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Random pics of bookbinding that I was able to find on my computer.
Also, most western sources of bookbinding or conservation use wheat starch paste but as a Finnish person, I haven't found and I don't think you can find wheat starch easily in here, since we take celiacs pretty seriously here (lmao it's the excuse, we just love the potato)
So we have maize starch, potato starch, and oat starch available in general. Rice starch is the best one tho since it's available from any asian grocery store. I haven't done any tests on the Finn available starches but grain based starches seem to be the best from what I've read, so potato starch can go and fuck off.
And while I haven't seen any comparisons between wheat and rice starch, I think using either one is fine. The only scientific comparisons I've seen are between oats, potato, etc. but wheat is just the most common in west, while rice starch is most common in east so I think they're both just good. It's just that rice starch is more available in some western countries.
Also, I have used a mix of starch glue and PVA on so while I could write an essay or two about what glues to use, with half it it being questions about WHAT, HOW?? this is always somewhat regional and throwing around brand names is useless. This is something that books about book binding won't usually tell you, but they're just not fucking localized and it matters A LOT.
PVA is a huge category of glues and they do work, since as synthetic glues they can be... elastic? Like, they don't dry stiff. But also, they don't all perform the same. Like in Finland we tend to say to beginners that EriKeeper works, and in US I know that Elmer's Glue is not the same, but it's also the one that works for this purpose and is the basic glue that you can use.
Both Elmer's and EriKeeper are just as bad on the long run but they also both work really well for beginner projects and for someone, who just wants to bind a couple of books for family use, they're both ADEQUATELY GOOD.
So anygays, I forgot if I had a point here, other than you can use what the fuck glue want, as long as it's not potato starch, and it's in the PVA family, I guess.
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Making Incorrect H:SR Quotes Until I Run Out of (hopefully) Original Ideas - Pt. 2
[Pt. 1] [Pt. 3] [Pt. 4] [Pt. 5] [Pt. 6]
#honkai star rail#hsr#hsr incorrect quotes#honkai star rail memes#hsr memes#honkai star rail meme#hsr meme#boothill#robin#hsr robin#sunday#hsr sunday#aventurine#dr ratio#ratiorine#aventio#acheron#black swan#acherswan#dan heng#march 7th#stelle#hsr trailblazer#what's the ship name for march and stelle. uh#i have no clue. it'd be their names smashed together right. starch??? 😭#whatever it is feel free to tag it if u want! and maybe i'll learn smthn bc surely there's another name for them#omfg i just googled it and apparently it IS starch you learn smthn new every day#anyways. here's hoping none of these have been done before!#i managed to make one (1) image that didn't include Aven or Ratio wow //edit: there's 3 i was just so tired i couldn't count lmao#anyways it's past my bedtime i spent too long making this and i still gotta do my HSR dailies rq so goodbye and goodnite to u all
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Vegan Sakura Daifuku Butter Mochi
#vegan#sweets#Japanese cuisine#East Asian cuisine#wagashi#mochi#sakura#cherry blossoms#edible flowers#wild food#glutinous rice flour#plant milk#vegan butter#beet juice#red bean paste#potato starch#maple sugar
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How the hell is all this acrylic paint that I bought for a class I signed up for in 2004 (not a typo) still wet?
#ineffablefool original post#not good omens#i didn't *take* the class because i dropped it after a couple weeks#it was a hands-on art class where everyone could wander around and chat while they worked and play music on the lil boombox etc#UNLESS you crossed over into Too Much Wandering Around Chatting territory in which case the instructor's actual stated official policy#was to take points off your grade for it#without telling you he was doing so#everyone was just supposed to Know where the line was and there would be no feedback by which we might adjust our behavior along the way#which NOOOO THANKS i was not interested in that kind of nightmare for 3 hours every Thursday or whatever it was#but i'd already bought the supplies#which can apparently keep just fine for twenty years#(i am pondering maybe making some paste paper#because i bought some fancy paper for endpapers but none of it really goes with the book i'm binding#and i read that you just need acrylic paint and the patience to stir boiled starch#which i might not have the latter but i do somehow still have the former)#ineffablefool mentions bookbinding
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Making paper backed cloth for bookbinding
I tried my hand recently on making my own book cloth, not because I can’t get any, but because there are so many fun patterns and colours around. To be honest, I expect bought book cloth to be superior for all the ways it’s finished to be more resilient towards dirt and and such, but that doesn’t say self made cloth is bad at all! There are different ways to achieve a paper backing, I went for the backing with paper and starch paste because a) if I mess up I can always do it over no harm done, no material lost b) I have my doubts about the durabilty of heat activated glues and their durability c) using paste is just so much cheaper
So first up was cooking starch paste. I don’t have a ratio for that. I put a spoon of starch into a pot, add some water to get rid of any lumps and let it soak a few minutes (usually just long enough to get some water boiling), then I slowly pour over the boiling water while stirring the starch and at some point it turns from white to translucent and lumpy and I stop when there’s a certain thickness. When the paste has cooled it press it through a mesh and add some more water as needed. (It’s usually rather thick at that point.)
(and yes, my mesh is a nylon sock. I don’t own a fancy horeshair sieve and this stores much easier) Then I prepared my cloth and the paper I was going to use for backing. The final sheets have the warp and the grain direction run parallel for better usage and less warping (at least that’s the theory, I have yet to use that selfmade cloth to find out). The limiting factor here was the width of the web of tissue paper I used. Because I also need the paper to be 2,5cm -5cm larger than the piece of fabric in order to get a smooth sheet of book cloth. Having around 5cm for an edge makes it far easier to get the paper on the cloth even if there is a little skew.
I moistened the pre-washed, but un-ironed fabric (I have some cotton and synthetic fabric, none of them are elastic) and smoothed it down to a flat surface that won’t be needed for a couple of hours (preferably over night). Glas would be best but I didn’t have that, so I picked two work benches for that. I used plenty of water, which was a good thing, I’d say because even when smoothed down, a bit more water made the synthetic fabric wrinkly again.
I sprayed the later front side, turned the cloth around and sprayed the backside. Brushed the water in with a clean brush until the fabric clung smooth to the surface.
Then I spread the paste on the paper and put it on top of the backside of the fabric, brushed down the paper on top of the cloth with a clean and dry brush to get rid of any airbubbles. Starting in the middle of the fabric and brushing along the long side to the sides to push out the air. Then I gave it a brush down along the short side too. (the slightly brighter stretches of paper on the left are where the air is still caught under the paper, on the right is the paper all smoothed down)
Sometimes I had to lift the edfe of the paper carefully to let out some air or get rid of a too large wrinkle that was building up in the paper.
I weighed the cloth and paper down with blotting paper and blotting board as well as some wooden boards, but only to make them dry faster. In consideration of the table surface I cut only one corner loose after the coth had dried and loosened the rest by running a very flat bone folder all around the edges.
I had great success with the cotton fabric. only minimal bleed through of paste at the edges and a slight smudge in the middle of one sheet.
the synthetic fiber... not so much. While others before that one had taken well to the paste, the one with those shades of blue and purple did not. it was a mess to smooth down and apparently not smooth enough. when I pried it loose it was all bubbly and a lot of fabric was not adhered to the paper backing.
I scrapped that one, I pulled the paper off, washed it out again and this time pressed it while drying, so it would be smooth before the next attempt.
Cleaning up the surface was easy by the way. It was all plastered with dried starch paste, but I simply sprayed it with water, let it sit for a bit and wiped it off. No scrubbing needed at all.
#bookbinding#paper backed cloth#book cloth#making starch paste#cotton cloth#synthetic fiber cloth#again this has gotten more lengthy than I anticipated...
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learning to cook Asian food while living in a provincial little European backwater is an endless fucking quest to Obtain Ingredient
#stuff i had trouble getting: sumac. shaoxing wine. curry leaves.#currently struggling to figure out how to get fucking wheat starch#luckily in the past couple years stuff like oyster sauce and rice vinegar and fish sauce became really easy to get#and i finally found a reasonably nearby source for dark vinegar and gochujang for when i decide i need that#azuki beans also seem to be doable#but aaaaahhhhh fuck me
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can i ask how you got into paper conservation? i’m very interested in doing conservation/heritage /museum studies myself after i finish undergrad, but everyone telling me about insane oversaturation in those areas has me worried 😭
Absolutely you can! :)
I came to paper conservation from a fine art background. I did four years at art school, developing an interest in folklore and mythology along the way which gradually expanded to an interest in history in general. I knew I wanted to work in museums/heritage but it was only when I happened to encounter two conservators doing public outreach at a historic library I was visiting that everything fell into place. I approached them, said "I want your job! How do I become You?!" and then I went out and became Them! I did a two year MA and have been working in the field for about five years since, primarily in digitisation.
In my experience, conservation as a field both lives and dies by its incredibly specialised nature.
On the one hand, to say that the field is oversaturated isn't entirely unfair (as much as I wish I could tell you otherwise!). Depending on where you are, both geographically and within your career, jobs can be quite thin on the ground, are fought for quite competitively when they do crop up, and are often project-specific with short contracts.
But on the other hand, the specialised nature of conservation means that you don't just fall into it accidentally - the people within the field are there because they really really want to be there! :) There's a passion and a sense of community that's just lovely. Many people I've worked with and under are alumni of the very same MA course as I am, for example. They understand better than anyone all the trials and tribulations of starting out in the field because they've been on the very same specialised path, and are invariably eager to share knowledge and lend support! :D
Those are just some broad strokes anyway. I'd encourage you to continue to research as much as possible so you've the clearest idea of what you might be letting yourself in for!
Please, please do get in touch with me again if there's more specific info or advice I can help with. :)
And please, please don't be discouraged from pursuing things further - conservation/heritage is a challenging and complex field to be in but it's a fun, weird, varied, and incredibly rewarding one too! <3
#As usual I feel like I've waffled on about a whole load of nothing#Nevertheless :)#I want to hear more from you mysterious anon!#Please get in touch again and I'll move heaven and earth to induct you into my weird profession!#You simply won't believe how excited it's possible to get about wheat starch paste and iron gall ink and sturgeon bladders!#Asks#Friendos!#Personal
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i knew going completely off corn to check if I felt better without any in my diet would be a bit tricky. I knew that
I never expected it to be this damn hard though.
Corn is in everything
I knew to be wary of anything premade with sweets - the creamer and the BBQ sauce and the ice cream
But its in crackers and pretzels and boullion and cream of chicken soup and powdered sugar and anything that has vegetable oil or something as a thickener*could* have corn oil or corn starch in it
And like how can I possibly figure out if eating corn is the cause of my horrible headaches and general unwellness if i can't actually eliminate it from my diet?!
#Allergies#Food problems#Corn#Seriously I am just trying to check for a couple months#And like I think it's helping but this week has been a bitch#Cause I had awful headaches for the past three days#And was it the fact that apparently the frosting I made had corn starch in it?#Or trying to play old Nintendo 64 game?#Or am I just sick?#Is something else causing migraines??!
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My recipe...
I wish every trans person a belly full of delicious soup
#reblog#dice ginger#garlic#bok choy#and celery#grate carrots#put this all into a pot with sesame oil#onion and garlic powder#chinese 5 spice seasoning#cumin#curry powder#salt peper#dried chili flakes#saute#after cooked theough add broth of your choice#add a spoon of miso paste dissolve it in the ladle#make a slurry to thicken your soup#1 part glutenous rice flour to 2 parts water#orbyou can use corn starch#whatever you have#slowly mix in#depending on how nany people you sre making this for#add 2 to 5 eggs#wisk before adding#add fish sauce#soy sauce#rice wine or lemon juice#serve with green onions and hot sauce kf your choice#(ㆁωㆁ)
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Paste Kettle
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Paste Kettle (starch paste kettle) including tilting paste kettle is designed for paste preparation. Starch Paste Kettle confirms to cGMP norms and comprises of a jacketed hemispherical bowl with all necessary steam accessories. Design principle of this kettle is the jacket for passing steam in order to melt down the product to make paste. This kettle has a unique tilting arrangement for discharging the product.
Tilting paste kettle is designed for ointment, cream and paste preparation. It has a universal application resulting in uniform melting. This tank is designed to meet missing needs of wider range of products under varied operating conditions in chemicals, Foods, Cosmetics and Pharmaceutical Industry. Our range of Jacketed paste kettle from 10 liters small paste kettle to 250 liters industrial paste kettle. Due to its application of working with starch it is also called as starch melting machine or starch mixing machine.
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[ Original Twitter Thread by @/beelektra ] - Not by Magz, am not Palestinian
Palestinian Foods. (long post)
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"🧵 Thread of Palestinian desserts I've grown up around and seen A thing I'd like to add is that I just like to share my culture! I do not want to spread the narrative that our culture is dying, I only want people to see our foods and traditions 🇵🇸
"As mentioned in the last post, we have knafeh (or kunafa), a buttery dessert made with shredded pastry layers such as cheese and other ingredients like pistacho or cream!"
"Burbara; which comes from Saint Barbara, fun fact! It's a soup dessert that mainly consists of barley, licorice spices, anise, cinnamon, and fennel powder This is a dessert usually many Christian families have to celebrate Saint Barbara, which is December 4th!"
"Malban, which resembles a fruit jelly! Made from starch and sugar Specifically, it's made with grape molasses, thickened with starch and flavored with rose water, and stuffed with almonds (or other nuts including walnuts, treenuts, and peanuts)"
"Khabeesa is simply just a pudding made with grapes, but you prepare it by mixing the grape juice with semolina and nuts + seeds."
"Mtabbak or mtabba, a crispy dough stuffed with crushed walnuts. It also contains cinnamon, sugar, and syrup. Photo credits go to Bartek Kieżun on Instagram"
"Tamriyeh, a fried pastry filled with semolina pudding, scenter with mastic and orange blossom water, and topped off with powdered sugar"
"Ka'ak bi Tamer, which are date paste filled cookies with cinnamon! A dessert made for Eid-Alfitr. It's topped with nigella seeds, and the cinnamon-spiced date paste is the most important part of it all– you can eat it on its own or have it with coffee"
"+ Ka'ak Asawer, another dessert that can be prepared for Eid-Alfitr. It's translated to bracelet cookies, and they use date paste, flour, anise seeds, sugar, ground cinnamon, and olive oil"
"Muhallebi or mahalabia, a milk pudding that's made with sugar, corn starch, and fragrant flavorings! It's topped off with nuts, pistachos, and almonds and sprinkled with ground cinnamon or shredded coconut"
"Rice pudding, which is a common dessert in Palestine, and it's your choice to top it off with nuts or not"
"Stuffed dates, using medjool dates and cracking them open to be stuffed with goat cheese and pistachios– but you're free to add anything else"
"Ma'amoul, a buttery crisp cookie primarily made of farina and can be stuffed with (spiced) dates, walnuts, or pistachios. This is another Christian dessert made by Palestinian mothers during the week of Easter Sunday."
"Halawit Smid, a farina based dessert with added sugar and unsalted cheese. It's preferably served fresh"
"Namoura cake, aka harissa dessert! It's made with semolina or farina flour, and then topped off with syrup once baked"
"Qatayef, which is eaten during the month of Ramadan. It's made of farina, flour, water, and yeast blended together– the process is pretty similiar to making pancakes, but only one side is cooked"
"Since I've mentioned using zaatar for a lot of things, I recently just discovered this but– there's also things such as zaatar cookies!! It's just as implied that the cookies are filled with zaatar, I'd be so willing to make this on my own"
"Baklava, made from phyllo pastry dough, butter, nuts, basil, and a sweet honey syrup"
"Aish el saraya, arabic version of a bread pudding. It's basically a layered bread, where it starts from the bottom, then covered with a sweet syrup, cream, and crumbled pistachios."
"Awwami, it's defined as "crisp donut ball" in English. It's a deep fried dough ball coated with sesame seeds, and dipped in cold syrup water."
"Halawet el Jibn, a sweet cheese dessert rolled with custard, heavy cream, drizzled rose water + syrup, and garnished with nuts."
"Lastly, I'd like to add watermelon and cheese– for me, it's like,,,, bittersweet!!! You should totally try it and we also have this during Ramadan"
"Well, that's all I can think of for Palestinian desserts! Here's the first part for general foods, I know I did make a promise for part two
I hope you guys liked this thread, and if you have any opinions please feel free to quote tweet anything on here if I made a mistake, feel free to correct me, it's always appreciated P.S if you're a zionist commenting here I really don't care, just scroll, I'm sharing my culture
One LAST thing. if you want any of the recipes from here, check out this website, the creator (Wafa) shares so many wonderful traditional Palestinian dishes."
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Yeah, sound off, and this inflexibility hurts -everyone-. To compare a wlw relationship to a straight one and ask, "who's the woman, who's the man" and act like that designation indicates top/bottom/switch/dom/sub for the lesbian couple is just nonsense.
Straight couples have diversity in their relationship, too, shoving individual characters into a classic straight couple model that never actually existed in the first place is so limiting. Making sure you can contextualize the people in a gay relationship with ONE kind of straight relationship 1:1 is just boring.
To call it out as internalized homophobia and misogyny is exactly right and it's SUCH A SHAME 🙄
One of the most internalized homophobic takes, even among "non-homophobic" people (and even present in the lesbian community), is the idea that Butch women can’t be submissive. If there's a Caitvi sex scene where Caitlyn goes down on Vi, A lot of people (who unintentionally/subconsciously compare a relationship between two women to that of a straight man/woman relationship) will freak out and feel uncomfortable.
Even if there’s a fem and butch dynamic in a lesbian relationship, it can never be compared to a heterosexual one. In the case of Cait and Vi, I think the opposite is true: maybe Vi puts on a mask, but it’s with Cait that she drops it and shows her vulnerable side. (Despite this, she doesn’t become any less ‘butch’ or more ‘feminine’ – which is also a stereotype due to internalized homophobia and misogyny.) Giving ourselves to our partner is never a weakness.
#arcane#vi#caitlyn#any relationship made up of any combination of identities ever does not need to explain itself in relation to man/woman/top/bottom#There are no rules#Do not reference your user manual#if you have something claiming to be a user manual it's a liar and you should tear the pages out for toilet paper#Or kindling for the fire at your beautiful camping site in the woods#Or starch it for origami or paper airplanes#Or cut out the words to make spooky paste text art#Look at the characters as they actually are#And then have fun!
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Daifuku Mochi 大福餅 (Vegan & Gluten-Free)
#vegan#gluten free#sweets#wagashi#mochi#japanese cuisine#asian cuisine#daifuku#rice flour#red bean paste#potato starch#beans#cane sugar
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#sweet and sour#umami#bean paste#sweet and sour pork#recipe in japanese#recipe#starch#salt#pepper#pork#onions#green bell pepper#red bell pepper#bell pepper#vinegar#ketchup#sugar#soy sauce#Japan#Japanese food
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A continuation on my post about unloved foods, specifically this is my in-depth defense of root beer.
Root Beer isn't inherently gross, it's just one of those weird local flavors that's off-putting to people who didn't grow up with it. We all like different things and also we all tend to like flavors that are similar to what we grew up with. That's okay! But honestly root beer is pretty unique and, in my opinion, delicious.
One of the main complaints against root beer is that it tastes like medicine. Funnily enough, it was originally marketed as medicinal! This is true for most OG sodas actually. Pretty much as soon as carbonated water was invented, people were drinking it to soothe various ailments. A lot of the original soft drinks were actually invented by pharmacists. I just think that root beer is especially cool because the main flavor came from the root bark of sassafras, a common North American shrub. Because it's so widespread and aromatic, all parts of the sassafras plant have been used in food and medicine by many different Native American tribes throughout history and was subsequently picked up and used by European colonists. In the 1960s, some studies indicated that that safrole oil, which is produced by the plant, can cause liver damage. Whether or not this would actually remain true after it had been boiled and added to root beer is unclear, but it was really easy to replicate the flavor, so the sassafras in commercial root beer these days is artificial. Another fun fact about safrole is that it's a precursor in the synthesis of MDMA. None of this information has stopped my childhood habit of eating sassfras leaves right off the shrub whenever I walk past it on a hike. I'm like 85% sure it's safe and also mmmm yummy leafs go crunch.
Another root beer complaint is that it tastes like toothpaste. I think this is probably because another key flavor in most root beer recipes is wintergreen. I'm assuming that the people who think this are the same people who think mint chocolate chip ice cream tastes like toothpaste. I can understand and even respect that some people don't like mint and associate it only with brushing their teeth, but like. Mint is a pretty common flavor. I mean I think it's safe to say that humans have been eating mint flavored stuff for longer than toothpaste has existed... anyway!
Other common flavors in root beer (real or artificial) are caramel, vanilla, black cherry bark, sarsaparilla root, ginger, and many more! There's not one official recipe, and root beer enthusiasts often have strong opinions about different brands. Some root beer is sharper, with more strong aromatic flavors, and others are mild and creamier.
Another thing I think is cool about root beer is that it's foamier than most sodas. This was originally because sassafras is a natural surfactant (and why sassafras is also a common thickening agent in Louisiana Creole cooking.) These days, other plant starches or similar ingredients are added to keep the distinctive foam. Root beer foam > all other soft drink foams. That's why root beer floats kick more ass than like, coke floats.
If you've never had root beer before, imagine if a sweetened herbal tea was turned into a soda, because that's basically what it is. If your first response to that is a cringe, fair enough. That's why lots of people don't like it. If your first response to that is "interesting... I might actually like it, though" then I encourage you to track down a can of root beer today, hard as that might be outside the US and Canada. Next time you see an "ew, root beer tastes like medicine/tooth paste" take, know that there's a reason for that, but also the same could be said for literally any herbal or minty food/drink.
My final take on root beer is that it would be the soda of choice for gnomes. Thank you and good night.
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You mentioned in one post that bombshell!reader was furious with the team for not helping Reid with his addiction (as she should be)…. Would you maybe write about her helping him thru withdrawal or thru the cravings that follow? Maybe subtly at first, then just making sure he knew he wasn’t alone? Just some tender moments where Spencer starts to realize she actually cares about him, even if he doesn’t believe her flirting yet.
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I love every single thing you write, even for fandoms I’m not even in. You’re amazing!!
thank you for requesting my sweetheart!!! I really hope this is what you wanted, love you <3 fem!reader
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“Hi, Spencer Reid.”
You perch on the edge of his desk with no further introduction. You’ve changed perfumes, to his immediate recognition, the rich smell of your usual parfum swapped for a less consuming scent. He detects apple blossom, and rose, the smallest hint of jasmine, a contrast to your usual vanilla and peony. The human brain can remember 50,000 scents, and Spencer can remember all of yours. Or, he could.
“You’re not saying hi anymore?”
“Hi, Y/N.”
“Hi. It’s nice to see you.” You put your hand on his. Spencer isn’t sure you’ve ever touched his hand before you took it at the hospital, he’s never really let you, but he doesn’t move away. A huge winding of tension between his shoulders begins to unspool. “It’s really nice to see you, babe. I’ve missed you tons and tons.”
He looks up tentatively. “You have?”
“I have. I haven’t really been invited, today. I’m just here to see you.”
“Why?” Spencer asks.
You tighten your fingers on his hand. “Missed you. Thought maybe we should, like…” And that’s unusual, for you to use filler words, Spencer doesn’t know what to think of it. “Well, I have something to say to you, and it’s going to either sound reassuring or ridiculous.”
“Okay.”
You give him a withering look. “Don’t make it any easier for me.”
He laughs. The sound alone fosters your smile. “Sorry,” he says softly, “I doubt it’ll be ridiculous.”
“Spencer Reid, we are friends. We are. But we never do anything outside of work, so I was thinking you could come over tonight and we’d make dinner and watch TV and stuff.”
“And stuff.”
“I’m a bit nervous,” you confess, looking down at your lap, then quickly back up into his face, “I’m worried you won’t want to.”
You’re kind to avoid saying what he’s sure you’re thinking; you’re worried he won’t want to spend the night with you, and instead will look down the long barrel of a small needle. Or, he thinks that’s what you’re thinking. He does it to everyone.
“What do you want to make for dinner?” he asks.
“What are you enjoying lately?”
“I… I don’t know. I’m not really eating.”
“Cereal?”
“Yes,” he laughs. “Lots of cereal.”
You tap the wheel of his chair with your heel. You’re dressed as though you aren’t working, wearing a sweet dark dress with a starched collar and baby sleeves, stockings, and a necklace at your neck that glows with a small white crystal. You look amazing. It never makes any sense to Spencer, why you’d taken an interest in him, and why you bother now. He knows he’s hard to care for. He knows he’s making it worse.
You look up and down his face. You must see the purple half circles beneath his eyes, the crack at the corner of his mouth, the cut he can’t stop picking on his cheek. Every time it scabs, he opens it again. One second he’s sitting there and the next he’s got blood under his fingernail.
“Hug?” you ask hopefully.
He goes to stand. You move in too fast and wrap your arms around him, leg slotting between his, leaning over his shoulders with a distinct sense of protectiveness. You squeeze him, a little sigh escaping you that sounds loud so close to his ear.
“How has it been this week?” you ask quietly.
“It’s fine.” He cups your back in his arm carefully. The other wraps tight around the small of it. He soaks you up, scared you’re gonna pull away any second.
“How are you feeling about it? Do you need any extra help?”
He cringes. “No,” he says. “It’s really fine.”
“When you texted me, about the cravings? What are they like today?”
He wishes he could breathe in the smell of your perfume and your skin and tell you they’re all better now. It would make sense; there isn’t much in his life that hasn’t been made better by your attention. He’d struggle to do this without you. You’re his only friend who actually cared enough to say the problem out loud, but you’re just a woman, you can’t work the sort of magic necessary to kick this for him.
“Spencer?” You pull away, nudging his cheek with the back of your finger.
“They’re okay. I’m not gonna do anything.”
“Good, honey. I’m proud of you. I know how hard this is.”
He bites the inside of his lip, surprised at your caring. He shouldn’t be.
“What are you two whispering about?”
You and Spencer have different reactions to Emily’s sudden question. He flinches like he’s been caught with his hand in the cookie jar and you, still vaguely pissed with everyone for not telling you Spencer was struggling and not afraid to show it, keep your eyes trained on his face.
“Nothing,” Spencer says.
You turn to her with a small smile. You still like her, Spencer knows. Secretly, he’s pleased you’re angry for him. It’s nice to have someone so obviously on his side. “We’re just deciding what to get for dinner.”
“Oh, nice. Date night?” she teases.
You press your cheek to his forehead. “Date night,” you agree, your hand unmissable where it bunches in his sweater near his heart.
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