels bad, both artistically and physically. I'm struggling to keep up with the frantic pace at which my brain comes up with story concepts and intriguing character interactions, even tho everything in me wishes I could turn it into tangible artistic expression so I can get it out of my head and share it. it used to be easy. I don't know why it's not now.

I'm just . tired, I guess.

#spectre says #text post #negative #vent post #delete later #sorry #i probably shouldn't post this idk #tbh i know i've said this a million times but. even if i'm struggling to draw or whatever #i'm still open for asks. i want so badly to talk about my characters and the things i've been unable to explain through art #but i can't get my own thoughts together enough to know where to start with that in like. just a random post #and asks would be a great way for me to actually focus on one concept at a time based on whatever you guys are curious about #but i hate sounding like i'm begging for attention/interaction i just. genuinely don't know if anyone is interested otherwise #and if you guys do want to know more you HAVE to tell me directly #because vague forms of engagement are difficult for me to comprehend or read between the lines of #i can't read minds obviously ><;;#i know ask culture has changed a lot over the years tho and a lot of ppl don't like sending them out of being shy or whatever #which i understand #it's kind of an awkward form of engagement that no other site really has #so no pressure i'm just letting you know that I won't know if any of you guys are interested in learning more about my stuff #if i'm not told directly is all #anyway. tangent aside #its just been rough mentally my dudes. hopefully things clear up at some point and i won't feel so dead all the time #and actually have the mental clarity to continue drawing/writing like i used to again;;; God willing;;

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sonknuxadow · 11 months ago

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^ guy who has to draw funny hedgehogs or else they will die

#okay i did draw stuff that didnt involve the hedgehog characters i promise i was just picking my favorites/what i thought was the best #from each month and realized i kept picking stuff with sonic and/or shadow in it #so i decided i would make all of them have at least one hedgehog character because the pattern was funny to me #anyway kind of disappointed with how little i drew this year ive been struggling with motivation to do art for a while now #but . i did get at least one or two finished drawings for each month.#and i also managed to do artfight even if i did less art for that than ive done in the past #whihc are still accomplishments i think. considering how ive been feeling #also i didnt get to do one of these last year because my laptop decided to stop working around december #and i did get a new one soon after. but i wasnt able to get access to the stuff on my old one until a little while into the year #and at that point it felt like the moment had passed and it would be awkward to post the art summary thing . so i just didnt #so . yay i get to do it this time #if this picture is making you notice how inconsistent the way i draw werehog sonic is no it isnt

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strawglicks · 5 months ago

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i can feel myself drifting from the TTCC community .. like i still love the characters and their dynamics, but ive been thinking less about toontown as a whole and just some of the characters are lingering . this usually happens towards the end of my obsessions

plus i just dont feel in touch with the community LOL i just kinda stick to my own stuff and sometimes like the art and stories ppl make .. but im in this awkward spot right now where im MENTALLY not engaging as much. idk if this is anything

#i dont think anything specific is causing it. im just not super deep in my toontown phase like i was in the beginning #i like the characters . but have been thinking less abt the actual toontown story #and i think im starting to dislike some things abt the canon to the point i resent it slightly #it feels like theres soo much missed potential in some parts and ik i have to just be patient but . bc of that my obsession is fading i fea #and theres a lot of messy lore and its become disengaging to follow #they say theyre fixing it but continue to indulge in these non-canon social media posts that i rlly like but. theyre not canon theyre just #kinda made for fun it seems . like maybe filler content in the meantime for big canon stuff idk #ive just become less invested in the whole toontown story recently ! still love it :] but #im in that awkward end of an era phase #the phase is lingering #many of the characters are floating around my brain and i adore them very much #just not thinking abt them in the context of the toontown story as much #and i feel more disconnected from fandom lately which isnt helping . theres a lack of connection on my part #im still gonna post art and reblog toontown stuff btw. nothings really gonna change #just felt like rambling?? im not even gonna properly tag this LMAO #any of yall have this kinda lingering feeling at the end of ur phases? cuz i do

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minobe-household · 7 months ago

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now cue me learning nothing and asking for requests again like a week from now LMAO

#like with my not so amazing executive dysfunction #and added on the notion that a person is waiting behind each one i get is. a lot #I STILL LIKE DOING IT THOUGH #THEY'TE FUN AND AN EXCUSE TO DRAW PEOPLE'S OCS SINCE RANDOM GIFT ART FEELS AWKWARD FOR ME #unrelated posting #maybe i'll do art trades instead #if. anyone would want to do that here 🧎

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ffc1cb · 2 years ago

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You probably get this a lot but I love Parsley so much

not as often as you'd think considering it still comes as a surprise every time i receive messages like this. it's been 3 years and it still baffles me whenever people express interest in them, moreso when people i don't personally know recognize them in art & are excited to see them because for me they're like. this oc that maybe 5 of my friends are aware of that i sometimes become annoying about, so i'm truly very grateful. thank you very much for liking them :)

please enjoy this image of parsley (real!) next to my tomato sprouts

#salt talks #i have so much random art of them that i feel awkward posting in bulk because like. hey its me. talking about this thing again. as always #but you know. getting there. trying to be self indulgent and all #i made that doll 2 years ago i think but its still kind of unfinished. planned to give them a proper coat like the one i draw them in and #everything. they also need all of their bones replaced. isnt thjs a funny sentence. i love doll making

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nightmare8-420 · 1 month ago

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i feel like a part of my soul has been ripped from my chest and i dont know why.

#is this a bad time to mention i dont even believe in souls?#i really dk why.#no this isnt abt jiro somehow apparently having a loving family #(ok like. at least 1/4 of it is BUT STILL. NOT THE POINT)#(part of me feels awkward abt it bc just. huh? youre telling me. this guy. that i basically am the irl version of. has a loving family???)#(/j and all but just. idk part of me feels awkward now? it just. a guy who blew himself up for most of the same ideals i have)#(gets to have the one thing i yearn so very hard for. everyday of my life. but can never have.)#(ill get over this in like. 2 hours. hopefully. most of thats just shock anyways.)#just. for the past some days. besides a couple things and people. hurt and love havent really. made me feel much of anything #like being cared for by actual ppl even online. yeah. it still does but #even my fantasies don’t entertain me anymore #oh god am i becoming lopt. save me fuck #UNLESS this means i get mason as my bf. then hell fucking yeah (kidding kidding kIDDINGG i dont wanna be lopt. please.)#but srsly. usually i can envoke some sorta reaction from myself if its brutal enough #but. nothing.#id assume that im over doing it usually. but i havent in a good while #maybe this is some what where my art/writers block is coming from #whatever this hell is.#time to go on a spiral of mildly depressing and somewhat cryptic posts (cryptic if i didnt info dump in the tags that is)#why is it so hard to confront issues when you dont even know what the issue is?#i just. wanna be able to make myself feel something.#not in a “i have no one but myself” way for once. just. i dont wanna have to rely on others for my emotions #i want to feel a pang of hurt. yet it feels so empty. i dont want to harm myself. i just want to feel it.#anyways ig.#ig im gonna just sleep #which tbh im growing to hate bc like. i feel all i do is sleep. i sleep to avoid how much my own body hurts. i sleep to ignore my issues #i sleep to ignore the fact i keep forgetting to respond to people even though ik i have to at some point. i sleep to avoid the dread of not #getting anything done. i sleep just because im bored.#and im tired of sleeping.#but. it feels worse awake. my body hurts. my mind hurts. it all just hurts.

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nonuggetshere · 2 years ago

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Local idiots almost get caught, more at ten

#spooky arts #faaf au #PV/Flower started helping around wherever they could post that disaster that was their knighting. Their father no longer gave them #important tasks nor did they need to train but they still liked to feel useful so whenever they could they liked to help people around the #palace and generally the court. One of the tasks they took up was helping Monomon and Quirrel in the archives. They could feel Quirrel #feeling awkward around them and Monomon was sometimes going overboard with her curiosity about their nature but otherwise working there #felt almost normal. And normalcy was all they wanted when everybody around them started treating them differently.#They eventually befriended Quirrel and started spending time with him outside the Archives too.#Anyway had an idea that their bfs come pick them up one day after working at the archives and Quirrel catches them #Petunia has such a bad read on social cues JFBFJFHF #Flower was meant to be looking to the side at them but.because of their stupid head shape and lack of pupils they look like they're staring #into your soul #The height difference is a bit fucked but that was before I made that height chart

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mordeshakes · 7 days ago

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Soon...

#hitman 3 #work in progress #fan art #my art #cartoonishly #it feels awkward to tag myself but i don't post wips on the other blog and its still gotta be associated with it

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todayisafridaynight · 3 months ago

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i honestly love your streams they’re so entertaining i can’t wait for when you get back on it

AW thanks guy :] tbh i felt like a really dry and uninterestin person when i streamed so its reassurin to hear it was fun to watch when i did stream !

#snap chats #im a really awkward person i feel so it always baffles me to read i was Somewhat entertaining to watch durin streams jvleakjvlake #ive been wanting to stream all summer but i was either too busy to actually stream what i wanted #or i just wasnt feeling it. ive been wanting to do art streams again for a while #though what ive doodled during my downtime has varied from rgg so im not sure if anyone would really care to watch that #i still doodle rgg- i havent posted anything ive doodled since they didnt feel post worthy to me #but with time we'll see !! i know i def wanna stream the rgg stream later in september #and i wnna have at least SOME streams done beforehand just so yk. ease back into it all #but yeah ! hold me to this gang i'm gonna look into streaming on youtube maybe friday next week #not saying therell be a stream anytime soon but i just wanna look into my options so i CAN plan to stream soon #i miss hangin with people ..#...also i havent beat lost judgment yet vJAELKVJAE #I SWEAR I MEANT TO I JUST GOT BUSY and then i felt awkward about not playing it on stream #i thought id finish it off stream but. Again. Busy. so i might as well resume it on stream #but those are plans for the not-near future ..

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leggomyayygo · 2 years ago

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Uh hi? 🙈

#AHSJSKSKDKD I FEEL SO AWKWARD BECAUSE I JUST WENT LIKE MIA WITH NO WARNING AT ALL #anyway I'm back!! ish.#Imma be real: the fandom just became a lot for me to deal with due to the hostility of a certain subset of it #3 guesses who lmao #but well don't get your hopes too high #I don't think I'm ready to fully dive back into the ST/Mileven fandom just yet but I would like to become more active on my main #but of course I would still love to consume any art/fics/all around positive fan content of my mutuals so feel free to tag or send me posts #Ily guys sm and I've missed interacting with ya'll #It's just hard to enjoy this fandom when there's also so much hate 🙃#leggomyayygo #ayygo blogs!#mileven

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astragatwo · 1 year ago

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You know, I don't know what I expected but I'm almost impressed 💀 If kjh's plan with all of this was to get me to treat PM like I do Homestuck, it worked, so, congratulations?

#not art #in reference the the latest pm update #a lot of useless nothing but cant say im surprised unfortunately #by 'treat like homestuck' i mean x work has undeniable quality and lots of things to love #however i'd unkindly ask the director/leader/creator to go fuck themselves #and give me their adress so i can [removed for legal reasons]#and do i recommend the works? lol (complicated)#sorry for all the unrelated art posts this art blog is basically just a pm side blog at this point #i still plan on returning eventually but i think i'm going to wipe my inbox and start fresh #answering old asks from before this mess feels um. awkward esp if the asker left the fandom (understandably)#i'll be staying (i am not new to liking media by awful people) but i respect and understand those who aren't and are leaving #for better or for worse when something latches onto my brain with this intensity it is There To Stay Forever

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ekftff · 2 years ago

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hiii im basically inactive over here jsyk

#this blog #feels awkward bc ik lots of my followers followed for art i dont post anymore #just want fresh space :)#will still answer messages though

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