#spoiling myself

[xielianlover2]

[calleyx13]

I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY 😭🩷

[karizard-ao3]

My reactions to Evangelion episode 3: a transfer/ the silent phone

This is where we get to the episodes I did not watch previously. I hope we get to know more about Rei in this one. In the episode preview at the end of episode 2 it looked like she was in the same class or school as Shinji. So let's see!

I've never seen a kid look less okay or getting used to it.

This kid is not doing good.

You can tell he's the kind of kid who aims to please and I feel like he kind of craves affection.

Why does Shinji need friends? How does that help the mission? Or are they just talking?

How old is Shinji?

This Toji (?) guy... So we're seeing how more kids are affected by what happened. Not sure if this is important to the plot, but it's nice to see the civilian perspective.

Uh oh, Shinji is the pilot.

Shinji's got his earbuds in. He'd fit in perfectly in 2024. What a loner.

Are the Angels from the meteor?

I can't imagine what these school officials were thinking giving the kids laptops with instant messaging capabilities to use during school hours.

Not surprised Toji punched him.

That glasses guy is a shit starter.

Did Rei predict the emergency alert before it happened or did they notify her? I'm not sure.

No glasses, boy! Don't sneak out to watch!

If they know regular weapons aren't going to stop the Angels, why do they keep using them?

Goddamnit it, Glasses. I said don't.

Don't call him and idiot, Misato.

Look, he's got PTSD. He needs to just let the Eva do its thing again.

So it seems like protecting people is what gets Unit One's juices flowing.

Oh, Misato is a rule breaker.

I'm a little disturbed by the Eva having fingernails. Is it like biotech? How did they make it?

Shinji's a little crazy.

In Closing

Trying to think how to gather together my impressions. Misato is interesting to me because on the one hand she's devoted to the mission and she's obviously good enough at what she does that she's a captain, but she also has a laxness about her (like letting the boys in the cockpit and telling Shinji to disengage). I can't tell if she's genuinely chaotic good or if she's got an ulterior motive here. Like, where do her loyalties lie?

I'm interested to see whart happens with Toji and Glasses and how this is going to play out through the series.

I know we only just met him but Shinji does not look like himself when he's piloting. Is he losing himself a little bit when he's in the Eva? It seems like something's not right with him, at least when he's in there.

Also, I kind of wonder about the Eva training. Is it the most effective? It seems like they don't fully understand how the connection between the pilot and the Evas works because Shinji's keeps doing things it shouldn't and it seems like he's more successful when he ignores instructions and goes with the flow. Of course, I've only seen two fights so far, but that's how it looks to me.

I'll watch more tomorrow! That's the plan, anyway!

[supersonicob]

So something highly interesting happened to me yesterday 03-12-25. Ok so on the previous evening I went onto Facebook to see if my long lost friend would respond to me since he was so upset with me about choosing my now recent ex over him… I expected him to either ignore me or say he’s not interested in even hanging out. But surprisingly he did respond and he even excepted my invitation to hang out at a local jazz club. So before I went to work yesterday afternoon we hung out and talked and he did something so surprising and unexpected. He leaned down and kissed me. Now this guy is 6’5 so I legit feel like a tiny person standing next to him and I’m 5’5. So to hug me and kiss me he has to bend at the knees to get to my level or lean over. It’s quite entertaining to me honestly. So anywho, we got to talking and come to find out he’s no longer upset with my choice I made 12 months ago and he is just happy to “have me back” and made a statement that he’s not going to let me go this time around. It was endearing to me to hear a man say these words to me when all this time I thought I would end up single until the got damn apocalypse.

I guess it’s safe to say I am now in a new relationship with my friend I honestly should have married 18 years ago. Both of us are mad that soooooo much time was wasted for us. But we also both agree that everything we went through personally in our lives taught us valuable lessons and we have waaaaay better insight on life in general. And we both have our beloved children we do not regret having. ( even though we regret the person we had them from/with, we do not regret our mini humans though) we know we belonged together years ago after 1 month of hanging out.

so my friend/new boyfriend really helped me lift up my mood. Because on the 11th I was making my drive home from St.Augustine Fl. (My place of zen and peace) and I ended up making myself cry at the realization that I wasted AAAAALL my adult life spending countless hours, years, energy, MONEY, and time on unworthy people. I’ve spent hundreds of thousands of dollars at this point on people I thought I could make something work with. But I was brutally rebuffed and manipulated. (I guess i didn’t have as good a judge of character as I assumed I did) so that realization broke me down and I made a vow to myself that I needed to put that kind of love and time and energy into MY DAMN SELF! Every time I have the thought to buy myself something new and nice I instantly get “BUYERS REMORSE “ but let it be the idea to buy something for someone else, and my brain goes “ yeah let’s make it rain BIG HEADS on this UNWORTHY MANIPULATIVE NARCISSISTIC MALE” I throw bands without any remorse/regret at all. And for years it perplexed me as to why my brain functions like that. Things I need or nice things my baby wanted, I would put it off and postpone the purchase for weeks that turned into months, but if it was for a “friend” or “boyfriend” it was instantaneous. And it made me angry when I’d think about that. So like I said on 3-11-25 I made a vow to myself that I needed to make up for 41 years of self neglect and putting myself last or at the bottom of the stack. If I see something nice I want or felt I needed then I won’t put it off, I’d buy it. And tell that “Buyers Remorse” vibe to stand down. And I felt uplifted and happy with my vow. Especially the love I gave away to “friends” and “boyfriends” I needed to give that love to myself. And I understood that in this society people are not focused on relationships this society is broken. But then my friend came back into the picture and is saying he’s not going to miss another opportunity of us not being together.

Yesterday the 12th when we hung out. As I mentioned he was showering me with so much love 💗 the cuddles the kisses 😘 the hugs 🫂 it came at like every 15 min intervals it was so cute and much needed. I shared with him how mean the recent ex really turned out to be and he made his statements about him. He was understanding of what dude’s personality disorder is and then said that it is OUR time to make it work out. And I couldn’t agree more with him. So what started out as a friendly invite for a drink or two at a local jazz lounge. Has now turned into something special, that new anniversary date went from 03-03-24 TO NOW 03-12-25 (lowkey the date makes me giggle when I go to my calendar) for the simple fact that it should have been my friend this whole time and I should have listened to him when I told him over video chat I had chosen the other dude to be my man, his reply was to squash it instantly and break it off with him THAT SAME DAY. But I didn’t listen. So here we have come full circle on the same damn month as last year and it’s just the date that changed. And all is the way it should have been since ages ago. And we have both decided to make up for lost time. I’m still keeping my vow though. I need to give myself back the love I dished out to so many unworthy people from the ages of 18 to now. I’m just happy to have my friend back who’s just randomly made himself my man so he doesn’t lose me again (his words).

Funny how life turns out.

[raystation2]

Good morning

Grilled cheese & coffee & sonic for the first day

[jus-existing]

I GET TO SEE GRACIE ABRAMS IN TWO WEEKS 😭

[miss-what-a-d0ll]

𝘴𝘩𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘧𝘶𝘭 🥹

[ke-andraiisa]

I bought some essentials for my curly hair today! A nice Denman brush so that they’ll be more defined and voluminous and two cute scrunchies. I love taking care of myself!🍇🪮

[ionomycin]

All the best boy hugs for Karlach

[sunnitheconstruct]

I said i h8t designer but i gotsa have these!!!!!!!! ugh the green r fireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee me: oh no mama! It’s prada!!!!!!!!🤭🤭🧏🏾‍♂️

[lonelytamagotchi]

I wanted THREE items from Target cuz ya know, im trying to limit the spending 🙄 Get to check out and I see that they have affirm, smaller payments over a period of time BUT there's a minimum to qualify 🤔 guess who added more shit into their cart 👀

[jetskikid14]

Why A Shopping Spree Day Can Be Important In Life!

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[jq37]

Rowan is such a funny person to get Quangled into Neverafter because there's no shock factor for her. The weirdness, the gore, the magical peril--very run of the mill fae stuff. It's all, "Yeah, yeah, the time knife we've all seen it" vibes. But she's still EXTREMELY annoyed by all of it so the vibe is less Shock And Horror and more Stuck At Thanksgiving Dinner With Your Annoying Relatives In The Small Town You Grew Up In And Left As Soon As You Could. I love it.

[lazylittledragon]

i need guenhwyvar to be Cat so bad

[ochiody]

@awnrii band au fanart :)