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[eggomancer]

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[houseofwolvess]

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[thecapricunt1616]

The Bear & His Honey - Chapter 17

♡ Chapter Inspo: Too Sweet - Hozier ; "You know, you're bright as the morning, as soft as the rain, pretty as a vine, as sweet as a grape."

♡ Summary: Winnie & Carmy attend one of their first full family functions as a couple, & Carm is anxious as shit that Donna will pop up.

♡ W/C: 10,217

♡ Posted Date: 04/16/2024

♡ A/N: WOW It has been a second since TB&HH got some love but we are so back!! I am actually really excited about this chapter! It is very long as you see, and It took a few times of scrapping & rewriting, and then I finally just said fuck it and did what I wanted to do LOL. I have been writing so much SydCarmy i've been achingg for some loveydovey Winnie & Carmy so here I am! As per usual requests are open for SydCarmy, CarmyxReader - anything really!

♡ Warnings for BTC: SmutSmutSmut (breeding kinks mentioned, car sex) - Swearing, Fluffy mush, Smoking cigarettes, talks of alcoholism, drinking

➵ 𝐂𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐌𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭 ♡

➵ 𝘊𝘭𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 / 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘵 ♡

➵ 𝐂𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡 𝐮𝐩 𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐋𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 ♡

𝒲𝒾𝓃𝓃𝒾𝑒𝓈 𝒫.𝒪.𝒱. 🍯

Carmen and I had made it official 3 months ago now, and we were just as happytogether and obsessed with each other as the day we’d met. Today was the day that Natalie’s younger daughter, Briana or Bee as the family lovingly calls her would be getting Christened since she was officially a year old last week. 

When I returned last month from nannying in The Hamptons, Carmen had taken an entire week off permitted by Sydney being back in perfect health - and we fucked and ate and did whatever we wanted for the entire week before I had to get back to work. It was fair to say we had missed each other terribly and he’d told me I ‘wasn’t allowed to abandon him like that ever again’ even if it meant he had to pay all of my bills. 

I huffed frustratedly, my fingers beginning to cramp up from trying so many times to clasp on my simplistic gold St. Christopher medallion with my long french tips that Carmen had been insisting on paying for every 2 weeks.  

“Bear! I need help!” I called out to him where he was in the bathroom ‘borrowing’ my gel to relax his frizzy curls that he had no time to blowdry this morning. 

“what‘sup honey?” He asked as soon as I called, coming out to the bedroom where I was stood in front of my full-length mirror struggling to clasp my jewlery.

This is how he’d been for the past 2 months or so, I call, and he answers nearly faster then I can finish my request.

It didn’t matter what he was doing, not if we were in the kitchen (he did get a bit huffy if it was extra busy, but never mean, never ever mean.) But if we were at home? It was almost scary how fast he came to my call. I had even filmed a TikTok- jokingly saying- 

“My man will blindly do whatever I ask of him- watch- it’s weird as fuck- but it’s super cute. He will literally toss out whatever he’s doing and do what I say. I think he’s over in the living room drawing right now- but watch…he’s gonna shove all his colored pencils n’ shit right in his case and barrel over here like a puppy. Watch this. -”  I stepped into the hallway and flipped the camera “ oh - and he’s gonna say ‘I’m sorry’ cause he wasn’t here the second I asked him.” I whispered before calling- “ LLLLOVER?! What’re y’doin’s? Mon Ours?!” (My Bear?) down the hallway.  ‘Huuuh???’ he called back ‘WHAT’RE Y’DOING LOVE?’ I called louder. I heard wooden pencils tinkling together and muttered curses for a few moments before he appeared at the end of the hall, coming up to me “Wha?” he asked, “M’sorry honey- I couldn’t hear over the TV-“  “What are you doing?” I asked “Uhhh…drawing? Why?” He asked “need something?” “No” I shrugged, leaning against the doorframe. “Can you put it away?” I asked.  “Oh- sure gimme’ sec” he walked off to the living room for a few moments and I flipped the camera back to me,  “See he just does what I ask him to do what is this?! He just listens he’s the best listener-“ I whispered being interrupted by him asking “Hey Honey? D’you mean like away away?” He called  “No just put up. come here” I called and he comes back to me, kissing my head  “Are Y’Hungry? D’ya need y’r water filled? What day is it again? I didn’t forget plans did I?” he checked his phone and I rolled my eyes playfully  “I just wanted kisses” I puckered my lips  He gratefully partook, kissing my lips before pecking all over my face. “Did you get your period and are just needy for love and kisses or Is this a test?” I hit end on the recording, embarrassed by his stupidly good intuition. 

It had gotten nearly 4 million views, and he was baffled as to why - when I explained the likely reason to him, he could barely understand that a lot of boyfriends didn’t give a shit about their girlfriends needs- at least to the level he does, so the way girls were thirsting after him in my comment section was new to him, and slightly overwhelming for me because it had been weeks and likes and comments were still pouring in, and there were lots of people that knew who he was. I had gotten at least 100 comments reading ‘is that like- THE Carmen Berzatto? Just…chilling in your house?!’

It was also kind of annoying because people kept asking to see him now since they either thought he was hot or they wanted him to talk about cooking, but I’d never ask him to. He isn’t my show pony, I know he’s hot and talented and smart and amazing and my absolute everything - and I’d love nothing more than to share all of that with the people who we’re asking, but I knew for a fact he didn’t like being on camera and wouldn’t be comfortable knowing 300 thousand people were gonna be seeing it- and possibly many, many more. 

He thought it was sweet and funny that after when I told him I pranked him or more specifically, giggly telling him ‘you got-got bear, I got you so good’ that me ‘pranking’ him was asking him to put away his colored pencils and kiss me for the sake of it - when in culinary school his ‘friends’ idea of a prank was to dull out all of his knives so he’d have to spend nearly the whole day resharpening them and failing an assignment because of it.  

 “Oh, that? Here honey gimme” he takes the ends of the dainty chain from my fingers, standing behind me and clasping it easily before adjusting the charm gently to the middle before and kissing the top of my head. “Y’nails’re too long f’that Angel” he muttered, looking at the necklace in the mirror and rubbing over my lower stomach lovingly.  

He did that move a lot ever since he started getting more comfortable when we made things official. Especially when he knew I was ovulating during sex. It drove me absolutely insane  - he loved to do it while saying something along the lines of;

 ‘Y’want me t’fuck y’full pretty girl? Yeah? You wanna show everyone y’mine honey? Who you belong to princess? Are y’gonna have my babies? Mmm? Say it— Y’love it when I fuck y’like this, like a fuckin’ cat in heat. Ye’- is that it? Are you a filthy little fuckin animal? My pretty little pet?’

While he fucked me absolutely brainless. Before I went to my nanny gig, one day he peered over my shoulder while I was reading one of my fantasy books and saw the words mating press - he was immediately interested and very shyly asked what it was, before asking me to help show him what he needed to do to help me achieve that very position.

Surprisingly- after I had explained what the position was for in the books- it was the first time he didn’t quite literally leave or get overly anxious about the thought of us having children - even if it was just purely dirty talk. He just once again made sure that I was on birth control, and from there it became one of our very favorite positions. 

I’d never fucked a man before that made me promise to have his babies someday before cumming in me as deep as he could and rubbing over my extremely vacant womb due to being so pussy-drunk. All while whispering how pretty I’d be swollen with his seed- worshiping me like I’d already been carrying the child- muttering about how hot it would be if I were to be all big-bellied carrying his baby. Maybe it was his kink? Surely it was just a kink and it was the moment talking not his actual desires. 

It must be- because he’d been so adamant just a few months ago that he was ‘absolutely sure’ he didn’t want children so badly we nearly got into an argument over it when I asked him to just think about it outside of the realm of me. So he likely was simply turned on by the thought of a ‘nuclear domestic life’ just like any other person is. 

“Thank you, you look so nice, Bear. I can’t wait until it’s over though cause I wanna touch your hair. Can’t though cause it has all the stuff in it” I said, turning around and gently pushing back the stray sticky curl that had fallen out of place and was laying on his forehead adorably. 

“Mm Church isn’t my favorite pastime cause I have to have all the bullshit on. but you look…” he takes me in slowly, his hand sliding down over the curve of my waist. “Fuckin perfect. Can’t believe y’mine baby” he leans in for a kiss “wait- this stuff, can I kiss you?” He alludes to my lipstick which was likely about the same shade of red as my cheeks now due to his compliments. 

“Find out” I said and pulled him by his jacket, kissing him deeply. He hummed, squeezing my bum and pulling my hips into his, squeezing them gently. 

He was always extra careful to ask when I had makeup on and was getting ready to go out, that he could kiss me without messing anything up. He would sit and watch me do my makeup when going out for girls nights, so was very understanding and appreciative of the effort and time that went into it. He would help me pick out eyeshadow colors sometimes, but his favorite part was when I did lipstick. He tells me it ‘changes everything’ which makes me giggle, because that’s exactly what my grandma says. 

I pull away after a few moments, “how’s the makeup?” I tease, checking in the mirror. “Lady Gaga knows what she’s doing babe” I gently dab below my lip with my beauty blender where he had gotten some of my foundation by mistake in the heated lip to lip transaction. 

“The same one that did the poker face song?” He asked and I laugh a bit 

“If that’s all you know her by then we still  have a lot to learn about pop culture. But yes, the Gaga baby” I fixed up my lipliner a bit and he watched me in the mirror as I meticulously did so. 

“Mm I remember that and the weird meat dress. Fuck you look amazing baby here lemme see” he turns me around when I put the pencil down, gently brushing my fringe from my eyes. “You are so beautiful baby, fuckin’ breathtaking” he kissed my forehead gently. 

I smiled, holding his hands in mine and squeezing gently “you look very handsome baby, so handsome” I adjusted his tie and kissed his jaw gently. My alarm went off for 6:45 signaling it was time for us to leave, the sound causing me to jump a bit before I giggle shyly “Sorry. We’d better go” I grabbed my purse, making sure I had everything i’d need for the day. 

“Y’still wanna get coffee honey?” He asked as he put his dress shoes on. 

I nod “yeah- if I can get these stupid shoes on with this dress in time” I sat down on the bed slipping my foot in and trying to buckle the stupid tiny buckle with my nails, they were super pretty and Carm loved the scratches he got with them, but in terms of tiny things I always found myself struggling. 

“Here-“ he knelt in front of me “Hold this Honey” he hands me the hem of my dress and I pulled it up for him. He carefully adjusted the straps so they were straight, before buckling it “that good? Y’want ‘em tighter?” He asks and I shook my head 

“No- no. Thank you it’s perfect baby” I offer my other foot to him and he repeated the process. “You’re the best, Carmy, really. Sorry I keep needing your help when I go out” I said, kissing his cheek gently before he got up. 

“Can’t blame yourself baby those things are… ridiculous. I dunno how they’re comfortable” he outstretched his hand to help me up. 

I took it and kiss his lips lovingly once he pulled me up. “They aren’t. They just look pretty” I grab my purse once more, spraying on my perfume. “Now we’re ready” I said with a smile.

We got to the church with 5 minutes to spare before the service started, so we were able to find the back row where Richie, Eva, some random blonde that I’d assumed must be Eva’s mom, Syd, Fak, Natalie, and Pete, both of them with a kid in their lap were sitting. 

Sugar spotted us first “Oh! Yay! You made it sweetheart how are you? You look so beautiful” she smiled 

“Oh my gosh no way you all look so cute I love her little dress ohhh my gosh Carmy look at her!” I said happily 

“Yeah - Hey, Uh- Moms not-“ Carmy asked her quietly. 

“Bear - “ she almost laughed “She isn’t around until she can prove to me she's sober again” she said before turning to Fak who was sat next to her. “Honey, move down please! Look at all that row sweetheart” she nudged him with her elbow. 

“Hi Winnie the Pooh” Fak said, sliding down enough for Carm and I to squeeze in next to sugar.

“Hey Neil! Hope you’re well it’s nice to see you.” I sit down next to Carmy, crossing my legs.

“So is she your girlfriend yet?” He asked Carmy, nudging his shoulder gently. 

Carmy sighed deeply. “Yes, yes Fak. She’s my girlfriend. And we’re at church buddy. So it’s quiet time yeah?” He asked and I couldn’t help but stifle a giggle how he took after Sugars tone with him. 

“Thanks Winnie nice to see You too- Your dress is pretty” he told me and I smiled 

“Aww! Thanks bestie. Love the suit you look snappy” I said and held Carmys hand, kissing it gently. 

“It’s great t’see you guys!” Syd waves and I lean forward to see her better - But Carmy didn’t even say anything.

I look at him, seeing he was totally not here. “babe” I ask and he breaks his spaced out gaze on the large stained glass window up front and looked at me.  

“Mm?” He looks over at me. I rubbed his hand gently. 

“Everything okay sweets?” I asked softly and he nodded a bit.

“Talk ‘bout it later” he said and squeezed my hand gently. 

“Okay…” I said and hooked our arms together before relacing our fingers. 

I watched as he went back to staring at the same stained glass window, and resumed that way throughout the entire service unless we were participating in something. 

It worried me a bit, it seemed like he was disassociating - as to avoid what I wasn’t sure.

When we got back to the car I crossed my legs, buckling my seatbelt quietly and holding my purse in my lap. “What’s goin on baby?” I asked. 

He shrugged, shaking his head a bit and starting the car. “Nothin.” He said plainly 

“Mmm.” I mutter. “Funny cause you said we’d talk about it later” I said casually, pulling down the visor mirror on my side, reapplying my lipliner. 

“Talkin ‘bout it now. And I said- nothin” he said shortly, starting the van and backing out of the parking spot. 

“Ahhh of course because saying “nothings wrong” would have been too easy so instead- you added 3 extra words to tell me we’d talk about it now?” I pushed, carefully lining below my bottom lip. 

“D’you ever drop anything?” He asked, annoyance lacing his tone. 

“Mmm- no. I don’t..” I grinned teasingly 

“It’s none of y’fuckin concern that’s what it is.” He said, rolling the window down and lighting a cigarette as we pulled up to a stoplight. 

“Ohhh! Meeeeowww!” I teased, fishing my phone out of my purse. “Someone’s in a sour mood.” I tut, “I never got the invite to your pity party- did you forget about me lovey?” I teased. 

He rolled his eyes, gripping the steering wheel with his right hand. “You love pushing my fuckin’ buttons.” He muttered before taking a drag. 

“I loooove it. You know, you’ve yet to rage fuck me yet. Which is surprising- you’re 90% rage, and I’ve only gotten the 10% of soft.” I said, running my hand up his thigh until I got to his bulge, slowly stroking it over in his slacks. 

“You couldn’t fucking handle it.” He said, grabbing my wrist. “Don’t fuckin test me.” He grumbled, flicking my hand into my lap and hitting the gas as the light turned green. 

“Oh- oh- is that a challenge, Bear. You think I can’t take you? That I - can’t take you?” I scoffed, dropping my phone in the cup holder. “I find that a little rude. Where have your manners gone?” I drag my nails over the inside of his thigh, smiling to myself as his breath hitches.  I knew he was stuck in a loop about something negative- and since he didn’t want to talk about it- he likely needed to fuck about it. It was a system we’d created- kind of an unspoken one. But he would ruminate, and brood like a big baby - if I couldn’t coax it out of him with my words, he’d probably been so pent up with nowhere to put it so he needed to release all those hormones before he could get it off his tongue. He always did, after a long day the pillow talk we had would usually be intense feelings of self-doubt and fear of the restaurant failing- even though it was never close to failing. He’s worried about who knows what and needs to escape with something he has that will remain consistent, and something very accessible- and that something usually happens to be me.

“I’m fuckin driving” he said, but his growing arousal beneath my palm begged for me to continue. 

“Mmhmmm? And?” I asked, gripping him firmly at the base of his cock that was prominently showing now. 

“Y’fuckin- Jesus Christ” he hissed, holding the steering wheel with a white knuckle grasp. “Such a little fuckin-“ he gasped lightly as I grip him tighter. 

“What” I goad. “What? Finish the sentence, Carmy.” I tease, running my thumb along the vein I’d already memorized, feeling his member jump in the grip of my hand at the action. 

“Dirty fucking whore.” He hissed, cheeks pink at the admission. 

I giggled. “Awww- it’s nice to finally hear you say it” I teased, dragging the edge of my nail along his rock hard head

“J-Just-” he swallowed thickly, eyes locked on the road, refusing to break to meet my gaze

“Juuuust” I goaded, adding pressure and he whimpered

“Y’re fuckin evil” he said through clenched teeth, swallowing thickly and shaking his head lightly. “I said I’m fuckin driving.” he repeated, hips involuntarily bucking up into my grasp.

“So?” I asked, gently dragging my thumb over his waistband “Did you want me to stop, Bear?” I asked and he inhaled sharply, slightly shaking his head. 

“Ohhhh-oh! So you like when i’m a dirty fucking whore for you?” I questioned, my hand stilling over his goosebump-ridden skin.

“Do what y’gonna fuckin do” he muttered, swallowing thickly. 

“Fine” I said, unbuckling my seatbelt and pulling my skirt up my waist, slipping my panties and nylons down in one go after kicking off my heels into the footwell of the passenger side. 

“What’re you-“ he glanced over at me as I hiked my right leg up on the dashboard after pushing my seat back to lay down. 

“I’m doing what I’m gonna do. You said it yourself Bear - I’m a dirty fucking whore” I responded, angling myself so he could see and spreading myself out for him “so wet for you” I said in a sultry tone, gathering the sticky slick on my middle and forefingers, before bringing it right in front of his lips. 

“Don’t you love how dirty I am?” I teased, rubbing the sticky arousal on his bottom lip

He flicked his cigarette out the window and opened his mouth, taking my digits in and sucking them, humming in satisfaction at the taste “yeah I know you fucking love it. It’s why we’re perfect together you’re just as much a freak as I am” I said, pushing my fingers further and he widened his jaw wantingly. 

I gasped a bit as he bit down on my fingers “Such an animal” I giggle squeezing his cheeks and rubbing my spit slicked fingers down his chin when he released me 

“You really wanna go right now when I’m tellin you I’m not in a good mood?” He asked

“If you’re in the mood- I want you. Otherwise no thanks but I think you’d have said something before now” I pulled my dress out of the way of my core. “You aren’t gonna look? You always tell me how pretty I am baby” I gently spread my folds, rubbing my wet cold middle finger over my clit gently “mmm it’s so much better when you do it Carmy, don’t you wanna touch me?” I begged

He glanced over at me, tugging his lip between his teeth as he fans over my position, eyes trailing down to my pussy.. “You can come up with what we were doin’ since you wanna be so fuckin’ needy and can’t wait a few hours. Little sex demon” he said, slowing down and turning into a post office parking lot that was deserted due to it being a Sunday. 

“I wouldn’t be so needy if you didn’t look so angry and your arms didn’t look so good in that jacket” I said, crawling in the back and sitting on the floor excitedly 

“One second anger scares you the next it turns you on- I can’t fuckin figure you out” he said, shutting the van off and getting out of the drivers side, and quickly opening and shutting the back sliding door when he got in.. 

“Yelling scares me but I think being your little stress toy is sexy cause you appreciate it” I lay back when he took off his jacket, laying it down for me like a pillow.

“Whats the word?” he asked before kissing my neck with nipping, hot, wet kisses.

“First - gentle on the neck and leaving marks baby were gonna be with your family, and second orchid” I assured and he hiked up my skirt.

“Good Girl” he said and spread my legs open, his tattooed hand finding my soaked core immediately and dragging his middle and ring finger up the slick, rubbing over my clit with quick light circles making my toes curl .  

I gasped, already feeling like every nerve in my body was on fire. He had managed in our times together to memorize every single thing that made me creen in pleasure. He wanted me soaked before he’d barely even touched me, because that gave him the satisfaction of having memorized my body and the way it reacts to every little possible stimulation. 

“Your good girl” I breathed, tugging up my skirt higher so he can kiss over my stomach and hips how he usually did, during moments of intimacy he wanted to feel and taste every part of me I would let him - it felt more like worshiping if I was honest with myself, but when I thought about it I would get way too worked up. 

“That’s right princess” he gently nips on my skin. “How could I ever be rough w’you? Mmm? When y’so fuckin sweet? And so fuckin good f’me?” He hums, settling my thighs around his hips. 

I giggled, breaking up the gel in his hair as he kissed over my naval and hips, and gently massaging his scalp. His eyes fluttered shut in bliss, his kisses slowing before resting his forehead on my stomach and letting out a satisfied sigh at the action “Youre gonna have freshly fucked hair” I teased. 

“Don’t care. Mm keep touchin’ me please. Fuck baby-“ he rested his chin on my flesh looking up at me “I missed y’touchin me. So bad. Just touch me however you want” he begged, causing me to smile, a warm loving blush heating my cheeks. 

“You like when I touch you?” I gently caress his cheek and he leaned into it like a man starved. 

“I love it. I need it baby- really. I miss it so bad when y’cant.” He took my hand, kissing my palm. “I need you” he said softly. 

I swallowed hard, trying to relieve the growing lump in my throat and I cupped his cheeks lovingly. “I’m always here” I said softly and pulled him into a sweet messy wanting kiss 

I wrapped my arms around his back, gently playing with the hair at the base of his neck, smiling into his lips when I felt the goosebumps adorning his neck. “The reason we’re back here is cause I need you” I said sultrily in the shell of his ear, kissing his jaw gently. 

“I know ‘m sorry” he unbuttoned his pants and I cup his jaw bringing his attention back to me. 

“That’s not how I meant it bear” I said softly, gently moving his hands out of the way and unzipping them for him. “I love touching you, you know what right?” I asked as I untucked his shirt, gently running my hands up his toned stomach, feeling him lightly shiver beneath me 

“Uh- yeah…yeah- I do- I just sometimes feel like…I dunno. I ask f’r too much” he said quietly 

I rubbed over his abs, gently squeezing his hips and trailing my palms over his ribs beneath the loose fabric. “When do you ever even ask baby? I offer. I know you like it so I do it” I pull him closer, kissing the exposed bit of chest from the top 2 buttons being opened. 

“Is it weird when I do ask?” he questioned softly and I look up at him. 

“No. It’s not, it’s sweet and it’s healthy, Carm. It’s good to be loved” I gently kiss his neck and he guided me to lay, pushing himself free of his boxers and slacks, and lining himself up before gently pushing in. 

I moaned out, locking my legs around his waist and pulling myself closer to nudge him deeper inside, arching my hips and whining as I feel the tip of his cock right over that spongy spot that made me sob and shake with pleasure 

“You are fuckin greedy t’day Jesus Christ” he breathed, holding my hips for me “so fuckin pretty” he said as he pulls out halfway before rutting into that spot and I gasp sharply 

“Fuuuuck oh oh- you’re fucked” I whine to which he chuckled, a satisfied grin on his face. 

“You said you could handle this babe” he reminded, pushing in deeper but slowly as to not hurt me, resting his hand at the base of my stomach. “Fuuuck I love when y’let me have y’like this baby I can get so fuckin’ deep feel this” he said, taking my hand and resting it at the base of my stomach, slowly thrusting in. 

I felt the movement beneath my hand, my jaw slack and the most lewd pornographic noises coming from my chest “s-so- so big” I whined out dropping my head back in bliss and eyes fluttering shut 

“That’s right baby my good fuckin’ girl- my fuckin girl. Y’take me so fuckin well princess like Y’re fuckin made for me ye? Like y’re made t’take my fuckin’ cock? Mm? Made f’me to fill with my cum?” He asked as he started the relentless pace. 

I couldn’t even think - I just nod quickly in response “made f-uckkk yes- yesyesyesyes made for you I’m yours” I slurred, reaching down and rubbing my clit causing me to clench around him tightly 

He grunted, looking down and watching my fingers spreading around his cock as I rubbed myself “yeah? Y’like bein’ mine? Mmm? Y’like that I fuckin own this pussy? So goddamn greedy - needin’ me t’fill you up twice already today and it's not even lunch” He thrusts harder causing my back to arch sharply

Tears were forming in the corners of my eyes now at the waves of pleasure that were so intense the air around us felt like it was crackling with electricity.  I opened my eyes once more to find his gaze locked on my cunt, mesmerized by the thick white strings of arousal sticking to the base of his cock before snapping as he thrusted in and out. 

“Mmm isn’t it so fucking pretty were so pretty together baby” I moved my fingers faster, sitting up on my other elbow and nearly collapsing again at the new pleasure it brought. 

“Woah” he noticed, quickly wrapping an arm around my back and my head drops back to meet his gaze as he stopped thrusting 

“Fuck me oh my god fuck me- I- can you please? My- my knees can’t touch the floor my thighs are too short when I’m up on your lap you’re right i’m so fucking greedy for you I need you please fill me up please claim me”” I said in a needy tone, my breath rapid and uneven. 

“You are going to be the death of me” he groaned, holding the backs of my thighs and sitting me up on his hips with his palms on my ass, before leaning on the back wall of the van and thrusting up into me, hard and fast.

My eyes nearly rolled back before closing, my jaw slack with pleasure. I nodded quickly, tears spilling over my cheeks as he continued. Fireworks and stars float behind my eyes and I clutch the seat next to us with a white knuckle grasp to have some tether to my body. 

“So fuckin pretty” he grunted, fucking up into me harder “y’want me to fill this pretty pussy up? Mmm? Y’want me to fuckin make sure y’drippin the rest of the day? My little whore” he kissed my neck roughly and I couldn’t even warn him before my hips were shaking and my core was squeezing and releasing around him in a way that told him I’d reached my peak. 

My whole body felt waves of heat rushing through, everything felt so good it was starting to feel painful but I couldn’t ask for him to stop- I wouldn’t. I had never felt so good before, physically, mentally, emotionally. I couldn’t stop it even if I tried. The words fell out of me before I’d even registered the thought wasn’t just a thought, and was really coming out of my mouth. 

“I fucking love you” I cried out. 3 months. Three. That was it. That was all I’d had of him, and I’d known I’d loved him for probably 2 of those months. And had bitten my tongue and avoided the issue and successfully evaded his weird roundabout questions that would allude to me being in love with him until now. So if he didn’t feel the same, this was all we had, and all and would ever get. 

“Shit. Say it. Say it again baby been wantin’ it so fuckin’ long now” he rasped. I opened up my eyes, looking up at him to see his gaze was locked on me, like I had hung the sun in the sky just for him. 

“I love you Carmen.” I said honestly and he moaned, resting his forehead on mine, looking into my eyes. I smelt his minty breath mingling with mine, hot as it fanned my lips. 

“Yeah? Say it- fuck- say it one more time angel” he said, hips stuttering and thrusts becoming more sloppy. 

I cupped his cheeks, feeling as if we were the only 2 people left on earth and all we had was time.  “I fucking love you, bear” I said while looking into his eyes and he whined quietly, spilling into me so much that it began leaking out onto his thighs and the curve of my ass before he even pulled out and drawing me into a deep, fervent, wanting kiss, wrapping his strong arms around me and keeping his cock nestled deep inside as we exchanged hot, loving, messy kisses.

“Do you- do you really?” he asked when we pulled away to breathe, both of our chests moving up and down rapidly. 

I nodded, swallowing thickly “It- It slipped out…I didn’t mean to tell you like this - I wasn’t thinking- I know it scares you- I- I wont say it again if it-” he stops me by kissing me again, slipping his tongue over mine and wrapping me in a bear hug, leaning against the door and sucking on my tongue gently.

I hum in satisfaction, closing my eyes and letting him have me. “Say it whenever you want, please” he said softly when he finally pulled away. 

“You- you don’t think you can say it?” I asked, biting the inside of my lip nervously.

I had a feeling he was in love with me, but I’d been here before with someone and the L word scared them off. But the guy has been essentially living with me since we started seeing eachother - what else would that be!?

“No - No…honey thats not- I-I love you - ‘msorry, I thought you could… that you could tell what else should I do?” he asked and I smiled wide.

“Saying it was the only thing you were missing- oh and maybe coming home on time once in a while to show me you actually like being there- but nothing to be sorry for, I see you baby” I assured him, gently kissing his sticky sweaty cheek. 

I felt like I was in the most beautiful dream ever, There was nothing more that I wanted than him, and this.

He buried his face in my neck, sniffling softly and remaining quiet for a few minutes, before saying “We should go home and change, theres definitely cum all over that dress” he joked. His voice sounded slightly horse, and when I sat up to look at him he quickly wiped away a tear staining his cheek.

“I love you, and you don’t have to say it all the time baby - I’ll probably say it a lot more than you cause it’s just how I am, and I know you, and how you are. You show me with your actions how much you love me, and thats what I need. I know baby, I know you love me. I can tell you love me, every day” I wiped the stray tears from his cheeks with the pads of my thumbs, gently cupping his jaw. 

“How could you know if I never said it?” he asked and rested his hands on my lower back.

I took a deep breath, sighing softly as I thought with a small smile on my lips “Lets see… you always make me lunch- and dinner - you always watch shows I wanna watch, you actually listen to me when I talk about them- and notice things, and ask me questions. You always say thank you, even for small silly things like when I rub your hair, or when I make you your coffee. You compliment my crochet and costume making, and ask me about the books I read. You bring Persephone little toys and treats on the weekends when you have to hang out with her while I do inventory with Sadie. You always push yourself for me- even though I never ask you to, like bringing me flowers- or that time you bought my perfume because it was getting low and didn't say anything? You show me, Carmy. Every day, to be loved is to be seen. And you are always showing me that you see things about me that I didn’t notice you could even see because I thought I hid them well enough” I asked and he nodded a bit

“Now that you mention it… I guess I didn’t know what it meant, I knew I felt for you like- differently… then anyone before. But I felt like it would be too fair to call it love” he said and I pout a bit

“What do you mean, fair?” I asked and he rubs up my back gently with flat palms

“Fair to me. I didn’t think that something that felt so good could be love, that it was like- the universe fuckin’ w’me again. And something er someone  would take you away from me as soon as I called it love” he said and I gently kiss his chin, then lips, then the tip of his nose.

“Love can be scary, I keep waiting for me to do something and you just…turn. Like- like a monster or something. But it's not to do with you- because I can’t ever see you doing that, It’s just my past relationships scarred me so deeply that I'm just waiting. Like the day I dropped the cup at the restaurant, I thought you were gonna yell at me for some reason- even though you've never yelled at me. My ex would have yelled at me for hours over that- but you didn’t. You told me it was okay, and you cleaned it up and never rubbed it in my face or anything. That healed something in me, like- i’m not so scared to make a mistake around you anymore, cause it’s happened and you reacted healthily. So every time you think I'm going to leave, and I don't- it's going to heal a small part of a fear like that in you, and make this all alot less scary. At least- that's what my therapist says” I shruged a bit. 

“I’m glad it’s with you. Being in love.” he said softly, eyes fluttering shut as I gently brushed my fingers through his messy hair to look a bit more contained. 

I smiled, kissing his forehead gently “I’m glad too, Bear. I wouldn’t wanna love anyone else”

“Where the fuck have you guys been? Hey sweetheart- did you go back home and change?” Richie asks as we came in the kitchen.

I was baring a bouquet of flowers and Carmy was holding a 2 bottles of wine “sorry! Yeah my heels were bugging me it’s my fault” I said giving him a hug and he kisses my cheek

“You better not be pregnant yet the holidays are the worst time - also Richie will you quiet your loud mouth I just put Bee down” Natalie says as she comes by giving me a kiss on the cheek and ruffling Carm’s hair 

“Wine? Look at you Bear she’s turned you into a real adult- takin’ gifts to parties like a big boy” she teased, taking the bottles and he rolled his eyes 

“She’s not pregnant and you’re not funny” he took my hand, pulling me to him and rubbing my back gently.

That was another thing- the family now saw us as the next couple to get pregnant - even though we’d hardly been together a year - Because ‘they dont want our kids to be the only cousins being left out when the girls are older, I guess maybe I should take it as a good thing and being they’ve accepted me as one of theirs

“Let’s sneak t’the backyard before they can rope me in t’somethin yeah?” He whispered in my ear 

“Okay” I smiled, kissing his cheek gently and lacing our fingers together as he leads us towards the back door

“Hey! Carm I didn’t know you were coming who’s this?” An older man says and I turned around 

“I didn’t know you were comin’ hey Unc- this is my girlfriend, Winnie” he said and I smiled 

“Hi” I wave shyly to the older man. I’d never seen him before, Carmy did mention though he had been paying an Uncle Jimmy back for money Mikey had borrowed for the restaurant but no one else - so this must be him.

“Ahhhh okay, Hello Winnie - what a name. You are just a sweetheart, Is this one treatin’ you good? I can knock some sense into ‘em. You ever need anything you come find Jimmy okay?” he teased and I smiled a bit

“He is nothing short of lovely but I promise I’ll pass word if that ever changes and take you up on the offer” I joked and he smiled 

“She’s gonna fit in just fine here, Carm. Where’d you find this one?” He asked and Carm shrugged a bit. 

“Just. Around. Moms not coming is she?” Carmy asked and I looked up at him

“Who knows kid. She told me she’s off the bottle but- who knows” he said with a shrug and Carm nodded a bit. 

“Don’t tell ‘em where we went, please” he opened the back door, tugging me outside and shutting it behind us. 

“If my mom comes we’re leaving” he said and I crossed my arms. 

“You don’t want me to meet her but you love me?” I asked and he chuckled dryly.

He hadn’t spoken much about her, the most I’d known was that she’s a raging alcoholic- had driven a car through their family home at one point, but when Natalie had her first baby she cleaned up for about 6 months, then fell off again- and has been going months in addiction, then trying to clean up for a birthday or something like this, and the cycle maintains that way. 

He digs his cigarettes out of his jeans, pulling one out. “I don’t want you to meet her because I love you. Don’t pull that. Is that gonna be a fuckin’ card for you now because I was honest?” He stuck it between his lips and lit it.

I felt my stomach twist. He was already starting to fly off the handle and say things he didn’t mean. That little comment would absolutely be a deeper conversation when we did get home - because I didn’t appreciate it in the slightest.

“A card?” I scoff “what do you mean card. This isn’t a game, Carm, this is our lives, There are no cards.” I took a deep breath to try and regulate myself. “You don’t really talk about her. And I don’t want to push you- but what is it is she mean? Is it just that you think she’s gonna hate me?” I questioned and he rubbed over his forehead, exhaling smoke away from us.

“Winnie it’s not even- this isn’t even the fuckin place t’talk about it. No she’s not- she’s not fuckin mean she just has issues okay. And she - she fuckin yells it’s more for your sake, she’s all fuckin loud and I don’t want her freakin you out and - I— I just don’t want her showing up and if she does oh well, we’ll be gone before she knew we were here. I don’t even want her knowing about you. Not right now at least. Whenever we get married or whatever the fuck - sure I’ll tell ‘er, but before then she just has the potential of fucking this up” he said before taking a long drag of his cigarette. 

Of course. This was all leading back to his abandonment issues. Most of the issues in our relationship related back to my anxiety around death, and his anxiety around being left alone because he’s ‘not good enough’ in his mind. We couldn’t keep basing our relationship around fears or we’d never grow- so, I pushed.

“Your mom isn’t gonna scare me away. I don’t care if she is a screamer. My mom was a screamer. Chris didn’t have to deal with it- I did. By myself. So trust that I can handle it. I don’t want you getting comfortable yelling at me because I have to live with you. But I love you, and I love everyone else we’ve met in your family, and so I’m sure I will like her if she shows up.” I said and he shook his head. 

“No. No. I don’t wanna hear what she has T’say babe. Good- thank you- I’m glad - I-I’m happy you aren’t gonna fuckin leave but I don’t want to hear her fuckin mouth, Winnie. Shes gonna have somethin to say about you, about us. And I- I can’t handle it. I care about you too much and I won’t be able to keep my mouth shut and I’m gonna ruin the entire night. If she chooses me the whole night will get ruined because if she chooses me you’ll start and then she of course can’t -“ he shut his eyes, breathing deeply. 

He wasn’t budging about this, or even willing to compromise with me - and his telltale signs of a panic attack started to show, quick breathing, flushed skin, scrunched brows, literally shutting himself off by squeezing his eyes shut.

“Baby” I said softly, stepping forward and wrapping my arms around his middle. “We’ll go. We’ll go.” I assured him, gently running my finger over the bulging vein in his neck with a featherlight touch. “You’re so stressed love, breathe” I rub my palm gently over his racing heart. 

“This is why. I can’t even fuckin think about it Winnie, I can’t” he wrapped his arm around my waist and took another drag of his cigarette. 

I had to break this thought loop he was stuck in right now. I could see the gears turning in his mind, each and every worst-case scenario playing out in great detail like a film reel. It was something that my therapist had taught me during sessions and I had eventually picked up on, and started doing it with Carm. She would ask me a random question about something I love, so Taylor Swift, or Music Festivals, or Cats, and get me really into talking about it - and all the negative thoughts just snap away.

“How many kinds of vinegar are there?” I ask and he raised his eyebrow in confusion. 

“Vinegar?” He asked and I nod. 

“All  kinds. Well- I’ll be fair I guess cooking kinds, are there other kinds?” I gently fixed his chain to face the front. 

“Anything that is a fruit vegetable or a grain can be a vinegar, honey- why are you asking me this?” He questions and I shrug. 

“Because I wanna know. So ew you can make onion vinegar?” I scrunch my nose. 

“Uh-“ he took a drag of his cigarette “yes babe but…who the fuck would want that?” He asked, a small hint of a smile on his lips, my trick working as it usually did.

“What about balsamic vinegar, what is that?” I asked, sticking my hand under his shirt and holding his hip, stroking little lines into his skin with the pad of my thumb. 

“It’s grape juice vinegar instead of wine vinegar to put it simple” he said and I nod 

“You’re smart” I said, gently kissing his jaw “so so smart. It’s sexy” I said and he gently squeezed my bum

“What’s all the interest about vinegar babe you writin’ a book?” He teased and I giggle into his skin

“You’re not stuck in a loop anymore that’s what” I kissed down his neck. “And I was thinking about it in church. I was like what is red wine vinegar. Oh yeah and what is it?” I asked and he chuckled. 

“Mmm so full of questions sweetheart. They take red wine, then they ferment it, and then they add a culture-“ 

“A culture like yogurt?” I asked and he hummed 

“A culture like yogurt, that’s right little Sous someone’s been listening when I go on about work stuff huh?” He said, patting me gently. 

I smiled proudly “I love listening t’you. Okay keep going smarty sorry for interrupting” I said and he threw his cigarette butt down into the ash tray on the rail before wrapping his other arm around me and leaning against the wall. 

“Well not much else princess, they just ferment it and then add the culture then they put it in a barrel to ferment” he explained and the door opened 

“Bear Richie needs your help he’s fucking everything up with the lamb can you please come in?” Natalie asked 

“I literally sent him a text of what to do step by step” he huffs, “You wanna do the lemon zest honey?” He asked me as we went inside 

“Sure, I’ve been told I’m you’re best zester” I teased and he chuckled as he rolled up his sleeves to wash his hands 

“You are my best zester and my best girl.” He kisses my temple when I come next to him at the sink to wash my hands.

𝒞𝒶𝓇𝓂'𝓈 𝒫.𝒪.𝒱.🧸

After I’d dressed the lamb and put it in the oven, I went and sat on the couch with Sadie and Winnie who were deep in conversation about something I couldn’t even pay attention to at the moment. Because Nat had pulled me aside about 25 minutes ago to tell me mom is coming, but only for dessert- and only because she’s ’on the mend again.’ Whatever the fuck that’s supposed to mean. 

She’d been ‘on the mend’ and uncountable amount of times since Natalie's kids had been born. Each time was unpredictable to say the least. I had completely given up on her ever becoming fully ‘healthy’ whatever that means, a long time ago. But if she would at the very least be honest and not have to make a huge scene of being removed when she shows up drunk after she swore she would be ‘sober as a nun’ that would be at the very least more respectable. 

Natalie had begged me to stay. Said I was the ‘only one she’d talk to’ which felt like bullshit- because mom and I don’t talk. She talks and I listen - and I told her if she’s drunk we’re leaving. I have a bad feeling Winnie and Mom won’t take kindly to each other especially if moms drunk. Of course that wouldn’t be Winnies fault, but the point still stood strong. Also- Syd is here, and I don’t want Syd dealing with that. So if mom does show up - which I really hoped she wouldn’t and was just trying to give Natalie some false hope she still cared about the family at all since Mike did what he did - I’m taking Winnie and Syd and getting the fuck out of here.. 

I’m pulled out of my thoughts by Winnie laughing loudly “Sadie you are gonna piss him off stop” she rubs my arm 

“I think it’s precious baby don’t listen to them” she said and I look up at Sadie who’s showing Syd a video on her phone and she gasps before slapping her arm and laughing 

“Sadie stop!!” She laughs “A) he doesn’t carry a bag B) he doesn’t have a mustache- but everything else is accurate in that” she took a sip from her wine glass

“What? Are you making fun of me?” I asked and Winnie laughed a bit, a frisky grin on her face

“What!? Never baby it’s just a silly joke how we’re like..a common match I guess. It’s only a joke” she explained and I extended my hand 

“Let me see” I told Sadie and she shook her head

“You weren’t paying attention so no” she teased and I roll my eyes

“Children” but I couldn’t help but smile a bit. That was something I did around Winnie a lot. Richie was right, she is very funny, in strange ways but she is. It’s more of a childlike randomness then anything else but it tends to really draw people in. It drew me in. I still hadn’t had a chance to ruminate over what happened earlier. 

I do love her. I just feel scared that I said it, that now I did there really is another shoe waiting to drop. It almost felt like another secret, because if it’s not i’m gonna be drilled with questions. Questions that I likely don’t have the answer to and won't until I talk it out with my therapist like every other fucking thing in my life. It was starting to revolve around that woman. Or thats what it felt like. I’d been seeing an individual therapist for only 2 months out of the three we’d been dating. I’d started after breaking down in Nat’s car at 3 am that one time. She’d told me she was either dragging me there, or she ‘couldn’t be around me anymore’ because it hurt her too much to see me ‘spiraling out like Michael without the drugs’ .

I’d thought she was being dramatic, sure the only reason I broke down like that was Winnie, and I refused to stop seeing her so that would no longer happen - but I also couldn’t stand not seeing and talking to Nat so often, I forgot how much i’d missed her in New York and her …. nagging. Strangely enough. 

“Bear-” I felt a grab on my shoulder and see Nat standing there “Let’s go outside yeah?” she said and I nodded a bit, looking over at Winnie 

“Be back in a second yeah?” I kiss her head and she nods turning back to Sadie listening to whatever story she was telling her

I shut the door behind us digging a cigarette out and lighting it. “You’re quiet tonight” she leaned against the rail and watched me. 

“A lot going on in case you haven’t realized” I muttered, taking a drag and looking down the street to avert her gaze. I wasn’t gonna go into everything right now, not here - and not when mom is gonna be here who knows when because she’s said that she was coming to dessert before and then came hours before expected because she thought Nat had told her 6 when she’d really told nat 8.

“Is it…Winnie?” she asked, and I suddenly felt annoyed at the thought that anyone could ever think she did something to me to intentionally make me feel this way

“No- no. Why would it be? Its fuckin mom. Winnie was all fuckin excited to come here and be here with all of you- because i’ve told you I don’t want her around mom- so since I was told she 100% was not coming I decided - oh how fuckin nice- she talks about never havin’ a fuckin family to do shit with, and never having been to a fuckin dinner like this- and now day fuckin’ of you drop on me she’d be here. If I’d have known, I’d never have come here. I’d never have told her. Because she loves to be apart and she - she wants me to feel good about shit like this but I can’t when mom’s involved. And now - it’s gonna be a whole fucking thing t’night when we get home. And its not her fault she sees when im upset, and its not her fault she can be normal when talking about shit like this. And its not her fault were all so fucked up. So it's not Winnie- Its us. Its who we are as a fucking family unit. So thats what it is, Nat” I said and finally looked over at her. 

She sighed deeply, nodding a bit. “Shes smart, Bear. And strong as any one of us, i’ve talked to her, you know? More then just once. She’s got a good head on her shoulders, and you’re a good person, Carm. She’s not pestering you, she’s worried about you. But we all know how you love worrying about your own shit so much that you can’t see the people around wanting to help.” she said.

“Thats why I don’t want her around mom. Because I know she wont be able to stand her, Nat. She’s….she doesn’t let peoples shit slide. And I’m worried because I can’t control her- I- I wont. It’s one of her…rules” I sighed a bit.

“She gives you….rules?” she asked.

“Not like that- just like- ‘do this and I’ll leave you without question this is your warning’ and one of ‘em is If I ever seriously try to control how she acts around anyone were done. Which I can understand shes a girl and all that” I stomp out the burning butt under my shoe.

“See- shes smart. And It will be fine as long as Mom comes sober and stays that way. She wont start anything with anyone as long as she is. Can you just please, please do me a favor and try to keep her away from the liquor, Carm? We’re putting it away before she gets here but… She can’t be around the kids if she drinks and Bee’s been fussy and I can't let Charlie see her if she gets drunk without anyone looking. I can’t keep an eye on her, but you can! Please Carm, please” she begged.

“No- No. Fuck no, actually. Fuck that- and fuck this, Natalie. No, I’m not leaving my fucking girlfriend alone tonight, so I can chase mom around the house to make sure that she doesn’t drink. I’ve told you. I don’t want to be a part anymore of her fuckin’ bullshit! What are- are you even getting out of this, Natalie? She’s not a grandmother, she’s an extra child you bring around presenting as a fuckin’ grandmother because you want y’r fuckin’ kids to have what we didn’t even have. Newsflash, Nat- To know how to be a fuckin’ grandmother? You need to have been a mother- something she’s never been good at. I’m glad you took me out here because the last thing I needed was mom showing up - and me being expected to play fuckin’ alcoholic sitter all night. Enjoy your shit show with mom”

 I turned around, opening the front door and having every urge to slam it, but holding back and shutting it calmly. I leaned against it, taking a few deep breaths and rubbing over my face. If I go in theliving room steaming, Winnie’s gonna cause a whole fucking scene trying to calm me down, well- not a scene - but she’d notice how upset I was off the bat, and then i’d make a scene trying to convince her I was fine when that was the furthest from the truth and spiral out of control when she didn’t believe me.

This was not how this night was gonna go. Not if I could do anything to help it. If Winnie wanted to do a big fucking family dinner at Nat’s or Richies, or something. Hell, I’d buy a fucking house and throw a dinner party there with everyone if it meant I kept her from being apart of this god damned dumpster fire of a situation. 

“Honey” I called from the hall, trying to keep my voice even and digging my keys out of my pocket.

“Comin’!” she called from the living room, a few seconds later showing up at the end of the hall and padding over to me with her glass of wine and her regular smiley warm demenor.

“Hey baby” I tried my best to put on a small smile, “Uh- I’m sorry…I’m not feelin’ good my stomach is feelin’ pretty fucked and I have bad heartburn, we’ll come back for the next one, yeah?” I told her, wrapping my hands around her hips and pulling her closer. 

“Oh no! Sweetheart, you have barely eaten today mm? That may be why your tummy is buggin’ you. Lets get you something small before dinner and you can lay down and see if it passes? If not we can go, The lamb you made is smelling so good baby I wanted to try it, I’ve never had that before” She asked sweetly, gently rubbing my chest. 

Damn her always having solutions. 

“No- honey… please- please? I just wanna go home and lay down and watch our shows, I can’t even hold anything down right now- can we?” I asked gently, leaning against the wall. 

Before she could even answer, my entire world spin and flew off of its axis. I wanted the ground to swallow Winnie and I up and send us somewhere that was anywhere but here. The entire house silenced, other then the near bane of my existence but also the unfortunate giver of life I was currently living out.  “No! NO! If my SON doesn’t want to see me, He will TELL ME WHY Natalie! He can EXPLAIN HIMSELF! I am not a child! I can HANDLE MY OWN SON YOU MY FUCKED UP LITTLE WANNABE AS MUCH AS YOU TRY TO REPLACE ME - ARE NOT HIS MOTHER!”

➵ 𝐍𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 ♡♡♡

[eyrina-avatar]

shifting attempt!!

@skxawngmia I had to make a whole new post since my response to your comment was too long and tumblr wouldn't let me continue.

💙Hi love, last night I just couldn't concentrate on a method for some reason. Every time I would get into the method, I would end up thinking about something from my dr so I just decided to use that for my advantage and I just laid down on my back, closed my eyes and started visualizing lo'ak in front of me (since his face is so easy to visualize).

I did that for like 10sec and then started affirming that I'm in my dr (while visualizing being at home tree) and I eventually started feeling all the sensations after like 10 more sec and thats when I got all the symptoms and I got too excited so my symptoms started going away but then i was like "I'm in my desired reality" over and over again while visualizing mo'at and some of home tree and then I was like "I'm a master shifter duhh, I've got this! I shifted I shifted I shifted, I'm a master shifter, I'm a master shifter so ofc I've shifted, master shifters don't fail. I shifted, I'm a master shifter!!!"

basically I was trying to remind myself that I'm a master shifter and there's no need for me to worry because master shifters are always successful and don't fail (and I had been affirming/manifesting my shifting skills for the past few days already)

so that's when I really started to hear the chattering of the omaticaya clan and the heat from the fire pit where they were cooking the meat. and I felt my atmosphere starting to change (I could just sense it, I knew the forest was surrounding me) and my mind started getting dizzy and I thought I was gonna wake up from my dream hunt right there but then for some reason I lost focus and thought about my old reality surrounding me and so yea...

I honestly wish I would have relaxed myself and calmed my mind for at least a minute or 2 before attempting to shift, I would have been more focused during the attempt.

but tbh when I started visualizing, I wasn't even thinking it was actually gonna work, I was just like, uhhh you have to try something tonight, just visualize or do the bare minimum and so that's what I did and it actually ended up working so well😭

I have another post with another similar experience where I just decided to lazily visualize and affirm and how close that also got me to shifting and it also has another method i've used that also gave me some other symptoms!

That link can be found right here! It was a reply to an anon that also asked me about shifitng. Sorry this post is so long, anything regarding shifting really peaks my interest. Lmk if you want to know more or if you have any questions💙

[msm-tsotmw]

6.18.20XX

Hi ! It’s Toorie , And I Just Wanted To Apologize For The Lack Of Posting 😅

I’m Just Hanging Out With My Friends Under The Monstralis , Having A Good Time !

Anyways , Sprigg , Mauna And Moperetta Have Been Gone For A Concerningly Long Time … I Hope They’re Okay !

yea

hopefully they arent dead or some shit

… Dead ??

we havent gotten any calls or messages from them recently

I Mean , They’re In A Cave , So The Reception Might Be Crappy-

it looks like the reception is pretty decent, actually.

… What ?

i mean, we all share a blog, right?

uh

yeah

turns out, sprigg’s been posting basically as much as we have.

oh cool

wait what

jeeo, can you tell ‘em what they’ve been doing down there? I’m gonna go get a cookie.

alright, sure!

(Flitz flies away, leaving Jeeo, Toorie and Mondo with each other.)

?

uh

(He fiddles with his claws.)

so, ummmmmmmm… apparently, sprigg got attacked.

WHAT ??

WH

luckily, they weren’t harmed!! mauna, moperetta, and some kid named bister helped them out.

Oh , Phew .

yea phew

wait who the fuck is bister

ummm, apparently this whiz-bang who washed up on faerie and ended up here on light?

that’s all i know, but they seem to be getting along pretty well with moperetta and mauna, who sprigg is apparently calling “m&m” now.

M&M ! That’s A Cute Nickname !

seems like something id call them ngl

yeah, uh, sprigg was thinking about you guys when they came up with that nickname.

oh cool

That’s Nice ! Where Are They Now ?

um…

(Toorie stares at Jeeo intently.)

lost in a really big crevice.

Oh

WAIT , WHAT ?!?

HOLY SHIT ARE THEY OKAY

yeah, they are!

oh thank glaishur

Whew , Thank Torrt …

however, they’re super lost right now, and they’re wandering around waiting for someone to find them.

oh ok

Well ? Let’s Go Find Them ! They Need Our Help .

but what about flitz? we’ve gotta wait for her to get back.

Oh Yeah

Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight .

(Everyone turns to face Flitz, who has returned holding a batch of cookies in her talons.

hey, guys!

oh, there they are!

so, uh, do you guys know about—

Yeah ! We’re Gonna Go Find Them !

wait what

Flitz , Can You Go Tell My Sisters ?

uh, okay??

(Flitz flies away to go tell Crysta and Ritika about where Toorie and co. are going.)

okaaaaaaay, let’s just wait for her, then.

hey uhhh toors

Mhm ?

can i talk to you for a sec

Yeah ! What Is It ?

uhhhhh

are you sure about this

because its probably super dangerous down there

like

its literally pitch black and theres rocks EVERYWHERE

we might trip and fall on smth or even break a fucking bone

Relax , Mondo ! We Can Bring This To Light The Way .

what if we starve

Uhh , Flitz Can Bring Cookies ?

Why Are You Even Worrying So Much In The First Place ? This Isn’t Exactly Like You …

oh

uh

well

its kinda complicated

but uhhh

can we talk a little quieter bcs i dont like other monsters listening to me talking abt this

Sure ! Go Ahead .

uhh

when i was like idk 15 or something one of my buddies dared me to explore a cave

i said no so he went in there instead

and uh

he never came out

Oh .

then i went in there and uh

all i found was his scarf

and nothing else

Oh .

That’s … Scary .

yeah

thats why i dont go in caves

(The two exchange a silence which lasts for like 50 seconds before Toorie suddenly hugs Mondo.)

wha

huh

why are you hugging me

I Just Felt Like You Needed One .

oh uh

..

thanks

(Mondo hugs her back, not knowing that Flitz has flown back. She lands next to Jeeo.)

oh, they are SO in love.

what?

they’re in love, Jeeo! pretty sure that’s kinda obvi-

HEY

We Heard That , Y’know !

flitz!

sorry, but you can’t fight the obvious.

(Mondo buries his face in his hands, embarrassed, then does the Shinji pose on a rock. Toorie bends down to pat him on the back.)

Hey , Flitz ?

yeah?

I Almost Forgot , Can You Get Some Of Our Stuff In My Sisters’ House ? We’re Probably Gonna Need It When In The Cave .

alrighty!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

yea

toorie and mondo were too stupid to check the other posts for whatever tf Sprigg was doing lol

(they’re t4t girlfailure x malewife bimbo x himbo and they comfort each other. funny yet wholesome ship dynamics my beloved 👍)

-Mod Jimmy 🗣️

[mochinon-yah]

MY LIVE COMMENTARY REBLOG HEHE

(S P O I L E R !!!)

I'm playing the game while eating a cup noodles hehehe

The main theme song here is ven's work, righhtt??? IT SOUNDS SO CALMING AND GOOD ASSRHDJDJ but like kinda ominous, it's like the calm before the storm (btw ven, can u share the song and like make it loop for 1 hour straight-)

ANYWAY U DID SUCH A GOOD JOB @naraven MAKING THIS THEME SONG, IT SOUNDS GOOD!!! AND I LOP ITTT

Okay, so now, with my 18% laptop and my somewhat sleep deprived self and also my cup noodles, we are gonna play this game smoothly (hopefully) 🤩

THAT'S ME GUYS, I'VE BEEN POSTING THAT HASHTAG SO MANY TIMES- /SMACKED

Okay, noted, April 20 2024, 'i' go missing.

EH THE VIDEO????? THE INTRODUCTION VIDEO??? WHAT THE WHATTTTTT???? I DID NOT EXPECT THIS LMAO

"Can you find yourself?"

Aight bet-

WAHHH I ACTUALLY DIDN'T WATCH THE VIDEO ON THE TUMBLR POST SO THIS SURPRISED ME SO MUCH SGSNSHJSKSK SO GOOD BRYNN WAHHH IT'S SO AMAZINGGFF

AND YEAHHH "what happens in penacony city, stays in penacony city" ☝️

Daym, myself, ur so sad 🥲

Penacong isn't really the place where dreams come true but whatever floats your boat ig

OMGGG THE NAME SECTION FINALLY

Mochiiii :D

WHAT THE??????

U SCARED ME FOR A SEC, I WAS LIKE "WDYM PLS DON'T LIE???? 😭😭😭" so this is revenge huh- /jjjjj

Wait, i have an 'ex'????

ALSO BRYNN I'M SORRY 😭😭😭😭 I'LL MAKE IT UP I SWEAR- oh what's that? A dimitri fanart, you say? Ohhh, okay okay, i'll draw one for you-

Yes, i will make one specially for you TRUST ME ON THIS ONE, but i need to finish ven's request first hehe- SORRY FOR BEING SO LATE VEN, I GOT BUSY 😭😭

Context:

Hehe.... OF COURSE IT IS WORTH IT, I'M MISSING YK 🥲

ARE U SAYING YOU DON'T WANT ME TO BE FOUND????

Context:

OH SHOOT MY LAPTOP BATTERY IS LOW- imma get the charger first okay-

Okay i got it, anyway, moving onwards to the storyyy

Awhhh, my name is quite unforgettable??? Thanks for saying that kakavasha 😽

OH??? SPECKLED???? AND DIMITRI??????

Yeah ur so right bestie, i am sleep deprived, i am playing this game at 1 am-

Uhhh wdym he's red

HAHAHAHAHAHA OKAY OKAY "i'm always hot" sure let me get a lighter and burn you-

LMAOOOO MC'S REACTION

Ehhh??? There's a notif 'kakavasha liked that' that's so cutee bdbdhdjsjwkw

Oh wow finally, ratio *claps* now let me at him, i'm gonna diss him-

Okay nvm- oh wait- HAHAHAHAH YEA, MC GO DISS HIM MORE 🔥🔥🔥

Omg.... ratio calm down bae, kakavasha isn't even attacking you 😭😭 oh wait, we don't know he's a gambler????

EH THAT'S SO CUTE, WE'RE NUMBYYGGG

Ayo? No slander to my jelena >:o

Hahahah, sure, we can whisper to each other until they stop dissing jelena-

HAHAHAHAHHAHA GALLAGHER???? YOU THINK U CAN TOP JING YUAN IN A BEAUTY PAGENT???? LMAOO

Okay this is cute, i won't diss ratio ☝️

OH YAY MC'S FAV SINGER IS ALSO ROBIN YEYEHEHD IKR SHE'S JUST SO UGHDNND- WAIT IS THIS A REAL SONG OR DID BRYNN JIST MADE IT UP?????

OH HAHAHHAHAHAHA BRYNN OH STOP IT YOU (context: mochi said "But it's as much as I love to tease Brynn about taking my whiskey neat, and my coffee black and my bed at three- but whatever.")

NO WAIT NOOOOO I CAN'T PUT ANYMORE IMAGES........ oh this hurts </3

Okay, i'll put the context on text now ig hufftttt

OH I'M GONNA DM SOME CAESAR CIPHERS TO KAKAVASHA LMAOOO (is the prank i pulled on you traumatized you-) he said "please don't" i'm sorry bae, do i traumatize people by giving em ciphers??? 😭😭

Okay wow, yes, i can see that, no need to bold it, put it on red color, and the main of the screen- (context: Senator Sunday) /jjjjjjj

Yes, we're all sunday haters (i don't rlly hate him tho but honestly as mc, yes i would hate him!!!)🔥🔥🔥

Did gallagher just barked-

OH HE DID, AND WHAT IS THIS REALLY COOL SOUNDTRACK????? AYO????

Um, pls no sunday angst- 😭😭😭

NOT THE NOTIF SAYING "ARE YOU SURE?" AFTER I PICKED THE TALK TO SUNDAY OPTION- WHAT IS THIS ALHAITHAM DEJA VU I'M FEELING RN- Okay, sorry guys, i'm just trying to make things be more peaceful by talking to sunday alone, is it that hard for you to understand 😭😭

Eh? I need to leave the cafe?? :(((

Oh gosh, sunday.... let me pat pat u here 😭😭😭 why are u such a sad puppy here

Oh? OH? PENTHOUSE-

WAIT HUH???????????? WHO WROTE THAT??? YO, WHO WROTE THAT KIND OF FANFIC HAHAHAHAHA- PLSSSS I WANNA PUT A PIC UGHHHHHFDBND

Oh gosh, it's tempting to say yes oh no uhhhh but since this is my first run (basically choosing what i like) imma say no >:D

Oh.... sunday, oh..... this made me feel bad :((( oh i'm sorry uhhmmm uhhh 🥹 sorry?

Anyway, homeless route is on the go- probably- actually no, it's missing route now

UH IDK???? I DON'T KNOW WHAT I DID IN THOSE TIME- oh.... there's no news about me going missing? Well, aside from that little news on tv after robin's but yea-

Well, robin, i don't think that sad puppy birb would hurt me too, but we don't know yk

I'M SORRY I'M GOING MISSING, ROBIN 😭😭😭 ILY ROBINNNN, UR MY FAV HYV SINGER UWAAHHH HDNDJDKKDKS CAN'T BELIEVE MY FAV SINGER IS LIKE SEARCHING FOR ME

OMGGG WE CAN MAKE SUNDAY A ROUTE???? BRYNN, WHAT- I MEAN- okay 🫡

Lmao not me being scared of my own name showing up when brynn is talking-

EH??? WHAT TRADE- Speckled??? Brynn???? What happened, besties 😭

OKAY THIS HAS BEEN A WILD RIDE, I LOVE ITTT!!!!! If i could take a pic for every scene and comment on em, then i would- trust me hehe!! Sorry if this got a bit too long and sorry if i ever comment something weird, but uh yeah! I enjoy the game so much, brynn! <3

A special muach muach for you <333

🍵 𝒲𝐻𝒪𝒟ℛ𝒜𝒩𝒦𝐼𝒯? ‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚: A Yandere!H:SR x Reader Otome Game

✧ romanceable characters (© hoyoverse): Professor Veritas Ratio, "Your friend" Kakavasha, and "Gallagher" [for now]

✧ content warning: yandere themes, mentions of racial/species discrimination (your character is SEA/Filipino-coded), (y/n) uses they/them, the story takes place in a modern hybrid alternate universe where each planet (Belobog, Penacony, etc) is considered a country.

PLAY THE DEMO HERE (available for download on PC & Mac AND online play for any devices, though download is preferable to avoid pixellated graphics & misaligned textboxes)

You (name changeable) are a hardworking and full-pledged human cafe owner in Penacony City. Your Dreamjolt Cafe has been a go-to for residents and tourists alike. But your loved ones' lives took a sharp turn for the worst when you decided to take a much-needed vacation back to your homeland, Perlas. While your family eagerly awaited your arrival, you disappeared en route. Where did you go? How did this happen? Who did this? Was it...

☕ the prickly yet fascinating Prof. Veritas Ratio, your self-proclaimed avian-hybrid regular,

☕Kakavasha, your longest fellow human friend who always seems to have a secret or two;

☕ or Gallagher, your hound-hybrid roommate whose past is as peculiar as his loyalty?

☕ or are there two more you're forgetting?

... so...

𝒲𝐻𝒪 𝒹𝓇𝒶𝓃𝓀 𝒾𝓉?

Please support this game by reblogging the post & sending asks/comments! I put a lot of time and effort writing, drawing, and learning for to code for this. Thank you so much, my beloved yandere!H:SR community and of course, @dreamjolt-hostelry, for being supportive friends!!! - @beloved-brynn

✧ Characters, Background Art and UI Credits

Hoyoverse assets sourced from the-astral-express-archive. I just tweaked em a bit!

Canva freestock images... Haha...

✧ Intro video, sprites & CG art Credits

Me!!! Hi <3 I hope you enjoyed them! I can't believe yall made me learn adobe after effects a bit for this-

✧ Music Credits

The main menu theme (the first song upon booting the game) is made by @naraven!

The rest of the royalty free music soundtrack (such as the music used for the video above) is sourced from Vodovoz Music Productions!!! Please show the creator some love!!! I was actually vibing so hard while listening to them lmao

✧ (Fan)Story

lol hi again!!! man. i feel like Argenti.

If you wish to support my work and want to see more of this in the future, please buy me a coffee! So I can at least prove to my parents that my work is at least worth one dollar ;;;;

[velvett-tearss]

Asking the Haikyu boys what their star sign is

warnings: cursing, i make some dirty jokes, use of “good girl” in Atsumu’s, talk of astrology lol

characters used: kuroo, atsumu, oikawa, and kageyama <3

a/n: this is my first time writing characters that aren’t mine and my first writing post is on here so cut a bitch some slack 🥲 also this is NOT proofread lmao I’m sorry

KUROO - SCORPIO

you were both studying for your upcoming chemistry quiz that he always seemed to ace.

to be fair, he was the one who was studying while you scroll through you social media feed.

you sigh softly as an ad for one of those astrology apps came into your view. you raise a brow and turn to him.

“baby?”

“yes, kitten?” he asks and doesn’t look up as he highlights something in pink

such a little nerd 🤓 what isn’t there to love about him???

“what’s your star sign?” you ask

he finally looks at you with a raised brow before a smirk grows on his face.

he leans back against his chair and crossed his arm

inside you’re like 😏😏😏 bc look at his arms

no deadass get ur ass on netflix or Crunchyroll or wtv u watch it on and check his arms out bc

😊😊😊 I could have him manhandle me any day

back to the story sam, keep it professional

“which one do you like best?” he asks

he’s like 😋 acting all cute ... or so he thinks

“none. what’s your star sign?”

“awe, c’mon. there’s gotta be a favorite.”

“there’s not. tell me, tetsu.”

“there’s a favorite of everything, baby. just pick one.”

does he not understand it doesn’t matter what your zodiac sign is??? it’s the stars ?? and that you don’t have a favorite one ???

“my favorite periodic element is—”

“babeeeee—” you whine.

“awe, are you looking for our compatibility?”

can u answer the question sir 🙂

“what. is. your. star. sign. tetsu.”

“awwee, my baby is so cute!”

he kisses you and tickles you as you try and push him off

now y’all r rolling around the floor, trying not to piss yourself

and even though you’re laughing, you still want to know

but he literally does not tell you.

ATSUMU - LIBRA

you were just hanging out at his place, scrolling through tiktok or something when a compatibility video came up on your for you page.

you look up to him from your position on his chest.

“hi there.” he murmurs, looking down at you before kissing your head

baby is sleepy af but he likes looking at you so he stays awake

his hair is a little messy from laying around all day with you in his arms, but he’s cuter like this

☹️☹️ can u hear my tears lmfao

petition to make him real

jk he will ruin our society

as if it’s not ruined enough. 😹

and our economy lowkey bc why isn’t that toner bought and on his hair 🤔

anyway back to the story

“what’s your zodiac sign?” you ask

deadass he’s like 🤨 tf is that??

“have you never read your horoscope before?”

“I think ‘Samu might know.”

so y’all call that Gordon Ramsey up

“what d’ya want?” ‘Samu asks with a yawn

and Atsumu’s like twin 👯‍♂️

“what’s our zodiac sign?”

“uhhh, lemme think a sec”

so you and Atsumu r waiting for him like pretty little princesses on their lazy Sunday 💅

and then Osamu snaps his fingers

“darn, uhh . . . was it candice?”

‘Tsumu looks up at you to check

you give him a look bc you don’t remember a Candice in the zodiac signs

“Who the hell is Candice?” you and Atsumu ask at the same time

“Candice dick fit in ya mouth”

‘Tsumu hangs up ❤️

he slumps back in the bed all unmotivated

“that was no help at all ): ” he murmurs

“c’mon you’ve gotta have read something on it?” you say, stifling a yawn

he kinda just itches his little pudding head and his like “uh, I dunno. why do ya want to know this anyway?”

you sigh “when’s your birthday?”

“ya gotta guess, baby.”

😃 is all you do

“‘tsumu, when is your birthday?”

“gotta guess! only good girls get rewards.”

he’s all 😉

and you’re like 😐

you end up checking Suna’s Instagram because he’s got pics on pics on pics

you see a birthday post of the twins and their fight video 💀

and the caption is like “happy birthday to my little libras! (Dm for full vid, 10$ for HD)

and Atsumu looks at you 🙂

like “what does that mean?”

and you just bully him for being a libra and for his brother rocking his shit 😭

OIKAWA - CANCER

he’s walking you home after his practice, and he’s just kinda humming that one little tune when he asks if iwaizumi was his mom and he’s all like 🙂

yeah, that one

it was a good practice for him lol, he nailed every serve, and iwa’s spikes were so good *chefs kiss*

and his knee wasn’t acting up at all and he’s so happy

gosh

I love him and his knee

and he’s swinging your intertwined hands back and forth bc ik he LOVES holding hands

hold on y’all i got tears on the screen my bad

anyway

so you kinda look at him

and he looks back like the little angel he is 😇

“are you a water sign?” you ask him

he gasps so happily 😩👏

“y/n-chan, you’re so smart! how did you know?” he’s so amazed and proud of you and pepper little kisses all over your face

“what’s your sign?”

he starts to explain his entire chart in depth

like I’m talking about planets, degrees, houses

the full thing, he is so prepared

his entire life was leading up to this one moment

ik he’s a mars libra I just know it 😩

and you don’t even understand half of what he’s saying, but yes king go off 💅

he even tells you iwa’s chart bc he knows all that shit too

anyway, stan my enfj baby or else 🔪

KAGEYAMA - CAPRICON

so y’all are in his backyard, just passing the volleyball bc why not my king is a lonely one okay

can u tell I love him sm 🙂

and you’re just passing back and forth and just talking about your day and whatever

and tobi baby starts complaining about how hinata is friends with every single person ever

somehow??

like at the training camp he became friends with bokuto

who’s one of the top aces??

and then he’s friends with them iron wall hoes at date tech???

and he made friends with Atsumu lowkey??

and all of a sudden he’s besties with yamaguchi??????

“he’s such a gemini” you laugh

and poor baby is like wtf is that 🤔

and he’s so concerned and confused

he thinks ur speaking latin bc wtf is a gemini

you explain to him that it’s a zodiac sign but that confuses him even more

so you use your own zodiac as an example and how you kinda share certain traits of your sun sign, like other people who fall under that sign

and he’s starting to understand

kinda ish

and you ask him when his birthday is

and he tells you when

“oh my gosh, you are such a Capricorn!!”

he’s worried now

is that bad??? 🤔

“is that better than a Gemi thingy?” he asks

“none are better than the others”

he gives u that 😒 look bc there’s always one better than the rest

awe my little king of the court wants to rule the sky 😻

he starts to get into astrology and talks about it a lot lmao

I love this bc ik y/n loves teaching him things bc it’s like he’s never ever had thought that wasn’t volleyball before

his mind: volleyball, y/n, astrology <3

and now every time y’all go out and about he guesses people’s signs and it’s a game for y’all now

just tobio and astrology 🖤🖤🖤

[autisticstarseed]

im just. so dead tired of people out here really thinking that straight people even care about aces at all. like i cant believe exclusionists still actually try that “uhh you’re valid though!” shit when theyre constantly equating being ace as hetero points(tm) on your sexuality card. ‘oh yeah yall ur valid but also ur basically straight and should just go hang out with the straight ppl!’ smhhh like ill be fucking real to you if you are a gay exclusionist you should especially know damn well what its like to tell a straight person you dont wanna have sex with them. they hate it. they hate us. they will get violent. they will pressure us. they rape us. that is Not a safe place for us.

on top of that, they genuinely dont even view us like we’re any ‘less gay’ or something. hets don’t understand it and won’t accept it if its an identity besides het, i thought that was obvious lmao. its the same to them. we’re forced into therapy to fix us, raped to fix us, everyone wants to fix us. people arent punished by society for specifics, nobody says god hates pans, polys and androgynes, you are punished if you arent cishet. whether or not your warped fucking mind thinks aces are straight, straight people dont, therefore we are not accepted by them. and if you listened and even just Pretended to care about our experiences you would understand that, but yall literally won’t take in anything that doesn’t back up your discourse. anything that makes it look like we’re struggling is ignored and brushed off. wiped from the record every time its brought up. doesnt matter didnt happen i dont care. We’re not allowed to look vulnerable. 

and the problem is, we are so vulnerable right now. im sorry but the only reason we’re not this dictionary definition of oppression you guys have is bc we’re literally too invisible, and erasure aint privilege when the 25% of people that Do know what you are fucking hate you and think your sexuality is biologically impossible and a mental illness. we’re not accepted by straight people, not accepted by lgbt+ people, we have no support system. saying “go take care of yourselves” is another way of saying go be silent and ignorable. its not how a community works, if only the people that are a part of it support themselves theyre a sitting fucking duck. we have no awareness, no support, nothing and no one on our side but ourselves. if you have no allies you have no system. its literally just a blatant attempt by everyone to push us onto someone else so they dont have to care about us. its hellish and the loneliest ive ever felt with my identity to date.

most importantly just stop fucking telling us where to go, what to do, how to identify, etc. if you wanted us out of your community that bad then you need to stay in your own lane. you literally dont have a right to tell us what to do with ourselves. it was never your place but especially not now. i dont care what your discourse is, aces have valid problems that deserve peoples attention and support. whether we’re traumatized aces or aces with mental disabilities or just ace because we’re fucking ace, we’re out here alone and struggling and if you refuse to listen to our pleas for any form of positive attention from you then your issues with us run far deeper than just saying you dont want us in your club. you literally dont fucking care about us. we’re a joke to you. at least admit that

[edains]

for fucking real OP

and you know what gets me? is that the 212 was killed by geth - who were invented by the quarians and what does she say to/about Tali or other quarians about that?

well uhhh *checks notes* nothing -- and she could've easily blamed it on them (like every other species does since they've been ostracized from the galactic society at large b/c of it hmm) ((also not saying she would be right if she did blame them just that you could point to that incident and say ah))

and not just any aliens - aliens that haven't been seen outside the veil in nearly 300 years! this is probably the first record of an attack on a council allied race since the quarians exodus and what is the council's response?

"the geth attack may be of some concern" yeah they basically dismiss it and tell the humans they should've expected something like that

she has spent her entire life having people dismiss her b/c shes a williams she can see the council doing the same shit here - ignoring and dismissing the alliance b/c they're not what they want them to be

and also lets check who she brings up - wrex, a krogan mercenary who she can potentially see a) making threats in a seedy bar b) making threats at c sec and/or c) shoot an unarmed man who surrendered b/c "he never leaves a job unfinished" (paraphrasing) whos also working for the shadow broker an extremely shady figure -- also it seems like wrex is with you pro bono? anyways hes not giving off the best of vibes at first (if you were in ash's shoes i mean)

and garrus - a turian cop who we first see arguing with his superior and later complains about "rules and procedures" getting in his way like ofc its gonna raise some red flags for her!

and ppl shoving her into the "racist who learns how to play nice with others" box is infuriating b/c her arc isn't abt becoming less xenophobic -- its about how shes been downplayed and dismissed her entire life and with joining the normandy she can be recognized and gain some confidence in herself

sorry to go off on a long tangent on your post op i just *clenches fist* fucking love ashley madeline williams

i've said it before: a large part of her hate comes from being a female character that doesn't fall over the player character - she grows with and without shepard and has her own opinions and will voice them even if you disagree with her

I am on my knees BEGGING the mass effect fandom to give Ashley a chance she is not racist, and especially not so compared to Garrus and Wrex and she’s a great character with a great arch and beautiful flaws who is interesting to explore with *imo more than Kaidan - love him still* you guys don’t give her a second thought and I think it’s because she’s a woman sorry I said what I said

[fakeloveaskblog]

[Hello The Local Demon's here! Well, it does indeed seem like Tumblr has eaten my ask. I am disappointed at this hellsite, but not surprised. I'll have to rewrite it, I guess, wait a hot sec! Think I'll sent it in parts this time, so at least some of it is bound to make it in.

(Also I saw the Tuxedo Mask meme and loved it! It got a chuckle put of me, and I want it back in the reply to this if you still have it please.)

Oh and congrats on the gender, btw! You're right that the reason you're getting those early isn't the best, but honestly I'm just glad you are getting 'em! SUPER HAPPY FOR YOU!! LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE!!! I shall now stop screaming support at my screen at 1AM, but know that it is very much given!]

:(( im sorry tumblr ate the ask. i dont know how much time y'all people spend on writing these asks but it still sucks no matter how fast theyre done. Is it possible for you to maybe like copy paste them into a notes app or something before sending them so theyre saved even if tumblr eats them? or like taking screenshots of them before sending them. i sure know that the moment i hit post i forget every word i've written hdfkjhdf so it might help? i dunno just brainstorming. Also thanks for the congrats! 🐹🧡

"And one snake goes here and one snakes goes there and a truckload of snakes fall into the river" Remus singsang while braiding Janus' hair.

Rowan had left for her flight this morning and Janus had come over soon after. They were laying on their back on the couch with their head leant in Remus' lap. Keeping his hands busy with their hair helped against the dissociation, though it wasn't nearly as bad as yesterday.

"HEllo!!! Demon!!!" Remus exclaimed when he saw the dark void like appearance filling the corners of the room "I love you too!!"

Janus gave you a wave "Greetings Gemon"

The shadows spread over the floor and weblike spirals grew onto the entrance door. A loud creak boomed as the door seemed to contort for just a second before going back to looking perfectly normal while the shadows returned to the corners. No Oswalds would ever be able to go through that door ever again.

Remus froze at the mention of the name. He stared blankly at the door. Janus quickly took his hand in theirs and massaged their thumb against his palm.

"Thanks Demon" They replied in his place.

He shook his head around and blinked over and over to focus "Sorry, zoned out a little. Thought about uhhh butt stuff" He blurted out.

Remus was actually sitting crosslegged on the couch and was turned towards his friend. So when you dropped the octopus near his feet it landed directly onto Janus' face.

He flailed around for a few seconds before the octopus turned into a squishy soft plushie. His face was still dripping with octopus liquid as Remus grinned down at him.

"How did it feel? I've always wanted to get suffocated by an octopus, ever since I saw Octopussy's octopus strangle a dude"

"I only understand half of those words" They replied while wiping their face. Remus helpfully rubbed his t-shirt against their cheeks "It felt...slimy"

"OHOHOHOH! Great!" He picked up the plushed octopus and hugged it "It feels so octopus like!! like a water bed! Oh I'm loving this duder"

The shadows near the walls started to move closer towards the exit as your message continued.

"We are still friends indeed!! Never worry about that!" He made grabby hands towards you "I would super love a hug!"

The shadows swallowed him and limbs somewhat resembling arms emerged to hug him. Janus tentativelys at up to see if he was welcome to join. A third limb emerged to pull him into the hug.

Before suddenly all the shadows all at once retreated once more and the last part of your message came out. Remus waved you goodbye.

"Good luck with the rescuing!! Salt helps to get rid of blood stains! Just so you know in case you gotta pummel some people!"

The shadows respectfully opened the entrance door, stepped out and closed it again. Right after you had left Remus turned to Janus and held up the new octopus plushie.

"Wanna go get your pet snake so we can test out how she reacts to different kinds of plushies??"

Janus squinted at him "That.....That does sound interesting. I'll ask Logan if he can get her, he loves this kind of experiment stuff"

"Like a nerd"

"Like a nerd yes"

[kachinnate]

,,,,okay i know i just said i wasn’t going to talk about the deh movie but actually yeah imma talk about it for just a sec bc y’all actually make me legitimately distressed sajkfndsmjkgds

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLQ_A0H1otc i dont have the braincells to do a shot by shot analysis right now but here’s what we’re lookin at

under a readmore because ghhhhhhh

firstly, let me lead with this: yes, from what we know, there’s a lot of things wrong with this movie. 

the worst, in my humble opinion, being the bts treatment of the (very few) actors of color, and the lack altogether of any production team members of color. that’s something that should be acknowledged, talked about, and fucking dug into especially at the current fucking period of time we’re living in. it’s unsurprising, but disgusting nonetheless, and it set this movie up for failure from the very beginning. i’m a white person so by no means so i feel inclined or like i have any authority in saying what one should feel wrt all of that, however i will say if there’s to be a boycott in not watching this movie, that should 100% be the reason why. it’s fully poc’s choice whether or not to forgive the production team or give this movie a chance for the irredeemable shit it did in regards to handling the movie’s production. the movie imo definitely doesn’t deserve their forgiveness, but again, that is not for me to say. 

there’s some little things too that i can’t fully think of off the top of my head - like, the whole making larry connor’s stepdad thing fucking irks me, for example, but, like...... listen.

if you know me like at all, you know my favorite word is nuance.

so, i’m going to say it outright: the way you people are approaching this three minute trailer shows literally.... none?? no nuance ??? is it no-nuance november over here or ???? like i’m begging you i’m BEGGING YOU to put aside your pre-determined prejudices against this movie and like stop pretending to be a renowned film critic for ten seconds because it’s really not as outright fucking abysmal as you are saying!! and also it’s possible to have opinions that aren’t completely fucking polarized to one side because guess what, the deh movie? a piece of media! what is the shit y’all are constantly preaching about having the ability to consume media critically ? because you’re trying to cancel a fucking trailer based on the contents of the trailer alone !!!!! hello !!!!!!!!

media is bound to be problematic. if y’all were as quick to judge any movie as you did this one, guess what you wouldn’t be watching any movies like ever <3 

anyway lets get into the parts that are probably going to get me cancelled lmao 

ben platt - listen. LISTEN. listen i know he’s too old to be reprising evan we ALL know he’s too old to be reprising evan i’ve heard this same argument since the announcement was made we get it we all know. haha he’s a grandpa yes bestie ur so right ur so funny wow. i do agree that we should’ve maybe had a not-ben-platt evan moment but here’s some things to keep in mind: the arguments of “oooh ABF is right there !!!!!!” 1. who’s to say he was available? 2. the environment of a movie is so, SO much different than that of a musical -- as much as you wanna pretend you know everything from just a trailer, there’s no way of knowing what scenes were added that might’ve made the movie like.. idk possibly more intense story-wise not even COUNTING the fact that just inherently a movie set is different than a musical one? like yes ben platt might be just being used as a device but that’s probably not the sole and only reason. Also, if i see One (1) more comment about his FUCKING HAIR 😃 first of all it’s not that deep like... if you’re so distracted by an actor having their hair different that’s on you, but going as far as to call it bad or distracting or being like Vehemently a way about it? y’all i know it’s most likely not your intention but that is literally just ben platt’s natural fuckin ETHNICALLY JEWISH hair sajknfgkjds!!!! i’m not the first to make this point, but like dsjnfkjdsg!??! y’all are being so mean about it and for WHAT? again, maybe not intentional, but it reads as like high key Very antisemetic and you should.... maybe not 😳 be that way

connor. the thing about a trailer is that they don’t show you all the scenes because they want you to come see the movie. right? can we agree on that? all the connor scenes in the trailer had SEVERAL hard cuts, omitting a lot of the scene -- like the computer lab scene! we see the beginning of it, there’s a VERY obvious hard cut, and then he’s running out! in my opinion my first watch through of this trailer i had a very like “:// hmm all these actors feel a lil like dry”, but man oh man the comments ive seen about connor. holy shit guys. this boy gets 7 minutes of stage time in the actual musical, and the whole thing is we DON’T KNOW VERY MUCH ABOUT HIM. not to burst your bubble, and i by no means hate connor, i love me some good connor lives fics and stuff, but everything we write with connor being alive? that is !! speculation on our part !!!! those are headcanons and us using the little context we have!! connor doesn’t have any significant development IN THE SOURCE MATERIAL that is being adapted into a movie !!! you 1. can’t fully judge a character with already limited screentime in a 3 minute trailer, 2. can’t really call what connor has canonically in the musical as in depth character development !! what is his arc then !!!! he pushes evan, goes to the computer lab, has an outcast loner kid moment, gets upset, takes the letter, DIES. sorry stans, that’s just how it is !! and, AND, everything in between, all the idiosyncracies, that depends on the actor playing connor! speaking of, you know who the actor is playing connor in the movie? that’s right, colton ryan! so, i don’t know, maybe... have some trust in the process, in an actor who ALREADY has played connor on broadway???? and also trust that you will get more connor content then u are seeing from a 3 minute trailer!! dhgnijsdg and some of the comments on like his appearance specifically? like are you really made that he doesn’t have long hair?? they kept his nails and his rings but nahhh the hair was apparently a MUST HAVE (even though like.. not all connor actors on broadway always had/have long hair but w/e).. REGARDLESS. tldr on THAT , the movie would have to do a pretty shitty job if they want to take something from someone who doesn’t have much to begin with and i think y’all are being extremely harsh on this point 

jared. honestly i’m a bit worried too about the like... name change, because it does have the potential to be taking out some representation, but... they did change the name to fit the actor’s ethnicity? it’s a really [hmm] topic because, again, from a trailer and from what we have been told we don’t KNOW a lot of the context, but i think it’s important to remember that uh.. jewish people aren’t just? always white ?? there’s a possibility they changed the last name to fit with the [ethnicity] while keeping him jewish?? ofc there’s the possibility that they Didn’t and ... again hm that’s its own thing altogether but just reiterates the point that you can’t knock a whole movie just based on the trailer. you can’t talk about things you know nothing about. 

alana. same thing as before, you can’t.... completely bash a character based on a 3 minute trailer. there was discussion about how she seemed ‘shy’ when talking to evan, which like.. maybe she is but also that scene was them talking in a library like if u actually take notice of what’s happening in the scene jdskngsd though i do share the general consensus with many others that she won’t get a lot of screen-time but that’s neither here nor there 😔 moving on

scenes and the setting. one of the things i was most like.. tentative about in regards to a switch from a musical to a movie was how they were like... going to do certain scenes? naturally, a lot has to be different when we’re going from a minimal stage set to an entire movie with like.. settings. there are going to be new scenes because a movie lends to have like, physical places that aren’t just [evan’s bedroom] and [murphy kitchen] and [implied school]. so new scenes, new conversations, slightly different pacing.. this is all to be expected right like are y’all geneuinely surprised here or ........

there’s a lot we aren’t seeing yet because this is a TRAILER. again i already mentioned this re: connor but like... again, y’all are making some Claims that just... fucking outlandish. there are so many moments in the trailer that are very obvious Hard Cuts. you don’t have all the information yet. you are angry at a tiny fragment of something that is confusing you because you don’t have all the context. is there a chance that some of this shit is just genuinely Bad? yeah but you really cannot 100000% say it with your chest and gauge it without seeing the movie and understanding what that scene is in context. lowkey uhhh saw some jokes about the zoe scene in the car and :’))) ? jesus? christ????

concluding thoughts because my brain hurts but like. you don’t have to like the movie. you don’t have to WATCH the movie. like all media if you choose to consume the movie you should do so with some CRITICAL THOUGHT. but, just like the novel (and i do not want to have any discussions about that i don’t care if you think it’s good Or bad that’s not what this is about) you guys are going in this WANTING to believe it’s bad and completely polarizing your thoughts on what this is going to be. yeah, maybe there shouldn’t be a movie. i genuinely think we could’ve gone without. but it’s just a piece of media, it’s not a progression like all your (musical is good, novel is bad, MOVIE IS WORSE OH NO) posts are suggesting. they are all just. different pieces of media stemming from a source. at the end of the day it’s just a fucking movie. if you already hate it so much, guess what? you don’t have to watch it! you don’t have to put so much needless fucking hate into a 3 MINUTE TRAILER. you can stop being performative and dissing it for its poor treatment of POC while then going on to make fun of ben platt’s hair and just targeting a different group like! please !!!

i’m not trying to be a fuckin’ advocate for this movie because there’s so much opportunity for it to suck, i do Not have high hopes for it, and i’m not even really sure i want to watch it (i bought the novel when it came out and have yet to read it, and i’m sure the movie will like.. elicit very similar vibes from me lsdngjkdsg like im just not uhhh feeling it) but y’know what? watching the trailer did not bring forth the fucking onslaught of hatred in me that apparently has fuckin posessed all of y’all and like djnsgjksdg plagued my dashboard for this whole evening. don’t come into my inbox trying to like.. argue with me about this (preemptively im turning off anon because i like i Can’t lmao) this is just like... a rant i needed to get out of me real quick. 

SO. tldr for now: have critical thought about shit you consume, there’s no ethical consumption under [the film industry], you can’t judge a movie entirely on its trailer, and y’all need to calm the fuck down 

[the-fiction-witch]

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I pulled back gasping for breath intesely, holding the fabric of his shirt, he gasped too resting his head on my my own "fuck… I wish we could do more then kiss princess" 

"Well why not?"

"Ummmm I would believe me my princess, I would. But it's not secure enough here and… not enough privacy. Don't want one of your classmates finding out, they might get jealous" he smirked "Tonight, once you've finished your classes I'll take us out okay?"

"Okay" I smiled jumping off the desk 

"That's my girl" he smirked going to his desk getting something and making some notes "here" he says handing me the post it note with a bunch of writing finishing packing his bag, 

"What's this?" I asked 

"My address, my landline, and mobile number, so you can get hold of me" he says throwing his bag over his shoulder "text me later so I have yours too" he smiled kissing my cheek "see you later princess" 

"See you Mr Sangster"

"Just Thomas princess." He laughs unlocking the door "name me something non suspicious in your phone" he says as he wondered off to whenever he next needed to be.

I smiled and headed down to the green area of campus where I found Matt on a bench "how did it go?"

"Well I snogged my teacher and now I have a date"

"Your kidding me? He was into you? After how many saves?"

"None first try. I have his address and phone number now"

"A million people could try that will a million teachers do you understand how lucky you got?"

"Kinda" I laughed "but I should probably go prep for my date" I giggled. 

I saved before I began my make up, in all honesty that's the most useful thing for this, fuck up lipstick just go back no worries, fuck up eye liner just go back, poke yourself in the eye with mascara go back and it never happened. As soon as I was done my prep with make up done and cute dress on I texted him, before I had even slipped on my shoes he texted back

'I'm outside and around the corner from the droms princess x'

Hu that was fast, I slipped my shoes on and my little jacket locking up and heading out following the path from the door to the street going past the student car park. The road was empty so I walked down a little and saw a nice vintage blue ish green car sat under a street light, well this doesn't feel sketchy at all. I headed over to the car and the window rolled down "hey princess" he smiled

"Hey Thomas" I smiled climbing in the car 

"You look so beautiful princess" he smirked clearly checking me out biting on his bottom lip not even trying to hide it. He had a rather nice silky black shirt with some pattern on I wasn't sure, a few buttons undone, a rather tight pair of blue almost suit pants, his hair clearly clean and fluffy as I'd he dried it a second ago, a silver watch in his left wrist that he now leant in the steering wheel "So… what does my princess wanna do tonight?" 

"I don't know… what do you wanna do?"

"Well we could go watch a movie? Or go out to dinner? Or… go back to my place?" 

"I would like some dinner, I haven't eaten yet"

"Yeah me neither, any idea where you wanna go?"

"I don't mind" I shrug 

"How about… we go get some take out and head down to the river and chill out in the back of the car?"

"Sure" I nodded 

He started up the car and headed off, you could cut the tension with a knife, the radio on low gently playing some old romantic tunes, the dark drive broken up only by Street lamps, his eyes often wondering from the road to me, I kept my eyes away not wanting to fuel the fire further even if I did want to, that and trying to act all innocent about my little shifts and putting my leg over the other to let my dress ride up, we got to a bunch of places and decided on fried chicken but the drive thru was a massive line so we parked up instead 

"Fuck it I can't wait any longer" he groans turning the engine off and grabbing my neck pulling me aggressively to kiss him, I was in shock surprised by his sudden movement, I kissed back running my hands along the soft silky shirt feeling his boney chest below, one hand of his sat on my neck and shoulder the other slipped down and was running along my tights tenderly across my thigh unbelievably egar, our kisses went in for what felt like hours slowly and rather intesely become making out I could feel people's eyes burning into is but I didn't care his lips where so soft, he tasted like coffee, dust and I could slightly taste a twang on his lips likely some sort of soap or perhaps aftershave that I couldn't name, I could smell his hair the sweet scent of coconut emminating, his clothes smelt like lavender laundry softener and skin smelt so strongly of that like tropical palm tree, pinanble esc body way. I pulled back and smirked at him barely an inch from his desperate face 

"I'm hungry" I smirked 

"Are you princess? He smirked back I couldn't help but giggle as my lipstick was all over his mouth "what?"

"You uhhh" I giggled he looked confused before looking at himself in the mirror 

"Oh." He laughs

"I'm sorry" 

"Don't worry princess, I'm sure I'll end up with your lipstick all over me sooner or later" he smirked cleaning it off as best he could "right, dinner?"

"Yeah" I nodded he got out first so I opened my door but before I could climb out he offered a hand so I happily took it and he shut the door for me and we headed inside going to the little screen 

"You get yourself whatever you want princess, I'll be back in a sec" he says kissing my cheek before he went off I assume to the bathroom to wash the rest of the lipstick off his face so I logical got some stuff but not too much and soon enough he returned and for some things for himself "we all done?" He asks and I nodded "good girl, so we going do to the river sit in the back and… have a snuggle or do you wanna get back to my place" he asks as he paid 

"Well that depends"

"On?" 

"On lots of things" I smiled "I mean it's already getting late and dark out, don't wanna be too late." I cooed resting my hands on his chest 

"Umm well, you can always… stay over at my place princess? Your more then welcome." He smirked wrapping his arms around me pulling me tighly to his chest 

"I could?"

"Of course you can" he smiled kissing my nose then our food came I took it and we headed back to the car "so… river or my place princess?" he smirked resting a hand on my leg 

"River" I smirked 

"River it is then princess" he smirked he seemed more wound up with my answer like he very much wanted to take me back to his place obviously where she was suggesting it so much he clearly wanted me at his, in his bed but I was going to make him work for it. 

Once we got to the dark quiet river bank we went to the back of the car and got cosy with our jackets and such eating our food 

"So? How long has you been into me before I kissed you?" I asked as I ate 

"First day princess, I thought you where adorable" he winked 

"Scandalous, crush on one of your students" I smirked 

"Oh come on I'm not doing anything wrong your over eighteen" he shrugs "okay yeah if my boss found out I'd probably get shit for it and maybe I'd get fired but… your worth it princess" he smirked "how long had you liked me before you kissed me?" 

I simply blushed not wanting to admit it 

"No come on I told you" he laughs

"First lesson," I admit and he smiled at me "what! you walk around in those tight jeans with your sleaves rolled up you look hot" 

"Do I now?" He smirked "hang on did you not know I was into you?"

"No" I answered "did you know?"

"Eh… sort of I thought you might have liked me. But I get that vibe from most girls" 

*Yeah because if the tight jeans, rolled sleaves and dreamy voice" 

"Awww am I dreamy princess?"

"You know what I mean"

"I know, I thought you might have but I didn't Wanna do anything incase I was wrong. I have been hinting for like the last year y/n"

"Have you?"

"You haven't noticed?"

"Not really no"

"Where you not questioning why, when you never do work in class, barely do the homework and haven't done any coursework on time… you didn't at all question how the fuck you where still getting A's?"

"I'm getting A's?"

"Y/n your top of the class. Third in the whole department" he laughs

"How when you just admitted I don't do anything?"

"Because…"

"Because what?"

"Because… I grade you on a curve" he shrugs 

"What curve?"

"The I let you get away with more because I like you curve" he laughs 

"I must be very nice then, fixing my grades and I didn't even offer to suck your dick" I giggled

"Yeah that was really weird. Like infront of everyone as well"

"What did happen with that anyway?"

"Nothing, she dropped out not long after because I refused to change her grades, and I didn't want my dick sucked" 

"Should have taken it"

"Why would I want slutty little mandy sucking my dick? She fucked half the football team even the teachers know that"  he laughs "besides I had my eyes on a different pretty girl at the back of my class" he smiled giving me a kiss as we finished up 

"Do you actually like me?"

"I actually like you, I think your adorable, and your smart even if you rarely use it, I really like you y/n, and… I'm happy to take you on some nice dates until your happy then maybe we can, be a little secret couple, but secret so I don't get in trouble" he explained "if that's what you want?"

"I'd like that Thomas" I smiled hugging him tightly nuzzling into his chest 

"I'd like that too princess" he smiled kissing my head "and… about sex? We'll take it as slow or as fast as you want." He explained 

"You don't mind… waiting?"

"Not at all princess, I'll happily wait till your comfortable with me. Princess I've liked you for over a year I can wait a couple of weeks now to get to Have fun with you"

"Thomas?" I asked 

"Yes princess?"

"Have you ever… dreamt about me?" I asked playing with his shirt 

"I have, why? you ever dreamt about me princess?"

"Lots of times" I giggled "have you ever… thought about me when your. You know?"

"When I'm what princess?" He smirked his hand slipping down to my butt taking a soft grip of me 

"You know what I mean" I smirk gently running my hand teasingly across his crotch

"Oohh? Do you mean to say? Do I think about you when I jerk off?" He smirked and I nodded still gently moving my hand palming his pants "umm, of course I do princess. All the time" 

"When was the last one?" I asked kissing up his neck he groaned leaning against the car his head on the window already I could feel a stiffness making itself known in his blue pants 

"Uhh the last one?" He asks 

"The last time you thought about me?"

"Well… that will have to have been this morning"

"This morning?" I giggled

"Umm Humm.." he groaned "I woke up with a hard on, I knew I would see you today in class so… I couldn't stop thinking about you, but that only got me harder. Knowing I would see you so I rubbed one out before I got out of bed, thinking of my pretty princess" 

"What did you think about?" I asked starting to suck leaving hikis on his neck not purposely rubbing on his erection 

"Umm my princess, in her little blue dress, stood over my bed stripping for me, and then taking over from my and a while and then… sucking me off"

"Umm then what happened?"

"I had cum by then princess" he smirked grinding against my hand "what about my little princess? Have you… thought about me like that?"

"I have" I giggled blushing hard 

"Oh? Well I told you mine how about you tell me yours" he smirked groping my butt 

"Well I was all alone in my room, and it was all dark and cold, I couldn't sleep so I thought I would just have a play and I imagined you had come to see me about a test and-"

"And princess?" He asks clearly already into this 

"And then you bent me over my bed and spanked me, before raw fucking me still bent over, " I whispered

"Ohh fuck! Umm that sounds sexy princess. Do you want me to spank you princess?" He smirked slapping my butt hard 

"Maybe" I giggled

"How about we head to my place and… we can live out some nice fantasies?" He suggested

"Maybe, but I wanna help you out" I smirked slipping my hand under his pants to gently touch him though only his underwear

"Help me- ohhh princess. You don't have to? We can save that for when we get to mine"

"Well I want to now" I smirked undoing his pants 

"Well of you really want to princess" he smirked I giggled tugging down his boxers revealing his hard, throbbing, vains running up his seven inch shaft 

"Impressive Mr Sangster" I giggled innocently 

"Just uhh I haven't uhh had any attention from… not my own hand for a while now. So I uhh I might not last long"

"When was the last time someone else took care of you?" I asked 

"A year and a half ago" 

"Ohh"

"Yeah"

"It's okay, so long as he'll get excited again when we get back?"

"I'll always get excited for you princess" he smirked "come on princess… please. Master needs you" ...

[palmett-hoes]

Hi, I really loved your post with the monsters as Birds of Prey! Was wondering if you had any thoughts on the Foxes as Marvel or Mcu characters? I feel like I could see Dan as Carol Danvers and Andrew for sure is Jessica Jones, idk about the rest.

oh wow old post!!

haha unfortunately i’m not really a comics person so i don’t feel like i can really give the best analysis possible, but i have seen most of the mcu movies and bits and pieces of the netflix show so i’ll try my best. also im using dc characters too bc i want to

1. Dan: I think your instinct with Dan as Captain Marvel is spot-on (at least uhhh,, based on the movie lol sorry comics ppl). Her direct, forceful powers and fighting style are definitely reminiscent of dan’s no-nonsense leadership approach. similarly the themes of overcoming sexism and acceling in a male-dominated industry in the captain marvel movie is pretty much the same as dan’s story establishing herself as the first female exy captain (tho sports is way more valid than the military). plus there’s a lot of emphasis on love and friendship between women that dan is ALL about. also lashana lynch would be a god tier dan wilds fc. Dan could also def have that lawful good Okoye from Black Panther energy. Loyal, disciplined, no-nonsense leader. no powers except discipline. no hair. also danai gurira in 2012 with the dreads and the sword and the cape on TWD was definitely part of my middle school sexual awakening

2. Kevin: Aquaman. this is based pretty much exclusively on the fact that jason momoa is my #1 kevin fc and also that Pasifika kevin is phenomenal and mandatory, actually. otherwise i think he has a decent amount of stick-up-the-ass cyclops energy. or dick grayson nightwing energy but i don’t have any evidence for why. kinda looks like him tho

3. Andrew: andrew gets the most characters bc he’s my favorite. i think ur jessica jones instincts are absolutely correct, both in her storyline (i only watched the first season) and her powers. i’ve seen some powers au and the tendency seems to be giving andrew like,, psychic powers or the like, and i don’t really agree. andrew is a very direct character. he’s pragmatic, he confronts problems head on, and he doesn’t muck about in details. to me this really translates best into physical powers like super strength that help u big punch straight thru all ur problems. also i def think andrew would be not just a solo hero but a mercenary (or a detective) because he’s not altruistic enough to be a standard vigilante. he doesn’t care enough about other people to hang out on rooftops all night waiting for Crime to occur. there’s a price for that.  which brings us to the NEXT andrew hero: deadpool. maybe in personality more of a drugged andrew but the superpowered mercenary is really a perfect fit for andrew. also, healing powers have a decidedly tragic poetry to them on andrew. already he’s self-destructive, if he had a healing factor his concern for his own well-being would be so beyond rock bottom it’d be in the earth’s core. even worse when you remember that with a healing factor, as opposed to indestructibility, you still feel all the pain. which brings us to Wolverine and X-23, who have the same thematic points as deadpool but are much more of a personality match and they have knife hands, which i really think andrew would appreciate. ending that sadness train and onto another tho, andrew’s aesthetic and Vibes fit the Winter Soldier just SO well (just that movie tho, not really civil war or anything past that) and a reinterpretation of the captain america story using the twinyards would be incredibly interesting. and finally, one last hero that would work really well for andrew: rogue, only remove the angst around not being able to touch people, andrew would love that. one touch and their comatose? baller. don't fucking touch him.

4. Matt: Shazam. I didn’t see the shazam movie but my dad and brother did and they said it was very funny and all the trailors looked like it had a lot of fun himbo energy and i really think that fits. in terms of matching himbo disaster energy i think i’ve heard good things about comics hawkeye (not mcu). thor?

5. Aaron: Mr. Fantastic. now this might be a stretch but aaron is a character who uses a skin-deep veneer of anger to cover the fact that he’s actually quite pliant and bends to other people’s wills. and he’s a doctor or w/e. he could alse be like,, antman. he’s smart right? hank pym not paul rudd. katelyn can be wasp

6. Seth: Arm Fall Off Boy. no i will not elaborate.             ..... ugh fine, but i'm using my favorite piece of superhero media of all time: x-men evolution, the one where they're all teenagers in public high school. seth can be lance alvers/avalanche who’s a bit of a jerk and has a lot of issues with authority and has a rivalry with cyclops very reminiscent of seth with kevin, but still there’s the recurring theme that he’s lashing out because of low self-esteem and a bad situation and he’s a surprisingly sympathetic character who i’m very fond of. his power is earthquakes but i think the name makes that pretty self-explanatory

7. Allison: Iron Man. cocky, bitchy, and rich rich rich. sounds like allison to me. then to elevate it a level higher: emma frost, rich bitch extraordinaire. also if allison had telepathic powers she would be unstoppable. plus one more bitchy, morally-gray blonde (but chaotic this time): Harley Quinn

8. Nicky: Okay so I do wanna give a quick shout-out to Northstar, the first openly gay comicbook superhero, who’s a speedster which I’d actually say fits Nicky pretty well. However, if i had to choose a superhero to represent nicky in presence and powers it would have to be Jubilee from x-men (... from what i’ve heard lol. i’ve never actually consumed any of her Media hahaha anyway) she’s a joyful, energetic presence and her powers are setting off fireworks which i think is a good balance of nicky being a supportive cousin-parent AND a chaotic train wreck garbage trash man. also gonna throw in johnny storm for a cheap 'flaming' joke

9. Renee: Thunder/Blackbird from Black Lightning bc she’s a fufkin lesbian lol. (i don’t watch the show but i do follow nafessa williams’s tag). now the fr ones i’m gonna do together because to me they have the same Vibes so i chose them for the same reasons. Wonder Woman and Storm who to me have the same  reserved, impartial, regal energy. honestly ethereal and somewhat otherwordly, and quite literally goddesses. also op as hell.  black widow and her “red in my leger” looking for redemption story also fits thematically.

10. Neil: okay lazy answer first: the flash or quicksilver. get it? because they run fast? and neil run too? yea i like to think i've proven myself to be better than such a surface level interpretation but worth the mention ig. so for srs now, mystique and her shape changing powers would be an interesting interpretation of neil's identity issues, but i wanna push it a step further. nightcrawler would actually be possibly the MOST interesting hero to apply to neil 1. because powers still very movement go fast place to place 2. because of the thematic focus on neil's unusual looks and the lengths he goes to hide them, very much in line with the way nightcrawler will use a hologram-projector in order to look human, yet in both cases it's only a surface-level illusion, and 3. his parentage. here, mary would be mystique, which i also think works very well considering mary seemed to be the far more effective chameleon on the run than neil, and also fits with her place as a morally grey character, as mystique herself is often a villain or an antagonist, with her own agenda and shadowy motives. then nathan matches well with nightcrawler's father: azazel, a literal demon, and also where kurt gets his appearance. it's a shockingly coherent narrative between the three of them. then, to also give neil some powers that aren't contingent on his fucked up geneology and rather on his own merit and abilities, Black Canary and her sonic voice parallel the way that neil began to anchor his identity and take ownership over himself through his voice and his sick roasts

and 1 extra, wymack: batman, on account of his altruism, his dedication to second chances, and his many, many adopted children

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anon, ik it's been a sec since you sent this, so i hope it gets back to you. i had a fun time with it and it prompted like,,, 7 different au s that i'll never write

[lilac-sweet-giggles]

Just a Kiss, Or Else... (BakuDeku Fic)

Description: Bakugo just wants to get a kiss from Midoriya, but when the bean is hesitant about it Bakugo swoops in to encourage the other...

WARNING!!!: This Fic contains slight spoilers from the manga, read with caution if you dare!! It also contains some lee!deku and a Ler!Bakugo. This is my first time posting any sort of writing on here, so I wouldn’t mind some feedback on how I can improve TwT

(ft. the help of the lovely @gotmeringinghellsbells​ )

Word count: 1077

Ever since Deku started to float, Bakugo was more cautious on getting both ahead of Deku and keeping an eye on him for any clumsy accidents he might make. Yeah he’s gonna be #1, but for now he’s gotta keep an eye on the chosen one. Right now, it was a relationship he didn’t expect himself to be in, yes they were dating but it was nothing too much.

"I want to kiss you-" well that was so forward, Bakugo and Deku were both on a small break from studying and Bakugo was just so drawn from the Deku freckles and lips.

"Oh?" Bakugo crawls over to the other on the floor and goes in to kiss him, "Uh, um....." Deku puts his hands on the other's chest and looked to the side, blush present, "What is it?" Bakugo asked as he pulls back, he combs at the green locks as deku leans into the hand.

He just seemed so open to cuddles and nuzzles, but not kisses, "Oh um, sorry, I'm just still new to....us....." uhhh Huh, Bakugo sighs and just takes his hand back from the bean, "It's been a month already. You can't keep rejecting forever...you go for these damn nuzzles and cuddles you damn rabbit." Deku snorts at the last part and shoves at the blonde.

"Hmp, Ok, lets try again." They tried about 2-3 times, but the nerd kept pulling back, why though?

"Just, nervous, Kacchan." The other signed before gently kissing his cheek. His face was red, he was as flustered as Deku. But why couldn't Deku do this?

That’s when Bakugo had an idea, "We're gonna change that; You try to kiss me." he brought the other over to him and places him on his lap, holding him in place.

"See what happens when you pull back." oh dear, sounds like a threat from Kacchan. Deku tried to take this as a challenge.

He leans in and tried to pucker his lips up to try and connect to the other lips, but with the sudden breath from Bakugo it caused Deku to pull back. Bakugou smirked before hands started to knead at Deku's hips. Green eyes widened before the smaller burst into giggles,"K-Kachan!"

“What did I say?” The blonde asked in a teasing growl.

“K-Kahahacchan no no! Stohop!” His little hiccups hitched until he covers his mouth with his hands, “We’ll get you to come out of your damn shell-“ he props Deku up again and watched him recover, “Now, try again, just a kiss.” Bakugo teases. Deku just imagined it, the tickles, they could be worse!!

He leans in once more but pauses, wait a sec, Deku wasn’t dumb. What if he gets tickled after even kissing him??

He stood there for more than a second and didn’t lean in nor out, “Make your choice nerd~” his hand was resting on Deku’s cheek, feeling the warm red face cupped in his calloused hands.

“Mmmmm, I can’t! I can’t!” He tried to get out of his arms but all he did was wiggle like a lil worm

“Hehe, let me out let me out!!” And Deku leans in to hide his face into Bakugo’s shoulder. Bakugou smirked, laughing a bit from disbelief. "It's just a kiss! You kiss icy hot's cat on the head all the time. Just kiss me." Deku shook his head.

“Unless you /want/ to be tickled.”

“H-Huh? No!” Pfffff it seemed like Deku did.

“Hm, then kiss me.“ his fingers wiggled on his ribs and it made Deku go crazy

After Bakugo pauses again, for a 5th time, Deku took a deep breath, staring at the other with his blush still present. His hands rested on Bakugo’s cheeks like how Baku rests his hands on the bean. Closes his eyes shut and just went in to peck the lips, surprising Bakugo and feeling a raspberry, “EEEEK-!!” Deku finally falls back and covers his stinging raspberry attacked lips, but it felt nice....

Bakugo bends over to face the boy laying on the black carpet floor of Bakugo’s room, “I want more.....kisses.....”

“Well nerd, kiss me then.” And that’s what he did, the second kiss was still a bit shaky but Deku got the taste a bit better

And it was a little longer, and he possibly fell into a little kiss trans. They pulled back again and Bakugo saw the boy light up in the eyes...

“Another?” Bakugo asked

Deku nods softly and smiles, god he was adorable. The two leaned in at the same time until they met in the middle, Bakugo feeling the nerd’s cheek and Deku clutching to the shirt material on Bakugo’s chest softly. the blonde smirked before peppering kisses all over his face, Deku and him taking turns. "Tihihihickles," the smaller cracked up as freckles were covered in soft love, "So you do want to be tickled."

“Hehe nooooooooooo.” Bakugo didn’t budge as he rested his chin on Deku’s chest, scratching under his chin, resulting in Deku kicking his legs as if he was a rabbit or dog,“Hm,Damn rabbit.”

He moved Deku back onto the bed before digging in under his arms.

"Whahahait no! eek!" Bakugou smirked before kissing over the other's neck and freckles. The arms wrapped around Bakugo’s neck, giggling his little head out

Then Deku goes an hesitantly kiss his neck too causing Bakugo to chuckles from the soft gesture, “Back to studying.” the bab pouts, but they must continue back to working.

“Can I stay sitting in your lap? While we study?” Deku asked as he sat up himself, Bakugo sits up and shrugs, arms out to the nerd, “Whatever.”

Deku smiles and scoots to the blonde, both reaching to the ground to get their books and bring them back up to the bed.

Bakugo brought Deku to his lap again; back against his chest and got their books to their laps. Moments that Deku got some problems right, he got some sweet gentle neck and cheek kisses, but if he was wrong he would go down the Denki idea and tickle Deku. Slowly, the two became tired from the game, well, mainly Deku . He laid back on Bakugou's bed before the other pulled him in close for cuddles. Slowly, the two drifted asleep.... after one last kiss.

Deku's small smile and blush was the last thing Bakugou would see until he was bedhead sleepy faced in the morning.

[tireddork-knight]

Luck

Hello to anyone reading this! This is the first time I’m actually posting one of my writings. It’s not perfect especially since I kept on changing the story maybe 5 times but I tried my best! This is for @geekandbooknerd​ ‘s 1K celebration. Sorry it took me so long to finish, it’s been years since I actually wrote anything but this was a lot of fun to write so thank you for giving me the chance to do this. I apologize if it seems rushed.

(Y/N)- your name, (r/c)- random color, (Y/T/N)- your thief name

Warnings: none that I can think of maybe a slight bit of steam at the end. I tried keeping it pure

I am thinking of making this a short series. I do not own Spider-man just the original characters that are named in here (TM, V and Cherry).

Anyways, ENJOY!!!

“You should do the job they said. It’ll be easier for you, they said!” I whisper yelled to myself. Squatting behind a statue I waited for the security guard to pass the hallway. Why did I agree to be the one to do this. Looking down at my watch I cursed under my breath knowing that time was flying by the longer I waited. Carefully looking up to see where the guard was I felt a breath of relief escape me as I watched him leave.

Slowly getting up and moving towards the exhibit's entrance I double check that I’m alone. Scanning the floor-way I find the object of my mission, The Gem of a Lost Civilization, in the center of the floor. I feel my jaw drop just looking at it. Knowing I only have a handful of minutes before the guard comes back I make my way to it. Avoiding the cameras in the room. I try to think back on what TM had said about the security for this.

~“Security is gonna be airtight. And I mean like no escaping Azkaban airtight-” TM began.

“Didn’t Sirius Black escape Azkaban?” Cherry asked interrupting TM, seeing the look on everyone’s faces she flushed, “sorry”.

“As I was saying it’s gonna be airtight, I mean round the clock guards, cameras monitoring every space available and last but not least.. lasers” they said with an excited look on their face. 

A groan of annoyance resounded in our small group.

“Like lasers that’ll cut us or just alarm ones?”, I asked .

“Uhhh unfortunately that info is not on here no wait. They're alarm types...just sort of... invisible” TM looked up and down from his laptop to us.

“Can we get an example of how they're set up and if it goes off how much time before the guards are alerted?” V asked.

“Yes and you’ll have about 30 secs before they're on you” they answered back.

“Alright we know what to expect, we’ll just prepare for everything we can. All that matters right now is getting that rock back to its rightful home”, I said, “Now how do we want to choose who does this.”~

Shaking my head I remind myself to focus. Setting a timer for 3 minutes I use the limited shadows due to the moon's illumination from the skylight. Stopping about 10 ft. from the glass case a prop holding up a (r/c) gem the size of my hand. Taking a deep breath and close my eyes calming my nerves I begin to move the way we had practiced on where the lasers had been positioned.

Feeling myself get closer to the case I open my eyes, stopping just before I hit it. Seeing a shadow pass over the skylight I freeze. When nothing happens I brush it off as birds flying overhead. Trying to keep my nerves calm I begin to open the glass case  trying not to sound the alarms. Once it’s open I hurry up and put it in my satchel. As soon as I’m done I carefully begin to retrace my steps.

Getting out of the museum is easier than having to break in or that's what I thought. Half way down the block I feel myself being pulled up and in the blink of an eye I’m on the roof of an apartment. Turning to run I feel my hand become stuck to the rooftops wall behind me. 

“Well look at what the cat dragged out”, a sarcastic voice quipped above me. “A thief how original.” He jumped down from the ledge of the adjoining building on to the rooftop I was on. Rolling my eyes I shook my head at him.

“Well aren’t I lucky enough to be in the presence of Spider-Man” I replied back slowly moving my pocket knife I kept out of my jacket and onto my hand.

“Don’t you know any better than to go around stealing or did you not learn your lesson from the last time, (Y/T/N).” he said stepping closer to me, head cocked to the side. His whole stance mocked disappointment.

“If I can recall correctly I think I was able to escape last time”. I said smiling, feeling the web give way. Tilting my head up to look at him I batted my eyes at him, the domino mask covering most of my face besides my eyes and mouth.

In the distance I could hear the ringing of the museum alarms go off. Guess the guards had noticed the case was missing an important piece. 

“You got lucky. That’s not gonna happen again.” He said, his face in front of me as he reached to grab my satchel with the gem in it.

“You sure about that?” I purred finally getting my hand free of the web.

“ I mean, yeah, I have you cornered and there’s no way you can get out of my webs- hey wait-” he yelled at me finally noticing what I was doing. 

Too bad I couldn’t hear him finish as I rushed out of his webs and jumped off the rooftop tumbling onto the next, beginning a chase of cat and mouse. Jumping from rooftop to rooftop I can hear the police cars heading towards the museum. Looking behind me I can see Spider-Man right on my tail swinging between the buildings. Smiling and laughing I start teasing him as I continue running.

Getting too cocky I realize too late that he caught up to me when I’m suddenly grabbed from behind struggling to get out of his grip I become irritated at how strong he is. When I notice that he’s beginning to take us back to the museum, I panic. Using my whole body weight I finally break free unfortunately I begin to free fall. Seeing a terrace coming closer and closer to my face I brace for a very painful impact.

Suddenly his body covers my own and I hold onto his arms as we make contact with the roof. Tumbling and rolling onto the floor of it our bodies become entangled with each other. Finally stopping I find myself on top of him. His arms around my waist my hands on his chest and behind his head. Lifting my head up I find myself looking at his eye lenses. Not being able to see his whole face I can feel my own flushing with heat as I hope I didn’t make eye contact with him. Biting  my lip I feel his body flex under mine trying to get up. Deciding to use this position to my advantage I slowly move myself up to have more of a hold on him.

“Look Spidey, I know you want me just as much as I want you, but we could get arrested for this.”, I tell him as I move my hands to push his chest down as he scoffs, but I can tell it’s forced. Leaning my face closer to him, my heart begins to race as I feel him tense under my hands, “And I know I don’t want our night to end in handcuffs, unless you’re into that kind of thing.”, I whisper into his ear.

Moving away from him smoothly and quickly I avoid his hands as he reaches out for me. He quickly follows in my footsteps, wanting to have a handle on this still I push my body up against his. Leading us to a wall I trace my hand over his chest memorizing the design on it. He places one hand on my waist the other stays next to a pipe. Adrenaline coursing through our bodies, most likely cause we almost died. Yet, there’s electricity between us I can feel it and I know he does too. At least I hope to use it to my advantage right now.

“What do you think your doing?” he asks his tone softer than it was before.

Moving my other hand up I place it on his neck and pull his face closer to my own. Looking him up and down I can feel his eyes on me anticipating what i’m gonna do next. I can’t believe I’m even doing this. I take a deep breath to calm myself knowing I can’t get excited like this. Our foreheads our touching and as I can feel him moving me closer to him, I break away.

Backing away from him I smile at him as he moves to catch me only to be pulled back to the wall. Watching him look at his hand and realize that it was tied to the pipe he turned back at me.

“What-how did--” he splutters.

“Sorry Spidey I’d love to stay and continue what we were doing but I have places to be.”, I told him as I hopped onto the ledge, “ Don’t worry I’m sure we can continue this another time preferably without the costumes”. I winked at him. Hearing him stutter and trip over his own tongue, most likely to make a witty comeback I jumped down. 

~

When I was a good distance away in a dead end alley and had changed out of my costume I made sure I had the gem still on me. Breathing out a sigh of relief once i realized it was still on me I smiled to myself. Seeing a car pull up in front of the entrance of the alleyway I made sure to be ready for anything or anyone. The window rolled down and I watched as Cherry’s head popped out and I chuckled at the concerned and excited look on her face.

“Yo (Y/N) you got it?” she asked, giving a nod of confirmation I walked to the car and got in. “ Man you sure are lucky that you didn’t get caught”.

Zoning out as she began to ramble about how crazy everything had been once the alarms had gone off and how worried everyone had been. I kept my face turned towards the window watching as everything flew by us. Remembering the events of tonight and how close I had been to him I felt my heart skip a beat.

“Yeah I did get pretty Lucky” I said as I watched a familiar red and blue figure swing from building to building.

[chuckepisodes]

Chuck vs. The Beefcake Part 4

"Sarah. Sarah.  We saw it. We know what's on the chip." you told Sarah. " What?" You and Chuck looked over at Cole, wondering if it would be okay to tell her exactly what you saw. " Uh, sorry, mates, it's a bit difficult to put my fingers in my ears right now." Cole told you both. " It's okay, guys." Sarah assured you both. " I'm on it. It's me." Chuck told her. "Okay, we can't let FULCRUM ever find out. No matter what they do to you, you two cannot tell them." Sarah told you both. "I can't... I can't handle torture, Sarah. You see all those syringes over there? You know how I feel about needles." Chuck told her, freaking out. "Yeah I'm the same when it comes to needles to be honest..." you said, looking down. " Don't worry about torture. I'll incite them. Get them to kill us quick." Cole told you all. " Interesting plan." Chuck said, confusion on his face. "Okay, we just have to hold out until Casey gets here. Until then, if the pain becomes unbearable, Chuck, just pass out." Sarah said. " How?" " Scare yourself." "Shouldn't be too hard." "What about me?" you asked. "Y/N, no offence to your boyfriend but I feel like you are a little bit stronger than he is." Cole said. "Aww thanks." Chuck looked at you. "Sorry honey." you said, giving him a little smile.

"Glad to see you're all in such a chatty mood. " the woman Fulcrum agent said, walking in. "The identity of the Intersect is on that chip." She then grabbed a huge sword and had it pointed at Chuck first. " So who wants to tell me first?"

"Stop it. Stop it. I can't take it anymore. No more torture." Chuck cried out. " She's torturing me, idiot." Cole said as he was chained to a post, the Fulcrum agent whipping his back. " Tell me who the Intersect is, Cole...and the pain can end." " Sarah, I can't let them do this. She's going to kill him." Chuck said, looking over at Sarah. You and Chuck were chained to chairs while Sarah was cuffed and sitting on a stair case. "No, Chuck, no, just keep your mouth shut." "Look Sarah I don't want to put Chuck in danger but-" "No Y/N!" Sarah warned. " Enough, enough, can't you see he's never going to talk?" You yelled out. "Everybody talks." She said as she walked away. "Cole knows that." She then grabbed a blow torch and walked back over to Cole. " Well, how about it? You ready to talk or should I turn up the heat?" "Look, I know what's on the chip. I watched it." Chuck yelled out. "No, Chuck, no!" Sarah shouted. You looked over at Chuck wondering if you should be shocked or proud. " It's me. I'm the one you're looking for." Chuck said. " You? All along it was you." She said as she walked over, putting the blow torch near his face. You began to get really nervous. "Wait!" you said. "Do you really think the CIA would put its entire database of secrets inside his head? He's a pathetic weakling. How could they send him on an assignment? How could he even withstand torture?" Cole called out. "It's true, he's just a computer and electronics technician-- a brave one, but he's not the Intersect." Sarah added. " Then who is?" " Me. I'm the Intersect." Cole said. You and Chuck looked over at Cole in shock. "No, he's not." Chuck argued. " It's me, okay, and I resent the fact that I couldn't stand up to torture. Do your worst. In fact, you could stick that incredibly long needle in my eye and I still wouldn't tell you anything." "Chuck..." you said, trying to stop him. " This needle?" the agent asked, grabbing the very large needle." You want me to put this needle... in your eye?" she asked as she got close to him and had the needle pointed at his eye. "Uh, uh, uh, you know, you know, you know, on, on, on second thought..." Chuck then fell backwards and passed out. "Okay, it's not him it's me." you said. "Y/N. No!" Sarah said. "You now?" the agent asked. "Oh for God's sake, it's not her either." Cole said.

A couple men then came up and poured a bucket of ice cold water on Chuck and he quickly woke up. "It's freezing! No, no, please, please, no more torture." Chuck cried out. "Enough. We will try... a different approach." the agent said as she approached you and Chuck." Tell me who the Intersect is by three... or I inject Agent Walker with enough ricin to kill an army. One, two..." "IT'S ME!" You, Chuck and Cole all cried out at the same time. All of a sudden, Casey and his team came barging in and you were all relieved.

Casey was trying take care of the female Fulcrum agent but she ended up just killing herself.

Later, a medic grabbed a pack of ice on Chuck's head as you and him were sitting down for a moment. "Thank you." Chuck said to the medic. "You okay babe?" you asked. "I'll be fine." Chuck said, smiling at you. You smiled back. "Here." you said, taking the pack from his hand and placing it on his head yourself. " What happened?" Casey asked as he walked over to both of you. " Well, I fainted and hit my head on the ground." " Real brave, Bartowski." " I fainted on purpose. That was my move." "You know he's terrified of needles." you added. " Oh, so your move was to faint and his was to endure torture?" Casey asked. " We have different methods." "Mm-hmm." You looked over and saw Sarah helping out Cole and you smiled a little. You kinda thought they would be cute. Even though Cole did annoy you a bit he was a good guy.

"Keep the ice on that. " Sarah said, as you, her and Chuck walked back into Castle. "Oh, I'm fine." " I'm really proud of you two. It's not easy to withstand torture." " Well, they didn't know the right buttons to push. I have exceptionally ticklish toes, you know. As a child, Ellie was able to extract information from me at will." "And I can say it still works today." you said with a smirk as you leaned over and kissed Chuck's cheek. Sarah laughed a little. " Well, that's good to know." "And, you've had a lot of practice enduring torture, with our fake friendship." you said, looking at Sarah now. "You know, it wasn't completely torture." " We certainly had our moments, didn't we? We were quite the dynamic duo." " Well, even though it wasn't real, I'm really going to miss it." " Look, maybe I made an impulsive decision Sarah I mean-" " Well, I guess I'd better be heading out." Cole said, walking into the room." Chuck... thanks for risking your life for me. You too Y/N. Don't ever do it again. " "Don't worry. We won't." Chuck said smiling. You noticed Cole and Sarah looking at each other and you got the message. "Right well Chuck and I will give you a moment. Let's go." you said, grabbing Chuck's hand and heading upstairs.

"Don't tell me you want them to happen." Chuck said, smirking a little. "Kinda..." you said.

As you got upstairs and into Orange Orange, you decided to look at the computer and watch the interaction between Cole and Sarah. You didn't fully listen in but when you saw Cole and Sarah make out you squealed a little and Chuck looked at you and laughed a little.

You and Chuck walked over to the Buy More to go see Morgan when a thought occurred to Chuck as you walked in. "You know what? I was wondering..." Chuck started. "About what?" "I think maybe it's time for us to find a place." You turned to Chuck in shock. "Really? You're not joking right?" "I'm not joking. Baby I really do believe it's time for us to move in together." You smiled so big and attacked Chuck in a hug and he wrapped his arms tightly around you. "I've been waiting so long to hear you say those words." Morgan said, joining in on the hug. You and Chuck had confused looks on your faces and then let go. "Yes Chuck, I will find a place with you." "Oh no. Uhhh... I was talking about me and Y/N-" "And you too Morgan! Of course! The three of us. The gang." Chuck looked at you and put an arm around you. "Excuse us one sec, buddy." Chuck said as he turned you around. "What are you doing?" "Well I feel bad for Morgan in his current living situation. Maybe we can start the three of us, help Morgan out and then after, I promise you, it will be just the two of us. Okay?" "Alright." Chuck said, nodding his head. He could never say no to you. You smiled and turned back to Morgan. "You're in Morgan!" you said and you all group hugged again.

Later at night, you, Chuck and Morgan all went back to Chuck's place. "Guys? Ellie! Awesome! Can you guys gather around!" Chuck called out. " We've got an announcement to make." you added. " Is it safe?" Ellie called out. " Yeah, no, cool, man, cool, uh... Fruit stand's closed." Morgan assured. " It's okay, babe." Devon called out. " Sorry, it's still a little fresh." Ellie said as she walked out. " It'll wear off. Hey, uh, you want to do the honors?" Morgan asked Chuck. " Ellie, Awesome, I have made a very important decision: I'm moving out." "Yes!" Ellie cheered. "With Y/N!" "Yes!!" " And Morgan. Too." you added. "No!" Ellie now said in horror. " Oh, yeah, video games and nudity all day and all night." Morgan said. "No! No no! No nudity!" you said looking at Morgan. "But you two-" "No!" you and Chuck said. "Fine."

There was then a knock on the door and it opened, revealing Sarah.

"What's up?" you asked Sarah. " Oh, I'm sorry. Can I talk to you for a second? It's kind of important." "Sure!" "Chuck you too." Sarah said. "Oh okay." The three of you walked out. "Poor Sarah. Talk about your third wheel." Morgan joked.

"Cole's been captured, by FULCRUM, we believe. " Sarah told you. "Oh, my God. That's terrible." Chuck said. "I'm sorry Sarah." you said. " Chuck, Y/N, he knows you're both the Intersect. We have to go into 24-hour protective detail until further notice." " What exactly does that mean?" you asked. " It means we can't end our friendship, and we have to move in together. The three of us." You all looked over at the window and saw Ellie, Devon and Morgan watching. "Well, Ellie's watching. We better sell it." Sarah said as she gave you a hug. "Are you sure about this? I mean, he's a really tough guy. Maybe he won't talk." "Y/N, everyone talks." Sarah said. You and Chuck looked at each other, nervous.