#sorry if this is incoherent LOL

[marzzthehuman]

some wxs physical touch headcanons.. i guess!!

okay so before we begin fyi i headcanon all of them aroace~

Tsukasa:

okay i feel like. he would like patting people on the back/hand on shoulder. big brother gesture or something i don’t know. (it makes sense in my head okay) he’ll do this with anyone.

he likes hugs! i dont have much to say about this except he does.

he’ll also kiss saki and toya on the forehead as a ‘big brother’ thing!

Emu:

she is really big on hugs. loves giving people hugs. if she hugs you she likes you! (she always asks before hugging though!) i also feel like she is able to have have strong hugs if she’s especially excited (her hugging rui and hearing 1133889 pops.)

for people she is closer with she’ll kiss them on the cheek! with people she really cares about she gets really excited and full of love and kissing them on the cheek is how she shows them that! (besides already acting excited and probably hugging them already but! sometimes shes so excited that hugs won’t cut it. ) before she started kissing wxs on the cheek she made sure to ask if it was alright with them!

also i want to add that eventually with wxs she wouldn’t have to ask before touching them. because thats like a level of trust to me. if that makes sense?

Nene:

pretty much the only member of wxs that doesn’t favor physical touch. this obviously doesn’t work out for her. (wxs group hugs and she’s squished in the middle. she’s gotten used to them now and has come to really appreciate them.)

when she finally started getting used to wxs (emu and tsukasa mostly) she would start resting her head on their shoulders if she was tired. (sign of trust!)

basically what i’m saying is that she only lets people who are close to her touch her. when she was younger she would pretty much only let her parents and (eventually) rui touch her.** but even though sometimes she is not comfortable with touch at all, so she always prefers if someone asks before touching her.

Rui:

when you first meet him he doesn’t seem like he would be big into physical touch. but he so is. he mostly shows it with people he is close with. he won’t hug someone he’s only been friends with for a few weeks. (+ it really depends on the person)

during elementary he would give friends that he wasn’t super close with hugs, but this eventually led to them calling him clingy. (i could go on and on ab this. basically its about how he would consider people his ‘best friends’ and those feelings being reciprocated almost never.) now he’s self-conscious about this and doesn’t share physical touch as much as he would like. this also led to him only being affectionate with people he is close-close with. example being wxs! wxs is probably the only people you will see him hugging besides his parents.**

saying this, he likes hugs! a lot! he does those big hugs where he squeezes you. (like those hugs where you go ‘uuuhfffff’)

i feel like he would also like holding hands with certain people. it can help ground him. it helps let him know that they are real and there and aren’t leaving. he knows this now but it’s still nice sometimes

~

**after rui cut nene out in middle school they both had to get used to each other again. but it was quicker than it would be with a new person, if you get what im saying

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okay thats the end but i just wanted to add how i love how wxs has gotten closer over time. i know that’s how friendship works but like. its just so cool that you go from people that wouldn’t touch eachother at all to people that hug every time they see each other.

also this wasn’t all types of physical touch but it’s almost 3am so. i covered the ones that you would see most of the time.

[rysnscommand]

How was kaladin your asexual awakening?

Fun story!!

I was in college and one of my only guy friends started dating this girl. And they were super mushy and disgusting and I hated it because we would hang out all the time and then after they started dating I had to deal with them flirting constantly. And not realizing that I was romance/sex repulsed I was like. Ok am I jealous?? Do I like this guy?? No he smells like feet. Ew. Ok why am I so mad. And well maybe that wasn't directly related to being asexual but STILL when Oathbringer came out and Kaladin reacted Like That to Adolin and Shallan dating and was like "wait. Shallan is like a brother to me" at the end. And I read a post about how Kaladin was so aro for that. and i was like WAIT. WAIT A SECOND--

I knew about aro and ace people for like eight years prior to that. But that was the first time it registered that oh thats ME. So thank you Kaladin Stormblessed aroace icon of all time.

[germx]

stumbles out of the toxic polycule covered in blood. i dont know how i let you convince me i had bpd and that i needed to seek therapy about it, but i definitely need therapy after whatever that fuckin was

[chiricat]

ryomina demons are winning

[fridayyy-13th]

i swear sometimes i think people forget that Jon's s1 skeptic act was just that—an act. it was an act!!! he believes the statements!! he's believed them since episode one! do we so soon forget that he denied the statements were real because he knew the Eye something wanted him to be scared, and he knew that was bad, so he decided to act like the statements just didn't scare him? remember, he was working with extremely limited information ("when i record the tape statements, i feel watched, like something knows i'm afraid, and i don't want it to know that"), and came up with a genuinely solid solution with what he had! not his fault that the thing watching him was a literal unknowable eldritch entity that feeds on fear, and he was just some underqualified archivist.

[carissime]

Literally no thoughts just Gojo after your wedding carrying you over the threshold of your hotel room. You’re not leaving for your honeymoon until the morning but he nearly trips on the doorframe in his haste.

“You really don’t need to carry me—”

“But it’s tradition, we need to consummate the marriage!” he insists. Within seconds his lips are against yours and he’s fumbling with the light switch, and you finally swat his hand away and just beg him to take you to the bed.

He works the zipper of your dress down, part of him sad that he’s not going to see you in this gorgeous gown again, but then it reveals your white lace lingerie and the groan he lets out is broken and guttural and desperate.

This is far from the first time he’s seen you like this, but there’s something about this moment here and now that makes it so much more intense, so much more intimate and he just never wants to let you go.

“Satoru,” you whisper, and his breath hitches.

He leans down to capture your lips in a kiss. “Shh, I know. Just lemme take care of you, like I promised.”

And when he sees the gold band on his fourth finger pressing into the skin of your hips as he sheaths himself inside of you, he nearly loses himself, sending up a prayer to whatever gods are listening that he can keep his promise to keep you safe and happy forever.

[zaiofender]

eve and the serpent 🐍 (1/5)

(5/5)

[seriousbrat]

this says a lot about Snape's character development for me. There are many parallels drawn throughout the series between Harry and Snape; obviously, they're very different characters but there are similarities too.

I think here Snape is talking about himself. The teenaged Snape we see in the Pensieve is very much like this- emotional, heart on his sleeve, easily provoked, a definite wallower in sad memories... weak. Adult Snape, though he retains some of these characteristics that do emerge in stressful moments (in PoA we see how angrily he reacts to Sirius's escape, for instance) on the whole is a great deal more thoughtful, reserved, calculating, measured.

I think that Snape at some point had to force himself to become this. I think he actually relates to Harry here, and is giving him advice based on personal experience. In my fic he begins to learn to control his emotions partially out of a desire to protect Lily; he's fully aware that she's his weakness (or really, his strength, viewed a different way) and that openly displaying any sort of emotion towards her at all makes her vulnerable to the likes of Avery and Mulciber, who will have the perfect weapon to get to him if they want to.

Severus doesn't have the advantages of his peers, he's not pureblood, he wasn't born into money. If he wants to join the Death Eaters and rise in their ranks, he needs to be subtle, cunning, careful. he can't afford to be careless and entitled like mulciber or bellatrix or even sirius. what he's got to offer isn't his name or his money, it's his sheer talent and cleverness. moving on:

When Voldemort decides to go after Lily this becomes even more important. Imo the reason why Voldemort believes that Snape only "desired" Lily is because that's what Snape told him. He lied to Voldemort's face and told him something probably disgusting tbh because that's the only way Voldemort would accept it and agree, if it was a selfish, callous request that Voldemort could understand. We can see evidence of this here:

Asking Voldemort to spare a mudblood because he was in love with her would likely not have gone over well- and as we know, Voldemort actually bore his request in mind, though obv didn't give enough of a fuck about Snape to follow through. Because although asking voldemort to spare her must have taken serious balls, Snape's mistake here was trusting someone inherently selfish to do something selfless for him.

Clearly he immediately realises this and goes to Dumbledore, which is when controlling his emotions becomes of paramount importance, because now he's working against perhaps the most highly accomplished legilimens of all time.

It's also interesting to me that Snape in this conversation is probably the character who is most forthright and informative with Harry in the whole of OotP until Dumbledore at the end; Harry actually learns a lot in this conversation. And Snape also kind of gives him credit which is interesting too:

like for Snape that's high praise lmao. A shame because if he wasn't so bitter (i.e. didn't wear his heart on his sleeve so much around harry) then he might have actually been pretty helpful to Harry and a decent teacher. Again, during the Occlumency lessons his unrestrained emotion brought up by memories of James is a hindrance. He defies Dumbledore's orders to teach Harry Occlumency because of his emotional response to SWM, as well as honestly doing kind of a shit job before that (by not being empathetic and teaching Harry in a way that would've been actually productive.)

At this point Dumbledore believes that Harry learning Occlumency and controlling his emotions is of vital importance; he turns out to be wrong about this. In Harry's case, it turns out to be his emotional nature that saves him- unlike Snape, who is the opposite. Snape's journey is about learning that some things are more important than his selfish need to give into his own emotions.

By DH Snape's learned this lesson fully; his old hatred for James doesn't stop him from doing what has to be done, from giving Harry the tools he needs. Even in the final moments of his life, he can look past James and see Lily in Harry- and, by giving Harry the information that leads to his self-sacrifice, he can let her go.

[sentientsky]

hey do u ever think about how crowley's eyes (a feature he's worked to hide nearly his entire time on earth) were fixated so so so firmly on aziraphale during the final fifteen, to the point where he followed the tiniest of movements, even as tears began to form in his waterline? even as his not-quite-human-heart was splintering in his chest?

CAUSE I DO

how was this permitted to be aired???? knowing full well that angsty queers like me would be sliding down the wall sobbing about it???? (also, if u want to read more about crowley and his eyes, i am once again recommending one of alex's metas: x)

anyway! full gif below the cut!

yippee!

[the-crimson]

I am just - I am in love with the misdirect of Acceptance on Bad’s stream. Going into it we were all wondering if he was gonna accept the marriage proposal, that the eggs were gone for good, the he would take the happy pills… but no.

(About the character not the cc obviously :D)

Bad has been so incredibly restrained his entire life on the qsmp. Even in his moments of pure calculated rage he restrained his cruelty. He jokes about torturing and murdering people but he’s only gone through with it twice and neither were fueled by cruelty but pure practicality.

When torturing Foolish, he just wanted answers and he knew Foolish well enough that it wouldn’t actually effect him long term. When killing ElQuackity, he and Max were not frivolous but wanted to kill him as quickly as possible. It was practical and for the greater good, not personal pleasure.

Bad is cruel. He knows the depths of his cruelty so intimately that it terrifies him. He has to keep himself on such a tight leash that any slip could be devastating and irreversible.

We saw a glimpse of it when Bad blew up Quackity’s temple. The pleasure of seeing someone in pain. The pleasure of hearing the fear in their voice. The high of making someone else feel helpless.

Today, Bad accepted that in order to find his children and nieces/nephews he has to embrace a part of himself he’s been suppressing for so long. He accepted that he’d have to revert to a version of himself that would terrify his children and the other eggs and probably make some of them hate him.

Torturing an innocent - probably indentured - worker for information they would have no way of knowing.

Bad is embracing a part of himself that he had locked away so far down inside him that most people would never imagine he’d be capable of such a thing but as Bad walks erratically through his house, slowly lighting up the room as the worker stands there trapped and terrified. There is a deliberateness to the way he uses soul torches, a weak light source, to slowly light up the room before stepping into darkness again, placing the last torch at his feet to illuminate himself from below. The cold determination in his voice. Still restrained. Still calculated. But oh so much darker and you can feel the cruelty he is about to unleash oozing out of every word as he speaks

“Let’s try again. Where is my son?”

[lizardkingeliot]

Hello again friends, I desperately need to make some money today so once again I'm here to drop the link to my Etsy shop in the hopes of getting some more eyes on it. I currently have so many ready to ship items listed and everything is 20% off today. Here's a lil example of some of the pieces I currently have up for sale...

Etsy is changing and I'm trying really hard to keep up, but I'm currently experiencing one of the worst slumps in all my many years of selling online. This is simply not going to be sustainable for me for much longer if it keeps up, and I really need to have some sales to help get me through while I continue to try and make changes to my shop to make the ever-changing algorithm like me again.

Anyway, in case you missed it above my shop is here. And I'll also drop the link to my ko-fi. Pls keep your fingers crossed for me that things get better soon. 💖

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

so… i met miles last night 😭😭

i’m still trying to formulate the words to express how special it was to meet him and how unbelievably lovely he was. i mean, i obviously already knew how lovely he is - but getting to experience it in person is truly something else altogether. he just absolutely radiates good vibes and warmth and truly feels like sunshine in human form ☀️ i also loved that because i tend to be on the quieter side in these situations (after telling him how amazing the show was my brain went pretty blank lol), he actually asked me questions about what songs i’d most enjoyed etc and really engaged with me and also gave me the LOVELIEST hug 🥹

if possible, meeting him has only made me adore and respect him even more than i already did (truly quite an impressive feat), and i just feel so unbelievably grateful to have got to witness the smile on his face when i told him how much i’d loved the show 💖

[makemeimmortalwithahug]

well, I wasn't actually going to elaborate on that idea because it'll be so long until I will properly work on it buuuuut...

@nix-nihili was so kind to ask me to talk about it and who am I to refuse? I'll never pass up the opportunity to yap

sooo, f1 dbda fic my friends!!

now: to summarise my idea in a few words, according to what I sent my dear friend @oddessea : "and then they have an amazing enemies to friends to lovers 200k slow burn"

Edwin was a karting legend in his youth and quickly moved on from there to F2. The boys he is surrounded there with, among them one named Simon, bully and humiliate him at every chance they get. In a world where everything has consequences and everything is a battle, every single one of Edwin's wins - leaving Simon as his eternal second - means that this rage is only brewing stronger. When rumours get loud that Mercedes wants to give a seat to the prodigy driver, Simon - himself a future Mercedes driver - uses his connections to break the deal and Edwin is forced to sign with Ferrari to be able to make the jump into F1 still in time to be the youngest driver to ever achieve that.

Charles is a test and reserve driver for his team (not sure which yet). He first heard the name "Edwin Payne" when he was in karting as well, they saw each other and Charles was instantly smitten with the boy. When he entered a different karting class, they barely saw each other anymore. Until it's time for Edwin's debut in F1.

During one of the first Grand Prix of the season, Charles has to step in for one of the race drivers. Edwin and Charles made contact and while no one is seriously injured, Charles has to retire the car and Edwin receives a penalty, resulting in him losing the chance to become the youngest driver to score World Championship points and a fight breaks out between them afterwards.

And just like this, their rivalry begins

[cherryys]

something about blood imagery and itafushi. Like Yuuji's hands stained with the fresh blood of thousands and then Megumi grabs those hands, staining his own with the red too, and despite Yuuji trying to tug them away before the blood seeps into Megumi's palms forever, Megumi refuses to let go. He will let both their hands be stained with blood if it meant Yuuji's hands never feel cold again.

[rriverrunning]

#tbh i think people vastly overstate the extent to which cat fits into the westerosi woman/wife/mother mold. because while it's not as obviously evident to the people around her like it is with characters like cersei ("i shouldve been born a man" etc to sansa, the way tyrion & jaime discuss her) or brienne (unable to fit into any traditional gender roles by her physical appearance and prowess as a fighter), she really plainly chafes against the constraints of those roles almost constantly in her own povs.

a lot of it happens in her head as she recalls her childhood as hoster's presumed heir, and reckons with her own lack of power to make political decisions (despite the fact that she is qualified, in fact likely more qualified than many of the men around her to do so) and save her daughters. but this resistance also does manifest in her actions, and she gets reprimanded for it!! robb sending her as an envoy to renly and stannis was explicitly a move to further push her out of the war strategy effort, something that's extremely complicated for her to deal with because it's coming from her own teenage son, who has also become a king, who is facing pressures from his own men. robb believes that he needs to present a strong front, something that being advised by his mother compromises, so he compensates by removing her from the situation entirely. she struggles with this dichotomy between her son who she yearns to protect and care for, and her king who ultimately has this power over her, just as she struggled in her relationship with ned (loving him dearly as her husband, but also being subject to him and his witholding of information having a lasting impact on her).

and these are not conflicts cat deals with easily: a lot of her worst actions and decisions relate back to these issues, because in places where cat does have power she uses it, and sometimes rashly, but she uses it when and where she can!! i think it's a mistake to be fooled by her outward appearance as the purely dutiful, deferent wife and mother (as many of the people around her are) because that simply isn't consistent with what catelyn truly wants for herself, or what she does in the text!

[lockandkeyhyena]

i stand by the hate for mspec gays/lesbians being at least partially respectability politics. i’ve seen the argument so many times that ‘oh its giving the cishets the excuse that gays/lesbians can be attracted to the men/women and so is going to make it so that lesbians/gays who would never be attracted to them are forced to have sex with them’ and like… no is a full sentence. you can say that you personally are a gay who would never be attracted to a certain gender. and that’s extremely valid. no lgbt person is forcing you to be attracted to a gender you don’t want to be. they’re just saying they they personally identify a certain way