#sorry not to get sappy emotional

[permafrown]

I don't rly talk about o//utlast or miles that often on here but ☝️ he holds a very very very special place in my heart as my all-time favorite character for several reasons. the most relevant to this blog being bcuz he was one of the first characters that I felt like would genuinely love me. like in a we'd make a good couple way. and not a lot of characters reach that point, but like especially years ago when the way I viewed myself was different from now

[skullhalo]

“To be fair, death is hard! We love someone and then they die. It feels unfair. Sometimes death can be violent, sudden, and unbearably sad. But it's also reality, and reality doesn't change just because you don't like it.” - Caitlin Doughty, Will My Cat Eat My Eyeballs?: And Other Questions About Dead Bodies.

[dreamingofep]

Today marks my two year anniversary of watching the Elvis movie🖤⚡️ Little did I know that walking into that movie theater would change my world. I had been an Elvis fan since I was a teenager but seeing this movie made me appreciate and somehow love this man more than I thought was humanly possible.

I’ve been lucky enough to have visited Graceland three times so far and every time, I leave my heart with him. 🩷🖤💙

He has made such an incredible impact on my life and I would be such a different person if I somehow never knew of him. I sometimes think of that weird alternate universe. How if I never heard his voice, I would be missing a part of me. I wouldn’t be musical. I wouldn’t be as daring. I wouldn’t know that a different type of love was possible. My love for him will only grow as time goes on and I’ll always give him my heart. ♥️

[starflungwaddledee]

this is a long shot and i'm sorry to ask, but if you don't mind, can mutuals (or contacts or regulars... just... this community) of mine who aren't jumping ship like... let me know? will any of us still be here? is it over? i'm trying to know if this really is it or what's... even happening. i hate to reassurance seek but i'm feeling pretty miserable and confused.

edit: felt like i was being really pitiful and fragile making this but everybody is being so nice to me and responding so patiently with all your thoughts and i'm in tears of gratitude thank you thank you thank you 💖

[asinglegrainofsandv3]

Long and personal post, im just being emotional about Star Trek, don’t mind me

Watching Star Trek made me and my Father’s relationship even better because not only can he share more of his interests with me but we use ST metaphors when having communication issues and it really helps.

Being Autistic myself, and my father being Autistic and ADHD, him being diagnosed with ADHD at 43 and still not a solid Autism diagnosis and me with my diagnosis in high school… well it’s difficult to connect sometimes because we have vastly different assumptions regarding human behavior.

As far back as I can remember, my father distanced himself from humanity, separated how others act and how he acts. He tried to instill the same mindset in me (now I know it was his way of coping/masking), the idea that we are separate. We think better, we are more intelligent than the average person, we understand the wider scene of things and moral applications more.

A week or so ago, when he was having one of his “my body is different than humans, I don’t need xyz emotionally” moments, I compared him to Spock. He paused, thought it out, and agreed with me.

Yesterday, he confided in me that he feels like ‘Spock, if Spock was born on Earth’ and I understood more of what my father has been going through than I have ever before.

[living-undead]

💗💗Love train! Send this to all the blogs you love! Don’t forget to spread the love! 💗💗

@dreamyyesenia @tenyrasims

If I could give y'all the world, I would. Thank you all for sending me these messages, I truly mean it 🥹

[katels]

times before their big argument, a sappy little scribble comic of the el and her best friend (1/10)

[chans-room]

chans-room 2024 wrapped

I'm gonna be so real and tell y'all 2024 was not my year for writing lol. I posted 3 fics + a few smau chapters and have so many wips I wish I had gone back to but I'm grateful for every one of you I've interacted with this year 🖤

Most Popular Fic

Good Boy • 1,362 notes

Last and longest fic

Christmas Delights • 67 notes

Personal Favourite

Lost in Translation • 19 notes

Stats

9,682 notes

356 original posts

6,027 reblogs

6,383 total posts

40,473 total words written

25 new wips • 40 ongoing wips • 3 posted

Top Muses

These three were the biggest menaces to my sanity this year 🫠

Top Songs

Nonsense by Sabrina Carpenter

Railway by Bang Chan

Slash by skz

Bleeders by Black Veil Brides

Lexapro Skater by HummusVacuum

Foundations of Decay by MCR

Disease by Lady Gaga

Goals for 2025

Be unashamed of my ideas and don't self edit them to be more palatable for others

Finish one wip a month

Make more connections with other writers

Read more in general

Write my fucking book 🫠

Final thoughts

2024 was a lot but I found myself surrounded by some of the most supportive mfs around and I just wanted to share my appreciation for the mutuals who made this a true banner year 🖤

@kiestrokes is my drift compatible bestie, the Mingyu to my Hoshi, the Hobi to my Jimin, the Lino to my Han, the orange cat to my black cat, I love you and I'm so grateful for our friendship 🖤 I hope 2025 brings us more unhinged vnotes, more personal attacks based on unsuspecting biases, and more chaos. I wish you were closer every fucking day so I could show up at your house with snacks and movies but alas, the gods knew we'd be too powerful if we were any closer.

@minttangerines encourages my utter buffoonery, reminds me that my ideas aren't insane, and asks the best questions. I always appreciate getting your input and I love the way that your questions force me to look deeper into what I'm writing and I'm so glad we got closer this year and I stopped being scared of you 🖤 I hope 2025 brings us more deep lore, unhinged ideas, and some justice for my once-saltburn-but-now-not au 🫡

@eureka-its-zico and I are two clowns in one canoe with no oars, stuck in the middle of thirst lake trying to get home from the land of delusion but there's no one else I'd rather be aimlessly floating with 🖤 I hope 2025 brings you a fucking break brings us more laughter, wips, and fantasy shit we both obsess over

@j-a-nuary has been one of my favourite writers for like a decade years and I'm so glad we became friends. You're one of the only people who understands all the kpop hag shit I say bc you were in the trenches too all those years ago and I appreciate that sooooooooo much 🖤 I hope 2025 brings us more of an overlap in our schedules and a block b comeback bc holy shit we deserve it

@minisugakoobies is one of the sweetest, most genuine, encouraging people I've ever interacted with and I love the random kernels of inspiration you bring us in the gc. Luce calls us the light line but you really are a beacon of kindness in this kpop-sphere that I appreciate so much 🖤 I hope 2025 brings us more brainrot, more inspiration, and more positivity

[holographic-mars]

Hey!! I just fell down a TMNT rabbit hole that led to mentions of your “President Dad” AU, but I couldn’t find it anywhere to read. Do you still have it posted anywhere?

HOLY CRAP TMNT MENTION /POS

Okay I’m so sorry to break your heart but unfortunately President Dad AU never really took off besides a couple of art pieces here and there. I did write like one or two little one-shots of scenes I was planning along with a vague outline of a fic, but never posted them bc I never really saw President dad getting anywhere (which is very unfortunate bc I really loved president dad au, I’ve never made an au before so I was very proud of that one) also because I really really lack creativity to make anything out of it.

A wonderfully creative and talented person @violetvulpini made a LOT of art for my AU if they still have it up. They inspired me a lot, we did a lot of brainstorming and back-and-forth to come up with ideas, so a lot of my stuff was built off of our discussions as well as others in the server. In fact, they made a president dad au compliant fic on AO3 that I highly highly recommend you read (read the whole series actually just read all their stuff)! It was always more their AU then mine and its nice knowing that Aden was able to turn my half-baked ideas into something more. (it’s been a while, I’ve lost contact with a lot of friends from the tmnt fandom. It makes me a little sad and I feel guilty reaching out after so long, I think the fear of being forgotten makes me scared to say anything so I’ll be okay with where I am as long as they remember me for who I was ykno? Anyways, rambling)

Crap so! Anyways! Please check out Aden’s works and I could sift through what I have, along with old brainstorming ideas, and maybe post them if you and others are interested :))!! I had no idea my AU was still,, I guess, thought about? I feel so melancholy for the tmnt fandom it was such a good home to me and I was not good during my time in it and I wish one day I can get back into the fandom and reunite with the people I care about.

[honeyedmiller]

I’ve had such a shit day today and that positivity is just what I needed. So very grateful for all of my moots on here. I hope you all know how much you’re all loved. 🩷

[lunarbun-ships]

shut up im posting abt him again

i forgot how much this silly billy meant to me i kinda regret letting the shitty fanbase get to me back then and dropping him from my f/o list

bro already moved up to my secondary main he is very special 2 me,,,

[navysealt4t]

mmm feeling sappy tonight. i’ve met so many amazing people through tumblr, who r like my closets friends and found family n shit :] just caring about people and knowing they care so much about u too is amazing. u guys have made my life so much better and i just appreciate all my friends and siblings so so much :( u guys have changed my life so much just in a year and i don’t feel alone anymore . thank u guys so much. even if we just interact by reblogging or sending asks or dming u guys r some the the best things that have ever happened to me <33

[imnotcommitedtothis]

Heather finally having an honest sincere smile around Alejandro

and him finding the most adorable thing he has ever seen and deciding to plan and "trick" her into smiling like that again....<3

[mountsmase]

I’ve just seen that ‘Helping Hand’ has reached 700 notes?! I know that’s not necessarily a big number or a milestone by any means, I posted that fic ages ago and I’m never normally one to care too much about how many likes or reblogs my fics get but it just reminded me of how lovely you all were when I posted that fic 🥹 i wasn’t even that proud of it when I posted it but it’s grown to be one of my favourites that I’ve written and I just want to say a well over due thank you to all of you who have continued to show support on my writing (even if I haven’t posted in what feels like a life time 😩)

so thank you, and I hope I can have more fics for you all soon 😚❤️

[nico-is-a-corn-plant]

I just graduated and I was sitting at a café with graduation hat on when a mother with a stroller sat next to me and from the stroller dangled a pacifier with my given name on it. And there we sat me with my graduation hat, her in her strawberry diaper and we are both gonna be okay even when it's tough to get there.

[d0d0-b0i]

it’s weird how much lighter my life feels now. not that i don’t have any issues (because there are many in my life, as i am sure there are in yours), but they’re just so much more manageable than they were a year ago.

​what’s more; i love myself now. i may not be perfect. but i am trying my best, and i can tell that i am! i see myself in the mirror, and sometimes i just examine myself, and my features, and i smile. i feel so much more authentic when talking to people, not worrying about how they view me, because i don’t have to anymore. i wish i could’ve told 15-year old me just how good it’s gotten so far, i know that he would’ve loved hearing about the shitty sideburns we’re growing out right now :’)