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Erik pls I’m begging you to continue and make lasko like an evil vampire or smthn who got turned after running away from home because I was devastated when we barely got time with imperium lasko like I need him to be evil and twisted and and I think it would really cool if instead of biting people to kill them he literally chokes the air out of them because the closest he got to killing pre turning was through taking the air from someone so he just adopts that style cause it gives him the same rush
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i need an output for those heavy feelings, cause i feel like i'm about to burst
Just why?
I really have complicated feelings towards NANA
I hate it, but i also love it. It touches something so deep inside me, i cant explain it.
But there are events i will never be able to acknowledge. For me, that story ends long before Nana and Ren had their last fight.
Rens death is pointless, he already went through a lot, he suffered to hell and back. He showed us his weak side, but was never able to show it to his most precious person.
When we finally see a little hope and Ren stops with the drugs, his reward is death?
Thats it?
Did he really had to die to make an even bigger impact? or bring more drama to the story? For characters development?
This work is already full of grief, you get no moment to breathe.
Its already enough, we went through a lot together with the character, please why couldnt they finally get their more than well deserved happiness?
its not enough that his mother abandoned him and that he had to grow up in an orphanage.
its not enough that he shoulders so much responsibility, such a heavy burden.
its not enough that he is alone most of the time, especially when he is at his lowest. (i'm glad Reira was with him alot of times..)
its not enough that he cant live without Nana but also feels guilty because he write songs for Trapnest, especially for Reira.
its not enough that Nana rarely or almost never shows Ren how much she really loves him, or that he could rely on her.
its not enough that he is kind to everyone and tries his best for everyone.
is it still not enough, that this fragil soul almost breaks under the pressure?
And when he finally tries to become stronger, his life got taken away.. and not only that, he dies with feelings of guilt, he dies without making up with nana, he dies without having his dreams fully accomplished.
it would have had a much bigger impact
if he could have had accomplish it
if he could have become stonger
if he could have made up with Nana and finally both could try to communicate what they have both kept inside their hearts.
Let him have his freedom, his happiness, let him be himself.
He's the most unfortunate character in this story.
When you almost reach what you have longed for, does one die?
Its not fair! (yeah i know the world is not fair, dont gimmie that shit!)
Takumi should have died!
He doesnt care for others, he only cares for himself or his "castle"
He is a rapist
he is abusive
he is to blame for Rens condition and death
he is to blame for Reiras mental health
he would do anything to accomplish his goals
he even uses his kids
he is a cheater
he doesnt have even a little bit of good inside him
he is a toxic motherfucker scum who should have died, because everything would have been better!
Reira would finally be set free from her love for him & his claws
Shin and Reira could be together, they could heal each other and become happy
Hachi and Nobu would be happy together
Ren wouldnt be under pressure
Rens mental health would be much better
Ren wouldnt have died
Ren and Nana would -with time& help- be happy together
Nobu would be free and happy
Hachi would no longer be with a cheater and could be happy
Reira could even live her life normal, like she always wanted
Nana (im sure of it!) wouldnt have changed so negatively
I'm sure there are many more reasons why it would have been better if it were him instead of Ren. Takumis is literally the personified devil.
If he wouldnt be there, everyone would have been more happy. I dont say that all problems would be solved but they would definitely be more happy and less problems, 100%!!!
Everything started to go south after this bitch face appeared.
He knows how to use kind and weak characters like Ren for himself.
If he would care for anyone beside himself, then please explain why:
He didnt do anything even though he knew Ren did drugs?
Didnt do anything to help? Like give him a longer break, call Nana or WHATEVER! Just help you fucking asshole, you know him long enough!
wouldnt have let Ren drive to get Reira back!
He would manipulate Hachi, Reira and literally anyone else?
provoke Nobu even though he knows that Hachi is finally happy with him?
Uses his son to make Reira sing?
Its so devastating. that whole work is just sad.
I dont want a future, where Ren is not with Nana or Nana not with Ren.
I dont want Shin without Ren
I dont want Nobu without Ren
I dont want Reira without Ren
I dont want Yasu without Ren
I dont want Hachi without Ren
I dont want a NANA-World without Ren!
I dont want anyone of them being happy without Ren.
If this is a sorrowful story, then go ahead and make it even more sorrowful! let all of them suffer until their end until their last breath and never ever forget Ren.
I cant bear a future of Hachi with her kids, Yasu, Nobu and Shin coming together, waiting for Nana - who might never come- without Ren.
I wish Nana would have treasured the time she had with Ren more. She was just so busy with herself that she didnt even see that Ren was about to break.
If she would have made more effort.. just a little but.. just imagine how happy Ren would have been?
He never forced her to do anything or be anything she wasnt.
He treasured her, never looked or thought of another women.
He showed her more that once with words and his actions, just how much he loves her, how important she is to him and that he is the same as her - that he could never live without her.
She took him for guranted and didnt appreciate that he was there for her soo so many time. Why couldnt she be there for him, when he needed her the most?
Why did she let her pride and stubborness win?
/Theres so much more i wanna write but also, i'm at loss for words.
I just want Yazawa Ai to make everything that happened a dream which Hachi has. And in reality everything is fine.... just please..
#sorry this is just rambling#i needed to get this off my chest#a lot of stuff might not make sense grammatically but bear with me :')#I'm into much feels#that feel train aint feeling good#it just makes me wanna puke#thats what it literally is#send help oTL#Nana#Nana manga#Nana Anime#yazawa ai#yazawa ai nana#nana yazawa ai#anime#manga
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i will be getting on a plane in 3 hours. i have not been inside an airport since i was 8 years old. how does this shit work? is my bag over 50 pounds? probably. let’s hope i don’t anxiety cry during the tsa check
#sorry this is just rambling#but i literally do not understand how airports work#also it’s -35° F#how does that affect a plane?
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Y'all I know that when so-called AI generates ridiculous results it's hilarious and I find it as funny as the next guy but I NEED y'all to remember that every single time an AI answer is generated it uses 5x as much energy as a conventional websearch and burns through 10 ml of water. FOR EVERY ANSWER. Each big llm is equal to 300,000 kiligrams of carbon dioxide emissions.
LLMs are killing the environment, and when we generate answers for the lolz we're still contributing to it.
Stop using it. Stop using it for a.n.y.t.h.i.n.g. We need to kill it.
Sources:
#unforth rambles#fuck ai#llms#sorry but i think this every time I see a reblog with more haha funny answers#how many tries did it take to generate the absurd#how many resources got wasted just to prove what we already know - that these tools are a joke#please stop contributing to this
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not caring too much about a fandom’s favourite guy is the worst. you’ll think “oh i’ll look into the tag see if anything new and cool’s there” and it’s just that fucking guy again
#this is about astarion. gale to an extent too#had this with dragonage too because 80% of the time it was just solas or cullen. who i dont care for too much#and i do LIKE astarion and gale. But my favourites are the girls and wyll#something i had less with the dao cast because i generally also like the popular guys of that one alistair and zev#but then it’s like. ‘do you guys even understand these characters’#da2 i dont care for anders dragonage all that much. Fenris i do LIKE and he’s my fav guy. but i dont care for them the most#sorry for complain posting. Went into a tag today if you couldnt tell#roscoe rambles
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On of the less intuitive things about love, I've found, of any kind, is the importance of needing things.
I didn't realize it until recently, but I've always seen love as something requiring sacrifice, selflessness, patience, and generosity- to ask for nothing is to be the best person I can be, small and quiet and never in the way, always happy and helpful, self-sufficient and present when desired.
It's only as an adult, now, that I'm beginning to see the selfishness of wanting nothing.
I cut my friend's hair in my kitchen the other day. They wanted a trim and I had the skills, so I offered, and was genuinely excited when they stopped hesitating over "bothering me" and took me up on it. It was a peaceful afternoon, and we had tea and chatted for an hour or more.
My brother and I shared popcorn at the movies a while ago. When I came time to pay, I pulled my card out like a wild western sheriff and slapped it on the machine before he could fight me for it first. The satisfaction was delightful.
Someone called me crying on the phone the other day. Kept apologizing for disturbing me at work, talking about how they were bothering me on my lunch break. I was telling the truth when I told them that really, I was flattered and honored and relieved, knowing that if they were hurting I would know, that I didn't have to worry in silence. It felt good to hear them slowly come down, and to know that they knew it would be better soon, and to hear them laugh wetly on the other end. We're getting together for a visit next week.
It's hard to need things, if you've trained yourself not to. It's hard to want things, when you don't know how to want anymore. Trusting people is difficult, and so is relying on them, but I don't know where I'd be without the people who rely on me.
I've heard a lot of people say, "Nobody will love you unless you love yourself". I've had a lot of thoughts about it. It's not right, but it's not wrong, either, I think.
"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... I've always taken that to mean, "You will not be lovable until you develop a positive view of yourself as a person".
Now, I think it's sort of inside-out.
"Nobody will love you unless you love yourself"... because nobody can show their love to you in a way that you can accept until you treat yourself kindly, and learn what you need, and what you want, and how to ask for it, and then give that vulnerability away.
Love, for me, is someone I ask for a ride to the airport. Whether they end up doing this or not is irrelevant.
It's not needy, or selfish, or taking up energy. It's giving the gift of being wanted, and needed, and thought of. It's giving someone the security of being part of someone's life.
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#sorry for the weird text it was the only way to get it to fit lol#digital art#meme#ramblings#fun fact i draw on my phone so i dont even hit ctrl+z i hit undo but idk ctrl+z just felt right
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ppl dont talk about the fact that even Daisuke's characterization is affected by Jimmy's unreliable perspective. He refers to Daisuke as a spoiled rich kid who has his mommy and daddy behind him, that he's impressionable and stupid, and i do see people kinda characterizing him like that
like he has these rich parents who will dote on him and give him everything, that he's an airhead who isn't good at anything...
yet in curly's perspective we see that he's good at board games, he's trying his best, he's trying to listen to swansea and learn from him. He did get the internship from his parents but not because he wanted to, but because his parents thought he wasn't going anywhere in life, that he needed to be doing something. Daisuke is silly and a positive person but that's just for show, we see in the scene where Jimmy finds him lying on the floor drunk on mouthwash, that Daisuke isn't doing well, he's scared and feels sad about his parents. He makes jokes to cope with the horrible tension on the ship.
people characterize him as a stupid little kid too much for my liking, that's how Jimmy sees him. As a spoiled brat who came on the ship just to be an inconvenience. Even Swansea didn't see him like that, sure he complained about him but in Daisuke's final moments we see Swansea's true colors and how much he actually cares for him. He's an adult, who's putting on this happy go-lucky persona because he truly wants to succeed in life, and he's doing the internship for his mom and dad even though he doesn't want to. So he makes friends, he tries his best, he wants to be on the good side of everyone on the ship.
Jimmy just saw him as an easy target, someone too trusting and easily manipulated. A stupid kid he can use to get what he wants. He even plays with Daisuke's feelings of needing validation from Swansea, someone he looks up to. He tells Daisuke that by going in the vent, he'd make Swansea proud.
Daisuke isn't someone who has it easy or someone who's a stupid airhead. Jimmy just saw kindness and positivity as weakness.
#sorry if this doesn't make any sense...i just needed to get my thoughts abt daisuke out of my head#fuck you jimmy#mouthwashing#mouth washing#wrong organ#daisuke#daisuke mouthwashing#mouthwashing daisuke#jimmy mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#swansea#riv rambling
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I think, perhaps one of the funniest things to come from EPIC popularising the Odyssey is that now a ton of people think Poseidon wanted to kill Odysseus.
In the Odyssey, Poseidon has no intention of killing Odysseus. In fact, part of the whole reason Zeus lets Poseidon do whatever he wants even though he thinks Odysseus is rad and should get to kiss his wife is explicitly because Poseidon had no intentions of killing Odysseus. Poseidon wanted to pay back the suffering/inconvenience blinding Polyphemus would have caused. It's a really abstract thing tbh. How do you pay back someone permanently disabling your son? Poseidon's solution was just to amputate Odysseus from his other half; i.e. Penelope. The end game was never murder, it was always an endurance race.
(Od. Book 1: Zeus reassuring Athena that he is not, in fact, a part of Odysseus Hater-Nation. Trans. Robert Fagles)
Also, for those wondering if there's any sort of in text reason for why Poseidon wasn't around in God Games - at the time in the Odyssey when Athena petitions Zeus to let Odysseus leave Calypso's island, Poseidon was -checks notes- on vacation in Ethiopia. Yep. He left to Ethiopia for a festival and thusly was very much absent for Athena's whole "please let Ody go? Please? 🥺" request.
(Od. Book 1: While Odysseus was suffering, Poseidon went to party in the east)
I am begging y'all to read the Odyssey. It's a comedy for everyone except Odysseus and Penelope who are, in fact, suffering 24/7 365.
#ginger rambles#ginger chats about greek myths#Sorry for the quality of the quotes but I'm too tired to google a pdf vers of the Odyssey and then edit those so y'all are getting#my crunchy pictures from one of my physical copies of the book lol#it's reiterated multiple times that Poseidon doesn't want Odysseus dead too#he is literally just driving him mad on the ocean because that's what Odysseus condemned Polyphemus to by blinding him#Also there's no good way to mention this but the Odyssey starts#by Zeus lamenting how mortals blame all their troubles and miseries on the gods when that's just not fair#because the gods go out of their way to warn the mortals that will be saddled with the most wretched fates#and they ignore the gods and do whatever they want anyway LMFAO#It's a really smart way to tie in the whole Orestes plot that would have wrapped up in between Odysseus getting stranded on Ogygia#and Odysseus getting off of Ogygia#epic the musical#epic the wisdom saga#zeus#athena#odysseus#poseidon#the odyssey
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I fuck hard with Asexual Venom, but the idea of Venom, an alien whose species doesn't breed sexually and don't have concepts of sex, being sexually attracted to some boring sad and sweaty white guy he picked up on the streets is just so funny to me
#yall seem to ignore how V is the true monster fucker here#his entire species breeds asexually and the idea of wanting to bond with your host is so absurd to them#and also just how biologically different humans are from symbiotes#like at least Venom turns somewhat hummanoid so Eddie being attracted to him isnt entirely off#but Venom's species by itself is just a blob#im sorry but Venom being the true monster fucker in their relationship is so wildely ignored and i need people to talk about it more#(not saying Eddie isnt a monster fucker he totally is)#venom#venom symbiote#symbrock#eddie brock#tags#talking#rambling#im going to hell#asexual
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#sorry for reposting stuff so often now but I just keep…. it’s just all so…#eyes on sudan#Sudan#genocide#rambling
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look guys i don’t like to argue but i hate it when people portray equius and nepeta like this:
i mean, they’re both just thirteen, come on.
equius is not her parental figure, and nepeta isn’t a fussy baby that can’t eat her fruits and veggies! equius isn’t some malicious evil guy, he’s just a stupid little teenager. that goes for eridan too (and i guess like, all of the trolls, but especially those two). nepeta’s not some innocent little baby. she’s the same age as all her friends. she kills huge wild beasts on the regular for consumption.
a lot of dubs i’ve seen, too, make nepeta sound like a toddler, and equius like a whole grown adult man, and i don’t really like it because neither of them are those things. (granted, i don’t watch too many dubs, so maybe i am wrong on this)
#equius zahhak#nepeta leijon#:’(#sorry about the little rant#i’m not trying to go after anyone but i wanted to voice my thoughts#it’s alright i can agree to disagree with people so please do not start arguing i hate arguing#rambling#i don’t know man i just want people to treat them like kids#homestuck#meowrails
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as a bi person, the bisexual flag brings me infinite joy and always puts a smile on my face, however as a person who has a Passion for Graphic Design, that undersaturated shade of purple infuriates me when it's used digitally
like, on an actual flag - which was its original purpose - it looks great!
those look fine! lovely, even! with the semi-transparent fabric, the way it catches the sunlight, it looks beautiful!
but now look at how it looks digitally
the pink and blue are so vibrant compared to the sad, lonely lavender!
and let's look at this statement from Michael Page, the creator of the bi flag:
(sidenote: he created this flag in 1998, so if his takes on bisexuality is different from yours, it's okay to notice that! a lot has changed since the 90s when it comes to lived experiences and the way we describe them. but, it's also important to respect his thoughts about this and the way he presented them, even if today, we'd probably not say that bi people "blend unnoticeably into both the gay/lesbian and straight communities.")
so in pantone colors, the pink is 226 C, the blue is 286 C, and the purple of the flag is 258 C.
but...here's the deal
Michael talks here about how the key to understanding the symbolism is to know that the purple blends into both the pink and blue. and on a physical flag, I think you can see that!
but digitally, it absolutely does not blend. it clashes badly, and looks oddly separate from the other two colors.
which got me wondering...what purple do you get if you actually blend 226 C and 286 C?
oh! oh, my god.
look at that! look at how nicely it fits between those colors!
look at it next to the original color scheme! look at how much more vibrant the purple is!
and friends. this is just blending through rgb! you get even more purple variations when you use other color spaces!
let's compare all of them:
(top: original, lab. middle: lrgb, lch. bottom: rgb, hsl)
look at all of the different purple options you can get just by combining these two colors!
if you want almost too-vibrant saturation, you can go hsl, if you want something more relaxed that's closer to the original, you can go lab or lrgb. and if you want to split the difference, lch is bright and violet, while rgb is there with its saturated but darker purple.
anyway, I guess I don't really have a point here? this isn't so much an informational post as it is Me Getting Weird About Colors, but I think it is a useful lesson about how colors look very different on screens compared to how they look on objects in real life.
and sometimes, I think it's okay to compensate for that.
out of all of these, this is my favorite bi flag:
it's the one where the colors were blended in lab color space. for me, the lighter, softer purple is close enough to the original bi flag purple, while also feeling like a smoother blend of the blue and pink
but that's just me! and it might not even look the same to you, since every screen is different, because technology is a nightmare!
anyway, thank you for coming with me on this colorful journey! I will now retreat back to inkscape and make pained sounds about inkstitch gradients until something tangible pulls me back into reality
#bi#bisexual#bisexuality#bi flag#bisexual flag#sbs rambles#graphic design is my passion#id in alt text#but#the ids are probably deeply unhelpful for the different variations of flags#in the alt text of the six flags all grouped together#I just put what method the purples were blended with#and then tried to describe them more in the paragraph below#but this is an inherently visual post#so if you're reading it with a screen reader I am sorry :(
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Ultimately the resolution of Jason and Cass fights comes down to the fact that while he has his own ideals that don't mesh with the bats, Jason can be flexible. DC skipped the whole reconciliation with the family but while he's willing to kill it's generally a means to an end to him, not the whole entire point unless you're talking about Joker. Meanwhile for Cass the question of killing vs not killing is dead serious to her which means any time they're working together and things start going off track it's like:
Jason: Look if we kill this guy we send a message to his boss which makes it easier for us to negotiate with him from a position of power and I just think that-
Cass, snatching one of his guns and pointing it at her own head: Go on, pull the trigger. Kill him. Kill me. Go tell Batman that you let his daughter die to make a negotiation easier. He already let you die so no problem right? You think we should die? You think our life only worthwhile as part of a plan, just because we're killers? Are we doomed? Are we rotten to the core with no hope of redemption? Go on then, kill us and kill part of your soul alongside it. You clearly don't care for it so why are you even trying? Kill yourself along with us, come on Jason let's all just die right?
Jason, slowly backing away: I think you may be projecting a tiny bit so just. Calm down before I call the suicide hotline please.
Cass, slowly lowering the gun and knocking the random henchman unconscious: Yeah that's what I thought, fucking pussy.
Jason: Mm yeah you know what I hate you actually. Fuck this mission I'll just shoot you right now if you're going to be this annoying about it.
Jason, explaining things later to Dick: So I just kept shooting at her until I ran out of bullets and we both calmed down enough to call a truce. We tracked the guy down and didn't kill anyone but I did blow up the batplane just as a last minute screw you. Is she always this uh... intense?
Dick: Yeah, one time I broke up with Barbara and she threw me out a window. She's just like that.
#dc#cassandra cain#jason todd#batfam#dc rambles#dick grayson#it's so funny how jason is like. a mass murderer. and yet he's more of a team player than cass#like yeah he's violent and unpredictable but if you're on the same team with the same temporary goal then you've got decent chances#meanwhile the entire team could be seconds away from dying with the only solution being to kill a guy with a bomb#and if you're on the team with cass she'll spend the last few seconds punching you in the face for trying to kill the evil guy#then disarming the bomb because she's just that annoying#I love her very much <3#i'm jason posting a lot recently sorry jtodd stans for clogging up his tag#I just like the thought of jason dealing with a mini bruce that has none of the baggage of being his dad#so it's just the experience of ramming his head into an annoying brick wall with zero catharsis of confronting your shitty father
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mornings in the desert
#desert duo fanart#desert duo#scarian#kelddaa#kelds art#keld make a desertduo piece without excessive warm lighting challenge IMPOSSIBLE#it’s fine tho I love warm lighting#prob could’ve spent more time on this but eh oh well#took me a long time toiling with their expressions#eventually ended up with these… grimaces#maybe bc it’s so early in the morning#maybe bc it’s just these two fools#and they’ve got… whatever it is they’ve got going on in third life#third life Scarian is so special to me#agh sorry I’m falling back into my desert duo phase and rambling about them#1k
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taking all my american followers by the shoulders. listen to me. just because you have a more promising candidate now doesn't mean you just assume it's going to be fine and don't bother voting. assuming trump wasn't going to win is how you got here in the first place so you go out and fucking vote for harris and give everyone a fighting chance.
also if you're still in the 'they're both as bad as eachother' delirium, please take your head out from between your cheeks and consider that your options are an imperfect president and the literal worst person alive who is going to get masses of people killed. i've said it like this before, but it's like deciding between maybe getting food poisoning or definitely having a brain aneurysm. take your pick i guess but don't be surprised when you drop dead.
#ramble#sorry to keep posting about this but i am so worried about this fucking election#which is crazy bc it's not even my country#idk there's just lots of people i don't want to be horribly killed or tortured#i was really afraid when it was biden but you have a BIT of hope now#the 'burn it down and start again' revolution isn't coming you have to use your brains please#not to be dramatic but if you think harris and trump are the same you might be the actual dumbest person walking on earth#when we look back on stuff in history and say 'i would've spoken up. how did nobody stop this?'#this is how you stop it.
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