#sorry if im bothering anyone

[gazing-at-my-stage]

Is there a kin term for someone who you frequently get cameo shifts of? I am not Mayoi, he is not a hearttype, but I cameo shifts to him like weekly??? Like is cameo kin a thing??

[catgirlcrisis]

i feel like i need more space to write but yeah, that is kind of what it is. american citizens don't necessarily realize that, while they'll be hurt by the U.S. moving further right, U.S. politics have such a weighted global impact that an election's political consequences affect non-citizens too; i don't mean this in the typical U.S. imperialist fashion, because that sort of violence will continue to happen regardless of it being a dem in power or a republican in power, but more directly at home.

i feel like there's a good counter here somewhere though. you can point to trump's actions as worse (and certainly you could say some were - DACA going from being ignored to having a spotlight trained on it was not helpful, for instance, or the "muslim ban" fiasco, despite SCOTUS moving quickly to block it), but biden's not taken any steps to really improve things in that sphere, either. like, great, insulin prices have been capped, but why was Title 42 replaced with an even worse policy? why has a pathway to citizenship - something that was a major campaign promise - not been touched in nearly 4 years? why are kids still sleeping in camps at the border?

i think it boils down to, ultimately, not what will hurt less people, but whether you, as an american voter, feel it's better for a problem to be made center of attention in a jeopardizing way or to be quietly ignored. either way, you're going to hurt people in about an equal way, but it's what you feel as worse.

what might be true is that i doubt democrats will really pull themselves together if they lose this election. democrats could lose the next 40 years and still flounder when they get into office. so, the other question is: are you really confident in your luck that the odds will strike correctly and democrats will, after 4 years, finally come to action? and if they do, will it be worth everything that can worsen during those 4 years if actively brought to someone's attention, rather than be ignored?

trying not to rush into this worldview too rashly but i think it might be imperative that the dems lose the next usa election. like, if putting the pressure on them to move left doesn't work, they just gotta lose. their tactics must fail.

[edgybutnotveryedgy]

I realize I've low-key been using this blog as a semi-journal.

I hope that if anyone does happen to read my introspectives like the long one i posted yesterday, that they don't think I'm trying to say anything about mental health/mental illness as a universal concept.

Personally i don't think it is universal. Even if there are similarities in situations, everyone is completely different.

I especially hope i didn't come across as preachy. I was honestly just posting that as a way of examining myself and where i am. I've started to find it therapeutic to write in this blog, so that was the reason behind all that yesterday.

In reality there is no such thing as a cure all for mental health. There are things that help, but just because something has helped me does not mean it will be helpful to everyone. Not to mention it just depends on where you are in life in general.

Some days my methods of coping with my mental health just don't work and I can't for the life of me figure out why. Other days i feel like i might not have anxiety anymore and that i can finally live a fully functional life. And again other days i feel like i've regressed a lot and i cant help but wonder if i should even be allowed to take care of myself, or if i need some form of assistance.

If nothing else, the only thing that i can say is true is that nothing is truly consistent, and just because i am in general better off than i was 10 years ago, it doesn't mean that where i was 10 years ago is no longer valid or important.

I was not in a great place, and i had virtually no help medically or psychologically other than a few "friends." Any true friends i had at that time i have completely pushed out of my life like some form of self sabotaging rejection prevention/not wanting them to be like my "friends". To this day i still have a hard time reaching out to people and being friends, because of that time.

But even then, i did get through it, and i did eventually start to get the help that I need. Everyone's journey with mental health is going to be different, and you should never compare your experience to anyone else's.

[chocolatecakecas]

ARE YOU READY TO ROCK?!?!

As we all know Dean is alive, happily married to the love of his life, and turning 45 on January 24th. Over the last 2 years we've thrown him one hell of a memorable party with thousands of your creations….so let’s do it all again!!!! And what better way to celebrate than by filling the dash with your wonderful creations, again!!!

On JANUARY 24TH celebrate by posting fics, gifs, amvs, art, graphics, poetry, edits, or anything you can think of to create, as long as it’s Dean-centric! Make sure to tag your content with #deansbirthdaybash so everyone can find and reblog your incredible creations and join in on the fun!!! And feel free to directly tag/mention me (#chocolatecakecas) as well!!! I’ll be checking the tags/my mentions all day to boost everyone’s creations!!! No experience necessary to create, and absolutely no pressure to participate! But remember reblogs are always appreciated! It’s just meant to be a fun little way to share our love for Dean and our content creators!

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[eggcats]

Still thinking about this post bc these two morons have taken over my mind.

And I'm just like. Even after the revelation that Alastor thinks Vox is attractive, and even AS Vox is trying to get this idiot oblivious deer to realize he likes him, Alastor doesn't really change how he treats Vox. Like, at all.

The only change is that now part of his mockery is calling him stupid for not realizing that he's the most eligible demon in hell, lmao (he didn’t realize Vox didn't already know, how stupid of him).

He still likes picking fights and actually fighting him for real. (It's Fun and Entertaining - and for him, nothing has changed that would make him stop)

And I'm kind of thinking that THIS, and not everything else, is what makes Vox realize that Alastor ISN'T mocking him about this. He's serious. Because surely if this was an entire plot to make fun of him, Alastor would at least ATTEMPT to woo him properly before he pulls out the rug from under him, right? He wouldn't just continue on with his day as if he didn't just upend Vox's entire afterlife.

Like, maybe after the first conversation, and after Vox powers back on, he's hopeful, but he knows both what he looks like and what ALASTOR'S like, so he kind of just assumes that Alastor has figured out his less than 100% rival feelings towards him and decided to add it to his mockery.

But then he shows up the next day, determined to beat Alastor at his own game (he will PRETEND to be wooed and then throw it back on him when Alastor tries to mock him, it'll surely work! Totally). And Alastor is like, "Why are YOU back here?!" And doesn't even act any different towards Vox than he did the day before the Revelation.

And Vox is like. Oh, fuck. He was serious.

Suddenly, Vox realizes that, rather than the Normal Hell he THOUGHT he lived in (one where Alastor makes fun of his crush on him) he lives in Weird Hell, where now he has to somehow convince Alastor that he just, is attracted to him and NOT that everyone, somehow, is just. In love with him? Or something??? (What the Fuck?)

There are times when he's tired of fighting with Alastor about this, that a part of him wishes he DID live in Normal Hell, because at least he'd know what to do. (It's not like Val doesn't ALSO mock his crush on Alastor, he at least knows how to respond to THAT).

Even when he convinces Alastor to date him (to make everyone (who doesn't exist, by the way) jealous), Alastor still barely treats him any different. He still pokes and teases at Vox, even as he is (seemingly unintentionally) complimenting him.

One time, Alastor is like, "We haven't fought in ages, we should do that the next time we plan an outing!"

Vox, about to lose it because he had just NOW thought he understood what was going on: What the fuck??! I thought we were dating, why do you still want to kill me?!

Alastor: Dear, we've never been trying to kill each other! If we were, one of us would be dead, ha ha! This is entertainment, pure and simple!

(Translation: Alastor is bored and requires enrichment in his enclosure).

And now Vox has to now grapple with the fact that Alastor apparently saw fighting with him as fun, and not, y'know, rivals legitimately trying to kill one another. What.

--

Also, Valentino notices very quickly the sudden change in Vox's demeanor - usually when they fight, Vox doesn't take long before coming to him for forgiveness. Or, the few times he doesn't, Val doesn't have any difficulties changing Vox's mind (and getting Vox to buy him whatever he wants).

So, when Val decides that if Vox is going to stay pissy about his little comment, he'll "apologize" - ("Come on, amorcito, you know you're the only one for me! Those whores mean nothing compared to you!") But Vox, just, doesn't forgive him and go back to his arms. And Valentino is at a loss.

He LOSES it when he finds out Vox has been hanging at that shitty hotel and chasing that radio bastard (again!). He doubles his efforts of letting Vox know there is absolutely No Way Alastor cares for him at all, let alone as much as Valentino does!

And then Vox and Alastor are dating, and Val tries to shoot one (or both) of them. (He also tries to get Vox to leave Alastor for him when he finds them fighting and destroying empty buildings in a part of the pentagram, but it doesn't work because once they're done fighting Alastor is like "Well, that was fun!" And invites Vox to dinner after, lol. The fighting was the date activity for the day for the silly little radio man, and Vox is too confused to question it.)

(Also, ironically, Val being pissed at Alastor dating Vox just validates Alastor's beliefs - because it never occurs to him to Val is mad because keeping Vox hanging off of him made it easier for Val to get whatever he wants).

--

But, slowly, Vox is starting to realize that, despite Alastor INSISTING that he's not into him and is only dating him for the (nonexistent) clout - he does weirdly care in his own way, and somehow, he's a more romantic partner to him than Valentino ever was, even without seeming to even try to be or realizing it.

One time, Alastor notices that Vox not been to the hotel once in the past few days (since this whole thing has started, he's basically been showing up consistently), so he goes to break into Vee tower to see what's up.

"What's up" is Vox overworking himself and not sleeping for days and only consuming energy drinks as he hasn't left his little computer dungeon even once.

So. Alastor just. Kidnaps him. Refuses to listen as Vox is like, yelling that this project needs done, like, yesterday!

Alastor: Dear, are there not two others in your team who could do this?

Vox: Val is fucking useless at this shit, and Velvette doesn't care if it's late!

Alastor: Well, what's the point of them? You should let me eat them for this. Regardless, it's been at least 3 days of this for you, so if they wish for it to be on time, they can do it themselves.

And then Alastor just brings them back to his room and forces Vox to eat a real meal, before picking him up and dumping him on his bed.

(Vox, suddenly wide awake: What the fuck. What the FUCK. Since when were we having sex?!?!)

(They're not. Alastor changes his clothes to pajamas and threatens to eat one of his employees for every minute he's not sleeping for the next 8 hours.)

(Vox wonders what's wrong with him that he considers this to be romantic).

Either way, Vox passes out for at least 10 hours before waking up to 30+ missed calls, 50+ missed texts, and 100+ missed emails, all wondering where he disappeared to and why the project he was working on wasn't finished. Once again, Alastor offers to eat them. Vox refuses to find it charming. (He's lying, he does).

Especially since after this incident, Alastor will break into Vee tower now more often if he thinks Vox hasn't eaten or slept properly.

And then, one day, Vox just realizes that, despite Alastor saying to the contrary, they're definitely, like, dating for real. But Vox can't tell Alastor that, because any time he even implies this, he calls Vox an idiot because he's only dating him for publicity. (Never acknowledging that, like, anything he does for Vox that isn't in the public eye is very clearly not for that, lol)

[moonymauk]

hi @hotvintagepoll I've made a letterboxd list with all the actors from this tournament if anyone would like an easy enough way to see all the guys and the movies they've been in <3

[pixlatedvampire]

I havent finished anything in a bit so please enjoy my favorite Grima doodles lmao 💗🥰

[pigeon3gg]

i will never understand the amount of "justice league meets the batfamily" and "justice league gets mad at batman for having child soldiers" fics out there like guys you have to know that scenario makes absolutely no goddamn sense at all right. you HAVE to understand that it makes no fucking sense for SUPERMAN to have no idea that NIGHTWING is associated with batman and was the first robin right. like if the justice league isnt aware of the batfamily at all, dick never becomes nightwing. that name is based on a kryptonian legend clark told him, if he isnt close with clark as a kid, he isnt and will never be nightwing. also these scenarios completely ignore the existence of the teen titans which is literally all the sidekicks/child soldiers teaming up. why the fuck would barry get mad at bruce for robin being a child when wally is right there. wonder woman, aquaman, the flash, and green arrow are all major members of the league how can you write this scenario and not awknowledge the perspective they have on this from also having child sidekicks. if youre writing a scenario where they are anti batman having child soldiers, you have written a scenario where donna troy, wally west, garth, and roy harper DO NOT EXIST. you see how this is problematic for that worlds storyline? above also applies to every team a bat has ever been on btw like if the justice league have never met tim drake before and dont know hes associated with batman then you have written a world where young justice never happened. you are writing a world where the bats have stayed only in gotham their entire hero careers and never been on a team before.

you see how this doesnt make any sense right? right? right?

[y3aj-3002]

two jumpscare

Tw: centipede(s)🐛 under cut

Do y'all fw centipede two :3?

[rueclfer]

well looks like im never leaving california! if any of u guys need reproductive healthcare i will house all of you im not even playing

[oceanwithouthermoon]

sometimes i think about how the people who hate on my takes on here would talk to each other and its always phrased like the twitter fandom drama i see but completely irrational and it makes me giggle

"calling kusuke abusive just because he shot his brother with a lethal weapon, plotted his murder, planned to use their grandparents to assist in hurting/killing him, and tried for years to expose his secret to the entire world against his will and through knowingly hurtful means in order to destroy everything he cared about is so stupid! what a stretch!"

"the saiki k fandom is so damn sensitive. i shoot my brother with massive guns all the time and its not abusive because he just blocks it!" HELPEKSJJSJSKSKKS

[morfosi]

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please share or donate. you could save a trans, disabled lebanese jew from homelessness or death.

thank you everyone who has donated and shared already, i am endlessly grateful and i hope that one day when i'm in better standing i can help all of you in return.

please please please, help me graduate college and escape my living situation. i am in danger and i don't have anyone irl who can help me. this is my last resort, i am working tirelessly every day with my school and local organizations to get help but i keep being turned away. please help me. please. i am begging you.

[whumpshaped]

5?

5. Favorite whump fic you've ever read?

it has to be sinner from @the-bloody-sadist . it ticks all the boxes for me. its just incredible writing and its so brutal and its just. chefs kiss. its rly rly good. if ur a bsd fan especially i highly recommend. (also forbidden blood from him is also incredible.)

but i will also never stop screaming about and MUST recommend:

kane & jim by @whumpsday

a taste of your own medicine by @oddsconvert

the devil's highway by @lonesome--hunter

in the woods somewhere by @knivestothroats

cat and mouse by @t0rture-me

traces by @whumping-in-the-wings

literally anything by @emmettnet (but especially the copper cross stuff dont look at me im simping)

once again literally anything by @quietly-by-myself

watch your step by @not-a-space-alien

a new beginning by @a-crumb-of-whump

and the rare bookseller by @oliversrarebooks

in no particular order honestly. like i cannot overstate how fucking fantastic all of these stories and fics are.

[bom-bombon]

i started to stress draw im so sorry lol

[risenwrites]

I found some quizzes and thought it would be fun for people to take them sjdjjsjfjejd

Where are you from the One Piece World?

My Result: North Blue

What is your One Piece Race?

My Result: Human

What's your One Piece Occupation?

My Result: Archeologist

Who would be your One Piece Lover? (Older Males)

My Result: Shanks

Who would be your One Piece Lover? (Younger Males)

My Result: Corazon

Imma tag you people (If you don't wanna do it that's okay jwndjsnfjej sorry if I'm bothering you-)

@stephisokay @sabokunsmalia @votaeto @sleepymarimo @otaku553 @anemptypuddingcup

[friendo]

If he's your f/o then why did he show up in my dream for the 5th night in a row to suck me off sloppy style