#sry for the rant and amount of tags

[butchladymaria]

like this actually genuinely baffles me. people seriously sit down and pay a hundred dollars to access ONE (1) generic anime boy. and then pay another hundred dollars to get his weapon. and then pay a hundred dollars five more times to unlock all his abilities. for One Character. like holy shit.

i seriously have to wonder if its for lack of playing an actually good game before? this isn’t me being petty either, genshin’s game design is just Genuinely so boring. the only thing genshin impact was actually good at is making me wish i was playing breath of the wild, a game where you can run around as an anime boy and get weapons and outfits for free, except its actually also fun. breath of the wild has Actually Engaging Gameplay And Story instead of just characters Talking At You with nearly identical fetch quests sprinkled in here and there.

rather than a leveling system that forces you fight the exact same enemy in the exact same place hundreds of times (without exaggeration!!!!) the game has a dynamic system of gradually making the enemies harder in response to the player’s exploration and progress. and that’s not even factoring in the utterly baffling decision for players to potentially spend hundreds of dollars to get a character, only to find that they are completely unusable because the items needed to make them stronger are completely inaccessible for literal hours upon hours of gameplay.

and the worst part is, the whole of botw costs less than reaching pity for ONE (1) character in genshin impact ONE (1) time. like who designed this shit. it sucks so hard.

and the worst part is? this shamelessly shitty amalgam of every predatory game practice under the sun cheaply masquerading as a worse copy of better games made over a Billion Dollars last year. this garbage fire made more in ONE YEAR than ELDEN RING, off of what i can only assume are the backs of underpaid employees and people who developed gambling addictions as a direct result of their unethical and exploitative business model.

okay but seriously. why do people play genshin impact when they could do literally anything else.

[j3strr]

I just spent 4 hours yelling on a discord server about my oc. Don’t ask how I had the time and attention span to do that, I couldn’t tell you.

Anyway, during that time I made a guide on how to tell the three different versions of him apart because I draw him at different stages of his life frequently and I am insane.

The guide is under the cut if anyone cares to read it (it’s long 650ish words) also it’s not proof read and I was a mess when I wrote this so please go easy on me.

Near the end I start talking about someone named Cyn and he’s the mc of the story and the love interest.

Man, having your oc also being your favorite blorbo is weirdddd

‼️Know your Vivian ‼️

A comprehensive guide on how to identify what version of my oc Vivian you’re looking at.

Child/teen (5-19)

Appearance

⁃ has wavy black hair that reaches his jaw

⁃ Mainly wears t-shirts and hoodies

⁃ Has bandaids a lot

Personality

⁃ ambiverted

⁃ Curious in a ‘curiosity killed the cat’ kinda way

⁃ Doesn’t have many friends

⁃ Speaks out/ speaks for himself

⁃ Very confrontational

⁃ Doesn’t like his half sister (Ebony)

⁃ Few moles

Living arrangement

He lives with his ‘not so great’ dad and his golden child younger sister Ebony in hell.

His dad is the war general for hell and is (badly) training Vivian to be his heir.

Collage age (19-24)

Appearance

⁃ Unkempt light blond dyed hair that still just reaches his jaw

⁃ No moles and birthmarks on his face (he covers them with concealer) they’re still on his arms and body tho bc makeup just smudges off

⁃ Wears a white tank top and a black zip up hoodie usually.

⁃ Eye bags

⁃ Constantly looks tired

⁃ Black jeans

⁃ Black choker necklace

Personality

⁃ tired

⁃ Constantly uneasy

⁃ Insecure

⁃ Irritable

⁃ Depression, anxiety and probably unresolved issues due to his childhood

⁃ Has friends but constantly feels detached

⁃ Smokes

⁃ Education major

Living arrangement

Vivian lives with his foster mom

(Valorie Velberne) and his adopted sister (Bailey Idkherlastnameyet) and eventually his original half sister moves in (Ebony darkness). Vivian legally changes his last name to his foster mom’s.

(Vivian darkness -> Vivian Velberne)

Also they’re in Toronto

Adult (26+)

Appearance

⁃ his hair is still dyed blonde (darker) but it’s grown out to his shoulders and he has black roots

⁃ His hair is also fluffy

⁃ Wears a soft brown parka with muted purple stripes on the sleeves

⁃ White tank top underneath

⁃ Doesn’t cover his moles anymore

⁃ Still has eyebags but generally looks happier

⁃ Has pins on his coat

⁃ Black cargo pants

⁃ Tall brown hiking boots

⁃ Still wears the necklace from time to time

Personality

⁃ he’s happier because he enjoys his job and the people around him

⁃ Stern but kind

⁃ Firm with his boundaries

⁃ Enjoys life

⁃ Resting bitch face

⁃ Caring

⁃ Helpful

⁃ Reasonable

⁃ Intimidating

Living arrangement

He runs a boarding school/ orphanage that houses humanoid mystical creatures who would probably be hunted by the government if found (angels, warewolves, vampires etc). It’s directly in between a lake and a forest. He lives full time in a cabin for the councillors there.

things that stay the same throughout

⁃ He has birthmarks and moles all over his body

⁃ Right eye is dark pink/ red and he has a freckle underneath and to the right of his pupil

⁃ Left eye is light pink is usually the only one drawn with a highlight

⁃ Tall straight black horns

⁃ Black tail that resembles a lion’s or cow’s

⁃ Naturally black hair that he dyes

⁃ Pale

⁃ Gets cold easily

⁃ Never wears sweaters and coats inside (blankets instead)

⁃ Always wears a coat when he goes out

⁃ His favourite colour is light pink (bc that’s the colour I associate him with the most)

⁃ He’s a demon

⁃ He has a pretty round face

⁃ On the shorter side

⁃ Narrow eyes

- Gay

Songs

Child/teen

Teen after him and Cyn met the first time

Collage age

Adult after he met Cyn again



This part specifically goes over how he feels about Cyn as he gets used to Cyn working there. I feel it correlates with his emotions rlly well.

The song The Bird Song almost exactly parallels how he feels about Cyn. Like, exactly, it’s rlly cool how well it fits.

(Link to the playlist on yt)

[indigo-villin]

Don't know which blog this will go to so warning this is a vent of sorts, mostly a rant, but either way. Also a bit of swearing at the end

So I've been on toyhouse getting some OCs lately as I do here and there randomly, some for free, some through trade, a couple through some raffles, the whole sha-bang. Going through the toyhouse freebie trade section is... rough sometimes.

I had to block and mute a few people cause of some of their general OC "rules" like one person saying if you have over 150 characters but under like 50 they wouldn't give you any (it was like 150 is "okay" and 200 was too many, but an account with 50 or less was just someone "having a second account to hide the truth" that they would allegedly have like over 800) and it's like... wow I'm sure you're fun to have around on the OC storing website... (severely sarcastic here for those who need tone tags, i don't know them well enough to use sry)

Now that person was like the worst, but there were others that said no one over 150/200/ no "new accounts" or accounts with more than 10 pages of OC/etc etc.

And like... as someone who LOVES making designs on picrew and saving them cause their cute and loved trading/getting OCs from friends in my DA days and still doing that occasionally where friends still gift me OCs cause they don't want them I can't understand this thought process, how does me having x amount of OCs I love regardless of how much art those characters have effect you? I don't get an OC from x person and wait til their rules say I can trade them again and shove them back into the trade listings, I keep them. Unless I genuinely lose complete interest in the design and character I keep them. I'm not big into undertale anymore, but I still have EVERY SINGLE skeleton OC from that time and have gotten more past that, cause many of them don't involve UT and have their own lives outside of it. I still have my MLP OCs for mlp g4, most of those OCs have full stories unwritten, with little to no art, but I still keep them. I don't make any stories for those OCs either, their stories are written and done with mostly minuet things being undecided rather than actual story being untold, but I can't write stories easily so these kinda people would assume I'm just hoarding good OCs, letting them "collect dust" which like... that's such a load of bullshit, like seriously they can't collect dust, they're not real they're designs I made in highschool or got in hs.

It's so weird to say that people who want to give their OCs away are kinda elitist with it, but a lot of people are.

Also if you're on th never use the wta/dta/game trade listing, like don't look for an OC there, stick to the normal freebie section. Again with the whole elitist thing, a LOT of adopts in the first one are old, never get sent to any one, or the rules for a wta are quite literally write a novel to maybe get the OC if the current owner decides you're in their good graces (this is not me being salty I have literally seen this happen SEVERAL times while browsing). DTAs are also usually incredibly old or are built on a raffle/ after x amount of time they'll decide on/spin for a winner adn many of the older ones have ended with nothing happening, just silence adn people leaving it to rot.

Anyways sorry for the mega rant I just wanted to scream into the void about something I'm not bringing to the website itself in case some rando decides to call out post me for being a "petty hoarder" or something dumb (yes people have had call out posts on there written about them "being hoarders" and such)...

[spicyenjolras]

haha i love getting into a huge argument with my parents about the financial logistics of college and then crying about it at 1:00am when i have to get up in 5 hours to go teach middle schoolers some math.

[morningsound15]

You say it's hard to come into a new fandom because you're not a "moderately well known" writer there. You say people should leave more comments and kudos. And that's all true. But when was the last time you gave an unknown writer a chance, the last time you left a comment? In my experience the well known/popular writers rarely give anyone who's not well known the time of the day. Looking at your bookmark list, full of the same popular names when it comes to supercorp and clexa, I doubt you do.

this ask made me sad :(

that’s not rlly what i was saying about entering new fandoms I was more being annoying & complaining bc i was feeling whiny, it’s no ones fault except mine that im not deep in any other tumblr fandom communities I knew it wasn’t good analysis just wanted to b annoying for a moment

I’d encourage you to look through my bookmarks tag, bc while ya there are a lot of clexa & supercorp fics because those are my main fandoms for reading (they are also some of the largest f/f fandom fic communities on the internet, so there’s constantly new & amazing content there), but it is full of a bunch of other weird rarepairs and couples from lesser known shows & things that are not very well known

also if i get to the end of a fic & i like it i literally always comment! or at least I try to. i didn’t always used to do that but the more involved I’ve gotten in writing fic the more active I’ve been as a fic consumer. I don’t spend all my time reading fanfic, so it’s harder for me to find unknown gems, which is why I like to put out calls for other ppl to send me fic recs! Bc there are some fandoms I’m not deep in so I end up finding stuff people have already read. ive left comments on hundreds of fics and I follow tons of different writers on here to keep up with their work & posting schedules! idk for sure if this is true I guess, but I think I’ve commented on every fic that’s in that bookmark tag, & I usually add a little note in the bookmark too, & if I revisit a story I try to comment again. Even if it’s just a “still love this” I do that, so would love for the accusations & assumptions to cease lol

(also it isn’t like a bad thing to like work that other people also like — sometimes there’s a story that’s so good you have to bookmark it.)

My bookmark page is not representative of the amount of fic I read / kudos / comment on / enjoy! I don’t bookmark every fic I read & like, only WIPs I want to follow & things that really impacted me & blew me away, or things that gave me joy & I want to revisit some day. U cannot judge my fandom behavior on my bookmarks list alone (also those fics are all bangers so no h8 to those authors pls I literally love them). I try to have good fandom etiquette because that’s what I hope my readers would do too! idk if you’ve been following me for a while but I am pretty liberal about sharing fic recs & fanart on my own blog, like if I see creator work I like I always try to reshare. I don’t have very many followers but I don’t think that matters too much

sry obv I’m not perfect & don’t expect anyone else to b perfect so im sry if that’s how my words came across but it rlly is something fandom has lost since the boom of tumblr & fandom. idk sometimes I get comments or messages from ppl being like “I’ve read x y z stories of yours and I finally just had to comment” or “I’ve been reading fic for 5 years and have never commented before” and it’s like thank u! But also pls comment on other people’s stuff! Spread fandom love!

anyway sorry for the rant anon, I hope u have a nice day

[down-for-now]

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ive been eating quite a bit more lately, probably not the average amount but slightly below it. the scale has said that i am 121 for a while so...

i was really happy to reach the 110's. maybe i am still there but i am still retaining food/water? idk, i feel too guilty about the scale (and my body and myself lmao 😔) to not update my cw to 121.

however, a lot of that was bc of me spending time with my bf, he always ends up getting me to eat a bunch. that might not be a problem bc we broke up, for a reason i may or may not post about under different tags. it is really fucking tough.

at first i couldnt sleep for the night, and i was overeating bc of anxiety, then we broke up and i went home early in the morning. after not eating for the morning, i got high af and slept for like 10 hours during the day and i woke up not even feeling hungry, let the depression lack of appetite commence :')))

tbh tho a lot of bad things are going on for me rn in general and i have a feeling my ed behaviors are gonna swing in one extreme or the other

[thebluepeninsula]

sry (not sry) about the tags on that last post but I just went on a rant on Instagram about abortion bans and it feels particularly fraught to me rn because (1) no one who matters will see anything I post, (2) even if they did, they won't listen, case in point being that like 75% of Americans don't support this kind of legislation and yet it still passes because *newsflash* this ~democracy~ is broken af, but also (3) I've been a lot nicer and calmer on social media recently and I haven't been calling out stuff that I disagree with and I haven't been reblogging/posting much of anything with any amount of animosity to it, but this shit is breaking my newly formed shell and I'm SO ANGRY

[pinkquartzgeode]

You think I should make a two separate blogs for fob and youtubers? bc rn my blog is just a mess of both

[skittidyne]

how do u feel abt top/bottom dynamics? i feel like so many hq stans r heteronormative abt them and it grates me sooo bad. idt there's anything wrong w having a preference but the amount of times ive seen "a cant ever top b" and other shit along those lines is driving me up the wall dkxksks Also the characters typically seen as the "uke" are usually so feminized too it's 😔 (sry this is more of a rant if anything im just frustrated)

hahahaha. ha. ha.

taking it up the ass is not a personality trait. dominance in the bedroom is also, shockingly i know, not tied to public personas. a loud personality does not mean dominance; a quiet personality does not mean submission. size means jackall. 

people can have preferences. people can have preferences themselves, and in shipping, and in how they see dynamics. fandom hivemind “preferences” are terrible and transparent and horrifically reductive to the characters. 

feminization is also a rampant problem in a lot of fandoms, but hq fandom has it particularly nasty, especially with the double whammy of that plus its strict top/bottom insistence. there’s a reason (okay, many) so many people complain about the shipping tags, across multiple sites. it’s rampant and ugly and stubborn. 

and you know what’s really insidious? i see a lot of people complaining about it, but not very many people stepping up to try to actively fix it. 

whether this means creating content contrary to these issues, or speaking with people who perpetuate it, or ignoring the drama that revolves around it - not inciting further - there are a lot of ways to help reduce this kind of bullshit in the fandom. but it means people have to actually do something. 

do not spread hate, do not attack content creators, and do not start drama. but you can make your own Good Shit(tm), no matter the form it takes.