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#yanma when will your hair turn back đ#Q2. (20pts) Explain the trend correlation between yangira yanshio girajera and distribution of screentime#yangira on the rise since 17 through 23 and girajera took over at 24 - 27 so time for yanshio to rise againnnnn#yanma gast#shiokara#kingohger spoilers#ko27#caps
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every week that ted lasso airs i think about that one presser that was like "there's a relationship straight out of fanfiction this season" and i just want to know what their favourite royjamie fic is
#nat.txt#ted lasso spoilers //#uncle's day ... the jersey ... jamie getting capped being what inspires roy's final keeley letter draft ... i'm gonna scream#actually also while i'm on the topic of jamie the fact that he wore 24 for sam specifically ... like it's also realistic but For Sam ......#this bad boy can fit so much love and bisexuality and trauma in him#tl lb
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Fluff/MW3 spoiler
Listen guys. Soap making Ghost an advent calendar with every day being a small trinket with a note. And day 1 has just a bottle cap with a note: "Picked it up on our first mission together". Day 5: bags of Ghost's favorite tea "I memorized your favorite pretty quickly Lt."
He gets something every day, but there are days with things that make something in Ghost crumble.
Day 10: A bottle opener. "I snatched it from the bar the first time you agreed to go for a drink with us."
Day 15: A hand written cookie recipe. Soap's mom's handwriting. "I would never guess you liked baking, but I knew from the start that my ma' will love you."
Day 20: A small sketch of Ghost's face "I have memorized your every freckle".
Day 23: A bullet case. "I survived because I have you to take care of"
Day 24. A ring " Simon, will you marry me?"
I am in a mood â€ïž
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II2 16 SPOILERS, enjoy a post of me screaming in all caps about this damn episode!!!
IM ABSOLUTELY TWEAKING I WANT TO CRY SO HARD RIGHT NOW I WANT TO EXPLODE MY MIND IS ABSOLUTELY IN SHAMBLES.
FIRST OFF.
(made 04/11/24)
I CANT BELIEVE I WAS RIGHT ABOUT THOSE TWO BEING MEPHONE3G AND OG MEPHONE IM SCREAMING MY HEAD OFF FROM THIS.
3GS IS SUCH A SWEETIE! PLEASE GET HIM OUTTA THERE I WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY PLEASE LET HIM BE HAPPY.
I absolutely freaked when I saw Cabby, Candle and Goo. WHAT ARE THEY DOING HERE, I THOUGHT THEY WERE ON INVITATIONAL ISLAND.
Cobs, I hate you so much, you threw down a bombshell of a reveal. NOBODY IS FUCKING REAL. THEY WERE ALL MADE BY MEPHONE. This is why MePhone was able to recover them through MeLife, this is why he cant recover Bot, and couldnt recover Bow nor Dough, because those three are real, this is why Bow and Dough are ghosts, because they were genuinely real people.
Now it makes sense why Suitcase mentioned MePhone was gone for a day. THEY ARENT REAL THEY ARENT REAL MY LIFE IS A LIE MY LIFE IS A LIE MY LIFE IS A LIE.
Invitational did happen, its just Knife/Suitcase/Baseball/Lightbulb arent real to even notice if time has passed. If they were real, they would had have genuine reactions to MePhone straight up abandoning them for several months at best. I think this is why MePhone genuinely like Bot why they were so different to him compared to the other contestants.
THIS EPISODE FUCKING KILLED ME IN COLD BLOOD I AM NOT RECOVERING FROM THIS GOOD FUCKING BYE.
#inanimateinsanity#inanimate insanity#ii spoilers#II2 16#inanimate insanity ii#object show community#osc community#novaazurite rambles abt bs
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FICS FOR GAZA
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East of My Heart (West of My Soul) | Estimated WC: 50K | Current WC: 25.5K | Chapter WC: 5.1K/12K | BNHA Folk Tale AU | Prince!Izuku Midoriya x Reader | 18+ MDNI
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SUMMARY: Your life is one that is abundant with family and the magic in small things. But when a great white bear comes rumbling at your familyâs cottage door one winterâs night, you are obviously taken aback. Even more so when he speaks to you in a language you can understand and asks for your help. Come away with him, live with him in the ice castle he calls home for a year and day and release him from the curse that blights him. You agree to go with him even if as time goes along, it is very apparent that there is more to this polar bear than meets the eye. There is more to a lot of different things as you learn to love the polar bear as friend and companion during the day but are visited by a mysterious man who insists on sleeping in your bed every night. Can you last a year and a day to save the bear from this strange enchantment? Will you learn the true identity of the man youâve come to care so deeply for? Will you find yourself (and maybe love) along the way?
The Farmer and The Wizard | Estimated WC: 50K | Current WC: 3.2K | Chapter WC: 1.2K/3K | JJK Stardew Valley AU | Wizard!Gojo x Farmer!Reader | 18+ MDNI
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SUMMARY: You need a change, a big one. When your estranged grandfather passes away and bequeaths you his farm in a little town just south of the middle of nowhere, you take it as the sign you needed to make a change instead of waiting for one. The farm, while having fallen into a state of disrepair, is just the thing to cure your modern-world ailments. The people are kind and always ready to offer help, if a bit unusual. They have old superstitions, a haunted community center, and a resident wizard. Spoiler alert: those last two on the list take some getting used to. Yes, things are different here but you have a sneaking suspicion that the slow pace and a certain alchemical practitioner are going to remind you that sometimes, all you need is time and a little bit of magic.
that's just wasteland, baby | Estimated WC: 15K | Current WC: 2.2K | BotW/TotK!Link and Zelda x Reader | 18+ MDNI
SUMMARY: Calamity Ganon has finally been vanquished for good, Link and Zelda have finally managed to break the wheel. But things are not as either of them had hoped they would be. Zelda is soon to be Queen with all the duties of such a position. Link would remain her knight and yet, he is restless. When he hears of the restoration efforts in Lurelin Village, he decides that he must go. He canât stay cooped up within the castle walls, not after so long in the wild. Zelda and Link are unsure of the new direction their lives are taking but maybe theyâll find that their true north is you.
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a shrike and a thorn | Estimated WC: 3K | Current WC: 1.2K | Priest!Kento Nanami x Congregant!Reader | 18+ MDNI
SUMMARY: You save everyone but who saves you? You donât know what makes you step foot in that church. But you do and you spend the next year a dutiful congregant to Father Nanami. Devoted and kind, heâs exactly the kind of man you would expect to be a priest. And none of this would be a problem if it werenât for the fact that you canât stop thinking about what it would be like to see him lose his religion between your legs. Unbeknownst to you, the good Father is having the same kind of thoughts. Will the two of you build a new altar at which you might worship?
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SUMMARY: No description for this yet either, just wanted to explore the idea of Sukuna putting his claim on you but not in the way you'd think he would, more in like the thing about how a warring alien race comes to earth and is baffled and fascinated by the enduring human spirit.
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*Wisdom Saga Spoilers*
CW for spoilers and TW for mental health, PTSD, S1 and Su1cide.
Many people have probably touched on this, but in the last minute of the song âLove In Paradiseâ we hear about Odysseusâ time on Calypsoâs island. He clearly is still clearly struggling with the death of Telemachus and the rest of his crew.
These lines stand out to me:
ââOdyseus?ââ
ââAll I hear are screamsâŠââ
ââOdy, get away from the ledge.ââ
ââYou donât know what Iâve gone through! You donât know what Iâve sacrificed! Every comrade I long knew, every friend, I saw them die! All I hear are screams...ââ
ââYou will be fine dear, come back inside dear. Love of my life comeback~
âEvery time I close my eyesâŠâ
â~to paradise. I know your lifeâs been hard, Iâll stay inside~â
âAll I hear are scream!â
â~your heart.~â
âAll I hear are screams!!~â
âI love your mind dear, all of our time here. Life would be so much worse if you had died.~â
â~Just let me close my eyes!â
~Please stay away from harm. Stay in my open arms.ââ
Jorge captured the affects of PTSD so well. As a PTSD survivor, it hit home. The depression that sets in after a traumatic event is very intense and can be overwhelming. For survivors, we enter a stage of our bodies and minds trying to make sense and process what had happened. This is shown by the lyric above where Ody says he hears the screams of his crew over and over.
Often time we donât understand that the event we went through was even traumatic at all. In an effort, our brains replay the events as a way for us to process it and it often just ends up causing *more* pain without proper help. Without help, we can dive into depression, anxiety and suicidal ideation. This is clearly shown in Odysseus as well, since his brain isnât processing what happened he then blames himself for the deaths of his crew and doesnât know to how to live and cope with such a large tragedy.
This is also where the behavior of pushing others away comes in. This is a common behavior when you are depressed. Itâs something that feels too large or traumatic to âburdenâ others with. We withdraw the more our brain loops and struggles to understand.
If your brain doesnât comprehend the trauma or make sense of it, it searches for escapes. Thus where suicidal ideation, hyper-sexuality, and self harm is introduced. It serves as a distraction, a way to cope or a way out of the pain. Thatâs why we find Odysseus contemplating and attempting suicide. He wants a way away from the way his mine plays and replays his trauma. He sees no other way out and is driven to the cliff. Thereâs a level of exhaustion that comes with constantly dealing with trauma, that exhaustion will also fuel suicidal thoughts.
And to circle back to the beginning, with PTSD survivors we experience a heightened sense of danger. Our fight or flight is on 24/7, so we will be slow to trust and quick to be on guard. Odysseus is showing these symptoms too, he does not trust Calypso and is quick to let her know that he doesnât trust her.
So to cap this off, I feel so incredibly seen as a PTSD survivor. The things we go through when we are coping with our trauma and what comes with it are demonstrated clearly in this song. Thank you Jorgeđđđ
#the wisdom saga#epic spoilers#ptsd#actually ptsd#si tw#tw sui ideation#suic1de#epic the musical#epic fandom#odysseus#athena#epic the wisdom saga#calypso#epic discussion#jorge rivera herrans
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In The Flesh
Five Hargreeves / Reader Insert
Imagine that Five wasn't alone the entire time he was in the apocalypse...
-This is a special reader request for an extended scene from my Five Centric fanfic 'The Anti Hero's Pitfall of Arrogance.' Set during the apocalypse and Five is only 21.
-This request is a bit of a spoiler alert to the story that inspired it. It's written with a non-descript female character with no name, only referred to as she or her, so it's sort of a reader insert/you sort of vibe, or you can think of it as simply someone that Five loved. Think of it as you or someone else, either way, it's sad. đ
Heed the warnings and click the link in the summary to read the full story if you want to get the full picture of what led up to this very sad moment for our favorite guy.
Warning: possible triggers, suicidal thoughts/behavior issues, alcohol abuse/excessive drinking, extreme grief/loss, graphic description of death/corpse, we get some Dolores in this, meant to be very sad, this fic this is based on is not all gloom and doom but it's clearly not all pretty either.
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In The Flesh
The funny thing about rock bottom is Iâd thought Iâd hit it many times before she saved me but really there is no depth far enough down to describe where I was after finding her body and where I would be for a very long time after that.
Like Iâd done every day since I saw her favorite baseball cap bobbing on that partially submerged branch stuck out in the depths of the churning flood waters, I was out looking for her. On my endless searches, I would yell her name, over and over, till my voice was nothing more than a pained screech of air.
It was as I was scouring a new area that the water had receded that I went to shout her name again but stopped with only the first faint syllable.Â
The moment I saw her distinctly colorful sandal and what appeared to be the discolored fragments of flesh still clinging to the bones trapped in it, the wind shifted, and my nostrils were filled with a pungent, sickeningly sweet, earthy odor.
That is what the smell of death is like if a body has been exposed to the elements for ten days or more. The anatomy and physiology decomposition literature states, a body exposed to the elements begins to decompose within less than 1 hour postmortem. That rate is accelerated if the tissues are exposed to other factors such blunt force trauma or heat and moisture.
She had been exposed to all of it.
I could still hear the ominous sound of the huge trees snapping and boulders grinding over things in the swift current as I walked along the road, just hours after sheâd gone, only then, I didnât know she wasnât coming back. I didnât know what was being done to her.
Now her body was there, under the hardened soil, but her foot was the only part of her that was visible other than her twisted tangle of hair wrapped around a river beaten branch.Â
For the last week Iâd been lying to myself, trying to hang on to the idea that she was still out there, that she was just too mad at me to come home. But really, in that time, sheâd been first submerged in the torrents of flood water decimating that landscape, and then after, (not long based on the murky pool of muck and the very small cracks in the clay at my feet), sheâd been there, encased in the ground.Â
I cried out her name.
I dropped the stick Iâd been using to poke and prod the underbrush, my body instantly disappearing for a fraction of a second into the snapping vacuum of my portal. Stepping out of it a few yards away, I fell to my knees, my trembling hands not knowing what to do or what was safe to touch. I moved to her foot, then pulled back as the tiny black flies that were startled by my presence flew up in an angry swarm.
The temperature since the day she disappeared had been colder but that had done nothing to prevent her rapid decay.
Entomology and Body Decomp 101: A decomposing body will attract all manner of life forms within 24 after death. If allowed access, scavengers are ruthless in their pursuit of the flesh of the dead.Â
Having been well read prior to my time in the apocalypse and being well acquainted with death in the years before this, I was still not prepared for what I saw or had to go through over the next several hours it took to free her.
Her body was no longer her anymore, but I couldn't accept that. My mind told me she was under there and she was so scared.Â
Frantically, I started digging with my bare hands. No matter how careful I was clawing at the clay that had molded her in the ground, anytime my fingers came close to her, they crushed her slick, wet remnants of flesh, tearing it through.
At this point, she had surpassed the early stages of decomposition. Gone was the bloating. The gases and liquids had mostly expelled, and her skeleton was letting go of her skin, though in some areas it remained in denser sections that were identifiable but mostly because her clothes had embedded in her. Her jean shorts made clear where her abdomen was, what was left of her chest was now part of her t-shirt.
What I was seeing and touching and smelling made my stomach heave over and over but still I had to save her.
She had needed me, and I wasnât there.
Stage 4 post-decay lacks some of the first levels of putridity, but even though I had seen hundreds of thousands of faces of death, seeing hers will always represent the loss of everything; even more so than the day Iâd foolishly ran into the future, lost my family, and found I couldnât get back.
âNo, no, no,â I sobbed, my filthy, bloodied fingertips inching along her face, or what should have been her face. âI am so sorry⊠Please! No! God, please!â
The mouth I had cherished was gaping, her once perfect teeth were more exposed than they should have been due to the skin around them receding or simply just not being there at all.Â
Her eyesâŠ
Where once someone had looked back at me with so much love and endless understanding, now there was horror, both mine and hers.Â
Sickness took me again.
Dizzy, I frantically scrambled back, away from where I had unearthed most of her, my stomach emptied, but nothing but acid spilled onto the scattering of broken foliage off to my side.Â
My ears were filled with the evil buzzing sound of insects that were warming themselves in the open area around us as the sun relentlessly beat down.
I couldnât take it.
A feral sound of pure agony crawled out of my chest, getting eaten away by all the nothingness.
âPlease, I am so sorry⊠Please forgive me, I never meant forâŠâÂ
She wouldnât except my words and I couldnât blame her.
My broken cries were lost in my delirium. On hands and knees, I came back to her, lifting her to me even though I shouldnât have.
The gruesome sound of parts of her stickily pulling free from the ground and the sight of the parts of her that remained in the soil were enough to fracture what was left of my sanity.
âItâs okay. Iâve got you, we can go home now,â I shushed her, in my head believing I had the ability to soothe her pain.Â
She still said nothing, and I told myself it was because she was just too weak.
She just needed my help. She was just mad. She was justâŠ
âYou are safe now,â I said, my hand sinking into her, her spinal column hitting my palm not even enough to shock me back into reality.Â
After cradling her for far too long, I said, âI am not leaving you here.âÂ
Lightly as possible, I let my shaking hand touch her hair, seeing but not acknowledging that it was starting to detach from her scalp. Without thinking, I forced the massive amounts of energy I needed for a jump, the blue power expanding from my hands, then around us.Â
I only took us across the drying riverbed, up the steep embankment and up the hill to where the road hadnât been washed out, and that was far, but it was not even close to getting us back to our cabin. For that, I had planned to teleport again and again, as many times as it took but when my feet smacked the ground the force of it made the tendons holding her right thigh to her hip give way and the length of her leg landed at my feet.Â
âFuck!â I screamed, slamming to my knees to grab her.
Like a madman, I could at least put together that she was falling apart and that this wasnât going to work. Even jumping with her was too much. She was so fragile; sheâd always said she wasnât, but she wasâŠ
âI am so-ssss-sorry,â my voice cracked as I carefully laid her down again.Â
The sight of those tiny black bugs as they fought to get a piece of the woman I loved, caused me to feel the burn of violent anger and that almost brought me to my senses, but even that too, I washed away with another imaginary idea, that if I just covered her, somehow all the severed openings that were now more her than anything else, would be spared from further ruin.
In a frenzy, I stripped off my shirt, covering her with it the best I could. The moment I was able to get to my feet again, I swayed, the world spun, but when it came back into focus, I could see again like lightning struck my head, brightening the gray world around me, making the colors of her bright sandals and her hair and the tattered remains of her clothing stand out in stark contrast to the deep darkened purple of her rotting body.
My filthy hand came up, rubbing my face and my blurred eyes, then my fingers tore back as I painfully yanked at my hair.Â
I had done this to her.
Sniffling and on the verge of a full screaming fit of rage, I turned and started making my way up the road, a few steps away, my hands coming together, my fingers like claws, I tried to gather the light in my hands to blink again, but instead I was met with the impotence of the faintest swirls of azure static crackling to life then fizzling out.Â
Turning back to the motionless pile on the ground, I again assured her Iâd be back. Then in a haze, like a zombie on empty, I mindlessly made my way back, my mud-covered boots trudging up the steep hill, my balance faltering over and over as Iâd tripped over the uneven surface.
If you ask me what I was thinking during that walk, I couldn't tell you. All I knew was that I was empty and that a horrible numbness was taking hold.
Even still, I came back fast, like Iâd promised. First, I placed her in a thick blanket, sure to get every bit that was her that was there, anything that wasnât, I never found.
âThere,â I breathed, positioning her leg that had been torn off at the hip in such a way that looked less painful. Then flapping away any visible bugs from her, I covered her completely. Knowing that she was in the later stages of decomposition but that it was far from over and she was seeping fluids, I lifted her, and laid the cocoon of wool on top of a tarp.Â
I could have carried her the whole way but not wanting to hurt her or break her apart more than she already was, I only carried her to the cart Iâd brought back with me, then I carefully laid her in.Â
Though she didnât answer no matter how much I wanted her to, I spoke to her the whole way as I tugged the wagon with her in it up the hill.Â
Getting back to our home, the mud encrusted wheels clattered to a stop in the yard right next to the chair I had been sitting in the day we had gotten into our fight. It was dead silent and getting so dark by that point that the stars were coming out but as if in a time loop in hell, I could still hear the cruel things Iâd said to her on that sunny morning.Â
Looking down at the small mound of blanket with her in it, I said, âYou have to forgive me. I donât know what to do without you. I donât want to live with-â
My heart was racing, I couldnât breathe. My chest felt a new tightness where before, since the hours after sheâd gone and not come back, Iâd only felt the stabbing pain of regret and fear, now it was like an aching void as if there were an actual hole inside me.
I stood there blankly staring at the door, then back to her, my mind not working at all but somehow still functioning enough to make the start of a string of very bad decisions.
Taking her up in my arms, we went inside. âWeâre back. You're not alone anymore. I never meant to leave you out there like that. I tried so hard to find you,â I said, smothering my words against her wrap. âItâs okay nowâŠwe are okayâŠâ
I kicked the door closed then I moved straight for our bed, and I would have laid her down in it and climbed right in if not for the fact that Dolores was sitting in the chair next to it, staring at me looking horrified.
âNo, Five, donât!â
Saying nothing, I spun around to instead place the bundle in my arms on the couch in front of the fireplace. It wasnât lit and it needed to be. Thatâs what she and I did at night. That was our other special place.
Memories of sitting there together, her behind me, reaching around to place my fingers correctly to play the chords she was trying to teach me filled my head. I could almost trick myself into thinking I could hear her beautiful playing and that I could hear her laugh at me every time Iâd try to get out of my lessons.
âThis is okay. Iâll fix this. We are going to be okay,â I said, as I started to unwrap her.
Dolores panicked at the sight in front of us. âFive, no. Sheâs gone. This isnât right. What are you doing?â
I stopped, leaving her under wraps but I ignored Doloresâ s warning and started to light the fire.Â
Again, Dolores asked, âFive, what are you doing? She is dead. You canât do this to yourself.â
âSheâs not dead!â I shrieked, my eyes filling with welling tears as I clenched my hands, my broken fingernails slicing half-moons into the flesh of my dirty palms.Â
âI am sorry, Five, but she is. You knew that after she didnât come back.â
My head turned back and forth as I shook away a flood of tears threatening to come out and drown me like the water had done to all that I loved. I pinched my eyes shut, a broken whimper squeaking out of my throat.
âLook at yourself, Five⊠You are not okay. That is why she canât stay here. I love her too, but she is gone.â
I opened my eyes and looked at myself. I had no shirt on, my body was covered in mud and death.Â
The smell of meâŠÂ
The smell of her poor bodyâŠ
âYou need to bury her. She wouldnât want this.â
âNo,â I whispered as my body trembled and I stared blankly at the floor. âNo,â I said again, then screamed, âStop!!!! Just stop! Donât you fucking talk to me! I didnât ask for your help! It didnât ask for any of this!â
Refusing to look up and see the hurt on Doloresâs face, I looked to the motionless pile of fleece blanket.
âI am not putting you out there all alone again, sweetheart.â
With that affirmation, and me placing a kiss to her covered face, the night did not get better.
In the light of the fire, I sat there on the floor in front of the couch as close to her as I could be without touching her. I wanted to protect her. I needed to keep my promise that I wasnât going to leave her.Â
So many times, she and I had discussed the possibility of me being able to jump back in time and the fact that doing so with her was going to make it all the harder for me to pull off. Even with the right math, and just me, the energy needed to do it was something I hadnât figured out how to achieve. Even though she had said that me getting back was all that mattered, I refused to consider leaving without her.Â
I couldnât leave her, not then and not now; that was what I kept telling myself.
Sometime late into the night, slumped against the plaid couch, my head resting near hers though she remained covered, my demented and wrong train of thoughts slipped away, and sleep took me but in it l found no solace.Â
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As I came to in the early hours of the next morning with my body crumbled on the cold floor, I knew instantly that everything I wanted to believe was okay was not.Â
The dimly lit cabin smelled of death and I was graced with the buzzing sound of a half a dozen or more flies that had found their way in somehow in the tiniest of cracks.
The decay had been clinging to me since I found her, but I refused to acknowledge it even as the putrid odor only added to my ongoing nausea. I clumsily reached for the stale glass of water Iâd left at some point on the end table. Drinking it burned my cracked lips and the taste of it felt laced with a bitter acid. I wanted to retch but managed to refrain.
Then, wanting to remain living in the land of make believe, I got up, went to our small kitchen area, and proceeded to grab several bottles of liquor.
Dropping down next to her again, I twisted a cap, sloshing the clear liquid as I tipped it back, dumping the alcohol down my raw throat.Â
It was awful but that was not the only time Iâd drank to forget, or that Iâd drank things that were questionable in their quality.
âRemember when we found that stash of cheap wine with the seals broken,â I quietly asked.Â
I took a long pull at the bottle, then another as I peered over my shoulder at her laying there on under her favorite blanket.
âSmarter than me as always, you refused to drink any of it, but not me⊠Stupid as always, I gave it a try and boy did I pay for it. You had to baby me for the entire next day. God, I am such a lightweight. Iâd be dead if not for you.â
I laughed, the sound of it thick with irony.
âYou were always so good to meâŠâ
Eyeing the dried mud and smears of her flesh on my pants, my eyes blurred.Â
âI didnât deserve you and you didnât deserve this.â
I started to cry. Then I started to hyperventilate, my breaths coming too fast and my head spinning.Â
Shuddering, I drank more and more but I could never turn the image of my girlâs face staring back at me from that riverbed into the beautiful living version I wanted so badly to believe was still with me.
Hours later, I was disturbingly drunk.Â
One minute I was musing to myself about our better times, talking out loud like a maniac about something so wonderful, like one night that she and I were out scavenging too far to come back, and weâd camped out under the stars. Iâd told her the names of all the constellations I knew and there were many. Sheâd quietly listened, cuddled up next to me, both of us just happy to be in love and together even if our world was a landscape of tragedy.Â
Together, we could have done anything. We were going to save the world.
Now she was gone.
I had nothing.
Sheâd been everything and now I had no one again.
With the room spinning, I abruptly got to my feet, stumbling towards the window above the sink basin. The flies zipped and buzzed in front of me, landing in the vomit I had left there after Iâd finished the first bottle of liquor. Knowing that those same dirty insects were landing on my beautiful girl made me quake with not just sickness but unmeasurable self-hatred.
I was a fucking mess, and I wasnât doing right by her.Â
Dolores was right.Â
Glancing back to where I had abandoned Dolores almost two days prior, the room tilted in my vision. I dizzily turned back, clutching the white cast iron basin.
The light outside was fading. I wanted to go along with it. I wanted all the horrible pain and debilitating heartache to stop.
Laying on the butcher block counter space where we prepared our meals, was a sharp kitchen blade. With where my head was at, seeing it, I immediately thought of my gun and other times of morbid desperation.Â
My tears burned down my cheeks.
I hated myself so much for what I had caused. If I had not yelled at her, and if I could only have seen through my arrogance and own my deficiencies, she would still be here. I didnât and instead did what Iâd always done and blamed anyone but myself for my problems.
Iâd taken out everything on her, againâŠ
If Iâd only learned from my mistakes, things that werenât okay never would have been said. She never would have felt the need to be away from me. She never would have gone for that walk, and if she had, I would have been by her side. If I had just agreed with her to go to the city to try something new, I may not have had the breakthrough we needed so badly but at least sheâd be there.
Feeling on the verge of vomiting again, I wanted to disappear into an alcohol induced coma.
I pushed off the sink, staggering like a drunken idiot the whole way back to the dresser that was next to my side of the bed. In a blur, I saw Dolores sitting there on her chair, but she didnât say anything. She looked every bit the inanimate object she was.
It was as if Iâd killed her too.
I yanked the top drawer open, my hand tearing through the clothes to find the heavy black metal object that my fucked-up mind craved.Â
My fingers grazed the cold instrument of death. I could feel the barrel of the pistol sticking down my throat, the oiled slickness of it slipping past my parting lips.Â
Just the thought made me gag but with sick fascination, and I didn'tâ stop thinking about it.
All it would take is one second and my finger on the trigger and no more guilt. My brain would be a splatter of nothing, painting the bedspread behind me. The place weâd slept and loved would be ruined just like we were.
Images of us, heated tangled flesh, together in those same blankets filled my mind.
To get away from the hurt that memory caused, I looked up, the weapon in my hand but my eyes aimed at the small dresser mirror. It was as if a stranger was looking back at me. My stomach felt like it was trying to crawl out of my mouth and my vision was closing in with blackness threatening to pull me under.
I was seeing things and hearing things.
The loud pop of the bullet; the sound of my body hitting the floor.Â
I saw bugs crawling out of the jagged rotting hole in my skull.
Then I saw her face, only not the destroyed one that was hidden under the blankets on the couch.Â
That was when I finally came back to myself.Â
âDonât you fucking do it,â I furiously screamed at myself, throwing the gun back down in the drawer.
My ears were ringing from my own terrified voice reverberating in them, then a few seconds later, the silence of death and that room returned. Â
It was just me, the mannequin and the body.
Dolores was right, I needed to let her go.Â
I had to bury her.
~~~
Over the next several hours, through the task of digging a hole in the ground, I sobered up significantly. Having done that, I re-entered the dank, horrid smelling cabin, removing the small pile of remains that had been the love of my life.
I was still covered in layers of filth and knowing that even if Dolores wouldnât speak to me, sheâd loved her as much as me and sheâd want to be there to say goodbye, I quickly washed myself outside under the spout attached to the spring fed line that was rigged to the house. Splashing my face with a mix of soap and water, I cleaned my battered hands, and my arms, and I removed my soiled pants, tossing them in the woods.Â
The water streaming down my body was ice cold and disgusting. My fleshly cleaned and very pale skin ran under my fingers, standing in stark contrast to the filth that I was and the sight of it only furthered the much-needed reality check I'd only recently found.Â
Once Iâd made myself somewhat more presentable, I redressed, then silently approached Dolores.
My voice cracked from being burned by stomach acid so many times and by my screams and lack of simply drinking or eating appropriately for days, but I had the strength and weakness to ask her for something I didn't deserve.
âPlease come with meâŠI donât want to do this alone.â
When Dolores responded with her softly spoken words of devotion, âYou are never alone, Five. You will always have me,â I was nearly beside myself with emotion. Iâd thought Iâd lost her along with everything else.
âOh, my God, thank you,â I sobbed as I lifted Dolores up and carried her outside into the yard.
We approached the hole Iâd dug. It wasnât that deep, and it wasnât that big, but it didnât need to be. It was in front of an ancient but long dead ash tree that she had once told me had to have been something truly beautiful at one point in time when it was alive.
It was just like her.
The burial was silent, save for the sound of the blade of my shovel slicing through the softened pile of dirt I had removed and then replaced.Â
The sky was getting dark, the woods full of shadows of monstrous things that looked like they could come out of the night and pull you away forever.Â
I sat, folded in on myself at the base of the old ash tree, the disturbed soil at my feet as I looked up to the highest branches of the barren tree. Its flesh had been taken. Remanence of its bark were scattered all around me. It would someday be nothing but dust.Â
We all would be, but it was not my time-yet.
Burying my head in my hands, I kept telling myself that.Â
~~~
In the days that came after that, it rained and rained. My mind tormented me constantly with the flawed idea that she was trapped out there in the crushing wet ground. One second, Iâd be haunted by images of her so scared and trying to breath and break free as then dirty water filled her lungs, and then the next, Iâd come back to the dimly lit room I was in; Dolores worriedly watching me as I slowly organized things and cleaned up my many messes.
We couldn't stay there, but I couldn't bring myself to leave either, not when everything I had that she'd ever touched was right there. All around me were parts of her life that sheâd shared with me. Iâd clung to every trinket; every item of fabric that bore her scent.Â
Lying in bed at night, Iâd break down into sobbing fits of anguish with my face buried in her pillow. I could stay like that for hours on end, fading in and out, tricking my mind and heart into thinking I hadn't lost her and that she was right there in bed next to me. But it would never last because the damp coldness of the empty space around me that had once been warmed by everything that was her was an inescapable reminder that I had failed the woman I loved and who had saved me.
It was in a notion during one of these times of despair that I realized the only thing I could do to redeem what I had done was to fix this like I'd always promised her I would. Out there somewhere in time there was a place where the world was still alive, and she was in it and everyone I ever cared about was still flesh and blood and filled with life.
I had to get back.
The pain that happened here was real and always would be but somewhere out there, there was a chance of better things.
There was a chance of seeing her again.
That idea of saving her and my family was the only way, and it was my reason for breathing again.
Broken, but somehow still standing, my heart though not the same was still beating. The flesh covering my hand could still feel hers in it and it was while cherishing that feeling that I made the decision that it was time to go.Â
On our final day, I got up like every day since Iâd put her in the ground under that tree. I came outside, picking up the wildflowers I had left for her the day before, then I went for a short walk, talking to her in my mind the entire time, making my usual promises while I worked through ideas and math and things that gave me hope. Then Iâd come back, refill her favorite vase with new water and place the colorful blooms there above her.
Alone, the sun shone down on me, my shadow stretching across the earth above her, giving the illusion that we were laying there together. Â
âI love you,â I whispered, my eyes blinking back the enormous weight I felt from her loss and would always feel.
I liked to think I heard her say she loved me back, but I knew she didnât; it was just a memory of her words tickling my ear as her lips gently kissed along my neck.
I shivered from head to toe as I felt the ghost of her touch but not in a bad way.
I smiled, sniffing like a baby as I rubbed my eyes.
Then, making one last promise I said, âYou will be okay. Iâll fix this.â
Going back in the house, with Dolores watching all the while, obedient and loyal and loving with words of encouragement, I packed my final things.
I left our cabin spotless and set up as if we were coming back to it. It was as if I could see us in there again, spending our nights in front of that fireplace, laughing and endlessly teasing each other; our bed ready for us to lay down in and explore each other in new and exciting ways that only made our love stronger. I saw all that but in the back of my head I knew I was never going to come back to that place because it was gone, and if I did return, I may never leave her.
So, it was with that in mind, late in the morning, I loaded Dolores with our supplies, setting her next to the hard black guitar case that held her cherished Christmas present I'd given her and so many other things I couldnât let go. I pulled a blanket around Dolores and the case, as if the instrument inside it had become something in a way of being the woman Iâd lost, so much the way Dolores was a real thing that needed my care and love.Â
I walked to the old, grayed ash tree, its wind worn and smooth branches shone in the warm sun as I looked down at the ground where Iâd left a piece of my heart. I could almost hear the sound of her playing my favorite sone and I knew that when I plucked those strings, a piece of my heart would break a little more with each strum, but Iâd be back with her.
My lower lip trembled, and my nose burned with the same heat as my eyes.
âUntil we meet again, my loveâŠâ
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Fuck it some book ramblings under the readmore because I can't hold it in
*SPOILERS FOR THE GHOSTS BOOK (BUTTON HOUSE ARCHIVES) UNDER THE CUT*
All mentions of the captain's name being blurred or burned or wet or tea-stained or ripped I absolutely called it!!!!
Page 100
Absolutely killed me
"nothing I could do" đ
Combined with page 56 means Havers was only at BH for 2 months and Cap gets infatuated so so quickly (although not quite as quickly as Thomas given page 24)
Also combined with the munitions request telegrams the days before and after he left "please" đđđ and page 178
Middle names!!!
Julian's middle name being released next to a photocopy of his arse is so Julian (p170)
Pat's being in a genuinely harrowing horror story is also perfect (p91)
Humphrey's poor decapitated paintings (and his actual gravestone) killed me all over again (also the French on page 149 I'm sobbing)
Fanny getting a maiden name to go with her middle name!!! (p175)(And also revealing that George lived the rest of his days in the house with only the staff for company which definitely 100% means more manwiches that all the ghosts would have seen)
Page 7
Julian's gift coming from perseverance because of page 3 is incredible, no notes, absolutely perfect
Page 195
So fucking cute!!!
And I think Mat's daughter may have helped with the calligraphy here as she's listed in the credits!!
Page 45
The fucking semi-naked artist retreat in 1968 that all the ghosts up to the Captain would have seen
Absolutely crying laughing at the thought
Needs a fic
Page 97
Cap 100% crushing on Ben fogle so true of him
Page 127
Cannot believe they got away with that (or I just have a filthy mind)(no it's definitely them)
Page 140
Pat casually announcing to the whole radio that his best buddy Maurice is having that affair, ay? Honestly he trusts too much (also side note she gets a middle and maiden name too!)(and so does Maurice!)
Page 208
Cake bake by the lake!!! ("The incident")(canon yonderland crossover)
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24. âItâs six oâclock in the morning, youâre not having vodka.â for Neal and Peter
Okay this turned into a full FIC??? lol. I may clean it up later (this is a super rough draft I literally wrote in a half hour đ
) and post it to AO3 if you all think it's worth it?? (Maybe the other prompts too honestly? ) lol it's similar to another fic I've posted but........can't have enough, right?
Also, season 1 spoilers and finale spoilers!!
âItâs six oâclock in the morning, youâre not having vodka.â
Peter woke to clanging resonating up his townhome stairs into his ears, shaking his brain sufficiently enough to warrant getting out of bed. Grumbling to himself, he shuffled downstairs to find Neal kneeling on the kitchen counter, arms stretched up and his hand elbow deep into their top cabinets.
Peter sighed and ran a hand down his face. Since Kateâs plane had blown up two days before, Neal had stayed with Peter and Elizabeth. The authorities (authorities with more control over Neal than Peter, unfortunately) deliberated as to when (not if) to send Neal back to prison and demanded Neal be under twenty-four hour surveillance until Neal's re-admittance date (which happened to be tomorrow).
Not that Peter would want Neal un-supervised right now, anyway. The kid had drunk himself into oblivion both nights, crashing onto the Burkeâs couch in a heap of fitful laughter and mutterings of Van Gogh and Picasso. Peter longed to take Neal into his arms and try to heal his wounds, but the words got caught in his throat and his hands grew stiff if he tried to reach out to Neal. The past two evenings had ended with Peter tossing a blanket over Neal, watching him sleep for a few moments, and then collapsing into his own bed with Elizabeth with exhaustion.
âNeal,â Peter said, narrowing his eyes and crossing his arms as he took a stance in the kitchen.
âGoodmorning, Peter!â Neal said chipperly, âI have coffee brewing!â
Peter sniffed, sure enough, Neal did have an excellent roast wafting through the air--along with the distinct scent of suppressing emotions, like grief.
âWhatcha need up there?â Peter asked suspiciously.
âAhhhâŠgot it!â Neal leapt off the counter and waltzed over to his already-steaming cup of coffee.
In his hand gleamed a clear bottle ofâŠ
âVodka?â Peter sputtered, eyes widening as he reached to snatch the bottle from Neal.
Since when was Neal his teenage son with an underdeveloped prefrontal cortex?!
Nealâs eyes slid to Peter as he raised the bottle out of Peterâs grasp, plucked off the cap, and poured at least a half cup into his coffee.
Peter let out a growl as he managed to grab the vodka bottle and place his hand flat over the coffee mug to prevent Neal from picking it up.
âPeter!â Neal whined.
âItâs six oâclock in the morning, youâre not having vodka.â
âIn Paris, itâs noon.â
âStill not an appropriate time to have vodka.ïżœïżœïżœ
âButââ
Peter slid the mug to the sink and dumped its contents.
Silence.
The hum of the fridge.
Nealâs breathing, in and out.
Kate's plane exploding again and again and again. Ears ringing, heat suffocating, Neal's cries....
Neal turned to look out the window to the patio, the back of his head displaying a rather wild patch of bedhead. It dawned on Peter that heâd never seen Neal so disheveled. In a t-shirt and pajama pants, Nealâs normally perfect hair was untamed, his shoulders slouched.
Peter stepped forward quietly, taking a glance at Nealâs face: dark bags tainted his perfect skin, his blue eyes bloodshot.
âNeal?â Peter said softly.
The silence continued and Peter almost turned away to put the vodka in his high-security safe when Neal whispered:
âSheâs gone, Peter.â
Peterâs heart clenched.
Oh Neal.
He set the vodka on the counter and placed a hand on Nealâs shoulder.
âI know,â Peter said, giving Nealâs shoulder a squeeze, âIâm so sorry.â
Nealâs face crumbled, tears tumbling down his cheeks, all of his suppressed emotions giving way to a raw, hurting human.
âLet it out, Neal,â Peter said, enveloping Neal into a hug, "It's alright."
âI wish she was still here,â Neal said, hot tears spilling onto Peterâs neck.
âI know,â Peter repeated, unsure what to say, but continued to hold Neal tightly as Neal's shoulders shook from crying.
âAt least youâre still here.â
The words Neal spoke were so inaudible that Peter knew they were not meant for his ears, but his heart still shattered on to the kitchen floor. He kept his arms around Neal, hoping that his wordless communication would be enough.
Iâll always be here for you.
~~~~~~~~
Years later, Post-Finale
Peter tore out of his bed, his shirt was soaked with sweat, mind running in circles tight enough to choke his heart. El slept soundlessly next to him (cuddling with her pregnancy pillow, not Peter) so Peter tiptoed downstairs and began to brew a cup of coffee.
Everywhere Peter looked, Neal stared back at him. Neal sat on the couch, grinning wildly. Neal was throwing his rubber-band ball in the office. Neal flipped his hat at Peterâs front door. Neal laughed as he and Elizabeth ate dinner.
Those intelligent, bright eyes, his handsome smile, the way he made Peter crazy and so fulfilled all at the same time.
Peterâs eyes burned as he squeezed his eyes shut, trying to push Nealâs face from his mind.
Please, leave me alone. Peter pleaded, suddenly willing to do anything to just erase the memory of Neal, to dull the pain.
In a mad frenzy, Peter climbed onto the counter and reached into the highest cabinet, pulling out a bottle of vodka. He opened the bottle and proceeded to combine the vodka with his coffee, humming to himself as he murmured:
âJust to take the edge offâŠâ
He was going to be a father in a few weeks, he couldnât be still dealing with this greifâ-
âItâs six oâclock in the morning, youâre not having vodka.â
Startled at the smooth male voice, Peter looked up.
There was Neal, alive, in his kitchen, dressed impeccably in a beautiful suit and Devore fedora. His eyes were glittering, his skin rosy, his chest rising and falling with life.
Peter shook his head, trying to shake the vision.
âYouâre not real,â Peter said, blinking his eyes to try and banish Neal.
He opened his eyes and Neal was still there, pouring his vodka-filled coffee cup into the sink.
âHey!â Peter exclaimed, âIt's noon in Paris! Youâre in my head, you canât justââ
Neal's face flickered at the word Paris, a shadow passing as his smile faded.
âPeter,â Neal said softly, his eyes growing melancholy.
âI know,â Peter whispered, âI have to be strong. For El, forâŠour son.â
Neal nodded and reached a hand to Peter, then retracted it.
âYouâre allowed to break down, Peter,â Neal said gently, âBut you have to let me go.â
Peterâs eyes filled to the brim, overflowing with hot anger.
âI canât just let you go! Youâyouâ-wereâareâ a part of me!â Peter said, slamming a hand against his own chest over his heart, âIâI loved you!â
Sobs overtook Peterâs body as he braced himself against the kitchen counter, the months of holding back his sorrow over Nealâs death finally pouring out.
A slender hand found Peterâs shoulder. Peter turned and pulled Neal into him, Peter didnât care if this was his grief-ridden mind hallucinating, he was going to hold on to Neal as long as heâ
And in an instant, Neal was gone. Peter was on kitchen the floor, hugging himself.
Peterâs heart ached, his body throbbed with the absence of NealâŠ
But he had a job to do, a husband to be, and father to become.
He took the vodka and dumped it down the sink.
It was time to move on.
~~~~~~
Post-Canon
Peter and Neal stumbled into the kitchen, sides aching from laughter, eyes puffy from tears.
âBoys!â Elizabeth hissed from the living room, âKeep it down! Sleeping baby upstairs!â
They both quieted their giggles as they prowled the kitchen cabinets, searching for something to toast their recent reunion with. Peter had arrived in New York around 3 am, Neal in tow, and they spent the first half-hour at the Burkeâs home just staring at Peter's baby son sleeping in his crib. The second half hour was dedicated to a lecture from Elizabeth on Nealâs foolishness. The last two hours were Peter and Neal, sitting on the couch, talking and talking and talking until their throats were dry and all the tears had turned into laughter.
Peter had found Neal, after that year of absolute hell. Neal was alive and here, living and breathing in his townhome once more.
âLetâs just make coffee,â Peter said, âItâs almost six am. God. Iâm going to feel like shit today.â
Peter started the coffee. Neal balked.
âNo! You cannot welcome me back to New York with coffeeâas much as I adore it. Whereâs that Bordeaux I sent you last week?â
âOh, Elizabeth and I drank that immediately.â
âSo much for delayed gratification,â Neal snorted.
Peter glared.
âYouâve been dead for a year, I think my skills in delayed gratification areââ
âOkay okay, fair enough,â Neal said quietly, guiltily, the mood dampening.
âIâm pouring us coffee,â Peter stated, grabbing two mugs from a lower shelf.
âHow about this?â Neal chirped as he clambered up on the counter and found the vodka bottle (a new one) on the top shelf.
Peter rolled his eyes, but grinned nonetheless.
âItâs six oâclock in the morningââ Peter started.
â...Youâre not having vodka,â Neal finished softly, as if heâd said the words before, too, as if Peterâs vision had been real after all.
Peter met Nealâs eyes. He was angry, so angry he could punch Neal for what heâd put him through. But he also was so grateful that Neal was alive, he felt he could vomit right there on the kitchen floor.
âDamn it, Neal,â Peter whispered wetly, unscrewing the cap and pouring a drop in two coffee cups, then filling them with steaming coffee.
âYouâre alive,â Peter said, raising his mug to Neal.
Neal swallowed and looked away, unable to meet Peterâs stare.
âNeal,â Peter pressed gently, placing a firm hand on Nealâs shoulder, âIâm glad youâre home.â
A tiny smile cracked through Nealâs lips as those blue eyes grew misty. They clinked mugs and took a sip.
âMe too, Peter, me too.â
Okay, I know it's rough and needs some nice language and descriptions to polish it off...but....I kinda see fic potential? maybe?
THANKS ANON FOR THE PROMPT!!!! :):):)
#thanks so much for the ask!!#donât EVEN talk to me about Peter dealing with Nealâs greatest con I CANNOT HANDLE IT đđđđ#hence why I write it a lot#white collar#peter burke#neal caffrey#white collar spoilers#white collar fanfic#spoilers
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Does anyone else just hate when a reader complains that their favorite author hasn't updated yet? Or when we wrote something that just isn't up to your standards??
Or when we write out warnings and people just ignore them and read it anyways and then they squawk about how they hated a certain aspect in your story, WHICH WE HAVE ALREADY POSTED A WARNING ABOUT!! I hate how they blame the author for writing something that triggers them when they should know their own limits. SPOILER ALERT!!! DON'T READ SOMETHING YOU'RE NOT COMFORTABLE WITH!! YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT YOU READ AND CONSUME, NOT US!!
And let's not forget when we release less content for one character to write more for another. Like bitch I am taking time out of my own life to give you some entertainment and you're whining?!?! If you want to read something then write it yourself.
And show authors the respect they should be getting! Everyday there is NEW AND FREE content waiting for you to read and you have the audacity to bitch and moan.
And yeah, sometimes we'll mess up on some grammar or spelling but WE'RE HUMAN too. Authors shouldn't have to apologize when they publish something later than the date or time that they promised. Or when they've promised to write and just can't sometimes. It's hard okay?! Finding motivation to write is one of the most difficult things ever! And writers shouldn't have to say sorry when readers put in ALL CAPS for in their post's comments when they accidentally put in the wrong tags. Authors shouldn't have to feel pressured when writing something; writing is supposed to be a calming and relaxing thing. It should be fun. People shouldn't have to expect them to write 24/7 or to publish something everyday. We have a life too y'know!!
This is for anyone who's ever complained about an author... Get a fucking life already and get the fuck off my page if you're gonna be a motherfucking asshole!!
AND TO ALL THE AUTHORS OUT THERE, YOU GUYS ARE SO AMAZING! I AM SO PROUD OF EVERYBODY FOR EVERYTHING YOU'VE WRITTEN. I KNOW THAT YOU DON'T GET THIS AS OFTEN AS YOU SHOULD BUT YOU GUYS ARE INCREDIBLE! THANK YOU FOR TAKING TIME OUT OF YOUR EXTREMELY BUSY SCHEDULES TO WRITE STORIES FOR SOME UNGRATEFUL DICKHEADS!! I SUPPORT YOU GUYS 100%! YOU GUYS ARE THE BEST â€ïžâđ©čâ€ïžâđ©čâ€ïžâ€ïžâ€ïž
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I've only see random screen caps and posts of tender light in passing but I know the gist of what it's about I also know it's not a romance but there is romance I know the theme is dark and it seems the fl is dealing with a lot although I've made sure not to see or read details so as not to spoil myself but I was wondering what kind of connection it is?From both of them I know people tend to focus on the ML and his feelings for the FL not just for this show while I love equal dedicated couples.
You picked a good day to ask this, anon! The show has been moving back and forth in time, being very deliberate about which parts of the story it reveals when, and today's episodes (23 and 24) finally let us see the heart of the relationship development. So, to first answer a question you didn't ask, the reason you've mostly seen people talk about his feelings for her is that that is mostly what we've seen so far, up until today.
Now to the question you did ask: what kind of connection is it? Is it unbalanced or are they equally dedicated? Because of their circumstances, balance isn't really possible. Without any spoilers: he's a student with good grades and good prospects, while she's trapped in a hellish life. What both of them are dedicated to, more than each other or any kind of relationship, is freedom and safety for her and her child. So in that respect, it isn't balanced and can't be.
But this isn't a "he rescues her so she falls for him" story. When she does start to love him, it's not because he could help her. It's because of who he is and what he values, and because of things they share, things they recognize in each other. Today we finally got to see some sweet moments and simple happiness between them, and see the potential of what they could have together once she is free.
There's not much more I can say without spoiling big moments, but for me this is absolutely working as a compelling love story, as well as all the other things it is.
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Iba a decir feliz lunes pero me di cuenta de que es miercoles mierda (foreshadowing)
mi ordenador se estropeo asi que no pude dibujar por estos dias, mi padre le a puesto un clip porque los de la tienda estan de vacaciones y demomento funciona (se le salia una parte del marco ese alrededor de la pantalla), asi que si desaparezco por dias, es mi ordenador.
medio spoiler para lunes pero weno, llevo intentando escribir el primer episodio desde antes de publicar el primero mas o menos, pero escribir no es lo mio asi que me tardo cuatro años y nada me gusta, y recientemente tuve la idea de hacer un par de cambios porque habia weas que no me gustaban (cough cough personaje que me gusta era de los principales pero lo converti en secundario porque sentia que no pegaba) y mas wea. GOOOOOOOOOOEEEEYYY, bleeeeh
aqui una version con dibujitos extras
este es mi artwork favorito de gooey, se me muy estupido me encanta
se ve muy pou
esperen no....
POU GOOEY ES REALLLLLLL
(diurno volviendose loco en directo)
pero no esperen cap 2 pronto porque soy un procrastinador de mierda y tengo que repensar todos los capitulos que tenia planeados tengo demasiadas ideas ayuda escribir series no es lo mio, lo que se me da bien es oneshots en ingles ughhh
no les pasa que crean un au, pero luego, crean un au del au? eso me esta pasando ahora mismo, odio lo domingo esta cerca de ser una realidad y eso me asusta ayuda
nada que ver pero mientras mi ordenador estaba estropeado y me daba miedo empeorarlo, me puse a ver netflix porque mi hermana hice que nuestro padre comprara una subscripcion...y weno....
me vi los 24 episodios de dungeon meshi/ delicious in dungeon del tiron y no puedo esperar para la segunda temporada y no se si leer el manga mientras espero, pero ta weno, le hare fanart algun dia, no quiero hacer spoiler pero veanselo si pueden, tambien me empeze a ver jojo's y tengo pensado ver sonic prime. aunque no termine el primer episodio de jojo's porque mi madre usa la tele todo el tiempo y no quiero que me vea cuando hay una escena rara (ya paso con dunmeshi), aunque me molesta porque siempre me dice que salga de la habitacion, pero cuando le dije que iba a usar la tele (porque se estaba lavando y no sabia que casi terminaba) se puso a gritarme weon, tenemos dos teles, entiendo el calor pero tenes una tele enfrente de tu cama y me dices que salga todo el rato, si me gritas a la minima claro que me pongo nervioso y casi ni te ablo (DIRNO VENT REAL?!?!?!?!?!?? 3:·33 AM EL MUNDO ESXPLOTA (el humor es mi forma de cope gente))
uuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hasta el proximo eclipse adieu
ignoren el parrafo final
#kirby#kirby fanart#kirby gijinka#kirby series#la wea del diurno#gikabi#genderbend#kirby au#mucho yansim ultimamente y necesitaba postear algo de kirby gente#Que Se Jodan Los Lunes AU#kirby fanfic#gooey kirby#gooey gijinka#kirby of the stars#dato epico hay un pou de verdad ahi#diurno esta a esto de la insanidad
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I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ON EPISODE 3.. (SPOILERS AHEAD)
If the song âon the same boatâ was 24 minutes long
AAAAAHHHH IT WAS SO GOOOOOOOD
hI iâM pErCy
why did i expect the oracle to sing like she did in the musical an not talk (tho you gotta admit this prophecy didnât hit as hard as âAND YOU SHALL FAAAAAAAIIIILL (*FAILLLLLLLL*) TO SAVE WHAT MATTERS MOST IIIIINNNNNN THHHHEEEEE EEEENNNDDâ)
âAnnabethâ he knows what he wants what he really really wants and also chironâs face
The parallels to cotg with the whole pushing down stairs thingâŠoh i love it so much AND THE PARALLELS
Percy choosing annabeth only because luke trusts her *slams head into wall*
also, the cgi was so cool for the shoes. Also i didnt know maia was pronounced âmayaâ and not âma-yee-ahâ
i9
I love the dynamic between the trio this episode. In the books it was only really grover-percy and percy-annabeth (duh) i love the inclusion of grover-annabeth
The whole episode was just percy touching upon very touchy topics and me going euuughhogreaksl seeing annabeth and groverâs face LIKE STOP TALKING NOW!
I like that they expanded on the line about the betrayal. Felt like he didnt think about it till the end in the book but in the show it affects how he interacts with annabeth and grover
Percy preaching democracy
SPECIAL SHOUTOUT TO THE CONSENSUS SONG THE BEST PART OF THE EPISODE
Its like if drive and on the same boat had a kid
Joe tracz reminding us that he wrote the tlt musical and dont pretend the consensus song is not âon the same boatâ
The whole scene of annabeth hoarding candy from the grocery store was so funny. The little frustrated face #leahismyannabeth
Also alecto using annabethâs pride
MEDUSA got the biggest glow up from the books to the tv show, like she was just a victim, yet morally grey. Also I KNEW THAT THE âNOT ALL MONSTERS ARE MONSTERSâ SCENE WAS GOING TO AFFECT THE MEDUSA STORY
The sets were so good in this scene
âi dont think annabeth is like thatâ
Grover distracting medusa, annabeth putting her cap on her, percy cutting off her head; name a better trio
Grover yelling at both percy and annabeth YOU GO GROVER PULL YOURSELVES TOGETHER
âI didnât think weâd ever be friendsâ eehraeuiqigdsjkntouaeh that was mean but the dramatic irony
HE SAID THE LINE HE SAID THE LINE
Consensus song supremacy
Anyway, this was the best episode so far
#Basic takeaway; consensus song is amazing#percabeth#percy jackson#pjo fandom#rick riordan#annabeth chase#heroes of olympus#pjo#pjo tv series#pjo tv show#percy jackon and the olympians#grover underwood#luke castellan#grover pjo#pjo show#percy pjo#pjo adaptation#leah sava jeffries#aryan simhadri#walker scobell#tag for me to see later on
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âșËâïœĄÂ°â©â Weekly Bravern Madness Post ââ©Â°ïœĄâËâș
Episode 11 Spoilers ahead, naturally
I'm actually on my second watch since we found out our water heater is leaking so that was a whole thing so not quite first impressions but that's literally me screencapping every scene and screaming so probably better this way
Okay important things about me to consider for my lens as I go through this
I think Isami is so so so cute. I'll probably make a cute Isami screencaps post as a separate thing. His gap moe is so cute. I love his stern face. I think Smith is great too but I love the focus reshifting to Isami. Anyway. He's so cute
In terms of Smith as Bravern I guess I view it as the reverse too? I don't really know how to explain it but I guess in Japanese there's tags for Smith + Isami (Sumiisa) and Bravern + Isami (Braisa?) and in my head it's all Sumiisa. Like he may look like a giant robot but he's still Smith, if that makes sense.
Second watch bonuses: realizing why she reacts this way at his mention ;-;
Right away, I guess I got my beach episode! I love that Isami and Lulu have Bravern brand summer clothes. I hope they come out as merch. It comes up rarely eg. the boxing shoes from ep 5 have the (Burn?) Bravern specific emblem on them and I just think it's so cute. Like yeah Bravern probably printed them just for these instances and I wish we got enough show to see it in action.
I actually got so emotional at the end of episode 9 when the OP starts playing without the lyrics and this showing up with the ED music is phenomenal. Extra delicious that it starts with part of the full version of the ED that's not in the normal ending.
I also love this because the other two emotional moments where it's like, starting something but not completing it are the after boxing scene and when Isami is crying into Lewis' shirt (okay this can easily be assumed to fill out as "I wanted the two of us to save the world together" but what else did you want to do with hiiiiim). The shipper mind wants to fill it in with some love confession and then!!!
After the like, back and forth name stuff (which parallels the Lulu + Superbia fusion) I was like, pre-emptively bracing for some kind of goofy baiting/played for laughs thing but no he goes for it!!
I actually have a collection of any instance of Isami with any amount of coloring on his cheeks and I've been lamenting that the only full blush moments are when he gets the asian flush drinking but aaaaah so cute. Also he looks so young here! He's 24 he should be falling in love!
Also I'm like, actually really impressed about this scene technically because It's just a really good looking turnaround animation. With Bravern he's 3D so whatever but isami looks good from every angle!
The artist who adds the extra effects like bloom and color tweaks on scenes occasionally tweets out their before and afters and I really hope we get this scene where they point out they added plush, kissable lips onto Bravern.
I reblogged a post about it but I do really love that Isami isn't like, disgusted or pushing him away or anything. Not even grateful Lulu interrupted it. Maybe he's actually disappointed she interrupted.
I know it sets ups the symbolic washing away of it but in case there was any ambiguity to the nature of this love:
There's some discussion across japanese twitter about how you're not supposed to do some line in the middle but based on some cursory stuff I'm not sure how common that thought process is. Also Bravern isn't that much of a pro in Japanese culture (even a lot of JP twitter was confused at his proud "This is OMIAI!").
If you aren't involved in Twitter, a comment people like to point out is that they specifically hired a Food Coordinator for this episode lol. I took a bunch of caps of it but between this and Isami's "we need to eat to be strong enough to save everyone" talk I need to do my Dunmeshi + Bravern food as strength and love post.
Anyway I'm obsessed with the fact that Bravern doesn't need to eat but actually has a mouth which reminds me of this tweet my sister brought to me
Naturally, his mouth is for kissing, Among other things.
Okay honestly the food bit is so weird I was kind of worried the entire first half of the episode turns out to be a dream sequence.
I need to set this as my desktop background or something. I think it's really cute that they added/implied that Isami and Bravern are now a cutesy couple rather than Isami being all weird about the love confession.
THIS! Is the point in the post I realize that watching while typing these up leads to me just doing a play by play which isn't really much of anything. I promise the rest of the post isn't just as long even though we're only halfway through the episode.
(Hey, timeskip OP here. This might be a lie)
Lulu + Superbia symbol! It's cute and has a really nice mix of being similar but opposite in it's own way.
I am obsessed with Segnitas being too lazy to fight and honestly I think he's so cute. The interrupting the fusion is kinda expected for a a show with every bit being in universe but it's still a good gag. I'm glad he is around to make commentary until his true death.
I kind of expected the Bravern + Superbia fight to be an episode 2 thing but I guess we won't have the time for that given the end of this episode. Triple shoutout to my Wednesday post by having the "You can get fulfillment from living!", seeing a callback to Lulu's kick and basically having an awesome fight.
Okay ending time. I have a lot of thoughts but one of the ones as I was watching was just.. He can't eat but he can bleed (and cry)? Actually considering that he explodes it's probably oil or something. Like obvs he isn't going to explode into purple triangles like everyone else but oofda. I am all sorts of sad about this but one thing that gets me is that Bravern doesn't even die fighting! It was a stealth attack!
There's some theories that Isami has a change of heart too fast and this might be another time loop, which I think would be on brand but man his reaction to Bravern dying is too much there's at least no way it's because of a Bravern dying bad end. Actually, I wonder if the damage to Bravern's core is worse than we can tell? Lulu bad end looks way worse though. Or maybe hypothetical Isami time travel route is -> they don't fight Superbia -> defeat one more death drive -> Superbia realizes he doesn't get his warrior death -> he takes on the last Deathdrive 1v1, dies -> remaining DD dies somehow but Superbia is still gone -> Isami goes back to save him for Lulu (they can't risk double time looping her?) -> doesn't ever experience Bravern dying so this is new and terrible.
In this case, Ira is acting unpredictably specifically because they do the no-kill route with Superbia. He's evidently super disgusted and I wonder if it's because its the peaceful resolution between the two? Otherwise I'm curious why else. Actually in general I'm curious why everyone is so personal with Bravern but I think we've all been asking that.
I think some people mentioned it on Twitter but Lulu very casually mentions her time travel lived experiences so it would be weird if they didn't know Bravern himself enabled it. Like I mentioned in my other post. He literally can't take on two giant mechs without Bravern and he knows for sure Superbia can't take on someone.
It's interesting that Bravern has different final words in this timeline than Lulu bad end but he also probably never had that stargazing scene in that route. Actually, you know what, I think Lulu bad end he does know it's Lulu because I don't think Isami was there for the specific curry scene we saw. He's still crying, naked in Bravern during that. Unless he just talks about Japanese curry all the time where we don't see.
Smith's last words are specifically "Brave Bang" (yuuki bakuhatsu) vs Bravern's "Brave Burn" and I'm basically Pepe Silvia-ing it up trying to figure out what it means. It's not really a direct confession about being Smith (because he's still a coward in that regard) but maybe it's a secret move/activation considering the moves are in English?
I think any kind of extra finale speculation requires its own post but that's my thoughts!
hm. Sorry. Maybe I should get into writing fanfic so you at least get something out of this
#bravern spoilers#can I use the no beta we die like fools tag on a poorly done essay#I didn't even really analyze the episode tbh#11/10 it's good thats all you need to know#the first best time to watch bravern is as its airing for the theorizing#the second best time is now
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hi! im also a big fan of angst and have been thinking of this tyler galpin x reader story (u dont have to do it if u dont want to)
spoilers for ppl who havent finished the series yet!
okay so, tyler and the reader are a couple and they were supposed to have a date. but it was one of those days where laurel controlls him or something(tyler himself knows hes the hyde by now btw). so he unwillingly misses their date(again, for numerous times). the reader decides to go home after a couple of hours and comes across the hyde and gets hurt badly. the next day when tyler decides to visit the reader to apologize, their guardian tells him that theyre in the hospital after a terrible accident. so he rushes to see them and realizes that he was the reason why shes in the hospital. a few hours later she wakes up and sees tyler and they both talk abt him missing so many dates that theyre convinced hes cheating on them. he tells them he isnt but the reader wants some space for now after the accident.
im so sorry if its long, i suck at summarizing
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tyler galpin has many regrets
losing you is his biggest one
[ tylerâs thoughts , time message, readerâs thoughts]
[ major spoilers for the show, cursing, reader wishing they died, not proof read]
their blood was on my hands
why?
why was it on my hands?
ugh
stop overthinking it
it was just a dreamâŠ
right?
the resident barista bit the side of his lip as he thought about his lover. he snapped out of his trance when a customer walked up to the counter.
âhello tylerâ
âgood afternoon, ms. thornhill! would you like the usual?â tyler tried focusing on the order instead of the building pressure in his heart.
theyâre normally here by now
he bit his lip and glanced at the door while making the double-cap, no foam, two pumps of sugar-free vanilla coffee.
he set down thornhillâs drink and she gently grabbed his arm. she leaned in close and whispered into his ear. âgood job yesterday, tyler. see how well you did after removing your distractions?â
tylerâs face morphed into one of confusion. âwhat? i donât think i have any distractions..â
âwell not anymore. with yn out of your life, you donât have anything to worry about.â thornhill smiled as she squeezed his shoulder.
tyler felt his stomach drop. âwha-what? are they mad? what happened?â he pulled away from thornhill as his heart beat increased. âi donât think i di- oh shitâ
realization hit him like a truck.
he forgot your birthday,
which meant he forgot your date.
againâŠ
âmy phone, my phone! do you still have it? why didnât you give it to me yesterday?â tylerâs breathing became slightly erratic as other customers as the weathervane started staring.
âi just want whatâs best for you and silly distractions like your phone and yn get in the way.â thornhill said in an obnoxiously sweet tone.
yn isnât a distraction..
ânow calm down, people are staring.â she set down his phone and walked away with her drink.
tyler picked it up and practically sprinted to the break room.
7 missed calls and 13 unread messages..
shit
he quickly checked his messages as his breathing went unsteady.
4:37 hey tyler! donât forget about dinner at 6:30!
5:45 hey ty. are you on your way? just call me when youâre close.
6:02 never mind. iâll just meet you at the restaurant, ok? be safe!
6:24 hey ty. are you on your way? iâm already here
6:33 iâm at the table, itâs towards the back
6:45 ty theyâre starting to ask for our orders, please hurry.
6:56 ty please answer. i donât think theyâll give us more time
7:04 ty?
7:17 never mind. iâm going home
7:20 iâm tired
7:21 this is such a stupid cycle
he felt his heart clench
7:22 sorry for wasting your time
you never wasted my time
7:23 i hope your happier with her than you were with me, for her sake
tyler dialed your number almost immediately with his shaky hands.
it went straight to voicemail.
he tried again.
same results.
fuck
he quickly threw off his apron and ran out of the cafe. he risked getting fired for abandoning his shift, but he didnât care.
you were the one thing on his mind.
he bit his lip while getting into his car and subconsciously made his way to your house. once he reached your house he stepped out of his car and ran to your front door with his heart still beating rapidly.
the door opened before he could even knock. he locked eyes with your teary eyed elder brother.
âoh um. hey jeremy, is yn here?â your brother stayed silent as his face changed into disgust.
âyou tell me galpin. you were supposed to be with them last night.â he dug his finger into tylerâs chest. âthey tried coming home alone but they were attacked. all because you pathetic excuse for a boyfriend couldnât care any less about my sibling, your supposed lover.â tears built up your brotherâs eyes.
tylerâs heart couldnât stand this much stress. âi-i didnât know.. jeremy, please. i am so sorry! are they ok?â
jeremy scoffed. âstay the fuck away from my sibling, galpin. you clearly donât care. if you did, they wouldnât be in the hospital. but they are, so stay away before i do something i wonât regret.â your brother slammed the door in his face.
hospital?
what happened to them last night?
damn it
i shouldâve been with them
why wasnât i with them?
tyler was lost in his thoughts as he walked back to his car. he got in and set his hands on the wheel for a solid 30 seconds.
âŠthe dream
what was it again?
ugh this hyde is messing with my memory
i have to get to them
he started his car and drove to the hospital as fast as possible.
the dream
it was about yn..
he tried remaining calm as his hands tightened against the wheel.
it had to be a dream
i wouldnât let myself do that
he reached the hospital and walked in trying to steady his breathing.
âcan i help you?â the receptionist questioned.
âyes! um where is yn lnâs room?â he answered quickly.
âroom 13 to the right.â he handed him a visitorâs pass and went back to typing on his computer.
he dashed to the hallway and anxiously looked for your room.
it was just a dream
i would never do that to them
i love them
tylerâs eyes widened at his own thoughts.
love�
he stood in front of your door.
yeah, love
he carefully opened the door to your room and his heart stopped.
you lied still with bandages covering your entire chest, a large bandage on your cheek, and your right arm in a cast.
no
no no no
this is all wrong
he walked over to you and gently held your hand. tears pricked his eyes as he kissed your palm. he sat on the chair beside the bed and stared at you with a worry written expression.
i couldnât have
i wouldnâtâŠ
he glanced at your bandages and he knew.
i shouldâve listened to my dream
guilt washed over him.
god, iâm so stupid
your heart monitor was able to drown out his sobs.
âi love you, yn. i love you so much.â he whispered and wiped away his tears.
he laid his head on his arm and caressed your hand. he stared at your resting face as if you would disappear if he didnât.
the sun was beginning to set and he was starting to feel the exhaustion from staying up all night.
he stayed staring for a while before his eyelids got heavy. he was eventually overtaken by sleep, yet he still clung to your hand.
ugh my head is killing me
you opened your eyes to the dim lighting of your hospital room. you tried lifting your hands to your face but the pain stopped you from doing so.
you winced as you looked at your body but your heart dropped when you glanced at the boy holding your hand.
tyler jolted awake while breathing heavily. you glanced away before he could make eye contact.
âwhyâre you here, tyler?â you asked as you stared up at the ceiling.
âi just wanted to see youâ tyler felt his voice get caught in his throat. âiâm sorry, yn. iâm sorry iâm so sorry. i shouldâve been with you.â he held your hand to his face and tried to make you look at him but you refused.
âif you didnât want to be with me you couldâve just said so.â you took deep breaths as you started feeling the scars that creature had left. âyouâve missed so many of our dates. itâs embarrassing for me.â
âyn please i never meant to-â
ânever meant to what, tyler? cheat?â your eyebrows knitted together as you finally looked at him. his eyes were bloodshot and they maintained a pleading look which made your breath hitch.
you resisted the urge to comfort him because it wasnât your right anymore. âyouâve been so distant lately and it seems like you donât even care about me anymore.â
tylerâs eyes became watery once again as he clutched onto your hand. âyn, i do care about you.â he gently set your hand down and cupped your cheek. âi love you, yn. i love you.â
a tear ran down your face as you looked away. âdonât say things you donât mean, tyler.â
âyn, please⊠i love you more than anything.â
âstop it.â
âyouâre the light of my life.â
âtyler, stop.â
âi love you, yn. just please listen.â tyler begged as you finally tore your hand from his.
âjust stop!â your face was now wet with tears as you faced the boy you love.
âi spent my birthday alone while you did whatever with that woman. you didnât bother to respond or at least tell me you couldnât make it.â tyler stayed quiet.
âi could have diedâŠâ you wiped your face with your hand. âi kind of wish i had.â
âyou donât⊠you donât mean that. yn you donât mean that.â tyler denied as his tears fell freely.
âjust leave, tyler. i donât want to be with you anymore. i just canât anymore. you clearly donât love me. you might as well leave and be happy.â you continued to cover your face with your arm. you didnât want to see his expression as you broke up with him.
ây-yn please. i justâŠâ he felt desperate knowing he was losing the love of his life.
âgoodbye, tyler galpin. iâm sorry i wasnât enough for you.â you held back a sob as you heard him get up.
âiâm gonna fix this. please just⊠stay alive. if not for me, then for your family.â you stayed silent, afraid that if you spoke you would release the emotions you were holding back.
you heard him walk towards the door before stopping. âi love you yn ln, more than you can imagine.â
#wednesday#wednesday show#wednesday angst#laurel gates#marilyn thornhill#tyler gaplin x you#tyler gaplin x yn#tyler gaplin x reader#tyler gaplin#tyler galpin#tyler galpin x reader
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