#sorry im still goign through it

[icharchivist]

about dgm 251

also like can we just. admire the bait and switch Hoshino gave us.

when we met Lucia for the first time it was in a little scene where she is a CHILD and she runs to someone to tell them "Bookman no longer has a successor", and we've been freaking out ever since because we thought it meant Bookman Senior has been recovered by their clan and Lavi disappeared and/or died?

(or like we knew he didn't die because he was too important to die but we were worrying about his fate for him to be declared no longer a successor, you get what i mean)

and now we meet Lucia again in the story and she's a grown adult and she is telling us about the disappearance of the Previous Bookman Apprentice, and how Bookman was supposed to have passed down his legacy to his next successor by now if not for how he had lost his previous successor

we were freaking out for years about hearing Lucia say "Bookman no longer has a Successor" thinking the worst and it was a FLASHBACK??????????????????????

[nights-nonsensical-ramblings]

ugh, I really need to get a fic done and posted so i can feel like i've actually accomplished something, but at this point so many of them are in a state where i feel like I'll never ever get them done. It's like im just trudging through and endless swamp and that even if i do reach the end they're so niche that they'll barely get any attention and like what's the point of putting so much effort into them then? like i used to draw but all my motivation vanished as i could rarely get it to be what i wanted. I've got some stuff im genuinely proud of, but at this point they feel like flukes and im never going to get something like that again no matter how hard i practice. I still get ideas for drawings but then i remember even my basic sketches make me cringe, theres no way i could draw what im wanting to and then im just goign to be even more upset.

but unlike with my drawing i AM writting but im writting and just going round in circles with the same wips, always addign but never getting anywhere close to done. But actually. some of them are near done, so done in fact that when i go to read them its like reading a completed story/ but there in lies the problem these cycles and bouning back and forth between fics means that when i ome back to these near completed ones im no longer in the writter mindset but the reader and the closer to complete i am the harder it is to get back to them somehow.

like my fics have genuinely turned my life for the better, without them i wouldn't have met or befriended so many wonderful people and i likely would've remained just an observer of the internet and in a much more lonely place. I can't even imagine what the last couple years would've been like my cuz of what my fics lead to, its kinda unreal.

where was i even going with this? I started writing in a miserable state but ive since calmed and now just feel dull so whatever my original point was has faded to. I guess my brain was just being over dramatic about "those good days of people being excited about things you make, ideas you have and so on are eventually going to end". It tends to do that. (I still struggle to fully enjoy a song cuz two of my best friends clowned on it all the time and its been literal years since i've talked to them, and my brain likes to tell me that saying something "wrong" in a conversation has sims mechanics and damages their opinion on me lol.)

Maybe i need update my pinned post to my fics ( i haven't done that since 2022...) That way new people can be aware of my fics. even if i think a majority of them aren't really that great and are full of errors.

Ugh. sorry for this rant whatever it is, this was just supposed to be a "i need to finish a fic" post but i got a lot of feelings and i just couldn't stop typing once i started

[lavenders-findings]

my epic and official review of FMN by @sipsteainanxiety below the cut <33

(ALSO GO READ IT IF YOU HAVEN'T)

okay starting off with ch 27:

the eye contact through the mirror,, good shit right there

this is random but i keep thinking about the baby and i feel so :(((( and DDDDD: PLEASE they gotta be a family again i am beggingsgfhgf

"you could still pull up. i'll sure she'll understand" okay i pull up--

"gotta get that quality time in with your girl" amen sero, amen

"cowabummer, dude" HJDFK SERO I LOVE YOU he's really coming in here with some hit lines isnt he

he;s so nervous :(((( just wanna wrap him in a big hug he deserves one

the thought that bakugou, who's extremely calculated, is willing to just risk it all just to be with the person he loves means SO much my heart is aching but like in a good way

the art AWWWWWshfgfddsk he is SO. yeah love him

Dr BitchAss McGee better step back alright im not playing around this time bc katsuki is sad again and that is NOT allowed in this household

if this man doesnt stop clicking at me i swear im gonna click him into the next dimension

this bitch is keeping me in a WAREHOUSE??? didnt your mother teach you how to treat a lady smh

OH DID THIS BITCH TAKE MY MEMORIESS AGAIN I SWEAR

this woman sounding like the Joker by talking about society like get your clown ass away from me im not batman

lady im sorry your partner died but i literally barely remember that incident because SOMEONE took my memory so why tf am i here i mean i understand that youre trauma dumping but find a better outlet, sis <3

oh heres bitchass mcgee in the corner okay lemme at him

"you bounced back though, didn't you?" okay untie me and then say that to my face

AAGHHHH NOW ITS BEEN REVEALED THAT SAKI'S HER DAUGHTER IM AAAFDHGADDFGDHFGSDHHFHDGFGHDH PLEASE LET THEM BE A FAMILY AGAIN THEY ALL DESERVE SO MUCH LOVE AND HAPPINESS

YEAHHHH WOOOOO KATSUKI COME IN AND KICK SOME ASS WITH ME love how this violence will hopefully bring us together <3

AAAHHH i didn't think i'd be in the notes!!! tysm ily <333333 !!!!!! i wanna draw this lady now sjfhdg i have a mental image of her already

okay time for ch 28 hgskdghasghsdf

these two bitches with one needle trying to beat us like just accept defeat, sweaty <3

OH SHIT WAIT HER QUIRK UH OH

YEAHHHH LEMME KICK THE DOCTORS STUPID HOE ASS WOOO

YESSSEESRESDSED A SOLID PUNCH TO THE FACE HELL EYAH

i should go back and take his wallet and socks; wallet bc it's funny and i can give it to the police and socks bc then he'll be very unconfrotable and thatll ALSO be funny

this lady has rabies or something omg

"YOU TOOK EVERYTHING FROM ME" "I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO YOU ARE" HDF KSHGHDJFHGSDKG PLEASE THAT TOOK ME OUT GHGJFSDHFHGK

bitch stop playing with me like im a puppet this isn't some wack version of coraline where youre the other mother okay put me down i'll bite you

when i said to put me down i did NOT mean like that

YEAHHH WOOOHOOOO IM A BADASS what a power couple omg

AAAHHHHGHH YES this friendship with eijirou is EVERYTHING

mother and father, please give me my child back immediately :) (threat)

YESSS GO OFF SIS THEY DID LIE TO YOU!!!! GO OFF!!!! QUEEN SHIT

YES uncle ei awwwww my HEART omg

kissed sunsets awwwww PLEASE thats so cute

the fact that he kept everything where is was, like the SNEAKERS, im,,,, my heart hurts he missed yn so muchAND TH EBOOK AND THE MUG AND THE NOTES HNMNGMHNFHMNHMFNNFH IM IN PAIN!!! ABSOLUTE AGONY!!!!!!!!!

OH AND THE PITCURE FRAME ON THE PILLOW I AM GOIGN TO WEEP AND SOB AND CRY

YES YES YES THEYRE A FAMILY AGAIN YE S S RSSE

HE GOT THE WHOLE NURSERY READY OMG PELA SEGREREKFVDHSGKDJSG SOBBIGN AN D SCREAMIGN

HE HAD THE RING ON HIM THE WHOEL TIME IM

HMNGHGNMGNHM LOSING YM MIND THEY MEAN :(((( SO MUCH TO ME :(((((( THEIR LITTLE FAMILIY IS SO IMPORTANT I LOVE THEM

amazing job AS ALWAYS this had me absolutely captivated omg <33333

[cassyapper]

OKAY IVE ACTUALLY PLAYED TWO SESSIONS SINCE MY LAST POST SO IM GONNA COMBINE THEM HERE SORRY FOR THE LENGTH BUT,,IVE COME SO FAR I DONT WANNA STOP NOW

this is gonna be very messy cause i WILL be jumping back and forth as things come back to mind so uhh pls enjoy this absolute ramble <3

anyway. i continued playing omori and boy do i have some Thoughts

so first session; i went through the pyre(something i forgot the full name sob) forest/sprout mole village/sweetheart’s castle in one go and let me TELL YOU. DOING THAT WAS FUCKING INSANE I WENT NUTS holy shit.

so anyway.

pyre forest!!!! the lil race against the big spider coming after u for disturbing the smaller spiders mechanic was very fun i had a lot of fun figuring out the best routes to take. i know normally mechanics like that lead to ppl getting frustrated cause u have to keep retrying but i had a lot of fun!!!! sum annoyance but good natured type, th kind that just makes u try harder u know? i just enjoyed it JKFN;FN; candles in the foggy forest....now That is an aesthetic

the rare bear scared the fuckin shit out of me i remember it didn’t attack me straight away so i was like “aw (:” but then when i press x on him it takes me to a BATTLE SCREEN AND SUDDEN THAT MF IS TERRIFYING I WAS LIKE WHWHWHWHWKJDNJ. very funny i honestly wished i recorded my reaction

also omori is afraid of drowning...................................i am breathing heavily. i think whatever happened to mari is related to at least one of the things omori is scared of. so either heights, spiders, or drowning it seems. spiders doesnt seem super likely as a contributor to her death, and while falling from a height is more realistic, such a senseless way of dying doesnt seem to rlly fit ? with the vibe i get from the kiddos in the real world. which makes me think maybe drowning/otherwise suffocating is how she died...but we’ll see. also due to the forgotten library part, we know omori explicitly feared spiders/drowning before mari died so it’s also probable im jus talking out my ass here but still,,,,thoughts

also this motherfucker?

literally fucking terrifying. IT’S BODY IS MADE OF SUCC’D SPROUT MOLES...i still have no idea what exactly it was doing to them but jesus h christ!!!! evil and fucked up. do not feel bad for curbstomping it

sprout mole village!!!! very cute, im v excited to send that one dude his brother’s care package. i like how, when theyre not lost, sprout moles can be real endearing lil guys,,,theyre not my fav lil enemies but (:

also for some reason omori is the first game ive played where i really care about getting achievements ? so i literally did the back and forth on my save file just to get all the season sprout mole achievements JKDJFJ;. i ended up sticking w spring tho before moving on for real cause spring is my fav season irl (:

also i felt SO BAD for cutting down that one sprout mole’s chistmas tree he was just trying to celebrate but i wanted to see that present and coincidentally becoming a christmas ruiner was an achievement so all’s fair in love and war i suppose

ALSO. th fuckin plant monster thing under the scientist sprout mole’s room. major little shop of horror vibes from the design, absolutely adored it!!!!! originally i did  just cut the wire holding the piano over it, ending it in one go, but i was very curious abt it so i reloaded a save file to actually fight it and

i know it only spread that gas to make the kiddos happy cause being happy reduces attack i think ? it decreases attack/defense but seeing the kiddos smile so much was nice (:

however

omori...sunny....son boy.........u good ?

and now. sweetheart

the way the sprout moles completely adore and depend on sweetheart gives me such awful evil vibes and combined with such a luxurious background was fucking incredible

sweetheart herself, speaking of. bitch (sorta affectionately, certainly not derogatory)

i talked to every sprout mole in the audience before taking my seat and i literally dont know why. even when i picked up the pattern of where the unique dialogue could be found (usually the sprout moles farthest right) i still talked to all of them......just in case ? i have no idea. i dont know why i did that. i feel it’s important that i note it tho

LMAO SO WHEN SPROUT MOLE MIKE DID THE MINUTE OF SILENCE FOR YE OLD SPROUT MOLE

I LITERALLY FELT SO FUCKING BAD LMAO I WAS LIKE OH MY GOD NO!!!!!! I DID THAT!!! I KILLED HIM!!! OH MY GOD!!! I WONDER HOW AWKWARD OMORI KEL HERO AND AUBREY FELT IN THE AUDIENCE HOLY SHIT THEY HAD FRONT ROW SEATS TO SPROUT MOLE MIKE’S MOURNING!!! MY GOD FJKFN;;

also sprout mole mike describing 3′7″ inches as ”towering” was the FUNNIEST shit i have ever seen. also i have to wonder, since sweetheart made up the whole show of sweetheart’s quest for hearts in the first place, if she was seriously down to marry a sprout mole if one suited her fancy. jus v funny to me honestly. SPEAKING of sweetheart’s dating patterns I NOTICED THOSE FEM SKELETONS IN THE DUNGEON!!!!! BI SWEETHEART!!!! SHE’S JUST AS DOWN FOR GIRLS AS SHE IS BOYS

i know TECHNICALLY not everyone is in the dungeon for failing to be a good enough suitor but STILL...COME ON. THIS WAS BEFORE WE KNEW THAT. SWEETHEART BI I WILL DIE ON THIS HILL

anyway

when the lights when out and lightning struck the third contestant, i knew Immediately something was gonna go down. and when the mustache sprout mole was like “oh yes!! u!! in the striped pjs!! u absolute beast ur perfect!!!” i KNEW hero had just been selected as the replacement i was goign completely fucking nuts i was like OH MY GODNFNG; HIS HEART IS ALREADY TAKEN BY MARI!!!!!!! STOP

i ended up taking so many screenshots during this part cause i was going feral so here take a glance just cause i love, uh, hero

OUR HERO IN SHINING ARMOR DJLBH;KFJB

also GOD FUCKING DAMMIT IM SHORTER THAN HERO

hero shaking on the stage when he was introduced...oh my HEART....IM SO FOND FOR THIS BOY WTF!!!!! DKJDN;N

this is not really NEWS to me since it’s implied hero is tall but like come ON..... sorry just every time i find out a character is explicitly taller than me i need to huff about it, moving on,

HERO FUCKS

sorry i just have so many screenshorts during this aprt cause i was going fucking crazy but

literally terrifying! sweetheart bathes in that shit!! christ!

is blood good for ur skin? i imagine, so long as like...gore isnt in it and it’s solely blood it cant be BAD necessarily......but good ? regardless very fucked up. besides the fact that well, uh, BLOOD, blood is also sticky as hell. ur telling me sweetheart willinglhy bathed in that shit? disgusting. at least thin it out

anyway I HAD SO MUCH FUN DOING THE PUZZLES AT SWEETHEART’S CASTLE....FROM THE DUNGEONS TO THE KITCHENS TO THE BALLROOM TO THE LIBRARY TO THE GARDENS JUST EVERYTHING!!!! IT WAS SO FUN I ENJOYED FIGURING IT OUT SO MUCH IT WAS LITERALLY DELIGHTFUL...I LOVE THIS GAME SO MUCH THE GAMEPLAY IS SO FUCKING EPIC I LITERALLY HAVE SO MUJCH FUN.......OH MY GOD I JUST. INCREIDBLE!!!! FUCK

also the lil sir maximus bit.........i honestly felt really awful over having to kill them ): i think i even tried running once but it wouldnt let me...it hurt man ): they were just a family....

um but anyway,

i think it was rlly sweet how aubrey protested to the wedding cause she was worried abt sweetheart,,,like i cant rlly explain it idk how to put it into words,,like sweetheart is clearly not mentally well and having an episode, and aubrey being the only one to say “hey what ur doing is self-destructive and isolating” just mmmh. she cares a lot,,,and *i* care aubrey

also sweetheart’s battle theme fucking SLAPPED...SO GODDAMN HARD IM STILL QUAKING OVER IT....FUCKING BANGER YO!!!!!! INCREDIBLE

ah but alas

BASIL........I NOTICED THAT IT WAS HIS GHOST/SHADOW DURING THE EXIT FROM OTHERWORLD AS WELL BUT JUST FUCK

im so worried about basil ):

and it being so obvious that none of the others can see...........them asking omori if he’s okay.....oh my god. i go nuts

and then...the forgotten library part

i literally cried, again, oh my fucking god

these kids loved each other so much they ADORED the time they spent with each other and im QUAKING to know WHAT HAPPENED TO MARI......HOW DID THE FALLOUT GO. I NEED TO KNOW I NEED TO KNOW I NEED TO KNOW

i know there are multiple endings to this game and on god i am not QUITTING until i get the happiest ending there is for these kids im literally a goddamn fuckign mess oh my god

MARI SHWOING UP IN THE LIBRARY AT ONE POINT AND LEADING OMORI...........IM LTIERALLY GOIGN INSANE OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD HE LOVED HIS SISTER SO MUCH HE’S SO CLEARLY LOST WITHOUT HER I CANT FUCKING DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. I NEED TO KNOW I NEED TO KNOW I NEED TO KNOW

GOD

okay sorry i just. ive said ti before but the grief in this game is so real and palpable and it aches, it aches so bad. also the white egret orchids in the library...i see u

but regardless.... session two real world electric boogaloo

LOVE that kel is like “so i need to run errands but u wanna come with me right? of course u do!” like fuck i rlly do. kel is just so delightful i would literally do anything to spend time with him

ALSO i noticed u can just refuse to open the door both times kel’s knocked now and it makes me wonder....if u could choose to ignore kel ? and then venture out urself or just ? i wonder what would even happen if u chose to not open the door. im CERTAINLY not doing it myself at the very least not this playthrough but i am curious...i bet that’s how u get a bad ending, by not talking w kel

but anyway....

aubrey and her gang not saying anything in the pizza parlor........i jus think abt that is all

ALSO!! pet rocks!!!!!!!!! LOVE this lil thing it’s so cute. jus rock paper scissors it babey

speaking of lil bits, love all the mini quests in the real world...it’s just rlly fun and builds up this cute lil town........it also makes me think that whatever happened to mari cant have been anything except an accident, bc no one comments on what a tragedy it was to omori. like if it was murder, there’s no way such a horrific situation wouldnt engulf the town for a bit and sweep over it for weeks at least, but that just doesnt seem to have happened. this is def me reading too into it tho;; point is neighbors nice (: also i got the seashell necklace and i go apeshit

ALSO......THE FUCKING...........CHURCH. I VISITED WITH KEL ON A COMPLETE WHIM CAUSE I WAS CURIOUS IF THE PASTOR WOULD TALK MORE ABT AUBREY BUT NO. INSTEAD HE TALKS ABT THE WEIRD VIBE FORM THE GRAVEYARD HE’S GETTING!!! AND THE DUDE WHO CHILLS IN THE GRAVEYARD SAYS SHIT ABT THE SPIRITS GETTING READY FOR SOMEONE TO JOIN THEM!!!! BITCH WAHT THE FUCK

THERE’S NOF UCKING WAY THIS ISNT ABOUT BASIL. THERE IS NO!!! WAY!!!! I SWEAR ON GOD IF BASIL DIES I WILL LOSE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ESP CAUSE THERE IS LITERALLY NO OTHER WAY HE COULD DIE EXCEPT SUICIDE THAT’S WHAT IT HAS BEEN IMPLYING OVER AND OVER I GO NUTS I GO APESHIT NO NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK

OKAY SORRY I JUST. HHHHHHHHHHH

baby has acquired baby

kel’s family is rlly cute,,,,v heartwarming. i trust them

i do worry abt like...the stark difference between recognizing kel’s accomplishments and hero’s...i just idk. i just keep thinking abt that bit in kel’s story abt hero’s depression when his parents focused on hero and ignored him, and i just. kel’s family is good People but i worry if kel has a good support system...i jus........): i am watching

ahh THE BASIL MISSING PART MADE MY HEART LITERALLY FUCKING DROP..I WAS SO FUCKING PANICKED I WAS LIKE OH MY GOD THIS IS IT BASIL IS DEAD

THANKFULLY HE WASNT BUT HOLY GOD HOW THAT WHOLE SITUATION PANNED OUT MADE ME GO NUTS!!!!!!! BASIL...AUBREY...HER GANG.......FUCK OH M YOGD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

THANK G O D I SNOOPED AROUND KEL’S HOUSE BEFORE LEAVING I WOULD HAVE H A T E D TO FIGHT THEM ALL AT ONCE IM GLAD I WAS ABLE TO JUST PEPPER SPRAY THEM JESUS CHRIST

oh my god kim like asking for aubrey all concerned before deciding to trust her and leaving.....kim i diagnose u with lesbain

the whole fucking. basil almost drowning scene. i seriously feel like ive changed like as a person over it. i am thinking . i am thinking. i am only evee thinking about mari and how omori just loved her so much and how the thought of her gave him strength. th pic of her ghost holding omori’s hand in the water made me cry

MMMM BUT. HERO!!!

I DIE I DIE I DIE HE’S SO PRETTY FUCK ALSO HIM PICKING UP BASIL WOOOOOOOO THIS IS WHAT IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THAT’S WHAT IT’S ALL ABOUT YEAHHHHHHHH

god i feel so bad about leaving aubrey tho. shes so clearly not okay and she so clearly did not mean to push basil in and oh my GOD I JUST...PLEASE....PLEASE CAN WE JUST TLAK TO HER I NEED TO TLAK TO HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED TO FUCK

the ghosts of omori and aubrey on the swings made me cry out like i had been physically assaulted

AHH BUT THEN TAKING BASIL HOME AND WHILE HE’S IN HIS BED HE JUST SAYS “oh sunny...there’s not way out of this...is there?” I LITERALLY GO BUCKWILD APESHIT INSANE STUPDI!!!!!! BASIL YOURE PUTTING UP A LOT OF ALARMING FLAGS HERE!!! PLEASE DO NOT FUCKING DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK. CHRIST. HELL. SHIT. THIS GAME IS DRIVING ME FUCKING CRAZY

GOD

oh my god but the day ending with hero and kel sleeping over at omori’s house...im kdnd im jkdim im not uhm okay THEY BUILT A BLANKET FORT PLEASE..I LOVE THEM

goddd hero going into the piano room....playing sum........and then asking omori abt the song he and mari used to play on violin...and then THE TITLE SCREEN MUSIC STARTS PLAYING....HI. HI HELLO HI YOU CANT FUCKIGN DO THAT HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOUFBJFGJNGN;EJNE; IM GOIGN NUTS

also the name omori comes from the piano.............interesting...i wonder why sunny likes being called omori in the dreamscape...

god but omori not having a srs hallucination cause he’s w his friends and he feels safe...im gonna sob

However. i did glance into the bathroom mirror. AND INSTEAD OF THE EYE MF IT’S A DISTORTED AS HELL GHOST MARI???IM SO FUCKIGN SCARED. IM SO SCARED. WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK? CREEPY AS HELL!!!

ohh my god this GAME

so finally i ended up in whitespace again. do NOT like that omori is completely alone in the world!!! what the FUCK!!!!!!!! I AM SO SCARED AT ALL TIMES. im literally about to go play sum more tho after dinner so i will see what happens. god i jsut......this game is so fucking good it has me by the balls dude. SO glad i decided to play it bruh

anyway thanks for reading all of this if u did, it’s an absolute monster ik and ur a real one

[sleepypeaky]

🌾odjus🌾

Polly “elizabeth” Shelby x  Fem reader

request: Can you write polly x female reader where she's been in love with the reader for months and the reader gets flirted with a lot by the boys and other men but she loves her back? A little bit drama but a fluffy ending? Polly deserves all the love

word count: 1600

warnings: haha i got a little heated at the end,,,,,,,,,, this is basically well mannered smut and im not sorry

a/n: polly is 17 in this. also i forgot a lot about the specific details of the boy’s early lives so im just goign to make shit up. also in my mind they live a little outside of small heath in this, maybe they move into the main town after the story. also this gave me life to write.

1900

A new town, Elizabeth thought, maybe here we’ll stay here longer. 

She let her feet dangle over the wheels, she watched as they passed by a cluster of small houses and a schoolhouse.

Although she didnt know this at the time, in a few years the fielded landscape she saw rolling by her would be transformed into a sooty, squalid, suburb of birmingham. The grass replaced with hard stone.

But for now the landscape was peaceful enough.

They were moving onto a plot of land owned by her sister-in-law’s family. Most of whom worked in the city. There were also a handful of other Romani families, but they all kept their distances.

Once the camp was set, Elizabeth was charged with going to the schoolhouse and finding herself a place. This was done easily enough, as the teacher was a kindly italian woman who was already expecting her arrival. 

On her was out of the small building, she quite literally ran into a girl of about her own age. 

“Oh! Sorry!” You gasped, making sure the collision caused no harm. “I’m (y/n), you must be new here.”

“I’m Elizabeth, and yes i am. Sorry about that.” She shook your outstretched hand.

“No problem at all!” You assured her.

You peered over her shoulder into the distance where a couple of ornate Romani wagons were set int the field.

“Do you live in those wagons?”

She nodded. “Yes, I’m Romani.”

“Does your whole family live there too?”

“Yes.” She smiled “My parents, brother, his wife, my 3 nephews, but they’re practically as old as me. ‘cept for john, hes only 5. And one niece Ada, she’s 3.”

“Well thats a whole lot more interesting than my family.” You chuckled.

Elizabeth laughed, “I’m not sure interesting is the proper word. But if you like i can introduce you?”

“Oh i would love that!”

You walked side by side down the dirt road that lay adjacent to the large fields. The fields were lined with fences for the livestock, and abutted by a decent forest that stretched  off to the northwest. In the field poppies were blooming.

You exchanged trivial information, and in no time were up close to the circle of wagons. The two elder children and elizabeth’s brother were not there, but she introduced you to her parents and the younger children. Both of whom were exceedingly adorable.

You walked closer to one wagon, the one polly pointed out as hers, and walked around it, your eyes following the carved painted curves of the wood. 

“It’s incredibly beautiful.” You marveled. “i wish my home were as nice to look at.”

~~

You and Elizabeth had gotten on very well. And a few days later you were leading her into the woods, not to far from the houses, to show her your “hiding spot”. 

About 100 yards into the woods, there was a clearing by a small stream where you had built a very small wooden structure. To call it a house would be perhaps too direct for what it was, but it had 4 walls, a nearly waterproof roof, and a small hinged door. 

“This is wonderful!” Elizabeth exclaimed.

“Well its not my best work, but it has been here a long time.” You explained. The inside was again, not much. But there was a small platform with a blanket on it, an oil lamp, and a tin box large enough to hold some pencils, paper, and books.

You led her to the stream where you took off your shoes and let your feet into the clear water.

“This is very strange and there is no particular reason for it,” You started, “but for some reason i want to call you Polly.” 

She smiled, “ok. Then i get to call you odjus.”

You tilted your head, 

“what does that mean?”

“you’ll have to wait and find out.”

You bit your lip, “Ok then polly.”

~~~

A few months past, the May turned into a warm august, with a surprising amount of sun. Polly had acclimated well to the locals, most specifically you, whom she woke every morning in wait to see. 

There was something different about the way she thought of you. Something she felt she oughtn’t be feeling.

But life went on around this. She would walk with you on your way to places, grimacing as you walked past the schoolboys who flirted incessantly with you. She got her share of flirts as well, but those didnt bother her like they did yours.

On these midsummer nights the older children of the settlement would sneak out and have bonfires in the upper fields. Alcohol and dancing, folk songs and ballads. The boys who spent the days in the fields or shoveling coal, spent their nights dancing with their sweethearts or searching one out. 

As the nights progressed, one boy would start a slower, crooning song, and all the dancing would slow to a sway.

As with this night.

You and polly started out the night with a few swigs of whiskey and linked-arm dancing. Your skirts tied up to knee level for ease of movement. The other girls did the same, and the hot summer nights became less oppressive. 

At one point, polly found herself sat alone on a stump with the other spectators. She was watching like a statue at you swaying with a rather handsome farm-boy. She had seen you dance with him before, and tonight, whether  she was fed up or the whiskey had got to her, she couldnt take it.

On one swaying revolution, you saw polly hurry off into the field over your partners shoulder. Concerned, you cut the dance short and ran into the night after her. 

She was running fast so you had to hurry to catch up with her,

“Polly! Wait!” You called after her, the waist-high thin grass whipping your shins.

She slowed to a halt and you caught up. 

“Polly whats wrong?” You urged, breathing heavily.

“Whats wrong?!” She whipped around to face you. You saw she was crying.

“This is whats bloody wrong.”

She rushed forward to you and grabbed your face in her hands, and forcefully put her lips on yours. The world stood still, it felt like a wave crashed over your head and you were drowning in its wake, but oh what a way to die. And then she pulled away.

“Something’s wrong with me.” She sobbed. 

You still made no movement.

“And i love you (y/n), i fucking love you. And it hurts so much to know that this is all just a mistake in my head–”

You cut her off by surging towards her and reconnecting your lips. Instantly her hands went to your hair and you pulled her closer by her shoulders. Each gasp of air was relinquished once more as you dove back in. Every part of you felt tingly. Finally, you got enough air to gasp, 

“i love you too.” And you pressed your forehead against hers.

Polly’s heart felt as though it might burst, the only way to keep the pressure down was the smile on her face and the tears still streaming from here eyes, but this time for joy. You were also weeping.

She grabbed your hand and pulled you off the field and into the woods path, where it led to the small wooden house.

You pushed open the ramshackle door and pulled her inside. Sparing no time to light the small oil lamp in the corner.

You kissed her again, now in the complete seclusion of the woods and the hideout. The only light coming from the glow if the lamp and the warm, summer stars. There was a deeper passion now, less fervent but more needy. She pulled you down to the blanketed ground and kissed you, your lips were on fire. She moved her lips to your neck, slowly edging down to your collar bone. You gasped at the feeling.

Now your were upright again, struggling with the buttons on her bodice as she tried to undo yours. Minutes of frustrated undressing only broken by passionate kisses. Now you were laid bare to her eyes and her to you. You laid her on her back and gazed down at her, her hair undone and softly wreathed around her face. You brought your face back down and between kisses praised her on her beauty. 

She held up her hands and brought you beside her, taking one of your breasts in her mouth as her hand moved down between your legs. Your mouth nestled in the crook of her neck.

It was a symphony, an exploration of each other at new level, every hand caressed a new place in reverence, and your lips both whispering kisses on every patch of skin. You cried out into the night, her following in unison, each time like the call of the nightingale.

When at last you lay at silence in the summer night air. Warm enough even without sun for not a chill to come over both your naked forms. 

Your hands were intertwined, same with your legs, twisted together as if you had become one being. Her deep brown eyes flickered over your face, a lock of her hair rested on her cheek.

“odjus.” She whispered.

You smiled at the name that called your heart. You let your eyelids grow heavy, and looking up at her through hooded eyes, you asked,

“what does it mean?”

She let your eyes close and her own fell as well. And with a voice like the hush of rain, she said

“beautiful.”

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[nessaiscute]

A friend’s gift

This is super late and im so sorry but a few days ago it wa @winterskulleton if you haven’t go wish him a happy birthday hes one of my best friend and i love him to death. so yea anyway i deicded to write a story for him of fall fey. so here it is.

I was standing alone on a battle field, My glamor was making the sky thunder and storm. lighting leaving crators were they struck, rage boiled inside me to the point I could barely breathe. I was waiting, for someone, a person that i had nothing but hate for. I loathe that person now, I will destory her, destory her very soul. I don’t care what war it starts. the iron kingom is no more, the knight and heir are dead, as are its people. The only thing left.... is its queen.

a queen full of rage.

“Enough of a dramatic show?” Said a voice that made the spark in my soul engite, “Wasn’t it enough to destory all of the summer court. You didn’t even spare puck and his newly wed wife.”

“A caculated risk that had a point. it brought you here.. do you recall this place?”

i turned around to see the winter queen, my mother in law. Mab herself, she still has her black hair and dark lipstick, her eyes still have that cold stare. That blank dark shivering stare. I recall being younger nad jumping at the mere notion of having to visist her. Not anymore, I’m no longer the weak queen, no, I’m done. Being weak got them killed. 

My boys were murdered cause of her.

Mab puffed, “I’ll never forget this place, Its where Ash picked you over the winter court. Its where i fufilled a contract for Titaina.”

I chuckled, “Contract? is that what we call cold blooded murder? You really are a heartless bitch.” 

I turned around to face her, “that ‘contract’ was your son and grandson!”

“A fey cannot-”

“ENOUGH OF YOUR EXCUSES!!” I roared and a lighting bolt came really close to hitting her. splitting the ground in front of us.

Mab reaided ice magic, “grrr, i don’t get you! I never did and I never will. I thought you were a queen before you were a wife and mother! But the moment they’re gone you desotry the iron court and its kingdom then you go on a murder spree. There is only one court left and you’ll destory even that to protect your honor as a woman, tell me, do you enjoy killing?”

“Kills? Those maggots deserved it! they stood there while Ash and Kerrian were murdered.”

“Did you forgot that Kerrian is no longer-” “HES STILL MY SON!!” i snapped; this time no lighting, “It was an exile not a disowning. I still loved him, i still checked up on him. I made damn sure he was happy being the forgotten king. and you just murdered Kerrian, you dragged Ash to the winter court where you tortured him till i found a animated corpse!! He was your son!!!”

“As you put it, a cacualted risk. Think of what you’re doing. if you kill me all fey will die. You have a chance to rebuild, to forgive, You know, that thing you never shutted up bout when you first became queen. Look Iron queen, I’m sorry, Had there been a way to defy Titaina i would of done so, but you already killed her. You murdered everyone in the summer court. Even your best friend and his wife. Please, enough of this. Think of what really matters to you.’

What... really matters to me?

I thought bout it long and hard, what did matter to me? I....

Meghan, i know youre upset, i don’t know whats goign on but... i made you this really nice dinner. I don’t know if its any god but... I love you Meghan, whenever you want to talk I’ll be waiting. Im your knight always.

Tears were starting to form in my eyes again

hey mom, I know this letter is late im sorry. I had to fight off some winter knights. Um, I know you don’t want to hear this, You probally don’t want to hear from me again but... I love you mom, you were the best mom a fey could ever have. Pleae don’t think for a second my descisons were cause of you, they weren’t I just... couldnet move past Annwyl. I wish i could of now, but whats done is done. I love you mom. I awlays will.

They were my boys... my men... I would walk through the very fires of hell and bring them the devils heart it if would make them smile. and they were taken from me.

MOM!! HELP ME!!

MEGHAN!! PLEASE GET ME OUT!!

Its not right..... I loved them... i STILL love them!! This pain in my heart won’t go away, it won’t, I won’t let it! the kingdom or nothing else matters....saving people didn’t safity me. 

“I want...MY BOYS BACK!!!” I snalred and chucked lighting at Mab.

This time I didn’t miss, the blast went straight through Mab’s heart. she coughed up blood

“I-Iron queen..? What have you done? You’ve....destoryed the rements of fey. and all you have to show for it.... is a destoryed world....”

Mab fell to the ground and the glamor of millions of fey was instantly cut off. I did it, i destoryed all of fey.

I fell to my knees and started to cry.

Meghan!

Gods no why.... why did i do that?

Meghan! wake up!

Im sorry boys.... i’m useless as a queen, a wife... and a mother....

Meghan come on get up!

Huh?

I bolted up and my heart lurched, i Saw Ash and he looked releived. 

“We’ve talked abouot that making my heart stop thing you love doing.” Ash chuckled.

“Ash! you’re here! You weren’t killed?”

Ash’s eye brow spiked up, “Killed? Meghan are you okay?” “and Kerrian? hes still the forgotten king? Hes not dead either?”

“If he was i’d drag his ass back to the living so he stopped scaring his mom.”

I flug my arms around Ash pressing myself to him, he seemed shocked.

“it was a dream.... Thank the gods, it was just a dream.”

“Meghan my iove, youre really worrying me here Shall i get you some coffee?’

“Just... hold me...”

He did just that, he coiled his arms around me holdig me close.

“I love you Meghan.” Ash wisphered into my ear, “I love you so much. even when you scare me.”

“I love you too.” I sobbed wipping my tears on his shirt, “Im sorry, Im ruining your shirt. I know how much you hate laundry.”

“Fuck the laudnry meghan and this shirt for that matter. I’m more focued on you.”

We stood there for a bit. I calmed down and we had another very sweet day.

[ichirostitties]

Hmmm how about some meme headcanons for the boys? What kind they like, what kind they hate, that stuff if you don’t mind owo. Also I love you and I love you’re blog even if you are still babey

oo ok i got u this one was fun ahaha i wrote. a lot oops. do half of them even know what memes are?? isnt jakurai nearing 100

Buster Bros

Ichiro - god. where do you even start with him lmAO i feel like ichiro loves pretty much every meme, he probably references vines a lot though, and references old shitty memes just to annoy people!! also is super on top of what memes are new. he loves minecraft memes a lot too (he shows Jiro and Saburo minecraft cursed images to wii music or something and Saburo just cries)

Jiro - JIRO IS AN ABSOLUTE LEGEND WHEN IT COMES TO MEMES I’ve been thinking about this for so long oops. he references memes so often (”what up, i’m jiro, i’m 17, and i never fuckin learnt how to read”) and sometimes you won’t even understand his entire sentence because of how incomprehensible it is. he tends to say nonsensical things out of nowhere like something stupid like “i cant believe ichi-nii died for real after he died in minecraft..oh my god” and yeah Saburo is just huddled in a corner. Jiro also uses tiktok i feel like he loves those ones where it’s just a head and neck attached to a leg he’s probably made one. (you know there’s this one video 

Saburo - he’ll never admit it to Jiro but he loves minecraft memes (they all do). he can probably recreate the cursed images in actual minecraft cause he’s a genius (I’ve seen a channel that does this it’s actually pretty cool). Honestly I think he’s pretty tolerant of most memes Ichiro blurts out, but he draws the line with the shitty 2005 memes like doge or something (”i love you ichi-nii but if you reference asdf movie one more time i’m going to disown you”).

Mad Trigger Crew

Samatoki - you know those ‘perfectly cut screams’ memes?? he loves them. i dont know why, i just get that feeling. he’s probably come to hate most other memes recently cause they remind him of Ichiro oh god why did i type that im sorry

Juto - he doesn’t care for memes unless he can use them to torment samatoki. maybe he likes a few (this one in particular comes to mind,,that one vid where some guy gets a plastic bottle thrown at him and blocks it with his ass. the other dude’s like “what the fuck?” and he says “i’m a whore, duh”. this is juto and samatoki) but he’s probably afraid of them, especially after interacting with Jiro

Rio - he loves memes they make him chuckle!! does he even own a phone or anything?? i think he likes every meme, but he doesn’t really understand which ones are outdated and which aren’t so he probably brings juto and samatoki to tears sometimes (they’re like “GOD PLEASE JUST MAKE IT STOP” but Rio’s such a lovely person they don’t want to hurt his feelings so they put up with it, just like they do with his cooking. i love mtc)

Fling Posse

Ramuda - fuck he’s worse than Jiro and Ichiro combined. i dont even know where to start with him. he still references hit or miss

Dice - similar to Ichiro! he loves that vine of the guy going “can i get a waffle…can i PLEASE get a waffle” while the employees are fighting behind the counter because he’s probably been in that situation before. he doesn’t like old memes at ALL though they make him want to lie down and cry and Ramuda knows this

Gentaro - probably doesn’t know many memes but just goes along with it. if it means he gets a reaction out of Dice, he’ll join in with Ramuda

Matenrou

Jakurai - he’s literally on his deathbed he doesn’t understand memes

Doppo - this is goign to make me sadnjfkskns but he probably likes all self-deprecating memes cause it’s sort of like his coping mechanism ig. ouch. ow i hurt myself. i think he’d find them genuinely funny though and they probably cheer him up, like the ones like “when ur having a mental breakdown while scrolling through twitter but u find a funny meme” followed by an image of mr krabs foaming at the mouth i feel like he saw that one time and laughed so hard he cried.

Hifumi - he loves all memes! but he doesn’t understand them at all!!! Doppo is losing his mind. Hifumi will say something like “when ur dog jumps into lava in minecraft….top 10 bruh moments haha i eat bees” but has literally 0 clue on what minecraft is. he HAS eaten bees before though and Doppo witnessed it.

[finnlet]

Sans the skeleton went into a coffee shop on September 13th, 2019. He came in for a americano because it was one of the few things that warmed his cold heart. He took it black and added nothing special to it. He loved bitterness.

Then, he saw him. Kokichi Ouma. The Ultimate Supreme Leader. He felt something in his bones, an aching sensation to go meet him. He went to the barista and read his nametag.

"Hey.... Komaeda. give me a freakin' americano! no sugar, no creamer, just make it black and venti. thanks."

"um. ok. i'll get it going for you... sans"

"whatever."

Sans and Komaeda had been a couple back in 2015 but they broke up due to Komaeda cheating on him with another man named Hajime.

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"S-SANS? IT'S NOT WHAT YOU THINK. H-HE... UM..." komaeda screamed

"OH BUDDY YOu'RE SET TO HAVE A BAD TIME NOW. PREPARE YOURSELF" sans shouted.

sans threw a lamp at hajime, who ran out screaming and crying. komaeda moved out of sans' house and went to move in with hajime. oh well.

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Sans went over to the little purple haired man who was sitting on his macbook writing an email.

"Hey... you look kinda cute. Wanna get sansy?" sans asked.

"what the fuck lol. are you cursed. im going to send a picture of u to korekiyo lmao. maybe he knows whats happening" ouma said, taking out his phone

"wha.... what the hell are you talking about" sans asked

"korekiyo knows about weird shit so he'd probably know what you are you cursed halloween decoration"

*snap*

ouma mumbled as he typed: "hey... dude .... look at this... weird shit at starbucks"

"Im not a decoration, i'm a skeleton." sans said.

"oh. So do skeletons have dicks."

"I can show you if you come back to my place later." sans said WITH A SMIRK.

"...I think i'll take you up on your offer. i've always been curious about what happens when all the flesh falls off  lol. TIME TO SEE SKELTON DIK." ouma shouted.

the other patrons of starbucks turned and looked at him.

saihara, who was hanging out with kaede, kaito, maki, kiibo, and korekiyo, ran over.

"Ouma shut the fuck up you're so loud and annoying." saihara said

"ok" ouma said

"hey who the hell are you. im trying to hook up with this dude and you're here yelling at him" sans growled. he was rumbling like a machine. his eye went blue.

"well if you really want to know I'm... Shuichi Saihara. They call me the Ultimate Detective, but... lol. you know, you give off the same awful aura that ouma gives me. two peas in a pod i guess" saihara said, eyeing sans.

*snapchat noficiation sound*

"...korekiyo is right there but he sent me a fucking snapchat message back. what a creep." ouma sighed. opening it, he huffed a HUGE GROAN.

"are you even a real fucking anthropologist? why do you know the history of farming but not skeletons." ouma shouted across the restaurant.

"BE QIET SIMPLETON." maki shouted back angrily. she was beyond pissed off.

“Har har har!” ouma laughed heartily.

“SANS? WILL YOU PLEEEEEASE PICK UP YOUR COFFEE. IT’S BEEN DONE FOR LIKE, 10 MINUTES NOW.” komaeda shouted through the microphone.

“Fucking hell ok” sans said, walking off. He picked it up and walked back over towards Ouma.

“That guys my ex. Hes kind of weird isnt he :) i threw a lamp at his boyfriend when they tried to cuck me. LOL” sans chortled. He sounded like a wind chime when he laughed.

“Komaeda is cool, he gives me free milk and cheese samples since I told him i’m an orphan from tokyo. What a fucking idit he is for believing me am i right?! i have my macbook pro and my iphone x AND MY AIRPODS, plus my ipad pro and these cool yeezys.” ouma laughed. he was so fucking sneaky.

“what do you use the ipad for if you already have a macbook” sans asked. he had nothing but an iphone x and some air jordans :/”

“I use that to watch family guy, WHA TTH EFUCK DO YOU THINK? Do you think i don’t like the best program of our time? I love seeing Peter Griffin appear on my screen. he fills me with lust. Dare say you that you…. dislike family guy?” ouma went on monologuing.

“n-no i didnt say i hated family guy i just-”

“ANDDD YOU’RE JUST LIKE KIBOY! HAR HAR HAR! He hates family guy! He can’t stand it. nobody at that noob table likes it. the only people who like family guy at my school are me, ryoma, angie, and himiko. Tenko watches it but only because she has a crush on lois. lol” ouma sighed.

the starbucks went quiet aside from the sipping sounds and weird ass pop music. today’s playlist included: “fake love” (A/N: STREAM FAKE LOVE :]), “two trucks”, and “like a farmer.”

ouma specifically requested this because he knew everyone hated the music, but komaeda felt bad for him and kept the same three songs on.

“Ouma Kokichi. One of your little friends over there just told me that you AREN’T AN ORPHAN?” komaeda said. he was crying.

“w-WHO. WHO SAID THAT LOL. IT’S A… THEY’RE LYING.” ouma shouted. he was so scared. he knew that komaeda had kept note of how much free starbucks shit he’d gotten and it was well over 4,500 dollar.s

“idk. that one.” komaeda pointed at kiibo.

“OHHH KIBOYYYYYYYYYY. He’s a robot, Nagito. You can’t trust Robots!” ouma laughed.

“That is blatant robophobia! I will report you to the proper starbucks authorities if you keep up this act Ouma!” kiibo shouted.

“shut up you ugly bag of bolts” ouma growled aggain.

kaede, korekiyo, and saihara looked alarmed. every day kiibo and ouma fought in the bathroom and caused some type of flooding to happen. once they lined up a bunch of fruits and vegetables and flooded the bathroom and they all ended up in the hallway.

“Kaede. Saihara. It’s been… nice, but I will leave now. I do not like being around Ouma.” korekiyo said.

“w-wait man donT LEAVE YET.” saihara said. he was sweating like a pig. he knew that kiibo liked having saihara on his side and ouma always punched himb (saihara) in the ribs to give him a bruise.

“yeah you shouldn’t leave yet…😀 please” kaede begged.

“You have Maki and Kaito. I’m fairly certain they can fight better than us.” korekiyo said, already halfway to the door.

“He’s right you know.” kaede said. she and saihara said goodbye through their tears and turned to ouma and kiibo again.

“MAN I’M ALL FIRED UP, CAN’T BELIEVE THAT OUMA IS FUCKIN’ AROUND WITH KIIBO AGAIN AND IN PUBLIC THIS TIME” kaito shouted. he was so full of energy because he had accidentally gotten coffee with extra sugar.

“kaito shut up” maki said.

“CAN’T STOP ME NOW…. IM HAVIN’ A GOOD TIME DON’T WANNA STOP AT ALL” kaito said. he did not know the lyrics right.

“c-can you guys please leave” said two men sitting in a booth. it was george michael and andrew ridgeley. they were visiting japan today for their tour and decided to get some unicorn frappuccinos to drink.

sans was staring in anticipation at everyone. ouma and kiibo were glaring at each other and komaeda could only watch in horror.

“Lets take this outside man. maybe it’ll rain and you’ll get rusty and die. LOL.” ouma screamed. he was in hysterics now.

“OH. YOU’VE DONE IT NOW. YES, WE’RE GOING TO FIGHT RIGHT NOW. OUTSIDE. SAIHARA, KAEDE, KAITO, MAKI, K…. where did korekiyo go” kiibo said

“He left bc you guys are fucked up” maki said. she wanted to leave when she saw ouma but didn’t have the heart to say it to everyone. ouma always ruined the plans.

“wha…. NO?” kiibo said. he cried one tear.

“>implying you can use everyone. YOU ONLY GET TWO OF THOSE PEOPLE ON YOUR TEAM DUMBASS.” ouma shouted

“t-team?!” saihara gasped. he was 💩ing bricks.

“for the BEST TEAM, i, kokichi Ouma, pick: kaito and maki. kiboy gets saihara and kaede! lmao have fun with weaklings.” ouma said.

“can you all leave already, you’RE SCARING THE CUSTOMERS AWAY AND ITS RUINING BUSINESS.” the manager (teruteru) said angrily.

“oh fuck off you ant.” ouma said, dragging everyone out into the back lot. komaeda and sans were dumbfounded. there was virtually no rehearsal for that.

CHAPTER TWO START:::

“Ouma you have insulted me for the last time. today is a new start. kaede, saihara, and i will now proceed to defeat you.” kiibo shouted. he was fucking confident in his abilities today.

“kiboy you will lose in one minute. im sorry to say it. wait, NO IM NOT. fucking hellion. seth mcfarlane personally blessed me with family guy so i am invincible.” ouma said.

“ouma do i have to help you. i dont want to fight my sidekick OR KAEDE. o-or KIIBO :)” kaito asked.

“yes shrimp. you must fight for me because i recruited you and that’s how this bullshit works. don’t worry though! it’ll only take one pow and kiboy will be knocked out because he’s rusty and old. NEEHEEHEE.” ouma was fucking laughing his ass off.

maki and kaito looked at each other and gave the most sorry looks to kaede and saihara. they honestly didn’t Want to help ouma because they thought he was a fucking asshole but ouma could blackmail them and potentially kill them. no risks. kaede and saihara knew this but were still hurt.

“Ouma I have a doctor’s appointment in like, 15 minutes. can i leave yet” kaede said.

“wha…? w-well… you’re goign to hav eto recruit someone else to fight in your place since saihara wouldn’t win against me in a million years lol.” ouma said. he was so fucking annoyed. he just wanted to punch kiibo already.

[athcnvs]

aLLL of them

Send “✆” for a MORNING text.

[ 11:57 ] ➝ graham: my eyes are aren’t fully open yet but good mornign my dearest[ 11:58 ] ➝ graham: is it still morning i think it’s still morning why is my csreen so brgih t[ 11:58 ] ➝ graham: yes just in time im up before noon are u proud of me????[ 11:59 ] ➝ graham: say ur proud of me ://

Send “” for a text that WASN’T SENT. 

[ UNSENT ] ➝ graham: hey if i wasnt so hung up over brandon during high school, do you think we would have dated? idk why i’m thinking about this now bc it’s so long ago, but do you think? i probably misunderstood and you probably didn’t have feelings for me back then, but i can’t help thinking about the possibility that you did. in retrospect, you really did care about me a lot, even way back when. i can’t believe that i took you for granted. i know i’ve apologized for it several times, but i had no idea how good i had it. i feel like i took you for granted more than i apologized for it and then teagan happened and i dont know. i didn’t have the right to be jealous, so why was i??? why do i have to keep building up walls?? why can’t i give anyone a chance??? i’m so stupid i should have let you in from the start. fuck brandon, i hate him. why am i so dumb??? why am i writing this why do i think this would even make a difference?? maybe i should take ur advice from before and give up on what’s never going to happen bc ur my best friend and i cant let anything or anyone change that

Send “☎” for a RUSHED text. 

[ 15:31 ] ➝ graham: my phone is at 1% but pls remind me to tell u abt my day bc i was hit on by a cute boy and i feel very conflicted atm im omw back soon lov u

Send “⁇” for a DRUNK text.

[ 01:12 ] ➝ graham: ui have a sueqtion[ 01:12 ] ➝ graham: do yoyu caer about me ?[ 01:13 ] ➝ graham: like hkonestly?[ 01:14 ] ➝ graham: i know dyou say you do btu are you telgling thbe trtuh[ 01:14 ] ➝ graham: pim afraid that one day youre goign tto stop caring about me[ 01:14 ] ➝ graham: i love you pso much i dont want to eewvr lose you[ 01:15 ] ➝ graham:im afraid of aour friendship being ruuined [ 01:15 ] ➝ graham:evertiyhngs a mess but i lvoe u

Send “✿” for a SUGGESTIVE text. 

[ 18:22 ] ➝ graham: yea sure just give me a sex[ 18:22 ] ➝ graham: OMG THAT WAS A TYPO[ 18:22 ] ➝ graham: WHY CAN’T WE UNDO TEXTS IT’S 2017 [ 18:22 ] ➝ graham: I’M SO SORRY PLS DO NOT BRING THIS UP

Send “ø” for a LATE NIGHT text.

[ 04:34 ] ➝ graham: u up? i can’t sleep[ 04:34 ] ➝ graham: i’ve just been staring at the ceiling… thinking[ 04:34 ] ➝ graham: my first instinct was to text u about it[ 04:39 ] ➝ graham: ur probably asleep nvm

Send “✘” for a HATEFUL text.

[ 02/23/13, 22:35 ] ➝ graham: ok can u pls stop telling me that i should just give up on brandon????? like holy shit graham[ 02/23/13, 22:35 ] ➝ graham: i get that you’re trying to look out for me but i can handle things on my own u kno[ 02/23/13, 22:37 ] ➝ graham: if i want to go out and get my heart broken at least let me learn my lesson[ 02/23/13, 22:40 ] ➝ graham: i really don’t mean to be confrontational with u because you’ve always been so kind to me, but trust me on this ok???? just…. let me try to fix this bc i really care about him and i’m getting tired of everyone telling me that he’s not worth it bc he means a lot to me and since u kno how i’ve felt abt him u should respect my decision to go through with this and take my chances[ 02/23/13, 22:41 ] ➝ graham: i just dont want to give up on someone that mattered so easily and i’m going to hope that he still hasn’t given up on me

Send “#” for a RANDOM text.

[ 02:05 ] ➝ graham: did u kno that the pillsbury doughboy’s real name is…[ 02:06 ] ➝ graham: poppin’ fresh[ 02:06 ] ➝ graham: i mean i guess their products should be poppin’ after they’re fresh out of the oven… they should give him sunglasses

Send “@” for a SCARED text.

[ 23:11 ] ➝ graham: i see people who are so passionate abt their craft and i keep thinking that i’ve made a mistake in my life and that i should have found a way to move forward with music even though my parents would probably yell at me forever??? i mean computer science is cool and all and people make a lot of money but is that really what i want in life??? i guess there are cs jobs in entertainment but i guess it’s not exactly what i was thinking of. but at the same time maybe i’m not a good enough musician to do anything with it.[ 23:16 ] ➝ graham: i guess my youtube channel is good enough for now but what does it matter if i’m not happy in the end u kno???? o well…. que sera que sera i guess i’m gonna go back to transcribing this tab

Send “&” for a LOVING text.

[ 23:16 ] ➝ graham: hey saw these scans from a book called soppy online and it’s so cute??? some of them made me think of us[ 23:17 ] ➝ graham: hold on lemme send[ 23:21 ] ➝ graham: [ attachment ][ 23:21 ] ➝ graham: [ attachment ][ 23:21 ] ➝ graham: [ attachment ][ 23:22 ] ➝ graham: that last one is when im playing overwatch

Send “%” for a CURIOUS text.

[ 12:42 ] ➝ graham: what is ur stance on matching hoodies??[ 12:42 ] ➝ graham: i’m not planning on buying any or anything i was just asking for a friend who saw something online[ 12:43 ] ➝ graham: the colors are the inverse of each other and i think they look cool

Send “ツ” for an EXCITED text.

[ 14:23 ] ➝ graham: GRAHAM GRAHAM HARHAFAMRA HRRAHAM GHRAM[ 14:23 ] ➝ graham: IM SCREAMING CAN U HEAR ME[ 14:23 ] ➝ graham: I’M ABT TO HIT 100K ON MY CHANNEL HOLY MOLY[ 14:24 ] ➝ graham: LET’S GO OUT AND CELEBRATE WHEN I DO

Send “$” for an ACCIDENTAL text.

[ 13:52 ] ➝ graham: https://youtu.be/58-jcJupBug[ 13:52 ] ➝ graham: oh my god that’s not the video i wanted to send u[ 13:52 ] ➝ graham: i… have no idea how that got in my clipboard  

Send “♀” for a HEARTBREAKING text. 

[ UNSENT ] ➝ graham: sometimes i ask myself how the events of my life led me to this point. sometimes i wonder how different things would have been if slowly distanced myself from you. or if i found some reason to hate you. there were so many instances where i could have vanished from your life. would you have noticed if i did?? sometimes i think about how my life would probably be less complicated and messy if i wasn’t your best friend. if i didn’t love you so much. but here i am, and here i will forever be. i wish i could give myself the closure i need, but it’s been four years and i still don’t know where i stand or how i feel about you. four. years. i just hope that i don’t mess things up for the both of us. in the end, it’s the two of us against the world. wow ok that sounded dramatic athena what are you doing[ 03:04 ] ➝ graham: i can’t believe i’m really out here tearing up to the ost of a kdrama at 3 o clock in the morning… who am i??

[seoulxsinners]

OOC serious note.  there is music out there that helps people through so much.  Queen is one of those groups for me.   I ACTULLY GOT CHOAKED UP WATCHING THIS TRAILER.  i CANT WAIT FOR THIS MOVIE.  THE FACT THE MOVE MAKES IT TOO LIVE AID  where queen brought an enitre stadium together to clap on cue to RADIO GAGA and to the power of WE WILL ROCK YOU.  It also has the Rio show WHERE  they fimled the vidoe for HAMMER TO FALL.  

Queen helped me be ok with my sexuality when my father wasn't ok with it.  I still haven't come out to him but i have a feeling my mother outed me.  which is ok i never would have the courage to do it.  But back to why these men are so important to me.  

I was so young when i saw D2 in the theaters and there was this song.  then there was we are the champions at the end.  Its sparked a journey im so glad i went on. 

So when this comes out in november... IM SORRY im goign to lose my danm mind. 

[nepasjoueraveclefeu]

oh dear me, oh dear body i want to let you know that I’m sorry

for all the pain you went through, and all the pain we are still having inside of us

u know i’m trying my best to fight, everyday, every night, i promise you im trying

but it’s all my fault, isn’t it ? i know i need to rest, i know i have to learn more because im making to much mistakes but, some days i just feel like im goign to explode so nevermind trying to focus on something else

how can i feel so empty yet so over overwhelmed