#sorry for complaining

[konoko]

Are you okay tho? :c

no. this is the worst year of my life. my mind is full of negative thoughts, but i'm blocked. i can't feel anything. literally nothing good has happened to me. i feel useless as fuck. i can't find a job, my grades are awful, my sleep schedule is fucked, i don't have friends anymore (i talk with some people here but... i feel like i'm bothering them), tried to love someone after two years and now my trust issues increased af. my body isn't working well. i can't even pay my next dentist appointment to fix my entire tooth and... now another one started to hurt. (AND I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY IT'S HAPPENING NOW. ALL MY TEETH WERE HEALTHY). there is something about my body that i can't talk about with anyone, because no one understands it and a long etcetera.

anyways, i'll keep distracting my stupid brain until it stops working

[reegis]

Are you ok? My favourite mechs artist has been quiet recently

im am SO so sorry i havent been able to post in so long aaa.. at the moment i am very much not okay, unfortunately a lot of things have gone poorly very quickly but hopefully its only a temporary set back!!

tldr i finally managed to get a full time job a month & a half after moving and my car broke down for the last time almost immediately upon hiring so i now have to walk ~2hrs to and from an 8 hour shift every day + more personal stuff,, the pain & stress is Not fun for my back problems or mental health :,^)

hoping to get the bike my mom leant me repaired as soon as i have my first paycheck or 2, so fingers crossed that will make a huge difference

i have still been slowly working on comms in whatever free time i get but its slow going 😔 ty everybody for your patience & sorry again for not being online!

[firezsky]

Mcr drawings I am COPING tour annnounced and I can’t go 💔

[anxiety-party]

I’ve been thinking about ninjago again lately and I need to talk about the skybound season and how they bring up Jay being adopted and it’s never explored any further! He didn’t even tell anyone about it goddammit!

Didn’t he go to see his real dad after everything got reverted? I mean he might as well since he was gonna die in a few days!

[b0ll0]

Dawg, why are my posts flopping so hard

[lycheeherbtea]

So I am sitting in a train after a long day at a conference and I would really like to zone out or so.

But this guy behind me is on the phone and telling someone his whole life story. I do not want to listen but somehow I have no other choice. It is ANNOYING.

So far I know he did not know exactly with which Viola he is on the phone but figured it out 20 min into the conversation (???) but he already told her he works for a startup, has a girlfriend and is basically engaged, …

I want to doze off, but nope, still not finished.

[1ns3ct3y3]

Never mind i do have a reason to cry now :D

[liesmultixxx]

I’ll never understand when people tell me that it’ll happen when I “least expect it”

My brother in Christ, I have been least expecting it for YEARS now and still… nothing

Or when they tell me hat I should be happy with myself and while I don’t disagree, I can be both happy with myself AND want to share my life with someone else???

Make it make sense!

So everyone but me deserves to be in a loving relationship.

Sure,okay cool noted

And apparently I have too much “depth” for guys so that’s great:)))

Lonely life here I come

[shortriver0]

i'm so ill, noooooo

i wanna draw but i can't get off the bed, my body decided it's time to get it's temperature to 38,1° C

[the-tiniest-demigod]

I hate physical therapy until i remember I haven't been able to run, skip, or jump in 4 years

[solarwavejuice]

will start bee gender flag in a bittttt... i just need to gather up the will powet to eat, then eat....

[caesarsprincess-selfship]

Dentist time 😖

[winnerkirkwood]

it’s probably a bad thing that i can’t think about going back to college without having a panic attack. or whatever

[junomothart]

I wonder if male video essayists are ever met with the amount of condescending comments I get. So many people, instead of engaging in meaningful ways with what I say, would rather talk down to me like to a child, and it's infuriating.

[zermizomilk]

Oh no, busy with what?

small rant ahead, i guess

school work is being a bitch and a half, they decided that now they'd do every test for every subject. couldn't we have done that earlier in the month nope every class right after the other, and classmates ain't helping since somehow they're worse than the first graders and i am almost at my wits end with their bullshit

also if they try and touch my fucking sketchbook again i am going to cave their skulls in

[poppy-purpura]

I cant believe I have to look for the art of artist, who blocked me, in someone's reblogs. I guess this is the world where I exist now. Anyway I want to see these arts so bad.