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Company Mandated Fancy Fits on the Tulpar đ
Also had to include the REAL star of the show (and a bonus)
Based off of this and this. Thank you very much joetastic for being inspirational đ
The REAL reason this is late
#just pretend I posted this like 6 days ago đđ#<-got distracted#sorry Iâm Afflicted with The Curse and everything just takes me a long time#also right now Iâm just kind of being experimental with my workflow and style right now so stuff is just naturally taking a bit longer#mouthwashing#mouthwashing fanart#anya mouthwashing#mouthwashing anya#nurse anya#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#mouthwashing curly#swansea mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#myart#anyway my new years resolution is to put more WOMEN in SUITS and MEN in DRESSES#had fun drawing this but still not too sure about the rendering style just yet. probably just gonna keep playing around with shit#IM DOING IT SCARED but im DOING IT#im also still trying to figure out how to Social Media#am i doing it right#GRAAAHHHHHHH I NEED TO BETTER UNDERSTAND FORMATTING POSTS#i have a more serious mouthwashing piece in the works but wanted to get this done first lol#honestly I have a buncha sketches I should post too#i like them but theyâre not really composited very well if you catch my drift. been having trouble with sketch page layout recently#which is kind of antithetical to the idea of a sketch page but you know how it is with spaghetti#i doodled the others on the side and liked how they looked so i just put some color and basic shading on them#edit: realized i forgot to change the color of the âlapelâ on jims shirt lol
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Instead of writing a fanfic like a normal person this oneshot turned into two separate, contextless things,
#sorry itâs how my brain works (sometimes can only see things in terms of tv scene-)#tumblr exclusive video fancyâŚ#dcmk#my art#(quietly coughing and spluttering) OK alright I can feel the creative brain explosion slowing down. geez#coughs.#nyways. weird that there hasnât really been a main case where poison is involved in a certain way#If I watch my own scribbled boards for too long im gonna get too embarrassed to post. Send post#Subarus hair is still infuriating by the way like take that off your normal hair is easier. The beanie is easier#you like Have to have the side corners on this haircut or it doesnât look right#anyways. shiho ptsd moments I think she kind of gets irritated that shinichi doesnât react the same so when he does she gets like#weirded out and vindicated and a little protective. Like woah wait. Love that you understand me rn donât like that you feel bad I am goingâŚ#toâŚâŚâŚâŚ. ssssssssssit here about itâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚ.. uhhhh. do you want. a rubix cube to get your mind off it#I donât want to talk about my feelings I just want you to get it. you donât wanna talk about your feelings either which isâŚâŚâŚâŚâŚ. Hmmmmmm#I like her. love of my life miyano shiho#masumi sera#conan edogawa#ai haibara#akai shuichi#let conan swear. HE SWEARS A LOT BUT LET HIM SWEAR IN ENGLISH I KNOW HE KNOWS THEM#man needs his emotional support akai family they like him#rigorous trials to being approved by the akai matriarch but everyone else likes him already and have already picked him up multiple times#and shuichi would let him swear
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you're mine ~â¤ď¸â¤ď¸
#kazumaji#majima goro#majima#kiryu#kiryu kazuma#rgg fanart#rgg#yakuza#fanart#my drawings#goromi#like a dragon#i love how this came out omggg#i was looking 4 poses on pinterest like its so useful lmao#i need to cook more kazumaji art im sorry i take so long#i love drawing goromi shes so fun to draw hbjhbjhbdsckld
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rut was really good im such a sucker for anything that just wants to be uplifting and genuine. so, here is them :3
#brightheart#cloudtail#warrior cats#art#i wanted to draw the designs they used for the map but i cant find official ref sheets anywhere wahhjksdf#god whenever anyone makes a video w these two it never fails to make me cry.#swiftpaw too T-T#ALSO IM SO SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG TO RESPOND TO THE LIONBLAZE ANSWERS YOU GUYS SENT#I WANTED TO ANSWER W DRAWINGS BUT CAUGHT UP W ART FIGHT AND I JUST. got burnt out w drawing lion#i think#which is a... problem that you can imagine#. how sad i am about
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Happy 2025 mfs
#south park#sp fanart#my art#big gay al#mr.slave#i'm not in the wrong for how 'late' this is#im still celebratin chanukah so the holidays ain't over#sorry it did take so long though. while i thought this was funny as shit-#i'm also very sex repulsed n had to walk away from the drawin a LOT
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"You know... You didn't have to take that with you."
"But I promised him I'd take him out to see the ocean one day."
#for context uhmm how do i explain this#so around a few weeks after Jd arrives Bruce is like âHey... where are the others?â#and Jd is like âooooh đ¤Şđ¤Ş he doesnt know...â#Since at this time JD believes that the entire tribe is dead. including his brothers and grandma#so Jd has to take Bruce to the now abandoned troll tree and give him the bad news#Bruce doesnt believe it at first. even if the tree is abandoned they cant be dead? right?? they cant be#so he rushes over to their grandma's pod. thinking that theyre just in hiding and waiting for them to return#and all Bruce is able to find in the empty pod is Branch's old stuffed toy Croco#which solidifies to Bruce that everyone is dead. their friends their family. everyone#Bruce is obviously devastated by the news. he doesnt show it a lot but he doesnt take it too well#he ends up bringing Croco with him back to Vacay Island and patches Croco up#since Croco is a bit worn out due to being left in the pod for years#and since then Bruce always keeps Croco hidden in his hair. both as a memoir of his baby brother#and also a reminder of how he failed as an older brother... ouch#ofc the others arent dead. its just that now both Jd AND Bruce believe that the rest of the trolls are dead#also King Trollex is there bc i wanted to put him there. I like Trollex :]#a knee ways more bb au art i promise the next bb au art will be lighthearted#tho now im gonna work on the next violet gijinka batch bc ive been starving my friendlocke audience for too long#sorry friendlocke fans ill feed u next dw#cherris canvas#trolls#trolls band together#trolls john dory#john dory trolls#trolls bruce#bruce trolls#king trollex#beach bros au#sorry for rambling in the tags i hope u dont mind ahaha
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Return date for my webcomic, Time and Time Again!
It's been set for a while but sometimes they change the date without warning, so I'll keep you updated if anything changes!
I'm extremely proud of the work I've been doing on it, I can't wait to share everything!
See you then!
#i still have to finish book 4#soooo iiiiiii will do that... this week...#really trying to be done with it but this one is taking so long for all the changes!#hoping to have an update on that soon too#might have taken on a few too many projects#but yay! return!#yippee!!!#i would say sorry its been so long but theres no way it could have been shorter and other people are gone way longer#i tried to leave things on a nice note so itd only be missed for wanting more#and not missed for feeling abandoned#ok! time to get up for another day of work! really need some things off my list so my days can be like.#9/10 hours instead of 12 LOL#im so tired. im legitimately extremely overworked it's a problem#ok bye back to work for me#return#hiatus stuff#time and time again#announcement#use this post to talk about how excited you are and make guesses and shower me with praise :-)[-[#LMAO
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#i kept... procrastinating........... sorry to everyone who gave me a character for taking so long....#my art#digital#worm#wormblr#i like.. most of these đ#ive struggled a lot with my alec design but i think im finally starting to get somewhere with him#that specific emma is from arc 5. her dad mentions taylors moms death and taylor lashes out and emma cant help from smiling#so she leans forward on the desk and covers her mouth#the sleeper.... ok so his whole deal is intentionally vague in canon#because someone told wildbow he doesnt need to explain every single deatail about every cape that shows up#so i was able to do whatever the fuck#basically his power is visually described as a not-rainbow storm thats large enough to cover a good chunk of a large city#out of canon wildbow says the only capes whod be able to survive his storm would need to be indestructible or have an impenetrable mind#so i thought yo. i recently watched a video about a short scifi horror story about how certain fractals make people die from looking at the#and the only person who didnt die from seeing the worst one had trained himself by looking at less dangerous fractals#so.. there the sleeper is ig.. a vague figure in the center of a giant fractal mess#i didn't INTEND for aisha to be looking at alec but no harm no foul. its kinda cute#anyway i spent most the day finishing this and now i think i dont wanna draw digitally ever again?
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(OC Lore and design time!)
(it got longer again ... sorry ... idk how to make things short, i just need to talk, but i guess if you can read the written stuff in the pic thats the barest bare bones of what i wrote here)
i was asked what new lore story stuff i had thought about that made me sad which i mentioned a bit ago, and while that is too hard to explain given all the missing context i thought i could at least talk about lore having to do with it :D
so, (Lord) Eadrya is one of my fav OCs (big blue lad, here a rough sketch in humanoid form) they are both one of if not THE most powerful demon alive and the most battle trained;
at the mid point of the story the demon world gets invaded by the celestials (the angel inspired things i talked about in the previous lore post with Xaror) and Shargon, as the king, should be their first and only frontline, but at this point his life is only being sustained by maschinery after being mortally wounded, he cannot fight (he realizes what is going on, rips himself off the maschinery to get at least his youngest child to safety, barely managing it before dying- the guardian, the demons god, takes over his body to attempt to fight against the celestials but cant keep itself alive long enough since its host is already dead) Eadrya takes the role of the frontline fighter (despite being very full of themselves and aggressive they care about their 'job' of protecting their own, also giving them the chance to show off just how strong they are); the fight was going well for them all things considered, but when the guardian activates it drains the power of all elemental lords (which Eadrya is one of, and since they have the most strength it also takes the most from them), so much so that they lose the fight and suffer deadly wounds (the worst being a spear through the chest made of a material that grows hard, root-like formations when in contact with demonic blood like a fungus but worse, also stopping any self healing processes) after the guardian falls apart it creates a huge shockwave of energy that stuns every living thing within a certain distance and possibly more-
Eadrya (in true demon form, so like a blue whale in size at least) was likely taken through an active gateway to the human world in a large tidal wave also created by the guardians fall; they wash up in the harbor of a small secluded village, the head of which is 'lady 13'; although never having seen a demon before and everyone being afraid (largely thinking its a strange hurt animal, only she suspected otherwise), they still gather all villagers to pull out the celestial spear, which is diffcult and brutal given that its already taken root, but the village lacked both knowledge and means to help any other way- doing so damaged their heart which is how they were able to collect samples of all three demonic blood types ('normal' -red like humans-, energy -essentially purely magic- and heartblood -highly concentrated energy only found within the heart of a demon and the only one to contain genetic material) (this is the start of Eadryas character arc, having to deal with the fact that their world is likely destroyed, them failing what they didnt think they could fail, having lost a battle so badly (even if not really their fault) for the first time and not knowing if literally anyone else has survived .. also being now stuck in the human world, which they dont like)
Lady 13 (placeholder name? stands for experiment 13) is a human that was tricked by demon hunters to enroll into a series of experiments trying to create hybrids of demons and humans, which they hoped would be powerful and easily controllable tools for their endeavours, though the two are inherently not compatible, they tried grafting body parts of demons on humans to make them compatible- all experiments failed except for her, more or less, though she never got to see the hybrid she carried and was then told it had died too, they threw her out believing she wouldnt survive much longer either and all such experiments were cancelled due to the high cost of human life, research material (demons are still rare) and upkeep with no successful results Lady 13 survived though (perhaps even via the pirates picking her up?) and she ended up living in said small village far away, hiding her half demonic body, though most know there soemthing 'wrong' with her (her being this tall when it doesnt fit the rest for one), only few know the full extent; she enjoys the life she has now, perhaps on the more poor side but safer and more loved than ever before; she largely lead the efforts to try and help Eadrya when they ended up in the harbor, though there wasnt that much anyone could do it was still enough- they leave immediately after waking up, but return after really having nowhere to go and struggling to deal with everything that has happened; over time (probably years) they start to open up towards the people there (though not .. very much) enough to get rather close with Lady 13 too- she actually falls madly in love but after Eadrya (extremely aro/ace) rejects all her attempts quite clearly she respects their boundaries
However, after hearing news of potential demon sightings Eadrya decides to leave in hopes of not being the last demon left after all; Lady 13 then decides to reveal her secret to them (though hearing and seeing what lengths hunters would go to for their experiments makes them absolutely seething with rage- she insists on not being out for revenge) and asks if they would be willing to donate a small amount of heartblood; shes always wanted to be a mother but is now incompatible with humans too- through things she picked up back at the experiments facillity, hers and her doctors research she is sure that is all that is needed, she dares to ask since she does not know when, if ever, she will meet another demon, much less one she could actually trust enough for this though Eadrya hesitates (why would she want to go through the same thing again that didnt work and threatened her life, if it does work, do they want to be involved with any of this? what if hunters find out it worked after all?) but after her ensuring that they would have no part in it other than giving up a little blood and would not be considered a parent in any way, nor made responsible for anything that might happen to her, but considering it all in the end they agree to it
only for her to reveal shes had a small bottle of it already, along with multiple samples of the other types, which she collected when Eadrya was bleeding out into the harbor not knowing if they will survive, though not wanting to make use of it without their consent either way (they are actuallly rather touched by this)
alot later the main group returns here and it turns out to have worked (though she is unable to walk/bedridden for a long while bc it did alot of damage to her body, which can heal since its demons parts, but only really slowly bc she does not have a full functioning system and no demonic blood of her own -she uses the other samples for the healing process-) though its a little awkward to explain, especially considering that 13.1 took alot after Eadrya xD (their theory as to why it worked so "well" that time is that even though the sample was already taken, them giving their consent for it still made it less likely to be rejected; demons dont need partners to have offspring, and all can do it, they just have to decide to- so them agreeing to it, even though its long been outside their body, still had an effect on the blood sample)
#ganondoodles#art#ocs#original art#oc lore#demons#monsters#WHY does writing things liek this take me so long#i spent two hours again on this and im falling asleep as we speak bc its almost 2 am#ANYWAY this was alot again ... sorry#but its a relatively new storyline that i have been afraid of telling#since it touches on things im afraid might come across wrong and uses themes im a lil uncomfy with#but i found it interesting ... and works well with eadrya as a character bc it challenges alot about them#yes im wrote and mean this genuinely#i would have made the cut from her human body to the demon parts more smooth ... but this hard cut is the point#so that she looks rather normal on the upper part and can hide the rest#thoguh im unsure about the color scheme and if maybe i should be more creative with the demons parts#then again its largely just legs lol#if anyone actually reads this ........ i hope it comes across correctly#i like to use darker and more mature themes but am riddled with anxiety over how it will be understood#im gonna work on zelda comic stuff again now .. sorry for all the oc spam#but if there are questions PLEASE feel free to ask im pretty sure i have answers to almosst anything?#also i havent thought of a name for her or the kid .. though im starting to like lady 13#13.1 wont do as a name though poor kid deserves a proper name after already being a weird hybrid that shouldnt exist#either way ... going to bed now GOODNIGHT q-q#(any typos are excused by me being deadly tired ok)
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i have so many thoughts always about "easy" kid sodapop curtis. he cries at anything but it's his horse getting sold and nature documentaries on TV and cute stray dogs and things that are manageable and small and easy for his brothers to brush off because they are facts and unfixable. he reassures pony that darry loves him. he tells darry he's doing a good job. he makes them both laugh. he placates and mediates. he plays dumb. he's good with understanding people but couldn't name half the things he feels. he is always happy and carefree and never hurt or angry and he doesn't want to worry his brothers.
#sodapop curtis#the outsiders#darry curtis#ponyboy curtis#the outsiders musical#something something spending so long caretaking that it is impossible to define his own emotions outside of how they make others feel#anyway that's why stevepop works because steve is willing to take care of soda and soda is willing to be nice and funny and also#angry and upset with steve because they've both seen each other at their very very worst#sorry im procrastinating and got thoughts#steve randle#stevepop#darrel curtis
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do you guys think anyone remembers to put flowers on airplaneâs graveâŚ
#âď¸#who up thinking about how airplaneâs family treated him again#i imagine that syâs family never forgets the anniversary of his death. especially because one of them likely found him(probably his sister)#but how long did it take for people to find airplaneâs body?#his parents stopped checking in and asking if he needed money. they wouldnât have found him. his only friends were online too#i can imagine him laying there on the ground by the outlet until the smell of his rotting flesh disturbed the neighborsâŚ#im sorry if that was a bit too vivid. its airplane angst hours again.#no but seriously imagine the difference between sy and sqhâs funerals.#syâs grave is maintained constantly and his sister visits him v frequently. but airplaneâs grave is so quiet.#theres some withered flowers there and his grave looks very dirty.#under his name it says âbeloved sonâ but its only there for show.#the regulars at the cemetery never knew him personally but they feel angry at the world on his behalf.#svsss#scumbag self saving system#scumbag system#shang qinghua#airplane shooting towards the sky#svsss sqh#sqh
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heeyyy gaaanggg
the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.
#my art#digital art#digital painting#fanart#resident evil 7#ethan winters#goddd PLEAAASEEEE#i havent known if i was gonna post this or not multiple times in the process of drawin this. but ultimately i spent too much time on it to#NOT post it. embarrassment be damned#but at the same time what am i even doin yknow. what is this what is goin on pleaaseee PLEASEEEEE#I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT RESIDENT EVIL!!! I DONT KNOW N O T H I NG I KNOW LESS THAN NOTHING#HOW?? HOW DID I GET HERE??? WHY DID THIS HAPPEN???? i know exactly the answer to all those questions but it still boggles me how fast this#happened. usually it takes WEEKS if not MONTHS for me to start makin fanart. this was faaasttttt TOO FAST and im like. genuinely constantly#thinkin about this game. im ALWAYS thinkin about this game. part of why this took me so long to do is cause i always wanna play re7 or thin#about re7 in a strange and deranged way. ive actually genuinely been SICK WHAT HAPPENEDDDDDD#im losing it!! anyways this took me a looonggg ass time and i redrew it soo many timmmessss#i did like. 3 lineart passes. the album version i did 3 shading passes. i really struggled!! and ultimately i dont know how i feel about it#like i kinda resent it. for takin so long and makin me suffer so much#never again. never again will i spend that much time on a drawing. i HATE when drawins take a long time. i HATE that. it makes me madddd#ive been insane. ive been so insane. and im not gettin better like i cant sleep sometimes cause im thinkin about this game and this guy and#that gal like i think about them!! so! so much!! oh my god!!#in the time it took me to finish this ive done like 10 sketches for other pieces like. and ive had like 3 ideas ive written down.#and like 50 that i havent written or sketched.#IVE WRITTEN POETRY!! P O E T R Y !!!#i write the occasional poem when im feelin some kinda profound emotion but i NEVER write poetry about media SOBBING#anyways thats the post i think this is the beginnin of the end so lets hold hands and pray. ugh sorry if i get sick. im shakin.
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merry christmas @luminousbeings-crudematter, here's the ghoap x reader purge au! (a week and a half after you posted about it... im so sorry)
5.7k, mind the tags <3
cw: ROUGH NONCONSENUAL SEX in all caps, pwp, under-prepared/painful anal sex, some pretty intense fear stuff, people covered in blood and referenced violence (it's a purge au lol)
Your hands tremble where theyâre tucked close to your chest, blood sticky and thick between each finger. You feel coated in it, like someone has taken a brush and gone over every inch of your skin, painted you in red.
Itâs in your mouth. You can feel the warmth of it on your tongue, the taste of iron sickening. You tell yourself that maybe you bit your tongue, that itâs not really your ex Philâs blood coating your teeth.
Your thin pajamas are hardly any protection against the chill of the night air, less so with how soaked they are. The stench of piss is heavy in the air, a mixture of yours and his, but you donât have time to go back inside and change.
Youâre running on pure instinct, an animal urge deep in your mind insisting you run. Youâd always thought youâd have more of a flight instinct than fight. Despite how you feel now, how your legs itch to carry you as far away as possible, the cooling corpse left behind tells you the truth.Â
You stumble into the wall, a wave of nausea knocking you off balance. Thereâs a trail of red left behind as you use one hand to balance yourself, the other held protectively over your heart.Â
Your security system - cheap, but usually enough to let you sleep through the Purge - is completely destroyed. Thereâs no chance of it protecting you, and the bust in windows will let anyone on the streets see your vulnerability. Youâll never feel safe there, and you canât shake the need to run.
Thereâs no chance of any of your neighbors helping you. Thereâs some neighborly camaraderie between your floor-mates, but that all disappears on Purge night. Itâs every man for himself, every year, without fail. You know that. You even think the same as them, pretend no one else exists when that siren goes off every year.Â
But now, shaking and terrified, you wish you could knock on a door and see it open. Hear the security system disengage and see a familiar face, beg for help and thank them on your knees.
Itâs a nice fantasy. Reality is less kind, seeing you shake with a dawning chill as you manage to shoulder open the door to the stairwell, cringing when it slams behind you.
The cold cement is rough on your feet, and a distant part of yourself worries about slipping - your feet are slick with blood, and you can hear yourself leaving a trail of footsteps. You donât try to slow down, holding tight to the metal railing and shuffling down the stairs.
Youâre halfway down the first of four flights when the door on the next floor opens, a large figure stepping into the stairwell. Your stumble to a stop before you even register that youâre not alone anymore, and youâre backpedaling before you even fully realize.
Heâs big, his face covered in a red skull mask. From your vantage point you can see his hair is shaved into a mohawk, and heâs shirtless with only a pair of gray sweatpants on.
Heâs drenched in blood. Even more than you, and you feel like youâre drowning in it. If youâre painted in blood, someone took a bucket and dumped it on this man. You can hardly see any unmarked skin, and you wonder for a split-second if the skull was once white.
Thereâs an audible grin in his voice when he calls up to you. âLookâit you, bonnie thing. You tryinâ to run?â He steps to the side, leaving a wide open space for you to pass him to the next staircase. Youâre frozen where youâre leant against the railing, hardly able to breathe. âCâmon, give it a shot.âÂ
You listen, scrabbling further back and all but throwing yourself up the stairs on all fours. Youâre only the need to get away, an innate fear that tells you to get as far from the blood-soaked man as quickly as possible. You swear you hear him laugh as you launch yourself up the next flight, panting already.
Thereâs no safety found in going up though, as hardly two flights later youâre tugged to a stop by your instincts alone.
Standing above you, hardly six feet away and blocking the door he mustâve just come from, is another giant. This one fully clothed and with a white skull mask, somehow bigger and more intimidating than the man you can hear coming up the stairs behind you. You canât see even an inch of skin, black gloves on his hands and mean black combat boots reaching nearly his knees.
Thereâs a moment, before the chase ends, where you contemplate jumping over the railing. Thereâs no going up, thereâs no going back, and you canât even begin to imagine what these two men want with you. The only thing that keeps you from throwing yourself over is the fear that you wouldnât die on impact, that youâd be left injured and even more vulnerable to these men.
Youâre not sure you couldâve tried that plan had you even wanted to, because the moment it forms fully in your mind a pair of thick arms wraps around you, and a heavy weight forces you to the ground.
You cry out at the sudden shove, palms scraped raw against the cement. The man behind you covers your body completely - his knees bracket yours, his hands rest on either side of your head, and thereâs no part of the back of you that isnât cloaked in him.
He doesnât say anything as he ruts against you, the blood from his chest soaking through your tank top and making you cringe further away. You canât stop the quiet stream of whimpers as you try to shrink into the stairs, try to get away from the beast behind you. He doesnât care, only drops more of his weight onto you and pantomines fucking you.
You can feel the outline of his cock through his pants, as thin as the clothes both of you are wearing are. If you werenât wearing your shorts, if he tugged the waistband of his pants down, heâd be inside of you.
The thought makes you tear up, makes you want to slam your head back and try to knee him in the balls, makes you want to fight.
But all your fight is gone. It died with Phil and your security system, and youâre left only with a weight in your bones that makes you wish you could sink through the floor.Â
The hard plastic of the skull mask presses to the sensitive skin of your cheek, biting into the fat there. You can see the gleam of bright blue eyes in the sockets, the creases at the edges that tell you heâs smiling.
âYou gonna fuck her here for the first time?â The white skull asks, voice deep enough that you hardly register the words. Your eyes are jerked to his form and it makes you shiver to see him sitting on the top of the staircase youâre pinned to, legs spread wide as he stares down at you with a cigarette between lips exposed by the tilted mask. You feel like a sacrifice, thrown to the stairs of a temple for a god.
âCan I?â The man over your shoulder pants, accent roughened from his own movements. You canât tell if the wetness between your thighs is piss, blood, or an even worse option. You bite your tongue to hold back a whine, wince at the burst of iron in your mouth.
The man above you tilts his head, smoking blown into the air. âYou fuck her here, you wonât get to go again on the roof. Donât need you gettinâ spoiled.â
Your nails dig into the concrete, folding beneath the pressure as you shake beneath the red skulled man. He whines over you, like a petulant kid being told no for the first time, but goes still against you. That alone has you blinking open damp eyelashes, watching him from the corner of your eyes.
âAlright, Iâll wait,â he pants, chin resting on your soldier. âGive ye some time to get ready, huh lass? Itâll be easier for ye then. Just think about what weâll do to ye, how good itâll feel to get properly fucked, yeah?â
You sob when he grinds one final time against you, your hips pushed into the harsh edge of the stairs.Â
Heâs dragging you up after that, hardly letting either of you stand fully before shoving you up the stairs. You canât catch your balance and let out a small cry as you fall back to your knees, mouth twisting in pain at the unforgiving surface against your naked knees.
You flinch when a gloved hand grasps your chin, tugging up until youâre forced to look towards the white skull above you.
Youâve landed between his feet, a boot on either side of your body, and if youâd moved forward even another half foot, youâd have face planted into his lap.Â
Your heart skips a beat when you realize youâre making eye contact with him. The dark brown of his pupils blends almost seamlessly with what must be black paint smeared around his eye sockets, and the only reason you even realize youâre locked in a staring contest is the way the light reflects off the whites of his eyes.
You donât have time to try and move away from him on your own (or, more accurately, to throw yourself backwards and pray you didnât break something falling down the stairs) before a pair of bare hands are shoving you up from beneath the armpits, making you almost squeal as you jerk in the direction youâre forced.
âUp, câmon,â red skull grunts, hands flitting from one part of your exposed skin to the next as he herds you upstairs. âNeed to get inside ye, kitty, fuckinâ walk.â
You sob as you stumble up the stairs, the top of your foot scraping painfully against the concrete. You glance over your shoulder just in time to see White stand to follow you two, but youâre nearly sent sprawling again when Red only shoves you all the more harshly.
âPl-please,â you manage to gasp, shoulder roughly bouncing off the wall. A glance up tells you youâre two full flights away from the rooftop. âPlease, I donât know what you want, b-butâŚâ You can hardly talk around the sobs floating in your throat, choking you. âPlease, please donât hurt me.â
Red groans as he tugs you nearly off balance, the sound echoing off the walls and full of what you can only describe as hunger.
âFuck, havenât even gotten ye naked yet ân yer already beggin. Knew yeâd be perfect for us.â
You can hardly see through the tears in your eyes, the rest of the trip up to the roof all gray with streaks of red and black. You canât focus enough to try and get away again, canât get enough of your panic under control to fucking think.
The red skull catches you when you almost go careening over the rails, one broad hand catching you by the chest and gripping.
He groans, you flinch. âFuck, cannae wait to get my mouth on these.â He pinches with his whole hand, your breast going sharp with pain on every fingertip. You whine, flinching further against his chest and trying to shrink away.
âKeep movinâ, Soap.â
âAye,â Red - Soap - pants, and you can practically hear the saliva gathered in his mouth when he swallows. âCâmon, kitty, only a little further.â
The blood on your hands has dried by the time White is shouldering open the door to the roof, your hands itching and the red flaking away every time your fingers twitch. The night air is a cold shock, just jarring enough to tug some reason back into your brain.
Soap doesnât stop his herding until youâre far enough from the door for his partner to block it with an old metal chair, the back tucked under the door handle. You tuck your hands beneath your arms, shoulders curled in in an attempt to preserve warmth.
You wouldnât have expected the night to be so cold. Half of the street is burning - flames painting the sky, giving you the exact opposite impression of the biting chill you feel. There are dozens of people in the streets, carrying guns and axes and chainsaws and all sorts of other weapons you canât see. You feel bile rise in your throat when you realize the dark pools reflecting flames in the street are blood, not water.
âFuckinâ finally,â Soap grumbles, and you donât have any time to think before his mouth is pressed forcefully against yours, tongue shoving at your lips.
Your eyes are wide open, unlike his, and you make a shocked sound high in your throat at the sight of his maskless face. You canât really see what he looks like with the way heâs pressed against you, but itâs a shock nonetheless.
You keep your lips pressed tightly together, no matter how much his tongue prods and tries to force its way into your mouth. You feel more than hear him laugh against you after a few long seconds, and one of his massive paws comes up to cradle your jaw pointer finger against your temple and thumb under your chin.
He stops trying to force himself between your lips after almost a minute, instead shifting to just⌠licking your lips. His tongue paints wide across your mouth, soaking you in his saliva. Heâs almost scarily determined in the way he accosts you, his grip tight on your face as his other hand shifts to bruise your hip, covering what feels like the entire bottom-half of your face in his spit. You canât help but grimace, trying to pull away from him, but heâs pressed too close.
âCanât fuckinâ wait to be in ye,â he pants, breath warm and wet against your cheeks. âI know yer gonna squeeze me just right, bonnie, can tell already.â
âPlease,â you say, voice weak. âPlease, donât, I donât want you to-â
His groan is guttural. âYe wanna know a secret, bonnie?â His voice is quiet between the two of you, bright blue eyes boring deep into yours when he pulls back. To your endless frustration, heâs handsome.
He leans close, whispering so low that you almost have to strain to hear hum. âThatâs what makes you fun. Wouldnae be dragginâ you up here if ye wanted it, could get you any other night of the year for that. But itâs Purge night, lass⌠so you go ahead and fight as much as ye want, yeah? Just makes it more fun for me.â
You canât help but sob at that, fat tears streaming down your face as he maneuvers you. You feel disconnected from your body as he forces you down to the ground, your soft belly left exposed when he pushes up your tank-top to cup one of your breasts, a whimper crawling out of your throat at the way the gravel presses into you.
You feel his breathing grow heavier as his hands move down to your shorts, shoving them off your hips and leaving them loose around your calves, completely disregarding your pitiful attempts at crawling away.
âPoor thing, been stuck in these the whole time? They fuckinâ reek, bonnie, no offense. That his piss or yours?â
You shake your head against the ground, face twisted up in acute humiliation. For some stupid reason you donât want to even begin exploring, you find it necessary to whisper, âH-his.â
Soap hums, and you curse yourself inwardly when the humiliation is slightly alleviated.
âGet âem off her,â the white mask says, and you canât help but jump at the sound of his voice. Heâs sat on a large box only a few feet away, leaning back and relaxing, looking for all the world like heâs settled in for his favorite show. âDonât want anythinâ of his touching her now.â
The sound Soap makes at that is animalistic, a snarl coming from deep in his chest that makes you flinch as he all but tears the shorts from your body. You wince at the wet splat of them landing several feet away.
You force your forehead into the gravel when your knees are forced wide, a rough hand and another pair of knees spreading you.
âNo, no, no, no, no, no, noâŚâ you canât help but beg, voice trembling. âPlease- god, please donât-â
âFuck,â he moans over your shoulder. âYeah, keep goinâ, lass.â
You sob at the feeling of warm skin against your bared behind, his thick length slotting itself smoothly between the slightly spread lips of your pussy. Your eyes squeeze shut and it takes all your willpower not to keep begging.
He slides himself back and forth against you for a few long breaths, using online the slight slickness from a mixture of piss and blood to get some friction. But to your immense horror, it only takes a few moments for the sensual movement against your clit to have your body preparing itself.
The slight wetness at your hole might be a betrayal, but itâs not nearly enough to ease the way when he pushes inside of you with no warning.
You nearly scream, a high sound of pure panic and pain when it feels like youâre being split in two. Somewhere off in the distance, you hear someone laugh. Right above you, Soap groans.
Heâs buried himself to the hilt inside you before the pain has had any time at all to fade, and heâs fucking into you hardly a second after that.
Every thrust forces a grunt from your throat, the entire weight of him slammed into your back each time his balls smack against your clit. Your face is twisted up in a grimace, your whole body racked with pain that your assaulter couldnât care less about.
âFuck, kitty. Yer squeezinâ me so good, such a good girl, shit-! Knew youâd be ti-tight as a vice, fuck, but didnât know youâd be squeezinâ me so tight I can hardly move.â
Your whine is plaintive, his moan is filled with pleasure.
âYer gettinâ so wet for me, bonnie. Ye like this, huh? Bet you like it just as much as I do, gettinâ thrown around and takinâ advantage of. That it, kitty? Ye like being forced?â
You sob and shake your head against the ground, crying all the more when sharp pebbles dig into your cheeks.
âNaw, I think ye do. Why elseâd you be- fuck, squeezinâ me like that?âÂ
âCause- because-â you try, but you canât get the breath in to get more than a single word out.
âHuh? Cause- cause-?â Soap mocks, his voice pitching up to mimic you as he plants himself deep inside you, grinding his hips against the meat of your ass. âCâmon, kitty, tell me why. Go on.â
âCause I want you to stop!â You cry, balled up fist slamming into the gravel. You canât help but whine ow when the sharp rocks poke into your skin, and Soapâs laugh shakes your entire body.
âGood,â he whispers, breath hot against your ear. âSquirm all ye want, lass. I love it when you fight.â
You can do nothing but go limp beneath him as he begins fucking you again, his pace somehow faster and even more relentless. Itâs a small mercy that thereâs no fight left in you, that you canât give him any more pleasure.Â
It certainly doesnât stop him, though. Despite the fact that youâre doing your best impression of a dead fish, Soap pants and moans against your shoulder like youâre the single best thing heâs ever slept with. His cock is painfully hard inside of you, and his pace never once slows.
Heâs loud when he finally comes, the sound of his orgasm clear enough that you know heâs thrown his head back to the sky. You can only whimper as he rolls his hips against you, working the last spurts of cum out of his cock and into your unwilling body.Â
âFuck,â he sighs in your ear, sounding far more satisfied than he has any right to. âGood girl, kitty. You were perfect.â
You sniffle beneath him when he slowly pulls out, both of you groaning at the sensation. He gives you an almost perfunctory pat on the ass, and stands to walk away. You manage to open your eyes and focus just in time to see him slide to the ground in front of his partner, leaning against the wall.
âYer turn,â he sighs. âWarmed her up good for you, Lt.â
Despite the hatred boiling in your gut, you can do nothing but lay limp on the ground and watch as his partner stands, cracking his neck and moving towards your prone form.Â
You want to run, you want to fight, but you can only watch the executioner come closer and wait for the metaphorical axe to fall.
He crouches by your head first, grasping your chin and pulling up until your torso tries to follow to alleviate the tension. He stares deep into your eyes for a long moment, and you find that itâs impossible to even tell where his pupils are with no real lighting. You feel like youâre truly looking into the empty eye sockets of a skull, no man and no mercy to be found.
âYouâll call me Ghost when I fuck you,â he rumbles, thumb stroking over the scrapes on your cheek. He doesnât wait for a response, simply hauls you up by the shoulder and turns you onto your back.Â
Heâs rough with your limbs as he shoves your legs together and up, his forearm banding across the backs of both of your knees and holding them to your chest. You whimper and wiggles as best you can, but the bruising blow against your thigh is enough to have you gasping and stilling.
âDonât fight,â he warns, and you feel his gloved fingers running up the crack of you. âYouâre hurtinâ enough as it is, and Iâm not gonna help. You wanna make it worse too?â
You shake your head, unsure if he can even see you through your legs. He doesnât respond, and hums when he swipes two fingers through the liquid gathered between your lips.
You whine when those fingers move further down, a fresh panic creeping in when he presses around your back hole.
âYou should be glad Soap fucked you so good,â Ghost drawls. âHe gave you all the lube youâre gonna get.â
You feel like an animal when you whine again, unsure of how to even begin trying to speak. You yelp when a thick finger slides into your hole, completely disregarding any resistance and forcing its way in until itâs buried to the knuckle. Your cries go ignored.
âQuit squirminâ,â Ghost scolds, pulling his finger out to smack your ass before shoving two back in. âYouâre fine.â
Youâre not, youâre terrified and hurting and upset, but none of those things matter when Ghost only coaxes more of your slick and Soapâs spend to your unused whole so thereâs less resistance.Â
The only blessing you have is the fact that you canât see more than the outline of Ghostâs figure with the way heâs got you positioned. You try your best to close your eyes and float into disassociation, and while you canât fully manage it, the fact that you canât see his face - his mask - helps you distance yourself from whatâs happening.
The moment you realize this is of course the moment it stops being true.Â
He seems to decide youâre ready after scissoring three fingers inside of you, hefting himself up so that he looms more fully over you. You can only whine as you feel the movements of him unbuckling his belt, feel the weight of him slap against your slightly spread cheeks.
Fresh tears fall past your lashes as you stare up into the fathomless darkness that are Ghostâs eyes. Thereâs nothing there, just a cold empty skull prepared to ruin you.
You donât even have the energy to beg.
The stretch of him inside your ass is five times worse than Soap was. Thereâs no natural lubrication, and nowhere near enough synthetic lube either. Your hole feels like itâs on fire, the stretch white hot as he gives you no mercy.
Youâre not even fully sure what youâre babbling as he slowly sinks to the root, only aware of the pain and fear and panic sitting heavy in your heart. You fear youâll choke on your tears, head jerking back and forth.
He sighs when he bottoms out, heavy barrel chest forcing your knees past your shoulders. Your hips strain, just another pain from the endless abuse.
âThere,â he grunts, patting your thigh when you go limp from it all. âStay nice and still now, just need a place to dump my cum.â
Upsettingly enough, that hurts. The idea that you could mean nothing to this man is somehow worse than the thought of him having some other twisted feelings for you, your hormone-addled mind deeply insulted.Â
His thrusts are long and slow, each one pulling nearly completely out before slamming back in. The sound of your skin slapping together is embarrassingly sexual, and a distant part of you is aware enough to pray that no one nearby had heard your screams and cries.
Ghost is near silent as he fucks you, the opposite of Soap. You can only hear the occasional grunt when you squeeze him because heâs inches away from your face - you can even feel the occasional gusts of breath when his hips start working a little faster.Â
Thereâs nothing you can do but lay limply beneath him and take it, just a vehicle for his pleasure. You almost manage to float away, to pretend none of this is happening or has ever happened, when his free hand moves from your thigh to the top of your cunt.
You nearly squeal when he rubs your clit, the smooth leath gliding over your slick bud. Your eyes fly wide open, back arching as much as you can with three hundred pounds of man holding you down. The loud laugh from several feet away only makes you writhe more.
âMake her squirt, Lt!â Soap shouts, his voice carefree.
âShut it, Johnny,â Ghost grunts, voice roughened with pleasure. You donât even have time to focus on the fact that heâs just told you Johnnyâs name, far too preoccupied with the tidal wave of pleasure rushing towards you.
You have no idea why it happens. Youâre never quick to come - almost every single partner of yours has complained about you taking so long to get off, itâs been an Issue in several relationships.Â
So it makes absolutely no sense that after hardly a minute of rough circles against your clit, youâre clenching down on the cock in your ass and moaning loudly as your orgasm overtakes you.
The natural clench of your body only makes the pain worse, a sharp spike of it running up your cunt and making your moan shift into more pained sounds. Ghost only moans in tandem above you, his thrusts becoming slightly less even as he lets your orgasm coax out his own.
You sob when you feel his cum paint your insides.
Unlike Johnny, Ghost doesnât pull out after he comes. He lets your legs fall limp on either side of him, just barely managing to catch them for you before you slam your ankles to the ground. He leans his torso over yours, elbows resting on either side of your shoulders while you do nothing but wait beneath him.
Heâs sweat off some of the makeup. This close, you can see hints of pale skin in the sockets of the mask. Thereâs nothing to read in his eyes, but that flash of skin tells you heâs still a man.
You swallow, trying to work moisture back into your dry mouth, and whisper, âWill⌠will you let me go now?â
You know itâs more likely heâll kill you. Itâs what you can only imagine happened to all those bodies in the streets, what you know happens to tens of thousands of women every year.Â
So itâs not a surprise when he doesnât answer you verbally, instead covering your mouth with his palm and pinching your nose shut with his fingers.Â
Your eyes flutter shut after a moment, lungs tightening already, and all you can hope is that suffocation is a quick death.
âââââââââââââââââââââââ
You wake, gasping, in a dark room.Â
Youâre lurching forward before youâre even fully aware that youâre awake, coughing loudly and gasping when it feels like your throat is bleeding.
âOh, poor thing,â you hear a familiar accented voice coo, and a moment later thereâs a warm hand patting your back. âYer alright, deep breaths.â
You jerk back from Soap - Johnny - as soon as your coughing is under control, scrambling back on your palms and staring at him with wide eyes. He only grins at you, looking for all the world like any other normal man in his sweater and sweatpants.
He got changed at some point - these pants are clean. Heâs not wearing his mask either, and youâre struck dumb by how non threatening he manages to look.
He also changed your clothes - or Ghost did, maybe. You try to cover your chest with one hand, but thereâs no hiding the fact that youâre completely naked.Â
Johnny only laughs at your attempted modesty. âBeen starinâ at them for hours, lass. Yeâve got nothinâ to hide.â
Thatâs⌠horrifying, and does absolutely nothing to calm you down.
Itâs then that Ghost rises from a chair, stepping forward and making you aware of his presence. âCalm down, Johnny. We donât want her panickinâ this early.â
Soap fully pouts, tilting his head at you before glancing up at his partner. âI havenât even done anythinâ, Ghost. Was just sayinâ hi, thaâs all.â
Ghost snorts, gripping Johnnyâs mohawk and tugging back until the other man sprawls back on his ass. âYou know how you are, pup. Give your kitty some space.â
Johnny listens, crossing one leg beneath him and bending the other close to his chest, looking casual as can be. Meanwhile your heartbeat only gets faster, and you wince when you happen to lean too far one direction and feel a throbbing reminder of what these men did to you.
Ghost steps forward again, crouching just out of arm's reach. You realize heâs not wearing the same skull mask as before, but a balaclava with a printed skull pattern instead. His eye sockets are unpainted, and youâre shocked by how such little things make him look so much more human.Â
âYou can calm down. Long as you behave, nothinâ much worseâll happen to you.â
You find yourself almost comically not-comforted by that, and can do nothing more than stare at him with wide eyes.Â
âWhereâŚâ Your voice cracks, so you swallow and start again. âWhere am I?â
Itâs Johnny who speaks up. âOur place. We finally brought ye home with us, kitty.â
The world feels like itâs slowed around you, and your eyes drag from one kidnapper to the other. You have to swallow again to work any moisture into your bone-dry mouth.
âIs the Purge over?â
The creases at the corner of Ghostâs eyes are painfully obvious with how pale his skin is, and you shudder at the thought of him smiling.
âBeen over for⌠what, five hours now? Somethinâ like that.â
You canât fight the tremble in your voice now. âThen⌠then you have to let me go.â
Ghostâs head tilts, the creases get deeper. âDo I?â
You nod with as much conviction as you can - which is almost none. âYou canât keep me here. Youâre breaking the law.â
Ghost leans closer on the balls of feet and you lean further back, your spine pressing into the wall behind you. âAre we now? And who do you think will stop us, pet?â
âThe- the police. Someone will report me missing, theyâll come looking.â
âOh? And you think theyâll come here?â
You nod as best you can, and jump when Ghost laughs. Itâs low and quiet, only a few beats, but itâs like gasoline thrown on the small fire of panic in your mind.
âYou have no idea where you even are, and you think theyâll find you? I hate to break it to you doll, but youâll be lucky if they look for you for a week. You have any idea how many people go missinâ after the Purge?â
Your breath is quickening. âSo thatâs it? Youâre just going to⌠going to keep me here, forever? What are you even going to do?â
His laugh is sharper, meaner this time. âWeâre gonna do a whole lot more of what we did last night, pet. Keep you as a little cocksleeve, a pretty thing tucked in the basement just for our entertainment. Ainât that right, Johnny?â
You manage to tear your eyes away to look at Soap and see that heâs nearly salivating, having inched closer and closer and shifted so heâs knelt behind Ghost. Thereâs a feral spark in his eyes that has every hair on your body standing straight up.
âYeah, thaâs right. Donât worry, lass, weâll make sure yer never lonely. Might even stay the night with you, cuddle up in the winter. Bet ye could keep our cocks nice and toasty in the cold, huh? Gonna let us use ye as a little heater?â
âA heater, a mattress, a fleshlight⌠your futureâs lookinâ bright, sweetheart,â Ghost drawls, mockery dripping heavily from the cruel words.
Your eyes dart back and forth between the two men and their predatory stares, your heart racing against your ribcage.
Itâs not a conscious choice for you to launch yourself towards them, reaching out and clawing your sharp nails down Soapâs face with a feral scream that tears your throat to shreds.Â
Even as Ghost throws you off and forces you to the ground, you vow to fight these men to the end. Youâll kill them both if you have to, leave them dead and wander however many miles it is back to your apartment.
Ghost only laughs when you shout this in his face, and you scream as you lunge forward, just managing to catch his masked chin between your teeth and bite.
With your fight instinct back in full force, youâre ready to make their lives hell.
#lumi im SORRY hand on the bible i could not tell you why this took me so long#it's pwp. it's pure smut. there is no justifiable reason for this taking a week#i literally have FOUR fucking docs of purge au's rn lmao like when i tell you i tried to write this SO MANY TIMES it was just not happening#ghoap x reader#bo writes#purge au#how do i tag this to get people to see it but not to get people complaining about dark fic to me#...i don't#oh well. special treat for you guys lol
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Things I make for myself when insomnia kicks in
Just a chart about what I wanna change up and keep consistent in my art - I mainly wanna draw Raph with a tail because he deserves one, it fits too well. Donnie gets a long tail too because I didnât realize how dino-like he looks until I gave him one, and now itâs a must for me haha.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt headcanons#note these are veryyy much for my own art so by all means ignore this completely for your own unless it resonates#these are just my personal headcanons#Iâve been getting more and more fond of the turtles having tails - especially Raph whose design honestly feels more complete with one#I also am now attached to Donnie having a long tail too because 1) he looks cute with one and it really works for him and-#2) I LOVE giving the Brains and Brawn duo more stuff in common#I could write an essay about how many things Brains and Brawns duo has in common in general#but also portal duo as well!!#we already know that Mikey and Leo look a LOT alike#so I think itâs cute when Raph and Donnie have stuff like that in common with each other too#like how canonically Donnieâs sclera are on the yellow side like Raphâs#anyway Iâm sorry if this is a random post I am very tired and still have not slept#ALSO yeah i wanted an excuse to doodle April itâs been too long i missed her#Iâm excited to finish this comic up to show the OTHER reason I gave Donnie a long tail#I made this in like five minutes because working on my comic was not working out#also Draxum totally has a tail heâs a sheep#I lean away from Mikey and Leo having longer tails mainly because their designs are already so busy#with all the colors and shapes present on them#so to me longer tails kinda takes away a bit#meanwhile Raph and Donnie are more monochrome in comparison so I feel like tails only help them?#I think as well Donnieâs torso/carapace being on the shorter side makes a tail balance him out#(me trying to justify the visual gag im putting into the comic for literally only two panels)#didnât draw the caseys because I am tiredddd#and they would have just ended up where April is anyway
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so i know you're trying to process Coming Home being the top fic now but bestie are you aware that you hit 30k kudos?
ok. ok ok okok.
As a warning, I'm going to get really weird and personal here.
I got these this morning. Just like with the last one I have no idea what to do with this or how to appropriately deal with it lmao but to everyone who has been so nice - thank you. so much? this is a number so unfathomable to me that I've been trying to sit with it all day and simply cannot process it as real.
I don't want to care about numbers. I want to be super cool and chill and above that. but this is a really big one. and I think it also is really reflective of how big this community has grown. I've decided it would be odd not to acknowledge it.
This is one of the craziest, kindest, most lovely things that has ever happened to me. It feels so incredible and validating to know my work reached some people. That is quite literally all I want to do with my life. And now it feels like I might be able to with my own stuff. But its a lil deeper than that too. All the comments and support have genuinely been such an amazing balm during a really dark time in my life.
At the start, this fic was always a method of escapism for me. I've been under so much pressure in my real life. I'm in a really weird, really competitive transitional point. everything I write irl may make or break the rest of my career. It is a type of pressure I'm incredibly grateful and privileged to have, but still stressful nonetheless.
But then, as i was writing this fic, it became way more of a lifeline. Not to get too personal, and idk if people paid attention to my end notes, but if you did you'll note I fell victim to the ao3 curse last October in a really big way. I lost a dear friend of mine very suddenly.
Starting coming home was a way for me to write something just to write it, knowing that I could be myself and do whatever I want and just throw shit at the wall without worrying about anything. after my friend passed away, the escapism of it became that much more valuable. (btw I would not post about it were I not in a much better place with it so don't worry about me <3)
I feel like maybe it's important at this point to explain the meaning of all the support because I've genuinely been unable to express it in a way I find appropriate. every piece of art every sweet comment etc. etc. helped get me through this really weird, sad, shocking time. As "cringe" as it might seem... fandom and fanfic can be really meaningful, powerful, and connective.
All this being said. coming home was definitely released in the right time for this to happen. A multichapter released right before and during season 2 as well as in the months after? Like. It was primed for this a bit (not intentionally but still) So many fics that get posted now deserve the same amount of love and support.
I really hesitate with numbers. sharing them, abiding by them, gaining value from them. I also get nervous about how people will feel entitled to treat me because of them. But this is so insane it feels weird not to say a bigger thank you.
#i'm on my period and recovering from a migraine and TWO things just hit the coming home towers i'm#anyways.#will i delete this#probably not but maybe i'll wake up in the morning with post migraine clarity#DLKFJHSDF#also queen AND bestie?!?!#ok gay ppl#also love how both these anons broke this to me like this was bad news i would take badly#im just really bad at attention LDKFJHSDF#and dont know how to deal with it#so sorry about that dklfjsdf#lets try to keep this from twitter for as long as possible i fear people will get weird about it in ways i cant even begin to predict
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a/n: god i am being hit by both sleepiness and sickness LMFAOOO
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âMy Homeâ
warning(s): none
summary: Life at home after marrying your beloved darling.
mizu x reader
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Marrying Mizu was the happiest day of your life, especially since she fought for your hand against some nobleman. You tend to stay at home for often than travel with her, but she always made sure sheâd come back to you whatever the situation might be.
Youâve met her friendsâTaigen, Akemi, and Ringoâand youâve found them to be very..well interesting in their own ways. Personally, you didnât like Taigen, perhaps because he always tried to fight Mizu right after she got stitches over some wound.
You were sewing beside the fireplace, waiting for Mizu to get back from the city because she had to go pick up something and your home was a bit far away from the city. This was how life was usually, you would tend to her wounds and cook food while she cleaned up the house and went on errand runs for you while also defending you whenever needed. It may not be as fancy as it was before, but you both were happy.
âIâm home, my love,â Mizu said as she opened the door, the bag of groceries and other things you told her to get in hand. You hummed and nodded, turning around and smiling at her while she puts away the things.
She sat down right behind you, legs encasing yours and trapping you with her arms around your waist while she laid her head on your shoulder. âI got something for you,â Mizu murmured as she took something out of her pocket. It was a beautiful gold hair pin with pink flower petals and a matching hair comb. You gasped, taking it from her hands and admiring it.
âMizu! Wow, you know you donât have to do that for me, Iâm already happy with what Iâve got,â you said as your fingers trace the pink blossoms on the hair pin, admiring the pink and red gems embedded on it as well.
âYou do know Iâm going to ignore you every time you say that, right?â Mizu rolled her eyes as she nipped your neck, earning her a light smack on the thigh as she chuckled and playfully gave your thigh and a squeeze. âIâm serious, my love. I donât care what you say, Iâm buying you gifts I know youâd like.â
You rolled your eyes, scolding her for spending so much money on you when you told her she didnât have to do that. You were fine with what you have, especially because Mizu was by your side. But Mizu insisted, and she eventually wore you down. âTen seconds to go eat your dinner before I chase you around with a wooden stick,â you threatened as she attempted to tickle you.
âAlright, alright, mâlady!â Mizu chuckles as she stood up and walked over to the table and sat down with you by her side. Your cooking was always the best, especially after a long night of working and being outside. âLove you, darlingâ
âLove you too, Mizu.â
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